8:15 SAME girl you summarized my exact behaviour and feelings like I can‘t maintain lasting connections because I get drained by trying to appear sociable but like I'm not and like making constant eye contact UGH I can't
Hi Sadie, I really appreciate these honest and open videos. I can relate to so much. I long for high school to the point that it haunts me. I can also relate to gravitating toward spirituality. Just today I was listening to Theo Von’s podcast with guest Dr. Jeffrey Long who is a near death experience researcher. I cried at parts. Long describes the commonalities of people who have these experiences after interviewing thousands who have briefly died after traumatic injuries or surgeries or diseases. They all describe going to an otherworldly place they say feels like home. And they feel peace and happiness unlike any other possible on earth. They gain full knowledge of the universe; life finally makes sense. They deem this place more real than life as we know it. But then they go back to earth because they have not yet learned what they are supposed to learn. It’s awesome for me to see you grapple with what you are on earth to learn because it gives me courage to grapple with all I need to learn. Before returning home.
About to watch this and feeling delighted, as always, to see youve shared more content with us. Im still at the stage of happily binge watching all your vids, including the older ones from back in the day. Oh, and please may I join the Waiting List to be one of your friends ?!
well said 👏👏👏 that exactly! I thinkfeeling that way is normal and it's becoming more and more with people being brave and amazing at sharing their feeling on social media. Most of the time other people's behaviors are just annoyinly clueless and it's up to us to avoid some avoitable uncomfortableness...(sorry my English is not so good and neither my expression word skills🙏) THANK YOU FOR THE VIDEOS WE UNDERSTAND YOU!
This hits hard. I do have friends, but they’re all over the country, far away. I had such a good time with them when I was younger, but years passed and now everyone has their own life. I feel really lonely at times. My situation is weird because I love meeting people but I hate calling / video calling them, voice message are also uncomfortable. And I feel like I’m slowly but surely losing their attention and effort to meet up. Making new friends seems impossible, I only have lonely hobbies & just can’t talk to strangers 😅
Hard relate. 'fake it till you make it only works for neurotypicals' is so true 😂🙃 and oh my gosh, that prospect of having a community or support network in your dreams and not in reality. I feel like I know this so well. I have hope though that I'll eventually figure out what my communication needs are to be able to sustain friendships with folks who understand me🤞🧡
Hahaaa, funniest comment: "Fake it till you make it only works for neurotipicals - you can fake it till you die and not gonna make it as a neurodivergent person." :D Gonna write it in my Quotes-Book. Just for you to know Sadie, you're now in it :D I've been watching your videos for such a long time now. My sister found you guys first, she also loves your videos and recommendet your channel, saying that you remind her of me and that we have many similarities. And actually, because of the things you tell about your experiences, i might check in to see a therapist to get some clearity if im somewhere on the autistic spectrum, bc i can also sing a freaking song about being awkward around people, masking and copying in order to not look suspicious, getting overwhelmed with sounds, surface textures, etc. I tend to get quiet apathical and just stare in front of me when I have to be around peolpe for a long time or people im not comfortable with, like im just full, and can't process anything more. I'm highly sensitive for sure, but maybe there is smth else to that. Thank you for sharing your experiences and also all the sessions with P, where you reflect most openly about your emotions, also the more uncomfortable ones. I had this kind of a relationship once, and it was just the most beautiful and relaxing thing to be fully accepted by the other person, and also to accept somebody fully, every part. We were so connected that i felt like the two of us being one single organism, with no boundries in between. Sounds a bit weird^^ but thats what it felt like to me. Well, thanks for sharing again, i relate to most of your experiences, and if it wasn't for you i don't know when I would have come to the thought of maybe also being on the autistic spectrum. I feel like with what we struggle with, it's also so complicated to pinpoint, where the struggle actually comes from. Wow, that turned out to be a long comment.... Big warm hug from germany
I'd like to be your friend but I'm terrified of being on camera so I'll just be a commenter. I only talk to my partner and my ex (just friends) since COVID started, friends just rolled away down the hill. It seems peaceful compared to a busy social life as I have a lot of social anxiety but there's this feeling of, I guess longing for company, somewhere in the background a lot. It's not so bad but I wouldn't mind a curated close friend party like every two weeks. Online friends and parasocial company, just a voice in the background sometimes, is great. It's something, like you say. Wishing you all the best. 😊
Yep, no friends since I was 14. It's been twenty years😮 Also no support from parents or otherwise. Found my (older) partner at 18, diagnosed at 30 (female). I had to stop your video midway because it hit home so hard and I still have to function today. I've been learning social skills from my partner and my jobs. They burnt me out and I don't work anymore (I can't and I don't know if I will be able to in the future yet) but they certainly helped though. Do you work? Sending you ❤
I've been exactly where you're at right now so I know how hard it is to be more positive cause I thought nothing would ever change and I'd just be lonely forever with zero connection to others. But it did change! But first let's be realistic that yeah you have social difficulties but not using your social skills forr the past 10 years has also made those skills atrophy slowly so it will feel hard/uncomfortable. It's like you can't just suddenly run a marathon, you need to work up to it. A few years ago I realized friendships need my input to flourish as well, its like the sims where each interaction can build it (+), or be negative (-) and maybe I'll never be the type of person to call someone up and talk about our days but I might text them a funny video or talk about a common interest and thats my input. Sometimes i stare at my friends forehead instead of their eyes or just sit side by side and look out while we have a conversation. It still feels uncomfortable at times and I can come across as "weird" but my friends know me by now so they know it's just who i am its not me being rude. They see it as one of my quirks just like someone who has light sensitivity might use sunglasses really often, I wouldn't hold it against them if its what they need to be comfortable.
Hey Sadie, hearing you talk about Boarding School made me wonder about your perception of it and your experiences there. This then made me think of a book, which was then made into a film called Madchen In Uniform (Girls In Uniform, by Chrsta Winsloe) I found out about it mainly because of a niche interest of mine (older women/teachers, need i say more?!) Anyway, the original film was made in 1930s Germany, but the version i loved and highly recommend if you havent seen it already was made in 1958 and stars the beautiful, very expressive actress of the time, Romy Schneider. Its a romantic drama and i was able to locate and watch the full movie on UA-cam. If you ever feel inspired, i would absolutely love to hear your thoughts on it. I also bought the paperback version of the book which ill happily post to you if you like. All I'll say for now is: think forbidden passion, foolish youthful outbursts,buttoned up prim Frauleins with thudding hearts, feverish levels of jealousy and the slowest, slow burner ever ! Its a CLASSIC and i know portrays scenarios and dilemmas we've both been caught up in, and learned life lessons from! ❤
8:15 SAME girl you summarized my exact behaviour and feelings like I can‘t maintain lasting connections because I get drained by trying to appear sociable but like I'm not and like making constant eye contact UGH I can't
Hi Sadie, I really appreciate these honest and open videos. I can relate to so much. I long for high school to the point that it haunts me.
I can also relate to gravitating toward spirituality. Just today I was listening to Theo Von’s podcast with guest Dr. Jeffrey Long who is a near death experience researcher. I cried at parts. Long describes the commonalities of people who have these experiences after interviewing thousands who have briefly died after traumatic injuries or surgeries or diseases. They all describe going to an otherworldly place they say feels like home. And they feel peace and happiness unlike any other possible on earth. They gain full knowledge of the universe; life finally makes sense. They deem this place more real than life as we know it. But then they go back to earth because they have not yet learned what they are supposed to learn.
It’s awesome for me to see you grapple with what you are on earth to learn because it gives me courage to grapple with all I need to learn. Before returning home.
Another way to make friends (if you’re comfortable) is joining online communities for hobbies and things you’re interested in! ❤
happy happy day 2U2 and to P, please, be happy, big big hugs
About to watch this and feeling delighted, as always, to see youve shared more content with us.
Im still at the stage of happily binge watching all your vids, including the older ones from back in the day.
Oh, and please may I join the Waiting List to be one of your friends ?!
Seeing you so happy at the beginning of the video made me smile :). You're awesome! 🫶🏻
Thank you for sharing your story.
bless your heart
I am 77 years old and I want you to be my friend. To my eyes, you are a wonderful young lady. Never give up! !!! Je t'aime
This is such a pure and beautiful comment ❤️ 💖
I agree! She is so special, and deep.
As long as you and P are happy. Those passing judgement are the unhappy ones. I wish you lots of happiness.
Lyn, Tsawwassen, B.C Canada.
Big hug to you. You are a beautiful woman ❤️
well said 👏👏👏 that exactly! I thinkfeeling that way is normal and it's becoming more and more with people being brave and amazing at sharing their feeling on social media. Most of the time other people's behaviors are just annoyinly clueless and it's up to us to avoid some avoitable uncomfortableness...(sorry my English is not so good and neither my expression word skills🙏) THANK YOU FOR THE VIDEOS WE UNDERSTAND YOU!
I love this for you! ❤
This hits hard. I do have friends, but they’re all over the country, far away. I had such a good time with them when I was younger, but years passed and now everyone has their own life. I feel really lonely at times. My situation is weird because I love meeting people but I hate calling / video calling them, voice message are also uncomfortable. And I feel like I’m slowly but surely losing their attention and effort to meet up. Making new friends seems impossible, I only have lonely hobbies & just can’t talk to strangers 😅
I relate to all of it. Thank you for being brave & self-aware enough to post it
Hard relate. 'fake it till you make it only works for neurotypicals' is so true 😂🙃 and oh my gosh, that prospect of having a community or support network in your dreams and not in reality. I feel like I know this so well. I have hope though that I'll eventually figure out what my communication needs are to be able to sustain friendships with folks who understand me🤞🧡
I relate to this a lot as well. I have more friends in my dreams than in reality 😁
Great video! I'm sure you're a great friend 😁
Big hugs and love. Keep shinning and smiling. You are awesome and amazing. Lots of love ❤🫶💕🩵✨️🫂💖. I would love to be your friend if you wish
Hahaaa, funniest comment: "Fake it till you make it only works for neurotipicals - you can fake it till you die and not gonna make it as a neurodivergent person." :D Gonna write it in my Quotes-Book. Just for you to know Sadie, you're now in it :D
I've been watching your videos for such a long time now. My sister found you guys first, she also loves your videos and recommendet your channel, saying that you remind her of me and that we have many similarities. And actually, because of the things you tell about your experiences, i might check in to see a therapist to get some clearity if im somewhere on the autistic spectrum, bc i can also sing a freaking song about being awkward around people, masking and copying in order to not look suspicious, getting overwhelmed with sounds, surface textures, etc. I tend to get quiet apathical and just stare in front of me when I have to be around peolpe for a long time or people im not comfortable with, like im just full, and can't process anything more. I'm highly sensitive for sure, but maybe there is smth else to that.
Thank you for sharing your experiences and also all the sessions with P, where you reflect most openly about your emotions, also the more uncomfortable ones. I had this kind of a relationship once, and it was just the most beautiful and relaxing thing to be fully accepted by the other person, and also to accept somebody fully, every part. We were so connected that i felt like the two of us being one single organism, with no boundries in between. Sounds a bit weird^^ but thats what it felt like to me.
Well, thanks for sharing again, i relate to most of your experiences, and if it wasn't for you i don't know when I would have come to the thought of maybe also being on the autistic spectrum. I feel like with what we struggle with, it's also so complicated to pinpoint, where the struggle actually comes from.
Wow, that turned out to be a long comment....
Big warm hug from germany
I'd like to be your friend but I'm terrified of being on camera so I'll just be a commenter. I only talk to my partner and my ex (just friends) since COVID started, friends just rolled away down the hill. It seems peaceful compared to a busy social life as I have a lot of social anxiety but there's this feeling of, I guess longing for company, somewhere in the background a lot. It's not so bad but I wouldn't mind a curated close friend party like every two weeks. Online friends and parasocial company, just a voice in the background sometimes, is great. It's something, like you say. Wishing you all the best. 😊
I haven’t had any friends since high school either 😢 it’s been 7 years. Sigh.
I know a lot of people but have no genuine friends
Yep, no friends since I was 14. It's been twenty years😮
Also no support from parents or otherwise. Found my (older) partner at 18, diagnosed at 30 (female).
I had to stop your video midway because it hit home so hard and I still have to function today.
I've been learning social skills from my partner and my jobs. They burnt me out and I don't work anymore (I can't and I don't know if I will be able to in the future yet) but they certainly helped though. Do you work?
Sending you ❤
I’m not able to work no…
What happened to the dog???? Please don’t tell me you gave him away??
It’s a sad story… maybe i’ll tell it in a future video sometime. 😔
I've been exactly where you're at right now so I know how hard it is to be more positive cause I thought nothing would ever change and I'd just be lonely forever with zero connection to others. But it did change! But first let's be realistic that yeah you have social difficulties but not using your social skills forr the past 10 years has also made those skills atrophy slowly so it will feel hard/uncomfortable. It's like you can't just suddenly run a marathon, you need to work up to it.
A few years ago I realized friendships need my input to flourish as well, its like the sims where each interaction can build it (+), or be negative (-) and maybe I'll never be the type of person to call someone up and talk about our days but I might text them a funny video or talk about a common interest and thats my input. Sometimes i stare at my friends forehead instead of their eyes or just sit side by side and look out while we have a conversation. It still feels uncomfortable at times and I can come across as "weird" but my friends know me by now so they know it's just who i am its not me being rude. They see it as one of my quirks just like someone who has light sensitivity might use sunglasses really often, I wouldn't hold it against them if its what they need to be comfortable.
Hey Sadie, hearing you talk about Boarding School made me wonder about your perception of it and your experiences there.
This then made me think of a book, which was then made into a film called Madchen In Uniform (Girls In Uniform, by Chrsta Winsloe) I found out about it mainly because of a niche interest of mine (older women/teachers, need i say more?!)
Anyway, the original film was made in 1930s Germany, but the version i loved and highly recommend if you havent seen it already was made in 1958 and stars the beautiful, very expressive actress of the time, Romy Schneider.
Its a romantic drama and i was able to locate and watch the full movie on UA-cam. If you ever feel inspired, i would absolutely love to hear your thoughts on it.
I also bought the paperback version of the book which ill happily post to you if you like.
All I'll say for now is: think forbidden passion, foolish youthful outbursts,buttoned up prim Frauleins with thudding hearts, feverish levels of jealousy and the slowest, slow burner ever ! Its a CLASSIC and i know portrays scenarios and dilemmas we've both been caught up in, and learned life lessons from!
❤
I'd be ur friend. I'm trust worthy. I'm in the UK. I don't have many friends I'd love if u can be friends. X