you exist for a reason || a dreamcore/oddcore/internetcore/traumacore playlist
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- Опубліковано 13 лют 2021
- remember... you exist!
Yalllllll! 1 Million views is INSANE! Thank you so much! I nearly had a heart attack when I saw it! You all have really made me happy! And I hope I've done the same for you! Thank you so much for watching!
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part two just out! • you exist for a reason...
Timestamps in the comments!
(TRAUMACORE IS NOT AN AESTHETIC! It’s a way of coping! Traumacore has no gate keepers anyone can use it to cope! But not to “show off”. Mental health problems in general are NOT an aesthetic, they are real problems that affect people every second of every day and can be life changing!)
yw!
I hope this helps someone cope with stress or depression because that's why I made it! These are songs that help me.
Artwork is marked as creative commons:
mobile. popopoka_?...
• Blind Girl (popopoka)
I own none of this music!
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pt. 2 ua-cam.com/video/e5TwMEwas4Q/v-deo.html
Timestamps:
yw!
0:01 Mac Demarco- Chamber of Reflection
4:25 Sitcom - Still Life
7:40 Lily Potter - Oblivion
10:10 Jack Stauber - Oh Klahoma
13:10 Jack Stauber - Bubblegun
14:00 Current Joys - New Flesh
16:40 Cults - Always Forever
20:25 Molina - Hey Kids (slowed version)
I hope this helps someone cope with stress or depression because that's why I made it! These are songs that help me.
Also if you are seeing this it would mean the world to me if you could leave a comment! Even if it's just "first" it would be awesome lol.
HERE IS AN EVEN BETTER PLAYLIST!! ua-cam.com/video/2s_x3Jhra7E/v-deo.html
Very considerate to leave that there, you are amazing
@@bio8333 ty!!
this playlist has saved me a lot of times thank you :)
Oh the title originally was "You dont exist" i suppose
@@indrejalam idk. Traumacore is more for coping. And in my opinion dreamcore is more just very relaxing
"we're just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids to not end it."
Where does that quote come from?
that quote sounds nice
How I became close with my best friend!!! 3 years ago we saved each other's lives at our worst points and we've been each other's favourite person since.... I love them more than anyone or anything else /p
My chemical romance, right? How to know your tired of breathing is by listening to them. They acknowledge that your tired. They acknowledge that its okay and that you deserve better. They acknowledge that it doesn't always get better. But they also let you know that you aren't alone. Idk i may have even got your quote wrong but I know that Gerard said that in an interview and he really helped me. He helped so many. It's just nice to think I found another heh.
YEP
lol i like how the passing by thing is the doot skeleton
Hehe 🙃 yeah I didn’t make the artwork but i love it!! The character is called Poka blind girl. It’s a very sad manga but you can’t get a copy anymore. I’m not sure why but it fits so well!
@@mxlion probably because of the multiple polemics concerning Poka and the original artist popopoka, some people are trying to censure their art and the fact that bullying exist now apparently :/
1k like
WAIT I DIDNT EVEN KNOW
Yea lol
It doesn't always get better. Sometimes it just gets different
Im afraid not enough people realize this. Life is not an uphill slope, it’s like waves, there will be all time lows, but there will also be highs
different is better
Sometimes you’re up here, sometimes you’re down here, but as long as you’re going up and down, you’re good, that’s human
I like that. I hate when people say it gets better. I never made me feel better.
@@wickedchild8501 sometimes but not always
This playlist is two years old but I’ll never get tired of it.
me too, everytime i am sad, angry, I came here
same tbh, its pretty good
Bendecidos somos nosotros, siempre volvemos a esta playlist porque representa algo muy poderoso en casa uno de nosotros.
i was first introduced to jack stauber with this video
Dementia
*”Actors make good money for being the person they aren’t, then why am I not rich?”*
yeah, why am i not rich?
Damn thats my current mood
ooooo WAIT WHERE'S MY MONEY
HEAVY cringe
@@sofof9846 Shut, remember the person behind the screen
this comment section is the CEO of the saying “suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids not to die”
Pretty much, we gotta look out for each other because no one else will
@@Foible mhm
True
the mofo'ing island of misfit toys
@@Foible yep :(
I know this sound stupid, but I just wanna thank you for making this playlist. It *literally* changed my life
Its not stupid! You are very welcome! I’m so glad it helped you!
No it didn't. They put 6 sad songs they've heard on a sadboi lofi playlist on UA-cam and are making money from it. That's all this is.
@@auraelbarkeater471 cease your tomfoolery you dastard fiend
@@auraelbarkeater471 cry about that
@@auraelbarkeater471 may be, but this playlist means a lot to me, regardless
Start to 4:28 : chamber of reflection
4:29 to 7:41 : still life
7:42 to 10:09 : oblivion
10:10 to 13:13 : oh klahoma
13:14 to 13:58 : bubblegun
14:00 to 16:42 : new flesh
16:44 to 20:25 : cults always forever
20:27 to end : hey kids x it's not fair (slowed + reverb)
I just list the song name for anyone need
ty
Fun fact, the song New Flesh is a reference to the classic 1980's surreal horror film "Videodrome" by David Cronenberg.
Long live the new flesh!
Thank you for creating this time stamp
Who was the artist for oblivion? I'm having issues finding it online without seeing anything else other than Skyrim
@@ihavenoname4139 it's Rufi-o
Me: yea my childhood was pretty nice
Also me: can't remember 80% of it
Yo same💀
Same
Same
Same!!
I feel like you dont actully exist until like 4 or 5
the first song just makes me want to walk out my house and start everything over
same
I kinda do too
I just wanna run away with my friends and make a new life with them
Same, I even dreamt about it last night and it felt so amazing to run away from everything/-one.
Fr, like just go change my name and live out on a barn
I'm almost 6 months clean of self harm. If I make it to November 9th without cutting, that'll be 6 months!!!
Update: Its been about a year since i posted this and a lot of shitty stuff has happened and it made me relapse, but today im 3 weeks clean! It may not be as huge as 6 months, but i used to do it daily, so its a huge accomplishment for me.
Jan 28, 2023: 1 month clean again!
Congratulations! I remember when i started my journey. Keep it up! It might be hard sometimes but you CAN do it!
hey man! how's it going?
Ay bro! Hope you are fine, been thru some stuff like that. You can do it!!
congrats, lots of love and hope next year you come back with a one year streak!
It's been more than a year, what's it's like now?
i used to say the reason i exist because my mother kept me and i havent died
but now i looked at my friends and thinks to myself "this is why i live
so they wont be alone and let go of themselves as long as i'm here"
Just remember to not allow that to be a shallow reason, make sure you give yourself a little credit, friends no matter what have a chance of coming and going of course. Thanks for being a good person despite life though.
if only there was someone there for me
I like being alone
but i don't like the feeling of being alone
I can relate to this so much.
@@brown-axolotl7244 mhm
I understand this all too well😂
Same
i like drugs
the worst feeling isn't the crying, but the period after where you just feel empty
that's the best, moron
both are good imo- numbness feels better than feelings going: ➡️↘️↙️⬅️↖️⬆️↗️➡️↘️⬇️↙️⬅️↖️⬆️↗️➡️
but also the crying thing is also cool- but then again if anything happens then i just spiral so yeah- but i think we’re forgetting the emotionally rebooting and then feeling better, and then spiralling again and then emotionally rebooting _again_ and feeling better until an inconvenience happens lmao
that's when you fill that emptiness with some good ass dreams or something you enjoy doing
@Elright 2 please stop
I think you are right
A feeling of emotional instability comes at evening and night while I feel numb during the day. I don’t know who I am sometimes and feel there is something wrong with me to the point I want to destroy “me”. Sometimes I think I don’t exist at all and can’t recall the past or important personal information. Thank you for the playlist and for comments that help each other feel less alone.
Sigh, seems like this is happening to so many people ❤
i just wanna be freed from this curse (bpd)
This is like (almost) exactly how I feel, it’s so frustrating. The worst part is I know it’s going to happen and I know even after I fall asleep the escape will only be temporary
This specific playlist keeps appearing on my reccomendation every few months. I love it
Thank you!
My worst fear is having intense repressed trauma and not even knowing it until I do.
I’m so sorry. I hope you feel better! Sending you love! ❤️
@@mxlion Thanks ! !
I do and it hurts
@@rosie-ti9dt I'm so sorry to hear that.. I hope you recover soon
yeh, i don't remember most of my childhood and i'm scared that i don't remember it because of some repressed trauma
"why are you tired? you don't do anything"
"Ugh are you depressed or somthing, fucking get up you lazy piece of shit, wakey wakEYYYYYYYYY!" ughhh.... - My family
oh shit this one hits way too close to home
@@thesaddestdude3575 I'm sorry:(
@@funcionario So am i...
Its wierd they used to be supportive.
@@thesaddestdude3575 when we are children they are
then we grew up and started to understand
(I'm sorry if I don't understand what you mean, I'm br)
2 things
1) love to everyone in these comments facing difficult times. it’s hard at times to feel connected to this life or even keep going, but to know there are others floating in that same void is comforting. we’ll all get through this together 🖤
2) not a single comment i’ve seen has pointed out that the car light passing the person is the skeleton playing a trumpet meme
I freaking know i saw a skeleton 😂😂😂 i started doubt myself until that comment
Fuckin knew I saw doot. Thank yiu for pointing this out
_doot_
This was my first ever exposure to the dreamcore genre a year ago, and I can safely say it has changed the entire trajectory of my life. I love it.
I'm at home with only my brother.
No stress.
No parents.
Not being forced to be someone.
It's nice.
I have 6 siblings so it's kinda nice when that happens
I hate my brother cause hes an asshole
same
Everybody gangsta till he forgot to add "Step"
@@Nerochan18 Please use they/them😎👌
honestly, trauma core makes me comforted in knowing I'm not alone with these thoughts, but also sad because nobody should have to go through trauma
You are not alone! I’m here if you ever need to talk! Also I’m live right now if you want more! Also we can talk In chat!
@@mxlion Ah, thank you! It's okay though. I got a therapist to talk to :)
@@crowsinoto7889 that’s awesome!
same here, it makes me feel validated for what happened when i was younger.
you're not alone, friend
Honestly, it's 5 AM. I'm just sitting here singing along and letting my hallucinations bring me company. I'd sleep but I'm scared they'll get me so I just stay awake and try my best to ignore the paranoia and the darkness.
i thought i was the only one
...Just sitting, back against the wall wondering if theirs something behind me, Evan if I know it's nothing
Damn paranoia is more common than I thought
I am literally doing the same
To whoever is feeling not good rn: Hi, I just want to say that no matter what is happening right now, no matter how bad it is or seems, i promise you are not alone in your experience. If you feel unloved right now i promise that there are people that exist that absolutely care for you and love you, even if you cant currently feel it. If you feel like things aren't getting any better i promise you they will. I wish i could tell you when but unfortunately i cant. But what i do know is that everything can and will get better no matter what. And if you feel like things are so bad that life isnt worth living right now, please please PLEASE keep holding on. Take this from someone who has felt all of this before. While whatever you're going through hurts right now, ending it all is not the answer. While you may not feel ok right now, i promise that you arent alone and that it will get better. Stay safe ❤
Well it makes me more sad to know that others experience it too and i believe i shouldnt be loved, im a piece of shit and i feel sorry for everyone who does it, my life is shit because of me so it would probably be better to end it.
My father is gone forever beneath the earth beneath our feet
Yes I'll do it. Furthermore, I want to have the pleasure of seeing my addictions and mental problems go before me.
School has literally crippled my mental health and made me go in a spiraling hole of depression. Grades are so overwhelming. Deadlines are always so near. I hate it.
Especially with virtual school....
@@ma.jbrony1754 yep... its really stressful. If you want to vent or rant to me you can
@@idfk695 I'm actually feeling better, but thank you! I appreciate that. :)
@@ma.jbrony1754 of course! Glad that your feeling better :). Just know that there's always people that you can come for help. Stay safe homie
@@idfk695 😊💖
the funny thing is, I don’t remember being alive only until after I was like 11...I don’t know how to explain it, but everything seems like it was all a dream- i still question myself if I exist, and get loaded with thoughts about the world and universe. it drives me crazy.
You do exist!!! You are valid! You are a human!! I had the same thoughts as you! I get how you feel! I wish you the best! ❤️
@@mxlion awh thanks, unfortunately I do believe we are government studied aliens from a far away plant of Azorp, (just kidding lol) but I do appreciate that I’m not alone.
@@etherealjupiter6944 hehe
@KØI_Flow glad to see I’m not alone...on a good note, I was diagnosed with some sort of scizotypal disorder which explains a lot of these rapid and reoccurring thoughts, (and much other symptoms that are far too complex to write all on here) hopefully you get some sort of well being or coping system as well.
Oh, my God. As a person with depersonalization disorder, I can relate so bad with your comment. :(
I'm happy I'm not the only one.
Found this in my recommended
I am now going to mention that the ‘car’ passing is the doot skellie and now listen to this on loop for the next 3 years :)
This is a godly perfect playlist, god bless the person who made it, i couldnt make it without it right now, and it perfectly captures the character of the little blind girl
There is two reason why I exist.
1: my parents wanted a child.
2: I haven't died yet.
I hope things exist positively for you right now, and if they dont, I hope you find the strength to overcome Whatever obstacles impede your path.
I wish you good fortune and happiness and easy resolution to the things you face.
I wish you the best, friend. Feel the music to it's best extent.
We wish you the best here, friend. Not everyone is here for themselves. Some are lost like you, some seek resolution or thought provocation some are here to learn or grow. You only get one shot at being here, make the most of it even if most of us cant understand it
I love you even though I dont know you
@@pianoman7753 thanks. And I love you too.
@@pianoman7753 this really means lot to me. Because nobody haven’t said they love me in a very long time.. I hope you have a wonderful day or night and please take good care of yourself. ❤️
Jesus loves you ❤
Wow :0
Growing up is probably the worst decision I made as a kid
Same.
So so same
turning 19 in a few days life has lost a lot of meaning the last few years
@@hidethecrowd I am sorry to hear that..
I hope you're doing okay on your side
And hey you made it this far,
There is something waiting for you.
@@Josh-qb9co of course! if life aint got no meaning you gotta look for it thats just the way it is
Im at the point where i dont even know if ill be here for new years, but these playlists give me some ease of mind and a second to feel blank instead of in pain
I don't know what's going on and this may be late and also may be kinda stupid since you don't know me and I don't know you, but it would be nice to know that you'll still be here when new years come...
If you read this, happy belated new years. May this year bring you peace.
me and my gf share similar traumas, and it doesn’t help much that were in an extreme long distance relationship, but this playlist makes her feel like shes closer with me and next to me.
Yooo I can relate to this comment so much :((( Im also in a ldr with my gf and we’re both trauma victims, but our traumatic experiences are quite different haha :))
Hope you’re feeling alright tho stranger! ❤
I love the fact that you have a girlfriend and i hope you two will be happy together. A pillar of respite for each other. God bless your relationship
You don't have to have trauma to feel sad guys It's okay if you don't
@Emma Schwartz ❤️❤️❤️ of course
This comment was on time
thank you a lot. Ive been really struggling with validating my own emotions and i keep finding reasons as to why im suddenly feeling like shit all the time despite having everything go really well for me. Hearing this coming from someone else gives me a lot of comfort
i will save this♥
my roblox girlfriend broke up wit me
Do you ever look at yourself in the mirror and go: "Oh... that's me" look at your hands and just realize the figure in the mirror is you. It's such a strange feeling, I don't know what it is, it feels so weird like I realize I'm alive.
edit : it's only been a month and I didn't expect so much comments and likes thank you all
@@listlessdandelion3587 Right ? Like oh yeah this is actually MY body 😭
Yeah, been there. I exist inside my head more than the outer world- At least, to me.
İ kinda live in my mind, daydreaming. Y'know about another universes and questioning if they exist, if they can after i die i want to enter them without any memories. Would be hella cool :>
@@haphephobia The answer is either "no" or "theres no way to take anything over, including evidence".
Same! I get those moments every once in awhile and it’s like “oh shit, I’m really here”
"You exist for a reason." Now that's a title right there. I think so many people need to hear those simple combination of powerful words. It's stuck in my head.
I remember listening to this during online classes. I was in a weird phase that time but I enjoyed it.
i wish that night time could last forever you know
Bro yes
The planet would freeze and everything on it would die
Eu queria que aquela noite pudesse durar para sempre com você
@@goodycat3062
ngl i wish it would for a day.
People with sleep paralysis could never
Is anyone else afraid of their own family at this point? I can't be touched by them, look them in the eyes. I can't even hear my mothers' voice without getting anxiety. Sometimes I just wish it would stop, I wish it would just be quiet again. Like the good old days where there wasn't fighting, I didn't have to worry about tomorrow, I wasn't afraid of emotions, I could talk to people without getting anxiety attacks. I don't want it anymore, I know it probably sounds selfish, but I just needed to rant. I never like ranting, it makes me feel like i'm self-centered or attention wanting when in fact I get near a panic attack when any attention gets put on me. I just hate it all.
Dont worry, i have issues with my family haveing conflict and everyone generally being a complete asshole to each-other, my family is an uncivilised cluster fuck. your not alone, i get my comfort from knowing when i have the chance ill just dissapear into the night when i have my own sustainable source of income, with just a note, "Dont worry im not dead or kidnapped, just fuck you is all." and a calculated amount of my debt or what they have given me free after charged rent, plus 200$, then i probly will not do that and just leave like a normal person but it give my comfort that i could and would do that. possibly adapt that idea to yourself, thats just how i get comfort, idk. just my shareing of my experience so possibly it could apply to you. and dont worry you not self-centered or even coming near attention seeking, your great and i wish you luck. you matter.
You are not alone. Everything is okay, wanting to be alone in quiet place is normal. My family was fighting since i was born, and my father was the real satan my whole life. Even now he got me that much traumas, that by the 12 years i already got to understand something in my mind is not normal. I won't speak about this now, because it will take me a couple of hours or smth :) Everything is going to be alright. I know, you was living with all of it for so much time, and I know you will overcome everything, you are strong, and i believe in you. One day, you will understand then everything is already far away, behind on the road, and by the time you'll look at this you might be calm and lonely.. More time would pass and you'll fing somebody who will care and love you!!! And everying is going to be alright!!!! I believe in you! You'll overcome everything bad, you are strong! A lot of people, even on internet (like me :P), believe in you!
its fine to talk about your feelings here
You do not sound selfish I relate so much it'll hopefully get better. You will get away from those people at one point and be free from those that just chain you back.
Don't worry, i think everyone here that is listening to this music can relate to that and feel the same way as you but I'm sure things will get better. You know what i like to tell myself? that life is like a rose to get to the flower (being happy) you have to get trough Thorns (feeling sad or having bad moments) it may seem stupid but after crying i feel better, you just habe to be ok with yourself, don't mind your familly fighting, think about YOU before thinking about the others. I don't know for how long you've been living that but i'm sure that eventually things will get better!
why does this playlist encapsulate my emotions and trauma so well 😭
Ohh you wanna relax whay i upload ? Music is share
If you are reading this, I hope that day comes real soon where your wildest dreams come true. Where you finally feel that you are at peace with yourself and your surroundings. May your life be full of joy, strength, light, and ease. May you lead a life full of positivity and greatness. You got this.
I wish us humans could trade perspectives like lenses on a camera
Humans all posses consciousness and our minds are nothing but containers and filters we have limited by our various beliefs. Meaning we are only limited by our imagination, so if say someone were to go into a deep meditative state of consciousness and did necessary steps to be in the right mental state to expand there own awarness and thus there own mind, they could very well connect there mind with someone in the same state. So who really knows god what humans could do at that stage. Thats all i can really say on this topic since it has not been researched that much. 👍
try some dmt lmao
That reminded me of an anime song called “broken camera” it’s the ending of the anime Geneshaft.
You should check it out.
That'd make life too boring and predictable. Also, I love my solitude, it's how I hone myself.
Its real actually, its called sympathy.
Is no one going to talk about the glowing trumpet skeleton that flys across the screen every 8 seconds?
Thank you for enlightening us with this information.
LMFAO
thank you, i thought nobody was gonna mention it
OMFG I THOUGHT THAT WAS A MOTORCYCLIST
i thought it was a car or somn-
My emotions have been such a rollercoaster lately and it’s been hard to cope. Every time I see old pictures or movies I liked and stuff from when I was little I end up having an existential crisis of sorts about how I’ll never get that time back and how time never stops moving and nothing will ever last forever. I end up becoming so unmotivated and feeling so empty that nothing seems interesting anymore and all I can do is sit and spiral deeper and deeper. This playlist is so helpful for grounding me and bringing back to reality and remembering that there are perks to getting older, and this dull feeling will pass with time. To whoever needs to hear this, take a deep breath and remember it’s ok to not be ok. Every breath and blink you make is a sign that you’re trying, and that is perfectly fine. i think I can say that me and everyone else in the comments is proud of you. Whatever you’re feeling or experiencing will pass with time. Keep going, brighter times are ahead! When you’re at rock bottom, the only way to go is up ❤
i found this song in a strange time of my life i always knew something was wrong with me but i didnt know at the time. I knew i had depression but there was something else following me
now i know its OCD, it feels a lot bettter knowing whats wrong with me rather than wandering around. And now im not longer a girl, and i am a different person than the person who first found this video.
for anyone who is wandering and reading this, it gets better, coming from a person who tried to committ years ago, it gets better. Just hang in with yourself and it get better and soon itll be all worth it.
"the memories keep blurring, but i know they're there. somewhere."
as someone with memory issues I love this hehe
@@--_j_-- awh thank you? I wrote this as i was realizing that most of my childhood felt like a dream rather than actual events :o thank you very much for relating, it made my day 💗💗💗
I don't remember my childhood i just have 3 or 4 memories from it and idk if 2 or them are a dream or that really happened
@@ri-gz6ye aww ur so sweet xx
Wow... that's some heavy words, for right now I can remember a lot of events from my childhood (including all the fighting) but I can admit they are fading away. 😔
Today, a very good friend of mine, who is fighting with anxiety, told me his new life philosophy: "I decided, that my purpose is to fight. For what? Anything, for my life or for my own sanity, I'll fight". I really liked it and decided to share it.
Hey that helps....
All I have.
nice clover pfp
@@templecatt thnx
@@xxbittersweetxx3332 Glad to know.
Though my youth is in my past now, I have no regrets. I feel for the people that have had life rough, just know that I'm not happy because I'm tougher mentally or anything like that, it's the opposite.
In fact, your tougher you've made it this far, all this bad and traumatic experiences and you're still here.
Why not keep going and see what life brings you, so many wonderful people that you'll meet and care for you the way you care for them.
You'll meet them I promise you that.
So keep going not for what has happened in the past, but for the amazingness that awaits you in the future.
I’m not really struggling with any like trauma and that stuff, but reading some of these comments makes me realize how hard some things people go through are. Really I’m just lonely, but to all of you guys and girls out there who are struggling with anything, I believe you. I know it might not mean much and there’s the chance you won’t even see this comment, but know even if you do or you don’t, I still believe in you.
Have a good night, I hope to see you tomorrow.
Everyone is talking abt their feelings in the comments while i'm just staring at the guy behind them near the lamp post-
Edit: i didn't expect that many likes- 🧍♂️
Hahaha 🤣
SAME OMG I WAS LIKE WHY IS NOBODY TALKING ABOUT THAT!?!?!
The flash of lgiht going by is a skull too byw
Im focused on the doot doot skelly
Omg I’ve never noticed that!! 😭 and it’s dark where I’m at why did i have to see this now of all times ... 😖
hey guys remember when we all wanted to be teenagers?
hey guys remember when we thought our teen years would be the prime years of our lives?
hey guys remember when school was about learning?
hey guys remember when the biggest thing we had to worry about was what we would wear?
same.
i love you guys. if you need a reason to stay, please let it be me. i love u so much
having a rough day, this playlist appear out of nowhere, i read your comment and feel chills in my back, thanks
;_;
i love sleeping
Honestly if you thought out of an 80~ year lifespan that the prime of your life would be when you are most hormonal, riddled with acne, self conscious, confused, and undergoing drastic brain and physical development, and still not legally able to do most things you want on your own you're kinda weird.
@@pandaprince7677 I don't see it like that, I think is most about how we perceive the word when we were younger, and how it was easy to find reasons to feel happy, but time passes and everything change and now is more complicated, but it doesn't have to be, and it's worth it to cry in a comment section of a UA-cam video and say to a complete stranger that one comment makes you smile when the world is falling apart
I've been through a lot, sexual abuse, lack of basic needs. I've nearly ended my life and given up. But I'm here, 25 months into a mtf transition, much happier, with my bf and we got our own place. It feels really good to think I've done so much for myself in spite of it all.
Also the lights of the car going past in the animation looks like a blurred out watermark of trumpet skeleton and that makes me smile
keep going queen
if u rly transitioned, then u clearly lost the battle of saving urself
@@valentinbonchev7485 Vayne from League of Legends has some weird 2 month late takes
@@TheKavuShow FUCK ALL THEM VAYNE PLAYERS BRO, WHERE MY SION PLAYERS AT??????????
there is not getting rid of league players huh?
@@valentinbonchev7485 If you really type like that you clearly lost the battle of getting an actual education
Something my mama always says, and i will forever stick by.
“People go through shit, no matter who it is, others are just better at hiding it. Be kind. Help them, and they might just help you.”
birth is such a curse and a gift. we’re all so special for being here, yet terribly, terribly unlucky
@LUCIA INES BUENO MARTINEZ oh, this! you put it into words perfectly. i couldn’t agree more. but for the sake of “optimism” and us having the capacity to go forward, i think it’s vital to think we’re special in a way or another. the idea of consciousness is so strange, how the minute your heart stops beating your consciousness will be shifted elsewhere we don’t know of. but being alive is definitely not worth it in all honesty. we only live on for people, our emotions and our existence to keep being. we feel happy when good thing happen, and sad when bad things come. so ultimately, we live on for ourselves and to feel happiness. but what would you do if you still wanna die even if you’re happy? even if you have people that love you and you love them back? we were never asked to be here and the only reason i get out of bed is because i have to- and i won’t even have any gains at the end. or maybe there is a gain? who knows. whatever that gain is i don’t think it’s worth it either way. lmao whatever idk why this turned out to be so lengthy. maybe i should stfu and stop thinking u.u
@LUCIA INES BUENO MARTINEZ yeah, i guess so. we’re not special as in anything extraordinary, but maybe we’re a bit special in being extra unlucky for being born, y’know? yet no matter what we do and how high we go, we’ll never find a meaning or an answer, that’s just how the universe is constructed, i think. growing up religious then thinking this way suddenly- that yes, gods and traditions and ideas are constructs we created for own solace, it’s quite a turn. it’s a bit depressing too, thinking everything humans have ever reached is ultimately pointless. so living with meaning isn’t the right answer because there is no meaning. killing yourself isn’t the best reaction to being alive either. what the fuck :)
@LUCIA INES BUENO MARTINEZ i don’t think killing yourself is bad, but like i said, it’s just not ideal. i’m not talk about staying for the sake of others, but for the general concept of life which is to keep on going. i will never find a meaning, and frankly i don’t think any human will. “meaning” as in what life TRUELY means, without including your own opinions and prejudices. therefore, the only wise thing we can do is to go on, regardless of how much happiness or pain we’re in. to me, dying is the only thing i actually look forward to. i can kill myself right now, it really isn’t that hard. but it’s so easy, had i killed myself when i was like 12 or something it would’ve been fine but.. i’m too far into this and i think you are too? idk ahhah. maybe it’s wishful thinking, but i would like it if all this misery doesn’t go in vain hahaha. how about you, though? if you think that killing yourself isn’t bad, then what makes you stay here? what keeps you going? idk if this comes off with a mocking tone but i’m genuinely curious, because a part of me thinks just like you do
CRINGE
@@plum8810 hope is what makes ppl stay, if u didnt have my faith idk what i'd do tbh
The only reason I’m not dead yet is bc I made it a goal to outlive the fcking Queen of England and I cant back out now
So I’ll be here listening to this til then
Please don't go, even if she dies. I know i'm just a stranger on the internet, but I care about you so much.
I know it may not seem like it but people care about you, I've never met you but I care about you none the less. Please don't go.
Bro u aint immortal
@@iforgotoputausername but maybe we are so fight me :)
Oi, gotta eat some healthy food cuz queen seems outlive everyone
With all those "cores" I thought my head was about to explode from the shockwaves emitted from my headphones. But this is also nice.
The audio quality is quite unlike anything I usually encounter and it's phenomenal
I don't even feel sad I just feel empty devoid of purpose and emotion
I'm the same way right now. I hope you feel better!
indeed, the feeling of emptiness, one i am o so familiar with, the sound of a clock moving, the sound of the ocean. All o so emty and dead to me, if i could take one thing away from this world, ironically, it would be the feeling of emptiness, for all we gain from it is a lack of feeling, and rarely does it ever amount to change. It just drags you down deeper into the lake, till you no longer see light, and all you are left to do is to choke at the bottom.
I just feel that a bother and i feel useless plus my problems are always with me in my house
The only way i can scape is trough anime feeling some ones Happynes as my own knowing perfectly well that its not real
Same. I have no friends and I’m too shy so that sucks. I wish I had friends. The only friend who actually understood me and was kind to me was an online friend who hasn’t talked to me in awhile since she is depressed and wanted to take a break from her phone. I miss her (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)
I have zero trauma, really great parents and haven’t been bullied for years, and even when I was it was really tame.
All that does is make me feel all the more guilty for being as messed up as I am. I have no good reason to feel like this, but I guess I’ve been a lost cause from the very beginning, which I don’t want my parents to realise after they put in so much work and love that I’m unable to give back
same bro. I'm privileged as fuck, but still I often feel like shit. I can't even name one single reason for why there is so much hate and anger inside of me. Whatever. Hope you have an okay day. Bye
I feel the exact same way, have family that love me unconditionally, friends that are always there for me, yet all I want to do is die, really wish someone else had my spot in life and took advantage of it instead of me.
I understanddd I feel the same way, but just know you don’t need a reason to have issues, mental illness can effect anyone it doesn’t matter how good your life is it’s okay to feel bad and you’re just as deserving of help as anyone with trauma. And you’ll never ever be a lost cause I know you’ll feel better one day with the right help and people. You’re doing amazing and your struggles are valid I love you and have a really amazing day or night
Same. Both loving parents and great friends but somehow I just turned out different. Like, really really different. Both messed up and guilty. I don't even know if I can return the love I was shown because of my own flaws. But even so, the fact that they still care about me after all these years makes me want to tear up.
I feel the exact same way.
Adults are kids who lost their way, forgot their dreams, and sold them to the world. It doesn't have to be like this.
honestly, this playlist made me feel all the emotions I never considered feeling, thank you
“i’ve gotten so used to ignoring my feelings and pretending that they don’t exist that i unintentionally ignore them for weeks and eventually i’ll have a day full of mental breakdowns and such” gang rise up
I feel you, no idea where that came from, but only recently I noticed that my natural reaction to any emotion, when I'm not by myself, is to repress it immediately, to not show I've been moved by anything. How does that even happen? How to rid of it? I want to be more truthful, more myself, not hide
You too huh
same
Here
Im here 💀
That day when you realize you don’t live in the “real world”, you live in your mind.
i love this comment it made me open my mind for a sec
@@hyperion7419 oh yeah same
holy crap you just made me realize that and think about that for a while
Yeah. These last few months I’ve been living in a hazy state. I’ve been maladaptive daydreaming a lot, almost constantly. I’ve just recently realized how fast these months have been passing. December felt like yesterday but also at the same time like it was years ago.I feel like this is wrong and I want to get back to who I was but at the same time I don’t want to leave. I just feel so safe.
this just made me sob and hit me with so much realisation bc i really do live in my mind and in different reality’s more than my own
I used to not want to exist at all when I was in middle school….. the reason was I always got picked on for being so painfully shy, quiet, and the ethnicity I was born with (i’m filippino and black) i’m sure it was mostly cause I was different. The older I got I look back on that and just really sort of appreciate that experience I had, it made me know that I’m alive.
Bro i listened this playlist every day i studied programming in 2021. i liked these songs in the past, now they just bring me a feeling of loneliness...
why can't i remember?
why can't i forget?
gucki
ascend and achieve monke
@@won2600 i dont think i understand sorry
If you can’t remember then you can forget you just did it.
@@Hannah-um4gh there are things i cannot remember and there are other things I cannot forget, i do not know which one is worse
Y'all ever just sit in your room and think about you past and you feel empty...and then somehownthis weird painful feeling stucks you idk how to explain it lol
I do this too. I rethink my whole past, to the point where I don't even feel anything .
About the future too
same here
I either don’t have that sinking feeling, or is feels like it’s been sunken for a very long time.
İ remembed staying up and wishing for, like, changing the past lol
This playlist helped me through one of the toughest moments of my life. I’m still recovering and come back to it every once in a while. Thank you for this
Coming back here after got back to being empty ~
I kinda like how the leaf on their head just kinda splats into existence after the light goes past haha
This video is a never-ending loop of the doot skeleton stealing the head leaf then running away.
"you exist for a reason"
yeah, to disappoint my parents and die
same XD
same
lmao i feel like im just here to disappoint all my friends and family
I feel like I’m just here to hurt everyone around me, and let down the ones I try not to hurt.
I’m worthless on this earth. :)
You exist to make your own path, not fulfil someone else’s ideals of yourself. If anything I believe that you can make your own path, and be happy :)
i used to listen to this playlist on a very hard time on my life, discovering about my autism, trying to solve my problems with social interactions, having to realize that my parents made me a worse person. and thanks to the songs that i listened to, i could keep up doing what i love, writing and drawing my ideas and projects, at point that today (with the help of my psychologist, of course) i can say it was worth investing myself. now im listening to it while im writing a scene of one of my projects, and I'm very happy to see that this video continues to have views from people. im so glad ro had founded this video one day, and i hope that it reaches more and more people. also i hope that people who are dealing with any kind of problems who are making your days more and more grey can finally reach happiness and stability on the life they want, let yourselves have the time it you guys need :)
(sorry if i writted something wrong, im from Brazil)
It's alright my friend, youre getting there I believe in you
Really want to thank you for making this playlist. I got sick today and listening to some calm music made me feel a lot better.
jack stauber's songs makes me feel like i'm alone in a bubble, escaping from the reality.... and i love that
yeah. jack staubers songs are amazing. i feel safe while listening to them...
edit was a spelling mistake-
Samee
Thats how i feel when i play video games
Same
Same 😪
"i exist for a reason, but what is it?"
"that's only something that you can decide."
Fair enough, our God never told us our objective, so now we live to be happy, or live for thee unknown.
Love the animation. It fits so well with the music. There is kind of a lonley, calm, soothing feeling to it.
i cant take this seriously with the doot skeleton passing by
the worst thing is having some sort of trauma and not even knowing what it is or where it came from
oh god i can relate to this one more than any of the other replies lol. you're not alone friend!! good luck out there
this comment. this comment bruh. it took me so long to come to terms that my parents (who i still really love ect for a reason idk) did not raise me and me two sisters especially my younger sister who is 14 'and as someone who teaches martial arts ect to kids with aditional needs' is showing symtoms of being on the spectrum. iv begged my mom to take it seriously but their stuck in the mind et 'you just trying to label everything'. i struggle and so does my older sister but my little sister is the one swho struggles most. she gets into unbelievable arguments with my mom and it does get physicle sometimes. iv been so used to it all my life that i still can barely come to terms ith it
I know where the trauma came... society
As a victim of severe domestic childhood abuse this comment triggers the fuck out of me. How do you even know you have a trauma then? Do you know the meaning of trauma? Stop trivializing these serious matters by trying to earn pity points and snowflake points. Get a therapist. Grow up.
@DALYLA LUDWIG for me it’s more so I don’t want to come to terms with the fact that that is where I got my trauma from.
I'm home alone,
No stress
No family
I can take a walk if I want
No problems
No work
Only calm vibes, just laying in bed
Ayy this is early-pre-demo heaven-
Your lucky u can go anywhere I cant even go down town by myself yet
@@annamcdearmond19 im not either but my mom wont know if shes not home
i miss this feeling
Me too.. 😞✋🏻
Thanks god we have calm vibes then
Thank you. I've come back to this a few times. Helped get a lot out of my system that I've needed to get out. You've helped a lot of people with these videos. Sometimes it's easy to forget how much I've been through because it all becomes a blur.
How time flies, I remember being 14 years old when I found this playlist, I was so messed up emotionally. The 15 years were... good, I was a good girl, I did everything my family told me to do. Now at 16 I'm sinking again... and I haven't been able to recover, I'm anxious and scared, staying depressed is holding back my goals and desires, but I don't understand what's wrong with me....
Your not alone we all don't know what's wrong with us we just gotta keep it together long enough until we figure it out or embrace and forgive it
Remember the time when we all wanted to grow up? Now we all want to go back to being as a kid because we didn't know back then that growing up meant having to fight a battle *every single day*
Kids who wanted to grow up to leave their parents quicker: chaa chaa real smooth.
But fr, yeah I do, I miss being a young toddler and not understanding half the things going on, just kinda chillin and drinkin chocolate milk or somethin. When we grow up, shit just gets worse because we start to realize how shitty stuff is.
Wish you the best.
@@jaydewithsomebeans4068 This makes me want to curl up on the couch with some chocolate milk and watch Disney now 🤣
CRINGE
I don't want to be a kid again. It wasn't much better. I'm in a better spot now. I just wish my mind was as well.
*laughs in wanting both*
my worst fear is slowly forgetting everything, and sadly that is happening right now. i cant do anything about it, but i keep forgetting things. important things like what day it is and my friends names. i dont remember what i did yesterday, i never do. and im just sitting here, losing important memories.
Same, i forget about chores, what someone just told, what day it is, or even for me i think that the days are repeating so its ok i feel the same way too
I seriously hope it's not dementia, but if it is, i'm so sorry for you :(
i feel like thats kind of that i have i could be on my ipad, phone, computer whatever and my parents ask me to do something and immediately i forget it(i may be because im watching yt and stuff lol but i forget really important stuff not long after i get asked)
I already forgot about the 98% of my childhood bUt lIke iM sTill oN mY chIldhOOd 😃🔫
I feel the same.. I'm literally forgetting everything. I don't know what I did the day before and what I even ate. I don't remember if I already said something to someone and I don't know if I don't repeat myself, because I just simply don't remember.. Sometimes I even forget that I'm hungry- Oh and ofc I never (I mean now- I knew that before..) know what day it is now. It's so strange.. like I'm slowly fading from this world..I really wish to just disappear and I want everyone else to forget me huh.
I was genuinely happy when Oh Klahoma came up. Its so under rated
I've been listening for this mix for a while now and i'm grateful to have this in here
My mother yelled at me before this so I started to cry and then I found this and it made me feel better
Oh I’m so sorry! I’m in the same boat as you so I know how you feel! I’m glad it helped!
I get yelled at a lot to the point that I'm used to it, it's weird hearing someone cry about it when for me it's nothing new.
Sheesh I got yelled at to before I fell asleep on the bathtub
@@misschuckito1311 Some people are more sensitive and it's an okay thing to cry about. But I feel you, if it happens a lot you just stop caring. It's still stressful and annoying but you get numb. The sadness turns into annoyance. That was actually how I got the courage to get the police involved. I was mad and wanted to do something about it
I get yelled a lot by my family and sometimes by my friends people even call me a crybaby
imagine being thinking about life and suddenly a ball of light passes over your face over and over again for 25 minutes
Spooky scary skelemons.
Ha, Doot Doot
theres alsoo a person in the background.
LOLL
its a train im pretty sure
This is the most soothing playlist i've ever listened
Can't say I'm in the best place atm but I've been on this roller-coaster long enough to know that I can't have the good times without the bad. Love to see such a supportive comment section - it's clear that this playlist really resonates and finds people when they need it most (I absolutely wasn't looking up any mixes, but kept seeing this pop up).
if childhood is the best time of life, why is it filled with such despair
I feel u : )
Ik.
Its depressing not the fact my life is great. I have nice friends although my parents are on the line. But it's not as bad as other peoples lifes.
Nagito: *I'd like you to repeat that again* * loads gun *
Your to young to understand that despair until later
@@eunoiamorosis xD
I don’t think that I’ve gone through anything traumatic but I still feel so stressed out and kind of empty for no reason. It’s frustrating that I don’t have anything to pin this on or to blame. I think my parents love me, I don’t really have friends but that hasn’t bothered me until recently. I don’t know why. This playlist helped me a bit. Thank you
Same, idk if I should be commenting this, but it’s nice to know I’m not the only one. Hope everything will get better one day
yeah same. i dont have a reason to be sad, or anxious, or angry so why do i self-deprecate myself :/ i feel you 100% ur not alone
@@qualityname2055 this is literally me- I really want to know if there's a name for this because I want to get rid of it
same boat.
same
My mom does not reconise me as family , only calls me for work, never apreciate what i do. Life is falling appart.
Fiction is my escape from reality
I hope Everything gets better for you! My best wishes for you! Don't give up!
everyone talking about mental health and such, but what people aren't talking about is that the bright light passing across the screen is the doot skeleton with his trumpet
I thought it was a ghost I am so glad you pointed this out, my live is fulfilled
This playlist makes me wanna lay down in the middle of the road while it’s poring down rain
omg yeah
Don’t get sick-
do it if its safe, its pretty nice
Id do it in my driveway if I were you-
I did this when i was a kid
My head is often buzzing with past trauma and it's repeating again, the trauma I mean, I've never felt safe in my own house, this playlist calmed me down. Tysm for this 💝
Omg! I’m so sorry! I’m in the same boat as you my friend. I’m glad this helped! I’ve been really depressed recently too. If you want to talk I would love to listen! No pressure to though! I know how it feels to be pressed into talking to someone.
@@mxlion TYSM!
@@ballisticbee2114 np!
idk what it is about this little playlist I found back in 2021 but it has provided so much comfort and peace since then
i've loved this playlist for so long tysm for it
Meanwhile people are talking about trauma and nostalgia
“Did anyone else realize they’re a tall man standing beside the lamp?”
This is hella scary, good thing i can't see it-
thats what i keep saying...
I thought I was the only one
Also the thing going by the screen is Mr Doot
Yes. its my demons
Personally, the worst type of trauma is the type when you know it’s wrong, but they give you mixed signals and confuse you on wether or not what they did is wrong.
I have that type. And I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me
I'm not sure exactly what you went through (of course), but I went through pretty bad emotional abuse as a young child. I used to sit and feel like my head was just swirling and I was constantly dizzy from not being able to come to a decision whether I was in the right or not, and not feeling like I couldn't drop the question because it was so important. I've gotten help through a good therapist for the past year and I can just say, I don't feel that at all anymore. I'm so fricking thankful I got through that. So, just saying here, so can you. It may take time, it may take a lot of energy and effort, but you can get out of that feeling. I remember how horrible it was, but it is escapable. Sending love
@@sugoish9461 Thank you for your advice and help. I do hope I get pasted this one day. :)
My whole entire family and everyone around me. They say it’s me and at this point I think it is, I just want to float if that makes sense
@@l.symone3611 me too man. But Im sure it isn't you. :)
turning it on would not be good I think you should take it as a lesson and I know you feel horrible but calm it can only be a scenario although it can come back as many times as you want
still the best playlist I've heard till this date