I forgot dysphoria existed, I just hide my body and avoid mirrors all day and I forget about it... and I’m closeted :) mostly.. I think? I don’t know, I told my parents and they forgot about it...
@@shugafoo2847 Eh a little bit lolll, my dad acknowledged that I’m not a girl a few days ago and my parents both call me till now :D my dysphoria is a lot better now, obv it’s still there but I’m doing much better now
@@crimes2004 coudn't say the same for myself. I am a closeted trans woman in Serbia. If i manage to pull through everything it would leave me pretty damaged (but i still have a hell of a rags to riches story if my transition goes well) or i could just be another victim of the cishet world order.
I came out of the closet 2 months ago, (I'm from Mexico) couldn't keep living the same way, best decision ever. You didn't choose to be like this, it's not about fairness it's about acceptance, I wish you the best.
i told my parents when i was like 10, i kinda furiously broke in tears and asked them why can't i dress and behave like all the other normal people, my amab friends, and they were so goddamn angry i still remember the rage in their voices... well, 6 years later, nothing changed. I don't think my parents even remember. I still hope for it to go away, but for now i just opt to hide in big baggy clothes, avoid mirrors and social contact and... kinda forget who i really am, i guess,, wish all the best for you guys.
I wish my binder deleted all my dysphoria like that... it's a temporary reduction when I wear it because it's not changing my body. My wife doesn't want me to wear it anymore for safety reasons, since I once nearly passed out from wearing it and it wasn't even that long December 2024 update: Guys I have been with the clinic and I did a consultation last month cuz I finally got an insurance that covers it, and they are processing it since I long ago had my diagnosis and letters in order. Fingers crossed I get approved!! 😄 Posting this to give hope to others out there who are or may have been in similar situation.
@@EvanMMD3939 It is actually very comfortable when I wear it and not tight at all, in fact I was worried it wouldn't flatten. I am quite thin so I don't think a bigger size would do much 😔
@@poppy-spades can I ask which brand you got? I'm a trans dude and started binding about a year ago. First I got the underworks binder and my chest is unfortunately a 14F (I cry 😭) and that took be down to maybe a B cup but you could still see my chest lumps. Then in the last month I got my first gc2b binder- I genuinely cried putting it on and it flattened out out nearly completely, now I look like I've just got pecs! And I'm honestly so happy with my chest- check out a different brand if yours isn't giving you the flatness you want (I would fall on my sword for gc2b now I swear) ☺️
@@floofyfloof616 I've heard gc2b is super good! In fact it was the kind I was gonna get (my binder was a gift from my wife). But they are quite expensive. I'm only an A, even less sometimes (I know, I know, I get a lot of "but you're already flat you don't need to bind!" dysphoria still fricks me over though), so I NEED mine to not be too big or else I just end up with a fabric box on my chest which ends up being too notable and well, defeats the purpose. Mine is from a brand called Your Open Closet or something like that! I also cried putting mine on for the first time, I feel you. It was just so surreal finally looking in the mirror and seeing the body I always knew I should have.
@@poppy-spades I wouldn't recommend gc2b. I've had 3 different brands of binders and gc2b was honestly my WORST one. It's sizing is off, the quality has gone down hill in recent years, and its pricy. For that price, you are better off getting a binder from a place called Spectrum Outfitters, who sell good material binders in a range of colours and sizes. They also sell packers and boxers. For a cheaper alternative, I currently use a brand from Heroine Binder's which is based in South east Asia. I got a package of three-four second hand binders for around £30 and they work quite well for me. If you want to know a bit more about this brand I highly recommend checking out a channel called "Jelly's world" where the creator (Josh) reviews this binders brand and a few other binders brands :>
@JamesPop honestly, the video still goes. my parents still aren’t really all that supportive, but i’m able to be out at school. it’s hard. i live day to day with an old stretched out hand me down binder. but i’m still here. after a lot of shit, i’m still here and i think that in and of itself is an accomplishment for any trans youth
the sequence when the trans kid wore some clothes and didn't like them and then tried another one is very relatable to me, since I was very, very young I've always has trouble when buying clothes and testing them in the changing room of the store, i couldn't know why but I almost always and every time ended up crying and frustrated because everything i wore was just...not right, i didn't liked what I saw and I couldn't know why, until i was 20. Such a long time it took for me to realize what was going on with me
@@HeWhoWatchesTheStars i feel you, it's nice that you at least could go to the men's section...i had to do that on my own and without anyone of my family know. You're not alone, love to you and your transition ❤️
Hey, cis lad over here. I think one reason why so much transphobia exists is because of the fundamental misunderstanding and lack of relatability cis people see. I know I used to think trans people were just confused and acting impulsively. But thanks to things like this, it helps to look into the experiences that trans people go through, and it helps understand their feelings and struggles. Stay strong trans lads and gals, I’m so sorry too many people are still so hating towards yall. But don’t worry, you’ll always have an ally here
"What's your name" and "What are your pronouns" are now my least favorite questions. My favorite statement on the other hand is "I can't tell what gender you are" which I have gotten and will never forget that moment. I loved that.
I had a 13 year old boy on the bus station suddenly walk around me a couple of times looking confused until he went "oh i think it's a girl" i mean, wrong conclusion there but i appreciate the confusion-
At school, one of my classmates was the most androgynous person I had ever seen in my entire life. I told them that I couldn't tell and I wanted to know their pronouns so I wouldn't upset them. Seeing this comment does make me question if what I said was right but I tried my best, I can only try harder next time and to try to learn more.
You did the right thing. Everyone's experiences are different. In specifically my experience, I prefer to be andro as hell and not get asked, but other people may *want* to be asked. Asking is almost always a good thing.
Thank you for the kind words. Yeah, as a still closeted trans woman (probably will be for a long time), I wish someone would make a guide on how to live with dysphoria when you can’t come out.
@@Lady-Y i dont wanna sound rude here but i probably will, this is a question form curiosity: why? like how do you know that the problem is your gender... what difference does it really make if someone calls you what you have always been called anyway? maybe you jjust have to learn to accept who you are, by going to like a therapist (you dont have to tell anyone why you are there its not like the therapists can say anything to anyone else)? dont mean to offend just want to understand so that i can be more accepting, cuz i realize that i may deep down just not understand where you are coming from and not really accept it (like the idea)...
@@NakatesX It’s the same way you feel overwhelmed when you have a post-concussive syndrome. Specifically, that is caused by a concussion that wasn’t fully healed/recovered from in the brain. If you didn’t make a full recovery, and are still dealing with it months after the event, it doesn’t show physically symptoms or traces. It shows emotional traces, like headaches or confusion or inexplicable panic and anxiety. Even though there is no physical trace, the emotions leave a trace leading to a physical problem. The brain and body are not so unlinked as you may have been taught to believe. When humans suffer from extreme depression, this can have physical affects as well. Obviously there are the emotional problems someone who is trans experiences when they can’t come out… but in the same way the emotions leave a trace of what’s going on in the body, the body can actually leave a trace of what’s going on in the brain. Gender dysphoria isn’t just feeling sad or anxious. It can also causes things like the immune system not working properly, which is why closeted trans people are more prone to debilitating sickness or chronic illnesses. What’s telling is that there have been studies done on this phenomena, comparing the health of trans people in the closet versus trans people out of the closet, and what we find is that people who’ve come out STOP experiencing these physical symptoms. Like, they actually go away completely. Dysphoria is like a computer virus, infecting the brain and keeping it from operating the rest of the body correctly. When you get rid of the virus, systems function normally. Further studies, which many in news journalism and world governments have sought to suppress, further measure this physical link between the brain and the body. Research into the brain has shown for over 60 years that there is physical proof a person’s gender identity is the one they say it is. They have found there are certain universal physical and chemical differences between the brain of a woman and the brain of a man. You could argue being trans is a mental illness… if not for the fact that cat scans of a trans woman’s brain prove otherwise. Because in this research, they found trans women’s brains don’t have the physical or chemical characteristics of a male brain _but instead have the exact physical and chemical structure as a cis woman’s brain_ (and vice versa with trans men, and there’s additional evidence proving the existence of non-binary people as well). As I said before, world governments have sought to suppress this research for decades. The Nazis actually burned down an entire library of research, specifically devoted to the research of transgender people. But science doesn’t stop existing just because people don’t know about it. The earth was already orbiting the sun, even before Galileo found out about it. Gravity already existed, even before Newton discovered it. And even though governments have sought to destroy any trace or knowledge of trans people’s existence throughout history, by burning research and destroying historical records, trans people have existed for as long as there has been a human race. I know what you’re probably asking: “where are all the old trans people, then?” Well, unfortunately, many of them are dead. As transphobia has grown in the last century, more so than in centuries beforehand, the rate of trans people being killed has skyrocketed to the point they have one of the shortest lifespans of any demographic (especially black trans women). The actual number of how many get killed is unknown, because many of them die in the closet or are intentionally misgendered in death by police and those in charge of their burial services (ie saying a trans woman is a man on a death certificate, and putting her deadname on her stone, instead of her true name and gender). But that’s just the sad parts. And frankly, that’s not all there is to being trans. The sad parts are all we hear about sometimes, which scared me into suppressing the realization I was a woman out of fear. But eventually, the joy of being myself was more powerful than the fear. And that’s the thing… even if the corrupt destroy any trace of evidence we are real and we exist, and commit Orwellian destruction of any words or language or terminology to describe ourselves, they still cannot destroy the original link between the mind and the body. The body feels when something is wrong in the mind, and the mind can feel when something is wrong in the body. It’s how humans have evolved to fear predators or danger, even without someone telling them to. It’s how I could sense something was wrong, even when nobody said it. I felt it when I would see the cover of women’s fashion magazines at drug stores, and be unable to explain why it made me sad. It’s the same sadness I would feel when I’d see a mannequin in a dress, because it “wasn’t for me.” It’s the same way I physically reviled to the point of actual nausea when wearing shorts or a T-shirt, let alone a sports cap. Why would the body physically react so violently to something that’s supposed to be “correct?” So how do you we know we are trans? Well, let me ask you a question: do you know a single cisgender person who physically experiences what I’ve just described? On a daily basis? Does any part of the experience I’ve just described sound or feel “normal” to you? And if you think the answer is “yes” - and let me assure you, it isn’t - that may reveal more than you realize.
From a large chested cis woman, anyone who thinks big boobs are automatically a blessing doesn't know what they're talking about. The underwire bars, the sweatiness, the shear difficulty of finding swimwear and shaped-boddiss tops/dresses that fit, all of it is such a pain, but it must pale in comparation to having dysphoria about them. I hope you can obtain a solation that isn't too painful, stressful or expensive.
@@SaryTheWolf even before I knew I was trans I hated my big chest. It bothered me because it's heavy. Now it's also a psychological issue due to it not matching. Sadly the only fix for some of us folx is to get top surgery, which is extensive, expensive, and painful sometimes. But I'd rather go through that temporary thing then live with the permanent alternative
The scene when they are hugging their body in the shower really resonated with me. Dysphoria is body horror (well theoretically that's dysmorphia ig). Every day I just want to look in the mirror and be able to love what I see.
Simple, wordless, understandable. All in 1:30 a message was well delivered. I could watch a hundred videos on the topic but this is a must watch when it comes to understanding dysphoria. It's a feeling deep down that you just aren't you. Some person calls you handsome or you are forced to wear clothes that just tell people something about you that just isn't true. It's a guttural feeling of wearing someone else's skin. It's like someone spreading lies about who you are like a sign plastered on you wherever you go. The feeling that you can't be you.
I am personally not transmasc but I relate to this really well because of how dysphoria effects me. The music just goes so well with it and it's just generally very calming.
thank u for creating this it feels good to now that many other people feel the same way. because whenever I try to explain it to other people they just don't get it. and it hurts😢
That was beautiful. The jar filling up each time something seemingly "minor" triggers the character's dysphoria is something I've been trying to explain so many times. It piles up and traumatizes you. The ending felt a bit "too easy" for me personally but I have to acknowledge the short playtime and the fact that some people indeed feel that kind of extreme relief when binding. I did feel relief, I felt euphoric and happy, but it was not as impactful as I had hoped for. More like a soft nod towards myself that confirmed that I need top surgery. Something I already knew. But enough of me, this is a very beautiful animation and I felt very moved by seeing an animated character being so relatable. Thank you for making this.
Hi there! Thank you for watching! I love this interpretation of the jar being anxiety from dysphoria filling up and emptying when relief (the binder) is received! It’s great! Originally, my intention was this to be a young person saving up for their very first binder and the jar was the change the scrimped and saved to afford it. I remember them being so expensive to me in my teenage years and not many retailers online even had them. This video was originally an assignment for a Women and Gender Studies course I took in college. I was quite limited in time as we needed to a lot 30 different presentation in the hour. I would typically agree that yes, dysphoria is not solved so easily but getting a binder did give me strength to move forward to the next step. Thank you for your kind words and support!
well i had an experience were a girl ask me if I was a girl or a boy and told her i was a boy and then she started to tell me every single feminine thing I had like "oh but Ur eyes are SOOO feminine and Ur chest is so big" like Damm why ask then?
Beautiful , I been there bruh , also tiny reminder , disphoria is different for everyone and at diffrent scales for instance some feel disphoria about arm hair but not other parts of the body or at times looking at some body parts may make you feel nausiously gross , other times it's just mild discomfort and other times you don't think about it at all and thats A ok dudes , and it doesn't make your gender any less valid , much love to ya'll
Hi! Thank you for watching! This was inspired solely on my person experience from my youth. I too have experienced other facets of dysphoria as have others. Then some may not experience dysphoria at all. We’re beautifully diverse.
I can't transition Because of my family and I wish I could buy my binder someday for now I have sports bras that help me with my chest. Also wonderful animation it moved my soul.
For awhile i was counting and keeping track of everytime i felt dysphoria but it wouldn't even be 12pm and id have easily over 20, which got pretty depressing pretty quickly. Anyway, put an end to that in less than a week.
Man I wish i could get a binder. I’m out to my family but they don’t accept me. They restricted contact from all of my friends so now i’m completely alone. But hey, i’m rooting for you. It’s nice you can be happy with a binder and a short haircut and everything.
Hello! Thank you for watching! Admittedly, I went through a VERY similar period in my young teenage life when I was questioning and my family panicked. I’m 25 now and I’m fully out. Have been on hrt for a few years and looking into surgery. It gets better I promise. Stay strong my friend this too shall pass I believe in you
i agree and have the same experience. except the binder part. it did nothing. any fellow unbindable guys, eh? can't wait for top surgery if it ever happens.
@@furystar12 and thank you as well. it means so much to have media that actually shows dysphoria... cant find that basically anywhere. also i love the art :')
I'm lucky enough to both not have gender dysphoria not be trans But I absolutely wish all my trans homies the best in beating that dysphoria's ass and living life as your true self!!. Ya'll are beautiful and I Love you all
Wow. This video is really good at capturing how it feels. Been on hrt a year now and these feelings still pop up on occasion but not as much anymore. (Trans woman here btw) thank you for a wonderful video!(and yes this is my first time watching.)
I'm very late to this but still. As a trans boy I appreciate this animation a lot. But unluckily for me my mom is transphobic and homophobic so even if I did come out to her I'd never be able to get a binder.
As a trans woman, it feels exactly this melancholy… but I think with slightly more emotional implosion, at least for me. Maybe that’s just because I unfortunately don’t have the option of coming out, and most likely won’t for many years, so the manic states of escalating panic than exhaustion are more intense maybe? I just hope it ends one day. I hope one day I don’t have to live like this, like, I really hope this is not all there is.
ohh sheez. i feel the needle in my chest now. (ouch) seriously, dysphoria sucks. im a questioning individuals myself.soo im super confused. i only know is 1:i like to become a woman or femboy or idk femme sometimes. i still comeback to boy mode. 2: im suuuper suck at crossdressing i hate seeing myself in the mirror or vids but i like presenting femme. 3:im super masc for my own liking but also i dont want to leave my masculinity behind. 4: im super scared. im closeted. 5:im still cis????? ok thats all?. this video is very relatable. cheers...
I hope you are doing well in your transition goals and are staying safe. Knowing how this world is going right now, please stay safe. I am trans feeme, so it was getting breast forms for me. Since I have started hrt and started developing my own, I have had to start getting smaller ones.
It starts with one All I know It's so unreal Watch you go I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end, it doesn't even matter One thing, I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme To remind myself of a time when I tried so hard In spite of the way you were mockin' me Actin' like I was part of your property Remembering all the times you fought with me I'm surprised it got so far Things aren't the way they were before You wouldn't even recognize me anymore Not that you knew me back then But it all comes back to me in the end You kept everything inside And even though I tried, it all fell apart What it meant to me will eventually Be a memory of a time when I I tried so hard and got so far But in the end, it doesn't even matter I had to fall to lose it all But in the end, it doesn't even matter One thing, I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme to explain in due time All I know Time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It's so unreal You didn't look out below Watch the time go right out the window Tryin' to hold on, they didn't even know I wasted it all just to watch you go I kept everything inside And even though I tried, it all fell apart What it meant to me will eventually be a memory Of a time when I tried so hard
I'm trans myself and I feel that so much... I'm mostly fine with my body when hiding it with baggy hoodies. But recently we are forced to go swimming cuz of the school. And even though I have a swimbinder it just feels awful Also my partner tells me not to hide behind hoodies, but they just make me feel so safe... It's a struggle... But it helps knowing I'm not alone
Your health is your greatest treasure. A healthy mind and body and environment for it to flourish should be your priority. Sometimes our environment doesn’t allow it for us but hold on you’ll get there some day. Are you “hiding” in hoodies or rather are they your suits of armor protecting you? Pushing yourself out of your comfort zone to create growth and self inflicting duress are two different things. Stay strong my friend. Thank you for watching.
I think I want to have a binder just to try it out. Maybe I'll feel better like that? Idk. THE THING IS. I'm 13 years old. I can not find any stores that sell them (near me). And ofc I can't buy them online because I don't have, like, a bank account and stuff like that. BUT I don't think I can tell my parents about that, so they could buy me one. I'm just gonna wait till I'm old enough? Idk.
What i did was ask a friend if they could buy it and have it shipped to their house. I paid them back later. I know that not everyone is lucky enough to be in that position to have a supportive friend. I hope you get a binder soon though
In the mean time, have you tried a sports bar? They won't make you as flat as a binder but they're better then regular bars and easier to find, also you won't have explain anything to your parents. Just be carful not to wear it too tight for too long, you don't want to do yourself damage that could make it too risky to wear a binder when you do get one.
The cis character who wondered if the trans person was trying to be a woman or thinking the trans person sees themselves as a woman, alluding to how the Trans person's own gender perceptions were dictated by the cis character's alleged gender perceptions of the trans person. This spoke loudest to me.. they gendered the trans person in a way that triggers in the trans character a feeling like they don't own their own body and reproductive systems, they don't have any gender agency on their own, because of Biological sex ideology. indeed, It was quite beautiful how the cis character has a female symbol question mark towards the trans person, WHILE it harmed the trans person, because the gendering itself is what I believe is the problem. The text reveals to me how the cis character imposes gendered notions onto the person, where the cis character essentialized the trans person's gender experience.. imposing a gender experience that the trans person sees is dysphoric. Indeed, the trans person presents Culturally male while we see the trans person trying on culturally normative female attire.. hence the nonobvious allusion is how the trans character presenting as male and female creates in the cis character this distress for breaking the cis character's gender gaze. the cis character imposed their gendered notions onto the person, imposed gendered intentionality onto the trans person.. so we as the audience assume the trans person's assigned gender identity and their perceived self in the text, thereby doing to the trans person what the cis character does to the trans person. Indeed, the cis character is the key character in my mind, not the trans person.. we are the cis person who assumes the trans person's status relative to Biological sex ideology rather than that the trans person just doesn't conform to our cultural gaze we internalized.
Interesting interpretation! That was great to read! This video was drawn upon my own personal experiences as a transmasc person particularly from my youth. In that scene, the cis woman questions if the afab trans person is a woman. I wanted to detail specifically a situation of social dysphoria alongside physical dysphoria. Here the trans person is misgendered, not maliciously, but it is painful nonetheless. They place a mask with a ‘X’ over their face. They believe they encountered this situation because their voice is not traditionally masculine. So they choose not to speak any more.
Hi! The original intent was a young person saving up money for their first binder. The jar is gradually filling up with the change they have collected and is empty once their purchase has arrived. I saw another interpretation of the filling jar being the stress and anxiety caused by dysphoria. The binder provided relief and emptied the jar. I love this point of view as well!
Most of my experience of this stuff is from quite a distance but I'll try to help: Depends what you mean by "bad". Relating to this probably means that you have gender dysphoria too. Would your life be easier if you didn't. Probably. However, fingering out that you're dysphoric is the first step to doing something about it. If you feel that dysphoria is having a notable impact on your life you should talk to a medical professional, your GP or family doctor is a good first point of call and should be able to point you to the appropriate specialist. In the mean time it's a good idea to seek out social support. Talk to your family and friends about it if you feel safe doing so. See if you can find a support group for dysphoric, trans, and/or LGBT+ people. Ultimately know that, weather you turn out to gender dysphoric or not, weather you turn out to trans or not, any and all steps that are taken should be done so with the goal of helping you feel combatable, happy, confident and save.
Whenever I say videos like this, I feel bad that I don't feel like shit even though I'm trans too. I guess I should be happy about it, but when you don't suffer... it's easy to think it isn't real.
Not all trans people experience dysphoria the same way or experience dysphoria at all. That’s okay and it doesn’t make you a bad person or a bad trans person.
I hate that I know this songs lyrics. It makes it hurt more. Also that I'm now certain I'm Nonbinary, but live with transphobic/homophobic bigoted parents. It makes it a Herculean strength to try and just... Breathe. It is a suffocation pit. I'll see tomorrow. And tomorrow. And tomorrow. To see if my anguish and suffering can yield another horizon. One where I can be me. Stay safe. Much loves. Adieu.
Hello! Thank you for watching my video! I come from conservative family roots and was closeted at home for a long time. I’m 25 now and fully out, have been hrt for a few years and will begin making plans for surgery. I promise it gets better. Hang in there my sibling
I'm a closeted non binary chaotic mentally ill person who's only goal in life is to make other people be confused what gender I am, though I do relate to this, I did think I was trans for a while but I started imagining if I would use those pronouns instead and I thought "yea, no, it doesn't feel right" and I had the realisation that I didn't feel like a guy or a girl, I felt like something separated from them and that's how I found out I am non binary. I consider myself part of the trans community because from what I understand, being trans is used as an umbrella term and doesn't have to mean only being mtf or ftm, you can be trans and still use they/them pronouns. My dysphoria isn't incredibly severe since I usually avoid looking at myself anyway. To everyone dealing with dysphoria, just hold on, one day, when you are older, you can look the way you always wanted to, feel the way you always wanted, and hopefully have incredibly supportive family or friends or maybe a partner and you can live your life freely.
I forgot dysphoria existed, I just hide my body and avoid mirrors all day and I forget about it... and I’m closeted :) mostly.. I think? I don’t know, I told my parents and they forgot about it...
Same, i hope you are in a better place now
@@shugafoo2847 Eh a little bit lolll, my dad acknowledged that I’m not a girl a few days ago and my parents both call me till now :D my dysphoria is a lot better now, obv it’s still there but I’m doing much better now
@@crimes2004 coudn't say the same for myself. I am a closeted trans woman in Serbia. If i manage to pull through everything it would leave me pretty damaged (but i still have a hell of a rags to riches story if my transition goes well) or i could just be another victim of the cishet world order.
I came out of the closet 2 months ago, (I'm from Mexico) couldn't keep living the same way, best decision ever. You didn't choose to be like this, it's not about fairness it's about acceptance, I wish you the best.
i told my parents when i was like 10, i kinda furiously broke in tears and asked them why can't i dress and behave like all the other normal people, my amab friends, and they were so goddamn angry i still remember the rage in their voices... well, 6 years later, nothing changed. I don't think my parents even remember. I still hope for it to go away, but for now i just opt to hide in big baggy clothes, avoid mirrors and social contact and... kinda forget who i really am, i guess,,
wish all the best for you guys.
I wish my binder deleted all my dysphoria like that... it's a temporary reduction when I wear it because it's not changing my body. My wife doesn't want me to wear it anymore for safety reasons, since I once nearly passed out from wearing it and it wasn't even that long
December 2024 update: Guys I have been with the clinic and I did a consultation last month cuz I finally got an insurance that covers it, and they are processing it since I long ago had my diagnosis and letters in order. Fingers crossed I get approved!! 😄 Posting this to give hope to others out there who are or may have been in similar situation.
sounds like its too tight, you might need to get a bigger size..
@@EvanMMD3939 It is actually very comfortable when I wear it and not tight at all, in fact I was worried it wouldn't flatten. I am quite thin so I don't think a bigger size would do much 😔
@@poppy-spades can I ask which brand you got? I'm a trans dude and started binding about a year ago. First I got the underworks binder and my chest is unfortunately a 14F (I cry 😭) and that took be down to maybe a B cup but you could still see my chest lumps. Then in the last month I got my first gc2b binder- I genuinely cried putting it on and it flattened out out nearly completely, now I look like I've just got pecs! And I'm honestly so happy with my chest- check out a different brand if yours isn't giving you the flatness you want (I would fall on my sword for gc2b now I swear) ☺️
@@floofyfloof616 I've heard gc2b is super good! In fact it was the kind I was gonna get (my binder was a gift from my wife). But they are quite expensive. I'm only an A, even less sometimes (I know, I know, I get a lot of "but you're already flat you don't need to bind!" dysphoria still fricks me over though), so I NEED mine to not be too big or else I just end up with a fabric box on my chest which ends up being too notable and well, defeats the purpose. Mine is from a brand called Your Open Closet or something like that!
I also cried putting mine on for the first time, I feel you. It was just so surreal finally looking in the mirror and seeing the body I always knew I should have.
@@poppy-spades I wouldn't recommend gc2b. I've had 3 different brands of binders and gc2b was honestly my WORST one. It's sizing is off, the quality has gone down hill in recent years, and its pricy. For that price, you are better off getting a binder from a place called Spectrum
Outfitters, who sell good material binders in a range of colours and sizes. They also sell packers and boxers.
For a cheaper alternative, I currently use a brand from Heroine Binder's which is based in South east Asia. I got a package of three-four second hand binders for around £30 and they work quite well for me.
If you want to know a bit more about this brand I highly recommend checking out a channel called "Jelly's world" where the creator (Josh) reviews this binders brand and a few other binders brands :>
This is honestly the best animation i have seen all day, because it is relatable. I am a trans boy and i can relate, almost too much
Thank you so much! I'm so glad it could resonate with you!!
:D
same
kyssss
@JamesPop honestly, the video still goes. my parents still aren’t really all that supportive, but i’m able to be out at school. it’s hard. i live day to day with an old stretched out hand me down binder. but i’m still here. after a lot of shit, i’m still here and i think that in and of itself is an accomplishment for any trans youth
I’m crying and I don’t know why, this is beautiful, don’t know why, but I can relate so much, the jar filling...just.... thank you for making this
I'm glad I was able to resonate with you.
I should be thanking you for making this
the sequence when the trans kid wore some clothes and didn't like them and then tried another one is very relatable to me, since I was very, very young I've always has trouble when buying clothes and testing them in the changing room of the store, i couldn't know why but I almost always and every time ended up crying and frustrated because everything i wore was just...not right, i didn't liked what I saw and I couldn't know why, until i was 20. Such a long time it took for me to realize what was going on with me
@@HeWhoWatchesTheStars i feel you, it's nice that you at least could go to the men's section...i had to do that on my own and without anyone of my family know. You're not alone, love to you and your transition ❤️
Hey, cis lad over here. I think one reason why so much transphobia exists is because of the fundamental misunderstanding and lack of relatability cis people see. I know I used to think trans people were just confused and acting impulsively.
But thanks to things like this, it helps to look into the experiences that trans people go through, and it helps understand their feelings and struggles.
Stay strong trans lads and gals, I’m so sorry too many people are still so hating towards yall. But don’t worry, you’ll always have an ally here
"What's your name" and "What are your pronouns" are now my least favorite questions.
My favorite statement on the other hand is "I can't tell what gender you are" which I have gotten and will never forget that moment. I loved that.
I had a 13 year old boy on the bus station suddenly walk around me a couple of times looking confused until he went "oh i think it's a girl"
i mean, wrong conclusion there but i appreciate the confusion-
If u confuse them, then it’s working 👍🏻
At school, one of my classmates was the most androgynous person I had ever seen in my entire life. I told them that I couldn't tell and I wanted to know their pronouns so I wouldn't upset them. Seeing this comment does make me question if what I said was right but I tried my best, I can only try harder next time and to try to learn more.
You did the right thing. Everyone's experiences are different. In specifically my experience, I prefer to be andro as hell and not get asked, but other people may *want* to be asked.
Asking is almost always a good thing.
how do you know to ask or not??
this is beatiful, i cried. i'm gay but not trans and i can't imagine the pain trans people must go through. hope everyone reading this is doing fine.
Thank you for the kind words. Yeah, as a still closeted trans woman (probably will be for a long time), I wish someone would make a guide on how to live with dysphoria when you can’t come out.
I only have like one toe dipped into the trans realm (being non binary) but I can confirm that dysphoria is painful, every day
@@Lady-Y i dont wanna sound rude here but i probably will, this is a question form curiosity: why? like how do you know that the problem is your gender... what difference does it really make if someone calls you what you have always been called anyway? maybe you jjust have to learn to accept who you are, by going to like a therapist (you dont have to tell anyone why you are there its not like the therapists can say anything to anyone else)? dont mean to offend just want to understand so that i can be more accepting, cuz i realize that i may deep down just not understand where you are coming from and not really accept it (like the idea)...
This popped up when I searched FTM comfort 😂😭😭 so honestly no not going great
@@NakatesX It’s the same way you feel overwhelmed when you have a post-concussive syndrome.
Specifically, that is caused by a concussion that wasn’t fully healed/recovered from in the brain. If you didn’t make a full recovery, and are still dealing with it months after the event, it doesn’t show physically symptoms or traces. It shows emotional traces, like headaches or confusion or inexplicable panic and anxiety. Even though there is no physical trace, the emotions leave a trace leading to a physical problem.
The brain and body are not so unlinked as you may have been taught to believe. When humans suffer from extreme depression, this can have physical affects as well. Obviously there are the emotional problems someone who is trans experiences when they can’t come out… but in the same way the emotions leave a trace of what’s going on in the body, the body can actually leave a trace of what’s going on in the brain. Gender dysphoria isn’t just feeling sad or anxious. It can also causes things like the immune system not working properly, which is why closeted trans people are more prone to debilitating sickness or chronic illnesses. What’s telling is that there have been studies done on this phenomena, comparing the health of trans people in the closet versus trans people out of the closet, and what we find is that people who’ve come out STOP experiencing these physical symptoms. Like, they actually go away completely. Dysphoria is like a computer virus, infecting the brain and keeping it from operating the rest of the body correctly. When you get rid of the virus, systems function normally.
Further studies, which many in news journalism and world governments have sought to suppress, further measure this physical link between the brain and the body. Research into the brain has shown for over 60 years that there is physical proof a person’s gender identity is the one they say it is. They have found there are certain universal physical and chemical differences between the brain of a woman and the brain of a man. You could argue being trans is a mental illness… if not for the fact that cat scans of a trans woman’s brain prove otherwise. Because in this research, they found trans women’s brains don’t have the physical or chemical characteristics of a male brain _but instead have the exact physical and chemical structure as a cis woman’s brain_ (and vice versa with trans men, and there’s additional evidence proving the existence of non-binary people as well).
As I said before, world governments have sought to suppress this research for decades. The Nazis actually burned down an entire library of research, specifically devoted to the research of transgender people. But science doesn’t stop existing just because people don’t know about it. The earth was already orbiting the sun, even before Galileo found out about it. Gravity already existed, even before Newton discovered it. And even though governments have sought to destroy any trace or knowledge of trans people’s existence throughout history, by burning research and destroying historical records, trans people have existed for as long as there has been a human race. I know what you’re probably asking: “where are all the old trans people, then?” Well, unfortunately, many of them are dead. As transphobia has grown in the last century, more so than in centuries beforehand, the rate of trans people being killed has skyrocketed to the point they have one of the shortest lifespans of any demographic (especially black trans women). The actual number of how many get killed is unknown, because many of them die in the closet or are intentionally misgendered in death by police and those in charge of their burial services (ie saying a trans woman is a man on a death certificate, and putting her deadname on her stone, instead of her true name and gender).
But that’s just the sad parts. And frankly, that’s not all there is to being trans. The sad parts are all we hear about sometimes, which scared me into suppressing the realization I was a woman out of fear. But eventually, the joy of being myself was more powerful than the fear. And that’s the thing… even if the corrupt destroy any trace of evidence we are real and we exist, and commit Orwellian destruction of any words or language or terminology to describe ourselves, they still cannot destroy the original link between the mind and the body. The body feels when something is wrong in the mind, and the mind can feel when something is wrong in the body. It’s how humans have evolved to fear predators or danger, even without someone telling them to. It’s how I could sense something was wrong, even when nobody said it. I felt it when I would see the cover of women’s fashion magazines at drug stores, and be unable to explain why it made me sad. It’s the same sadness I would feel when I’d see a mannequin in a dress, because it “wasn’t for me.” It’s the same way I physically reviled to the point of actual nausea when wearing shorts or a T-shirt, let alone a sports cap. Why would the body physically react so violently to something that’s supposed to be “correct?”
So how do you we know we are trans? Well, let me ask you a question: do you know a single cisgender person who physically experiences what I’ve just described? On a daily basis? Does any part of the experience I’ve just described sound or feel “normal” to you? And if you think the answer is “yes” - and let me assure you, it isn’t - that may reveal more than you realize.
I'm so dysphoric, even binders don't help hide the huge chest my family says I was "blessed" with
This is exactly how I feel.
feel this so much man
From a large chested cis woman, anyone who thinks big boobs are automatically a blessing doesn't know what they're talking about. The underwire bars, the sweatiness, the shear difficulty of finding swimwear and shaped-boddiss tops/dresses that fit, all of it is such a pain, but it must pale in comparation to having dysphoria about them. I hope you can obtain a solation that isn't too painful, stressful or expensive.
@@SaryTheWolf even before I knew I was trans I hated my big chest. It bothered me because it's heavy. Now it's also a psychological issue due to it not matching. Sadly the only fix for some of us folx is to get top surgery, which is extensive, expensive, and painful sometimes. But I'd rather go through that temporary thing then live with the permanent alternative
@@theemotransenby I know top surgery is no walk in the park, I just hope isn't TOO much any person that needs it to go through.
The scene when they are hugging their body in the shower really resonated with me. Dysphoria is body horror (well theoretically that's dysmorphia ig). Every day I just want to look in the mirror and be able to love what I see.
I am not trans but I really want to support my boyfriend with everything he does
You guys are great and I respect tou
Simple, wordless, understandable. All in 1:30 a message was well delivered. I could watch a hundred videos on the topic but this is a must watch when it comes to understanding dysphoria. It's a feeling deep down that you just aren't you. Some person calls you handsome or you are forced to wear clothes that just tell people something about you that just isn't true. It's a guttural feeling of wearing someone else's skin. It's like someone spreading lies about who you are like a sign plastered on you wherever you go. The feeling that you can't be you.
Thank you so much for your kind words!
This is honestly so beautiful. The animation and drawings to the music!
Thank you!
I am personally not transmasc but I relate to this really well because of how dysphoria effects me. The music just goes so well with it and it's just generally very calming.
thank u for creating this it feels good to now that many other people feel the same way. because whenever I try to explain it to other people they just don't get it. and it hurts😢
That was beautiful. The jar filling up each time something seemingly "minor" triggers the character's dysphoria is something I've been trying to explain so many times. It piles up and traumatizes you. The ending felt a bit "too easy" for me personally but I have to acknowledge the short playtime and the fact that some people indeed feel that kind of extreme relief when binding. I did feel relief, I felt euphoric and happy, but it was not as impactful as I had hoped for. More like a soft nod towards myself that confirmed that I need top surgery. Something I already knew.
But enough of me, this is a very beautiful animation and I felt very moved by seeing an animated character being so relatable. Thank you for making this.
Hi there! Thank you for watching!
I love this interpretation of the jar being anxiety from dysphoria filling up and emptying when relief (the binder) is received! It’s great! Originally, my intention was this to be a young person saving up for their very first binder and the jar was the change the scrimped and saved to afford it. I remember them being so expensive to me in my teenage years and not many retailers online even had them.
This video was originally an assignment for a Women and Gender Studies course I took in college. I was quite limited in time as we needed to a lot 30 different presentation in the hour. I would typically agree that yes, dysphoria is not solved so easily but getting a binder did give me strength to move forward to the next step.
Thank you for your kind words and support!
The UA-cam gods have decided to promote this video to me and I shall try create more traction for it by commenting
1:04 Me: I think I'm going to start crying about now.
Literally a few seconds later: yep!
as a transguy i can confirm that getting a binder is the best decision of my life
well i had an experience were a girl ask me if I was a girl or a boy and told her i was a boy and then she started to tell me every single feminine thing I had like "oh but Ur eyes are SOOO feminine and Ur chest is so big" like Damm why ask then?
[PHYSICAL] LOVE IS HARD TO COME BY WITH THIS MINDSET. PEOPLE DON'T REALIZE WHAT DYSPHORIA DOES TO A HUMAN'S MOTIVATION
bruh i almost fuckijn cried im a trans woman and this hit me square in the feels
same
This was so sweet. I'll never forget getting my first binder. You're doing great my guy 👍💙
And I felt this deep in the center of my being.
Beautiful , I been there bruh , also tiny reminder , disphoria is different for everyone and at diffrent scales for instance some feel disphoria about arm hair but not other parts of the body or at times looking at some body parts may make you feel nausiously gross , other times it's just mild discomfort and other times you don't think about it at all and thats A ok dudes , and it doesn't make your gender any less valid , much love to ya'll
Hi! Thank you for watching! This was inspired solely on my person experience from my youth. I too have experienced other facets of dysphoria as have others. Then some may not experience dysphoria at all. We’re beautifully diverse.
@@furystar12 thankyou for making the lovely animatic dude ^^
I can't transition Because of my family and I wish I could buy my binder someday for now I have sports bras that help me with my chest.
Also wonderful animation it moved my soul.
Thank you!
Stay strong my friend!
I can relate WAY to much to this
as an afab non binary person, same bro
For awhile i was counting and keeping track of everytime i felt dysphoria but it wouldn't even be 12pm and id have easily over 20, which got pretty depressing pretty quickly. Anyway, put an end to that in less than a week.
One day... one day
Man I wish i could get a binder. I’m out to my family but they don’t accept me. They restricted contact from all of my friends so now i’m completely alone. But hey, i’m rooting for you. It’s nice you can be happy with a binder and a short haircut and everything.
I hope that you're OK and you have some way of getting help. Sending love from th other side of a screen
Hello!
Thank you for watching! Admittedly, I went through a VERY similar period in my young teenage life when I was questioning and my family panicked.
I’m 25 now and I’m fully out. Have been on hrt for a few years and looking into surgery.
It gets better I promise. Stay strong my friend this too shall pass I believe in you
As a Skibidi Toilet enjoyer I can say with confidence that this animation is quite sigma indeed.
So lovely! It would be really cool if you remake this and see how much your animating has changed
this is very beautiful. i really relate with it!
Thank you so much!
OK this is a beautiful and adorable story and I’m so happy for you
This is emotional 😭😭😭 and beautifully animated
Wonderful video, great work.
Thank you very much!
i agree and have the same experience.
except the binder part. it did nothing.
any fellow unbindable guys, eh?
can't wait for top surgery if it ever happens.
Thanks for sharing to me, your own way
how did I only find this now...
thank you
Thank you my friend!
@@furystar12 and thank you as well. it means so much to have media that actually shows dysphoria... cant find that basically anywhere. also i love the art :')
this is beautiful
I'm lucky enough to both not have gender dysphoria not be trans
But I absolutely wish all my trans homies the best in beating that dysphoria's ass and living life as your true self!!.
Ya'll are beautiful and I Love you all
Thanks, good animation video! always bind safely :)
Thank you too!
18k views, 157 subscribers, 5 years old. i feel like this video chose me.
This is beautiful.
Note. Love the dysphoria hoodie
Thank you!
Wow. This video is really good at capturing how it feels. Been on hrt a year now and these feelings still pop up on occasion but not as much anymore. (Trans woman here btw) thank you for a wonderful video!(and yes this is my first time watching.)
Thank you so much!
Powerful!
i'm crying
Honetsly love this animation a lot. Not trans but enby and top dysphoria
Enby is still being trans. Being trans is anything that isn't cis
damn
so simple but effective
well i was doing a pretty good job at ignoring my dysphoria until now
Fury it's beautiful love Keep the good work up
Thank you so much!!
Fury no problem
Trying on shirts till you get it right..
I'm very late to this but still. As a trans boy I appreciate this animation a lot. But unluckily for me my mom is transphobic and homophobic so even if I did come out to her I'd never be able to get a binder.
Thank you for watching!
Stay strong my brother! It will get better!
As a trans woman, it feels exactly this melancholy… but I think with slightly more emotional implosion, at least for me. Maybe that’s just because I unfortunately don’t have the option of coming out, and most likely won’t for many years, so the manic states of escalating panic than exhaustion are more intense maybe? I just hope it ends one day. I hope one day I don’t have to live like this, like, I really hope this is not all there is.
I’m rooting for you my sister! Stay strong!
@@furystar12 thank you
Thank you...
ohh sheez. i feel the needle in my chest now. (ouch)
seriously, dysphoria sucks. im a questioning individuals myself.soo im super confused. i only know is
1:i like to become a woman or femboy or idk femme sometimes. i still comeback to boy mode.
2: im suuuper suck at crossdressing i hate seeing myself in the mirror or vids but i like presenting femme.
3:im super masc for my own liking but also i dont want to leave my masculinity behind.
4: im super scared. im closeted.
5:im still cis?????
ok thats all?. this video is very relatable. cheers...
Questioning can be scary! The fluidity and social expectations of “gender” make it really confusing. Stay strong my friend!
I wonder why this appeared on my recommended page...
(great animation btw)
Thank you!
Niw when someone asks me what dysphoria means i can show them this
I really need a binder :(
The song sounded like Hopes and Dreams from Undertale
this is not the end....
I hope you are doing well in your transition goals and are staying safe. Knowing how this world is going right now, please stay safe.
I am trans feeme, so it was getting breast forms for me. Since I have started hrt and started developing my own, I have had to start getting smaller ones.
Whats feeme?
@@Am-uj6qn trans woman
Hello! Thank you!
Congratulations on your transition progress and stay safe as well my sister!
That’s me
It starts with one
All I know
It's so unreal
Watch you go
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself of a time when I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mockin' me
Actin' like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end
You kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually
Be a memory of a time when I
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme to explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
You didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Tryin' to hold on, they didn't even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory
Of a time when I tried so hard
minecraft chicken fight moment
Yeah but mine is just too big that wearing binder could be even worse than just sports bra
Anyways well made animation! It really got me ☠️
Such a good animation. I'm nonbinary but am afab so I can relate to a lot of this
I'm glad!❤
real
I'm trans myself and I feel that so much... I'm mostly fine with my body when hiding it with baggy hoodies. But recently we are forced to go swimming cuz of the school. And even though I have a swimbinder it just feels awful
Also my partner tells me not to hide behind hoodies, but they just make me feel so safe... It's a struggle... But it helps knowing I'm not alone
Your health is your greatest treasure. A healthy mind and body and environment for it to flourish should be your priority.
Sometimes our environment doesn’t allow it for us but hold on you’ll get there some day.
Are you “hiding” in hoodies or rather are they your suits of armor protecting you?
Pushing yourself out of your comfort zone to create growth and self inflicting duress are two different things.
Stay strong my friend. Thank you for watching.
Don't you just love dysphoria
I think I want to have a binder just to try it out. Maybe I'll feel better like that? Idk. THE THING IS. I'm 13 years old. I can not find any stores that sell them (near me). And ofc I can't buy them online because I don't have, like, a bank account and stuff like that. BUT I don't think I can tell my parents about that, so they could buy me one. I'm just gonna wait till I'm old enough? Idk.
What i did was ask a friend if they could buy it and have it shipped to their house. I paid them back later. I know that not everyone is lucky enough to be in that position to have a supportive friend. I hope you get a binder soon though
In the mean time, have you tried a sports bar? They won't make you as flat as a binder but they're better then regular bars and easier to find, also you won't have explain anything to your parents. Just be carful not to wear it too tight for too long, you don't want to do yourself damage that could make it too risky to wear a binder when you do get one.
The cis character who wondered if the trans person was trying to be a woman or thinking the trans person sees themselves as a woman, alluding to how the Trans person's own gender perceptions were dictated by the cis character's alleged gender perceptions of the trans person. This spoke loudest to me.. they gendered the trans person in a way that triggers in the trans character a feeling like they don't own their own body and reproductive systems, they don't have any gender agency on their own, because of Biological sex ideology. indeed, It was quite beautiful how the cis character has a female symbol question mark towards the trans person, WHILE it harmed the trans person, because the gendering itself is what I believe is the problem. The text reveals to me how the cis character imposes gendered notions onto the person, where the cis character essentialized the trans person's gender experience.. imposing a gender experience that the trans person sees is dysphoric. Indeed, the trans person presents Culturally male while we see the trans person trying on culturally normative female attire.. hence the nonobvious allusion is how the trans character presenting as male and female creates in the cis character this distress for breaking the cis character's gender gaze. the cis character imposed their gendered notions onto the person, imposed gendered intentionality onto the trans person.. so we as the audience assume the trans person's assigned gender identity and their perceived self in the text, thereby doing to the trans person what the cis character does to the trans person. Indeed, the cis character is the key character in my mind, not the trans person.. we are the cis person who assumes the trans person's status relative to Biological sex ideology rather than that the trans person just doesn't conform to our cultural gaze we internalized.
Interesting interpretation! That was great to read!
This video was drawn upon my own personal experiences as a transmasc person particularly from my youth.
In that scene, the cis woman questions if the afab trans person is a woman. I wanted to detail specifically a situation of social dysphoria alongside physical dysphoria. Here the trans person is misgendered, not maliciously, but it is painful nonetheless. They place a mask with a ‘X’ over their face. They believe they encountered this situation because their voice is not traditionally masculine. So they choose not to speak any more.
I don't quite get the images with the jar filling up. What is that part about?
Hi!
The original intent was a young person saving up money for their first binder. The jar is gradually filling up with the change they have collected and is empty once their purchase has arrived.
I saw another interpretation of the filling jar being the stress and anxiety caused by dysphoria. The binder provided relief and emptied the jar. I love this point of view as well!
@@furystar12 thanks for explaining! 😊
Damn...same
same
just like me fr
Is it bad that I relate to this? I'm scared somebody pls help me 😵💫
Most of my experience of this stuff is from quite a distance but I'll try to help:
Depends what you mean by "bad". Relating to this probably means that you have gender dysphoria too. Would your life be easier if you didn't. Probably. However, fingering out that you're dysphoric is the first step to doing something about it.
If you feel that dysphoria is having a notable impact on your life you should talk to a medical professional, your GP or family doctor is a good first point of call and should be able to point you to the appropriate specialist. In the mean time it's a good idea to seek out social support. Talk to your family and friends about it if you feel safe doing so. See if you can find a support group for dysphoric, trans, and/or LGBT+ people.
Ultimately know that, weather you turn out to gender dysphoric or not, weather you turn out to trans or not, any and all steps that are taken should be done so with the goal of helping you feel combatable, happy, confident and save.
@@SaryTheWolf thanks
wow
‘Pronouns??’
*Smile and say you’re a guy, cause no one knows yet…
❤️🏳️⚧️
Whenever I say videos like this, I feel bad that I don't feel like shit even though I'm trans too. I guess I should be happy about it, but when you don't suffer... it's easy to think it isn't real.
Not all trans people experience dysphoria the same way or experience dysphoria at all. That’s okay and it doesn’t make you a bad person or a bad trans person.
I hate that I know this songs lyrics. It makes it hurt more.
Also that I'm now certain I'm Nonbinary, but live with transphobic/homophobic bigoted parents. It makes it a Herculean strength to try and just... Breathe. It is a suffocation pit. I'll see tomorrow. And tomorrow. And tomorrow. To see if my anguish and suffering can yield another horizon. One where I can be me.
Stay safe. Much loves. Adieu.
Hello!
Thank you for watching my video! I come from conservative family roots and was closeted at home for a long time. I’m 25 now and fully out, have been hrt for a few years and will begin making plans for surgery.
I promise it gets better. Hang in there my sibling
I know I'll be stuck like this forever and never transition 😭 I'm unable to live away from my family and they're VERY transphobic 😭
I know it aint gonnney mean much but I hope anyone suffering with depression or anxiety gets better mental health wise (also respect peoples pronouns)
I'm a closeted non binary chaotic mentally ill person who's only goal in life is to make other people be confused what gender I am, though I do relate to this, I did think I was trans for a while but I started imagining if I would use those pronouns instead and I thought "yea, no, it doesn't feel right" and I had the realisation that I didn't feel like a guy or a girl, I felt like something separated from them and that's how I found out I am non binary.
I consider myself part of the trans community because from what I understand, being trans is used as an umbrella term and doesn't have to mean only being mtf or ftm, you can be trans and still use they/them pronouns. My dysphoria isn't incredibly severe since I usually avoid looking at myself anyway.
To everyone dealing with dysphoria, just hold on, one day, when you are older, you can look the way you always wanted to, feel the way you always wanted, and hopefully have incredibly supportive family or friends or maybe a partner and you can live your life freely.
Still cis though
What does this mean??
If you have the privilege of not understanding this animation, then consider yourself lucky.
Search up gender dysphoria