Hi Richard! I actually visit your site every now and then just to take a nostalgia trip. You were basically my door into hardware modding and seeing things like the Nintoaster and the Super Genintari blew my mind, and I wanted to do stuff like that (my horizons moved from the 80s-90s consoles to stuff like the Wii, PS3 and 360). It's great to see you're still out here.
Thanks! I always love hearing comments like this. And props for moving on to the newer consoles. I'll admit, the newer stuff is still a mystery to me, haven't done much toying around at all yet.
Just wanted to tell you that I have been keeping up with you ever since you posted the Super Genintari aka Leviticus videos when I was like 13.... I am 28 now, me and my friends honestly see the Nintoaster Instructional video as a part of our childhood growing up in the age of the internet and we still quote it to this day. Your sense of humor in that video and others honestly were some of the many things that impacted and created what my sense of humor is today. You are a good man and I only hope the best for you and your pups. Also thanks for what you contributed to the retro gaming community with all of your amazing creations ✌
...Wow! I do always love to hear that I've impacted someone's life in a positive way or inspired them to do something, they're always my favorite comments, but this is a new one! I never thought my sense of humor would actually help shape someone else's, that's so wildly cool to hear! And hey, I hope to provide more! I'm far from done yet, just hit a particularly bad patch in my life is all. There's more project stuff coming, non-project related stuff, random BS, possibly livestreams, we'll see here soon! Going to be testing some stuff out to see what sticks and how the response is. PS: A quick update on Zero. He's actually up and walking around on his own again! He's still got a weird little head tilt and he's been picky about what he eats, but otherwise he seems to be about mmmm... 80% back to normal? For a doggo his age, that's remarkable! I honestly didn't think he was gonna bounce back from this. He's not 100% yet, but getting better every day.
Thank you! I wasn't sure for the longest time, but decided to spill my guts and get it out of the way. Hope it cleared a lot of things up. And yes, gotta keep moving forward! Gotta keep doing.
Just the name Human Resources says it all. You're nothing but a resource, like a table saw, to them. Also, anyone flipping off their boss is a mega Chad in my book. Editing this as I go along with the video. Seeing your old friend just lie there is heart breaking. That's no way for such a good boy to suffer.
LOL! XD Well, it felt good at the time, just kinda wish I was in better control of my emotions though. Not entirely on me though, they were definitely pushing us all as hard as they could. And yeah, we're still watching Zero closely. He's showing SOME signs of improvement is is great, but he's still far from out of the weeds on this one. I'm really hoping they allow us some more time is he's starting to show more positive signs, but we certainly don't want to prolong any suffering either. It's a tough one.
These are always some of the most rewarding comments to hear! I'm so happy to hear that I've played a positive role in your life, and intend to continue that trend. :)
Hey Richard. I've been subscribed for about 10 years or so (ever since the Atari Jaguar video from AVGN when I checked that out back in High School). You're the main reason I picked up a soldering iron during covid, which helped keep me productive. I can relate a lot to the bad job + HR debacle story, more than you realize. This is going to sound a bit selfish but I take comfort in knowing that someone else deals with similar bullshit I'm dealing with and responds in a similar way. I didn't fly off the handle but, fuck man, I wanted to. And I too realized that HR is there for the company, not for you. With that being said I am actually going back to school for HR and I will tell you first and foremost: while I respect some people in my field, from my own experience and what goes on around work, HR includes some of the most uneducated, delusional professionals that were capable of putting in 120 credit hours for a bachelor’s. They don't know psychology, they don't understand just how difficult a job can be that isn't sitting in an office all day pushing a pencil in an air-conditioned building. Even compared to white-collar jobs, they are still life on easy mode except maybe if you're a VP or hiring manager. You can find out more about HR just as easy by looking up satisfaction in the workplace. In terms of ratio (satisfaction vs. pay - IE work life balance, benefits, not getting the urge to flip off everyone when working that type of job because you're generally happier, Read: blissfully ignorant, etc) HR is one of the higher ones that doesn't require intense technical skills (like being a Commercial airline pilot). HR is also one of the least respected, least liked professions, which makes me chuckle a bit. Anyway, that's the career path I'm going so hopefully if we ever cross paths you don't hate me. Lol. Anyway, as for channel ideas, it's a big ask, but could you try doing tutorial videos for soldering? There is a lot of shit information out there and even with reputable people I always find something not working right (desoldering electronics is a new form of hell for me, I gave up after fucking up a fair number of projects). I feel like you have that level of experience where you've made mistakes but also still shipped projects (GGTV, for example). It's a big ask cuz like, most people think of some crazy level of editing and presentation, but if you wanna just get in front of a board and say what comes to your head, that's a start. You don't have to be an educator or teacher, just a practitioner. We don't need to know the chemical reaction of why shit works with a analytical 30 minute video explaining it with tons of editing. Also, I need to know, where I can download/buy that song in the Nintoaster Instructional video. I tried clicking the link in the description but it leads to a social media page and I cannot find the song anyway. I know it's probably some simple garageband beat but do you know where I can download that shit? I've been trying to find it for like 10 years now. Thanks.
Wow, it's hard to believe that episode was so long ago now! Yikes. Yeah, HR can be such a multi-headed beast like that. Not ALL HR departments are like that, I understand that, but my personal experiences so far and reading about so many others has left an overall bitter taste in my mouth. Getting paperwork and things like benefits cleared-up? Usually no problem. But things tend to get really hairy when it comes to workplace disputes and drama. I try to see things from their perspective too, I'm sure it isn't easy. I'd like to believe that many of them have the best intentions and truly want to help, but may not be able to for one reason or another, and it's just easier to let people go. Depends of the company, of course. I'm wishing you the best of luck in your career with HR and genuinely hope it's a rewarding one for you, rather than something unhealthy and soul-sapping. Fingers crossed! And yeah, I think I could make some kind of soldering tutorial of some kind happen. I still question whether or not I'M doing things "properly" at times, because yeah, googling around the internet, kinda seems like you'll get differently advice and methods at times, it can be hard to say definitively what the RIGHT was is. I'd be happy to share my own personal methods and what works for me though! I'll need to think through it and make sure I'm not giving out any objectively incorrect information though, don't wanna end up making myself look like an idiot, LOL! Ah, the song. Yeah, my friend Jeremy (the composer) is notorious for moving around, nuking his sites and making new ones, it can be hard to keep tabs on him at times. Throw an email at me and I'll give ya a link to the file or something. (UA-cam can be stupid about links in comments).
Hey man, this video was a pleasant surprise. You kept apologizing for the lack of updates, but the truth is you dont owe us anything. Live your life. I'm wishing the best for you, your dogs, the projects, and whatever else. Peace.
Yeah, in talking with friends about it, I would frequently hear "It's your own business, you don't owe them anything". And they're correct, but at the same time, you fellas have historically been very supportive of me and as time went on, I personally felt like this video was necessary, as unhappy as the subject may be. Thanks for the well wishes! Trying to keep my head up.
Man, I don’t think you owe me anything, but, thanks for the update. I got “laid off” back in 2008, and happened upon your Nintoaster video and it got me through a really rough patch back then. Not sure if I have actual depression, but I was definitely in a bad place, and again, it really helped. I’d love to make hobbiest/maker content of any kind, so I appreciate your work in whatever way you can provide it. You losing those jobs don’t sound unreasonable with the workforce being the way it is these days. It sounds more like you quit with style rather than got fired. I would’ve quit the call center shit within weeks. Glad that you’re in a comfy spot now. Not sure what to say about your dog, other than I hope he makes it through. 15 years is a massive run for a dog, so at least know you gave him a good life and he experienced some love. Again, thanks for update and deal with things on your terms and do what you can.
Thanks for taking the time to write me. 2008 was certainly a shitty time, no doubt. Was living out in San Francisco at the time and the shop was talking about shutting down. And with all the recession stuff going on, we felt it a good time to get out of dodge and move to San Antonio. Getting back on my feet job-wise was a bit rocky at first for sure, that's when I officially went from blue collar to white collar with my very first job in IT. It's been a wild ride. I'm really happy to hear that I was able to indirectly help you out in some capacity, that's always nice to hear and lifts my spirits. :) Yeah, 15 is no doubt a long run for any dog. Despite what happens, he's lived a good, long life, has been loved and very well taken care of. We're keeping that in mind.
Richard, I never comment on Videos but this one means a lot to me man. You're the man. Hang in there. Your nintoaster video got me through some hard times. Hang in there! You mean a lot to all your fans
Hell yeah! The dude who was solely responsible for getting me into electrical engineering still exists 😎 Also, it could be worth it to look into getting a genesight test, I can't guarantee it won't tell you what you already know but it worked pretty good for me.
I'll never get tired of hearing comments like these! Thrilled to be a catalyst of some kind. :) And I just looked up genesight testing. Seems like something I'd like to explore, I'll bring that up to the doc. I'm willing to entertain all kinds of ideas at this point.
Well now I'm interested in getting tested. Pretty sure my psychologist recommended this to me, when ai last saw them MONTHS back, and the Prozac was still mildly working.
Great to hear from you Richard, hang on in there mate and really hope your pup gets better. There's not much that hits harder than losing a pet (it f***ing sucks), I'm sure he'll bounce back and be well again. Just read these comments, there's plenty of us here that are just happy that you've checked in. Because you're genuine, you tell it like it is, no sugar coating or bullshit. But it's plain to see you have a big heart and are a good person. Remember that. That's why all of us are commenting good things. Your channel is one that actually prompted me to start my own, made a video in my spare time but haven't released it. It's shit to be fair, but I enjoyed doing it. You also actually took the time years ago to email me back when I asked for help to build a Nintoaster. You sent so much information and we're so helpful, I genuinely couldn't believe it. I never thanked you for that, but I'm thanking you now. Anyways long boring comment over. Take care mate and don't be gone too long... UA-cam needs it's original heroes!
I'm glad you took the time to reply. I'm having trouble articulating just how much your words have moved me, but I'll try. You're absolutely right. I wasn't expecting this kind of a response, but I'm genuinely blown away at just how many supporting, heartfelt things are being said. It was so overwhelming that I took a day off just to process my thoughts before replying to people. It helps immensely in ways I don't have words for. I feel blessed to be surrounded by such good people, on youtube of all places, which can be a bit impersonal and crazy for many. I'm perfectly content with what I have, and love that things aren't so crazy that I'm still able to engage with most people. (I could see that being a lot more difficult to do if my channel were HUGE or something). I've seen some ideas tossed around that may further engagement, which I'm seriously considering exploring. More to come on that. Anyway. I'm glad to hear that I was able to help with your Nintoaster is some capacity! That's awesome. I still get the occasional request for information on the subject, and am still more than happy to reply when I can, but I've certainly missed a few here and there, which still kinda eats at me in a way. Glad I was able to help you though. Brings a smile to my face. :) Thanks again for taking the time to leave such a thoughtful comment. It really does mean a lot and helps my mood just as much as any combination of pills. Attacking this thing from as many angles as possible and hope not to be such a ghost anymore. Much love, - Richard
Also, have you ever considered streaming? Like a live Q&A and just answering people’s tech questions and curiosities. I know I would certainly tune into that - just listening to your takes and advice on peoples tech projects and ideas would be awesome.
Y'know, that's not a bad idea at all! To be honest, I've thought about it before, but kinda brushed it off because believe it or not, I'm not THAT huge of a gamer these days, or even very good at it. XD The space is already flooded with game streamers anyway, so yeah, I'd like to try something a bit different if I decide to attempt streaming. It doesn't even necessarily have to be about video games or projects alone, I'm open to pretty much anything right now; Music, art, beer, food, oddly specific questions, etc. The only topic I'd like to steer clear of is politics. It's just too divisive and has no place here. I'd like to keep things fun. Will need to decide on HOW I'd wanna to that too; either tied to my desk with the better computer and mic, and try going at it with a laptop so I can roam. (I do love the freedom to roam around!) We'll see where this goes, will need to work out all the technical kinks and run tests too. I think it's a very interesting idea.
Dude, that really sucks to hear what with all that bullshit you’ve been going through over the years. As someone who has also been on Effexor before, I can gladly tell you that it sucks royal ass. It just felt like all of my interests and hobbies just kinda stopped (Sertraline, too) and they were just locked behind a wall of “who cares” at the front of my brain. I first discovered you from AVGN’s Atari Jaguar video back in 2010 or so, yet I’m new subscriber and I loved the Nintoaster so much that I wanted to try to make one but I never could. All those crazy projects you come up with have have surely got me intrigued. In the mean time, I hope everything gets better in life soon enough with you, man. 👍 Also, for any ideas for content on the channel. If so had to give some suggestions, perhaps you could do Let’s Plays (more older fashioned ones) or livestreams alongside videos of whatever project you were working on.
Thank you for taking the time to reply. It's nice to hear that you found me from content so ancient now, it's hard to believe how much time has passed! Pretty wild. Thank you so much for the well wishes, it means a lot. And who knows! Maybe a day will come that you DO pick up a soldering iron and start poking around! Stranger things have happened. :) You're not the first person to suggest streaming, so I'm giving that some serious consideration. Could be fun, and would give me another opportunity to engage with you fellas. More on that to come as I figure things out.
I found this video after trimming my beard and randomly thinking of the Nintoaster Instructional Video. Dude, I'm so happy to see you're still here! It sounds like you've been through a ton - sorry to hear that. Mental illness is an absolute horrorshow, and your struggle to find something AFTER Effexor (which I currently take) is scary. Hopefully you'll find something that sticks and gets you back to good. It was good to see you again after so many years! Subscribed and looking forward to more! P.S. - very happy to see your doggo is getting better!
I want to say so much. I want to tell you how much you inspired me to not be afraid of these cute boxes that gave me so much joy yet was too concerned I'd break something if I took them apart.... thanks to you I became interested in hardware tweaks and now have it as a hobby of mine to take busted old consoles and revive them. I want to tell you that your video editing humor was so influential to me that it's a part of my DNA now.... I see some of my mannerisms and I can point to some of my humoristic tendencies to your content. I want to give you a big damn hug. I want to tell you that you aren't alone. I want to tell you are worthwhile and amazing and a superhero for getting through every day. You are ENOUGH. I want to tell you that every year you spent SURVIVING is just building up your moments of THRIVING. And that time has come for you to THRIVE, my friend. You don't know me, and I hardly know you. But I
Man. Comments like these are so much better than actual paid therapy from my psychologist. I'm dead serious. ;__; You just told me everything I absolutely LOVE hearing and then some! To positively impact someone in a way that they discover a new love? AND somehow influence your sense of humor?!? This is some serious high praise! If I ever run into you at a convention or something, you're gettin' a hug, a high-five and a solid fist-bump. We're all floating around together on this rock in the humbling vastness of space, not knowing what's next or why, if this is just a dream or if any of this ultimately matters at all. May as well try our best to enjoy it while it lasts, be kind to the billions of others with a consciousness just as vivid and real as our own, and leave a positive impact if possible. Whatever this life is, it's too short to just waste away in bed staring at the dusty-ass ceiling fan, just waiting for some magic to happen on it's own. In closing, I love you too, man. I consider you all brothers in this awkward and often confusing-ass journey called life. Shine on brother, shine on.
So I was looking for a different channel and came across yours. I'm glad I clicked! Good to see you're still around. I never got into modding myself, but was always enamored with the guys who do it. You're part of the old guard, and you deserve to be among the modern group of modders and hope you can bust your way back into that whole scene! I see you have a number of videos up, and I'm gonna check them all out! Keep healing!
Thank you so much! Coming back has had a massively positive impact on me so far. I've definitely been getting back into modding, but folk may be missing a lot of it right now if they don't catch the streams. (Usually Monday and Thursday evenings). I'm working on some kind of recap from the streams to show what's been going on, have several things in the works right now, I just haven't been uploading everything either because it may be boring or unfinished right now. Oh believe me, there's definitely more to come. Unexpected things.
Here's an idea for a video or 2. A Vomitsaw Halloween special! Maybe a ghost hunt with the Nintoaster as your sidekick or maybe tell ghost story experiences with the dogs chilling next to you on the couch. In the middle of the story you can reach down and give the Super Genintari a scratch behind the ear while it naps on the floor. "That's a good boy".
I'm not certain they were actually ghosts, per se, but I HAVE definitely experienced some supernatural shit, all very real. And I wasn't alone. There are many other witnesses that were experiencing and seeing the exact same things, so I know I wasn't just going crazy. I'm a skeptic, but this was something I can't even begin to explain. I hope that science has some kind of explanation someday. I haven't said anything about this publicly because I don't want people to write me off as some kind of loon. I might share those stories someday, we'll see.
Can't imagine how hard this was to film and upload, but it's great to hear from you again. Not one of your longest followers but hopefully one day that 5200 couch project you joked to me many years back will become a reality.
I understand what you're going through, there's been a lot of ups and downs in my life that's changed my view on things for better or for worse, but I want you to know that we're all here for you. I'm glad to know you're still here. Growing up watching your videos got me into engineering, and it always pushes me to think outside the box to be as creative as possible when smooshing things together (like an NES in a Toaster). I've got a few projects I started because of your channel, and while they still remain incomplete due to limited time and funds, thinking about them reminds me of all the fun times I had watching all the zany ideas you have. You really had a positive impact on my life, and I really appreciate you and aspire to do all the things you have done. One in particular, an SP in a Gameboy shell, comes to mind as one of my "for later" projects. I wish the absolute best for Zero. The goodest boy deserves the biggest treat. You're the best, vomitsaw. Don't push yourself too hard. After all, we just want you to be the best you that you can be.
Thank you so much for the thoughtful reply. It certainly isn't easy, but I'm far from done fighting. And I'm thrilled to hear that my silly videos actually had some kind of positive impact on your life and sent you exploring yourself! These are some of my absolute favorite things to hear, always have been. It helps to lift the feeling of worthlessness knowing that in some way, I've had a positive influence on someone's life, as arguably silly as it may be sometimes. Taking your kind words to heart and riding the serotonin wave while it lasts. :) Zero is sleeping soundly right now and has shown some small signs of improvement, which we're hoping continue. I'll keep you fellas updated.
sorry to hear about your dog. i dealt with the same last year and it was brutal, but the pain does go away after a while. take your time with the videos and try your best to power through your issues. been following you since i was in middle school and im almost 30 now.
Thanks for sticking around for so long! I promise, I intend for things to get better and be more fun. Just gonna take some work, as with anything. And I've got some potentially good news about Zero! He's up and walking around on his own again (as best he can anyway), and hasn't been throwing up his food. He's not just stuck in a catatonic state on the floor anymore. I consider these to be signs of improvement, and a good reason to give him more time, unless things suddenly start going south again. Still watching closely.
So sorry to hear about all of your struggles. My bf struggles with his mental health too. Did your vet recommend Benadryl to treat Zero? It helps with the nausea and head tilt. But check with your vet, because dosage is determined by weight.
Thank you for taking the time to listen. I really can't ask for much more. And I'm sorry to hear about your bf's struggles. I'm sure you just being there helps him in many ways. Real talk, I'd probably already be dead by now if not for my wife. I'm not sure if my wife is giving him Benadryl right now or not, but I'll check with her on that. (We DO occasionally give him some though, he's a notoriously itchy dog and has a tendency to develop hot spots that he scratches at a bit too much. That's usually when we'd break out the Benadryl).
Thank you for your reply, it means a lot. Not my intention to bring anyone down, just kinda felt like this update was necessary, as heavy as the subject(s) may be. I wanna be real with you guys, for better or worse.
Richard!!! I knew an update is coming. I knew it. So grateful for this update. I was coming back every 2 years - I watched the Nintoaster video like a 100 times. I really hope you are on a path of improvement. As someone struggling with anxiety disorded for the last 16 years who struggles with processing people (and animals) passing, I can relate a little bit. Remember there is still a lot of people that remember about you and think about you. Please remember that. I know it helps. On the 72pin: Start a gofundme or kickstarter or anything. Let us invest in this project. I don’t even care if it gets made :) PS Racoons are my spirit animals. Ain’t they the best? About your channel. Just find something that you like doing and what comforts you, film it and share it with us. I watch post10 - guy who unclogs drains and culverts. Hour long videos of him talking about beavers and removing beaver dams that flood roads. If you just do stuff you like and shoot the shit that is an instant watch for me.
Thanks for sticking around for so long! You fellas truly are awesome. :) As for a kickstarter for the 72-pin connector, I HAVE thought about that, but I'd only launch one once I actually have a working version in hand and everything is ready for an actual production run. (I wouldn't wanna take peoples' money for the research and testing prototypes and all of that). We'll see where it goes. I'm glad to hear that you're open to seeing whatever I upload, because I've been kicking around a few ideas that I'd like to try. One of them, by popular demand, is probably going to be live streaming. I've never done that before though, so no clue how that'll work out. First one will probably just be an anything-goes AMA, project ideas, food, beer, art, whatever you guys wanna rap about. Might have pre-planned topic ones too, not sure, it's all still up in the air right now. And yeah, raccoons are absolutely adorable. Wish they were domesticated, I'd totally have AT LEAST one! XD
@@vomitsaw Livestreams are a great idea. You‘re funny, you are talented and people will watch your stuff. Start somewhere and you will figure it out, fine-tune stuff as you go. It is always a process. Can’t wait to see more of your content!
@@innocentraptor I'm really starting to think this is a damn good idea the more I hear back about it. I don't have any fancy lights or green screens or even more than one monitor, but I've made magic work with less. ...I think this is doable.
@@vomitsaw I think it is a good idea for sure and I don’t think going pro setup is very… well for a lack of a better way to say it… „you“. It‘s not your style. All your videos are dim lit, more of a home video style - maybe that is a direction? I mean it needs to be authentic. If you suddenly went Instagram Influencer level of setup with ringlights and all that crap… that would be weird and „misaligned“ at best. Def try having some sort of a series so that you commit to some sort of continuity but not to a schedule. Fingers crossed!!!!!
@@innocentraptor Thank you! That's actually very good feedback! The content itself is far better than the glitter, and I've never been about the pretty. I want to show and share the ugly realism of life, no matter the topic. Sure I might add some light or an annotation here and there, but I've always liked being able to just do what I do and roam around if necessary. I'm starting to think that a decent laptop might be my best bet, so I can just grab everything and run around at a moment's notice. I like that kind of freedom. Buuuut, the main desktop has the better mic and all the content that I can pull up at a moments' notice. I don't know of a way to rapidly switch between the two. I'll just have to figure that out. As for a schedule... well, my wife has a schedule and it works out very well for her. But I have some serious doubts that it would work out for me. I just need a way of saying "Hey, yo, I'm going live in x hours" or whatever. I don't know if youtube does alerts like that when you go live or not, I've never even attempted it yet. Hmm.
good to hear from ya chief! thank you for posting again and hang on in there =) i still go back to your vids, especially the troubleshooting toaster vid cursing and losing your bap over a power outlet, i can relate ^_^
Thanks for the update, Richard. I, like many others, are happy to hear from you. As to what to post, maybe start with some lore about yourself, like how you got into modding. Maybe even what your goals are? Regardless, wishing you the best!
Thank you for the reply and interesting suggestion! Oh I've got plenty of lore, things you fellas have no idea about yet. A lot of stories and arguably strange history I'd love to share, for sure. It's been suggested a few times that I consider live streaming, and I'm seriously considering that. I think it'd be a great way to better engage with you fellas, shoot the shit, tell stores, share info and ideas, etc. I'll be looking into it!
Man... I did a double-take when this video popped up in my feed. Richard, I'll echo some of the other comments here and say that you don't owe us any explanations. Life happens, and sometimes it happens hard, and I think everyone here understands that. But I'd be lying if I said I'm not relieved that you checked in to give us an update. Honestly it's great to see your mug again in front of the camera, even if it's an impromptu life update. I'm glad to hear you've settled into a job with some prospects. Working for shitty employers that just want to exploit you is never a good situation to be in, but at least you had the gall to stand up for yourself, even if it meant them promoting you to customer. I wish I had some advice for you on the depression issue... I've never been on meds personally, but some of my family members have and from what they've told me it's an endless labyrinth of trial and error, tweaking doses and horrible side-effects that are sometimes worse than the depression itself... much like what you're describing. I guess all I can say is that doctors only know how to push pharmaceuticals. And why wouldn't they with all the kick-backs they receive, but pills usually only treat symptoms, not the core issue. Maybe your psychologist can help you more with that, and maybe some alternative, more natural treatments. I've heard of some people curing their depression with diet alone. There's so much shit in our food man, it boggles the mind... You know what they say, you are what you eat. I really hope Zero pulls through. I'm right there with ya, man... Dealing with ailing animals is one of the hardest things to do. You want them to live forever, but at the same time it breaks your heart to see them suffer. Whatever happens, it looks like he's lived the life of a king and is very loved, and I'm sure he loves you guys right back. So about the BLW... I bought one of those things years ago, not long after I installed an NESRGB into my front-loader (props to you BTW both for inspiring me to build my own Nintoaster and having the confidence to install the NESRGB - that thing was a PITA to put in). It still works great, but it has a major flaw, which is that once you insert a game you need a bloody Popeye grip to get the cart back out. Maybe my hands are too dainty, I dunno, but in any case I made my own ejection mod using literal skewers, popsicle sticks and superfluous amounts of epoxy to make it all work... All this is to say that if you do end up manufacturing your own version of the BLW, adding an eject feature would be literal tits on a sundae. Just my $.02. But I think there's definitely a market for a BLW replacement, and you're basically already there with the design. Have you considered using a 3D printer to make some prototypes? Might be a good place to start to iron out all the kinks. If you ever do a Kickstarter campaign or anything like that let us know. I'm sure many here would be happy to contribute! I think the whole process would be great content for your channel as well. Alright, well, sorry for the wall of text. Just happy to see you pop on here. I've always loved your content, man, but no pressure to produce. Take care of yourself first, and if inspiration strikes you've definitely got a loyal viewer in me. 🤜🤛
Thank you SO much for your thoughtful words! So many nice things you've touched on I'm not even sure where to begin. The job is much better. It's not perfect or anything, we're still arguably small and continuing to grow which can make things a bit hectic and confusing at times, but people tend to have each-others backs, which helps a lot. The comradery feels so much more real than previous jobs, which is really a huge help. All my coworkers genuinely care about each other and are happy to help when needed. That kind of thing isn't all too common anymore these days, so I feel lucky. Yup, all the trial and error can be annoying at times, but I've been patient and hopeful with every change/adjustment. Just haven't found anything that really sticks yet. And you're right, pills alone aren't going to fix this. I've got to attack it from multiple different angles. I'm doing what I can, and still have more ideas to try. Far from done. An update on Zero: He's actually starting to show some signs of improvement! We're hoping the trend continues and he's able to pull trough. We're doing what we can for him, holding out hope that he'll get through this, but also preparing for the worst if it ends up going that direction. It's wait and see right now. Ultimately, he's lived a very long, healthy, loving life, and that's what we'll try to keep in mind if worse comes to worse. Y'know, this isn't the first time that I've heard about the BLW requiring some kind of death grip to get the carts back out. Sounds like they may have gotten a little too zealous when trying to make sure that all the pins contact properly, I don't know. That's just my best guess. And yeah, I'd certainly love to document the process of having the Super-72 connector made if it's possible. There's so much I still don't know about the process, it's gonna take some more research. And hey, thanks for sticking around and being so patient with me. It really means a lot. I'll try not to be such a ghost. :)
We have never met in person, but I would answer the phone if you wanted to chat. I've watched your creations many times over, and I can't say thank you enough for the entertainment, inspiration, and knowledge you have shared over the years. I'm sorry this is happening, I'm glad you're still here, things will be better when you get there, and you're not that far away. Patty on.
@@wrendogg Thank you so much for the kind words! I'm happy to hear that I've been a source of entertainment for you and I fully intend to continue that. It's just gonna take more fighting. One day at a time.
Thank you for the kind words. It's appreciated. I'm a very patient man, I'm confident I'll get through this eventually. It's just gonna take more time and doing.
I hope your pup pulls through, Richard! And of course I hope you can beat your depression issues. And I bought a Blinking Light Win when they first came out, and it was great while it lasted. It died a few years back and I haven’t even tried to fix it.
Thank you for your thoughts and well wishes! Zero and I are both fighting the best we can. Huh. Interesting to hear that it stopped working. I'm genuinely curious as to why, because the design itself doesn't seem all that complex from what I can tell. Weird.
If we're REALLY going back to roots, that would also mean picking up the guitar and actually start drawing again. This is just one of my interests. :) I fully intend to keep creating, just sometimes don't always have much unique in mind.
Thank you very much for this update; seeing your name in my subscription feed; it took me a moment to realize who it was... All i can say is brace yourself for perhaps not soon but when you might have to say goodbye to your pet. 5 years on and i still miss the coolest cat I've ever met
Yeah, we're prepared for the inevitable as best we can be, but it's still gonna sting no matter what. We take solace in the fact that he's already lived a very long, happy, loving life and that's what we'll try to focus on most, instead of the loss.
Our first Golden retriever became fourteen years old and also very suddenly had trouble walking straight and keeping balance. Even after a long and good life it never gets easier to say good bye. You guys are amazing for taking in rescue dogs and giving them love. We hermits have an easier time connecting with animals. Best of luck with sorting out the medical situation and everything else. Be a stubborn bastard and never give up!
Yeah, it's always gonna sting no matter what, no matter how prepared I think I am. Keeping in mind that he's IS a very old dog, lived a long, healthy and truly loving life. Trying to focus on the positive. I know death is inevitable, but it's never easy. They love so unconditionally, it just hurts that much more. And yeah, adopting feels like the responsible thing for us to do. (Are even considering fostering). Unfortunately, San Antonio is awful when it comes to strays and abandoned dogs. The shelters are constantly at capacity and sadly, yeah, many are put down on a regular basis because they just can't handle the load. It's very sad. And oh yeah, I'm far from done, I fully intend to keep trying to kick this thing in the ass and get better. :)
I'm just glad to see you posting, honestly. You said you're feeling a little bit better but you're not sure if it's in your head? So what? You're feeling better. That's what matters the most. I'll be around for your next upload. Take it easy man.
@@vomitsaw You have a lot of life ahead of you to figure things out and feel better one day at a time. I believe in the man who almost made me buy a soldering iron. Biology got me a little sooner. Seeing the comments though, you got tons of people into hardware and engineering. You have a lot to feel good about.
its insane how we go through all this shit and are expected to work a job too. Never mind what you actually want to do with your time lol. Good luck to you Richard
so happy to see a video of yours again. your nintoaster II video is still a classic i rewatch every so often. i wish the best to you on the long road ahead :)
Thank you so much! I'm just gonna keep on keepin' on and doing what I have to do to improve, whatever that may be. Far from done trying different things. :)
I did not expect to hear from you today, but I'm happy to see ya again! I'm sorry to hear about your mental health struggles, job issues and your dog's health, I know what that feels like. I wish I could give ya a big ol' hug, but I'm glad you are still kicking to the best of your ability. As far as other things to do with the channel, you could just talk the games you've been playing (like the Hollow Knight shirt) or just ramble for 30 mins lol, whatever works best for you. Been a fan of yours for many years and even tried to get into engineering based off the Nintoaster tutorial, but that was a little beyond me lol. Hopefully this is the return of vomitsaw, and if not, that's ok. Do what you need to do to stay happy and healthy!
Thanks for thinkin' about us! It means a lot. And yeah, the channel description has never changed. "This space may or may not contain video documentation regarding my current and/or past projects, as well as whatever the hell I feel like." The "whatever the hell I feel like" part is important. I've always mixed in other unrelated nonsense, and I don't intend to change that habit. :) PS: Hollow Night was great! Punishing at times, but overall felt, looked, sounded and played beautifully. Patiently awaiting SilkSong now.
Voodoo Ranger was my daily driver for such a long time. Their Imperial IPA is such a good cheap beer. I've checked back on your channel quite a few times over the years. Glad to see an update from you. I sincerely hope things continue to look up for you and we'll keep Zero in our thoughts.
Voodoo Ranger is soooo good! ^_^ It's definitely a go-to. I like it a little TOO much at times though, heheh! And thanks, I'm gonna keep fightin' this thing, no matter what it takes. I'll keep you fellas updated on Zero too. He's actually shown some signs of improvement over the past couple days, and we're hoping that trend continues.
Very glad to see that you're still around. Like many in this comment section, you're the reason that I got into console modding. Love your stuff and I wish you the best in all future endeavors
Thank you! These type of comments are always my favorite. :) I never would have thought I'd end up being some kind of inspiration for so many. It helps remind me that I'm not completely worthless.
Thank you, Richard. I haven't even finished watching this video yet but I've been checking your channel regularly for years to see if you would post something and it's rather surreal of me to see you reappear. I almost felt like I'd never see you again. Much love and support, Richard. I wish I had a chance to hang out with you in real life. Much love, my friend. Best wishes.
Yeah I'm sorry I've been so quiet, I felt it wasn't fair to you fellas and finally nutted up and got this video out there, trying to explain myself. I really hope it helped to clear things up a bit. I'm far from done though, I'm not going anywhere.
With your legendary work on the Genintari, mixed with the convenience of 3D printing and cheap PCB on demand services I think you will be one of the best if you get back in the game (pun intended 😅), it will give you something to decompress and enjoy yourself with on top of being a potentially lucrative business. I discovered your work via James the AVGN way back when, prayers and wishes for great health and happiness. Keep it up mate!
Hey thanks for the reply! Yeah, basically a laser cutter, maybe CNC router and 3D printer, you can pretty much manufacture all sorts of silly shit! It's legitimately exciting. My only issue right now is that I'm kinda... running out of ideas, LOL! I also have other hobies that I've let atrophy over the years that I'd like to get back into. Used to draw, used to play guitar, used to enjoy photography... all of that took a back seat for the electronics. Sometimes I regret it, sometimes I don't, it's just too hard to juggle all of it at once, y'know?
@@vomitsaw I actually do know 😅 I love cars, tech, coding... I just keep jumping between them when I feel burnt out by one or the other. I had a PC building spree where I built 5 gaming PCs in 2 years (luckily I sold most of them when the market was in high demand). Then I jumped to Android devices, then projectors... I stay away from cars and bikes because it's way more expensive than any other hobby you can have :D. Life is short my friend, give it the beans and enjoy it as much as possible. Peace!
Thank you for the update. I'm sorry things aren't going well for you, but I'm glad you're alive and kicking. Losing pets is never easy, hopefully, Zero gets better, and if not then at least they lived a full great life with you. Speaking of the Blinking Light Win situation, I found on their Facebook that the reason for them not being in stock for some time is that they had issues with the factory producing their product and that they are working on finding an alternative factory, this was last updated on 2021, so the status of the current situation eludes me, but that was what I found. Hopefully, you get to pursue more of your passions again, and I can't wait to see where it leads, but content shouldn't take precedence over one's own mental health, and you shouldn't pressure yourself into making content to the detriment of yourself. Again thanks for the update and welcome back, KING!
Thank you so much for taking the time to hear me out and share such kind words with me! It means more than you know. :) Zero is actually starting to show some signs of improvement, so we're hopeful that he just needs a little more time to battle through this. He's always been a little tank of a dog, I know he's fighting this as best he can. For a dog his age, he certainly has a lot of strength left in him. Hoping for the best. Interesting to hear about the BLW situation. So it's TECHNICALLY not dead and gone, but in some kind of production limbo? Huh. Well, hoping it eventually comes back, I'd still like to get my hands on one out of sheer curiosity alone. And yeah, intending to give a little love to some of my other hobbies as well, I've let them atrophy over time, focusing on the electronics/modding instead. Kinda regret that now, there's a lot I'm gonna have to re-learn. But that's okay.
Oooookay, I clearly recall replying to you already, but for SOME reason, UA-cam isn't showing it and I have no clue why. Anyway, screw it, we'll do it again! Zero is showing some signs of improvement, which we're praying continues. He's a tank, he's a fighter, I know he's doing the best he can. Regardless of what ends up happening, he's lived a very long, loving, healthy, scritch-scritch and gentle head-pat life. :3 We'll always remember that no matter what ends up happening. As for the Blinking Light Win, it's good to hear that it's not dead and gone, but just grappling with some production issues. I still want to snatch one up, if just for curiosity alone. Oh I fully intend on giving my old hobbies some love again. It's been too long, I've let them atrophy in place of the whole electronics/modding scene, and I feel a bit bad for it now. I have too many interests and a lot to re-learn now. Just gotta keep pushing forward. PS: LOL! Thanks for the compliment. However... No gods, no kings, only man.
Missed you, Richard. Been watching for over a decade now. Figure you'd been busy living life. Sorry about all the hardships you've faced along the way. I'm not having the best time right now either, so thanks for this video; makes me feel a little less alone.
Thank you for such kind words and for sticking around for so long, things will get better. I'm confident they will for you as well. You're definitely not alone in this, and if you ever feel like ranting/venting or just getting something off your chest, I'm an open ear.
well hey man thanks for the update. i always kept your channel around regardless if i thought videos were coming because even though they arent linked to any specific interest of mine, your conducting of them and general charisma toward make the videos and showing your creations is why i felt like you are one of my people. yeah dude life is fuckin nuts. nobody told me how adult life feels stubborn to get better. as for your channel, i think viewers that have stuck around this long really wouldnt mind just you give retrospectives on interests of yours, your angles of thought about certain things, maybe somewhat related to the old content. either way ill be here man thanks for the update, im pulling for Zero.
Thanks for the feedback and I'm happy to hear that you still like watching! Several people have actually mentioned live streaming, which I'm seriously considering. I figure it might be a nice way to further more personal engagement with you fellas, and pretty much anything goes. I'm not exactly setup for streaming so I'll need to adjust a few things and test some stuff, but it sounds like a pretty solid idea so far. As for Zero, he's actually been showing a lot of signs of improvement! Still not out of the woods yet, but definitely better than he was when I filmed.
I remember watching (and probably forcing some friends to watch haha) the Nintoaster video back in high school (I’m like 29 now). I’ve probably continuously re watched that video a dozen times over the years. I struggle a lot with my depression and empathize a lot with what you are saying. I don’t know what to say that doesn’t sound like some dumb platitude but keep your chin up and keep plugging away on your passions, therapy, etc. you are obviously a sharp dude!
Thank you so much for the kind reply. :) Yeah, I'm doing what I can to keep attacking this thing from multiple different angles, and still have more ideas to try, so I definitely haven't lost hope yet. Far from it. I'm blessed to have such a strong support network with you fellas, I can hardly believe it. Not everyone is that lucky which just makes things more difficult, and my heart goes out to them. Nobody should have to suffer in silence like that.
Thanks for the update man, always wondered where you'd dropped off to, loved the comedic style of the Nintoaster Instructional Video. If your looking for ideas, i'd propose an instructional for the Super Nintoaster. I've also wondered about the nature of the Super Game Boy - the fact it's basically got all the Game Boy hardware in it which leads me to sometimes wonder if it's possible to cannabilise an actual Game Boy to make one or as parts for one. It's a big ask, but i'd also love to see how a Nintoaster would be made in different regions due to differences in power delivery. I've looked at making one but the nature of UK power doesn't quite fit the guide. Give that doggo lots of headpats from me.
Thanks for the kind reply! Heheh, yeah, I think I only emoted once or twice in the instuctional video, tried to keep my voice as dry and boring as possible to contrast with what was actually happening. People seemed to like it, so I'll count that one as a win. My personal favorite line from the tvtropes page: "Running Gag: Whenever a part is recommended to be kept for safekeeping, it just ends up in the trash instead." XD I'm glad someone actually took the time to document my nonsense! A Super Nintoaster instructional video would essentially be exactly the same as the Nintoaster instructional video. The only real difference is where you get the audio/video signals from, and pointing out how absolutely critical it is to keep the cartridge connector ribbon cable as short as humanly possible, or you WILL have problems with certain games. There's also an issue in that there are a TON of different SNES board revisions that are all different shapes and sizes. It's way crazier than originally thought. So yeah, the SNES Jr. would really be the only possible candidate for that project, and I can see why people might not wanna risk it. That one would be only for the brave, willing to sacrifice an SNES Jr. for a project that might not even work 100%. I recall it being very tricky. Ahhhh region differences. That's also a potentially tricky snag. I don't know if the UK hardware still uses a standard 7805 voltage regulator or not, and more importantly, the video signal coming out would be PAL, not NTSC, so the amplifier circuit might not work. There's really no way for me to test all that myself, but I'm sure it's still possible. ...Just needs to be adjusted mainly for the PAL signal, I don't see why the power would really be an issue, if it's still getting regulated down to 5v DC. But I could be way off. I just don't know for sure. And all the doggos got headpats! Zero is actually recovering quite well so far, which is surprising us. This lil' trooper just doesn't give up for anything!
Hey, I'm just happy knowing you're still kicking. Even if it's videos like this one just keep them coming. I was so surprised seeing your channel pop up with a new video notification that I listened to this whole upload on the way to work. Sorry life has been such a turd to you and i hope things start getting better!
Thank you! Yeah, I'm gonna keep fighting this thing as hard as I can from multiple angles. Looking forward to better days, sure as hell gonna ket stabbin' at it!
Thanks for the update, Richard. Your channel is one that I've always returned to periodically, both to enjoy some of your older videos, and to see how you're doing. The Nintoaster Instructional Video is one of my great comfort food medias that I always come back to, and I'll never forget that derpy Sonic puppet you made. I was always sad to see that you didn't go on to become more of a content creator. I always assumed it was because you just didn't have much interest in it, but I totally understand just not having the inspiration to create. I've had aspirations to start producing videos on my channel for over a decade now and haven't been able to find that drive to. I've also been in a low point in my mental health, myself. I've never been medicated before, and for most of my life I never really needed to be. I was always able to keep a good handle on myself with meditation, a good outlook, and self-love, but the last few years I've really been taking a nose dive. I have a lot of outside forces that have definitely influenced that, but I do feel like a lot of it has come from a genuine chemical change in my brain. Way less creative motivation, don't find joy in the things I used to, lower libido, anxiety and apathy worse than ever. I've been making a lot of changes in my life this year to try to improve myself, physically and mentally, and one of the things that I'm trying to get going is seeing a psychiatrist and trying medication. It really hurts me to do that, because for years I did a really good job of being my own therapist, but I've just lost control and can't be that for myself anymore. At least not solely. I'm not the same person I used to be, and that really sucks. I miss that person a lot. But hopefully, with some work and some help, I can become a better one. I hope the same for you as well. I'm also really sorry to hear about Zero's condition. I can't imagine how hard that is on you, your wife, or him. I loved hearing you talk about your rescue animals. You've rarely ever shown that side of you on here. You always played the cool, snarky, cynic type, but getting to see how big of a heart you have is really sweet. You don't ever have to hide your feelings. It's okay to let yourself cry on camera for your audience to see. We're here for you, for whatever it's worth. Even if I don't hear from you for another eight years, as long as I'm not dead, I'll still be here checking back. All the best, Richard.
Thank you so much, you comment really moved me. I'm so sorry to hear that you've been struggling with mental health as well, people deserve to be happy, and these weird little chemical imbalances can completely wreck that for reasons completely unknown, and that's just not fair. That being said, I'm glad that it sounds like you're doing what you need to do in an attempt to improve! It really needs to be attacked from multiple different angles, pills alone are no silver bullet. (At least in my experience). There's no shame in reaching out to others for help. I know that first step, that first phone call can be extremely difficult, like the phone weighs 50 pounds. I probably wouldn't be around today if not for the help of a solid support network of good friends and of course, my wife. She helps keep my head screwed on straight. I don't know where I'd be without her help. And yeah, I'm not afraid to cry anymore, I don't feel ashamed about it at all. Some might consider a guy crying to be some sign of weakness, or call me a pussy or something, but I consider it to be a perfectly normal and healthy release that can be necessary at times. Usually feel much better afterward too. It's also a nice reminder that I still have functioning emotions. A quick update on Zero: He's actually starting to show some solid signs of improvement! Still have some serious balance issues, but he's getting up and walking on his own now (the best he can), is holding food down, and trending in the right direction. We're hoping that all he needs is a little more time to get past this and that it's not terminal. Mr. Z has always been a little tank of a dog though, I know he's fighting it as best he can. Hoping for the best. PS: LOL! XD That damn Sonic GIF really got around! It was always weird scrolling through stuff and running into it out in the wild. A lot of them have stupid watermarks slapped all over 'em now, which is dumb, but whatever. I'm just happy people seemed to enjoy that little spark of silly. Thanks again for the heartfelt words, and keep pushing! I'm rootin' for ya! Much love, - Richard
Hey dude, fighting for a reason to live is hard, glad you are still fighting. Still love watching your Nintoster video's. Heart goes out to you for your dogs.
So happy to see you again!!! I’m glad things are moving in a better direction for you, I too have been riding the depression coaster for most of my 46 years, and that monkey on your back is a fucker. I was a HR manager at a large corporation a few years back, and when I actually tried to help employees in any capacity beyond write ups and retraining, I would get shit from my bosses. It was so bad that I was losing my sanity, but did not want to leave the employees with a raging asshole. I did eventually leave, and my stress level is lower, but still think about all those employees almost every day…I really wanted to help.
It's a hell of a thing, isn't it? Orientation always make it seem like they've got your back, and I'd like to believe that sometimes they genuinely do, but that sadly isn't the reality for so many people. I'm glad that you're shared experience from your perspective, and that you're in an overall happier place now. It sounds like you've got a genuinely good heart. This world needs more people like you.
I don't think I've mentioned, but years ago I tried building a Nintoaster; it wasn't a success. Though I always appreciated your craft, the kind of things you came up with were always an inspiration to me! Here's hoping all the best with your health and what the future brings.
Sorry to hear your first attempt didn't work out, but hey, I've personally accidentally killed SO much hardware over the years it's stupid. These things happen. And who knows! Maybe someday you'll feel like taking another stab at it when the time is right! And thank you for the kind words and well wishes, it means a lot.
Man it's good to hear your voice again, even though life is a shit show right now. I'm sorry to hear about your troubles, but I'm glad that the job situation is improving. I'm also glad that you seem to have a strong support network. I still love the Nintoaster instructional video, and rewatch it occasionally. Also loved every video about projects, modding, and things of that ilk. You're an interesting dude, and I hope to see more of you. You're probably a big reason why I've pursued small electronics as a hobby. I don't understand much, and I'm not in the gaming world of that - rather I've chosen to hack my way through guitar electronics projects. Anyway man, thanks for everything, and stay strong. As the great Canadian "Red Green" said, "Remember, I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together." Sincerely, Another dude from Nova Scotia.
Thank you! Taking it one step at a time. I'm sure there will be more curveballs, but I'll deal with those as they come. And you're dead-on about the support network. You fellas have always been so supportive, patient and kind, and that's just here on youtube of all places! My other friend groups have been just as supportive too. I couldn't ask for more. Not everyone struggling is lucky to have what I do, and I feel for them. Going it alone is a special kind of hell. And it's great to hear that I may have had a positive impact on you, no matter how small! Love hearing that my arguably silly projects have inspired to many to pursue new hobbies and even full-time careers, it's humbling and reassuring that I'm at least doing SOMETHING right. I'll be doing everything I can to kick this thing in the ass!
@@vomitsaw Great to hear! Side note - has anyone ever told you that you remind them of Bill Hicks? Cause you remind me of him. Similar mannerisms, facial expressions, and even similar glasses. Maybe it's a Texas thing?
That kind of depression is the pits, man. I'm 31 and going through the hardest rough patch of my life so far. I lost my wife suddenly in December and nothing has been right since. All I can say is to keep those projects coming and stay busy. I know hardware and modding is your bread and butter, but have you ever tried any game coding? I've been working on creating an oldschool 8-bit Final Fantasy-esque RPG for a few months now (just to stay busy) and it's been a godsend for me. I can sink my teeth into the creative process for hours and hours and find a sense of peace that nothing else seems to give me these days. I highly reccommend it. Who knows? If you make something good enough, maybe you could manufacture some NES carts and sell them on your site? I'd certainly buy one. That way you have a distraction to keep you busy, a way of making a few extra bucks, and the knowledge that you're putting a fun game of your own creation out there for people to enjoy. What do you think?
Oh my god, I'm SO sorry to hear of your loss! D: I'd be in an extremely dark place (or even dead, if we're being honest) if not for the support of my wife. I can't imagine life without her, and can only guess how badly that must be hurting you. A loss that massive is going to take a lot of time to accept, but you already know this. You don't need me to tell you that. My heart goes out to you and I hope that you can eventually find some semblance of peace someday. If you ever need to talk to someone about it or just to vent, I'm an open ear. I'm trying to find ways to better engage with you fellas more intimately. It doesn't all have to be about video games, it could be anything at all. The last time I tried coding anything was in Visual Basic 3.0 back in like... 1995? I toyed around with a few things, but it certainly wasn't the language needed for making something like a video game. I'd probably enjoy getting back into coding again someday yeah, but I'm a little overwhelmed at just how many different languages are out there now, and not sure where the best place would be to start. If you have any suggestions, please bounce them off me head. I'm really glad to hear that it's helping you cope in some capacity, that's awesome. Hope you keep at it!
Hopefully soon we can see some new projects. I remember the nintoaster like it was yesterday.. good times man. U are a part of why my childhood was awesome. Hope u feel better soon bro
Wow, thanks for such a kind response! I'm always flattered to hear that I had some kind of positive impact on someone, no matter how small or silly it may be. :) And yeah, there's more on the way. Just trying to get all my ducks in a row.
Fuck man, I'm so sorry that you and Zero are having to go through all of this. I for one, am with you 1000% when it comes to death with animals. I sincerely hope Zero pulls through, and you as well. Your content has entertained me for years. The Nintoaster Instructional video was my introduction and I knew immediately that I would be here for the long haul. Sometimes life likes to smack our asses around a bit. There's not much we can do except try to make the best out of a shit situation. I hope things improve for you, dude. Just know that you've made many of my days brighter. I look forward to seeing these projects of yours come to fruition. Take care of yourself, brother.
Thank you so much for the thoughtful comment. We're keeping a close eye on Zero, he's starting to show some small signs of improvement, which we're really hoping continue. Don't want to end him premature, and also don't want to prolong any suffering. Tough decisions ahead. At least he's not in any obvious pain, which helps. I'm so happy to hear that my silly little videos have contributed something positive, and am so happy for every time someone says they cracked a smile. Feels like I'm at least doing something right.
This video was a welcome surprise! sorry to hear you had a rough go of things but, glad that you're reaching out. You're a legend and can't wait to see what you come up with in the future
Thanks so much for your kind words! Yeah, I wish the update were under better circumstances, but I felt I needed to get it off my chest and let you fellas know where I've been. Didn't enjoy keeping everyone in the dark like that. I'm far from done, there's more to come. Thanks for stickin' around and being patient with me!
Hey Richard, been checking in on your channel since a little before the dogmoose coptor video. I also regularly struggle with my mental health. I suffer from bipolar 1. If you ever need to vent, or ramble or shoot the shit, reach out I'm a friendly ear. With the working SNES boards what about taking a page out of modern gamers and do a sleeper build. Hide it in like the headrest of a car. Something nonsensical.
LOL that video, that was a good while back now! Thanks for sticking around. :) I'm sorry to hear about your struggles. I'm sure it isn't easy and you're doing what you can to combat it. I hope that you have a healthy support network too, that can help immensely, even if it's just a small group of friends that you can count on one hand. And thank you for offering to listen! May take you up on that. I'm a sympathetic ear as well. Ah yes! I actually thought about the "Cartendo" a long time ago but never went anywhere with it. System in the main console under the stereo, controller that falls out of the glove box, and an LCD screen in the... drop-down visor shade thing. (The word is completely escaping me right now for some reason). I LOVE the nonsensical! It's right up my alley.
No problem at all! Yeah, we consider them our children, a very real part of our family. They are loved and very well taken care of. We love our doggos.
Glad to hear you're still alive and kicking. I randomly decided to check back in on your channel like I do every couple of years and saw you had some videos. No pressure to make more stuff, though; go at your own pace. I always liked the videos on your channel because I could tell you were passionate about all the projects you worked on and your ideas were always so unique. Looking forward to what the future has in store.
Thanks for the reply and well wishes! Amazing that you've stuck around for this long, I really appreciate that. Man, that was a LONG time ago too! Shit, we were still living in San Francisco at the time.
Hey man, it takes a lot to get through all the shit you've been dealing with. Always happy to see an upload, but don't feel like you owe us a video if it comes at the expense of your health and wellness. Gotta focus on your first.
I hear ya. It felt necessary though, and honestly, I'm glad that I posted it. Clearing the air and getting all that off my chest felt like a weight being lifted, which is ultimately a good thing.
As a kid I loved your videos! I learned to solder and mess around with Nintendo's. I definitely ruined a few haha. I'm a software engineer now, and I still dream of making my own Nintoaster sometime soon! :D
That's great to hear, thank you! And yeah don't feel bad, I've accidentally killed MANY boards in my time too. It happens. I just chalk it up to a learning experience and keep moving on. Would love to see a Nintoaster from ya someday if you ever get around to it! I love seeing other people's takes on it.
Dude it's been forever but glad to see you again man and honestly dude your struggle is insanely relatable, been dealing with similar stuff myself but hang in there man. Also in regards to that bit at the end, do you have other hobbies? Maybe you could film those too if so, regardless happy to see you again with an update because I remember loving your nintoaster video and all the other stuff you built. Cheers!
I have no intentions to stop fighting this thing, no matter what it takes, and I'm wishing the best for you as well! Certainly takes time, but it's not insurmountable. I actually DO have other hobbies, I just don't talk about them here, for... reasons. Used to play guitar and loved to draw, but I kinda let those atrophy as I got more into the electronics and modding scene. I fully intend on picking them back up, but there's a lot that I'm going to have to re-learn now, and that's okay. Just gonna take time, like anything else.
Yeah, really wish I were updating under better circumstances, but it is what it is. You guys have been great to me, and I'm eternally thankful for that.
glad to see you're still kicking it. your videos inspired me to learn more about electronics. I hope somehow things are able to get better for you moving forward. when things aren't going right, it probably isn't much of a consolation, but you've definitely made a positive impact regardless of all the negatives. being able to recognize whats happening, and trying to move past it or work with it or whatever, is a lot more than a lot of people manage to do. I guess a quicker way to express that would be to say, from my mildly informed point of view, you're at least trying and that counts for a lot. the super 72 connector is a great idea and I know I'd buy one as soon as it came out. stay cool, thanks for everything
Thank you for the reply! I've actually felt pretty damn good over the past several days, probably due to the sheer unexpected amount of kind words and support I've been receiving from you guys! It's been immensely helpful. Hearing that I've made ANY kind of positive impact on someone's life, no matter how small, feels amazing and really helps. Still fighting though and have no intentions on giving up.
If it's any consolation, I've been watching your game modification videos (and seen you work with AVGN) since I was 12, I'm almost 25 and I'm working on getting my A+ IT certification. I'd like to these your videos helped me along the way
Good to see you're still around. You've been something of an inspiration regarding electronics in these parts. Talking about these things, even to a camera, does help even if it doesn't feel like it. Depression's a bitch, but as long as you work on it and make conscious decision rather than stay down, things'll go for the better. Poor Mr. Zero, but do try to cherish these later days with him. It'll be a hard time, but remembering the good among the darkness is always the better option. Celebrate his life the best you can.
Yeah, getting this video out felt like a huge weight off and was ultimately helpful. I'm far from done yet, just gotta keep on keepin' on, one day at a time. And a quick update about Zero: He's starting to show some signs of improvement! Small, but important. He's able to get up and walk on his own again (as best he can anyway), and his eyes aren't darting around quite as much. Still eating and holding his food down. Still too early to tell for sure, but these are promising signs!
It's great to hear from you again, even if the news isn't happy. Your videos of gaming hardware projects always bring me back to a better time on the interwebs. I sincerely hope that the road you're on smooths out and that instead of life kicking you in the dick, you can start kicking life in the dick instead.
Thank you! Yeah, really wish it were a happier update, but I felt it just had to get done. I love to hear that so many people enjoy coming back to my albeit arguably small collection of videos and that it brings them some kind of joy. My story is far from over. Gonna keep at it!
So i know you've been gone awhile but I'd check inperiodically. For some reason "nintoaster. Gonna show you how to make some useless crap" or whatever the line was from the nintoaster instructional video and i relized I haven;t checked in for like 4 years. Glad to see more videos and hope eveything works out. I've dealt with the same issues you faced with medications and we are strong and can do it. I believe in you man....
Thanks so much! I definitely still have my days, but have been doing MUCH better overall since coming back. The uploads are still a bit here and there (I've got one in the works now), and I've been streaming twice a week. Just the human connection was something I was definitely missing, I know that now for a fact.
So glad to see a video from you again, I just wish it was under better circumstances. I'm sorry for all your troubles, I just wish there was something us internet strangers could do besides offer condolences, especially for the doggos, wish they could live forever and then some. Props to you for persevering and hanging in there, wishing you some peace of mind for the rest of this year. P.S. - Would kill for another video of you and Bloodpaddle Brad playing Abadox again...
Yeah, I wish it were under better circumstances as well, but I felt it needed to be done. Just rip the bandaid off and get it over with. It feels like a weight has been lifted. And believe me, you fellas are helping more than you may realize! I've been so genuinely surprised at all of the supportive feedback it's still blowing me away. You fellas are good people and I'm glad to have you around. It helps. Brad moved to the Dallas are for a job several years back, so we haven't been able to hang out. We still talk frequently though, of course. He IS considering moving back to San Antonio at some point though, so we'll see! We've even talked about collaboration on a business of some sort. The idea is still in it's infancy, but I like that it's being kicked around.
Thanks! It DOES help, at least, this one sure did. Felt like a huge weight off. And I'd like to get back to the funnier/happier stuff, which I'll do, but yeah if I feel like something less-than-happy needs to be said, I'm not as afraid to say it anymore. In moderation though, I don't want this place to turn into a total mess.
Hey, Richard. I'm so sorry you've had a shitty time over the past eight years. I think a lot of us have, really. Bad jobs, depression, etc. I hope everything gets better for you soon. Glad you found a job that you like. I know finding that great job is very hard. I hope you can make more videos in the future, but if you don't, that's okay too. I just hope your depression can be managed sooner rather than later.
Thanks! Zero is actually staring to show some signs of improvement, so we're hoping that trend continues and he just needs a little more time. Too early to tell just yet, but we're hoping he manages to weather this storm.
Glad to hear from you Richard. Sending all of the positive vibes I can your way for Zero, and everything else going on with you and yours. Looking forward to seeing more from you! Would love to see some nonsense in the form of some kind of informative/educational aspect? The nintoaster instuctional video has always been a go-to comfort food watch for myself.
Thanks so much for the good juju! Zero is actually starting to show some small signs of improvement, so we're hopeful that all he needs is a little more time to get over this. We'd LOVE to see him make a full recovery, but we're also preparing for the worst at the same time. Never gets easy. Despite what happens, it's comforting to know that he's already lived a very long, happy life with us, and we'll try our best to keep that in the forefront. And yeah, I've had some pretty solid suggestions that I'm considering. I want to further engage with you fellas, just haven't 100% hammered out a plan yet. Got some ideas kicking around though.
I really hope you are able to feel even better as time goes on. I’ve been a fan of your videos through James Rolfe since his Atari Jaguar video and I’ve always been interested in your gaming projects and mods. Even though this video is long overdue, it’s worth it just to hear that you’re still keeping your head above the surface. Take care, and I’m always looking forward to your future videos!
Thank you for the nice comment! It's always interesting to hear how you fellas found me, where you came from, etc. And yeah, I'm gonna keep kickin' this thing in the ass 'till I start feeling better. Just talking to you fellas and getting this video out there feels relieving.
Nice to hear from you again, sorry to hear about everything that has happened and I hope you manage to get through it. You are an amazing guy and I really hope to see some projects from you again some time! I wish you all the best Richard
Thank you so much for the reply and well wishes! It's appreciated. Just gotta take things one day at a time, keep on keepin' on and trying new methods to improve. I'm not done yet, there's still plenty I want to share.
great to hear you're still around! you were one of my main inspirations for getting into electronics and engineering, hope all goes well and you keep truckin on. poor Zero, hoping for the best ❤
Thank you so much! There really are some of my favorite things to hear; that I somehow inspired somebody to begin exploring something new, and even better if it ends up turning into a full-blown career! I'm really lifts my spirits to hear this. :) I'll keep y'all updated on Zero. He's actually starting to show some signs of improvement! Just hoping that trend continues and all he needs is more time.
I still watch your nintoaster how-to for entertainment all these years later. I get how hard it is to handle old dogs. I have one myself, a rescue around 9 years old. He has bad teeth and isn't as spry as he used to be and it takes it's toll. If only we had them forever. I've been there with HR a few times working IT and telecom as well. They are never there for the employee, only to protect the company. I haven't quite flipped a boss off yet but did quit a terrible job by just beginning to smoke at my desk. You'd think you'd be kicked out and fired within minutes of lighting up, but I had to start a second cigarette for them to notice. All in all, would recommend quitting in this manner lol. At the end of the day, your personal stress level is the most important thing.
Thank you so much for the reply! I'm glad you still get some kicks from my old work, it means a lot to me. :) And y'know what? As an ongoing nicotine addict myself, (and the absolutely stupid "try to stay outside and out of sight" rules they had for smoking), I personally think just saying "fuck it" and sparking one up at your desk is giga-Chad move! XD I didn't have the balls for that though. I don't miss it at all. My work life is much better now, so at least I've got that going for me.
Thank you for uploading this video. I was wondering where you have been! This is going to be pretty up front, but to help with my depression I keep busy doing projects, weather it be at my shop, or just side projects, it helps to get your mind off of it as well as talking to loved ones about things that are going on. I have lost a lot of pets in my days her on Earth, and every time a piece of my heart goes with them. It is very sad, but in the end I feel that they are in a better place now then suffering here on Earth. It hurts so bad because they love you so unconditionally that it is the most heart breaking thing to ever happen, it is like loosing a mother and/or a father at that point. Hang in there, you are tougher than nails man, you can make it through this just like when the car wound up in your living room a while back!! You know how to bounce back from this. You did say something in your video that you need to remember, it is mostly in your head, and if you can really believe that, then run with it. Remember you control your own life and what goes on in your head. You will have relapses from time to time with overwhelming depression, but they wind up coming and going. Be strong :) Lots of Love Richard!!
Thank you so much for the heartfelt response! I really appreciate it. :) I WANT to keep busy, which, you're correct, would certainly help, but sometimes it's just so difficult for me to even get out of bed at times. The excessive sleep feels kinda like I'm just fast-forwarding past the crap and onto... something better. But things aren't just going to magically get better on their own. I need to keep actively working on it. And a quick update about Mr. Zero: He's actually starting to show some small signs of improvement! He's not out of the weeds yet, but we'll take anything. He's getting up and walking on his own again (as best he can anyway), and holding his food down. We're hoping all he needs is a little more time. And if for some reason things get worse and we have to let him go, we'll be keeping in mind that he lived a VERY long, healthy and loving life. It's gonna sting for sure, but I'll try to remember the happy times instead of obsessing over the loss. Thank you so much again for your reply. It means more to me than you know.
@@vomitsaw That is great news that Zero is pulling through!!! I was in the stage of not wanting to get out of bed as well. That lasted a very long time for me. It is a hard one to break out of!! I can't remember what it was that broke the cycle but it will get better with a little bit of time. At the end of the day, a lot of "jobs" come and go and it takes landing a really good one and focusing on the goals of that company to push forward though the depression!! An example from my personal life: Some background on who I am. I'm an electrical/electronics engineer, now read on LOL: I was hired at this events company when I was 14 years old and it lasted well until I was 22 (or there abouts). Really loved the job, kept very busy and it was a lot of fun. Got to know the general manager really well and when I was 18 I got put in charge of production, got my own office, a title, and the whole bit! For an 18 year old, that was massive!!! Well I wound up moving up north, (sorry a bit of background on that, I am born and raised in Las Vegas, Nevada) and had to resign from the position. Fast forward 2 years and here I am back in Vegas because that turned in to a disaster really quick (had to live with the in laws) LOL. Had to find a job, so I went with a local vending machine company as a service tech repairing machines. That lasted 5 years before I started to slip into a deep depression because my mother passed. It was the same thing every day, day in and day out. It got so boring that I would already know what was wrong with the machine before I even got to the account. Well this whole time my boss from the events company stated before still had me doing "side projects" for him from up north and the whole time I was at the vending company. One day out of the blue he called me and asked me to come to his shop! Well long story and conversation short, he offered me an offer I couldn't refuse, CTO position, part ownership of the company, and the icing on top, an office with windows LOL. So now I'm so busy building cool shit and electronics for events, that I really don't have the time to think about why I was even depressed. The moral of that short story was to give you some insight on other walks of life. I know you love IT and really good at it, but sometimes you need to take a leap into something else that can get you to learn another skill that you that you thought you would never like but actually like. I've been with you and your videos literally since the beginning with the Nintoaster and the Super-Gen-Nin-Tari days and loved and still love watching those videos. Sometimes I go back to the Nintoaster Instructional Video just for some laughs. I actually have it downloaded on my PC as well just in case something happens to youtube. I think you have a hidden talent just busting to get out!! That being a content creator/actor!!!
Thank you. We're still watching him closely. He's showing SOME signs of improvement, but he's still not out of the woods yet. I'd like to give him more time, but we also don't want him to suffer. It's all very difficult.
dang man it has been a while, I remember watching your nintoaster video years ago back when I first started collecting old game consoles, I hope you can take off with your super 72 connector as I think older hardware still deserves some love. Thank you for your contributions to hardware modding and I hope to see more from you later on :D
I'm so happy to see you again! When it comes to depression, every small improvement is a win in my book! I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. The weird thing is, I had basically the same thing happen to me about 22 years ago. From one second to another, everything started spinning, my eyes were darting around and I had balance issues since then and never knew, what that was... Until a few hours ago, when I went to a specialist for balance issues. What caused this for me back then was the fucking herpes virus. But instead of giving me a couple of blisters on my lip, it fired off in my inner ear and attacked the nerves. It's incredibly rare, that this even happens (he said it's like winning the lottery). I know that dogs can get the herpes virus, so maybe the same thing happened to him. For me, it took about 5-7 days to get back to a "not everything is spinning" feeling, a week later, everything felt kind of normal again. I have no idea, if this is any kind of help for you, but maybe with a bit more time, maybe a week or so could show similar results.
My god, I'm sorry to hear that. I can only imagine how awful and utterly confusing/scary that must feel. What an odd thing to have happen. Glad to hear it finally cleared up for ya though, damn. That's rough. We've been watching Zero closely and he's starting to show some small signs of improvement, which is great, just hoping he keeps trending in that direction. He's not in any obvious pain, which is good, but that's still no way for a dog to live. He's still eating and drinking, and the meds seem to have helped curb the vomiting, so that's good. If things keep showing signs of improvement, I feel he deserves a bit more time, yeah. But we'll see.
Yeah, it's terrifying, because you have no idea where it comes from and if/when it goes away again. Small improvements sound great. Sure, it's always a terrible situation. You don't want the pet to suffer, but you also don't want to give up hope too fast. If Zero is still eating and drinking, that's a very good sign. He is fighting, that's awesome! I'm really pulling for him!
Good luck man! Really dig this video, it is real and you seem like a VERY interesting and original human being. I bet talking to you and having a beer is fun as hell. Depression sucks, but you will manage. Try some guided meditation and awareness exercises for a change. I like Joseph Goldstein, he is a meditation teacher. Kind regards from Bavaria, Germany
Glad you're back man, I almost called you about 2 years ago but then I wasn't sure I had your current number since it was like 2010 the last time we talked. lol
Sorry to hear about your dog, I've gone through that before myself, and it's definitely not easy. Hopefully he pulls through. I've also suffered from severe depression since I was a teenager, and have had major general life issues as a result of it, but I've found in more recent years better ways of managing it. I used to take prescription medications, but didn't care too much for them. I've actually found (and I know it sounds cliche) that just getting outdoors helps tremendously. Personally I like going for long walks in the woods, or mountain biking. I guess the combination of being in nature, getting fresh air, sunlight, exercise, and just getting away from people and technology for a while, is what does it for me. I work with computers too, though not in IT, just an office worker. I find that I just really need to unplug sometimes, especially since I also tend to game pretty hardcore. It doesn't totally fix my depression, I don't think that's even possible honestly, at least in my case, but it does make it a hell of a lot more manageable. It also makes me physically feel much healthier, and regulates my sleeping (I've had horrible insomnia issues too), which all just contributes to my being better able to fight depression and enjoy life. Anyway, that's my two cents man. Hope you're feeling better and I look forward to more videos if you feel up to them.
Thank you for the response. I'm sorry to hear that you've had to deal with this ongoing depression issue as well, but happy to hear that you seem to have found healthy ways to deal with it better! Exercise and just getting out are things I have yet to try, if I'm being honest here. I'm pretty lazy and a notorious hermit, work graveyards so I don't see the sun that much, I need to get better at that. And I completely understand what you're saying when it comes to disconnecting. I honestly don't even get on the computer that much at all on my days off. I still do a bit of scrolling on the phone, but mostly just for shitposts and memes, LOL! Anything to get a chuckle out of me. :) Anyway, things should HOPEFULLY be starting to cool down soon, and I'd like to just start small, just walking for the hell of it, and see where that goes. Baby steps.
@@vomitsaw Yeah I hear you man, I'm very much so a hermit myself, but that's a big part of what I enjoy about the woods honestly, just getting to be alone in a quiet, peaceful environment. I used to have a phobia about it actually, but with time and sort of an exposure therapy strategy, I got over it and am very glad I did, because it does wonders for me. Little by little is definitely the way to go though. Cheers.
Sorry to hear the paths lifes put you on, glad to hear there are some signs of light ahead though. Your work inspired me to get deeper into tinkering many years ago & its still a passion I chase. Can directly relate to the weight depression brings on you and after all these years i have no solution except trying to rock the boat as little as possible, so when the inevitable depression wave hits I've a better chance not going overboard. Its a battle i had to accept to fight. Thank you for sharing all this, while you owe no one anything, I know how hard it is to open up. You are not alone
Thank you so much for taking the time to hear me out, and for sharing your own experiences. And I always LOVE to hear that I've in some way inspired people to start exploring new things and discovering new hobbies they might not have thought about before! They're really my favorite kinds of things to hear. Helps remind me that I'm not completely worthless and have had a positive impact on someone's life, regardless of what it is. It helps. And you're right, there are so many of us in the same boat. Never feel ashamed to reach out for help either. Sometimes it can just feel impossible to go it alone, I know that for sure.
I am sorry to hear about all this. I hope things end up better for you.
Thank you. Really hoping to start delivering more fun news sooner than later.
Hi Richard!
I actually visit your site every now and then just to take a nostalgia trip. You were basically my door into hardware modding and seeing things like the Nintoaster and the Super Genintari blew my mind, and I wanted to do stuff like that (my horizons moved from the 80s-90s consoles to stuff like the Wii, PS3 and 360). It's great to see you're still out here.
Thanks! I always love hearing comments like this. And props for moving on to the newer consoles. I'll admit, the newer stuff is still a mystery to me, haven't done much toying around at all yet.
Just wanted to tell you that I have been keeping up with you ever since you posted the Super Genintari aka Leviticus videos when I was like 13.... I am 28 now, me and my friends honestly see the Nintoaster Instructional video as a part of our childhood growing up in the age of the internet and we still quote it to this day. Your sense of humor in that video and others honestly were some of the many things that impacted and created what my sense of humor is today. You are a good man and I only hope the best for you and your pups. Also thanks for what you contributed to the retro gaming community with all of your amazing creations ✌
...Wow! I do always love to hear that I've impacted someone's life in a positive way or inspired them to do something, they're always my favorite comments, but this is a new one! I never thought my sense of humor would actually help shape someone else's, that's so wildly cool to hear! And hey, I hope to provide more! I'm far from done yet, just hit a particularly bad patch in my life is all. There's more project stuff coming, non-project related stuff, random BS, possibly livestreams, we'll see here soon! Going to be testing some stuff out to see what sticks and how the response is.
PS: A quick update on Zero. He's actually up and walking around on his own again! He's still got a weird little head tilt and he's been picky about what he eats, but otherwise he seems to be about mmmm... 80% back to normal? For a doggo his age, that's remarkable! I honestly didn't think he was gonna bounce back from this. He's not 100% yet, but getting better every day.
Lots of love, Richard!! Thank you for reaching out and letting your voice heard!
Forward always!
Thank you! I wasn't sure for the longest time, but decided to spill my guts and get it out of the way. Hope it cleared a lot of things up. And yes, gotta keep moving forward! Gotta keep doing.
@@vomitsaw Anytime! Also, if you're looking for a video idea, I'd be ecstatic to see "Mailbag #2" 🤘
Just the name Human Resources says it all. You're nothing but a resource, like a table saw, to them.
Also, anyone flipping off their boss is a mega Chad in my book.
Editing this as I go along with the video. Seeing your old friend just lie there is heart breaking. That's no way for such a good boy to suffer.
LOL! XD Well, it felt good at the time, just kinda wish I was in better control of my emotions though. Not entirely on me though, they were definitely pushing us all as hard as they could.
And yeah, we're still watching Zero closely. He's showing SOME signs of improvement is is great, but he's still far from out of the weeds on this one. I'm really hoping they allow us some more time is he's starting to show more positive signs, but we certainly don't want to prolong any suffering either. It's a tough one.
@@vomitsaw it's a lose/lose situation I'm glad I'm not in. Hoping for the best!
Your Nintoaster tutorial vid helped get me into electrical engineering. You're the man.
These are always some of the most rewarding comments to hear! I'm so happy to hear that I've played a positive role in your life, and intend to continue that trend. :)
@@vomitsaw Dude i have most of the stuff to build a nintoaster but i dont exactly know what im doing would you help me out ?
Hey Richard. I've been subscribed for about 10 years or so (ever since the Atari Jaguar video from AVGN when I checked that out back in High School). You're the main reason I picked up a soldering iron during covid, which helped keep me productive. I can relate a lot to the bad job + HR debacle story, more than you realize. This is going to sound a bit selfish but I take comfort in knowing that someone else deals with similar bullshit I'm dealing with and responds in a similar way. I didn't fly off the handle but, fuck man, I wanted to. And I too realized that HR is there for the company, not for you. With that being said I am actually going back to school for HR and I will tell you first and foremost: while I respect some people in my field, from my own experience and what goes on around work, HR includes some of the most uneducated, delusional professionals that were capable of putting in 120 credit hours for a bachelor’s. They don't know psychology, they don't understand just how difficult a job can be that isn't sitting in an office all day pushing a pencil in an air-conditioned building. Even compared to white-collar jobs, they are still life on easy mode except maybe if you're a VP or hiring manager. You can find out more about HR just as easy by looking up satisfaction in the workplace. In terms of ratio (satisfaction vs. pay - IE work life balance, benefits, not getting the urge to flip off everyone when working that type of job because you're generally happier, Read: blissfully ignorant, etc) HR is one of the higher ones that doesn't require intense technical skills (like being a Commercial airline pilot). HR is also one of the least respected, least liked professions, which makes me chuckle a bit. Anyway, that's the career path I'm going so hopefully if we ever cross paths you don't hate me. Lol.
Anyway, as for channel ideas, it's a big ask, but could you try doing tutorial videos for soldering? There is a lot of shit information out there and even with reputable people I always find something not working right (desoldering electronics is a new form of hell for me, I gave up after fucking up a fair number of projects). I feel like you have that level of experience where you've made mistakes but also still shipped projects (GGTV, for example). It's a big ask cuz like, most people think of some crazy level of editing and presentation, but if you wanna just get in front of a board and say what comes to your head, that's a start. You don't have to be an educator or teacher, just a practitioner. We don't need to know the chemical reaction of why shit works with a analytical 30 minute video explaining it with tons of editing.
Also, I need to know, where I can download/buy that song in the Nintoaster Instructional video. I tried clicking the link in the description but it leads to a social media page and I cannot find the song anyway. I know it's probably some simple garageband beat but do you know where I can download that shit? I've been trying to find it for like 10 years now. Thanks.
Wow, it's hard to believe that episode was so long ago now! Yikes.
Yeah, HR can be such a multi-headed beast like that. Not ALL HR departments are like that, I understand that, but my personal experiences so far and reading about so many others has left an overall bitter taste in my mouth. Getting paperwork and things like benefits cleared-up? Usually no problem. But things tend to get really hairy when it comes to workplace disputes and drama. I try to see things from their perspective too, I'm sure it isn't easy. I'd like to believe that many of them have the best intentions and truly want to help, but may not be able to for one reason or another, and it's just easier to let people go. Depends of the company, of course. I'm wishing you the best of luck in your career with HR and genuinely hope it's a rewarding one for you, rather than something unhealthy and soul-sapping. Fingers crossed!
And yeah, I think I could make some kind of soldering tutorial of some kind happen. I still question whether or not I'M doing things "properly" at times, because yeah, googling around the internet, kinda seems like you'll get differently advice and methods at times, it can be hard to say definitively what the RIGHT was is. I'd be happy to share my own personal methods and what works for me though! I'll need to think through it and make sure I'm not giving out any objectively incorrect information though, don't wanna end up making myself look like an idiot, LOL!
Ah, the song. Yeah, my friend Jeremy (the composer) is notorious for moving around, nuking his sites and making new ones, it can be hard to keep tabs on him at times. Throw an email at me and I'll give ya a link to the file or something. (UA-cam can be stupid about links in comments).
RETURN OF THE KING
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No gods, no kings, only man.
Hey man, this video was a pleasant surprise. You kept apologizing for the lack of updates, but the truth is you dont owe us anything. Live your life. I'm wishing the best for you, your dogs, the projects, and whatever else. Peace.
Yeah, in talking with friends about it, I would frequently hear "It's your own business, you don't owe them anything". And they're correct, but at the same time, you fellas have historically been very supportive of me and as time went on, I personally felt like this video was necessary, as unhappy as the subject may be. Thanks for the well wishes! Trying to keep my head up.
WTF! I'm just watching the Nintoaster video because it's a damn good video and Richard posts after months away?? Talk about bizarre!
There's still a little magic left in the world!
Man, I don’t think you owe me anything, but, thanks for the update. I got “laid off” back in 2008, and happened upon your Nintoaster video and it got me through a really rough patch back then. Not sure if I have actual depression, but I was definitely in a bad place, and again, it really helped. I’d love to make hobbiest/maker content of any kind, so I appreciate your work in whatever way you can provide it.
You losing those jobs don’t sound unreasonable with the workforce being the way it is these days. It sounds more like you quit with style rather than got fired. I would’ve quit the call center shit within weeks. Glad that you’re in a comfy spot now.
Not sure what to say about your dog, other than I hope he makes it through. 15 years is a massive run for a dog, so at least know you gave him a good life and he experienced some love.
Again, thanks for update and deal with things on your terms and do what you can.
Thanks for taking the time to write me. 2008 was certainly a shitty time, no doubt. Was living out in San Francisco at the time and the shop was talking about shutting down. And with all the recession stuff going on, we felt it a good time to get out of dodge and move to San Antonio. Getting back on my feet job-wise was a bit rocky at first for sure, that's when I officially went from blue collar to white collar with my very first job in IT. It's been a wild ride. I'm really happy to hear that I was able to indirectly help you out in some capacity, that's always nice to hear and lifts my spirits. :)
Yeah, 15 is no doubt a long run for any dog. Despite what happens, he's lived a good, long life, has been loved and very well taken care of. We're keeping that in mind.
Richard, I never comment on Videos but this one means a lot to me man. You're the man. Hang in there. Your nintoaster video got me through some hard times. Hang in there! You mean a lot to all your fans
Very glad to see you back again Richard, always loved your crazy mods and can't wait to see what other crazy mods you come up with.
Thanks! I'm far from dead, so we'll see what happens!
Hell yeah! The dude who was solely responsible for getting me into electrical engineering still exists 😎 Also, it could be worth it to look into getting a genesight test, I can't guarantee it won't tell you what you already know but it worked pretty good for me.
I'll never get tired of hearing comments like these! Thrilled to be a catalyst of some kind. :)
And I just looked up genesight testing. Seems like something I'd like to explore, I'll bring that up to the doc. I'm willing to entertain all kinds of ideas at this point.
Well now I'm interested in getting tested. Pretty sure my psychologist recommended this to me, when ai last saw them MONTHS back, and the Prozac was still mildly working.
Great to hear from you Richard, hang on in there mate and really hope your pup gets better. There's not much that hits harder than losing a pet (it f***ing sucks), I'm sure he'll bounce back and be well again.
Just read these comments, there's plenty of us here that are just happy that you've checked in. Because you're genuine, you tell it like it is, no sugar coating or bullshit. But it's plain to see you have a big heart and are a good person. Remember that. That's why all of us are commenting good things.
Your channel is one that actually prompted me to start my own, made a video in my spare time but haven't released it. It's shit to be fair, but I enjoyed doing it.
You also actually took the time years ago to email me back when I asked for help to build a Nintoaster. You sent so much information and we're so helpful, I genuinely couldn't believe it. I never thanked you for that, but I'm thanking you now.
Anyways long boring comment over. Take care mate and don't be gone too long...
UA-cam needs it's original heroes!
I'm glad you took the time to reply. I'm having trouble articulating just how much your words have moved me, but I'll try.
You're absolutely right. I wasn't expecting this kind of a response, but I'm genuinely blown away at just how many supporting, heartfelt things are being said. It was so overwhelming that I took a day off just to process my thoughts before replying to people. It helps immensely in ways I don't have words for. I feel blessed to be surrounded by such good people, on youtube of all places, which can be a bit impersonal and crazy for many. I'm perfectly content with what I have, and love that things aren't so crazy that I'm still able to engage with most people. (I could see that being a lot more difficult to do if my channel were HUGE or something). I've seen some ideas tossed around that may further engagement, which I'm seriously considering exploring. More to come on that. Anyway.
I'm glad to hear that I was able to help with your Nintoaster is some capacity! That's awesome. I still get the occasional request for information on the subject, and am still more than happy to reply when I can, but I've certainly missed a few here and there, which still kinda eats at me in a way. Glad I was able to help you though. Brings a smile to my face. :)
Thanks again for taking the time to leave such a thoughtful comment. It really does mean a lot and helps my mood just as much as any combination of pills. Attacking this thing from as many angles as possible and hope not to be such a ghost anymore.
Much love,
- Richard
Also, have you ever considered streaming? Like a live Q&A and just answering people’s tech questions and curiosities. I know I would certainly tune into that - just listening to your takes and advice on peoples tech projects and ideas would be awesome.
Great idea!
Y'know, that's not a bad idea at all! To be honest, I've thought about it before, but kinda brushed it off because believe it or not, I'm not THAT huge of a gamer these days, or even very good at it. XD The space is already flooded with game streamers anyway, so yeah, I'd like to try something a bit different if I decide to attempt streaming. It doesn't even necessarily have to be about video games or projects alone, I'm open to pretty much anything right now; Music, art, beer, food, oddly specific questions, etc. The only topic I'd like to steer clear of is politics. It's just too divisive and has no place here. I'd like to keep things fun.
Will need to decide on HOW I'd wanna to that too; either tied to my desk with the better computer and mic, and try going at it with a laptop so I can roam. (I do love the freedom to roam around!) We'll see where this goes, will need to work out all the technical kinks and run tests too. I think it's a very interesting idea.
Dude, that really sucks to hear what with all that bullshit you’ve been going through over the years. As someone who has also been on Effexor before, I can gladly tell you that it sucks royal ass. It just felt like all of my interests and hobbies just kinda stopped (Sertraline, too) and they were just locked behind a wall of “who cares” at the front of my brain.
I first discovered you from AVGN’s Atari Jaguar video back in 2010 or so, yet I’m new subscriber and I loved the Nintoaster so much that I wanted to try to make one but I never could.
All those crazy projects you come up with have have surely got me intrigued. In the mean time, I hope everything gets better in life soon enough with you, man. 👍
Also, for any ideas for content on the channel. If so had to give some suggestions, perhaps you could do Let’s Plays (more older fashioned ones) or livestreams alongside videos of whatever project you were working on.
Thank you for taking the time to reply. It's nice to hear that you found me from content so ancient now, it's hard to believe how much time has passed! Pretty wild. Thank you so much for the well wishes, it means a lot. And who knows! Maybe a day will come that you DO pick up a soldering iron and start poking around! Stranger things have happened. :)
You're not the first person to suggest streaming, so I'm giving that some serious consideration. Could be fun, and would give me another opportunity to engage with you fellas. More on that to come as I figure things out.
I found this video after trimming my beard and randomly thinking of the Nintoaster Instructional Video.
Dude, I'm so happy to see you're still here! It sounds like you've been through a ton - sorry to hear that.
Mental illness is an absolute horrorshow, and your struggle to find something AFTER Effexor (which I currently take) is scary. Hopefully you'll find something that sticks and gets you back to good.
It was good to see you again after so many years! Subscribed and looking forward to more!
P.S. - very happy to see your doggo is getting better!
I want to say so much.
I want to tell you how much you inspired me to not be afraid of these cute boxes that gave me so much joy yet was too concerned I'd break something if I took them apart.... thanks to you I became interested in hardware tweaks and now have it as a hobby of mine to take busted old consoles and revive them.
I want to tell you that your video editing humor was so influential to me that it's a part of my DNA now.... I see some of my mannerisms and I can point to some of my humoristic tendencies to your content.
I want to give you a big damn hug.
I want to tell you that you aren't alone.
I want to tell you are worthwhile and amazing and a superhero for getting through every day.
You are ENOUGH.
I want to tell you that every year you spent SURVIVING is just building up your moments of THRIVING. And that time has come for you to THRIVE, my friend.
You don't know me, and I hardly know you. But I
Man. Comments like these are so much better than actual paid therapy from my psychologist. I'm dead serious. ;__;
You just told me everything I absolutely LOVE hearing and then some! To positively impact someone in a way that they discover a new love? AND somehow influence your sense of humor?!? This is some serious high praise!
If I ever run into you at a convention or something, you're gettin' a hug, a high-five and a solid fist-bump. We're all floating around together on this rock in the humbling vastness of space, not knowing what's next or why, if this is just a dream or if any of this ultimately matters at all. May as well try our best to enjoy it while it lasts, be kind to the billions of others with a consciousness just as vivid and real as our own, and leave a positive impact if possible. Whatever this life is, it's too short to just waste away in bed staring at the dusty-ass ceiling fan, just waiting for some magic to happen on it's own.
In closing, I love you too, man. I consider you all brothers in this awkward and often confusing-ass journey called life.
Shine on brother, shine on.
@@vomitsaw I look forward to it, friend.
Glad to see the good news! Keep on soldiering on. Good things await you.
So I was looking for a different channel and came across yours. I'm glad I clicked! Good to see you're still around. I never got into modding myself, but was always enamored with the guys who do it. You're part of the old guard, and you deserve to be among the modern group of modders and hope you can bust your way back into that whole scene!
I see you have a number of videos up, and I'm gonna check them all out! Keep healing!
Thank you so much! Coming back has had a massively positive impact on me so far. I've definitely been getting back into modding, but folk may be missing a lot of it right now if they don't catch the streams. (Usually Monday and Thursday evenings). I'm working on some kind of recap from the streams to show what's been going on, have several things in the works right now, I just haven't been uploading everything either because it may be boring or unfinished right now. Oh believe me, there's definitely more to come. Unexpected things.
Sorry to hear all the struggles, man. Hang in there man.
Oh I fully intend to keep trying to punch this depression shit in the throat and get back to normal. I'm far from done yet. :)
Here's an idea for a video or 2. A Vomitsaw Halloween special! Maybe a ghost hunt with the Nintoaster as your sidekick or maybe tell ghost story experiences with the dogs chilling next to you on the couch. In the middle of the story you can reach down and give the Super Genintari a scratch behind the ear while it naps on the floor. "That's a good boy".
I'm not certain they were actually ghosts, per se, but I HAVE definitely experienced some supernatural shit, all very real. And I wasn't alone. There are many other witnesses that were experiencing and seeing the exact same things, so I know I wasn't just going crazy. I'm a skeptic, but this was something I can't even begin to explain. I hope that science has some kind of explanation someday. I haven't said anything about this publicly because I don't want people to write me off as some kind of loon. I might share those stories someday, we'll see.
Can't imagine how hard this was to film and upload, but it's great to hear from you again. Not one of your longest followers but hopefully one day that 5200 couch project you joked to me many years back will become a reality.
I understand what you're going through, there's been a lot of ups and downs in my life that's changed my view on things for better or for worse, but I want you to know that we're all here for you. I'm glad to know you're still here. Growing up watching your videos got me into engineering, and it always pushes me to think outside the box to be as creative as possible when smooshing things together (like an NES in a Toaster).
I've got a few projects I started because of your channel, and while they still remain incomplete due to limited time and funds, thinking about them reminds me of all the fun times I had watching all the zany ideas you have. You really had a positive impact on my life, and I really appreciate you and aspire to do all the things you have done. One in particular, an SP in a Gameboy shell, comes to mind as one of my "for later" projects.
I wish the absolute best for Zero. The goodest boy deserves the biggest treat.
You're the best, vomitsaw. Don't push yourself too hard. After all, we just want you to be the best you that you can be.
Thank you so much for the thoughtful reply. It certainly isn't easy, but I'm far from done fighting. And I'm thrilled to hear that my silly videos actually had some kind of positive impact on your life and sent you exploring yourself! These are some of my absolute favorite things to hear, always have been. It helps to lift the feeling of worthlessness knowing that in some way, I've had a positive influence on someone's life, as arguably silly as it may be sometimes. Taking your kind words to heart and riding the serotonin wave while it lasts. :)
Zero is sleeping soundly right now and has shown some small signs of improvement, which we're hoping continue. I'll keep you fellas updated.
sorry to hear about your dog. i dealt with the same last year and it was brutal, but the pain does go away after a while. take your time with the videos and try your best to power through your issues. been following you since i was in middle school and im almost 30 now.
Thanks for sticking around for so long! I promise, I intend for things to get better and be more fun. Just gonna take some work, as with anything.
And I've got some potentially good news about Zero! He's up and walking around on his own again (as best he can anyway), and hasn't been throwing up his food. He's not just stuck in a catatonic state on the floor anymore. I consider these to be signs of improvement, and a good reason to give him more time, unless things suddenly start going south again. Still watching closely.
So sorry to hear about all of your struggles. My bf struggles with his mental health too.
Did your vet recommend Benadryl to treat Zero? It helps with the nausea and head tilt. But check with your vet, because dosage is determined by weight.
Thank you for taking the time to listen. I really can't ask for much more. And I'm sorry to hear about your bf's struggles. I'm sure you just being there helps him in many ways. Real talk, I'd probably already be dead by now if not for my wife.
I'm not sure if my wife is giving him Benadryl right now or not, but I'll check with her on that. (We DO occasionally give him some though, he's a notoriously itchy dog and has a tendency to develop hot spots that he scratches at a bit too much. That's usually when we'd break out the Benadryl).
I'm glad to see you back. I'm sorry that all happened and I'm sorry about your dogs health though.
Thank you for your reply, it means a lot. Not my intention to bring anyone down, just kinda felt like this update was necessary, as heavy as the subject(s) may be. I wanna be real with you guys, for better or worse.
Richard!!! I knew an update is coming. I knew it. So grateful for this update. I was coming back every 2 years - I watched the Nintoaster video like a 100 times. I really hope you are on a path of improvement. As someone struggling with anxiety disorded for the last 16 years who struggles with processing people (and animals) passing, I can relate a little bit. Remember there is still a lot of people that remember about you and think about you. Please remember that. I know it helps.
On the 72pin: Start a gofundme or kickstarter or anything. Let us invest in this project. I don’t even care if it gets made :)
PS Racoons are my spirit animals. Ain’t they the best?
About your channel. Just find something that you like doing and what comforts you, film it and share it with us. I watch post10 - guy who unclogs drains and culverts. Hour long videos of him talking about beavers and removing beaver dams that flood roads. If you just do stuff you like and shoot the shit that is an instant watch for me.
Thanks for sticking around for so long! You fellas truly are awesome. :)
As for a kickstarter for the 72-pin connector, I HAVE thought about that, but I'd only launch one once I actually have a working version in hand and everything is ready for an actual production run. (I wouldn't wanna take peoples' money for the research and testing prototypes and all of that). We'll see where it goes.
I'm glad to hear that you're open to seeing whatever I upload, because I've been kicking around a few ideas that I'd like to try. One of them, by popular demand, is probably going to be live streaming. I've never done that before though, so no clue how that'll work out. First one will probably just be an anything-goes AMA, project ideas, food, beer, art, whatever you guys wanna rap about. Might have pre-planned topic ones too, not sure, it's all still up in the air right now.
And yeah, raccoons are absolutely adorable. Wish they were domesticated, I'd totally have AT LEAST one! XD
@@vomitsaw Livestreams are a great idea. You‘re funny, you are talented and people will watch your stuff. Start somewhere and you will figure it out, fine-tune stuff as you go. It is always a process. Can’t wait to see more of your content!
@@innocentraptor
I'm really starting to think this is a damn good idea the more I hear back about it. I don't have any fancy lights or green screens or even more than one monitor, but I've made magic work with less. ...I think this is doable.
@@vomitsaw I think it is a good idea for sure and I don’t think going pro setup is very… well for a lack of a better way to say it… „you“. It‘s not your style. All your videos are dim lit, more of a home video style - maybe that is a direction? I mean it needs to be authentic. If you suddenly went Instagram Influencer level of setup with ringlights and all that crap… that would be weird and „misaligned“ at best. Def try having some sort of a series so that you commit to some sort of continuity but not to a schedule. Fingers crossed!!!!!
@@innocentraptor
Thank you! That's actually very good feedback! The content itself is far better than the glitter, and I've never been about the pretty. I want to show and share the ugly realism of life, no matter the topic. Sure I might add some light or an annotation here and there, but I've always liked being able to just do what I do and roam around if necessary. I'm starting to think that a decent laptop might be my best bet, so I can just grab everything and run around at a moment's notice. I like that kind of freedom. Buuuut, the main desktop has the better mic and all the content that I can pull up at a moments' notice. I don't know of a way to rapidly switch between the two. I'll just have to figure that out.
As for a schedule... well, my wife has a schedule and it works out very well for her. But I have some serious doubts that it would work out for me. I just need a way of saying "Hey, yo, I'm going live in x hours" or whatever. I don't know if youtube does alerts like that when you go live or not, I've never even attempted it yet. Hmm.
good to hear from ya chief! thank you for posting again and hang on in there =) i still go back to your vids, especially the troubleshooting toaster vid cursing and losing your bap over a power outlet, i can relate ^_^
LOL! Great to hear that my arguably small collection of content here is still helping and entertaining people. :) I fully intend for there to be more.
Thanks for the update, Richard. I, like many others, are happy to hear from you. As to what to post, maybe start with some lore about yourself, like how you got into modding. Maybe even what your goals are?
Regardless, wishing you the best!
Thank you for the reply and interesting suggestion! Oh I've got plenty of lore, things you fellas have no idea about yet. A lot of stories and arguably strange history I'd love to share, for sure. It's been suggested a few times that I consider live streaming, and I'm seriously considering that. I think it'd be a great way to better engage with you fellas, shoot the shit, tell stores, share info and ideas, etc. I'll be looking into it!
Man... I did a double-take when this video popped up in my feed. Richard, I'll echo some of the other comments here and say that you don't owe us any explanations. Life happens, and sometimes it happens hard, and I think everyone here understands that. But I'd be lying if I said I'm not relieved that you checked in to give us an update. Honestly it's great to see your mug again in front of the camera, even if it's an impromptu life update.
I'm glad to hear you've settled into a job with some prospects. Working for shitty employers that just want to exploit you is never a good situation to be in, but at least you had the gall to stand up for yourself, even if it meant them promoting you to customer. I wish I had some advice for you on the depression issue... I've never been on meds personally, but some of my family members have and from what they've told me it's an endless labyrinth of trial and error, tweaking doses and horrible side-effects that are sometimes worse than the depression itself... much like what you're describing. I guess all I can say is that doctors only know how to push pharmaceuticals. And why wouldn't they with all the kick-backs they receive, but pills usually only treat symptoms, not the core issue. Maybe your psychologist can help you more with that, and maybe some alternative, more natural treatments. I've heard of some people curing their depression with diet alone. There's so much shit in our food man, it boggles the mind... You know what they say, you are what you eat.
I really hope Zero pulls through. I'm right there with ya, man... Dealing with ailing animals is one of the hardest things to do. You want them to live forever, but at the same time it breaks your heart to see them suffer. Whatever happens, it looks like he's lived the life of a king and is very loved, and I'm sure he loves you guys right back.
So about the BLW... I bought one of those things years ago, not long after I installed an NESRGB into my front-loader (props to you BTW both for inspiring me to build my own Nintoaster and having the confidence to install the NESRGB - that thing was a PITA to put in). It still works great, but it has a major flaw, which is that once you insert a game you need a bloody Popeye grip to get the cart back out. Maybe my hands are too dainty, I dunno, but in any case I made my own ejection mod using literal skewers, popsicle sticks and superfluous amounts of epoxy to make it all work... All this is to say that if you do end up manufacturing your own version of the BLW, adding an eject feature would be literal tits on a sundae. Just my $.02. But I think there's definitely a market for a BLW replacement, and you're basically already there with the design. Have you considered using a 3D printer to make some prototypes? Might be a good place to start to iron out all the kinks. If you ever do a Kickstarter campaign or anything like that let us know. I'm sure many here would be happy to contribute! I think the whole process would be great content for your channel as well.
Alright, well, sorry for the wall of text. Just happy to see you pop on here. I've always loved your content, man, but no pressure to produce. Take care of yourself first, and if inspiration strikes you've definitely got a loyal viewer in me. 🤜🤛
Thank you SO much for your thoughtful words! So many nice things you've touched on I'm not even sure where to begin.
The job is much better. It's not perfect or anything, we're still arguably small and continuing to grow which can make things a bit hectic and confusing at times, but people tend to have each-others backs, which helps a lot. The comradery feels so much more real than previous jobs, which is really a huge help. All my coworkers genuinely care about each other and are happy to help when needed. That kind of thing isn't all too common anymore these days, so I feel lucky.
Yup, all the trial and error can be annoying at times, but I've been patient and hopeful with every change/adjustment. Just haven't found anything that really sticks yet. And you're right, pills alone aren't going to fix this. I've got to attack it from multiple different angles. I'm doing what I can, and still have more ideas to try. Far from done.
An update on Zero: He's actually starting to show some signs of improvement! We're hoping the trend continues and he's able to pull trough. We're doing what we can for him, holding out hope that he'll get through this, but also preparing for the worst if it ends up going that direction. It's wait and see right now. Ultimately, he's lived a very long, healthy, loving life, and that's what we'll try to keep in mind if worse comes to worse.
Y'know, this isn't the first time that I've heard about the BLW requiring some kind of death grip to get the carts back out. Sounds like they may have gotten a little too zealous when trying to make sure that all the pins contact properly, I don't know. That's just my best guess. And yeah, I'd certainly love to document the process of having the Super-72 connector made if it's possible. There's so much I still don't know about the process, it's gonna take some more research.
And hey, thanks for sticking around and being so patient with me. It really means a lot. I'll try not to be such a ghost. :)
Ramble to us all you want/ need brother, we will gladly listen. Good to hear from you man
Oh there's sure to be more rambling and nonsensical posts. :) Not everything will interest everyone, but that's okay. Thanks for stickin' around!
Watching the video now. You are missed, sir.
We have never met in person, but I would answer the phone if you wanted to chat. I've watched your creations many times over, and I can't say thank you enough for the entertainment, inspiration, and knowledge you have shared over the years. I'm sorry this is happening, I'm glad you're still here, things will be better when you get there, and you're not that far away. Patty on.
@@wrendogg
Thank you so much for the kind words! I'm happy to hear that I've been a source of entertainment for you and I fully intend to continue that. It's just gonna take more fighting. One day at a time.
Hey Richard I just saw this on my feed and I was like "Whoah!" Love your channel.
Thank you! More to come, hopefully sooner than later.
Hey man! Glad to see your back again. Always a good day when you upload..please do more no matter wat it is bro. Keep your head up!
Gotta keep moving forward. It's the only direction to go now.
Hey man, things do get better, you'll see...best wishes and vibes from Texas' Neighbor State, Nuevo Leon, México.
Thank you for the kind words. It's appreciated. I'm a very patient man, I'm confident I'll get through this eventually. It's just gonna take more time and doing.
@@vomitsaw Patience and perseverance pays off, both of those virtues you have. Be safe Richard. :)
I hope your pup pulls through, Richard! And of course I hope you can beat your depression issues. And I bought a Blinking Light Win when they first came out, and it was great while it lasted. It died a few years back and I haven’t even tried to fix it.
Thank you for your thoughts and well wishes! Zero and I are both fighting the best we can.
Huh. Interesting to hear that it stopped working. I'm genuinely curious as to why, because the design itself doesn't seem all that complex from what I can tell. Weird.
Glad to hear you're still kicking. Suggestions: Try going back to your roots. Make custom gaming hardware. Anything you can think of, little or big.
If we're REALLY going back to roots, that would also mean picking up the guitar and actually start drawing again. This is just one of my interests. :) I fully intend to keep creating, just sometimes don't always have much unique in mind.
Thank you very much for this update; seeing your name in my subscription feed; it took me a moment to realize who it was...
All i can say is brace yourself for perhaps not soon but when you might have to say goodbye to your pet. 5 years on and i still miss the coolest cat I've ever met
Yeah, we're prepared for the inevitable as best we can be, but it's still gonna sting no matter what. We take solace in the fact that he's already lived a very long, happy, loving life and that's what we'll try to focus on most, instead of the loss.
Our first Golden retriever became fourteen years old and also very suddenly had trouble walking straight and keeping balance. Even after a long and good life it never gets easier to say good bye. You guys are amazing for taking in rescue dogs and giving them love. We hermits have an easier time connecting with animals. Best of luck with sorting out the medical situation and everything else. Be a stubborn bastard and never give up!
Yeah, it's always gonna sting no matter what, no matter how prepared I think I am. Keeping in mind that he's IS a very old dog, lived a long, healthy and truly loving life. Trying to focus on the positive. I know death is inevitable, but it's never easy. They love so unconditionally, it just hurts that much more.
And yeah, adopting feels like the responsible thing for us to do. (Are even considering fostering). Unfortunately, San Antonio is awful when it comes to strays and abandoned dogs. The shelters are constantly at capacity and sadly, yeah, many are put down on a regular basis because they just can't handle the load. It's very sad.
And oh yeah, I'm far from done, I fully intend to keep trying to kick this thing in the ass and get better. :)
I'm just glad to see you posting, honestly. You said you're feeling a little bit better but you're not sure if it's in your head? So what? You're feeling better. That's what matters the most.
I'll be around for your next upload. Take it easy man.
You're absolutely right. Thanks for being real and calling it like it is. I'll take anything I can get, no matter where it comes from.
@@vomitsaw You have a lot of life ahead of you to figure things out and feel better one day at a time. I believe in the man who almost made me buy a soldering iron. Biology got me a little sooner. Seeing the comments though, you got tons of people into hardware and engineering. You have a lot to feel good about.
It's good to see you again. I'm sorry the circumstances couldn't be better, but I wish you all the best my friend ✌️
Thank you! Yeah, not a very happy video, but felt necessary. Just getting it out there felt like a weight being lifted. Thank you for the well wishes!
its insane how we go through all this shit and are expected to work a job too. Never mind what you actually want to do with your time lol. Good luck to you Richard
Yeah, adulting sucks LOL! Just is what it is, I guess.
Glad to see you again Richard.
Thanks! Glad to see you're still around too! :)
so happy to see a video of yours again. your nintoaster II video is still a classic i rewatch every so often. i wish the best to you on the long road ahead :)
Thank you so much! I'm just gonna keep on keepin' on and doing what I have to do to improve, whatever that may be. Far from done trying different things. :)
I did not expect to hear from you today, but I'm happy to see ya again! I'm sorry to hear about your mental health struggles, job issues and your dog's health, I know what that feels like. I wish I could give ya a big ol' hug, but I'm glad you are still kicking to the best of your ability. As far as other things to do with the channel, you could just talk the games you've been playing (like the Hollow Knight shirt) or just ramble for 30 mins lol, whatever works best for you. Been a fan of yours for many years and even tried to get into engineering based off the Nintoaster tutorial, but that was a little beyond me lol. Hopefully this is the return of vomitsaw, and if not, that's ok. Do what you need to do to stay happy and healthy!
Thanks for thinkin' about us! It means a lot.
And yeah, the channel description has never changed. "This space may or may not contain video documentation regarding my current and/or past projects, as well as whatever the hell I feel like." The "whatever the hell I feel like" part is important. I've always mixed in other unrelated nonsense, and I don't intend to change that habit. :)
PS: Hollow Night was great! Punishing at times, but overall felt, looked, sounded and played beautifully. Patiently awaiting SilkSong now.
Voodoo Ranger was my daily driver for such a long time. Their Imperial IPA is such a good cheap beer. I've checked back on your channel quite a few times over the years. Glad to see an update from you. I sincerely hope things continue to look up for you and we'll keep Zero in our thoughts.
Voodoo Ranger is soooo good! ^_^ It's definitely a go-to. I like it a little TOO much at times though, heheh!
And thanks, I'm gonna keep fightin' this thing, no matter what it takes. I'll keep you fellas updated on Zero too. He's actually shown some signs of improvement over the past couple days, and we're hoping that trend continues.
Great to see you back at the grind.
I'm trying my best!. Thanks for still hangin' around.
Very glad to see that you're still around. Like many in this comment section, you're the reason that I got into console modding. Love your stuff and I wish you the best in all future endeavors
Thank you! These type of comments are always my favorite. :) I never would have thought I'd end up being some kind of inspiration for so many. It helps remind me that I'm not completely worthless.
Thank you, Richard. I haven't even finished watching this video yet but I've been checking your channel regularly for years to see if you would post something and it's rather surreal of me to see you reappear. I almost felt like I'd never see you again. Much love and support, Richard. I wish I had a chance to hang out with you in real life. Much love, my friend. Best wishes.
Yeah I'm sorry I've been so quiet, I felt it wasn't fair to you fellas and finally nutted up and got this video out there, trying to explain myself. I really hope it helped to clear things up a bit. I'm far from done though, I'm not going anywhere.
@@vomitsawGlad to hear it, Richard. Keep on fighting.
With your legendary work on the Genintari, mixed with the convenience of 3D printing and cheap PCB on demand services I think you will be one of the best if you get back in the game (pun intended 😅), it will give you something to decompress and enjoy yourself with on top of being a potentially lucrative business.
I discovered your work via James the AVGN way back when, prayers and wishes for great health and happiness. Keep it up mate!
Hey thanks for the reply! Yeah, basically a laser cutter, maybe CNC router and 3D printer, you can pretty much manufacture all sorts of silly shit! It's legitimately exciting. My only issue right now is that I'm kinda... running out of ideas, LOL!
I also have other hobies that I've let atrophy over the years that I'd like to get back into. Used to draw, used to play guitar, used to enjoy photography... all of that took a back seat for the electronics. Sometimes I regret it, sometimes I don't, it's just too hard to juggle all of it at once, y'know?
@@vomitsaw I actually do know 😅
I love cars, tech, coding... I just keep jumping between them when I feel burnt out by one or the other. I had a PC building spree where I built 5 gaming PCs in 2 years (luckily I sold most of them when the market was in high demand). Then I jumped to Android devices, then projectors... I stay away from cars and bikes because it's way more expensive than any other hobby you can have :D. Life is short my friend, give it the beans and enjoy it as much as possible. Peace!
Thank you for the update. I'm sorry things aren't going well for you, but I'm glad you're alive and kicking. Losing pets is never easy, hopefully, Zero gets better, and if not then at least they lived a full great life with you.
Speaking of the Blinking Light Win situation, I found on their Facebook that the reason for them not being in stock for some time is that they had issues with the factory producing their product and that they are working on finding an alternative factory, this was last updated on 2021, so the status of the current situation eludes me, but that was what I found.
Hopefully, you get to pursue more of your passions again, and I can't wait to see where it leads, but content shouldn't take precedence over one's own mental health, and you shouldn't pressure yourself into making content to the detriment of yourself. Again thanks for the update and welcome back, KING!
Thank you so much for taking the time to hear me out and share such kind words with me! It means more than you know. :)
Zero is actually starting to show some signs of improvement, so we're hopeful that he just needs a little more time to battle through this. He's always been a little tank of a dog, I know he's fighting this as best he can. For a dog his age, he certainly has a lot of strength left in him. Hoping for the best.
Interesting to hear about the BLW situation. So it's TECHNICALLY not dead and gone, but in some kind of production limbo? Huh. Well, hoping it eventually comes back, I'd still like to get my hands on one out of sheer curiosity alone.
And yeah, intending to give a little love to some of my other hobbies as well, I've let them atrophy over time, focusing on the electronics/modding instead. Kinda regret that now, there's a lot I'm gonna have to re-learn. But that's okay.
Oooookay, I clearly recall replying to you already, but for SOME reason, UA-cam isn't showing it and I have no clue why. Anyway, screw it, we'll do it again!
Zero is showing some signs of improvement, which we're praying continues. He's a tank, he's a fighter, I know he's doing the best he can. Regardless of what ends up happening, he's lived a very long, loving, healthy, scritch-scritch and gentle head-pat life. :3 We'll always remember that no matter what ends up happening.
As for the Blinking Light Win, it's good to hear that it's not dead and gone, but just grappling with some production issues. I still want to snatch one up, if just for curiosity alone.
Oh I fully intend on giving my old hobbies some love again. It's been too long, I've let them atrophy in place of the whole electronics/modding scene, and I feel a bit bad for it now. I have too many interests and a lot to re-learn now. Just gotta keep pushing forward.
PS: LOL! Thanks for the compliment. However...
No gods, no kings, only man.
Oooooookay so now UA-cam has decided to show BOTH of my replies, apparently. Pfft. Huh. Enjoy!
Missed you, Richard. Been watching for over a decade now. Figure you'd been busy living life. Sorry about all the hardships you've faced along the way. I'm not having the best time right now either, so thanks for this video; makes me feel a little less alone.
Thank you for such kind words and for sticking around for so long, things will get better. I'm confident they will for you as well. You're definitely not alone in this, and if you ever feel like ranting/venting or just getting something off your chest, I'm an open ear.
well hey man thanks for the update. i always kept your channel around regardless if i thought videos were coming because even though they arent linked to any specific interest of mine, your conducting of them and general charisma toward make the videos and showing your creations is why i felt like you are one of my people. yeah dude life is fuckin nuts. nobody told me how adult life feels stubborn to get better. as for your channel, i think viewers that have stuck around this long really wouldnt mind just you give retrospectives on interests of yours, your angles of thought about certain things, maybe somewhat related to the old content. either way ill be here man thanks for the update, im pulling for Zero.
Thanks for the feedback and I'm happy to hear that you still like watching!
Several people have actually mentioned live streaming, which I'm seriously considering. I figure it might be a nice way to further more personal engagement with you fellas, and pretty much anything goes. I'm not exactly setup for streaming so I'll need to adjust a few things and test some stuff, but it sounds like a pretty solid idea so far.
As for Zero, he's actually been showing a lot of signs of improvement! Still not out of the woods yet, but definitely better than he was when I filmed.
I remember watching (and probably forcing some friends to watch haha) the Nintoaster video back in high school (I’m like 29 now). I’ve probably continuously re watched that video a dozen times over the years.
I struggle a lot with my depression and empathize a lot with what you are saying. I don’t know what to say that doesn’t sound like some dumb platitude but keep your chin up and keep plugging away on your passions, therapy, etc. you are obviously a sharp dude!
Thank you so much for the kind reply. :) Yeah, I'm doing what I can to keep attacking this thing from multiple different angles, and still have more ideas to try, so I definitely haven't lost hope yet. Far from it. I'm blessed to have such a strong support network with you fellas, I can hardly believe it. Not everyone is that lucky which just makes things more difficult, and my heart goes out to them. Nobody should have to suffer in silence like that.
Thanks for the update man, always wondered where you'd dropped off to, loved the comedic style of the Nintoaster Instructional Video.
If your looking for ideas, i'd propose an instructional for the Super Nintoaster. I've also wondered about the nature of the Super Game Boy - the fact it's basically got all the Game Boy hardware in it which leads me to sometimes wonder if it's possible to cannabilise an actual Game Boy to make one or as parts for one.
It's a big ask, but i'd also love to see how a Nintoaster would be made in different regions due to differences in power delivery. I've looked at making one but the nature of UK power doesn't quite fit the guide.
Give that doggo lots of headpats from me.
Thanks for the kind reply! Heheh, yeah, I think I only emoted once or twice in the instuctional video, tried to keep my voice as dry and boring as possible to contrast with what was actually happening. People seemed to like it, so I'll count that one as a win. My personal favorite line from the tvtropes page: "Running Gag: Whenever a part is recommended to be kept for safekeeping, it just ends up in the trash instead." XD I'm glad someone actually took the time to document my nonsense!
A Super Nintoaster instructional video would essentially be exactly the same as the Nintoaster instructional video. The only real difference is where you get the audio/video signals from, and pointing out how absolutely critical it is to keep the cartridge connector ribbon cable as short as humanly possible, or you WILL have problems with certain games. There's also an issue in that there are a TON of different SNES board revisions that are all different shapes and sizes. It's way crazier than originally thought. So yeah, the SNES Jr. would really be the only possible candidate for that project, and I can see why people might not wanna risk it. That one would be only for the brave, willing to sacrifice an SNES Jr. for a project that might not even work 100%. I recall it being very tricky.
Ahhhh region differences. That's also a potentially tricky snag. I don't know if the UK hardware still uses a standard 7805 voltage regulator or not, and more importantly, the video signal coming out would be PAL, not NTSC, so the amplifier circuit might not work. There's really no way for me to test all that myself, but I'm sure it's still possible. ...Just needs to be adjusted mainly for the PAL signal, I don't see why the power would really be an issue, if it's still getting regulated down to 5v DC. But I could be way off. I just don't know for sure.
And all the doggos got headpats! Zero is actually recovering quite well so far, which is surprising us. This lil' trooper just doesn't give up for anything!
Hey, I'm just happy knowing you're still kicking. Even if it's videos like this one just keep them coming. I was so surprised seeing your channel pop up with a new video notification that I listened to this whole upload on the way to work. Sorry life has been such a turd to you and i hope things start getting better!
Thank you! Yeah, I'm gonna keep fighting this thing as hard as I can from multiple angles. Looking forward to better days, sure as hell gonna ket stabbin' at it!
Thanks for the update, Richard. Your channel is one that I've always returned to periodically, both to enjoy some of your older videos, and to see how you're doing. The Nintoaster Instructional Video is one of my great comfort food medias that I always come back to, and I'll never forget that derpy Sonic puppet you made.
I was always sad to see that you didn't go on to become more of a content creator. I always assumed it was because you just didn't have much interest in it, but I totally understand just not having the inspiration to create. I've had aspirations to start producing videos on my channel for over a decade now and haven't been able to find that drive to.
I've also been in a low point in my mental health, myself. I've never been medicated before, and for most of my life I never really needed to be. I was always able to keep a good handle on myself with meditation, a good outlook, and self-love, but the last few years I've really been taking a nose dive. I have a lot of outside forces that have definitely influenced that, but I do feel like a lot of it has come from a genuine chemical change in my brain. Way less creative motivation, don't find joy in the things I used to, lower libido, anxiety and apathy worse than ever.
I've been making a lot of changes in my life this year to try to improve myself, physically and mentally, and one of the things that I'm trying to get going is seeing a psychiatrist and trying medication. It really hurts me to do that, because for years I did a really good job of being my own therapist, but I've just lost control and can't be that for myself anymore. At least not solely. I'm not the same person I used to be, and that really sucks. I miss that person a lot. But hopefully, with some work and some help, I can become a better one. I hope the same for you as well.
I'm also really sorry to hear about Zero's condition. I can't imagine how hard that is on you, your wife, or him. I loved hearing you talk about your rescue animals. You've rarely ever shown that side of you on here. You always played the cool, snarky, cynic type, but getting to see how big of a heart you have is really sweet. You don't ever have to hide your feelings. It's okay to let yourself cry on camera for your audience to see. We're here for you, for whatever it's worth.
Even if I don't hear from you for another eight years, as long as I'm not dead, I'll still be here checking back.
All the best, Richard.
Thank you so much, you comment really moved me. I'm so sorry to hear that you've been struggling with mental health as well, people deserve to be happy, and these weird little chemical imbalances can completely wreck that for reasons completely unknown, and that's just not fair. That being said, I'm glad that it sounds like you're doing what you need to do in an attempt to improve! It really needs to be attacked from multiple different angles, pills alone are no silver bullet. (At least in my experience). There's no shame in reaching out to others for help. I know that first step, that first phone call can be extremely difficult, like the phone weighs 50 pounds. I probably wouldn't be around today if not for the help of a solid support network of good friends and of course, my wife. She helps keep my head screwed on straight. I don't know where I'd be without her help.
And yeah, I'm not afraid to cry anymore, I don't feel ashamed about it at all. Some might consider a guy crying to be some sign of weakness, or call me a pussy or something, but I consider it to be a perfectly normal and healthy release that can be necessary at times. Usually feel much better afterward too. It's also a nice reminder that I still have functioning emotions.
A quick update on Zero: He's actually starting to show some solid signs of improvement! Still have some serious balance issues, but he's getting up and walking on his own now (the best he can), is holding food down, and trending in the right direction. We're hoping that all he needs is a little more time to get past this and that it's not terminal. Mr. Z has always been a little tank of a dog though, I know he's fighting it as best he can. Hoping for the best.
PS: LOL! XD That damn Sonic GIF really got around! It was always weird scrolling through stuff and running into it out in the wild. A lot of them have stupid watermarks slapped all over 'em now, which is dumb, but whatever. I'm just happy people seemed to enjoy that little spark of silly.
Thanks again for the heartfelt words, and keep pushing! I'm rootin' for ya!
Much love,
- Richard
Hey dude, fighting for a reason to live is hard, glad you are still fighting. Still love watching your Nintoster video's. Heart goes out to you for your dogs.
So happy to see you again!!! I’m glad things are moving in a better direction for you, I too have been riding the depression coaster for most of my 46 years, and that monkey on your back is a fucker. I was a HR manager at a large corporation a few years back, and when I actually tried to help employees in any capacity beyond write ups and retraining, I would get shit from my bosses. It was so bad that I was losing my sanity, but did not want to leave the employees with a raging asshole. I did eventually leave, and my stress level is lower, but still think about all those employees almost every day…I really wanted to help.
It's a hell of a thing, isn't it? Orientation always make it seem like they've got your back, and I'd like to believe that sometimes they genuinely do, but that sadly isn't the reality for so many people. I'm glad that you're shared experience from your perspective, and that you're in an overall happier place now. It sounds like you've got a genuinely good heart. This world needs more people like you.
I don't think I've mentioned, but years ago I tried building a Nintoaster; it wasn't a success. Though I always appreciated your craft, the kind of things you came up with were always an inspiration to me! Here's hoping all the best with your health and what the future brings.
Sorry to hear your first attempt didn't work out, but hey, I've personally accidentally killed SO much hardware over the years it's stupid. These things happen. And who knows! Maybe someday you'll feel like taking another stab at it when the time is right! And thank you for the kind words and well wishes, it means a lot.
Man it's good to hear your voice again, even though life is a shit show right now. I'm sorry to hear about your troubles, but I'm glad that the job situation is improving. I'm also glad that you seem to have a strong support network. I still love the Nintoaster instructional video, and rewatch it occasionally. Also loved every video about projects, modding, and things of that ilk. You're an interesting dude, and I hope to see more of you.
You're probably a big reason why I've pursued small electronics as a hobby. I don't understand much, and I'm not in the gaming world of that - rather I've chosen to hack my way through guitar electronics projects.
Anyway man, thanks for everything, and stay strong. As the great Canadian "Red Green" said, "Remember, I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together."
Sincerely,
Another dude from Nova Scotia.
Thank you! Taking it one step at a time. I'm sure there will be more curveballs, but I'll deal with those as they come. And you're dead-on about the support network. You fellas have always been so supportive, patient and kind, and that's just here on youtube of all places! My other friend groups have been just as supportive too. I couldn't ask for more. Not everyone struggling is lucky to have what I do, and I feel for them. Going it alone is a special kind of hell.
And it's great to hear that I may have had a positive impact on you, no matter how small! Love hearing that my arguably silly projects have inspired to many to pursue new hobbies and even full-time careers, it's humbling and reassuring that I'm at least doing SOMETHING right.
I'll be doing everything I can to kick this thing in the ass!
@@vomitsaw Great to hear! Side note - has anyone ever told you that you remind them of Bill Hicks? Cause you remind me of him. Similar mannerisms, facial expressions, and even similar glasses. Maybe it's a Texas thing?
That kind of depression is the pits, man. I'm 31 and going through the hardest rough patch of my life so far. I lost my wife suddenly in December and nothing has been right since. All I can say is to keep those projects coming and stay busy. I know hardware and modding is your bread and butter, but have you ever tried any game coding? I've been working on creating an oldschool 8-bit Final Fantasy-esque RPG for a few months now (just to stay busy) and it's been a godsend for me. I can sink my teeth into the creative process for hours and hours and find a sense of peace that nothing else seems to give me these days. I highly reccommend it. Who knows? If you make something good enough, maybe you could manufacture some NES carts and sell them on your site? I'd certainly buy one. That way you have a distraction to keep you busy, a way of making a few extra bucks, and the knowledge that you're putting a fun game of your own creation out there for people to enjoy. What do you think?
Oh my god, I'm SO sorry to hear of your loss! D: I'd be in an extremely dark place (or even dead, if we're being honest) if not for the support of my wife. I can't imagine life without her, and can only guess how badly that must be hurting you. A loss that massive is going to take a lot of time to accept, but you already know this. You don't need me to tell you that. My heart goes out to you and I hope that you can eventually find some semblance of peace someday. If you ever need to talk to someone about it or just to vent, I'm an open ear. I'm trying to find ways to better engage with you fellas more intimately. It doesn't all have to be about video games, it could be anything at all.
The last time I tried coding anything was in Visual Basic 3.0 back in like... 1995? I toyed around with a few things, but it certainly wasn't the language needed for making something like a video game. I'd probably enjoy getting back into coding again someday yeah, but I'm a little overwhelmed at just how many different languages are out there now, and not sure where the best place would be to start. If you have any suggestions, please bounce them off me head. I'm really glad to hear that it's helping you cope in some capacity, that's awesome. Hope you keep at it!
Hopefully soon we can see some new projects. I remember the nintoaster like it was yesterday.. good times man. U are a part of why my childhood was awesome. Hope u feel better soon bro
Wow, thanks for such a kind response! I'm always flattered to hear that I had some kind of positive impact on someone, no matter how small or silly it may be. :)
And yeah, there's more on the way. Just trying to get all my ducks in a row.
Fuck man, I'm so sorry that you and Zero are having to go through all of this. I for one, am with you 1000% when it comes to death with animals. I sincerely hope Zero pulls through, and you as well. Your content has entertained me for years. The Nintoaster Instructional video was my introduction and I knew immediately that I would be here for the long haul. Sometimes life likes to smack our asses around a bit. There's not much we can do except try to make the best out of a shit situation. I hope things improve for you, dude. Just know that you've made many of my days brighter. I look forward to seeing these projects of yours come to fruition. Take care of yourself, brother.
Thank you so much for the thoughtful comment. We're keeping a close eye on Zero, he's starting to show some small signs of improvement, which we're really hoping continue. Don't want to end him premature, and also don't want to prolong any suffering. Tough decisions ahead. At least he's not in any obvious pain, which helps.
I'm so happy to hear that my silly little videos have contributed something positive, and am so happy for every time someone says they cracked a smile. Feels like I'm at least doing something right.
This video was a welcome surprise! sorry to hear you had a rough go of things but, glad that you're reaching out. You're a legend and can't wait to see what you come up with in the future
Thanks so much for your kind words! Yeah, I wish the update were under better circumstances, but I felt I needed to get it off my chest and let you fellas know where I've been. Didn't enjoy keeping everyone in the dark like that. I'm far from done, there's more to come. Thanks for stickin' around and being patient with me!
Thank you for the update man. Always made some of my favorite videos. Going to keep my hopes up for your pup and your future projects!! ❤
You're entirely welcome, it felt necessary. Thank you for having us in your thoughts, is really means a lot to us.
Hey Richard, been checking in on your channel since a little before the dogmoose coptor video. I also regularly struggle with my mental health. I suffer from bipolar 1. If you ever need to vent, or ramble or shoot the shit, reach out I'm a friendly ear.
With the working SNES boards what about taking a page out of modern gamers and do a sleeper build. Hide it in like the headrest of a car. Something nonsensical.
LOL that video, that was a good while back now! Thanks for sticking around. :)
I'm sorry to hear about your struggles. I'm sure it isn't easy and you're doing what you can to combat it. I hope that you have a healthy support network too, that can help immensely, even if it's just a small group of friends that you can count on one hand. And thank you for offering to listen! May take you up on that. I'm a sympathetic ear as well.
Ah yes! I actually thought about the "Cartendo" a long time ago but never went anywhere with it. System in the main console under the stereo, controller that falls out of the glove box, and an LCD screen in the... drop-down visor shade thing. (The word is completely escaping me right now for some reason). I LOVE the nonsensical! It's right up my alley.
Thank you very much for sharing this. It seems obvious to me that your dogs care about you just as much as you do them
No problem at all! Yeah, we consider them our children, a very real part of our family. They are loved and very well taken care of. We love our doggos.
I still watch your old vids bro. Nostalgic to the nines! Be safe and be well. God bless. Supergenintari for life!
Glad to hear you're still alive and kicking. I randomly decided to check back in on your channel like I do every couple of years and saw you had some videos. No pressure to make more stuff, though; go at your own pace. I always liked the videos on your channel because I could tell you were passionate about all the projects you worked on and your ideas were always so unique. Looking forward to what the future has in store.
Glad to see your doing okay. Hope the best for you and your family. Been a fan since the Super Genentari Days. Keep on keeping on!
Thanks for the reply and well wishes! Amazing that you've stuck around for this long, I really appreciate that. Man, that was a LONG time ago too! Shit, we were still living in San Francisco at the time.
Hey man, it takes a lot to get through all the shit you've been dealing with. Always happy to see an upload, but don't feel like you owe us a video if it comes at the expense of your health and wellness. Gotta focus on your first.
I hear ya. It felt necessary though, and honestly, I'm glad that I posted it. Clearing the air and getting all that off my chest felt like a weight being lifted, which is ultimately a good thing.
As a kid I loved your videos! I learned to solder and mess around with Nintendo's. I definitely ruined a few haha. I'm a software engineer now, and I still dream of making my own Nintoaster sometime soon! :D
That's great to hear, thank you! And yeah don't feel bad, I've accidentally killed MANY boards in my time too. It happens. I just chalk it up to a learning experience and keep moving on.
Would love to see a Nintoaster from ya someday if you ever get around to it! I love seeing other people's takes on it.
Dude it's been forever but glad to see you again man and honestly dude your struggle is insanely relatable, been dealing with similar stuff myself but hang in there man. Also in regards to that bit at the end, do you have other hobbies? Maybe you could film those too if so, regardless happy to see you again with an update because I remember loving your nintoaster video and all the other stuff you built. Cheers!
I have no intentions to stop fighting this thing, no matter what it takes, and I'm wishing the best for you as well! Certainly takes time, but it's not insurmountable.
I actually DO have other hobbies, I just don't talk about them here, for... reasons. Used to play guitar and loved to draw, but I kinda let those atrophy as I got more into the electronics and modding scene. I fully intend on picking them back up, but there's a lot that I'm going to have to re-learn now, and that's okay. Just gonna take time, like anything else.
@@vomitsaw I'm just glad you're doing your best man! we'll be here (Or at least I will) Cheers!
Seeing this on my feed made my day, so glad to hear from you. I'm sorry for your hardships and I really hope things get better. Lots of love.
Yeah, really wish I were updating under better circumstances, but it is what it is. You guys have been great to me, and I'm eternally thankful for that.
glad to see you're still kicking it. your videos inspired me to learn more about electronics. I hope somehow things are able to get better for you moving forward.
when things aren't going right, it probably isn't much of a consolation, but you've definitely made a positive impact regardless of all the negatives. being able to recognize whats happening, and trying to move past it or work with it or whatever, is a lot more than a lot of people manage to do.
I guess a quicker way to express that would be to say, from my mildly informed point of view, you're at least trying and that counts for a lot. the super 72 connector is a great idea and I know I'd buy one as soon as it came out. stay cool, thanks for everything
Thank you for the reply! I've actually felt pretty damn good over the past several days, probably due to the sheer unexpected amount of kind words and support I've been receiving from you guys! It's been immensely helpful. Hearing that I've made ANY kind of positive impact on someone's life, no matter how small, feels amazing and really helps. Still fighting though and have no intentions on giving up.
If it's any consolation, I've been watching your game modification videos (and seen you work with AVGN) since I was 12, I'm almost 25 and I'm working on getting my A+ IT certification. I'd like to these your videos helped me along the way
Good to see you're still around. You've been something of an inspiration regarding electronics in these parts.
Talking about these things, even to a camera, does help even if it doesn't feel like it. Depression's a bitch, but as long as you work on it and make conscious decision rather than stay down, things'll go for the better.
Poor Mr. Zero, but do try to cherish these later days with him. It'll be a hard time, but remembering the good among the darkness is always the better option. Celebrate his life the best you can.
Yeah, getting this video out felt like a huge weight off and was ultimately helpful. I'm far from done yet, just gotta keep on keepin' on, one day at a time.
And a quick update about Zero: He's starting to show some signs of improvement! Small, but important. He's able to get up and walk on his own again (as best he can anyway), and his eyes aren't darting around quite as much. Still eating and holding his food down. Still too early to tell for sure, but these are promising signs!
It's great to hear from you again, even if the news isn't happy. Your videos of gaming hardware projects always bring me back to a better time on the interwebs.
I sincerely hope that the road you're on smooths out and that instead of life kicking you in the dick, you can start kicking life in the dick instead.
Thank you! Yeah, really wish it were a happier update, but I felt it just had to get done. I love to hear that so many people enjoy coming back to my albeit arguably small collection of videos and that it brings them some kind of joy. My story is far from over. Gonna keep at it!
So i know you've been gone awhile but I'd check inperiodically. For some reason "nintoaster. Gonna show you how to make some useless crap" or whatever the line was from the nintoaster instructional video and i relized I haven;t checked in for like 4 years. Glad to see more videos and hope eveything works out. I've dealt with the same issues you faced with medications and we are strong and can do it. I believe in you man....
Thanks so much! I definitely still have my days, but have been doing MUCH better overall since coming back. The uploads are still a bit here and there (I've got one in the works now), and I've been streaming twice a week. Just the human connection was something I was definitely missing, I know that now for a fact.
So glad to see a video from you again, I just wish it was under better circumstances. I'm sorry for all your troubles, I just wish there was something us internet strangers could do besides offer condolences, especially for the doggos, wish they could live forever and then some. Props to you for persevering and hanging in there, wishing you some peace of mind for the rest of this year.
P.S. - Would kill for another video of you and Bloodpaddle Brad playing Abadox again...
Yeah, I wish it were under better circumstances as well, but I felt it needed to be done. Just rip the bandaid off and get it over with. It feels like a weight has been lifted. And believe me, you fellas are helping more than you may realize! I've been so genuinely surprised at all of the supportive feedback it's still blowing me away. You fellas are good people and I'm glad to have you around. It helps.
Brad moved to the Dallas are for a job several years back, so we haven't been able to hang out. We still talk frequently though, of course. He IS considering moving back to San Antonio at some point though, so we'll see! We've even talked about collaboration on a business of some sort. The idea is still in it's infancy, but I like that it's being kicked around.
Good to hear from you, such an inspiration. If making these types of update videos help sort your mind, keep making them.
Thanks! It DOES help, at least, this one sure did. Felt like a huge weight off. And I'd like to get back to the funnier/happier stuff, which I'll do, but yeah if I feel like something less-than-happy needs to be said, I'm not as afraid to say it anymore. In moderation though, I don't want this place to turn into a total mess.
Hey, Richard. I'm so sorry you've had a shitty time over the past eight years. I think a lot of us have, really. Bad jobs, depression, etc. I hope everything gets better for you soon. Glad you found a job that you like. I know finding that great job is very hard. I hope you can make more videos in the future, but if you don't, that's okay too. I just hope your depression can be managed sooner rather than later.
Thank you for the update. Hope Zero gets better soon. Take care and hope you get the time to upload. Cheers. 🍻
Thanks! Zero is actually staring to show some signs of improvement, so we're hoping that trend continues and he just needs a little more time. Too early to tell just yet, but we're hoping he manages to weather this storm.
Glad to hear from you Richard. Sending all of the positive vibes I can your way for Zero, and everything else going on with you and yours. Looking forward to seeing more from you! Would love to see some nonsense in the form of some kind of informative/educational aspect? The nintoaster instuctional video has always been a go-to comfort food watch for myself.
Thanks so much for the good juju! Zero is actually starting to show some small signs of improvement, so we're hopeful that all he needs is a little more time to get over this. We'd LOVE to see him make a full recovery, but we're also preparing for the worst at the same time. Never gets easy. Despite what happens, it's comforting to know that he's already lived a very long, happy life with us, and we'll try our best to keep that in the forefront.
And yeah, I've had some pretty solid suggestions that I'm considering. I want to further engage with you fellas, just haven't 100% hammered out a plan yet. Got some ideas kicking around though.
Welcome back and great video. Brave for you to make this.
I really hope you are able to feel even better as time goes on. I’ve been a fan of your videos through James Rolfe since his Atari Jaguar video and I’ve always been interested in your gaming projects and mods. Even though this video is long overdue, it’s worth it just to hear that you’re still keeping your head above the surface. Take care, and I’m always looking forward to your future videos!
Thank you for the nice comment! It's always interesting to hear how you fellas found me, where you came from, etc. And yeah, I'm gonna keep kickin' this thing in the ass 'till I start feeling better. Just talking to you fellas and getting this video out there feels relieving.
Nice to hear from you again, sorry to hear about everything that has happened and I hope you manage to get through it. You are an amazing guy and I really hope to see some projects from you again some time! I wish you all the best Richard
Thank you so much for the reply and well wishes! It's appreciated. Just gotta take things one day at a time, keep on keepin' on and trying new methods to improve. I'm not done yet, there's still plenty I want to share.
great to hear you're still around! you were one of my main inspirations for getting into electronics and engineering, hope all goes well and you keep truckin on. poor Zero, hoping for the best ❤
Thank you so much! There really are some of my favorite things to hear; that I somehow inspired somebody to begin exploring something new, and even better if it ends up turning into a full-blown career! I'm really lifts my spirits to hear this. :)
I'll keep y'all updated on Zero. He's actually starting to show some signs of improvement! Just hoping that trend continues and all he needs is more time.
I still watch your nintoaster how-to for entertainment all these years later. I get how hard it is to handle old dogs. I have one myself, a rescue around 9 years old. He has bad teeth and isn't as spry as he used to be and it takes it's toll. If only we had them forever. I've been there with HR a few times working IT and telecom as well. They are never there for the employee, only to protect the company. I haven't quite flipped a boss off yet but did quit a terrible job by just beginning to smoke at my desk. You'd think you'd be kicked out and fired within minutes of lighting up, but I had to start a second cigarette for them to notice. All in all, would recommend quitting in this manner lol. At the end of the day, your personal stress level is the most important thing.
Thank you so much for the reply! I'm glad you still get some kicks from my old work, it means a lot to me. :)
And y'know what? As an ongoing nicotine addict myself, (and the absolutely stupid "try to stay outside and out of sight" rules they had for smoking), I personally think just saying "fuck it" and sparking one up at your desk is giga-Chad move! XD I didn't have the balls for that though. I don't miss it at all. My work life is much better now, so at least I've got that going for me.
We all love you, man. Things will be better one day. Go play some genintari and get some rest, you earned it.
I won't hesitate for a moment to say I love you fellas too!
Thank you for uploading this video. I was wondering where you have been! This is going to be pretty up front, but to help with my depression I keep busy doing projects, weather it be at my shop, or just side projects, it helps to get your mind off of it as well as talking to loved ones about things that are going on. I have lost a lot of pets in my days her on Earth, and every time a piece of my heart goes with them. It is very sad, but in the end I feel that they are in a better place now then suffering here on Earth. It hurts so bad because they love you so unconditionally that it is the most heart breaking thing to ever happen, it is like loosing a mother and/or a father at that point. Hang in there, you are tougher than nails man, you can make it through this just like when the car wound up in your living room a while back!! You know how to bounce back from this. You did say something in your video that you need to remember, it is mostly in your head, and if you can really believe that, then run with it. Remember you control your own life and what goes on in your head. You will have relapses from time to time with overwhelming depression, but they wind up coming and going. Be strong :) Lots of Love Richard!!
Thank you so much for the heartfelt response! I really appreciate it. :)
I WANT to keep busy, which, you're correct, would certainly help, but sometimes it's just so difficult for me to even get out of bed at times. The excessive sleep feels kinda like I'm just fast-forwarding past the crap and onto... something better. But things aren't just going to magically get better on their own. I need to keep actively working on it.
And a quick update about Mr. Zero: He's actually starting to show some small signs of improvement! He's not out of the weeds yet, but we'll take anything. He's getting up and walking on his own again (as best he can anyway), and holding his food down. We're hoping all he needs is a little more time. And if for some reason things get worse and we have to let him go, we'll be keeping in mind that he lived a VERY long, healthy and loving life. It's gonna sting for sure, but I'll try to remember the happy times instead of obsessing over the loss.
Thank you so much again for your reply. It means more to me than you know.
@@vomitsaw That is great news that Zero is pulling through!!! I was in the stage of not wanting to get out of bed as well. That lasted a very long time for me. It is a hard one to break out of!! I can't remember what it was that broke the cycle but it will get better with a little bit of time. At the end of the day, a lot of "jobs" come and go and it takes landing a really good one and focusing on the goals of that company to push forward though the depression!!
An example from my personal life:
Some background on who I am. I'm an electrical/electronics engineer, now read on LOL:
I was hired at this events company when I was 14 years old and it lasted well until I was 22 (or there abouts). Really loved the job, kept very busy and it was a lot of fun. Got to know the general manager really well and when I was 18 I got put in charge of production, got my own office, a title, and the whole bit! For an 18 year old, that was massive!!! Well I wound up moving up north, (sorry a bit of background on that, I am born and raised in Las Vegas, Nevada) and had to resign from the position. Fast forward 2 years and here I am back in Vegas because that turned in to a disaster really quick (had to live with the in laws) LOL. Had to find a job, so I went with a local vending machine company as a service tech repairing machines. That lasted 5 years before I started to slip into a deep depression because my mother passed. It was the same thing every day, day in and day out. It got so boring that I would already know what was wrong with the machine before I even got to the account. Well this whole time my boss from the events company stated before still had me doing "side projects" for him from up north and the whole time I was at the vending company. One day out of the blue he called me and asked me to come to his shop! Well long story and conversation short, he offered me an offer I couldn't refuse, CTO position, part ownership of the company, and the icing on top, an office with windows LOL. So now I'm so busy building cool shit and electronics for events, that I really don't have the time to think about why I was even depressed.
The moral of that short story was to give you some insight on other walks of life. I know you love IT and really good at it, but sometimes you need to take a leap into something else that can get you to learn another skill that you that you thought you would never like but actually like. I've been with you and your videos literally since the beginning with the Nintoaster and the Super-Gen-Nin-Tari days and loved and still love watching those videos. Sometimes I go back to the Nintoaster Instructional Video just for some laughs. I actually have it downloaded on my PC as well just in case something happens to youtube. I think you have a hidden talent just busting to get out!! That being a content creator/actor!!!
Take care man, I hope the doggo will get better
Thank you. We're still watching him closely. He's showing SOME signs of improvement, but he's still not out of the woods yet. I'd like to give him more time, but we also don't want him to suffer. It's all very difficult.
dang man it has been a while, I remember watching your nintoaster video years ago back when I first started collecting old game consoles, I hope you can take off with your super 72 connector as I think older hardware still deserves some love. Thank you for your contributions to hardware modding and I hope to see more from you later on :D
I'm so happy to see you again! When it comes to depression, every small improvement is a win in my book! I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. The weird thing is, I had basically the same thing happen to me about 22 years ago. From one second to another, everything started spinning, my eyes were darting around and I had balance issues since then and never knew, what that was... Until a few hours ago, when I went to a specialist for balance issues. What caused this for me back then was the fucking herpes virus. But instead of giving me a couple of blisters on my lip, it fired off in my inner ear and attacked the nerves. It's incredibly rare, that this even happens (he said it's like winning the lottery). I know that dogs can get the herpes virus, so maybe the same thing happened to him. For me, it took about 5-7 days to get back to a "not everything is spinning" feeling, a week later, everything felt kind of normal again.
I have no idea, if this is any kind of help for you, but maybe with a bit more time, maybe a week or so could show similar results.
My god, I'm sorry to hear that. I can only imagine how awful and utterly confusing/scary that must feel. What an odd thing to have happen. Glad to hear it finally cleared up for ya though, damn. That's rough. We've been watching Zero closely and he's starting to show some small signs of improvement, which is great, just hoping he keeps trending in that direction. He's not in any obvious pain, which is good, but that's still no way for a dog to live. He's still eating and drinking, and the meds seem to have helped curb the vomiting, so that's good. If things keep showing signs of improvement, I feel he deserves a bit more time, yeah. But we'll see.
Yeah, it's terrifying, because you have no idea where it comes from and if/when it goes away again. Small improvements sound great. Sure, it's always a terrible situation. You don't want the pet to suffer, but you also don't want to give up hope too fast. If Zero is still eating and drinking, that's a very good sign. He is fighting, that's awesome! I'm really pulling for him!
Good luck man! Really dig this video, it is real and you seem like a VERY interesting and original human being. I bet talking to you and having a beer is fun as hell. Depression sucks, but you will manage. Try some guided meditation and awareness exercises for a change. I like Joseph Goldstein, he is a meditation teacher. Kind regards from Bavaria, Germany
Glad you're back man, I almost called you about 2 years ago but then I wasn't sure I had your current number since it was like 2010 the last time we talked. lol
Number hasn't changed, call whenever you want. :) I remember you from that cesspit called 2Wire.
@@vomitsaw cool. I'll call this evening.
@@vomitsawjust texted you. Sor6it took days.
Sorry to hear about your dog, I've gone through that before myself, and it's definitely not easy. Hopefully he pulls through. I've also suffered from severe depression since I was a teenager, and have had major general life issues as a result of it, but I've found in more recent years better ways of managing it. I used to take prescription medications, but didn't care too much for them. I've actually found (and I know it sounds cliche) that just getting outdoors helps tremendously. Personally I like going for long walks in the woods, or mountain biking. I guess the combination of being in nature, getting fresh air, sunlight, exercise, and just getting away from people and technology for a while, is what does it for me. I work with computers too, though not in IT, just an office worker. I find that I just really need to unplug sometimes, especially since I also tend to game pretty hardcore. It doesn't totally fix my depression, I don't think that's even possible honestly, at least in my case, but it does make it a hell of a lot more manageable. It also makes me physically feel much healthier, and regulates my sleeping (I've had horrible insomnia issues too), which all just contributes to my being better able to fight depression and enjoy life. Anyway, that's my two cents man. Hope you're feeling better and I look forward to more videos if you feel up to them.
Thank you for the response. I'm sorry to hear that you've had to deal with this ongoing depression issue as well, but happy to hear that you seem to have found healthy ways to deal with it better! Exercise and just getting out are things I have yet to try, if I'm being honest here. I'm pretty lazy and a notorious hermit, work graveyards so I don't see the sun that much, I need to get better at that. And I completely understand what you're saying when it comes to disconnecting. I honestly don't even get on the computer that much at all on my days off. I still do a bit of scrolling on the phone, but mostly just for shitposts and memes, LOL! Anything to get a chuckle out of me. :) Anyway, things should HOPEFULLY be starting to cool down soon, and I'd like to just start small, just walking for the hell of it, and see where that goes. Baby steps.
@@vomitsaw Yeah I hear you man, I'm very much so a hermit myself, but that's a big part of what I enjoy about the woods honestly, just getting to be alone in a quiet, peaceful environment. I used to have a phobia about it actually, but with time and sort of an exposure therapy strategy, I got over it and am very glad I did, because it does wonders for me. Little by little is definitely the way to go though. Cheers.
Sorry to hear the paths lifes put you on, glad to hear there are some signs of light ahead though. Your work inspired me to get deeper into tinkering many years ago & its still a passion I chase. Can directly relate to the weight depression brings on you and after all these years i have no solution except trying to rock the boat as little as possible, so when the inevitable depression wave hits I've a better chance not going overboard. Its a battle i had to accept to fight. Thank you for sharing all this, while you owe no one anything, I know how hard it is to open up. You are not alone
Thank you so much for taking the time to hear me out, and for sharing your own experiences. And I always LOVE to hear that I've in some way inspired people to start exploring new things and discovering new hobbies they might not have thought about before! They're really my favorite kinds of things to hear. Helps remind me that I'm not completely worthless and have had a positive impact on someone's life, regardless of what it is. It helps. And you're right, there are so many of us in the same boat. Never feel ashamed to reach out for help either. Sometimes it can just feel impossible to go it alone, I know that for sure.