Citizen Soldier - Who I Am (Official Lyric Video)
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- Опубліковано 10 тра 2022
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"Everyday's a punishment for being human but the wrong kind"😢😢❤
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I've never related more to song lyrics than i do this line in this song.
No wrong kind of human. We need to stop judging the superficial exterior and get to know someone before we even think of judging a person
@Dragonmann23 I was wondering if someone else would think like that. No one deserves to be judged. I'm glad some else thinks like that😇 also "perfect" doesn't exist so in a sense isn't everyone perfect and flawed at the same time
@Dragonmann23 100% agree but only we can decide that.
"Everyday's a punishment, for being human of the wrong kind" bruh that hit me like a train
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Same 🥲
Same bro
The line who punches me in the stomach is “Hate my life for being fake or hate myself for being real”
It's hard, man
Word
"Hate my life for being fake or hate myself for being real"...damn that hit hard. thanks for reminding me where I started and that I'm not alone in this fight! 💜
You are so damn lucky. My parents are a big part of my problem
same here
Does anyone else relate to the song?
yeah I do😔
Yep
I do, this song makes me cry 😢
@@RonnieShadow15 I know that feeling all too well ❤️🩹
Yes I do and I hide it from everyone even my friends
My insomnia has paid off. It’s three a.m over here. It’s mostly late at night when I have suicidal or depressive thoughts but your songs always help me through it. Thanks for being there and making awesome music. Amazing vocals
Appreciate you 💙 Glad the music helps
Music like ramady can help us when we're depressed🖤🕊️
you are needing
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May the river of melodies flow.. And keep you happy.. You ain't ever alone when you're listening to wonderful songs.. Stay strong and keep on fighting💫
"Do I wear the mask and follow? Or pay the price for being brave."
OW YOU CANT JUST RECITE MY OWN FEELING TO ME.
good song 👌
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I know right!
Eggzacally
yeah same here I only know the mask though. :(
This sound is so wonderful. The person who is reading this comment, I wish you great success, health, love and happiness!
“The only choices that you gave me, two different ways I can be killed: Hate my life for being fake, or hate myself for being real”
Wow, what a powerful line!
Yeah, so true! This one hits deep.
At this moment those words could never be more true
*trains*
My mood everyday❤🩹
that is a deep line and i love it
As a victim of bullying throughout my life, this hit home. I fight every day to shake what was said from me, developed a persona where I be useful instead of real because I feel the real me isn't good enough at all. You summarized so much into one song. It's amazing. Thank you.
Appreciate you Nicole 💙 Glad the music helps
Same, i get you totally. Being bullied did that to me too. Now i get it from family and i don't know if they even realise they do it
Same I’ve been bullied for years sure I’m not being bullied now but their words still hurt me and make me believe that being who I am Is not right that if I showed who I am I’ll be called a freak or a monster
The things people say about you only show who they are as human beings. You ARE good enough and I'm sure that the real you is great, people just need to see that instead of making you seem the way they want you to seem. Again, you are great and you are enough. Stay strong and don't give up. Sending you positive vibes.
You hit the nail on the head. Being useful instead of real. I fight that, but I’m losing my battle I hope it shows a better path for others.
Absolutely relatable as hell, I have autism and it feels like I have to hide my disability to be someone I’m not, it hurt me personally in the long run and now I’m a hollow shell of who I once was. Thank you so much citizen soldier for the incredible music you guys but out into the world. Much love guys and thank you for allowing myself to be valuable and honest. ❤️☺️🤘
You, as you are, is enough. ❤️
I know how you feel, I’m on the spectrum too and I had to hide a lot of who I am but let me tell when you find that bravery to be yourself it’s the best feeling so don’t hold back for anyone
Appreciate you friend 💙
@@CitizenSoldier thank you so much guys, much love. ☺️❤️🤘
...unfortunately I've went through the same. I'm high functioning autistic during my years in school it was pretty rare not running in to someone that pretty much said "you're not normal" it dose alot to you more then youd think.
As an autistic person, I must say that this song explain everything. Even with ASD and dyslexia, I am finishing my master's thesis in Biochemestry, and thinking about PHD, but I think I will never be enought. I never write, but I have to say thanks for share this masterpiece to the world.
I want to let you know that as an autistic teenager, this comment is honestly so inspirational for me. I often get worry that it's impossible for "someone like me" to be successful. I guess we're all just worried we're not enough, huh?
Thank you though, this gives me hope.
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My girlfriend is autistic and she has felt this way too.
I've told her this and I will tell you too:
Autism is just a label for how to help you. You need some extra help, but it isn't something to be ashamed of. There will be people who don't understand you, but there are others out there who will keep their hearts and minds open for you.
I will always try to be a safe space for everyone with these needs. I will be the ear for when you need to rant to someone. I will be the person there for you when you need a hug, the quiet space if you're overwhelmed. I will do my best to be someone safe you can be around.
Please, remember this if you feel any discomfort for yourself because you are human and truly important to this world just like anyone else. Maybe even more important. You're doing great out there and you can keep going. You are enough. I promise. ❤
@@hondaaccord736same here
@@TheMemeMan. same ihave adhd and a brittle bone birth defect cant tipe name corectly i was not expected to make it to 23 but look at me 36 and i do tower light repair so ha to them doctors
I don't have anything g like that but I feel this song. And it explains everything about me
"These wounds aren't healing and I am scared to death that i'll look into the mirror and believe the things they've said".These words are so relatable I have never related more to words.😭😨😓
agreed
"they are too busy praying i'll be someone else" hit me hard. I am struggling to accept who I am and who I want to become. I have this image that I portray to the world that I am an elite Christian athlete with a 4.0 GPA in nursing school. I am so scared to deviate from that path and be who I want to be because it is what everyone wants from me. I want to show the world that I am a Bisexual Christian woman, but I feel trapped by the stigmas surrounding being a part of the LGBTQ in the Christian faith. It is hard, but thank you for giving me a song that is so relatable, and I am sure it is relatable to so many others.
you gotta be true to your self dont let other choose your path if you wanna find happiness
tho i been where you are and sorta still am so i understand to a degree your pain
Girl, I felt your comment. I have a similar situation.
My family is Catholic, but I am not. And instead of listening and accepting me as I am, they deny me. Every day I have to cling to a false image, I pretend that I believe in God, I pretend that I like boys, when I don't. I am always quiet and obedient.
If they found out, I don't know what would happen... I don't feel able to break that "perfect idea" that they think of me
Appreciate you Tori 💙 We hear you. Stay who you are, that's what makes you beautiful
@@arianatorbutera9152 I'm so sorry that you are trapped as well. I guess it's hard because family is important but our own happiness is important. I guess we have to find it in ourselves to see how far we are willing to go to fight for the perfect image or happiness within. God will love us no matter what, but the fear of loosing people is so hard. If your family truely loves you, they won't agree with you most likely, but hopefully they love you still. I'm honest trying to gain the courage to tell mine. I will pray for you
@@toribreckler2575 I thank you very much for your words, you are right, I don't know what will happen, but it will be what it has to be. It's nice when you know you're not alone. from one trapped person to another, i wish you the best.
Hugs and a lot of strength
as someone who suffers with depression and anxiety I constantly I try and hide from the world, i can really relate to this. Thanks gents this is truly incredible
Glad the music helps Chris 💙
You are not alone in your fight..... Anxiety depression and PTSD. It really sux but just Kno that you are loved and not alone in this
I do the same. C-PTSD, and even knowing isolation is the worst thing for me, I live alone and haven't left my house in 3 months. Some days it's hard to leave my bedroom. I have anxiety that I'll have a flash back, and in public would be even worse. My Australian shepherd is the only one who really knows what I feel. And she's why I'm still here.
@@CitizenSoldier you touch us all 😢❤️
I understand so well. I have insomnia on top of that. Life is so hard when I barely slept in weeks. 😢
“Im so damn tired of being who I am” describes my life perfectly
Every song they make say the things I wish someone would just hear
Even as someone who's parents fully acknowledge my mental illness and support me when I'm down, inside I can still relate to these kinds of songs. Thanks for the music guys
I know, they don’t need to be this perfect! 🤪
I’m glad you’re parents are empathetic with you
Same. I have supportive parents but I still feel this
Hey, where can I find this album?
Honestly same
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"Everyday's a punishment for being human but the wrong kind" Resonated in me. This song is so amazing. Thank you for this song, I needed this.
"Hate my life for being fake or hate myself for being real" This hit me like a hurricane and remind me of when I was in this exact spot
Also the line "I'll look into the mirror and believe the things they've said" Why is that so true?
Remember the next time you find yourself in this situation always stop and take the time to remind yourself, you are awesome in your own skin, pick being real but never forget there's people out there that loves you. I know im a stranger but I'm gonna say this I love all of you. As a person who been through this countless of times, I've learned it's God's way of telling to separate from the ones that's trying to tear you down.
I love this song so much, I can’t get enough of it. Been on repeat since the new album “This Is Your Sign Part II”.
Glad you like it 💙
I've cheated death SOOO many times that I feel like death has cheated me... Inshallah we as creatures will become more unified... Mushallah j
I am a little confused and lonely on a continent I'm not from... I've been labeled as a habitual violent offender for protecting myself n now I cannot get nor find a job to work with any employer only for n I'll never work FOR no one... Alhumduallah 4 All that I may have at present 💝 🙏🙌👐🤲🙌🙌🙌🙏🔥🌎🌊⚡🌌🌚🪐✨☄️♾️ forever blessed , but legally cursed 😞but always remember that we are all blessing's and together we can and will defeat the corrupted persona's and Oops. 🤫 👽 👻 👾
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This man breaks my heart so deeply. His music explains the things I can’t. I cannot express the tears I have shed listening to his music ❤. Please don’t stop. I feel understood listening to him. And my thanks will never been enough.
Citizen Soldier saved my life.
Me too 💔❤️🩹❤️
To everyone struggling. Never give up. You all are brave and believe you are! Life is full of it's ups and downs and I believe this song shares an important message to those who are afraid to be themselves. I struggle with this too, but no matter what keep fighting, because you are perfect the way you are. I don't know who needs to hear this, but keep your heads up. ❤
I was strong I was brave ive given up I have so menny regret thing I'd change so menny thing I'd do difrenty and it's only been 15 and I h SC e already realized how the world it I have seen how peopel are and i just want to die like you cma see good but have you seen the bad part od humanity yet were nobody notices or care even your family
Damn hit me like a train😭😭💪
❤You are amazing ❤ just the way you are ❤
@@siennaerickson3379but its too late 💔🖤
🥰If you are unsure if people love you don't be cause you are loved 🥰
"This wounds aren't healing and I'm scared to head" This song really broke me down as all my life I have been that path of putting on the mask and following that fake path...Citizen Soldier truly sings words that speak to everyone that is going through something in life and that we are strong and there is light in the darkness that will lead to a brighter and happier life.
I just wanted to tell ye I think autocorrect screwed ye over?
/Look at your quote/
Hope ye get better :3
i just saw the autocorrect mistake. Thank you
I still don't understand, how you guys can explain depressions so good. Without your songs, I wouldn't have words to say how I feel. Thank you for this beautiful songs! ❤️
Appreciate that 💙
My parents always tell me that these songs are The reason I’m depressed they don’t understand that it’s not the song it’s me
"Hate my life being fake or hate myself for being real" damn bro. That hit hard.
Nice song 👍
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Oh my gosh y'all have me tearing up ❤️❤️❤️ I've been having a rough time lately and you guys just get it. Getting bullied for who you are makes you want to be someone else
"They are too busy praying ill be someone else" "Every day's a punishment, for being human but the wrong kind" "That I look into the mirror, and believe the things they have said"💙💙 these lines hit like a truck after being bullied as a kid for 4,5 years. Even 7 years later I still feel the ruins they have made of me but you guys help me rebuild them piece by piece, thanks for everything💙💙. Edit: this entire song hits so hard, its so super reletable if you have been heavly bullied for a long time. Again thanks Citizen Soldiers for everyone you are helping every day💙💙
I’ve never heard a song where every lyric is spot on like this song is. It’s like it was written specially for me. Thank you. ❤❤
This perfectly describes how I feel, this hits to close. Once again you've done an amazing job with your wording. Thank you
Glad it helps 💙
"Do i wear the mask and follow. Or pay the price of being brave." That was me for so long, but i'm better for making the choices i've made. Because there is no shame in "Who I Am" and no one should be.
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"Every day is full of pain that they have never felt, but they're too busy praying I'll be someone else"...no other words to say 🙌🏼
I cried the first time I heard this song, and it still brought that tense, choking feeling seeing the lyrics. "Hate my life for being fake, or hate myself for being real." - is such a personally heavy line and I choke up each time. Thank you for putting to music some of the hardest things people struggle with 🧡
Thank you for this one, Citizen Soldier. This song is a perfect description of the neverending war that I struggle through. Because of my constant and unexpected depressive moods, I constantly feel like I'm trapped between my hatred for my false smile and hatred for the true, dark person that I really am behind the mask. Sometimes I feel like those around me do wish that I was someone better. Because I constantly feel like I disappoint them when I feel down, I force a fake smile to keep the days going and end up ultimately suffering in silence. This pretty much became the normal standard of my lifestyle. I always live in constant fear that I'll never be truly understood. I still soldier on through each day despite my exhaustion of constantly fighting back a darkness that I can only see in my reflection.
It really helps to have at least one person who accepts you for who you are. In my case, this person is my best friend, who suffered to mental health issues herself. People can most of the time only relate, if they experienced themself what it is like to suffer from mental health issues. Support groups are a great place to meet such people. Look up, look around. People with similar problems tend to get drawn to each other. You are not alone and you only have to change what you WANT to change, not what others demand from you. It's your life, it's your decision what to do with it and NO ONE is allowed to take that from you.
You are the protagonist of your life, not some side character, your world exists solely for you.
Much for you
@@kor6161 Thank you. I really needed to hear that. My darkness gets so overwhelming sometimes I just want to give up. There's this little shred of me that refuses to give in to that darkness. No matter how much I want to die sometimes, it never allows it and I survive into the next day.
@@LegionoftheBlackStar I think you should think about what this little shred is that keeps you alive. I think, if you fokus on the things, this shred is about and make them a bigger part of your life, then you will probably find your purpose to live. At least for me that helped me to get out of this dark swamp. And just remeber: It doesn't matter what others think of the contents of your shred. If it's important for you, than that is all that matters.
These last few weeks have been torture due to my depression and this songs sums up how I've been feeling. Knowing someone else feels the same way makes me feel less alone in this world. Thank you for another beautiful song 💙
"so damn tired of being who i am" it hit so hard
Please 🙏 help me Lord. I humble myself before you
You guys are the only ones I drop everything to watch. ❤️❤️
Honored 💙
My favourite from the album, been waiting for this to drop. Incredible song. It's hard to match your guys ability to put feelings into words. Thank you ❤️🙏
Glad it made your favorite Ben 💙
Every single song they have produced hits home. This is why they’re so brilliant. The fact Jake was/is a therapist makes me believe that there ARE good ones out there. I’ve been to enough of them in my 53 years to know that they are rare. This group… well each song they’ve made holds different parts of who I am. I can’t wait to see them in July. I think I’ll probably just stand there and cry. It’s such a joy to know how many peoples lives that this band is touching. And that society doesn’t shun these topics like they used too! #citizensoldiernation UNITE!!!
"Do I wear the mask and follow, or pay the price of being brave?" and "Hate my life for being fake, or hate myself for being real?" Hit me real hard 😔
Not me listening to this at midnight and crying because THIS SONG RINGS TRUE-
I was not PLANNING on tearing up tonight, but don't worry. They're tears of joy, tears that came because you touched a heart tonight. Thank you for this... Seriously. Thank you!
You are one those singers that isn't scared to express mental illness. I've been following since I discovered your cover of Hallelujah. You are amazing, CS! 💙🌟
That's our goal Maria 💙 Much love
This hit hard. I was bullied as a child simply because my skin colour was different than the majority of kids in my school when I was young. The whole experience made me wonder if I really fit and I was never truly comfortable with who I was. I am now and I've grown and embraced my skin tone and ethnicity and I'm proud of it.
Just ignore the other kids who being to you you are the perfect because you are beautiful person just the way you are 😢
I can’t tell y’all how much I relate to this song, I have three fingers on each arm and short arms. The line “no need to call me a freak.” Is so accurate. Thank you guys for this song. 💗
When I found this song a week ago it has been played non stop on my Spotify. Sung at the top of my lungs in my car with tears in my eyes. Being told by so many people lately how I’m just not good enough. Several nights crying to myself. This song just speaks so much to me right now. Thank you so much for these songs ❤️❤️
As someone who is 19, part of the lgbt community, victim and survivor of narcissistic abuse, has homophobic family, and is a victim of bullying, this song hits home for me. Thank you for bringing awareness to the reality of mental and emotional health. Keep up the great work 💜
My family is what you would call "old school christians" and i had to hide that i was Bisexual from them i've held in so many emotions because of them now i can barely function in a social situation i either freeze up or i walk away awkwardly it sucks cause i want it meet new people and make friends but my mind will just not let me.
being raised in a hard-core religious and conservative family and being trans this song hits way way tooo on point.
@@ShorkStack My parents are democrats it's not just conservatives it's every political party they all have there fair share of idiots and hard headed individuals.
Its the worst when the people you want to love you and tell you it’ll be ok and that they would support you, are the ones you’re most afraid to tell
Same sucks but itll be okay i guess
God this band just echos my heart so perfectly.
“Hate my life for being fake or hate myself for being real” the way he sings it hits so close to home
Such an amazing song and so deep emotion I’ve been there where I hate who I actually am but then hate being fake and your guys lyrics videos make every song hit harder 💜💜
Appreciate you Corey 💙
It’s like I’m able to hear the words I want to scream, calmly being said to me.
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“They’re too busy praying I’ll be someone else.” Holy crap, did that hit so hard. I feel like I can connect with this song(as a person who struggles with major depression). Your songs never fail to make me feel like I’m not alone.
Wow. I love this. It's great hearing the piano more. I know you guys love rock, but it's great to see variety. The lyrics are so good. Thank you so much for sharing your talents with us.
I choose to be the survivor who's struggling to make it through every day. I hate some of the things about me but I'm irreplaceable so the world has no damn choice but to accept this wrong type of human. 👍🏻💯👌🏻
I love this song and this band, thank you Citizen Soldier.
"Hate my life for being fake or hate myself for being real." This hit me so hard! I was balling my eyes out lol. THANK YOU SO MUCH CITIZEN SOLDIER!!! 🖤
Been writing books a lot lately and this song along with "you are enough" have really helped me write the tests one of the characters goes through to prove his capacity for mercy, kindness, and forgiveness. No one is beyond the choice of finding redemption, or being given a chance.
"When you're different, sometimes you feel like a *mistake*"
having struggled with internalized homophobia my entire life, this song hits like no other...thank you for what you do, and giving voice to thoughts that are hard to say out loud.
I love this song so much 💙💙
Glad to hear that Allen 💙
@@CitizenSoldier You guys are amazing please don't ever stop making music. 💙
This is the second song I've cried over so far...
It's like you are singing from my life.
It's so relatable to me. 💙
I love all your songs, I already listend to this on spotify so much, I'm so hyped for your new album, how do you write such good lyrics? Like they're amazing
Appreciate you 💙
As a kid who grew up with verbal abuse ,time on deployment and 8 yrs of unemployment anxiety and depression are real and this song really hits a lot of good notes on life about pushing through and realizing that your own identity and happiness matter no matter what
"Hate my life for being fake or hate myself for being real" so strong line, one one my favorite now
“These wounds aren’t healing and Im scared to death that ill look into the mirror and believe the things they’ve said” hits harder than it should but i fully understand..
“These wounds aren’t healing, and i am scared to death that I’ll look into the mirror and believe the words they’ve said” that’s the definition of my school and sometimes home life.. thank you for the amazing song. This song me feel like I’m not the only one who feels this way so thank you again :)
"...they're too busy praying..." Say no more. This song speaks volumes to me. No one wants to take accountability for the role they played in helping you become the person they so despise today. Maybe they worry about you because they can't tolerate what you've done to help you become the healthier person you are today (despite them). If the current, healthier version of "you" causes them distress, oh well. Them praying for you won't help anyone but themselves (which is what they want). Be confident that you are healing and feel free to pray for them (if you're so inclined).
I just found these songs on UA-cam. They say everything I feel. Why can't I deserve to be cared about or loved ? Why am I NEVER good enough ? This music says what I can't get out. I'm so alone and broken. I have no one except for my Pug, Kaley Jade. Even my family has thrown me away. I'm barely hanging on. I will NEVER be able to fit in their box. But, I
Love these songs. They are me.
This was the first thing on my recommended page... That's how you know I need help... Time to memorize
Love this song and has been on repeat since I've found it. I'm a stranger in my family, putting on a fake smile when there's a battle raging inside my head. And lately, it's been too much. Like I'm suffocating and can't breathe bc of the them. They will never understand who I really am bc I have to hide my true self in the shadows and honestly, I'm tired of fighting. Tired of crying myself to sleep every night.
hate my life for being fake or or hate myself to be real is my favorite part of this song😢
I listened to this for the first time in a shower so hot to purpusly burn my self, after just hurt ing myself, whiling feel nothing at all yet everything at once, and I was able to gess the lyrics, @citizensoldier your music hits close to home to so meny my self included you've helped me threw ruff times and it's there when I needed it like now thank you for all you do
10/10 i love the flow of the lyrics! So excited to blast this after my AP world exam (I hope I do okay on the actual test!) 💙💙
Good luck on your exam Leonor 💙
What a beautiful song!! I love everything about it!! I can’t wait to see what spectacular music you create next!!
Thanks Kindra 💙
Who i am? who WE are! We matter YOU matter. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise I have battled with 15 years of depression and bullying. Wanna beat them? Be happy be you stay strong my fellow warriors.
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"Everyday i wanna die, but nobody helps. Cause there to busy praying ill be someone else" that got me.....i relate to that waaay to much...
I have always worn a mask with a painted smile so that people would not see that their words affected me, that they hurt me. And yesterday I wanted to take it off and I started crying. This song says many things that I feel deep inside. And I've been like this for many years. Thanks for a song like this, guys. You are incredible 🥺
Every time I hear one of your song i'm confused... I don't know if I love it or hate it, its beautiful but horrible at the same time. The feeling are completly mixed it's incredible.
Love you guys, your putting words on things we can't express, your songs are our strenght.
This song describes how I feel. I can't stop listening to it on repeat I feel like they get me more than my family and friends do.
I just found this group! FINALLY some1 speaking my pain! W/Chronic pain for 25 yrs 24/7, C-PTSD, Depression, tumors on my spine, ADD/ADHD,, Fybromyalgia, & more, THEN 7 yrs ago I became the SOLE Caregiver of 2 elderly parents who BOTH have different dementias (ALL bks are on JUST caring for ONE), & I worked 90+ hrs/wk, ate 2 meals/wk, fell asleep in my car n the driveway when I got home, SO TIRED! SO BURNED OUT after 7 yrs!! No1 gets how horrific dementia is! And NO FAMILY ON ANY SIDE has helped!! It's been 100% disabled me, & BOTH PARENTS-no dementia in our family history (who were abusive, which led me on 2 more abuse, self-medicating, etc.). Yet 20 yrs w/my husband, who's older than me, so I'm losing him too, & I'm alone. I have no children, gave it up 2 marry my wonderful hubby - & he is ALL I stay alive 4! I had a support dog, precious, SACRED, little Shih Tzu, who also had PTSD & was MY SHADOW, but my neighbor's son opened the gate between our properties, & his 4 HUGE dogs got my baby, (a Rottweiler, 2 German Shepherds, & a Doberman). She couldn't run 5 inches! It's been 1 yr & I can't recover! My hubby's n his 80's, I'm almost 60 & we've bern best friends since his wife died, & my dogs have ALWAYS kept me ALIVE (I could never leave them nor my hubby), so 1 yr later I still have NOTHING but 3 80+ yr olds & am SO ALONE & SAD-a GRIEF that STEALS your SOUL. Watching ALL u LOVE DYING WK AFTER WK FOR YEARS!! I refuse 2 get another Shih Tzu (my fav) as I want NOTHING 2 STAY ALIVE 4 ANYMORE! This world's a mess, & getting WORSE (@ 58 I know the DIFFERENCE between what we WERE & what we are NOW), & when my hubby's gone, I WILL be gone too-exactly where my BABY was KILLED SO BRUTALLY & AFRAID!! The family we'd helped so much (they were caregivers for 2 yrs-we gave over $500/mo. 2 them), yet they didn't even offer 2 buy us another dog nor apologize, til I wrote a lyr 2 them! Said nothing! My dog was my ONLY JOY! Past yr, NO JOY! NO "FAMILY" CARES that I've been caring for 2 parents who have been DYING, SLOWLY, HORRIFICALLY! My brother took a gun 2 his head in 2001. He was highly intelligent! I have several plans, but put my FAKE smile on 4 my hubby & parents (who don't know me anymore), & cook 4 my hubby as he no longer wants 2, & have been thru EVERY ABUSE known 2 people (& MANY you'd never IMAGINE!) since I was n KINDERGARTEN & on up til caring, w/love, 4 my BIGGEST ABUSERS, MY PARENTS (w/NOTHING BUT LOVE)-I'm done. "Family" KNOWS I'm 100% disabled & does NOTHING! I was up ALL NIGHT LAST NIGHT CRYING, watching parents w/dementia, macular degeneration & 1 w/no hearing (the WORST COMBO EVER!)! 7 yrs & I've had NO VACATION since 2011! I'm ONLY LIVING for my OLDER, GOOD, HUSBAND. NO MORE AFTER THAT! I'M DONE!! I gave 20 yrs of love 2 my husband's family, & ONLY 1 DAUGHTER gives back & living n the same town visits JUST 1/month! I've done SO MUCH MORE 4 my abusive parents. 3-6 bisits/EVERY WEEK, signs during Covid, 3 cards/week, pictures, & on & on! They did NOTHING 4 my hubby during Covid! Couldn't print 1 picture or mail 1 card! They do nothing still 4 their awesome dad & grandpa! They'll get NO MONEY from us! Our care & our fav. Charity get it all! I tried 2 wake his family up (after caring 4 & seeing what 80+ yr olds go thru-but nothing!) that he's in his LAST YRS, but 2 no avail (Cept 1 daughter who visits 1/mo.-yet I drive across town several x's a wk & feed my parents, shave chins, care 4 sores, talk 2 drs, run 2 ER more x's than I can count, & have lost count how many x's I thought 1 or both were dying, & so much more!)! They don't save, spend every payck, while we drive used, nice, cars & stash $ away, esp after seeing my parents go from $6,000 to $12,000+/month for their care I, disabled, can't give-tho' I'm VERY HANDS ON IN THEIR CARE!! Family! Breaks our hearts! We helped them ALL (tho' we NEVER asked 4 help from 17 on 4 ourselves) until their 40's! All of them! Helped pay 4 private schools! Gave vehicles, bought furniture! Yet no1 even took us out 4 dinner tho' they stayed w/us, disrupting our peaceful home, expecting breakfast ea a.m., leaving soda cans all over 4 us 2 pick up,coming @ XMas w/NO GIFTS 4 us, tho' we'd given them all gifts! Just staying 4 free & running & partying, esp. after 1's dad gave her $7-8,000 cash - yet still no XMas gift 4 her dear grandpa, MY HUSBAND! We quit helping yrs ago! If n their 50's they have debt & no savings, they'll live w/it! Not one dime goes 2 "family" who hasn't been there 4 us during the ONLY time n OUR 2 lives we EVER TRULY NEEDED HELP!! We're alone! Life! Ain't it grand? NOT!! If it weren't 4 my hubby, I'd be gone already! 58 yrs of abuse thst no1 can imagine 4 longer than u know (yet 1 event gives a person a disability now-our youth are SO WEAK & SPOILED!), neglect & not caring about any1 but themselves, is ENOUGH!! I'm done w/those selfish, self-centered world! Just talking TRUTH!
I'm beginning to love this singer, the raw and honest approach is comforting to us who feel all he expresses.
I so agree
I've never clicked faster, you guys are amazing ❤
Thanks Jean 💙
It's how I feel...everyday....ty for this...sounds so much better in a song...
I came back to this beautiful song today but my feelings are not the same. When i first found this song i hated everything about myself but now im in live with who i have become. My wish for all of you is that you can fall in love with yourselves bc we are our own saviors noone comes to save us from the pain...we constantly pull ourselves out of that darkness and its a beautiful story to tell..everytime i tell it..
It is worth it, to truly be yourself!.. Even if you are called a "freak" or "weird".. And the friends you do make, will be the most accepting and loving of any..
Holy cow, i love this song so damn much! Whenever you guys release new songs i feel like im being understood by people and it makes me feel less alone. Thank you so much for helping me feel this way, even if its only for a bit
I always get these notifications on the nights I need them the most. Thank you
Much love Sarah 💙
"im so damn tired, of being who i am" absolutely relatable.. thank you CS..
Today I belong to this group and I've listened to a few of their songs and I totally feel a placement in my soul with the words that they project I'm 64 years old and I enjoy your words
Damn as a trans person this hit so damn deep "Your words cut deeper than any blade ever could."
me too
Thank you for the songs that have lyrics focused on the message 💚☺️✨ many people just sing songs that sound good but your songs sound and do good!
Healing Heartchu everyone 💚
Not only are their lyrics everything, but the visuals add a lot of meaning, too. I love this.
I'm lonely and I didn't finish school. Every day I'm crawling through life just to take a breath because I know there's beauty and I'm not the only one going through tough times. Thank you! You have a beautiful voice.
Once again a beautiful song that speak for many
Thanks Citizen Soldier 🙏🏾🔥🔥🔥
Appreciate that Allan 💙
This song was soo emotional and real! I really love how you help people with your music. Don't care who you love or who you feel like, this is your life and this shouldn't be controlled by anyone! Thank you so much CS! 💙;
Thanks Leon 💙
Thanks for helping me get through tough time ❤️🙏
I can't explain how amazing you are in one word
I think i gotta write more than 70 books
Lyrics: (I wrote them for myself)
[Verse 1]
As these judging eyes surround me
In silence tearing me apart
Only seeing to the surface
They refuse to see my heart
In this mold that they have made me
Tried so hard to fit in tight
Every day's a punishement
for being human
but the wrong kind
All their heavy words I carry
Try to grind them down to dust
But the pile's getting so deep
Pretty soon it's gonna barry us
I see two paths that sit before me
The decision's mine to make
Do I wear the mask and follow
Or pay the price of being brave
[Chorus]
These wounds aren't healing
And I am scared to death
That'll look into the mirror
And believe the things they've said
No I wasn't ready
for the shame so heavy
Maybe they will never understand
Can't keep facing this fire
I'm so damn tired
Of being who I am
[Verse 2]
No need to say that I'm immoral
No need to tell me I'm a freak
Don't waste your breath, you've made that more than clear
In the way you look at me
The only choices that you give me
Two different ways I can be killed
Hate my life for being fake
or Hate myself for being real
[Chorus]
These wounds aren't healing
And I am scared to death
That'll look into the mirror
And believe the things they've said
No I wasn't ready
for the shame so heavy
Maybe they will never understand
Can't keep facing this fire
I'm so damn tired
Of being who I am
[Verse 3]
Every day I want to die
but nobody helps
'cause they're too busy praying
I'll be someone else
Every day's full of pain
that they have never felt
'cause they're too busy praying
I'll be someone else
[Chorus]
These wounds aren't healing
And I am scared to death
That'll look into the mirror
And believe the things they've said
No I wasn't ready
for the shame so heavy
Maybe they will never understand
Can't keep facing this fire
I'm so damn tired
Of being who I am
Thanks for listening, please dont copy it and get more likes than me :)
I'll just translate the lyrics in french, hope you OK with that ?
@@soulfire8512 sure
I have no idea how you can make such amazing songs so quickly, but thank you so much for sharing these with us! Also a compliment to whoever edits the videos. Reading lyrics along has never been this fun, ha.
Absolutely love them. Their songs have so so much meaning ❤
They're too busy praying that I'll be someone else... Damn I feel that