Thanks for sharing your story Ben. It's unfortunate that you finally met your biological father under such circumstances. There's a lot that we can take from your experiences. I've been following you since your adoption videos and really enjoy your food content. Thank you for your willingness to open up and share this story with us ❤❤
Vulnerability is never a weakness and you are clearly a gentle soul. You deserve everything good in your life. Thank you for being a conduit of peace, as well. Love ya bro.
@@Sporaclejust curious, how do you feel about your dad being adopted? Do you feel like a part of you is missing? Were you ever angry/sad at him for that? Did you understand it growing up? How did he explain it? I’m adopted and I want to have my own kids someday, but I always wonder what they would think of me being adopted and having no biological relatives.
hi Ben. i'm 22 and also adopted from South Korea, and am having my own sort of mental/emotional journey. recently there's been a huge investigation in the news where my adoption agency is even being investigated for fraudulent adoptions, and just.. there's a lot of heartache to be said about Korean adoptees. i'm sorry to hear that your moments with your biological family members were under such stressful circumstances. sending love and peace
Just know that parents who give up their babies for adoption do so often because they want better for their baby than they can provide. They wanted you to have a chance. They didn’t believe they could provide adequate parenting. There is enormous heartbreak all around. It’s very sad for everyone involved.
@@maddy131 While I appreciate the sentiment, what you are saying is the oldest and most tired trope force fed to adoptees. If you really think about it, that old "they just wanted you to have a better life" thing is thought about, communicated, and perpetuated for the psychological safety of everyone BUT THE ADOPTEE. Trust me on this, please stop saying this, it is extremely hurtful and damaging to the adoptee. Is it best for the adoptee to literally be cut off from: every last person who shares our bloodline (family), our heritage, our lineage, our racial community, our culture, and our language?? Saying these tropes to make everyone feel better is Hallmark and another form of gaslighting and toxic separation. We don't need anymore, we have quite enough, thank you! 😬
Tracking down your biological family in itself is a very brave feat. Perhaps you were looking for answers to questions that weren't found through this experience. But know that it does not matter and the past decisions of your biological parents that apparently were unfortunate to resort to them, doesn't in any way have relevance to who you are as a person. I applaud your endeavor and hope you can finally close this past chapter of your life. 🙏
Been watching you since highschool and now I'm in my PhD. I will always be proud of how you are able to share these incidents about your life with us. Food aside, you are an amazing person.
@@Singularity01010 You definitely need maths. Almost all if not majority of the courses at the graduate level in econ are just basically math courses. Linear algebra, Differentiation, Integration, Partial Derivatives etc
I actually enjoyed this story. Thanks for sharing. It takes a lot of guts for a man to travel halfway across the world to meet his biological Dad, Start a new life, Lose his Dad the first time meeting, and keep moving on with life. Makes you wonder what the meaning of life really is anyway. Why do we endure certain things, and what is the goal if happiness is never met? is it to be a good person? Partner? Father? Because when those things aren't satisfied... are we just waiting to die? If they are satisfied, are we still just waiting to die? Will we be remembered? Do we even want to be? Life's quite a trip man.
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I cried when you said you spoke to him. Even though he wasnt concious im sure his soul was glad that you came. We are all energetically connected to our family thats why we yearn to learn more about them . I been subscribed to your channel since 2014 I think. You always come across as a purehearted person. You also remind me of my brother .
I'm a Korean adoptee, and your story was heartbreaking to listen to. It is just one of the many iterations of possible meetings we all dream our whole lives of having with our "real family..." I'm sorry it ended this way for you. I'm sorry it was so emotionally charged and quick. It sounded traumatic in nature. It reminded me that my fantasies of reunion with my biological parents (which I have confirmed will never take place due to circumstance) also include highly distressing and negative possibilities. While that is neither here nor there, it elongates this dream and further pushes it into the abstract and ambiguous, if not downright horrific. Thank you for bravely sharing your story of reunion--which was ultimately LOSS. I'm sorry that it began and ended that way for you...strength to you, as you navigate these memories and emotional landscapes. It makes total sense that all of "that" needed to express somewhere, so give yourself some grace regarding the panic attacks and anxiety. Adoptee=having anxiety. Be well, take good care of yourself. Be kind to yourself. 💗
This was so poignant and beautifully written. I wish you all the best and hope that you have been able to find a semblance of healing, no matter how messy it may look at times. Side note: I’m not sure if you’ve ever thought about freelance writing, but as a writer myself, I would encourage you to consider this if you haven’t before and it’s something that interests you. ♥️
I’ve been watching your videos for about 10 years now and always appreciate hearing stories about your life. Thank you for being vulnerable and reminding us to prioritize spending time with our loved ones while we still have the chance. Keep keeping it real Ben 🤙🏼
It seems like it's all come full circle. You went to Korea to meet your biological family and ended up meeting your wife with whom you can now create your own little family. Life is a real mix of joy and sorrow, but all in all, it's a beautiful journey. Much love to you and your wife. Thank you for sharing such a deeply personal experience with us ❤
I didn't realize Ben met his wife in Korea! That's so sweet and they seem to be really well suited. I hope they're doing ok after such a traumatic event ❤
It sounds like your brother really wanted to share the experience with you. That is very special. Maybe you two can become good friends in the future. You never know. I found out about a brother much later in life. I wanted to be close to him but he was not interested. I understand and love him from afar. Thanks for sharing.
@@jackmac919I couldn’t ever put myself in ur shoes!!! But I do love my siblings! And if my parents ever had put them in a situation that had them away from me in my life I wouldn’t blame them and would love to see them and meet them!
Ben, he waited for you. Before he died. And he waited for you to leave the room so you didn't have to see it. No matter what the circumstances were up to that point between you and him, he didn't die until you came and until after you left.
Even though this video was a ramble, you are a fantastic storyteller. Not only that, but as im sure you know, you have a very calm, relaxing and thought provoking presense and way of speaking that makes videos such as these cathartic and healing. Ive watched a ton of your videos and its these and those moments when you reflect/share on personal matters during your normal eating videos that are my favorites.
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Yes, Steve_porassss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
I think your dad hung on to meet you. Maybe try counselling as i found it helps to talk to someone impartial and unburden your mind. Be kind to yourself you have been through alot
oh snap, i remember watching years ago when you had like 50k subs and you talked about your adoption and how you were fortunate to have a family adopt you and living in the rust belt around chicago. I have not watched the whole video but i am watching as i write, i am excited to see how you approach this very delicate situation in life. im going to tune in now, thank you ben for sharing this with us.
Ben, please don't apologize for sharing your feelings privately or not. Sometimes we need a listening ear, even if it is with strangers. I appreciate you sharing something so personal and emotional with us. I know you have helped someone, even if it is only to let them know they're not alone. Thank you for that beautiful story. Just know that those uncontrollable tears shed that day were probably a long time coming.
Appreciate the transparency, I know due to obvious reasons this channel tends to shy away from the personal stuff. More power to you Ben on your life journey, we're here for it
truly sorry you had to experience your biological dads death like that. we appreciate you telling this story and being vulnerable with us. wish you all the best, Ben. 💚
You watch a guy wolf down pizza for years -- it's been nice to get a better sense of who he is and where he's coming from. Not just this video but this past year. Outstanding stuff. Really hits home.
*I'm favoured only God knows how much I praise Him,* $230k every 4weeks! I now have a big mansion and can now afford anything and also support God’s work and the church.
After I raised up to 325k trading with her I bought a new House and a car here in the states 🇺🇸🇺🇸 also paid for my son's surgery (Oscar). Glory to God.shalom.
That was a very courageous thing you did today brother; I hope the 'weight' you've been carrying is somewhat lighter now. Feel humbled that you shared such a personal part of your life. Thank you Ben🙏.
You're a kind and strong person, not a lot of people would want to be part of a situation like that, you're biological brother needed you and you were there for him, that must've meant a lot for him❤
I suffer from anxiety and sometimes panic attacks too bro. I totally feel you. It would be nice if you wanna talk more about that. Glad you opened up to us about this.
Seeing this side of Ben is something I’d never expect to see on this channel. I really respect him for being brave enough to show this vulnerable side of him. Thank you for sharing your story Ben.
Been a fan of the chill laid back content through the years, but this was always one of those through lines kinda that I was wondering if we'd ever hear I about. I even remember those videos from a couple of years ago where you mentioned something happening and I was like, I wonder if it was related. Anyway, thanks for sharing, I do hope it helped in someway with the closure process.
Damn, I been following you for a while and never expected you to bring back the more "personal" content. Thanks for sharing! Real ones remember your old videos
So strange, I had the same exact situation except a random guy showed up to my work saying he was my biological fathers friend. He said he was in the hospital and if I ever wanted to see him that I should go now cause he was probably going to die. I had not seen him since I was ~3yr old. I was like 20yr when this happened. My Mom divorced him, he was an alcoholic and never made an effort to see me my entire life. I was adopted by the man who married my Mom a few years later and still consider him my real Dad. Long story short, he did not die and knew how to find me from my grandparents (somehow). He never attempted to reach out to me after he got better and went back home and died like 10 years later. My sister and I (also his biological kid) were only listed in his will to state we did not receive anything. I guess it’s required since we were born his children. Not that I wanted anything….just a strange thing. So I did “see” him, briefly in a hospital bed, he was unconscious. Crazy that we have this similar story.
I have yet to meet my biological father. I know he lives in Mexico, and I have three sisters that I’ve never met from that side of the family. My story wasn’t an adoption story like yours but I do hope to meet him & my sisters one day. I hope you are able to meet your mom Ben. I am sorry that you had seen me your dad in that unfortunate way
I've followed you forever and I have my own very personal ties with Korea and Koreans. Thank you for this very honest post. I love how you told the story and was touched to hear you saying your name in Korean. I was also aware of you almost constantly touching your wedding ring which is a lovely testament how your love with your wife comforts and strengthens you ❤
u a real one dawg. nobody asked to be born, yet here we are. growing up i had a very solid family, a dream of a life. yet the more i went on the more i realized just how much my parents went through, it was crazy to me to end up seeing them as people when for most my life i just saw them as these pillars of undeniable purpose and place. like, they were my parents. but underneath it all they were in the same exact position i was in and was struggling too. family is weird like tht. pretty wild to think abt
Insane that you got this vulnerable for the world to see. You’re a real human and it would have taken real guts to do this and say this on camera. Crazy amounts of respect for you, Ben. Wish for nothing but the best for you
You commented 2 minutes ago, video dropped 5 minutes ago. Now I know this video got released for members early, but you arent a member. So how exactly do you know that he got "vulnerable for the world to see"
Thanks for sharing. I’m one of those viewers that had been watching during the adoption videos and this was very much appreciated. Although you don’t owe us any info into your personal life, it is nice that you allowed us to follow you to the end of this story.
as a fellow korean adoptee, not to downplay your biological brother's intentions as intentionally harmful, but it is such a frustrating thing when the adoptee always has to be the one to cater towards our families desires and wants, because of the guilt and/or other conflicting swirl of mixed emotions when it comes to our dna relatives. its a huge burden to carry, to try and be the "miracle" that might help the situation, when you dont even know them and when theres all those feelings about being adopted. i think i read an article once that interviewed korean adoptees about this guilt, and the unique bond and complexity of the reunion relationship. if i can find it again, ill edit this comment with the title but i dont remember. anyways, just know that any feelings you have about this are valid and i also suggest if i may, connecting with the community may help give some sense of validation as well, if you havent already. there are many many groups both online and offline that a lot of KADs find solace in. i think i mentioned this in one of your other adoption vids lmao but i really really do encourage it. theres 200,000 of us out there. you are not alone.
Naw, KADs just need to realize they have the upper hand. And, realize they are calling the shots. Just because KADs are ethnically Korean, it doesn't mean they have to follow Korean-style family rules. Once, this rule gets established, things go much easier.
Your story is one of 200,000 Korean adoptees. The largest number of adoptees around the world. Most of them in the US and around your generation but it goes as far back as WWII. Hope your story can help in some way with the other adoptees. As a Korean-American who learned about this in the early 2000s in college, I became somewhat interested in this topic cuz the peak of Korean adoptees was during the decade I was born, in the 80s.
This is not my business but it sounds like after meeting bio sibling you weren’t so into a cont’ a relationship necessarily because you don’t have natural similarities or interests but maybe you need to decide if it’s worth it to nonetheless try to get to know him more ( without pressure from either side into pretending you’re close) just because he is related, and if so yeah be one to perhaps put forth the initiative at first. You may find a friendship, over time. I get though the family has some tensions and difficulties, that your bio sibling had to contend with and maybe it’s possibly not a happy but rather sad situation that feels a bit alienating. It’s a difficult decision, maybe your wife would have an opinion to draw from. Whatever happens, I wish you peace and thank you for sharing your story. I’m sure it helped others and gave me a lot of insight and some solace too that we aren’t the only ones trying to make sense of family estrangement issues. It’s pretty difficult. I’m happy though you found your wife and wish you the best.
You sharing this story online just shows how much you care about your fanbase Ben. I have been watching you for 6+ years now and your content really helped me through tough times. Love your content and hope for many great years of mukbangs to come ❤
I can definitely relate as a Korean American living here in Korea where I relocated to after my mom passed away. I can feel your anxiety and emotional turmoil through these tough times. I also had series of panic attacks all the while. You are not alone. Sending blessings and warmth your way. Love your vids btw. 좋은 하루 보내세요!
I'm really glad you shared this, that kind of raw honesty and vulnerability is so rare and it's nice to see. Don't worry about the pauses and ums and rambling, it's real to have to parse this kind of thing on the fly as you're retelling. As to reconnection, I feel like if you met your biological mom one time, even if it didn't go super well, it'd probably feel like some window onto that world that you won't have a chance at if the first and last time you see her is in a similar context to your biological dad. I feel like it would also help your biological bro feel less alone in his understanding of her to know you get it not just from description but from experience, even if he's the one warning you not to meet it feels like on some level that would form a bond of understanding between y'all even if the meet went south. But whatever you choose, it's your choice at the end of the day. Hope your anxiety improves, if it doesn't though I hope you can seek out some therapy, even like online therapy with a therapist in the US who can match your time zone or something if English-speaking folks are sparse out there. Might help you unpack shit and grasp the root of it and develop healthy coping strategies to lessen the impact.
Hey Ben, thanks for sharing. I remember those videos of you talking about your adoption story years ago. It's a pretty big leap of faith in being vulnerable and putting your story out there which I already see many of the comments resonating with it. I wasn't adopted but I do suffer from anxiety and panic attacks like you talked about and yeah, it does heighten following a traumatic or deeply emotional event. But I think you talking about it will help a lot in coming to terms with any hidden feelings or buried emotions about that event so I'm glad you did.
Hey Ben. I’ve never commented on your channel until now. I am truly deeply sorry for your loss of your biological father. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, your story of your loss of a parent and the vulnerability of the depth of one’s grief. My dad also shared similarities like you being born in SK then adopted and moved to the US. So your story became very personal for me and moved me to understand you and what you went through. My most deepest and humbled condolences to you and your family. Sending from Seattle.
You told the story very well. I could almost feel the emotion in each turn. To finally meet your father, right before he died. Then knowing that if you ever meet your mom it would be under the same circumstances. Can't lie, that hit hard Ben.
Bro, you really should meet your mother. Regardless of her mental health issues and even if you think it will turn out poorly, you should still meet her as you never know, she might be missing her second son which is you. And either way, it is better to meet her before it’s too late like this unfortunate circumstance. If it means you asking out first to meet her so be it. I wish you the best
You are incredibly emotionally mature, Ben. Thank you for being so courageous as to share your really difficult emotional journey. I think what you have gone through would give anyone panic attacks...have you considered therapy? Getting an unbiased perspective may help with your healing process. Wishing you all the best with your new wife and family to be, you deserve all the happiness ❤
Im sorry. This story is hard. I can relate. Im also adopted and i met my adopted parents at 17. My Bio dad died when i was 27. My adoptive mom died three yrs ago of a heart attack and at the same time my bio mom was on life support. So in on week i had to say goodbye to my mom and also take my bio mom off life support. I had to figure out two funerals in one week for both of my moms. I cant process it still. Much love and grief takes a while to process for sure. ❤
Hey Ben, just wanted to say that as a Korean-American adoptee myself I really appreciate you sharing this story and being as transparent as you were about all the feelings you were feeling. I haven’t ever gotten to meet my biological parents due to a number of circumstances that are out of my control and haven’t ever really been at peace about it tbh but hearing stories like this from people who have experienced similar things as I have goes a long way and means a lot as growing up as a kid, teen, and even in my adulthood it always felt like nobody in the world could relate to what or how I was feeling. Sending lots of love my man 🙏🏽
Totally understand that feeling of alienation you described...this is what we go through, unfortunately, and the isolation of that feeling of being so separate and "not normal" can really dismantle our wellbeing and sense of self. Well said.
@@beth-z4e yep, have had self-esteem issues most my life as a result of some of those things but have grown to be much more comfortable with who I am and what I’ve been through over the last couple years. Wishing you peace on your own journey, my friend!
I feel your sadness when you try to hide it for the sake of telling your experience , and all I got to say is I wish your new journey of making a family with your wife works perfectly amazing because you deserve better
It wasn't by mistake u meet him, and then he passed within hours. My grandmother did the same thing to me, and my dad did the same to my mom. They wanted to know that it was ok to move on. Ur father needed u, like a link in a chain. It was his passing process. And he waited for u, know one else.
You have my condolences Ben, I admire you were able to speak about this situation and be comfortable with it. Don't hold back on sharing stories with us, some will appreciate them and others won't but if it makes you feel good or better that's all that matters!
Thank you for sharing your story Ben. Actually, your original adoption videos from years ago is how I stumbled upon your channel in the first place. Tracking down your biological family is very brave. I hope this chapter of your journey may close on a positive note. You're doing mighty fine! Take care.
That sounds so traumatic, I'm so sorry, Ben! I hope you've been seeing a therapist, someone who is familiar with working with such complex situations. But you really are going to help others going through this. Proud of you, Brother 🤍
I think it’s in Korean culture to be extremely hysterical in situations like this, at least when it comes to the funeral it gets pretty intense, like they’re pleading for the dead to wake up, it’s pretty crazy, but I get why your brother was so “desperate”
I have never met any of my biological family. I am curious, but my adopted family loves me, and I really didn't want to go there. I thank you because your story makes me feel better about my decision not trying to be cruel, but you have put yourself through the ringer. I pray you're able to get closure because your story is heartbreaking to me.
Yeah dude, the panic attacks are what got me too. Was going pretty hard on the sauce, and it felt normal for years. Then the panic attacks started when stress around me got insane. Had to cut it all out entirely to get rid of the anxiety. You've got this.
Your story is pure and emotional. Thank you you for sharing. I wonder if your brother could share any thoughts or contexts for asking you to go meet your father. I wonder what your father’s last words of you were. He was pleading with your father that you had come. Regardless, I am sure your father knew you were there. Maybe he had some sadness and wanted to know you ended up better than ok after the adoption. It was a heavy intense fast paced ending. I pray you can let it go now as you did the best you could do. Perhaps in doing so, you can release some anxiety. ❤
Jeez Ben, I know it all feels surreal especially in your situation with your bio mother/father. I've been to a couple of funerals myself and they all feel surreal but yours hits a lot different. Thx for sharing my dood and good to see you doing well enough even after these couple years.
A person's hearing is the last to go. I'm sure your dad heard you. Childhood trauma is nexer easy to forgive or forget. You are very courageous to share abt this. You and your brother need counselling.
I remembered when you posted about meeting your biological brother and you were visibly excited about the whole experience. Unfortunate circumstances, and I hope you don't feel compelled to feel a certain way about it all. Us humans are social creatures. Even though they are your "biological family", they weren't apart of your up bringing. So it's okay to feel awkward in a situation where you may feel pressured to be overly emotional.
That was the first video of yours that I watched; the one about your adoption story. I thought that you had already resolved the situation and reached some closure, since you no longer discussed it in detail. I never imagined that you went through such a heartbreak. I'm so sorry.
Unfortunately this reminds me when I saw my grandmother for the last time, she was in the ICU and at the time I had no idea of what was that. The doctors and even my parents told me to go and say goodbye basically but I didn't know that she was unconscious and it was pretty intense to see her. Her condition was bad and her appearance was completely different from what I knew because of diabetes. Thank you for sharing your story Ben, your brother needed you and you did the best thing by being on his side trough all of this situation.
I'm so sorry 😢. As a health care provider this is the part of nursing that hurts my heart. The end of life care is not for me. I love tending to my patients and seeing them getting better and return to their families. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Ben, I have been a subscriber for a very long time and I remember your adoption story. Since I only know you through UA-cam, I was surprised at the emotions that I personally experienced while listening to your story. This truly took me by surprise. Saying that, I can only imagine some of the emotions that you may have experienced two years ago and even now. I am happy that you have supportive parents and a lovely wife to be with you then and now.
Sorry to hear about your dad and having to meet him in the most unfortunate circumstances. The whole death and funeral structure in Korea is intense compared to the US. You barely have time to mourn right after his passing. I can’t fathom what you were going through. Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing such a personal story with us. I always wondered what happened with your search for your biological parents. I hope you have some peace and closure. Stay strong Ben. ❤
Thank you for sharing, it's not just the Korean culture that deals with death and funerals in such a rushed way. Moving back home from the west I've experienced something similar to this, it was so rushed and you're not even allowed to cry, and random strangers come to eat food, and I'm like I can't even think straight let alone dine at someone's funeral, they're just too emotionally rigid and tough, I don't know how else to describe it.
I like these story videos. The food has always been secondary to me. I'm not one of those freaks who like to listen to people chew, or get off on watching people eat. This channel has always been about the commentary, and even the weird humor.
"A lot of stories are personal until you tell them", what a beautiful quote. Really heart touching story Ben, wishing the best for you
i thought that said “a lot of stories are beautiful until you tell them”😭😭
Thanks for sharing your story Ben. It's unfortunate that you finally met your biological father under such circumstances. There's a lot that we can take from your experiences. I've been following you since your adoption videos and really enjoy your food content. Thank you for your willingness to open up and share this story with us ❤❤
bro you didnt even watch the video?😭
How tf did u comment before the video dropped gang💀
Bro typing without even hearing the story first😭😭 god damn
@@iidxnero8024I think the video was made private for a bit and reposted cuz his comment is 13 hours old
Comment got me puzzled.🤔
Vulnerability is never a weakness and you are clearly a gentle soul. You deserve everything good in your life. Thank you for being a conduit of peace, as well. Love ya bro.
My dad was adopted and I've been through a weird few years with 23 and Me, getting to know my biological family and the history around it all.
@@Sporaclejust curious, how do you feel about your dad being adopted? Do you feel like a part of you is missing? Were you ever angry/sad at him for that? Did you understand it growing up? How did he explain it? I’m adopted and I want to have my own kids someday, but I always wonder what they would think of me being adopted and having no biological relatives.
hi Ben. i'm 22 and also adopted from South Korea, and am having my own sort of mental/emotional journey. recently there's been a huge investigation in the news where my adoption agency is even being investigated for fraudulent adoptions, and just.. there's a lot of heartache to be said about Korean adoptees. i'm sorry to hear that your moments with your biological family members were under such stressful circumstances. sending love and peace
That’s the first thing I thought of when I saw this video pop up
Well said, we adoptees have had to endure an incredible amount of personal heartbreak. This type of heartbreak is too rarely understood. 😢
Just know that parents who give up their babies for adoption do so often because they want better for their baby than they can provide. They wanted you to have a chance. They didn’t believe they could provide adequate parenting. There is enormous heartbreak all around. It’s very sad for everyone involved.
@@maddy131 While I appreciate the sentiment, what you are saying is the oldest and most tired trope force fed to adoptees. If you really think about it, that old "they just wanted you to have a better life" thing is thought about, communicated, and perpetuated for the psychological safety of everyone BUT THE ADOPTEE. Trust me on this, please stop saying this, it is extremely hurtful and damaging to the adoptee. Is it best for the adoptee to literally be cut off from: every last person who shares our bloodline (family), our heritage, our lineage, our racial community, our culture, and our language?? Saying these tropes to make everyone feel better is Hallmark and another form of gaslighting and toxic separation. We don't need anymore, we have quite enough, thank you! 😬
@@beth-z4e yup the old "its not you, it's me"
Tracking down your biological family in itself is a very brave feat. Perhaps you were looking for answers to questions that weren't found through this experience. But know that it does not matter and the past decisions of your biological parents that apparently were unfortunate to resort to them, doesn't in any way have relevance to who you are as a person. I applaud your endeavor and hope you can finally close this past chapter of your life. 🙏
yes it does have relevance thats a fukn bs view you have when you cant even relate.
@@passedoutsober6322 I think they worded it poorly, but while it is relevant-- it does not define a person. That ultimately lies with the individual.
Never apologize for your feelings, thank you for sharing such a difficult time in your life.
Been watching you since highschool and now I'm in my PhD. I will always be proud of how you are able to share these incidents about your life with us. Food aside, you are an amazing person.
What is your PhD in ?
@@YJ-7 Economics. Focussing on Industrial Organization and Applied Econometrics.
@@ayaka4926 wait i mess with that, if theres any advice you can give in that area, please do so
Do u need maths i am not good at maths 😞
@@Singularity01010 You definitely need maths. Almost all if not majority of the courses at the graduate level in econ are just basically math courses. Linear algebra, Differentiation, Integration, Partial Derivatives etc
I actually enjoyed this story. Thanks for sharing. It takes a lot of guts for a man to travel halfway across the world to meet his biological Dad, Start a new life, Lose his Dad the first time meeting, and keep moving on with life. Makes you wonder what the meaning of life really is anyway. Why do we endure certain things, and what is the goal if happiness is never met? is it to be a good person? Partner? Father? Because when those things aren't satisfied... are we just waiting to die? If they are satisfied, are we still just waiting to die? Will we be remembered? Do we even want to be? Life's quite a trip man.
Those are wonderful questions Mark. Do you think you can find the answers before death?
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It's Ms. Susan Jane Christy doing, she's changed my life.
After I raised up to 325k trading with her I bought a new House and a car here in the states 🇺🇸🇺🇸 also paid for my son's surgery (Oscar). Glory to God.shalom.
I do know Ms. Susan Jane Christy, I also have even become successful....
Absolutely! I've heard stories of people who started with little to no knowledge but made it out victoriously thanks to Ms. Susan Jane Christy.
I cried when you said you spoke to him. Even though he wasnt concious im sure his soul was glad that you came. We are all energetically connected to our family thats why we yearn to learn more about them . I been subscribed to your channel since 2014 I think. You always come across as a purehearted person. You also remind me of my brother .
I'm a Korean adoptee, and your story was heartbreaking to listen to. It is just one of the many iterations of possible meetings we all dream our whole lives of having with our "real family..."
I'm sorry it ended this way for you. I'm sorry it was so emotionally charged and quick. It sounded traumatic in nature. It reminded me that my fantasies of reunion with my biological parents (which I have confirmed will never take place due to circumstance) also include highly distressing and negative possibilities. While that is neither here nor there, it elongates this dream and further pushes it into the abstract and ambiguous, if not downright horrific. Thank you for bravely sharing your story of reunion--which was ultimately LOSS. I'm sorry that it began and ended that way for you...strength to you, as you navigate these memories and emotional landscapes. It makes total sense that all of "that" needed to express somewhere, so give yourself some grace regarding the panic attacks and anxiety. Adoptee=having anxiety. Be well, take good care of yourself. Be kind to yourself. 💗
This was so poignant and beautifully written. I wish you all the best and hope that you have been able to find a semblance of healing, no matter how messy it may look at times.
Side note: I’m not sure if you’ve ever thought about freelance writing, but as a writer myself, I would encourage you to consider this if you haven’t before and it’s something that interests you. ♥️
@@laraisokay Thank you for your very kind comments! 💓 All the best to you, as well.
I’ve been watching your videos for about 10 years now and always appreciate hearing stories about your life. Thank you for being vulnerable and reminding us to prioritize spending time with our loved ones while we still have the chance. Keep keeping it real Ben 🤙🏼
his first video was 6 years ago??
@@nooblordthefour he deleted most of his older vids
@@YouGotNoJams. ah ok
It seems like it's all come full circle. You went to Korea to meet your biological family and ended up meeting your wife with whom you can now create your own little family. Life is a real mix of joy and sorrow, but all in all, it's a beautiful journey. Much love to you and your wife. Thank you for sharing such a deeply personal experience with us ❤
I didn't realize Ben met his wife in Korea! That's so sweet and they seem to be really well suited. I hope they're doing ok after such a traumatic event ❤
wow. no apologies necessary. Thank you for sharing a part of your life.
It sounds like your brother really wanted to share the experience with you. That is very special. Maybe you two can become good friends in the future. You never know. I found out about a brother much later in life. I wanted to be close to him but he was not interested. I understand and love him from afar. Thanks for sharing.
Yeah I have a few siblings that I’ve never met, I feel no way about it though.
The ones who asked about me, got to meet me.
@@jackmac919I couldn’t ever put myself in ur shoes!!! But I do love my siblings! And if my parents ever had put them in a situation that had them away from me in my life I wouldn’t blame them and would love to see them and meet them!
Don’t be too hard on yourself Ben, the fact that you even went shows your character. Hope things are well brother.
Ben, he waited for you. Before he died. And he waited for you to leave the room so you didn't have to see it. No matter what the circumstances were up to that point between you and him, he didn't die until you came and until after you left.
Iam believe that also
Even though this video was a ramble, you are a fantastic storyteller. Not only that, but as im sure you know, you have a very calm, relaxing and thought provoking presense and way of speaking that makes videos such as these cathartic and healing. Ive watched a ton of your videos and its these and those moments when you reflect/share on personal matters during your normal eating videos that are my favorites.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, Steve_porassss. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this
Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is Steve_porassss
Ben, that could not have been easy. I appreciate you sharing your story.
I think your dad hung on to meet you. Maybe try counselling as i found it helps to talk to someone impartial and unburden your mind. Be kind to yourself you have been through alot
oh snap, i remember watching years ago when you had like 50k subs and you talked about your adoption and how you were fortunate to have a family adopt you and living in the rust belt around chicago. I have not watched the whole video but i am watching as i write, i am excited to see how you approach this very delicate situation in life. im going to tune in now, thank you ben for sharing this with us.
Ben you're the goat. I wish you and your family the best forever and thank you for trusting us fans with this, Love you man.
Ben it takes a lot to be this open. Especially on a place like the internet. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your story ❤
Ben, please don't apologize for sharing your feelings privately or not. Sometimes we need a listening ear, even if it is with strangers. I appreciate you sharing something so personal and emotional with us. I know you have helped someone, even if it is only to let them know they're not alone. Thank you for that beautiful story. Just know that those uncontrollable tears shed that day were probably a long time coming.
Appreciate the transparency, I know due to obvious reasons this channel tends to shy away from the personal stuff. More power to you Ben on your life journey, we're here for it
truly sorry you had to experience your biological dads death like that. we appreciate you telling this story and being vulnerable with us. wish you all the best, Ben. 💚
You watch a guy wolf down pizza for years -- it's been nice to get a better sense of who he is and where he's coming from. Not just this video but this past year. Outstanding stuff. Really hits home.
*I'm favoured only God knows how much I praise Him,* $230k every 4weeks! I now have a big mansion and can now afford anything and also support God’s work and the church.
wow this is awesome👏🏼 I’m 37 and have been looking for ways to be successful, please how?
It's Ms. Susan Jane Christy doing, she's changed my life.
After I raised up to 325k trading with her I bought a new House and a car here in the states 🇺🇸🇺🇸 also paid for my son's surgery (Oscar). Glory to God.shalom.
YEAH! YEAH! YEAH!
I do know Ms. Susan Jane Christy, I also have even become successful…..
That was a very courageous thing you did today brother; I hope the 'weight' you've been carrying is somewhat lighter now. Feel humbled that you shared such a personal part of your life. Thank you Ben🙏.
You're a kind and strong person, not a lot of people would want to be part of a situation like that, you're biological brother needed you and you were there for him, that must've meant a lot for him❤
I suffer from anxiety and sometimes panic attacks too bro. I totally feel you. It would be nice if you wanna talk more about that. Glad you opened up to us about this.
Seeing this side of Ben is something I’d never expect to see on this channel. I really respect him for being brave enough to show this vulnerable side of him. Thank you for sharing your story Ben.
Been a fan of the chill laid back content through the years, but this was always one of those through lines kinda that I was wondering if we'd ever hear I about. I even remember those videos from a couple of years ago where you mentioned something happening and I was like, I wonder if it was related. Anyway, thanks for sharing, I do hope it helped in someway with the closure process.
Damn, I been following you for a while and never expected you to bring back the more "personal" content. Thanks for sharing! Real ones remember your old videos
So strange, I had the same exact situation except a random guy showed up to my work saying he was my biological fathers friend. He said he was in the hospital and if I ever wanted to see him that I should go now cause he was probably going to die. I had not seen him since I was ~3yr old. I was like 20yr when this happened. My Mom divorced him, he was an alcoholic and never made an effort to see me my entire life. I was adopted by the man who married my Mom a few years later and still consider him my real Dad. Long story short, he did not die and knew how to find me from my grandparents (somehow). He never attempted to reach out to me after he got better and went back home and died like 10 years later. My sister and I (also his biological kid) were only listed in his will to state we did not receive anything. I guess it’s required since we were born his children. Not that I wanted anything….just a strange thing. So I did “see” him, briefly in a hospital bed, he was unconscious. Crazy that we have this similar story.
I have yet to meet my biological father. I know he lives in Mexico, and I have three sisters that I’ve never met from that side of the family. My story wasn’t an adoption story like yours but I do hope to meet him & my sisters one day. I hope you are able to meet your mom Ben. I am sorry that you had seen me your dad in that unfortunate way
Your vulnerability is so respected and appreciated. You have a lot of people here who support you. Thank you so much for sharing.
I've followed you forever and I have my own very personal ties with Korea and Koreans. Thank you for this very honest post. I love how you told the story and was touched to hear you saying your name in Korean. I was also aware of you almost constantly touching your wedding ring which is a lovely testament how your love with your wife comforts and strengthens you ❤
u a real one dawg. nobody asked to be born, yet here we are. growing up i had a very solid family, a dream of a life. yet the more i went on the more i realized just how much my parents went through, it was crazy to me to end up seeing them as people when for most my life i just saw them as these pillars of undeniable purpose and place. like, they were my parents. but underneath it all they were in the same exact position i was in and was struggling too. family is weird like tht. pretty wild to think abt
Insane that you got this vulnerable for the world to see. You’re a real human and it would have taken real guts to do this and say this on camera. Crazy amounts of respect for you, Ben. Wish for nothing but the best for you
You commented 2 minutes ago, video dropped 5 minutes ago. Now I know this video got released for members early, but you arent a member. So how exactly do you know that he got "vulnerable for the world to see"
@Elatenl Tbh from the title alone i knew this was gonna be a bit of a heavy topic.
@@Hydra_X9K_Music I guess but "Insane that you got this vulnerable for the world to see." is quite specific
@Elatenl my headcanon is that he watched the video at 2x speed. Lol, seriously though, I'm not 100% sure myself
@@ElatenlDamn you real af for that, these dudes just saying any filler to get likes and pretend to care about the content
Thanks for sharing. I’m one of those viewers that had been watching during the adoption videos and this was very much appreciated. Although you don’t owe us any info into your personal life, it is nice that you allowed us to follow you to the end of this story.
Sorry Man. Takes a lot of courage to tell this story. Wish you nothing but the best.
as a fellow korean adoptee, not to downplay your biological brother's intentions as intentionally harmful, but it is such a frustrating thing when the adoptee always has to be the one to cater towards our families desires and wants, because of the guilt and/or other conflicting swirl of mixed emotions when it comes to our dna relatives. its a huge burden to carry, to try and be the "miracle" that might help the situation, when you dont even know them and when theres all those feelings about being adopted. i think i read an article once that interviewed korean adoptees about this guilt, and the unique bond and complexity of the reunion relationship. if i can find it again, ill edit this comment with the title but i dont remember. anyways, just know that any feelings you have about this are valid and i also suggest if i may, connecting with the community may help give some sense of validation as well, if you havent already. there are many many groups both online and offline that a lot of KADs find solace in. i think i mentioned this in one of your other adoption vids lmao but i really really do encourage it. theres 200,000 of us out there. you are not alone.
Naw, KADs just need to realize they have the upper hand. And, realize they are calling the shots.
Just because KADs are ethnically Korean, it doesn't mean they have to follow Korean-style family rules. Once, this rule gets established, things go much easier.
As someone who struggles with anxiety, shit for about 3 years now, I’d love to hear about it through your lenses ❤️ You’re a warrior g.
Your story is one of 200,000 Korean adoptees. The largest number of adoptees around the world. Most of them in the US and around your generation but it goes as far back as WWII. Hope your story can help in some way with the other adoptees. As a Korean-American who learned about this in the early 2000s in college, I became somewhat interested in this topic cuz the peak of Korean adoptees was during the decade I was born, in the 80s.
So much respect for you having the courage to sit down and share this time in your life with us.
What an incredibly taxing experience. My heart goes out to you and the families involved. Thank you for sharing this experience
This is not my business but it sounds like after meeting bio sibling you weren’t so into a cont’ a relationship necessarily because you don’t have natural similarities or interests but maybe you need to decide if it’s worth it to nonetheless try to get to know him more ( without pressure from either side into pretending you’re close) just because he is related, and if so yeah be one to perhaps put forth the initiative at first. You may find a friendship, over time. I get though the family has some tensions and difficulties, that your bio sibling had to contend with and maybe it’s possibly not a happy but rather sad situation that feels a bit alienating. It’s a difficult decision, maybe your wife would have an opinion to draw from. Whatever happens, I wish you peace and thank you for sharing your story. I’m sure it helped others and gave me a lot of insight and some solace too that we aren’t the only ones trying to make sense of family estrangement issues. It’s pretty difficult. I’m happy though you found your wife and wish you the best.
I remember you hinting at this a couple years ago
You sharing this story online just shows how much you care about your fanbase Ben. I have been watching you for 6+ years now and your content really helped me through tough times. Love your content and hope for many great years of mukbangs to come ❤
I'm glad you're comfortable enough to open up like this, big ups man
I can definitely relate as a Korean American living here in Korea where I relocated to after my mom passed away. I can feel your anxiety and emotional turmoil through these tough times. I also had series of panic attacks all the while. You are not alone. Sending blessings and warmth your way. Love your vids btw. 좋은 하루 보내세요!
You’re a brave and good man, Ben! I really mean that.
I'm really glad you shared this, that kind of raw honesty and vulnerability is so rare and it's nice to see. Don't worry about the pauses and ums and rambling, it's real to have to parse this kind of thing on the fly as you're retelling.
As to reconnection, I feel like if you met your biological mom one time, even if it didn't go super well, it'd probably feel like some window onto that world that you won't have a chance at if the first and last time you see her is in a similar context to your biological dad. I feel like it would also help your biological bro feel less alone in his understanding of her to know you get it not just from description but from experience, even if he's the one warning you not to meet it feels like on some level that would form a bond of understanding between y'all even if the meet went south.
But whatever you choose, it's your choice at the end of the day. Hope your anxiety improves, if it doesn't though I hope you can seek out some therapy, even like online therapy with a therapist in the US who can match your time zone or something if English-speaking folks are sparse out there. Might help you unpack shit and grasp the root of it and develop healthy coping strategies to lessen the impact.
Thank you for sharing BenDeen, please take care of yourself and don't be afraid to reach out to your biological bro from time to time ❤
Hey Ben, thanks for sharing. I remember those videos of you talking about your adoption story years ago. It's a pretty big leap of faith in being vulnerable and putting your story out there which I already see many of the comments resonating with it. I wasn't adopted but I do suffer from anxiety and panic attacks like you talked about and yeah, it does heighten following a traumatic or deeply emotional event. But I think you talking about it will help a lot in coming to terms with any hidden feelings or buried emotions about that event so I'm glad you did.
Hey Ben. I’ve never commented on your channel until now. I am truly deeply sorry for your loss of your biological father. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, your story of your loss of a parent and the vulnerability of the depth of one’s grief. My dad also shared similarities like you being born in SK then adopted and moved to the US. So your story became very personal for me and moved me to understand you and what you went through. My most deepest and humbled condolences to you and your family.
Sending from Seattle.
You told the story very well. I could almost feel the emotion in each turn. To finally meet your father, right before he died. Then knowing that if you ever meet your mom it would be under the same circumstances. Can't lie, that hit hard Ben.
Bro, you really should meet your mother. Regardless of her mental health issues and even if you think it will turn out poorly, you should still meet her as you never know, she might be missing her second son which is you. And either way, it is better to meet her before it’s too late like this unfortunate circumstance. If it means you asking out first to meet her so be it. I wish you the best
You are incredibly emotionally mature, Ben. Thank you for being so courageous as to share your really difficult emotional journey. I think what you have gone through would give anyone panic attacks...have you considered therapy? Getting an unbiased perspective may help with your healing process. Wishing you all the best with your new wife and family to be, you deserve all the happiness ❤
Your parents are the Americans that raised I love you
Im sorry. This story is hard. I can relate. Im also adopted and i met my adopted parents at 17. My Bio dad died when i was 27. My adoptive mom died three yrs ago of a heart attack and at the same time my bio mom was on life support. So in on week i had to say goodbye to my mom and also take my bio mom off life support. I had to figure out two funerals in one week for both of my moms. I cant process it still. Much love and grief takes a while to process for sure. ❤
I appreciate you for sharing your story bro, chin up brotha.
Hey Ben, just wanted to say that as a Korean-American adoptee myself I really appreciate you sharing this story and being as transparent as you were about all the feelings you were feeling. I haven’t ever gotten to meet my biological parents due to a number of circumstances that are out of my control and haven’t ever really been at peace about it tbh but hearing stories like this from people who have experienced similar things as I have goes a long way and means a lot as growing up as a kid, teen, and even in my adulthood it always felt like nobody in the world could relate to what or how I was feeling. Sending lots of love my man 🙏🏽
Totally understand that feeling of alienation you described...this is what we go through, unfortunately, and the isolation of that feeling of being so separate and "not normal" can really dismantle our wellbeing and sense of self. Well said.
@@beth-z4e yep, have had self-esteem issues most my life as a result of some of those things but have grown to be much more comfortable with who I am and what I’ve been through over the last couple years. Wishing you peace on your own journey, my friend!
@@Tac0maAr0ma Same to you! 🖤
I feel your sadness when you try to hide it for the sake of telling your experience , and all I got to say is I wish your new journey of making a family with your wife works perfectly amazing because you deserve better
It wasn't by mistake u meet him, and then he passed within hours. My grandmother did the same thing to me, and my dad did the same to my mom. They wanted to know that it was ok to move on. Ur father needed u, like a link in a chain. It was his passing process. And he waited for u, know one else.
Thank you for sharing something so personal you are a fine man
Thank you for sharing this with us Ben, We love you dude!
The free flowing thought is so rare on UA-cam now a days. This was very brave
You have my condolences Ben, I admire you were able to speak about this situation and be comfortable with it. Don't hold back on sharing stories with us, some will appreciate them and others won't but if it makes you feel good or better that's all that matters!
He can't though. He needs to be careful.
@@kaeoam5882
Careful of what exactly??
if youre an og bendeen fan you know this video hits hard.
Thank you for sharing your story Ben. Actually, your original adoption videos from years ago is how I stumbled upon your channel in the first place. Tracking down your biological family is very brave. I hope this chapter of your journey may close on a positive note. You're doing mighty fine! Take care.
That sounds so traumatic, I'm so sorry, Ben! I hope you've been seeing a therapist, someone who is familiar with working with such complex situations. But you really are going to help others going through this. Proud of you, Brother 🤍
Thanks for sharing Ben, take care
I think it’s in Korean culture to be extremely hysterical in situations like this, at least when it comes to the funeral it gets pretty intense, like they’re pleading for the dead to wake up, it’s pretty crazy, but I get why your brother was so “desperate”
I have never met any of my biological family. I am curious, but my adopted family loves me, and I really didn't want to go there. I thank you because your story makes me feel better about my decision not trying to be cruel, but you have put yourself through the ringer. I pray you're able to get closure because your story is heartbreaking to me.
Big love bro, stay strong. Big love from the uk.
Yeah dude, the panic attacks are what got me too. Was going pretty hard on the sauce, and it felt normal for years. Then the panic attacks started when stress around me got insane. Had to cut it all out entirely to get rid of the anxiety. You've got this.
Your story is pure and emotional. Thank you you for sharing. I wonder if your brother could share any thoughts or contexts for asking you to go meet your father. I wonder what your father’s last words of you were. He was pleading with your father that you had come. Regardless, I am sure your father knew you were there. Maybe he had some sadness and wanted to know you ended up better than ok after the adoption. It was a heavy intense fast paced ending. I pray you can let it go now as you did the best you could do. Perhaps in doing so, you can release some anxiety. ❤
Jeez Ben, I know it all feels surreal especially in your situation with your bio mother/father. I've been to a couple of funerals myself and they all feel surreal but yours hits a lot different. Thx for sharing my dood and good to see you doing well enough even after these couple years.
A person's hearing is the last to go. I'm sure your dad heard you. Childhood trauma is nexer easy to forgive or forget. You are very courageous to share abt this. You and your brother need counselling.
Thanks for sharing. Your story is helpful to me and many others. Talking about mental health is always ok.
@@epiccheatmealday1180 this is exactly WHY we need to talk more about how real world shit causes mental health problems!
I remembered when you posted about meeting your biological brother and you were visibly excited about the whole experience. Unfortunate circumstances, and I hope you don't feel compelled to feel a certain way about it all. Us humans are social creatures. Even though they are your "biological family", they weren't apart of your up bringing. So it's okay to feel awkward in a situation where you may feel pressured to be overly emotional.
That was the first video of yours that I watched; the one about your adoption story. I thought that you had already resolved the situation and reached some closure, since you no longer discussed it in detail. I never imagined that you went through such a heartbreak. I'm so sorry.
Unfortunately this reminds me when I saw my grandmother for the last time, she was in the ICU and at the time I had no idea of what was that. The doctors and even my parents told me to go and say goodbye basically but I didn't know that she was unconscious and it was pretty intense to see her. Her condition was bad and her appearance was completely different from what I knew because of diabetes. Thank you for sharing your story Ben, your brother needed you and you did the best thing by being on his side trough all of this situation.
Maybe he was waiting one extra day for you so he could hear your voice and feel your presence?
well told story thanks for sharing ❤
I'm so sorry 😢. As a health care provider this is the part of nursing that hurts my heart. The end of life care is not for me. I love tending to my patients and seeing them getting better and return to their families. I'm so sorry for your loss.
No one should have to meet their father for the first time in this way. My deepest condolences.
Ben, I have been a subscriber for a very long time and I remember your adoption story. Since I only know you through UA-cam, I was surprised at the emotions that I personally experienced while listening to your story. This truly took me by surprise. Saying that, I can only imagine some of the emotions that you may have experienced two years ago and even now. I am happy that you have supportive parents and a lovely wife to be with you then and now.
Sorry to hear about your dad and having to meet him in the most unfortunate circumstances. The whole death and funeral structure in Korea is intense compared to the US. You barely have time to mourn right after his passing. I can’t fathom what you were going through. Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing such a personal story with us. I always wondered what happened with your search for your biological parents. I hope you have some peace and closure. Stay strong Ben. ❤
Thank you for sharing, it's not just the Korean culture that deals with death and funerals in such a rushed way. Moving back home from the west I've experienced something similar to this, it was so rushed and you're not even allowed to cry, and random strangers come to eat food, and I'm like I can't even think straight let alone dine at someone's funeral, they're just too emotionally rigid and tough, I don't know how else to describe it.
I like these story videos. The food has always been secondary to me. I'm not one of those freaks who like to listen to people chew, or get off on watching people eat. This channel has always been about the commentary, and even the weird humor.
Same
You're a good communicator, Ben. Thank you for sharing.
Been wanting to hear this since the re upload I see in youtube
Thank you for sharing Ben. I'm definitely hoping you find some sense of peace
Just wanna show my support for you Ben. Thanks for sharing your story 👍
Didn't know you had to go through this type of situation.
thank you for telling us your personal experience, we love you