Hi everyone! 2019 is coming to an end. I want to thank you for making this an amazing year for this channel. I would never have expected all of this. For Einzelgänger, I have planned to make a fresh and positive start in 2020! Not that I won't talk about the darker topics like these (which I love to talk about from time to time), but I'm closing a door right now and opening a new one. Stay tuned, thank you all for watching, and I wish you a fantastic new year!
As an atheist or agnostic, i consider death an end to existence but still this could be seen as an antidote to suffering called life and hence ultimate closure. The thought that my pains and suffering will end with me is truly liberating. Einzelganger, i wish you well.
FrenzySpore TV I understand but you can become one with the world and suffer or try to change it and suffer even more but it’s best to accept that this is the world you live in, just make the best of it.
@@JamesTheNomadic & u seem wise. I wanna ask u one question that i hv requested this channel owner to make content about. Just copy pasting the whole: Hi, Sir I'm 18 years old. If I ask "Who am I?",then what is the answer to this question? If someone would ask me this in my kid hood I would reply by saying my name... But... It's... A name. A name is not 'me'... And "me" is not 'me' either. Cause "me" is only a word. At first the answer may seem like "I am his or her son." or by social status someone can say "I'm poor" "I'm rich", "I'm millionaire, Billionaire", by Physical appearance someone may say they are beautiful, ugly, white, black, short, tall or from a professional perspective one can say he is a doc or youtuber or anything and inherently we can ( obviously we all r humans and these kind of questions don't come to other animals, 🤔i guess. Idk) we can describe "who we r" or "i am"... We can say we r soul with or in a body or body with soul (that's also bound by limitation of word's meaning expressionless)... So what the hell r u, am i, and we r???!!! I got no clue and really afraid 😬. & if I say we r the things that know. Or more specifically that knows it knows but it becomes an infinite loop of no meaning when said, " it knows it knows it knows it knows it knows it knows........... (& so on.... Plz help🙏🏼. Make a video i beg you)
@@abohamolla4632 You have to find out who you are by living truthfully. You are something, someways and not others. As you go through life truthfully, more and more of you is revealed through the circumstances of life. (hopefully, unless you deny the parts of yourself dont like) It's not like "You either know 100% who you are or you know 0%." It's more like you're on a scale somewhere. Maybe you're 15% you right now. Work on getting to 16% and be happy :)
"Its almost if youre standing on a cliff and the person is about to fall down and theres nothing you can do about it, except saying what you want to say, and, that someday, its your turn to take the dive into the abyss of the unknown as well" This hit me hard. Im sorry for your loss.
@@FranzMOesig It probably plays havoc with your plans or arguable who you are. Your a great warrior? I agree completely you where almost good enough as it happened. Your Rich? ow no you where rich?
I am not afraid of death but of dying without actually living but just existing. All i want is a cozy home in a small village, fresh air, good food, I don't like living in this crowded city. That's all. Next decade of my life is going to be very important and busy. As a 18 year old who wants to do well in life, have a stable life, excel in career, I dream of a productive and fulfilling decade. I wonder what would happen if i just died next day, next month, next year? As someone who has faced and still facing domestic violence and abuse, I just want to live a peaceful and happy life before death knocks on the door, I will welcome death with happiness if it knocks on right time.I would like to live at least 50 years from now. This probably doesn't make much sense but I just wrote down my feelings
komal m Sometimes you have to let toxic things or people out of your life to be able to be at peace or free. People can hold you from your happiness and sometimes you may not realize it.
@@annaoop8825 yes but I am dependent on them for food, shelter and education. I just want to get into college and live away from my abusive parents. Thanks 🙏 ☺️
@@littlefairy9286 Depending on your persecutors for survival is a nightmare. Stay strong. I've found it helpful to listen to UA-cam channels that focus on CPTSD. You are in a hostage situation, so arm yourself with knowledge. I've had to learn about narcissists and being the family scapegoat and honestly, if it weren't for people sharing their experiences, I don't know if I'd survive this world. If you don't know this type of malevolent personality inside out and what red flags to watch out for you may end up in a cycle of being the target of abuse. Knowledge is power and there are so many brave people talking about experiences at the hands of abusers on UA-cam. Their speaking out has helped me tremendously. It's taken more than half a century to learn how these things happen. No-one spoke about it, so you lived with a sense of shame and that the world controls you, not vice versa. I felt so lonely because I didn't know anyone who was in my position. Knowing there are millions in this place has given me immense comfort. Promise yourself that you will get out of this and you will arm yourself with all the tools it takes to navigate yourself out of the storms. Courage!
I always thought that when death come, i will accept it with no emotional response .. then one day at beach, i swum to far away from the beach without noticing it, once i noticed it, i didnt panic, i just slowly swum back .. then i unexpectedly swallowed a lot of salty water and started to heavily lose oxygen, i started to have cramps all over my body and slowly losing consciousness. 10 minutes of painful cramps, slowly losing consciousness and struggling to not drown. I was never so close to death, its one think to imagine one self accepting death when it comes but to feel death closely is really something else, it require a huge amount of self control to not have an intense emotional response when close to unexpected death.
There is a research that says the scariest thing for all humans (no exception) is the elevated CO2 levels in the blood and present an external threat they will believe is causing it " Uncontrollable external object". (Drowning is one example). So you my friend experienced just that. :))
I have Brittle Asthma, similar but not exactly the same. I've been minutes away from death many times as in veins collapsed, BP almost undetectable, ambulance and ICU. All I wanted was for the pain to end - asthma is painful in the extreme. I generally wished someone would put a bullet between my eyes and end it fast. I've written about it in several forums including Quora, I think. There are things worse than death. Living scares me more than dying. Near drowning is a very traumatic event, don't underestimate what other parts of your life that experience may have spilled over to. Be well.
My mum is on her death bed now...matter of days...as a Hindu she believes she will be reincarnated and as an agnost, I hope the best for her...love u mummy
We can never resist the nature. Letting go is the only option, either we accept it or be ignorant about it. Best wishes to you and your loved ones. I also believe in reincarnation but only god knows that stuff! Happy new year
That waiting for the end seems to take forever and go too fast all at once. I was with my Mother when she went, my heart goes out to you. Sending you peace and courage. At times like these, we are completely helpless, all we can do is watch and wait as the the life ebbs out of the people we love. It's a trauma all on its own, apart from the trauma of losing a parent.
I came here to this video feeling depressed. But now I feel calmed and with a bit more energy to do the things I desire and love. Thank you very much for that Einzelgänger :)
Depression is not an enemy to you, it's just an indicator that you are doing something wrong, not going there and not striving for it, it comes to those who do not follow the path of their heart.
@@cyberneticbeast thank you. I appreciate that and while I partly agree with you depression is something that can come again and again. I've been stuck with it since I was 16 or even younger. Depression isn't something that is cured ober night. It need treatment over a lifetime. Thats my opinion.
''Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside of us while we live.'' ~Norman Cousins (1915-1990) Happy 2020! Cheers to life! Blessings of hope to all!
@@LafriteRip it is all the more more satisfying as you will be able to live your end moments with more ease and more satisfaction with your clear mind.
You talked about living with resentment and the importance of letting it out. In the perspective of death everything just becomes pointless, even saying something. Let this sink in..
I'm trying to rediscover how to "listen as though I'm the one speaking", as well as speaking only as much as I'd really want to listen to myself, as well.
Or everything becomes meaningfull. Time will never come back, ever. So how you use it matters. Saying "i love you" to someone you actually love bears so much meaning because you used a bit of thr most valuable resource you have to tell them that they matter. Let that sink in
You are the creator of your own existence. Only you can change your own circumstances, but hopefully this will be of value to you: your input (books, music, friends, etc.) leads to your thoughts and what you think, thoughts lead to what to speak, your words determine your actions, your actions determines your habits, habits to character traits, and those character traits define your destiny. It’s as simple as that, but simple is by no means easy. It could takes years, like it has for me, but you’re stuck here anyways, so what do you have to lose?
@@JohnDoe-xp4iy Not true in all cases. Some people are living in hell in situations they can't change. People are stuck in war torn countries or extreme poverty. Stuck in abuse and neglect. Every situation is different.
Life is a roll of dice. It can be hellish and/or amazing. But what defines your existance is how you face the cards that are dealt to you, how you use them. Loving is a good way of giving thw sufferimg meaning, as you work to make someone else's life better. Think about that. What matters isn't what it is, but how you face it. It is a hard thing to carry, but the meaning is also greater because of it.
Thank you for the video! To be honest, the topic of death has always been something I run away from. I always get anxious and I start struggling with my breathing sometimes, but this video somehow, I can’t really explain, put me at ease. So I just want to thank you for that. Also, early happy new year!
Just sink in with the enjoyment, the amusement you will feel as a departing soul to another realm when you will die it will make you comfortable with death rather than afraid to being in dark till eternity.
For many death is liberation from depression, suffering and pain. Even though nobody asked us whether we wanted to be brought to this world or not, we can freely choose to end this ugly existence according to our wish and desire.
I had many experiences with death as a child; family members, pets, my brother. Although it took many years for me to actually understand this mortality of being, impermanence, and such. In my 30’s now and making real effort to stop ruminating, overthinking, and hesitating. The time is NOW, take action and learn or regret doing nothing at all.
@radhenitsri Why is it a curse? Living in a time when information of any kind is immediately available, it's easier for individuals to climb out of poverty than ever before, or maybe it's that modern life makes everything so "accessible"? There are many options that it seems impossible to make a choice but no matter what you'll be standing on the shoulders of giants.
@radhenitsri I also believe that part of our maturation process of being a fully-actualized human is to pass through each of the seven stages of grief regarding our own death. You sound to be stuck in the "Depression" stage, some day you'll move past that and onto the more productive parts when REAL change happens.
Hmm...this reminds me of when my own uncle passed. I really admired how he faced death with dignity even as his breathing became progressively difficult with pneumonia, filling his lungs with fluid. In addition, the day before he passed he showed incredible patience through unnecessary family drama related to finalizing last minute changes regarding his last will and testament. I'm really glad I knew him...just like i'm really glad to know that a man like Einzelganger and this channel exists. May we all continue to learn to live a bit better than we did the day before....
Hey Einzelgänger, thank you for the channel. You really give a lot of thought for me and in a way that I feel is making me a better person. Sincerely thank You.
When there's life there's death When there's light there's dark When there's good there's bad one cannot stay without another It's a never ending cycle thet will never end Only thing that you can do as a human being is enjoy the time you have as a human being life too short to be serious about things we cannot stop. embrace the present not past not future appreciate life✌
There is no such thing as empty space. Everything is connected. Death is the border between ego and ego dissolution. It's not that bad on the other side.
It's not bad at all it's just something that shows us reality that in this world we are just passing time and got nothing else to do so we created all of this in order to not get bored. I'm personally very excited to see my dying seconds how would I feel. It totally amuse me.
@@dmitryalexandersamoilov I love when I share my views to the viewers of this channel this channel is so amazing and connecting. Wish you a happy New year of 2020 brother. 😊
Eagle Eye , hi , in reality: I'm scared of death. My genres want to live forever. Knowing I'll die fills my psychology with terror and depression. However, since we as humans can influence and (hopefully) rewrite our own thoughts, in order to feel better about living with the certainty of death, and we can choose to focus on the fact that logically, death is also the end of suffering, instead of focusing on the fact that death is also the end of pleasure
Thank you very much for the new video and a big hug from germany!🤗 In my 33 years of live i had to handle a lot of times with death. Sometimes it happens so sudden and sometimes you were waiting weeks or month till it finally happens..But on the end it teaches me 2 of the most important lessons: "Dying is not about yourself" and " The Death can dance".
I see the universe as one big pool of energy. For example, imagine consciousness is electricity. It's an energy source that is distributed and used by things that get 'plugged in'. I imagine our bodies to be things, plugged into the universe, whereby we have an illusion that our physical selves are independent and isolated. I feel we are nothing more than biological computers trying to make sense of our experiences by creating an ego, and when our body breaks, it is recycled into something new and the energy that flowed through us, that was never really us in the first place, begins to flow elsewhere. We are not static; our atoms, personality, state of being changes all the time - at 30, nothing remains of you from 20 years ago, only memories that are proven to be subjective and untrustworthy. Our atoms have existed since the dawn of time and yet we have no memory of a time before 'I'. I see no reason to presume death is anything but a change of state for the building blocks of our bodies, and that our minds are nothing more than an illusion of the energy of the cosmos powering up our brief and changeable brains.
“To look life in the face, always, to look life in the face, and to know it for what it is...at last, to love it for what it is, and then, to put it away...” Virginia Woolf
Horrible quote. Woolfe was a nut job and a coward. That's just romanticizing suicide and is a dangerous sentiment for human beings to pass along. The entire point of this video and acknowledging death is to appreciate life and the time you have
One of my favorite topic. :) Thanks for this man. I have more encounters with Death. I always wish it was just a nightmare especially when it happened to my father. I also love Death Metal. 💀
Man, I'm sorry for your loss. It will be hard for me when my parents will eventually go. Do you know the french death metal band Gojira? Their album The Way Of All Flesh is about death and it really changed my views about it when I listened to it.
Great!!! Last October 27th I myself experienced death of my father who was 88. Beside many diseases and the old age he suffered a lot for several years and faced near death experienced many time during his last 4 years of life and for 3 years couldn't walk and move without the help of assistance but could speak sometimes in weaker voice, even when without been able to speak and move he didn't want to die and not at all ready to embrace the ultimate death. I believe and saw him suffer more for the denial and refuse to embrace death and leave this materialistic world. During the struggling years pain and sufferings was clearly visible on his pale face, but soon after the soul departed from the body his face was showing a sign of greater relief with a beautiful simile on it and looked like as if he is experiencing his mid 30s, there was no sign of any pain, sufferings, or struggles on that remarkable handsome face, instead looked very happy and relieved , even the physical body more than six feet which shrunken due to sicknesses and old age as well became comparatively normal and healthy, very strange to see this transformation just after this unavoidable event, absolutely remarkable to notice. It was a message for all of us to show how peaceful the rest becomes after passing through the channel door to the other dimensions for the new infinite experience without being scared starting a new journey to the unknown. Nothing to fear just glide and when the time of death comes just embrace it and don't try pulling back to earth or hesitate to leave everything behind, and obviously always be ready for this unavoidable must event sooner or later. All of your video presentations are absolutely unique and remarkable. Highly appreciate all of your outstanding efforts. Happy New Year, and as well peace be upon all. Thanks a lot.
The thought of death has always scared me. The frequency of thinking about it along with my fears intensified when I lost my sight years ago, putting my life on hold with the rut I fell into due to it. i’d say more but my thoughts are a jumbled mess right now. Thanksk for the insightful thoughts on the topic.
Oh I'm so sorry, someone I've known since I was a child was shot and killed 2 weeks ago and my Step-mother died in a car accident a few years ago. I've come to believe that a sudden unexpected death is much harder to come to terms with than one which you expected. Grief never really goes away, we just learn to live with it. It's a wound to your soul and nothing can erase that. It heals over eventually but the scar always remains. If you can bring yourself to do this try to heal in honor of your mother, that perspective brings back a sense of some control. Courage and strength and peace to you.
Brother, I wish you all the luck in the world for the upcoming year.. I love your videos and I watch them on a daily basis, as if it's a part of my life, and, to tell you the truth.. Its good that you quoted Albert Camus, cuz I'm reading the outsider, and it very insightful.. You give me hope.. Thank you
That's the great thing about death, when it happens to you, you dont have to worry about anything anymore it's not your problem. The thing about death is how you go, death is inevitable but how you die is what your life says about you.
For me what lies at the end of the mystery of death, is gratitude. Be grateful of having shared your life-time with that someone else, which you won't see anymore...
I will never leave my family, but I want to die every day. I wake up and think about the overdose I could take, I drive my car (alone) and think about the corners I know I could veer off, I think about the heart attack I'm hoping for so I could die naturally and no one would blame me for taking my life on purpose. My sense of obligation to stay here for my children is huge and I know I won't give in. But I want to, so very very much. So every night I listen to the same music and think of how lovely it will feel to slip away and be gone. Please someone tell me I am not alone?
My dear your not alone because I for sure do feel you!!!! I thought I was the only one that thought or felt this way. We are all just friends walking eachother home.
@@genericwoman3713 no, sweetie, just always know your not alone just like I found you I feel comfort in knowing I found you and I am not alone. I should be thanking you for your bravery in saying what I have wanted to say for so long.
@@maryfloyd7791 then at least we have each other I suppose. Don't give up ok- same as I won't. Like you said, we're going home. We're going home anyway so we will just have to wait, and we'll get there when we do Xx
Either live a slave, or Die a free man. That is my moto. I would rather starve to death doing what I love than having to do soul-ripping work that I hate.
Very sorry for your loss. Thank you for this year of life thoughts and lessons. I go into the deep dive on topics you introduce us to. Cheers to the new year and may we all never stop learning.
Me too. There is not a day that goes by without me thinking of her. When she was alive I couldn't imagine life without her and now that she's gone I understand I have life because of her. The only thing you can do is honor her with every thought, word, and deed( as best as one can)! May you have peace, strength, and love!
Your videos are always so helpful and this one was really needed. The subject has been on my mind a lot lately and it’s bittersweet having someone who is clearly going through a similar situation so eloquently apply logical thinking while being empathetic to how the viewer might be feeling. I’m sure your uncle was a great man, I’m sorry for your loss but glad that your way of dealing with it is able to help me and others with our loss as well.
I lost my dad a year and a half ago. I was the only one at his side along with his wife who was cheering his passing on, while shy high on his pills. One of the awakening moments, and spiritual of my life. I'm lost in life. I know so much, but do little. I'm a decent person. More good than bad, but have plenty of darkness.
Fantastic share, I released a video on the subject the other day, focusing more on how it motivates us in life. I really like how you delved into the realisation you came to in your own experience.
I don't know why I have been keeping death next to my mind everyday. I got really happy when I survived the whole day out considering the rate of accidents and even I mean anything could just kill you. This feeling evolved my mindset as of a sigma male mindset. I started not making very long terms plans. I'm living in present and I actually feel kinda saturated to all of this shit. I mean I think now everything is just pointless even our very own existence. Nothing makes me really happy like I would be really happy.. except from momentarily satisfaction from an anime or achieving something in my ongoing life. Ever since I joined this channel I felt like in not alone in this messed up world where everyone is trying to steal you from yourself. My ideology has evolved and what I was thinking was not irrelevant but there are out there who are like me. It's so good to know. Thank you Einzelgänger
Einzelganger i have not watched this yet. But I want to thank you in advance. So many people dont like this subject. They dont talk about it if they dont have to.
This video is a great birthday and new year gift for me. Finally someone has managed to form an unbiased understanding that is close to truth about death just as I did. The less one judges, the more one understands. Peace.
I don't know why but the idea of death is so peaceful; when faced with almost certain death the worlds get so calm as if the never-ending shatter doesn't matter any longer, and it's calming. and due to it, not panicking (which saved my life a couple of times)
Living is hard, dying is easy, everyone does it. Personally, I think when we die, it's lights out, shows over, hope you enjoyed it. But I don't know if even that is correct, the fact is no body anywhere has the answer. That's why it's called "The Great Unknown"
There was once a time when I was truly concerned about [death]. Whether it be the passing of a loved one or even my own, I was preoccupied with the concept death and the question of “what will happen when we pass?”. After some deep contemplation, I came to the realization that it is nothing of concern to me. Death is part of Life. That is to say, we are given Life and and Alive; but we must ALL eventually Die because it part of the process of “existence “. I now acknowledge death, but I also freely accept that it is part of my life and my own existence. This being understood, I also acknowledge that I have no known power or control over death; I only know that it is inevitable. So I’ve come to “let go” of my concerns regarding death and I am choosing to focus on ‘life’ and living. I no longer fear what is inevitable and I am living in the ‘now’ of my existence. I believe this was also one of the life-lessons being taught in the movie “Fight Club”, but I didn’t grasp it completely until recently.
I love that Camus quote from the intro, would highly recommend reading The Outsider to any who have not. Also “Once more! For you are a most benevolent god indeed.”
in my opinion, death shouldn’t be something we fear. i believe it’s a beautiful thing, moving on from one life to another. even if you are in spirit. i wish that people didn’t have to die in horrific ways. everyone deserves to live their life fully. i’m sorry for those who are still grieving for a loved one’s death, things will get better. i promise you that. they would want the best for you. 💕 when i pass on, i don’t want people to mourn my death and treat it like a tragedy. i want them to celebrate the life i had. i want them to dance and spend time with each other, bond with one another. know that everything will be okay and that i’m not truly gone. that’s all i want.
I stared at death in the face myself more than one time and the last time I surrendered. I no longer fear death. Everyone in my family has already died untimely deaths. The only thing that dies is our body but our consciousness goes on. I do not love this made up reality and so when it's my time to go I will not fight to stay. Being the only one I know who is awake is lonely.
Hi everyone! 2019 is coming to an end. I want to thank you for making this an amazing year for this channel. I would never have expected all of this. For Einzelgänger, I have planned to make a fresh and positive start in 2020! Not that I won't talk about the darker topics like these (which I love to talk about from time to time), but I'm closing a door right now and opening a new one. Stay tuned, thank you all for watching, and I wish you a fantastic new year!
Go for it! 🇿🇦😎🙏
I learnt lot from you. Thanks alot
Nice! Btw what is your timezone, Einzelgänger?
Thanks for doing this channel. You're a favourite of mine and my partner's. I too lost a cherished uncle this year. Sympathies.
As an atheist or agnostic, i consider death an end to existence but still this could be seen as an antidote to suffering called life and hence ultimate closure. The thought that my pains and suffering will end with me is truly liberating. Einzelganger, i wish you well.
“It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live” - Marcus Aurelius
I much rather fear living in a world that can be as violent as this one.
FrenzySpore TV I understand but you can become one with the world and suffer or try to change it and suffer even more but it’s best to accept that this is the world you live in, just make the best of it.
@@JamesTheNomadic 2 questions.
Did u pick this quote from Jay Shetti's vid and
Do u play Shadow Fight 3?
@@JamesTheNomadic & u seem wise. I wanna ask u one question that i hv requested this channel owner to make content about. Just copy pasting the whole:
Hi, Sir I'm 18 years old.
If I ask "Who am I?",then what is the answer to this question? If someone would ask me this in my kid hood I would reply by saying my name... But... It's... A name. A name is not 'me'... And "me" is not 'me' either. Cause "me" is only a word.
At first the answer may seem like
"I am his or her son." or by social status someone can say "I'm poor" "I'm rich", "I'm millionaire, Billionaire", by Physical appearance someone may say they are beautiful, ugly, white, black, short, tall or from a professional perspective one can say he is a doc or youtuber or anything and inherently we can ( obviously we all r humans and these kind of questions don't come to other animals, 🤔i guess. Idk) we can describe "who we r" or "i am"... We can say we r soul with or in a body or body with soul (that's also bound by limitation of word's meaning expressionless)...
So what the hell r u, am i, and we r???!!! I got no clue and really afraid 😬. & if I say we r the things that know. Or more specifically that knows it knows but it becomes an infinite loop of no meaning when said, " it knows it knows it knows it knows it knows it knows........... (& so on.... Plz help🙏🏼. Make a video i beg you)
@@abohamolla4632 You have to find out who you are by living truthfully. You are something, someways and not others. As you go through life truthfully, more and more of you is revealed through the circumstances of life. (hopefully, unless you deny the parts of yourself dont like) It's not like "You either know 100% who you are or you know 0%." It's more like you're on a scale somewhere. Maybe you're 15% you right now. Work on getting to 16% and be happy :)
"Its almost if youre standing on a cliff and the person is about to fall down and theres nothing you can do about it, except saying what you want to say,
and, that someday, its your turn to take the dive into the abyss of the unknown as well"
This hit me hard.
Im sorry for your loss.
Boooohooo
Death is an old joke, but it comes like new to everyone. (Turgenev)
Why it´s a joke?
@@FranzMOesig because it fools everyone
Great quote. From 'Fathers and Sons' I think?
Jade Green correct
@@FranzMOesig It probably plays havoc with your plans or arguable who you are. Your a great warrior? I agree completely you where almost good enough as it happened. Your Rich? ow no you where rich?
I am not afraid of death but of dying without actually living but just existing. All i want is a cozy home in a small village, fresh air, good food, I don't like living in this crowded city. That's all. Next decade of my life is going to be very important and busy. As a 18 year old who wants to do well in life, have a stable life, excel in career, I dream of a productive and fulfilling decade. I wonder what would happen if i just died next day, next month, next year?
As someone who has faced and still facing domestic violence and abuse, I just want to live a peaceful and happy life before death knocks on the door, I will welcome death with happiness if it knocks on right time.I would like to live at least 50 years from now.
This probably doesn't make much sense but I just wrote down my feelings
@Prince Bumpkin Thank you so much for kind and wise words. 😊💗
komal m Sometimes you have to let toxic things or people out of your life to be able to be at peace or free. People can hold you from your happiness and sometimes you may not realize it.
@@annaoop8825 yes but I am dependent on them for food, shelter and education. I just want to get into college and live away from my abusive parents.
Thanks 🙏 ☺️
@@littlefairy9286 Depending on your persecutors for survival is a nightmare. Stay strong. I've found it helpful to listen to UA-cam channels that focus on CPTSD. You are in a hostage situation, so arm yourself with knowledge. I've had to learn about narcissists and being the family scapegoat and honestly, if it weren't for people sharing their experiences, I don't know if I'd survive this world.
If you don't know this type of malevolent personality inside out and what red flags to watch out for you may end up in a cycle of being the target of abuse. Knowledge is power and there are so many brave people talking about experiences at the hands of abusers on UA-cam.
Their speaking out has helped me tremendously. It's taken more than half a century to learn how these things happen.
No-one spoke about it, so you lived with a sense of shame and that the world controls you, not vice versa. I felt so lonely because I didn't know anyone who was in my position. Knowing there are millions in this place has given me immense comfort.
Promise yourself that you will get out of this and you will arm yourself with all the tools it takes to navigate yourself out of the storms. Courage!
@@TheOraReport Thank you so much for encouragement! I will definitely look for those videos. I wish a happy and healthy life to you! ❤️🙂
I always thought that when death come, i will accept it with no emotional response .. then one day at beach, i swum to far away from the beach without noticing it, once i noticed it, i didnt panic, i just slowly swum back .. then i unexpectedly swallowed a lot of salty water and started to heavily lose oxygen, i started to have cramps all over my body and slowly losing consciousness. 10 minutes of painful cramps, slowly losing consciousness and struggling to not drown.
I was never so close to death, its one think to imagine one self accepting death when it comes but to feel death closely is really something else, it require a huge amount of self control to not have an intense emotional response when close to unexpected death.
There is a research that says the scariest thing for all humans (no exception) is the elevated CO2 levels in the blood and present an external threat they will believe is causing it " Uncontrollable external object". (Drowning is one example).
So you my friend experienced just that. :))
@@AlekNik1994 - Yeah i saw Vsauce video about it - "What is the scariest thing?"
@@Hgulix62 wow! Amazing! Meditation can also help to gracefully die in natural way I guess.
I have Brittle Asthma, similar but not exactly the same. I've been minutes away from death many times as in veins collapsed, BP almost undetectable, ambulance and ICU.
All I wanted was for the pain to end - asthma is painful in the extreme. I generally wished someone would put a bullet between my eyes and end it fast. I've written about it in several forums including Quora, I think. There are things worse than death.
Living scares me more than dying.
Near drowning is a very traumatic event, don't underestimate what other parts of your life that experience may have spilled over to. Be well.
It was the Circumstances of your near Death not Death itself that scared you.
My mum is on her death bed now...matter of days...as a Hindu she believes she will be reincarnated and as an agnost, I hope the best for her...love u mummy
We can never resist the nature. Letting go is the only option, either we accept it or be ignorant about it. Best wishes to you and your loved ones. I also believe in reincarnation but only god knows that stuff! Happy new year
Stay strong, its not an easy thing
भाई आगे सब अच्छा होगा।
मैं आपकी माता के लिए भगवान से स्वर्ग की प्रार्थना करता हूं।
ये समय अापके लिए आसान नहीं होगा।
That waiting for the end seems to take forever and go too fast all at once. I was with my Mother when she went, my heart goes out to you. Sending you peace and courage. At times like these, we are completely helpless, all we can do is watch and wait as the the life ebbs out of the people we love. It's a trauma all on its own, apart from the trauma of losing a parent.
Stay strong and I wish her well
Rust Cohle:" Death created time to kill the things it would grow."
Very deep!
@@prabuddh_mathur indeed
Yes stars are living they give birth,create energy,send signals
I came here to this video feeling depressed. But now I feel calmed and with a bit more energy to do the things I desire and love. Thank you very much for that Einzelgänger :)
Depression is not an enemy to you, it's just an indicator that you are doing something wrong, not going there and not striving for it, it comes to those who do not follow the path of their heart.
@@cyberneticbeast thank you. I appreciate that and while I partly agree with you depression is something that can come again and again. I've been stuck with it since I was 16 or even younger. Depression isn't something that is cured ober night. It need treatment over a lifetime. Thats my opinion.
Grey Green Having invisible chains that everyone wears is rather depressing.
Grey Green No changing that
@@samusaran7317 it is our sacred duty.
''Death is not the greatest loss in life.
The greatest loss is what dies inside of us while we live.''
~Norman Cousins (1915-1990)
Happy 2020! Cheers to life! Blessings of hope to all!
It wasn’t a happy 2020 lol 😂
Death is liberation and nothing to fear.
You nailed it.
No thanks.
Different story when you know it’s
coming
@@LafriteRip it is all the more more satisfying as you will be able to live your end moments with more ease and more satisfaction with your clear mind.
You talked about living with resentment and the importance of letting it out. In the perspective of death everything just becomes pointless, even saying something. Let this sink in..
Nah fam thats just the (modern) Cynic way of seeing it
I'm trying to rediscover how to "listen as though I'm the one speaking", as well as speaking only as much as I'd really want to listen to myself, as well.
you say that like it's something bad.))
Or everything becomes meaningfull.
Time will never come back, ever. So how you use it matters. Saying "i love you" to someone you actually love bears so much meaning because you used a bit of thr most valuable resource you have to tell them that they matter.
Let that sink in
@@heldervale8885 Beautiful.
One thing scarier than death would be living forever.
True af.
Afterlife is pointless without Afterafterlife.
@@Byzzardo clap clap
Exactly. Eternal life is a nightmare.
Thanks to modern science and alote of hard working smart people this might even become an option pretty soon.
Death means hope for me at this point. I'm grateful that there is an end to our hellish existence
You are the creator of your own existence. Only you can change your own circumstances, but hopefully this will be of value to you: your input (books, music, friends, etc.) leads to your thoughts and what you think, thoughts lead to what to speak, your words determine your actions, your actions determines your habits, habits to character traits, and those character traits define your destiny. It’s as simple as that, but simple is by no means easy. It could takes years, like it has for me, but you’re stuck here anyways, so what do you have to lose?
@@JohnDoe-xp4iy Not true in all cases. Some people are living in hell in situations they can't change. People are stuck in war torn countries or extreme poverty. Stuck in abuse and neglect. Every situation is different.
Life is a roll of dice. It can be hellish and/or amazing. But what defines your existance is how you face the cards that are dealt to you, how you use them.
Loving is a good way of giving thw sufferimg meaning, as you work to make someone else's life better.
Think about that.
What matters isn't what it is, but how you face it.
It is a hard thing to carry, but the meaning is also greater because of it.
@sad kid Agree with you. 😞
That's rough buddy
Thank you for the video! To be honest, the topic of death has always been something I run away from. I always get anxious and I start struggling with my breathing sometimes, but this video somehow, I can’t really explain, put me at ease. So I just want to thank you for that.
Also, early happy new year!
Just sink in with the enjoyment, the amusement you will feel as a departing soul to another realm when you will die it will make you comfortable with death rather than afraid to being in dark till eternity.
For many death is liberation from depression, suffering and pain. Even though nobody asked us whether we wanted to be brought to this world or not, we can freely choose to end this ugly existence according to our wish and desire.
I had many experiences with death as a child; family members, pets, my brother. Although it took many years for me to actually understand this mortality of being, impermanence, and such.
In my 30’s now and making real effort to stop ruminating, overthinking, and hesitating.
The time is NOW, take action and learn or regret doing nothing at all.
@radhenitsri Why is it a curse? Living in a time when information of any kind is immediately available, it's easier for individuals to climb out of poverty than ever before, or maybe it's that modern life makes everything so "accessible"?
There are many options that it seems impossible to make a choice but no matter what you'll be standing on the shoulders of giants.
@radhenitsri I also believe that part of our maturation process of being a fully-actualized human is to pass through each of the seven stages of grief regarding our own death.
You sound to be stuck in the "Depression" stage, some day you'll move past that and onto the more productive parts when REAL change happens.
Yes take a whiff of the flowers while you can still smell them.
Yes my friend same. I choose to stop fretting and just live my life
What staring into the abyss teaches you? Well, according to Batman, if the abyss stares back at you, you should never blink.
YES. You stare it down long enough and it retreats. Wisdom comes from the strangest places. Batman - I would never have thought.
Hmm...this reminds me of when my own uncle passed.
I really admired how he faced death with dignity even as his breathing became progressively difficult with pneumonia, filling his lungs with fluid.
In addition, the day before he passed he showed incredible patience through unnecessary family drama related to finalizing last minute changes regarding his last will and testament.
I'm really glad I knew him...just like i'm really glad to know that a man like Einzelganger and this channel exists.
May we all continue to learn to live a bit better than we did the day before....
Hey Einzelgänger, thank you for the channel. You really give a lot of thought for me and in a way that I feel is making me a better person. Sincerely thank You.
I think death is just there to appreciate life.
Not really, it is only when it is too late in most cases
When there's life there's death
When there's light there's dark
When there's good there's bad
one cannot stay without another
It's a never ending cycle thet will never end
Only thing that you can do as a human being is enjoy the time you have as a human being life too short to be serious about things we cannot stop. embrace the present not past not future appreciate life✌
There is no such thing as empty space. Everything is connected.
Death is the border between ego and ego dissolution. It's not that bad on the other side.
It's not bad at all it's just something that shows us reality that in this world we are just passing time and got nothing else to do so we created all of this in order to not get bored.
I'm personally very excited to see my dying seconds how would I feel.
It totally amuse me.
Prabuddh Mathur I like the way you think brother
@@dmitryalexandersamoilov I love when I share my views to the viewers of this channel this channel is so amazing and connecting.
Wish you a happy New year of 2020 brother.
😊
How do you know what's on the other side? Have you been there?
Eagle Eye , hi , in reality: I'm scared of death. My genres want to live forever. Knowing I'll die fills my psychology with terror and depression. However, since we as humans can influence and (hopefully) rewrite our own thoughts, in order to feel better about living with the certainty of death, and we can choose to focus on the fact that logically, death is also the end of suffering, instead of focusing on the fact that death is also the end of pleasure
Thank you very much for the new video and a big hug from germany!🤗 In my 33 years of live i had to handle a lot of times with death. Sometimes it happens so sudden and sometimes you were waiting weeks or month till it finally happens..But on the end it teaches me 2 of the most important lessons: "Dying is not about yourself" and " The Death can dance".
I see the universe as one big pool of energy. For example, imagine consciousness is electricity. It's an energy source that is distributed and used by things that get 'plugged in'. I imagine our bodies to be things, plugged into the universe, whereby we have an illusion that our physical selves are independent and isolated. I feel we are nothing more than biological computers trying to make sense of our experiences by creating an ego, and when our body breaks, it is recycled into something new and the energy that flowed through us, that was never really us in the first place, begins to flow elsewhere. We are not static; our atoms, personality, state of being changes all the time - at 30, nothing remains of you from 20 years ago, only memories that are proven to be subjective and untrustworthy. Our atoms have existed since the dawn of time and yet we have no memory of a time before 'I'. I see no reason to presume death is anything but a change of state for the building blocks of our bodies, and that our minds are nothing more than an illusion of the energy of the cosmos powering up our brief and changeable brains.
You have amazing thoughts over death and all of it actually makes sense.
Thank you for the depth and breadth of your content.🇿🇦🙏
“To look life in the face, always, to look life in the face, and to know it for what it is...at last, to love it for what it is, and then, to put it away...”
Virginia Woolf
Great quote
I'd rather not.
Horrible quote. Woolfe was a nut job and a coward. That's just romanticizing suicide and is a dangerous sentiment for human beings to pass along. The entire point of this video and acknowledging death is to appreciate life and the time you have
Sorry for your loss bro. Thank you for all your amazing videos.
One of my favorite topic. :) Thanks for this man. I have more encounters with Death. I always wish it was just a nightmare especially when it happened to my father. I also love Death Metal. 💀
Man, I'm sorry for your loss. It will be hard for me when my parents will eventually go.
Do you know the french death metal band Gojira? Their album The Way Of All Flesh is about death and it really changed my views about it when I listened to it.
Death until death! \m/
Would you ever consider transcribing these vlogs into a book?
Yeeees please!
Yes
I would definitely buy one of them.
Thanks for the existential crisis, my dude 🤦🏻
Dont wory it always leads you to a better self
@@bozdogan_ so true my friend
Great!!! Last October 27th I myself experienced death of my father who was 88. Beside many diseases and the old age he suffered a lot for several years and faced near death experienced many time during his last 4 years of life and for 3 years couldn't walk and move without the help of assistance but could speak sometimes in weaker voice, even when without been able to speak and move he didn't want to die and not at all ready to embrace the ultimate death. I believe and saw him suffer more for the denial and refuse to embrace death and leave this materialistic world. During the struggling years pain and sufferings was clearly visible on his pale face, but soon after the soul departed from the body his face was showing a sign of greater relief with a beautiful simile on it and looked like as if he is experiencing his mid 30s, there was no sign of any pain, sufferings, or struggles on that remarkable handsome face, instead looked very happy and relieved , even the physical body more than six feet which shrunken due to sicknesses and old age as well became comparatively normal and healthy, very strange to see this transformation just after this unavoidable event, absolutely remarkable to notice. It was a message for all of us to show how peaceful the rest becomes after passing through the channel door to the other dimensions for the new infinite experience without being scared starting a new journey to the unknown. Nothing to fear just glide and when the time of death comes just embrace it and don't try pulling back to earth or hesitate to leave everything behind, and obviously always be ready for this unavoidable must event sooner or later. All of your video presentations are absolutely unique and remarkable. Highly appreciate all of your outstanding efforts. Happy New Year, and as well peace be upon all. Thanks a lot.
It was really great to hear this from a non-religious perspective. Thank you! : )
Einzelgänger is one of those channels where I don’t actually watch the videos. I stare off into the window and just listen 😊
Intense, resonated heavily with me. Thank you.
I found your channel in a very trying time. Thank you so much for opening the door to spirituality.🙏🏼
Another great video. Hope you're well man.
The thought of death has always scared me. The frequency of thinking about it along with my fears intensified when I lost my sight years ago, putting my life on hold with the rut I fell into due to it.
i’d say more but my thoughts are a jumbled mess right now. Thanksk for the insightful thoughts on the topic.
"Death is the only adventure you have left"
Captain Hook.
Lol.
Great video! I'm sorry for your loss. Wish you well.
It's not what out there that scares us. It's the permanence of death that does. Great quote, thanks !
I just lost my mom in a car accident a few months ago and I haven’t been able to grasp that she died I have been a mess and this did a lot for me
Oh I'm so sorry, someone I've known since I was a child was shot and killed 2 weeks ago and my Step-mother died in a car accident a few years ago.
I've come to believe that a sudden unexpected death is much harder to come to terms with than one which you expected.
Grief never really goes away, we just learn to live with it. It's a wound to your soul and nothing can erase that. It heals over eventually but the scar always remains.
If you can bring yourself to do this try to heal in honor of your mother, that perspective brings back a sense of some control.
Courage and strength and peace to you.
Thats terrible, life can be unfair. I hope you find peace and that time heals you.
Ashley, I believe she's in a better place now and you'll be reunited with your mom one day. God bless.
So sorry. Losing your mother is a tough one. Lost mine at 27 now 43 miss her like crazy. SENDING LOVE friend
😢 so sorry. 😞
Brother, I wish you all the luck in the world for the upcoming year.. I love your videos and I watch them on a daily basis, as if it's a part of my life, and, to tell you the truth.. Its good that you quoted Albert Camus, cuz I'm reading the outsider, and it very insightful.. You give me hope.. Thank you
This is something I always explain to my friends, and even teachers, but they never truly understand it.
Very less people will understand our own private perspective towards death
That's the great thing about death, when it happens to you, you dont have to worry about anything anymore it's not your problem. The thing about death is how you go, death is inevitable but how you die is what your life says about you.
Your camera shots are honestly impressive.
For me what lies at the end of the mystery of death, is gratitude. Be grateful of having shared your life-time with that someone else, which you won't see anymore...
I don't fear death. Death is inevitable. By not fearing death, allows me to live life to its fullest.
I will never leave my family, but I want to die every day. I wake up and think about the overdose I could take, I drive my car (alone) and think about the corners I know I could veer off, I think about the heart attack I'm hoping for so I could die naturally and no one would blame me for taking my life on purpose. My sense of obligation to stay here for my children is huge and I know I won't give in. But I want to, so very very much. So every night I listen to the same music and think of how lovely it will feel to slip away and be gone. Please someone tell me I am not alone?
My dear your not alone because I for sure do feel you!!!! I thought I was the only one that thought or felt this way. We are all just friends walking eachother home.
@@maryfloyd7791 thank you Mary 💜 you have no idea how it feels to read that and know it's not just me
@@genericwoman3713 no, sweetie, just always know your not alone just like I found you I feel comfort in knowing I found you and I am not alone. I should be thanking you for your bravery in saying what I have wanted to say for so long.
@@maryfloyd7791 then at least we have each other I suppose. Don't give up ok- same as I won't. Like you said, we're going home. We're going home anyway so we will just have to wait, and we'll get there when we do Xx
Either live a slave, or Die a free man.
That is my moto. I would rather starve to death doing what I love than having to do soul-ripping work that I hate.
I agree with you but we both know it's not so simple....
Then you don't realize the correlation between starvation and soul ripping pain.
@@randomuser66438 haha... Exactly.
@@randomuser66438 Yeah because you two know so much about me, huh?
Very sorry for your loss. Thank you for this year of life thoughts and lessons. I go into the deep dive on topics you introduce us to. Cheers to the new year and may we all never stop learning.
I can relate to this since I lost my mother recently
May she Rest in Peace.
She is with you in spirit. You have truly not lost her.
Me too. There is not a day that goes by without me thinking of her. When she was alive I couldn't imagine life without her and now that she's gone I understand I have life because of her. The only thing you can do is honor her with every thought, word, and deed( as best as one can)! May you have peace, strength, and love!
Always appreciate your videos. I really liked the photo images (in this one too). Beautiful work. Well done♥💝
My condolences. It is good to see you become stronger through such hardship.
Thank you for making these! The Netherlands has some beautiful spaces.
I think about death all the time. I wonder if I think about it too much… Thank you for your videos.
Your videos are always so helpful and this one was really needed. The subject has been on my mind a lot lately and it’s bittersweet having someone who is clearly going through a similar situation so eloquently apply logical thinking while being empathetic to how the viewer might be feeling. I’m sure your uncle was a great man, I’m sorry for your loss but glad that your way of dealing with it is able to help me and others with our loss as well.
Mari cpuler nthi aaviyo te jlj dxa the vat kari edrdur tesntne xevanno trekyare nmle ha mothine vechatu leva kh mnan dukh thyo
Been thinking about this a lot recently too. Thank you for making this video
Death has never been proven!
Greetings from Turkey.I love your channel have a nice new year.
THANK YOU FOR THIS. HOPE ALL IS WELL. FOR ME I TAKE IT AS DEATH IS NOT THE OPPOSITE OF LIFE, BUT A PART OF IT. LIFE IS A GIFT THAT HAS A TIME LIMIT.
Yeah, you're right. Without death life can't be meaningful.
Your videos are excellent. You have a great talent.
I lost my dad a year and a half ago. I was the only one at his side along with his wife who was cheering his passing on, while shy high on his pills. One of the awakening moments, and spiritual of my life. I'm lost in life. I know so much, but do little. I'm a decent person. More good than bad, but have plenty of darkness.
Fantastic share, I released a video on the subject the other day, focusing more on how it motivates us in life. I really like how you delved into the realisation you came to in your own experience.
Something that is alive never dies. It is simply transformed into another form of life. Sure death is scary but it’s foolish to fear the inevitable
I don't know why I have been keeping death next to my mind everyday. I got really happy when I survived the whole day out considering the rate of accidents and even I mean anything could just kill you.
This feeling evolved my mindset as of a sigma male mindset. I started not making very long terms plans. I'm living in present and I actually feel kinda saturated to all of this shit.
I mean I think now everything is just pointless even our very own existence. Nothing makes me really happy like I would be really happy.. except from momentarily satisfaction from an anime or achieving something in my ongoing life.
Ever since I joined this channel I felt like in not alone in this messed up world where everyone is trying to steal you from yourself.
My ideology has evolved and what I was thinking was not irrelevant but there are out there who are like me.
It's so good to know.
Thank you
Einzelgänger
Well chosen pictures of analogy!
Life would not exist without Death
I never ever regretted subscribing to your channel. You're worth subscribing. 🙂
Hope we get to break a beer some day. Thanks.
Einzelganger i have not watched this yet. But I want to thank you in advance. So many people dont like this subject. They dont talk about it if they dont have to.
This video is a great birthday and new year gift for me.
Finally someone has managed to form an unbiased understanding that is close to truth about death just as I did.
The less one judges, the more one understands.
Peace.
I don't know why but the idea of death is so peaceful; when faced with almost certain death the worlds get so calm as if the never-ending shatter doesn't matter any longer, and it's calming. and due to it, not panicking (which saved my life a couple of times)
Thank you for such an amazing video. Very quotable... impossible to make just one tweet out of it...
I died last Sunday. I wish I had some more answers, but even after experiencing it for myself, it's just as much a mystery as before.
Living is hard, dying is easy, everyone does it. Personally, I think when we die, it's lights out, shows over, hope you enjoyed it. But I don't know if even that is correct, the fact is no body anywhere has the answer. That's why it's called "The Great Unknown"
Yes I’ve always thought of it like that.
Life is uncertain.Death is certain.
There was once a time when I was truly concerned about [death]. Whether it be the passing of a loved one or even my own, I was preoccupied with the concept death and the question of “what will happen when we pass?”.
After some deep contemplation, I came to the realization that it is nothing of concern to me. Death is part of Life. That is to say, we are given Life and and Alive; but we must ALL eventually Die because it part of the process of “existence “.
I now acknowledge death, but I also freely accept that it is part of my life and my own existence. This being understood, I also acknowledge that I have no known power or control over death; I only know that it is inevitable.
So I’ve come to “let go” of my concerns regarding death and I am choosing to focus on ‘life’ and living. I no longer fear what is inevitable and I am living in the ‘now’ of my existence.
I believe this was also one of the life-lessons being taught in the movie “Fight Club”, but I didn’t grasp it completely until recently.
What we do now echoes throughout eternity. So live life and enjoy.
I love that Camus quote from the intro, would highly recommend reading The Outsider to any who have not. Also “Once more! For you are a most benevolent god indeed.”
in my opinion, death shouldn’t be something we fear. i believe it’s a beautiful thing, moving on from one life to another. even if you are in spirit. i wish that people didn’t have to die in horrific ways. everyone deserves to live their life fully. i’m sorry for those who are still grieving for a loved one’s death, things will get better. i promise you that. they would want the best for you. 💕
when i pass on, i don’t want people to mourn my death and treat it like a tragedy. i want them to celebrate the life i had. i want them to dance and spend time with each other, bond with one another. know that everything will be okay and that i’m not truly gone. that’s all i want.
My cat just died. Your words are appreciated. She was a friend and a healer. Wherever she goes I want to go there too!
Death is the Only way we all have to face. Dont fear it, greet it like a old friend.
We’re already dead. I came to this realization on a psychedelic trip.
What do you mean?
Thank u very much for these videos. Gos bless you. These are a big help .
Thank you Gabriel. Best wishes to you!
Thank you for this. Peace to all sentient beings. Let's just enjoy this wild ride while we're here. Bless you all.
Death is the fear of losing our attachment we cling to
I stared at death in the face myself more than one time and the last time I surrendered. I no longer fear death. Everyone in my family has already died untimely deaths. The only thing that dies is our body but our consciousness goes on. I do not love this made up reality and so when it's my time to go I will not fight to stay. Being the only one I know who is awake is lonely.
My bitter sweet tears.., because I love how you explained death. ♥️
Oh wow I wish I could get on a plane and come hug you, Einzelgänger! I'm sorry for your lost and pray things look up for the following year.
What a great way to start the day. Thank you!
i stared at the abyss and it looked back.... just to look away and say "what a creep" and then the abyss left
I love how this channel analyzed the concept of death without fully discounting either athiesm nor theism
Fantastic video, and your family are in my prayers. May your uncle rest easy, and I wish you good days.
The death is just a new beginning...not necessarily as the same person, animal or thing we were, but as part of a new one...
This was posted on the day my grandma died. Thank you. ❤️
Oh, wow. My condolences.
Death teaches that one day your and your loved one's life will end so until you are alive, live a happy life and be kind to everyone OM Namah Shivaya.
I love you for saying albert camus correctly
We all shine on. (John Lennon)
Great video. Wish you the best. Happy Holidays
Death is the absolute evidence of existence