HOW TO HEAL FROM A DYSFUNCTIONAL BACKGROUND 1

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  • @Godsfavoritechild100
    @Godsfavoritechild100 11 місяців тому +197

    The worst thing about growing up in an abusive home is that the parent never realizes and apologize for what they did wrong. They act like it never happened and pretend like they are your friend when you are older and they need something from you. I pray that God helps us to heal and live free. 🙏

    • @ebaiyvonne9261
      @ebaiyvonne9261 11 місяців тому +11

      Ahhh exactly my case. My mother is so toxic and narcissist. I have cut off from her bad energy and condemnation. One thing I like about myself is that when I let go I let go

    • @ebaiyvonne9261
      @ebaiyvonne9261 11 місяців тому +9

      She mocks me every time because I don't have a job yet and she instead loves my elder brother because he has money. I wonder if this challenge is going to end but I believe in my God

    • @innocentbisibukola754
      @innocentbisibukola754 11 місяців тому +2

      It would end my brother.
      Keep faith alive

    • @AnastasiachideraAnastasia
      @AnastasiachideraAnastasia 11 місяців тому

      Amen 😢

    • @ribaker822
      @ribaker822 11 місяців тому +5

      Oh, your comment just spoke to my heart. This is so true. May we heal so that we don't hurt our children.

  • @magdaleneidris9313
    @magdaleneidris9313 11 місяців тому +117

    This is my first time watching any sermon from this minstry and I can say this hits hard. I recently moved away from home / my parents, and I can say I have been faced with a lot of traumas it’s like I thought leaving would set me free but it was when I left I realized I had a lot of work to do. I had to heal from certain childhood trauma and neglect as a child which has caused me great pain, trust issues and dysfunctional relationships with both male and females. I’m opened to healing and hoping that I have a normal family someday.

  • @Storina2024
    @Storina2024 Рік тому +41

    I think one day, maybe on an Independence day, the president should have an announcement on all Television stations and this teaching should come on in Nigeria

  • @rumekpadamrophe912
    @rumekpadamrophe912 Рік тому +48

    Sadly, most Nigerians grew up in disfunctional homes. I hope more people listen to this.

    • @MONICABADJAN-l2g
      @MONICABADJAN-l2g Місяць тому

      It's not only in Nigeria, many African children come from dysfunctional homes.

  • @diannaoffor
    @diannaoffor 10 місяців тому +10

    Reading this title alone brings tears to my heart but I thank Jesus he is working on my heart, my home will not be dysfunctional in the name of Jesus

  • @ifunanyathomas2918
    @ifunanyathomas2918 Рік тому +87

    For the first time in my life I’m searching for a sermon and eager to listen to the end and repeatedly. For the first time, I feel I’ve found the truth.

    • @oluwatosinrebecca3733
      @oluwatosinrebecca3733 8 місяців тому

      Same here ,work makes stop half way ,each time I’m less busy I go back to it again

  • @lucyphilip4292
    @lucyphilip4292 10 місяців тому +30

    I was raised by my father....he abused me continually when I was a child. Am a single mom with 2 boys raising them alone. I need help psychologically. Oh Lord help me

    • @KetsiaFodjon
      @KetsiaFodjon 7 місяців тому +1

      Lucy the Lord is your help, will pray for you to heal.

    • @yvonneodul8291
      @yvonneodul8291 6 місяців тому +4

      Am so sorry,may you find healing in God and get counseling, Pastor Joyce Meyer was also abused and she rose above that with God's help,may God help you in your healing journey

    • @blessingsyahweh185
      @blessingsyahweh185 3 місяці тому +1

      Be healed sis😢😢😢

    • @pettiolugbile879
      @pettiolugbile879 2 місяці тому +1

      The first step to healing is forgiving the offenders. Second, forgive yourself. Third, accept the love that Jesus Christ offers. You are blessed in the name of Jesus Christ amen ❤️❤️❤️

    • @ObiIfy-rq9lo
      @ObiIfy-rq9lo Місяць тому

      You are soo loved

  • @BAAR.
    @BAAR. Рік тому +44

    My mother raised us by herself, and she raised us well! Nobody knew life was going to go the way it did. I'm super proud of my Mother.
    A man who is afraid of the progress of his woman is insecure, and weak!

  • @isell_global124
    @isell_global124 Рік тому +53

    Lord You have blessed my generation with men like Apostle Lazarus! Thank you 🙏

  • @aimeez0440
    @aimeez0440 Рік тому +24

    The generation that will change things is the generation that will question things.

  • @divaliciousdiva2560
    @divaliciousdiva2560 Рік тому +29

    i just finished watching this with my husband, i cried, he cried, this resonated so much with us, thank u Pastor.

    • @femi_lazarus
      @femi_lazarus  Рік тому +16

      Wow.
      I'm glad it blessed you!

    • @IshFoods
      @IshFoods Місяць тому

      ​@@femi_lazarusI need to talk to this pastor because things are not sitting well with me.😢😭😭🙏

  • @sat_702
    @sat_702 Рік тому +20

    8 minutes into this sermon am already in tears 😢I pray 🙏🏾 that I make it through this teaching

  • @abemhirna4152
    @abemhirna4152 10 місяців тому +8

    This man is a blessing,we pray our generation will be able to heal and do things differently

  • @Kadiatuuu
    @Kadiatuuu 11 місяців тому +13

    I thank God for bringing me to see this sermon. I'm also coming from a dysfunctional home and I battle a lot because of it. But I know that God is setting things right! He is doing it for me 🙏🏿❤️🙌🏿

  • @adepoju__temitope
    @adepoju__temitope Рік тому +81

    Kai Apostle, first time listening to a full sermon and I’m undoubtedly blessed. My God 🥹🥹😭😭. Thank you Sir

  • @ijeomanlemchukwu3732
    @ijeomanlemchukwu3732 Рік тому +32

    This message is something I can’t fathom with human understanding. Our God is really raising giants in our times that are resetting the system in Church for his coming. Thank you so much Apostle Femi, God bless and keep you and your family in this days in Jesus name. Amen. It’s amazing

  • @habibaisglobal
    @habibaisglobal Рік тому +11

    The fact that you are asking is a proof that you are thinking differently and you will come out!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

  • @Airdrop_Clinic
    @Airdrop_Clinic Рік тому +8

    This man is a preacher,teacher, pastor and an apostle

  • @beckleyomolara789
    @beckleyomolara789 Рік тому +25

    Okay, so recently my hubby has been sending me your short clips on facebook and i grew in love with your teachings and just this early hours at work i saw this full video on youTube and i was drawn to it..even before it commenced , i was already in tears because i dont want to bring up my kids the same way i was.
    Thank you Apostle

  • @folashadeadeoye7421
    @folashadeadeoye7421 Рік тому +50

    Thank you pastor for raising this. This is what the lord has been speaking to me , to help those that grew from dysfunctional homes. I had the experience and God helped me , he spoke to my heart to help others . Thank you sir, i can totally Relate

  • @samsonodigie7300
    @samsonodigie7300 Рік тому +14

    One of the biggest things God did for me was that my mother stayed.....

  • @onomeazih3053
    @onomeazih3053 Місяць тому +4

    My husband came from dysfunctional family....he started living with his Aunt from 9yrs. He didn't experience love growing up and now he does not know how to show love to his own children....all he does is criticize them, never praises even qhen they do well ...now his own children dislike him... never want to be near him.... and its affects our only daughter who hates him with passion....it really bothers me....been praying for her....for God help me on this matter 🙏

  • @princeselormk.agordah8288
    @princeselormk.agordah8288 Рік тому +32

    i started listening to pastor femi, about 3 months ago, and I have been asking myself since since..."where has this man been hiding!?" God bless you man of God. Your message was a hard mirror for me and I'm sharing this with my siblings. i know we needed healing and this is what you have brought us. thank you
    😭

    • @bernicedoku5241
      @bernicedoku5241 9 місяців тому +1

      Same with me. I love listening to him now❤

  • @HannahAmabu
    @HannahAmabu 11 місяців тому +6

    i never thought i will be heal from my worries and stagnation but God did it for me through your messages halleluyah 🙏 thank you pastor i am connecting from Abuja.

  • @sonitayufenyuy
    @sonitayufenyuy Рік тому +11

    Your upbringing shapes the way you perceive life
    If the foundations be destroyed what can the Righteous do.
    First things first, i need to heal from my past. Because God has in store for me for the future and i just can't mess it up with my overreacting to things.
    Heal me Holy Spirit 🙏

  • @jackobot7905
    @jackobot7905 Рік тому +32

    What kind of man are you sir, Your knowledge is a total shift from the regular religious pastor. Most Pastors go about criticizing people without having the slightest knowledge of what the person is going through. Total Ignorance. I love this message

  • @felixdanso9996
    @felixdanso9996 11 місяців тому +2

    I'm Felix from Ghana. I must confess this message is for me... God help us all. It is well

  • @blessingetienodickson4949
    @blessingetienodickson4949 Рік тому +4

    I watched a reel of this message on Facebook. I screen recorded it. I wanted to post it but it turned out I didn't recorded it well. I went back to Facebook but couldn't find it. I decided to check it out on UA-cam and I am glad I did.
    God bless you sir.

  • @DivineAbraham-rr3po
    @DivineAbraham-rr3po Рік тому +10

    This is so true
    I think there should be a book on this
    Its really going to help our generation

  • @cherissagold
    @cherissagold Рік тому +7

    All I can say is wow. There’s a reason why I clicked on this video. Thank you Jesus!

  • @Obabinrin
    @Obabinrin Рік тому +21

    This sermon is a blessing from God to correct generational confusion and dysfunctional households.

  • @joychika1929
    @joychika1929 Рік тому +13

    I never knew such message is here. Thank you Sir for being used to dig out the root of my problem 😭😭😭 I'm healed today and forever

  • @blessingekle3496
    @blessingekle3496 Рік тому +12

    So calm, yet pouring out deep thoughts,

  • @AdesolaAkinyanmi
    @AdesolaAkinyanmi Рік тому +5

    This sermon got me crying. My Mum stayed for us but she died when the time was ripe for her to start eating the fruits of her labour.
    This is such a reset sermon!!!

    • @adebisiamida2080
      @adebisiamida2080 6 місяців тому

      Sorry about that. Her memory is blessed.

  • @Deejayfozter
    @Deejayfozter 10 місяців тому +5

    For the first time I heard a sermon for one hour on UA-cam

  • @itsallaboutjesus6111
    @itsallaboutjesus6111 Рік тому +7

    This man of God understand 😢I have found my therapist 💯🥳

  • @leahchengobutala9790
    @leahchengobutala9790 24 дні тому

    My friend recommended i watch this after a conversation we had of not wanting to pass bad generational habits into our kids. I've truly been blessed Apostle. I could see some flaws in myself as you preached.

  • @nuellasnuggets
    @nuellasnuggets Рік тому +14

    Sir, no lies in this. As a PK, I can testify. I shared how I had to change my perspective on prayer in my book “PRAY this.” I'm still learning but I'm grateful for the revelation. 🙏🏾

  • @OlorunmayeDorcas
    @OlorunmayeDorcas Рік тому +20

    This sermon is a big reset for me. Thank God for His grace over you sir. More annoiting and revelation for you sir. Amen 🙏🏿
    Unto the next. Part 2

  • @aimeez0440
    @aimeez0440 Рік тому +11

    We cannot have a new Nigeria without discussing family. Thanks for this message sir, someone shared the link and I know I will be blessed for listening and adhering. God bless you.

  • @cewjnyte
    @cewjnyte 11 місяців тому +5

    My God. How is it that your sermon resonates so much that it feels that you are taking words out of not just my mouth but my heart?There is something divinely genuine about theSpirit that lives in you pastor Femi Lazarus. May God Almigh Be praised!

  • @marychadeka5597
    @marychadeka5597 11 місяців тому +2

    Thank you for these teachings. We don't need counseling from the world first, come here first.... I bet by the time you finish you will not need any counselling....... This teaching is deliverance on its own

  • @jemimaeric6575
    @jemimaeric6575 Рік тому +10

    I wish I could make this church my church. I love these sermons. God bless you, Pastor Femi Lazarus

  • @francisnkechinyerenneoma1954
    @francisnkechinyerenneoma1954 11 місяців тому +3

    The sermon is so relentable with the story of my life😭😭 I've been seeking for solutions to my trauma for years ever since my childhood but to no avail the trauma has dealt with me so bad that I'm scared of marriage now...
    God bless you pastor I believe this sermon is freedom I have long awaited for.. my soul 8ve finally seen the deliverance it seeks for a long time😭😭😭😭

  • @carrentugoi
    @carrentugoi Рік тому +9

    Dysfunctional families are real.. i thank God for using this man to speak about this .. I am receiving healing in the name of Jesus
    Let me choose forgiveness ,,, I wanna let them go .. am not holding on to anyone anymore

    • @SimisolaAdetayo
      @SimisolaAdetayo 7 місяців тому

      I really wish but the memory keeps dragging me back. I just wish I can forget completely. It's a terrible feeling.

  • @oloridestiny3251
    @oloridestiny3251 Рік тому +15

    I’m upset that I didn’t find your sermons earlier but I am also grateful to God that brought this video on to my fyp you are blessing to my generation 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

  • @folorunshoviavonu3560
    @folorunshoviavonu3560 Рік тому +6

    I got to know about you this morning through the WhatsApp status of a friend. It's the best thing I have gained from social media. God bless you richly, sir, in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

  • @efunshilemoses4679
    @efunshilemoses4679 Рік тому +16

    this message is for me because i lack parental care,my mom lay alot of causes on me when growing up and now shes expecting alot from me.i having issues giving back to her
    my father was nowhere to be found until i was 21 years

    • @osatohamenosatohamen
      @osatohamenosatohamen 9 місяців тому

      Same with my dad

    • @maneyanombwende9269
      @maneyanombwende9269 8 місяців тому +1

      Sending hugs,kisses and deliverance from all those curses.Amen

    • @opeyemiolawole4627
      @opeyemiolawole4627 3 місяці тому

      B

    • @opeyemiolawole4627
      @opeyemiolawole4627 3 місяці тому +1

      What the time and what the heck
      What is that speech 💬.
      Who are you telling me your name 📛😠
      Sorry that my mom
      If you don't tell me I will report.
      If you see o
      It is me Opeyemi Olawole.

  • @ConfidenceChinasa
    @ConfidenceChinasa 11 місяців тому +15

    😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢 I'm in tears listening to this massage. I wish My parents had the opportunity to hear this. Thank You ABBA for the privilege to be a partaker of this blessings

  • @thetransitioningchannel806
    @thetransitioningchannel806 Рік тому +5

    Kai! This is my first time listening to Apostle Femi Lazarus’ message and I'm wowed! God bless you, sir. You nailed this one oo!

  • @chukwuemekaokonkwo7148
    @chukwuemekaokonkwo7148 Рік тому +11

    Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh..... Apostle God bless you ... Look at the way you are so composed spitting fire 🔥, I want to listen to this over and over again ... God bless you ❤️

  • @MONICABADJAN-l2g
    @MONICABADJAN-l2g Місяць тому

    Am from a dysfunctional home and my own story is sad. I hate my father so much and the hatred is been transferred to my mom for giving us such a man as father. Am praying for healing and to also forgive my parents. This sermon touched me so much. Thank you so much sir.

  • @MalcanniPlus
    @MalcanniPlus Рік тому +12

    The amount of damage I am having to deal with as a young adult is just something else!

  • @siyanbola4788
    @siyanbola4788 10 місяців тому +1

    First timer and listening 3 months afterwards. Thank God for the divine unction given to deliver this profound sermon. So so blessed and delivered by the Word

  • @joyokioma4622
    @joyokioma4622 Місяць тому

    This message is a therapy... Healing is attained while listening to this message.

  • @mpumie_mabasa7042
    @mpumie_mabasa7042 9 місяців тому +9

    This hurts me somuch growing up from an abusive background,th way am so traumatised I don’t even wann be married anymore😭😭😭Oh God heal me

    • @AngelicaHutchinson1
      @AngelicaHutchinson1 7 місяців тому +1

      The Lord will heal you and a beautiful and loving family will come forth through you; a blessed generation in Jesus Christ name amen🥺🙏🏽❤️

    • @collinsedafe6571
      @collinsedafe6571 5 місяців тому

      My dear trust God, he will bring the right man that will help you in the process of your healing in Jesus name

  • @ayokunnumialatise6635
    @ayokunnumialatise6635 Рік тому +8

    This is powerful I have not heard a sermon like this in recent years

  • @ayooloyin
    @ayooloyin Рік тому +7

    Sir this is amazing, after Instagram nuggets I decided to come check more on UA-cam and I was not disappointed thank you sir for saying yes to God

  • @rebeccaattah6544
    @rebeccaattah6544 11 місяців тому +3

    I was in tears listening to this sermon
    Thank you so much Sir
    You have no idea what you have done for me..
    God bless you abundantly ❤

  • @AB1kaenobi
    @AB1kaenobi Рік тому +6

    These truths. It's interesting how I woke up with this family dysfunction heavy on my mind. I had cried literally because I was coming to terms with certain dynamics, and then I'm led to a post that leads me to this message! God is indeed in the details

  • @AngelicaaKalu
    @AngelicaaKalu 10 місяців тому

    This is the first time I've encountered a sermon that actually tackles this issue on childhood trauma, mental health and emotional wellness. God bless you sir❤.

  • @adejokeoduwaiye2009
    @adejokeoduwaiye2009 Рік тому +12

    Hello pastor lazarus,u are a blessing to me but I don't knw if dis message will get along to you but I really wish it so pls don't look at dis as if I want to beg mony from or anybody but I don't ave any confidence to go forward for anything cus afraid if anything might happen to me ..I am another of 4 and I am 27 years old I and I really wish to go further my education but I am very fearful of d journey even if u are not done to talk to but to refer someone to I don't mind I ave a very good husband he takes care of me he doesn't understand how to take care of feelings and emotions because of were he grow up for I am not writing dis to pity me or misquote me I just nid help emotionally

    • @jaysenossai7165
      @jaysenossai7165 Рік тому +2

      What ever you expect from your partner, sow it as a seed into his life.
      With time and patience, you will reap what you sowed bountifully.

  • @johnpaulowori5499
    @johnpaulowori5499 Рік тому +4

    thanks for teaching me how to parent . this is a blessing

  • @oluebubesuccess5382
    @oluebubesuccess5382 2 місяці тому

    Thank God i came across dz sermon
    God wants me to become better,😌
    God bless you Apostle❤

  • @awuorochuodho6394
    @awuorochuodho6394 11 місяців тому +1

    Wow! Wow! Wow! Am lost for words! But, the number of times I have had to pause to just absorb the teaching because it was like Apostle was talking about me! Definitely coming to listen again and will be sharing it with my siblings and ftiends and anyone in my circle I feel will need this message!

  • @hannahotumfuo2282
    @hannahotumfuo2282 11 місяців тому +4

    Hah!
    This is for me😢
    If someone shows too much caring I find it a problem. I'm okay even if I'm not okay.
    May the Lord heal me

  • @olabisiolajide2419
    @olabisiolajide2419 Рік тому +8

    What a word.. so much truth, God bless you, Sir.
    May this message go far to the ears of all who need to hear this in Jesus' name 🙏

  • @tolukolade2331
    @tolukolade2331 Рік тому +14

    The generation that will change things are the Generation that will question things

  • @oluwatosinawoniyiLive
    @oluwatosinawoniyiLive Рік тому +3

    Messages like these give me joy! Upbringing/background has done a lot of damage to people and they don't even know it. Thank you so much for this!

  • @Jessica_Idibo
    @Jessica_Idibo Рік тому +10

    This is timely message. Thanks Apostle for this series

  • @celenhledlamini4027
    @celenhledlamini4027 Рік тому +6

    This sermon brought me to tears😢so much revelation and truth❤️God bless you man of God🙌🏽

  • @kingdomshighway7168
    @kingdomshighway7168 11 місяців тому +3

    Thank you, thank you, thank you. Listening to this message blessed me tremendously. My healing has began since listening to you from first week of December. I am grateful for all this timely messages.

  • @preciousgabriel5964
    @preciousgabriel5964 11 місяців тому +2

    I was really messed up by a disfunctional family , kai am tearing up listening to your message for the first time in full 😢😢😢 God pls help me to raise my children aright,, this cycle must not continue🙏

  • @henryijeoma2228
    @henryijeoma2228 Рік тому +6

    This sermon is important for everyone

  • @deborahmanari4286
    @deborahmanari4286 Рік тому +1

    I've seen a man who dishes the absolute truth. Thank you Lord 🙌

  • @abigae___2899
    @abigae___2899 Рік тому +3

    My God 😭. I am literally crying as I am listening. I will come out o 😢. Thank you sir.

  • @busayomibabalola
    @busayomibabalola Рік тому +4

    This is undoubtedly powerful!
    This is truly a lot!

  • @ImpactFuse1
    @ImpactFuse1 8 місяців тому +1

    My eyes are full of tears . I can't know where to start but I begin a fresh healing from this message. thanks @Femi Lazarus

  • @abiolaalice9611
    @abiolaalice9611 Рік тому +2

    I love this teaching, it is really shaking tables of religion

  • @taiwoal
    @taiwoal Рік тому +3

    Thank you Apostle Femi Lazarus. May God Bless, SUSTAIN and Enlarge you. AMEN.

  • @nazfav2757
    @nazfav2757 11 місяців тому

    The practicality of this teaching screams wisdom. You did an indepth research about the topic Sir.
    I celebrate you greately Sir and this teaching blessed me beyond my imagination.

  • @pmulah4433
    @pmulah4433 Місяць тому

    Thank you Apostle you don’t know how much you are helping us in realising how where we are coming from has programmed us in a wrong way .I have set myself on a path to healing

  • @blessingdowie4883
    @blessingdowie4883 Рік тому +2

    God bless you and your ministry sir. You are a treasure to our generation. Thank you for making the decision to change the pattern. God is healing every dysfunctionality in my life and family in Jesus' name!

  • @blessingowoyomi4324
    @blessingowoyomi4324 Рік тому +3

    Such a powerful message, had to cry at some point . Thank you sir

  • @azariaministries
    @azariaministries Рік тому +2

    LISTENING TO YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME BUT I AM BLESSED AND HAVE SHARED WITH ALL MY CHILDREN. GOD BLESS YOU APOSTLE FEMI

  • @trudyanneyram9821
    @trudyanneyram9821 Місяць тому

    Most African home ooo.Thank you soo much Ps Femi Lazarus

  • @dinahekundayo5331
    @dinahekundayo5331 Місяць тому

    How you told the story of mine and my siblings life with these series,I have come out praying and working my siblings out

  • @coachbimbola
    @coachbimbola Рік тому +3

    I celebrate your gift of teaching sir

  • @ezennennafortunate2770
    @ezennennafortunate2770 7 місяців тому

    Wow wow wow. God bless you Sir for this teachings. Our future is blessed and secure already. We are healed from dysfunctional backgrounds.

  • @Jessica_Idibo
    @Jessica_Idibo Рік тому +7

    God shall help us to do better than our parents so that our generation will see Christ first from our homes

  • @sandrasunday9847
    @sandrasunday9847 Рік тому +2

    Knowledge
    Lots of dysfunctionality in my life 😢
    Lord heal me
    Amen

  • @SoundsofNature-nf5rp
    @SoundsofNature-nf5rp Рік тому +2

    I love this man's teaching.

  • @ijay_achinike
    @ijay_achinike Рік тому +4

    You're a true man of God sir🙌...Thank you so much for this message and prayers🙏🙏

  • @misstokunbo
    @misstokunbo 11 місяців тому

    Merciful God, thank you for helping me locate this sermon!

  • @EphraimChibueze-y4b
    @EphraimChibueze-y4b 2 місяці тому

    I am enjoying this message like a fresh suya from the oven even though I am still listening...

  • @originalthoughts22
    @originalthoughts22 Рік тому +5

    Pastor you heard from God, this is the same message in my spirit in this season

  • @Agbonifo_Cynthia
    @Agbonifo_Cynthia 3 місяці тому

    I just ssnt this to my Husband. May God preseve you Sir.

  • @borokinniblessing8172
    @borokinniblessing8172 Рік тому +1

    I really bless God for this teaching... It has fixed me totally

  • @FaithDoom
    @FaithDoom 10 місяців тому

    I love apostle Femi so much he talks about my challenges in almost all his sermons

  • @akinwalechristiana5128
    @akinwalechristiana5128 4 місяці тому

    Thank you very much pastor Femi Lazarus. For these powerful insight, indeed we need to start asking questions so that change can really happen, the grace to forgive and let go of hurt is resting upon me IJN.