Thank you for sharing this. I have my own story, and shared some of it before. What motivates me now is a desire to change the world. I’ve seen that I can change parts of the world. That has given me motivation to keep trying. I now live for something greater than myself. Being a programmer often feels like being a wizard. I keep learning new magical incarnations that make me more powerful. When I am designing a complex system I feel like a world builder. The drive to create overpowers all the pain as I work to move the world forward. Everyone can change the world in their own way. A thoughtful word to someone in a bad place can save them, and then they can save others. And so on… Best wishes on your path forward. Thanks for making a difference.
I understand what you’re going through. I tried to end my life. I never believed I would get anywhere due to me being a trans man and gay. I was bullied, beat up, sexually assaulted before high school. And the worst part is that I never tried to fight back and never told anyone. You are a fighter man. You will get through this and you’re not alone
Oh man, I'm so so sorry to hear that. That sounds terrible, but i'm very proud of you for still being here. You're a strong person, and I really hope you got/get the help you deserve!
yh i feel u brother, i almost kms on 2024 aswell, my life was similar to yours in terms of bullying, at least till i started doing muay thai, to learn how to defend myself, which wasnt good too considering 2 years after i started learning i noticed i ended up being the bully to them instead. i endeed up with close to no friends and only playing games and drinking, on 2023 was when i wanted to change, i weighted 260 pounds at 5'10. I started working out around september, giving my life at it and all, kinda like you in terms of carbs, i was only eating protein and 1300kcal daily at best. at january 2024 i was at 170 pounds, abs showing, decent build and all, i was going to gym 2x a day, intensive cardio in the morning and gym workout at evening, was feeling great, till one day i had a lowerback injury while doing squats, i was feeling pain for quite some time but i couldn't care less, like, my brain was full focus on loosing weight and shit When i had the injury i couldnt feel my legs, dropped the weight and called a friend for help saying i couldn't walk, then went to hospital, in there they said i had several damaged hernial disks and would probably need a surgery to replace them which is kinda risky and could make me paralized(altough im a bit better today, im still waiting for the final veredict), at that time i was just watching the days pass by, i looked at the sky and the streets and all was colorless, something i cant describe nowadays. i always felt like jumping from my 8th floor window, one day i was really close from falling off, i tripped over some cable in my room and almost fell off. i used to be those type of guys that say depr3ssion isnt real but i pretty much ended up experiencing it. went from trash to top body condition, but its like they say. "when you are at your highest, the devil comes to drag you to bottom". Today i still cant workout, nor run nor carry much heavy weights but i still walk on a treadmill, trying to keep what i built. mental health is something really weird, i dont think something helped me, i dont like taking meds for those things, they just make you worse, i just accepted my fate and changed my lifestyle, overall i'd say thats what made me better. instead of feeling sorry for myself i'd wake up early and walk in the park for some hours, i'd just think like "if i cant run, ill walk", worked out well i'd say
You are a strong strong man. The fact you still do good for yourself after all of that happening to you is amazing and just shows how truly strong you are. I'm sorry all that stuff happen to you, but i'm happy you're still here man. Thank you for the kind words, and sharing your story.
Thank you for sharing this. I have my own story, and shared some of it before. What motivates me now is a desire to change the world. I’ve seen that I can change parts of the world. That has given me motivation to keep trying. I now live for something greater than myself. Being a programmer often feels like being a wizard. I keep learning new magical incarnations that make me more powerful. When I am designing a complex system I feel like a world builder. The drive to create overpowers all the pain as I work to move the world forward. Everyone can change the world in their own way. A thoughtful word to someone in a bad place can save them, and then they can save others. And so on… Best wishes on your path forward. Thanks for making a difference.
I understand what you’re going through. I tried to end my life. I never believed I would get anywhere due to me being a trans man and gay. I was bullied, beat up, sexually assaulted before high school. And the worst part is that I never tried to fight back and never told anyone. You are a fighter man. You will get through this and you’re not alone
Oh man, I'm so so sorry to hear that. That sounds terrible, but i'm very proud of you for still being here. You're a strong person, and I really hope you got/get the help you deserve!
yh i feel u brother, i almost kms on 2024 aswell, my life was similar to yours in terms of bullying, at least till i started doing muay thai, to learn how to defend myself, which wasnt good too considering 2 years after i started learning i noticed i ended up being the bully to them instead. i endeed up with close to no friends and only playing games and drinking, on 2023 was when i wanted to change, i weighted 260 pounds at 5'10.
I started working out around september, giving my life at it and all, kinda like you in terms of carbs, i was only eating protein and 1300kcal daily at best. at january 2024 i was at 170 pounds, abs showing, decent build and all, i was going to gym 2x a day, intensive cardio in the morning and gym workout at evening, was feeling great, till one day i had a lowerback injury while doing squats, i was feeling pain for quite some time but i couldn't care less, like, my brain was full focus on loosing weight and shit
When i had the injury i couldnt feel my legs, dropped the weight and called a friend for help saying i couldn't walk, then went to hospital, in there they said i had several damaged hernial disks and would probably need a surgery to replace them which is kinda risky and could make me paralized(altough im a bit better today, im still waiting for the final veredict), at that time i was just watching the days pass by, i looked at the sky and the streets and all was colorless, something i cant describe nowadays.
i always felt like jumping from my 8th floor window, one day i was really close from falling off, i tripped over some cable in my room and almost fell off. i used to be those type of guys that say depr3ssion isnt real but i pretty much ended up experiencing it. went from trash to top body condition, but its like they say. "when you are at your highest, the devil comes to drag you to bottom".
Today i still cant workout, nor run nor carry much heavy weights but i still walk on a treadmill, trying to keep what i built. mental health is something really weird, i dont think something helped me, i dont like taking meds for those things, they just make you worse, i just accepted my fate and changed my lifestyle, overall i'd say thats what made me better. instead of feeling sorry for myself i'd wake up early and walk in the park for some hours, i'd just think like "if i cant run, ill walk", worked out well i'd say
You are a strong strong man. The fact you still do good for yourself after all of that happening to you is amazing and just shows how truly strong you are. I'm sorry all that stuff happen to you, but i'm happy you're still here man. Thank you for the kind words, and sharing your story.
Got me crying bro
Yo my bad man!
I didn't mean for it to be zoomed out like this, not sure why its like that but whateves lol, my bad.
Remember that that doesn't kill me really pisses me off
Huh?