why i left highschool
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The end of this video gets so deep lol sorry. EDIT: you guys are so sweet. Reading the comments makes me so happy. I read every single one!
maiphammy ilysfm
(BTW this is my dad's account on youtube I am his older daughter I am 17) I know how you feel I suffer from depression, borderline personality disorder and generalized anxiety disorder I was diagnosed in march of 2018 I was in a hospital for a least 5 to 6 days I don't want to talk about how I ended up there but it was bad enough to where my carpal drove me and had to tell my parents I know what it is like what your going through I have been in the same situation but it's going to be ok I understand what it's like to be depressed and suicidal but good get help tell someone I do this out of love of being your subscriber not out of judgement everything will be okay💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
maiphammy don’t be sorry! 💕
i am homeschooled too. And i cant handle people some days.
I am doing so bad in online school rn lmao I thought it would be easier than public school but I was so wrong best of luck❤️
This is a mood, I hate school. I get really unmotivated a lot. I don’t like the people there and I want to do online school.
HeyItsMi I️ was the same way I’m not doing online school and I’m still unmotivated 😂
same here 😪
HeyItsMi literally me
i am constantly made fun of and my mom is looking into online school. i hope it works out.
Lillian Vlogs I hope everything works out for you
wow never thought mai would sit here and make a really serious video
Who’s here after Mai’s first day of school video?🎉
Meee
me
Mee
Me😂😂
I forgot she looked so differentttt
Online school you can stay in your pajamas 😂☕
Alannah Gregory yea but most of them ain’t cheap :/
Free for me!
@@maiphammy yeyee😂
maiphammy I do online schooling and it’s also free for me 🤭🤪
Trippie_Bree - how is it free
Please make the video about not caring what others think. I am 23 and I am just figuring out how to apply this to my life. I quit my job at the end of college for me (against my parents’ judgment). I hope that you will make that video and share what you know
Lizzie Deerest you look 40
Side note: Lizzie, you look young and beautiful. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
and you look like an asshole.
I hear you girl. I'm 22 and finally starting to not care about what people think. And I finally realized what I want to be so I'm starting school. I would definitely love for her to talk about it.
@@boomallow7647 Wow, are you 5 years old? That's so immature. People struggle with self confidence so try being more open-minded (don't be a bitch.) Plus she's gorgeous so stop being jealous.
surprised your room isn’t messy yet, proud of you girly !
this was the last thing I would have expected. Mai has always seemed so happy all the time, and me and my friends have always been jealous of her. But seeing this video proves that people you would have NEVER expected, could be having a worse time then you. Everyone has there own problems but if you really step back you can realize that some people have it harder then you think. I love mai so much and knowing she has and is currently going through a hard time breaks my heart. Mai is literally my only motivation for making videos and school vlogging, and its really sad to hear this.
I subscribed to your channel😊
the end got me teary eyed 😢 please do make a video about how to stop caring about what people think! ❤️ would be very useful. also you’re so mature for your age i’m so proud of you mai! 🌟
Me too. Especially cause I can relate.
W all love you we will support u in whatever u do!
Rachel Nielsen same omg:(
Sorry, didn’t mean to dislike this, My hand slipped
I really understand how you feel, ive been bullied since i was 8 (im 14 now) I would beg and beg to be home schooled. i was punched, spat on, pushed, had my head slammed into walls, i was called every damn name you could think of, i was humiliated in front of the whole class and by teachers to. I feel into into a very deep depression. I would never go to school, i would cry myself to sleep. I was VERY suicidal. I finally started homeschooling this year ,ive seen multiple therapists but it doesnt work for me. I dont get sleep because of the suicidal and depressing thoughts i have. My grades have completely dropped. My anxiety is through the roof. I have 1 friend which is my mum. I just want to let you know, you arent alone. Much love mai
Elina Sciberras This is really heartbreaking to read 😥 I really hope things get better for you soon. I can speak from experience and say a good therapist and a willingness to open up to them can do amazing things for you. You seem like a beautiful person who deserves all the happiness in the world ❤️ hang in there, it gets better, I promise!
@@emiriidesu Thank you xo
@@elinasciberras2523 that's absolutely horrible.
yeah getting bullied sucks I use to get bullied so bad when I was younger. Now I’m stronger and don’t rlly care about it anymore or friends. A lesson that made me stronger today.
i just read this now but i hope things have gotten better for you 💕
this was so raw and the end made me tear uppp. thank you for the wise words mai
I know exactly what your going through. I’ve been to 6 schools in my life, and move over 30 times. I’ve tried so hard to not make friends and focus on my work so I can do good and get good grades but it didn’t work. This is my first year in online school and I love it. I’m in a foundations of algebra class which helps a lot because I moved so much I never really learned the basics of anything so I was always behind and also that I started school really young. Hopefully we both do good in our school changes. Along with finally making good grades. I wish you luck in all that you do. I’m happy I get to watch your videos and am able to relate. I hope you never stop doing what you love. That is the only thing that truly makes you happy. I’m sorry I am writing a lot but I just wanted to get it out. I’m happy that you’re where you need to be and you feel like things will be easier from now one. Your amazing 😉
I miss your old friends alot
Same 😭
Lydia Lizama me too omg
I recommend kahn academy and acellus/power home/online school that's what I use and I love it and once a week I go to the library and research whatever I want that day or just read
Hannah Harlow I went through acellus. I graduated early. Got it free through the school but it’s very expensive
@@Lex-vx9zx wdym? i
The things youre preaching in this video I didn't learn till I was 20. Seriously, so glad youre on here.
Wow im 20 and about to be 21 and I learned something from the video. Girl i cant see the future but ur gonna do big things! 💖
U right
your room is staying clean 😱 queen
bbj j cause the 2am cleanups 🤩🤩🤩
9:45 that’s how much school affects mental health with stress, anxiety/ anxiety attacks, panic attacks. It’s actually kinda sad that school can affect someone’s stress level
Mai, you need a write a book. This was absolutely amazing! I love you. This was not to seek pity this was truly from your heart. This was truly inspiring. This was so many things you would not believe. I am currently a freshmen in high school, and throughout my high school journey, I am going to take what you said about validation and how it’s not worth in, throughout my journey. If your seeing this you are love.♥️ Live your life to the fullest 🤙
Wow I suck at English
OMG I would loveeeee a book!!! 💕💕
It should be called living my love to the fullest
I have been there. Depression and lack of motivation is awful and people don't understand and just think you're not trying. I hope you're happy and healthy. You're such an inspiration and are so mature and I hope everything works out great for you.
I remember way back when you posted this I related so much. Been diagnosed with ADHD since I was a young child. Makes so much sense years later when you now know you have it and talk about it. It’s crazy how many of us have issues with school. I’m currently working on becoming a teacher so I can help students who struggled in these ways. School can be actual hell.
Agreed this happened to me too
Her adhd is super clear through these videos. Online school would’ve been great for me in HS I wish I knew I had adhd back then
When I was 15. Like 15 years ago. Im 30 now. I sacrificed so much to be the best and be a good student. But the reasons I was working so hard to be good perfect was to deserve love. And when I didnt get it, I rebelled and flunk a lot for the next 2 years until I fail a lot of exams. I wish I had the ability to quit school at 15. It never occured to me it was an option. Putting up with school was so toxic for me because I never enjoyed the people there, the teachers there, and just basically everything makes me feel blank. But Im glad I found some courage to do what I love despite sucking at school because it no longer interest me. I put up doing things that was expected of me and I was quite depressed and suicidal. I survived some self harm episode and told myself to get the exams over and done with so I can get the marks I need to enrol to college. The teachers and friends had zero relationship to me. I taught myself and tutored myself. I didnt fail any papers for the real national exam. It took me 2 months to get my sh*t together. And a lot of metal music. Anger inside me for things I refuse to accept became the fire for change for me to take action. I stopped caring or being considerate to other peoples opinions or feedback about my presence. I ignored friends and teachers who gives me bad vibes and keeps criticising me every chance they get. And I work hard to just mind my own business and do what I love on the side. Which was going online and being a really entertaining person for a 17 yo without using youtube 13 years ago. It was nice to be accepted without any judgement for people who like you for how you speak and not the way you look, or what grades you get, or being compared to other friends in your class by teachers, and teachers not playing favourites. So I know I shared a long detailed comment. But this makes me feel like hey, you are brave for following your sanity and peace of heart Mai. Super brave. Brave kudos to you. All the best in ur on9 classes. You can definitely make it happen. 💗💗💗
Wow
i honestly thought sis was a senior😭❤️✨
Daisy G. Your profile pic 🙌🏼🙌🏼
Going from 150 thousand subscribers to now 2.56 million so proud of how much you have achieved and grown as a person . I just found your channel and watching all your videos
Public high schools are hard. 4 years of depression, stressed and boredom really took a toll on me during my teen years, I was so close dropping out but with the support of friends and family, I made it out and graduated with my diploma. Since then, I never look back. 4 years was a grueling nightmare. Oh and another thing, I heard that people with GED are much better and flexible than people with high school diploma but I don't know, I think it's just a rumor. No offense to anyone. But high school was hell.
I live in Edmonton to Ilysm and hopefully we can link soon your really pretty and literally the only person in Edmonton that doesn’t brag abt all the stuff they have and flex on everyone dkm ly💓💓💓
Me too. Happy to find a local youtuber
lmaoo im from edmonton too
lmaoo im from edmonton too
we’re here for you ❤️ congrats on 200k you deserve it!
When I watched this when I was younger I couldn’t rlly understand this feeling of being unmotivated but now that I’m older I relate to this so much I just moved schools and like a year ago and the teachers, students classes etc I can’t click with them and it’s not them it’s just me mentally
I hope it gets better for you :( I'm sure you're an amazing person
No one skip the ads because sis needs that coin
Edit: OMG SHE LIKED MY COMMENT 😂😭, but you go get that coin.
She needs more subscribers and stuff so that she can go to like LA and live the UA-cam life because she deserves it so much and she is so relatable and funny and unique and she super deserves this so if anyone reads this comment please take into consideration subscribing or even liking this video just to help Mai out she is so amazing and such a hard worker and she is sadly sometimes underestimated i feel like and she deserves so much and she is amazing and beautiful and inspirational and if we help her out she could become an amazing UA-camd because we essentially define her future-wow that was really deep and cheesey but it was all true so yeah ummm 😂
Sophia Green ok but don’t move to LA like every other basic UA-camr.
moving to LA is not for everyone, its to hard to live there
I don’t think she just wants to focus her life on UA-cam, it’s more like a hobby. Probably.
LA is fucking boring to watch in vlogs. Mai would have more fun in New York
Where ever she will move, what ever her next chapter is, we have to be there for her and support her and this doesn't just go for mai but also for other people in your social lives, take care of the people around you and help them out, treat people how you wanna be treated 💜😇😊
” I don’t care about my social life”
dang I felt that, thank you
I honesty just want to hug her because I know what she’s going through. I moved from NJ to CA and it was completely different obviously because it was a different coast but I was from a small school to a school with 5,000 kids mind you I’m a junior and I had zero friends and i knew no one whatsoever. My depression started to come back from when I was in middle school and I tried so hard to get back to how happy I was when I was back in Jersey. I haven’t really clicked with anyone yet and it’s been three months and I’ve been trying to convince my mom to let me do online school but unfortunately she’s not letting me get that option. This video I can really relate to me I’m going through the exact same thing idk if you’ll read this but I just want you to know your not alone and I hope you are doing better
I went through legit almost the same exact situation as you and this really helped me,thank you.💛
my heart broke after seeing her cry. screw her school and screw those people who kept begging for shoutouts like wtf. shes so strong i love her
Didn’t skip the adds😚 ur welcome sis👅❤️
S Temple and click on the ads
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Hi Mai, when I was a freshmen I lost all my friends and struggled with depression and multiple suicide attempts. I was skipping almost every day and started doing connections academy and it is amazing. im a sophomore and 16 now and im planning on going back to public for senior year. Online school has really helped me alot. Now I do about 2 1/2 hours of school a day and im in my own home and comfortable and happy. I hope things get better. xx
i went through a huge depression in my sophomore year where i left school did online then came back 3 months later to a whole new school where 1 person knew me and i completely flunked that year so i understand. this video is very comforting because the struggle in high-school is real and sometimes it feels like you’re the only one having a hard time and everyone is fine and that there’s something wrong with you but no it’s actually so so so common due to all the changes we go through in our adolescence, we are becoming a different version of ourselves so that stress combined with the stress of school can definitely make a teen flunk. super proud of you Mai keep at it.
You’re so mature for your age. I admire that. People your age are a lot more immature, and the fact that you can do things so independently and reasonably to make yourself happy is so amazing.
When you said you felt depressed and weren’t depressed that made me feel a sense of hope that I can have those days and not let it consume me. Thank you 😊.
You're gonna do great things in the future😊 and it's really nice that you value your education😊
so early it was still private, congrats on 200k ly💞
I honestly really relate to this. Last year I left public school bc I was so sick. Then I started doing homeschool. It was really hard to enroll this year to public school again. So I missed the first week. I started catching up gradually, but after awhile I was feeling depressed. My mom later then enrolled me in online school. I just wanna say stay strong and that I believe in you. Much love 🥰❤️
roses are red
my name isn’t dave
this poem makes lots of sense
microwave
not the actual poem but i made it sound a bit different.
Mf bars! Sheeeesh! 🔥🔥
I remember seeing this comment roughly a year ago
Tatiana your everything.
You are such a smart person mai, i noticed that even in your latest video of u talking about how much you earn on youtube. At first, I thought u were one of those youtubers who only wants to look pretty and funny, but you’re something else and that’s why I admire you ❤️
*queens room is still clean*
i genuinely know how you feel, this is how i felt before i dropped out. i was in a different situation but the outcome was pretty much the same. i genuinely came home every day never being in the best mood and i left, i felt free and a lot happier. i sometimes miss it, but i often just don't mind anything.
my careers advisor told me, if i wanted something badly, i should do it. it's about what makes me happy not other people
I know exactly what you are/were going through. I changed schools from year 10 to 11, from 50 students in a grade to 150. From the start no one liked me and I ended up leaving 2 terms into the year. I now do adult education and I'm feeling so much better, and in 6 weeks I will be qualified and able to have a full time job
I love that you keep up your old videos to see where you were and look at you now 🤍
This is the first video I’ve watched of yours, I start online school tomorrow and I’m nerves, but this really helped
Nervous *
“Your body can be there but your mind isn’t” shit i relate on such a spiritual level
Im so proud of you sis, the end had me crying. Youre amazing and you have so SO many people supporting you!
And now you have 1mill ahbhhh i love seeing your growth
Stay strong Mai, I have a lot of respect for you!
you put it into all the right words. Like i need to show this to my family. I tried to get into online school earlier and my aunt and gma said that things would get worse and this and that. Listening to you stand for yourself and everything makes me more motivated to be like that. ❤️
Your rooms still clean .. wow what a surprise 😁lmao
OMG she is such a gem her personality is the best! She is funny, entertaining, smart, doesn't care what people think and she does what she wants to do to achieve things. Ugh! I love you and i'm here for you!
I had an ad that was like 3 minutes. I was so tempted to press skip ad, but I didn't for you. You are the only youtuber that I don't skip ads for:)
ALWAYS DO WHAT YOU LOVE!! EVEN IF ITS UNCONVENTIONAL!!
I’m so glad you’re continuing your education and are still able to be happy and doing what you love! Ik this video is old but I see you traveling and being so happy and I’m so so happy for you 💛
if only we could show this mai what she has accomplished and how she’s grown into an amazing woman living in a beautiful house with two dogs :,)
Totally not simple to do, keep pursuing your dreams and know that your doing amazing Mai. That happened to me changing schools in gr 11 it was really tough to connect.
may is actually the ONLY person i don’t skip ads at. girl gotta afford that apartment and car ❤️ if 2 minutes of my time help another person out why tf not?
*mai i’m soooorrrry
congrats on 200k! we love you and we’re here for you💛
Watched every single ad so you can get paid and travel and do what ever you want!! i appreciate you so much Mai, thank you so much everything you do💕
I felt the same way last year because i started a new school not knowing anyone in a whole new country i felt so depressed i didnt even know where i was
*you popped up on my recommended* watched your most recent vid about skateboarding, curiosity brought me back to your older videos because I needed to know your story
Damn I actually like school tbh. For me the social aspect is why I go everyday. It sucks that you felt that way when everyone found out about your channel.
This is exactly what I went through when I left as well. Teachers kept telling me I had so much potential if I just applied myself but no one could really see that I was trying my best, but I simply was not in the right mental mindset for attending school at that time and I did what was best for me at the time by leaving and i'm much happier now. You can get through it, and you will succeed in whatever you do!
i’m so proud of you and i’m glad you know yourself enough to know what is best for you !! i support you
Omg she looks so different now wtf but she is still pretty no matter what periot and she is literally so inspiring as well
congrats on 200k queen 💗
I still cant believe shes 15 ..shes so put together and knows what she wants in life at the tender age of 15 years i had no clue what i wanted at 15years old ....
Now look where mai is, I'm so proud of her
Holy shat the difference from 2020 and this video is like astonishing 🤯
you’ll do amazing things girl. ❤️
Yo I can really notice how much weight she lost
Congrats on 200k!! Ilyyyy💗💗💗💗
wow. I understand you so much. 1 year ago I was at rock bottom I went to 4 different schools in 3 months. I had extreme social anxiety and struggling with depression and being the “new girl” is hard. Not knowing how any of the teacher teach,not connecting with anyone. But 1 year later I’m at the school I have been. I still have depression and social anxiety but I found myself and it helped soo much.
The only thing I got from school was PTSD and I’m not kidding like that’s my actual diagnosis from the stuff that happened to me in school
She's at 200k and 3 years later she's now 2M. So proud ❤️
Bruh the first thing you said is so relatable love you girl ❤️
who else is binge watching her videos during quarantine? And I 100% understand the stress of being behind and struggling because of missing school. I was suspend for 2 weeks at the beginning of the school year this year. then for another 2 weeks in the middle of the school year. also I forgot how much you've blown up! keep going girly!
didn’t skip an ad, sis mentioned she wants a G Wagon so we giving her that coin
you've grown so much. i am proud of you mai!
When I was young like 4th and 5th grading I was bullied to the bone because I was super duper childish, I wasn't very mature when I was very young and my classmates would take advantage of me and make fun of me, asking "Aren't you a special child?" and they would ask that in front of A LOT of people and they would force me to say yes because I was very oblivious to everything and they would laugh so hard and make fun of me more because I was "innocent" "childish" "idiot" etc, I cried, my favorite teacher since kindergarten was my tutor at school from kindergarten to 3rd grade and when she said she cannot tutor me anymore I got sad, depressed, she was like a mom to me and she understood me, and my new tutor at 4th grade was really nice I like her but it wasn't the same, I still got sad and got bullied for two years and so at 5th grade I became quiet at the last 2 months of school and people would still bully me despite not even uttering a word or doing anything bad, I cried and cried, kids there really made an impact at me, saying every bad word they can imagine and say it to me, heck- my boy bestfriend even took advantage of me, forcing me so he can touch my chest, I was very innocent and stuff, so I got harassed, but now, looking back at myself who feels always suicidal and sad, because my parents would always be mad at me because my grades went downhill since 4th grade, saying they would abandon me etc, and I don't deserve to be in a friend group from the kids that has higher grades (they're all nice to me) and say I'm not good enough...
I'm trying to be possitive everyday nowadays and I'm really happy at myself for being kinda matured for not doing stupid shit like doing suicide or cutting my wrist etc, because I looked at the bright side and kind of changed myself, I got a lot of true friends and they made me who I am today, I'm really proud of my present self and my past self.
:)
i felt that when mai said it got difficult getting close to people coming from a small school to a big high school
I am homeschooled and I’ve never been more happier in my life
You're really strong Mai 💕 I hope things get better for you, really
Oof, never took you as a serious person! And Oml I can relate to this so much! I’m in online school as well and I’m just now learning to feel comfortable with myself😇 I just couldn’t handle the stress at my original school and all the drama there. It became too much for me. Anyways, I’m proud of you for being strong and working to better yourself!!! I’m happy for your successes, you deserve it❤️❤️
I had to deal with major depression for four years of high school and carry it with me to college . You learn to deal with it because it is something you struggle with the rest of your life . Do not use your depression as an excuse to hold yourself back from various experiences.
I’ve been waiting for this!!!🤗
This girl has made my heart melt. I feel so bad for her.
I know she said she don't feel sorry for her, but...I do feel bad! I am gonna subscribe, cause she has a similar vibe to me.
Love u Mai and congrats🍾
i aspire to be this carefree and unbothered. i love youu
Who else came here bc of cassies morning routine
girllll i sat through a minute and a half ad for u.
i switched schools halfway through my 11th year, i may not be a successful youtuber but a lot of my “friends” came because i had my license and a car. what made me realize that they only used me is when i got into a bad accident and i was depressed for like a whole month because of the accident and the only people that came to fucking see me were people FROM MY OLD SCHOOL. that’s when i said fuck it and only stuck with my 2 friends that stuck w me. now im just tryna get through my last year of high school then im off to university who knows where lol, i support u always mai, im glad u found a good path for urself and u can actually pull through w it.
On the bright side, now you don't have to worry about bullies
Congrats on 200k I’m so prouddd❤️❤️illlyyyy. I hope you feel better and I hope online school is way better for you because we only want the best for you ❤️
I know I don’t know her and I didn’t ever go to her school. But legit, if I seen her. I’d wanna take a picture with her. SHE LOOKS LIKE A GODESS 🌑🖤
This story relates so much to my own it’s crazy. Even the timing of you quitting and playing volleyball as well! Keep up with the school! Good job girl.