Apple Family Vlog - Building Community in Grief
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- Опубліковано 16 кві 2024
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Jenny Appleford or Kyle Appleford
7211 Haven Ave, Unit E-407
Rancho Cucamonga, CA 91701
Kyle’s Channel:
/ @kyleapple9702
INSTAGRAM: jenny_appleford
INSTAGRAM: kyoooooapple
FACEBOOK: Our Brave Jenny
For business inquiries: veganapplefords@gmail.com or kyleapple66@gmail.com
DIAGNOSIS:
March 19th, 2021 Stage IIIA Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (Non-Smoking)
February 2022 Stage IV Non Small Cell Lung Cancer (spreading to Brain, and other parts of lung and lymph nodes)
Gene Mutation EGFR with Exon 20 Insertion
TREATMENTS: Received or currently Receiving
2021: 8 Rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin and Paclitaxel) with 30 concurrent radiation treatments to chest and lung
Failed Immunotherapy directly after Chemo and Radiation (Durvalumab, 1 round)
2022: Chemotherapy
10 rounds of Chemotherapy (Carboplatin, Alimta, and Avastin)
6 with Carboplatin, 4 without
Targeted Brain Radiation (Completed)
Most Recent Treatment plan, prior to passing:
Whole Brain and Spine Proton Therapy (Radiation) 13 sessions
Clinical Trial Medication NOLA
The purpose of my channel is to document my cancer journey to look back on, and/or help anyone else going through anything similar. It is also to potentially help loved ones supporting those who are in this fight as well. This is also an easy way to update a lot of people at once. My main goal is to have footage of this journey for my husband and children to look back on. I originally created this channel as a sort of video diary for my
family.
Thank you so much for following along on this journey. Your love and support help me so much.
I understand 100% the loneliness that you feel. My husband of 40 years was taken from me in the blink of an eye. I still can’t believe that this could happen. He was the best thing that ever happened to me and now my world is shattered. We did everything together he was my happy place. I’m now trying to figure out who I am without him. It is so difficult. Thinking of you and praying for you. One step at a time one day at a time 💗🙏🏻
Although I had 7 years to get prepared for my husband's passing you can never truly be prepared. Although it was my honor to be his caretaker until the end I have found myself very alone now. I would say I pushed people away. I didn't want my incredible sadness to be a downer plus I just couldn't imagine doing things without him. Kyle has given great advice about community. I just don't know where I fit in at 55 years old. So lonely. I had the love of my life. I'm not looking for love but friendship would be great. Kyle is really figuring out his way. Not to minimize his loss but he is doing so much better than I. I hope you find your community.
I’m not a Christian myself but I do remember a time that a church was very kind to me and my daughter at a time I needed friends. I’m glad you have found a space for you to be surrounded by supportive friends
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My prayer for you is that you find Jesus! He is calling you! Do you ever think about heaven?? The only way to get there is to be born again, believe in what He says! Jesus is knocking! Answer the door He cares about you!
I'm so very proud of you, Kyle. Getting baptized is your profession of faith and it's so important. Secondly, finding your community, and telling us about the importance of it. My grief isn't the loss of a loved one, but the loss of my former life( as a NICU nurse,) and a cross country move, due to my chronic pain issues. I'm having my third back surgery in May. My life is very lonely now. I know I need to find my community here. Thank you for your wise words! The clips of Winnie and Ellis were precious. I'm so very glad that they're both in a happy place. You need to take some credit for that, too. You are such a great dad, so calm and understanding and loving! I'm just so happy for all 3 of you! Sending my love&hugs from GA. ❤️ 🫂🐞🦋
Hi Kyle…I’m sooooo happy to hear you got baptized…that is AWESOME!!! But, I am OVERJOYED to hear about your group of friends at church…your community. And YES, that is sooooo important and will help you sooooo much. I KNOW, because I speak from experience. I went through a horrible divorce many years ago which led to someone telling me about a prayer group I should join, and I did. It led to me meeting my BEST friend. Which led me to an AWESOME church where I also met my community, which also led to a Bible study that lasted about 30 years. There were about 25 of us in the group and now there are only 3 of us left. We are all elderly now, and needless to say, the group is no longer in existence, but I will say that while it lasted, it saved my sanity and helped me in ways that most people would not understand. We all helped each other in all ways, we prayed for each other, supported each other, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. When all this happened to me, I KNEW that it was God who provided all this for me and he has continued to provide for me in every way. I am sooooo sooooo happy for you Kyle. Stick with your community…you will not be sorry. God is definitely watching over you and leading you to great things!!! ❤️❤️😡
Yes He is. He is the Good Shepherd guiding you and by your side.
I couldn't agree more!
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Kyle, I've been trying to watch you when I can. I admire you. I saw you a jenny together going through so much. But preparing winnie and ellis for what's coming. There doing amazing!! You're doing amazing.
I'm trying but just hasn't worked. Maybe because I'm not well, all something different but on treatments for it . Not cancer. But also physical pain from 2 rear hit car accidents.
I'm thinking I'm Debbie downer, so most of my time is spent in bed. Or dr appointment or an infusion at hospital.
My life stopped when my mom went to heaven. She was my world, my everything.
Yes I do have the best siblings and nieces, but mom was mom.
It will be a year soon and I still don't have the things done I need to get done. Seems like yesterday for me still.
But not feeling great and feeling like I'm a bother when I talk to certain people. They don't want to hear always or see the tears.
Yet I always was and am there for them.
Recently I lost a couple of extremely close friends and some lost there parents. So there are some funerals coming up.
But I'm hurting as I really thought so many more would have been at my mom's.
Maybe because they're back at work it gets their mind somewhere else. But I can't work anymore.
I hope I can get going soon. I know I need to.
My mom has been giving me amazing signs she is watching over me. But I miss talking to her everyday, I miss hugging and kissing her . We were a hugging family. I'm trying. I don't want to bring you down when your doing great, I think. I love how you are with the kids. Take lots of pictures for them with you for the future so they'll have. I'm sure in 5 years we'll look back our lives will be different. I'm praying they will.
I have taken to praying a lot too . I pray to mom God and all I've lost. I just feel like I'm broken and dying of a broken heart ,nobody understands.
Take care. I'll try to watch when I can. God bless you and your beautiful family.jenny will always watch over you all like I'm sure my mom will us. Take care.❤❤❤❤❤😇💔🪽. I believe they are our angels now.❤
Praise God. Glad you got baptized our God is awsome
Hi Kyle, How wonderful that you were baptized. I agree community is very important There's nothing like having faithful Brothers & Sisters in Christ to pray with & to fellowship & to encourage each other in the faith. Praying always for you Kyle and the children.🙏🙏🙏🙏
Your children are so precious 💖 💗
This was a wonderful post. I enjoyed every minute of it. The fun you all had outside when the power went out was great. You forgot to include yourself on the people helping the kids get through this. You always say Jenny was the perfect wife but you Kyle are a wonderful father. As you’ve gone through all your grieving, you’ve been honest with your kids (on their age level) and you’re teaching them how to grieve Jenny and still do life. You’re also doing self care and getting the help you need to do this. Your kids will remember this time you all had together remembering their mom and still living life. I went through an unwanted divorce and family and community were so important. I also took a faith based class called Divorce Care. It was hard yet wonderful.
Oh and congratulations on your baptism! That’s wonderful. ❤
Yay Kyle, my brother in Christ!! Such beautiful news! Best support system you can have! Congratulations! watching you and the kiddos is wonderful! You are an awesome Daddy and I know Jenny is looking down so proud of all of you! Hugs to you all! 🙏🤗❤️
Praise God Kyle!! Love you all!! Don’t hesitate to give Jesus all the credit..it’s Him and the baptism is our public display of devoting our lives to live for Him. You have such a platform to lead people to the cross. ❤️
The baptism is the symbolic and literal washing away of sins! So happy Kyle decided to get baptized.😊
Yes Kyle. Bible study was everything to me getting through this with God’s grace and growing.
amen
Sorry but those who think like you and believe like you have traumatized folks like me. And if this channel becomes a proselyzing platform then I do not feel welcome here. You folks don't know how much your judgmental views have destroyed others. Its so sad because I really thought of this channel as welcoming for all walks of life. But I guess not.
Why is his instagram private?
Kyle, your conversation on community is not only helpful for grieving people but for anyone newly retired, divorced, lonely, depressed, people going through life changes, the young, the old etc. You are helping more than just the grieving community so thank you.
EXACTLY RIGHT! 😔
Great point, @goldilocks. Kyle is highlighting the importance of staying connected as we pass through different stages of life. It amazes me how present he is, as a parent, going through unimaginable grief. He and beautiful Jenny were born to be parents. And, those smores looked so delish.
I agree. I’m single and moved away from my kids, whom I miss so bad. So these vlogs help me also. Kyle is smart, funny and kind. His wife set him up with community. I miss her.❤❤❤❤
Good for you! 💙🌷 The day my Mom died (pancreatic cancer), it was so unreal…I ended up at a coffee shop/restaurant across from the funeral home. Upstairs was a proper restaurant but downstairs were long tables with bench seating on wall-side, and chairs on outside. It made you meet others and join in conversations. It was a community on its own. 😊
God Bless you on your journey.❤
OMG I love the highs and lows. They are SO cute and gracious and kind. We need more of them!!!! ❤
Kyle, congratulations on your baptism. I still remember getting baptized. It was a true blessing. This is a wonderful video. It is lovely to see you and those precious children doing so well. I love how you ask them about their highs and lows of the day. It is a testament to your incredible skills as a loving parent, to hear them say they had no lows for the day. May God continue to bless you all.
Your dogs made me smile so happy n precious
God is great. You are great. Ellis and Winnie are loved beyond measure, And Jenny is holding your hands forever. What an honest progression of the grief you share, Kyle, Bless you
Congratulations on you baptism Kyle!
Truly one of the best decisions you can make
I’m in awe of how far you’ve came
Thank you for helping those of us that are grieving and to those that WILL go thru grieving
Your Kids are so cute and well behaved. I love them so much.
Winnie is wearing my favourite hairstyle as a young girl 'a bit up & a bit down' i called it. Did you do it Kyle?! ( if you did, you done a Grand Job!!) 👍🏼
Much love to you and ALL THE FAMILY!! 💝💞😘💝💞😘
😂 My daughter used to call the hairstyle “bits tied up.” She’s 43 now and still says it. I think that she really thinks it’s a thing!
Then again, she rang me not long ago saying that she couldn’t find any “bacon scissors.” 😂 (I always kept a pair of scissors in the kitchen drawer to cut the bacon rind off.)
Looks like her Mom ❤
omgggg when i was little, my mom and i called it (and still do, haha) “some up and some down” 😂
Yes! Great job girl dad! You are rocking it, Kyle.
That’s what we called it some up and some down!! I loved that hair style!!❤️
Kyle, I'm sorry I forgot to ask about the fur babies. I do pray for them too as they are totally a part of the family. Plus it's always lovely to see them and Flower's beautiful face.
Kyle, I am glad that you got baptized in church. That is so wonderful. I am so happy the way that you are raising your kids and they had a lovely time in the outdoors by the fire.
Hi Kyle, nice to hear you and your children have outlets to help you get through the process of grieving.
You guys deserve to find moments of happiness and peace while you grieve.
Prayers.
Hi to you and your family from the UK🩷🇬🇧
Kyle you are showing your children that they are loved and cared for by their dad, you are showing them such kindness and warmth they are responding to you by feeling content and loving towards you. You are a circle of three that are connected to each other you are doing such an amazing job! Sometimes we get stuck with grief we can’t enjoy the small things but you have beautiful small things so cherish every second, every minute and every hour because time passes so quickly and before you know it you will a have pair of teenagers. Grief is always around the corner and sometimes it hits us and knocks us back to the beginning of grief, just remember your beautiful wife is with you and she is very proud of the three of you! ❤❤❤
Kyle, I never get tired of watching your beautiful family living life, navigating through, discovering new coping strategies to find happiness in life again.Jenny is your shining star, always watching over you, with pride.We all love your accomplishments.I consider myself,a proud member of the Appleford,UA-cam family.❤️
I came to say hi as never catch you live. Sadly I have to get to work. Missed seeing you all❣️ I’ll watch later … love from Hampshire UK 🇬🇧
Congratulations on your Baptism Kyle! ❤
You have been so helpful to me as a single adult who lost her person and struggles with deep loneliness. I’m inspired to join a group - maybe a Bible study. Thank you.
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I'm sure Jenny is so proud of her family. Both you Kyle and Jenny deserve the credit for creating such a safe and nurturing environment. Being stuck in the quicksand that is grief is not helpful to anyone. I know your family is still in a lot of pain but pain can also be very toxic. And just because you are not visibly distraught all the time doesn't mean you don't care. I agree community is important and I know for myself that when I'm hurting emotionally I recede inward and that is not helpful. And ignoring the pain doesn't work either. Thanks for sharing. It seems that you all are working very hard and I'm glad to see you all are not only keeping it together but you all are thriving. Kyle I think you are a born leader and teacher and our world needs more people like you.
Jenny nie jest dumna bo nie żyje Śpi snem śmierci i już nie cierpi Bóg nie jest potworem i nie odbiera nam życia ! I nie zabiera do nieba !! Jego Syn Jezus uczył że Bóg Ojciec nie jest Bogiem umarłych ale jest Bogiem żywych . Jednak pamięta o zmarłych i w wyznaczonym czasie wybudzi ich ze snu śmierci i da im zmartwychwstanie ! Przeczytaj o tym w Biblii w Księdze Izajasza rozdział 26 wiersz 19. To byłoby okrutne gdyby Bóg zabierał umarłych do siebie i kazał im patrzeć na swoich bliskich ! To byłoby dla nich ch wielkim cierpieniem . To w Biblii Bóg nam tłumaczy dlaczego umieramy ! Dlatego że odziedziczyliśmy śmierć od Adama i Ewy w genach ale Jezus za nas umarł żebyśmy z powrotem odzyskali życie wieczne które utracili Adam z Ewą ! Przeczytaj o tym w Ewangelii Jana rozdział 3 wiersz 16 .
@@user-fj1mh5yk3iit’s only a book dude.
@@user-fj1mh5yk3iyou must be a Seventh-Day Adventist. Yes Isaiah 26 talks about that and also job 19: 26 and Daniel 12:2. That's referring to when we get resurrected Bodies because our bodies sleep until then, but our soul goals directly to God when we die. Second Corinthians 5:8. It also talks about this in Luke 16 with the rich man and the beggar which is not a parable but a true story.
@@ChrisSadowski-pp1np nie rozumiem bo nie ma tłumaczenia !!!!!
So very well said
Kyle getting baptized is wonderful and finding a community that believes in the same belief as yourself is amazing especially when your community comes together to become baptized. God Bless🙏🏼✝️💜 You are so strong and amazing, hallelujah!🥰
Greetings from Germany! 💛
Congratulations on your baptism.
I agree, I would be in a sad place if I didn't have my faith and my church family.
God bless you and your family
Congratulations on your baptism, Kyle! You’re helping so many folks! 🙌🏻💞
Congratulations on your baptism ! I am so happy you're all doing well. It's tough moving on but essential to being healthy and thriving. Be happy , much love❤❤❤.
Your advice is exactly what I was told when my mom passed away. I signed up for a class after work and that really helped me being around people that weren't my regular group of friends. Made all the difference in the world to my moving through my grief.
I could tell something had changed in you! Congratulations on your baptism! Yes, we do need to be in community! It’s amazing to see how you are growing! Keep going buddy God has amazing things in store for you!
You are loved!! Community is such a blessing we aren’t suppose to do this life alone!!!
I can see how far you all have come through this grief journey. It’s beautiful to see the love surrounding you all. Congratulations on your baptism 🥰
One of my favorite videos from you! Congratulations on your baptism. I think it is wonderful. The kids look so relaxed. I love when you do good and bad of the day. Ellis has so positives. Winnie said the sweetest thing. You and Jenny have raised kind children and you are such a wonderful example for them. I'm so proud of how you have handled your grief journey. You inspire me to do better in mine. I also want to share that after Jenny died I posted I was quitting smoking after decades of smoking in honor of Jenny (I understand her cancer was non smoking lung cancer) but today I am at 149 DAYS of being a non-smoker. Thank you for sharing an important message . ❤
You are the reason the kids are doing so well Kyle. They will get stronger everyday.
Winnie has grown up so much! You have the most amazing children Kyle and Jenny
I just lost my best friend to same cancer I had leiomyosarcoma. Came back after 17 years I’m 13. I’m torn I’m scared bc I’m about to have my 30th surgery. I would love to have the friends all ran when I got real sick. I don’t blame them I understand bc I had only 15% survival rate. I could never do such but I understand. My body is so tired and I’m so tired of medical. I have grief bc the life I had, I was a nurse and traveled but I’m alive with healthy 13 year old son. They found my cancer at 38 weeks pregnant❤. You’re my hero and Kyle I truly lean on your videos for encouragement.
Oh my gosh yay I’m. So proud of you and becoming baptized. My son is in a month. My dad who is a pastor is baptizing him. So proud of you. Stay connected to others
I have bad PTSD bc what I’ve been through. Jeremiah 29:11 I lean on daily
Nice to see them enjoying 😄being a child. They care about each other and love ❤ for you is PRICELESS.😊
Congratulations on your baptism! Very special and I know Jenny is so proud of you for that. 🎉
Congratulations on your Baptism, Kyle! You are such an example of what is possible in the early stages of the grief journey. Dad of the day award as always for turning a scary night for Winnie into a cozy night by the fire. Please tell Ellis that my 34-year old son will be so chuffed to hear that Ellis also collects Pokemon cards. Cole has been collecting since he was Ellis' age & he only knows one other man his age who collects them. I hope Ellis holds onto them as they are a wonderful investment 😊💗
You’re the poster guy on how to navigate grief.❤️ And congratulations on your baptism! 🙏❤️The kids were glowing and you were, too. Xoxo❤️❤️❤️🦅
Come on, now!!! So thrilled about your baptism, Kyle! 🌊 Best decision and best community for you! Wonderful Winnie poster and family time. 🔥
U and jenny set an amazing foundation for Ellis and winnie ,both amazing ❤ congratulations on ure baptism, special day 💖, to have amazing family and friends is so important for support . Much love from Ireland 🇮🇪 ❤️
The kids have it right...nicely browned n melty inside is the best smore! Teaches patience and waiting skills.
I feel free to say this since i am a older woman. Lol You are such a Godly example how a husband loved his wife and how u are s uch a good Father shows your children how their Heavenly Father loves them. Your devotion to your wife is an example all men should watch. You were blessed with he r but she was so blessed with u. Not very many women experience that kind of love and devotion. Maybe sometime in far future some other lady will be blessed. Yes Jesusis your comfort and gives u hinds feet to strentghen u up this mountian. You are Blessed!!!
Iam in the same situation as you lost my husband I join prayer group which brings me comfort it hard without your partner but God is there
Jenny is so proud of you for keeping this channel current. Bless your cotton socks. Jenny is equally happy for how you are raising your beautiful children. 🩵🩷
Happy Baptism. ✝️
Amazing, God will have your back . Ask him to leave your grief and anguish at his feet. Give your tears to the angels, to put them in your jar.....this will help you so much...
.😊😊😊😊 soooo proud of you and the kiddies....❤
I always love your talks. I listen several times. Kids are adorable, as always. Love the firepit.
Congrats on getting baptized!!!! With God by your side, you’re never alone! ❤
I always look forward to your videos Kyle. Your insight and "teaching skills" are helping more people deal with past, current or future emotional pain, than you can possibly imagine! Thank you so much for sharing your journey, and God bless you always and forever more! ❤🙏❤️
Hi Kyle! How are you all doing? Thank God you have your kids and your fur babies. I also agree with you that surrounding yourself with people that you really enjoy being around, it definitely helps the grief. Godspeed ❤
You are Baptized in the Lord! Brings tears to my eyes. Fantastic!
Congratulations on your recent baptism! It's so good to see happiness can still flourish despite the grief you carry in your heart
Praise God! My son, who lives out of state, surprised me with a video of him getting baptized on Sunday. I was so happy and proud of him. He has been through a lot. So believe me when I say I am so happy for you.
I am alone in this world. I don't trust and for good reason. So, my grief has gone on for years. I have my ESA dog, and I love her. She is my family.
I guess I am saying you are doing it the right way! Bless you! ❤
Kyle, Ellis and Winnie, Flower and Huckle it brings joy to so many of us to see you not only coping but being happy. You deserve the best and Jenny is smiling down upon you. ❤❤❤
Hi Kyle, it’s always so lovely to see your posts on here and I’ve not been able to keep up with you recently as I’ve had some health issues but you and the children are always in my thoughts and 🙏s . I felt like I knew Jenny myself and what a courageous lady she was. So strong, determined yet such a devoted mum and loving wife. You really are an amazing, amazing man and I can’t physically hug you as I’m in south west U.K but I’m sending my love to you all through Jesus who I love as you and Jenny do. I’m hoping one day I will get the chance to meet your lovely wife when I’m in that wonderful place of no pain, a new body , I’d love to tell her how much she meant to so many.
Anyway, if there’s anything u wud specifically like me to pray for please just reply to this, you are an amazing witness. Love to you all, Lucy xxxx💙💖💖💙xxxx
The world can be a scary place, especially while grieving. All the feelings and emotions that come along with it can feel everlasting. Maybe some will last, but the bravest choice to make I think can really be to find that person or people that you are truly able to fully trust to be a great support 🙏. When you lose a family member, loved one, or friend, it's losing a part of yourself, so being able to find you in the new changes is important. Great points, Kyle. Sending well wishes always.
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Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! Congratulations Kyle! What a great move to be baptized in Jesus name!!! So super happy for you! You are doing the right things and friends really help.
Hope your doing ok . always thinking of you all .stay strong your doing a great job for your kids .love from England.😊❤
Hi Kyle, hope everything is going well for you and the family. Sending prayers and positive thoughts.
You are an amazing father. Your kids are so lucky to have you.
100% agree with you on community!! Our church family is our extended family and the support has been a very important part of our lives. We laugh together, grieve together, support each other no matter what! So proud of you and I know Jenny is smiling right now!!
Nice to see you looking better even though on the inside it's probably a very different story. Proud of you for getting baptized in church on Sunday and incredibly proud of what you have achieved accomplished together as a family including Winnie who so looks like Jenny every single time I see her in the content uploaded and Ellis who is very much like his dad Kyle. Continuing to send you all much love compassion and respect and support ❤❤❤❤🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 and remember you all in my prayers and thoughts too. Along with Jenny.
Praise the Lord ❤ I can soooo see Jenny there during your baptism with the most beautiful Angel wings 🪽 and the happiest radiant smile. You have gained much wisdom since her passing and you are helping others heal in this world. It is no mistake that you have chosen this group to help you through your grief. Jenny is all over you and the family with GOD’s blessings.
Jenny is resting, those who die TRUSTING THE LORD rest in the LORD..
Ellis and Winnie are seriously the sweetest! I love them both! They make me smile! Makes my heart happy that you’re all doing better!❤️
The kids are growing so fast. ❤
Kyle, I praise & thank the Lord for how He was there for you and gently guided you in your sorrow & grief & sent you someone to encourage you to be part of a bigger community than yourself & kids. That was God and now through your Bible study you are getting to know God who loves you and your kids immensely, more than anyone and you can trust Him. Thrilled you got Baptized again God as He tells us to do this as an outward sign of our allegiance & obedience to Him. You are an encouragement to many not just the grief stricken ones. Thank you for being so open and your sharing is in fact helping others. We love you. God’s continued blessings.
I’m proud of you you never show the hard times the kids have. That’s very smart that private between you and them
Those kids are so precious I can hardly stand it 😢
Oh and I forgot to add I love the backyard! We love spending time in ours with each other and you have set up such a nice lil escape 😊
I'm finally catching up with you & your videos about/during the time when you post it.
I love your family & really miss Jenny too. I've never lost a spouse but I lost my father tragically when I was 18 years old. It changes you as a person.
You are exactly right it does absolutely take a village! It also takes an entire community of people.
Praise God for you & continued prayers for you & your very special family! I really do not know how people are able to get through life without having faith & surrounding ourselve with people of the same background. Grief is very hard. I know that my mom struggled & those that support you are the best.
Your doing a great job 😊❤ 😻❣️
Just remember Kyle, your kids are at a whole new level of happy because of your leadership, your parenting skills, your ability to help them through losing their Mom, all of it. All the emotions they had to navigate. I cannot imagine how they felt when Jenny passed. It crushed your own soul but yet you were able to rise above your own grief and make yourself available to them to express their grief however they needed to and you were always there for them. Without you as their guide they would not have been able to navigate their sadness. You also are at a whole new level. You couldn't see a future for the weeks following losing Jenny. Now, slowly but surely, you have done a remarkable job of creating "life without Mommy", and you have come to terms that there is a life without Jenny for yourself. I am sure there were times you just wanted to roll in a ball and pretend it didn't happen. But you forged ahead, and now, the new normal is really unfolding. Reaching out to people was the best idea, finding community is so important. Making friends is so important. You are, and have been, a pillar of strength through this time, even on the bad days when nothing but tears flowed, to now creating a beautiful life for you and the kids. I also see the kids much less tense. Acting more themselves. I truly believe God held you up even when you didn't know it. Keep on going, life is going to keep opening doors for you.
So lovely to see Ellis more settled x
Kyle I am really happy you got baptized!! Hallelujah God is good! I’m overjoyed the children can find joy and peace even in grief. None of it means you don’t miss Jenny or not love her. But she I’m sure is looking down rejoicing over you all. 🙏🏼🕊 God continue to bless and keep you all.🐞🦋🌺
Nice to see you Kyle! I am so happy about your baptism!! Praise the Lord!! Congratulations! I love seeing your growth. I appreciate your videos so much and really want to thank you for sharing your grief journey with us! I am happy you are finding a community to involve yourself with! My heart is so happy when I see you getting involved, growing in your church, your life, your community! I’m so proud of the awesome dad you are! You are doing so amazing with your little ones!! Ellis and Winnie are such amazing kids! They are especially blessed to have YOU as their dad!! God bless you! I continue to miss Jenny too, and continue praying for you and your little family!! Take care and keep growing and reaching out!!! ❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️
She said everything I wanted to 👍🏼😂🥰💝
I lost my wife 1/8/22 to cancer thankyou for this vid... i need to follow suit on your advice.
Congrats Kyle! I'm glad you found a new group of friends to enjoy.
For some starting their grief journey, starting small helps. In the beginning it was difficult to even be in the car alone driving somewhere. My grief felt amplified. Coming home to an empty house was worse (thank God for the pets who need me & don't allow me to wallow often).
I was still feeling raw and vulnerable and not ready to really socialize as my world was now different. I couldn't relate to 'ordinary' people and their happy lives when mine was shattered.
After some weeks I snuck up on society by meeting up at a local restaurant I hadn't frequented before, with close family members who also shared in my grief. They were my safe place. We shared stories, fun times, a few tears and lots of laughter.
After almost 4 years these weekly breakfasts/lunches or dinners has turned into 2-5 hour get togethers and some trips . We've even become friends with some restaurant employees and some owners that know us all by name. Some we even get together with for bbq's etc.
The thing is we never know who we'll meet on our journey or the places we'll go if we don't start with that first step. Sometimes we'll regress but that's normal. We just start again. Nothing says we have to walk alone the rest of the way. Before we know it we can start finding our joy again with more people. Those first steps make it worth it. We find we don't forget the one's we lost, they become a part of us that we carry with us forever.
I agree that isolation is one of the hardest things about loss and grief. A community - and it can be virtual if that is what works best - is like nothing else. We are human beings and we crave the live and support of one another. It’s why we are here, I believe. To support and to love each other.
I’m so so happy that all three of you are walking through this grief journey and finding happiness and joy and love. It’s not linear and I know that. But it’s so beautiful to hear all of you describing ‘highs’ that are real and genuine high points in your lives and your days. Of course there are lows. But all we have is what is. What is our reality. Our current moment. This day. Living it as fully and joyfully as possible is the best thing we can do for ourselves and for others. I’m so glad that the kids have the support of therapists who care and are helping. I know that was begun and important to you and to Jenny well before she was at her sickest. That preparation and normalization of reaching out for help was a beautiful gift you gave to each other and to those lovely kiddos.
I’m always so happy to see and hear from you and the family. You’ve got a community here, too. And luckily for all of us, so do we !!! I know plenty of us are going through things and find coming here is such a gentle and comforting place to be … so thank you for pouring into others even as you are going through the most unimaginable of losses.
Sending peace and love, always.
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*** Just saw a commercial for Peppa Pig and a new toy set that is ‘spring fun’ in the family caravan/camper based on Peppa Pig & characters. I immediately thought of you all … as the Peppa camper caravan looks so much like the one you guys just got for your family. It’s so cute and looks like they can build fires for s’mores 😉❤️and other camper caravan type activities. Thought it sounded like something fun for the kids - and right up W’s alley!!
Blessings to all and thank you so much for your videos🩷🙏😊
even though the power was out, what a nice ambiance with the candle and fire. So cool how Winnie wants to be a nurse.
Aww look at your beautiful family Jenny will be shining brightly x
God bless you Kyle you are doing a great job
So happy…. I can see how well they’re doing. I truly believe Jenny really prepared them.
Your little village and community are amazing and as of father you give them so much love and attention. They’re so compassionate. What a beautiful family. I know Jenny is with you and so proud of you. Great job 😊.
Continued prayers. So many are praying for you. I believe it’s working. Everyone keep praying. Congrats on your baptism. 🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏
Much love to you and your beautiful children.Im sure Jenny is with you .Stay safe from Wales.❤
I'm seeing all of you succeeding. I'm so glad the minute by minute heartache is stretched out now. God bless
Your kids are so precious!! You guys did a great job!! Congratulations Kyle on your Baptism ✝️
You’re a wonderful daddy! So happy to see the children doing well!
You always always do good for your family and others… you rock Kyle 💛🙌🤘
Kyle, the kid's are growing so fast these months. Just look how tall Ellis has become.
It's nice to see them able to express themselves.
When Michael's has a sale, stock up on poster board. It stores nicely behind the shoe rack.
I'm glad you branched out and found community. To be everything, you must be true to yourself first.❤
They are beautiful children and you are leading the way on how to navigate through this huge change in your lives. Your family and friends back you up, along with the rest of us. Community is everything
🥰🙏🙏🙏🙏 Kyle, I am so excited for you and proud of you for getting Baptized. Also so good to hear that you’ve made best friends within your Bible Dtudy Group. Your amazing. And setting a great example to Ellis and Winnie. Much love to you 3.
If you’re going to do a dry landscape in the front, you could use the painted rocks to make a dry river bed through the front and maybe even put a small bridge over it!
Hi Kyle...
I'm so happy you're doing better and feel supported as you continue your life journey. Congratulations on your baptism. 🙏Your faith in the Lord will be a true blessing in your healing. Sending love ❤️ from Connecticut.
I am.glad yhat you arr going to Bible study and our building community. I eish I had that.
Hi Kyle..
God is certainly working in you and your life, and that's soooooo awesome to see. I am happy for your progress in building and accepting your new normal-Jenny is cheering you on and will forever be your loving wife from Heavens clouds.
Praise God for your baptism, and I sincerely pray you continue to find the balance of peace and happiness through grief.
Sending love to all 3 of you....🙏💛🙏
I love Ellis and Winnie, they are the cutest and most amazing kids. You are doing an amazing job Kyle. Love, hugs and prayers from the UK XX