This song and video is a masterpiece. Some things I'm going to point out might be obvious, but I just want to acknowledge the greatness of this song. - Technically crisp and clear to the ears. - The lyrics filling the screen is a great idea, however it's not just that alone, but also the other things connected to it: - The picture forming bit by bit as whitened parts of the text. Looks like some decorative texture at first but it gradually becomes a beast. - Rin's face looks kind of evil in context with the song. Also, the way it just casually covers some parts of the lyrics (as if there was nothing weird about it) makes it feel even more uncomfortable. - "It's the same god damn song once again", a reference of Circus-P's earlier songs with the same themes. It's a reminder of the long and painful journey of all those other songs. (The lyrics also describe this thing happening again and again.) - Self-consciousness to the music: "As the synths fade in" --> synths fade in, "It all will begin / After the drop" - But then the song tricks you and doesn't give the drop that you expected. This is so brilliant. - In the end, you get the drop. The song starts becoming more and more intense, the lyrics become harder and harder to read, the harmonies in the melody are raised on new levels. Then the beast comes at you, quickly but only very briefly, until the word "stops" literally stops everything: No lingering reverb or any other effects. Just black screen. Which is big contrast to white, which again is quite interesting color choice for a song this dark. But that all is mostly just about the technical brilliance about this song. It's all to support the meat of the song, which is Circus-P's signature traits of intensely heartfelt pain, hatred and regret, of a magnitude I've not experienced with any other artist. The lyrics have just the right amount of ambiguity for that poetic feeling, but also many crude and direct lines. Many details in both lyrical and technical sides make the song unpredictable and striking, like those unexpected pauses that suddenly give you time to think over what was said. Or that sarcastic "
I'm honestly glad there's people out there pointing all this stuff out, that way all of the cool shit artists do isn't lost on people who don't naturally think as much about art. This way they get to experience the brilliance of great artists, too. Thank you.
I can just imagine Rin staring at me like that while putting her elbows on a desk, her hands under her chin. While in an empty classroom with large windows... And outside of those windows is a galaxy.
CIRCUS-P OLD STYLE IS BACK!! YAAAAY!!! THIS GIVES ME SO MANY MEMORIES!!! Thank you for uploading this!!! I love it!!! Another inspiration for making new music! :D
Galaxia-P mmmh, not really, there are soft old circus-p songs... anyway, I've noticed more than two styles in his songs, lol xD he always used the same font for his old songs though! (The one he used for this song) That's something that changed, but in that sense, you're right, his instrumentals were more like strong, and I don't know if this is right or it's just me, but he almost always used the same vsts :0 (or maybe very similar vsts in most of his songs)
imo karma is harder to understand than this song. while i personally need subtitles to clearly understand what's being said on both, i need them less on this song than on karma. but, everyone's different, that's just me
Sjfhkdfhfkjs vocaloids singing triplets is my weakness. I don't usually like Rin's English but you've managed to make her sound so clear, and if I'm being honest, I prefer electronic-Circus as supposed to pop-Circus. So if you don't mind me, I'm going to scream excessively while listening to this song on repeat for the next four hours. :)
I was stabbed in the back by a childhood friend of 20 years about a month ago. After a month of silence, I can't decide if the friendship is worth saving. Part of me wants to mend bridges, but the other part of me still can't get over that they did it so easily. No hesitation, no excuse, they pointed their knife right at me without regret. What do you do when someone you thought was your friend does something horrible to you that you would never, ever do to them?
I agree with A Ackerman. You can easily get a much better friend that will treat you the way you deserve to be treated. They may have been your friend in the past, but I guess something changed them. Their past self is now a different person. And if you have to put effort into trying to make them treat you like anything more than a piece of crap, they're not a true friend anymore.
In the first 3 lines i noticed some discoloration, and after watching I relaized that you see the beast in the tone of the text, that is awesome!! I love you Circus, keep doing what you love my man,
I cried while listening because of how much I relate, and then almost fell apart in this library at the end because of the impact it has... This may not fit your musical style anymore, but I appreciate you finishing it and sharing it with the world. Even more than that, I appreciate the free release. I so wanna buy more of your priced music when I can. I appreciate you, Circus. I truly do.
hi um I just really wanted to thank you for writing songs like this and that its actually taken seriously . I guess it makes me feel less alone and gives people like me something to relate to. Thank you Vocacircus
im gonna be slash serious when i say that i think this is one of the best songs using rin that i'd ever heard, like it's unironically changed my life since i first heard it i think
OMMGGGG!!! I think i remember hearing 3:08 on your soundcloud once (too lazy to check back rn) and i was wondering when the official song with that snippet will come out and now it's here!! This sounds great!!!!
There really is a vocaloid song for every specific emotional situation I go through.. huh! :,) im not going to go into details but someone that hurt me very badly is now in my life again for the foreseeable future (not my choice) and this is helpful
That video, so simple, but amazingly powerful! The music, the way the words slowly reveal the "beast". It all fits together so well! I... Don't even know what else to say, this is amazing. You are amazing, don't stop. Be you, be wonderfully creative. And. Thank you for all theses songs that work so well to help me vent my emotions, i hope making them helps you as much (More even) as they do for me.
Hey, how've you been?" Singing the formalities I loathe It's been a while since I've seen the mask you don for show With a blade forged in accusatory tones Pushed up, Held up against my throat Oh-/ No-/ Stop, don't pretend like time fixed anything You've been hurting, You've been hoping Maybe closure will soothe the sting Oh, but I've run that choreography before What's done is done, I've already lost the war It's the same song and dance once again I'll succumb to the raging beast from within As the synths fade in It all will begin After the drop I think about you I weep over you And I just can't stop---/ "Hey, maybe I went a little too far" "But hey, I can't stand feeling like I tore you apart" "Hey, Let's be friends again!!" Again, again "I promise I won't hurt you" Hey, I can't take it anymore, anymore I've been hurting, I've been hoping I'd be alone just like before Oh, but you need to do what you think is best for you So kill me thoroughly, stop playing with your food It's the same god damn song once again Repeating BGM behind all my bends As the synths fade in It all will begin After the drop I think about you I weep over you And no matter what I do I just can't stop It's the same song and dance once again (Fear the beast, set it free) I'll succumb to the raging beast from within (Fear the beast, watch it feast) As the synths cry out I'll let out a shout through tear drops I thought about you I wept over you, but now But now it stops
What are the background lyrics that starts at 3:19 ? Sounds like something along the lines of “kill the beast set me free” I’m not sure, does anyone know?
This song makes me uncomfortable, but in a really good way! Specifically the drawing of Rin just stand still in the middle with the smug face, it really works!
after years, its kinda hitting me how many parallels this has with copycat even with them both getting made in roughly 2016; i know the 715 album parallels itself in mostly every song (ie karma/poltergeist) but this completelt flew over my head and i remember both of those debuts, well done
everyone: CIRCUS UPLOADED AOCHALCISBALFHALF me: ...so are we not gonna talk about what the song's saying? ok (i enjoy discussions about a song's meaning ok) on another note this song seems to be about some form of an abusive relationship?
Evie P Yeah I like talking about the song's meaning too.... I think that it's a girl who was in a relationship that went toxic on both ends and she's the one who made the conflict worse. She seems to feel sorry about it and maybe even feel like this has happened to her before..... Then, she stops it all and gives up trying to resolve the conflict... Idk but that's just my idea I hope it makes sense
I always thought she might be having a conversation with her inner beast, sometimes singing about the beast, sometimes as the beast, sometimes to the beast... a part of her that keeps trying to win her over and that makes her do things she doesn't want to, a part of her that hurts her all the time. So... not really a relationship but just Rin?
+joppesezus now that i think about it, that would make sense i think both that theory and the abusive relationship concept could fit with this song because the lyrics _are_ a bit vague.
This song and video is a masterpiece. Some things I'm going to point out might be obvious, but I just want to acknowledge the greatness of this song.
- Technically crisp and clear to the ears.
- The lyrics filling the screen is a great idea, however it's not just that alone, but also the other things connected to it:
- The picture forming bit by bit as whitened parts of the text. Looks like some decorative texture at first but it gradually becomes a beast.
- Rin's face looks kind of evil in context with the song. Also, the way it just casually covers some parts of the lyrics (as if there was nothing weird about it) makes it feel even more uncomfortable.
- "It's the same god damn song once again", a reference of Circus-P's earlier songs with the same themes. It's a reminder of the long and painful journey of all those other songs. (The lyrics also describe this thing happening again and again.)
- Self-consciousness to the music: "As the synths fade in" --> synths fade in, "It all will begin / After the drop"
- But then the song tricks you and doesn't give the drop that you expected. This is so brilliant.
- In the end, you get the drop. The song starts becoming more and more intense, the lyrics become harder and harder to read, the harmonies in the melody are raised on new levels. Then the beast comes at you, quickly but only very briefly, until the word "stops" literally stops everything: No lingering reverb or any other effects. Just black screen. Which is big contrast to white, which again is quite interesting color choice for a song this dark.
But that all is mostly just about the technical brilliance about this song. It's all to support the meat of the song, which is Circus-P's signature traits of intensely heartfelt pain, hatred and regret, of a magnitude I've not experienced with any other artist. The lyrics have just the right amount of ambiguity for that poetic feeling, but also many crude and direct lines. Many details in both lyrical and technical sides make the song unpredictable and striking, like those unexpected pauses that suddenly give you time to think over what was said. Or that sarcastic "
*Illuminati: stay where you are!*
I'm honestly glad there's people out there pointing all this stuff out, that way all of the cool shit artists do isn't lost on people who don't naturally think as much about art. This way they get to experience the brilliance of great artists, too. Thank you.
Yeah I love this song too
It hasn't started and I'm in love with it already
i forgot just how fire this is holy shit
back again it still slaps. underrated ass song.
Ah even though it's older i am happy you decided to finish it :D! I really like it especially the lyrics!
I can just imagine Rin staring at me like that while putting her elbows on a desk, her hands under her chin. While in an empty classroom with large windows... And outside of those windows is a galaxy.
Just Rin
M. Nourishad You mean like Doki Doki Literature Club?
Just Rin
Just Rin
pls no go dsomebody delete her
CIRCUS-P OLD STYLE IS BACK!! YAAAAY!!! THIS GIVES ME SO MANY MEMORIES!!! Thank you for uploading this!!! I love it!!! Another inspiration for making new music! :D
McKatherine Synth he’s not coming back to his old style, it’s just an old song.
人魚Ningyo I know, I just said it was back for a few minutes. And idk why but that made me feel sad :'(
I like his both styles though, he will always be my favourite composer even if he changes his style to a completely new one :)
the old one is more aggressive sounding in a way. it might just be me. but maybe it means Circus is doing better. :)
Galaxia-P mmmh, not really, there are soft old circus-p songs... anyway, I've noticed more than two styles in his songs, lol xD he always used the same font for his old songs though! (The one he used for this song) That's something that changed, but in that sense, you're right, his instrumentals were more like strong, and I don't know if this is right or it's just me, but he almost always used the same vsts :0 (or maybe very similar vsts in most of his songs)
This song feels like the ultimate embodiment of the question “are you the spider or the fly in its web”.
Omg I love this so much how dare you
Ohhhh
For once Rin's English is understandable :o
imo karma is harder to understand than this song. while i personally need subtitles to clearly understand what's being said on both, i need them less on this song than on karma. but, everyone's different, that's just me
Jirai's Moonlight cover tho
I like the change between heavy synths and piano, it's really cool!
*Pop*
Noice song.
oh
Justin Y. You're hear, too? I see you're a man of culture as well.
I wonder if some one is currently playing the find a video Justin hasn't commented on.
I SWEAR, WHY ARE YOU EVERYWHERE
I give 5 bucks to everyone who finds a video without a comment of him lmao
Circus: uploads
Me: MY LONGEST YEAH BOY EVER. GOD SHE SOUNDS SO LIFELIKE I'M SCREAMING
Red the Mudkip same
Sjfhkdfhfkjs vocaloids singing triplets is my weakness. I don't usually like Rin's English but you've managed to make her sound so clear, and if I'm being honest, I prefer electronic-Circus as supposed to pop-Circus.
So if you don't mind me, I'm going to scream excessively while listening to this song on repeat for the next four hours. :)
Dang. This lyrics are really good. (Not to mention Rin sounds self-aware at some parts.) And the video is really creative
This song will never never not be a masterpiece to me. It's honestly one of best songs I have ever heard.
You always have a way of letting your songs emit darkness and pain, either vengeful, or the emitting hopelessness. It's intriguing, really.
This is your best work in my opinion Circus!
I was stabbed in the back by a childhood friend of 20 years about a month ago. After a month of silence, I can't decide if the friendship is worth saving. Part of me wants to mend bridges, but the other part of me still can't get over that they did it so easily. No hesitation, no excuse, they pointed their knife right at me without regret.
What do you do when someone you thought was your friend does something horrible to you that you would never, ever do to them?
CBA if they have the audacity to voluntarily hurt you without hesitation, then they dont deserve you.
A Ackerman You're right. If someone is that bad, they don't deserve to have back the people they once "cared" about....
I agree with A Ackerman. You can easily get a much better friend that will treat you the way you deserve to be treated. They may have been your friend in the past, but I guess something changed them. Their past self is now a different person. And if you have to put effort into trying to make them treat you like anything more than a piece of crap, they're not a true friend anymore.
Rainbowanimal2005 AJ I'm glad you agree. You all deserve people who deserve you too, and dont yoy dare settle for anything less.
Mega relate. Mega mood.
1:57 hey let's be shrimps again
Only a few seconds in and it already sounds amazing!!
3:40 thats actually terrifying but cool at the same time
In the first 3 lines i noticed some discoloration, and after watching I relaized that you see the beast in the tone of the text, that is awesome!! I love you Circus, keep doing what you love my man,
A few seconds in and I LOVE IT!!!
I cried while listening because of how much I relate, and then almost fell apart in this library at the end because of the impact it has... This may not fit your musical style anymore, but I appreciate you finishing it and sharing it with the world. Even more than that, I appreciate the free release. I so wanna buy more of your priced music when I can. I appreciate you, Circus. I truly do.
Why is this so underrated
hi
um I just really wanted to thank you for writing songs like this and that its actually taken seriously . I guess it makes me feel less alone and gives people like me something to relate to.
Thank you Vocacircus
Your vocaloid tuning is on point, as always! This sounds amazing!!! 💛
im gonna be slash serious when i say that i think this is one of the best songs using rin that i'd ever heard, like it's unironically changed my life since i first heard it i think
I mean you’re right, this is so not your style anymore.
It’s still good! And I will listen to this on repeat for about a week.
yeah, this EASILY is one of my favorites of yours. the tuning is just phenomenal!!
2:07 i love how it said anymore in the background
We love you, Circus. Not just your music . . . you.
Okay holy cow, this is god-tier.
Thanks for the meal, Circus
*crying through the relatable lyrics*
This is absolute genius, all of it. Thank you VocaCircus for this masterpiece
OMMGGGG!!! I think i remember hearing 3:08 on your soundcloud once (too lazy to check back rn) and i was wondering when the official song with that snippet will come out and now it's here!! This sounds great!!!!
Ahhhhh is so beautifuuuuuul
Circus, I love you!!!!
There really is a vocaloid song for every specific emotional situation I go through.. huh! :,) im not going to go into details but someone that hurt me very badly is now in my life again for the foreseeable future (not my choice) and this is helpful
They are leaving soon! :,) im so happy
_holy shit the beat_
I know it doesn't work with your current style,,, but I love it just as much!
Also that thumbnail lowkey gives me the fear-
this video is a work of art actually. this is also relatable af
She sounds amazing!
This song is just too relatable to me, thank you for creating and still releasing it even tho it's an older project. It has helped me alot 💙💙
The thrills of this song... God... Amazing as always!!!
"ᴴᵉʸ˒ ʰᵒʷ'ᵛᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᵇᵉᵉᶰˀ"
Rin is looking and sounding good. Nice Circus! You continue to inspire me.
I can't believe this song only has 190k views, its my favorite song by you
You posted this on my birthday last year!
Seshiria Chan ayy happy bday!!
♡It sounds so good ♡ you make rin sound so good ♡ and i like the lyrics ♡
Oh my gawd i gasped when i saw this... -i already love it-
Sounds amazing as alwayss
Wonderful song, my gosh. I also loved the animation, the lyrics, the monster, the voice, what it means, every t h i n g is blessed. Congrats !
every song by circus punches me in the chest relate-ability
i love you matt
Is no one mentionning the fact that every song circusp makes is about being trapped in a love circle?
y E S Y E S Y E S
Very good! I can understand rin very well!
-is it wrong i can relate to this-
hanahaki-p @ はなはき-P No I can relate too.
I heard the instrumental version on your last stream and now I can listen to it with lyrics!!!!😭
That video, so simple, but amazingly powerful! The music, the way the words slowly reveal the "beast". It all fits together so well! I... Don't even know what else to say, this is amazing. You are amazing, don't stop. Be you, be wonderfully creative. And. Thank you for all theses songs that work so well to help me vent my emotions, i hope making them helps you as much (More even) as they do for me.
Circus I love you, for real
My idol has blessed me with a new song. god i love circus p!!
Food to my ears
2:54 I love how she sings the high note right here, it sounds so good.
As the synths cry out, I'll let out a shout through tear drops. I thought about you, I wept over you, but now... But now... It stops.
DAMN THAT WAS LIT
Hey, how've you been?"
Singing the formalities I loathe
It's been a while since I've seen the mask you don for show
With a blade forged in accusatory tones
Pushed up, Held up against my throat
Oh-/ No-/
Stop, don't pretend like time fixed anything
You've been hurting, You've been hoping
Maybe closure will soothe the sting
Oh, but I've run that choreography before
What's done is done, I've already lost the war
It's the same song and dance once again
I'll succumb to the raging beast from within
As the synths fade in
It all will begin
After the drop
I think about you
I weep over you
And I just can't stop---/
"Hey, maybe I went a little too far"
"But hey, I can't stand feeling like I tore you apart"
"Hey, Let's be friends again!!" Again, again
"I promise I won't hurt you"
Hey, I can't take it anymore, anymore
I've been hurting, I've been hoping
I'd be alone just like before
Oh, but you need to do what you think is best for you
So kill me thoroughly, stop playing with your food
It's the same god damn song once again
Repeating BGM behind all my bends
As the synths fade in
It all will begin
After the drop
I think about you
I weep over you
And no matter what I do
I just can't stop
It's the same song and dance once again
(Fear the beast, set it free)
I'll succumb to the raging beast from within
(Fear the beast, watch it feast)
As the synths cry out
I'll let out a shout through tear drops
I thought about you
I wept over you, but now
But now it stops
Tysm!!
N
We need more people like you
Omg. This is great! Its perfect Voca❤
I love how the lyrics appear word by word in the background
I can't explain how much your songs say what I feel in my head. It's crazy. Thanks for understanding somehow.
What are the background lyrics that starts at 3:19 ? Sounds like something along the lines of “kill the beast set me free” I’m not sure, does anyone know?
No matter what you do....the songs you make always sound great!!
I LOVE IT
this is amazing
Like usual, circus never fails to impress me and made a new song I can relate to!
Love the lyrics - good job!! :)
circus why must all ur songs describe my life
I missed that style so much
this is so good, im glad you decided to finish it 💙💜
I absolutely adore the drawing
Damn it hahah Another one to be listening to. Thank you
I really need this to be on Spotify i love it so mucn
My gawd. Amazing
This song makes me uncomfortable, but in a really good way! Specifically the drawing of Rin just stand still in the middle with the smug face, it really works!
I love it, Circus! It's amazing. 😍😆
Kyaa!! Circus P back >_
I already have this song on my phone and I'm going to listen it over and over again
after years, its kinda hitting me how many parallels this has with copycat even with them both getting made in roughly 2016; i know the 715 album parallels itself in mostly every song (ie karma/poltergeist) but this completelt flew over my head and i remember both of those debuts, well done
BIG MOOD
You've consistently put out great song after great song and I love it! Great job and keep up the amazing work!
cool song dude! keep working hard we all love you a lot!
aa I love this!! my crops are thriving, my skin is clear, My grades are high. blesS
This is amazing :) its honest really good also it sounds kinda of like addicted mixed with karama
Omg I love this song sm!
honestly if i see more songs like this, i'll never be disappointed if its by CircusP xp
everyone: CIRCUS UPLOADED AOCHALCISBALFHALF
me: ...so are we not gonna talk about what the song's saying? ok
(i enjoy discussions about a song's meaning ok)
on another note this song seems to be about some form of an abusive relationship?
Evie P Yeah I like talking about the song's meaning too....
I think that it's a girl who was in a relationship that went toxic on both ends and she's the one who made the conflict worse. She seems to feel sorry about it and maybe even feel like this has happened to her before..... Then, she stops it all and gives up trying to resolve the conflict...
Idk but that's just my idea I hope it makes sense
+Bucket Chan
the line "i think about you, i weep over you" makes it seem like the person shes in a relationship with is the one at fault though,,,
I always thought she might be having a conversation with her inner beast, sometimes singing about the beast, sometimes as the beast, sometimes to the beast... a part of her that keeps trying to win her over and that makes her do things she doesn't want to, a part of her that hurts her all the time. So... not really a relationship but just Rin?
+joppesezus
now that i think about it, that would make sense
i think both that theory and the abusive relationship concept could fit with this song because the lyrics _are_ a bit vague.
Evie P very true!
Great work I love this!
This is amazing :)
WOOOOOOOOOO CIRCUS TRAIN
Love it! Good job, thank you!
Circus and Mafumafu both uploaded an awesome song featuring Rin today, what a great day !!
Amazing
Amazing
I love it