Dear Anna, I've never felt so understood in my life than when I watch your and Patrick's videos! I just want to say that I finally worked up he will to try the daily practice, and though I don't do it daily (I have another strategy that makes it possible for me not to be overly dependant on it), and oh my god, the bliss it brings about is so wonderful! Thank you so much for doing what you do! You've given me hope when I have given up and you've helped me help myself and find some peace. I'm very grateful ) :)
❤ I, too, have found immense introspection, learning, resources from Anna and Patrick, and recently I've come across Heidi Priebe's channel, and I feel like the three of them are like this amazing healing trinity In my life! 🔼
These are some of my symptoms: -Over eating as source of self soothing. -Teeth Grinding at Night -being trapped in my dreams and waking up having panic attacks
I have been grinding my teeth for over 50 yrs. Now 69 yrs old. Still wear a mouthpiece .. wonder if it is CPTSD related? Thanks for your commentary. Regards, Allan (South Africa)
Lost in a trauma storm after losing my (grand)mother, experiencing SA, amidst housing instability and food insecurity, and legal battles. I've been feeling like I am not strong enough, and highly sensitive to literally everything! My dreams have been confusing nightmares, so my sleep has been horrible. This video is timely and so needed. Thank you, Anna.
I'm so sorry all of this is going on in your life, friend! 😢 I know there's nothing In physically/tangibly able to do to help, but please know I'm holding you in peaceful, healing energy. ❤ I sincerely hope you find yourself breaking through soon!
You sound like me. In the middle of major trauma storms and alone and broke to boot. Scarry times for many of us. Glad Anna is here with a nice community. I'm always ready to learn and improve! Have a great week, everyone!!!
This is me right now too. Two of my cats just died, my car was stolen & I'm being forced to move. I'm having to hire ppl to help me pack & clean because I'm so overwhelmed & have mobility issues & chronic pain. I've been completely alone for 3 years, no one to talk with or rely on to help. Wake up with extreme anxiety at 2 am after only 4 hours of sleep. Just wanted to write this out in hopes it helps somehow. At the same time I'm very aware of the huge struggles so many others are going through & it breaks my heart. Prayers & love out to those facing these challenges ❤️🙏❤️
Ways Anna mentioned to get through a trauma storm: 1. protect sleep and watch caffeine intake, screen before bed, etc. 2. eat dinner food e.g. cooked, protein. Easy on fast carbs such as bread and sweets 3. go outside and move around. Walking is great, running or working up a sweat is even better. Get sunlight upon waking if possible, but at other times of the day is also good enough 4. be selective about talking about your trauma. Write about it, read it out to somebody if it's a good choice 5. have a friend to triage 6. use the rare moments of focus to do small things such as taking out the trash 7. clear one table with favourite things 8. keep up with tactile ways to regulate 9. give yourself permission to do nothing, but don't get hypnotized by TV, angry conversations, etc. Get off and do something else every 1.5 hour or so 10. healing box to put three to five things in life that are difficult to get the problem off the mind to rest the mind 11. in advance, write down what you need to help you through for friends who can help 12. continue to do the daily practice (free course offered by Anna Runkel) Best of luck, everyone. 💞
In stressful times healthy habits are key, aren't they? Breathing, taking breaks, eating well, exercise, journaling, prayer, and listening to inspiring teachers like you have gotten me through (and music of course!). I throw a "party of one" turn on Salsa, dance around, make dinner, celebrate life, it lifts my spirits. Then I fall into bed and pray thanking God for another day, and get up and do it again (hopefully). Thanks for filling in the blanks Anna
Hang in there! You'll make it through. We are rooting for you! If you haven't already, you can check out Anna's DP, it can help with overwhelm. Free Daily Practice Course: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Julie@TeamFairy
22:57 This reminds me of when I was at my deepest depression many years back and I was running from one counselor to another trying to pull myself out of the hole I was in. I was very confused and had no idea what was wrong or what I should do. All I knew was that everything was a mess and I was extremely unhappy and depressed and put on the wrong antidepressants (4X) and nothing was going right and I was panicking. The first thing they would ALL ask me is "so what is the problem, what can I do for you" and in my head I would be like "I don't effin' know I'm here because I can't help myself and I need assistance and direction I'm exhausted and I don't know what to do. If I knew what was the problem and what I needed I wouldn't be here seeing you, I'd just work it out myself and fix it." It's often very very hard when you're in the depths of a mental crisis you didn't see coming and at your absolute weakest mentally to know what you need, and it's really annoying when someone asks you to explain exactly what's going on and what you need.
Extremely relatable comment. Thank you for sharing. It sounds like you have a little more space now, good for you hanging in there. If you want another tool, Anna's Daily Practice can be useful for sifting through the overwhelm in life. Free Daily Practice Course: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Julie@TeamFairy
We are all just doing the best we can,even the irritating people who ask you what you need. Sometimes, when we are at a low point, we get so focused on our own troubles we forget that we are one of millions. What may seem devastating to one, might not severely impact another. But you can be certain of this one truth,others have probably suffered more and worse. Nothing good comes from defeatism. Life is hard , but tomorrow is a brand new day filled with opportunity that only you can can accept or reject. It truly is all about you. Love yourself , be good to yourself. Look at that person in your mirror and say, “ you are worth it”.
Soooo relatable! It always made me think "isn't that your job that you ask me to do now?". But to me, exactly that is also a reminder to look for non verbal clues to what's going on while you're just observing someone needing your help later on in life. People with their own experience, both with what hurts and traumatizes, and with what helps and what doesn't, in your journey to healing, are priceless really. ❤
This holiday we experienced several bad things one after the other and we cannot fathom why. It's really affected me because this has happened every new year the past few years and it's actually made me hate the end of year holidays. I also spend a lot of time sabotaging myself which has meant I've lost amazing opportunities in the past few months. I just want to stay indoors for a long time so I can feel normal again and be away from the world that keeps trying to harm us.
Wow very insightful! I experienced the sudden death of a very close friend, losing my job of 15 years (which I loved), and a cancer diagnosis all within 6 months…and then the past few years dealt with the loss of my father, loss of a romantic relationship, loss of my beloved pet, caring for my mother with dementia, 4 surgeries and more. I’m still waiting for all this loss to lead to something beautiful ❤
Ugh, that is so much. You are doing great, just being here. Thank you for sharing with us. If you haven't already, check out DP & thanks again for being with us. bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Julie@TeamFairy
This couldn't have come out at a better time, life has really been putting me through the ringer. I feel so helpless and afraid of everything that I can't see a way out. I really just needed some kind of guidance because im drowning rn.
Perfect timing! I had a huge trauma storm with 3 parts to it. First part was with my partner and we had a huge fight. I needed a safe place to retreat to so I went to my mom’s that turned out to be a disaster and it re-triggered childhood trauma. I had always that that my narcissistic dad was the issue growing up but when I stayed with my mom, I realized just how controlling and demeaning she was. By then, I was in a full meltdown but I had to travel some distance to get home, including taking a ferry which was delayed. I had communicated to my partner who knew I was coming back and had expressed that I would need some help when I got home. When I finally arrived, he was nowhere to be found, the house was filthy and my precious plants and flowers were half dead. I just melted into a puddle of tears that I couldn’t stop. I felt so defeated and unsupported. I somehow found the energy to sweep the floor in my room, put on some fresh bedding, closed the curtains, drank some water and put in my earplugs and put my sleep mask on and surrounded myself with pillows to feel tucked in. I didn’t have the strength to drag my super heavy queen sized weight yes blanket (like the one you hated lol) onto the bed. Time was a blur was a few days but I gradually was able to put some structure in place and then finally was able to have a very cathartic conversation with my partner about what had happened at my mom’s. We’ve been doing much better since then so I do see the gift of the trauma storm as it cleared so much energy and enabled me to be vulnerable instead of defended. ❤❤
Thank you for sharing. So relatable to be in a "trauma storm" and make the mistake of turning to "the good parent" in a dysfunctional family only to be disappointed yet again. Sounds like you had great self-protective instincts to care for yourself when you got home so you could start to cope. Good luck to you & your partner. Julie@TeamFairy
@Akribelasurfacing Oh boy do I relate. Early this year my sister started a huge fight out of nowhere, let her mask slip -- and I've slowly realized she wasn't JUST the golden child, but she's also a narcissist, just a more well disguised one than my Mom was. Until just a couple weeks ago I thought "at least my Dad was not actively abusive, he just modeled codependent behavior..." But she triangulated him and stepmom into the drama. When I tried to do some really clean non-violent communication with them about that, I just got a lecture back from him, as if he *hadn't actually understood a word I wrote!* And I suddenly remembered, "wow, I totally remember him doing this to me as a teenager..."
Great video as always. A few years back I was hospitalized four times. Three of which I was admitted to six days in the inpatient psychiatric program. Upon being discharged from my 3rd inpatient hospitalization, I returned to work. It didn’t take long to realize that I was not functioning at an optimal, familiar level. I was struggling to complete even the easiest of tasks. Tasks became foreign and warped. What would normally take 10 minutes to complete, it took me four to five times as long. While I had an excellent therapist and support system, I eventually quit my job within a few months of returning back to work. After some research, I came upon some scholarly articles relating to my experience. What I initially thought were symptoms of depressions and anxiety, turned out to be the equivalent of early dementia. Though I’m not formally diagnosed, I am certain that I experienced depression induced dementia. For those who don’t know the symptoms, it's close to what I imagine to be the equivalent of hell. The symptoms include but are not limited to: some loss of motor function, working memory, comprehension and speech ( I could’t vocalize what I was thinking). I was convinced that this would be permanent and lifelong. I was also convinced that I will never hold a job or live a fulfilling life. I spent the next few months recovering and trying to come back to the old me. Though I can say that I am back to somewhat ‘normal’, I will never be the old me. But what I can say is that God has been with me the whole way. Flashback to my first admission to inpatient, I remember the team of psychiatrist showing some concern because I was not participating in the group activities. I was mostly isolating myself because I had become completely indifferent to what I was going through and in a sense, showing flat affect. I recall having a hard time processing what the doctors and psychiatrist were trying to help me with. Nothing was helping or sinking in. Until about the third night there. I was sulking in my bed when a very distinct voice said “I am with you”. I knew instantly that it was God speaking to me. This voice had a piercing and awaking affect. While this voice gave me hope, I was dumbfounded and confused. Mainly because I had no way of knowing how I was to be freed from the ensnaring nature of mental illness. I knew it was going to be a long journey to recovery and independence. However, through every brutal hospitalization that was to come, came that same voice, reminding me that God’s hand is in my life. That voice has propelled me to where I am today. Though I still personally experience mental illness, I am no longer where I was 4 years ago. Miraculously, my depression induced dementia is long gone. I am working at a fulfilling job and utilizing resources to help me through my healing process. Whenever I doubt where I am in my recovery journey, I think back to those hospital days. “God is with me”.
Thank you for helping to remind me of the things I "should" be doing. During these storms it is so hard to think clearly and then my OCD becomes like a child chasing a ball into the street. The ball had become my focus vs stopping to look both ways. I knew I was disregulated but I was failing to realize just how badly disregulated I am Thank you for keeping me from metaphorically being run over today and helping me back safely to the sidewalk... your timing could not have been more perfect for me today. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
I did a lot of work on "my stuff" in my thirties and I was very successful and it helped me recognize a healthy relationship\marriage. I had some challenges but I recognized them for what they were. What I didn't see coming or recognize was getting old (losing your parents, losing a compliant body, becoming the older generation) could retrigger so much childhood garbage I thought I had already dealt with. I am glad I found your channel and this video in particular because I have been trapped in a trauma storm for too long...I don't like me when I am like this. I can see how I am already doing some of the things you suggest and they help, but I needed more. Now I have more things to try, thanks.
Just the type of videos I need my mother was diagnosed with stage four cancer a few weeks ago and it’s not going well. I’m very does regulated so your information is helpful.
I saw the video notification and title and immediately clicked on it. My husband and I are in the midst of an ongoing trauma storm and this video gave so many good pieces of advice. Thank you for posting it and for all you do to help others.
This is a very timely video for me right now, thank you. My blood panel was explained to me a few days ago, to understand this blurry chronic fatigue and overwhelm I've had a long time now: my adrenals are burnt out again, like when I was handling a home sale, moving, legal processes, and caring for my late spouse with Alzheimer's. I'm back on adrenal supplements, and reviewing what causes this: emotional and mental stress (you'd think after what I've been through I'd have recognized this on my own). Right now there are two major sources of anxiety and stress for me: the ongoing risk of catastrophic fires in my area and our place needing more fire-resistance; and, the growing threat of white supremacist cults in our country. Ours is a rural area which unhappily attracts that mind-set. In a nutshell: I'm afraid of some of my neighbors, and I'm afraid of fire. My healing strategy: I've cut WAY back on the news I consume, to just minimal, bare bones info; I greet all neighbors with a smile and wave and AVOID political topics; and we're replacing flammable house siding with stucco. Plus I'm doing most of what you advise in this video. It's all important, and it's all helping. Thanks again.
1:45 Trauma storm leads to transformation. And each time that trauma storm happens you end up on a higher level and then another trauma storm comes to challenge you to go higher. A blossoming happens TS are powerful points of growth
Teetering on the edge as I face an enormous trauma storm. This was an absolute God send . Thank you Anna. You are gifted and talented. It's your spot on articulation of speaking from experience that hits me right between the eyes. Everything you say makes perfect sense.
I'm trying to keep it together through a "trauma storm" right now. I am grateful you touched so beautifully on exactly what I'm going through currently!!! It's felt like "too much" like ADD exponentially, when i need to be so very present and focused!!!!! You are a gift from God Anna!!!!!!
This is what happened with my ex (abusive family, horrible job conditions, health crisis and someone manipulating him it seems)... he pushed all of us away, his friends, his family, me as a partner - everything. I still hope he is doing better now and that, one day, he might raech out to me again. I miss him so damn much and would love to support him.
OMG!!!!! This is so me right now. I got a PO on my narc kids father and he texted me from a differnt number and talked back to him ended up dropping the PO and i knew better i knew i shouldmt of and did it amyways and ive been in a trauma storm ever since.
Wow. Trauma storm. I recognize that in me. I have to have it dark to sleep also. I use a soft t-shirt over my eyes, & cover all the LEDs. I put something over the night light in the bathroom, so it doesn't get me too awake when I'm up in the night. I run a fan for white noise. There is one thing I can listen to that helps! Books on tape! It forces me to focus on the story and I drift off. As a kid, I didn't realize I was making my own weighted blanket by piling several wool blankets on my bed. I don't seem to need that anymore. Thanks for another great video! ❤❤❤
I don't have energy to have a routine. Always barely functioning. Don't know how I've lived this long. Into my 50's... doing all things alone is really tough, when you can't walk well anymore due to a vaccine injury. Your parents and family see you struggle and do nothing. Dumped by them... i did nothing to them... so i sit and cry alone alot. No one gets how living this way is. It's horrid. But... it is sooo much better without them. I WAS their scapegoat. Blessings in disguise, at first, I didn't realize it. 😃 😊 😔
Holy crap where was this last week! Made a terrible mistake at work where I thought I was going to get fired, and in the middle of trying to fix it, I had a family member pass away. Needless to say, this was a trauma storm for sure where I was severely disregulated and barely functioning. Pretty much everything you lost to do I didn’t do. 😅 Will definitely keep this video handy in case this ever happens again.
I've always had dreams in which I need to go somewhere important/urgent, but everyone/everything gets in the way and keeps me from getting where I need to be.
I didn’t take the medicine dished up these last two years. I left my adopted country half a world away, relationship, bonus children, and started rebuilding a new life back in australia, then due to mandates I lost my new job, was shamed by my family, sisters cut me out of their life because of it, my dad shamed me and told me he’d never see me again the day before he died, societal mandates shut me out of libraries, restaurants….. friends, my dance community flamed me. and the terror with abandonment trauma was next level annihilating. Quite touch and go. Next level lonely. Basket case tears anger grief sorrow disbelief hopelessness. Still building new life from the ashes. Next level. Anna, Your channel has helped me language the constant dysregulation. Own my triggers. It’s helped me understand what was happening. All my old tools went out the window and it was all consuming. Thank you so much for helping me feel less alone and so tooled up for a way forward.
@@WildTasmanian ~Yes, its really true, and there are millions of others that are in a similar situation as you~As time goes by, you will start to see you made the right choice, and you will likely meet others that made that same choice that you did!~
@@kathyingram3061 thank you! I know without a doubt it was the right decision. The pain of seeing so much suffering out there and watching so many illnesses and premature exits has also been harrowing! As has watching the programs play. Yet my trauma program of isolation is not helping feel connected to the others out there in my boat. I’ve met many yet feeling connection is still a struggle. Getting there! Thank you for your kind words. Xxx
@@WildTasmanian ~I know what you mean~Ive watched in horror, the worst atrocity in my lifetime, yet those around me either dont see it, or are in denial about it~It has been very traumatic, and theres very few ways to connect, or even mourn with others about it~I cant even bring it up to (almost) anyone i know?!?~So many around me are suffering horrid deteriorating health, yet have been convinced its not from 'that', from medical people, and they believe them~Its like WW3 is going on, right in front of our eyes, but few see it, and we cant even say we see it?!?~
Thank you for giving me a label I can use to describe how I'm feeling right now. I'm definitely in a trauma storm and have been since early 2023. I know the word "label" has a negative connotation but I desperately needed something to explain to myself what I'm going through. Thank you 💜 At a certain point, you begin to question whether or not this is your new reality and whether you'll ever be happy again and that is where I am today. Thank you, not only for the video but to everyone he shared their story. 💜
I noticed that the times I couldn't deal with life was when several difficult things happened at the same time. The last time that happened, ( Divorce, financial issues, my daughter's suicide attempts, new difficult job..) I managed to get through it by totally lowering my expectations of life. Being "able to stand up and nobody is dead" was all I needed to be ok.
Currently in the middle of a trauma storm. Mom was wandering the neighborhood and lost her memory so the cops were called on her, had to quit my job, getting ghosted in a relationship, dealing with flaring eczema. I would love to be able to sleep at night but I’m also dealing with bed bugs right now 🙃 somehow I’m still alive and going through this all
7 minutes in and it's like you crawled in my brain sorted out the last few years a bit and bang your describing me in every way after my ma died last year. It's a wild ride. I can't help but laugh at some of the descriptions this is speaking loudly to me. I need to stop and pause wait sometimes when watching you, I am so grateful to have found you but it's alot to process. I'm amazed this hit today.
Thank you so much! I’ve had trauma after trauma after trauma and it’s been a little while, but there’s residual fallout from it. I went to a therapist last year and she diagnosed with PTSD and now I’m ADHD and I never used to be, but she wasn’t trying enough to really help me. So thank you so much!I’m gonna keep listening! Just listening to this one has just given me comfort that I’m not crazy or I’m just not able to think straight and somethings wrong with me. So thank you so so much!
Funny how timely this is. Between going to a wedding where someone had a heart attack, being off work for almost ten months, having no income, having C-PTSD relapses, being screamed at in the middle of the street, waiting for my visa to be approved for America, being evicted, and having no clue how I'm meant to hold down a job and make a livelihood like this... I wish I could get some help. Drowning.
Sorry to hear you're going through so much. I've also found "when it rains, it pours" like Anna said in the video. The trauma storm is a real phenomenon! One step to start getting a handle on things: Daily Practice bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Julie@TeamFairy
I am smack dab in the middle of a trauma storm. It's so dreadful. I'm getting to the point where I am seeing that I have soooo much damage. I want to give up and quit. I feel trapped. I can't move forward or back. My issues are financial, medical, family, horrible trauma, burned all of my bridges...i can't stand it anymore.
Thank you for this video, it gave me a glimpse of peace of mind. I thought i regressed and lost all progress i made in my healing journey, but listening to you i am probably just experiencing a trauma storm...my dad suddenly discovered he had cancer and , and had 5 organs removed, lost my best friend to sudden death, lost a lot of money trusting friends i realised too late did not have my best interest at heart, and my partner checked out from the relationship over night, with no explanation or intention to reconnect. All in the span of two months. I felt so overwhelemd and lost...i started your daily practice and it's helping me a lot🙏
Definitely experiencing a trauma storm at the moment. Thank you for all of the tips and your videos are amazing. I just discovered this channel a couple days ago and I am watching every video. Can't wait to start the daily practice
this is whats happening to me right now im literally on the verge of crying all the time im awake and im barely getting a few hours of sleep when i get tired enough
Thank you for this. This video describes the last 3 yrs of my life perfectly. I was even starting to wonder if anyone else was ever been thru the same level of trauma as me. Cancer, abusive husband, my cat dying, leaving the marriage, having to quit a toxic job. It’s like a bad fiction novel. I’m just hoping it stops soon. But I’m glad you offered some tools to help deal with my mental load. Thank you!
Yes! Yes! Yes! I recently found out I have to have chemotherapy. This has triggered a bunch of old wounds that I thought I had laid to rest. I have figured that this ordeal will lead to some sort of emotional progress, once I am through it.
Author Pete Walker calls injury/illness the "existential trigger," and it absolutely can stir up trauma. You have a good attitude about it. Good luck to you! Try DP if you haven't. bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Julie@TeamFairy
I’ve been jumping rope for the last 2 weeks without rest days. Predominately for my mental health. Last night our dog died and I feel quite traumatised after seeing his body. This dysregulated me and I felt myself shut down. Couldn’t sleep much and I feel frozen. I’m taking a rest day today and maybe tomorrow. Thank you for this video ✨
I have those; disregulationdreams. I never knew that's what they were. Thank you for putting things into words once again and helping to understand things. That also helps me with not blaming myself, or even others
OMG, the series of events described from 3:45-4:55 are me EVERY DAY. In fact, it's so common that when I don't have a day like that, I feel like some kind of superhero. This is why I thought I had adult onset ADHD, because that bumbling around and forgetfulness were and are my norm. I wasn't like this as a teenager, but I can see the progress through my 20s & 30s... Then having a child REALLY did me in. If this is indeed connected to trauma, I must be in some kind of chronic trauma storm?? No idea.
@@CrappyChildhoodFairythanks, yes, I've already been doing the daily practice for a few months now. Dysregulation is definitely part of it, and chronically. Almost no end to this on most days.
I'm glad to hear you're doing DP! If you want tips on the finer points, or just to do with with a group of your fellows, join some of the free calls. This month they're on weekends. You're probably getting (lots) of emails from us. :) If you don't see the emails about the DP calls and want the schedule, email hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com. Julie@TeamFairy
I'm poor for the first time in my life at 61. Also on my own. I can barely get on social media because hearing people talk about buying things or traveling or doing anything fun just makes me sad now. I hate it.
I use their pillow. I love it. And organizing and keeping my apartment clean on a constant basis (I work at home and I have a severe trauma clutter thing since I was 18 and I'm in my 50's) has helped so much. And also a morning routine, literally bath, sauna, stuff like that, stretching. I am starting to feel much better even though I'm going thru a storm myself. Thanks Anna
Thank you Anna, this is super helpful!! Especially the reminder to be kind to myself and to take breaks from thinking. I recently realized that one of the reasons I get more dysregulated in summer is because it's too hot for my weighted blanket (which, if helpful for anyone: a one-person-sized blanket should be ~10% of your body weight). Love the recommendation about the superfancy sleeping mask too ❤
I’m friends with a person with borderline pd. She is the most disciplined person i’ve ever known with regard to doing all the steps you talk about to protect one’s mental health. She is very physically fit and active, is not a “screen time” person, is dutiful about sleep, her apartment walls are decorated with handmade motivational posters and uplifting knick-knacks. She really busts her butt to stay as healthy as possible. Yet she’s been in a mental health facility for 2 weeks, and a court date for even more involuntary commitment. As far as I can tell, reality is that for some people, childhood was simply too terrible to overcome. That is because some people have mental/emotional illness where one of the symptoms is inability to accept, let alone ask for, help. Their parents taught them that life was meant to be endured alone and in pain. It is such a tragedy I feel so deeply in my heart.
" ... where one of the symptoms is inability to accept, let alone ask for, help. Their parents taught them that life was meant to be endured alone and in pain." Whew. You said it and said it well. Thank you for sharing. Blessings to you & your friend. Julie@TeamFairy
This broke my heart. No matter how hard we may try, hardships come as an onslaught of troubles. And the reparations we have to commit to as an adult can be a tragedy all on its own. My heart goes out to you and your friend. ❤
Eckhart tolle did a video how to recover from trauma. He said his whole childhood was traumatic. But that when there's huge pain body we are pushed into Presence. It's a blessing in a way
This is more of a metaphysical question but why does this happen? Ive been noticing this with not just me but with everyone in my life are all going through trauma storms all at the same time. numerous things for everyone to manage at once. Its not just me. Its at least 17 people I know. Im highly convinced this if stemming from something unknown. its much too coincidental. Its not just related to one person maybe manifesting these traumas on a personal level, its widespread. its scary
I am going through a storm at the moment. The reason I am coping has a lot to do with daily practice and exercise. Also asking for help. Thank You Anna.
It has been a tough year. I've ended an emotionally abusive relationship that I was in for 7 years. When I found out I needed a kidney transplant, I married this man last year. I panicked. 3 months later, he betrayed me, and I asked him to leave since it was my house, and he never paid anything to live there. I ended up having to take a loan out to get him to leave. Old trauma choices of picking unavailable partners. There have been more health issues and family of origin problems. This man changed me in a way I needed to be changed deep in my core. It has been a transformation of my soul and my self-worth. I am taking time to look and feel and heal. My next relationship if I choose to have one will be with someone who is available and kind and wants to be with me for me. Anna, you have helped me define so many things in my life. I thought I was a crazy and flawed and just all around bad. You have helped me see how my alcoholic abusive upbringing affected me more than I thought and how to heal and become healthy and whole. Thank you ❤
Hello Anna! What a timely video. I just got out of a long relationship, moved to a new city, and am starting a new job. And right now I have to simply buy a pair of business casual shoes that I can wear to my new job. But for some reason, I’ve been freaking out and panicking about it. Maybe the reason why is because of a trauma storm. I have to admit I was scarfing down a brownie as I watched this video…
I started to hit my head, hard, against things, myself, I hate it. I am not sure why I feel so much but I am incredibly distraught and I don’t want to feel anymore
So frustrated right now. My son got mad at me for "staring at him" as he lay in a hospital bed waiting for emergency surgery. Jesus Christ I can't do anything right.
It seems like my life has just been a trauma storm. I don’t want to keep living if all my life is just pain all the time. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY! WHY CANT I JUST HAVE PEACE. This isn’t fair this isn’t fair. Why do I have to live like this. Why is god doing this to me? I don’t think I can continue living like this anymore
Ten years ago, I left a toxic ex in divorce. At the same time, because I was already in a trauma storm, I also isolated my two closest friends (one is back, the other remains estranged). I used to call it the maelstrom, and I had a song "Hurricane Season" by my favorite band, which described sailor out at sea in a storm, begging for his life. Unfortunately what happened is I met a new, just as toxic person, who acted as if he were helping, but who was actively taking advantage of my state, making things even worse. I finally broke free of all that in 2015 and have been working on healing ever since. However I once again have to thank you for your content, because I am still guilty of disordered sleeping, eating, playing video games too long - and this has been informative to me as I do get small spells of dysregulation where I reflect on that past obsessively. Now I know why! I need to go "touch some grass" as the kids say these days.
There's actually some truth in that "touch grass" internet dis ... it really does help to get some fresh air outside! You've made a good start, keep going! We'll cheer you on. Julie@TeamFairy
Oh my goodness. I did not understand why this was happening to me. I feel so scatterbrained and like I can't get anything done even though I'm stressed and busy all day
OMG, just having the term "trauma storm" is SO validating. My basic last two years have been a series of repeating trauma storms. Just being able to label it is helpful.
This is my third month of being in the storm. I got triggered at work then severely triggered by a family member. Worst PTSD symptoms I have ever had. The exhaustion is terrifying.
Hang in there. I know it's hard, because the triggered hypervigilance drains your energy faster than you can replenish it. Glad you're here! If you haven't already, you might try the Daily Practice, it might help you through a little. bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Julie@TeamFair
I’ve been in this state on and off since 2015. I hit crisis in Sept 2021 and it hasn’t stopped since. Divorce with follow up severe narcissistic boyfriend. Going no contact for the 2nd time 4 months ago. Trying to break the trauma bond.
Yes😢 I was in a very toxic relationship, it ended horrendously, I lost work, I got evicted...found a new place to libe which worked out worse and psycho landlord tossed us all out again...I 💔 broke big time. I was overseas alone. I lost everything, including health. Omg I wish I knew all this ptsd info and tools to regulate .❤❤❤❤
Yup this has happened to me since 2020, i say its like my trauma got stirred up inside, 2 broken relationships which were a nightmare but i got out of both really quickly which im proud of, then two family deaths ive been quite ill. Started counselling recently and seem more able to get out of depressive states because im taking actions. In fact thinking about it my dad died when my yoga teacher training course started, oh my that was hard last year, but i did it, now qualified
Haha, the airport dysregulated dream, I know that one soo well. It's a common theme in my dreams that I have a flight to catch, but I don't have much time to get to the airport, and things go wrong. I don't have my passport, I get on the wrong bus to the airport, I left my suitcase on the bus..
i just got absolutely triggered to the max about money because all i have is 30 dollars to the point where i threw my phone at the wall and completely broke it. so many bad things are happening and im just so glad that there are people talking through this online like this video
I got divorced in 2017 which ended my 14 year marriage and destroyed my whole adult life. My marriage ended because I couldn’t deal with my CPTSD and used alcohol to cope which tore my family and my inner self apart. My ex started a custody battle 8 mo after the divorce which completely threw everything off in my life- I went into a frozen state because everything was so scary and overwhelming. I have felt I have been in a constant trauma storm since all of this happened. I have had some amazing transformation at times but my life is at rock bottom. I am determined to rebuild but videos like this help shine light onto something I have experienced. Thank you for the video ❤
So glad you are here. You can rebuild. Try Anna's Daily Practice, it helps you deal with only the amount you can handle step by step. bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice Another option is ACA: adultchildren.org/ Julie@TeamFairy
This - Every. Single. Day. Is what it's like living with Autism/ADHD & Cptsd. Trying to get councelling & disability support has been as stressful as the trauma storm. 7 months in, still being sent in circles. I've asked for help from GP, nurse practitioner councellor, mental health services, family councelling services & even a depression call line. I'm over it. A bottle of whisky, talking shit, laughing & crying with friends is sounding alot better than the so called stupid effing professionals.
I am so sorry to hear you’re experiencing all of this. It’s a lot you’re dealing with. I’m not sure of your faith or belief system, but I promise you are never truly alone. Isaiah 41:10 💕 one thing at a time. Sometimes we endure these battles not to suffer alone, but to learn how to heal ourselves. I pray that the right people, healers, doctors, and resources will be brought to you to help you find peace, safety in your being, and a deep sense of joy in life.
Been there, done that. For me, Jesus healed it ALL and gave/given me abundant life. Faith based recovery IS where it's at. Just sayin. Blessings and prayers. ✌🥰
* Not going to go on a drunken bender! That's not a solution, it's just me being sarcastic & grumpy. Having a rant about going to all of the places that are supposedly meant to help, just to be told "oh, we don't deal with THAT type of trauma here". Back to square one again, it's frustrating asf. Have an appointment to go back to the nurse councellor practitioner next week, taking a friend advocate with this time. 💖 Thank you for your kind thoughts & encouragement crappy family.
“Trauma storm” is a good phrase. Sometimes our pain is because of what we did, and now we’re facing the consequences. But sometimes spit happens and life is simply painful. There’s a certain type of self-help guru that makes the claim YOU are in control and nobody can make you feel bad without your consent. Some self-help gurus are dopes 🤨
i already sleep with earplugs and eye mask (like cheap one), becouse i wasnt able to sleep any different. i though about weighted blanked. Liike always - perfect timing Fairy, lots of love for everyone 🌸
You are a blessing, I did not know about the trauma storm, and had a breakdown and are dealing now with the aftermath. I am going to use your valued advice to get back to regulated.
Thank you - I am doing your daily tasks course now. Did my first meditation and feel a bit more centered. Bless you as I did not know about you until I stumbled onto you on UA-cam.
Feels like a fog whereby activities of daily living are now mountainous. Even moreso if you have more things to do now. It's a necessary phase as it brought me to knowing why I'm repeating a pattern & why I attract narcissists, more importantly what I can do to change that ! Now we can learn to master ourselves. Thanks again Anna 🙏🏼😇🕊️
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy I'm resourceful in finding those who KNOW & understand & I've always been so resourceful for others, so nows a time to be resourceful for focusing on my own healing for a welcomed change . So wonderful when individuals as yourself can inspire us like this. Keep Shining ; I know you will 🎶💖🌟
Dear Anna, I've never felt so understood in my life than when I watch your and Patrick's videos! I just want to say that I finally worked up he will to try the daily practice, and though I don't do it daily (I have another strategy that makes it possible for me not to be overly dependant on it), and oh my god, the bliss it brings about is so wonderful! Thank you so much for doing what you do! You've given me hope when I have given up and you've helped me help myself and find some peace. I'm very grateful ) :)
❤ I, too, have found immense introspection, learning, resources from Anna and Patrick, and recently I've come across Heidi Priebe's channel, and I feel like the three of them are like this amazing healing trinity In my life! 🔼
@@wendy645 amen
Yes! Wonderful to hear & I agree Anna is helpful beyond words 💥
May I ask who Patrick is? Thanks ❤❤❤
@@naturalist369 Patrick Teahan. He's a trauma specialist :)
@@naturalist369I think they are referring to Patrick Teahan. Like Anna, he has a fantastic UA-cam channel about healing trauma.
These are some of my symptoms:
-Over eating as source of self soothing.
-Teeth Grinding at Night
-being trapped in my dreams and waking up having panic attacks
I have been grinding my teeth for over 50 yrs. Now 69 yrs old. Still wear a mouthpiece .. wonder if it is CPTSD related?
Thanks for your commentary.
Regards, Allan (South Africa)
Lost in a trauma storm after losing my (grand)mother, experiencing SA, amidst housing instability and food insecurity, and legal battles. I've been feeling like I am not strong enough, and highly sensitive to literally everything! My dreams have been confusing nightmares, so my sleep has been horrible. This video is timely and so needed. Thank you, Anna.
I'm so sorry all of this is going on in your life, friend! 😢 I know there's nothing In physically/tangibly able to do to help, but please know I'm holding you in peaceful, healing energy. ❤ I sincerely hope you find yourself breaking through soon!
You sound like me. In the middle of major trauma storms and alone and broke to boot. Scarry times for many of us.
Glad Anna is here with a nice community. I'm always ready to learn and improve!
Have a great week, everyone!!!
Please take good care of yourselves, ladies. 🌷🙂
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This is me right now too. Two of my cats just died, my car was stolen & I'm being forced to move. I'm having to hire ppl to help me pack & clean because I'm so overwhelmed & have mobility issues & chronic pain. I've been completely alone for 3 years, no one to talk with or rely on to help. Wake up with extreme anxiety at 2 am after only 4 hours of sleep. Just wanted to write this out in hopes it helps somehow.
At the same time I'm very aware of the huge struggles so many others are going through & it breaks my heart. Prayers & love out to those facing these challenges ❤️🙏❤️
Ways Anna mentioned to get through a trauma storm:
1. protect sleep and watch caffeine intake, screen before bed, etc.
2. eat dinner food e.g. cooked, protein. Easy on fast carbs such as bread and sweets
3. go outside and move around. Walking is great, running or working up a sweat is even better. Get sunlight upon waking if possible, but at other times of the day is also good enough
4. be selective about talking about your trauma. Write about it, read it out to somebody if it's a good choice
5. have a friend to triage
6. use the rare moments of focus to do small things such as taking out the trash
7. clear one table with favourite things
8. keep up with tactile ways to regulate
9. give yourself permission to do nothing, but don't get hypnotized by TV, angry conversations, etc. Get off and do something else every 1.5 hour or so
10. healing box to put three to five things in life that are difficult to get the problem off the mind to rest the mind
11. in advance, write down what you need to help you through for friends who can help
12. continue to do the daily practice (free course offered by Anna Runkel)
Best of luck, everyone. 💞
Thank you for the list, it helps me to write down this list too.
Thank you 😭 🙏
My brain is in a blender and the list is my Holy Grail at the moment bc I'm messing up badly
Yup. I'm definitely in a trauma storm right now because my life has been falling apart for months. I'm so overwhelmed by all of this.
JANEY, WHAT DO YOU MEAN?
In stressful times healthy habits are key, aren't they? Breathing, taking breaks, eating well, exercise, journaling, prayer, and listening to inspiring teachers like you have gotten me through (and music of course!). I throw a "party of one" turn on Salsa, dance around, make dinner, celebrate life, it lifts my spirits. Then I fall into bed and pray thanking God for another day, and get up and do it again (hopefully). Thanks for filling in the blanks Anna
Thanks for your comment! I also enjoy a Personal Dance Party as catharsis. :)
Julie@TeamFairy
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Amazing
I'm in it. It's lasting forever and I am just so tired.
Hang in there! You'll make it through. We are rooting for you! If you haven't already, you can check out Anna's DP, it can help with overwhelm. Free Daily Practice Course: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Julie@TeamFairy
Oh wow. I thought I was the only one who suffered like this. Wow. Thank you for explaining this so well and helping me feel validated and understood.
Me too
22:57 This reminds me of when I was at my deepest depression many years back and I was running from one counselor to another trying to pull myself out of the hole I was in. I was very confused and had no idea what was wrong or what I should do. All I knew was that everything was a mess and I was extremely unhappy and depressed and put on the wrong antidepressants (4X) and nothing was going right and I was panicking. The first thing they would ALL ask me is "so what is the problem, what can I do for you" and in my head I would be like "I don't effin' know I'm here because I can't help myself and I need assistance and direction I'm exhausted and I don't know what to do. If I knew what was the problem and what I needed I wouldn't be here seeing you, I'd just work it out myself and fix it." It's often very very hard when you're in the depths of a mental crisis you didn't see coming and at your absolute weakest mentally to know what you need, and it's really annoying when someone asks you to explain exactly what's going on and what you need.
Extremely relatable comment. Thank you for sharing. It sounds like you have a little more space now, good for you hanging in there. If you want another tool, Anna's Daily Practice can be useful for sifting through the overwhelm in life. Free Daily Practice Course: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Julie@TeamFairy
We are all just doing the best we can,even the irritating people who ask you what you need. Sometimes, when we are at a low point, we get so focused on our own troubles we forget that we are one of millions. What may seem devastating to one, might not severely impact another. But you can be certain of this one truth,others have probably suffered more and worse. Nothing good comes from defeatism. Life is hard , but tomorrow is a brand new day filled with opportunity that only you can can accept or reject. It truly is all about you. Love yourself , be good to yourself. Look at that person in your mirror and say, “ you are worth it”.
Soooo relatable! It always made me think "isn't that your job that you ask me to do now?". But to me, exactly that is also a reminder to look for non verbal clues to what's going on while you're just observing someone needing your help later on in life. People with their own experience, both with what hurts and traumatizes, and with what helps and what doesn't, in your journey to healing, are priceless really. ❤
This holiday we experienced several bad things one after the other and we cannot fathom why. It's really affected me because this has happened every new year the past few years and it's actually made me hate the end of year holidays. I also spend a lot of time sabotaging myself which has meant I've lost amazing opportunities in the past few months. I just want to stay indoors for a long time so I can feel normal again and be away from the world that keeps trying to harm us.
Wow very insightful! I experienced the sudden death of a very close friend, losing my job of 15 years (which I loved), and a cancer diagnosis all within 6 months…and then the past few years dealt with the loss of my father, loss of a romantic relationship, loss of my beloved pet, caring for my mother with dementia, 4 surgeries and more. I’m still waiting for all this loss to lead to something beautiful ❤
Ugh, that is so much. You are doing great, just being here. Thank you for sharing with us. If you haven't already, check out DP & thanks again for being with us.
bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Julie@TeamFairy
My goodness, I relate to you so much, have been going through a very similar series of events..I feel you. Wish you strength, courage and grace❤
The timing of this video is unreal. Thank you for your insights and wisdom.
This couldn't have come out at a better time, life has really been putting me through the ringer. I feel so helpless and afraid of everything that I can't see a way out. I really just needed some kind of guidance because im drowning rn.
Perfect timing! I had a huge trauma storm with 3 parts to it. First part was with my partner and we had a huge fight. I needed a safe place to retreat to so I went to my mom’s that turned out to be a disaster and it re-triggered childhood trauma. I had always that that my narcissistic dad was the issue growing up but when I stayed with my mom, I realized just how controlling and demeaning she was. By then, I was in a full meltdown but I had to travel some distance to get home, including taking a ferry which was delayed. I had communicated to my partner who knew I was coming back and had expressed that I would need some help when I got home. When I finally arrived, he was nowhere to be found, the house was filthy and my precious plants and flowers were half dead. I just melted into a puddle of tears that I couldn’t stop. I felt so defeated and unsupported. I somehow found the energy to sweep the floor in my room, put on some fresh bedding, closed the curtains, drank some water and put in my earplugs and put my sleep mask on and surrounded myself with pillows to feel tucked in. I didn’t have the strength to drag my super heavy queen sized weight yes blanket (like the one you hated lol) onto the bed. Time was a blur was a few days but I gradually was able to put some structure in place and then finally was able to have a very cathartic conversation with my partner about what had happened at my mom’s. We’ve been doing much better since then so I do see the gift of the trauma storm as it cleared so much energy and enabled me to be vulnerable instead of defended. ❤❤
Thank you for sharing. So relatable to be in a "trauma storm" and make the mistake of turning to "the good parent" in a dysfunctional family only to be disappointed yet again. Sounds like you had great self-protective instincts to care for yourself when you got home so you could start to cope. Good luck to you & your partner. Julie@TeamFairy
@Akribelasurfacing Oh boy do I relate. Early this year my sister started a huge fight out of nowhere, let her mask slip -- and I've slowly realized she wasn't JUST the golden child, but she's also a narcissist, just a more well disguised one than my Mom was. Until just a couple weeks ago I thought "at least my Dad was not actively abusive, he just modeled codependent behavior..." But she triangulated him and stepmom into the drama. When I tried to do some really clean non-violent communication with them about that, I just got a lecture back from him, as if he *hadn't actually understood a word I wrote!* And I suddenly remembered, "wow, I totally remember him doing this to me as a teenager..."
Great video as always. A few years back I was hospitalized four times. Three of which I was admitted to six days in the inpatient psychiatric program. Upon being discharged from my 3rd inpatient hospitalization, I returned to work. It didn’t take long to realize that I was not functioning at an optimal, familiar level. I was struggling to complete even the easiest of tasks. Tasks became foreign and warped. What would normally take 10 minutes to complete, it took me four to five times as long. While I had an excellent therapist and support system, I eventually quit my job within a few months of returning back to work.
After some research, I came upon some scholarly articles relating to my experience. What I initially thought were symptoms of depressions and anxiety, turned out to be the equivalent of early dementia. Though I’m not formally diagnosed, I am certain that I experienced depression induced dementia. For those who don’t know the symptoms, it's close to what I imagine to be the equivalent of hell. The symptoms include but are not limited to: some loss of motor function, working memory, comprehension and speech ( I could’t vocalize what I was thinking). I was convinced that this would be permanent and lifelong. I was also convinced that I will never hold a job or live a fulfilling life. I spent the next few months recovering and trying to come back to the old me.
Though I can say that I am back to somewhat ‘normal’, I will never be the old me. But what I can say is that God has been with me the whole way. Flashback to my first admission to inpatient, I remember the team of psychiatrist showing some concern because I was not participating in the group activities. I was mostly isolating myself because I had become completely indifferent to what I was going through and in a sense, showing flat affect. I recall having a hard time processing what the doctors and psychiatrist were trying to help me with. Nothing was helping or sinking in. Until about the third night there. I was sulking in my bed when a very distinct voice said “I am with you”. I knew instantly that it was God speaking to me. This voice had a piercing and awaking affect. While this voice gave me hope, I was dumbfounded and confused. Mainly because I had no way of knowing how I was to be freed from the ensnaring nature of mental illness. I knew it was going to be a long journey to recovery and independence.
However, through every brutal hospitalization that was to come, came that same voice, reminding me that God’s hand is in my life. That voice has propelled me to where I am today. Though I still personally experience mental illness, I am no longer where I was 4 years ago. Miraculously, my depression induced dementia is long gone. I am working at a fulfilling job and utilizing resources to help me through my healing process. Whenever I doubt where I am in my recovery journey, I think back to those hospital days. “God is with me”.
Amen. Thank you for sharing this. My faith has brought me through a lot as well. It's the only hope we truly have. 🙏💖
Thank you for helping to remind me of the things I "should" be doing. During these storms it is so hard to think clearly and then my OCD becomes like a child chasing a ball into the street. The ball had become my focus vs stopping to look both ways. I knew I was disregulated but I was failing to realize just how badly disregulated I am
Thank you for keeping me from metaphorically being run over today and helping me back safely to the sidewalk... your timing could not have been more perfect for me today.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
She's talking about what I am going through right now. In details 😢
I did a lot of work on "my stuff" in my thirties and I was very successful and it helped me recognize a healthy relationship\marriage. I had some challenges but I recognized them for what they were. What I didn't see coming or recognize was getting old (losing your parents, losing a compliant body, becoming the older generation) could retrigger so much childhood garbage I thought I had already dealt with. I am glad I found your channel and this video in particular because I have been trapped in a trauma storm for too long...I don't like me when I am like this. I can see how I am already doing some of the things you suggest and they help, but I needed more. Now I have more things to try, thanks.
I can relate.
Just the type of videos I need my mother was diagnosed with stage four cancer a few weeks ago and it’s not going well. I’m very does regulated so your information is helpful.
I saw the video notification and title and immediately clicked on it. My husband and I are in the midst of an ongoing trauma storm and this video gave so many good pieces of advice. Thank you for posting it and for all you do to help others.
This is a very timely video for me right now, thank you. My blood panel was explained to me a few days ago, to understand this blurry chronic fatigue and overwhelm I've had a long time now: my adrenals are burnt out again, like when I was handling a home sale, moving, legal processes, and caring for my late spouse with Alzheimer's. I'm back on adrenal supplements, and reviewing what causes this: emotional and mental stress (you'd think after what I've been through I'd have recognized this on my own). Right now there are two major sources of anxiety and stress for me: the ongoing risk of catastrophic fires in my area and our place needing more fire-resistance; and, the growing threat of white supremacist cults in our country. Ours is a rural area which unhappily attracts that mind-set. In a nutshell: I'm afraid of some of my neighbors, and I'm afraid of fire. My healing strategy: I've cut WAY back on the news I consume, to just minimal, bare bones info; I greet all neighbors with a smile and wave and AVOID political topics; and we're replacing flammable house siding with stucco. Plus I'm doing most of what you advise in this video. It's all important, and it's all helping. Thanks again.
I am sending you some prayers from the UK.
"white supremacists" ....... turn off the main stream media...... they're lying to you.
1:45 Trauma storm leads to transformation. And each time that trauma storm happens you end up on a higher level and then another trauma storm comes to challenge you to go higher. A blossoming happens
TS are powerful points of growth
Teetering on the edge as I face an enormous trauma storm. This was an absolute God send . Thank you Anna. You are gifted and talented. It's your spot on articulation of speaking from experience that hits me right between the eyes. Everything you say makes perfect sense.
I'm trying to keep it together through a "trauma storm" right now. I am grateful you touched so beautifully on exactly what I'm going through currently!!! It's felt like "too much" like ADD exponentially, when i need to be so very present and focused!!!!! You are a gift from God Anna!!!!!!
Perfect timing omg your videos find me whenever im going through something terrible
You are such a humane and kind person. I am truly grateful to you
This is what happened with my ex (abusive family, horrible job conditions, health crisis and someone manipulating him it seems)...
he pushed all of us away, his friends, his family, me as a partner - everything.
I still hope he is doing better now and that, one day, he might raech out to me again. I miss him so damn much and would love to support him.
OMG!!!!! This is so me right now. I got a PO on my narc kids father and he texted me from a differnt number and talked back to him ended up dropping the PO and i knew better i knew i shouldmt of and did it amyways and ive been in a trauma storm ever since.
Wow. Trauma storm. I recognize that in me.
I have to have it dark to sleep also. I use a soft t-shirt over my eyes, & cover all the LEDs. I put something over the night light in the bathroom, so it doesn't get me too awake when I'm up in the night. I run a fan for white noise.
There is one thing I can listen to that helps! Books on tape! It forces me to focus on the story and I drift off.
As a kid, I didn't realize I was making my own weighted blanket by piling several wool blankets on my bed. I don't seem to need that anymore.
Thanks for another great video! ❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing! TeamFairy
I don't have energy to have a routine. Always barely functioning. Don't know how I've lived this long. Into my 50's... doing all things alone is really tough, when you can't walk well anymore due to a vaccine injury. Your parents and family see you struggle and do nothing. Dumped by them... i did nothing to them... so i sit and cry alone alot. No one gets how living this way is. It's horrid. But... it is sooo much better without them. I WAS their scapegoat. Blessings in disguise, at first, I didn't realize it. 😃 😊 😔
Sending you so much love. I relate.
@@WildTasmanian Ty. ❤️
Holy crap where was this last week!
Made a terrible mistake at work where I thought I was going to get fired, and in the middle of trying to fix it, I had a family member pass away.
Needless to say, this was a trauma storm for sure where I was severely disregulated and barely functioning. Pretty much everything you lost to do I didn’t do. 😅
Will definitely keep this video handy in case this ever happens again.
Here's to learning and growing. You will have more power now. Glad you're here. Julie@TeamFairy
I've always had dreams in which I need to go somewhere important/urgent, but everyone/everything gets in the way and keeps me from getting where I need to be.
I didn’t take the medicine dished up these last two years. I left my adopted country half a world away, relationship, bonus children, and started rebuilding a new life back in australia, then due to mandates I lost my new job, was shamed by my family, sisters cut me out of their life because of it, my dad shamed me and told me he’d never see me again the day before he died, societal mandates shut me out of libraries, restaurants….. friends, my dance community flamed me. and the terror with abandonment trauma was next level annihilating. Quite touch and go. Next level lonely. Basket case tears anger grief sorrow disbelief hopelessness. Still building new life from the ashes. Next level. Anna, Your channel has helped me language the constant dysregulation. Own my triggers. It’s helped me understand what was happening. All my old tools went out the window and it was all consuming. Thank you so much for helping me feel less alone and so tooled up for a way forward.
~I know all of that was really awful, but you made the right choice!~♡~
@@kathyingram3061 thank you so much Kathy. Supportive words still make me emotional!! ❤️❤️❤️🙏 Janine
@@WildTasmanian ~Yes, its really true, and there are millions of others that are in a similar situation as you~As time goes by, you will start to see you made the right choice, and you will likely meet others that made that same choice that you did!~
@@kathyingram3061 thank you! I know without a doubt it was the right decision. The pain of seeing so much suffering out there and watching so many illnesses and premature exits has also been harrowing! As has watching the programs play. Yet my trauma program of isolation is not helping feel connected to the others out there in my boat. I’ve met many yet feeling connection is still a struggle. Getting there! Thank you for your kind words. Xxx
@@WildTasmanian ~I know what you mean~Ive watched in horror, the worst atrocity in my lifetime, yet those around me either dont see it, or are in denial about it~It has been very traumatic, and theres very few ways to connect, or even mourn with others about it~I cant even bring it up to (almost) anyone i know?!?~So many around me are suffering horrid deteriorating health, yet have been convinced its not from 'that', from medical people, and they believe them~Its like WW3 is going on, right in front of our eyes, but few see it, and we cant even say we see it?!?~
Thank you for giving me a label I can use to describe how I'm feeling right now. I'm definitely in a trauma storm and have been since early 2023. I know the word "label" has a negative connotation but I desperately needed something to explain to myself what I'm going through. Thank you 💜
At a certain point, you begin to question whether or not this is your new reality and whether you'll ever be happy again and that is where I am today. Thank you, not only for the video but to everyone he shared their story. 💜
I noticed that the times I couldn't deal with life was when several difficult things happened at the same time. The last time that happened, ( Divorce, financial issues, my daughter's suicide attempts, new difficult job..) I managed to get through it by totally lowering my expectations of life. Being "able to stand up and nobody is dead" was all I needed to be ok.
1:09 with new problems “old trauma wounds can kinda “back-flow” into your life again.” Back-flow is a great phrase for sure. I can smell it.
Currently in the middle of a trauma storm. Mom was wandering the neighborhood and lost her memory so the cops were called on her, had to quit my job, getting ghosted in a relationship, dealing with flaring eczema. I would love to be able to sleep at night but I’m also dealing with bed bugs right now 🙃 somehow I’m still alive and going through this all
7 minutes in and it's like you crawled in my brain sorted out the last few years a bit and bang your describing me in every way after my ma died last year. It's a wild ride. I can't help but laugh at some of the descriptions this is speaking loudly to me. I need to stop and pause wait sometimes when watching you, I am so grateful to have found you but it's alot to process. I'm amazed this hit today.
The Healing Box is such a great idea, Anna! Thank you. I'm going to do that this week!
SO HELPFUL! Thank you, Anna.
Thank you so much! I’ve had trauma after trauma after trauma and it’s been a little while, but there’s residual fallout from it. I went to a therapist last year and she diagnosed with PTSD and now I’m ADHD and I never used to be, but she wasn’t trying enough to really help me. So thank you so much!I’m gonna keep listening! Just listening to this one has just given me comfort that I’m not crazy or I’m just not able to think straight and somethings wrong with me. So thank you so so much!
Funny how timely this is. Between going to a wedding where someone had a heart attack, being off work for almost ten months, having no income, having C-PTSD relapses, being screamed at in the middle of the street, waiting for my visa to be approved for America, being evicted, and having no clue how I'm meant to hold down a job and make a livelihood like this...
I wish I could get some help. Drowning.
Sorry to hear you're going through so much. I've also found "when it rains, it pours" like Anna said in the video. The trauma storm is a real phenomenon! One step to start getting a handle on things: Daily Practice bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Julie@TeamFairy
How'd you know I needed this today? 😅 Thanks Anna
I got 25 years in recovery and sponsored 100 people or more and I say this because I can say you are on point.
I am smack dab in the middle of a trauma storm. It's so dreadful. I'm getting to the point where I am seeing that I have soooo much damage. I want to give up and quit. I feel trapped. I can't move forward or back. My issues are financial, medical, family, horrible trauma, burned all of my bridges...i can't stand it anymore.
We really understand. Using the Daily Practice as a tool can be really helpful. bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
-Cara@TeamFairy
Thank you for this video, it gave me a glimpse of peace of mind. I thought i regressed and lost all progress i made in my healing journey, but listening to you i am probably just experiencing a trauma storm...my dad suddenly discovered he had cancer and , and had 5 organs removed, lost my best friend to sudden death, lost a lot of money trusting friends i realised too late did not have my best interest at heart, and my partner checked out from the relationship over night, with no explanation or intention to reconnect. All in the span of two months. I felt so overwhelemd and lost...i started your daily practice and it's helping me a lot🙏
You're welcome! Happy to hear the Daily Practice has been helpful for you. Keep up the great work!
Nika@TeamFairy
Definitely experiencing a trauma storm at the moment. Thank you for all of the tips and your videos are amazing. I just discovered this channel a couple days ago and I am watching every video. Can't wait to start the daily practice
this is whats happening to me right now im literally on the verge of crying all the time im awake and im barely getting a few hours of sleep when i get tired enough
I hope you're having a better day today.
Me too there is too much
Me too!!
Thank you for this. This video describes the last 3 yrs of my life perfectly. I was even starting to wonder if anyone else was ever been thru the same level of trauma as me. Cancer, abusive husband, my cat dying, leaving the marriage, having to quit a toxic job. It’s like a bad fiction novel. I’m just hoping it stops soon. But I’m glad you offered some tools to help deal with my mental load. Thank you!
Painting or black-taping a pair of medical wrap-around sunglasses can also be quite helpful keeping the light out.
Yes! Yes! Yes! I recently found out I have to have chemotherapy. This has triggered a bunch of old wounds that I thought I had laid to rest. I have figured that this ordeal will lead to some sort of emotional progress, once I am through it.
Author Pete Walker calls injury/illness the "existential trigger," and it absolutely can stir up trauma. You have a good attitude about it. Good luck to you! Try DP if you haven't.
bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Julie@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy I recently picked up his book. Thanks.
i have trauma storm about once every 2 months, i
feel exhausted after the storms. But life goes on.
I’ve been jumping rope for the last 2 weeks without rest days. Predominately for my mental health.
Last night our dog died and I feel quite traumatised after seeing his body. This dysregulated me and I felt myself shut down. Couldn’t sleep much and I feel frozen.
I’m taking a rest day today and maybe tomorrow. Thank you for this video ✨
I have those; disregulationdreams. I never knew that's what they were. Thank you for putting things into words once again and helping to understand things. That also helps me with not blaming myself, or even others
Going through the worst trauma storm of my anxiety and fear driven life. Off to bed now...will watch this tomorrow.
OMG, the series of events described from 3:45-4:55 are me EVERY DAY. In fact, it's so common that when I don't have a day like that, I feel like some kind of superhero. This is why I thought I had adult onset ADHD, because that bumbling around and forgetfulness were and are my norm. I wasn't like this as a teenager, but I can see the progress through my 20s & 30s... Then having a child REALLY did me in. If this is indeed connected to trauma, I must be in some kind of chronic trauma storm?? No idea.
Very possibly dysregulation. Anna's free tool can help with this kind of stuff. Free Daily Practice Course: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Julie@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairythanks, yes, I've already been doing the daily practice for a few months now. Dysregulation is definitely part of it, and chronically. Almost no end to this on most days.
I'm glad to hear you're doing DP! If you want tips on the finer points, or just to do with with a group of your fellows, join some of the free calls. This month they're on weekends. You're probably getting (lots) of emails from us. :) If you don't see the emails about the DP calls and want the schedule, email hello@crappychildhoodfairy.com. Julie@TeamFairy
I'm poor for the first time in my life at 61. Also on my own. I can barely get on social media because hearing people talk about buying things or traveling or doing anything fun just makes me sad now. I hate it.
I'm somewhat new to the channel. I appreciate you so much! These videos help me so much.
❤
Thank you Miss Anna.
I am kinda in a trauma storm right now... Thanks Anna for the guidance 🙏🏾🫂
I use their pillow. I love it. And organizing and keeping my apartment clean on a constant basis (I work at home and I have a severe trauma clutter thing since I was 18 and I'm in my 50's) has helped so much. And also a morning routine, literally bath, sauna, stuff like that, stretching. I am starting to feel much better even though I'm going thru a storm myself. Thanks Anna
Thank you Anna, this is super helpful!! Especially the reminder to be kind to myself and to take breaks from thinking. I recently realized that one of the reasons I get more dysregulated in summer is because it's too hot for my weighted blanket (which, if helpful for anyone: a one-person-sized blanket should be ~10% of your body weight). Love the recommendation about the superfancy sleeping mask too ❤
Sounds like what has been going on with me for the last 2+ years non stop
Starr, 2yrs.!!😮😮 wish I could erase it all for you ❤
I feel you.
storm right on . perfect timing. thanks
Thank you-I've been experiencing and didn't know it was a "thing"-I just thought that I was in hell.
Healing is all great but honestly, life and bills need to be done so you cant heal properly.
I’m friends with a person with borderline pd. She is the most disciplined person i’ve ever known with regard to doing all the steps you talk about to protect one’s mental health. She is very physically fit and active, is not a “screen time” person, is dutiful about sleep, her apartment walls are decorated with handmade motivational posters and uplifting knick-knacks. She really busts her butt to stay as healthy as possible.
Yet she’s been in a mental health facility for 2 weeks, and a court date for even more involuntary commitment. As far as I can tell, reality is that for some people, childhood was simply too terrible to overcome. That is because some people have mental/emotional illness where one of the symptoms is inability to accept, let alone ask for, help. Their parents taught them that life was meant to be endured alone and in pain. It is such a tragedy I feel so deeply in my heart.
" ... where one of the symptoms is inability to accept, let alone ask for, help. Their parents taught them that life was meant to be endured alone and in pain."
Whew. You said it and said it well. Thank you for sharing. Blessings to you & your friend. Julie@TeamFairy
This broke my heart. No matter how hard we may try, hardships come as an onslaught of troubles. And the reparations we have to commit to as an adult can be a tragedy all on its own. My heart goes out to you and your friend. ❤
Eckhart tolle did a video how to recover from trauma. He said his whole childhood was traumatic. But that when there's huge pain body we are pushed into Presence. It's a blessing in a way
Perfect timing thanks
This is more of a metaphysical question but why does this happen? Ive been noticing this with not just me but with everyone in my life are all going through trauma storms all at the same time. numerous things for everyone to manage at once. Its not just me. Its at least 17 people I know. Im highly convinced this if stemming from something unknown. its much too coincidental. Its not just related to one person maybe manifesting these traumas on a personal level, its widespread. its scary
I am going through a storm at the moment. The reason I am coping has a lot to do with daily practice and exercise. Also asking for help. Thank You Anna.
It has been a tough year. I've ended an emotionally abusive relationship that I was in for 7 years. When I found out I needed a kidney transplant, I married this man last year. I panicked. 3 months later, he betrayed me, and I asked him to leave since it was my house, and he never paid anything to live there. I ended up having to take a loan out to get him to leave. Old trauma choices of picking unavailable partners. There have been more health issues and family of origin problems. This man changed me in a way I needed to be changed deep in my core. It has been a transformation of my soul and my self-worth. I am taking time to look and feel and heal. My next relationship if I choose to have one will be with someone who is available and kind and wants to be with me for me. Anna, you have helped me define so many things in my life. I thought I was a crazy and flawed and just all around bad. You have helped me see how my alcoholic abusive upbringing affected me more than I thought and how to heal and become healthy and whole. Thank you ❤
Hello Anna! What a timely video. I just got out of a long relationship, moved to a new city, and am starting a new job. And right now I have to simply buy a pair of business casual shoes that I can wear to my new job. But for some reason, I’ve been freaking out and panicking about it. Maybe the reason why is because of a trauma storm. I have to admit I was scarfing down a brownie as I watched this video…
I started to hit my head, hard, against things, myself, I hate it. I am not sure why I feel so much but I am incredibly distraught and I don’t want to feel anymore
Yep. Lost job. Lost friend’s child in death. Filed for divorce. Dog died. Lost new job.
I have the 25lbs weighted blanket. I love it! It calms me and i feel like its a strong loving hug.
So frustrated right now. My son got mad at me for "staring at him" as he lay in a hospital bed waiting for emergency surgery. Jesus Christ I can't do anything right.
I’m sooo there now! But trying to handle it like one of my son’s video games! Prayer definitely helps!
Hang in there folks…🫵🏼🐝🙏🏼
I lost my mother to cancer in mid June then my childhood best (furry) friend of 16,5 years all the while struggling financially. It really pours😞
It seems like my life has just been a trauma storm. I don’t want to keep living if all my life is just pain all the time. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY! WHY CANT I JUST HAVE PEACE. This isn’t fair this isn’t fair. Why do I have to live like this. Why is god doing this to me? I don’t think I can continue living like this anymore
Ten years ago, I left a toxic ex in divorce. At the same time, because I was already in a trauma storm, I also isolated my two closest friends (one is back, the other remains estranged). I used to call it the maelstrom, and I had a song "Hurricane Season" by my favorite band, which described sailor out at sea in a storm, begging for his life. Unfortunately what happened is I met a new, just as toxic person, who acted as if he were helping, but who was actively taking advantage of my state, making things even worse. I finally broke free of all that in 2015 and have been working on healing ever since. However I once again have to thank you for your content, because I am still guilty of disordered sleeping, eating, playing video games too long - and this has been informative to me as I do get small spells of dysregulation where I reflect on that past obsessively. Now I know why! I need to go "touch some grass" as the kids say these days.
There's actually some truth in that "touch grass" internet dis ... it really does help to get some fresh air outside! You've made a good start, keep going! We'll cheer you on.
Julie@TeamFairy
Oh my goodness. I did not understand why this was happening to me. I feel so scatterbrained and like I can't get anything done even though I'm stressed and busy all day
Same here Amanda! Scatterbrained is exactly the word, while having a lot to do.
OMG, just having the term "trauma storm" is SO validating. My basic last two years have been a series of repeating trauma storms. Just being able to label it is helpful.
I'm so glad the video was helpful! We're all rooting for you :) -Calista@TeamFairy
This is my third month of being in the storm. I got triggered at work then severely triggered by a family member. Worst PTSD symptoms I have ever had. The exhaustion is terrifying.
Hang in there. I know it's hard, because the triggered hypervigilance drains your energy faster than you can replenish it. Glad you're here! If you haven't already, you might try the Daily Practice, it might help you through a little. bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Julie@TeamFair
I’ve been in this state on and off since 2015.
I hit crisis in Sept 2021 and it hasn’t stopped since. Divorce with follow up severe narcissistic boyfriend. Going no contact for the 2nd time 4 months ago. Trying to break the trauma bond.
Yes😢 I was in a very toxic relationship, it ended horrendously, I lost work, I got evicted...found a new place to libe which worked out worse and psycho landlord tossed us all out again...I 💔 broke big time. I was overseas alone. I lost everything, including health. Omg I wish I knew all this ptsd info and tools to regulate .❤❤❤❤
Yup this has happened to me since 2020, i say its like my trauma got stirred up inside, 2 broken relationships which were a nightmare but i got out of both really quickly which im proud of, then two family deaths ive been quite ill. Started counselling recently and seem more able to get out of depressive states because im taking actions. In fact thinking about it my dad died when my yoga teacher training course started, oh my that was hard last year, but i did it, now qualified
I feel like I've been in a trauma storm for a very long time
Haha, the airport dysregulated dream, I know that one soo well. It's a common theme in my dreams that I have a flight to catch, but I don't have much time to get to the airport, and things go wrong. I don't have my passport, I get on the wrong bus to the airport, I left my suitcase on the bus..
Yes, that's the one!
i just got absolutely triggered to the max about money because all i have is 30 dollars to the point where i threw my phone at the wall and completely broke it. so many bad things are happening and im just so glad that there are people talking through this online like this video
I got divorced in 2017 which ended my 14 year marriage and destroyed my whole adult life. My marriage ended because I couldn’t deal with my CPTSD and used alcohol to cope which tore my family and my inner self apart. My ex started a custody battle 8 mo after the divorce which completely threw everything off in my life- I went into a frozen state because everything was so scary and overwhelming. I have felt I have been in a constant trauma storm since all of this happened. I have had some amazing transformation at times but my life is at rock bottom. I am determined to rebuild but videos like this help shine light onto something I have experienced. Thank you for the video ❤
So glad you are here. You can rebuild. Try Anna's Daily Practice, it helps you deal with only the amount you can handle step by step. bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Another option is ACA: adultchildren.org/
Julie@TeamFairy
This - Every. Single. Day.
Is what it's like living with Autism/ADHD & Cptsd. Trying to get councelling & disability support has been as stressful as the trauma storm. 7 months in, still being sent in circles. I've asked for help from GP, nurse practitioner councellor, mental health services, family councelling services & even a depression call line. I'm over it. A bottle of whisky, talking shit, laughing & crying with friends is sounding alot better than the so called stupid effing professionals.
I am so sorry to hear you’re experiencing all of this. It’s a lot you’re dealing with. I’m not sure of your faith or belief system, but I promise you are never truly alone. Isaiah 41:10 💕 one thing at a time. Sometimes we endure these battles not to suffer alone, but to learn how to heal ourselves. I pray that the right people, healers, doctors, and resources will be brought to you to help you find peace, safety in your being, and a deep sense of joy in life.
Been there, done that. For me, Jesus healed it ALL and gave/given me abundant life. Faith based recovery IS where it's at. Just sayin. Blessings and prayers. ✌🥰
* Not going to go on a drunken bender! That's not a solution, it's just me being sarcastic & grumpy. Having a rant about going to all of the places that are supposedly meant to help, just to be told "oh, we don't deal with THAT type of trauma here". Back to square one again, it's frustrating asf. Have an appointment to go back to the nurse councellor practitioner next week, taking a friend advocate with this time. 💖 Thank you for your kind thoughts & encouragement crappy family.
“Trauma storm” is a good phrase. Sometimes our pain is because of what we did, and now we’re facing the consequences. But sometimes spit happens and life is simply painful.
There’s a certain type of self-help guru that makes the claim YOU are in control and nobody can make you feel bad without your consent. Some self-help gurus are dopes 🤨
Thank you so much Anna. Your timing is impeccable.
Glad it was helpful! -Calista@TeamFairy
you speak all my life atm like your living it! I love your videos ❤
i already sleep with earplugs and eye mask (like cheap one), becouse i wasnt able to sleep any different. i though about weighted blanked. Liike always - perfect timing Fairy, lots of love for everyone 🌸
I am so sick of trauma... After watching this.. i realized I've had a trauma storm almost every year of my life...
You are a blessing, I did not know about the trauma storm, and had a breakdown and are dealing now with the aftermath. I am going to use your valued advice to get back to regulated.
You got this! We're all sending you encouragement :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Thank you - I am doing your daily tasks course now. Did my first meditation and feel a bit more centered. Bless you as I did not know about you until I stumbled onto you on UA-cam.
This is the best ‘ah ha’ video I have seen. Thank you so much. Explains so much that rings true for me
Thank you for watching! Glad it was helpful!
Nika@TeamFairy
Feels like a fog whereby activities of daily living are now mountainous. Even moreso if you have more things to do now.
It's a necessary phase as it brought me to knowing why I'm repeating a pattern & why I attract narcissists, more importantly what I can do to change that !
Now we can learn to master ourselves. Thanks again Anna 🙏🏼😇🕊️
Glad to hear this video was helpful for you! Thanks for watching.
Nika@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy I'm resourceful in finding those who KNOW & understand & I've always been so resourceful for others, so nows a time to be resourceful for focusing on my own healing for a welcomed change . So wonderful when individuals as yourself can inspire us like this. Keep Shining ; I know you will 🎶💖🌟
OMG. This is where I am right now