Angelo, Odd and somewhat raw experience to watch this. It calls forth some kind of response, even as I’m not sure what it is? Gratitude, as always, for how you keep speaking and pointing to the obvious no-thing that so many of us keep insisting we can’t see, feel, or find. A certain tenderness for you, as you seem…I’m not sure…tired? Perhaps even borderline frustrated? Makes me wonder about other passionate teachers (Adyashanti?) who seemed to give everything they had to help people wake up and become liberated, and eventually realized that even people who said they really wanted it often were not ready to let go to the extent this requires. Strange to watch from this kind of no-man’s land I’m experiencing. Wondering what awakening even is, as I’ve apparently not had the classic experience, yet I find so many of the side-effects at play in my life. New vividness, a new freedom to love, certain lifelong patterns simply disappearing, even as others appear with more furious insistence than ever before. I resonate most deeply when you say to simply be with whatever is. That perhaps this is awakeness? A deep feeling of peace with my currently rather small and simple life. A white hot rage I can’t will away, and can’t dictate how it will be felt. Yes, I hear that the way to deal with this is to be with the energy of it and not get caught up in the stories. Yet I get caught up in the stories anyway. Can that be ok? Can I finally see these endless loops of self judgment and attack? Anyway, thank you for this straight talk. I’m doing my best to be on retreat with you all this weekend as I look around clumsily and diligently for what is already here… 🙏🐌🌎
Who am I? 👁️ You already ARE... what's seeing, what's hearing, what's feeling, what's thinking? 💭🦊 What is consciously aware right now? You are. You. The same consciousness that peered through your childhood eyes and took in all of this via the senses... that's You. The same energy that powers up the meatsuit they call "Mac" - it's unchanging... when all phenomena come and go... it is aware. PRIOR TO every single thought... every single feeling... and the thoughts that follow!! YOU. not your body. not your personality Mac. not your mind and thoughts about this. Simple, undeniable you. Can the eyeballs read this sentence? can the eardrums hear these words. who's hearing my words right Now? You! 🙏 if I ask you if you're alive right now... and aware? You will obviously say yes, if you're aware, yes? How did you come to know that you're alive? Who knows? You! Turn the inquiry back inaide on the source of this Knowing. I am alive. I'm here. I am. I Know. who is this I? Who? Mu? "Take a journey to the end of the night... take a journey to the bright midnight... end of the night, end of the night..." (The Doors, can't help it sorry!) Don't look to what your sense are perceiving... look to what is doing the perceiving. who am I? 💛💭🦊
Thanks, Nat. Somehow it’s not in the words right now. Even the most fervent ones. Something deeper and more visceral. Words, for the moment seem to just bounce right off…
@@macparker3549 Sorry, forgive my words... upon 2nd read it comes off brash and cocky 😂 I meant it in a loving tone. I'm just excited because I know you're gonna crack it, Mac. I have no doubt. This is the way and the path. The path is life. Struggle. Frustration. These are the access points. There's a map... and a maze. How to arrive to where you never left. Just be. Everything is OK.. the peace, the strife, the lightness, the heaviness. It's all as it is. Let it come. No words needed. I understand. 🙏💛
@@macparker3549 Be anger. Be sadness. Be. Feel. Words are ideas. Nothing more. What helps is sitting in silence, staring at a blank white wall. Or, listening to the Doors first LP 🧘♂️🎧
Nothing to be sorry about, Nat. I know and trust your intentions and heartfelt nature. No reason to ever hold back on what you say to me, and no reason to apologize when you do! I appreciate you and your kindness, however it expresses. 🙏🌻🌎
Thanks for sharing these, my friend. I felt like I was on a little home retreat this weekend. With kids being extremely noisy in the background but whatever 🤷🏼♀️ Appreciate it ❤
Thanks for posting videos from the retreat and for the encouragement! With my luck, I'll experience Kensho while driving and roll a curb. No time like the present to invest in mu insurance 😏
A bit random of a question, advice from anyone is welcome. I enjoy playing video games after work, and watching shows while I eat, but I know that I'll be completely lost in the narrative of the media I'm consuming as soon as I start it. This leaves me feeling guilty, even though I very much enjoy it. Should I strive harder to maintain mindfulness during those times, or perhaps steel my resolve and abstain from them a bit? I'm curious if anyone has any thoughts.
Ha! Angelo touches on the topic of habits & proclivities starting at 20:00. But from my own experience, I've dropped some bad habits but it wasn't with willpower or resolve. I just came to find mindfulness, self-inquiry and all that Truth stuff more interesting, it was deeper and I plain enjoyed it more than anything else. I still kept up the bad habits for a little (out of inertia I guess?), but eventually I just stopped. It wasn't a big thing at all. So I wouldn't attack these habits head-on, I would explore mindfulness with all your focus when you're in the mood for that it, really focus on whatever your practice is. Keep watching TV when you want, play games when you want. But when you want to meditate, really pour your energy into it. When you get a direct taste of that Truth stuff, TV and video games won't hold a candle to the experience.
@@James-3000 I feel that this is what I was looking for. Self-inquiry is taking up more and more of my attention throughout the day, it makes sense that it will continue to do so. Thank you very much for your advice.
Hi, Dylan, To chime in on Spark’s wise response… In my experience, it’s so easy to turn “spiritual work “ into one more, slightly higher vibe form of self judgment and repression. Over and over I find that unconditional acceptance (or as close as we humans can get!) is the fastest way to unhook. What’s the old adage, “What we resist, persists?” Certainly true for me! My entertainment drug of choice, by the way, is sports, especially football. I find that if I just watch with as much acceptance as possible, sometimes I just enjoy the watching, sometimes the fascination wanes. But either way, the push-pull, right-wrong, self-judgment is lightened. More freedom all around. Kindness seems key. All the best to you! 🌻🐌🧌
I am not enough 🎯 Overwhelming thought storm for several days…rode it out , deep inquiry, mind body identifying… since childhood… it suddenly became obvious, I have never been enough, or so I thought… 🙏🏽
Why is the recognition of the true Self such a game changer? Why is there a space "created" (was it always there but not "known"?) I have always been This, yet it's as if an expansion has occurred. Why is there that difference? Or maybe that can't be understood/explained.. Thank you for this wonderful talk and all your videos. You are a good knife for the mind! 😍🙏❤
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake ok, I understand. This is coming up a lot lately. It just seems that all the talk is just mind grasping so what's the point. People are trying so hard to define stuff, (including me) but it feels like chasing one's own tail. Thank you! 😊🙏💜
I am dealing with lots of random tiny snapshots of "my past". It seems so unreal but is making me weep uncontrollably, but simultaneously, I'm also watching "me" feeling so deeply, but yet rather unmoved as well. Sometimes lately I think I'm losing the plot but there isn't one. WTF? 😂😬🥺
This reminds me of when the symptoms of my childhood “Alice in Wonderland Syndrome” started coming back during meditation, but I could see what was really happening - and without resistance, it simply became my state. Beautiful.
That definitely factors in. Stangely we can also be having quite a dysphoric dream and hold onto that as well. because its predictable and "comfortable," even if it's miserable.
Thanks for sharing these retreat talks… this one left a crack for sure, and the previous two transmitted beyond me, clearly. “Time” has all of a sudden become very weird. Hard to explain, but moments are becoming less akin to 15 seconds and more akin to ‘whoa where did those last 3 minutes go…’. I also went on an 80 minute bike ride yesterday and it was a total blur, yet I was present the whole time. Again, hard to explain.
Can having the experience of recognizing the primal awareness / true self be missed, or later forgotten, or conceptualized in such a way that it seems insignificant? (My intuition is yes but what I usually hear is no.) Can the expectation of some kind of non-ordinary or cosmic experience so distract us with visualizations from imagination that we miss the reality of awakening? In other words, must a shift in identity necessarily bring about a simultaneous change in perception, or can awakening "occur" in more subtle ways and still be thought of as such?
Not typically during the “event” it’s pretty obvious. However bc it doesn’t feel spiritual or like anything labelable, often a few years later people will often be reluctant to label it as awakening. This is a lottle different for everyone and it depends on stage of realization.
Every time I'd hear you say "um" in the middle of a sentence, it would stick out to me. And then it hit me: It is a (literal) reflection of "mu." Well played, sir. Well played.
I'm actually not selling anything. This is all free for anyone who wants to investigate their true nature. You could say that hypnosis of mind identification is selling itself a bill of goods and there is definitely a cost for that. The cost is struggle, confusion, unconsciousness, delusion.
Give me a break. You are seeking something in exchange for some ego gratification but your ego is so sophisticated you need to be underhanded to get the self strokes.
@@paulgallo2561 I get it. I used to see the world exactly this way, through glasses of cynicism, distrust etc. The key really is not to look outward, because what you seem to see "out there" will be seen through the filters of identification with thought. Those filters can be very distorting. Rather take in inward look and see if there isn't something in there that has never been touched by the conditioning of mind and thought that makes everything appear suspect. You have to know it in yourself first and actually recognize that is where you've always wanted to go. The hypnosis of living in defense mode is powerful, but it is still just a stream of thoughts. What you are in your deepest essence is completely untouched by all the disappointments, betrayals, fear etc. Its innocent and simple and it is right there. It's just a matter of when you want to look. I'll leave you with that. Best of luck to you.
Cynicism is a cliché, as well, Paul. And much “safer” than being willing to risk trusting again when our trust has been disappointed for eons. I’ve worn that cynical armor, as well, and hidden inside it to the detriment of myself and others. It’s so much braver to risk being naked. May you, in your own time and way, discover this for yourself. In the meantime, taking pot shots at Angelo, who is about as generous and genuine a dude as you’ll find anywhere, frankly just makes me sad.
LOL, going by the title, THIS is video I've been waiting for!!!
Me too! 😂
At this point Angelo is just reading minds and making titles for his videos.
??? What do you mean .
Spot on! 😆
🤨😁😂
Facts
Oh my god yes. So true
So grateful the retreat is being filmed and shared❤
Angelo,
Odd and somewhat raw experience to watch this.
It calls forth some kind of response, even as I’m not sure what it is?
Gratitude, as always, for how you keep speaking and pointing to the obvious no-thing that so many of us keep insisting we can’t see, feel, or find.
A certain tenderness for you, as you seem…I’m not sure…tired? Perhaps even borderline frustrated? Makes me wonder about other passionate teachers (Adyashanti?) who seemed to give everything they had to help people wake up and become liberated, and eventually realized that even people who said they really wanted it often were not ready to let go to the extent this requires.
Strange to watch from this kind of no-man’s land I’m experiencing.
Wondering what awakening even is, as I’ve apparently not had the classic experience, yet I find so many of the side-effects at play in my life. New vividness, a new freedom to love, certain lifelong patterns simply disappearing, even as others appear with more furious insistence than ever before.
I resonate most deeply when you say to simply be with whatever is. That perhaps this is awakeness? A deep feeling of peace with my currently rather small and simple life.
A white hot rage I can’t will away, and can’t dictate how it will be felt. Yes, I hear that the way to deal with this is to be with the energy of it and not get caught up in the stories. Yet I get caught up in the stories anyway. Can that be ok? Can I finally see these endless loops of self judgment and attack?
Anyway, thank you for this straight talk.
I’m doing my best to be on retreat with you all this weekend as I look around clumsily and diligently for what is already here…
🙏🐌🌎
Who am I? 👁️
You already ARE... what's seeing, what's hearing, what's feeling, what's thinking? 💭🦊 What is consciously aware right now? You are. You. The same consciousness that peered through your childhood eyes and took in all of this via the senses... that's You. The same energy that powers up the meatsuit they call "Mac" - it's unchanging... when all phenomena come and go... it is aware. PRIOR TO every single thought... every single feeling... and the thoughts that follow!! YOU. not your body. not your personality Mac. not your mind and thoughts about this. Simple, undeniable you. Can the eyeballs read this sentence? can the eardrums hear these words. who's hearing my words right Now? You! 🙏 if I ask you if you're alive right now... and aware? You will obviously say yes, if you're aware, yes? How did you come to know that you're alive? Who knows? You! Turn the inquiry back inaide on the source of this Knowing. I am alive. I'm here. I am. I Know. who is this I? Who? Mu? "Take a journey to the end of the night... take a journey to the bright midnight... end of the night, end of the night..." (The Doors, can't help it sorry!)
Don't look to what your sense are perceiving... look to what is doing the perceiving. who am I?
💛💭🦊
Thanks, Nat.
Somehow it’s not in the words right now. Even the most fervent ones. Something deeper and more visceral. Words, for the moment seem to just bounce right off…
@@macparker3549 Sorry, forgive my words... upon 2nd read it comes off brash and cocky 😂 I meant it in a loving tone. I'm just excited because I know you're gonna crack it, Mac. I have no doubt. This is the way and the path. The path is life. Struggle. Frustration. These are the access points. There's a map... and a maze. How to arrive to where you never left. Just be. Everything is OK.. the peace, the strife, the lightness, the heaviness. It's all as it is. Let it come. No words needed. I understand. 🙏💛
@@macparker3549 Be anger. Be sadness. Be. Feel. Words are ideas. Nothing more. What helps is sitting in silence, staring at a blank white wall. Or, listening to the Doors first LP 🧘♂️🎧
Nothing to be sorry about, Nat.
I know and trust your intentions and heartfelt nature.
No reason to ever hold back on what you say to me, and no reason to apologize when you do!
I appreciate you and your kindness, however it expresses.
🙏🌻🌎
Thanks for sharing these, my friend. I felt like I was on a little home retreat this weekend. With kids being extremely noisy in the background but whatever 🤷🏼♀️
Appreciate it ❤
You are so welcome!
Love the retreat talks. Much appreciated.
You are so welcome!
Thank you for your kindness in sharing this, and all of these videos
My pleasure!
Thanks for posting videos from the retreat and for the encouragement! With my luck, I'll experience Kensho while driving and roll a curb. No time like the present to invest in mu insurance 😏
The retreat talks are so powerful……really hitting the spot……much gratitude to you Angelo 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻😶🌫❤
Glad to hear it
A bit random of a question, advice from anyone is welcome. I enjoy playing video games after work, and watching shows while I eat, but I know that I'll be completely lost in the narrative of the media I'm consuming as soon as I start it. This leaves me feeling guilty, even though I very much enjoy it. Should I strive harder to maintain mindfulness during those times, or perhaps steel my resolve and abstain from them a bit? I'm curious if anyone has any thoughts.
Ha! Angelo touches on the topic of habits & proclivities starting at 20:00. But from my own experience, I've dropped some bad habits but it wasn't with willpower or resolve. I just came to find mindfulness, self-inquiry and all that Truth stuff more interesting, it was deeper and I plain enjoyed it more than anything else. I still kept up the bad habits for a little (out of inertia I guess?), but eventually I just stopped. It wasn't a big thing at all. So I wouldn't attack these habits head-on, I would explore mindfulness with all your focus when you're in the mood for that it, really focus on whatever your practice is. Keep watching TV when you want, play games when you want. But when you want to meditate, really pour your energy into it. When you get a direct taste of that Truth stuff, TV and video games won't hold a candle to the experience.
@@James-3000 I feel that this is what I was looking for. Self-inquiry is taking up more and more of my attention throughout the day, it makes sense that it will continue to do so. Thank you very much for your advice.
Hi, Dylan,
To chime in on Spark’s wise response…
In my experience, it’s so easy to turn “spiritual work “ into one more, slightly higher vibe form of self judgment and repression.
Over and over I find that unconditional acceptance (or as close as we humans can get!) is the fastest way to unhook.
What’s the old adage, “What we resist, persists?”
Certainly true for me!
My entertainment drug of choice, by the way, is sports, especially football.
I find that if I just watch with as much acceptance as possible, sometimes I just enjoy the watching, sometimes the fascination wanes. But either way, the push-pull, right-wrong, self-judgment is lightened. More freedom all around.
Kindness seems key.
All the best to you!
🌻🐌🧌
@@James-3000 really awesome advice. Thank you 🙏
@@macparker3549 thank you 🙏 I’m also a football fan. Kindness and acceptance rings true for me too
I am not enough 🎯
Overwhelming thought storm for several days…rode it out , deep inquiry, mind body identifying… since childhood… it suddenly became obvious, I have never been enough, or so I thought… 🙏🏽
It's ever less the sense of my "self" moving from moment to moment, and instead a moment moving from self to self.
YES!
yes.
.
Grateful that you shared the retreat talk here 🙏🏼
Glad it was helpful!
Why is the recognition of the true Self such a game changer? Why is there a space "created" (was it always there but not "known"?)
I have always been This, yet it's as if an expansion has occurred. Why is there that difference?
Or maybe that can't be understood/explained..
Thank you for this wonderful talk and all your videos.
You are a good knife for the mind!
😍🙏❤
Unfortunately asking why can lead right back into thought. I like the question "Who?" a lot more in this regard
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake ok, I understand.
This is coming up a lot lately. It just seems that all the talk is just mind grasping so what's the point. People are trying so hard to define stuff, (including me) but it feels like chasing one's own tail.
Thank you! 😊🙏💜
simply always grateful for all you do 🙏❤️
You're the best!
I am dealing with lots of random tiny snapshots of "my past". It seems so unreal but is making me weep uncontrollably, but simultaneously, I'm also watching "me" feeling so deeply, but yet rather unmoved as well. Sometimes lately I think I'm losing the plot but there isn't one. WTF? 😂😬🥺
Compassion for you in this weeping. I have found my version of those feelings to be the most opening force (non-force?) I’ve ever experienced.
💜🥲🦋
@Ann we are the same. We are truly one. 💕 Thank you so much!
@@macparker3549 💕🌸💕 I feel that too.
@Ann 🌸🌸🎉🎉 Yeah!!!!!!
This reminds me of when the symptoms of my childhood “Alice in Wonderland Syndrome” started coming back during meditation, but I could see what was really happening - and without resistance, it simply became my state. Beautiful.
Such a great retreat!! So excited to rewatch it ❤
If someone is having a very nice dream they will not want to wake.
That definitely factors in. Stangely we can also be having quite a dysphoric dream and hold onto that as well. because its predictable and "comfortable," even if it's miserable.
Thanks for sharing these retreat talks… this one left a crack for sure, and the previous two transmitted beyond me, clearly.
“Time” has all of a sudden become very weird. Hard to explain, but moments are becoming less akin to 15 seconds and more akin to ‘whoa where did those last 3 minutes go…’.
I also went on an 80 minute bike ride yesterday and it was a total blur, yet I was present the whole time. Again, hard to explain.
I believe all of us experience the field naked, collapse off the dimensions at one point in our lives but we can not connect the dots together?
Can having the experience of recognizing the primal awareness / true self be missed, or later forgotten, or conceptualized in such a way that it seems insignificant? (My intuition is yes but what I usually hear is no.) Can the expectation of some kind of non-ordinary or cosmic experience so distract us with visualizations from imagination that we miss the reality of awakening? In other words, must a shift in identity necessarily bring about a simultaneous change in perception, or can awakening "occur" in more subtle ways and still be thought of as such?
Not typically during the “event” it’s pretty obvious. However bc it doesn’t feel spiritual or like anything labelable, often a few years later people will often be reluctant to label it as awakening. This is a lottle different for everyone and it depends on stage of realization.
where can I find info about future retreats?
books.simplyalwaysawake.com :))
Every time I'd hear you say "um" in the middle of a sentence, it would stick out to me. And then it hit me: It is a (literal) reflection of "mu." Well played, sir. Well played.
😉
😂
Lol
What to say about....there isn't about...just is!❤
The ordinary in dance with Imensity,,,unseperable,,,,,,,
💚
Holy... so intense... wanna say but no words. Feels silly and even arrogant to try to say something about it. Empty.
I can't help but laugh.
boom. what question was answered before you asked it. 16:34
❤🔥
Being just this....
You just have to Surrender ❤
I wish the audio quality would wake up
Can you understand what I'm saying? Hopefully so. I agree it would be nice to have better sound on these, but we work with what we have in life.
This guy is selling what u are not.
same old priest game
wake up !!!
I'm actually not selling anything. This is all free for anyone who wants to investigate their true nature. You could say that hypnosis of mind identification is selling itself a bill of goods and there is definitely a cost for that. The cost is struggle, confusion, unconsciousness, delusion.
Give me a break. You are seeking something in exchange for some ego gratification but your ego is so sophisticated you need to be underhanded to get the self strokes.
@@paulgallo2561 I get it. I used to see the world exactly this way, through glasses of cynicism, distrust etc. The key really is not to look outward, because what you seem to see "out there" will be seen through the filters of identification with thought. Those filters can be very distorting. Rather take in inward look and see if there isn't something in there that has never been touched by the conditioning of mind and thought that makes everything appear suspect. You have to know it in yourself first and actually recognize that is where you've always wanted to go. The hypnosis of living in defense mode is powerful, but it is still just a stream of thoughts. What you are in your deepest essence is completely untouched by all the disappointments, betrayals, fear etc. Its innocent and simple and it is right there. It's just a matter of when you want to look. I'll leave you with that. Best of luck to you.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake
You win with the now cliche awakened rap
Cynicism is a cliché, as well, Paul.
And much “safer” than being willing to risk trusting again when our trust has been disappointed for eons.
I’ve worn that cynical armor, as well, and hidden inside it to the detriment of myself and others.
It’s so much braver to risk being naked.
May you, in your own time and way, discover this for yourself.
In the meantime, taking pot shots at Angelo, who is about as generous and genuine a dude as you’ll find anywhere, frankly just makes me sad.