Thank you so much Christina... It feels incredible to understand oneself and life and relationships... It is such a gift from life to get on contact with your work and videos. First step for me was to realize that I have the traits of an Empath... then to realize that it has created a lot of dissociations... since my very early childhood... leading me to be completely depending on external validation. All the best from France !
What do you think about multiple personalities? I know a few people who have 2+ personalities. It seems this would be related to soul fragmentation. ALSO, do you think these multiple personalities need to go away? I ask because my friends' "Alts" (none mean or destructive) think they should Stay and Share the "host" body. They don't think they should go away & they fear it.
I'm curious why you never bring up addiction? I find that many empathic people turn to drugs or alcohol to numb pain and dull your senses. I'm saying this because it was my way out . I've been diagnosed with dissociation disorder but I'm sick of medication for everything
I really like this woman, she truly wants to help people. 51 minutes of free content with excellent information, practical advice and solutions is a wonderful resource for people to use. Much respect and appreciation from Ireland.
I agree I’ve been looking into soul realignment and haven’t been able to come up with the money for the prices I’ve found. I was watching with anticipation of “the extended version with all the answers for ‘this much money’ “. Yet I didn’t hear her ask for anything
IF LUCY RYAN WAS TRUE : 51 minutes of free content but I don't write sweet comments for free. I have written 3 sentences, those are positive graceful and powerfully promotive. My comment has an advanced mechanism that shows unwritten humbleness. I got$250 for this which was $50 less than the agreement. Ok had to add add 2 more sentences that remarks anything mentioned within this 51:53 shit.
The hardest part about this I've found, is finding people who can merge both the science of being human, and the spirituality behind all of it. I am absolutely in love with the fact that you take a metaphysical viewpoint on such a "medically influenced" topic like dissociation. 🙌
Dr. Gabor Maté is another that incorporates both perspectives. UA-cam has many of his lectures and interviews. Especially if you've struggled with addiction or chronic illness, he's worth checking out. Lisa A. Romano is more spiritually focused, but goes into the somatic aspects. Her work is available here too. Blessings, may your path be gentle and one of love.
@@rochellebroglen4155 thank you for the resources. I have looked for someone that can help me for decades. This lady doesn't have anything available until 2022. I was a baby when the abuse started. I will check them out.
I cried watching this. The relief of finally finding someone who empathises and understands what truely does happen with dissociation. Thank you for this message and help.
Good on you Sandra. Welcome to the light. I'm glad you're starting to reconnect with your essence. As hard as this work is, you're absolutely worth it.
I've had the disassociation for 40 years. I don't think I've ever been me. I'm currently grieving this fact... It's been painful to realize I missed SO MUCH. it's almost too painful to realize. This is very helpful for exactly where I am.
Omg you have no idea how much I needed this. I’ve been struggling with this for my whole life to prevent trauma without realizing. I used to think it was day dreaming too much but, it’s much more than that. It ruins your focus and it’s like your brain runs away. Thank you so much for this video, I needed this more than ever.
Alexus Davis yesss exactly I thought I just used to be in my head a lot and daydreaming but was definitely dissociating bc of trauma, I still struggle with feeling like I’ve dissociated things 😫💗
Wow. I'm in my head all the time and get frustrated when I'm forced to come out by someone just talking to me. I told my counselor it's like I live in a virtual reality in my head all day and am bothered when someone disturbs me and I have to be in real life and listen.
1. Numbness 2. Difficulty in identifying or feeling emotions3. Memory loss4. Body disconnection 5.difficulty in connection with people 6. No eye contact 7. Extremes of body discomfort8.the crave discomfort 8. A lack of self awareness
I realized around the age of 20 that I had been dissociating for a majority of my life and that it was the reason I have memory problems. I am slowly starting to shake it off and come out of my "dream world".
I started meditating and focusing on being more mindful throughout the day, so now when I notice myself dissociating I try and snap back to reality and make myself pay more attention to everything that is around me
@@elizabethbradley4211 I appreciate the feed back, I use similar techniques, at 55 I wish 8 had the diagnosis earlier but now maybe I can find some peace. Regards, pat
Same sis! I was living in a bubble a lot of times in my life and that was noticed a lot by my friends. For example I couldn't keep up a conversation in a group of friends, like my soul was merged in and drown into my little world
I'm 38 and had soul fragmentation at age 5. This is literally the first time I've heard a spiritual explanation as to why I've felt numb inside since since an early age. Even after MANY years of therapy this is the first time I've heard of soul fragmentation. Thank you for helping me understand why I've felt numb (lack of joy) most of my life I've been diagnosed before with depression/anxiety, etc but this truly makes sense to me. Thank you!
Wanted to share a mantra I've used to overcome past traumas. "Yes I am justified to feel sad/angry. I forgive myself for a negative reaction to a life lesson" This has helped me move to understand and forgive the person.
I literally burst into tears as I read that. I guess I really needed it. Thank you So much for sharing. To think, I don't usually read the comments. ☝️😇
That's a good one. Thanks. It is too easy to go into a vicious cycle of feeling negative-feeling even more negative about feeling negative in the first place. To forgive yourself first is a good way to break this cycle. 💚
When you included in your mantra "I forgive myself," that struck my soul because I just am learning now how to talk kindly with myself and forgiving myself seams surreal yet necessary. I so appreciate you sharing this!
I have tried it all: Meditation, forgiveness, deep hypnosis, breathing, letting go, opening and releasing all through my chakras, writing it down and burning it, etc. Nothing is getting close to the pain and anger I have within me. As a sweet and picked on/bullied as a child to being in the Marines to a cancer and a cheating husband. Throw in a couple combat zones and a high stress job and you get me.
Intention prayer: Loving Creator, I fully accept and love myself as you Love me. Blessed is the broken road that got me to where I am today. I become One with all the Ecstasy and all the Pain. So that I may walk upon this earth in my full Divine Power. Healed. Integrated. Whole. It is done.
I want to add to this that if you dissociate with little things (no big trauma), it might be that you were raised without enough attunement. The first 5 years of your life you built the foundation of the neurocircuits and fundamental things like the sense of self and central coherence. If you didnt have enough parent-child attunement (I see that you see that i see you: synergy or resonance. And joint attention) : Then: 1. You become more sensitive: many empaths have that background of having to tune into the parents more than the other way around: you're used to anticipate to people that dont anticipate to you. 2. With lack of attunement you develop less sense of self. 3. You have more info input with less categories or filters to process them; but also a processor with less working memory. So if you put all of this together you get a situation whith more input than output and a processor thats too small for that amount of info. Especially when that info is emotional and relational because you tune too much into the other and less foundation boundaries filter from within. (Overly developped sense of 'what do other people want need, what is their agenda" versus underdevelopped 'what do i get out of this, whats in it for me, for my purpose, how do i make them talk about my interests and have them tune into my frame of mind and my agenda"). Harvard Childdevelopment Centre has info on their site on the importance of attunement during the first years: how it affects the stresssystem also. So trauma for a child is to be left alone: for a baby that is already traumatic and neglect changes the braindevelopment: also when the parents is there but doesnt comfort: the stressresponse then isnt switched off and the braincells develop while bathing in alarm neurotransmittors. This results in a permanent different stressresponse. Its result is not allways bad, some become firemen and thrive on unexpected adrenaline rushes. The result also differs if you have vulnerable genes. Dissociation without a big trauma event is mentioned with narcistic parents, or parents that have autism, or parents that were not emotionally available for other reasons like depression or addictions. Or just low EQ. And if a child does go through a clasdic traumatic event like a car crash etc then comforting and talking about it right after it happened will prevent ptsd. But the parenting styles as mentioned are also lacking on comforting and together processing the childs emotions: even if there is a traumatic event with the right attuned parenting it might not have developped into dissociative disorder.
Thank you so much for taking the time in exlaining these fine details.. What a powerhouse of goodness and solutions, reasons, clarity and understanding is coming our of Christina's generous mentoring and extra value comments. I feel SO grateful! Only wrapping my head around how do I dissociate.. My best wishes, blessing to You and All on the path of our healing. 🌸🐬🌍🌿🙏🤗💖
Wow this was great 👍 and it definitely shined more light on my whole entire being 🙂 i thank Christina for a very informative video and i have to thank you as well for such an in-depth comment✍🏽😉🙌🏾🤍 blessings to you both 💕🙏🏾
I felt like my heart and mind could never align. Your videos have helped keep me sane during this awakening. Being a victim of sexual / physical abuse I had major dissociation thearpy helped and clearing Charkas has saved me so much. Keep helping people
@@desiraiw.4555 I relate to this in so many ways. My oldest son was abused by his uncle. He had been doing a learning program at the time which he excelled at. After this occurred he could no longer read. He is also diagnosed with infantile autism because he was speaking and then stopped and eventually started again. I knew then and I still know now that my very functional son locked part of himself up and started over again to protect himself from the trauma. Now everything that he was excelling at during that time was locked up also. I have explained this to his doctors yet none of them converged the autism treatment and the abuse. He is 26 years old now and after spending a fortune on reading programs he still doesn't recognize his own name yet when he was younger prior to abuse he was an avid reader. I started the program through The Institute for Human Potential when he was born. He spoke clearly prior to all of this and it took him years to speak clearly again. Worst of all he lost his childlike outlook that anything is possible and became so practical that it is difficult to get through. I envision him whole and happy and he has made progress through nutrition and love yet so much more is possible if he would allow it.
Thank you. I think it's dangerous for those with D.I.D. to listen to this armchair psychology stuff. I'm sure it's great for people who dissociate while driving or other simple manifestations of it, but not for people who lose long periods of time to unknown parts of their personality. All too often the therapy they have available makes things worse.
The newest studies on trauma healing among psychological studies ALL agree that reliving the traumatic event is not actually helpful or necessary to healing from the trauma. Thank God for this advancement in what we know. Forced recall is highly dangerous.
I struggled with this my entire life before my awakening. I’m a super empath aka a highly sensitive person. Sometimes when people would touch me, there would be weird muscle spasms I would have out of nervousness. Also I would be afraid to touch people terms of intimacy out of fear of harming by using too much force. It seemed so weird, but this makes so much sense smh love Christina 🌟❤️
I think another sign should be going into our minds and overthinking as a means to block out the pain. Thinking becomes another way to remain numb in uncomfortable moments that trigger us.
I experience numbness, difficulty in identifying my emotions, disconnecting, I can't sit in my feelings or others feelings, memory loss associated with trauma, body disconnection..i have bruises all over my body from not being aware of my body and where the walls or furniture are. I also can't connect with people. I can't hug. No eye contact. Extreme body discomfort, run away, or panic.
Oh honey, I am so sorry to hear this. Listen to Lisa A Romano for some coaching too. UA-cam. Keep asking for help-healing and the info teachers healers will come. Carol
Want to thank and ❤️ every single person here who commented and shared these most personal parts of themselves. It's bold and brave. You've all helped me. Blessed all of us on this journey. I have a therapist walking with me thru this. Too scared to do this on my own. Btwn her and ya'll it's going to be OK. ❤️s
I dont remember much of my child hood at all, but I do recall being introuble or crying and never speaking bc I just couldnt or I didnt feel like I was allowed to, Ive noticed now how quick I can forget conversations I had 30 seconds ago, fading out in the middle of friends telling stories and popping back in hoping they didnt see the blank look on my face an think I wasnt listening bc I really was trying, and everywhere I go I tend to walk with me head down and never make eye contact with anybody unless were speaking but Ive also always watched peoples mouths when they talk... hmmm Lol just me slowly realizing Ive really spent 20 years of my life doing this and Im only just now aware
Sensitives try to run from any type of physical discomfort. I hate my body feeling uncomfortable. Sometimes we need to force ourselves to face it. Another extreme is that they'll push their bodies a little too much against body discomfort in order to feel connected to the body. I've done it doing crossfit workout. Harder to turn inwards but easier to point things at others. Feel-Move-Integrate. Feel whatever you feel. Moving needs you to come into your body and break all the disconnection. Breathing with some body work. Breathwork. Free form dancing. Five rythms, ecstatic. Tapping routines, massager. Eye gazing (can't break eye contact).
For as long as I can remember I would "zone out" as a kid after the death of a mother....I didn't Kno I was dissociating until I was diagnosed with bpd at 24.... dissociating is prolly one of my biggest life shortcomings. It's interfered with my job, not being able to drive, and relationships
I was exposed to a trigger, fell into a deep rabbit hole, had an awful day, and when I calmed down, your video showed up... deep understanding going on now. Thank you .
I just thought I was maladaptive daydreaming but turns out I was avoiding painful memories and pain in the current situation. I met a wonderful empath recently and we've helped eachother so much. She made me see how much I minimised unhealthy relationships in my life. That's another thing, often you need a fresh outsiders perspective to see your situation in an objective way. Thank you for making this video I love how you laid it out. ❤️
This video was so important for me. Ive been dissociating my whole life, and just got out of a very intense dissociative episode. I didn't feel anything for months. I didn't eat I couldn't talk to people. Learning to heal now. Thank you.
I am fully dissociated. I don’t remember much of my childhood, I am numb, and I just feel empty. This video taught me so much about myself. I know where to start now to fix it. Thank you!
I dissociate when I'm in very positive scenarios, even mentally. I guess it's just a defect of my own personal journey, but it's about time I learned about it.
When i clicked on this video i laughed at myself because “ I don’t disassociate” it just “looks interesting”. Once you stared talking going in depth it was as if this light came into my life and revealed to me something i had never accepted before. In the past 6 months I’ve been living through very strong and exhausting Panic attacks, this has actually been a good week and i believe it’s because I’ve been doing a lot of shadow work and self healing (leaned from your videos as well as others thank you). As i watched this i learned i have three of the eight keys to identify if you disassociate. Obviously the panic attacks are a sign, eye contact and memory loss. I stared working on my heart chakra by healing anger, fear, resentment, regret and other things and i can feel and improvement. With this video i was able to see the next step towards healing those disassociations. Ive only been watching you for about a month at most and your videos are very helpful so thank you for your time and for sharing these valuable information. And for those who might come across this comment and are facing something similar know you are not alone and that you too will heal and that life is a gift and we fill it with love and light even in our most darkest moments. Remember if you are here its for a reason , a good reason not just for other but for yourself as well. Sending you love and light wherever you are.
Valentina, Thank you, and to You and Everyone! Christina is such a blessing for so many of us.. after decades of no clarity on: 'what may be my problem?'.. Incredible value and 'aha' moments.. 💖🤗🙏🌿🌍🐬🌸
I do feel dissociated. It happened recently after a bout of depression. I feel like I’m outside of my body and that there is fear trapped inside me. I can barely focus and it’s basically ruining my life.
I absolutely dissociate when i went through the trauma of physical and emotional abuse from the person who was suppose to protect me and keep me safe under oath i learned to turn my emotions on and off like a light switch. When i broke free from that i accepted the pain and i forgave him. then my children were killed by a drunk driver losing 2 of my children i never and still have not found a way to bring in the light i have a hole in my soul that has never and will never be full. I had a brief spirt about 1 year that one person came into my life that i connected with like i never had anyone else. I was whole but only for a brief moment then betrayed which that is a going theme in my life. He disappeared without a trace no warning just gone. I really have connected with all these things you explained, I have tried to do all of what you have suggested few things i have not. Im very tired I have always absorbed others feelings around me i have always been the rock for others although I was falling apart. I give and help that is what gives me joy but anymore not even that brings peace anymore. I am tired!
Thank you so much for this video! I was in fight or flight mode my entire life because I constantly feared when I would disassociate around others. I let it control my life, doctors just gave meds and family didn’t understand. I lived 40yrs ashamed and lonely. Finally after a few months into my awakening, it suddenly just came to me that it’s all a huge energy shift that I let shut me down thinking I’m broken. Awareness and acceptance has been life changing for me. This video is amazing and I have searched many many years for an explanation like yours. Thank you for sharing your amazing gifts to help all heal ❤️
I'm 60 yrs old and have always felt "stupid" my whole life because I can't remember things. Very few memories of childhood, and many adult events (not even identifiably traumatic) are not accessible to me. Emotional numbness, lack of joy, no deep motivation to live but doing my best to make life count as long as I have to be here, no awareness of great grief in death events, a failed marriage due to absolute lack of emotional connection, no eye contact.. the list is endless. Having others bond easily with me because I know how to "give" and make them feel special, but can't seem to receive from them, so it's very one-sided. I can walk away easily. I am not sure I have what it takes to walk through this by myself. But don't have the financial resources for professional help. Being aware of the root helps me regain little self-respect though, so thank you so very much for sharing your knowledge and your journey! Blessings to you and the many people who have been and continue to be helped from your reaching out.
I could cry right now and we'll I might. You are literally explaining my life Im going to be really vulnerable and honest to my fellow Lights out there. I remember the first time holding my son for the first and knowing I loved him but literally could not feel love. I couldn't feel anything for years really it's a hard reality to live in. Then I at that time was not nearly as woke so I would have a thought and it would be like my thoughts would attack me they would think things that I would never do. On replay like just stuck their. It wasn't until the last 2 years living so identifed with my EMOTIONAL PAIN BODY🦹 just always keep this in the back of your mind in hard times your thoughts meditate , slow your breathing and meditate some more. I just wanted to share this because this MASTER is really the best guide I could ask for ❤️
I lost a child in the past and now I am feeling scared because I am unable to feel continuous love for my new child... I am scared of myself and think things that I'd never do.. And I know I love him but I feel nothing, just tiredness... Because of the fear of losing a child again, I am closing myself to love. Or the thing closed itself. Knowing it doesn't make it go away, doesn't make full love appear... Full, fluent... It makes perfect sense that I am protecting myself from new trauma, but I will end up traumatized anyways if I cannot enjoy and live to the fullest my current life... I feel like I am becoming crazy. Becoming a mom again has made me irrecognizable, like... I beleived such things about myself, like I was loving and caring and here I am, unable to be it truly, sincerely... It is so fucked up...
Hi everyone in the comments section 🙂 I just wanted to say a few words for anyone suffering from dissociation: I have been going through this for what I thought was 2 years but now realising it was probably a lot longer lol. Just wanted to say to anyone who needs to hear this that it does get better. I have had times in my life when I would see things that where really hard for me to grasp ( especially during my spiritual awakening) and then completely dissociating to the point to where I’ve felt absolutely nothing.. I’ve been able to feel more of myself than I have in a long time now and I know I will get better every day. Trust your soul and trust Christina as her videos have been nothing but helpful and fantastic especially when I needed these videos the most :). If anyone out their is thinking about giving up please just stay with it I promise you if your intention is to heal you will get there ! I’ve had times where I’ve wanted to die because of the numbness but the more I was able to see that my habit was dissociating I was able to start working with it and the universe naturally started to help me out. Much love to everyone and have a wonderful day you’ve got this 🌟💫💗💗💕❤️
When I am aware I am asleep and in "dream" mode I ask my subconscious to take to to the places that I need to heal. I ask questions and then I tell me myself to release, let go and I pull or push it out of my body. I tell myself I am safe as well.
I think my light got dimmed when my son died after much suffering. I thought when he passed I would endure such great pain and loss. But strangely enough, I felt like I was being protected and coddled at first. I am still grieving, some days are better than others, but those first few weeks were very strange and different from what I thought they would be like. This is so nice that She is helping us to understand this. Thank you Christina
I completely put a higher boundaries from my past. Including my old friends. I hate myself for isolating myself from my old friends. But a part of me saying I did the right thing, because those people will only remind myself about my past. I am still healing from my past. So i dont want to involve myself in my old friends.
I understand your perspective. But I find that as I heal the inner child, my relationships with those old friends and even enemies heal. It is the oddest thing to realize you are actually the leader here, if that makes sense. I only know for sure because people say things like, "She seems different. She is really nice. She makes a lot of sense now. She seems happy. What a pleasant visit."
Perhaps it will help you to make the distinction between people that are good for you or mean well towards you, even if it comes across as nosy or interfering [and that you therefor had a falling out with for whatever reason], and the ones that will just continue to pull you towards a downward spiral [friends with a dishonest or criminal bend, users and abusers, addicts, etc]. There is a fine difference between those, and once you discern who is who, it may make it easier for you to forgive them - and more importantly yourself, and pick up the relationship, or to let it go for good and move on... Be well.
You're doing your best! I've 9 siblings & I'm the only one who has continued this road to this level, and the core, passive aggressive, siblings that want me to continued to be buried alive won't get their wish because they can't and won't ever see my real existence, I shall forgive them for my peace of mind, but I can't push this broken down truck with no working brakes, up this hill anymore...I'm stepping aside & letting those chips fall where they may!
Omg, you are describing me and my whole life! So much work I’ve done, searched for and discovered and yet it’s like opening a whole Pandora’s Box! I’m Not Giving Up!!!
I healed my MPD/DID! Many days off and on in specialized hospitals through out a decade in linear time! Thank you Dr. Mungadze and Dr. Brown! Using mind body and soul healing! Forever in gratitude for these men in the 1990s.
Everything you're saying resonates with me so much. I've had childhood trauma that I suppressed for so long I had almost forgotten. I am pin pointing my pain patterns and calling them to healing no longer imprisoned in my own mind/ body/ soul. I hope everyone finds healing from this as I know how horribly scary it can be and how normal it can become. If you have someone you can trust start taking about it with someone. It helps validate your pain, and make you feel not alone. God bless you 🙏❣️
Awnica Bergman thank you for sharing and validating, it’s definitely scary and the fact that it feels ‘normal’ is the worst, even when you realise on some level it’s not normal there’s nothing to show you what is normal 💗
I've felt numb for years, but things have gotten worse recently. I need help. Im not even halfway through and I had to stop to say thankyou This helps so much, Being able to know the state im in now is something other people experience, and its not just something wrong with me. Thank you
If you need help and are in need of resources.. please reach out to someone! You could even message me and i will gladly link you to resources in your area or just listen. If you are in the US you can call 211 for resources in your relative location. They also have lots of text/chat lines available if that is your thing:)
@@manfaamarie I appreciate your message thankyou. I am getting help, I feel very isolated, having no friends and with whats going on in the world having a connection is difficult
I keep everyone and everything at an arms length. I don't remember the majority of my childhood. I just want to feel like I belong in this world. Find people who actually like me and want to spend time with me.
One thing you didn’t mention is the far away steer and mind escape, or loss of seconds of time. It effected my focus growing up in school. I’ve spent the last 15 yrs healing myself. It’s not something that happens over night. Meditation has helped me the most , it awakens the soul and calms the mind. I also practice the breathing exercise daily. But I still don’t know the root of my trauma. Thank you for this video it helps us feel understood.
I think I've been storing that trauma internally as anger. This is a recent realization I have had. My authentic self is not an angry person. I have been asking the universe for an answer as how to release and exercise it out of me somehow.
I was always very good at connecting, I was always good at hugging. My light was shining almost full radiance. By retraumatazation , where someone forced me to heal, everything changed. Part of My consciousness seems gone, I feel numb and my body is in a lot of pain, I feel a lot of blocks in my chakra system. Since then my inner child feels wounded, baby trauma came up, trauma in my teenyears, and my soul feels fragmentated, all different parts of my mind and personality are in war, shame, anger. It has been a crazy experience. It feels like I lost parts of my soul, so my light shining not so fully makes sense. I am keeping faith that everything will make me shine brighter in the end!
This is me exactly! For the first time In my life I realize that I have pushed away love 💕 when actually I really wanted it!😏😞 I pretend that I don’t care, that I don’t care about a certain person, situation and then I am heartbroken 💔 without even thinking about what another might be feeling! I shut out the thought that they really might even care
The way my body expresses emotional pain is to stiffen up and get more and more painful (especially lower back) until I literally burst (tears) , then it's like toxic build-up leaving, and I feel lighter, calmer and cleaner. Then the cycle repeats. Tears started to fall as I listened to this, so it must be hitting home. Thank you.
Dissociation and Seizures. I have a few questions relating to topic. I want to try to keep this short as I tend to write essays! Firstly, I want to thank you for these amazing videos. What a complete inspiration you are Christina. You are one amazing person 💛 Since the age of 13, I have had extreme anxiety and what family and GP’s called ‘fainting spells,’ which were never taken seriously or looked into. At the age of 21, I realised that I could induce these short blackouts voluntarily, whenever I needed to calm down. I would sometimes do this every ten minutes throughout the day. Fast forward to my 30’s, whilst running my own business and still living a stressful life, I suddenly had a full-blown seizure and crashed my car. I had a few more of these ‘tonic clonic’ seizures over the coming months before having a major breakdown, resulting in hospitalisation for ‘psychosis.’ At the time, I felt I was finally going through a stage of self-discovery and although it was extreme, I felt I was having a breakthrough, not a breakdown. So, my questions are- -Has anybody else had a similar experience where you can self-induce blackouts or absence seizures? -Do you think my blackouts could be a sign of dissociation to take a break from extreme anxiety? -Do you think it’s possible that my major seizures could have been my body shutting down my ‘circuit board’ as you described near the beginning of the video? -GP’s, psychiatrists and neurologists don’t seem interested or concerned about my self-induced blackouts. A couple of counsellors have said that it may be a tool for me to temporarily escape reality. I would like to explore this more and I wonder whether you could point me in the right direction to somebody who could help me look into this more. Thank you for reading and sending love to you all today xxx
Hi Claire, I did have a similar experience as you..was always an anxious and very introverted child, with a sensitive health and some bad childhood and teenage experiences...the "fainting spells" were of course neglected, you moved too quick, you didn t eat, you don t have the necessary minerals, but they kept happening despite treatment. I also had very bad migraines after the problems in my family started (around 9-10) After starting to have panic attacks (at 17)the seisures came, exactly like yours, with other symptoms as well, but doctors said it was only in my head..got diagnosed with depression, was given lots of medication, including anticonvulsants, as mood stabilisers..seisures and faitings stopped. I stopped these meds, but started consuming other substances, so they got worse..made an eeg and they actually found signs of epilepsy, so back to treatment..but it went way worse with my antidepressants..after other years of investigations, some doctor told me that I actually have a constricted artery in the brain, so it doesn t get enough oxygen. There are some natural, easy meds that help with circulation, if you want to try them. Even my migraines(also bc of the artery thing) are better now. The thing that shocked me in your message is the fact that you could induce them..and thinking about it now, these problems get worse when I m in a difficult or streessful situation, so I guess my body shuts down in some way, at least it feels like it.. So, as a conclusion, sorry for the long rant, but a good diet, good hydration and sleep, less stress, no smoking/alcohol/others and those circulatory meds helped me..if you can, go take an mri and check if you might have the same problems as mine.. Wish you good luck and best of health!
Thank you so much for this.... I am 30 now and have recently realized that I have been dissociated for basically my entire life due to things that happened to me as a small child. Having this kind of honesty and help and encouragement is so wonderful and I can't thank you enough for supporting the world in healing. 💖
I am suffering from Dissociative identity disorder for about last 14 years. This video was so awakening for me to see the spiritual side. You explained so well. One thing was i felt irritated that you are laughing often in this video for no reason When you explaining.sorry to mention. Thank you
I first started researching dissociation because I worked with a nurse who would dissociate for hours she would literally be floating in the air for hours on end out of touch with reality I'm empth so I could feel it . She would do things and instantly have no memory of doing it within seconds after. I would do my best to keep her in touch with reality, but it was useless the more I find out about the condition, the more it breaks my heart.
When we remember trauma, vibration can go low level. That is/was difficult for me, since I tend to live at a fairly high vibration level. Soothing mantras are great, but I find that viewing the trauma scene as a movie about me works best. I am nothing special. I could be anybody. That character is done with that scene and is reframing life.
Viewing it as a movie is a form of disociation. When you are fully healed, you will be able to see it through your own eyes without losing power or energy, or having your vibration change. Wishing you well.
I find the hardest part of healing is my resistance to it. I struggle with this so much, it's almost laughable, but it has created a painstaking, fits and start approach to wholeness. I could describe it as a fear of being self-integrated or self aware. Could that be a fear of having power and complete self-responsibility of what I think, feel and act upon.? That resistance is so embedded I don't know where to find it's origins. Oh, I think I'm answering my own question as I type, I guess I need to find out where that self belief of not being capable or even deserving of healing comes from, because I just feel pathetic and useless and yet my experience so far on this path of healing has shown otherwise. Maybe I should stop being so hard on myself, because whatever the reason is that I have these self beliefs, and defences that come with it, is because of how I needed to protect myself as a child when I did not know any different. So it's the inner child that needs to be seen and validated, I think she is fearful and very angry. Thank you, your video has been very helpful.
You're afraid that the world will let you down again. That sensitive inner child is afraid to be vulnerable because it's been hurt far too many times and only sees the dark side of everything. You have become so comfortable in you're own little world and invested so much in building walls, so you try to convince yourself that it's for the best because if the can't reach me, they can't hurt me. But it gets extremely lonely and you just purely breathe to exist. Continue convincing that inner child that it's ok, they can come out and play. Try therapy again and again and again.
yeah I feel blockage in my chest neck and around my eyes. When I breath in it feels like there's a weight on my chest not allowing me to breath fully an deeply
I had this. I realised that as a child I had told myself that I need to do something before a certain time. This was something that was a dream, an indulgence, for me. Once I did it, that weight lifted and I could breath again. In fact I didn't even do as much as I thought I needed to. There was a point at about 75% of the way through when I realised it had lifted. Of course, I don't know if this is relevant to you, but it worked for me.
Being shown what I repressed, actually began the healing process... It was hard to see, but living a life of anguish has been worse. I actually feel very empowered knowing- yes it really did happen. And it was much worse than I ever imagined. However, knowing that, starts to put the puzzle together. Beginning communication with my altars has been Life changing. ❤
I dissociate to the point of feeling like I’m in a dream state, like I’m a phantom. Some days I float around outside my body and have a hard time knowing if my memories are real or dreams
Wow I recently realised I was disassociated but listening to this I realised its on all levels. And omg the eye contact, I force myself every day. Thank you for this 🙏
Psychology definition: "Dissociation is a break in how your mind handles information". Christina's definition: "Dissociation is a fragmentation or split that occurs on the mind/body/soul levels in response to pain." 4:00 1) Numbness 2) Difficulty in identifying and feeling emotions 3) Memory loss 4) Body disconnection 5) Difficulty in connecting with people How to heal:- FMI 1) Feeling
I am an Occupational Therapist. I resonates with Cristina Lopes, I am new here and new to discover or rediscover my self. I am still figuring it out how to start awaken my spirit. I love her channel, there's no commercial or ads. I hope I can wake up in my sleeping mode, I have been experiencing extra ordinary sensation, dreams, auditory hallucination ( as per her, "my clinical mind" turn on every time I deal with this kind of senses. From Migraine, from the shadow, lights, signs, intuition, it is just too much to handle.) I hope I can participate one of her retreat.
I think forgiveness is needed, but understanding can be shown throughout natural examples. I agree that holding onto the past can be different from being grateful for now, but to me holding onto the past is also a blessing, or it can be, because it's a separate world I have to appreciate in this moment along with what I choose to do and be next, I think being able to repair and grow the past, while you live your life now, is a beautiful gift. But I commend you the forgiveness you've made, the strength in being able to reach out that way, and knowing there's nothing quite like forgiveness when it grows strong, and seen like a bone that regrowing in the seasons. That's kind of how I saw it. I hope this comment helps, please let me know how(:
So by that logic you believe people should forgive their abusers? Maybe for some people that is an option, but for others who have been raped and physically abused and tortured from such a young age definitely should never be told or feel like they have to forgive anyone for that. Some things are just unforgivable and you have to understand that! I don’t believe forgiveness is necessary for healing.
@@faithredpath2695 Forgiving someone for something terrible can come from saying they chose to be darker and more evil, when they could have chosen something else. We can't stand for things that end in someone's demise, but for some rapists enjoying the pain is something they cant or wont shy away from, and choosing to abuse someone because they can't fight for their own damn empathy, it's ridiculous and sensible and not forgiving terrible things stands against those terrible thing, they cannot happen, and cannot get in the way of healing harm. Some have forgive their rapists, exactly because it is terrible. Because in my opinion one of my jobs is to stop rapists from wanting rape, for putting myself in their history. I once was in a bad place, a lost place, and in that time I had first learned about rape, and it was such a horrible shock, that it felt so alien, and in that quick moment of thinking and feeling all of sudden from all the bad that I had felt and the loss, I did something that is shameful and I shouldn't be forgiven for, maybe not even understood for, unless it would ease my teacher to know the process. The first time I heard about rape, I lied, and I told someone I had been raped, and it was the stupidest thing ever. I remember telling myself to stop talking, to stop letting the impulse get to me, and I didn't, in that stupid moment, I let me lying be the bad way of trying to understand what rape was. I'm a person who can choose to get over things and not, also when I'm in a traumatically triggering moment and I haven't done work on myself before hand to be normal enough to know I want to have a conversation. I know rape and assault is something that I would disown anyone for if they did it and made anyone be in the position. I hate it. But I also know that it can be really hard and really easy to rape and assault. This morning I had my second dream about rape, haunting, and wanted to say to someone who thought they were right that they were just that people still go to school. People try every day to live their own lives, and what are they really gaining if they've lost themselves. I have a lot to say to a lot of rapists in the future, one that have guilt,ones that don't.I would put posters and break into any home I thought had rape going on in it and I have yet to find out how to do anything but cover op to find people a make them see that they have opportunities rape couldn't be more the opposite of. I think forgiveness helps people talk, and talking about it has been proven to be needed or internal actions against rape and towards something you believe in, which you deserve to. People who rape are people who have seriously harmful ways of asserting themselves. And sometimes talking about it is saying I know you're going to be better than this. Forgiveness is powerful, but not forgiving is powerful too. Not talking with people who do bad, to me, is like ignoring the problem, at least ignoring when I'm healthy enough to explain it. But I understand not talking with someone of the likes of that kind of person you remember you live, painful hard to forget, worth saying no more. Ill always remember that pain, even if somedays I forget because I have something better with me going on.
I became aware of my disassociation by spotting my daughter shutting off feelings and starting “ I don’t care. I rather be alone. I love being alone.” I heard myself saying same thing many times. I am going to view the video on healing the inner child.
This video made me cry because I'm going through this and so is someone who was close to me. I think if anyone is going through this as well please watch the whole thing to realize how it can help you. THANK YOU
WOW!!!!!!!!!THAT WAS AN AMAZING VIDEO!! ( So, happy I stopped what I was doing to listen to it) I'm guilty of this...i really noticed I did it these last 2 yrs...from trauma, I shut down...and had pain...but doing better, it had to run it's course....plus I quit smoking 10 months ago and it makes you " feel your pain" you have no crutch left...except ice cream :-) lol.... so I'm excerising more now feeling better!! Breathing & meditating...holding love in my heart for all my past pain & good. Thank you for making this Video Christina -- with all these different types of videos people put out into the universe....THIS ONE WAS THE BEST, if you tube gave us a choice to pick who gets the award I would hands down pick YOU for 2020 BEST VIDEO / HEALING VIDEO OF THE YEAR....so be it💖🏆💖 much Love, stay well
Maybe yours & mine is, but people with Personality Disorders ( Amber Heard) wouldn't be caught dead watching a video like this. There comes a point when a person's evil deeds show how fractured a person's soul is ( Epstein) & the soul will not ascend in this lifetime, they will descend because they have hurt so many people. When you die you have a life review & the only 2 things that matter is who you loved & helped & who you hurt & destroyed. That's what my Guides have told me & what I believe. I think it's beautiful you believe all souls are constant. It shows your own soul's beauty. Many blessings & much love ♥️♥️🌎🌎
Agreed. We ARE a soul we can't leave the soul. "Personality disordered" ppl kill off the shamed self that was projected onto them from an unconscious parent. This is not their soul, it's a lie that their soul knows is not true; hence the creation of the false self and operating outside the body.
Like many others, I really needed this. After watching I have a sense of self understanding and comfortability that I haven’t felt in months. Please don’t stop making these videos 🙏🏼💕
I have tap tap hugged all the time even to my daughter....even made no eye contact. Thank u Christnie for this content...you have healed my entire life
Wow! This “appeared” in my feed RIGHT ON TIME. Part of the pain and panic for me during constant states of dissociation is not being able to tell anyone. I had to learn starting at three years old (and now I’m 60) how to walk and talk and smile and LOOK okay. So I’ve been secretly feeling unsafe and incredibly lonely behind that extroverted exterior my WHOLE life. Sharing your video with people around me has become a brilliant way to let people around me know what is going on with me as I continue to heal and integrate. Thank you oh beautiful heart alchemist. Also, I HAVE facilitated eye gazing with groups of women using small hand held mirrors while playing a song like, “I want to know what love is, and I want you to show me” by Foreigner. Now I have a greater understanding of why this is such a powerful tool 🌸🌿🧚
i actually used to loose periods of time...thought i was going crazy until someone explained it to me...thank you for this video...let the healing continue
I was diagnosed a few years ago with Complex PTSD and Disassociative Disorder, I have disassociated my whole life and was completely unaware until a few years ago. I am now 48 and I'm told that it is now just a part of my personality
She is thorough and knowledgeable. I actually will dissociate when good things would happen to me attention I would start choking, tripping, nearly faint getting sensitive to light. Winning in my house was punished severely. And even though I was very coordinated as a dancer as soon as the dance was done I’d go straight into a wall. Literally bumping into walls my entire life
A great tool for this is Richard Grannon's free emotional literacy thing on Instagram. So cool. It's simple & REALLY speeds up the process. Much love all♥️♥️🌎🌎✌✌♾♾⚡⚡🌈🌈🌞🌞🦈🦈
G H Same here! It wasn’t until I started feeling my way through was I actually able to move through the pain and release much of it. Sending so much love to all, these are incredibly triggering times 💛💛💛
I can't tell you how much this is helping me. I lived my life thinking all those horrible things couldn't hurt me if I just forgot about them, but that was the problem. Thank you for helping us! :')
Wow, that's the first time someone has actually explained to me why I have huge gaps in my memory of my life. I always thought it was due to brain trauma from the abuse. I absolutely have disassociated in my life. This may even explain my back pain that I've had for 30yrs that nothing seems to fix. We've even gone as far as ablation of the nerve. Thank you so much for this video.💜💜
This was soooo eye opening for me. Thank you. I have ALL the signs of dissociation. Lately been more clumsy with all this covid stuff making me feel uncomfortable and holding a lot of pain/anger/fear in triggering my inner child...but started acupuncture and got back into my journaling routine recently. I definately got a lot of work but this video gave me the necessary guidance. Thank you!
I had/have all of the signs except for two. I didn't know how deep dissociation actually goes. Thank you for being so kind as to share your knowledge with others in order to help them help themselves.
Wew, I relate to this so much. I feel like trying to fix my dissociative tendencies is like trying to shove a third-person perspective back into a first-person one. I constantly have to ask myself, "where is the camera? Is it outside of my body or is it within my own eyes?" Uncomfortable to say the least. And then I burst out laughing when you started talking about the hugging because I still do that. I gotta learn. Thanks, Christina, for sharing!
I was a very sensitive child, and my dissociation started at a very young age into my adulthood. It became my curse and further reached to exterior numbing to my pain when splitting didn’t work effectively. This gave me addictions and enforced my disfunction. Later in my journey I was diagnosed with PTSD and Disassociative disorder. So I did go through the healing but I needed to educate the child within to be able to show myself WHY? Why I was the way I was and yes there was sexual trauma attached. When I decided to go down the road feeling I was ready it didn’t really traumatize me at all. I was just able to feel my feelings with the guidance of a trauma expert and release from my neurological system we need to be released and replaced with positive enforcements. Thank you for reminding me that even to today I could still disassociate and not realize so thanks for all the extra information. 🙏🏻♥️
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Christina Lopes I was about to ask if you were going to do a video on hypersensitivity. Thanks for all the help
Thank you so much Christina... It feels incredible to understand oneself and life and relationships... It is such a gift from life to get on contact with your work and videos. First step for me was to realize that I have the traits of an Empath... then to realize that it has created a lot of dissociations... since my very early childhood... leading me to be completely depending on external validation. All the best from France !
What do you think about multiple personalities? I know a few people who have 2+ personalities. It seems this would be related to soul fragmentation. ALSO, do you think these multiple personalities need to go away? I ask because my friends' "Alts" (none mean or destructive) think they should Stay and Share the "host" body. They don't think they should go away & they fear it.
I'm curious why you never bring up addiction? I find that many empathic people turn to drugs or alcohol to numb pain and dull your senses. I'm saying this because it was my way out . I've been diagnosed with dissociation disorder but I'm sick of medication for everything
Is this basically “healed narcissism/borderline?”
I really like this woman, she truly wants to help people. 51 minutes of free content with excellent information, practical advice and solutions is a wonderful resource for people to use. Much respect and appreciation from Ireland.
ABSOLUTELY
I do too, she's got a beautiful heart. :)
I agree I’ve been looking into soul realignment and haven’t been able to come up with the money for the prices I’ve found. I was watching with anticipation of “the extended version with all the answers for ‘this much money’ “. Yet I didn’t hear her ask for anything
I agree she definitely needs recognition
IF LUCY RYAN WAS TRUE : 51 minutes of free content but I don't write sweet comments for free. I have written 3 sentences, those are positive graceful and powerfully promotive. My comment has an advanced mechanism that shows unwritten humbleness. I got$250 for this which was $50 less than the agreement. Ok had to add add 2 more sentences that remarks anything mentioned within this 51:53 shit.
Ive never heard a stranger describe my entire existence so eloquently.
Hey Brandi,
I’m your long lost twin.
Right!! We’re in this together tho! Watch some of her other videos. You got this!
Shes one of the best
Yasssss! Welcome home everyone. 🌟🙏🌟 After 30 years of inner work... she might be one of the most comprehensive teachers around.
Yeah, Christina has an amazing ability to do that for me too
The hardest part about this I've found, is finding people who can merge both the science of being human, and the spirituality behind all of it.
I am absolutely in love with the fact that you take a metaphysical viewpoint on such a "medically influenced" topic like dissociation. 🙌
Dr. Gabor Maté is another that incorporates both perspectives. UA-cam has many of his lectures and interviews. Especially if you've struggled with addiction or chronic illness, he's worth checking out.
Lisa A. Romano is more spiritually focused, but goes into the somatic aspects. Her work is available here too.
Blessings, may your path be gentle and one of love.
@@rochellebroglen4155 Thank you so much! I'll check them out!!
Much love! 🤗
my exact thoughts.
@@rochellebroglen4155 thank you for the resources. I have looked for someone that can help me for decades. This lady doesn't have anything available until 2022. I was a baby when the abuse started. I will check them out.
Shes incredible 😍
I cried watching this. The relief of finally finding someone who empathises and understands what truely does happen with dissociation.
Thank you for this message and help.
I have lost so much time, because of dissosiate my whole life.
I cried too listening to this... this was an amazing video!
I just started realizing this might be something I have been doing my whole life.
Me too
I cried too girly. I feel like I can finally start my healing journey with this knowledge.
I am 65 and have been doing this my whole life...the last 5 years has been recognizing these things before I die.
Good on you Sandra. Welcome to the light. I'm glad you're starting to reconnect with your essence. As hard as this work is, you're absolutely worth it.
Sabrine Farjallah so much time wasted.
Sandra, this is great that you could see those patterns and reconnect with your true self... Many greetings
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I've had the disassociation for 40 years. I don't think I've ever been me. I'm currently grieving this fact... It's been painful to realize I missed SO MUCH. it's almost too painful to realize. This is very helpful for exactly where I am.
Omg you have no idea how much I needed this. I’ve been struggling with this for my whole life to prevent trauma without realizing. I used to think it was day dreaming too much but, it’s much more than that. It ruins your focus and it’s like your brain runs away. Thank you so much for this video, I needed this more than ever.
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Alexus Davis yesss exactly I thought I just used to be in my head a lot and daydreaming but was definitely dissociating bc of trauma, I still struggle with feeling like I’ve dissociated things 😫💗
Me too😢
Yessss totally agree.
Wow. I'm in my head all the time and get frustrated when I'm forced to come out by someone just talking to me. I told my counselor it's like I live in a virtual reality in my head all day and am bothered when someone disturbs me and I have to be in real life and listen.
1. Numbness 2. Difficulty in identifying or feeling emotions3. Memory loss4. Body disconnection 5.difficulty in connection with people 6. No eye contact 7. Extremes of body discomfort8.the crave discomfort 8. A lack of self awareness
Claire Crawford Thank you 💕
Thanks
This is my ex gf,,
This is my current state of being. Thank you for breaking it down. Makes it slightly easier to take internal inventory. BLESSED 🙏💗
it hits every a couple times a hr and whenever it hits i j sit there feeling like im not existing
I realized around the age of 20 that I had been dissociating for a majority of my life and that it was the reason I have memory problems. I am slowly starting to shake it off and come out of my "dream world".
What action did you take to help you? Cheers in advance, pat
I started meditating and focusing on being more mindful throughout the day, so now when I notice myself dissociating I try and snap back to reality and make myself pay more attention to everything that is around me
@@elizabethbradley4211 I appreciate the feed back, I use similar techniques, at 55 I wish 8 had the diagnosis earlier but now maybe I can find some peace. Regards, pat
Same sis! I was living in a bubble a lot of times in my life and that was noticed a lot by my friends. For example I couldn't keep up a conversation in a group of friends, like my soul was merged in and drown into my little world
I'm 38 and had soul fragmentation at age 5. This is literally the first time I've heard a spiritual explanation as to why I've felt numb inside since since an early age. Even after MANY years of therapy this is the first time I've heard of soul fragmentation. Thank you for helping me understand why I've felt numb (lack of joy) most of my life
I've been diagnosed before with depression/anxiety, etc but this truly makes sense to me. Thank you!
Ditto
Same here...59 now... suffering since being young baby 😢...HELL of a life😥
Maybe your brain lacks receptors for chemicals that trigger happy feelings,,,
Wanted to share a mantra I've used to overcome past traumas. "Yes I am justified to feel sad/angry. I forgive myself for a negative reaction to a life lesson" This has helped me move to understand and forgive the person.
Thank you very much for sharing this useful mantra!
I literally burst into tears as I read that. I guess I really needed it. Thank you So much for sharing. To think, I don't usually read the comments. ☝️😇
That's a good one. Thanks. It is too easy to go into a vicious cycle of feeling negative-feeling even more negative about feeling negative in the first place. To forgive yourself first is a good way to break this cycle. 💚
When you included in your mantra "I forgive myself," that struck my soul because I just am learning now how to talk kindly with myself and forgiving myself seams surreal yet necessary. I so appreciate you sharing this!
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I have tried it all: Meditation, forgiveness, deep hypnosis, breathing, letting go, opening and releasing all through my chakras, writing it down and burning it, etc. Nothing is getting close to the pain and anger I have within me. As a sweet and picked on/bullied as a child to being in the Marines to a cancer and a cheating husband. Throw in a couple combat zones and a high stress job and you get me.
Intention prayer:
Loving Creator,
I fully accept and love myself as you Love me.
Blessed is the broken road that got me to where I am today.
I become One with all the Ecstasy and all the Pain.
So that I may walk upon this earth in my full Divine Power.
Healed. Integrated. Whole.
It is done.
I love this! Thank you!
Gabba 🌹
Beautiful, thank you!
Awesome thanks!!
AMEN Dear Gabba 🙏🌿💖
I want to add to this that if you dissociate with little things (no big trauma), it might be that you were raised without enough attunement. The first 5 years of your life you built the foundation of the neurocircuits and fundamental things like the sense of self and central coherence. If you didnt have enough parent-child attunement (I see that you see that i see you: synergy or resonance. And joint attention) : Then: 1. You become more sensitive: many empaths have that background of having to tune into the parents more than the other way around: you're used to anticipate to people that dont anticipate to you. 2. With lack of attunement you develop less sense of self. 3. You have more info input with less categories or filters to process them; but also a processor with less working memory.
So if you put all of this together you get a situation whith more input than output and a processor thats too small for that amount of info. Especially when that info is emotional and relational because you tune too much into the other and less foundation boundaries filter from within. (Overly developped sense of 'what do other people want need, what is their agenda" versus underdevelopped 'what do i get out of this, whats in it for me, for my purpose, how do i make them talk about my interests and have them tune into my frame of mind and my agenda"). Harvard Childdevelopment Centre has info on their site on the importance of attunement during the first years: how it affects the stresssystem also. So trauma for a child is to be left alone: for a baby that is already traumatic and neglect changes the braindevelopment: also when the parents is there but doesnt comfort: the stressresponse then isnt switched off and the braincells develop while bathing in alarm neurotransmittors. This results in a permanent different stressresponse. Its result is not allways bad, some become firemen and thrive on unexpected adrenaline rushes. The result also differs if you have vulnerable genes. Dissociation without a big trauma event is mentioned with narcistic parents, or parents that have autism, or parents that were not emotionally available for other reasons like depression or addictions. Or just low EQ. And if a child does go through a clasdic traumatic event like a car crash etc then comforting and talking about it right after it happened will prevent ptsd. But the parenting styles as mentioned are also lacking on comforting and together processing the childs emotions: even if there is a traumatic event with the right attuned parenting it might not have developped into dissociative disorder.
Thank you so much for taking the time in exlaining these fine details.. What a powerhouse of goodness and solutions, reasons, clarity and understanding is coming our of Christina's generous mentoring and extra value comments. I feel SO grateful!
Only wrapping my head around how do I dissociate..
My best wishes, blessing to You and All on the path of our healing.
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Wow this was great 👍 and it definitely shined more light on my whole entire being 🙂 i thank Christina for a very informative video and i have to thank you as well for such an in-depth comment✍🏽😉🙌🏾🤍 blessings to you both 💕🙏🏾
Thank you so much for this
I don't have a sense of self,,, I'm overly attuned to other peoples thoughts feelings and frame of mind,,,,
Thank you so much for being kind enough to share to help others heal. ❤️
I felt like my heart and mind could never align. Your videos have helped keep me sane during this awakening. Being a victim of sexual / physical abuse I had major dissociation thearpy helped and clearing Charkas has saved me so much. Keep helping people
@@desiraiw.4555 Thank you for sharing this I needed to hear this. Healing is a uphill climb but totally worth it.
@@desiraiw.4555 I relate to this in so many ways. My oldest son was abused by his uncle. He had been doing a learning program at the time which he excelled at. After this occurred he could no longer read. He is also diagnosed with infantile autism because he was speaking and then stopped and eventually started again. I knew then and I still know now that my very functional son locked part of himself up and started over again to protect himself from the trauma. Now everything that he was excelling at during that time was locked up also. I have explained this to his doctors yet none of them converged the autism treatment and the abuse. He is 26 years old now and after spending a fortune on reading programs he still doesn't recognize his own name yet when he was younger prior to abuse he was an avid reader. I started the program through The Institute for Human Potential when he was born. He spoke clearly prior to all of this and it took him years to speak clearly again. Worst of all he lost his childlike outlook that anything is possible and became so practical that it is difficult to get through. I envision him whole and happy and he has made progress through nutrition and love yet so much more is possible if he would allow it.
I was retraumatized when the memories came back. It does happen and should be acknowledged.
Thank you. I think it's dangerous for those with D.I.D. to listen to this armchair psychology stuff. I'm sure it's great for people who dissociate while driving or other simple manifestations of it, but not for people who lose long periods of time to unknown parts of their personality. All too often the therapy they have available makes things worse.
Agree! :)
The newest studies on trauma healing among psychological studies ALL agree that reliving the traumatic event is not actually helpful or necessary to healing from the trauma. Thank God for this advancement in what we know. Forced recall is highly dangerous.
I struggled with this my entire life before my awakening. I’m a super empath aka a highly sensitive person. Sometimes when people would touch me, there would be weird muscle spasms I would have out of nervousness. Also I would be afraid to touch people terms of intimacy out of fear of harming by using too much force. It seemed so weird, but this makes so much sense smh love Christina 🌟❤️
I think another sign should be going into our minds and overthinking as a means to block out the pain. Thinking becomes another way to remain numb in uncomfortable moments that trigger us.
Agreed
Yes
I experience numbness, difficulty in identifying my emotions, disconnecting, I can't sit in my feelings or others feelings, memory loss associated with trauma, body disconnection..i have bruises all over my body from not being aware of my body and where the walls or furniture are. I also can't connect with people. I can't hug. No eye contact. Extreme body discomfort, run away, or panic.
Oh honey, I am so sorry to hear this. Listen to Lisa A Romano for some coaching too. UA-cam. Keep asking for help-healing and the info teachers healers will come. Carol
Sounds like Complex trauma.. I have many of those symptoms too.
I hope you have a good trauma therapist
I have a spiritual guides and as a therapist myself.. don't need them they're useless
Want to thank and ❤️ every single person here who commented and shared these most personal parts of themselves. It's bold and brave. You've all helped me. Blessed all of us on this journey. I have a therapist walking with me thru this. Too scared to do this on my own. Btwn her and ya'll it's going to be OK. ❤️s
I dont remember much of my child hood at all, but I do recall being introuble or crying and never speaking bc I just couldnt or I didnt feel like I was allowed to, Ive noticed now how quick I can forget conversations I had 30 seconds ago, fading out in the middle of friends telling stories and popping back in hoping they didnt see the blank look on my face an think I wasnt listening bc I really was trying, and everywhere I go I tend to walk with me head down and never make eye contact with anybody unless were speaking but Ive also always watched peoples mouths when they talk... hmmm
Lol just me slowly realizing Ive really spent 20 years of my life doing this and Im only just now aware
It's never too late to grow my friend, don't feel like you're just figuring it out, you figured it out when it was right for you.
I don’t remember much of my childhood either. There are big holes in my memory. My mom was an alcoholic and whipped us kids, terrorized me.
You sound just like me
Awareness is half the battle-I hope
Sensitives try to run from any type of physical discomfort. I hate my body feeling uncomfortable. Sometimes we need to force ourselves to face it. Another extreme is that they'll push their bodies a little too much against body discomfort in order to feel connected to the body. I've done it doing crossfit workout.
Harder to turn inwards but easier to point things at others.
Feel-Move-Integrate.
Feel whatever you feel.
Moving needs you to come into your body and break all the disconnection.
Breathing with some body work. Breathwork. Free form dancing. Five rythms, ecstatic. Tapping routines, massager. Eye gazing (can't break eye contact).
For as long as I can remember I would "zone out" as a kid after the death of a mother....I didn't Kno I was dissociating until I was diagnosed with bpd at 24.... dissociating is prolly one of my biggest life shortcomings. It's interfered with my job, not being able to drive, and relationships
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I get it, me too... hugs! 💜
Me too! I feel like I’ve lost myself and can’t get her back!
I was exposed to a trigger, fell into a deep rabbit hole, had an awful day, and when I calmed down, your video showed up... deep understanding going on now. Thank you .
Sooo crazy bc literally same
Ayeitsalayna wow , no kidding. Pretty wild how we were guided to this
Guess how I ended here too.
Childhood trauma from both parents, I'm now 32 & have dissociated since as long as I can remember.
@@alicecampbell8102 it's along road... hugs
I just thought I was maladaptive daydreaming but turns out I was avoiding painful memories and pain in the current situation. I met a wonderful empath recently and we've helped eachother so much. She made me see how much I minimised unhealthy relationships in my life. That's another thing, often you need a fresh outsiders perspective to see your situation in an objective way.
Thank you for making this video I love how you laid it out. ❤️
Christina, I can't thankyou enough for making this video. Seriously! Ding! Ding! Ding! This is the best video I've ever seen.
This video was so important for me. Ive been dissociating my whole life, and just got out of a very intense dissociative episode. I didn't feel anything for months. I didn't eat I couldn't talk to people. Learning to heal now. Thank you.
Where have you been all my life?! Thank you Christina and the universe!
I am fully dissociated. I don’t remember much of my childhood, I am numb, and I just feel empty. This video taught me so much about myself. I know where to start now to fix it. Thank you!
Me too
I dissociate when I'm in very positive scenarios, even mentally. I guess it's just a defect of my own personal journey, but it's about time I learned about it.
When i clicked on this video i laughed at myself because “ I don’t disassociate” it just “looks interesting”. Once you stared talking going in depth it was as if this light came into my life and revealed to me something i had never accepted before. In the past 6 months I’ve been living through very strong and exhausting Panic attacks, this has actually been a good week and i believe it’s because I’ve been doing a lot of shadow work and self healing (leaned from your videos as well as others thank you). As i watched this i learned i have three of the eight keys to identify if you disassociate. Obviously the panic attacks are a sign, eye contact and memory loss. I stared working on my heart chakra by healing anger, fear, resentment, regret and other things and i can feel and improvement. With this video i was able to see the next step towards healing those disassociations. Ive only been watching you for about a month at most and your videos are very helpful so thank you for your time and for sharing these valuable information. And for those who might come across this comment and are facing something similar know you are not alone and that you too will heal and that life is a gift and we fill it with love and light even in our most darkest moments. Remember if you are here its for a reason , a good reason not just for other but for yourself as well. Sending you love and light wherever you are.
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Valentina, Thank you, and to You and Everyone! Christina is such a blessing for so many of us.. after decades of no clarity on: 'what may be my problem?'..
Incredible value and 'aha' moments..
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The moment you mentioned a proper hug I cried because I realized I can't remember the last time I was hugged by someone; let alone given a proper hug.
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I do feel dissociated. It happened recently after a bout of depression. I feel like I’m outside of my body and that there is fear trapped inside me. I can barely focus and it’s basically ruining my life.
How are you these days friend?
I absolutely dissociate when i went through the trauma of physical and emotional abuse from the person who was suppose to protect me and keep me safe under oath i learned to turn my emotions on and off like a light switch. When i broke free from that i accepted the pain and i forgave him. then my children were killed by a drunk driver losing 2 of my children i never and still have not found a way to bring in the light i have a hole in my soul that has never and will never be full. I had a brief spirt about 1 year that one person came into my life that i connected with like i never had anyone else. I was whole but only for a brief moment then betrayed which that is a going theme in my life. He disappeared without a trace no warning just gone. I really have connected with all these things you explained, I have tried to do all of what you have suggested few things i have not. Im very tired I have always absorbed others feelings around me i have always been the rock for others although I was falling apart. I give and help that is what gives me joy but anymore not even that brings peace anymore. I am tired!
Thank you so much for this video! I was in fight or flight mode my entire life because I constantly feared when I would disassociate around others. I let it control my life, doctors just gave meds and family didn’t understand. I lived 40yrs ashamed and lonely. Finally after a few months into my awakening, it suddenly just came to me that it’s all a huge energy shift that I let shut me down thinking I’m broken. Awareness and acceptance has been life changing for me. This video is amazing and I have searched many many years for an explanation like yours. Thank you for sharing your amazing gifts to help all heal ❤️
I'm 60 yrs old and have always felt "stupid" my whole life because I can't remember things. Very few memories of childhood, and many adult events (not even identifiably traumatic) are not accessible to me. Emotional numbness, lack of joy, no deep motivation to live but doing my best to make life count as long as I have to be here, no awareness of great grief in death events, a failed marriage due to absolute lack of emotional connection, no eye contact.. the list is endless. Having others bond easily with me because I know how to "give" and make them feel special, but can't seem to receive from them, so it's very one-sided. I can walk away easily. I am not sure I have what it takes to walk through this by myself. But don't have the financial resources for professional help. Being aware of the root helps me regain little self-respect though, so thank you so very much for sharing your knowledge and your journey! Blessings to you and the many people who have been and continue to be helped from your reaching out.
I remember everything but no feelings are attached.
This video was very randomly in my feed and I'm dumbfounded by the timing of this. I needed to hear this and I needed it today.
What helps is praying. Just in General believing in God is the best healing that I can Receive. Because there is sense behinde it.
I could cry right now and we'll I might. You are literally explaining my life
Im going to be really vulnerable and honest to my fellow Lights out there.
I remember the first time holding my son for the first and knowing I loved him but literally could not feel love. I couldn't feel anything for years really it's a hard reality to live in. Then I at that time was not nearly as woke so I would have a thought and it would be like my thoughts would attack me they would think things that I would never do. On replay like just stuck their. It wasn't until the last 2 years living so identifed with my EMOTIONAL PAIN BODY🦹
just always keep this in the back of your mind in hard times your thoughts meditate , slow your breathing and meditate some more. I just wanted to share this because this MASTER is really the best guide I could ask for ❤️
I lost a child in the past and now I am feeling scared because I am unable to feel continuous love for my new child... I am scared of myself and think things that I'd never do.. And I know I love him but I feel nothing, just tiredness... Because of the fear of losing a child again, I am closing myself to love. Or the thing closed itself. Knowing it doesn't make it go away, doesn't make full love appear... Full, fluent... It makes perfect sense that I am protecting myself from new trauma, but I will end up traumatized anyways if I cannot enjoy and live to the fullest my current life... I feel like I am becoming crazy. Becoming a mom again has made me irrecognizable, like... I beleived such things about myself, like I was loving and caring and here I am, unable to be it truly, sincerely... It is so fucked up...
So you were being mind controlled until your emotional body activated,,,
Ty I needed to hear this.
I discovered you at the beginning of this journey. I learned alot from you. Forever grateful 🌹
Hi everyone in the comments section 🙂
I just wanted to say a few words for anyone suffering from dissociation:
I have been going through this for what I thought was 2 years but now realising it was probably a lot longer lol.
Just wanted to say to anyone who needs to hear this that it does get better. I have had times in my life when I would see things that where really hard for me to grasp ( especially during my spiritual awakening) and then completely dissociating to the point to where I’ve felt absolutely nothing..
I’ve been able to feel more of myself than I have in a long time now and I know I will get better every day. Trust your soul and trust Christina as her videos have been nothing but helpful and fantastic especially when I needed these videos the most :).
If anyone out their is thinking about giving up please just stay with it I promise you if your intention is to heal you will get there !
I’ve had times where I’ve wanted to die because of the numbness but the more I was able to see that my habit was dissociating I was able to start working with it and the universe naturally started to help me out.
Much love to everyone and have a wonderful day you’ve got this 🌟💫💗💗💕❤️
When I am aware I am asleep and in "dream" mode I ask my subconscious to take to to the places that I need to heal. I ask questions and then I tell me myself to release, let go and I pull or push it out of my body. I tell myself I am safe as well.
What a great idea!
Amazing idea, I hope oh remember to do this x
@@sosoretro start every night an it will become second nature
That was my plan as well. I feel like this can be really powerful, looking forward to vivid lucid dreams 🌚
I've needed this for long. Thank you so much! I have been struggling with dissociation for almost a year now and it takes so much of my enjoyment away
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I think my light got dimmed when my son died after much suffering. I thought when he passed I would endure such great pain and loss. But strangely enough, I felt like I was being protected and coddled at first. I am still grieving, some days are better than others, but those first few weeks were very strange and different from what I thought they would be like. This is so nice that She is helping us to understand this. Thank you Christina
I wish you love and strength. You must be an old and loving soul to have to live through something so painfull.
I completely put a higher boundaries from my past. Including my old friends. I hate myself for isolating myself from my old friends. But a part of me saying I did the right thing, because those people will only remind myself about my past. I am still healing from my past. So i dont want to involve myself in my old friends.
I understand your perspective. But I find that as I heal the inner child, my relationships with those old friends and even enemies heal. It is the oddest thing to realize you are actually the leader here, if that makes sense.
I only know for sure because people say things like, "She seems different. She is really nice. She makes a lot of sense now. She seems happy. What a pleasant visit."
YES.
Perhaps it will help you to make the distinction between people that are good for you or mean well towards you, even if it comes across as nosy or interfering [and that you therefor had a falling out with for whatever reason], and the ones that will just continue to pull you towards a downward spiral [friends with a dishonest or criminal bend, users and abusers, addicts, etc]. There is a fine difference between those, and once you discern who is who, it may make it easier for you to forgive them - and more importantly yourself, and pick up the relationship, or to let it go for good and move on... Be well.
You're doing your best! I've 9 siblings & I'm the only one who has continued this road to this level, and the core, passive aggressive, siblings that want me to continued to be buried alive won't get their wish because they can't and won't ever see my real existence, I shall forgive them for my peace of mind, but I can't push this broken down truck with no working brakes, up this hill anymore...I'm stepping aside & letting those chips fall where they may!
Same!! But I decided to build new friendships and build healthy bonds and interactions with them. I have been isolating for 6ish years now
Great knowledge . This video really helps
Omg, you are describing me and my whole life! So much work I’ve done, searched for and discovered and yet it’s like opening a whole Pandora’s Box! I’m Not Giving Up!!!
I healed my MPD/DID! Many days off and on in specialized hospitals through out a decade in linear time! Thank you Dr. Mungadze and Dr. Brown! Using mind body and soul healing! Forever in gratitude for these men in the 1990s.
Everything you're saying resonates with me so much. I've had childhood trauma that I suppressed for so long I had almost forgotten. I am pin pointing my pain patterns and calling them to healing no longer imprisoned in my own mind/ body/ soul. I hope everyone finds healing from this as I know how horribly scary it can be and how normal it can become. If you have someone you can trust start taking about it with someone. It helps validate your pain, and make you feel not alone. God bless you 🙏❣️
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Awnica Bergman thank you for sharing and validating, it’s definitely scary and the fact that it feels ‘normal’ is the worst, even when you realise on some level it’s not normal there’s nothing to show you what is normal 💗
I see what you mean everyday connecting with others can relate on these thank you 💚
I've felt numb for years, but things have gotten worse recently. I need help.
Im not even halfway through and I had to stop to say thankyou
This helps so much,
Being able to know the state im in now is something other people experience, and its not just something wrong with me.
Thank you
If you need help and are in need of resources.. please reach out to someone! You could even message me and i will gladly link you to resources in your area or just listen.
If you are in the US you can call 211 for resources in your relative location.
They also have lots of text/chat lines available if that is your thing:)
@@manfaamarie I appreciate your message thankyou. I am getting help,
I feel very isolated, having no friends and with whats going on in the world having a connection is difficult
I keep everyone and everything at an arms length. I don't remember the majority of my childhood. I just want to feel like I belong in this world. Find people who actually like me and want to spend time with me.
One thing you didn’t mention is the far away steer and mind escape, or loss of seconds of time. It effected my focus growing up in school. I’ve spent the last 15 yrs healing myself. It’s not something that happens over night. Meditation has helped me the most , it awakens the soul and calms the mind. I also practice the breathing exercise daily. But I still don’t know the root of my trauma. Thank you for this video it helps us feel understood.
I think I've been storing that trauma internally as anger. This is a recent realization I have had. My authentic self is not an angry person. I have been asking the universe for an answer as how to release and exercise it out of me somehow.
@Lisa B2021 Thank you!
I was always very good at connecting, I was always good at hugging. My light was shining almost full radiance.
By retraumatazation , where someone forced me to heal, everything changed. Part of My consciousness seems gone, I feel numb and my body is in a lot of pain, I feel a lot of blocks in my chakra system.
Since then my inner child feels wounded, baby trauma came up, trauma in my teenyears, and my soul feels fragmentated, all different parts of my mind and personality are in war, shame, anger.
It has been a crazy experience. It feels like I lost parts of my soul, so my light shining not so fully makes sense.
I am keeping faith that everything will make me shine brighter in the end!
This explains why putting on my old tap shoes and tap dancing felt like a religious experience, a revelation/awakening
I have every single sign that she talked about, and this video just turned up in my feed. Thank you Christina!
This is me exactly! For the first time In my life I realize that I have pushed away love 💕 when actually I really wanted it!😏😞 I pretend that I don’t care, that I don’t care about a certain person, situation and then I am heartbroken 💔 without even thinking about what another might be feeling! I shut out the thought that they really might even care
There’s so much light in this world, we just have to heal and realize that ✨ AMAZING VIDEO❤️
The way my body expresses emotional pain is to stiffen up and get more and more painful (especially lower back) until I literally burst (tears) , then it's like toxic build-up leaving, and I feel lighter, calmer and cleaner. Then the cycle repeats. Tears started to fall as I listened to this, so it must be hitting home. Thank you.
jenny taylor A counselor told me that crying releases Serotonin in the brain and helps us to feel better.
Dissociation and Seizures.
I have a few questions relating to topic. I want to try to keep this short as I tend to write essays!
Firstly, I want to thank you for these amazing videos. What a complete inspiration you are Christina. You are one amazing person 💛
Since the age of 13, I have had extreme anxiety and what family and GP’s called ‘fainting spells,’ which were never taken seriously or looked into. At the age of 21, I realised that I could induce these short blackouts voluntarily, whenever I needed to calm down. I would sometimes do this every ten minutes throughout the day.
Fast forward to my 30’s, whilst running my own business and still living a stressful life, I suddenly had a full-blown seizure and crashed my car. I had a few more of these ‘tonic clonic’ seizures over the coming months before having a major breakdown, resulting in hospitalisation for ‘psychosis.’ At the time, I felt I was finally going through a stage of self-discovery and although it was extreme, I felt I was having a breakthrough, not a breakdown.
So, my questions are-
-Has anybody else had a similar experience where you can self-induce blackouts or absence seizures?
-Do you think my blackouts could be a sign of dissociation to take a break from extreme anxiety?
-Do you think it’s possible that my major seizures could have been my body shutting down my ‘circuit board’ as you described near the beginning of the video?
-GP’s, psychiatrists and neurologists don’t seem interested or concerned about my self-induced blackouts. A couple of counsellors have said that it may be a tool for me to temporarily escape reality. I would like to explore this more and I wonder whether you could point me in the right direction to somebody who could help me look into this more.
Thank you for reading and sending love to you all today xxx
Hi Claire, I did have a similar experience as you..was always an anxious and very introverted child, with a sensitive health and some bad childhood and teenage experiences...the "fainting spells" were of course neglected, you moved too quick, you didn t eat, you don t have the necessary minerals, but they kept happening despite treatment. I also had very bad migraines after the problems in my family started (around 9-10)
After starting to have panic attacks (at 17)the seisures came, exactly like yours, with other symptoms as well, but doctors said it was only in my head..got diagnosed with depression, was given lots of medication, including anticonvulsants, as mood stabilisers..seisures and faitings stopped.
I stopped these meds, but started consuming other substances, so they got worse..made an eeg and they actually found signs of epilepsy, so back to treatment..but it went way worse with my antidepressants..after other years of investigations, some doctor told me that I actually have a constricted artery in the brain, so it doesn t get enough oxygen.
There are some natural, easy meds that help with circulation, if you want to try them. Even my migraines(also bc of the artery thing) are better now.
The thing that shocked me in your message is the fact that you could induce them..and thinking about it now, these problems get worse when I m in a difficult or streessful situation, so I guess my body shuts down in some way, at least it feels like it..
So, as a conclusion, sorry for the long rant, but a good diet, good hydration and sleep, less stress, no smoking/alcohol/others and those circulatory meds helped me..if you can, go take an mri and check if you might have the same problems as mine..
Wish you good luck and best of health!
Hi Claire, my name is Sophina Isaac. N m experiencing the same thing as u, since I was a toddler.
Thank you so much for this.... I am 30 now and have recently realized that I have been dissociated for basically my entire life due to things that happened to me as a small child. Having this kind of honesty and help and encouragement is so wonderful and I can't thank you enough for supporting the world in healing. 💖
I am suffering from Dissociative identity disorder for about last 14 years. This video was so awakening for me to see the spiritual side. You explained so well. One thing was i felt irritated that you are laughing often in this video for no reason When you explaining.sorry to mention. Thank you
Surprised to hear that because I absolutely love when she laughs.shes genuine and lighthearted. Love the giggles, makes me happy!+
I first started researching dissociation because I worked with a nurse who would dissociate for hours she would literally be floating in the air for hours on end out of touch with reality I'm empth so I could feel it . She would do things and instantly have no memory of doing it within seconds after. I would do my best to keep her in touch with reality, but it was useless the more I find out about the condition, the more it breaks my heart.
When we remember trauma, vibration can go low level. That is/was difficult for me, since I tend to live at a fairly high vibration level.
Soothing mantras are great, but I find that viewing the trauma scene as a movie about me works best. I am nothing special. I could be anybody. That character is done with that scene and is reframing life.
Thank you.
Viewing it as a movie is a form of disociation. When you are fully healed, you will be able to see it through your own eyes without losing power or energy, or having your vibration change. Wishing you well.
I find the hardest part of healing is my resistance to it. I struggle with this so much, it's almost laughable, but it has created a painstaking, fits and start approach to wholeness. I could describe it as a fear of being self-integrated or self aware. Could that be a fear of having power and complete self-responsibility of what I think, feel and act upon.? That resistance is so embedded I don't know where to find it's origins.
Oh, I think I'm answering my own question as I type, I guess I need to find out where that self belief of not being capable or even deserving of healing comes from, because I just feel pathetic and useless and yet my experience so far on this path of healing has shown otherwise.
Maybe I should stop being so hard on myself, because whatever the reason is that I have these self beliefs, and defences that come with it, is because of how I needed to protect myself as a child when I did not know any different. So it's the inner child that needs to be seen and validated, I think she is fearful and very angry.
Thank you, your video has been very helpful.
I relate
I get this.
You're afraid that the world will let you down again. That sensitive inner child is afraid to be vulnerable because it's been hurt far too many times and only sees the dark side of everything. You have become so comfortable in you're own little world and invested so much in building walls, so you try to convince yourself that it's for the best because if the can't reach me, they can't hurt me. But it gets extremely lonely and you just purely breathe to exist. Continue convincing that inner child that it's ok, they can come out and play. Try therapy again and again and again.
@@magalystamales fuck.. thank you for this
200% hear, feel and relate! Blessings to us all on our healing journey.
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yeah I feel blockage in my chest neck and around my eyes. When I breath in it feels like there's a weight on my chest not allowing me to breath fully an deeply
I had this. I realised that as a child I had told myself that I need to do something before a certain time. This was something that was a dream, an indulgence, for me. Once I did it, that weight lifted and I could breath again. In fact I didn't even do as much as I thought I needed to. There was a point at about 75% of the way through when I realised it had lifted.
Of course, I don't know if this is relevant to you, but it worked for me.
Being shown what I repressed, actually began the healing process...
It was hard to see, but living a life of anguish has been worse. I actually feel very empowered knowing- yes it really did happen. And it was much worse than I ever imagined. However, knowing that, starts to put the puzzle together. Beginning communication with my altars has been Life changing. ❤
I dissociate to the point of feeling like I’m in a dream state, like I’m a phantom. Some days I float around outside my body and have a hard time knowing if my memories are real or dreams
Wow I recently realised I was disassociated but listening to this I realised its on all levels. And omg the eye contact, I force myself every day. Thank you for this 🙏
Psychology definition:
"Dissociation is a break in how your mind handles information".
Christina's definition:
"Dissociation is a fragmentation or split that occurs on the mind/body/soul levels in response to pain." 4:00
1) Numbness
2) Difficulty in identifying and feeling emotions
3) Memory loss
4) Body disconnection
5) Difficulty in connecting with people
How to heal:-
FMI
1) Feeling
I am an Occupational Therapist. I resonates with Cristina Lopes, I am new here and new to discover or rediscover my self. I am still figuring it out how to start awaken my spirit. I love her channel, there's no commercial or ads. I hope I can wake up in my sleeping mode, I have been experiencing extra ordinary sensation, dreams, auditory hallucination ( as per her, "my clinical mind" turn on every time I deal with this kind of senses. From Migraine, from the shadow, lights, signs, intuition, it is just too much to handle.) I hope I can participate one of her retreat.
Forgiveness is the greatest healing power. There is nothing gained in holding on to the past.
I think forgiveness is needed, but understanding can be shown throughout natural examples. I agree that holding onto the past can be different from being grateful for now, but to me holding onto the past is also a blessing, or it can be, because it's a separate world I have to appreciate in this moment along with what I choose to do and be next, I think being able to repair and grow the past, while you live your life now, is a beautiful gift. But I commend you the forgiveness you've made, the strength in being able to reach out that way, and knowing there's nothing quite like forgiveness when it grows strong, and seen like a bone that regrowing in the seasons. That's kind of how I saw it. I hope this comment helps, please let me know how(:
@Downstars what's the story behind that name, it's an amazing name to me
Its not like you can control flashbacks. Trauma is embedded. Forgiveness is a nice thought but it doesnt stop the longlasting effects of abuse.
So by that logic you believe people should forgive their abusers? Maybe for some people that is an option, but for others who have been raped and physically abused and tortured from such a young age definitely should never be told or feel like they have to forgive anyone for that. Some things are just unforgivable and you have to understand that! I don’t believe forgiveness is necessary for healing.
@@faithredpath2695 Forgiving someone for something terrible can come from saying they chose to be darker and more evil, when they could have chosen something else. We can't stand for things that end in someone's demise, but for some rapists enjoying the pain is something they cant or wont shy away from, and choosing to abuse someone because they can't fight for their own damn empathy, it's ridiculous and sensible and not forgiving terrible things stands against those terrible thing, they cannot happen, and cannot get in the way of healing harm. Some have forgive their rapists, exactly because it is terrible. Because in my opinion one of my jobs is to stop rapists from wanting rape, for putting myself in their history. I once was in a bad place, a lost place, and in that time I had first learned about rape, and it was such a horrible shock, that it felt so alien, and in that quick moment of thinking and feeling all of sudden from all the bad that I had felt and the loss, I did something that is shameful and I shouldn't be forgiven for, maybe not even understood for, unless it would ease my teacher to know the process. The first time I heard about rape, I lied, and I told someone I had been raped, and it was the stupidest thing ever. I remember telling myself to stop talking, to stop letting the impulse get to me, and I didn't, in that stupid moment, I let me lying be the bad way of trying to understand what rape was. I'm a person who can choose to get over things and not, also when I'm in a traumatically triggering moment and I haven't done work on myself before hand to be normal enough to know I want to have a conversation. I know rape and assault is something that I would disown anyone for if they did it and made anyone be in the position. I hate it. But I also know that it can be really hard and really easy to rape and assault. This morning I had my second dream about rape, haunting, and wanted to say to someone who thought they were right that they were just that people still go to school. People try every day to live their own lives, and what are they really gaining if they've lost themselves. I have a lot to say to a lot of rapists in the future, one that have guilt,ones that don't.I would put posters and break into any home I thought had rape going on in it and I have yet to find out how to do anything but cover op to find people a make them see that they have opportunities rape couldn't be more the opposite of. I think forgiveness helps people talk, and talking about it has been proven to be needed or internal actions against rape and towards something you believe in, which you deserve to. People who rape are people who have seriously harmful ways of asserting themselves. And sometimes talking about it is saying I know you're going to be better than this. Forgiveness is powerful, but not forgiving is powerful too. Not talking with people who do bad, to me, is like ignoring the problem, at least ignoring when I'm healthy enough to explain it. But I understand not talking with someone of the likes of that kind of person you remember you live, painful hard to forget, worth saying no more. Ill always remember that pain, even if somedays I forget because I have something better with me going on.
I became aware of my disassociation by spotting my daughter shutting off feelings and starting “ I don’t care. I rather be alone. I love being alone.” I heard myself saying same thing many times. I am going to view the video on healing the inner child.
You are God’s gift to this earth Christina thank you for all that you do.❤️😭
This video made me cry because I'm going through this and so is someone who was close to me. I think if anyone is going through this as well please watch the whole thing to realize how it can help you. THANK YOU
WOW!!!!!!!!!THAT WAS AN AMAZING VIDEO!! ( So, happy I stopped what I was doing to listen to it) I'm guilty of this...i really noticed I did it these last 2 yrs...from trauma, I shut down...and had pain...but doing better, it had to run it's course....plus I quit smoking 10 months ago and it makes you " feel your pain" you have no crutch left...except ice cream :-) lol.... so I'm excerising more now feeling better!! Breathing & meditating...holding love in my heart for all my past pain & good.
Thank you for making this Video Christina -- with all these different types of videos people put out into the universe....THIS ONE WAS THE BEST, if you tube gave us a choice to pick who gets the award I would hands down pick YOU for 2020 BEST VIDEO / HEALING VIDEO OF THE YEAR....so be it💖🏆💖 much Love, stay well
I was so dissociated I had to restart this video several times before I really took it in!!! 😅 Amazing content as allways 💖
Me too . Several pauses
I believe we disassociate from our mind, body and “emotions” but our souls always stay intact. It is the one true constant.
Maybe yours & mine is, but people with Personality Disorders ( Amber Heard) wouldn't be caught dead watching a video like this. There comes a point when a person's evil deeds show how fractured a person's soul is ( Epstein) & the soul will not ascend in this lifetime, they will descend because they have hurt so many people.
When you die you have a life review & the only 2 things that matter is who you loved & helped & who you hurt & destroyed.
That's what my Guides have told me & what I believe.
I think it's beautiful you believe all souls are constant. It shows your own soul's beauty. Many blessings & much love ♥️♥️🌎🌎
Agreed. We ARE a soul we can't leave the soul. "Personality disordered" ppl kill off the shamed self that was projected onto them from an unconscious parent. This is not their soul, it's a lie that their soul knows is not true; hence the creation of the false self and operating outside the body.
bro your channel is literally saving me right now thank you so much
Like many others, I really needed this. After watching I have a sense of self understanding and comfortability that I haven’t felt in months. Please don’t stop making these videos 🙏🏼💕
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I have tap tap hugged all the time even to my daughter....even made no eye contact. Thank u Christnie for this content...you have healed my entire life
Wow! This “appeared” in my feed RIGHT ON TIME. Part of the pain and panic for me during constant states of dissociation is not being able to tell anyone. I had to learn starting at three years old (and now I’m 60) how to walk and talk and smile and LOOK okay. So I’ve been secretly feeling unsafe and incredibly lonely behind that extroverted exterior my WHOLE life. Sharing your video with people around me has become a brilliant way to let people around me know what is going on with me as I continue to heal and integrate. Thank you oh beautiful heart alchemist. Also, I HAVE facilitated eye gazing with groups of women using small hand held mirrors while playing a song like, “I want to know what love is, and I want you to show me” by Foreigner. Now I have a greater understanding of why this is such a powerful tool 🌸🌿🧚
i actually used to loose periods of time...thought i was going crazy until someone explained it to me...thank you for this video...let the healing continue
ive been dissociating for years and years and i needed to watch this video. thank you so much for this information!! ❤️
I was diagnosed a few years ago with Complex PTSD and Disassociative Disorder, I have disassociated my whole life and was completely unaware until a few years ago. I am now 48 and I'm told that it is now just a part of my personality
I’ve been struggling with this for so long and had no idea I was doing any of it.... thank you !!!!!
She is thorough and knowledgeable. I actually will dissociate when good things would happen to me attention I would start choking, tripping, nearly faint getting sensitive to light. Winning in my house was punished severely.
And even though I was very coordinated as a dancer as soon as the dance was done I’d go straight into a wall.
Literally bumping into walls my entire life
I can attest to having to "feel" through triggers. It helps get rid of the pain!
Me too.
A great tool for this is Richard Grannon's free emotional literacy thing on Instagram. So cool. It's simple & REALLY speeds up the process. Much love all♥️♥️🌎🌎✌✌♾♾⚡⚡🌈🌈🌞🌞🦈🦈
G H Same here! It wasn’t until I started feeling my way through was I actually able to move through the pain and release much of it. Sending so much love to all, these are incredibly triggering times 💛💛💛
I am so glad to know about triggers. It takes away a lot of fear.
I can't tell you how much this is helping me. I lived my life thinking all those horrible things couldn't hurt me if I just forgot about them, but that was the problem. Thank you for helping us! :')
Feeling fazed out and watching a movie with me as the main character.
Yup, like floating in space, now I know what the issue is I can work on it. Take care
I dissociated so much that I now share a body with serveral people, love the life I built with them though ☺️
Yoga is said to be union with God, meditation is also called Yoga. I hope you do research about this. Thank you for everything you do.
Thankyou from the bottom of my heart Christina ❤️ I hope one day I can come to one of your retreats 🫶🙏💫
Wow, that's the first time someone has actually explained to me why I have huge gaps in my memory of my life. I always thought it was due to brain trauma from the abuse. I absolutely have disassociated in my life. This may even explain my back pain that I've had for 30yrs that nothing seems to fix. We've even gone as far as ablation of the nerve. Thank you so much for this video.💜💜
For backpain caused by psychological issues you might find Dr Sarno / TMS interesting
This was soooo eye opening for me. Thank you. I have ALL the signs of dissociation. Lately been more clumsy with all this covid stuff making me feel uncomfortable and holding a lot of pain/anger/fear in triggering my inner child...but started acupuncture and got back into my journaling routine recently. I definately got a lot of work but this video gave me the necessary guidance. Thank you!
I had/have all of the signs except for two. I didn't know how deep dissociation actually goes. Thank you for being so kind as to share your knowledge with others in order to help them help themselves.
Wew, I relate to this so much. I feel like trying to fix my dissociative tendencies is like trying to shove a third-person perspective back into a first-person one. I constantly have to ask myself, "where is the camera? Is it outside of my body or is it within my own eyes?" Uncomfortable to say the least.
And then I burst out laughing when you started talking about the hugging because I still do that. I gotta learn. Thanks, Christina, for sharing!
I was a very sensitive child, and my dissociation started at a very young age into my adulthood. It became my curse and further reached to exterior numbing to my pain when splitting didn’t work effectively. This gave me addictions and enforced my disfunction. Later in my journey I was diagnosed with PTSD and Disassociative disorder. So I did go through the healing but I needed to educate the child within to be able to show myself WHY? Why I was the way I was and yes there was sexual trauma attached. When I decided to go down the road feeling I was ready it didn’t really traumatize me at all. I was just able to feel my feelings with the guidance of a trauma expert and release from my neurological system we need to be released and replaced with positive enforcements. Thank you for reminding me that even to today I could still disassociate and not realize so thanks for all the extra information. 🙏🏻♥️