BPD AND STRUGGLES WITH WORKING/GOING TO SCHOOL
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hey guys!! this is on my mind and something ive struggled with a lot while dealing with a mental illness and needing employment, im sure those of us who suffer from bpd can relate. thank you for your support always
It is very difficult for people with BPD to hold down full time employment. A lot of people don't understand this and can be very harsh. Thanks for explaining and let's hope people begin to understand the problems associated with BPD.
Steven Robertson anytime thank you for the wonderful comment 🖤
So true
Yeah people have been straight up ableist to me when they find out I’m on disability. It’s like the get jealous that I get money for my BPD, but I literally can’t hold a job.
I’m really good at interviews and can get jobs pretty easy. But I have never held a job longer than 2 months...
Wow! Same.
really? Glad im not alone
Exactly! 😩😢🤷♀️
Same here e
I have no job! I've always been confuse with what I want to do! I don't sleep getting up the next day, just kind of starts my day of wrong and I end up having a bad day! I have social anxiety. I'm a prisoner in my own house!😖
I am working from home now. It is soooooo much better than having to be around people all the time. There is not as much sensory overload. I am working part time as well. This may also be helpful with not being so overwhelmed by things.
What kind of job do u have and how do u get there?
What do you do? 🥺
Hello. I'm working and studying together and it's hard can you please share some tips or routine
I have BPD and I always feel the exact same. I'm 31 and I have had 26 jobs since I was 14. Right now I am so depressed that I can't get up. Hoping DBT and REMT works well for me. :/
F C I’ve been through DBT. It’s still a struggle for me but I don’t react as bad as I used to
35 years old with over 40 jobs and currently looking for work.
I wish you well. Best of luck. Keep believing it's out there! Working from home might work. Or working a couple of part-time jobs. ❤️🙏🏼
Moving into a career outside of the 9-5 grind appears to be a good start in the workforce for some BPDs. In the hospitality sector, if you have a good work ethic, it's entirely possible to switch jobs every few months without losing reputation. Working in coffee shops and bars may not be for everyone, but I have seen it succeeding. The shift hours, rather than the regular daily slog, seems to fit.
I am really lucky right now. I have a boss who knows about my bpd and is also now my friend. I can talk to her about anything.
I'm in college and I feel like I'm walking on an edge. My thoughts are cloudy and the cognitive overload just makes it even more harder with depression and anxiety. Thank you for sharing your experience. It's important to talk about this than struggling silently.
I'm not diagnosed with BPD yet, but I know it's what I'm suffering from. I'm 38 years-old and have never had a job more than a year. Most jobs only last a few months. It's comforting to see this video and all the comments. Thank you all!
OML THE FEELING OF JOY POPING INTO MY BODY WHEN I SAW THE NOTIFICATION! I relate a lot. It’s the same for school. I can get really depressed while I’m in class and it’s really difficult for me to cope with it. Or sometimes I would need to do my homework but I would feel so depressed that I’m gonna end up not doing it. And anxiety eats me on the inside. I have constant anxiety. I have social anxiety ALREADY THERE you’re done lmao, but I have anxiety about abandonment issues (interpersonal relationships like you said) and about school itself, my grades and all of this shit. And my moods just go up and down and up and down and it never ends. So living with those struggles makes school feel like hell.
ILYSM BTW! I LOVEEEEE YOUR MAKEUP! And your t-shirt is adorable as well :) I’M SO FKG HAPPY TO HEAR YOUR VOICE DAMN IT!
The Powerman I guess.... Thank you for your message it’s sweet
omg jen you changed your name i wondered what happened!!!!! your comment is always the light of my day thank u thank u im so glad we understand each other so much and school always sucked for me too it dragged on and seemed endless but I promise one day itll be over!!!!!
thanks so much as always hope you're doing well 🖤
Just a warning; some people might find this triggering, so please don't continue if you're in a bad space! I feel triggered even by reading things I relate to as it brings up all the feelings again- so I assume it might be the same for a few of you. It's rather funny how I wish someone would understand me, but If someone understands me and writes something relatable it could potentially be detrimental to me health XD can't bloody win sometimes.
Anyways...
I've been unemployed since October following months of getting up crying and panicking- unable to put my makeup on or eat because I'm crying so much. I'm fairly forgetful at work because my brain is so all over the place. Working in a kitchen environment is extremely chaotic anyways, but my inability to stay focussed while talking to people (an extreme anxiety of mine) and getting tasks done proves to be annoying to my colleagues. So they end up having a go at me, I either scream back or retreat so I can pull myself together to continue on with the day- both options are even more frustrating to my colleagues. Getting up everyday to know I'm just going to feel worse when I come home is exhausting, and usually results in me returning to drinking, self harm and old ED behaviours; which only exaggerates my moods. This cycle means that It becomes only a matter of time before I know my suicidal ideation has started getting worse. I then have to leave employment in order to make sure I don't die.
I'm almost out the woods right now, and slowly updating my CV to start applying for jobs again. I've just decided that I should no longer work with food because the working style just doesn't suit me. I've got a form to fill out to I can start my DBT at some point this year. I'm trying to hold on to the hope that this year is the year that I will start living a somewhat normal life. We shall see.
momeraths Hey Girl ! I feel bad your having such a hard time. Get out of the restaurant business for sure. It will drive anyone insane. Keep building up your medical records and get a good lawyer and you stand a good chance. Just remember your not alone even if it feels that way. Stay strong !
😁 Oh by the way, I was working part-time even while my dbt case was going on and I still won my case. Just dont work to many hrs
Thank you for your kind words, lovey!
I put admit I'm a bit confused,though! Why would I need a lawyer? I live in the UK and I haven't heard anything about not being able to take a course of DBT if I was working a set number of hours. I haven't heard of anything abut needing a lawyer ignorer to access DBT- it's just a case of you and/or your psychologist/psychiatrist filling out a form, getting an interview and being put on a waiting list until there's room. I don't have to pay for my treatment, as it's on the NHS; however it does mean that I could be on the waiting list for a very long time :/ am I right in thinking you're not from the UK?
momeraths oh im sorry, I live in the US and its a different system of course. Im sure you will be fine, don't worry ! I can tell you are deserving of disability because it is so hard dealing with the ups and downs. You will be fine sweetheart. Just stay strong !
momeraths you are so strong, thank you for sharing part of your story 🖤 i hope DBT comes quickly and the positivity will continue to come for you!!
Keep it up love, there is always hope. We won't give up on you, don't give up on yourself. All the best.
I'm pleased that there are ZERO dislikes on this video
Nice video Sis.. It is hard. My mom dont get it.
Carmen's Idea i hope one day she will try to educate herself on the matter for you and for herself, its hard when someone do important to you doesnt understand. stay strong 🖤
I've noticed recently that there are a lot of other youtubers and people also making BPD videos and talking about it so openly. It's become more of a trend to talk about mental illness these days (and that's a good thing) but I honestly get a feeling that most of those who make BPD/mental illness videos aren't being truly honest about it and are using it as an excuse to get suscribers, likes and what not (that's just my opinion).
The only videos of BPD I can truly come back to, time and time again, are yours, Michi. I don't know you personally, but I get a sense of comfort and honesty from you. You're so genuine and a true woman. I admire you for that and the fact that you can manage so many things with a mental disorder. I wish I can do half of what you do. Keep it up, girl! Sending you all the good vibes 😚
Kimberly Wolf this brought tears to my eyes!!!! thank u so much kimberly!! it was really sweet of you to take time out of your day to write this and it did not go unnoticed, really brightened my day and I hope this energy will come back to you because its so easy to spread hate but it takes a lot to go out of your way to make someone feel good. stay strong and im so glad i could be of any help 🖤
Trying to stay employed in an normal setting- not working for yourself or someone close- is so hard. I've had to leave all of my previous jobs because of my disorder and it's so frustrating. I really wish you the best with your job! I really hope everything works out :)
thank you so much i wish you the best with your employment as well 🖤
I can relate 100% 😞sad thing is i 'used' to love to work. But, lately, now I'm having a hard time at work. And, I'm discouraged with finding another job. I'd love to go back to college.., but i don't feel motivated. It feels like you're stuck. Stuck. In a self- sabotaging pattern.
Great topic. Very difficult to work and find a job. When I work full time it consumes me and all I can do after work is cook and watch tv, I need to recharge my batteries and go to sleep very very early in order to get enough sleep, it’s horrible to not have a life outside work and you don’t have anything to talk with coworkers about the the next day ....what did you do last night . Ugh,.
The Powerman thank you
yes I feel like I don't accomplish anything anymore bevause working consumes me and it just becomes endless and depressing, I promise it cam get better tho stay strong 🖤
Exactly. So what do I do? I turn to cocaine, crack, meth or adhd pills to stay up all night so I WILL have a life outside work. Smart, eh? :) You can guess where that ends.
My BPD daughter has co-morbidities of PTSD and compulsive lying. She is beautiful and charismatic and a master manipulator who generates drama. This combination is potent because she draws in everybody initially, she’s casting out relationship nets broadly, she doesn’t adhere to established relationship borders but instead sees everyone as “in-play” so within months she’s making enemies, her manipulation and desire for drama divides the workplace, and within four months the whirlwind and chaos consume her and everyone else. Hailey sees it all as being nice, helping other people, and being there for everyone else while no one else was there for her. Six months is about the limit for most managers & in actuality by that time she’s out of people who will believe her so getting fired is a welcome change…on to new pastures. That’s why maintaining work is difficult for her, it’s because the real world exists in a different reality than my daughter. She is not malicious, by the time we adopted her at age seven all the carnage had taken place and her disorder was already hers. My daughter will abandon everyone and everything around her in an effort to avoid abandonment. The workplace depends on dedication to something greater than self, my daughter is dedicated only to herself. We have not and will not abandon her even & especially during the times we are cycled away & abandoned. Unfortunately therapy for her always takes a backseat to her new horizon but I’ll never give up. Those are my thoughts regarding my daughter alone, there’s a vast spectrum beyond our little world so I would never cast a judgment on anyone else. Wishing everyone clarity on their personal journey.
Thank you for this, I'm glad that somebody is talking about this and I'm not alone. It's very hard for me to even go outside by myself sometimes and when people ask me why I don't have a job, instead of telling it's because of a mental illness, I try to think of something but then I just get extremely anxious and feel judged. I literally can not even call to make a doctor's appointment which has resulted in me losing my health insurance 😢 I really hope things change and it's easier for people to get help
I want to thank everyone who's commented. I'm 53 yrs old and I couldn't count how many jobs I've had. I just started a job last week and it didn't go the way I thought it was going to. I started having panic attacks while there so I called in sick one day this week and just couldn't go in today. I think people think we just don't want to go in but I had such a sense of dread I couldn't go in. I thought it was just me. Reading be these comments helps me see I'm not alone. I wish there were a support group in my area. Unless you suffer from this illness you can't understand it. Prayers to everyone of us struggling with BPD.
Hopefully the world of work is on a track for improving this situation. There are so many people that can contribute good and employees will be loosing more than they think they'll gain by firing someone due to mental illness. We're all part of society and have an equal right to a job. An enlightened employer will believe this and try and fit the job to the person not the other way round.
agreed one thing I like is that where im from you now receive an emergency leave week (unpaid) no questions asked which is new and will hopefully help
In the long run too, this keeps people off of public assistance, so it helps the govt too. We don't shun people for cancer or high blood pressure or lots of other illnesses. If you look at much that's being done on trauma, alot of physical illness is really trauma aka emotional pain. A great read is The Body Keeps The Score. UA-cam is mobilizing people to stand up and be recognized! 🤞🤞🤞
I can relate sooo much to everything you've said.
I've struggled with and experienced this myself.... I had to quit Univ (Chemistry degree) and then quit some other higher education courses that I enrolled myself in. Social anxiety played a huge role in my case as well - being around other people is such a sensory overload that drains me completely - and waking up early in the morning after having barely slept at night, as you mentioned. I'm constantly exhausted pretty much 24/7.
Also my cortisol levels peak in the small hours and early in the morning, so when I wake up I feel super edgy and anxious, I felt real angst, plus I used to wake up feeling completely suicidal most days.
I've been working part time as freelance/autonomous foreign languages teacher since I was 25 and even though it doesn't give me stable income I feel much better, fulfilled.
Thanks for this video. I’ve had my job for 17 years but it’s been a struggle. My boss has had many opportunities to fire me & my coworkers hate me but I’m hanging on🙁
I haven't worked for three years now, it sounds scary when I say it. Especially because I'm completely out of any social structure, no health insurance, no disability, nothing. I feel like hanging in the air, like I'm in a sort of limbo. I would like to work but I also wouldn't, I have this dichotomy in me, I really want to contribute, to do something, to create, to interact with people, but every time I try to initiate something, send a resume or set up some work from home business it feels impossible to do, I feel like I'm violating myself, forcing myself. My last 9 to 5 job ended with me spending half a day crying in the bathroom for months. I just felt so isolated looking at the computer screen 8 hours every day and being in a big open office with a lot of people, I felt everything that was happening around me very intensely.
It's a vicious circle because working and having an income would give me sef confidence and self worth but now I don't have that and it's hard to start anything because of that.
I also get angry and irritated very quickly and if I have to do something that I believe it doesn't make sense I just can't do it. I would love to do something I believe in, to enjoy life but I can't seem to function like "normal people".
Same here. Almost 3 years unemployed and already 26. It makes me feel so useless. But once I work, I get so much pressure I end up in an emergency room at the hospital. No wonder I just want to die.
Finally ur here again to make me smile! Yes,totally relate,I keep studying at school so I don’t have to work,but now I’m sitting around in a rented apartment paid by my friend ,and I deferred for the second time,which means 2 years of doing nothing. It’s hard,the rapid change of moods can make going to school,or even outside of apartment feel like hell, I’m really screwed,nobody here knows BPD, so I’m always diagnosed with depression or bipolar. It’s sad that BPD is not listed as a mental illness in China, because that would mean so many people who r struggling have no idea how wrongly treated they r by the ‘professionals’. Michi,ur absolutely amazing like I always said,and I believe in u,fight ur demons,I’ll be there to cheer you up and revel in ur happiness.
The Powerman thanks,appreciate it! I’ll try to find a way outta the woods. And take care of yourself also!
Again you hit the nail on the head. So true so difficult
Great video. I have epilepsy, and the difficulties you talked about are pretty similar to mine. I concur, I would’ve love to have been honest with classmates in college and colleagues at work that “hey guys it’s not that I’m being bitchy or rude by not going to happy hour with you guys, it’s that I’m about to have a seizure.” I think the young generations might just lessen the huge stigma with admitting at school or work that one does have a mental illness & taking medication or seeing therapy for it.
Hi Michi Mavros, I always watch your videos and I share with my friends too. I also have BPD and is really good to see someone like you who not just talk about it but actually have it so can say things what no doctor or therapist can't. About the job, last year I have huge problems with alcohol , drugs and really serous mood swings and depression and I was and I am truly lucky or bless to my work support me on my therapy and rehab and really understand what I'm going through on those month. I really believe one of the big help is a workplace where they know your condition and support you on your recovery and in the therapy. I just want to share my experience and I believe all employers need to be open about mental illness and show support. Thank you again for all of your videos.
I swear your video topics are alway on point & in line with what I'm struggling with. Needed this. Thank you! 💙
Raegan Colling youre so welcome, thanks for the kind message 🖤
Hi Michi. I hope you could do allright and find a good plate to work. Thank you for sharing your experience, you have helped me indirectly to understand my girlfriend. So I wish you could have back the good you shared. Good luck.
thank you so much this was so kind, glad to help 🖤
SO recognisable. Especially the end phase ie snapping out at work. I enter a team and already eonder how this is going to fail. My biggest victory in life is having been asked to come back to a previous customer. But this requires big luck, an environment where people are generally kind of respectful and intelligent. It's hard to find. And then STILL I risk becoming the outsider because of issue with regularity, discipline. For me the biggest fight is going to sleep before midnught, getting up early and being at work in time EVERY DAY. The idea feels threatening to me... And impossible
I understand, as a sufferer with a BPD some days at work are just torture or just hell on earth.
I purposely failed my re-enlistment in the military just because I had a change of heart that day...I quit a good, hard to obtain government job a few months afterward. I've had so many jobs I can't even count. I am terrified of getting another job because I know I will quit less than a year later and that's just another confirmation I've failed. Sorry if I keep responding to your old videos and possibly triggering something, I'm just grateful to find people like me.
I’m 31 and about to start a new job in 2 weeks. I’ve been licensed to do nails for 6 years, but always from home. I’ve been terrified of working in a salon, because I know how I am with people, but doing nails from home isn’t paying the bills, and I’m in massive debt.
I’m excited for the new beginning, but the idea of all the new people I’m going to have to meet, and the team of girls I’ll be working with has me so stressed, going over scenarios in my head of how I may act that could lead to this being another uncomfortable end for me job-wise.
God bless you. You hit the nail on the head. Perfect video
Thank you so much !
I just got diagnosed and it really puts in words my struggles, even better that I could describe or understand myself.
"Needing to function like a normal human being is hard" Yes... this over and over again!!!
As a full time student who works fulltime. I know the struggle somedays it's hard to manage going to class because I feel like I dont belong and anxious about what people will think of me.
Insomnia seems so underestimated. Sleep, restful sleep, deprivation in and of itself is debilitating. Add onto it mental illness and it's quite a storm on an unbelievably regular basis. It's already difficult enough to work let alone not being understood/appreciated by coworkers/bosses. Those with BPD have so much to offer within a conducive environment.
☆Hi Michi! Thank you, I love your videos! 🖤 I relate to every single word!! You're seriously my favorite person, and it's not my BPD talking! 😉☆☆☆☆☆
thank you so much this was very sweet!! take care! 🖤
My son has bpd but is in denial to having it. He is in a bad way...thank you for making this video
I just feel like it never gets better.
I have BPD and just found your channel. Haven’t found a video yet that i don’t 100% get so much. Thank you so much for talking about this girl
Michi you're amazing. I've been in bed all day depressed and crying trying to figure out my BPD and today .. I feel like you've been the only one who understands me today.. thank you so so much 😭💕
Hi Michi,
Your kindness and self confidence is extremely appreciated for speaking to people who suffer BPD. Many people diagnosed with this mental illness have trouble expressing their emotions properly, I am one of those people. I was not diagnosed with BPD until 1 year ago and have suffered and dealt with my emotions in inappropriate ways. I have overcome numerous obstacles and I have worked tremendously hard to get to where I am now in life. Along with medication and counseling once a week I have made life-changing improvements and I will continue to make improvements. I would like to recommend a workbook that has helped me make life-changing improvements for people that suffer from BPD or any mental illness. The workbook is called “The Dialectal Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook”-published by Matthew McKay, PH.D • Jeffery C. Wood, PSY.D and • Jeffery Brantley, MD. The workbook practices on Learning Mindfulness, Interpersonal Effectiveness, Emotion Regulation, and Distress Tolerance Exercises. I have only been capable of holding a job for no more than two months during my life. Now I am a first time college student at Southern New Hampshire University (Online), a wife, and a mother. After I finish earning my degree, I know one day I will have to maintain a stable job and it will certainly become a challenge. Applying the skills taught in the DBT Workbook is something I have to apply daily or I will forget to apply the skills when it’s needed the most. I hope this can help you all, just as it has for me. The main thing to remember is you have to be willing to apply what you have taught yourself or it will not work. Have a wonderful week everybody!!
Tal Ibrahim thank you so much for sharing this, and for reaching out with your kind words and I've been meaning to read the DBT skills book buy haven't had the chance but I truly appreciate this, thanks again and please take care and stay strong 🖤
Thank You Michi, Life can get extremely busy and we tend to get sidetracked from the things we would like to accomplish. Let me know when you have a chance to read the DBT, maybe you could post a video about it. Keep posting awesome videos and you take care as well!!
For so long I thought I may have a learning disorder and maybe that's why I don't do well at school but you've help me understand that I may actually have bpd. I was told that when I got out of the hospital for the first time that I show severe signs of bpd a year ago. I was only 15 and I'm currently 16 so I can't exactly be diagnosed yet I'm scared that I may be diagnosed with it in the next 2 years. Thank you for making these videos!!
I'm so sorry to hear that, I hope it all works out for you whether it's bpd, learning disability or something else entirely 🖤
Working in high speed jobs like Wawa (my current job) or other high speed jobs. Under preforming is a huge issue to me. Doing normal tasks that other can do normally but I take an extra 10 to be sure I did the job right but the managers want speed. Being late is another huge issue for me and the memory loss adds too it. I’ve been hella late for my shift due to the fact that I thought I had it at x starting time but it was at x starting time. But l love what she said about not wanting to say that I have BPD. It’s crossed my mind several times a at work. Even with the lashing out at customers, I’ve almost lost my job due to lashing at a rude person.
This is so relatable to what I'm going through at the moment with work and stuff being to scared to get a job love you michi❤
I hope something works out for you soon, anytime glad to hear from you take care 🖤
I've just been diagnosed by a consultant and you're helping me so much rn. You're a perfect example for people with bpd. Keep going.
Favourite UA-camr who talks about mental health. Thanks for this informative video.
This is so informative and charming i didn't even loose a tread or didn't even feel the need to discect the conversation because it seems you understand how to communicate globally (which is from the heart) so keep up the amazing videos!
Thank you Michelle. You continue to give me more and more insight on this disorder. You give me more in just a few minutes than I would get in a training for professionals.
I don't care about statistics and the history of the DSM etc. You get right to the point. You have another subscriber. Keep up the good work!
Can so much relate to it. It is super difficult to jist keep up a regular pattern. It's near impossible. Being with a partner who keeps us in a pattern and who understands us helps, I found. Until I left her of course, because I felt it was 'not good enough'... Struggles struggles
Because I focus on the neg, my like represents 5 because I don't get why theres 5 thumbs not up. Thanks for putting these up its not easy to be so honest I cant even tell new docs...
I relate completely. Good stuff. Thank you.
my family and boyfriend are pressuring me to get a job or start studying and I wish I'd seen this video sooner because it explains what I need to explain to them perfectly since I have BPD and struggle with everything you mentioned
I also have BPD and one thing i hate the most is when i was going to treatment people in the treatment kept asking me if i was ok because they were trying to help me clean my thoughts so i can be in the present moment but that makes it worse for me because it brings more flash backs from the past and any way the only thing that helps me is some one wonts to help me buy having a regular conversation by not looking at my face expression the way i look i have to pretend i am happy and in the present moment so just have a regular conversation with me that way i be happy and that way you can help me clear my mind that way i just had to say that
Good xx
No energy
4 attempts
Paranoia
No trust
Rage mega outbursts
It's hard but we're and you are not alone.
Talking to someone is the best help. Xxx
Thankyou chuckywgg. Xx
Be safe hugs. Xx
Just got diagnosed on Friday. Trying to learn more to understand and cope.
🙏 THANK YOU you have no idea how your Chanel is helping me
You're great, girl. I love your positivity.
For me, I've always struggled with going to college. In fact, I haven't quite finished yet. I've completed most of my bachelor's degree, but I have had a couple semesters I had to drop, and just leave, for different reasons, my mental, and emotional, well-being of course being involved in that.
After those times, I struggled with bad time periods of depression to where I basically would just hide out, and stop existing, because I was so depressed over what happened.
Now, I think I'm at the point that I'm just going to complete the rest of it online. I have at least 12-13 classes left to take to complete my bachelor's degree with a major and minor. So, I'm currently working on looking into that. I just feel like with my overall health problems (my physical health being involved in that, as well), it will be a better option for me.
Besides, I've already experienced a lot of college with actually physically going. So, it doesn't make me feel as bad to just finish the rest online to try to simplify it.
I've had over 40 jobs from senior ecommerce develop to real-estate agent. My problem is I get manic excited for the first six months to a year because I'm learning new things but the moment the job becomes nothing more than a lame social gathering where I'm the outcast doing the same old stuff I did the previous year I am out of there. Also when I'm making decent money but am not happy during the day I begin spending my nights doing hard drugs and end up going to work without sleeping for days. Some people need a lot of money to be happy, others need a lot of money to be miserable, that would be me. End of every job either I quit or the boss dies. I agree with others the best positions for us is simplistic work where our hearts and minds are not expected to be contributing. I'm thinking of stocking grocery shelves graveyard shift... talk about zero stress... I can't think of a job less taxing. And maybe I'll be able to walk out with some bacon in my underpants. :)
Seriously so much ❤️ sister this helped me so much thank you. Keep up keeping on your amazing a helping so many people with this channel my self included!
Very good description!
When I was six years old my stepmother left me in a doorway with a note saying not wanted
I'm going through this now the longest I held a job is 6 months it's hard for me to keep a job. I have two kids and I want to be a good provider I fear failing them. Bipolar disorder has held me back from so much in life I hate this illness.
In the bathroom lol This is your best video very well spoken!
You're beautiful, thank you for explaining this it's so relatable.
I’m in last year of high school and here there’s this big test which is the only thing that determines whether I go to college or not and it literally needs students to study every day, all day for a year. Everyone in my class is studying and I just can’t. I mean I’m always too depressed and I can’t focus my brain is numb and I feel like I’m dreaming . Mental issues are not really known or accepted here so people keep saying I’m making excuses and that it’s all in my head and that I could ignore it for a few hours a day. Even one of my best friend told me once, before I was diagnosed “ I’m so sick of you always making excuses just stop being lazy “. I can’t fight back or stand up for myself cause I’m afraid they’ll hate me so yeah I’m known in my class as the lazy kid with no future.
Hi..are you brazilian?
It's so hard for me to hold down my job right now. My job is highly understaffed and theirs so much pressure sometimes I can't eat or go on break. I can enjoy it *or at least tell myself I do if theirs less people*. It became too much and I was screaming on the floor in the house and my mom almost had to call the police. She called a neighbor and they talked to me and my FP came over. I have to go tommorw today I took a sick day off but idk if I can't handle it. I need a job to pay for college and bills. But I can't sleep. I'm scared of my thoughts I'm worried if I sit alone in my room I'll cut or burn myself. My mom said I shouldn't go but I don't want to be fired. Idk what to do.
I love that you labeled it FP and I am also trans
i’m 19 and still haven’t had a job i feel so embarrassed but i’m full time in university right now and i physically can’t handle doing both
i am so tempted to just give up right now it’s so hard being this sensitive i just want to be normal
Aww don’t feel embarrassed you’re SO YOUNG! It’s better to know for sure what you’d like to do before you waste lots of money on the wrong school, I have debts from loans at school because I rushed going but didn’t do what I really wanted and ended up dropping out anyway. You are on the right path, try to be kind to yourself in these uncomfortable times and think about things that would make YOU happy to do 🖤
thank you for posting these. helping me a lot!!
I’ve just come out of a mental health crisis and even though I’m in a better place now, I’m far from functioning normally and I’m finding myself dissociating all the time. On top of my EUPD I have chronic pain too which doesn’t help! Functioning like a ‘normal’ person with a full time job seems so far away right now. I do have a job but I can’t stay on sick leave forever 😞
hi my dear , i just separated with my girlfriend which is a covert borderline. despite the push and pull and her drug use i asked her to take Dialectical Behavioral Therapy and pay for the sessions with the psychologist, i do see light in her and the best of her ,she refused to have the sessions. She started gaslighting and fault finding devaluing me so much it hurt. were no longer together but i will not give up on her cause she was my friend prior to the relationship .She has work issues like you mentioned ,what i dont understand is the use of cannabis and mushrooms .???
Thank you for your videos 💖
Bpd instead of around the world in 80 day we go through the entire range of emotions in 80 minutes
I subscribed on your channel :) You really have talent for making video's about the issues people with BPD are struggling with and dont try to lett the haters get to you because its what they want anyway i've got behaps a in my opionen a good tip that could calm you down when you have trouble with emotions like anger it works at least for me some what even tho i dont have BPD it's called a fidget cube
My mental illness was so bad in college that toward the end, I barely left my dorm room or went to classes. I missed the deadline for my financial aid application for the last semester I spent there by ONE fucking day. Because of that, my college told me I had to pay for that entire semester's tuition out of pocket before I could enroll in the last few credits I needed to graduate. After having spent the better part of six years working toward a degree, my life was ripped out from under me in an instant. I even wrote a letter to one of the higher ups at the registrar's office, trying to appeal their decision, citing severe mental health problems, but it was denied. That was six years ago, and that failure has eaten away at me ever since. The worst part is that even though finishing my degree and going on to grad school is the only thing left that I care about, part of me knows that I would probably never be able to handle a job with a lot of responsibility in the long-term anyway. Honestly, jobs with very little responsibility might not even be an option for me. I've had six jobs in the last two years and the longest one was seven months.
I'm at the point now where I don't feel that my life is worth living. I can't have a rewarding work life, I lost both of my parents by the time I turned 27, I'm not close to the family that's left, and I can't maintain friendships or an active social life.
How are you doing now? I totally relate.. hope you are okay..
Amazing!
I am dealing with this and it is okay.
If you're apart of a discord or group chat I would love to be able to talk to you. Like omg you are amazing at explaining things. I've gone through so much. Just bad a break up, about to head off to the military, feel like I'm going to do something reckless, and my immediate reaction was to go completely numb. Please let me know :) ♡
hey you can find me in most bpd facebook groups if you join them let me knoe they are so supportive 🖤
Michi Mavros if I could get a specific link :) I'll be searching through Facebook. ♡
I LOVE THIS VIDEO so much. Great video. I'm not working at the moment. I want to work but just can't.
My job has a strong social structure and it's so hard
I have been working 4-5 shifts a week (8.5 hours ea shift) for 4 months, and then started doing 6 shifts a week for 2 months (Because of capsules at work, and people going to quarantine).. and I almost lost myself there, I was so stressed, I would feel like lashing out at anyone making the slightest comment to me, I started becoming hard to deal with, and then something happened that triggered me, I had an episode and cancelled a week of work, I felt like I couldn't handle it anymore. (I could be fired for doing this)
Luckily I got quarantined(For a week) and that was a very valuable time for me to get my shit together (I tried to be as productive as possible, and managed to do so)
Going to be doing 3-4 shifts a week now, and I feel like I am ready to go into working again... for the next 6 months at least :)
This guy is optimistic, also can he stop putting so many ( ) .
I ended up not showing to work even though I told my boss I would, had most likely the worst mental crisis so far and things were just crazy, 8 months later I finally feel like I can get back to working again.
I have held a job for 3 years but it was a struggle my rage has definitely almost caused me to loose jobs.
I'm glad you're back
thanks so much🖤
BDP 的人们更加需要爱、需要理解、需要关怀。谢谢你的分享！陪伴也需要学习！
My CV shows so many different educational and work fields. I explain it by being an experimentation and indentity exploration but I know its due to my BPD. 🤷🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️
Thank you.
Thank u for this video, i can relate too hard
thank you so for sharing this....
I relate to this so so much.
Hi there Michi m8, great to see you as usual and another top post. normally i just watch and pass on your posts as u know but thought i needed to add something to this 1. in the uk changes have been made to all on disability meaning almost all have had there money cut and in many cases have lost it total. some like me have lost up to £4,400 but many even more. u can appeal here but takes months and can cause problems with rent and the likes as they can hold your money back for between 13 weeks and whenever until they decide. i need to drop this and hope it is ok as a uk lady just took the government to court 5 days ago as most people lost there mobility because the new payments do no see mental illness in this form in any way at all. she won and even better the uk government are not going to challenge the outcome. any one in the uk who has lost this payment and it is over 146,000 can now appeal and the outlook is looking good for them. i will drop the uk link on this so people can see where to fight from in the hope it is ok to do so.. ty again for the mega work that you do, you are a hero to so many and a top friend. Take care matey , big hugs Anthony xx. here is the link, www.theguardian.com/society/2018/jan/19/esther-mcvey-makes-disability-benefits-u-turn-over-payments please remove if not allowed x
Anthony Nemo i will definitely look into that anthony thank you and thank you always for your kindness and light i sincerely hope you're well my mate 🖤
When you say 'neurotypical', this is a term usually referring to the opposite of 'neurodiverse'. Most who identify as 'neurodiverse' are on the autism spectrum. Do you have aspergers? I have thought that often people with aspergers are diagnosed with personality disorders very commonly.
I noticed the same. I think it’s because the “wires” in our brain are set differently just like in autism. That’s why we function and feel completely different and are seen as outsiders.
It’s so hard .... I am so lonely due to this ... my mom was mentally ill and never diagnosed
I tried my best and I made it to retirement.
Michi I am new to your channel love the look don't be to hard on yourself you are very good at beauty and fashion maybe you should look into a career in that industry. thanks for the video
Its why I am self employed...
This has been the case for me for awhile
Absolutely LOVE what you're doing here to decrease the stigma and increase awareness for BPD. I have a mental health channel too, and I'd love to collab with you some time. I'm about to shoot you a DM on Instagram. This is a SUPER important form of mental illness that more people need to know about.
Love the work you all are doing 💓