Being Honest About My Eating Disorder
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- Опубліковано 5 чер 2024
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Thank you for this. That feeling of "god I look awful" and then years later thinking I looked amazing is very familiar. I'm trying to re-wire my brain to think "my future self will think I look hot!" whenever I feel down about how I look.
I love that!
THIS is the exact thing I do, hahah. But then I tack on "let's make sure we aren't a version that feels worse in the future" ♥
I heard some older woman once say: "you'll never be younger and, in turn, prettier, than you are today". She implied that all young people have this natural youthful beauty, and at that time I though that she was crazy because I was planning on getting prettier :D But OMG how right was she. I always felt good in my body and I think I look great now, but when I look at my photos when I was 18, I see what she meant. We will never be younger than we are today.
@@mduteI think that it can get misunderstood because young and pretty shouldn't be synonymous. Old people are beautiful, our beauty doesn't decrease just because we have crinkles.
@@catacoronado well you are right. The old that looks beautiful is because they had plan and made wise decisions at there youthful age. Take me for instance lol☺️☺️
Recovered EDNOS sufferer here (Eating Disorder Not Officially Specified). My mum luckily noticed I had a problem and took me to a psychiatrist. I lost weight super fast, but also binged so I convinced myself and a lot of other people I was fine. I went down by 3 stone in a few months and it was scary feeling my energy vanish and having to stay off school and in bed. Still to this day (9 years on), I have periods of binge eating, purging and over exercising. But I know my worth now, and after my body has birthed a child (and is currently growing another) I know that my body deserves to be fed and loved.
Never struggled with an eating disorder, but I have to tell you that you're brave to open up about this experience!!
Thanks so much!
I’ve never struggled with an eating disorder but with anexiety. I’ve just started therapy a few weeks ago and even though I’m not far into the process at all, it’s a huge relief to have found someone I can talk to
So proud of you xxx
Not able to watch as I have an ED, I’ve only recently been referred to an ED clinic. I’m 37 and struggled with ED on and off since I was 14, just wanted to say thank you for speaking about this.
Sending so so much love. You’ve got this and recovery is possible for you ❤️❤️❤️
@@MadeleineOlivia thank you, I hope you are doing well now. 💕
You got this!!! Recovery is worth it!🤍
Good luck with your recovery ! You got this! X
@@user-fg6hg7ds1v Thank you so much 💕
I admire people like you, putting it out there to help others. Wish you all the best 👍
I feel like I have a bit of an unhealthy relationship with food at times, but I think that's almost normal now, unfortunately. It's something I'm working on.
It’s sad how normal it is for so many of us. Diet culture is a virus
I feel you! The feeling of "this is normal, and not worth bothering my doctor with".
Wow, this really spoke to me. I have been using My Fitness Pal for a year now, and was given the same calorie amount as you, but I am 10 inches shorter and 20 years older than you. And then you said that this is the recommended calories for a child! I thought that they took my stats and have me a personalized calorie amount, but of course not! I had an eating disorder as well back in my teens, that was triggered by a family situation, so I started to control my eating because it was the only thing in my life that I could make a decision about and be in control of. I didn't realize until watching your video that maybe I was slipping back into those habits for the same reason, because the last year has been so beyond control for all of us. Thank you so much for posting this today, I think it was exactly the reminder that I needed 💕
Thank you for posting this. My daughter became anorexic-at the age of 12. She was hospitalized twice I eating disordered clinics. She is now 21 and still deals with the thoughts. I wish people, family especially could keep their mouths shut. People need to think before they speak. You might think it is a compliment. But a disordered person they take it and plant it and lets it produce a harvest of bad thinking. Thank you for being strong enough to do this video!!!
Hi Maddie, I've been following you for many years now and have watched a lot of your content from your early days of UA-cam. I have to say that the growth you have demonstrated since then is glorious and a thing of beauty; this video is a true testament to that growth! I am SO proud of you. Even if another person's journey isn't identical, or even similar to yours, your dedication to loving yourself is completely infectious and anyone will be able to be inspired by your example. Keep shining!!
Thanks for talking so openly about this issue. I'm 45 yo, so grew up in my teens and 20's before social media, but still felt the pressure from society in magazines, fashion, models, tv, movies, etc... to look a certain way. I had a binge/restrict ED from age 13 to 30, then was introduced to intuitive eating and was also diagnosed with a number of food allergies, which helped me feel better. I was in remission for 12 years, and then had a major setback and sought out an ED counsellor and dietician (here in Canada) who helped me get back to a healthier place mentally. I think the part that I hate the most about being fully in an ED is the screaming mental chatter that overshadows everything else going on around me. I liked what you said about finding a passion and something else to focus on in veganism, finding things that I'm passionate about has been a huge part of my recovery too. Keep up the great work!
I don’t have a eating disorder but I have found what you have said applies to many mental health issues so thank you . I’m just beginning CBT as I need help to cope with fatigue and anxiety left by COVID and the NHS has been fantastic at getting these resources to me .
Thank you so much. We love you and care about you. It's so good to see how you're doing and how you've gone through such difficult things and are where you are now. I think sometimes recognizing progress in ourselves is very difficult but seeing you reflect on these matters will help a lot of us recognizing the effort that we've done to get us to this point. Thanks 💖💖💖🥰
You were fabulous! I needed to hear this. I’m nearly 30 years older than you, and I’m genuinely joyful about how much I consistently learn from you. You are so on the right path. Be proud of yourself. I adore you!
I just want to give you a big hug right now. This was so heartwarming. You have come a long, long way♥️
The last thing you said about diet culture and intuitive eating was such an eye opener for me… I’ve got no health issues, my body works perfectly fine, I sleep well, I love that Im eating a vegan diet etc., but I still keep beating myself up for the things I eat and that I’m a size UK14-16… it is so silly really. I definitely have to look into all of the things you said a lot more!
Thank you for this and being so honest. I feel comforted by your open and honest talk. There are so many types of disordered eating and so many people affected by it. This has made me feel motivated to take steps towards a resolution for myself.
Thank you for your honesty. It is so encouraging to hear someone being mindful of how women are often made to feel we are supposed to be a certain way. Our value shouldn't be measured by how our bodies look. It is such a great feeling to break away from all that and to decide you will just take good care of yourself.
This. Video. Is. Everything 👏🏻 thank you for sharing this! I know it was one tiny segment of the video but you saying that you talk that voice with compassion, and address like a separate entity from you was the single best piece of advice I have ever heard ❤️❤️❤️
I really wasn't sure if I should watch this video tonight as I have a exam tomorrow but I did anyway and I'm really glad I did. Hearing you talk about not having a problem with food itself anymore but looking in the mirror and not knowing how you look made me feel heard and not alone. I've struggled with myself for quite some time but never thought of getting treatment, because it didn't seem like I needed it enough. I always felt like it would help, but wasn't 'urgent'. Generally, I feel like my eating disorder story is very similar to yours and seeing you talk about it so openly and calmly showed me, that it's nothing to be ashamed of, nothing that makes you less valuable or weak.
I just decided, that I will look into finding a therapist again. A few months ago I actually met with one, but it didn't work out and I couldn't push myself to keep looking.
So thank you Madeleine, I found your chanel when I was at my lowest point mental health wise and I know that somehow, your videos helped me find myself and my interest in cooking/food again. I hope, this doesn't put too much pressure on you, as it can be weird that strangers on the internet rely so much on oneself.
I hope you are doing well and I wish you all the best xx
wow those last 5 minutes really HIT ME!!!! you are killing it girl, you are such a light & I am so grateful for you sharing your story and so inspired by your strength!!!!! THANK YOU
Someone else might have said this already but I think "going vegan" in my experience, eating disorder or not, can only be sustainable without causing internal distress over what you are or not eating is when it's not restrictive. What I mean is that it doesn't feel restrictive. I don't avoid animal products because "I can't have that" I avoid them because I don't want them. I don't fancy eating that. I've struggled with food issues since before being vegan. Trying different diets and beating myself up but for me becoming vegan was almost a separate process. It wasn't about the food. If it's about the food exclusively then don't do it
Thank you so much for sharing your experience Maddie. I can’t even begin to imagine how tough this is to talk about on the internet😭 you are truly a brave and beautiful human being! It is truly incredible and inspiring to see how much you’ve grown
I remember that video you made about giving up dieting and remember loving it.. thank you for all your work Madeline ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing this! Its so important for others to not feel alone & be able to relate to your journey💓
It is great you are speaking out about ED and body image issues many people have or are facing. Thank you for being honest and speaking so honestly, no bs which is refreshing. Thank you for speaking out about your experience and I am soo happy you are in a better place now. I think you are an inspiration to many people! Keep up the great work and I love watching your videos. You look lovely and are a great positive force on youtube! Keep up the great work! PS love your recipes x
Ive always loved your recipe/daily vlog videos, but this one where you opened up so much is so special! Also i appreciate how you emphasize the importance of mental health above anything else :) much love from the netherlands and hope you have a nice day!
Thank you so much xxx
Thank you for your open confession, Madeleine! I am almost 43 and I have been suffering from orthorexia and anxiety for more than 27 years. It is so exhausting and enslaving...! It has impact on all the aspects of my life and appearance. I wish to gain a bit of freedom...
Thank you for sharing. I’ve never thought of myself as having an eating disorder, but I’ve certainly had some damaging behaviours around food (and still do). I have found following people who talk about intuitive eating and food as joyful rather than a challenge to fit a mould really helpful.
I’ve begun calling out family who refer to my weight gain or look at me sadly when I say xyz outfit no longer fits. That in itself feels like some progress.
And I just want to say that suggesting people leave a comment if they are struggling was such a thoughtful idea. You speak with such compassion and I’m glad you’re able to give that back to yourself these days too.
You are so inspiring Madeleine ESPECIALLY the last part of this video. Rejecting it all is absolutely SO powerful and thank you for reminding me. This was a goose bump moment for me. Thank you 💖💖💖
I bloody love you 🤗 I had eating disorders in my late teens and late 20's and dealt with them myself, I then got into the raw vegan thing in my early 40's which made me so ill as I was basically just restricting myself once again. I have recently put on quite a bit of weight due to lockdown and my fibromyalgia getting bad again and I am worried about going back in to old disordered eating patterns but I now eat healthy vegan food for my body, I eat not so healthy vegan food for my mental health. I have recently started working out again but I now work out for my mental health and total body health rather than it being about weightloss. The bit at the end where you said you are done with diet culture and how the patriarchy tells us we have to look a certain way is the exact reason I no longer listen to the voice in my head. I try to find positives in everything i do, for example, I may be a bit bigger than I would like to be at the moment but I am a martial arts instructor so the extra weight allows me to hit harder 😂💖
Thanks you for sharing! I have been struggling with the eating disorders of my past best friends for many years. I have seen it grow to the extend that i couldn't cope anymore as family and as a friend. I had to stop the friendship (of we could call of even a friendship anymore). It's distructive for the person itself and the world around them.
Only after stopping the friendship i could see the world i was pulled into and the effect that it had on me. Thanks you for sharing your story and learning me the world of your eating disorder but also what it actualy could be like / the difference of thinking outside an eating disorder etc.
Thank you for inspiring me with a whole new world that is filled with selflove and warmth
Grab your cup of tea... Looks down to see I already have a cup of tea. :)
Thank you for being honest about all of this. Body image, eating, mental health - they're all such difficult and personal topics. I'm not diagnosed with an eating disorder (and am frankly not quite where I need to be to explore this yet) but have a complicated relationship with food. I have a therapist though and hope to eventually get there. Therapy is life-changing, truly, and I appreciate you promoting it here. Wishing you well, Maddie!
Mindfulness has helped me hugely on my journey with severe anxiety and disordered eating..thank you for bringing awareness to this topic xx
So much respect for you for speaking so openly - I'm sure this will help so so many people ❤️
Madeleine, your mess is your message! Vulnerability is a strenght, thanks for being open, true and honest. You are beautiful inside and out💖
I found you to be very caring, sincere and thoughtful with great insight. I don't have an eating disorder but found you so compelling. Hugs to you. Wonderful share.
Thank you. Man, I am so "fed up" with 40 years of this way of thinking. Still so difficult to detach from that diet mentality, tho. Appreciate your candidness. I'll have to listen to this about 10, 000 times so it sinks in.
Thank you so much for this video Maddie, you have no idea how much I needed to hear these words lately. I had a similar experience to yours and I really relate with a lot of the things you said. So thank you for opening up and for being honest, I am sure I will come back to this video more than once :) Keep up the great work, you're one of my favourite (if not THE favourite) UA-camrs, you are great! xx
You are so brave sharing your story and I am sure it will help so many people. Thank you for the work you do to make the world better!x
This was so awesome. Thanks for sharing your story and for voicing so many of the things that many of us are thinking but may not be able to articulate. Be well and I am so looking forward to seeing the progress on your kitchen reno!!
Thanks so much!
Thank you for sharing your experience so openly! I've never suffered from an eating disorder but one of my best friends has and this helps a lot on how to be there for her ❤️
LOVED the content in this! I have an eating disorder of binge eating and body dysmorphia caused by stress and unrealistic beauty standards. I hope you make more videos like this because it helped
Oh I had tears in my eyes by the end of this. Thank you so much for sharing your story, I felt so many parallels in what you’re saying with my own story. Veganism (and even raw vegan for a year) was ( & still is a little) definitely a mask for orthorexia for me too. I’d consider myself in recovery these days, slowly starting to share with a therapist & friends & family, but this was an emotional reminder that healing takes TIME. I was 9 years old when it started for me (that’s 14 years), I feel like I’ve come so far but oh boy there’s still so much to go. Thanks for shining a ray of hope from over on dry land and sending love to you on this journey to full body-lovin ❤️
Love this video, and I am so with you (especially the last few minutes of it in particular). Well done 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
Always so candid and well presented on this topic Maddie, thank you, and thank you for acknowledging the multitude of disorders and the fact that ED’s don’t have one body shape (I’m a mental health nurse and particularly passionate on this topic)
Thank you for this video, especially the message that you can look ‘normal’ and still have an eating disorder because i think thats what stops people from realising they have a problem because they are not ‘severely underweight’
Incredible video, you will help so many. You have such a gift I hope you continue to talk about these issues🙏. If I had info like this as a child/teen it would've completely reshaped my life for the best. I will be saving this to rewatch on tough days. THANK YOU. ❤
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Thank you for sharing this. Such an inspiration. I've struggled with yo yo dieting for years and I'm 41. Always trying my hardest, but sometimes too much. Each day is a new challenge for us all. Good luck to everyone on your journey, much love. L x
Thank you for sharing! Ive been fat since I was about 12 (31 now) and my life has revolved around trying to diet and hiding my body. its been miserable. Ive been trying to stop counting calories, stop trying to fit into this standard and just live. I've been buying clothes to fit me and not the other way around and not counting or even looking at labels when eating. Your video has giving me a lot to think about and a lot of ideas to keep bettering myself. You should definitely make some more videos relating to these topics. Thank you!
Maddy, you are a beautiful old soul. I learn so much from you on every video. I'll be rewatching this one until I learn what you know. Thank you for this important information!
16 years in recovery. Thank you so speaking about this❤️my family did know, was embarrassed, and punished me for it... So sad. Definitely made it so much worse.
I loved what you were saying about having compassion for the negative voice in your head. I’m on my own journey recovering from childhood abuse and in therapy we do the same kind of practice. We call the voice a “protector part.” I believe those negative thoughts often come from a part of us that is hurting, and got it twisted and thinks it’s protecting us from further pain. It makes such a huge difference, for me, to acknowledge the thought and try to care for the wounded part of me. It’s been a great step in learning to care for myself in a healthy way ☺️ If this sounds helpful to anyone reading, ask your therapist about Internal Family Systems Therapy or EMDR. It’s been soooo helpful! 💕
Thank you for sharing. Although, I've never had an eating disorder, I'm glad to gain insight into what others are going through. Your transparency is stunning.
Thank you so much for being so open about your experience and your past and current struggles.
I am currently in residential treatment for an ED and your story, your kind words and your advice were unimaginably comforting.
If you are able to, please make more videos about your personal struggles and viewpoints about the interconnection between veganism, diet culture and EDs. You are one of the few people on the internet who find the right words without judging other dietary choices while still encouraging a mindful approach to veganism.
You really made my day a bit better today💛
Thank you for your vulnerability. I don't suffer with an eating disorder but I was intreguied to hear your journey after following your channel for a few years. You are beautiful and it's wonderful to see your confidence in your body despite your struggles with full acceptance of it. For me having put on more weight, seeing your approach to doing life despite still trying to accept your new body is welcoming. Thank you
A heartfelt thank you for sharing your story. This was inspirational and moving.
Thank you for sharing! Very often we are not kind to ourselves
Looking up to you even more now! Thank you for sharing this.
I've never had an eating disorder but I was so insecure about my body to the point that I had social anxiety because of being small and skinny. Thanks to therapy now I am confident and I love my body. So yeah, people (social media, magazines etc) should stop telling other people (specially women) how we are supposed to look! Everyone is gorgeous in their own way
Exactly! Why can’t we live in a world where different body types are appreciated and adored! I’m so happy you’ve found confidence and love for your body through therapy! That’s so amazing!
Exactly!!! Thank you so much for your comment! I am really happy for you too and I honestly wish you all the best! Xxxx :)
Hello! I also went to St Andrews and developed an eating disorder during my time there... I mainly put this down to the pressure young students are put under (in all aspects of life, from academia to beauty) and I relate a lot to your story. I also kept my ED a secret for far too long, and am the most sad for my younger self who suffered in silence, who didn't tell anyone even though I desperately wanted to, just feeling like the entire bright world was tinged with grey for me. I encourage anyone who is struggling to just tell someone about it - whether they be a close family member or friend or a doctor. I will always remember the wonderful doctor who first gently spoke to me about what was potentially going on during a visit about digestive issues (which were obviously a symptom of the wider problem!) - she gave me the courage to start coming to terms with things without forcing me to take any action, just leaving it up to me. She made me feel acknowledged and supported, and I felt physical relief to even have somebody else know, and care. You don't have to go into detail... and you don't have to justify yourself. You ARE sick enough, and you deserve to be cared for and supported no matter what. Thank you for sharing
Oh my gosh, your hair is amazing ❤
You are my inspiration 😊
You have taught me so much things.
Thank you so much.
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I think that so so many people do struggle with their body image and eating problems but a lot of the time you only just see the absoloute extreme cases and if you aren't extreme enough you are taken seriously even though you know what you are doing isn't right and are in just extreme amounts of pain. I would say that whilst often it isn't going to be the food that is the issue there are so so many reasons and causes for ed's to be honest. i feel like feeling accepted for who we are and that goes back to us as a society being accepting of everyone's differences, different abilities and talents and valuing what that person can bring instead of trying to make each individual the same because no one was meant to be the same, we were all meant to be different cause that is what makes life more interesting.
I so admire your vulnerability. I thank god there are people like you using social media to be open about real things.
Lovely to see you sending hugs 🤗
Fantastic video Maddy. Thank you for making it ❤️❤️❤️
I am new to your videos and have to tell you, I love them. I have an ED and what you say is exactly true. It's so amazing the negtive voices in our head are the ones we listen to. Thank you so much for sharing!!!! I believe an ED is a lifelong process, almost like an addiction; you will have those false beliefs in your head that you will always war against. We must all rise above those and be healthy, body, mind and spirit. Much love to you and all the people out there that have watched this video and especially to all the people out there with ED's.
Thank you! 😙 This helped me so much..I didn't even realise I was having such a difficult time with myself and food.
As someone who's a recovered ED person, the thing that's absolutely helped quiet that nagging voice in my head that pops up when stressed or overwhelmed is finding a physical activity that I thoroughly enjoy. The endorphins plus seeing the cool things my mid sized body can do is awesome and empowering. Thank you for talking about this stuff!
oh my god the FEAR i felt strike my heart when you mentioned myfitnesspal...if i had the power to ban one app from the app store that one would be it! seriously though i struggled with an ED from ages 9-19 and you always release these videos right when i'm wavering and need to hear these things so thank you so much
Thank you for speaking on this! I struggled so bad with an eating disorder when I was 19-22. I had issues with my weight from childhood and it eascalated when I left home for uni because I could eat or not eat whatever I wanted and had no supervision from my mom anymore. She also struggled with an eating disorder when she was young so she always had an an extra eye on me eating the way I was suppose to be, beeing a young adult. But not in a unhealthy way, she just made me meals and reminded me to eat fruit once in a while. But yes, I moved away from home and it just escalated also like you Madeleine, I had trouble making friends in a new city. So I became very isolated and thouse thoughts started to consume me.
Like you, I was just fed up with it one day and began to recover. Of course I struggle sometimes with not having the "perfect" body, but self love practices and reminding myself of all the wonderful things my body does for me helps :)
So interesting that we have such a similar experience! It’s important to remember how we aren’t alone ❤️❤️❤️ I am the same with self love practices now! It’s what keeps me focussing on the good my body does for me over how it looks xx
Wow- Thank You ! Real, honest, kind and informative chat with a friend - such a wonderful video! 🇨🇦
Congrats on getting healthy mentally and physically, you are an inspiration 💕
Thank you so much for being so open and real
Thank you for sharing your story. This gave me the courage to make an appointment with my GP xx
Thank you for sharing this most personal journey. My daughter in law is struggling with her weight, and from listening to you I realized
It is an eating disorder. I hadn’t thought of it like that. And then, wow, you mentioned body dysmorphia. I’m an older woman who looks in the mirror and doesn’t recognize myself, I don’t like what I see, where did my younger thinner self go? I’m so grateful for your words and sharing your thoughts. I have much to think about for myself and others that I love.
Amazing, it must have taken a lot of courage. Thank you for being so open and honest🥰🥰🥰
I’ve spent nearly my whole life on a diet. Restricted eating, over exercising binge eating. Lost 21lbs with fasting fell off fasting wagon. Now put on 12lbs. Feel guilty if I don’t fast for 23 hours. Have a husband that is always going on to be about what I eat. Sooooo unhappy. Thx k you for sharing xx
I hope things get better :( maybe talk to your husband about it?
Sending hugs...
Very good vlog. I've never had any eating disorders but I have a niece who does. Fortunately, she has gotten help and seems to be doing better. This was very brave of you.
Thank you for being so honest. Lovely cat you have.
You talking about the inner voice - wow that really struck me. The "don't worry, I can handle this" compassion to the voice is such a great idea. I am so hard on myself so can do with a little more self compassion. On a side note - yes your hair does look beautiful today.
I think what you shared was fantastic thank you for opening up and sharing your journey.
Thank you for saying things like this, it's so so important
Thank you for being honest and so open about this topic, because we all need to learn more about it, whether we are suffering or we have a friend or family member, or because if we don't re-wire those thought patterns, we may in the future suffer from an eating disorder ourselves. So, thank you. And if anyone is suffering right now from an eating disorder, my only advice is the same Madeleine told, go to therapy. It is uncomfortable, but it is so so so worthy. Lots of love.
You should be very proud of yourself! Couldn’t say it any better. You are very brave and soooo truthful and for that and many more reasons I am very proud of you ( you are a just few years older than my daughter so I see you like her and her friends). ! Cherish your life and for having common sense. Bravo 🥰🥰👏🏻👏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻
I recovered from anorexia nervosa. It’s been about 7 years since. But I still wouldn’t have the courage you had today in this video. Thank you 💕 your video was lovely 😊
💖 thank you for sharing that’s so great to hear 🙂
Thanks so much for sharing your story. When I was about 15-17-18 or so I developed something which to this day puzzles me. It wasn’t an eating disorder where I wanted to loose or control weight but I I completely lost my appetite and desire to eat for several years so scary as was already good weight to start. I expect my family thought I probably had anorexia, which wasn’t the case at all I desperately wanted to eat and maintain my weight. I had to consciously chew every piece of food and consciously swallow everything as no appetite it was so strange. Made eating incredibly labourious and time consuming no enjoyment in any food at all during that time. Eating manually instead of automatically took 5 times as long and many hours eating abs the weight dropped off. I was worried for some reason about seeing a doctor and them possibly misdiagnosing it for something else. Felt more physical rather than mental. At some point few years later my appetite switched back on so grateful ever since 20 years later no issues any more phew. The world thought I had an eating disorder as I literally couldn’t keep on top of my caloric need eating this way but I really didn’t want to look this way. I met one other person who had this at some point too. Sending lots of love you are so kind and brave to share your storyi
i can relate to that i have experience that lately it is funny because before i was always hungry but i made myself purposely not eat to lose weight even though i was actually really hungry and then recently early 20's lots of times i haven't felt hunger i don't have normal hunger signals so i won't eat and then i'll be like oops i haven't eaten so i will eat but then it's like ok now i've eaten too much lol
Thank you for speaking up about this! Personally I've never suffered from an ED, although I probably got quite close to developing one in my early teenage years. Listening to you talking about what it is like to have recovered from an ED, it sounds a lot like an alcohol/drug addiction to me in the sense that you're always gonna be tempted to act on your old habits, but you've grown strong enough to resist and control those temptations and thoughts.
Thank you for the information and for being so open. If more people felt they were allowed to speak and had they had a space to speak there would be so many more stories and so much less stigma. Thank you thank you thank you 😘
Honestly I wish to god someone had said this to me when I was in Uni. I think what you have said goes so much further. The body dysmorphia is the last to leave for me as well. Such an important message - I just appreciate you x
So brave my dear to put this out there. We never know what each other has gone through and should always treat others and ourselves with kindness. Hugs ! 🤗
Thank you for this great video full of kindness and honesty. Love from Belgium.
Hi Madeleine! Thank you so much for sharing your story. It's very similar to mine, the long road we took to recovery, the leftover body dysmorphia. :) We will catch up. You're absolutely stunning in all ways, and I love watching your journey. Sending you lots of love!
This was such an excellent, down to earth video.
I had an eating disorder from age 13 to around 30... over 15 years! When I think about it, it seems such as waste of time and energy. I only really started to recover when my mum passed away from cancer and the trauma of it made me feel so guilty about what I was doing to myself.
I am much better now though I'm not sure it will every go away completely.
Thank you for you video! xxx
P.S I personally found that veganism helped my recovery and was the only "positive" relationship I've had with food and eating throughout my life, though I understand why for some people it would only add to restrictive eating.
Such an excellent video, and soooo relatable in so many ways!
Thank you for sharing your experience!
I think not thinking about it is the key. I have always suffered from eating disorders on and off. I got anorexia when I was a teenager (because other kids called me fat). It really affected me, but I decided at the time that I wanted to love myself, to have fun with my ‘real friends’, eventually I got better, my mother took me to a nutritionist and she taught me how to eat well. It really helped! But I was lucky, because she only taught me how to eat a balanced diet. She did not make me go on a ‘rigid diet’ and I think most nutritionists do that and then you continue developing disorders.
Now as an adult (31 years old) I am suffering fr binge eating and have been trying to not think about it. It is hard, but with time, I know I will no longer use food as comfort and feel guilty about it.
I'm ready happy you've brought this to light and your honesty. I see you as a body goal but im happy you've been real about it
Thank you for sharing your experience. My disordered eating comes and goes but being vegan for 3 years really made it worse. The “restriction” of certain foods made me restrict on too much and triggered me too much. Now I eat very balanced and still eat mostly vegan with the addition of animal products here and there. But not having a category of food that I “can’t” eat has helped me tremendously. Almost feels like I have more of a choice and it helps me mental health significantly. Thank you again for sharing 🙏🏻
Wow thank you for sharing! Your honesty and openness are very valuable. I had bouts of ED along with anxiety when I left home in my early twenties, but back then I did not see it as such. In my mind, EDs were something much more serious, and as you mentioned, visible. I absolutely agree it is rather like a spectrum with diverse manifestations of it.
Absolutely loved this video, well done ❤️
This video has popped up at such a good time for me. Not going to write a huge post but I just want to say thank you xxx