Why Does Sobriety Feel Impossible? (sober vlog pt.3)

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  • @GlinkBetweenWorlds
    @GlinkBetweenWorlds 3 роки тому +6072

    The fact that you slipped up and are being honest about it makes these vlogs even more relatable and authentic

    • @Xjebin
      @Xjebin 3 роки тому +4

      Ok glink

    • @gabriel0742
      @gabriel0742 3 роки тому +3

      didn't think id see you here lol

    • @backsfx
      @backsfx 3 роки тому +9

      100%
      most of these kind of videos just feel so fake, like most they would never admit to slipping up and taking a beer.
      i fucking apreciate the honesty of these videos, hope it makes him feel better.
      meanwhile it helps (or at lest me) people see that there is another option, than just keep doing the same thing that are dragging you down. (whatever that would be)

    • @flameguy3416
      @flameguy3416 3 роки тому +1

      Didnt know glinky watches Rusty Cage 2

    • @flameguy3416
      @flameguy3416 3 роки тому

      @@Xjebin aaron

  • @nemanjarakic6815
    @nemanjarakic6815 3 роки тому +1419

    this is like an ad for sobriety
    side effects: may include forgetting the word compelled

    • @THEMATT222
      @THEMATT222 3 роки тому +2

      @Man_of_Many_Memes 14:37 : Am I a joke to you?

    • @moxifoxi7710
      @moxifoxi7710 3 роки тому +1

      CoMpeLled

    • @nemanjarakic6815
      @nemanjarakic6815 3 роки тому +2

      @noo dles 7:25 and like 5 more times he said compulsed instead of compelled lmao

    • @noreally2120
      @noreally2120 3 роки тому +1

      I mean to be fair he corrected it with subtitles lol

    • @nemanjarakic6815
      @nemanjarakic6815 3 роки тому +1

      @@noreally2120 i know lmao

  • @Yes-eu5sd
    @Yes-eu5sd 3 роки тому +1133

    Bat: just flying
    Rusty: Should i get the g u n?

  • @UentilSecure
    @UentilSecure 3 роки тому +264

    I’m almost 3 years clean from heroin and I gotta say, recovering alcoholics have it the worst. I don’t see people using heroin when I go out to eat. I don’t see heroin when I go to the store. I don’t see advertisements for heroin everywhere. Man, that’s gotta be soooo hard. Good luck bro ❤️

    • @268snake
      @268snake 3 роки тому +9

      Alcoholism and food addiction as well

    • @Murraymfkr
      @Murraymfkr 3 роки тому +2

      Alex lol @ food addiction

    • @ijsthee1000
      @ijsthee1000 3 роки тому +9

      @@Murraymfkr its true

    • @lunchbox0668
      @lunchbox0668 3 роки тому +2

      Keep it up, proud of you 😊👍

    • @268snake
      @268snake 3 роки тому +7

      ​@@irgendeinname9256 Although it isn't as bad as heroin addiction and alcoholism in terms of consequences, it sure is really hard to get rid of since you can't just give up eating food, and the fact that bad quality food is cheaper and more wide spread than good food doesn't help it either. That's why a lot of people suffer from obesity.

  • @adamlaxmusic
    @adamlaxmusic 3 роки тому +65

    As someone who’s drank almost everyday for the last ten years of my life I can appreciate these videos. You make me want to do better.

  • @DivineMind222
    @DivineMind222 3 роки тому +860

    My mom is a hard-core alcoholic and she just had a minor stroke not too long ago. Doctor said if she didn't stop soon she was going to drink herself to death. I'm glad you realize you had a problem and started working on that so early. A lot of people don't have that self-awareness and they drink until they kill themselves. Proud of you bro keep it up

  • @SrPelo
    @SrPelo 3 роки тому +2198

    4:49 Wait, Emplemon has a girlfriend? I thought he was vegan

    • @nathanrock9269
      @nathanrock9269 3 роки тому +8

      FIRST COMMENT :)))) love ur vids

    • @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH
      @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH 3 роки тому +33

      Well Pelo, Anyone can get a girlfriend if they try hard enough!
      I don't know how the fuck green simpsons meme man got one, But it goes to show that females can find love in odd places.

    • @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH
      @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH 3 роки тому +6

      I hope nobody takes that out of context.

    • @tsiagian6610
      @tsiagian6610 3 роки тому +6

      it is a SPOOKY MONTH

    • @JeanJetensky1974
      @JeanJetensky1974 3 роки тому +1

      I am not even going to grace this with a comment 😒

  • @sythesz
    @sythesz 3 роки тому +602

    We love you rusty. No matter what you go through.

    • @rewindedits8805
      @rewindedits8805 3 роки тому +1

      Ye

    • @puremarblec
      @puremarblec 3 роки тому

      Do you have my back?

    • @lazlovance1727
      @lazlovance1727 3 роки тому

      Ehh just don't take any scooma little khajiit

    • @sythesz
      @sythesz 3 роки тому

      @@lazlovance1727 how dare you accuse me of that!

    • @sythesz
      @sythesz 3 роки тому

      @Age Restrictions that’s rude.

  • @jellyspace663
    @jellyspace663 3 роки тому +211

    my second mom just died from alcoholism she tried so many times to stop she was a wonderful person. nobody deserves to go through this stay strong man!

    • @J.Skyler
      @J.Skyler 3 роки тому +10

      i’m sorry for your loss dude. please reach out to someone to talk if you need anything. there’s plenty of resources online as well. wish you well friend

    • @SoapCkat
      @SoapCkat 3 роки тому +6

      God sorry man its awful keep strong nobody deserves to go trhougth an addiction as you said may god bless her and you

    • @darthlemon
      @darthlemon 3 роки тому +1

      Danm I’m sorry what happened to your step mom.

    • @the404error7
      @the404error7 3 роки тому

      are you sure it was alcoholism or was it liver failure? Because my Uncle was drinking a bit heavily and his liver failed him which caused him to die in all honesty.

    • @Omg_linkin_park_yaaaasssss
      @Omg_linkin_park_yaaaasssss 3 роки тому +2

      Sorry man that absolutely sucks I remember when my dog died I was like 5 or 6 and loved him so much to spare my feeling my aunt said they shrunk him down into a small dog in a urn we’ve all lost something just get through it and stay strong bro

  • @JohnSmith-nh2te
    @JohnSmith-nh2te 3 роки тому +16

    I’ve spent my whole life surrounded by addicts, mostly alcoholics, and I can say that you’re on the right path. It’s presumably the first time you’ve really tried to quit drinking and if you think slipping up in the early stages of sobriety isn’t bound to happen you’re wrong. Keep at it Rusty, it’s a lifestyle change, one that you’re capable of. If you need someone to talk to just message me, I have A LOT of experience.

  • @LotgeringC
    @LotgeringC 3 роки тому +339

    1 more day and I’m a week sober, the vids really help knowing someone else is trying Cheers!

    • @V3NQM69
      @V3NQM69 3 роки тому +21

      I'm on day 701. Trust me, life gets better. I had to learn to socialize again. But couldn't be happier now! Good luck guys! Be strong, its worth it ;)

    • @leroux9999
      @leroux9999 3 роки тому +4

      Hey, im on about 2 months now, its a struggle, but it gets better !

    • @ohad.5890
      @ohad.5890 3 роки тому +2

      @@V3NQM69 701! That reminds me of a motorcycle I like, the Husqvarna 701 supermoto. Anyway, good job man :)

    • @Landsknecht25
      @Landsknecht25 3 роки тому +3

      Exactly the Same for me! Addiction-wise ive been doing Well, but the emotions and Depression I usually try to drown in alcohol are now quite strong. But hey, they werent gone either when I was drinking, so... 🤷🏼‍♂️
      Edit: I was your 69th like.

    • @markheloking
      @markheloking 3 роки тому +2

      @@V3NQM69 you keep it up man

  • @puffybara
    @puffybara 3 роки тому +438

    Its ok rusty. We all make mistakes and slip up. "Why do we fall bruce? So we can pick ourselves back up" you're doing a great job so far and Im proud of you. Love you Rusty.

    • @beverycarefuljohn586
      @beverycarefuljohn586 3 роки тому

      5"4

    • @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON
      @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON 3 роки тому

      he's 5'4

    • @grom5756
      @grom5756 3 роки тому +1

      So we can learn to pick ourselves up*

    • @grom5756
      @grom5756 3 роки тому

      Not trying to be an a hole, just fan of the trilogy and the caped crusader :)

    • @puffybara
      @puffybara 3 роки тому

      @@grom5756 thank you very much! I always get that part wrong. The Nolan verse holds something special to me so I appreciate you correcting me

  • @bethesdafall
    @bethesdafall 3 роки тому +595

    Hey, I’m an alcoholic who’s been sober for around 5 years, and yes avoiding alcohol is depressing, but it was more depressing when I relied on alcohol. You’re being open and honest about your sobriety, not saying you’re an addict, and that’s half of the struggle. ThIs series is highly intriguing to me and can’t wait to see how this goes. You’re on a path to respecting alcohol and still being able to drink, which isn’t the case for alcoholics. If you end up thinking you’re an alcoholic there’s groups like Recovery Dharma.
    Edit: I found your video on sobriety in my suggested and clicked because it said you were 5’4”
    Second Edit: Removed mentions of AA. I don’t use it because of my beliefs and it’s problematic, but if you have faith in Christianity I still see it as a resource.

    • @reshster
      @reshster 3 роки тому +7

      props to you for 5 years
      I'm addicted to ecstasy shit i wa 2 weeks clean a d broke it
      you're right ita depressing to be addicted rather than sober and hell when i broke that sobriety that shit hurt, it was even tangible to those who didnt know

    • @reshster
      @reshster 3 роки тому +2

      @Rich XN Trick i agree with this whole heartedly because i have done the same thing

    • @piratepat44
      @piratepat44 3 роки тому +2

      @Rich XN Trick yep, addict brain is fckn desperate to come up with any and all excuses and justifications.. gotta get that adrenaline/cortizol rush maaaan

    • @JackXombi
      @JackXombi 3 роки тому +1

      ​@Robert Petsch Where the "Doesn't work" misconception comes in is that AA teaches that once an alcoholic / always an alcoholic , meaning there's a lot of people that will never say they recover because they're always working to improve and never say 'good enough' , even 40 years in with no desire to drink. But that makes the statistic confusing to say the least. It's the blind leading the blind, but AA can help get shit done. Worked for me, though I only go to a meeting MAYBE once a year now, and usually just because I want to tell everyone there there's hope.

    • @nthetiteGHOST
      @nthetiteGHOST 3 роки тому +1

      Do not do AA, their tactics are replacing alcohol with god and if your faith is questioned your sobriety follows. There are secular alternatives, which are backed by science medicine and psychology with a far higher success rate

  • @user-le8zv8hs8x
    @user-le8zv8hs8x 3 роки тому +4

    I grew up watching Rusty since I was a pretty little kid, and watching this happen is just so amazing. He doesn't know I exist and won't see this but I am still so proud of him like he's a friend. Love to see it

  • @tylerdavis2516
    @tylerdavis2516 3 роки тому +1

    I’m an addict, DOC opiates, I’m 17, and this last Monday, oct 19 I got 7 months sober, and watching your videos gives me so much motivation to keep going, and what I can say to you is that it’s not so much about distracting yourself from drinking/using when deep down you want to use, it’s about taking away the compulsion to want to drink or use, that’s a big thing I’ve taken away from my 2 trips to rehab :)

  • @tabbykate8946
    @tabbykate8946 3 роки тому +93

    It's really respectable how honest you're being with us! Slipping up isnt something to be ashamed of, and we're all still behind you every step of the way

    • @SmashLCP
      @SmashLCP 3 роки тому +4

      Ya man both my parents when I was younger were alcoholics and my mum managed to stop drinking after she fell down the stairs and cracked her head open but my dad was having strokes constantly to the point where I was getting pulled out of school because I had to see him in hospital and lucky everyone in the family stepped in for my dad and his 2 sisters his brother his friends all had a sort of intervention for him they did this after he was stoped by the police and was found to be 5x over the limit when he was driving me to see my mum and he was swerving across the road. The police ended up arresting him and he got banned from driving for more then 3 years but he did get sent to the top rehabilitation centre in London (I'm from uk) and he got to stay in a pent house sweet with all these nice things and 2, 24hour nurses making sure he took the right tablets as by the time he got to the rehab he wasnt able to walk from his drinking as his legs were so week they couldnt support him. He got out of the rehab about a year or 2 ago now and is wanting to get his license back. But sadly I have been to his house since and I have found bear cans and jack daniels bottles which shows he only stopped for a time being and he still refuses to admit he ever had a drinking problem or has one and that even if he did have a drink it wouldnt be my problem and that his excuse for drinking again was because my granny and grandad (his mum and dad) both passed away in the past 2 years and I didnt wanna see him go down the same path of being in sainsbury's (shop like Walmart I guess for u Americans) and having a white out as it happened all the time but now he is very slowly slipping down that road and I just wanted to say how proud and supporting we all are for u and how we cant be prouder that your stopping and if you ever feel like having a drink just think well will I still want one after this if not then you dont need that one but we are proud that you can admit u had a drink and are getting better.
      Ty for listening to my story

  • @user-qr3ee3zp8q
    @user-qr3ee3zp8q 3 роки тому +262

    ''Prepare for crippling failure, it is the ultimate character building and almost no one successful has ever avoided it happening to them multiple times.'' - Exurb1a

  • @owk2227
    @owk2227 3 роки тому +359

    pro tip: GET RID OF ALL ALCOHOL IN THE HOUSE.
    this really helps(at least it helped my friends dad.)

    • @n3xistence
      @n3xistence 3 роки тому +50

      psychologically, actively deciding not to drink rather than not drinking because you just can't, is a more permanent way of going sober though

    • @AJBAXTER7677
      @AJBAXTER7677 3 роки тому +22

      @@n3xistence True, but it's more or so trying to get rid of the excuse to drink in the house when you know you'd have to go to the store to get it. If an alcoholic really really wants it enough, they'll just end up going to the store to get it no matter how they get there. Not having any beer or liquor in the home could make the difference between actually grabbing that beer when the craving hits, versus opening the fridge and realizing it isn't there even if you wanted one right then. But like I said, if someone really wants something, they'll get it, so the psychological side has to come from the truth of knowing what high amounts of alcohol is actually doing to their body which is what I expect you mean with the comment. In my view, removing alcohol out of the house is a potential first step to getting that psychological understanding.

    • @Finnspeed
      @Finnspeed 3 роки тому +14

      Im 3 months in and i have vodka in my freezer. I sometimes look at it and then remember how fucked my life was when i drank a lot. I guess it being there to remind me helps.

    • @astromilk4426
      @astromilk4426 3 роки тому +7

      This is how I quit nicotine. Removed all access to it and it made things much much easier bc I wouldn’t be able to even if I tried to make excuses for myself. When I still had it in my house, I found myself spiralling back to where I was before.

    • @randomfolk9545
      @randomfolk9545 3 роки тому

      R/beatmetoit

  • @rotisserieprotocol3582
    @rotisserieprotocol3582 3 роки тому +5

    At the opening when he talks about living sober as an addict being hell. I found it much easier over time to accept the fact that restraining urge, self control, is such a virtuous and powerful act. And to know what your enemy is and to know that even though you desire it more than anything, that you can say no to it. I find it very liberating to be able to turn easily turn down that which once ruled my life. People really should take pride in that.
    Also don't stress about slipping too much, that shit happens. It's part of the experience of overcoming, you're gonna fail before you succeed.

  • @hiijjh100
    @hiijjh100 3 роки тому +6

    I was sober for almost 6 weeks this past March into April. One beer late on a late Saturday night was all it took. I drank it and it slowly progressed back to my regular bingeing. It takes literally nothing but a lapse in judgment and willpower to end up back at square 1.

  • @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH
    @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH 3 роки тому +827

    Rusty: Look guys, I'm not 5'4. I'm actually-
    alex: he's 5'4
    Rusty: No I'm not, I'm trying to tell you that I'm-
    alex: *you are 5'4*

    • @Joshua-up4hn
      @Joshua-up4hn 3 роки тому +7

      But rusty is 5'4

    • @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH
      @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH 3 роки тому +26

      "Hey VSauce! Michael here, Is Rusty Cage 5'4?"

    • @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH
      @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH 3 роки тому +5

      On a separate note, I didn't realize the likes this got. But I'm not going to edit the original comment as I feel that would ruin it's quality.

    • @mire873
      @mire873 3 роки тому +3

      i'm 5'4 :(

    • @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH
      @MR_DAVE_N_WATCH 3 роки тому +1

      @@mire873 Rusty Cage 2: The Return

  • @wkrajcik831
    @wkrajcik831 3 роки тому +160

    I love how casual they are when the bat breaks in.

  • @exorbitantnoise9895
    @exorbitantnoise9895 3 роки тому +297

    Sobriety is a sweet and bitter pill. Feels good in the stomach, taste bitter in the mouth.

    • @andhid2551
      @andhid2551 3 роки тому +1

      Like too much alcohol

    • @ajfev1092
      @ajfev1092 3 роки тому

      Huh? I’m too young to drink and can say I don’t understand what that would mean. I don’t feel any sweetness nor do I have a bitter taste

    • @andhid2551
      @andhid2551 3 роки тому +1

      @@ajfev1092 that only happens if you an alcoholic and nost of what he said is an analogy basically it's ok to drink in moderation but never drink in excess

  • @williamshields4479
    @williamshields4479 3 роки тому +2

    Just my 2 cents man; I struggle with alcoholism myself and never really had that same compulsive urge you describe until this COVID bs hit us. I used to never drink on weekdays and Friday evening thru Sunday, anything went. I just stumbled across your page and find it incredibly inspiring and actually appreciate the fact that you slipped up and openly admit it. Makes you seem more human and in turn relatable.
    I don’t have a yard myself as I live in an apartment on the 2nd floor, but I think just trimming up your yard a bit would help immensely with staying inspired and would also keep you busy. Good luck brother!

  • @robdawg86
    @robdawg86 3 роки тому +3

    “I’m not 5’4”” 😂 I love you, Rusty.

  • @wolfytheking4518
    @wolfytheking4518 3 роки тому +152

    When your trying to give up alcohol it’s very common to hear someone slipped but the fact that you didn’t give in to getting drunk is fine

    • @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON
      @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON 3 роки тому +3

      he's 5'4

    • @vikinghoodbluelighthouse2911
      @vikinghoodbluelighthouse2911 3 роки тому +1

      5'4

    • @Kwispygod
      @Kwispygod 3 роки тому +1

      he’s 5’4

    • @dmlppspringtraplover
      @dmlppspringtraplover 3 роки тому

      5'4

    • @SmashLCP
      @SmashLCP 3 роки тому +2

      Ya man both my parents when I was younger were alcoholics and my mum managed to stop drinking after she fell down the stairs and cracked her head open but my dad was having strokes constantly to the point where I was getting pulled out of school because I had to see him in hospital and lucky everyone in the family stepped in for my dad and his 2 sisters his brother his friends all had a sort of intervention for him they did this after he was stoped by the police and was found to be 5x over the limit when he was driving me to see my mum and he was swerving across the road. The police ended up arresting him and he got banned from driving for more then 3 years but he did get sent to the top rehabilitation centre in London (I'm from uk) and he got to stay in a pent house sweet with all these nice things and 2, 24hour nurses making sure he took the right tablets as by the time he got to the rehab he wasnt able to walk from his drinking as his legs were so week they couldnt support him. He got out of the rehab about a year or 2 ago now and is wanting to get his license back. But sadly I have been to his house since and I have found bear cans and jack daniels bottles which shows he only stopped for a time being and he still refuses to admit he ever had a drinking problem or has one and that even if he did have a drink it wouldnt be my problem and that his excuse for drinking again was because my granny and grandad (his mum and dad) both passed away in the past 2 years and I didnt wanna see him go down the same path of being in sainsbury's (shop like Walmart I guess for u Americans) and having a white out as it happened all the time but now he is very slowly slipping down that road and I just wanted to say how proud and supporting we all are for u and how we cant be prouder that your stopping and if you ever feel like having a drink just think well will I still want one after this if not then you dont need that one but we are proud that you can admit u had a drink and are getting better.
      Ty for listening to my story

  • @anthropomorphicpeanut6160
    @anthropomorphicpeanut6160 3 роки тому +306

    I love that guy commenting 5'4" in every comment, that's dedication

  • @pigmuffin3581
    @pigmuffin3581 3 роки тому +60

    can we just appreciate how honest and much he's committed to this 30 days sober thing? Also side note, you look great bald man

  • @Alexandroid_
    @Alexandroid_ 3 роки тому +5

    When I was quitting smoking I tried not to look at every time I had a cigarette as a failure, because that just made me feel bad about myself which would lead to more smoking, instead I focused on every time I overcame the urge to smoke as a win.
    Feeling bad about your slip up and not trying to justify it is a good sign, it shows that this is important to you and that you're serious about it. Most importantly it shows that you are capable of doing this.

  • @emceehammer8054
    @emceehammer8054 3 роки тому +2

    It seems like you have a pretty good grasp of things regarding your recovery. That is one of the first things they teach you in rehab is that relapse is almost always a part of recovery. Don't beat yourself up too much but at the same time you need to figure out what caused your relapse so you can prevent it next time. Good Luck Rusty! 👍

  • @wesleystewart9702
    @wesleystewart9702 3 роки тому +221

    I like how he's comparing alcohol to a highschool friend

  • @Mat-tg4fk
    @Mat-tg4fk 3 роки тому +68

    I really respect your self awareness of your feelings during this process. Don't be TOO hard on yourself, the fact you got this far is already a sign of growth. Keep it up!

  • @Blappyboop
    @Blappyboop 3 роки тому +101

    I feel like rusty is gonna steal the moon during his sobriety (also I’m rooting for you bud, you can do it :D)

  • @devilishtee3117
    @devilishtee3117 3 роки тому +2

    i love this man for his honesty, like, the only way he will achieve his goal is to be completely honest with the not only himself but his family and those who love him

  • @ludarth
    @ludarth 3 роки тому +9

    I watched all 3 episodes yesterday this was an incredible insight on how addiction plays with your mind. Also, you being honest about everything and about your relationship with alcohol makes the all thing really interesting. Good luck man

  • @kappps8795
    @kappps8795 3 роки тому +80

    5:22 more like batroom

  • @ABR
    @ABR 3 роки тому +55

    Hey Rusty,
    I was going to explain everything you said at the start when I found out you relapsed last video, since whether or not you are a "true" alcoholic seems to be a question. If you ARE an alcoholic, you're going to relapse while early in sobriety, and honestly, not being where the people who you've been watching are is detrimental to your recovery if you happen to be one. You know me, you've met me; even I did not feel like anyone of the people in those AA rooms with 4 DUIs and a life in shambles when I started going in early 2018. As far as I know, you've never lost a job to drinking, never had a DUI, and never been arrested for an alcohol related offense as an adult, and you're right, drinking is ingrained in my personality. Even though I only drank uninhibited for 2 years, it is too late for me to EVER go back, but I did not wake up like this, four years ago I drank on election night 2016 and did not drink again for weeks, I just had a drink at an event like normal. That is not the case anymore and it probably never will be again. I tried to do the one month sober thing multiple times, still drank just as much as i always did when the month was up. Yet, no matter how much I fucked up, I was never *like them* and thus could afford these slip-ups, "I'm still just a heavy drinker right?"
    I say this (even though nobody give a fuck) because severity of the alcoholism is a huge deal for newcomers and is the biggest reason I see people come and go/die. In my experience, getting sober in those days, only one thing stayed consistent; I wasn't ready yet. I was not ready to give up drinking, because it wasn't just drinking, I was avoiding feeling all those things I didn't want to feel and slowly, but purposefully killing myself. I didn't so much finally get sober as much as I did face these things and my mental issues. Because even when I was in the absolute _shit_ facing god knows how many years in prison, while everyone hated me, any allegation was 10000% fact, and I lost so many friends, I still drank. My sobriety date is *this year* and only THEN am I this close to a year of sobriety. There's a reason the first step is admitting powerlessness, you might have to be utterly defeated before you make any progress. It's hard to face everything you've ever quieted down with booze and the boredom is so fucking long and intense.
    There are plenty of first timers with decades, most of us aren't them, i'm sure not and if you *are* an alcoholic then sorry you're here, good luck.
    -Brandon.

  • @eugenenalpin6058
    @eugenenalpin6058 3 роки тому +83

    Rusty starts going mental when sober. First shaved his head, now shot up his play button
    That's rad

  • @airsoda526
    @airsoda526 3 роки тому +2

    These vlogs are actually some of, if not the most heartfelt and honest content I've seen so far on youtube. At least the first in a very long time

  • @normaljohn6035
    @normaljohn6035 3 роки тому +1

    I’m new to your channels but you are the kind of person that would be the coolest to chat with over a beer. You’re sense of humor is dark, you’re a musician, and a drinker. my kind of friend lol

  • @danielbarrera3435
    @danielbarrera3435 3 роки тому +38

    It’s so amazing to see someone realistically document what its like trying to stop an addiction. These videos have helped me realize that mistakes are ok and that it’s not wrong to struggle thank u rusty cage

  • @Sillygoosefoolery
    @Sillygoosefoolery 3 роки тому +4

    Honestly, I'm proud of you rusty. Yeah you might be just a random person on the internet I don't personally know, not to mention you have no idea who I am, but I'm still proud of you. Yeah you slipped once, but you didn't let it stop you. I'm trying to make my life better alongside with you, like stop eating chocolate, going to the gym 3 times a week, get out of depression and trying to concentrate on school more. Sadly the depression and school problems are still not going that well, but I'm really close to starting therapy yay

  • @janka4820
    @janka4820 3 роки тому +11

    feels nice seeing rusty battle his addictions and being honest about it

  • @danielpryde7548
    @danielpryde7548 3 роки тому +4

    I'm much more interested in this now. Your an upfront honest man and that gives your content that much more depth.
    Also your complied cut away was amazing.

  • @waboem
    @waboem 3 роки тому +1

    so he is being honest about his drinking and trying to better it, but at the same time he is the first youtuber I have ever even heared talking about what he makes with ads etc. Keep it up Rusty, I think everyone loves the honesty. I know I do.

  • @mvl7186
    @mvl7186 3 роки тому +168

    5'4".... Btw, you look less like a "corpse", so I think that you are geting helthier! Stay strong!

  • @pedrocunha3202
    @pedrocunha3202 3 роки тому +247

    Rusty Cage, internet's busiest music nerd

  • @toxicflicks1928
    @toxicflicks1928 3 роки тому +74

    You should make some more music to keep yourself entertained, we believe in you rusty!!

  • @squirrelshapedcorps
    @squirrelshapedcorps 3 роки тому +2

    Addiction is something that many people struggle with. The fact you slipped and are being upfront about it is (in my opinion) is very strong. I know you can do it man!

  • @tyrpoppa_4229
    @tyrpoppa_4229 3 роки тому +1

    The fact that you called yourself out is outstanding, and that you felt regret after means your getting better.

  • @ahuman2695
    @ahuman2695 3 роки тому +187

    These serious videos are interesting to me.
    Edit: Damn Rusty is heated more than I thought

  • @guyonphone2550
    @guyonphone2550 3 роки тому +25

    rusty, I wish you luck. My dad suffered with trying to stay sober about 2 years ago, good luck man!

  • @jking1343
    @jking1343 3 роки тому +15

    I think part of the reason I've failed to quit in the past is that I didn't know who I wanted to be. Getting fucked up was who I was and once that wasn't me anymore I was hollow because there was no identity to fill it.
    I'm really hoping this time works for me. I think it'll be different; I know what type of person I want to be this time.

    • @xvasacex
      @xvasacex 3 роки тому +2

      The fact that you realize and understand you have a problem is a big step within its self wish u luck my guy

  • @ryanpercival9823
    @ryanpercival9823 3 роки тому +2

    As somoene who struggles with alcohol, I connected to these Vlogs so much. Thank you for being so upfront and courageous. It was inspirational in an odd way.

  • @giovannijimenez3008
    @giovannijimenez3008 3 роки тому +2

    the friend analogy was perfect... i used to smoke a lot and you described it perfect

  • @h.w.4482
    @h.w.4482 3 роки тому +43

    That bit at the beginning was the ideal fester

  • @garnknopf155
    @garnknopf155 3 роки тому +193

    one question: why is your sleeping habit so strange? why not go to sleep at "normal" times?

    • @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON
      @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON 3 роки тому +91

      he's 5'4

    • @Kwispygod
      @Kwispygod 3 роки тому +50

      he’s 5’4

    • @lastwymsi
      @lastwymsi 3 роки тому +35

      Jobs or uni does it useally.
      So does depression and anxiety.
      My sleep schedule is shifted about 4 hours forward since my classes start at 12pm. I sleep at 4am and get up at 11am.

    • @YourTypicalChannel
      @YourTypicalChannel 3 роки тому +9

      @@lastwymsi lmao literally same i sleep at 4-5 am and wake up at 10-11

    • @TropicTyrant
      @TropicTyrant 3 роки тому +13

      he's 5'4

  • @takasu9246
    @takasu9246 3 роки тому +213

    "Should i get a gun?"
    *Murica*

    • @tubestar4276
      @tubestar4276 3 роки тому +7

      Bless murica

    • @bobduncan9953
      @bobduncan9953 3 роки тому +3

      @@tubestar4276 right on 👩🏿‍🌾

    • @takasu9246
      @takasu9246 3 роки тому +4

      @@tubestar4276 hell yeah

    • @andhid2551
      @andhid2551 3 роки тому +1

      Its his right couse he shot his left

    • @Blyndir
      @Blyndir 3 роки тому

      If you're asking the question, the answer is yes.

  • @charlessmith8338
    @charlessmith8338 3 роки тому +1

    Dude, 1 beer isn’t a big deal. You can still do this. You have already made a big achievement. You should be proud. Good luck Rusty.

  • @mandynicole10
    @mandynicole10 3 роки тому +1

    Thank you for saying this. You are the first person to get it. As a recovering alcoholic I always look at people posting about how great and incredible their lives are and think "really, are you that much happier or is this just a front you're putting up in order to deal with the fact you can't have your drug of choice anymore because it caused so much havoc in your life". Just my opinion because I was much happier on drugs/alcohol then I am sober.

  • @jstyxx4110
    @jstyxx4110 3 роки тому +171

    Rusty: Talking about being sober
    Me: Emp and Rusty have girlfriends?

    • @plasmazulu6643
      @plasmazulu6643 3 роки тому +5

      Emp’s girlfriend is Valerie Kessler. I don’t know who Rusty’s girlfriend is.

    • @RvSZamos
      @RvSZamos 3 роки тому +6

      seeing as the tv had an acct named "brittany" and some girl named brittany gave him that one tattoo, it's probably her, she's in a lot of his vids

    • @J.Skyler
      @J.Skyler 3 роки тому +11

      Sin Siddhi
      her name is Brittany Cheanteale and she’s also in his Bug Pizza video.
      check her social media out, she sells pics of her feet + lewds. she’s a cool cat.

    • @Tea022
      @Tea022 3 роки тому +2

      @@J.Skyler she was also the one who gave rusty the tatoo on his hand.

    • @oddynuff9198
      @oddynuff9198 3 роки тому +2

      i thouth rusty is gay

  • @redacted518
    @redacted518 3 роки тому +131

    you know I weren't sure you were American until that ending

  • @CinematicJaedynn
    @CinematicJaedynn 3 роки тому +16

    Cage you got this man, these videos are encouraging me to stop my addiction to certain personal things. These videos is something to look up to. Thankyou so much for this, I believe you can improve your drinking problem.

    • @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON
      @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON 3 роки тому

      he's 5'4

    • @vikinghoodbluelighthouse2911
      @vikinghoodbluelighthouse2911 3 роки тому

      5'4

    • @SmashLCP
      @SmashLCP 3 роки тому

      Ya man both my parents when I was younger were alcoholics and my mum managed to stop drinking after she fell down the stairs and cracked her head open but my dad was having strokes constantly to the point where I was getting pulled out of school because I had to see him in hospital and lucky everyone in the family stepped in for my dad and his 2 sisters his brother his friends all had a sort of intervention for him they did this after he was stoped by the police and was found to be 5x over the limit when he was driving me to see my mum and he was swerving across the road. The police ended up arresting him and he got banned from driving for more then 3 years but he did get sent to the top rehabilitation centre in London (I'm from uk) and he got to stay in a pent house sweet with all these nice things and 2, 24hour nurses making sure he took the right tablets as by the time he got to the rehab he wasnt able to walk from his drinking as his legs were so week they couldnt support him. He got out of the rehab about a year or 2 ago now and is wanting to get his license back. But sadly I have been to his house since and I have found bear cans and jack daniels bottles which shows he only stopped for a time being and he still refuses to admit he ever had a drinking problem or has one and that even if he did have a drink it wouldnt be my problem and that his excuse for drinking again was because my granny and grandad (his mum and dad) both passed away in the past 2 years and I didnt wanna see him go down the same path of being in sainsbury's (shop like Walmart I guess for u Americans) and having a white out as it happened all the time but now he is very slowly slipping down that road and I just wanted to say how proud and supporting we all are for u and how we cant be prouder that your stopping and if you ever feel like having a drink just think well will I still want one after this if not then you dont need that one but we are proud that you can admit u had a drink and are getting better.
      Ty for listening to my story

  • @Lord_Framebreak
    @Lord_Framebreak 3 роки тому +1

    This challange you put on yourself is not about slipping up. It's about not giving up and keep pushing forward despite your mistakes.

  • @Dorf274
    @Dorf274 3 роки тому +1

    I and everyone I have spoken to that has tried to combat an addiction has ended up relapsing at some point. We're all clean for a long time now (as far as I know).
    It shows you how much of a problem you actually have, that even while consciously trying to stop, you are not in control. The key is to not let this make you feel weaker than the addiction, it just means you have to kick it up a notch and commit to it even harder. Everyone has the strength to quit.
    Being honest to others about having these relapses is important. Being honest to yourself about it is VITAL. Head up, deep breath, get back on your feet and keep marching.

  • @AtomixIsDumb
    @AtomixIsDumb 3 роки тому +26

    We all are rooting for you rusty you can get through this we will be there for you

  • @scars2167
    @scars2167 3 роки тому +28

    If you feel like feeling the taste of it is something you crave try getting non-alcoholic beer

  • @itsmebougie
    @itsmebougie 3 роки тому +43

    Just reset the clock man. Think about that weakness you felt and understand that you can overcome. You already know you can

    • @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON
      @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON 3 роки тому +3

      he's 5'4

    • @Kwispygod
      @Kwispygod 3 роки тому +1

      he’s 5’4

    • @DomStu700
      @DomStu700 3 роки тому

      He's 5 4

    • @SmashLCP
      @SmashLCP 3 роки тому

      Ya man both my parents when I was younger were alcoholics and my mum managed to stop drinking after she fell down the stairs and cracked her head open but my dad was having strokes constantly to the point where I was getting pulled out of school because I had to see him in hospital and lucky everyone in the family stepped in for my dad and his 2 sisters his brother his friends all had a sort of intervention for him they did this after he was stoped by the police and was found to be 5x over the limit when he was driving me to see my mum and he was swerving across the road. The police ended up arresting him and he got banned from driving for more then 3 years but he did get sent to the top rehabilitation centre in London (I'm from uk) and he got to stay in a pent house sweet with all these nice things and 2, 24hour nurses making sure he took the right tablets as by the time he got to the rehab he wasnt able to walk from his drinking as his legs were so week they couldnt support him. He got out of the rehab about a year or 2 ago now and is wanting to get his license back. But sadly I have been to his house since and I have found bear cans and jack daniels bottles which shows he only stopped for a time being and he still refuses to admit he ever had a drinking problem or has one and that even if he did have a drink it wouldnt be my problem and that his excuse for drinking again was because my granny and grandad (his mum and dad) both passed away in the past 2 years and I didnt wanna see him go down the same path of being in sainsbury's (shop like Walmart I guess for u Americans) and having a white out as it happened all the time but now he is very slowly slipping down that road and I just wanted to say how proud and supporting we all are for u and how we cant be prouder that your stopping and if you ever feel like having a drink just think well will I still want one after this if not then you dont need that one but we are proud that you can admit u had a drink and are getting better.
      Ty for listening to my story

  • @Opachki69420
    @Opachki69420 3 роки тому +2

    the first 2 minutes is some really deep stuff bro, as long as you are making attempts to better your life(even if that means you dont completely quit drinking) you are on the right path.

  • @theskeltonbrothers
    @theskeltonbrothers 3 роки тому +1

    Love your honesty man. Keep killin it!
    Remember a lot of those ex-alcoholics developed that severe of an addiction over many, many years of drinking. It's good to keep yourself in check with these breaks in boozing.

  • @transandpansanimation7020
    @transandpansanimation7020 3 роки тому +10

    It’s alright Rusty. We still love you!❤️

  • @obama9143
    @obama9143 3 роки тому +38

    chief keef “i hat being sober” starts playing in back round 😂

  • @rebotsomat
    @rebotsomat 3 роки тому +35

    just remember the wise words of Jay from Clerks 2: "boredom is the first step on the road to relapse"

  • @ItsCrashy
    @ItsCrashy 3 роки тому +3

    I've almost slipped during my now 3 months of sobriety, it's definitely hard, especially with me now being 21 (turned 21 3 days ago as of writing)
    I was heavily drinking for a year straight, it fucked up a lot of things for me, 2 relationships, my family relations, and many more, I finally got sober in August (exactly 1 year from when I started drinking) and have been sober since. I still have that temptation to drink at least 1 beer or 1 shot, so I know how you feel and can relate. It's okay to slip and realize it. You've got this and I wish you the best of luck, Cage.

  • @shimeringwalrus8457
    @shimeringwalrus8457 3 роки тому +1

    I love these videos. I drink beer every day after work and I really want to stop. I've tried countless times to stop but it's definitely a bigger battle than I thought it would be. Seeing these videos gives me hope.

  • @straultzee
    @straultzee 3 роки тому +40

    I honestly empathize with this in the weirdest way. I feel like I'm fighting my own sickness. I did destroy something close to me because of my habits, and I've been floundering to fix it since. I cheated on my girlfriend, and she left me.
    It's one of the two most painful times in my life. It's my fault, and there's nothing to do but fight what caused the bad habits in the first part. It's hard to fight something that feels like yourself, but I don't want to feel sick anymore. I'm sick of sex and porn. It is a problem.

    • @timmteller871
      @timmteller871 3 роки тому +5

      Sex is not a problem. Hedonism and senselessness is.

    • @withybarley2958
      @withybarley2958 3 роки тому +1

      You tryna do nofap bro? Give it a shot.

    • @straultzee
      @straultzee 3 роки тому +2

      @@withybarley2958 That's what I've been trying to follow, I set myself for 6 months, and we'll see how it goes. One week almost!

    • @straultzee
      @straultzee 3 роки тому +1

      @@timmteller871 that's true. Sex is natural, but I went too far

    • @allucid4083
      @allucid4083 3 роки тому +2

      Bro u cheated on your girlfriend that's pretty shitty man.

  • @bigfatpaulie5138
    @bigfatpaulie5138 3 роки тому +18

    Been sober since August 12th. Everyday has been a living hell and I feel like shit on a daily basis. These videos give me inspiration to stay sober but it gets harder every day.

    • @sundress7300
      @sundress7300 3 роки тому +3

      YOU CAN FUCKING DO IT! IT WILL GET BETTER!!!

    • @tylerd.1
      @tylerd.1 3 роки тому

      You should go to Alcoholics Anonymous and make some friends. You can go surfing with your friends, go on a hike, and do many more fun things. At the end of the day you get the benefits and you know your friends are too!

    • @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON
      @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON 3 роки тому +1

      he's 5'4

    • @MaxIzrin
      @MaxIzrin 3 роки тому

      Do like Rusty, and get yourself some vitamins, especially the B12 & C, it helps your brain ditch all kinds of addictions, caffeine, alcohol, even some drugs.
      You will feel better in a couple of days, I guarantee it.

    • @martinthedrainedsedlak
      @martinthedrainedsedlak 3 роки тому

      You'll get through this, I believe in you

  • @marshmallow_fellow
    @marshmallow_fellow 3 роки тому +152

    "I didn't think people would be interested in this series"
    This is the only series I watch from you so I guess it's at least a little bit interesting

  • @vm4035
    @vm4035 3 роки тому +127

    Maybe you could get nonalcoholic “beers”. When my grandpa had cancer he couldn’t drink alcohol but he had like fake beers. Idk maybe you could look it up

    • @nthetiteGHOST
      @nthetiteGHOST 3 роки тому +22

      Fair, it gets the flavor and the act, but without the substance. Handling the psychological addiction without giving in to the physical

    • @tramachi7027
      @tramachi7027 3 роки тому +3

      I mean if you really want thee taste of beer but not the alc attached to it...Drink acohol-free. Idk how its outside of Central Europe but Beer without Alcohol is in every market you can imagine. The taste is still the same-ish and its actual beer
      A

    • @Halsfield
      @Halsfield 3 роки тому

      non-alcoholic beers still have alcohol in them, just a very low amount. up to 0.05% ABV

    • @Krattquaman
      @Krattquaman 3 роки тому

      Thats basically what I am doing currently. I'm on my 21st day without alcohol and so far alcohol free beer was helpful.

    • @ewrgaming
      @ewrgaming 3 роки тому

      I’ve never drank much but Malt Soda is like beer.

  • @joshuakopaliani923
    @joshuakopaliani923 3 роки тому +13

    I’ve been drinking everyday for the past 3 years, I know the feeling man, it’s hard.

    • @ReinventingTheSteve
      @ReinventingTheSteve 3 роки тому +2

      I've drank virtually everyday for 15 years.. usually atleast half a carton of midstrength per night but i have rules, I don't drink until the afternoon on weeknights and until after lunch on weekends... I'm still an alcoholic though, I know this 😂

    • @tiff826
      @tiff826 3 роки тому

      Let me know if you're interested in a AA zoom meeting I go to. It's open 24/7. It's hard as fuck. But with other people recovering it helps. Reply to me if you want me to send you the Zoom room info

  • @syd-nee
    @syd-nee 3 роки тому +40

    I think one small slip like that is fine. Its not like you drink half a bottle of whiskey and got wasted and decided to give up. Stay strong rusty.

    • @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON
      @CHICKENNUGGETSKOON 3 роки тому

      he's 5'4

    • @eightbitmorph
      @eightbitmorph 3 роки тому +1

      Yeah but the whole point is to not drink alcohol. At all. One small sip is still a failure

    • @Kwispygod
      @Kwispygod 3 роки тому

      he’s 5’4

  • @evanking7144
    @evanking7144 3 роки тому +1

    I'm still watching ads and I already know what I want to comment.
    You're human. We go through obstacles but sometimes the obstacles go through us. Your struggle is valid and you will be alright.

  • @chaosmadman8814
    @chaosmadman8814 3 роки тому +2

    No attempt is ever perfect, pick yourself up and get stronger king, were all here on this journey with ya ❤

  • @hedgehogpancakes6174
    @hedgehogpancakes6174 3 роки тому +6

    This is amazing Rusty. I've been sober eight months man. It feels amazing dude. I really hope you keep going past the 30 days.

  • @darkmoloko2184
    @darkmoloko2184 3 роки тому +70

    Rusty: alcohol is gone
    Alcohol: I'm gonna take that
    *takes mind*

  • @xDubstepify
    @xDubstepify 3 роки тому +5

    Thank you for posting this. I feel an odd connection to this journey. Love you bud.

  • @mpekim
    @mpekim 3 роки тому +1

    It’s okay. Just keep trying rusty. You have an unimaginable amount of support behind you.

  • @quickKiLlerDAP99
    @quickKiLlerDAP99 3 роки тому

    Just keep at it, there are slip ups with every new ordeal someone takes. Nobody is perfect, the fact that you can admit that you made a mistake and own up to it is amazing!
    Also loved the part at the end, truly beautiful

  • @Mizenga
    @Mizenga 3 роки тому +12

    Things that i keep reminding myself to deal with addiction is to remember the biological consistency. If you drink a glass of water, doesn't matter how thirsty you are, you are bound to live at least one day right? if you don't feed the addiction for, months, it is bound to shrivel up and dry somewhere in your mind. its science so its factual truth.

    • @ayjay579
      @ayjay579 3 роки тому +3

      I don’t believe that is science or truth but it’s still a good message.

    • @Mizenga
      @Mizenga 3 роки тому

      Makes sense

  • @c0ppercrab497
    @c0ppercrab497 3 роки тому +38

    I really hope you keep trying to stay sober

  • @shorttree3463
    @shorttree3463 3 роки тому +4

    It’s ok uncle fester, everyone makes mistakes, and I’m glad you’re being honest and then still trying

  • @i.c.l2171
    @i.c.l2171 3 роки тому +1

    Rusty, you are already starting to look better. With weight loss it's all about patience, it will not happen in a snap of a finger. Hopefully, you can stay sober for more than a month, that will definetly help!

  • @tekoah2952
    @tekoah2952 3 роки тому +2

    Dude your honestly the most inspiring real person who has documented something this serious on UA-cam, just no bs honest journey. Be safe my man

  • @phrankthetank
    @phrankthetank 3 роки тому +82

    When you gain muscle you get heavier, youre making progress, dont worry

    • @BeardFaceSuper
      @BeardFaceSuper 3 роки тому

      Not necessarily.

    • @hi-c4165
      @hi-c4165 3 роки тому +6

      @@BeardFaceSuper well if you gain only muscle and aren’t losing any fat then your going to gain weight. Everyone knows that muscle is denser than fat

    • @Thiennnnnn
      @Thiennnnnn 3 роки тому +2

      @@hi-c4165 this mans got ricardo milos pfp we should trust him. he bears the pfp of the sexiest, perfect man ever

    • @jordankelley9727
      @jordankelley9727 3 роки тому

      @@Thiennnnnn my dude you are spitn starighht fax

    • @Thiennnnnn
      @Thiennnnnn 3 роки тому

      @@jordankelley9727 exactly the only exception to NNN is Ricardo Milos

  • @MarneusAndMilkyBlood
    @MarneusAndMilkyBlood 3 роки тому +6

    I absolutely love these vlogs and I feel compulsed to watch more, stay strong and keep it up! You're going to make it!

  • @one2c428
    @one2c428 3 роки тому +43

    i think you've jokingly said in some video somewhere that you're 5'4" and apparently some people took it seriously

    • @11co5955
      @11co5955 3 роки тому +1

      Rusty used an altered tape measure in this video btw.

    • @seanseanston
      @seanseanston 3 роки тому +5

      @@11co5955 Either way you'd need to subtract probably around an inch for the large boots. So I'd be willing to believe he's 5'7" or close to it.

    • @vikinghoodbluelighthouse2911
      @vikinghoodbluelighthouse2911 3 роки тому +1

      5'4

    • @captainm3822
      @captainm3822 3 роки тому +2

      @@11co5955 How do you know this?

  • @user-wg4nh1rn3g
    @user-wg4nh1rn3g 3 роки тому

    Thank you Rusty for trying to better yourself. Watching you do this means alot since I battle with alcohol and alcoholism in my family too. You can do it, slipping doesn't ruin your progress, keep going.

  • @jasonjosiahphillips
    @jasonjosiahphillips 3 роки тому +1

    Very nice. I've been going through the same thing for far too long. Everything you have said is spot on. The feelings, and emotions are very hard and real. Thanks for inspiring me to go at it again. There's something about us musicians/artists that make us a bit more susceptible to this I think. Social anxiety is my biggest problem with drinking. I will support your channels and keep looking forward to your content as long as you keep remaining real.

  • @snoowbrigade
    @snoowbrigade 3 роки тому +12

    I have suffered with my own addictions, while perhaps not as severe as alcoholism they have still caused me great trouble. The way i tackle them is by first fixing my sleep schedule, in order to have the energy to deal with them. Then I do the hardest part. Not thinking about them. If you can go 1 day without thinking about alcohol then you aren't addicted anymore. Remember to never give in to the voice in your head telling you to "just look at the bottle" or "just smell the alcohol". Your brain is smart, often smarter than you realise and it will do whatever it can to trick you. As soon as you opened the cabinet with the alcohol in your last video i knew you would relapse, that is the way these things work. Remember to not give up until you have achieved what you want. We are all cheering you on.

  • @joshengle5938
    @joshengle5938 3 роки тому +5

    You should leave the Comfort of your house and go camping for a week or more and just reset yourself! Did this recently and has helped