It takes a lot of strength to accept that something you’ve invested so much into, isn’t working. It’s a bit like frantically trying to resuscitate a patient who’s gone. At some point you have to accept it, stop the chest compressions, and call time of death.
Great metaphor-having literally resuscitated many in my profession, it resonates. My worries now more about the Zombie after effect - I finally call it then they being mortally “offended” choose to haunt and punish me to infinity and back … through possession of others if possible in order to continue wounding by proxy 😬
@@Jodeekowgirl So true. You're right, the longer it goes on, the deeper the investment. They know that leaving them will be the hardest thing we'll ever do, so they count on us never having the strength to do it.
I was born into a solidly narcissistic family system-then did not recognize these patterns in my other relationships. Late to the game but now I’m aware. It’s so hard not knowing what I had been missing until I was repeatedly entangled in similar relationships. Including painful loyalty to my family. My codependent traits attracted narcissistic people. Grieving the wasted years. 😢
Remember people: it might feel awful for the time being, but in the end you did yourself a favour by cutting out a toxic person, who only wanted the worst for you. At some point there's a choice to be made: either suffer more from all their projections and unhealed crap they fail to address or free yourself and get a chance at being happy again.
I too lost everything. Trying to rebuild my life, but at 56, and in this economy, I’m having a very hard time. The divorce is in the end stages and I’m hoping when it’s finalized, I will feel some weight has been lifted and concentrate totally on getting back on my feet again.
Exactly! Exploited, imprisoned (isolated, socially, financially) and tortured (emotionally, mentally) every moment of every day. Physical dangers a constant. The unseen scars never go away, I choose to be thankful to God I am physically free. Healing is a long journey.
I cried because of what you said at the beginning. What hurts the most, I think, is the fact that I loved someone who never loved me in return. That I spent countless nights over the years we were together pouring my heart out to him for him to just blame me or give me the silent treatment. He tortured my pets, cheated, broke me, treated me like his maid, whistled at me like a dog, laughed about training me right to his friends, and sexually abused me for years in front of our child. He put down everything I liked. He treated me like dirt, and I loved him. I left him though, I had the courage, I felt it in my heart, and I told myself that this was the last time I would ever let him hurt me again. I didn't let him break what little self-worth I had left. I was so scared that he was right when he would tell me no one would ever put up with me like he did. For so long I felt like I deserved everything he did to me. But I freaking did it. And it's crazy how free and hopeful I feel. I don't know who I am. I don't know anything about myself. I'm worried that he was right, that I did deserve it, and that no one would ever love me. But I could love myself. My son loves me, my family loves me, so why can't I love me? P.s. I LOVE the LOTR! He actually laughed at me for liking it and would bully me for watching the movies. I was reading The Hobbit and he told me "Why can't you just like something normal?". That mf would rip books out of my hands just to look at them and tell me I wasn't normal. He hated it when I read, and I stopped reading for a few years because of it. I'm reading books again though and IT FEELS AMAZING.
LOTR is classic literature! It's usually required reading as well. Being well read is a sign of intelligence, so I would take it as he's an idiot.😅 I accused my NPD of only being capable of liking "My little pony."🐎 I know how you feel.
First paragraph of what you said hit home. It is heartbreaking when the realisation sets in that all the vulnerabilities and your deepest fears that you shared with a person end up being used against you further down the line I have been through that as well / the betrayal that one feels is hard to put into words. But I applaud you for coming out on the other end Narcissistic relationships have the capacity to ruin us; if you grew up w a narcissistic parent as I did, it ends up clouding any and all further relationships / and if we then encounter a narcissist in our adult life, we attract them (or they us) like a moth to a flame. But we all have the capacity and ability to come out on the other end and it seems that you did just that.
My EX took my Spiritual books from my bedside and threw them away, because according to him, my love for Jesus prevented me from accepting his porn addiction. I was forced to watch porn with him and had to visit strip clubs with him and had to listen to him telling the table dancers (young women) how beautiful they were, while I was never told that I was beautiful.
You "forgive" them in your heart. They are long gone. It is YOU deciding their abuse can't hurt you anymore. You forgive yourself for having loved them. You pat yourself on the back for having tried. Damned hard, but it works. And geting out in Nature doesn't hurt, either 🙂. Thanks Richard.
This has nothing to do with the perpetrator whatsoever this is all about you and you processing your wounded feelings, because if you make it any more than this, you've already crossed the line into vengeance, saying things like they don't deserve to be forgiven and so on and so forth. Ultimately when you think about it, the physical perpetrator has nothing to do with your inner life experience. Because in reality if somebody offended you, it really is you who is responding to the offense, that makes the difference of weather that action is considered an offense, and that is determined by your own conscience and heart volition and mind , within your soul. We are supposed to have a parent child relationship with our feelings, our consciousness, is the parent and our feelings are the child. we have a parent child relationship to our feelings emotions and issues, so that we must learn how to acknowledge and accept our wounded feelings , emotions, and issues. As a loving parent acknowledges and accepts their own wounded child. And as we do, our wounded feelings emotions and issues, become transformed into healing, as we place upon them, acknowledgement and acceptance and loving-kindness necessary, for feelings emotions and issues to transform. For example: if your physical child, was wounded and hurting , and you placed upon him or her, acknowledgement and acceptance with loving kindness and gave him or her space To be. How do you think your child would respond to you? Well in my assessment your child would give you back more acceptance and loving-kindness more than what you, could well imagine! This process is much like a caterpillar who represents our woundedness transforming into a butterfly representing our healing! Now our wounded feelings , emotions and issues, that we all tend to suppress because they are inconvenient and uncomfortable and thus those feelings emotions and issues remain with us perverting our past, and plaguing our present and our future. Because we don't know that we need to allow these negative and wounded feelings and emotions etc. To be processed by being acknowledged and accepted. Thus completely restoring from "glory to glory", the psychological heart of the NARC VICTIM. And if you practice this method, you would find a sense of personal acceptance, that you have never known in your life, As you place value acknowledgement and acceptance primarily to your wounded feelings and emotions etc. Then your feelings pay you back, with the very same feeling of acknowledgement and acceptance that you get to carry along with you all day long, along with the value and loving kindness, that you also place upon them. It is the best investment in yourself you can ever make. For as you learn how to make your feelings emotions your top priority so will your feelings and emotion make you their top priority! For as you value and accept yourself you value and accept others! SIDENOTE: The pathological narcissist does not have the capability, (unless he or she hits rock bottom) for change. But those with only narcissistic traits, can and will if given the opportunity and taken out of their narcissistic influenced environment can, revert back to their status quo, empathetic personality type, Which was true in my own case, I am proof that this method works and is life-changing! Please feel free to comment!
Take up a new hobby or pastime as well. Have something new that they had NOTHING to do with, no reminders or room for rumination! I'm learning paragliding.
Narcissists have demonic energies and they are broken people who just want the worst for you. My own mother and sister both are narcissists and finally after years of abuse, I left my home as I didn’t have any other option. Still struggling to heal myself..
My ex husband is a current church goer, and we even met in Christian college, but he used the term “sin nature” to normalize his abuse towards me. For instance “We’ll always have a sin nature so I can’t guarantee I’ll never yell at you again, even though you’ve told me it scares you.” He had the audacity to tell me he felt called to preach 😂
I had a reiki session done a few months ago and had a vision that my soon to be ex husband and my first husband were not human form. They looked like amoebas and were just evil entities brought into my life to cause me harm. It was wild.
I really wish classes like this were taught in the last year of our teenagers secondary school year (16yrs) I think our teenagers having a psychology class like this could help prepare them for what qualities to avoid in a partner that they my choose in there lives! This is such a wonderful life lesson that I wish I’d of had all those years ago and then I might not of made the disastrous choices I’ve made in life!
I feel like that’s like saying that Jesus died in the cross not for us, but for Himself. He didn’t do it for himself. He cried tears of blood and almost couldn't do it. But he did it for us
I find in my journey, forgiveness was never an issue because _healing_ resulted in "no need" to forgive (them). Forgiving oneself - you're right on - an entirely other ability. Beautiful words, man. You've moved me forward so quickly. Love the purple, btw!
Healing is experiencing the opposite. I didn’t know anything about narcissism 5 years ago but I knew enough to leave a toxic environment that I could not heal while in that space. Experience the opposite- I rented a house and when I moved there I felt a peace flow over me for I was now removed from the place that was toxic. And that was only the environment I’m talking about. But, it’s where I first started on my way to healing.
Learning to love and respect yourself. You don't hold on to people like this. It's there job to respect you if they want to be in your life. It's not going to be easy for them because it's there way and they need to respect everyone. That only comes when they wake up, but remember they think they are clever at what they are doing. A loss may only help them see.
There comes a time when you have to say to the universe, "I surrender". It doesnr mean you are a quitter. It means you know when its time to walk away.
Humility is my word for the moment I’m being hit over the head with it so I’m paying attention. Thank you Richard Also, in surrender, holding up the white flag etc.,… I learned in my current study of good boundaries and goodbyes, that I can reframe it from I failed to I accept the reality that this relationship is unsustainable.😢 I don’t want to go through this after near 25 years but I must. I did all I could I have to let go.
My psychologist says you need to “pardon” people instead of forgive them. You aren’t going to forgive them cuz they don’t deserve it, but you can give them pardon so you can let it go and move on.
This has nothing to do with the perpetrator whatsoever this is all about you and you processing your wounded feelings, because if you make it any more than this, you've already crossed the line into vengeance, saying things like they don't deserve to be forgiven and so on and so forth. Ultimately when you think about it, the physical perpetrator has nothing to do with your inner life experience. Because in reality if somebody offended you, it really is you who is responding to the offense, that makes the difference of weather that action is considered an offense, and that is determined by your own conscience and heart volition and mind , within your soul. We are supposed to have a parent child relationship with our feelings, our consciousness, is the parent and our feelings are the child. we have a parent child relationship to our feelings emotions and issues, so that we must learn how to acknowledge and accept our wounded feelings , emotions, and issues. As a loving parent acknowledges and accepts their own wounded child. And as we do, our wounded feelings emotions and issues, become transformed into healing, as we place upon them, acknowledgement and acceptance and loving-kindness necessary, for feelings emotions and issues to transform. For example: if your physical child, was wounded and hurting , and you placed upon him or her, acknowledgement and acceptance with loving kindness and gave him or her space To be. How do you think your child would respond to you? Well in my assessment your child would give you back more acceptance and loving-kindness more than what you, could well imagine! This process is much like a caterpillar who represents our woundedness transforming into a butterfly representing our healing! Now our wounded feelings , emotions and issues, that we all tend to suppress because they are inconvenient and uncomfortable and thus those feelings emotions and issues remain with us perverting our past, and plaguing our present and our future. Because we don't know that we need to allow these negative and wounded feelings and emotions etc. To be processed by being acknowledged and accepted. Thus completely restoring from "glory to glory", the psychological heart of the NARC VICTIM. And if you practice this method, you would find a sense of personal acceptance, that you have never known in your life, As you place value acknowledgement and acceptance primarily to your wounded feelings and emotions etc. Then your feelings pay you back, with the very same feeling of acknowledgement and acceptance that you get to carry along with you all day long, along with the value and loving kindness, that you also place upon them. It is the best investment in yourself you can ever make. For as you learn how to make your feelings emotions your top priority so will your feelings and emotion make you their top priority! For as you value and accept yourself you value and accept others! SIDENOTE: The pathological narcissist does not have the capability, (unless he or she hits rock bottom) for change. But those with only narcissistic traits, can and will if given the opportunity and taken out of their narcissistic influenced environment can, revert back to their status quo, empathetic personality type, Which was true in my own case, I am proof that this method works and is life-changing! Please feel free to comment!
I'm likely about to be the subject of a smear campaign too. I've already had multiple ones ran against me in the past by a mother and a wife. It hurts, but I have clear conscience knowing I only tried to do good things. I don't like to explain too much bc my information is connected to their computer with some "interesting" software. Can't believe I'm going thru this again.. wanting to give up.
Forgive myself - that's something I am still struggling with. It was me who let this happen. The signs were there from the start. I tolerated this behavior and remained complacent. It wasn't even as much love as it was codependency. Ugh!!!
I feel exactly the same. Having a super hard time forgiving myself. I saw the red flags but ignored them and married him. I should have known better from my past experiences and now my life is in ruins.
Richard my ex partner (narcissist) is a psychotherapist! Im almost 2 years out of the relationship and still working so hard to heal. This is no easy road 🤯😖 Still have work to do but thank you! Your talks have been invaluable in helping me come through this horrible tangle of destruction. 🙌🙏
MINE TOO. So fkn disturbing.. she can work with people all day (although, in retrospect, I really doubt much of what she told me - probably just using it as narcissistic supply endlessly yuk)! When we were dating, having met on a site called "Spiritual Singles" (irony from hell - a Cluster B is literally the OPPOSITE of anything related to spirituality and growth! I mean the beginning of all spiritual work is to admit where you are, who you are, how you got there, who you hurt etc. e.g. Self-assessment and Making Amends) and she even used it as a tool to get my defenses down/rescuer mode going (not that I have much of one, eg non-codependent but I am a male and feel the protector role with my family and people) about how this other guy she met ran for the hills when she told him she was in therapy for BPD - I immediately thought (as intended) "what a jerk!" How could you judge some one when you don't even know them etc. - at that point I still thought it was something like bipolar, or mild schizoid tendencies or whatever. Which, I am mainly ok with - if some one is doing the work on themselves, I believe in second chances etc. But apparently this guy's ex-wife was Borderline too, so obvs he was terrified/pre-no-contact and not going to go ANYWHERE NEAR another one of those.. no matter the particular flavor. Oh, the wisdom of hindsight! Now I know why. But she used it all as a sympathy play - and can talk about psychological and even spiritual matters all day, but some how - none of it applies to her or her life, or her responses, or abuse etc. The no internal locus of authority is really big with her - she will insist on going to people in professions which she studied (has 2 master's degrees) who have less knowledge than her, and go with what they say - even if she knows it to not be accurate, or best current information and theory. Really, really mind blowing. Also, she lied and forged all her supervised hours, which I didn't think much of at the time - she had just graduated, so I thought it was cool she was starting her own practice. Now, I understand a lot more - and can guess and fill in the blanks of those things I don't have direct knowledge of. She goes into an absolute rage when called on any of her shit, ever. Nothing a PD hates more than the incontrovertible truth!
Thanks for your honesty. My two past friends are psychologists and one is a manipulator and narcissist and the other is a case for a psychatrist. I've left both friendships and it was hard. They're so egoistic- it's crazy that they go into psychology sessions and try to heal others.😅
@@jchula My GF and I hired a shrink for online couple's counseling a few years ago. Told the guy that I won't be having the covid vaccines, because I felt they were not at all what we were being told that they were for and apparently he strongly disagreed with me on that. So, he said I have a "need to be right" (which I do not at all have). About a year and a half later I found the same guy posting videos of himself complaining about being "duped by big pharma" regarding the efficacy of the vaccines. lol Interesting how a Narcy will try to project their own issues onto others like that.
Hi Richard I’m Looking Forward To This Video I’m Severely Trauma Bonded I Was Recently Discarded Cruelly I’m Being Treated As If I Never Existed. I’m Struggling To Disconnect Narcissistic Abuse Is Brutal
Demi, you’re words resonate strongly with me. I was there exactly where you are. And yes it is brutal. Like they’ve took your very spirit away. Making you feel as weak as a kitten. Hang in there. Your spirit is still there and you will grow stronger. One day you will see it was them who never existed. You don’t need anything from them-certainly not their validation. One day you will see them for the pathetic useless parasite they are , and you will regain your spirit and your strength. In fact you will be stronger. You are not alone. Good luck Demi x
Sending you lots of love & healing energy. This happened to me, it’s been a lifetime of work , since my childhood was riddled with so many different types of abuse. Stay strong, in the most gentle way.
Thank you for your videos, going through a ridiculous divorce with my exhusband… these videos are helping me make sense of everything that happened to me…. And I don’t feel crazy anymore!! Which is allowing me to heal 🙏🏼🙏🏼
I've learnt to forgive them. I don't accept what certain ppl from my past have done. But I accepted the problems and now I'm learning to move forward and heal ✨️
I've not - tried many times, but we share a child now and she has continued to try to do maximum damage to my life and relationships (with a lot of success, unfortunately) plus just her incessant idiocy and contempt always lurking at the edge, plus trying to make sure my daughter is safe from the abuse which is very subtle with her, much of the time - verbal and emotional.
To start a new life, I had to wait 4 years. Finally I can move from a toxic town 🤘 I need to be part of the community. I feel stronger and ready. Thank you 🙏❤
💛 consistent content that truly makes sense and really changes paradigm of overcoming such abusive episodes in life. no more being stuck in victimhood.
I stopped watching the vids as wanted to move my mind away from narcassism. Then these popped up so watched again it's amazing how when you start healing and watch them again compared to when you watch in the mist of hell. The seeds were planted though and I can't thank you enough for being part of my journey Richard. Thank you and once I said why don't you move away from narcassism I was wrong to say that as now I realise how much your videos have helped my brain to eventually click and stay there. Keep telling us off too... test our egos and get them in check!! Again thank you xx
I’ve been following you for a couple of years. I really like the way you’re setting up these new YT videos. Very organized. With the order and topic covered by minutes in the info section, it really helps to follow and go back to the section i need to recap. Thanks for all you do.
"Things can be true without being real" that pretty much sums it up. Thank you, Richard. You have helped change my life for the better over the last few months 😊
This is what I need. I’m stuck bc my mom is covert narcissist and so is my mother in law. I can get away from/create distance from my mom, but my husband doesn’t see or understand his mom (who was adoptive at 13 to him). So I don’t think he actually knows her. She’s been incredibly abusive to me and hurt me so badly, except I can’t move on. My husband and I have 3 kids. Thank you for your video.
I love this guy! I’ve learnt so much in 3 wks about the narcissist I’ve been living with, than I’ve ever learnt in years of therapy! Totally amazing teacher!
Thanks, Richard. Neuroplasticity. Yin state. Done with the need to be right. Grateful for all your teachings. I hope you’re well. Have a peaceful weekend.
Great work with so much clarity! And i would like to add the healing of the nervous system as part of our body-mind- connection- we need this rewireing of our " feeling - part"
@@RICHARDGRANNON have you looked much at the vagus nerve connection, and other systems - re-regulating and recalibrating them? You might do a great interview set with some people if not personally. I love your focus on the psychic and philosophical side of things.. have just had a bit of luck looking in to the physical nervous systems and how to start repairs there (and gut/biota - this gets out of whack and can be really hard to put back!! Anxiety gets created and recreated endlessly once we are in the loops...)
Just as I tried to heal from the abuse and reconnect with people, the pandemic hit and I was forced into isolation time after time even though it was probably the worst thing for me to sit alone with the trauma. Medical care was also not available for everybody. If you didn't vaccinate yourself you couldn't go to the doctor. Now it's nearly impossible to get an appointment with a therapist (if you don't have a lot of money) because everybody has mental issues after the pandemic. Therapists are full booked basically. It has been a struggle from the pits of hell. I'm in Europe.
I just saw this and thought I would share what I did when I found myself in need of professional help I couldn't trust or begin to afford. I just got a job at a mental hospital as a mental health specialist and studied anything I could to learn what I was going through and how to not let it get me. Just a thought. I put the energy into helping people and it helped me also.
Richard, I find your work very well informed and of all the "experts" who claim to be experts in these topics, (of which I am not) at least with your contents, it comes across as being genuinely informed safety driven and helpful, instead of from a precarious place of being about payback and revenge on the narcissist teachings. Thankyou Richard.
Absolutely. I have recently realised I have become a mirror of my OH. I don't like what I have become but I find it necessary for survival. How sad is that 🥺
Its sad for sure. My mum became mean and so did I. Im lucky bcoz i got a chance to turn it around. 2 yrs ago i got on my knees and asked my children to forgive me. They did, the damage was done tho, so i work hard at accountability and creating a loving home. My mother was normal, then she turned. I was normal, then i turned. But i turned back bych and we're breaking generational chains out here! ✨✨✨
He showed he don’t care I’m showing I don’t care anymore & it’s making him sick but still have his poker face on..But he’s soo mad that I’m not bothered and ignoring him
I have been watching your videos since I discovered my 18 year marriage was toxic and that I wasn't crazy. Thank you so much for all these amazing videos! Has helped me so much have the strength and knowledge to walk away. Watching your videos have been a daily routine during my healing process. ❤❤❤
Just came across this which showed up in my feed at precisely the right time All I am going to say is ‘thank you’ Am done w rehashing the story, reliving it I want to get past it, want to stop trying to make sense of it, fix it (him), I want to stop constantly thinking that love conquers all (because in this case it doesn’t - thanks to all the new age self-help gurus who inadvertently made me feel like a failure because I just couldn’t make this one work… :) ) etc I want to heal and get my life back Thank you
Richard, you have such a gift! Your lectures have really helped me feel clarification and validation which has been enormously healing. May you be blessed abundantly for your hard work. To "detach" and to "individuate", as you have said, is to feel freedom and bliss. Godspeed! 🐬🌊
No it's not a sin, especially having the capability to see beyond how rotten that person you really loved was. That is what makes us better then they are. We have the capability to see the good in people, especially if they are rotten as hell. That is what separates us from them.
Kristen that resonates with me. I always looked for the good in people, and focusing on that too much was one of the reasons I remained in abusive and narcissistic relationships. I know now it is important to see everything and not keep just shining a spotlight on their goos traits. Especially when they are a means to ensnare you.
If you think about narcisstic abuse is an opportunity to learn how to stop being codependent, how to start healing your own childhood traumas, how to focus on yourself and what you like and what you want to do in life, instead of ruminating and spending time thinking about person who doesn’t deserve it, you already have won the battle
Thanks for your insight and dedication, Richard. I’ve been a fan for about 1.5 years now. Ever since exiting a toxic marriage. You e inspired me to keep going and examine the role I played in the train wreck. I have learned so much for you. I believe that I walked past you today. Or, it was your doppelgänger! We’re you by chance at a government building in Dubai today? 😊😊. It would have been amazing to have said hello. But ‘you’ seemed in a hurry and I had a car waiting. If this was indeed you, we passed on the stairs. I’m an occupational psychologist who studied in London. I’m expanding my consultancy and have just launched in Dubai.
Thank you, Richard. I’m on #4, and moving on! Your emotional literacy course set me on my course toward healing. Your outline of the steps of healing is profound. They work well! Blessings!
Hey there beautiful person. I just wanted to say a big "Thank you" for all the encouragement you provide me to keep going with my life after my last toxic relationship, even though we don't know each other. Was the first bad experience until now but...guess what... I still believe in people. I think that I healed my self, my good childhood maybe protected me by not loosing the control of me. Anyway, your work is amazing. I don't think I will continue watch this kind of videos any more and I truly hope not need them for the future 😅. Resilience, flexibility and positive thought to everyone. We live only once!
Healing / grieving from a narcissist that took his life & last thing he texted me was that I wanted him to die & a bunch of ugly things. 😢. Thank u for this video 💪🏼🙏
Sméagol/Gollum - Covert to Overt. Greed turned her and when she got her hands on the Precious (the One Farm), the selfishness morphed into betrayal and viciousness. The rest of your steps I had done on my own but “othering” is a new idea which, when practiced, does produce fairer results. It’s been nearly two years (+27 married) and labelling her as Sméagol/Gollum has enabled a distance from the personal hurt and even assists with forgiveness - the Sméagol I thought I knew was corrupted and “even Gollum may yet have a part to play” rings true. She led me through the gates of hell to synthesise a curious alchemy within which, “but for [her]…would have been in vain”. Thank you for the perspective
06:43 Being able to accommodate the fact that that kind of evil exists in the world. Yes, you nail it again. It is a so mean, absurd and cheap kind of evil that it is difficult to believe it is true. That's why I unconsciously chose all my life to close my eyes and think that I'm the crazy one, because well, I loved them! I didn't want to believe the truth. I still have a hard time, but I think I am in the way of healing. Thank you so much Richard you are a lifesaver.
It's a brilliant video. Every second communicates strong bits of truth. Thanks very much for sharing this. Wish I knew this last year... but through experience I got to learn what you're talking about.
I need watch this for my own peace of mind Im glad this exists, it compliments work I do with God and my Dr so thanks Richard well done Dont forget those ones who care about us. They are true friends
Six months and it's done? Wow! I'm going to therapies with pauses 18 years, last 5 months on EMDR and I feel like we are on the begining. I just woke up after life long night mare 🎉 I'm from narcisstic family (i realised just 2 years ago) and there were except psycho terror with alcoholism also sexual abuse (suppressed memory)... But I don't see the end of it, even if I started going to a gym, learn English, drawing again, knitting, working more, almost quit drinking and smoking, working with my shadows, etc. But i feel helpless sometimes because of everyday pain in body and i don't know if i'm doing one step forward and how many backwards 🤦 I think worst thing of it is that i'm lonely, even my friendships was mostly dissaster, because i was choosing people to my life with voices of my parents and i was trained to be a good girl. But i was not 😅 So the thing is that i would like finally to live MY LIFE really not just out there, but feel myself inside, in my heart and feel that i am good and alive mother. What else i can do?
They mess up your minds and para sympathetic nervous system. Its so sad and hurtful. I would NEVET forgive my sick mother and sister for the torture... Never!!!!!
Best medicine for me was, got a really nice hotel room far away for the weekend and do whatever you’re lil broken heart desires cry, kick, scream , melt whatever it is you need to do and do it with a smile on your face. Just knowing you are nothing like them will make you feel better🤘🏽
He certainly has colonized my super ego and corrupted my morality. Unfortunately he is my landlord...an i have a neurological illness. I have to see his face as theres a housing crisis...scary and humbling.
My Thoughts for Day: recognizing the state of healing involves accepting others unconditionally. You can’t change people’s behaviors or control their motives. Let go the past and allow healing energies to rebuild our believes , because time is priceless. Open your mind soul and spirit . The universe will to support the ones who are willing . I truly appreciate you sharing. Warm Regards ,
Thank you so much for your advice on moving forward, I appreciate your information for I just left my Narcissit abuser I lived with for 26years of my life and finally living a happy life, free and thanks for the " forgive yourself part" it was touching to hear that❤ Thanks so much!
Thx for being concise and quick to point. I’m tired of 10 mins of prompt b4 getting to points when I’m anxious and quickly trying to learn key points and highlights in my PTSD panic. I will heal… So will those on this path of searching and healing… ❤
Thank you for saying that! ..me genuinely loving and trusting them was NOT wrong. 😢 I needed that confirmation from at least ONE other human saying it! 😭 My god …my hormones are all over today 😧☺️😂❤️
It takes a lot of strength to accept that something you’ve invested so much into, isn’t working. It’s a bit like frantically trying to resuscitate a patient who’s gone. At some point you have to accept it, stop the chest compressions, and call time of death.
Great metaphor-having literally resuscitated many in my profession, it resonates. My worries now more about the Zombie after effect - I finally call it then they being mortally “offended” choose to haunt and punish me to infinity and back … through possession of others if possible in order to continue wounding by proxy 😬
Amazing Analogy
Well said. Good analogy
Love this analogy. And it's the sunk cost fallacy. Sunk so much energy into it, can't admit that it's not worth it to leave
@@Jodeekowgirl So true. You're right, the longer it goes on, the deeper the investment. They know that leaving them will be the hardest thing we'll ever do, so they count on us never having the strength to do it.
I was born into a solidly narcissistic family system-then did not recognize these patterns in my other relationships. Late to the game but now I’m aware. It’s so hard not knowing what I had been missing until I was repeatedly entangled in similar relationships. Including painful loyalty to my family. My codependent traits attracted narcissistic people. Grieving the wasted years. 😢
Same here. Toxicity is normalized in a narcissistic family system. I didn’t know anything better. I made excuses for bad behavior.
Me too
Both my parents are narcissists. I feel your pain. Look at at this way my boy….WE FREEEEE💙
Same here, I am just finding the same things out and endured this all my life! Same repetitive cycle. I am now healing❤
Sadly your words are so so true, my darling!
Remember people: it might feel awful for the time being, but in the end you did yourself a favour by cutting out a toxic person, who only wanted the worst for you. At some point there's a choice to be made: either suffer more from all their projections and unhealed crap they fail to address or free yourself and get a chance at being happy again.
I needed to hear that
Right? It’s not about forgiveness and reconciliation.
It’s about moving in and letting go.
Cut the cord.
I choose the latter … thank you ❤
You think they love you but they're actually trying to kill you.
It's a terrible shock when you realise the truth.
Im there now
It’s true and terrifying
I was destroyed, I lost everything but now I have peace, and peace is everything🙌🏽
YES!!!
I too lost everything. Trying to rebuild my life, but at 56, and in this economy, I’m having a very hard time. The divorce is in the end stages and I’m hoping when it’s finalized, I will feel some weight has been lifted and concentrate totally on getting back on my feet again.
Breathwork, massage, self care, saunas, loving your time alone.. and finding things that you love to do is key ❤️ all love x
Yes 🙌
Exactly! Exploited, imprisoned (isolated, socially, financially) and tortured (emotionally, mentally) every moment of every day. Physical dangers a constant. The unseen scars never go away, I choose to be thankful to God I am physically free. Healing is a long journey.
I cried because of what you said at the beginning. What hurts the most, I think, is the fact that I loved someone who never loved me in return. That I spent countless nights over the years we were together pouring my heart out to him for him to just blame me or give me the silent treatment. He tortured my pets, cheated, broke me, treated me like his maid, whistled at me like a dog, laughed about training me right to his friends, and sexually abused me for years in front of our child. He put down everything I liked. He treated me like dirt, and I loved him.
I left him though, I had the courage, I felt it in my heart, and I told myself that this was the last time I would ever let him hurt me again. I didn't let him break what little self-worth I had left. I was so scared that he was right when he would tell me no one would ever put up with me like he did. For so long I felt like I deserved everything he did to me. But I freaking did it. And it's crazy how free and hopeful I feel. I don't know who I am. I don't know anything about myself. I'm worried that he was right, that I did deserve it, and that no one would ever love me.
But I could love myself. My son loves me, my family loves me, so why can't I love me?
P.s. I LOVE the LOTR! He actually laughed at me for liking it and would bully me for watching the movies. I was reading The Hobbit and he told me "Why can't you just like something normal?". That mf would rip books out of my hands just to look at them and tell me I wasn't normal. He hated it when I read, and I stopped reading for a few years because of it. I'm reading books again though and IT FEELS AMAZING.
Hey, just thought i'd let you know, you are more normal than the narc will ever hope to be. Sending you warm wishes in your recovery. Dont give up.
LOTR is classic literature! It's usually required reading as well.
Being well read is a sign of intelligence, so I would take it as he's an idiot.😅
I accused my NPD of only being capable of liking "My little pony."🐎
I know how you feel.
It's worse when you're told by the narcissist/psycho that you never loved (when you actually did)
First paragraph of what you said hit home.
It is heartbreaking when the realisation sets in that all the vulnerabilities and your deepest fears that you shared with a person end up being used against you further down the line
I have been through that as well / the betrayal that one feels is hard to put into words.
But I applaud you for coming out on the other end
Narcissistic relationships have the capacity to ruin us; if you grew up w a narcissistic parent as I did, it ends up clouding any and all further relationships / and if we then encounter a narcissist in our adult life, we attract them (or they us) like a moth to a flame.
But we all have the capacity and ability to come out on the other end and it seems that you did just that.
My EX took my Spiritual books from my bedside and threw them away, because according to him, my love for Jesus prevented me from accepting his porn addiction. I was forced to watch porn with him and had to visit strip clubs with him and had to listen to him telling the table dancers (young women) how beautiful they were, while I was never told that I was beautiful.
You "forgive" them in your heart. They are long gone. It is YOU deciding their abuse can't hurt you anymore. You forgive yourself for having loved them. You pat yourself on the back for having tried. Damned hard, but it works. And geting out in Nature doesn't hurt, either 🙂. Thanks Richard.
This has nothing to do with the perpetrator whatsoever this is all about you and you processing your wounded feelings, because if you make it any more than this, you've already crossed the line into vengeance, saying things like they don't deserve to be forgiven and so on and so forth. Ultimately when you think about it, the physical perpetrator has nothing to do with your inner life experience. Because in reality if somebody offended you, it really is you who is responding to the offense, that makes the difference of weather that action is considered an offense, and that is determined by your own conscience and heart volition and mind , within your soul.
We are supposed to have a parent child relationship with our feelings, our consciousness, is the parent and our feelings are the child.
we have a parent child relationship to our feelings emotions and issues, so that we must learn how to acknowledge and accept our wounded feelings , emotions, and issues.
As a loving parent acknowledges and accepts their own wounded child. And as we do, our wounded feelings emotions and issues, become transformed into healing, as we place upon them, acknowledgement and acceptance and loving-kindness necessary, for feelings emotions and issues to transform.
For example: if your physical child, was wounded and hurting , and you placed upon him or her, acknowledgement and acceptance with loving kindness and gave him or her space To be. How do you think your child would respond to you? Well in my assessment your child would give you back more acceptance and loving-kindness more than what you, could well imagine!
This process is much like a caterpillar who represents our woundedness transforming into a butterfly representing our healing!
Now our wounded feelings , emotions and issues, that we all tend to suppress because they are inconvenient and uncomfortable and thus those feelings emotions and issues remain with us perverting our past, and plaguing our present and our future.
Because we don't know that we need to allow these negative and wounded feelings and emotions etc. To be processed by being acknowledged and accepted. Thus completely restoring from "glory to glory", the psychological heart of the NARC VICTIM.
And if you practice this method, you would find a sense of personal acceptance, that you have never known in your life, As you place value acknowledgement and acceptance primarily to your wounded feelings and emotions etc. Then your feelings pay you back, with the very same feeling of acknowledgement and acceptance that you get to carry along with you all day long, along with the value and loving kindness, that you also place upon them. It is the best investment in yourself you can ever make. For as you learn how to make your feelings emotions your top priority so will your feelings and emotion make you their top priority!
For as you value and accept yourself you value and accept others!
SIDENOTE: The pathological narcissist does not have the capability, (unless he or she hits rock bottom) for change. But those with only narcissistic traits, can and will if given the opportunity and taken out of their narcissistic influenced environment can, revert back to their status quo, empathetic personality type, Which was true in my own case, I am proof that this method works and is life-changing!
Please feel free to comment!
Has taking walks helped you heal at all? I'm thinking of trying it.
Absolutely 🙏🏽💯🙏🏽💯
@@sarahthompson7037 forest walks and barefoot when you can really bump up the benefits! exchanging electrons
Take up a new hobby or pastime as well. Have something new that they had NOTHING to do with, no reminders or room for rumination! I'm learning paragliding.
Narcissists have demonic energies and they are broken people who just want the worst for you. My own mother and sister both are narcissists and finally after years of abuse, I left my home as I didn’t have any other option. Still struggling to heal myself..
You're not alone keep fighting!
My ex husband is a current church goer, and we even met in Christian college, but he used the term “sin nature” to normalize his abuse towards me. For instance “We’ll always have a sin nature so I can’t guarantee I’ll never yell at you again, even though you’ve told me it scares you.” He had the audacity to tell me he felt called to preach 😂
I had a reiki session done a few months ago and had a vision that my soon to be ex husband and my first husband were not human form. They looked like amoebas and were just evil entities brought into my life to cause me harm. It was wild.
_Forgiveness Is Giving Up All Hope of a Better Past_
Wow thank you!😢 this is beautiful
I really wish classes like this were taught in the last year of our teenagers secondary school year (16yrs) I think our teenagers having a psychology class like this could help prepare them for what qualities to avoid in a partner that they my choose in there lives! This is such a wonderful life lesson that I wish I’d of had all those years ago and then I might not of made the disastrous choices I’ve made in life!
and more. the 'red flags' of narcissism that they may best avoid these horrendously abusive predators.
i had no idea they existed so close to me.
I think this all the time.
For sure. Most subjects at school are useless
The Forgiveness - It's not for them. It's for you.
I feel like that’s like saying that Jesus died in the cross not for us, but for Himself.
He didn’t do it for himself. He cried tears of blood and almost couldn't do it. But he did it for us
Yes...forgive from far. It doesn't make their actions ok...but you forgive from a distance to heal
For some reason, I hate that phrase.
It's been 40 years and only just starting to work shit out . Best medicine I have had ❤
I find in my journey, forgiveness was never an issue because _healing_ resulted in "no need" to forgive (them). Forgiving oneself - you're right on - an entirely other ability. Beautiful words, man. You've moved me forward so quickly. Love the purple, btw!
Glad you gained value and thank you for watching 😎
I got rid of my ex, broke bond, but now I just feel so lonely. Next step is to find a group or community, and start a new relationship with myself
Same here!!😢
Healing is experiencing the opposite. I didn’t know anything about narcissism 5 years ago but I knew enough to leave a toxic environment that I could not heal while in that space. Experience the opposite- I rented a house and when I moved there I felt a peace flow over me for I was now removed from the place that was toxic. And that was only the environment I’m talking about. But, it’s where I first started on my way to healing.
I just fucken cried...I am now in therapy....a survivor....6mths @ $190pw....OMG....the cost of being "love bombed"
Ur right. Humility first. I admit I lost. I failed. Then give it up and walk away to find peace, leaving guilt behind, forgiveness of self.
Learning to love and respect yourself. You don't hold on to people like this. It's there job to respect you if they want to be in your life. It's not going to be easy for them because it's there way and they need to respect everyone. That only comes when they wake up, but remember they think they are clever at what they are doing. A loss may only help them see.
There comes a time when you have to say to the universe, "I surrender". It doesnr mean you are a quitter. It means you know when its time to walk away.
Humility is my word for the moment
I’m being hit over the head with it so I’m paying attention. Thank you Richard
Also, in surrender, holding up the white flag etc.,… I learned in my current study of good boundaries and goodbyes, that I can reframe it from I failed to I accept the reality that this relationship is unsustainable.😢 I don’t want to go through this after near 25 years but I must.
I did all I could
I have to let go.
My psychologist says you need to “pardon” people instead of forgive them. You aren’t going to forgive them cuz they don’t deserve it, but you can give them pardon so you can let it go and move on.
GREAT INSIGHT
What is the difference between pardoning and forgiving?
oooooh i like that ! it has undertones of authority too which is great for the victim
I like the phrase "pardon" much better.
Thanks.
This has nothing to do with the perpetrator whatsoever this is all about you and you processing your wounded feelings, because if you make it any more than this, you've already crossed the line into vengeance, saying things like they don't deserve to be forgiven and so on and so forth. Ultimately when you think about it, the physical perpetrator has nothing to do with your inner life experience. Because in reality if somebody offended you, it really is you who is responding to the offense, that makes the difference of weather that action is considered an offense, and that is determined by your own conscience and heart volition and mind , within your soul.
We are supposed to have a parent child relationship with our feelings, our consciousness, is the parent and our feelings are the child.
we have a parent child relationship to our feelings emotions and issues, so that we must learn how to acknowledge and accept our wounded feelings , emotions, and issues.
As a loving parent acknowledges and accepts their own wounded child. And as we do, our wounded feelings emotions and issues, become transformed into healing, as we place upon them, acknowledgement and acceptance and loving-kindness necessary, for feelings emotions and issues to transform.
For example: if your physical child, was wounded and hurting , and you placed upon him or her, acknowledgement and acceptance with loving kindness and gave him or her space To be. How do you think your child would respond to you? Well in my assessment your child would give you back more acceptance and loving-kindness more than what you, could well imagine!
This process is much like a caterpillar who represents our woundedness transforming into a butterfly representing our healing!
Now our wounded feelings , emotions and issues, that we all tend to suppress because they are inconvenient and uncomfortable and thus those feelings emotions and issues remain with us perverting our past, and plaguing our present and our future.
Because we don't know that we need to allow these negative and wounded feelings and emotions etc. To be processed by being acknowledged and accepted. Thus completely restoring from "glory to glory", the psychological heart of the NARC VICTIM.
And if you practice this method, you would find a sense of personal acceptance, that you have never known in your life, As you place value acknowledgement and acceptance primarily to your wounded feelings and emotions etc. Then your feelings pay you back, with the very same feeling of acknowledgement and acceptance that you get to carry along with you all day long, along with the value and loving kindness, that you also place upon them. It is the best investment in yourself you can ever make. For as you learn how to make your feelings emotions your top priority so will your feelings and emotion make you their top priority!
For as you value and accept yourself you value and accept others!
SIDENOTE: The pathological narcissist does not have the capability, (unless he or she hits rock bottom) for change. But those with only narcissistic traits, can and will if given the opportunity and taken out of their narcissistic influenced environment can, revert back to their status quo, empathetic personality type, Which was true in my own case, I am proof that this method works and is life-changing!
Please feel free to comment!
After the smear campaign it's very hard not to hide.
The smearing is very , very damaging.
It is but I have strong church support. God 1st.
I'm likely about to be the subject of a smear campaign too. I've already had multiple ones ran against me in the past by a mother and a wife. It hurts, but I have clear conscience knowing I only tried to do good things. I don't like to explain too much bc my information is connected to their computer with some "interesting" software. Can't believe I'm going thru this again.. wanting to give up.
Its so very hard to move on. I don't cry anymore. Such lies all the time.
This man made me a very strong individual a few years back. I appreciate your educational advice. You're a good dude.
This is so true and helpful to people. Forgiveness ? We forgive ourselves. We do not need to justify our being ,our intentions, our experiences.
Bingo 🎉
Forgive myself - that's something I am still struggling with. It was me who let this happen. The signs were there from the start. I tolerated this behavior and remained complacent. It wasn't even as much love as it was codependency. Ugh!!!
I feel exactly the same. Having a super hard time forgiving myself. I saw the red flags but ignored them and married him. I should have known better from my past experiences and now my life is in ruins.
Same her😢 but hey now we are free and learned
Richard my ex partner (narcissist) is a psychotherapist! Im almost 2 years out of the relationship and still working so hard to heal. This is no easy road 🤯😖
Still have work to do but thank you! Your talks have been invaluable in helping me come through this horrible tangle of destruction. 🙌🙏
MINE TOO. So fkn disturbing.. she can work with people all day (although, in retrospect, I really doubt much of what she told me - probably just using it as narcissistic supply endlessly yuk)! When we were dating, having met on a site called "Spiritual Singles" (irony from hell - a Cluster B is literally the OPPOSITE of anything related to spirituality and growth! I mean the beginning of all spiritual work is to admit where you are, who you are, how you got there, who you hurt etc. e.g. Self-assessment and Making Amends) and she even used it as a tool to get my defenses down/rescuer mode going (not that I have much of one, eg non-codependent but I am a male and feel the protector role with my family and people) about how this other guy she met ran for the hills when she told him she was in therapy for BPD - I immediately thought (as intended) "what a jerk!" How could you judge some one when you don't even know them etc. - at that point I still thought it was something like bipolar, or mild schizoid tendencies or whatever. Which, I am mainly ok with - if some one is doing the work on themselves, I believe in second chances etc. But apparently this guy's ex-wife was Borderline too, so obvs he was terrified/pre-no-contact and not going to go ANYWHERE NEAR another one of those.. no matter the particular flavor. Oh, the wisdom of hindsight! Now I know why. But she used it all as a sympathy play - and can talk about psychological and even spiritual matters all day, but some how - none of it applies to her or her life, or her responses, or abuse etc. The no internal locus of authority is really big with her - she will insist on going to people in professions which she studied (has 2 master's degrees) who have less knowledge than her, and go with what they say - even if she knows it to not be accurate, or best current information and theory. Really, really mind blowing.
Also, she lied and forged all her supervised hours, which I didn't think much of at the time - she had just graduated, so I thought it was cool she was starting her own practice. Now, I understand a lot more - and can guess and fill in the blanks of those things I don't have direct knowledge of. She goes into an absolute rage when called on any of her shit, ever. Nothing a PD hates more than the incontrovertible truth!
He's a Psycho therapist, aye? haha
Thanks for your honesty. My two past friends are psychologists and one is a manipulator and narcissist and the other is a case for a psychatrist. I've left both friendships and it was hard. They're so egoistic- it's crazy that they go into psychology sessions and try to heal others.😅
@@jchula My GF and I hired a shrink for online couple's counseling a few years ago. Told the guy that I won't be having the covid vaccines, because I felt they were not at all what we were being told that they were for and apparently he strongly disagreed with me on that.
So, he said I have a "need to be right" (which I do not at all have).
About a year and a half later I found the same guy posting videos of himself complaining about being "duped by big pharma" regarding the efficacy of the vaccines. lol
Interesting how a Narcy will try to project their own issues onto others like that.
This is why I will never trust another therapist. Experiencing narcissistic abuse from two PhD therapists did me in for life.
Hi Richard I’m Looking Forward To This
Video I’m Severely Trauma Bonded I Was Recently Discarded Cruelly
I’m Being Treated As If I Never Existed.
I’m Struggling To Disconnect Narcissistic Abuse Is Brutal
💓💓💓
Thinking of you 🌺🌺🌺
Demi, you’re words resonate strongly with me. I was there exactly where you are. And yes it is brutal. Like they’ve took your very spirit away. Making you feel as weak as a kitten. Hang in there. Your spirit is still there and you will grow stronger. One day you will see it was them who never existed. You don’t need anything from them-certainly not their validation. One day you will see them for the pathetic useless parasite they are , and you will regain your spirit and your strength. In fact you will be stronger. You are not alone. Good luck Demi x
Meditate....
You will let go. Trust and believe in yourself.
Sending you lots of love & healing energy. This happened to me, it’s been a lifetime of work , since my childhood was riddled with so many different types of abuse. Stay strong, in the most gentle way.
Thank you for your videos, going through a ridiculous divorce with my exhusband… these videos are helping me make sense of everything that happened to me…. And I don’t feel crazy anymore!! Which is allowing me to heal 🙏🏼🙏🏼
When you forgive you Heal. If you don't Forgive them you won't heal within
Coming through to the other side of it feels like a different world. Thanks for all your help
I've learnt to forgive them. I don't accept what certain ppl from my past have done. But I accepted the problems and now I'm learning to move forward and heal ✨️
Good
I've not - tried many times, but we share a child now and she has continued to try to do maximum damage to my life and relationships (with a lot of success, unfortunately) plus just her incessant idiocy and contempt always lurking at the edge, plus trying to make sure my daughter is safe from the abuse which is very subtle with her, much of the time - verbal and emotional.
The harder it is we work on a thing, the more difficult it becomes to let go of it.
To start a new life, I had to wait 4 years. Finally I can move from a toxic town 🤘
I need to be part of the community. I feel stronger and ready. Thank you 🙏❤
The whole damn town? What did you sleep around with the whole town or something lol. It might not be the town thats toxic my dear 🤔
@@beatdown3361 yikes.
Karen. I thought the same thing. Yikes!!!
I know exactly what you mean. 🎯 🥰
@@beatdown3361Stop projecting, ya dirty hoo-or 😂🤡
💛 consistent content that truly makes sense and really changes paradigm of overcoming such abusive episodes in life. no more being stuck in victimhood.
Good like your logo😉
This made me cry, but it helped me help. I especially like how you said it was not wrong to love another human being. Thank you so much.
I stopped watching the vids as wanted to move my mind away from narcassism. Then these popped up so watched again it's amazing how when you start healing and watch them again compared to when you watch in the mist of hell. The seeds were planted though and I can't thank you enough for being part of my journey Richard. Thank you and once I said why don't you move away from narcassism I was wrong to say that as now I realise how much your videos have helped my brain to eventually click and stay there. Keep telling us off too... test our egos and get them in check!! Again thank you xx
The community part is like the best the thing. It’s really helping with the CPTSD bodily issues I’m having.
I forgive myself for thinking I could fix him.
Almost lost myself for refusing to accept that I could not.
Pride is a helluva drug.
After pride comes the fall
I’ve been following you for a couple of years. I really like the way you’re setting up these new YT videos. Very organized. With the order and topic covered by minutes in the info section, it really helps to follow and go back to the section i need to recap. Thanks for all you do.
it's a definite blessing - he's a life saver for REAL!
Let's forgive ourselves. And also, let's remember that narcissists are everywhere, so that we would not get traumabonded by an nother narcissist.
FORGIVENESS =
ACKNOWLEDGEMENT & ACCEPTANCE
I also put up with it for seven years thinking he would grow up eventually. He didn’t. Staying for so long, was my bad. I was wrong for that as well.
"Things can be true without being real" that pretty much sums it up. Thank you, Richard. You have helped change my life for the better over the last few months 😊
This is what I need. I’m stuck bc my mom is covert narcissist and so is my mother in law. I can get away from/create distance from my mom, but my husband doesn’t see or understand his mom (who was adoptive at 13 to him). So I don’t think he actually knows her. She’s been incredibly abusive to me and hurt me so badly, except I can’t move on. My husband and I have 3 kids. Thank you for your video.
I love this guy! I’ve learnt so much in 3 wks about the narcissist I’ve been living with, than I’ve ever learnt in years of therapy! Totally amazing teacher!
Forgive who? 👉YOU!
Brilliant presentation and the intentional use of words. Thank you! 🙌🔥💪💜
Thanks, Richard. Neuroplasticity. Yin state. Done with the need to be right. Grateful for all your teachings. I hope you’re well. Have a peaceful weekend.
Great work with so much clarity! And i would like to add the healing of the nervous system as part of our body-mind- connection- we need this rewireing of our " feeling - part"
Glad you enjoyed it and gained value. Thank you for watching !
@@RICHARDGRANNON have you looked much at the vagus nerve connection, and other systems - re-regulating and recalibrating them? You might do a great interview set with some people if not personally. I love your focus on the psychic and philosophical side of things.. have just had a bit of luck looking in to the physical nervous systems and how to start repairs there (and gut/biota - this gets out of whack and can be really hard to put back!! Anxiety gets created and recreated endlessly once we are in the loops...)
Humility is key. Catholism ranks this as the prime virtue and pride as the core deadly sin.
Thank you for your work Richard. I have to admit my failure and return to zero and rebuild myself again.
They will take everything. Will break you and hopefully you have joy again.
Just as I tried to heal from the abuse and reconnect with people, the pandemic hit and I was forced into isolation time after time even though it was probably the worst thing for me to sit alone with the trauma. Medical care was also not available for everybody. If you didn't vaccinate yourself you couldn't go to the doctor. Now it's nearly impossible to get an appointment with a therapist (if you don't have a lot of money) because everybody has mental issues after the pandemic. Therapists are full booked basically. It has been a struggle from the pits of hell. I'm in Europe.
I just saw this and thought I would share what I did when I found myself in need of professional help I couldn't trust or begin to afford. I just got a job at a mental hospital as a mental health specialist and studied anything I could to learn what I was going through and how to not let it get me. Just a thought. I put the energy into helping people and it helped me also.
Richard, I find your work very well informed and of all the "experts" who claim to be experts in these topics, (of which I am not) at least with your contents, it comes across as being genuinely informed safety driven and helpful, instead of from a precarious place of being about payback and revenge on the narcissist teachings.
Thankyou Richard.
Absolutely. I have recently realised I have become a mirror of my OH. I don't like what I have become but I find it necessary for survival. How sad is that 🥺
Its sad for sure. My mum became mean and so did I. Im lucky bcoz i got a chance to turn it around. 2 yrs ago i got on my knees and asked my children to forgive me. They did, the damage was done tho, so i work hard at accountability and creating a loving home. My mother was normal, then she turned. I was normal, then i turned. But i turned back bych and we're breaking generational chains out here! ✨✨✨
@@lisas1625 nice to hear
I’m breaking generational curses as well.
Best to us
He showed he don’t care I’m showing I don’t care anymore & it’s making him sick but still have his poker face on..But he’s soo mad that I’m not bothered and ignoring him
I have been watching your videos since I discovered my 18 year marriage was toxic and that I wasn't crazy.
Thank you so much for all these amazing videos! Has helped me so much have the strength and knowledge to walk away.
Watching your videos have been a daily routine during my healing process.
❤❤❤
Just came across this which showed up in my feed at precisely the right time
All I am going to say is ‘thank you’
Am done w rehashing the story, reliving it
I want to get past it, want to stop trying to make sense of it, fix it (him), I want to stop constantly thinking that love conquers all (because in this case it doesn’t - thanks to all the new age self-help gurus who inadvertently made me feel like a failure because I just couldn’t make this one work… :) ) etc
I want to heal and get my life back
Thank you
Thank you for your content! I am going through a really dark place right now and these things help me a lot
Be strong. So am I. It's helping but it's hard
Richard, you have such a gift! Your lectures have really helped me feel clarification and validation which has been enormously healing. May you be blessed abundantly for your hard work. To "detach" and to "individuate", as you have said, is to feel freedom and bliss. Godspeed! 🐬🌊
No it's not a sin, especially having the capability to see beyond how rotten that person you really loved was. That is what makes us better then they are. We have the capability to see the good in people, especially if they are rotten as hell. That is what separates us from them.
Kristen that resonates with me. I always looked for the good in people, and focusing on that too much was one of the reasons I remained in abusive and narcissistic relationships. I know now it is important to see everything and not keep just shining a spotlight on their goos traits. Especially when they are a means to ensnare you.
If you think about narcisstic abuse is an opportunity to learn how to stop being codependent, how to start healing your own childhood traumas, how to focus on yourself and what you like and what you want to do in life, instead of ruminating and spending time thinking about person who doesn’t deserve it, you already have won the battle
YES!!!!
Thanks for your insight and dedication, Richard. I’ve been a fan for about 1.5 years now. Ever since exiting a toxic marriage. You e inspired me to keep going and examine the role I played in the train wreck. I have learned so much for you.
I believe that I walked past you today. Or, it was your doppelgänger! We’re you by chance at a government building in Dubai today? 😊😊. It would have been amazing to have said hello. But ‘you’ seemed in a hurry and I had a car waiting. If this was indeed you, we passed on the stairs. I’m an occupational psychologist who studied in London. I’m expanding my consultancy and have just launched in Dubai.
Thank you, Richard.
I’m on #4, and moving on!
Your emotional literacy course set me on my course toward healing.
Your outline of the steps of healing is profound. They work well!
Blessings!
Pause at forgiveness.
Your absolutely right.
Forgiveness is Not a conscious act. It's the result of our actions. Forgiveness comes after letting go.
God Bless You, Richard
u saved my life brother thank u
Hey there beautiful person. I just wanted to say a big "Thank you" for all the encouragement you provide me to keep going with my life after my last toxic relationship, even though we don't know each other. Was the first bad experience until now but...guess what... I still believe in people. I think that I healed my self, my good childhood maybe protected me by not loosing the control of me. Anyway, your work is amazing. I don't think I will continue watch this kind of videos any more and I truly hope not need them for the future 😅. Resilience, flexibility and positive thought to everyone. We live only once!
Healing / grieving from a narcissist that took his life & last thing he texted me was that I wanted him to die & a bunch of ugly things. 😢. Thank u for this video 💪🏼🙏
Sméagol/Gollum - Covert to Overt.
Greed turned her and when she got her hands on the Precious (the One Farm), the selfishness morphed into betrayal and viciousness. The rest of your steps I had done on my own but “othering” is a new idea which, when practiced, does produce fairer results.
It’s been nearly two years (+27 married) and labelling her as Sméagol/Gollum has enabled a distance from the personal hurt and even assists with forgiveness - the Sméagol I thought I knew was corrupted and “even Gollum may yet have a part to play” rings true. She led me through the gates of hell to synthesise a curious alchemy within which, “but for [her]…would have been in vain”.
Thank you for the perspective
06:43 Being able to accommodate the fact that that kind of evil exists in the world.
Yes, you nail it again. It is a so mean, absurd and cheap kind of evil that it is difficult to believe it is true. That's why I unconsciously chose all my life to close my eyes and think that I'm the crazy one, because well, I loved them! I didn't want to believe the truth. I still have a hard time, but I think I am in the way of healing. Thank you so much Richard you are a lifesaver.
It's a brilliant video. Every second communicates strong bits of truth. Thanks very much for sharing this. Wish I knew this last year... but through experience I got to learn what you're talking about.
He's on point - been dialing it in for 10 or so years I think!!
At 2:55 I was really shocked and I almost clicked to end the video. 😂 👍🏼
One of your best videos, Richard
I need watch this for my own peace of mind Im glad this exists, it compliments work I do with God and my Dr so thanks Richard well done
Dont forget those ones who care about us. They are true friends
Thank you, Richard, for your guidance to healing. You have so much compassion for those in pain. You make a difference to us survivors.
Six months and it's done? Wow!
I'm going to therapies with pauses 18 years, last 5 months on EMDR and I feel like we are on the begining. I just woke up after life long night mare 🎉
I'm from narcisstic family (i realised just 2 years ago) and there were except psycho terror with alcoholism also sexual abuse (suppressed memory)...
But I don't see the end of it, even if I started going to a gym, learn English, drawing again, knitting, working more, almost quit drinking and smoking, working with my shadows, etc.
But i feel helpless sometimes because of everyday pain in body and i don't know if i'm doing one step forward and how many backwards 🤦
I think worst thing of it is that i'm lonely, even my friendships was mostly dissaster, because i was choosing people to my life with voices of my parents and i was trained to be a good girl. But i was not 😅
So the thing is that i would like finally to live MY LIFE really not just out there, but feel myself inside, in my heart and feel that i am good and alive mother. What else i can do?
🎉🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤we the special big hearted one forgive and heal you first 🙏🏽💯🙏🏽💯💜💜💡
They mess up your minds and para sympathetic nervous system. Its so sad and hurtful. I would NEVET forgive my sick mother and sister for the torture... Never!!!!!
Amazing Richard you talk about neurplasticity, neurophysiology etc - beautiful and often left out.
Best medicine for me was, got a really nice hotel room far away for the weekend and do whatever you’re lil broken heart desires cry, kick, scream , melt whatever it is you need to do and do it with a smile on your face. Just knowing you are nothing like them will make you feel better🤘🏽
Thanks Richard
Very transparent what we have to do
And very hopeful for a bright future with this knowledge
Thank you so much for this video Richard. This one really hits home for me
He certainly has colonized my super ego and corrupted my morality. Unfortunately he is my landlord...an i have a neurological illness. I have to see his face as theres a housing crisis...scary and humbling.
Naming the 3rd element is so effective thank you!
Lol, the trauma pic remind me of myself. The normal childhood pictures of me with this face. I can't find the right words to explain.
You are the guy! Thank you so much for this video.
You're welcome!
Picture of Trauma is closest to Reality..
Masking (smile face)..I'm tired of 😁
My Thoughts for Day: recognizing the state of healing involves accepting others unconditionally. You can’t change people’s
behaviors or control their motives. Let go the past and allow healing energies to rebuild our believes , because time is priceless. Open your mind soul and spirit . The universe will to support the ones who are willing . I truly appreciate you sharing. Warm Regards ,
Excellent. The humility once gained will have me unstuck. Give up. Walk away. Ty
one of the most valuable videos have ever seen on narcissistic healing, Thank-you so much. The vids with Mark Vincente are great too, bless you x
Thank you so much for your advice on moving forward, I appreciate your information for I just left my Narcissit abuser I lived with for 26years of my life and finally living a happy life, free and thanks for the " forgive yourself part" it was touching to hear that❤ Thanks so much!
Agree you must forgive yourself through prayer 🙏 ministry….. and deliverance from the spirit behind…. the behaviours…. ❤
Correction: it helped me HEAL.
Your channel is the best thing that happened to me through my journey of post narcissistic (psychopathic) abuse recovery
Thank you endlessly ❤
Thx for being concise and quick to point. I’m tired of 10 mins of prompt b4 getting to points when I’m anxious and quickly trying to learn key points and highlights in my PTSD panic. I will heal… So will those on this path of searching and healing… ❤
He has such a compassionate way of talking about it all.
Thanks
Your presentations are very kind.
Thank you for saying that! ..me genuinely loving and trusting them was NOT wrong. 😢 I needed that confirmation from at least ONE other human saying it! 😭
My god …my hormones are all over today 😧☺️😂❤️
Been a long time since you made me cry Richard. Needed to hear this today❤ been angry again lately
Why am I horny when I’m angry??? Not WHEN, but after😳Tf?!? Just realized that 😳 omg I’m REALLY ill 🤒 😂😂 my masculine side is a perverted savage 🤪😂😂
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Heh heh 😏