Ugh I really relate to the person saying their parents saying things like forgetting and such is unacceptable- that happens to me constantly and the only answers I can ever give are "I don't know" or "I forgot" and my parents really mock me for it- or tell me that its an excuse or that I'm lying- and its crazy because while I have not been diagnosed I do know that I have it although I can't actually get a diagnosis- but one of my parents actually does have a diagnosis with Adhd so it baffles me that my parents see me struggling with this, knowing that I'm not lying when they suffer from the same thing- but if I ever bring up adhd I feel so bad because I dont have a diagnosis so I feel like I'm talking from my ass even tho its a very real part of my life- and because my parent will just tell me that since they have it and they don't forget things as much as I do that I'm faking it or trying to lie
Wait do your parents not know ADHD is genetic? I think it's a dominant trait too. Which means if one parent has it then it's super likely that the child will too. Honestly it much more rare NOT to have a child with ADHD when one of the parents dose.
Hiiya We suffer the same fate, our parents tell us very similar things, but we do know we're neurodivergent. We just wanted to say you're valid, you're seen, and you're loved. -The Spinning System
My dad never listens when it comes to me explaining whybI do certain things a certain way it drives me odd the goddamn wall and I know he had issues with mental illness (his dad was schizophrenic) and shit but you'd think that he'd get his shit together
Dude same it's horrible because we really do forget things and we really don't know, but then we have to make up a reasonable story to 'explain' what happened because we don't want to get yelled at or grounded, when it's already gonna happen
*Me, casually pausing the video every two seconds to be like "yeah, I do that too. This is exactly the reason why I think I have ADHD" and then being like "no, I just think I do because I want to be 'different.' I'm fine"* (Rinse and repeat until I start questioning who I really am)
same and its too scary to ask my parents to go get a diagnosis for anything that i think i have because what if im wrong? Or what if they judge me and make fun of me or something? what if they tell me im too young? maybe im faking it? Ive also questioned if im faking the pronouns i use lol
@@samtheperson9008 yeah and whenever i see a video talking about an adhd symptom i dont have im like "oh so i dont have it because i do not experience that symptom" but then there will be 10 other videos i relate to. Also i have to say i love your pfp. A little sad your username it isnt something like sam the dino though lol /lh
Sometimes I wish I could actually go back and be a child again because my parents were emotionally abusive and I was kinda forced to grow up faster than I wanted to I was still watching Spongebob at 10 and 11 years old but my brother shamed me for it I still played with toys until I was like 12 then my mum got rid of them all without asking me even my Nerf Gun my dad got me for Christmas one year I also like sucking on my thumb but I think that's more of a stimming thing because I'm also autistic
@@theemofemboycatgirlw3214 if it's something that would be a healthy coping mechanism for you, maybe regressing would be something to look into? Even if you don't mentally regress into a headspace, just doing the things you wanted to do as a child is amazing
@@theemofemboycatgirlw3214 I also regress, I do it because of well personal stuff. It can really help :) Like the other person said, you can just do the things you did as a child without slipping into a different headspace. I sincerely hope you do end up finding the comfort you are looking for
I’m autistic and I just recently found out that most people don’t constantly have several voices in their heads, each with different personalities talking to each other in thoughts and out loud. Maybe I’m just awkward so I talk to myself instead of making friends but I have always done this.
Personally i thought it was DID/OSDD since i had severe childhood trauma and also some psychosis/dissociation (though i do think it was some sort of alter I'd switch to, it fits all the symptoms) but i didn't know this was an autism thing. (I have autism, ocd and ptsd, and it's hard to say for sure if i have DID/OSDD since it doesn't show itself anymore (but it sorta did a few years ago? Idk). But that's helpful for me to know thanks stranger :)
@@yourneighborhoodana4584 same, then theres the 2-3 boices that are me, the ones that are people i know specifically show up during my simulations (i know for a fact that this is an autism thing and have for a long time) and also the ones that sorta come and go. Bruh it's so complicated (and that's saying a lot I've been figuring this whole thing out for around 5 or so years) since I've always had imaginary friends, simulated events befire they've happened, but also when i was younger showed a lot of dissociative symptoms/behaviors and had a lot of the prerequisite trauma. To make matters worse, i stumbled upon the idea/hobby called tulpamancy, and now i don't know what the hell is what and why things are how they are
The one at 4:40 was hella relatable. I napped A LOT usually after school coz it was so exhausting getting through the day. And if my mom gave me a list of chores to do, I'd always forget one. My parents always hounded me over those things.
4:47 made me cry, I’m pretty sure I do have adhd but my mom won’t take me to a doctor to get me diagnosed with anything, my step dad is always saying that my “excuses” are invalid as that I’m just lazy, I’m so tired of this and just want to know what’s going on in my head
;-; I feel like your step dad has no right to talk considering he aint yo damn dad, but your feelings are valid and im going thru the same thing. You aren't alone and you might feel like you are but alot of people go thru the same and could tell you otherwise.
I have the same problem, I'll tell my parents "I can't focus", "I don't like people", "somedays it takes a lot of work to be verbal", "I'm too low on energy to do ____", "I hear things that aren't real", and they give me such neurotypical and invalidating responses like "Oh, just take a walk you'll feel better, fresh air!" or "You just need to build your confidence, then you'll like people and be able to talk!" or "we can't afford therapy, and you don't need it anyway, You're just seeking attention.". And the crown jewel of all: "Stop saying that! Everyone will assume you have ADHD, which you don't. You're just looking for attention. Stop being lazy, and just f***ing study, why're you so stupid all the sudden?" And the worst part is, they recognize I'm neurodivergent but also deny it because they already have one autistic child and the other one (me) can't possibly have any disorders. So, I totally understand what it's like, if you want, you can vent to us in this comment thread or another :) -Leo and Jack
I feel the same way about wanting to know whats going on in my head. I've never liked being around too many people or socializing (i get anxiety), it takes too much energy to talk sometimes, I have a hard time focusing unless its my current interest (and even then I'll get distracted), I have sensory issues, and I have low energy and tiredness all day but can't sleep at night. My mom doesn't try to downplay or criticize these things and, has even thought about taking me to see someone about autism or adhd. But my neurologist downplays my anxiety and sensory issues, so at my next appointment my mom is going to have a "come to Jesus moment" with my neurologist about these things.
Omg I deal with the same thing too, my mother won't take me to a doctor either because she thinks "your just making excuses" or "you are just mistaking it for being active/lazy"... Bitch wahh? Dude I could be as tired as hell then being competing in the Olympics, I could be a social butter fly on drugs one minute then block everyone the next... I'm making it sound like I have bpd aren't I?... Whatever.. Parents am I right.
@@warriorspeace_kat4099 yeah but they are really different from a lot of people and understanding how differently their minds work from our own can seem really foreign
i felt this with 5:30. i would literally end up crying at like 3am because i was trying to sleep and my mom, who was in an entirely seperate room from me, was snoring too loudly
I have autism, ADD, and depression. Growing up, my mom and older siblings would constantly tell mean jokes about an uncle of mine. I remember once I decided to join in and proceeded to get yelled at by my family. My “grandmother” has bipolar disorder and depression yet refuses to take her medicine like she should and would flip her shit on me whenever I just couldn’t do something or forgot to. If I said “I don’t know,” or “I forgot” she’d yell at me and call me lazy and how every normal person can “just do it”. Yeah, okay, well neither of us are normal.
throwback to that one time my mom got mad at me for not getting on the school bus to go home even though i couldn’t find a bus and had a anxiety attack
@@AJ_Shifter Ooh i thought it was in one of the tiktoks so as soon as it got to the end i just went back to the beginning and skipping through the video lol
I have dermatillomania and it is to the point where i scratch at my skin on my arms/legs/face and basically anywhere until I start to bleed from the wound then I wait a bit and pick at the scabs that are left behind and now I have like sooo many red/pink/purple scars all over my body and now it’s another thing that I am insecure about
I live with odd scars I can't explain and this tiktok changed how I remember getting those scars....years and years of spending between a week or a month absently picking at one main infected skin imperfection until it became cartoonishly until it became incredibly painful or someone pointed it out and I stopped from humiliation... only to begin in another area. Holy cow. I often catch myself, and dissociate to think about it while I keep doing it, am embarrassed that I have no self control, and then it goes to far and I realize that I now have what will be one of those permanent bright red dot right next to the other permanent bright red dot I created doing this exact same thing and taking it waaay too far that one time back in elementary school. Good lord, I'm mortified at myself, yet this one person's tiktok changed how I feel about myself. I'm not going to forget how I got those scars and I'm just going to be straight up with people if they ask how I got them. I saw those exact same bright red dots in those exact same types of places on my mom and some qunts and when I asked about them, they told me those " just appear" as you age... like no. I know how you got those now and I will never gaslight a young person who might not realize the consequences of their picking... because sometimes the humiliation is the only thing that makes me stop for a while or try to redirect. Then it returns when my self esteem gets low or I encounter mad burnout and dissociate and pick to feel more comfortable.... only to trap myself in the realization while its happening that IM DOING IT AGAIN and there's nothing I can do to stop it except threat of humiliation. Three years of having roommates, and I never picked my skin except twice when they both left for the weekend and I was alone to dissociate and pick without company 🙃 🖤💜💙💚💙💜🖤 If you read this far, holy cow now you know one of my deepest darkest fears and vices. Thank you, I know it might sound dumb but just you reading it means maybe you will have some perspective or feel seen too. You are a wonderful person, and I would like nothing more than for you to find your water and drink some, or get yourself a fresh cup of it. Seriously water tastes great, and I'll drink some with you in solidarity!! 🖤💜💙💚💙💜🖤 Fight for human rights Forswear Crapitalism Do art Hail Satan Wear dresses Read Theory (marx/lenin/parenti/bakunin) Protect each other Much love!
5:17 when she said it makes you feel like there's something inherently wrong with you, that shit hit different because I grew up feeling like there was something wrong with me and I've struggled with trying to change that basically my whole life and not understanding why I felt like there was something wrong with me 🤦🏾♀️
@@rinrxl I would, and I have before for other reasons, but I don’t have the money to go back. I’ve been trying to cope with it on my own :’D someday when I have enough money I’ll go and see if I can get a diagnosis
I'm glad I watched this video. The girl at 6:12 saying fidget toys can help with skin picking sold me on it. I just bought one. Hopefully I works, because last night I was lying in bed listening to music, daydreaming, and impulsively picking the skin on my back until 4am. I went to bed at 10pm. My back is suffering and I have really low self-esteem because it looks so ugly.
6:12 I just wanna say that she says “…and it can be really damaging to your self esteem.” And I totally agree because I’ve lived with it my whole life and it’s my biggest insecurity. I’ve tried so many times but nothing ever fix’s it. I’ve also found that some fidget toys can help. Plus if you have adhd like me it can be a lack of dopamine that causes it so it can help to have something to stimulate your brain like stimulant meds and other things. Hope that helps!
It was horrible when I started to get acne. Not only was I insecure about my arms and legs but I started being really insecure about my face I hated it. I used to think I was the only one butt now that I know I’m not I’ve started feeling better about myself.
@@myahuske9229 I still pick at stuff but I’ve gotten better and I like keep my face clean but I don’t have acne so mines never been that bad. Also it’s definitely not my biggest insecurity anymore. Sorry if I was making it about me
@@sadielovemusic oh no you weren’t making it about you! I’m sorry if I made you feel that way. I was just happy that I wasn’t the only one and I was sharing my experience. I still have times where I’m covered with spots, but I’ve gotten better at stopping my acne and skin from getting bad.
For that one TikTok, I thought the one saying it’s hieroglyphics was the ND one. But I realized at the last second that’s it’s the one who gave the paper
i felt 4:33 so damn hard. i didn't get diagnosed w adhd until i was almost 19 and had already graduated high school, and i was a 'gifted kid' so expectations were high for me from 7 years old. so when i couldn't get my work done when the dopamine ran out in high school and i kept forgetting to do my chores even when i set alarms, it was because i was lazy, and forgetting wasn't an excuse. it was always somehow because i was flawed and needed to fix myself because the way i was, was unacceptable. and it's ironic as hell because i still graduated with a 4.14 from a college prep private school and got fives on five ap exams. it was still never good enough because of the extremely obvious challenges i faced to get there and how my family and teachers believed they were my fault alone. and no, nobody ever asked if i had been tested for adhd. of course.
Lol I have Aspergers and I'm top of my class and I'm only my first year in high school but I take college classes and everyone in my classes are upperclassmen. I taught myself piano, cello, and violin, and I speak 3 languages. I have trouble paying attention but I am better than all of these losers in the video and in the comments. I have 0 friends but my family is all I care about. You losers arent even unique or quirky in the slightest. You're all the same; trying to copy the personality of your favorite fictional characters, and trying to gain attention. Stop crying about how terrible your life is and just work! DEAL WITH IT. No one cares what disorders you have. You can either cry about it or take control of your life and make a living. I'm so glad I'm Russian and not American.
4:33 I'm constantly being told that having ADD isn't an excuse to not do things or that "I forgot what you asked me to do" isn't valid because you damn well heard what I asked you to do, among other things like that. My mom yells at me for being on my phone while doing homework because "it's distracting" and tells me that I can't listen to music because I'll get distracted and I won't do my work even though I get distracted by everything else (all the little sounds and everyone talking and moving around)
Deal with it! I have the same problem, and I live in a big family. I'm sick of you gen z losers making excuses for everything and crying when someone asks you to work. Get a life and a real personality.
Yeah i feel like as an autistic person id be weirded out if NT people didnt like fruit snacks too, like theyre so delicious and squishy they make me so happy lol
Does anybody else ask something suck as “Can i eat--?” And the other person will reply, and then about 10 seconds later I have to ask again because I forgot what their answer was Such as a conversation frequently had between my stepmom and I: Me: “Can I have lunch?” Stepmom: “Yes.” Me, about 15 seconds later: “Wait did you say yes or-?”
I used to ask to use the bathroom at the end of school everyday in 3rd grade and even though my teacher always said yes I went back to make sure multiple times
It’s so annoying when people call you disgusting or weird when it’s basically addictive. I hate that I that I do ‘picking’ but I can’t stop. With me it’s with my face, where I continue to scratch spots even if I don’t have any and I know it’s wrong but I do it without even thinking.
@@IndigoIced yeah same, often I’ll be on my scooter going down a hill and realise that my eyes are closed cuz I was unconsciously trying to pull out all my eyelashes, honestly surprised I haven’t got a serious injury yet
wait, you’re telling me that neurotypicals don’t want to punch their father who has congestion issues who they really love very much, in the face for breathing too loud?
Woah! The one with the bad handwriting hit too close to home 😭😭😭😭 But I've been getting better but it's hard to write long paragraphs and keep consistent handwriting 😭😭😭😭
Sometimes I think of neurotypical people and forget that no everyone has frequent memory gaps and alternate personalities who have named themselves and become friends with your friends and go “y’all really never have to avoid something to avoid triggering an alter to front? tf”
Golly I just realized- my birthday is on September 14! We're really close in birthdays!! Also this comp was suuuuper awesome- as a person with ADHD, I appreciate it!
3:14 I feel like I do this but to an extreme (and as its called) it feels like I'm putting on a mask every time I talk to someone. Like with my classmates I could be calm, collected, and confused then with the girls in my class I could be this person you could do anything with, like even if we crashed a car and lost in a forest it would be amazing. I think I need to break this habit, any thoughts on how??
5:24 one time my mom screamed at me because I forgot to do the dishes and told me that there was something truly wrong with me and threatened to take me to the doctor for it. Me, being a little kid that hated attention doctors was terrified of this, and I never say 'I forgot' anymore when anyone asks me to do anything and I get distracted, I just apologize. I'm still not diagnosed with disorder, particularly anxiety and/or depression because my mother doesn't want to accept that she caused these issues for me. I also don't want to self diagnose because I know people get a lot of pressure for that and I don't need that. So thanks mom.
The last one tho- I was once hanging out with a friend, and I had just stopped crying and I was moving around a LOT and like jumping from foot to foot while shaking to try and distract myself into not crying. And then another friend walks up to me and asks what’s wrong. When I explain they just go “have you ever tried having ADHD” So I just shrugged because I don’t have access to a proper doctor or diagnosis So they say “wait you didn’t know? You obviously have ADHD” And it’s just so crazy to me that all these people that know who they’re talking about from personal experience or study are telling me “hey you may have adhd” or “hey you may have autism” and my parents don’t believe that their son could be neuro divergent- and when I bring things up about it my dad thinks I’m attention seeking or I WANT to be neuro divergent, and I can’t bring it up with my mom because she’ll just say “no” Sorry for the rant
Hey is this a neurodivergent thing? In school I’m allowed to type because when I’m using pencil and paper I just can’t get the words out and it’s so anxiety producing. I just can’t get the pencil to the paper. So many good ideas. Can’t get em out. Adhd and ocd and anxiety here btw
7:14 I was stiming (I love that music thinggie that had to bumps the you rub with a stick yes that's that best description I can give) and then heard this and didn't process it was satire and I started masking again dear God I've been mimicking people to help make since I was a kid but know I'm processing
4:04, this is literally my mom and little brother. He was formally diagnosed with BPD a few years ago and after a lot of childhood trauma inflicted mainly by our mother, he developed extreme aggressive tendencies that turned into anger issues to protect himself. My mom has never been diagnosed as a narcissist but she has a lot of narcissistic tendencies and a perpetual victim complex. They are constantly getting into blow out screaming matches that the rest of us have to tiptoe around, lest we get pulled in. It's not fun.
The first one made me happy for some reason- also is the chew necklace in the demigirl colors? I just downloaded the tiny decisions app it looks so amazing
4:34 I was diagnosed with adhd just like my dad was and I also have anxiety and depression so I can hardly do anything and my mom still sees it as a miss diagnosis and won't put me on medication because she thinks they just wanted us to think I was so she would spend more money cause she doesn't see any of the signs in me •-• this lady is insane
it takes me a bit of time to comprehend things like my brains just slow and laggy and it's really annoying because unless i'm zoned in, i could take literally 45 minutes trying to figure out what 9 hours from 5:30 was. my bsf if really smart and doesn't have the same problems as me and tells me all the time that i'm just acting dumb and i'm not actually dumb i'm just pretending. and my mom would say things like "ur not actually sad you are just manipulating us and pretending to be upset" and i spiral out of control for like one thing. i'm always switching hobbies and i cAnT SlEep at night and end up doing weird things and starting new ideas. i'm very particular about the way my schedule goes or i don't care at all, like if smth is slightly not right then i screw it and stay up all night or am off the rest of the day. my mom tells me i'm self absorbed because i'll be talking about how i don't want people to think i'm weird if i go sit over there by the bench but not on the bench , i don't want them to think i'm being rude or whatever dum things like that and she'll blow it off as ur being narsasiti, also having anxiety about small things like people touching or being around my phone, i can't stand hugs i just don't like them, i hate touching other than hands/arms with clothing, and i actually really like holding on to peoples like shirt it's nice help idk why. and i always forget things cause so much goes on in my head.
ALSo i cAnT STOp copYing pEopls aCcents or the waY they TAlk and they'll be speaking like "ohHHHHH my gosh i lorve my cat" and i just "lorve" *idk what accent that is help*
@@spiritsofwolves remember autism is a spectrum, not having something that someone else does doesn't invalidate you as an autistic person, it just means you don't have that one/multiple things. Have a good day/night :)
@@yourlocaltherapistfriend5091 yeah i know but it just doesnt add up i dont want to ask my parents to get tested again because i hear they are expensive i was diagnosed when i was like 6 though so i feel i might have been misdiagnosed idk…
5:31 Omg this is so true cuz one time on the school bus the bus driver had the radio on and the podcast kept saying "wiki!" And it was so frustrating I almost cried
*People talk about how they would watch one thing multiple times and only think about that said thing* Me: lol that's never gonna happen to m- *Watches the movie Luca 12 times*
3:14 i would like to point out that calling all your bad traits narcissistic is kind iffy. It ties to npd because a narcissist is a person with npd. It is a cluster b term. And people with npd are not evil or abusive just because of their npd. Smh im sick of this bs.
Agreed. It's all about (well really any cross-neurotype relationships) knowing how all involved think and percieve then work with that and around that towards mutual benefit.
Oh quick clarification in the one about dermatillomania/excoriation disorder/skin picking, pulling at your eyebrow hairs (can also be your eyelashes, head hair, body hair, etc) is a separate thing! It's called Trichotillomania (also referred to as just "trich" or pulling/plucking, picking also gets used but less from my understanding) and it's pretty much the same, except the compulsion is focused on your hair rather than your skin! (very small clarification but i thought it would be worth putting out there because i have trich personally and i know it's somewhat criminally uncommon to be aware of ^^!!)
6:35 oh..... OH....... oh no.... so that's what it's called... I've been picking at my skin and my fingers and it leaves wounds and scars sometimes and I was wondering why I had such an irresistible impulse....... added that to the "little things i do that other people don't usually do" list
It depends where you live, if you live in the UK you can get a free screening at the NHS however it would be a long waiting list. If youre in the USA or a y other country that doesnt provide free healthcare then you would have to pay quite a sum. If your school happens to have a school physcologist that is qualified to screen for neurodivergencies then that would most likely be free of charge. It just depends where you live and even if your therapist suspected it you would still have to pay if your country doesnt provide free healthcare. Also, since you are a minor your therapist would most likely have to share her thoughts of you being neurodivergent with your parent/s or guardian/s. I hope everything goes well for you 💖
I have anxiety And Intrustive thoughts (Going to get cheaked for OCD and Adhd soon) My mom Always calls me a scardy cat and overly Dramatic Bescuse I'm Scared of alot of things and feel bad things will happen and it hurts
Autism ocd and ptsd here, my sibling does the same. I don't know what to say since i haven't solved this problem (my sibling calling me that for my anxiety and also my fears to take risks) just know you aren't alone and i hope you find some comfort in that
9:24 I HEAR THAT DANGANRONPA AUDIO AGDJGDYFJGJDAJYF oh and speaking of which I now have to figure out if my love of the series is a hyperfixation (like I thought it was) or a special interest...🙃 oh and also not being able to get into new stuff is a whole mood (the exception being for a one-time fandom wiki binge)
7:05 Wait, you mean to tell me that pulling out your eyebrow hairs when you're bored is not a 100% neurological behavior??? (This is a joke btw. I know I have some problematic stimming behaviors like the ones mentioned in the video.)
10:23 when I watched this I was like awww but then I started uncontrollably crying and hyperventilating for some reason then my cat helped me calm down. Maybe I cried because I wish someone was that understanding of me too? Idk lol
4:35 not only do i relate to this but my parents REFUSED to teach me how to clean (i.e mop, sweep, ect...) and then bitch when i dont do it right. its VERY aggrivating-
9:40 I’ve literally never understood people who can’t read their own handwriting. Like growing up there were always kids who had terrible handwriting but it’s because they didn’t actually try to write anything down, so they’d look back on it and try to read it and they couldn’t. Then there’s me, who can always read my own handwriting even though it’s “messy” AND I was always able to read everyone else’s as well. The teacher would always be like “can you tell me what this says?” About anything and everything lmao
the duality of not being able to filter out background noise normally because of autism but unable to hear absolutely anything if I'm hyperfocusing bc of adhd
7:19 I don't think I'm neurodivergent (never been diagnosed) but MAN I hate this sound, I had to take out my earbuds and just sit there for a moment, it felt like nails in my ear canals
I relate to the you can't use that as an excuse on so much, both because of what they said and because I do have a diagnosis of autism but apparently still can't use it to explain behaviour. I do believe I have at least some form of ADHD but unless they know someone who is diagnosed with it, they always brush me off; so instead I just get yelled at. I am diagnosed for autistic spectrum disorder but still told that I can't use that as a reason. Instead I'm apparently using it so I can be difficult/work myself, dramatic, lazy. Majority of this is from my mam. Who is the one who pushed to get me diagnosed, was there at every stage of it, and basically has to manage the majority of my life for me (my anxiety also makes things not happen, but what do I have to be anxious/stressed about, is all I get about that) Because I don't mask/cover up as well as I used to due to stress/growing up/college. Also my old techniques have become their own problems now I'm supposed to be an adult (such as maladaptive daydreaming). But I struggle to talk about this due to my difficulties so just ramble about it when ever it comes up in a casual setting, like UA-cam. Even if I could I would probably just get the response of being dramatic. I try to bring up something relevant to lead into the conversation but get shut down before I get to my point, either their busy, change the subject, I get sidetracked, or just can't listen to me ramble. At least I can ramble into the mass comment sections on UA-cam to help sift through my thoughts and experiences as I think better when I'm talking. At least until my social anxiety kicks in and I become self conscious of everything that I post. Like when I went over 3 years not commenting/posting anywhere, despite being constantly online whenever possible 😅 Yeah I should really just post this before I delete another lengthy comment or post it in my notes, as I've done in past. Or read through and just get rid of the unnecessary stream of consciousness writing I've just noticed I'm doing; where I write down every thought I have without thinking. Is this an ADHD thing, does that make this more relevant, definitely makes me feel a less like I need to delete at least half of this, or should I still do it. Is this due to my autism, possibly anxiety. I don't know it's late and I'm tired. I'll probably end up posting it just cause it's easier. Then I don't accidentally lose it all, again, and at this point I've put so much time into this I feel like it would be a waste. Literally just got locked out cause been on phone too long but able to unlock it long enough to finish and post this. I can always delete it later if regret posting it when I wake up, probably. If you're reading this, I'm sorry this was not meant to be so long. Hope it helped you kill some time or that you got anything really. I get rambly when I'm tired as you can see 😅🙈🤦🏼♀️
@@yolopokecarp4408 hi Leo! 👋 Thank you so much! That's so nice of you! ☺️Same maybe some day 😅 yeah rambling happens a lot 😅 my mouth/hands have a mind of their own and don't know what I'm saying half the time 😅 barely even remember writing all that 🤣 my memory is terrible 😅 so yeah definitely inattentive 😅 and also daydreaming 💭 even have daydreams about rambling to people 😅 my head is very busy 🤣🤯 so I know how people feel cause I talk my own head off a lot 🤣yeah inattentive type is what I thought too can't focus too long on something as my brain gets bored and want to do something else, which can sometimes cause me to argue with myself, like daydreaming up conversations as I said. Now I probably sound like a crazy person, sorry. 😓 Your still very nice to comment, wish me well and offer guidance, even if you are a stranger on the internet. Not like I get much of that offline. So thank you for that. I'm glad you enjoy reading comments so it wasn't too terrible and hope this isn't too all over the place; it's been a stressful day so having some trouble focusing. But I hope your day was better especially as you seem so nice! ☺️ I don't mind reading long comments as some are so fascinating! I'm so lucky that UA-cam doesn't have a word limit on comments! 😅 Where else could I do stuff like this with possiblies of reaching others that may be able to help or just be nice or understand! ☺️ It's an amazing platform! I hope it fixes the issue it as though so could be even better! 😂 But I am a bit biased as spend a lot of time enjoying myself here! 😅 Hope you don't mind this wierd comment! I'm also hungry which doesn't help 🤣 I'll stop now and get some food 🍽️ wish you and your system all the best! 🌈
@@music2012pink Go eat some food I hope it's good! also the daydreaming thing might be Maladaptive daydreaming, it's a coping mechanism where you daydream to escape reality. Also you seem like a really nice personnnnnn :))))))))))))
@@yolopokecarp4408 thank you, I did and it was, even had some side salad, my mam makes my meals to make sure I eat properly. Yeah I think your right I'm definitely MaDD (maladaptive daydreaming disorder). While I know it's not an official disorder and a lot of research needs to be done before they can tell if it is; I have heard some people theorise that because daydreaming is a mild form of dissociation that if it does then it would fit with them disorders. Which I think make sense, what about you? Thank you, u too.
@@music2012pink Ooh! Sounds good I like salad! Yeah, daydreaming and zoning are mild dissociation, because it's an escape and disconnect from reality :) I daydream alllllllllll the timeeeee but it's fun for the most part although I guess it keeps everyoen else from getting work donee sooooooooooo anywayssssss I hope your day is going superr wellllll (this is Goose by the wayyyyyyyy but Leo is co-con!)
Wait a minute - the person with Asperger’s said it hurts their hand to write neatly …. Does anyone else experience this? Like my hand starts to go NOPE when the pen is turned the wrong way and I need to squeeze my fingers in the air and rotate the pen a few times - like it’s not muscle spasming from soreness but just … agitation???? Idk lol
I’m on 3 psych pills, one as needed, take one heart/BP “regulator” pill so that my heart won’t fluctuate too much if my adrenaline spikes, AND I have a surgical scar under my hairline going from the left side of my head to my right side. And most of these people are coming off as bad ventriloquists in front of an audience that didn’t have to pay to get in.
dsmdhavsha kinda off topic(?) but theres this person that i really like and they're neurodivergent and here i am trying to learn more about this so i can treat them with care and love 🙆♀️✨❤️
I've never been diagnosed with anything but I've been having this problem for a while where like I HAVE to sleep with noise but it has to be my own noise that I chose to hear and if I hear anything outside of my room (like the livingroom tv) I won't sleep until I can't hear it anymore
@@bats3190 Not necessarily. Tourette's is a neurological condition that includes both verbal AND motor tics (involuntary movement). Sometimes people with other neurodiversities (such as ADHD or autism) will have tics, but it will only be verbal OR only be motor. There's also another thing that's called a tic disorder which is a sub-category (kinda) of Tourette's where you only experience motor or verbal tics. Hope this helps. -Leo
Ok ok ok ok ok. I NEED to know if anyone else does this. Do you assign colors, personalities, shapes, or tastes to words, numbers, items, or thoughts? Hear me out, March is green, 3 is neon pink, left is thin, and the jumpy boots in Subway Surfers are evil. And I don't actively do this, it just happens. Does this happen with anyone else???
I didn't even know what Neurodivergent or Neurotypical or what any of this stuff was a couple of days ago, I just grew up thinking I was fucked up... Huh.
Ugh I really relate to the person saying their parents saying things like forgetting and such is unacceptable- that happens to me constantly and the only answers I can ever give are "I don't know" or "I forgot" and my parents really mock me for it- or tell me that its an excuse or that I'm lying- and its crazy because while I have not been diagnosed I do know that I have it although I can't actually get a diagnosis- but one of my parents actually does have a diagnosis with Adhd so it baffles me that my parents see me struggling with this, knowing that I'm not lying when they suffer from the same thing- but if I ever bring up adhd I feel so bad because I dont have a diagnosis so I feel like I'm talking from my ass even tho its a very real part of my life- and because my parent will just tell me that since they have it and they don't forget things as much as I do that I'm faking it or trying to lie
Wait do your parents not know ADHD is genetic? I think it's a dominant trait too. Which means if one parent has it then it's super likely that the child will too.
Honestly it much more rare NOT to have a child with ADHD when one of the parents dose.
Hiiya
We suffer the same fate, our parents tell us very similar things, but we do know we're neurodivergent.
We just wanted to say you're valid, you're seen, and you're loved.
-The Spinning System
@Leigh Taylor Jesus Christ That's ridiculous- I really hope it gets better, my friend
My dad never listens when it comes to me explaining whybI do certain things a certain way it drives me odd the goddamn wall and I know he had issues with mental illness (his dad was schizophrenic) and shit but you'd think that he'd get his shit together
Dude same it's horrible because we really do forget things and we really don't know, but then we have to make up a reasonable story to 'explain' what happened because we don't want to get yelled at or grounded, when it's already gonna happen
*Me, casually pausing the video every two seconds to be like "yeah, I do that too. This is exactly the reason why I think I have ADHD" and then being like "no, I just think I do because I want to be 'different.' I'm fine"*
(Rinse and repeat until I start questioning who I really am)
same and its too scary to ask my parents to go get a diagnosis for anything that i think i have because what if im wrong? Or what if they judge me and make fun of me or something? what if they tell me im too young? maybe im faking it? Ive also questioned if im faking the pronouns i use lol
@@toastandbutter7367yeah. I hate to self-diagnose, but I'm too scared to ask my parents to get me actually diagnosed.
@@samtheperson9008 yeah and whenever i see a video talking about an adhd symptom i dont have im like "oh so i dont have it because i do not experience that symptom" but then there will be 10 other videos i relate to. Also i have to say i love your pfp. A little sad your username it isnt something like sam the dino though lol /lh
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same lmao but also i want a cat oh shit i have spiders in my room but ok bye
I don't regress anymore but I really appreciate the first tik tok!
Sometimes I wish I could actually go back and be a child again because my parents were emotionally abusive and I was kinda forced to grow up faster than I wanted to I was still watching Spongebob at 10 and 11 years old but my brother shamed me for it I still played with toys until I was like 12 then my mum got rid of them all without asking me even my Nerf Gun my dad got me for Christmas one year I also like sucking on my thumb but I think that's more of a stimming thing because I'm also autistic
@@theemofemboycatgirlw3214 if it's something that would be a healthy coping mechanism for you, maybe regressing would be something to look into? Even if you don't mentally regress into a headspace, just doing the things you wanted to do as a child is amazing
@@chris_canned_bread maybe
@@theemofemboycatgirlw3214 I also regress, I do it because of well personal stuff. It can really help :) Like the other person said, you can just do the things you did as a child without slipping into a different headspace. I sincerely hope you do end up finding the comfort you are looking for
@@mathosplays yeah me too I've got A LOT of issues some you'd be like oh damn that sucks others you'd see me as a sexual deviant
I’m autistic and I just recently found out that most people don’t constantly have several voices in their heads, each with different personalities talking to each other in thoughts and out loud. Maybe I’m just awkward so I talk to myself instead of making friends but I have always done this.
Wait-people don’t have more than one voice in their head? I have at least three.
Personally i thought it was DID/OSDD since i had severe childhood trauma and also some psychosis/dissociation (though i do think it was some sort of alter I'd switch to, it fits all the symptoms) but i didn't know this was an autism thing. (I have autism, ocd and ptsd, and it's hard to say for sure if i have DID/OSDD since it doesn't show itself anymore (but it sorta did a few years ago? Idk). But that's helpful for me to know thanks stranger :)
@@yourneighborhoodana4584 same, then theres the 2-3 boices that are me, the ones that are people i know specifically show up during my simulations (i know for a fact that this is an autism thing and have for a long time) and also the ones that sorta come and go.
Bruh it's so complicated (and that's saying a lot I've been figuring this whole thing out for around 5 or so years) since I've always had imaginary friends, simulated events befire they've happened, but also when i was younger showed a lot of dissociative symptoms/behaviors and had a lot of the prerequisite trauma. To make matters worse, i stumbled upon the idea/hobby called tulpamancy, and now i don't know what the hell is what and why things are how they are
I don’t think that’s an autism thing, my dude. That might be a different disorder similar to DID, OSDD, or schizophrenia.
@@andreah9587 If that was the case I probably would have been diagnosed. I also don’t have any other symptoms pointing to this.
The one at 4:40 was hella relatable. I napped A LOT usually after school coz it was so exhausting getting through the day. And if my mom gave me a list of chores to do, I'd always forget one.
My parents always hounded me over those things.
4:47 made me cry, I’m pretty sure I do have adhd but my mom won’t take me to a doctor to get me diagnosed with anything, my step dad is always saying that my “excuses” are invalid as that I’m just lazy, I’m so tired of this and just want to know what’s going on in my head
;-; I feel like your step dad has no right to talk considering he aint yo damn dad, but your feelings are valid and im going thru the same thing. You aren't alone and you might feel like you are but alot of people go thru the same and could tell you otherwise.
I have the same problem, I'll tell my parents "I can't focus", "I don't like people", "somedays it takes a lot of work to be verbal", "I'm too low on energy to do ____", "I hear things that aren't real", and they give me such neurotypical and invalidating responses like "Oh, just take a walk you'll feel better, fresh air!" or "You just need to build your confidence, then you'll like people and be able to talk!" or "we can't afford therapy, and you don't need it anyway, You're just seeking attention.". And the crown jewel of all: "Stop saying that! Everyone will assume you have ADHD, which you don't. You're just looking for attention. Stop being lazy, and just f***ing study, why're you so stupid all the sudden?"
And the worst part is, they recognize I'm neurodivergent but also deny it because they already have one autistic child and the other one (me) can't possibly have any disorders.
So, I totally understand what it's like, if you want, you can vent to us in this comment thread or another :)
-Leo and Jack
Oof. I feel you. Hopefully they will listened to you and get you the right doctor!
I feel the same way about wanting to know whats going on in my head. I've never liked being around too many people or socializing (i get anxiety), it takes too much energy to talk sometimes, I have a hard time focusing unless its my current interest (and even then I'll get distracted), I have sensory issues, and I have low energy and tiredness all day but can't sleep at night. My mom doesn't try to downplay or criticize these things and, has even thought about taking me to see someone about autism or adhd. But my neurologist downplays my anxiety and sensory issues, so at my next appointment my mom is going to have a "come to Jesus moment" with my neurologist about these things.
Omg I deal with the same thing too, my mother won't take me to a doctor either because she thinks "your just making excuses" or "you are just mistaking it for being active/lazy"... Bitch wahh? Dude I could be as tired as hell then being competing in the Olympics, I could be a social butter fly on drugs one minute then block everyone the next... I'm making it sound like I have bpd aren't I?... Whatever.. Parents am I right.
Learning about things that are normal for neurotypical people is so weird they’re like an alien species
Exactly like wtf you can just processes things that are said to you without any trouble
@@warriorspeace_kat4099 yeah but they are really different from a lot of people and understanding how differently their minds work from our own can seem really foreign
@@warriorspeace_kat4099 did u mix up neurotypical and neurodivergent?
i felt this with 5:30. i would literally end up crying at like 3am because i was trying to sleep and my mom, who was in an entirely seperate room from me, was snoring too loudly
Exactly like you don't have to constantly write down every thought so that you don't loose it immediately?
I have autism, ADD, and depression.
Growing up, my mom and older siblings would constantly tell mean jokes about an uncle of mine. I remember once I decided to join in and proceeded to get yelled at by my family.
My “grandmother” has bipolar disorder and depression yet refuses to take her medicine like she should and would flip her shit on me whenever I just couldn’t do something or forgot to. If I said “I don’t know,” or “I forgot” she’d yell at me and call me lazy and how every normal person can “just do it”.
Yeah, okay, well neither of us are normal.
Oh I’m sorry :(
@@Taylors_version_from_the_vault Don’t be, it’s fine.
throwback to that one time my mom got mad at me for not getting on the school bus to go home even though i couldn’t find a bus and had a anxiety attack
I've literally done the same thing-
1. This video calls me out
2. Yay! I love The Click!!
wait where is the click mentioned?
@@toastandbutter7367 He wrote the ending song 'OWO what is this'
@@AJ_Shifter Ooh i thought it was in one of the tiktoks so as soon as it got to the end i just went back to the beginning and skipping through the video lol
@@AJ_Shifter I don't think he wrote it, I think he just did a cover of it. I think the version that was playing at the end was the original.
I have dermatillomania and it is to the point where i scratch at my skin on my arms/legs/face and basically anywhere until I start to bleed from the wound then I wait a bit and pick at the scabs that are left behind and now I have like sooo many red/pink/purple scars all over my body and now it’s another thing that I am insecure about
same, except my scars are pale or dark brown. since i have tan skin they really stand out :/
I thought I was the only person who did it I didn't know there was a word for it but by now I'm covered in scars
I live with odd scars I can't explain and this tiktok changed how I remember getting those scars....years and years of spending between a week or a month absently picking at one main infected skin imperfection until it became cartoonishly until it became incredibly painful or someone pointed it out and I stopped from humiliation... only to begin in another area.
Holy cow.
I often catch myself, and dissociate to think about it while I keep doing it, am embarrassed that I have no self control, and then it goes to far and I realize that I now have what will be one of those permanent bright red dot right next to the other permanent bright red dot I created doing this exact same thing and taking it waaay too far that one time back in elementary school.
Good lord, I'm mortified at myself, yet this one person's tiktok changed how I feel about myself. I'm not going to forget how I got those scars and I'm just going to be straight up with people if they ask how I got them.
I saw those exact same bright red dots in those exact same types of places on my mom and some qunts and when I asked about them, they told me those " just appear" as you age... like no. I know how you got those now and I will never gaslight a young person who might not realize the consequences of their picking... because sometimes the humiliation is the only thing that makes me stop for a while or try to redirect.
Then it returns when my self esteem gets low or I encounter mad burnout and dissociate and pick to feel more comfortable.... only to trap myself in the realization while its happening that IM DOING IT AGAIN and there's nothing I can do to stop it except threat of humiliation.
Three years of having roommates, and I never picked my skin except twice when they both left for the weekend and I was alone to dissociate and pick without company 🙃
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If you read this far, holy cow now you know one of my deepest darkest fears and vices. Thank you, I know it might sound dumb but just you reading it means maybe you will have some perspective or feel seen too. You are a wonderful person, and I would like nothing more than for you to find your water and drink some, or get yourself a fresh cup of it. Seriously water tastes great, and I'll drink some with you in solidarity!!
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Fight for human rights
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Much love!
5:17 when she said it makes you feel like there's something inherently wrong with you, that shit hit different because I grew up feeling like there was something wrong with me and I've struggled with trying to change that basically my whole life and not understanding why I felt like there was something wrong with me 🤦🏾♀️
"I know people who pull their eyebrow hairs out..." not me stimming by pulling my eyebrow hairs out at the moment that line is said...... :'D
If you pull your hair out from stress, you may have trichotillomania.
@@rinrxl Yea, I’ve been wondering if I have that. When I get stressed I pick at my skin and pull at my hair.
@@systemerror404notfound Hmm, those would be Dermatillomania and trichotillomania, you might wanna see a psychiatrist or a therapist
@@rinrxl I would, and I have before for other reasons, but I don’t have the money to go back. I’ve been trying to cope with it on my own :’D someday when I have enough money I’ll go and see if I can get a diagnosis
@@systemerror404notfound Oh, good for you :)
I'm glad I watched this video. The girl at 6:12 saying fidget toys can help with skin picking sold me on it. I just bought one. Hopefully I works, because last night I was lying in bed listening to music, daydreaming, and impulsively picking the skin on my back until 4am. I went to bed at 10pm. My back is suffering and I have really low self-esteem because it looks so ugly.
6:12 I just wanna say that she says “…and it can be really damaging to your self esteem.” And I totally agree because I’ve lived with it my whole life and it’s my biggest insecurity. I’ve tried so many times but nothing ever fix’s it. I’ve also found that some fidget toys can help. Plus if you have adhd like me it can be a lack of dopamine that causes it so it can help to have something to stimulate your brain like stimulant meds and other things. Hope that helps!
It was horrible when I started to get acne. Not only was I insecure about my arms and legs but I started being really insecure about my face I hated it. I used to think I was the only one butt now that I know I’m not I’ve started feeling better about myself.
@@myahuske9229 I still pick at stuff but I’ve gotten better and I like keep my face clean but I don’t have acne so mines never been that bad. Also it’s definitely not my biggest insecurity anymore. Sorry if I was making it about me
@@sadielovemusic oh no you weren’t making it about you! I’m sorry if I made you feel that way. I was just happy that I wasn’t the only one and I was sharing my experience. I still have times where I’m covered with spots, but I’ve gotten better at stopping my acne and skin from getting bad.
@@myahuske9229 I’m glad to hear! Also it wasn’t you I say that sometimes. 💙
For that one TikTok, I thought the one saying it’s hieroglyphics was the ND one. But I realized at the last second that’s it’s the one who gave the paper
Same
i felt 4:33 so damn hard. i didn't get diagnosed w adhd until i was almost 19 and had already graduated high school, and i was a 'gifted kid' so expectations were high for me from 7 years old. so when i couldn't get my work done when the dopamine ran out in high school and i kept forgetting to do my chores even when i set alarms, it was because i was lazy, and forgetting wasn't an excuse. it was always somehow because i was flawed and needed to fix myself because the way i was, was unacceptable. and it's ironic as hell because i still graduated with a 4.14 from a college prep private school and got fives on five ap exams. it was still never good enough because of the extremely obvious challenges i faced to get there and how my family and teachers believed they were my fault alone. and no, nobody ever asked if i had been tested for adhd. of course.
Lol I have Aspergers and I'm top of my class and I'm only my first year in high school but I take college classes and everyone in my classes are upperclassmen. I taught myself piano, cello, and violin, and I speak 3 languages. I have trouble paying attention but I am better than all of these losers in the video and in the comments. I have 0 friends but my family is all I care about. You losers arent even unique or quirky in the slightest. You're all the same; trying to copy the personality of your favorite fictional characters, and trying to gain attention.
Stop crying about how terrible your life is and just work! DEAL WITH IT. No one cares what disorders you have. You can either cry about it or take control of your life and make a living.
I'm so glad I'm Russian and not American.
4:33 I'm constantly being told that having ADD isn't an excuse to not do things or that "I forgot what you asked me to do" isn't valid because you damn well heard what I asked you to do, among other things like that. My mom yells at me for being on my phone while doing homework because "it's distracting" and tells me that I can't listen to music because I'll get distracted and I won't do my work even though I get distracted by everything else (all the little sounds and everyone talking and moving around)
Deal with it! I have the same problem, and I live in a big family. I'm sick of you gen z losers making excuses for everything and crying when someone asks you to work.
Get a life and a real personality.
Hi everyone! Remember to drink water today!♡♡♡
you too!
Oops this makes me realise I haven’t drunk water at all today lmao
Omg I forgot to drink it today, thanks for reminding me I'ma go drink some rn
10:31 I'm neurotypical but if anyone gave me fruit snacks like heck I would be happy
Fruit snacks are so good!
Yeah i feel like as an autistic person id be weirded out if NT people didnt like fruit snacks too, like theyre so delicious and squishy they make me so happy lol
me too especially if theyre the ones that have the fruit juice inside of em theyre so gooddd
Yeeees more of this! Really enjoyed this video, a much needed reassurance and reminder from fellow ND folk
Does anybody else ask something suck as “Can i eat--?” And the other person will reply, and then about 10 seconds later I have to ask again because I forgot what their answer was
Such as a conversation frequently had between my stepmom and I:
Me: “Can I have lunch?”
Stepmom: “Yes.”
Me, about 15 seconds later: “Wait did you say yes or-?”
I used to ask to use the bathroom at the end of school everyday in 3rd grade and even though my teacher always said yes I went back to make sure multiple times
yeah a lot of the time i just zone out when they’re answering
6:55 not me pulling out between 5 and 15 eyelashes everyday
same.
@Mira baltagi me too! Then I saw tiktoks like this one
It’s so annoying when people call you disgusting or weird when it’s basically addictive. I hate that I that I do ‘picking’ but I can’t stop. With me it’s with my face, where I continue to scratch spots even if I don’t have any and I know it’s wrong but I do it without even thinking.
@@IndigoIced yeah same, often I’ll be on my scooter going down a hill and realise that my eyes are closed cuz I was unconsciously trying to pull out all my eyelashes, honestly surprised I haven’t got a serious injury yet
Please don't do that
wait, you’re telling me that neurotypicals don’t want to punch their father who has congestion issues who they really love very much, in the face for breathing too loud?
Omg- 😂
Wait, so they don’t want to kick their mom for eating with her mouth slightly open?
That they don’t want to absolutely obliterate someone in the shins for making any mouth noises? Huh?
@@Venus_Peachy and then they don’t seem like a hypocrite for yelling at people who do but then use that as a stim?
Woah! The one with the bad handwriting hit too close to home 😭😭😭😭
But I've been getting better but it's hard to write long paragraphs and keep consistent handwriting 😭😭😭😭
Thank you to the lovely neurodivergent that shared Tiny Decisions app that was SO helpful thank you!
Sometimes I think of neurotypical people and forget that no everyone has frequent memory gaps and alternate personalities who have named themselves and become friends with your friends and go “y’all really never have to avoid something to avoid triggering an alter to front? tf”
Golly I just realized- my birthday is on September 14! We're really close in birthdays!!
Also this comp was suuuuper awesome- as a person with ADHD, I appreciate it!
3:14
I feel like I do this but to an extreme (and as its called) it feels like I'm putting on a mask every time I talk to someone. Like with my classmates I could be calm, collected, and confused then with the girls in my class I could be this person you could do anything with, like even if we crashed a car and lost in a forest it would be amazing. I think I need to break this habit, any thoughts on how??
9:36 i find it concerning but also comforting that i can understand almost all of this, partially because this is one of my handwriting styles TwT
As an Autistic, I love and needed this.
I’m laughing because I can
I forgot what I was gonna say. Frick.
Who likes drawing and music? AND FROGS! 🐸
Frogs are cute.
i like frogs and music :D wanna talk about it even if its been 4 months?
the texting one kinda slapped
5:24 one time my mom screamed at me because I forgot to do the dishes and told me that there was something truly wrong with me and threatened to take me to the doctor for it. Me, being a little kid that hated attention doctors was terrified of this, and I never say 'I forgot' anymore when anyone asks me to do anything and I get distracted, I just apologize. I'm still not diagnosed with disorder, particularly anxiety and/or depression because my mother doesn't want to accept that she caused these issues for me. I also don't want to self diagnose because I know people get a lot of pressure for that and I don't need that. So thanks mom.
Hello! I’m dating a neurodivergent person so I watch these to learn things to help with his autism! :)
As an autistic person i thank you
This is so wholesome I love this I’m autistic too and I wish more people would take the time to look up things like this
I'm so glad you're back!! I love your videos a lot and it's always great to see more from you!
The last one tho-
I was once hanging out with a friend, and I had just stopped crying and I was moving around a LOT and like jumping from foot to foot while shaking to try and distract myself into not crying. And then another friend walks up to me and asks what’s wrong.
When I explain they just go “have you ever tried having ADHD”
So I just shrugged because I don’t have access to a proper doctor or diagnosis
So they say “wait you didn’t know? You obviously have ADHD”
And it’s just so crazy to me that all these people that know who they’re talking about from personal experience or study are telling me “hey you may have adhd” or “hey you may have autism” and my parents don’t believe that their son could be neuro divergent- and when I bring things up about it my dad thinks I’m attention seeking or I WANT to be neuro divergent, and I can’t bring it up with my mom because she’ll just say “no”
Sorry for the rant
MR. DEMON!!!! YOURE BACK!!
Hey is this a neurodivergent thing? In school I’m allowed to type because when I’m using pencil and paper I just can’t get the words out and it’s so anxiety producing. I just can’t get the pencil to the paper. So many good ideas. Can’t get em out.
Adhd and ocd and anxiety here btw
7:14 I was stiming (I love that music thinggie that had to bumps the you rub with a stick yes that's that best description I can give) and then heard this and didn't process it was satire and I started masking again dear God I've been mimicking people to help make since I was a kid but know I'm processing
4:04, this is literally my mom and little brother. He was formally diagnosed with BPD a few years ago and after a lot of childhood trauma inflicted mainly by our mother, he developed extreme aggressive tendencies that turned into anger issues to protect himself. My mom has never been diagnosed as a narcissist but she has a lot of narcissistic tendencies and a perpetual victim complex. They are constantly getting into blow out screaming matches that the rest of us have to tiptoe around, lest we get pulled in. It's not fun.
The first one made me happy for some reason- also is the chew necklace in the demigirl colors?
I just downloaded the tiny decisions app it looks so amazing
4:34 I was diagnosed with adhd just like my dad was and I also have anxiety and depression so I can hardly do anything and my mom still sees it as a miss diagnosis and won't put me on medication because she thinks they just wanted us to think I was so she would spend more money cause she doesn't see any of the signs in me •-• this lady is insane
it takes me a bit of time to comprehend things like my brains just slow and laggy and it's really annoying because unless i'm zoned in, i could take literally 45 minutes trying to figure out what 9 hours from 5:30 was. my bsf if really smart and doesn't have the same problems as me and tells me all the time that i'm just acting dumb and i'm not actually dumb i'm just pretending. and my mom would say things like "ur not actually sad you are just manipulating us and pretending to be upset" and i spiral out of control for like one thing. i'm always switching hobbies and i cAnT SlEep at night and end up doing weird things and starting new ideas. i'm very particular about the way my schedule goes or i don't care at all, like if smth is slightly not right then i screw it and stay up all night or am off the rest of the day. my mom tells me i'm self absorbed because i'll be talking about how i don't want people to think i'm weird if i go sit over there by the bench but not on the bench , i don't want them to think i'm being rude or whatever dum things like that and she'll blow it off as ur being narsasiti, also having anxiety about small things like people touching or being around my phone, i can't stand hugs i just don't like them, i hate touching other than hands/arms with clothing, and i actually really like holding on to peoples like shirt it's nice help idk why. and i always forget things cause so much goes on in my head.
ALSo i cAnT STOp copYing pEopls aCcents or the waY they TAlk and they'll be speaking like
"ohHHHHH my gosh i lorve my cat"
and i just "lorve" *idk what accent that is help*
I usually don't watch these because in the short time I'm exposed to them I start mirroring the people's actions-
I swear I don't mean to
I should stop watching these because they make me question if my autism diagnosis was false since i relate to very little of these ………
@@spiritsofwolves remember autism is a spectrum, not having something that someone else does doesn't invalidate you as an autistic person, it just means you don't have that one/multiple things. Have a good day/night :)
@@yourlocaltherapistfriend5091 yeah i know but it just doesnt add up i dont want to ask my parents to get tested again because i hear they are expensive i was diagnosed when i was like 6 though so i feel i might have been misdiagnosed idk…
The starkid song! The joy that brought me is unexplainable
OMG HI WHAT THE HECK
@@kiki8792 hi, I see you everywhere
5:31
Omg this is so true cuz one time on the school bus the bus driver had the radio on and the podcast kept saying "wiki!" And it was so frustrating I almost cried
*People talk about how they would watch one thing multiple times and only think about that said thing*
Me: lol that's never gonna happen to m-
*Watches the movie Luca 12 times*
Ugh same. It’s getting concerning I know the whole script
@@zaptheconfused4459 same
3:14 i would like to point out that calling all your bad traits narcissistic is kind iffy. It ties to npd because a narcissist is a person with npd. It is a cluster b term. And people with npd are not evil or abusive just because of their npd. Smh im sick of this bs.
Agreed. It's all about (well really any cross-neurotype relationships) knowing how all involved think and percieve then work with that and around that towards mutual benefit.
yoooooo, that whole song is an absolute MOOD
Oh quick clarification in the one about dermatillomania/excoriation disorder/skin picking, pulling at your eyebrow hairs (can also be your eyelashes, head hair, body hair, etc) is a separate thing!
It's called Trichotillomania (also referred to as just "trich" or pulling/plucking, picking also gets used but less from my understanding) and it's pretty much the same, except the compulsion is focused on your hair rather than your skin!
(very small clarification but i thought it would be worth putting out there because i have trich personally and i know it's somewhat criminally uncommon to be aware of ^^!!)
7:31 is 100% me lmao that one actually got a good belly laugh from me.
6:35 oh..... OH....... oh no.... so that's what it's called... I've been picking at my skin and my fingers and it leaves wounds and scars sometimes and I was wondering why I had such an irresistible impulse....... added that to the "little things i do that other people don't usually do" list
Omg so quirky! I've never seen another person like you before!
question, if you're still a minor and you're own therapist even suspects you to be neurodivergent, does it cost to get a screening or whatever it is
It depends where you live, if you live in the UK you can get a free screening at the NHS however it would be a long waiting list.
If youre in the USA or a y other country that doesnt provide free healthcare then you would have to pay quite a sum.
If your school happens to have a school physcologist that is qualified to screen for neurodivergencies then that would most likely be free of charge. It just depends where you live and even if your therapist suspected it you would still have to pay if your country doesnt provide free healthcare. Also, since you are a minor your therapist would most likely have to share her thoughts of you being neurodivergent with your parent/s or guardian/s. I hope everything goes well for you 💖
I did not expect to learn new things about myself when clicking this video today😭
I have anxiety And Intrustive thoughts (Going to get cheaked for OCD and Adhd soon) My mom Always calls me a scardy cat and overly Dramatic Bescuse I'm Scared of alot of things and feel bad things will happen and it hurts
Autism ocd and ptsd here, my sibling does the same. I don't know what to say since i haven't solved this problem (my sibling calling me that for my anxiety and also my fears to take risks) just know you aren't alone and i hope you find some comfort in that
me when i forgot something and my family was like "you didn't forget you're just lazy": 👁👄👁
9:24 I HEAR THAT DANGANRONPA AUDIO AGDJGDYFJGJDAJYF
oh and speaking of which I now have to figure out if my love of the series is a hyperfixation (like I thought it was) or a special interest...🙃
oh and also not being able to get into new stuff is a whole mood (the exception being for a one-time fandom wiki binge)
Does anyone else do “happy stims?” Like I’ll be talking to someone I know and start stimming like, alot
Yo they're back!!! Welcome back, mate!!
THE SONG AT THE END BY THE CLICK
HES MY FAVORITE UA-camR
WOAH
LOVE THE VID
First yaaaay
The first one
7:05 Wait, you mean to tell me that pulling out your eyebrow hairs when you're bored is not a 100% neurological behavior???
(This is a joke btw. I know I have some problematic stimming behaviors like the ones mentioned in the video.)
ending music credit goes to the UA-cam The Click (mark deck) for his OwO song
10:23 when I watched this I was like awww but then I started uncontrollably crying and hyperventilating for some reason then my cat helped me calm down. Maybe I cried because I wish someone was that understanding of me too? Idk lol
4:35 not only do i relate to this but my parents REFUSED to teach me how to clean (i.e mop, sweep, ect...) and then bitch when i dont do it right. its VERY aggrivating-
9:40 I’ve literally never understood people who can’t read their own handwriting. Like growing up there were always kids who had terrible handwriting but it’s because they didn’t actually try to write anything down, so they’d look back on it and try to read it and they couldn’t. Then there’s me, who can always read my own handwriting even though it’s “messy” AND I was always able to read everyone else’s as well. The teacher would always be like “can you tell me what this says?” About anything and everything lmao
the duality of not being able to filter out background noise normally because of autism but unable to hear absolutely anything if I'm hyperfocusing bc of adhd
7:19 I don't think I'm neurodivergent (never been diagnosed) but MAN I hate this sound, I had to take out my earbuds and just sit there for a moment, it felt like nails in my ear canals
Fr- i am neurodivergent and it kills me lol.
It might be sensory processing disorder (SPD), it is linked to most types of nuerodivergence but it can also be its own thing
omg the second one is so relateable though- me and my partner be like
ok but the one at like 4:34 , my teachers always say stuff like "nope, no excuses!, you shouldve done it anywyas" or whatever and it sucks
Do Spinabifida tiktoks exist?
Since I have that.. I also have two other conditions
Yay I’m early
7:48 yeah I get that a lot best way to explain it I found is saying the room is in Arabic but I barely speak French
thank you ive been waiting for this and i am so happy ty
i wrote a 9 page essay to ask my parents if i can get an autism test.
*but hell no i'm too dyslexic to read 6 words*
This video brought me some comfort when It is so difficult to be comfortable with myself.
The outro song is from the click on his music channel if anyone was wondering
7:19
Why did i just listen to that-
oh nope- nope nope- i-
Comfort drink will help- but no more listening to
that-
I relate to the you can't use that as an excuse on so much, both because of what they said and because I do have a diagnosis of autism but apparently still can't use it to explain behaviour.
I do believe I have at least some form of ADHD but unless they know someone who is diagnosed with it, they always brush me off; so instead I just get yelled at.
I am diagnosed for autistic spectrum disorder but still told that I can't use that as a reason. Instead I'm apparently using it so I can be difficult/work myself, dramatic, lazy.
Majority of this is from my mam. Who is the one who pushed to get me diagnosed, was there at every stage of it, and basically has to manage the majority of my life for me (my anxiety also makes things not happen, but what do I have to be anxious/stressed about, is all I get about that)
Because I don't mask/cover up as well as I used to due to stress/growing up/college. Also my old techniques have become their own problems now I'm supposed to be an adult (such as maladaptive daydreaming).
But I struggle to talk about this due to my difficulties so just ramble about it when ever it comes up in a casual setting, like UA-cam.
Even if I could I would probably just get the response of being dramatic. I try to bring up something relevant to lead into the conversation but get shut down before I get to my point, either their busy, change the subject, I get sidetracked, or just can't listen to me ramble.
At least I can ramble into the mass comment sections on UA-cam to help sift through my thoughts and experiences as I think better when I'm talking. At least until my social anxiety kicks in and I become self conscious of everything that I post. Like when I went over 3 years not commenting/posting anywhere, despite being constantly online whenever possible 😅
Yeah I should really just post this before I delete another lengthy comment or post it in my notes, as I've done in past. Or read through and just get rid of the unnecessary stream of consciousness writing I've just noticed I'm doing; where I write down every thought I have without thinking.
Is this an ADHD thing, does that make this more relevant, definitely makes me feel a less like I need to delete at least half of this, or should I still do it. Is this due to my autism, possibly anxiety. I don't know it's late and I'm tired.
I'll probably end up posting it just cause it's easier. Then I don't accidentally lose it all, again, and at this point I've put so much time into this I feel like it would be a waste. Literally just got locked out cause been on phone too long but able to unlock it long enough to finish and post this. I can always delete it later if regret posting it when I wake up, probably.
If you're reading this, I'm sorry this was not meant to be so long. Hope it helped you kill some time or that you got anything really. I get rambly when I'm tired as you can see 😅🙈🤦🏼♀️
Hi, This is Leo from the Spinning System :)
So I'd like to start off by saying I'm sorry about your parents, and I hope it gets better
@@yolopokecarp4408 hi Leo! 👋
Thank you so much! That's so nice of you! ☺️Same maybe some day 😅 yeah rambling happens a lot 😅 my mouth/hands have a mind of their own and don't know what I'm saying half the time 😅 barely even remember writing all that 🤣 my memory is terrible 😅 so yeah definitely inattentive 😅 and also daydreaming 💭 even have daydreams about rambling to people 😅 my head is very busy 🤣🤯 so I know how people feel cause I talk my own head off a lot 🤣yeah inattentive type is what I thought too can't focus too long on something as my brain gets bored and want to do something else, which can sometimes cause me to argue with myself, like daydreaming up conversations as I said. Now I probably sound like a crazy person, sorry. 😓
Your still very nice to comment, wish me well and offer guidance, even if you are a stranger on the internet. Not like I get much of that offline. So thank you for that.
I'm glad you enjoy reading comments so it wasn't too terrible and hope this isn't too all over the place; it's been a stressful day so having some trouble focusing.
But I hope your day was better especially as you seem so nice! ☺️ I don't mind reading long comments as some are so fascinating! I'm so lucky that UA-cam doesn't have a word limit on comments! 😅 Where else could I do stuff like this with possiblies of reaching others that may be able to help or just be nice or understand! ☺️ It's an amazing platform! I hope it fixes the issue it as though so could be even better! 😂 But I am a bit biased as spend a lot of time enjoying myself here! 😅 Hope you don't mind this wierd comment! I'm also hungry which doesn't help 🤣 I'll stop now and get some food 🍽️ wish you and your system all the best! 🌈
@@music2012pink Go eat some food I hope it's good! also the daydreaming thing might be Maladaptive daydreaming, it's a coping mechanism where you daydream to escape reality. Also you seem like a really nice personnnnnn :))))))))))))
@@yolopokecarp4408 thank you, I did and it was, even had some side salad, my mam makes my meals to make sure I eat properly.
Yeah I think your right I'm definitely MaDD (maladaptive daydreaming disorder). While I know it's not an official disorder and a lot of research needs to be done before they can tell if it is; I have heard some people theorise that because daydreaming is a mild form of dissociation that if it does then it would fit with them disorders. Which I think make sense, what about you?
Thank you, u too.
@@music2012pink Ooh! Sounds good I like salad!
Yeah, daydreaming and zoning are mild dissociation, because it's an escape and disconnect from reality :) I daydream alllllllllll the timeeeee but it's fun for the most part although I guess it keeps everyoen else from getting work donee sooooooooooo anywayssssss I hope your day is going superr wellllll (this is Goose by the wayyyyyyyy but Leo is co-con!)
Can you do some D.I.D tiktoks?
Wait a minute - the person with Asperger’s said it hurts their hand to write neatly …. Does anyone else experience this? Like my hand starts to go NOPE when the pen is turned the wrong way and I need to squeeze my fingers in the air and rotate the pen a few times - like it’s not muscle spasming from soreness but just … agitation???? Idk lol
I feel like I can’t watch this video
It is bringing back memories and thoughts and I feel like crying so I keep taking breaks
Omg I just remembered the owo song exists, thank you
I’m on 3 psych pills, one as needed, take one heart/BP “regulator” pill so that my heart won’t fluctuate too much if my adrenaline spikes, AND I have a surgical scar under my hairline going from the left side of my head to my right side.
And most of these people are coming off as bad ventriloquists in front of an audience that didn’t have to pay to get in.
dsmdhavsha kinda off topic(?) but theres this person that i really like and they're neurodivergent and here i am trying to learn more about this so i can treat them with care and love 🙆♀️✨❤️
Ohgod that’s so adorable- I have autism and if you want to ask me any questions about it you can- though it varies from person to person obviously
I'd like to add one to the tiktok at 10:40
Plural people having low sense of identity because everyone else is blending
Takis are better than lays
@@bats3190 I agree
The one at 4:33 is so relatable, especially the face they make at “oh yeah, you forgot”
I have an anxious tick where my eye brows just randomly go up and i cant stop 😭
7:33 IM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO HATES THAT TEXTURE! YES THANK GOD!
I've never been diagnosed with anything but I've been having this problem for a while where like I HAVE to sleep with noise but it has to be my own noise that I chose to hear and if I hear anything outside of my room (like the livingroom tv) I won't sleep until I can't hear it anymore
That's actually common
6:12 uhhh, i do this and i was told it was a symptom of my OCD. does OCD count as neurodivergence?
Yes
I feel called out with the fruit snack one
I love these I’m neurodivergent (adhd and motor tics)
We also have ADHD and I tic from time to time :)))))
@@yolopokecarp4408 aren't tics tourettes?
@@bats3190 Not necessarily. Tourette's is a neurological condition that includes both verbal AND motor tics (involuntary movement). Sometimes people with other neurodiversities (such as ADHD or autism) will have tics, but it will only be verbal OR only be motor. There's also another thing that's called a tic disorder which is a sub-category (kinda) of Tourette's where you only experience motor or verbal tics.
Hope this helps.
-Leo
Ok ok ok ok ok. I NEED to know if anyone else does this. Do you assign colors, personalities, shapes, or tastes to words, numbers, items, or thoughts? Hear me out, March is green, 3 is neon pink, left is thin, and the jumpy boots in Subway Surfers are evil. And I don't actively do this, it just happens. Does this happen with anyone else???
10:40 me as a kid looking up why I don’t have a personality vs me now seeking an autism diagnosis
Hello (•̀ᴗ•́)و
:D
I didn't even know what Neurodivergent or Neurotypical or what any of this stuff was a couple of days ago, I just grew up thinking I was fucked up... Huh.
So did I, until I got my ADHD diagnosis at 40. Now I know why I'm f'ed up
Okay but the one about picking was really calling me out *while I was picking at my leg*