Kiki's Delivery Service & YouTube Burnout
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Take a break if you need, we aren't going anywhere
Please, make this one top comment guys
And his parents are seriously awesome, if Patrick can't come up with idea, he could always film some random stuff with the Wilhelms
Dang, I misspelled everything lol
Ja, keiner geht! Super Kanal, ich liebe dein Zeug!
That's what the subscription is for. We're definitely staying subbed.
Only parents should be allowed to do ad reads from now on for every UA-cam channel
Samuel c137 it’s the first time I stayed for an ad...hahaha it was great.
Yes & I am still waiting for Dad's lasso explanation.
Oh my God, I couldn't click away from that ad. They were the cutest!!!
What?! You mean there is an alternative stress reliever to drinking a lot of alcohol?
Focus on engineering not in filmmaking
Have you tried ice cream? Works for me. =)
Big fan of your channel btw, keep up the good work.
you two know each other???!
It’s a conspiracy I tell you!
With the wonders of anime, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.
Having your parents do your shilling is straight big brain and I love it
This video has summed up so much of how I've been feeling with my own work lately, right up to the point mere minutes before this dropped into my subscriptions. Thank you for being so honest, and capturing all my frustrations. I hope this channel never stops, but if you need to take a break - we'll be here when you get back.
You two are my favorite UA-camrs
A reminder that this goes for you too. Please don't burn out.
@Malou Lewin or a union, maybe?
(not being sarcastic, I think workers supporting each other is hugely important and beneficial)
I love watching your videos, but I'd rather get one every six months where you loved it than regular ones where you're being worn down.
Why not do Q&A's when you need a break? Literally film yourself on a couch answering our questions.
Then you still get content up for the almighty algorithm, but you can also take two weeks off because you can probably do that one in a day.
I like that idea.
I second all of this. We'll be here no matter how long it takes between videos and the Q+A thing would be a way to keep the algorithm thing chugging along. Those might even help it if they become popular.
This is a great idea!
Seconded!
Agreed. Something casual thats less stressful.
Hi, I'm crying on my lunch break at work because this is too relatable. I had the same epiphany of sorts with Kikis about two years ago because of burning out, and I'm in the middle of burning out again with my work. I had already booked myself a week off at the end of the month (this our slow period) to really take a breather of some variety, but your description of that feeling that "if I work really hard now, and get those numbers up, THEN I can relax" and it never actually happening that way has been getting me super down
I will be here to watch your videos, and I'll love them even more if you're rested and taking care of yourself. I wish the algorithm and these platforms that have you create content and make tons of money off of it just to give you a piece would be more generous. You deserve incredible, good things without having to break yourself to get them.
Lots of love 💜💜💜
I can also relate. I work for myself and I think people think being your own boss is somehow less stressful but it isn't.
The take, has a video very similar to this on how the movie appeals to overworked melannials. So it's no surprise this movie really appeals to you at this time of your life. The movie just captures the essence of overwork so well.
I've been watching this movie when I am overwhelmed and artistically blocked since it was first released in the US, and I had 3 shitty jobs to put myself through college at the time, so some of the gen-xers are there too. My habit of this movie when I feel shitty and burnt out is now old enough to drink.
I don't particularly see kiki being overworked though. I think of it way more as a movie about slumping than burnout.
"Spirited away is Miyazaki's best movie, but Kiki is still my favourite" I FELT THAT
3dnygma
Tht hit me in the soul
SAME
3dnygma my thoughts exactly
Same thing here bro.
We’ll be here, dude. And those 40-minute videos can always be two-parters, which suddenly means hey, you’re ahead now.
I love your mum and dad x look after yourself man
Their presence in the video made me happy. I love how enthusiastic they were to shoot more Patrick Explains.
lmao those arent his parents
Patrick’s parents are my favourite characters in the Willems cinematic universe
"The last video was supposed to be a way more ambitious one, but I was struggling to figure it out. So I swapped it out at the last minute with a simpler one... and even that was a challenge to finish."
This whole video hit me real hard. Been feeling a lot of the exact same anxieties this year and it means a lot to know, at least, that I'm not alone in that.
Such a great video! Another thing I really loved is how Kiki is paid in the film. She doesn't have a set fee, instead she just kind of excepts what ever chum change people throw her way. And it's obvious that while her clientel apprieciates her, they also don't pay her that well, even though she acts like it in the film. There's this throwaway scene where Kiki sees some nice shoes, she wanna buy. But we never see her go back and get them. So she can't be making that much.
As someone who has been working in the freelance writing industry for next to nothing for three years now, I'm properly projecting... But it still yet another element of this film that I love.
As a courier myself, I can relate. Especially when Kiki helps out that elderly lady around the house and is worried that she was overpaid. There've been times where I've received bonus tips without warning for being punctual and immediately felt guilty for getting more than the required value of what I was delivering.
Really relate to this to myself. Chasing a goal on UA-cam that probably isn't real and will never eventuate. Good talk man 👍
Hello From the Future. You’re still doing great man, stay groovy. 🤘🏼
Just checks your channel and you're at just over 1 mil subs now. Nice too see :)
The extra material on that Blu-Ray is delightful, especially if you're swedish. It has a nice japanese lady walking around Stockholm and Visby like it's a fantasy land. She imagines Kiki flying around the towns, asks shop owners about trolls and witches etc. Watch it if you haven't.
The best version is the first edition disney dub released on dvd
There's something to consider about the sabbath. Its less about adhering to some obscure commandment and more about taking time to refresh for the week's work.
Sabbath! That's an itch I can scratch, but if all you're doing is resting so you can be more productive, you're missing the point of Sabbath. Eugene Peterson calls that a "bastard Sabbath" (love that guy). Keep diggin' on the Sabbath thing, but hunt for more meaning than just "productivity" or "optimization". Blessings.
@@segamble1679 You beat me to it. 😉
@@segamble1679 Rest can mean more than lack of productivity. Of course what Sabbath means is moving from the profane work week into the spiritual realm, letting the work week person rest and put your focus and efforts on different pursuits.
Either way, it helps the rest of the week, which was my point.
I love the modern critical lens that this film's been receiving -- how it so perfectly captures the struggles of artists, millennials, or just anyone who feels beaten down by expectations -- it's always been one of my favorites, ever since I was a kid, but nowadays I feel like I resonate with it even more now than I used to
If Every Frame a Painting came out with a new video today I'd still go straight over to that channel and watch it. Relax Patrick we're here with you
Patrick, when a person cares about their work the way you do it can be difficult to finish projects. Please keep doing what you do because you produce some of the very best work available on the UA-cams. Thank you for all your content.
been feeling similar lately. i stopped putting pressure on myself to be doing something at all times and just started enjoying my time. freelancing and filmmaking full time means your brain is never off. you're always brainstorming and planning your next move. we teach ourselves to always be "on" for survival. relaxation will let us live longer. i know you mostly said all of this more eloquently, but just know most of us are feeling it.
God, this whole video is a big mood and I needed to hear it.
I'm feeding you by feeding the algorithm. Full watch minutes, upvote and comment! I need you here for the long run, Patrick!
"It looks like a combination of Paris and Stockholm."
Stockholm and Visby, actually! (Old medieval city, also located in Sweden.) These were the two locations Miyazaki visited to scout out location concepts for the movie.
Holy crap your parents are the cutest ❤️
Kiki’s Delivery Service is also my favorite Miyazaki film. Thank you for putting the beauty of this film into words in a way I never could. Your work means a lot to some many people. Please always remember to take care of yourself.
I work in recording and music production, and feel THE EXACT SAME WAY. Impossible deadlines, constant self-doubt, and a guilt that surrounds being burned out at a "cool" job I should feel lucky to have. It's eerie when a total stranger starts describing the inner turmoil that surrounds productivity and self-worth and it sounds exactly like my own inner monologue. Thank you so much for your candor and honesty. It's helpful to feel like you're not alone.
This video hit home so much. Thank you for making this! You have no idea how impactful this video was for me.
House in the woods to watch Kiki's Delivery Service? What a perfect setting!
Also, thank you for your incredible insight into this incredible movie, it really gives it a whole other meaning. I often thought the ending was a little disjointed but your explanation made me appreciate it in a whole new way. The beauty of movies, books, art, music, videogames etc they can inspire you in so many ways and without having to say it, in this instance they can help you cope. To see your current situation from another point of view. Simply excellent Patrick, THIS IS YOUR REASON TO FLY!!!
Also you are a perfect blend of your mom and dad you look exactly like BOTH of them!!!
If you haven't yet, you should watch Whisper of the Heart. It's not a Miyazaki film, but I think you'd like it quite a bit.
For sure! It's wonderful
Relating to this so much, especially the feeling guilty when not working part. And feeling stressed and anxious constantly because of all the pressure to upload on time.
This spoke to me so much.
I make games and we are in crunch now.
I live on the other side of the world, away from friends and family.
I am burning out.
Your mum asking "Is there anything we can do?" put a tear in my eye.
Love your parents. I smiled when I saw them :)
Take the time you need Patrick. We will be waiting!
Back to work...
I know this is all about managing stress and burnout but I just remembered how Kiki's Delivery Service has, like, the best flying scenes I've ever seen in anything and now that's all I can think about.
I thought you were about to ask your parents to make one video a month while you go on your mini vacations.
Mini vacations? You mean weekends?
I would 100% watch those!
Movies that have made Patrick cry is probably one that makes every one cry. (Paddington 2’s ending is so tough not to cry through holy shit)
I left my career four months ago when I felt this way. Take a break Pat, you deserve it.
OH MY GOD IT'S LIKE YOU PULLED THIS FROM MY BRAIN
We love ya Pat, take as much rest as you need. We don’t mind waiting.
You're not alone brother! Parts of this had me clutching my chest with tears in my eyes. "Returning home after working late into the night and collapsing, canceling plans with friends because you're falling apart due to work and don't have the energy to interact with people". I HAVE to watch this film now. Thank you for this. Workaholics/ Creatives go through so much under the surface and for the longest we have ZERO to show for it. Take your time friend. Your work, efforts, creativity and experiences are important. We'll be here waiting for the alerts after you get some time to live your life ✌🏾
I understand Patrick. I run an online business and I'm constantly rotating between manic excitement over how I want to expand and grow with crippling anxiety over the un-ending work load and oppressive responsibility that never ends. Being your own boss means you don't get to clock out at 5 and put work out of your mind. It's always in the back of your head, even when you're taking a break. It's amazing because it's YOU and you have so much control, but it also never lets you out of its grasp. We love and enjoy your work. Please take the time you need to relax (regularly) so we can continue to enjoy your insight for years to come.
Fantastic video as always. Don’t work too hard, your well-being is more important!
Patrick! You gotta take care of you. Loved your little homage footage to Kiki (like sighing on your parent's counter, and making pancakes), plus your parents are adorable and loved how they read the sponsored segment at the end!
While having higher ambitions for each video is a good thing, quality vs quantity while improving is a hard balance. But when you were talking about the ever increasing runtime of your videos, I have to say that try to aim a limit for a video's runtime. Like for instance this video at 14:00 is perfect, anything that's longer than 25 minutes can be a chore for most viewers. I know it's more of an investment but have you considered maybe working with an editor?
Kiki's Delivery Service is my favorite Ghibli film too, plus don't worry, I also cried recently during the "fly" scene as my recent struggles resonated those of Kiki's and of yours illustrated in this video when I was introducing the film to my nieces and nephews earlier this summer. Anyway always a fan of your videos and look forward to them, take as many breaks as you need to keep your mind sharp and from being overwhelmed. All the best.
Just watched Kiki's Delivery Service for the first time and adored it, then came straight to this video for your take. You hit on so many of the things that I also responded to in the film. I moved to Dublin 6 years ago and am finishing up a PhD, and find myself in the same place as you were in this video - I love it, but it's draining me. Your discussion of the film was really enlightening and your honesty about stress and burnout was relatable and very affecting. Thanks you!
I, too, rarely cry during movies. My list goes:
• It’s A Wonderful Life
• Rocky
• The Straight Story
• Up
• Boyhood
• Inside Out
• Sing Street
Great video about burnout. If only it hadn't been so much work to produce eh? Also the first time in years I haven't immediately closed the video once the ad started. Take care of yourself Patrick
Patrick, I could have sworn I saw your Mum(Mom) a couple of weeks ago, on a vintage bus, at a vintage fair, just outside London UK. I couldn't think where I knew this woman from, but then I remembered her saying "Patrick!" in her accent, and my brain did the dolly-zoom from Jaws. Probably wasn't her but there ya go. Take a break, a holiday. You're lucky you have awesome parents, who clearly love you and what you do very much. Spend more time with them.
Doppelganger/alternate timeline/hallucination maybe?
" I think Spirited Away is probably Miyazaki's best movie... But this is my favorite " I literally say this phrase, THIS EXACT PHRASE, all the time. For the same reasons as you do, the relatability level is off the charts, great video !
I only recently discovered your channel, but took no time at all in tearing my way through your archives. You helped remind me what I love about film after going through my own burnout. You've got a fan for life.
Aaaaaaaaand now the girlfriend and I are going to watch Kiki's Delivery Service this weekend. Great video!
This reminds me of Jazza's videos when he's struggling through burnouts and creative blocks. Don't stretch yourself too far buddy, go enjoy your idle minds.
As someone who just got back from a family holiday where I spent 8+ hours every day working because I have two weeks left to finish my thesis for a 4 year PhD that left me mentally drained, exhausted and sobbing from frustration and defeat more times than I can remember, this video really resonated with me.
Academic science is obviously different from creative/gig economy work in many ways, but it’s also defined by incredibly long hours, high pressure to succeed, constantly shifting goalposts for what “success” actually is, the need to work the hours required to fulfil whatever the latest goal is, no matter what toll it takes on your physical or mental health and uncertainty over income and employment if you fail to adequately meet every increasing criteria for “success” in your field.
So yeah, I can definitely relate. Thanks for making this video and being open about the struggles you face despite working a job you love and chose to do.
The reason I subscribe to Patrick and youtubers like him is that he takes his time with videos and they're always good.
I like seeing his updates every few weeks and knowing it's gonna be interesting instead of getting weekly or bi-weekly updates of filler.
So he can take his time with videos.
Mental health is important man. Take the time you need. We'll see your stuff when we see it :]
Bein an artist with social media is complitely craycray. Take your time !
kiki's delivery service is such a happy and feel good movie. there are a few movies that I use as Anti-depressants (star wars, scott pilgrim, etc.) and Kiki is one of those.
As a working (and studyied) musician, I can relate to a lot of your problems and I always connected with Kiki but never quite knew why. So thanks patrick willems. You explainend to me how I am a 13 year old Witch that struggles to fly.
jokes aside, burnout and depression are not funny things and as soon as it affects your working schedule or private life, they need to be tackled and adressed. Artistic perfection is both a blessing and a curse, as it pushes you further to make the best art you've ever made while also prohibiting you from creating something simpler or easier or even stop creating when you're body needs some space and time out.
Listen to your body and head and take as much time as you need, cause, well, you need it.
Also that ad was the best ad I've ever seen.
This is one of those uniquely relatable videos that ascends a content creator from one I enjoy to a new favorite. I didn't know I needed a video about this topic so hard.
“Up” isn’t on your list of movies that have made you cry, and I just want you to know I am judging you real hard for that omission
I’ll still be here to watch your videos when you get back. Just don’t quit for good you beautiful bald ginger.
Hey, man. First off, you're doing great. Take a break, recoup, and just do your thing you'll always have followers. Fall is coming soon and it's a reminder that change is ever constant and may yours be golden. Also, your parents are just lovely. Good vibes all around.
You, sir, are fantastic.
I watch your videos in batches while I’m washing dishes, cleaning my house, etc.
I really appreciate your perspective on films, and your videos make me love watching movies more.
And Jameson also gives me joy.
Do whatever makes/keeps you healthy & liking what you do.
I love seeing new videos pop up in my feed, but if I don’t see any new ones, I always go back to your old stuff. I’ll be here regardless.
Wishing the best for you!
Sounds like Patrick is on a path to becoming hbomberguy: over 400k subs and a vid every 5 or so months.
Patrick H Bomberguy, lol. Tbh the crossover would be cool.
What are you talking about? All we need to do is sacrifice 4 lambs and a jar of honey to the ocean every Saturday and then hbomb is sure to release a new video then
To the ocean? Are you sure that would work? Isn't Sobek more of a river god?
@@Argacyan They've had a crossover since this comment has been made! In the Kingdom Hearts video, Hbomberguy can be seen walking past the camera in the background.
Mate just take a damn holiday! You deserve it!
I, for one, am happy to see you spend an appropriate amount of time making videos you really want to make, instead of stressing and cramming to fulfill the needs of an arbitrary schedule you made to please an algorithm.
Good job. It's nice to see this kind of candor from an Internet Personality; they're usually a lot more opaque than this, especially about issues of burnout.
Hope you get through this burnout, Patrick... left unchecked it can lead to worse health problems. I too have been suffering with similar issues for the past year and left my job in March to take a break and try and get refreshed. I'm still struggling, but working through it slowly. Best wishes!
Work burnout is real. Breaks and vacations are important!
Wonderful video! Thank you.
Remember to slow down and take it easy.
I've been there. I did UA-cam nearly full time for 6 years and never managed to break through but really wanted to. So full time UA-cam with two day jobs and musical projects on the side. I was anti-social and frequently unavailable but i'm glad i had friends (most of them anyways) who understood i had a goal and were patient with me. This video really spoke to me, as did Kiki's Delivery Service when i first watched it earlier this year. Kind of amazing i started watching your channel last week, then the next video you release is basically one written directly for me. I love your channel and your work. I won't just casually drop a "take a break, you've earned it" cause i know the fear involved in that, but i guess i'm commenting right now to just say "i hear you, and i understand that struggle".
Thank you for sharing this, Patrick. I too had this exact same experience with both UA-cam and Kiki. Early in 2018 I got burnt out trying to make this channel a full-time gig, it completely crippled my creativity and ability to work. In this time I rewatched Kiki and it taught me that you can't force it, and in time it will all return. And then I made a video about Fisherman's Horizon from Final Fantasy VIII and my UA-cam burnout / anxiety, and what Kiki had taught me. I'm so grateful to hear your story and how much it parallels with my own. It's nice to know you're not alone.
I'm no youtube creator, but no matter i do i've always made a big deal out of keeping the weekends off, i think that's important (Two consecutive days off every week).
Just saying a few words to keep the yt algorithm machine ticking.
I deal with so much of this same stuff as a podcast producer. And I take the exact same refuge in Kiki's. With you, man.
I love that Patrick's response to stressing out in relation to a Ghibli film was to unknowingly perform the literal plot of another Ghibli film.
Watch Only Yesterday, the adorable film about an overworked city girl who goes to the countryside to escape burnout and anxiety-fueled depression while reminiscing about her past!
It's sad that youtube favors creators that upload regulary, it forces creators to upload a video even if they have nothing to show or say. Maybe the algorythm should do the exact opposite. Personaly Im more liklely to watch a Video from someone I haven't seen in a while.
By the way, I can't see _Up_ on the list of movies that made Patrick cry, which seems to me like a clear indication that he's A LITERAL HEARTLESS MONSTER, I kid you not (I do... partially).
Seriously, though: take care of yourself, Patrick, that's always the number one priority.
I’m watching this while on leave from work due to burnout, and your situation is really resonating with me today. I’ve stopped half way to avoid spoilers, but I’ll watch the film this weekend and hopefully I enjoy it as much as you have.
Started crying like a minute in because this movie is so important to me and I relate so much with you here. I don't think I go a single year without watching this movie. And I completely feel you on your experiences being burnt out and finding comfort in the film. I'm a freelance composer by trade but also work various gigs to make a living. I've gone through burnout so many times in the last few years and I'm only in my 20s. But the movie is always there to....serve as this kind of reminder that something isn't wrong with me, but is something that can just happen to anyone. idk I have a lot of thoughts about it but im not sure now is a moment where I can articulate them all.
Anyway, point is thanks for the fantastic video. This is the first I've seen from you but I'll definitely follow what you done from here on. That said, take your time! Good luck with everything in the future!
I always wanted to live in Kiki's world too.
Dang. 8 months without a vacation sounds terrible
Even if you love your job
Or a weekend.
This is a really important video for so many people to see, including myself.
I'm just now leaving college and trying to get myself into a life where I work mostly for myself and produce art for an audience of friends and strangers. It's what I've always wanted to do, too. Hearing you talk about this, though, especially considering you have what I want, and hearing you talk about you struggle with mental health, it brings a lot of things into perspective. I mean, I also feel shitty about myself if I'm not constantly doing things with my time. That's a big reason I want the life I want.
But again, I'm very happy to have seen this video. You're one of my favorite artists on the internet, and it feels like a personal letter (or maybe a diary entry?) on how to slow down and take care of yourself.
I broke myself with work a few years back. To this day, I have not mentally recovered from it. I used to be just like you, feeling guilty if I am not working but now there are days where the thought of having to work gives me panic attacks and anxiety. I was diagnosed with PTSD caused by work. Learn to switch off because it is really hard to fix yourself if you collapse.
Simply set work only hours and leisure only hours. And force yourself to the schedule. You find the job magically starts to fit inside the deadline after a while.
Lindsay Ellis appears to be taking a break. Also, I wish I had your parents.
Trust me man, I started watching back in the old days with the fun short films and I know a lot of your fans are ,like me, from the old days. Every single day the early Patrick inspires me, shows me that I can make anything I want to with no budget and make it great. If you wanna make a fun, goofy, short video, trust me, we’re all for it
Such a fascinating way to look at burnout! This is why you are such a great creator mate, because you can extrapolate the meaning from one of your favourite movies and connect with the character in a whole new way.
Your parents are adorable. I detect an accent from your mom, where is she from?
Well, she named her son Patrick...
(She's Irish.)
You're an amazing creator Patrick. Thank you for all your hardwork. I can significantly relate to your struggle, and I hope your continuing work on achieving balance and practicing wellness succeed fabulously.
Also, that's one of the few times I've watched all the way through the endorsement -pure gold. Give your parents a hug from UA-cam.
Ok. You got me pretty good with the parents reading the skill share ad thing. That had me laughing genuinely out loud. Well done sir
Wow... I think you just voiced my problems right now. I’m an artist and I’ve been struggling to make more art and stress out when I’m not making more art and my energy has just dried up. I’m so glad you shared this video, I think it helps other creators not feel alone in their struggles.
It’s also important to note that her powers ween when she starts losing self confidence. Which worsen as she got more depressed and reflected on work. Super relatable. Recently I’ve been staying in bed almost all day every day with no motivation to do anything for the same reasons
Kiki's means soo much to my growing up and I'm excited to see it's such an inspiration and comfort to you too! Hope you find that groove again soon, but take the time you need!
I never really dove too deeply into doing UA-cam/creative work until recently, and I appreciate honest little projects like this that shed some insight on the experience. Your voice is one that I respect and I hope you know that what you say has immense value to a ton of folks. Returning the favor and being here for you when you come back from a vacation of any length is the least we can do.
Oh my, your video hit home, hard and I'm so glad I found this.
I can't even begin to describe how much I relate to you - and Kiki - but I will try. I'm not a youtuber, but an artist and even though I am not yet at the point where I can make a living off of my art, it's my passion, it's what I live and breathe for. But recently, during the past few weeks or months it's become such a...Chore and I've been struggling, partially because I've been having trouble concentrating. And yet I keep pushing forward, telling myself I need to "deliver" and "produce" results because it's what people expect from me. I update my social media pages on FB and IG twice a week, so I'm always dreading what happens if I don't have anything to show for...On top of it all I get so frustrated with myself - just like your videos get longer and you feel viewers expect that, my drawings get more and more elaborate. I want to draw something simple, but end up spending days working on tiny details - and for what? Because I am also chasing a goal, like you too, with your aim of publishing one video a month. I'm telling myself I need to finish my ToDo list with drawings I owe to other people, in order to have time for myself, that once I am done with that, I can focus on illustrations for my novel and things like that. I can't relax, I constantly think of work I have yet to do. I literally have to FORCE myself not to work on weekends, but every so often whenever I'm not productive enough, I will cancel my weekend to catch up.
Due to all that pressure I put on myself, I haven't even had time for my other passion, writing, even though I miss it dearly. And I miss being creative, really drawing just for the fun of it, enjoying it, not just...Producing. I didn't realize until I watched your video that it might be artistic Burnout, though. I thought maybe I just lost my inspiration and convinced myself to join Inktober next month to recapture the creative flame.
But maybe, once this challenge is over, I should take a step back too, and pause for a while, just like Ursula did... I dunno.
In any case, I want to say thank you for your amazing video, it really opened my eyes.
The quality of your work is ridiculously good for how much you put out, I'm not surprised that's taking a lot out of you. When I first subscribed I never expected the quantity of videos you put out, I was just looking forward to the quality.
As an aside, Kiki's delivery service is beautiful, I watch it in the same way.
That describes depression and major anxiety. You described the exact symptoms I felt 10 months ago, before I got help and started working towards getting better.
And the cycle of freelancing you mention is a vicious one : you don`t do the work, you miss a schedule, you stress about not delivering, you get more tired, you don`t do the work, you miss a schedule...etc! It's a vicious, vicious, cycle. It feeds itself.
Seek help, get help, and do it you way
Also, Joe Hisa/ishi (Sorry, my Japanese pronunciation system shorted out when you said it lol)
THANK YOU for not handing us a bunch of BS about taking a break and how helpful it is.
I want to Thank You so much for this video. Just yesterday I posted on FB how I'm feeling burnt out and questioning the worth of my efforts. Now I see my situation is not unique, and, more importantly, is more the product of the expectations I force upon myself due to the UA-cam atmosphere. I need to find me a copy of Kiki's Delivery Service! Got to go and make my next video, but just want to say Thanks again!
God damn! ... this video comes at the right time. I'm becoming a teacher and the words you said, were the things I felt for the past weeks. So eerie to hear them from you.
Thanks to open my eyes to that I'm also actually struggling with this and have to bring back a sensible balance back into my life.
As a new UA-camr, I am already hitting that burn out state trying to "keep to the schedule." I quickly realized that it is not sustainable. Even shorter "throw away" videos can be just as good as the longer ones. Thanks for sharing Patrick.
Good for you. Life is far to short to throw years away due to stress and work. Your talent and intelligence are evident in every video you have, so all of us who are lucky enough to see them, will be here whenever they come out. Schedules are great as a road map, but don’t forget to sit back, look up from the map, and enjoy the fact your alive and the view of a passing world.
The beauty of Miyazaki's film is that they are a gift that keeps on giving.
Btw, to anyone who can't wait for a new video I suggest to go back and watch an old one! Always entertaining and interesting.