Wet.. vent. check desc

I don't really wanna explain it 100% but I was SA'd (Sexual assaulted) at the age of 7 and it continued till I was 8 to 9 years old and it stuck with me a lot but later I started developing a strong sex drive during that time too and I blame the SA and also my father.. he watches a lot of porn during that time and I could hear the sounds so I started getting into it, and my "fantasy" is where I'm being Raped as I find it "tempting" even tho I hate it. it's really messed up and i really hate it. hypersexaulity is no joke.