My eyes are filled with tears listening to this. Although I had to wrestle with my mother my entire life to claim my autonomy, both parents lived into their early 90s, and I got to see both of them mellow and enter with me into a sort of reconciliation. So I see it as a blessing to have known them for so many years through their own evolution.
I lost another pet two days ago, thanks for this episode. Ive been putting off listening to this oe because I knew it would be sad. My dog died pretty much out of nowhere, so I am grateful to listen to your words about this.
I'm so sorry. I know that heartache very well. My beautiful 2-year-old airedale, Finn unexpected died right before Christmas this year. Trying to hold the grief I created this homage, ua-cam.com/video/U42NyDm1XGw/v-deo.html ~ Joseph
I got really inspired by that Celtic fairytale in my own way. Thank you for sharing it. But I'll just cut to the chase. I'm at a breaking point in my life. Everyday I'm starting to feel more and more that nothing around me is real. Like I'm living in the Maya (illusion) and it's a dream I need to escape from. I also feel horrible about myself for being inactive. I have law exams in ten days and it has served to worsen my mood. I find studying for exams so unnatural and fear-based. I keep feeling bad about myself. I feel worthless for not using my time in the best way and also feel bad for not recognizing on an emotional level that none of this matters. I had a bitter feud with my mother last night that reminded me just how much she has ignored me all my life. I try to talk to her and she doesn't respond and when does she shouts and insults. I can't live on my own because I live in a South Asian household and society where a woman can't move out of her parents' home unless she is married (or moves abroad) and even my marriage is in their hands. I don't have control over my destiny but I want to close my eyes cultivate a place inside myself where these feelings cannot seep in and I can create my own dream where I'm happy at last. I've been fundamentally unloved by my family my whole life - and I know the family archetype is very important to me. I want to feel loved and empathized with on every level. I feel like almost everytime I try to talk to someone on the internet, they destroy my feelings of self worth. I want to feel confident in myself - that even if I do an exam or two badly, I am still worthy, that even if I've been mistreated by people I considered my family and the complex psychic torment that's caused, I'm still worthy.. I've sunk so low into depression since last night and can't get my self to even enjoy just being with myself. Tears are overflowing... How do I cultivate an inner happiness and self-worth that isn't dependent on the events and people I come across in this life? I'm extremely co-dependent it seems.
Your pain is deep and evident. There are no quick solutions. Please consider listening to episode 144 on Fierce Female Initiations and try to call upon the Self for aid. ~ Joseph
Note also Anne Rice's The Vampire Lestat, where Lestat tries to hold onto his dying mother by turning her into a vampire, only to find that, after the change, they can't feel any connection to each other any more.
Hello, I want to thank you for producing these episodes. Just so you have an idea of how far and wide your content goes, I'm listening from the Dominican Republic as I do my artwork. I found out about your content through Lisa's interview with Benjamin Boyce. My mother is very interested in Jungian analysis and I have had curiosity about it as well for a while. On another note, about grief and bereavement, I think a great film about this is The Tree of Life, by Terrence Malick. It's a moving illustration of how one traverses the pain of losing someone dear. Keep up the good work!
The first 20seconds absolutely gave me shivers. I underwent a ketamine therapy session recently in which I vividly uncovered my inner child in "The Dark" (the underworld perhaps) searching for our dead father. I have heard no one else before now describe grief in this way. This is a sinchronicity.
My eyes are filled with tears listening to this. Although I had to wrestle with my mother my entire life to claim my autonomy, both parents lived into their early 90s, and I got to see both of them mellow and enter with me into a sort of reconciliation. So I see it as a blessing to have known them for so many years through their own evolution.
I lost another pet two days ago, thanks for this episode. Ive been putting off listening to this oe because I knew it would be sad. My dog died pretty much out of nowhere, so I am grateful to listen to your words about this.
I'm so sorry. I know that heartache very well. My beautiful 2-year-old airedale, Finn unexpected died right before Christmas this year. Trying to hold the grief I created this homage, ua-cam.com/video/U42NyDm1XGw/v-deo.html ~ Joseph
I got really inspired by that Celtic fairytale in my own way. Thank you for sharing it.
But I'll just cut to the chase. I'm at a breaking point in my life. Everyday I'm starting to feel more and more that nothing around me is real. Like I'm living in the Maya (illusion) and it's a dream I need to escape from. I also feel horrible about myself for being inactive. I have law exams in ten days and it has served to worsen my mood. I find studying for exams so unnatural and fear-based. I keep feeling bad about myself. I feel worthless for not using my time in the best way and also feel bad for not recognizing on an emotional level that none of this matters. I had a bitter feud with my mother last night that reminded me just how much she has ignored me all my life. I try to talk to her and she doesn't respond and when does she shouts and insults. I can't live on my own because I live in a South Asian household and society where a woman can't move out of her parents' home unless she is married (or moves abroad) and even my marriage is in their hands. I don't have control over my destiny but I want to close my eyes cultivate a place inside myself where these feelings cannot seep in and I can create my own dream where I'm happy at last.
I've been fundamentally unloved by my family my whole life - and I know the family archetype is very important to me. I want to feel loved and empathized with on every level. I feel like almost everytime I try to talk to someone on the internet, they destroy my feelings of self worth. I want to feel confident in myself - that even if I do an exam or two badly, I am still worthy, that even if I've been mistreated by people I considered my family and the complex psychic torment that's caused, I'm still worthy.. I've sunk so low into depression since last night and can't get my self to even enjoy just being with myself. Tears are overflowing... How do I cultivate an inner happiness and self-worth that isn't dependent on the events and people I come across in this life? I'm extremely co-dependent it seems.
Your pain is deep and evident. There are no quick solutions. Please consider listening to episode 144 on Fierce Female Initiations and try to call upon the Self for aid. ~ Joseph
Note also Anne Rice's The Vampire Lestat, where Lestat tries to hold onto his dying mother by turning her into a vampire, only to find that, after the change, they can't feel any connection to each other any more.
Great example. ~ Joseph
Hello, I want to thank you for producing these episodes. Just so you have an idea of how far and wide your content goes, I'm listening from the Dominican Republic as I do my artwork. I found out about your content through Lisa's interview with Benjamin Boyce. My mother is very interested in Jungian analysis and I have had curiosity about it as well for a while.
On another note, about grief and bereavement, I think a great film about this is The Tree of Life, by Terrence Malick. It's a moving illustration of how one traverses the pain of losing someone dear.
Keep up the good work!
The first 20seconds absolutely gave me shivers. I underwent a ketamine therapy session recently in which I vividly uncovered my inner child in "The Dark" (the underworld perhaps) searching for our dead father. I have heard no one else before now describe grief in this way. This is a sinchronicity.
I really appreciate how you guys are sort of not “grief experts”
I was reminded of Parsifal and the Grail King, who has a wound that will not heal.
Thank you so much for bringing such a valuable and validating perspective of grief! Also… I’m listening from India… your reach is wide!
22:30 yes this exactly what’s happened to me
I wonder if I will make a return. I want to but I can’t find my way