1000% agree with all of this. I have had many moments like you said "have to go!". Also that huge sunken feeling when you realize, what a minute he would be older than that now! Tsunami of waves of grief and joy and guilt. 100% agree. ❤
I also vacation in the outer banks. Had you seen us, we might have been one of those families that triggered you as I have two adult daughters and a son. We would look totally normal and happy all together on the beach. But what no one would realize is how deeply we are grieving the loss of my daughter’s baby girl Violet this past March. My world has shattered. I cry every day for my pain and my daughter’s as I am helpless to take her pain away. I am sad angry jealous-all the things at any given moment. In a crowd I often look around, certain that I am the saddest person in the room. I can’t look at a baby, walk down the baby aisle of a store, or go to a multitude of places that just feel too painful. But no one knows this and I don’t know their story either. Thank you for your videos, our losses may be different, but we are not alone in our grief. Hugs ❤
I just went to visit my in-laws out of state, a place we have gone a lot with our 2 kids and I totally get it. It has only been 5 months since my daughter died & I realized that it was way too soon for me to visit all these places we all always go to together. Everything just felt wrong, different, not as good as it used to be if that makes sense. It just felt sad & I felt a strange cloud around us all that just felt sort of like anxiety or tension that never was there before.
I know what you mean. I went to New York with my friend. My husband and I talked about going there but we never made it. I was so proud of myself and had such a good time. I knew my husband would have been proud too that I went and had fun that’s all he ever wanted was for me to be happy. I never felt the guilt but I’m finding lately when I’m happy for whatever reason I become very angry. He should be here sharing these moments with me. I feel the dark cloud over me all the time now and it’s pretty scary. I thought I was doing better. I guess I have to ride this wave once again
Brooke Carolck hello anyway I'll be sure to tell family vlogs about you and your family i just hope UA-cam will let me say your full UA-cam name just because your UA-cam name has the word S u c k s in it as well:).
1000% agree with all of this. I have had many moments like you said "have to go!". Also that huge sunken feeling when you realize, what a minute he would be older than that now! Tsunami of waves of grief and joy and guilt. 100% agree. ❤
I'm sorry you understand, but it's nice to know we're not alone. ❤️
Such great examples of grief and wonderful advice. Your boys are so lucky to have you as a mom. And so was Libby.
Thank you so much. ❤️
I also vacation in the outer banks. Had you seen us, we might have been one of those families that triggered you as I have two adult daughters and a son. We would look totally normal and happy all together on the beach. But what no one would realize is how deeply we are grieving the loss of my daughter’s baby girl Violet this past March. My world has shattered. I cry every day for my pain and my daughter’s as I am helpless to take her pain away. I am sad angry jealous-all the things at any given moment. In a crowd I often look around, certain that I am the saddest person in the room. I can’t look at a baby, walk down the baby aisle of a store, or go to a multitude of places that just feel too painful. But no one knows this and I don’t know their story either. Thank you for your videos, our losses may be different, but we are not alone in our grief. Hugs ❤
Yes, it just goes to show how we never know anyone else's story. Sending you so many hugs. ❤️
Thank you for making your videos, Brooke! It’s always nice to know we’re not alone in our grief & I was just thinking the same thing about vacations!
You are so welcome. Sending love and strength. ❤️
I just went to visit my in-laws out of state, a place we have gone a lot with our 2 kids and I totally get it. It has only been 5 months since my daughter died & I realized that it was way too soon for me to visit all these places we all always go to together. Everything just felt wrong, different, not as good as it used to be if that makes sense. It just felt sad & I felt a strange cloud around us all that just felt sort of like anxiety or tension that never was there before.
Oh my gosh, five months is SO soon. That's still survival mode. I'm sending you so much love. ❤️
I know what you mean. I went to New York with my friend. My husband and I talked about going there but we never made it. I was so proud of myself and had such a good time. I knew my husband would have been proud too that I went and had fun that’s all he ever wanted was for me to be happy. I never felt the guilt but I’m finding lately when I’m happy for whatever reason I become very angry. He should be here sharing these moments with me. I feel the dark cloud over me all the time now and it’s pretty scary. I thought I was doing better. I guess I have to ride this wave once again
Yes... the anger about feeling happy is very real too. Ugh, sending hugs. We're always riding the waves, aren't we? 💔
Brooke Carolck hello anyway I'll be sure to tell family vlogs about you and your family i just hope UA-cam will let me say your full UA-cam name just because your UA-cam name has the word S u c k s in it as well:).
Thank you so much for your support!! :)