One of my oldest friends committed suicide by hanging on September 26 2022. I came back and revisited this song because I miss him so much. The pain of loosing him, of seeing his body in a coffin with bruises on his neck..... it was horrible. His mom is the one who found him.
i haven’t listened to this song since my last attempt a year ago. i thought i’d gotten better but i haven’t. i wish i had the courage to actually do this.
Don't. I know how you feel. I feel the same way but please don't. Your life matters and people love you. I know it doesn't feel like it and you've heard it before but it's not worth it. Please hold on. I know it's hard but you'll be okay.
It breaks me to see all these comments who say ,,when I was 10 (...)" it includes me but it hurts to see that other people had to feel the same. Tbh I just came back here because I feel the same again like 6 years ago and knew that this song kinda kept me trough it. I hate life. Why cant everything just get better. How long do I still have to survive?..
To anyone who needs to hear this: Things suck. Life sucks. Everything sucks. You have made it this far in your life and I’ve never been more proud of you for coming this far. The happiness from your childhood has faded away, the things that made you innocent no longer exist. I get it. Maybe not how you feel but I get that it hurts. But just understand, you’re never going to be truly alone. You’ll be alone when the stars in the sky no longer glow. But until then, the stars are your company. They’ve seen millions and billions of people for literal centuries suffer. If they were a real person I guarantee they can tell you all about the similar things people have cried about. You’re not alone in how you feel, alright? It doesn’t seem like it now, but things will get better. I love and appreciate you.
If anyone here is thinking about it please dont. If you think your alone youre not. If you yhink everyone hates you they dont. I know its hard to believe and youve heard it before. People care, you just need to find the right ones. Please hold on a little longer. You will be okay. This thread can be a place to vent and talk.
When I was younger I always listened to the song and I could relate to her a bit I always had this image of doing this in my head thinking nobody would care, I wanna give younger me a hug if your younger going through this remember there are so many people who love you and care for you and it’s better to live than do this .
remember watching this when i was 9 so glad im out of this depressive phase. Just know that it will get better, for me it took 7 years to better myself depending on how much you try. Please take care of yourself
I tell people I'm not suicidal of any nature, but think back of my attempt a few months back and wish I didn't agree to let them send an ambulance my way. I could have been so much happier... My family called me selfish for what I did and I can only say it would be unfair to my younger brother - after summer break he came to my high school and imagine only being know as the brother of the kid who killed himself... My parents pretty much deserve it, because how do you raise 4 kids who all end up being depressed? And me being the only one with additional C-PTSD, that even made my teacher cry when I told him about my upbringing because he found out about my attempt.
I was 10 and in these comments everyone was young listening to this song sad depressed suicidal I hope everyone in these comments gets better and finds there happiness I pray you all turn out okay and don’t take your life I love you all even if I don’t know yall and look at me giving advice when I can’t even take it myself ig I’m just the type that cares for other people more than myself
it feels odd turning the age you swore you would be dead at, i would listen to this song a lot when i was younger having absolutely zero faith in any good future let alone a future at all for myself, so to my younger self we are still here after everything we are still fighting but it's gotten better. we will get better.
Ur not alone when I was ten I would listen to this type of shit and I still do I’m 15 now I wasn’t ok I tried killing my self multiple times and I harm my self to this day I have ptsd and I’m mentally unstable so when u read this don’t be scared
everyone likes to say they know me but do they? Do they know I hate myself? Do they know I break down every time I think about my body? Do they know how much I go through? Do they know me or do they just know the act I put on? The show, the facade? do they really know me?
When I was 7 I listened to this song all the time and I actually wrote the letter that her mom read in the song but I changed some of the words like bc it wasn't to my mom and then I hide it in my room then a month later I tried to find it and I couldn't so then there was no note but I was gonna set that one out and hang myself and I hung myself from a tree in my yard and I passed out then my grandma found me she took me down and when I opened my eyes my grandma was holding me crying and I was just so mad that I wasn't dead and I just listen to it for the first time since I was 7
I was 8 and happy. 9 and happy-ish. 10 and betrayed. 11 and healing, looking forward to adulthood. 12 and healing, blaming myself, but looking forward to adulthood. 13 and found out about a betrayal, broken. 14 and broken, terrified of adulthood.
living is so goddamn hard, im fat ugly and selfish becuase if i die then my family will kill themselves because they love me but i cant do it anymore, its just so hard and im so scared.
I remember listening to this at 13 not thinking I would make it to 14 and I just turned 21 every year I question if I’ll make it to the next one also I’m 416 days free of sh trying to keep going
Whe i was 10 i listened to this song on repeat and planned how i could be sick or plan my own death i wanted to wnd my life so soon i feel bad for my younger self i wish i could hug that 10 year old girl and love her ❤
dear me, you’ll be ok. just go to sleep. it’ll be better in the morning. i know how hard you’ve been trying and i know how exhausted you are. please keep going. talk to God if it helps. think about your friends and how happy you are with them. also the elementary school kids and the daycare kids. think of your coworkers. think of all the good moments with your family. i love you bean. you can do this!
Currently pulling an all-nighter cause im so anxious about going to school so every night i can't sleep plus I've got mocks Contemplating this though. I mean no one cares so..
wow many fakers half u happen to be 10 what a joke thius aint funny an lieing bout somrething like tyhis annoys me cos some of us actually went thru real pain
LITERAY like who tf is listening to this at 10 if yall wana lie an joke abt being suicidal it ain't funny to the ppl who is if yall wana lie then at least make it a realistic age bro.
when i was 10 i used to listen to these types of songs all the time and i wish i could tell myself that everything was going to be okay
same im revisiting songs i used to listen to when i was depressed really badly 4 years ago.
I guess the last 4-5 years did a lot for everyone?
@@fallenangel5722yup
omg same and i just rmebeeed it and came back to this song 😭😭
I wish I could tell my younger self that too...
dude why were we all listening to this song on loop at like 8
literally
Cause we all thought it was better to die than to continue living. I still listen to it at 21
I remember when I was little, I would always listen to this song and cry
Me too... feel so bad for younger me
i was only 7 listening to this, plotting out my own death. i wanna give 7 year old me a hug
Same..😭
ong
real
Fr I hung myself when I was 7 bc of this song bc I related to it some much
you weren't plotting shit stfu lmao
i listened to this on repeat in school after lunch every single day in sixth grade
One of my oldest friends committed suicide by hanging on September 26 2022. I came back and revisited this song because I miss him so much. The pain of loosing him, of seeing his body in a coffin with bruises on his neck..... it was horrible. His mom is the one who found him.
I’m sorry for your loss.
Wishing you all the best. ❤
omg that’s exactly what happened to my cousin but 2 years and a day after ur friend passed. i’m so sorry.
my cousin committed on september 25, 2020 i can relate bro. i’m so sorry.
im so sorry for your loss hun i hope it gets better as much as it can
I always listen to this song whn i was 10 and i still cry every time i hear it
i haven’t listened to this song since my last attempt a year ago. i thought i’d gotten better but i haven’t. i wish i had the courage to actually do this.
Don't. I know how you feel. I feel the same way but please don't. Your life matters and people love you. I know it doesn't feel like it and you've heard it before but it's not worth it. Please hold on. I know it's hard but you'll be okay.
@@patheticgay8908literally the only thing keeping me here are the people who love me. i’m trying for them.
Hi how are you?
i wish you weren't such a coward too
are you okay?
It breaks me to see all these comments who say ,,when I was 10 (...)" it includes me but it hurts to see that other people had to feel the same.
Tbh I just came back here because I feel the same again like 6 years ago and knew that this song kinda kept me trough it. I hate life. Why cant everything just get better. How long do I still have to survive?..
To anyone who needs to hear this:
Things suck. Life sucks. Everything sucks. You have made it this far in your life and I’ve never been more proud of you for coming this far. The happiness from your childhood has faded away, the things that made you innocent no longer exist. I get it. Maybe not how you feel but I get that it hurts. But just understand, you’re never going to be truly alone. You’ll be alone when the stars in the sky no longer glow. But until then, the stars are your company. They’ve seen millions and billions of people for literal centuries suffer. If they were a real person I guarantee they can tell you all about the similar things people have cried about. You’re not alone in how you feel, alright?
It doesn’t seem like it now, but things will get better. I love and appreciate you.
I had no business listening to this song when I was 9
i remember writing these lyrics down when i was 8ish, my mom found it lol
If you don't mind me asking what does she say I'm sorry you have to go through that stuff
Hey lil me... You still struggle, but you made it till sweet 16!! We still have a long way to go but we're getting there
I’m proud of you.
If anyone here is thinking about it please dont. If you think your alone youre not. If you yhink everyone hates you they dont. I know its hard to believe and youve heard it before. People care, you just need to find the right ones. Please hold on a little longer. You will be okay. This thread can be a place to vent and talk.
I haven’t stopped listening to this song since I was a kid… it hasn’t gotten better it’s only gotten worse
You got this I believe in you sweetheart
I was 6, who let me listen to this?
RIGHT? I'm thinking the same thing like I BLASTED this shit at like 7 but nobody even asked 😀
@@charliekarmil5703dude I showed this song to my grandma and she didn’t care💀 I was jamming to this shit in the shower LMAO
@@charliekarmil5703I was like 12-13 lol
When I was younger I always listened to the song and I could relate to her a bit I always had this image of doing this in my head thinking nobody would care, I wanna give younger me a hug if your younger going through this remember there are so many people who love you and care for you and it’s better to live than do this .
No there fucking isn’t no one gives a shit bout mw
Dear little me who used to listen to this on repeat, it actually got better. We made it, kid
why the fuck did i listen to this so much as a kid
remember watching this when i was 9 so glad im out of this depressive phase. Just know that it will get better, for me it took 7 years to better myself depending on how much you try. Please take care of yourself
This brings back some MEMORIES.
I was around 11 when I first heard this song? I knew the lyrics really well back then. Well I wasn’t depressed in the end. Cool
I would listen to this when I was 9. I didn't understand it fully. Now I do its so sad now as 13 this song still makes me cry.
Honestly one of the only reasons that I didn't do it is because I know my brother would be the one to find me
Bro this song makes me so happy but so sad
Here I am again a month later 🤷♀️
Bro I changed so much in a month
I'm back 😱
Surprise surprise
Cute
The fact I listened to this all the time when I was 5😭
listened to this when i was 8 and im so proud of where i am now. not exactly happy but im feeling better in life.
I listened to this song everyday on loop with other songs like this
if I could give my 15 year old self a hug ;w;
I tell people I'm not suicidal of any nature, but think back of my attempt a few months back and wish I didn't agree to let them send an ambulance my way. I could have been so much happier...
My family called me selfish for what I did and I can only say it would be unfair to my younger brother - after summer break he came to my high school and imagine only being know as the brother of the kid who killed himself...
My parents pretty much deserve it, because how do you raise 4 kids who all end up being depressed? And me being the only one with additional C-PTSD, that even made my teacher cry when I told him about my upbringing because he found out about my attempt.
Been like 5 years since I first heard this song
Dude, my childhood was so depressing
I was 10 and in these comments everyone was young listening to this song sad depressed suicidal I hope everyone in these comments gets better and finds there happiness I pray you all turn out okay and don’t take your life I love you all even if I don’t know yall and look at me giving advice when I can’t even take it myself ig I’m just the type that cares for other people more than myself
it feels odd turning the age you swore you would be dead at, i would listen to this song a lot when i was younger having absolutely zero faith in any good future let alone a future at all for myself, so to my younger self we are still here after everything we are still fighting but it's gotten better. we will get better.
hey lil me. u made it to 17! good job. we still feel like crap but atleast u have an amazing boyfrind and good friends
Ur not alone when I was ten I would listen to this type of shit and I still do I’m 15 now I wasn’t ok I tried killing my self multiple times and I harm my self to this day I have ptsd and I’m mentally unstable so when u read this don’t be scared
Facts
I tried to unalive to this song in 6th grade so glad I failed
I am truly alone, no friends nor family.
good, you're unlovable
It’s funny, I thought things would get better.
It's hard I know it is. I've been there. I'm still there but it will get better. Please just hold on
nope
@@wisdomplaysbtd6144 are you good? Do you need to vent or something. Cause this is not the vibe.
everyone likes to say they know me but do they? Do they know I hate myself? Do they know I break down every time I think about my body? Do they know how much I go through? Do they know me or do they just know the act I put on? The show, the facade? do they really know me?
THATS THE ONE OFFICER, THE SONG 10 YEAR OLD ME WATCHED ON REPEAT
listened to this at 12. listening again at 16. shit does not get better
This song is the only reason I’m still alive today.
Wish I could say I’m glad, but nothing good has really happened in years
I can’t believe I used to just casually watch this in my parents room without headphones
Relatable song fr
Bro why was I listening to this shit when I was like 8 till I was at least 12 💀. I wasn't even Deppressed I was just casually listening to this shit
Eight years old .
i rember listening to this i thought i got better but i didn't i wish i could do this and be done
with life
When I was 7 I listened to this song all the time and I actually wrote the letter that her mom read in the song but I changed some of the words like bc it wasn't to my mom and then I hide it in my room then a month later I tried to find it and I couldn't so then there was no note but I was gonna set that one out and hang myself and I hung myself from a tree in my yard and I passed out then my grandma found me she took me down and when I opened my eyes my grandma was holding me crying and I was just so mad that I wasn't dead and I just listen to it for the first time since I was 7
I had no business eating this song up every waking second at like 10 years old
I was 8 and happy. 9 and happy-ish. 10 and betrayed. 11 and healing, looking forward to adulthood. 12 and healing, blaming myself, but looking forward to adulthood. 13 and found out about a betrayal, broken. 14 and broken, terrified of adulthood.
I’m also 14 we’re in this together.
@@BlingButterfly Sending all the virtual hugs you need
i used to listen to this when i was like 7 on youtube kids every single day until it got removed i’m so dead 💀💀💀
living is so goddamn hard, im fat ugly and selfish becuase if i die then my family will kill themselves because they love me but i cant do it anymore, its just so hard and im so scared.
hey wanna talk buddy??
You can do it, I believe in you.
You will make a lasting difference in the world no matter what you decide
Uh
I remember listening to this at 13 not thinking I would make it to 14 and I just turned 21 every year I question if I’ll make it to the next one also I’m 416 days free of sh trying to keep going
this song brings back memories of wanting to lock myself in the garage with the car....T-T
had no business listening to this at 7
First hear this song when I was like 10 I’m now 16
Shouldn’t have known this song at 10 :(
Whe i was 10 i listened to this song on repeat and planned how i could be sick or plan my own death i wanted to wnd my life so soon i feel bad for my younger self i wish i could hug that 10 year old girl and love her ❤
dear me,
you’ll be ok. just go to sleep. it’ll be better in the morning. i know how hard you’ve been trying and i know how exhausted you are. please keep going. talk to God if it helps. think about your friends and how happy you are with them. also the elementary school kids and the daycare kids. think of your coworkers. think of all the good moments with your family. i love you bean. you can do this!
Currently pulling an all-nighter cause im so anxious about going to school so every night i can't sleep plus I've got mocks
Contemplating this though. I mean no one cares so..
Suddenly I’m 11 turning 12 again (why does it always come back, also I’m acc almost 16)
For real I was 11 and almost all of the songs i listened to were about depression and sui#ide all Nightcore :l
Does anyone know if the art used is from an anime or not 👀
its not
8.
Anyone tell me where the art was from?
I remember playing this while i was trying to h@ng myself got caught tho damn 11 yr old me was messed up
wow many fakers half u happen to be 10 what a joke thius aint funny an lieing bout somrething like tyhis annoys me cos some of us actually went thru real pain
shut up
LITERAY like who tf is listening to this at 10 if yall wana lie an joke abt being suicidal it ain't funny to the ppl who is if yall wana lie then at least make it a realistic age bro.
I feel so bad for my 10 year old self. This song was a regular