Dark Enough (Original Song)

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  • @martad.3798
    @martad.3798 7 років тому +2203

    depression is a battle between wanting to be alone and not wanting to be alone

    • @clevermistakes4750
      @clevermistakes4750 6 років тому +47

      The simplicity and truth of your comment is gonna make me cry

    • @arizonaangel1203
      @arizonaangel1203 6 років тому +4

      The song Kitchen Sink by Twenty Øne Pilots has that meaning to it.

    • @silentninja1069
      @silentninja1069 6 років тому +12

      I agree. And sometimes the wanting to be alone wins. And you push everyone away and shut everyone, then the wanting a friend comes through and you realize you no longer have any. The best part? You have no reason as to why you shut them out and you beat yourself up for it

    • @blubear9686
      @blubear9686 6 років тому

      and a chemical inbalance

    • @livingproof504
      @livingproof504 6 років тому +1

      I always been alone until I met my girl and she moved I've always wanted her with me so I want to be alone but I want her it makes sense now

  • @MrsCupcakeCutiexox
    @MrsCupcakeCutiexox 8 років тому +1934

    I don't even remember what happiness feels like.

    • @hannahherrera9300
      @hannahherrera9300 8 років тому +35

      i dont remember what being normal feels like

    • @hannahherrera9300
      @hannahherrera9300 8 років тому +1

      ***** That's what people tell me. But i haven't seen it yet

    • @joclyenrodriguez7030
      @joclyenrodriguez7030 8 років тому +1

      Same 😔

    • @angeleanarose3423
      @angeleanarose3423 8 років тому +1

      +*Ariella* your not alone and u will find happiness one day you have you experiense the huricane if you wish to see a beautiful rainbow you r beautiful and u r love no matter what and the hardest battles r given to the strongest soldiers hun

    • @reenamerino5630
      @reenamerino5630 8 років тому

      +Hannah Herrera same :/

  • @vampire-p
    @vampire-p 2 роки тому +2379

    This and “Her Last Words” were common for me to listen to in middle school. That alone should explain my mental state at the time.

    • @Layla_G-5-16
      @Layla_G-5-16 2 роки тому +26

      Yea tht and this song r on my playlist, along with some other not so happy songs. I’ve played a few and ik tht some of my family have heard it, they just don’t care enough to help or ask if I’m ok. I’d say tht I’m fine or tht it doesn’t matter anyways

    • @SecretlyTwoFrogsInATrenchCoat
      @SecretlyTwoFrogsInATrenchCoat Рік тому +8

      Sameeee

    • @hahahahahhahakan
      @hahahahahhahakan Рік тому +29

      I feel really bad, this was my comfort song in 4th grade along with her last words

    • @spoonycat4474
      @spoonycat4474 Рік тому +22

      Yeah. This song, her last words, and baby don't cut (acoustic because I liked it better than the normal) are my comfort songs that make me cry every. single. time. It has sorta been getting better after I got a friend group even if I always feel like I'm not really important and I get ignored a lot...

    • @willowtree3854
      @willowtree3854 Рік тому +7

      They were the go tos

  • @milk-pv5rl
    @milk-pv5rl Рік тому +479

    I was 13 when i found this, im 18 now, years of pain and close calls got me to this point. Im doing much better, thank you, to everyone reading, u will see the light one day

    • @_anon_does_art_
      @_anon_does_art_ 10 місяців тому +9

      As someone in a similar position, now 18 and looking back, things do get better, and it is worth it to keep living

    • @dantrow5459
      @dantrow5459 9 місяців тому +3

      I'm glad to hear that you are doing better ❤

    • @kaylen9580
      @kaylen9580 9 місяців тому +5

      I just turned 18 and am still waiting to see this light. I’ve been struggling for 6 years and only getting worse. Losing hope, I don’t think that promised light will ever arise

    • @dantrow5459
      @dantrow5459 9 місяців тому +1

      @kaylen9580 it's definitely tough, try talking to a friend or someone you trust

    • @goodnessking3171
      @goodnessking3171 9 місяців тому

      Same here

  • @tillie4667
    @tillie4667 7 років тому +2965

    A smile hides more than a mood.

    • @alecalec6259
      @alecalec6259 7 років тому +33

      Tillie Kroupa true this is me im like the happiest guy in school but when im alone i feel depress and think about suicide

    • @rebelwithcake6170
      @rebelwithcake6170 7 років тому +25

      er that sucks Alec.. Im not the happiest person but i smile alot and dont tell anyone how i feel, so i knwo how u feel, i guess.

    • @tillie4667
      @tillie4667 7 років тому +1

      Jørgen Poulsen I hide just fine

    • @tillie4667
      @tillie4667 7 років тому +10

      Jørgen Poulsen it's like in 13 reasons why if people would have paid attention to Hannah they would have known and she would be alive

    • @karlada6207
      @karlada6207 7 років тому

      Norwegian!!!

  • @emilyta4420
    @emilyta4420 5 років тому +4469

    when a singers voice creaks with emotion whilst singing you know they believe what there saying.

    • @lpssisters1154
      @lpssisters1154 4 роки тому +13

      emily ta can you list some please?

    • @miaunter44
      @miaunter44 4 роки тому +31

      @@lpssisters1154 ,,stupid and anxious"
      That voice hits me every time

    • @shadedergu9921
      @shadedergu9921 4 роки тому +18

      Lps Sisters watch *One More Light Live* by Linkin Park; you'll hear Chester Bennington's voice give out

    • @anastasiaknutsen4558
      @anastasiaknutsen4558 3 роки тому +2

      Exactly

    • @poisonkinelle
      @poisonkinelle 7 місяців тому +1

      @@shadedergu9921 I love linkin park😕

  • @eulxlico
    @eulxlico Рік тому +336

    i’ve just recently found this song again at 23 years old & it hurts knowing how much pain 13/14 year old me was in having this song on repeat 🥺

    • @kismet8583
      @kismet8583 10 місяців тому

      pain of having shitty music taste maybe💀🔥🔥

    • @monicaradillo3275
      @monicaradillo3275 6 місяців тому +4

      Same here ❤

    • @miakonifka1251
      @miakonifka1251 5 місяців тому +6

      Yes I agree! I was at that age too when I started to become depressed… I’m 23 now with two kids and everyday I ask myself where did my life go wrong…

    • @MikaylaDuncan-ep4dn
      @MikaylaDuncan-ep4dn 4 місяці тому +2

      Literally ….

    • @Samegirl_differentmindset
      @Samegirl_differentmindset 4 місяці тому +3

      I’m happy life didn’t end at 13-14 🥲

  • @ryanisnt_here7886
    @ryanisnt_here7886 Рік тому +471

    After 5 years, I’m back. Last time I tried was when I was 16 and luckily I survived. I’m now 21 and a much happier person, I’m glad to say that I’m 2 years, 2 months and 21 days free from SH. I wanna inspire someone here to live to see another day, you deserve it. Keep breathing

    • @Amber-bp7ps
      @Amber-bp7ps Рік тому +10

      The first time I heard this song I was 17 and a junior in high school, in 2013.
      I'm glad we both kept fighting!

    • @icyhotz8727
      @icyhotz8727 Рік тому +4

      Y'all lucky. I listened to this when I was around 10-12. Things aren't worse but not exactly better. I'm gonna be 20 in a few months here and I think I've just gotten worse both mentally and emotionally

    • @Amber-bp7ps
      @Amber-bp7ps Рік тому +5

      @@icyhotz8727 I'm sorry friend-- I hate saying "it will get better" because it sounds scripted and ingenuine. But I do believe you will see a day where you're content more than you're not, you smile more than you cry, and where you look back and you said "I made it."
      Some days, even now, are a struggle. I'll admit struggling as an adult feels weird because you can't just sit in your sadness the way you could as a kid. I hope you find a pathway in life that brings you so much joy you feel it in your chest, toes, and throat. I hope your favorite morning drink tastes like magic and that you feel a little bit of air under your steps.
      And if you ever need a friend, you can lean on me. I hope you know you don't have to walk these roads alone

    • @robsarl5736
      @robsarl5736 Рік тому +1

      ​@@icyhotz8727I no what you mean I'm the same atm

    • @ikthisprettyravegirl
      @ikthisprettyravegirl Рік тому +1

      SO SO SO PROUD OF YOU!!

  • @tessafuller5800
    @tessafuller5800 5 років тому +4521

    "You dont cut how are you depressed?"
    Cutting isnt the only form of self harm and if ur depressed you dont always cut/self harm

    • @xsoapyx8652
      @xsoapyx8652 4 роки тому +167

      See I don't cut. I just don't want to hurt myself, so I starve myself. Until I die (:

    • @tessafuller5800
      @tessafuller5800 4 роки тому +65

      @@xsoapyx8652 no pls dont Ily and others love you we have to stick together

    • @berkleyhuffman48
      @berkleyhuffman48 4 роки тому +110

      Sometimes the worst pain is loving a world that wouldn't care if you're gone.

    • @rebekah_plk
      @rebekah_plk 4 роки тому +57

      I never cut now. I know I depressed but I don’t want to hurt myself. I just feel numb.
      I used to cut long time ago but I’m sure the old me was happy.

    • @berkleyhuffman48
      @berkleyhuffman48 4 роки тому +40

      @@rebekah_plk I'm sure we were all happy at some point, but now a lot of us if not all of us have forgot what happiness feels like.

  • @iyamarisaavedra6316
    @iyamarisaavedra6316 3 роки тому +3913

    The fact that some of people who listened to this song are not alive now anymore

    • @ali-lp9yw
      @ali-lp9yw 3 роки тому +150

      it hurts me

    • @sleepybi3244
      @sleepybi3244 3 роки тому +237

      I was almost one of those people

    • @merimarie9174
      @merimarie9174 3 роки тому +103

      @@sleepybi3244 I’m glad you’re still here ❤️

    • @iyamarisaavedra6316
      @iyamarisaavedra6316 3 роки тому +65

      @@sleepybi3244 im so proud of you, you're so brave, plsss stay here, suicide is not the answer, it's passing the sadness to other.

    • @googelle7555
      @googelle7555 2 роки тому +43

      Technically, you could say that about any song. lol
      (Just trying to lighten the mood, not troll

  • @kelseymcneely2734
    @kelseymcneely2734 Рік тому +136

    For anyone who is here now. I’m back to say I was here too at 15, I’m now 22 & married & own my home. All the pain will end I promise you just hang on❤

    • @jaimitopadilla5463
      @jaimitopadilla5463 6 місяців тому +2

      The pain started when my childhood friend left me at around 13 and never gave me a reason why he left, at around the age of 18 i lost my grandma to cancer, since then i've been alone battling my emotions on my own and have since tried to form pure friendships and since then a couple of my friends have ditched me and moved away to another city and were very toxic to my emotional pain. Since then i have learned to just try to survive on what i have, and have battled with cancer scares besides that, all i remember is how good it felt to cut when i was younger, and since then have tried to write down my feelings on paper instead, this world doesn't understand how much friendships and toxic people can nearly burn your life to the ground, i don't believe in dreams now and don't trust things like i used to when i was younger, i find comfort in just being alone and just alone in my thoughts, and just trying to rebuild something in my life before the tide comes back to take it back, anyways my book is closed i'm not trusting anything anymore.

    • @Blood_Cult_
      @Blood_Cult_ 5 місяців тому

      @@jaimitopadilla5463take things one moment at a time

    • @wela1201
      @wela1201 5 місяців тому +3

      Wow i am so happy you made it!!! When I found the song i was 15 too. And i am about to turn 25 soon… i wish i could tell younger people the same… that all this would end one day. I am happy to read some good stories under this song after rediscovering that part of my youth. It‘s so important to keep on moving and to believe in change. It‘s even more important to tell others that things can take turns for the better if you work on yourself. I forgot about that until i read your comment. Gotta get back on track.

    • @basicwhitebitch9970
      @basicwhitebitch9970 2 місяці тому

      Thank u ❤🙏

    • @nox_lumiere_archive
      @nox_lumiere_archive Місяць тому +1

      I will. 8 years of suffering are officially over for me just because I said so. depression doesn't dictate my life, because it's mine, not hers!

  • @abbymercado4630
    @abbymercado4630 Рік тому +285

    This was a song that meant so much to me when I was 12. I'm 21 now and I've gravitated back to this song. There's people that say it gets better and you just have to wait. Not everything gets better, trauma will haunt you, memories will follow and be brought up in everything you do. I still feel the things I felt when I was 12 and I won't ever forget it. Life goes on and things do get better. But you have to try and work on yourself. Things don't just get better. Your mind won't just get better. I get better for my 12 year old self that deserved a chance to be a child. I like to think 12 year old me is watching the adult version of us. Only do life for yourself.

    • @v4mpyss
      @v4mpyss Рік тому +8

      completely agreed. healing is a journey

    • @mugsytank9130
      @mugsytank9130 Рік тому +2

      Unfortunately, having been thru a war, raising 2 wonderful girls, getting crippled......even after 50 a constant struggle.

    • @MirandaCampbell
      @MirandaCampbell Рік тому +1

      This is so unreal, but the song also meant sm to me when I was 12 & im here listening at 21 feeling all those things I did then. Some wounds really never heal.

    • @justbfaithful0280
      @justbfaithful0280 11 місяців тому

      glad i made it to 19. my 13 year old self wouldve never believed :)

    • @kismet8583
      @kismet8583 10 місяців тому

      i aint reading all that fr bro😭🙏

  • @Meen0123
    @Meen0123 5 років тому +1799

    it’s scary how so many beautiful people can relate to this

  • @CassieCrowson
    @CassieCrowson 7 років тому +1182

    I hate how people at my school make fun of suicide and self harm, it's not something to joke about

    • @CassieCrowson
      @CassieCrowson 7 років тому +3

      Btw I luv this song so much ❤️

    • @journeybennet5588
      @journeybennet5588 7 років тому +14

      Cassie Crowson same suicide is no joke because one day your going to be joking around about it and then the next thing you know the principal of your school will tell you that your friend had committed suicide and then your going to tell me your just going to sit and think its a some practical joke. Well then jokes all on you then you try to call your friend but his/her mom picks up and tells you herself. Think its a joke now well think again. Suicidal thoughts and people are not a joke you can help them see the good in their life and what they can do, not what they can't do then you'll be the one to push them to that point of suicide.
      Build up someone's hopes and dreams. Don't break them down. 😐😐😐

    • @CassieCrowson
      @CassieCrowson 7 років тому +14

      Journey Bennet People are horrible, I wish people could just be nice and treat everyone the way they deserve to be treated. This world doesn't understand what it's like to feel suicidal or to self harm (etc) only the ones who have felt it. Very few who haven't has been sweet and smart enough to not make fun of it. I wish they could understand what it's like..

    • @walkingrat5832
      @walkingrat5832 7 років тому +3

      I always joke about depression because i am depressed and i don't want people to know.If i joke about it, they'll just think it's just another joke.

    • @CassieCrowson
      @CassieCrowson 7 років тому +5

      walking meme that makes sense. My school diagnosed me with depression.? But I know you don't have to be diagnosed to have it. The school focuses on helping me when they should be helping my best friend. I only hate it because my best friend self harms and whenever someone makes fun of it it makes me cry. And just the other day this guy at my school walked up to her and asked for the rubber band that was on her wrist and she said no. And then he said,"I know you are depressed and cutting yourself." And laughed. Which really messed me up because she does do it and he didn't even know. He joked about it before and I told him to not make fun of self harm by me and anyway and he still did it. I'm just really sensitive to the subject I guess since that happens. But what you said does make a lot of sense, I understand why. But there are a lot of people who don't have depression and make fun of it because it's "funny" to them. (There own words btw.) I won't lie sometimes I to cope with it I just pretend it doesn't exist. I'm sorry I'm telling you my problems, but tbh it feels good to vent because I was the only person who knew about her. Thank you a lot, and best wishes to you.☺️❤️

  • @treatpeoplewithkindness9231
    @treatpeoplewithkindness9231 2 роки тому +68

    A girl at my school committed suicide last month by walking into the trailer of a tractor trailer. She was said to be one of the most happiest people and best to talk to about grief. I didn’t know her personally but I see myself in her. I almost committed suicide a few years ago, it’s hard, she was 15 and I was 12 at the time. Poor girl, rest well sweet angel.

    • @TK-uz4ts
      @TK-uz4ts Рік тому +5

      If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best

    • @ApprovedShortPerson
      @ApprovedShortPerson 10 місяців тому +1

      Rip

    • @ApprovedShortPerson
      @ApprovedShortPerson 10 місяців тому +2

      @@TK-uz4ts thank you for encouraging people

  • @lunarose222
    @lunarose222 2 роки тому +95

    i listened to this so often five years ago, i didn’t think i would make it to 18. here i am i’m in college and have a plan for my future. it’s still hard sometimes, but i’m holding on. i know there’s something out there for me even when i don’t feel like there is. i made it this far and i can keep going. all of you should keep fighting too, you’ll make it out of this.

    • @Catlover883.
      @Catlover883. 2 роки тому +2

      Thank you it means so much to hear someone say that. I will try to continue fighting like you
      Thank you ❤️‍🩹

    • @leannajackson2721
      @leannajackson2721 2 роки тому +3

      You've got this xx in the same boat

  • @brooket012
    @brooket012 5 років тому +5417

    I’m not depressed....
    I don’t have anxiety...
    I’m not anorexic...
    I don’t cut...
    I don’t burn...
    I smile...
    I laugh...
    I joke with my friends...
    I have fun...
    *Thats the outside.*

    • @noidentity2617
      @noidentity2617 4 роки тому +186

      I am depressed...
      I don’t have anxiety....
      I am not anorexic...
      I cut...
      I burn...
      I hurt and bleed...
      I push away the people to protect them from the things that I am

    • @sweetesttophats8577
      @sweetesttophats8577 4 роки тому +60

      Wow, i thought this was going to be a shitty "motivational" comment, and relatable af

    • @Remy4300
      @Remy4300 4 роки тому +86

      Im depressed
      I have anxiety
      I’m anorexic
      I cut
      I burn :/
      I want to disappear

    • @amarikyss4715
      @amarikyss4715 4 роки тому +33

      homegirls you need to see a therapist

    • @Remy4300
      @Remy4300 4 роки тому +14

      i have one ☝️

  • @Cosplays15
    @Cosplays15 5 років тому +2437

    It’s scary how many people can relate to this song

  • @gothbean2724
    @gothbean2724 3 роки тому +290

    About 2 months ago, my best friend committed suicide. We used to share a UA-cam account because we had all of the same taste. She hung herself in the room we used to play barbies when we were younger. She was playing this song when I walked into the room. That’s where I found her. Lifeless. Pale. I miss her.

    • @justjewel7035
      @justjewel7035 2 роки тому +24

      @UCMDF8AvXiowZR92LEzgB7JA She isn't fucking "selfish" for committing suicide. The pain got too much and nobody realized how she was feeling, and this person has already been through enough pain without you speaking ill of the dead. It hasn't even been a year yet, asshole.

    • @cherryscottage6801
      @cherryscottage6801 2 роки тому +19

      @@hunnybunny3211 I don't think you realize just how harmful what you said was. She was not selfish, she only wanted her pain to end, may she rest in peace

    • @cherryscottage6801
      @cherryscottage6801 2 роки тому +14

      @@hunnybunny3211 Yeah?? Cause she was in pain??? Depression is a horrible mental illness that distorts people's reality and thoughts, as sad as it is she probably thought she was doing them a favor. That's how terrible depression is, think before you say these things.

    • @booknerd7986
      @booknerd7986 2 роки тому +8

      ​@@hunnybunny3211 What the fuck??? Suicide isn't selfish. I bet you that she didn't feel like anyone would care. That she didn't think anything would be able to get better. When it gets to that point, you feel like the only way to solve everything is by offing yourself. It's a terrible feeling, trust me. I felt that a lot for a while and still do sometimes. I can guarantee you that she didn't want to hurt anyone. She might have thought she'd be doing the whole world a favor by doing it. You deserve a punch in the gut for calling someone who lost their battle selfish.
      As for the person who posted the original comment, I'm so sorry for your loss. Please stay strong. Your friend is watching over you and I'm sure she loves you. I hope you're doing alright.

    • @ebi4005
      @ebi4005 2 роки тому +1

      @@booknerd7986 what did they say?

  • @baileyparson149
    @baileyparson149 Рік тому +174

    After 3 years I’m back and still breathing! I made it guys! I’m okay! 🥹🥹

    • @moonlitproductions7182
      @moonlitproductions7182 Рік тому +5

      I’m really glad that you did! It’s not easy but you were very strong. Life can be beautiful if you chose to make it so.

    • @rodriguezarmando999
      @rodriguezarmando999 Рік тому +5

      Congrats babyy!!!

    • @jennastyles2404
      @jennastyles2404 10 місяців тому +2

      That is awesome!!!!! 😮

    • @kismet8583
      @kismet8583 10 місяців тому

      want a cookie?😭⁉️

    • @literallylikedude9814
      @literallylikedude9814 9 місяців тому +1

      @@kismet8583what are these comments ur leaving bro

  • @maiahenry6817
    @maiahenry6817 5 років тому +3318

    when my children ask "what are those?"
    ill say "battle scars AND i never want to see them on you"

    • @30ratsstackedinatrenchcoat91
      @30ratsstackedinatrenchcoat91 5 років тому +183

      What if they see that as "hide your scars so i wont be dissapointed in you"

    • @maiahenry6817
      @maiahenry6817 5 років тому +30

      @@30ratsstackedinatrenchcoat91 tru

    • @mrknowitall0179
      @mrknowitall0179 5 років тому +83

      Don't worry. Sometimes the people with the most beautiful of hearts are the one with the most scars.........

    • @maiahenry6817
      @maiahenry6817 5 років тому +63

      @@mrknowitall0179 we have battle scars because we survived the war

    • @betweenyouandme3663
      @betweenyouandme3663 5 років тому +13

      First of all why would you cut yourself when you have kids ARE YOU TRYING TO LET THEM SEE YOUR DEAD BODY AND LEAVE THEM IN A ORPHANAGE.

  • @stxrrxyy
    @stxrrxyy 4 роки тому +2259

    'There IS a girl in the front of my class'
    Later on:
    'There WAS a girl at the front of my class'
    That made me cry when I noticed it qwq

  • @sloanesteen8472
    @sloanesteen8472 2 роки тому +49

    This is the type of music I never want anyone I know to ever know I listen to. I’m 24, and I’ve come back to this song a couple times. I’ve been dealing with a current depressive episode, even tho I swear it feels like my entire life is a depressive episode. But I struggle with emotional permanence, but I really want to remind myself and OTHERS that this feeling will pass. Stay strong. I love you, even tho I don’t know you ❤️

    • @lilyjewlhoney807
      @lilyjewlhoney807 Рік тому +2

      Needed this ❤ made me feel less alone

    • @damunzy
      @damunzy Рік тому +2

      I'm a 46 yo guy and I feel this song even though I have never cut. It's ok to related to this song no matter your journey in life. May your life be full of wonder and joy. Love from a stranger going through life one step at a time.

    • @Maddy-dh7xv
      @Maddy-dh7xv Рік тому +1

      Same but I am 8

  • @tiffinygibson1687
    @tiffinygibson1687 Рік тому +52

    I was 14 listening to this song daily fighting the darkest demons. I still bare the scars, but happy to say I’m now 24 in the best relationship I’ve ever been in, have a stable home, I’m an HR professional, and it’s been 7 years since I self harmed. It gets better ❤

    • @gracelm6148
      @gracelm6148 23 дні тому

      im so beyond happy and proud of you!! ❤

  • @Nicoleheartsnailart
    @Nicoleheartsnailart 9 років тому +426

    i honestly don't know how i feel anymore when i'm with friends i'm so happy but when i'm alone... i hate myself and i forget what happiness is

    • @AmandaLopiccolo
      @AmandaLopiccolo  9 років тому +14

      happiness is what you make it out to be. it may seem hard to achieve, but with a good support system, i have no doubt that you can do it. ((: xx

    • @Nicoleheartsnailart
      @Nicoleheartsnailart 9 років тому

      thx:)

    • @aprillastarnes7003
      @aprillastarnes7003 9 років тому

      I feel u I have been there plenty of times even today but u just have to think positive and think of the best memories u have to think if u don't have one make up something like meeting ur idol or in my mind eating a huge sundae :)

    • @Nicoleheartsnailart
      @Nicoleheartsnailart 9 років тому +1

      tanks:)

    • @aprillastarnes7003
      @aprillastarnes7003 9 років тому +1

      haha welcome ;)

  • @honorriisee3986
    @honorriisee3986 6 років тому +1148

    "Don't be angry when people post their sad stories here.
    People post their stories on the Internet because no one else would listen."
    --Peter Harker

    • @eloisedurantet5424
      @eloisedurantet5424 6 років тому +9

      Honor Riisee, Are you okay Love ?

    • @honorriisee3986
      @honorriisee3986 6 років тому +11

      Eloise DrtB, I'm alright hun. Just posting up a comment I saw from someone and I decided to just spread the word. But thank you Hun for asking💖

    • @eloisedurantet5424
      @eloisedurantet5424 6 років тому +8

      Honor Riisee, Okay Love, I'm just glad if you're okay ! Take care

    • @honorriisee3986
      @honorriisee3986 6 років тому +6

      Eloise DrtB, Thank you hun❤Take care as well darlin💕

    • @eloisedurantet5424
      @eloisedurantet5424 6 років тому +4

      Honor Riisee, Thank you Love

  • @isxakera
    @isxakera 2 роки тому +72

    I remember crying and constantly listening to this song being in a really dark place of my depression I was only a little girl I didn’t think I would make it past 16 I’m now 20 :)

    • @ptitflocondelumiere01010
      @ptitflocondelumiere01010 Рік тому +1

      I'm so proud of you

    • @kerawilson4620
      @kerawilson4620 11 місяців тому +1

      @@ptitflocondelumiere01010 thank you ❤ now i’m 22 with two kids and just had my second of april 19.2033 and i think i’m going through postpartum depression i wanna leave but i can’t because they need me but i don’t want to go to get help because help doesn’t help

  • @zojoprice
    @zojoprice Рік тому +19

    Still here nine years later, crying to this song like I heard it the first time ❤
    I was 14 and alone when I first listened to this, I now have an amazing and loving fiancé, and a beautiful baby boy. For everyone who has come back to share their stories, you’re all so strong x

  • @AirRicka
    @AirRicka 4 роки тому +8649

    We’re all suicidal kids just telling each other suicide isn’t the answer

  • @scaredycraft2798
    @scaredycraft2798 5 років тому +1690

    100% of the comment section is depression so how about this: hi I love you

    • @noidentity2617
      @noidentity2617 4 роки тому +10

      I love you too, but this is sad because these comments are my last ones, I’m listening to my favourite songs before I go to beachy head

    • @myrtlegrace8364
      @myrtlegrace8364 4 роки тому +3

      Really? ☺️☺️☺️ I love you too.

    • @sweetesttophats8577
      @sweetesttophats8577 4 роки тому +2

      Don't lie to us please, thanks

    • @noidentity2617
      @noidentity2617 4 роки тому +12

      My daughter didn’t lie, she asked me to go through this and reply to the comments and tell everyone she loves them and for them to not take their own life because she did it for them and herself, so don’t do it and she hopes they get better. Her friends tried to stop her but she ended up shooting herself. This is very hard to write but I’m sorry on her behalf

    • @sweetesttophats8577
      @sweetesttophats8577 4 роки тому +3

      @@noidentity2617 heh, like if this'll truly help anyone

  • @marilyn.harlow
    @marilyn.harlow Рік тому +27

    pov: you used to listen to this at 13 & cry yourself to sleep, now you’re 22 & have found yourself back in the same place….

    • @MIRAGE_autobots
      @MIRAGE_autobots 9 місяців тому +1

      I came here, because after surviving 23+ suicide attempts, i finally chose to start healing and i accepted the pain as a part of life. I chose to learn and grow from it, not die from it. Now, when i listen to these songs, they motivate me, and remind me of what i survive through!
      Im only 15..... If i had succeded in the suicide attempts...i would have been dead at 6-11 years old....
      .....But.....
      Im still alive, because i chose to keep fighting! I chose to live!
      I made the decision to heal! And you can too!

    • @marilyn.harlow
      @marilyn.harlow 8 місяців тому

      @@MIRAGE_autobots thank goodness for that!!! 🥹 you belong & you matter. i wish you a life of healing, prosperity, happiness & love ❤️💫🌏✨

  • @kikicoppers3579
    @kikicoppers3579 2 роки тому +280

    They didn't notice I was crying
    They didn't notice I was sad
    They didn't notice I was tired
    They didn't notice I was alone.
    They didn't notice I was depressed
    They didn't notice I was suicidal
    They didn't notice I was actually trying to make other people smile.
    They did notice my failing grades
    They did notice my unattractive
    They did notice the mean side of me
    They did notice all of my mistakes
    They did notice all of my flaws
    they noticed all the bad things about me but they never try to get a good look at me and say oh your so smart oh your so funny your so perfect:(

    • @_csinti_
      @_csinti_ 2 роки тому +5

      I wish you all the best, keep holding on
      Don't give up

    • @jameslake2575
      @jameslake2575 Рік тому

      Mood ❤

    • @DarthStygian
      @DarthStygian Рік тому +1

      Makes sense

    • @JosephDelvalle-hh6mw
      @JosephDelvalle-hh6mw 11 місяців тому +2

      Your right. They don't notice. Go to the psycho logistics or group therapy,if it didn't work?go to church, and read the Bible. God will show the way.❤

    • @infj_intovert_nerd
      @infj_intovert_nerd 11 місяців тому +2

      I'm sure your wonderful stay strong ❤️

  • @miaosov
    @miaosov 5 років тому +3399

    "How could someone so loving, learn to hate her own guts?" That hit me like a bullet
    Edit: it’s been a year and I feel so much better and I hope all of you guys will reach happiness too. Learning to love yourself is a tough battle but I believe it’s something anyone can achieve ❤️✨

    • @bimehself
      @bimehself 4 роки тому +36

      I think this whole song hit us all hard, it's so sad but it's also what really happens and people overlook it until it's too late

    • @humanangel8007
      @humanangel8007 4 роки тому +28

      That line represents me. Everyone says I'm an amazing person but I just don't feel like I am, I feel exactly the opposite. I feel like the world would be a better place without me and that I fucked up every life I've stepped into.

    • @lpsreptiles5907
      @lpsreptiles5907 4 роки тому +6

      I can relate too.

    • @psychopathanimelover2861
      @psychopathanimelover2861 4 роки тому +8

      I wish I would get hit with a bullet

    • @imahumanperson8374
      @imahumanperson8374 4 роки тому +7

      human angel If you ever feel the urge to hurt yourself... please... call the suicide prevention hotline, there are people who want to help. Please keep fighting through the darkness. I may not know you, but if you wanna talk, I can try to help.

  • @MuhammadAfzal-bh7yu
    @MuhammadAfzal-bh7yu 5 років тому +532

    *How does someone so perfect*
    *Feel so insecure*
    *How does someone so loving*
    *Learn to hate her own guts*
    The surprise attack of Depression

  • @josylingallup2713
    @josylingallup2713 2 роки тому +29

    I've depressed since I was 9 and this song still comes to me when I'm feeling this way

    • @_csinti_
      @_csinti_ 2 роки тому +1

      i wish you all the best, take care

    • @TK-uz4ts
      @TK-uz4ts Рік тому

      If you are struggling please don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong

    • @josylingallup2713
      @josylingallup2713 Рік тому +1

      Thank you both. Honestly I still feel like crap. Never really thought I'd make it to 20. I'm hiding these feelings from my friends who took me in because I was homeless have been for a while, and a bunch of junk has happened to me recenrly and i came back to rhis song. Things are just rough honestly.

    • @e.n.6079
      @e.n.6079 3 місяці тому

      ​@@josylingallup2713hi I can relate to you. May God bless you. Honestly I am feeling bad as well but found hope in the LORD JESUS CHRIST. Maybe you can open up to Jesus as well. I wish you all the best!

  • @hayzzzzzzz
    @hayzzzzzzz Рік тому +33

    I used to listen to this in grade 7/8 and haven’t in years. I just graduated and it still hurts and reminds me of me. It hurts to know I haven’t changed much lol

    • @TK-uz4ts
      @TK-uz4ts Рік тому +1

      If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best

  • @imabasicbitch913
    @imabasicbitch913 6 років тому +1463

    When she sang:
    'There *was* a girl.'
    I almost cried.

  • @logandelbiaggio3474
    @logandelbiaggio3474 7 років тому +9943

    One day, scissors will be for paper.
    One day, razors will be for shaving.
    One day, knives will be for food.
    One day, food will be for eating.
    One day, pills will be for the sick.
    One day, hearts will not be broken.
    One day, people will like me.
    One day, I will be loved.
    One day, all of us including me will recover 🌹

    • @user-dq2wy1mg7e
      @user-dq2wy1mg7e 7 років тому +61

      Logan Del Biaggio amen ❤️❤️❤️

    • @shippyboi
      @shippyboi 7 років тому +13

      Lila C thank you lila

    • @searthrum5389
      @searthrum5389 7 років тому +39

      Logan Del Biaggio - One Day, somebody will know. : )

    • @shippyboi
      @shippyboi 7 років тому +8

      Searthrum I do know

    • @miramonroe4318
      @miramonroe4318 7 років тому +8

      Lit Lucario Ugh same

  • @adam4035
    @adam4035 3 роки тому +17

    I am 4 months clean!

  • @katienicole9833
    @katienicole9833 7 років тому +336

    Faking a smile is easier then explaining why your sad

    • @Joseph-kj1ok
      @Joseph-kj1ok 6 років тому

      every thing is harder even a smile but try to be positive before it's too late and you become a pessimist like me.

    • @eileenmarie1652
      @eileenmarie1652 6 років тому

      it so hard, i agree. I cant be positive anymore, i just have a terrible life in my head. to everyone else i look perfect.

    • @deborahogorman9027
      @deborahogorman9027 6 років тому

      Katie Nicole so true thats what I do😥

    • @alexhubbard8543
      @alexhubbard8543 6 років тому +2

      Bitch why you hating on people with depression. You get back to me when you've felt my pain and you've thought my thoughts. You probably never felt the way we do. We think that nobody's cares.Nobody loves us. No one will miss us so let's kill ourselves because the pain is to much to handle

    • @glennabullard9090
      @glennabullard9090 6 років тому +1

      Spectrum I just want to say I'm so deeply sorry that your so hurt it makes you feel better to hurt other people it's really just sad. But you really should know that deep down it isn't really making you feel any better because if it did you just simply wouldn't have so much hate in your heart 😢😭😭😭 I will pray for you😍💗🙏😭😭😭😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢

  • @sackme4377
    @sackme4377 7 років тому +14559

    Hangman teaches us that saying the wrong thing could end someone's life

    • @Chloe-wq1hs
      @Chloe-wq1hs 7 років тому +330

      oh wow

    • @brr5949
      @brr5949 7 років тому +133

      You stole that from a picture

    • @MakoLikeTheShark
      @MakoLikeTheShark 7 років тому +47

      Alexis Coberly that was awesome

    • @brr5949
      @brr5949 7 років тому +90

      Shut the fuck up, I know exactly what it's like to have strong depression, You have no clue what I have been through! All I said was she stole that from a picture that I saw on instagram..I didn't say anything offensive what so ever I was just stating facts, so I think you can go ahead and shut the hell up!

    • @brr5949
      @brr5949 7 років тому +41

      She didn't use it for a profile pic she commented it and didn't give credit & I have no clue why the actual fuck you got so defensive because I didn't do shit to offend anyone.

  • @amber6410
    @amber6410 3 роки тому +26

    jan 2020 my childhood bestfriend who's a teen took her own life and this is what I saw in her Watch History. It's 2021 and I still come back to this. Now I know how she felt.

    • @AdityaSharma-cm6ed
      @AdityaSharma-cm6ed 3 роки тому +1

      She's in HEAVEN

    • @alexdaniel5641
      @alexdaniel5641 2 роки тому

      If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so dont waste it, and also dont worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going foward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of suicide survivors remember that they changed their mind mid-suicide and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet, call the suicide hotline and if you can afford a therapist too because i worry about you "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" almost everyone have a dark chapter in life you can pass through it ...

  • @ary_0912
    @ary_0912 8 місяців тому +9

    I was 12 years old listening to this song and I'm now 19. I'm still the girl in the front of the class but have gotten better ❤

  • @evalinaqueen5667
    @evalinaqueen5667 4 роки тому +609

    It’s scary when... the people in the comment section care more then my friends and family 🖤

    • @bimehself
      @bimehself 4 роки тому +9

      Guess we just understand it better having gone through a lot of this stuff on our own or losing someone this exact way

    • @littleblockser8d840
      @littleblockser8d840 4 роки тому

      It really is tho

    • @leorivera4137
      @leorivera4137 4 роки тому +2

      Evalina Queen Very true... I feel like all these people get me and what I’m going through and they are so understanding...unlike.. my family and friends ...

    • @quit6919
      @quit6919 4 роки тому +3

      Coz actual people exist here they dont in real life no one would care if u said anything which is depressing

    • @XxTechnoCakezxX
      @XxTechnoCakezxX 4 роки тому

      *HUGGGGGGG*

  • @kristinlenton4825
    @kristinlenton4825 4 роки тому +1667

    Teacher: “ what do you want to be when you get older?”
    Me:..I haven’t ever thought about it
    My mind: I want to be dead..now or when I get older is fine, as long as it happens soon...

    • @thesonofworldpeace8745
      @thesonofworldpeace8745 3 роки тому +17

      I won’t let you die....you can beat this pain and sadness; and, I’ll be there too stand and fight by you’re side for all eternity. I love, care for, and cherish you with all my heart and soul eternally and I swear on my life and soul that nothing will ever change that. I’ll do whatever it takes to make you eternally happy and at peace with yourself and life....you deserve the heaven paradise and I promise too give you that on earth if given the chance. I’ll always be here for you....even in death, I’ll still always be there too give u strength, love, peace, hope, and happiness whenever you need it🙏❤️

    • @bigmcg7484
      @bigmcg7484 3 роки тому +12

      I have a friend who said the same thing. She was sure shed never live past 15. Her 14th birthday was awful. She thought it would be her last. But she moved schools, mads friends, became head girl and went off to her top uni, hoping to be a teacher and help kids like her. She has started a mental health group at my school and changed so many lives, including mine. It can get better. Your friends love you. I love you Stay strong!! 💖

    • @orlysteiger5975
      @orlysteiger5975 3 роки тому +1

      Me

    • @moonrose4118
      @moonrose4118 3 роки тому +2

      I felt that...
      You know the feeling of like you have no plans for your future? Like you dont know why but your not planning your future because you know that it will be over soon?

    • @thesonofworldpeace8745
      @thesonofworldpeace8745 3 роки тому +3

      @@moonrose4118 Nothing will be over anytime soon; you’re life is to precious too just give it up for the pain too end

  • @DeadRxse333
    @DeadRxse333 Рік тому +83

    A poem I wrote inspired by this song:
    Counting is fun!
    One, Two, Three...
    Three tears drip down my face!
    So fun, right?
    Counting is fun!
    One, Two, Three, Four!
    Four scarring wounds.
    Counting is fun...
    One, Two, Three, Four, Five.
    Five burns.
    Counting is... fun...?
    One, Two, Three, Four, Five, Six...
    Six days since I last ate.
    Counting... Is... Done...
    Seven, Six, Five, Four, Three, Two....
    I jump, and the wind runs through my hair.
    "One." I whisper as everything goes black.

    • @DeadRxse333
      @DeadRxse333 Рік тому +1

      @Potter&Lovegood thank you.

    • @K0afn
      @K0afn 11 місяців тому +2

      This is beautiful I hope everything gets better at least that is what I here will happen let’s hope it’s true for both of us

    • @ApprovedShortPerson
      @ApprovedShortPerson 10 місяців тому +2

      Never let it get to one. You are loved you are worthy even if you don’t think so. ❤

    • @kismet8583
      @kismet8583 10 місяців тому

      put this shit back in that head of urs bro 😭😭IT SUCKS
      edgar allen poe😭😭👎🏼👎🏼

    • @jessedion16
      @jessedion16 8 місяців тому

      Keep fighting❤ you are strong and worthy of love and happiness. Beautiful poem

  • @makaylacarey2510
    @makaylacarey2510 20 днів тому +3

    10 years later… can’t believe I’m still here. This song will always be a core memory when I was at my worst

  • @bev252010
    @bev252010 5 років тому +1789

    Boys go through this aswell, chin up boys ❤️

    • @berkleyhuffman48
      @berkleyhuffman48 4 роки тому +57

      I have my chin up around people, that's why nobody knows I'm suffering. And that's why I prefer to be alone... I don't have to fake how I feel about myself when nobody's watching.

    • @bev252010
      @bev252010 4 роки тому +10

      Berkley Huffman heads up, you will get through this. I promise. It just takes time and patience no matter how long you have felt like this. ❤️ you will get better and anytime you need, reply to this comment

    • @berkleyhuffman48
      @berkleyhuffman48 4 роки тому +2

      @@bev252010 Hey.

    • @Ta1kesh
      @Ta1kesh 4 роки тому +29

      @@nightmarewolfy8483 That’s not true. Many studies have shown that males are more likely to experience a mental disorder at some stage in their life than females are. It's just that they often aren't given the resources and support to speak publicly about it.

    • @amberjenoko7580
      @amberjenoko7580 4 роки тому +7

      thisss sunday I’m a girl I will NEVER say anything about it

  • @bridgetpatrick3012
    @bridgetpatrick3012 4 роки тому +206

    i love how this isn’t the stereotypical “emo” protagonist and it shows that popularity doesn’t make you not depressed or suicidal.

  • @adinsleepy
    @adinsleepy 6 місяців тому +3

    Man, comin' back after middle achool surw is something. Yello human readin' this! Yet another survivor here.
    Have tried a good 4 times at least, now a senior in highachool after 7 years of suffering and still depressed lol. Atarted listenimg around 11, now 18
    Not as bad but depression hasnt gottwn away. I hope one day, if anyone is listening to this and is actively atruggling you can look back after however long it takes and be happy you survived.
    You matter. I dont know who you are, what youve done, what you havent done, what your grades are, or anyrhing like thar. But im sure your a beautiful person jn your own right. Thank you for being alive right now. Thank you for continuing to breathe today. You're loved

  • @josephinemadolobergquist7325
    @josephinemadolobergquist7325 9 місяців тому +3

    I listened to this at a time where I was sure I would never even live to be 18, today I’m 24 and I come back to these songs just to kinda, console my younger self, telling her it will get better ❤

  • @huntergreen4782
    @huntergreen4782 7 років тому +318

    It's so sad that so many feel this way and yet the world still ignores it 😔

    • @CassieCrowson
      @CassieCrowson 7 років тому +3

      I feel the same way, and I hate People who make fun of it and don't realize how serious this issue is

    • @CassieCrowson
      @CassieCrowson 7 років тому +2

      AmberTerra that's honestly rlly cool and a good idea

    • @jenniferkaufholz9527
      @jenniferkaufholz9527 7 років тому

      That's a good idea...

    • @jaydenbyrd8171
      @jaydenbyrd8171 7 років тому

      Hunter Green yeah and my family doesn't see it at all

    • @clashingpanda7134
      @clashingpanda7134 7 років тому +2

      Hunter Green there need to me more done about depression then just a phone number

  • @kaleighsmith6235
    @kaleighsmith6235 6 років тому +1414

    "There IS a girl..."
    "There IS a girl..."
    "There IS a girl..."
    "There WAS a girl..."
    I was already crying but that hit me hard

  • @lucasgrazalieze3952
    @lucasgrazalieze3952 Рік тому +8

    I had to be so young when I first listened to this song. My mind was in such a dark place. It’s insane looking back on where I was and what my normal used to be. I’m still alive.

  • @jakefromstatefarm_tmf
    @jakefromstatefarm_tmf 11 місяців тому +10

    I have 5 to-go songs to listen to when i feel bad. This one, Her Last Words by Courtney Parker, Count by Lottie Hartnack, Hey Little Girl by sophiemarie.b, and Baby Don't Cut by B-Mike. I can now officially say that i have memorized these 5 songs and others word for word

    • @ApprovedShortPerson
      @ApprovedShortPerson 10 місяців тому

      I hope you never have to listen to those songs because your getting better. You are worthy strong and loved.

    • @Aishycheesecrackers431
      @Aishycheesecrackers431 3 місяці тому +1

      The fact that I listen to 4/5 of those songs says a lot 😅

  • @InsomniacRavyn
    @InsomniacRavyn 5 років тому +724

    There's a girl in my class who is always smiling and sometimes when one of us spaces off we accidentally look at each other. When the other one realized we start making funny faces and being weird to make the other laugh.
    There is a girl in my class who is so nice and kind to everyone, and always holds a helping hand
    There was girl in my class who posted "KMS" on her story and everyone took it as a joke. That night we lost a helping hand... and I lost a friend...

    • @cb-ht6be
      @cb-ht6be 5 років тому +25

      Buggyboo Fangirl i bet she was great and amazing from what you’ve described. i’ve never been through a loss like that but i wanted to let you know you’re great too💕

    • @InsomniacRavyn
      @InsomniacRavyn 5 років тому +10

      @@cb-ht6be thank you

    • @suryanshdasgupta143
      @suryanshdasgupta143 5 років тому +7

      Buggyboo Fangirl ummmm I uh relate to the first part it’s like me....

    • @drmoonrat940
      @drmoonrat940 4 роки тому +11

      Oh my gosh I am so sorry no one ever sees the signs even if they are right there I am so so sorry she sounded like a great person and what ever you do please don't follow in her foot steps the world needs more people like you and here I am sorry again I know exactly how you feel school can be a painful place please don't take this comment the wrong way I am here if you want to talk I am sorry again

    • @InsomniacRavyn
      @InsomniacRavyn 4 роки тому +4

      @@drmoonrat940 thank you.

  • @Miadixoneq
    @Miadixoneq 4 роки тому +996

    Someone I know asked me
    “how can I be depressed at your age”
    (I’m 13 almost 14)
    Depression is not limited to your age a five year old could have it if you really payed attention.

    • @gachajames5481
      @gachajames5481 4 роки тому +63

      True I read a story about a little transgender girl. "Mommy I would rather die than live another day as a boy." This kid was wishing for death at 4.

    • @perfectentertainment1695
      @perfectentertainment1695 4 роки тому +3

      Gacha Whiticorn you mean boy?

    • @gachajames5481
      @gachajames5481 4 роки тому +13

      @@perfectentertainment1695 no the kid is MTF.

    • @perfectentertainment1695
      @perfectentertainment1695 4 роки тому +6

      Gacha Whiticorn no at 4 years old you should be learning how to take a shit on a toilet and watching Ben 10 not changing your gender or any of that bullshit as a child I liked to dress up in girls clothes and shit yeah I know it’s gay but I did it because I looked up to my mum and thought she was the coolest all I’m saying is is that’s fucked up if your saying to people your kid is trans at the age of 4 come on people

    • @Seldnic
      @Seldnic 4 роки тому +32

      @@perfectentertainment1695 there is not age requirement to now if your trans

  • @abracadabrafrog9564
    @abracadabrafrog9564 Рік тому +6

    I listened to this song constantly when I was younger, it's been a few years I've gotten better but I gravitated back to this song. It hurts to remember the darkness but it's also nice to know ive grown

  • @ChamiaRochaee
    @ChamiaRochaee 4 місяці тому +4

    This got me through middle school, I’m now 23 just graduated from college…Thank you

  • @Mqrchbanks
    @Mqrchbanks 4 роки тому +312

    Roses are red
    Violets are blue
    Sugar is sweet
    And perhaps so are you
    But the roses have wilted
    The violets are dead
    The sugar bowls empty
    Your wrists are stained red
    The sun isn't shining
    The sky isn't clear
    There's no silver lining
    Cause you're no longer here
    Rain keeps on pouring
    There's no end in sight
    You're lying there frozen
    So far from light
    Your beauty's unreal
    Your smile is the sun
    But time can't be turned
    Nor your actions undone
    The words that you wrote
    That only I read :
    /i love you so much; please don't cry when I'm dead/

    • @yaretzygonzalez1685
      @yaretzygonzalez1685 4 роки тому +3

      🥺💕

    • @ivorycarlson1203
      @ivorycarlson1203 4 роки тому +4

      So powerful

    • @yoisme6695
      @yoisme6695 4 роки тому +5

      This is so inspiring and touching omg I love this poem so much 💖💖

    • @RazzberryRazor
      @RazzberryRazor 4 роки тому +7

      There's some people who try to help,
      The risk their mental health, they risk seeing someone the love die. The risk hearing that "goodbye". At least you heard their last word and that their finally "free". Some people may die because of this suicide. But the the true person with hope will not let them die in vein. They will carry the weight and help others. Knowing their mistake. "Goodbyes" are never good. And that "I'm going to kill myself" will carve your heart out. But once they say "goodbye" you can't help but feel like they never listened. And just thought of you as a inconvenience, thinking you said "your being dramatic" when really you said "your death is what will make a lake, maybe a new ocean."

    • @hooft747
      @hooft747 4 роки тому +3

      It is really touching, did you write it?

  • @hellbaby5235
    @hellbaby5235 7 років тому +672

    Almost 5 months clean of cutting.. This is the most clean I've been since I was 11.
    I'm actually really proud of myself.

    • @suptruckersxd8094
      @suptruckersxd8094 7 років тому +18

      z0mbi3hunt3r that is absolutely amazing!! You are doing amazing!! I am still fighting my battles, but I will remember you, and if you can do it, I can!!!

    • @angelinavitro8355
      @angelinavitro8355 6 років тому +1

      z0mbi3hunt3r almost two months

    • @laurad2955
      @laurad2955 6 років тому +10

      Congratulations! I'm glad your clean of cutting! I'm trying to get clean of skipping meals, I only basically eat less than one meal a day now. But I'm starting to eat more. But the point is, I'm happy for you!

    • @becool4642
      @becool4642 6 років тому +5

      z0mbi3hunt3r gosh...Icant even be clean for 2 days T-T

    • @hellbaby5235
      @hellbaby5235 6 років тому +1

      Be Cool be strong, this was over 4 months ago, and in that time, I was hospitalized for suicidal thoughts.. I resisted the urge and told my campus officer, I went to sundance and did almost 3 weeks, and im still clean, so whatever you do, focus on your future. kik me if you feel things start to go wrong.. ceillover1221

  • @kjuromi4496
    @kjuromi4496 Рік тому +5

    it’s hitting new years and im proud i’ve made it to another year

    • @ApprovedShortPerson
      @ApprovedShortPerson 10 місяців тому

      I’m proud of you to! Keep going! Sending virtual love….

  • @JC-bq3vd
    @JC-bq3vd 2 роки тому +6

    I relapsed again. Almost 3 months clean. This song is literally me. Every day. It sucks bc your alone. And nobody really cares or wants the truth about how she really is.

    • @TK-uz4ts
      @TK-uz4ts Рік тому +1

      If you are struggling please don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. I wish you all the best

    • @ApprovedShortPerson
      @ApprovedShortPerson 10 місяців тому +1

      I hope you can get clean. And I hope you get better. Continue being you strong self even if you don’t feel you can be❤

  • @oblituscaritate6738
    @oblituscaritate6738 9 років тому +405

    I hate my life. I hate that I get anxiety and panic attacks "for attention"
    I hate that I'm severely depressed "for attention"
    I hate that I'm so self conscious "for attention"
    I hate that I'm anorexic "for attention"
    And I hate that every day, I'm SCREAMING out for help but no-one can hear, and no-one is trying to.
    I want to put a blade to my wrist. But I'm not going to.
    Why?
    Cause I'd only be doing it "for attention" anyway.

    • @Elles1928
      @Elles1928 9 років тому +4

      Aww Ive felt exacly like you. People thought i was doing thingd "for atention" but you can't help it. I hope things work out in the end. If things have gone better for me, i'm sure they will for you too xx

    • @vicislame6464
      @vicislame6464 9 років тому +3

      I know how u feel, maybe if I died it would be "for attention" too.. because you know everyone wants attention when their dead .-. Honestly though it'll be alright, listen to music, stay strong, and don't give up

    • @kittykatstrieker
      @kittykatstrieker 9 років тому +2

      Stay strong

    • @brookemartin5615
      @brookemartin5615 9 років тому +1

      people say that to me all the time too. but try your best to ignore them. keep your head up we are all in this together.

    • @skylarsipsock3632
      @skylarsipsock3632 9 років тому +1

      Exactly that's all they say is your just doing it for attwntion

  • @amy_marie
    @amy_marie 8 років тому +224

    I always read the comments, listening to peoples problems. It makes me sad, but happy knowing i'm not the only who feels like a prisoner in my own body xxxx

  • @ngatauu8140
    @ngatauu8140 Рік тому +7

    it's been 8 years since i found this song. the fact that i played it religiously at 10 years old is crazy. currently moved countries & still going back and forwards with life, but i feel for 10 year old me.

  • @kellygiardino2073
    @kellygiardino2073 16 днів тому +3

    its strange coming back to this song and "her last words" and seeing they both have millions of likes/views.. these songs always felt like a secret of mine in middle school

  • @kyravanandel9264
    @kyravanandel9264 5 років тому +3027

    I hate people who joke about depression. They do not know how it feels. 😥
    edit: wow, thanks for so many likes and comments. ❤

    • @reignrain4042
      @reignrain4042 5 років тому +178

      Many people joke to cope

    • @jazminking7538
      @jazminking7538 5 років тому +37

      Exactly... I told my friend that I was depressed and he said that I was an f***ing liar and he walked away... I just decided to continue to hide behind smiles.

    • @lethallizard_4493
      @lethallizard_4493 5 років тому +61

      I have to joke about it so that I can manage

    • @TheAkumuKing
      @TheAkumuKing 5 років тому +15

      Kyra Van Andel
      So do I.
      That means I hate myself.

    • @YTSirSweaty
      @YTSirSweaty 5 років тому +4

      Agreed.

  • @silentninja1069
    @silentninja1069 6 років тому +913

    Sometimes, depression can get the worst of you. Trust me I know. I lost all my friends because of it. But if you ever think suicide is the answer. It's not.
    Don't you dare tell me your mother will rather be at your grave with flowers in her hand crying, wishing you were still here, than at home with you
    Don't you dare tell me your father isn't going to miss coming home from work to see you, but instead comes home to a sad house.
    DONT YOU DARE tell me your sister isn't going to miss stealing your clothes or yelling at you for taking hers.
    DONT YOU DARE tell me your brother won't miss showing you his stupid cars or pulling his weird pranks on
    And dont you dare tell me, your best friend isn't going to miss you sitting with him/her at lunch.
    You little piece of fabulous human being, keep going because you've made it this far. So stop, smile, pat yourself on the back and say "I did it". Then keep going. I promise IT WILL GET BETTER. You just cant give up. Love ya stranger, keep going

    • @mr.morronic2099
      @mr.morronic2099 6 років тому

      Silent Ninja a

    • @FatamyOnYT
      @FatamyOnYT 6 років тому +22

      Silent Ninja
      I really like this, but if you have more than one sibling, they'll get over you and what if your mother is the reason why your suicidal?

    • @paiigerhodes
      @paiigerhodes 6 років тому +23

      This comment made me cry, thank you for saying this 💕

    • @sackofpotatoezz3769
      @sackofpotatoezz3769 6 років тому +21

      Silent Ninja ,
      I've tried, trust me I have, but I just can't do it anymore. Life is to hard. Just a pat on the back? THAT WONT MAKE ME FEEL BETTER! Just because you got better doesn't mean I can. I've had depression since I was ten. TEN! I've been cutting for over a year and I'm only eleven. Trust me, a pat on the back won't save my broken soul.

    • @j3nnif3rlop3z2
      @j3nnif3rlop3z2 6 років тому +9

      This made me cry

  • @NightCore-z
    @NightCore-z Місяць тому +4

    I'm back at this point in my life, where I just listen to this song on repeat. I really wish this song was on Spotify

    • @sandrazaluski982
      @sandrazaluski982 Місяць тому

      I also am back to this point in life. Stay strong

  • @Mrssydhub
    @Mrssydhub 3 роки тому +7

    It gets better y’all. I listened to this song every single day in middle school. I’m a sophomore in college now and trust me. It isn’t worth it. Don’t end your life now because you’ll never know all the good that life will throw your way if you just stick around for it.

  • @mariehawkins8262
    @mariehawkins8262 7 років тому +392

    A smile can hide a lot, can't it?

    • @nevillelongbottom4875
      @nevillelongbottom4875 7 років тому +14

      Georgia Likes Food It can hide way to much.

    • @MoMo-wz4bd
      @MoMo-wz4bd 6 років тому +4

      Georgia Likes Food yes and its usually to much. talking from experience

    • @annmariecarrillo9711
      @annmariecarrillo9711 6 років тому +1

      _FrozenInTime_ Plays yes it can

    • @abbieneice5081
      @abbieneice5081 6 років тому

      _FrozenInTime_ Plays Yeah I guess so. I mean it works for me

    • @nathye5716
      @nathye5716 6 років тому +9

      _FrozenInTime_ Plays it can unfortunately but eyes can't

  • @haileybudach9405
    @haileybudach9405 8 років тому +237

    That moment when your heart is completely broken and you cant help but listen to songs like this even though it makes you cry more.

    • @Bianca.Roxana
      @Bianca.Roxana 8 років тому +1

      Yaas,so true😢😢😢

    • @gamingwithmunchies6591
      @gamingwithmunchies6591 8 років тому +1

      yep... so true

    • @adrianareyes4642
      @adrianareyes4642 8 років тому +1

      Same👌🏻💯

    • @stefanjanevski4663
      @stefanjanevski4663 8 років тому +2

      depression...The only thing that I'm scared from...

    • @Sarah-gv7sf
      @Sarah-gv7sf 8 років тому +2

      +Stefan Janevski same. I should be happy with all of the people who love me, but I just can't sometimes. The only reason I'm ever happy anymore is my friends online. But so many people online are so mean, it hurts, truly.

  • @AllixandryaJordynn
    @AllixandryaJordynn 2 роки тому +9

    It’s crazy, when I was eight years old I found this song to do an improv dance to, and I never thought anything of it. Years later I’m 17 years old and I deal with the same issues in the song and I remembered it it had to find it, and it’s so scary because I felt everything in this song

    • @alexdaniel5641
      @alexdaniel5641 2 роки тому

      If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so dont waste it, and also dont worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going foward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of suicide survivors remember that they changed their mind mid-suicide and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet, call the suicide hotline and if you can afford a therapist too because i worry about you "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" almost everyone have a dark chapter in life you can pass through it .. Dont quit you are still young

  • @daisy4075
    @daisy4075 2 місяці тому +2

    I found this song when I was 14/15, now I'm 22 and I can't believe how different things are now. I'm so glad I got better and I'm so much happier.

  • @budpalguy
    @budpalguy 5 років тому +470

    Another mark
    Another spark
    Wash the pain
    Down the drain
    Will it go away?
    Will it stay?
    You never know
    But never let go
    You still have a chance
    To keep your stance
    Continue to fight
    Reach for the light
    Afterall
    It's all you can do
    To make it through

  • @fbi3607
    @fbi3607 5 років тому +169

    This song is everyone that struggles with depression, remember you aren’t alone I’ll always be with you stay strong for me yeah? (:

    • @KatieParsons-kd9zb
      @KatieParsons-kd9zb 5 років тому

      Jin Soul no

    • @MJ-yu7dv
      @MJ-yu7dv 4 роки тому

      Yea

    • @kirawirges2535
      @kirawirges2535 4 роки тому

      question d u like BTS your name says jin soul sooo just a thought and BTS is my only happyness sooo

    • @noidentity2617
      @noidentity2617 4 роки тому +2

      I can’t promise that at all today. I’m sorry for not being strong enough to fight for survival, I have to give up I don’t belong here, I don’t have a place here, I’m not needed I am worthless to myself even if someone tells me I’m not because I know that’s not true. I’m sorry that I am not going to see tomorrow if my friends don’t come in time

    • @kirawirges2535
      @kirawirges2535 4 роки тому

      @@noidentity2617 i feel the same way

  • @chloeb2288
    @chloeb2288 3 роки тому +5

    To reading this this, I would listen to this song a couple of years ago and cry my eyes out relating to this song. Now I am back listening to it to see how much I have grown. I say that to tell you that you are needed here in this world. I love you and so does everyone else. Ik things might be hard but trust me things do get better. It’s always the question if “when?” For everyone it’s different but trust me it does. Stay here❤️

  • @Anonymous_Because_I_Can
    @Anonymous_Because_I_Can Рік тому +12

    Hey Amanda. Are you still alive? This may be a blunt way to put it, but none of the links to your social media pages work. Not only that, but you haven’t uploaded in years. To top it all off, there are several obituaries saying you died on September 12, 2018. I’d believe it, but you uploaded in 2020, which is kinda hard to do when you’re dead.

  • @savannahskye1973
    @savannahskye1973 11 місяців тому +5

    i’m not sure how this came back up on my youtube but i haven’t heard it since i was like 12 or 13. i’m 21 now and i just graduated from college and moved out of my hometown. it is so incredibly touching to see everyone’s stories of when we were younger and where we are now. healing isn’t linear and if you are reading this, please stay and keep going. i am proud of you and how far you’ve come. keep your head up and push through. you are worth it. 🫶🏻🤍

  • @Alyssa-ht9xv
    @Alyssa-ht9xv 6 років тому +2626

    girly you need to put this on spotify

  • @yamihirugashi3322
    @yamihirugashi3322 8 років тому +280

    It always gets me at the "my mind was messed up/you couldn't save me anyway"

  • @MariaHernandez-eb8ki
    @MariaHernandez-eb8ki Рік тому +4

    I used to listen to this song from the time I was eleven. I'm 20 now. It popped up on my video recommendations tonight. Been in kind of a bad place today, trying to reach out on video comments and social media for the first time in my life. Don't know if it's progress or insanity, really. Guess I'll be crying it out. Sometimes sad music helps me cry it out.

    • @prostfan
      @prostfan Рік тому

      Sending you a virtual hug 🤗

    • @ApprovedShortPerson
      @ApprovedShortPerson 10 місяців тому

      Sending you virtual love. Stay strong I know you can bae

  • @trashdrawstrash6333
    @trashdrawstrash6333 3 роки тому +5

    The way she described the girl is probably the closest thing a person has ever come to knowing me. Even though this wasn’t written for me it feels so soothing.

  • @aalexx7165
    @aalexx7165 6 років тому +2229

    I'm confused...
    I'm always laughing, smiling, and joking around during the day. But the moment when everyone's asleep, I suddenly feel something come over my body and tell me bad things. I cry and purposely scratch myself to the point where as I bleed and it feels good...

    • @megliva4444
      @megliva4444 6 років тому +102

      Alexis Baby i have done that since i was 10 i'm now 13 and i'm still doing it just with sissers becaus its faster. You are not alone! Everyone think that i'm happy just because i'm smiling. no one knows that i'm selfharming and think about suicide every single day.

    • @layladawson3180
      @layladawson3180 6 років тому +44

      Alexis. Pretending you're fine is part of the problem because you cant pretend forever. I am 33 and I still self harm but I am now at a point where I cant pretend anymore. You need to tell someone how you really feel no matter if that's a teacher or a friend. hugs sweetie

    • @xxxxxxxxxxxx4057
      @xxxxxxxxxxxx4057 6 років тому +28

      Alexis Baby I do the same thing because I’m insecure about alot of things, I never got bullied real bad or anything I just learned not to like certain things about me I even fake a smile sometimes because I really like to spread positivity but sometimes I don’t have any positivity to spread and that’s okay, i just don’t want people to feel how I feel. Life’s tough just keep trying and don’t give up, sometimes it’s harder than it was the day before but it’s worth it. Y’all are all amazing and it’s okay to feel bad about yourself some days, I’m still trying to feel good about myself some days too, I know how hard it can be.🖤

    • @pastelpockysticks2262
      @pastelpockysticks2262 6 років тому +23

      Alexis Baby I feel like that to, but BTS and kpop saved my life believe it or not. I was very suicidal, I still have suicidal thoughts but I know I won't do it.

    • @thatdisneynerd9853
      @thatdisneynerd9853 6 років тому +23

      I’ve done that since I was 9... I’m 12 now... I laugh, I’m goofy, hyper but when everyone’s asleep I’m almost in tears, scratching myself so hard. I have cuts all over my feet...

  • @Lee-dz8zj
    @Lee-dz8zj 4 роки тому +3608

    “Just a cut?”
    Just a scratch.
    “What’s that mark?”
    “It was the cat.”
    Just an excuse
    Just a lie
    “What’s with all the bracelets?”
    “Just fashion, why?”
    Just a tear
    Just a scream
    “Why were you crying?”
    “Just a bad dream.”
    But it’s not just a cut, or a tear or a lie.
    It’s always.
    “ just one more. “
    Committing suicide doesn’t end the pain.
    It passes it onto someone else.

    • @genesisplayzgacha1266
      @genesisplayzgacha1266 4 роки тому +54

      this is such a good poem and very heart warming thank you Amen

    • @Lee-dz8zj
      @Lee-dz8zj 4 роки тому +16

      undeadfan No, you are making up everyone’s mind. What if they will care? Someone cares about you even if you don’t know it.

    • @yoisme6695
      @yoisme6695 4 роки тому +10

      This poem touched my heart 💖💖

    • @adiafearn5094
      @adiafearn5094 4 роки тому +8

      undeadfan I'm sorry you are hurting. Even if no one you know loves you I love you. You got up today and for that I'm proud of you. You deserve so much more then you think. I hope it will get better.❤️

    • @adiafearn5094
      @adiafearn5094 4 роки тому +2

      undeadfan. If I can help in any way please let me know. ♥️

  • @ashleyprice7174
    @ashleyprice7174 3 роки тому +8

    I listened to this three years ago
    Now I'm back and it hurts so much more

    • @alexdanieloliveira2294
      @alexdanieloliveira2294 2 роки тому +1

      If you need help Go talk to your friends, family and People you Trust, Life can Be Great full of Good memories and experiences and Will get even better after the pandemic ends so dont waste it, If necessary search for help in the internet and If you can afford it call a therapist "ending it is a permanent solution for a temporary problem" so many People that tried to end it changed their minds and are glad to Be alive,. we all have the dark chapter of our lives but you can pass through it...

  • @nolani5378
    @nolani5378 Рік тому +1

    knowing i was listening to this song at 7 years old whilst i’m 16 now honestly upsets me so much. from 9 years ago, my mental state has honestly just decreased so much to the point i didn’t think id still be here now. these songs bring me a sense of comfort and safety as i’ve grew up listening to them repeatedly. this and “her last words” are extremely relatable and honestly will forever stay with me

  • @Mel-yc4kv
    @Mel-yc4kv 6 років тому +177

    did anyone else notice that half way through the song instead of saying "There is a girl." it said "There was a girl" that part broke my heart

    • @jazzlynwilson8758
      @jazzlynwilson8758 6 років тому +3

      Luffyanna I think it's showing the evolution of the girl leading up to it. Because she went from happy to completely out of it with sadness to took her last breath so she can be happy again

    • @lilyholdaway5635
      @lilyholdaway5635 6 років тому

      Luffyanna Oh My God....

  • @Seldnic
    @Seldnic 4 роки тому +91

    In our world today its sad to realize when some says they're sad or has depression its taken lightly and people just say "same" without realizing

    • @abbie9927
      @abbie9927 3 роки тому +5

      Have you ever seen something that's broken fix something else that's broken?

    • @kimmik.4998
      @kimmik.4998 3 роки тому

      @@abbie9927 Jeah

  • @enia6665
    @enia6665 3 місяці тому +2

    when i was 14 i listened to this song on repeat, after seven years i'm back here, doing so much better. Of course there are worse or better days, but the light will come, trust me ❤

  • @Indyyywett
    @Indyyywett 6 місяців тому +2

    feeling like i wanna cut and came back to this song. 7 years clean and im still here. keep ya heads up

  • @castledmercury518
    @castledmercury518 7 років тому +335

    Not good enough
    Not good enough
    Not good enough
    Never fucking good enough

    • @Miyanikoll
      @Miyanikoll 7 років тому +1

      STAAP.
      UR FREAKIN BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE U SO MUCH 😭😭

    • @theworldofwaffles6442
      @theworldofwaffles6442 7 років тому

      Carly Bram so true 😔

    • @princessbrekka
      @princessbrekka 7 років тому

      same

    • @juliaoverbeek173
      @juliaoverbeek173 7 років тому

      Carly Bram you're fk good enough. You're doing your best and thats good enough cos you cant give more then you already do.

    • @castledmercury518
      @castledmercury518 7 років тому

      Julia O I give my best and I am never good enough.

  • @maiahenry6817
    @maiahenry6817 5 років тому +196

    Mom, Dad you lost your daughter years ago

  • @wallflower4384
    @wallflower4384 Рік тому +3

    4 years ago i used to hear this so often and fely every lyrics.. Now i noticed it's melody is really comforting..

  • @Lana-yi5jn
    @Lana-yi5jn 2 роки тому +18

    coming back to this song after like 5 years. im finally getting better. theres hope you guys, even if you dont see it yet. pls try and stay safe

    • @_csinti_
      @_csinti_ 2 роки тому +2

      i'm so proud of you!

  • @TR-oc7hh
    @TR-oc7hh 5 років тому +232

    Did you know People with depression actually try to help others depressed or others feeling sad?. At least in my case..

    • @christalarmand8575
      @christalarmand8575 5 років тому

      I can relate

    • @natalienolastname3680
      @natalienolastname3680 5 років тому +2

      UnKnOwN OooOoOoOo yes me too I was at school today and this guy in one of my classes was getting bullied and I tried to help him feel a little better I know it’s not depression but he was still sad so... btw I did tell someone what they were doing to him

    • @yuuhoyuu3371
      @yuuhoyuu3371 5 років тому

      True

    • @ZimLikesPastaAnimation
      @ZimLikesPastaAnimation 5 років тому +2

      Same here. It's because I don't want people to go through what I go through. That's the only reason I'm still alive actually. My brothers would likely become depressed if I suicided. I don't want that burden placed on their shoulders, so I live for them.

    • @HestiasNemesis
      @HestiasNemesis 5 років тому +1

      Yeah, definitely me. I'm always trying to be there when I notice someone behaving similar to me.

  • @ariandajuliette7783
    @ariandajuliette7783 5 років тому +183

    I used to listen to this heavily in high school. Back in 2013
    I had forgotten about it and it just popped back up in my recommendations ✨
    It gets better, and this song is a reminder of that. I was suicidal and hated myself and I am just loving life now and grateful I did not take my life

    • @berkleyhuffman48
      @berkleyhuffman48 4 роки тому +1

      Everyone says it gets better, they say that about breakups as well but... is 5 months not long enough to move on from someone? If that doesn't get better, I doubt the worse issue will.

    • @kacimatthe1000
      @kacimatthe1000 4 роки тому +1

      Same here except I’ve dealt with suicidal thoughts since elementary school and I’m finally seeing a little improvement. I saw this song again and it reminds me of what I went through.. it’s been so many years and I’m glad I’m now seeing the light

  • @Alwxuwu
    @Alwxuwu 9 місяців тому +3

    4 years ago I sent that vid to my friend, I dedicated that song to him, as he would be the girl in front of the class. He seemed to like it and we kept dedicating songs to each other. His last message to me was apologizing for bottling up his emotions, but he couldnt take anything anymore. I was too innocent during that time, I didnt knew that would be his last message, I knew he was going thru a lot, but 11-12 year old me thought that playing games, making jokes and spending quality time with him would make he forget it all. Now 4 years later here am i, re-listening to this, but this time all by myself, now i understand what he was going thru

  • @wajijiwa8414
    @wajijiwa8414 3 роки тому +5

    after a year, im here again

    • @carrietrower9159
      @carrietrower9159 2 роки тому

      Dude what is that comment for?? Your here AGAIN?

    • @wajijiwa8414
      @wajijiwa8414 2 роки тому

      @@carrietrower9159 i meant after not listening for a year i came back

    • @alexdanieloliveira2294
      @alexdanieloliveira2294 2 роки тому

      @@wajijiwa8414 If you need help Go talk to your friends, family and People you Trust, Life can Be Great full of Good memories and experiences and Will get even better after the pandemic ends so dont waste it, If necessary search for help in the internet and If you can afford it call a therapist "ending it is a permanent solution for a temporary problem" so many People that tried to end it changed their minds and are glad to Be alive,. we all have the dark chapter of our lives but you can pass through it...