You're right at the end, the older man in the video was NF and he was speaking to his younger self. He feels like he let himself down in the past and he feels guilty for how he treated himself now that he is older. Thanks for the reactions Tom, I enjoy them always! Much love.
The first time I heard this I thought it was about his father too, but after a few more listens I figured it out. The "dad" is our adult self that keeps ignoring and denying the wounded child. Not wanting to face it and geting the help we need. But it definately works and is relatable with either interpritation.
Glad you watched right to the very end. Some people miss the most important moment of the video. It’s confusing , because the video makes it seem like it’s about his father , but the ending implies something very different. NF doesn’t mention his dad very often , but I think they had an “ok” relationship. I think his grand parents were the real positive force in his life , and his mom’s addiction , her boyfriends and her overdose were obviously the source of most of his pain. I’m pretty sure Johnny was one of his mom’s boyfriends ... and most likely the worst of the bunch.
Another song that hit me years after my brother's od I hate my father for that night. He got the call and showed up and gave him his drugs back. My neither was having a reaction that was leaving him blind. And my dad left without calling the ambulance. My brother died that night... an adult would have made the better decision
You are the first person I've ever seen react to NFs songs that actually understand and explain the meaning behind the songs. A lot of people get caught up in the song and don't catch the full meaning. Keep it going brother love it.
Love your way of explaining mental health to the general audience. Your personality reminds me a lot of my therapist, it’s very down to earth and real. You have a great heart sir, keep up the wonderful work!
NF leaves many things open to interpretation. My take on it, is the duality of both, the dynamic of parenthood in a broken home, and NF growing old, reminiscing about the mistakes he made in his life by never fully recovering from his burdens/doubts that made him famous. I believe NF is fearful to let go of his burdens (as he references in "Leave Me Alone," yet he simultaneously is "Searching" for answers to his life to learn to evolve into a mentally healthy individual. If he heals, will his fans that related with the real, raw, and flawed NF still embrace him if he makes "happy raps?" I believe, the answer is unequivocally, yes.
To be honest it’s both he did it in a way where you can interpret it as old NF looks back on himself, but also it’s about a parent figuring lettting there kid down as well it’s a double meaning. The video is about relates to Nf story and he did it in a way where it can relate to everyone
This is such a powerful song, I hear at as NF singing to himself and I relate so much, I felt like I was always letting myself down with everything I did. NF and subsequently therapy finally helped me ❤
Ah, I relate to this song so much. Our mother never listened to us about any of our illnesses, whether they mental (we were suicidal from the age of 5!! 5!!!!) or physical (we have chronic pain we were born with, a permanent injury (that never healed in part because no one believed us. fixing it now would require invasive surgery we can't afford), and also POTS that got really bad in our teens, and despite knowing that she loved us, I don't think we can forgive her for that. We went through so much pain because no one listened, even now we struggle to advocate for ourselves because if our mother wouldn't believe us why would anyone else? Even on a personal level, the looking back, our original host couldn't deal with existing. I never met them. All I know about them is that they were absolutely terrified, and they were brave. They were so brave, and it wasn't enough. There were so many things they wanted that will never happen, and I do feel sometimes that I just... I wonder what they would think, if they could see where we are now.
This song breaks my heart cause it reminds me of my nephew. His Mother had him young and drug him through hell. Alcohol, drugs, violence and frequently used him for sympathy to get people to give her money. Through all that he was such a sweet and gentle soul. She would randomly kick him out when he got older and then got him sent to prison. When he got out a charity started helping him because he has had seizures his whole life and then him doing drugs made him have deficits mentally. He was living about an hour away in Chicago but seemed to be doing good. A year ago his Grandma got a message on her answering machine from a hospital wanting to find next of kin for him. She deleted the message thinking is was him trying to get money from her, but we knew it meant something happened. So my Daughter and I called every hospital we could think of and the coroner. We finally found the hospital he was at but they would not talk to us they wanted his Mom. We tracked her down and found out he was stabbed and almost died. His Mom has now used this situation to move in with him and cause more chaos. Some people are really put through it in life. Hoping for my nephew to keep going on the right track, he has been clean and sober but now with her right back in his life I fear her nonsense will impact him again. She is his Mom and as much as he knows she hurts him he feels like he owes her because she has conditioned him into thinking her life is a mess because she had him young.
Amazing song, I'm so happy you reacted to it. The song always hits differently and that's why you want someone to be able to break it down, and who else but the person who can break things down to the point where it helps you understand more about everything, the song and just life in general. I thank you for doing what you do best.
As soon as I found your channel I watched and watched and then waited for the next video because I knew if it was a reaction to a song, the song and the reaction would be great.
@@ReactionTherapyOfficialyou're one of the first reaction channels on NFs music I started watching so we've been following your channel for a while now.
This is the song I relate to most. My dad's never been around but my mother's been there and I feel like I have never been good enough to her. I was always compared to my older brothers. I have never really been good at math and I think I was in first year at school and my mother slapped me because I had failed math, which led to me being scared of my own mother. My psychology teacher was the first one who got to know me in high school and that's like 13 years after my mother had put me through shit. This song just breaks my heart
I actually sat my parents down after I had a major mental breakdown in which I screamed at my dad “FUCK YOU” over and over again over the phone and we had a screaming match. I sat them down and basically explained this entire song to them to explain the relationship I feel with my dad and this song explained everything down to a tee about everything that was bad between me and my dad. All the way down to moving out and feeling like he wouldn’t regret what he was doing until I died.
I don’t know why but I love listening to him talk and his understanding of how they feel and being so accurate and being able to explain it so easily. Love your vids keep it up
I came across this video and couldn't resist. Three of my favorite things (NF, Music reactipns, and therapy) all in one video! Love your comments!! You have a new subscriber! I will start with ALL your NF reactions.💗
My dad is the epitome of apathetic. It’s a big part of why my mom divorced him and why after years of trying to get him to see me for me that I’ve gone limited contact with him. So when this song came out it hit me hard. I was driving and ultimately had to pull over because I was crying so hard. I was fortunate that when my mom wasn’t deployed that I had her to support me otherwise I think things growing up would have been a lot worse. Falling in Reverse, Popular Monster is another song that I think you’d enjoy picking apart the lyrics and music video. He has several other songs that would be good too, but Popular Monster is specifically about mental health.
TOM Tom Tom...... so thankful you keep the NF lyrical spiritual train rollin' to carry the pain through the rain to help others gain a view from the cars of scars to get back on track to a higher plane... now that's REAL... ;)
This song hit me hard. So relatable... I was disowned by my parents because of the man my heart chose to love who I've been with since 2009. I was told I was the biggest mistake my dad ever made, that I was a disappointment and so much more...we tried so many times after to repair things, but I cut them outta my life 3yrs ago.... nothing good to reminisce over either...so many ways this hit home...broke me down.
You are so close to seeing this guy become a rap god!! Keep going, his new stuff is going to blow you away!! So excited for you man, and good job staying on the journey!
I know I’m late but the old man represents his father through most of the video. After his mother died his father was emotionally distant. He felt like his father watched him drown in depression, burn in anger and did nothing to help. When it came to it, his father did care, but he showed it too late. Cutting back to the first scene someone calls the old man Nate because he has mentioned before that one of his biggest fears is making the same mistakes with his own kids. So the old man represents both NF and his dad.
The back and forth of the camera work represents Nate backsliding. Drowning in his problems. He looks back at how he could have made changes in his life to help himself.
I'm crying. This song has had a lot of meaning with my relationships to a lot of my family. And I'm glad you saw the ending. Yes it ties up the song perfectly. And also, yes I finally found a therapist to talk to and gonna talk to her tomorrow. So getting help again.
I love your reactions man. Don't take this the wrong way but I really like how you're an old white guy and you say stuff like spitting, bars, and drop, and it just comes off as completely natural. Just a wholesome guy with great insight who doesn't see the lines other people draw in the sand for things like culture and age, I love it. Keep doing what you do.
The way i relate with this song is the relationship between me and my mom, born to a broken family and lived with a mother with trust issue, she pushed everyone close to her (particularly our family) to always do what she wants unconciously, nothing is ever enough for her and so "im sorry that I let you down" was always me saying it to my mom. And the 3rd verse oh my god that is the exact situation im in whenever im just there with my mom, she always talking about all the good things in the past "that didnt even happened" because its overshadowed by all the bad things she did to me so i didnt really have a good memory of these "good times" Just like the song describes, i still care for her and I want to give her the best I could, but I can never really love her the way a child suppose to, and that there will always be a distance between us. Sorry mom, i hope that i still have enough time to make you proud
Some of my favorite lyrics of this song are "My hands are full, what else should I carry for you? I care for you but..." When this song first came out I was in a horrible relationship and felt as though I was carrying the relationship on my shoulders alone and was still expected to do everything else too. Just my interpretation based of my experience.
Things get better but it's still about a lot of self-reflection and fixing a lot of things that it buried inside and didn't try to take care of I was just tried to work past them or well work to not deal with them.
I think it's about failing to live up to ones own expectations and standing by/watching instead of taking the necessary steps to stop yourself from self-destructing.
@@ReactionTherapyOfficialeverything in accomplishments or material things is just trivial to the fact of what was important and as you said it's just want to know that somebody was proud or they didn't feel like a let down to someone for everything that you were trying your hardest at times even if it didn't seem like it and things were just in a downward spiral and felt like you couldn't climb out of it. 11:59
This song captures my relationship with my dad as a child perfectly. I was never good enough, I was a constant disappointment, I tried so hard to be a daughter he could be proud of but it was never good enough. He would tell me about how he expected me to fail high school, get pregnant as a teenager and start using drugs. None of these things I ever did, he told me he always had low expectations of me so he didn’t have to feel disappointed when I inevitably messed up. I never messed up though, I “rebelled” against his emotional abuse by proving him wrong, I graduated school, got myself a stable and growing career immediately. I gained financial independence so that the day I turned 18 I could move out and never have to go back. I have never gone back, he doesn’t have the power over me like he did as a child. I won’t tolerate disrespect or abuse from him as I have the power to walk out of his house, get in my car and leave. I’ve proven this to him the few times he’s tried it as an adult. He will still never say he’s proud of me but I know he is. He will still never acknowledge the absolute torture he put me through as a child. I felt so low I was victimised by sexual predators and when my father found out he blamed me for being a promiscuous 12 year old… Anyway the one thing I want from him before he dies is an acknowledgment and apology for the abuse he put me through as a child. The only reason I didn’t commit suicide as a teenager was because that would have only proved to him how much of a disappointment I really was 😕 I’m 27 now, I’ve never recovered from this, just moved on. He lives in denial because he managed to abuse me without once laying a hand on me. Thanks for reacting to this song that means so much to me.
Wow! What a powerful story! I’m so grateful you would share this and be so honest. None of that is your fault and you’ve overcome so much since you’ve made it this far. The way you laid this story out tells me you have a good perspective and have had to pay the future price for your fathers past choices. Keep moving forward, and try to get a healthy and qualified professional to talk with, you deserve that. And stay in touch with me because this can be a beginning of a new future. Thank you so much for taking the time to watch and comment😊👍
You’re better than your father. Better than his hate filled words. I know it’s hard to move on from the words/thoughts/expectations of our parents. But you are worthy, you are special. Blessings.
I never knew my dad and will never know him now, he left when I was around three and I grew up hating myself and thinking it was my fault and I was the reason why he left and I ruined my parents lives by being born, but cocaine is a monster
This was I believe the first song I heard from NF and made me fall in love with his songs. Maybe for the next one of him: 'Why' or 'I miss the days". And for a new one I will keep saying the artist Citizen Soldier with for example: "Pandora's Box' and 'If I Surrender'. Awesome reaction to an amazing song!
My mom and father got divorced when I was like 5-6 years old. My father had and most likely still has an alcohol issue. And my mom had to work all the time, I have a littlesister, that I had to care of aged 8-9. My relationship with my father os nonexistent, but its fine with my mom, she did what she had to do, now that im 24 i still doubt myself, but its getting better. This song is so powerful, just like How Could You Leave Us. NF is just doing the job!
Been binge watching your entire reaction playlist, as us NF fans do. I'm glad you've kept up with it. Getting to the point where the music is stepping up but it's still got that emotional kick. This one always reminded me of another song. Different artist, totally different genre. End of Me by A Day to Remember. If you ever start doing rock reactions I'd high recommend that one.
As a 31 year old man who never knew his dad, but who has a 4 year old son. I struggle with this daily......i feel like I need to do everything for my son I missed out on, but I've never been shown how to do the basics in life, I don't even understand myself. Fuck that song man
That song is just so good….in a way it kinda reminds me of how I feel around my parents alot of the time….my mum said she was disappointed in me once….and I started to believe i was just a disappointment and couldn’t do anything right…tbh ive had alot of stuff going on in my life….I really dont feel okay most of the time but im glad you reacted to this song because its one of my favourites and the way you explain everything is just so accurate
Something to help out with NF is that he always is talking about himself or his burdens internally unless he specifically makes a distinction like he did in "How could you leave us" with his mother. If it's not about him he makes it very clear.
I was blessed enough to catch covid but it gives me time to keep up with all your reactions! Also congratulations on 80k! Hands down one of the only videos i look forward to watching when i open my laptop!
@@ReactionTherapyOfficialthat was for the part of everything you wanted or anything that you've written or anything like that it was always told that that's not you that's not how you feel and the whole time you turn it to tell people and they just don't believe that it's just something that you were writing, and that you were better off or needed to go to a different direction than who you're with or whatever everybody has a different plan for for what you want or need.
Love watching your reaction therapy videos especially on Juice Wrld day!!! I can truly say your videos really give me something to look forward to each day. Keep up the great work Tom!!! Much love ❤️
If I could be inseparable from the possibility of his thoughts and her thoughts that the lyrics speak of, I would make the assumption in reflection of myself that what was created in this project was voices that speak to you about kingsmanship and being and the attributes of being a queen...all voices don't tell you to indulge in any harm, and some seem like conversations you overhear about worthiness....I speak through experience, 1st hand....so music like this strike those who are touched relatively and to those who live with it daily and everyday it's apart of our lives As an artist it's sharing experience
On another note, I’m a fan of yours from Australia. We have some amazing artists here that you would enjoy reacting to. I recommend reacting to the song Brother by Matt Corby the live version in the triple J studio. Such a powerful and emotional song he wrote about how he betrayed his best friend by sleeping with his girlfriend, he couldn’t take accountability or admit to it and it ruined their friendship, he was also a strong Christian at this time so he felt like he had failed god. He doesn’t get right into the specifics in the song but he doesn’t need to, you can hear the raw passion and emotion in his incredible voice
Cool request! My wife and I would LOVE to visit Australia one day, so neat to hear you’re from there! Put the request in the Google doc (link in the description) so we get it on the list…thanks so much! 😊👍
i subbed to you and added you to one of my fav list for bars breakdown/meaning.. because what? you are breaking and telling the meaning from different prespective and side. i also like the way you break the hidden meaning with full details. i like it!!
truthfully this was the song i would put on whenever i felt like a disapointment. like i somehow was a burden to my family. who litterly would only yell at me for what i did wrong and never compliment me on what i did right.
Nate had to raise himself, so yes, he was his own parent. Nate is talking to himself in many of his songs. Nate avoids his issues. When he says he just walks past himself with his “head down,” he is referring to walking past a mirror. When Nate says “I don’t even want to go to your house” he’s referring to his own mind (house=mansion=mind). He doesn’t want to go there because “every time I sit on that couch, I feel like all you do is lecture me (like therapy)”Nate doesn’t want to have these tough conversations with himself.
I always interpreted the scene of the father saying those words as an apology to his son because he can see him drowning, but doesn't know how to help. And in fear of doing something wrong (or because he's overwhelmed by not knowing how to help is child) he just stands there and does nothing, which in turn makes him feel like a failure.
I'm so glad you watched to the very end. a lot of reactors miss that. At first, i thought the song was about his dad, as we see the old man standing by and watching him go through all of these terrible things (drowning, trapped in burning car, dead) and yet never reaching out to help. Then, after the ending and discovering the old man was NF, i feel like maybe he was saying that he let himself down. he didnt help himself when he could have.
I agree with you sir(10:50ish). Children def need to feel like they matter. Boys def need to know they are worth something. But, sometimes, Men do too... it's a crazy world, nobody has ever been this far, in humanity. It's tough that we all are supposed to know where to go from here. Even MEN! need to feel that we matter, cuz nobody has a real understanding of reality, or someone else's reality. Love though! Keep up with the content!
Not sure if you realize this but the chorus is him but with his voice pitched. And the old guy is him. And his view of him letting himself down. Very deep song. If you look at the old man he has Nate's tattoos. And a women says his name.
@@ReactionTherapyOfficialthat's what it comes down to it was a reflection of life and if you come to that proverbial fork in the road and which path did you go the one that you should have or did you stay out of the path that you were on just to have regrets and to realize that the whole time you had all the power to pull yourself out of every bad situation.
Man I'm watching your videos one after another, just want to hear your opinion and insight, things you say just male so much sense to me and so relatable. Thanks, really glad to find your channel! Wish you at least 1B of subscribers
I’ve been in love with this song ever since it came out, but I always thought it was between a couple. Now that I realize it was his father, it hits me harder than any other song😭
I relate to this song on many levels. My father was toxic. He wanted to completely control my life. I didn't let him and that pissed him off. Would go into a rage when I refused to debate with him.(no one was ever aloud a different opinion other than his) He'd then hang up on me then not call for months. Forget him ever admitting to doing anything wrong. It was always someone else's fault. One Christmas he got a gift for my brother and his dog. I got nothing. I was rated lower than a dog in his eyes. Had to go no contact in the end, he passed two months later in 2020. Was sad but not as sad as I should have been for losing a parent. I truly believe he was narcissistic. Sad thing is that was how he grew up in a toxic family environment. He repeated the cycle.
See everyone feels like its about dad but I for some reason get the feeling that this is him as an old man remembering things he went threw and survived, maybe thats how I feel cuz my dad never was there
I really want you to check out "Mansion" and "The Search", "Nate", "Change", "Let me go", "Green Lights".. but try to do songs in order by his albums. Whatever song it is in the album doesn't matter, but don't jump between Perception, then to The Search, back to Perception, then to TS, then Mansion, then back to The Search again. etc. there are refrences to his older albums in his songs, try to do them in order. When you've finished one album go to the next one!
Tom you won‘t believe what happened today! I was trying to find a video on youtube to show it to my friend when all of the sudden he said „wait, is that reaction therapy on your youtube homepage?“ So he obviously is a viewer aswell. The crazy part about this tho is that we‘re from Austria 🇦🇹 a small german-speaking country. So what are the odds a friend of mine watches you aswell? Crazy right.. Thanks for your content Tom, much greetings from Austria - Noah :)
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial That's awesome Tom! Im sure you and your wife will have a great time in Austria, would love to see some pictures of your vacation on Patreon or in the "shorts" of UA-cam! :)
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial Say less I have taken such beautiful pictures with amazing sunsets from all different kind of locations in this country, I would be more than happy to show you them! 😊 By the way my grandmother always said: In dreams we plant our seeds for the future. Im sure you will travel to Austria sometime 🤞🏽
Main stream cause we all have parents like this. Just constantly disappointed in me despite how far iv came he’s never said you’ve done well. When I got my results from school i did really well apart from one subject that I had always struggled with and when I showed him my results that’s the one he pointed to. Never helped me with my home work but that don’t matter all my fault. Single mum of 2 kids at 18 both girls are now getting degrees. Nice house. Doing every thing right. Still not good enough
Love this reaction. NF’s lyrics truly give me a sense of comfort in knowing that I’m not alone. By the way, I missed the “How Could You Leave Us” reaction and I assume now it’s blocked since I can’t find it anywhere on your channel. Would you be able to reupload that reaction either here on UA-cam or on a different platform? I would love to watch it. Thank you!
Yes! NF helped me get through some of the darkest moments of my life. I wasn't alone someone out there got it. I found that very validating. Good music always does tgat for me. As does working with a good therapist.😉
This is definitely one of my favorite NF songs. I'd love it if you reacted to my favorite artist, nothing,nowhere. I recommend his song Skully or Letdown
Hello again friend..still watching your amazing videos. I suggested earlier on another video about 2 Avenged Sevenfold songs that I'd love to see you react to..thought of another deep one by Ozzy Osborne called Under the Graveyard. Its a newer one and it tells his life story about drug,alcohol and sex addiction. His beautiful wife brought him through with tough love. Its amazing and the video is documentary style in a bad a$$ way. Extremely deep and relatable lyrics plus it's Ozzy!! Lol,anyways as a recovered addict of 8yrs this song is everything! Thanks for what you are doing 🤟 much respect
You're right at the end, the older man in the video was NF and he was speaking to his younger self. He feels like he let himself down in the past and he feels guilty for how he treated himself now that he is older. Thanks for the reactions Tom, I enjoy them always! Much love.
What a doing with such powerful meaning, thanks 😊👍
The first time I heard this I thought it was about his father too, but after a few more listens I figured it out. The "dad" is our adult self that keeps ignoring and denying the wounded child. Not wanting to face it and geting the help we need. But it definately works and is relatable with either interpritation.
He's said before it's about a breakup tho lol
He’s speaking to his older self actually.. it’s jus younger self who’s apologizing
@@kingkeesietv why does he say that's parents for you in the song
Glad you watched right to the very end. Some people miss the most important moment of the video. It’s confusing , because the video makes it seem like it’s about his father , but the ending implies something very different. NF doesn’t mention his dad very often , but I think they had an “ok” relationship. I think his grand parents were the real positive force in his life , and his mom’s addiction , her boyfriends and her overdose were obviously the source of most of his pain. I’m pretty sure Johnny was one of his mom’s boyfriends ... and most likely the worst of the bunch.
Nice take, thanks for letting me know that 😊👍
he's said that his stepdad was abusive (as seen in mansion) and i dont think he's said anything about his real dad
Its a great song to listen to and almost everyone can relate to not feeling good enough, but everyone has worth in this world. Remember that 🙂
Amen!!😊👍
Thank you Savage2019, I really needed that ❤️
No problem people need to hear it :)
Another song that hit me years after my brother's od I hate my father for that night. He got the call and showed up and gave him his drugs back. My neither was having a reaction that was leaving him blind. And my dad left without calling the ambulance. My brother died that night... an adult would have made the better decision
You are the first person I've ever seen react to NFs songs that actually understand and explain the meaning behind the songs. A lot of people get caught up in the song and don't catch the full meaning. Keep it going brother love it.
Thanks Robert, I am thankful for your words and try hard to do these reactions 😊👍
This song is what I respond with when anyone mentions my dad.
Love your way of explaining mental health to the general audience. Your personality reminds me a lot of my therapist, it’s very down to earth and real. You have a great heart sir, keep up the wonderful work!
Thanks so much Owen! Appreciate you taking the time to watch and comment!😊👍
I've sobbed tô this song so many times. The lyrics are practically tattooed to my brain
This was a classic back in jr high.. great song
NF leaves many things open to interpretation. My take on it, is the duality of both, the dynamic of parenthood in a broken home, and NF growing old, reminiscing about the mistakes he made in his life by never fully recovering from his burdens/doubts that made him famous. I believe NF is fearful to let go of his burdens (as he references in "Leave Me Alone," yet he simultaneously is "Searching" for answers to his life to learn to evolve into a mentally healthy individual. If he heals, will his fans that related with the real, raw, and flawed NF still embrace him if he makes "happy raps?" I believe, the answer is unequivocally, yes.
To be honest it’s both he did it in a way where you can interpret it as old NF looks back on himself, but also it’s about a parent figuring lettting there kid down as well it’s a double meaning. The video is about relates to Nf story and he did it in a way where it can relate to everyone
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so many people missed the true meaning of this song and video because they skipped the final few seconds. it reveals EVERYTHING
One of the lyrics that gets me..."what did I do wrong this time, guess that's parents for"😢
This is such a powerful song, I hear at as NF singing to himself and I relate so much, I felt like I was always letting myself down with everything I did.
NF and subsequently therapy finally helped me ❤
Hanks for watching and sharing😊👍
Ah, I relate to this song so much. Our mother never listened to us about any of our illnesses, whether they mental (we were suicidal from the age of 5!! 5!!!!) or physical (we have chronic pain we were born with, a permanent injury (that never healed in part because no one believed us. fixing it now would require invasive surgery we can't afford), and also POTS that got really bad in our teens, and despite knowing that she loved us, I don't think we can forgive her for that. We went through so much pain because no one listened, even now we struggle to advocate for ourselves because if our mother wouldn't believe us why would anyone else?
Even on a personal level, the looking back, our original host couldn't deal with existing. I never met them. All I know about them is that they were absolutely terrified, and they were brave. They were so brave, and it wasn't enough. There were so many things they wanted that will never happen, and I do feel sometimes that I just... I wonder what they would think, if they could see where we are now.
This song breaks my heart cause it reminds me of my nephew. His Mother had him young and drug him through hell. Alcohol, drugs, violence and frequently used him for sympathy to get people to give her money. Through all that he was such a sweet and gentle soul. She would randomly kick him out when he got older and then got him sent to prison. When he got out a charity started helping him because he has had seizures his whole life and then him doing drugs made him have deficits mentally. He was living about an hour away in Chicago but seemed to be doing good. A year ago his Grandma got a message on her answering machine from a hospital wanting to find next of kin for him. She deleted the message thinking is was him trying to get money from her, but we knew it meant something happened. So my Daughter and I called every hospital we could think of and the coroner. We finally found the hospital he was at but they would not talk to us they wanted his Mom. We tracked her down and found out he was stabbed and almost died. His Mom has now used this situation to move in with him and cause more chaos. Some people are really put through it in life. Hoping for my nephew to keep going on the right track, he has been clean and sober but now with her right back in his life I fear her nonsense will impact him again. She is his Mom and as much as he knows she hurts him he feels like he owes her because she has conditioned him into thinking her life is a mess because she had him young.
Amazing song, I'm so happy you reacted to it. The song always hits differently and that's why you want someone to be able to break it down, and who else but the person who can break things down to the point where it helps you understand more about everything, the song and just life in general. I thank you for doing what you do best.
As soon as I found your channel I watched and watched and then waited for the next video because I knew if it was a reaction to a song, the song and the reaction would be great.
I agree
Thanks so much Liam! Very kind of you, and thanks for watching😊👍
@@liami2048 I’m flattered, thank you so much 😊
@@ReactionTherapyOfficialyou're one of the first reaction channels on NFs music I started watching so we've been following your channel for a while now.
this was one of type of songs and videos that i never understand right a few years ago.
now i can relate...
This is the song I relate to most. My dad's never been around but my mother's been there and I feel like I have never been good enough to her. I was always compared to my older brothers. I have never really been good at math and I think I was in first year at school and my mother slapped me because I had failed math, which led to me being scared of my own mother. My psychology teacher was the first one who got to know me in high school and that's like 13 years after my mother had put me through shit. This song just breaks my heart
This is what got me listening to NF
I actually sat my parents down after I had a major mental breakdown in which I screamed at my dad “FUCK YOU” over and over again over the phone and we had a screaming match. I sat them down and basically explained this entire song to them to explain the relationship I feel with my dad and this song explained everything down to a tee about everything that was bad between me and my dad. All the way down to moving out and feeling like he wouldn’t regret what he was doing until I died.
Thanks for sharing Trenton, sorry you’ve had such a rough road, but so thankful this song relates to you. Thanks for watching and commenting 😊👍
2nd song i ever herd from NF with mansion being #1. Immediately knew nf was going to be on all my playlists! Cheers Tom
Yep, thank you😊👍
I don’t know why but I love listening to him talk and his understanding of how they feel and being so accurate and being able to explain it so easily. Love your vids keep it up
I came across this video and couldn't resist. Three of my favorite things (NF, Music reactipns, and therapy) all in one video! Love your comments!! You have a new subscriber! I will start with ALL your NF reactions.💗
Thank you so much! That means a lot and thanks for joining the family😊👍
My dad is the epitome of apathetic. It’s a big part of why my mom divorced him and why after years of trying to get him to see me for me that I’ve gone limited contact with him. So when this song came out it hit me hard. I was driving and ultimately had to pull over because I was crying so hard.
I was fortunate that when my mom wasn’t deployed that I had her to support me otherwise I think things growing up would have been a lot worse.
Falling in Reverse, Popular Monster is another song that I think you’d enjoy picking apart the lyrics and music video. He has several other songs that would be good too, but Popular Monster is specifically about mental health.
Thanks so much Sam! Appreciate all you shared and have been through, thank you😊👍
TOM Tom Tom......
so thankful you keep the NF lyrical spiritual train
rollin' to carry the pain through the rain to help others gain
a view from the cars of scars to get back on track to a higher plane...
now that's REAL... ;)
Well said George, as always!😊👍
if you noticed his father was singing the chorus and he was where they both feel the same about each other
This song hit me hard. So relatable... I was disowned by my parents because of the man my heart chose to love who I've been with since 2009. I was told I was the biggest mistake my dad ever made, that I was a disappointment and so much more...we tried so many times after to repair things, but I cut them outta my life 3yrs ago.... nothing good to reminisce over either...so many ways this hit home...broke me down.
You are so close to seeing this guy become a rap god!! Keep going, his new stuff is going to blow you away!! So excited for you man, and good job staying on the journey!
Thanks so much Brian! I’m loving the journey😊👍
Yess, I waited for this!
I know I’m late but the old man represents his father through most of the video. After his mother died his father was emotionally distant. He felt like his father watched him drown in depression, burn in anger and did nothing to help. When it came to it, his father did care, but he showed it too late. Cutting back to the first scene someone calls the old man Nate because he has mentioned before that one of his biggest fears is making the same mistakes with his own kids. So the old man represents both NF and his dad.
The back and forth of the camera work represents Nate backsliding. Drowning in his problems. He looks back at how he could have made changes in his life to help himself.
I'm crying. This song has had a lot of meaning with my relationships to a lot of my family. And I'm glad you saw the ending. Yes it ties up the song perfectly. And also, yes I finally found a therapist to talk to and gonna talk to her tomorrow. So getting help again.
I love your reactions man. Don't take this the wrong way but I really like how you're an old white guy and you say stuff like spitting, bars, and drop, and it just comes off as completely natural. Just a wholesome guy with great insight who doesn't see the lines other people draw in the sand for things like culture and age, I love it. Keep doing what you do.
I understand what you mean but it's great that he's also a therapist who gives advice and such.
The way i relate with this song is the relationship between me and my mom, born to a broken family and lived with a mother with trust issue, she pushed everyone close to her (particularly our family) to always do what she wants unconciously, nothing is ever enough for her and so "im sorry that I let you down" was always me saying it to my mom.
And the 3rd verse oh my god that is the exact situation im in whenever im just there with my mom, she always talking about all the good things in the past "that didnt even happened" because its overshadowed by all the bad things she did to me so i didnt really have a good memory of these "good times"
Just like the song describes, i still care for her and I want to give her the best I could, but I can never really love her the way a child suppose to, and that there will always be a distance between us.
Sorry mom, i hope that i still have enough time to make you proud
Flashing back to hard times that he had to go through, but now can't change, or he wouldn't be him.
Some of my favorite lyrics of this song are "My hands are full, what else should I carry for you? I care for you but..." When this song first came out I was in a horrible relationship and felt as though I was carrying the relationship on my shoulders alone and was still expected to do everything else too. Just my interpretation based of my experience.
Thanks for this 😊👍
I hope everything is alright now!
Things get better but it's still about a lot of self-reflection and fixing a lot of things that it buried inside and didn't try to take care of I was just tried to work past them or well work to not deal with them.
ouch ouch ouch ... this song/video. Every time. Especially the end. Thank you for all your beautiful insight.
I found this youtuber trying to look up therapy session a week ago and his reactions are actually genuine, and not staged like other youtubers
Thank you, I love lyrics and music and hearing all the comments, thanks for watching 😊👍
@@ReactionTherapyOfficialthank for your reactions brother.
I think it's about failing to live up to ones own expectations and standing by/watching instead of taking the necessary steps to stop yourself from self-destructing.
The old man is NF and he is rapping about himself (letting himself down)
Took me the whole song to get that 😩😊👍
@@ReactionTherapyOfficialeverything in accomplishments or material things is just trivial to the fact of what was important and as you said it's just want to know that somebody was proud or they didn't feel like a let down to someone for everything that you were trying your hardest at times even if it didn't seem like it and things were just in a downward spiral and felt like you couldn't climb out of it. 11:59
Looking forward to this video!
This song captures my relationship with my dad as a child perfectly. I was never good enough, I was a constant disappointment, I tried so hard to be a daughter he could be proud of but it was never good enough. He would tell me about how he expected me to fail high school, get pregnant as a teenager and start using drugs. None of these things I ever did, he told me he always had low expectations of me so he didn’t have to feel disappointed when I inevitably messed up. I never messed up though, I “rebelled” against his emotional abuse by proving him wrong, I graduated school, got myself a stable and growing career immediately. I gained financial independence so that the day I turned 18 I could move out and never have to go back. I have never gone back, he doesn’t have the power over me like he did as a child. I won’t tolerate disrespect or abuse from him as I have the power to walk out of his house, get in my car and leave. I’ve proven this to him the few times he’s tried it as an adult. He will still never say he’s proud of me but I know he is. He will still never acknowledge the absolute torture he put me through as a child. I felt so low I was victimised by sexual predators and when my father found out he blamed me for being a promiscuous 12 year old…
Anyway the one thing I want from him before he dies is an acknowledgment and apology for the abuse he put me through as a child. The only reason I didn’t commit suicide as a teenager was because that would have only proved to him how much of a disappointment I really was 😕 I’m 27 now, I’ve never recovered from this, just moved on. He lives in denial because he managed to abuse me without once laying a hand on me. Thanks for reacting to this song that means so much to me.
Wow! What a powerful story! I’m so grateful you would share this and be so honest. None of that is your fault and you’ve overcome so much since you’ve made it this far. The way you laid this story out tells me you have a good perspective and have had to pay the future price for your fathers past choices. Keep moving forward, and try to get a healthy and qualified professional to talk with, you deserve that. And stay in touch with me because this can be a beginning of a new future. Thank you so much for taking the time to watch and comment😊👍
Ditto for both my parenrs.😕 Thank God we have a good relationship now.
You’re better than your father. Better than his hate filled words. I know it’s hard to move on from the words/thoughts/expectations of our parents. But you are worthy, you are special. Blessings.
I never knew my dad and will never know him now, he left when I was around three and I grew up hating myself and thinking it was my fault and I was the reason why he left and I ruined my parents lives by being born, but cocaine is a monster
This was I believe the first song I heard from NF and made me fall in love with his songs. Maybe for the next one of him: 'Why' or 'I miss the days". And for a new one I will keep saying the artist Citizen Soldier with for example: "Pandora's Box' and 'If I Surrender'. Awesome reaction to an amazing song!
Man I had no idea who NF was, but I have seen you do their videos. I have heard this song though! Great video as always Tom!
Thanks so much Blake! I’m loving the NF journey😊👍
My mom and father got divorced when I was like 5-6 years old. My father had and most likely still has an alcohol issue. And my mom had to work all the time, I have a littlesister, that I had to care of aged 8-9. My relationship with my father os nonexistent, but its fine with my mom, she did what she had to do, now that im 24 i still doubt myself, but its getting better.
This song is so powerful, just like How Could You Leave Us.
NF is just doing the job!
He had said he wrote this song roughly 3 years prior to the release.
Interesting, thanks for this info😊👍
Been binge watching your entire reaction playlist, as us NF fans do. I'm glad you've kept up with it. Getting to the point where the music is stepping up but it's still got that emotional kick.
This one always reminded me of another song. Different artist, totally different genre. End of Me by A Day to Remember. If you ever start doing rock reactions I'd high recommend that one.
Can't wait for Dreams! Its one of my top favs from Nate.
As a 31 year old man who never knew his dad, but who has a 4 year old son. I struggle with this daily......i feel like I need to do everything for my son I missed out on, but I've never been shown how to do the basics in life, I don't even understand myself. Fuck that song man
I love NF and I have a few recomendations by him. "Like this" and "DRIFTING". Also, I recommend a country song called "invisible" by Hunter Hayes
That song is just so good….in a way it kinda reminds me of how I feel around my parents alot of the time….my mum said she was disappointed in me once….and I started to believe i was just a disappointment and couldn’t do anything right…tbh ive had alot of stuff going on in my life….I really dont feel okay most of the time but im glad you reacted to this song because its one of my favourites and the way you explain everything is just so accurate
I love your sign on the wall! Haha i only just noticed it last few NF reactions
Thanks 😂😂👍
Something to help out with NF is that he always is talking about himself or his burdens internally unless he specifically makes a distinction like he did in "How could you leave us" with his mother. If it's not about him he makes it very clear.
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I was blessed enough to catch covid but it gives me time to keep up with all your reactions! Also congratulations on 80k! Hands down one of the only videos i look forward to watching when i open my laptop!
Sorry about the Covid, but happy you’ve enjoyed watching! Thanks so much kerttu😊👍
@@ReactionTherapyOfficialthat was for the part of everything you wanted or anything that you've written or anything like that it was always told that that's not you that's not how you feel and the whole time you turn it to tell people and they just don't believe that it's just something that you were writing, and that you were better off or needed to go to a different direction than who you're with or whatever everybody has a different plan for for what you want or need.
Suicide boys - my flaws burn through my skin like demonic flames from hell
Love watching your reaction therapy videos especially on Juice Wrld day!!! I can truly say your videos really give me something to look forward to each day. Keep up the great work Tom!!! Much love ❤️
Thanks a bunch Jake!😊👍
If I could be inseparable from the possibility of his thoughts and her thoughts that the lyrics speak of, I would make the assumption in reflection of myself that what was created in this project was voices that speak to you about kingsmanship and being and the attributes of being a queen...all voices don't tell you to indulge in any harm, and some seem like conversations you overhear about worthiness....I speak through experience, 1st hand....so music like this strike those who are touched relatively and to those who live with it daily and everyday it's apart of our lives
As an artist it's sharing experience
On another note, I’m a fan of yours from Australia. We have some amazing artists here that you would enjoy reacting to. I recommend reacting to the song Brother by Matt Corby the live version in the triple J studio. Such a powerful and emotional song he wrote about how he betrayed his best friend by sleeping with his girlfriend, he couldn’t take accountability or admit to it and it ruined their friendship, he was also a strong Christian at this time so he felt like he had failed god. He doesn’t get right into the specifics in the song but he doesn’t need to, you can hear the raw passion and emotion in his incredible voice
Cool request! My wife and I would LOVE to visit Australia one day, so neat to hear you’re from there!
Put the request in the Google doc (link in the description) so we get it on the list…thanks so much! 😊👍
I second this, great song
i subbed to you and added you to one of my fav list for bars breakdown/meaning.. because what? you are breaking and telling the meaning from different prespective and side. i also like the way you break the hidden meaning with full details. i like it!!
truthfully this was the song i would put on whenever i felt like a disapointment. like i somehow was a burden to my family. who litterly would only yell at me for what i did wrong and never compliment me on what i did right.
Nate had to raise himself, so yes, he was his own parent. Nate is talking to himself in many of his songs. Nate avoids his issues. When he says he just walks past himself with his “head down,” he is referring to walking past a mirror. When Nate says “I don’t even want to go to your house” he’s referring to his own mind (house=mansion=mind). He doesn’t want to go there because “every time I sit on that couch, I feel like all you do is lecture me (like therapy)”Nate doesn’t want to have these tough conversations with himself.
NF time is a really good one
Another amazing video! Hope you had a great day today Tom!
Thanks so much zak! Appreciate the love!😊👍
I always interpreted the scene of the father saying those words as an apology to his son because he can see him drowning, but doesn't know how to help. And in fear of doing something wrong (or because he's overwhelmed by not knowing how to help is child) he just stands there and does nothing, which in turn makes him feel like a failure.
I'm so glad you watched to the very end. a lot of reactors miss that. At first, i thought the song was about his dad, as we see the old man standing by and watching him go through all of these terrible things (drowning, trapped in burning car, dead) and yet never reaching out to help. Then, after the ending and discovering the old man was NF, i feel like maybe he was saying that he let himself down. he didnt help himself when he could have.
And MGK - kiss the sky ( live acoustic )
I agree with you sir(10:50ish). Children def need to feel like they matter. Boys def need to know they are worth something. But, sometimes, Men do too... it's a crazy world, nobody has ever been this far, in humanity. It's tough that we all are supposed to know where to go from here. Even MEN! need to feel that we matter, cuz nobody has a real understanding of reality, or someone else's reality.
Love though! Keep up with the content!
Not sure if you realize this but the chorus is him but with his voice pitched. And the old guy is him. And his view of him letting himself down. Very deep song. If you look at the old man he has Nate's tattoos. And a women says his name.
Yep, quite a song, so powerful!😊👍
@@ReactionTherapyOfficialthat's what it comes down to it was a reflection of life and if you come to that proverbial fork in the road and which path did you go the one that you should have or did you stay out of the path that you were on just to have regrets and to realize that the whole time you had all the power to pull yourself out of every bad situation.
Man I'm watching your videos one after another, just want to hear your opinion and insight, things you say just male so much sense to me and so relatable. Thanks, really glad to find your channel! Wish you at least 1B of subscribers
I’ve been in love with this song ever since it came out, but I always thought it was between a couple. Now that I realize it was his father, it hits me harder than any other song😭
I relate to this song on many levels. My father was toxic. He wanted to completely control my life. I didn't let him and that pissed him off. Would go into a rage when I refused to debate with him.(no one was ever aloud a different opinion other than his) He'd then hang up on me then not call for months. Forget him ever admitting to doing anything wrong. It was always someone else's fault. One Christmas he got a gift for my brother and his dog. I got nothing. I was rated lower than a dog in his eyes. Had to go no contact in the end, he passed two months later in 2020. Was sad but not as sad as I should have been for losing a parent. I truly believe he was narcissistic. Sad thing is that was how he grew up in a toxic family environment. He repeated the cycle.
I think its a combination of both aspects of his fathers negligence and his adult self reminiscing with his inner child over traumatic events.
He’s sorry that he let himself down. He didn’t help himself out of the shown situations
My aim for being a parent is for when my kid messes up they think "Oh shit, I better call Dad" not "Oh shit, I can't let dad find out"
See everyone feels like its about dad but I for some reason get the feeling that this is him as an old man remembering things he went threw and survived, maybe thats how I feel cuz my dad never was there
I really want you to check out "Mansion" and "The Search", "Nate", "Change", "Let me go", "Green Lights".. but try to do songs in order by his albums. Whatever song it is in the album doesn't matter, but don't jump between Perception, then to The Search, back to Perception, then to TS, then Mansion, then back to The Search again. etc. there are refrences to his older albums in his songs, try to do them in order. When you've finished one album go to the next one!
We are on the NF journey so we should be good on the order, thanks for watching 😊👍
I believe when the “dad” in the video mouths the words that NF is singing, that’s meaning that’s what NF wants his dad to say.
I would like to see the therapist’s reaction to Blue October Hate Me
Put the request in the Google doc (link in the description) so we get it on the list…thanks so much! 😊👍
Eminem - Cleaning out my closet
And then Eminem - Headlights
This is probably my favourite NF song. 😊
Love your reactions and breakdowns man, been watching alot of your NF reactions. Subbed and liked!
Tom you won‘t believe what happened today! I was trying to find a video on youtube to show it to my friend when all of the sudden he said „wait, is that reaction therapy on your youtube homepage?“ So he obviously is a viewer aswell. The crazy part about this tho is that we‘re from Austria 🇦🇹 a small german-speaking country. So what are the odds a friend of mine watches you aswell? Crazy right..
Thanks for your content Tom, much greetings from Austria - Noah :)
I love this Noah! Made my day! My wife and I want to travel to Austria! Thanks so much for sharing this story😁😁😁
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial That's awesome Tom! Im sure you and your wife will have a great time in Austria, would love to see some pictures of your vacation on Patreon or in the "shorts" of UA-cam! :)
@@googlemapsspeedruns777 sadly, we aren’t going there yet, just dreaming about it, you should send me pics so I can dream some more of Austria😁👍
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial Say less I have taken such beautiful pictures with amazing sunsets from all different kind of locations in this country, I would be more than happy to show you them! 😊
By the way my grandmother always said: In dreams we plant our seeds for the future. Im sure you will travel to Austria sometime 🤞🏽
Main stream cause we all have parents like this. Just constantly disappointed in me despite how far iv came he’s never said you’ve done well. When I got my results from school i did really well apart from one subject that I had always struggled with and when I showed him my results that’s the one he pointed to. Never helped me with my home work but that don’t matter all my fault. Single mum of 2 kids at 18 both girls are now getting degrees. Nice house. Doing every thing right. Still not good enough
Love this reaction. NF’s lyrics truly give me a sense of comfort in knowing that I’m not alone. By the way, I missed the “How Could You Leave Us” reaction and I assume now it’s blocked since I can’t find it anywhere on your channel.
Would you be able to reupload that reaction either here on UA-cam or on a different platform? I would love to watch it. Thank you!
Thanks for watching! How could you leave us will come out on Patreon when we get that going very soon!😊
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial can’t wait to watch. Loving all your videos, thank you for all your help!
Yes! NF helped me get through some of the darkest moments of my life. I wasn't alone someone out there got it. I found that very validating. Good music always does tgat for me. As does working with a good therapist.😉
This is definitely one of my favorite NF songs. I'd love it if you reacted to my favorite artist, nothing,nowhere. I recommend his song Skully or Letdown
Thanks…Put the request in the Google doc (link in the description) so we get it on the list…thanks so much! 😊👍
Next video, NF- How could you leave us
Btw the beginning part is him too just pitched way up
You should do “How could you leave us” by NF
He's already done that song, amazing reaction
I just wanted you to know that I believe your reactions! Are amazing. My favorite reation person ever ❤.
Please do broken by isak danielson, i promise its worth it, its really sad, one of the saddest and most underrated song ive heard
In the end - XXXTentacion
Great videos man! You should react to NF- Why did you leave us, it’s really a sad and heart touching song. Take care Tom and have a good day!
Did that, got taken down, will go back up on Patreon 😊👍
Nf said this is about him self not his dad
I believe it about himself and why nothing last not even his dreams from childhood
For your final XXXTentacion reaction you need to listen to “Before I close my eyes”. One of his later works before he died.
Put the request in the Google doc (link in the description) so we get it on the list…thanks so much! 😊👍
Man, i waited for so long for the video to end just so that you will know that's Nate and not his dad
The ending almost goes along with it being about his dad but it’s about him you can tell by his tattoo on his arm
Love your reactions!!!!!!!
Hello again friend..still watching your amazing videos. I suggested earlier on another video about 2 Avenged Sevenfold songs that I'd love to see you react to..thought of another deep one by Ozzy Osborne called Under the Graveyard. Its a newer one and it tells his life story about drug,alcohol and sex addiction. His beautiful wife brought him through with tough love. Its amazing and the video is documentary style in a bad a$$ way. Extremely deep and relatable lyrics plus it's Ozzy!! Lol,anyways as a recovered addict of 8yrs this song is everything! Thanks for what you are doing 🤟 much respect
Very interesting Michael, thanks so much! Put the request in the Google doc (link in the description) so we get it on the list…thanks so much! 😊👍
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial I went to your website friend..thank you
Damn this is such a good reaction