Alanna Patterson I’m just existing rn. I got suspended for fighting today and I’ve been sitting on my bed for 2 hours just thing about life and how the person that is keeping me going I can’t see for a week… honestly idk if imma make it
yeah it’s not just me.... i’m having a tough time because a family member passed away yesterday and my crush that i have been texting a lot for the past couple of weeks i feel like he doesn’t like me the same way as i do. Did i mention that i known him for 2 years now he’s my moms best friends son. Idek about life anymore😔😞😪
Sam Lee the Piano Boy he actually DOESN’T sing about drugs ever, hes only rapped about drugs in ONE song which is called how could you leave us and thats about his mom being addicted to pills, and he DOESN’T even glorify drugs at all like most rappers, he just writes and sings good real music :)
i feel like i’m just existing it’s like the same thing everyday. same routine. waking up going to school coming back doing homework studying. it feels useless.
Music is my only escape. I get to this point where I dont know what to do and I breakdown. Music is there for me a d never judged me for who I am. No else stays by my side and doesnt judge me. So thank you music.
"Are you alive or just existing?" got to me. I've struggled with depression and anxiety ever since i was like in 4th grade. Now getting into my teen years it's gotten a little worse since sexuality came into the picture, but I've found people who care for me. I want to tell anyone out there that HOPE is there, it may be hiding right now, but it will come out eventually. Thank you for making this beautiful song.
Snazzy Sarah my depression also started at 4th grade, and now it’s also gotten into my teen years and this song helps me calm down when i’m having an anxiety or panic attack.
i know this is a year late but if you're down to grab over-priced coffee and wander around side streets and go to record stores to just end up on the roof of the tallest building we can find to watch the sunset than i hit me back because i totally am. by the way, this song is connecting to such a deep spot in my being that all of my senses seem to be a lil more real and being alive and present is so much more tangible.
The only time I remember being happy was when I was a kid and had no worries in the world I didn’t care how I looked like or what ppl thought abt me but now it’s so different
I just wish I didnt mature so early but ever since I've been insulted by my brother so many times I've been so worried about how people see me and get embarrassed over anything
I don’t care what people think about me, but I feel like I haven’t been truly happy in years. It’s the same shit, but a different day. The cycle is getting old. Nothing excites me anymore.
@@VergilPeterson it’s just endlessness. Day after day of feeling little to nothing. It hurts. It’s exhausting. I’m lucky to still have things in my life that bring me a bit of joy, but it’s drowned out by all the bad.
Teacher to some other student: youtube isnt gonna save you in a life or death situation Me: its recommendations helped me find music which saved my life.
Ik I'm probably late but I'm here if you need to talk. I just want you to know that I feel the same way, but life goes on💜 both pain and happiness will die one day and whatever you're struggling with today, will start to fade away slowly everyday. I promise, it won't last forever. it'll get better💜 Even do some changes if you have to. It helps alot. I hope you're doing well now💜
@@imnotangryimlonely9930 THANK YOUU for checking up with me , this is so encouraging , beautiful and true.. thank you so much, I really appreciate itt. And yes im finally doing okay but there’s still a lot of battles i need to face... u know life’s just being life itself... Same as you, i hope you’re doing okay too..
your not going to want to hear this because I prob sound like a solicitor, but I was so empty at one point, and it hurts to see other people that have to go through that as well. I won't pretend to understand your pain or what your going through, because I don't know, I'm not you. But in the end, when I felt that there was no point to go on. I went to a service at my church and they promised someone who would give my life purpose again, Jesus. And it was a beautiful name, he came into my life and it was like someone turned on a light. Right now, I still hurt and I'm still healing. My situation isn't ideal. Although I have a light in this room (life) and it tells me, keep pushing, your gonna make it. He gave me hope, and if you reach for him I know he will as well. You don't have to go to some fancy church or join a group (although church is fun if you have access to it) but if you can get access to one read a bible and pray to him, ask him to help you.
This is one of those songs you listen to when you're just pissed at people and life in general. (I had a bad day, and this made it better, thanks Olivia)
(beautifully written) Lyrics: You sit on your bed for hours on end Not really doing anything but your head is spinning. You stare at the walls to figure out it all yet, blank thoughts appearing your minds never clearing Are you alive? Or just existing? Come on open up, Im listening One minute down two, hours now I’ll wait for you as long as you need me to I’ll make it right Plant flowers in your heart Dig demons from your hurt I’ll make it better I’ll wait for you (x2) Everyone says, That our loves not right. But who says love only has one side? Are we alive or just existing? We need to open up, and listen One minute down two, hours now I’ll wait for you As long as you need me to I’ll make it right Plant flowers in your heart Dig demons from your hurt I’ll make it better If you want me to I’ll wait for you We’ll make it right Plant flowers in our hearts Dig demons from our hurt I’ll make it better
Okay so I'll open up now: The thing is I'm rlly kind of in a hole ... actually for quite a long time now. I rlly feel like I'm just existing and not living. I used to be such a happy child but after turning 20 it all just kinda went down. I have an identity crisis. There are days in which I'm in an upbeat mood but then it's all getting useless and pointless again and I hide myself in my room under the blanket of my bed for days. It's like a roller coaster. It's just.. a rlly difficult time for me.
Jungcoco Everything will work out the way it’s suppose to love. It’s been 6 months since you commented this and I hope that your pain has subsided and that you’ve learned that it’s okay to discover yourself. and I want you to know you matter and are loved. You are never alone❤️
brie anderson literally. I’m also 14 now and I look at how much our society has changed since we were kids. I can’t process all that is in front of me with all its stress and I can’t seem to find the point of any of it, I feel so stuck.
You are definitely not alone. I am constantly reminded by how limited I am. My vocabulary, my ideas, my thoughts and even the extent of my feelings are just so limited. I feel really stuck a lot of the time, and by that I mean I am unable to progress even though everyone around me seems to be changing and growing. But the thing is who doesn’t feel this way? Aren’t we all desperately trying to be better and better and better? Sometimes it’s good to just sit and think and stop for a while. It’s ok that you’re not feeling up to par. It’s ok that sometimes all you want to do is stay in bed. You are still important and valuable and alive. And one day you’ll be satisfied with your limitations. And even if you’re not the next Einstein or Plato. It won’t matter because you’ll be you and that’ll be more than perfect. Being 20 is all about learning how to grow. I mean you’re looking at your childhood with rose-tinted glasses, but remember when you were that age you could not wait to be 20. All I’m saying is that no one is satisfied with what they’ve got, but that doesn’t mean they are more or less valuable than the next person. It just means they’re human.
This song is what has helped me survive throughout the long distance with my fiance. I plan to have it played at my wedding some day. This song has made me smile, laugh, cry and stare out windows. It has helped me with panic attacks, depression, sadness and grief. Thank you. This has helped through thick and thin and reminded me of the boy I adore
i was just thinking to myself “wow i don’t really do anything. like, i don’t have any hobbies or anything. that’s kinda sad” AND THIS SONG SHOWS UP ON MY RECOMMENDED tell me youtube can’t read my mind.
i'm literally thinking about this rn. like i don't have my "thing" i didn't even know what i want to do when im older and im so scared of growing up cause it feels like the older i get, the more i start to break and start away from being happy and I'm so scared that I'll always make the wrong choices cause my friends have their life sorted out. they know what they want to do and they have their hobbies and interests and all i want to be when im older is happy but every day i lose hope
@@siyaluvs I looked back at a document that i wrote its called "My Updates" i started writing in it in 2018 then i stopped and started up again in july. maybe try doing something like that you don't need to update it every day just when you need to. Along with the growing up thing I understand. A lot of people do, its hard to understand want you want to do, or be scared that your doing the wrong thing. Just try your best. :) i don't have advice. Sorry.
I keep staring at her windows and how good the light with the walls look! While she was singing I was imagining a love story in the background and how amazing it would look! AMAZING SONG 😙
Hey amazing person who's reading my comment. You're awesome, you're beautilful and you're not as bad as you may think u are. I love every one of you. Hope you're well. Goodbye.
Hey you amazing person who wrote this. Thank you, you are wonderful. ☺️💜 ❤️ You are everything and mpre you wrote there. Love you😆 Take care and goodbye❣️
The 'im listening' part make me sobbing so hard. Especially if youre the 'listener' type of friend, like u need someone who would listen to u too. its exhausting.
Are you alive or just existing? This got me so hard. My bestfriend went missing it has been 2 days and we still cant find her. Idk where she's..is she fine? I'm helpless. Broke. Thank you so much for making this song..I'll wait for her and will make it right. Edit - thank you sm for your love!💓 She's fine & really happy now.
@@murphdawgswizzle i don't know..it's dumb but she ran away from her house with her new boyfriend. Like why?! Ugh I don't know I was disappointed like I and my another friend couldn't sleep for 2 days (*we're trio*) I kept praying for her, missed my classes, couldn't eat..idk I hope you understand me :"))))))) Edit :- 3 days lol* Edit 2 :- dont mind me Haha I'm just mad at her :)
Razia Punjabi i definitely understand. i’d be angry at my best friend if she did that, but she probably had a reason. maybe she felt trapped and wanted to escape from her home, etc.
It's like Cavetown collabed with Tyler Joseph (from his No Phun Intended years) on writing a song for Billie Eilish. It's beautiful. The sound of it soothes my emotions like Cavetown and its words soothe my thoughts like Twenty one pilots
This is the perfect time for me to find this song, been a kinda rough few days and haven’t eaten anything but some chips and was in bed all day, ik that sounds super lazy but I honestly don’t have drive to do anything. Thanks for the song, I’m trying to get better and this honestly helped, and came at the perfect time, Stay Safe everyone, I love you all and have a good day
Young me would be so happy to know I still listen to this song and now I’m singing along, 4 years into transition, in the voice I’ve always dreamed of singing along with.
Oh guys, I just founded stickers with dates on my bed. I remembered how many days I cried last year. It makes me so sad. And this song with this founded stickers make me so sad for what happened last year all day. btw: sorry for my English..
If anyone sees this, please find someone in the comments that needs some kind words. A simple "you're not alone" or "I care" can change someone's entire week. I know from experience. And if anyone who's hurting sees this then I care and I'm here for you. My Instagram is zadee.maee please message me if you want to. I'll let you rant to me and I promise I will respond. I'm not on my phone a ton but I'll try my best. Sending love to anyone who needs it ❤
I’m scared that I’ll never be enough and I’m not smart enough to get through college. I’m scared of making the wrong decisions. I’m scared of losing the people I love. I’m scared of just existing and never doing enough to be alive.
You can do it! Tbh this might sound silly but it's less about smarts and more about perseverance. If you want it keep working for it! God bless, stay strong
These past few weeks, i was at my dad’s house. When i’m there, i’m doing nothing. Just existing, really. I think about everything too much. My sleep schedules are messed up, the only things i eat are bad for my health. My dad is more a stranger than a real dad. He don’t really care about my brother and i, he never did anything with us. He has a girlfriend who has three kids. He does everything with them. When he says, "we’re going to .... today", it’s never with my brother and i, but with them. I’m going back to my mom today. I’m finally going to be "alive" again. She is there for me, and always was. She helps me alot. I don’t cry every night to sleep when i’m there. I eat correctly, and i’m happy. In only three hours, i’m going to be alive again. :)
Hi, I’ve been going through all of my really old UA-cam playlist. I forgot all about this song but hearing it again for the first time since a good few years now and it takes me right back. I see myself lying in my childhood bedroom, trying to figure out why I wasn’t as loved as my siblings and why I could be content with the way things were. I feel so sad for my younger self but I also feel so proud of how far I’ve come since finding this song. Thank you for remind me of how much I’ve grown and that things do work out in the end
So you all are forcing them,, when they haven’t even got the ok? Do you guys not know how long it takes to make animations for something? Chill out. If it comes it comes, but stop forcing it.
@@semiautomatic.companion we're not fOrCiNg we're encouraging.We never said you better do it like okay?Cant we show support and that we are excited?Plus he clearly doesn't have a issue as he didn't reply
How come every time I feel like this for someone they never feel the same. I would fight for you, cry for you, bleed for you, hurt for you, be healthy for you, live for you, be fearless for you, over come my own mental health issues for you, help you over come your mental issues, and love you just for you. Why isn’t that enough?
We do exist but dead inside,to all of you who struggling right now I know life is hard but you're strong..you're stronger than what you think..there's reason why are you here in this world.
I remember listening to this song when i was at my moms place living withhere and my brother. I was so depressed then, and i remember it was raining and i always used to sing or just sit on my bed staring outside of my window listening to this song and crying..my mom is an alcoholic and she just got out of detox, and is now trying to get into therapy...i live with my grandma grandpa sister and brother now but me and my brother are in foster care. It has been so hard and i have still been depressed and self harming myself but now its summer and im in a brighter room, but i still feel the darkness on the inside.. I just wish i was dead so i dont have to deal with the constant pain that i feel everyday, but i have to hide all of that or else my councilor will know and they will put ME in therapy or something..i just want school to start..surprisingly school is my escape because i have friends and its away from home, but now im in a different city so i can make new friends and they wont know anything about my past..But inside i will still be hurt
@im trying to love myself tysm..I can't say that I'm doing better now, but school has started and I've made some friends... But the thing about depression is that it never leaves so right now I feel really lost in time..and simply just stuck
Addicted to Herron I know how hard being depressed and self harming is. If you want to talk to someone about it you can talk to me, if you want to talk privately and have an insta just tell me and we can talk. I know that you will be able to overcome your depression and self harming, I believe in you.❤️
@@iijo9228 thanks but I really don't think I can do it. I have was a month clean, but then I had to mess it up last night. I fuck up everything and I might as well just get used to it.. thanks for the offer tho :/
I know it's hard, since I felt what u feel. In the middle of 2018 I really am feel that I'm in the lowest part of Earth and start hating my own self. Then self harming was my escape or something to make me feel... idk. After that self harmed I end up with Bell's palsy, but gratefully play a game with my friend could makes me feel better those days. Then I could wake up right now, start my daily life. A bit story of my life. Hope u could enjoy your life someday🌻
i remember listening to this when i knew something was wrong with me, but i didn't know how bad it was. i was robbed of happiness and i'll never stop being mad over it.
to anyone who is waiting for that certain person to come back.. please stop putting yourself through this pain. I know that deep down, you have hope they will come back, but is it really worth it? look around, there are other people who love you for you. that certain person can stay in your heart, just remember to move on someday. I love you. now.. keep your head up! 💖🌈
I’d forgotten what it was like to cry..stumbled upon this channel and it made me see how much I’ve really been missing, I began to think being numb was okay This comment will probably get lost amongst the thousands of others but I just wanted to say thank you, this gave me the willpower to contact a helpline ❤️ Dear stranger, I might not know you, but I know I love you, always. it’s okay to be selfish sometimes to prioritize your mental health, give yourself that well earned break because you deserve it!
Me: sees some song
Me: opens this
Me: listens
Me: LOVES
Me: all time fan now
Sarah de Esch relatable
Actually me yesterday when I found her channel
Same
Sarah de Esch SAMEEEE
SAME.
"u sit on ur bed for hours on end not really doing anything but ur head is spinning"
me: how tf do u know dat, u stalkin me
im into way too many fandoms HAHA joe ¿
I wish I had a stalker, at least someone would be putting in effort to know me be friends
Lol😂
im into way too many fandoms HAHA stay strong, hopefully you’ve been doin better!
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Plssssss have a listen 🥺♥️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
i was just gonna go to sleep without crying but youtube had other plans
play guitar, piano, rap, and sing. Please check my new song ua-cam.com/video/XqphlIrHfg0/v-deo.html
Same
Yup and it’s like AHHHHH
🖤
😭😢🥺
*Are you alive or just existing?*
Me: *I was dead but after hearing this song I’m alive again*
play guitar, piano, rap, and sing. Please check my new song ua-cam.com/video/XqphlIrHfg0/v-deo.html
I listen to this song when I’m sad 😞 *I listen to this song all the time*
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Plssssss have a listen 🥺♥️🙏🙏🙏🙏
I MADEYOUR COMMENT GO FROM 1K TO 1.1K! IVE BEEN WATING FOR THIS MOMENT
If you listen closely..
you can hear me sobbing in the room next door.
OhHiiDontSocialize :3 your profile pic fits perfectly with your comment 💔😭
OhHiiDontSocialize :3 i knew I heard something 😔✋
Kinda creeped me out😅
I read “you can hear sobs in the other room” and turned my volume up all the way and now I’m deaf
no it was me who was in the next room crying my eyes out
Anyone else just existing? I’m in tears listening to this
Alanna Patterson I’m just existing rn. I got suspended for fighting today and I’ve been sitting on my bed for 2 hours just thing about life and how the person that is keeping me going I can’t see for a week… honestly idk if imma make it
yeah it’s not just me....
i’m having a tough time because a family member passed away yesterday and my crush that i have been texting a lot for the past couple of weeks i feel like he doesn’t like me the same way as i do. Did i mention that i known him for 2 years now he’s my moms best friends son. Idek about life anymore😔😞😪
@@Nick.W-RIZZ. im so sorry. stay strong
@Jae Is Me well idk you but we're friends now. lets start living
Yes
“are we alive or just existing” .. wow
Betsy Rush that part was so powerful
Yes, we're not living by just not dying
I am 14 and this is deep
How is that impresive?
i made it my instagram bio lol
i don't know who you are
but i really needed this
your voice is lovely
you are lovely
thank you
such a wholesome comment : - )
She's a queen
Now you know😊
Pranavee shinde
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Nudity: 0%
Swearing: 0%
Drugs: 0%
Actual good talent: 10000000000%
Alice Lima a rapper called nf is also like that, u should check him out :)
@@legacyyz NF is great.
Legacy to be fair, NF does sing about drugs, but he talks about how bad they are and how they’ve affected his life and the people he knows
Sam Lee the Piano Boy he actually DOESN’T sing about drugs ever, hes only rapped about drugs in ONE song which is called how could you leave us and thats about his mom being addicted to pills, and he DOESN’T even glorify drugs at all like most rappers, he just writes and sings good real music :)
Legacy I mean yeah he talks about medication a lot too. but yeah, he doesn’t sing about drugs like other rappers do. I’m an NF fan too okay :))
Olivia:"I'll make it righhhhhhhhhttt"
Me: *holds phone with flashlight on. and me trying to sing " i'Ll mAke iT riGhhhHHHHHhhHHT"
xly n. Meeee
Im doin iiiiit❤❤❤❤❤❤
xly n. Fr same😂
Billie Eilish and old Taylor Swift vibes
She does kinda sound like billie for me
I miss old Taylor ngl 😕
I had Olivia vibes
SPEAK NOW TAYLOR SWIFT
i feel like i’m just existing it’s like the same thing everyday. same routine. waking up going to school coming back doing homework studying. it feels useless.
I understand, your not alone. Keep pushing for me please ❤
Dana Badr I hope you feel better I was just like you but now I’m happy all time along with myself..
Lua Gonzalez thats honestly EXACTLY what i’ve been feeling but we’ll get through this!! i believe in us
Same
Same💓
Girl you made me sleep and cry at the same time.
seomii I do this on the daily
@@amiyahberryhill1532 yea same
Sameee
She is so lovely ❤
It's called sly
i’m seriously so angry that this STILL isn’t on spotify
SAME I WENT TO SPOTIFY THINKING OF HER MUSIC THINKING IT MUST BE THERE BY NOW AND IT WASNT
WE NEED IT
is it on there now?
@@akina5091 unfortunately, no :( still dying for it though ong
@@noraconstant8225 aw that sucks
I start to heavy sob when she says 'I'm listening' because no one is for me
Rain Dad omg samee
@elif kocaman same here, always down to talk❤
If you need someone to talk I'm here :) just add me on Instagram @mr_sartic_
@@raindad6681 how are you doing man? :)
@@vd9420 I'm doing better. Using distractions when I need them, and trying to talk things out with friends when It hurts
this came up on my recommended and i’m?? this is beautiful
im breathing
my heart
it's beating
but for some
reason
i am not
living
😭
I felt this and relate to this too tbh ;-;
Same
She inspired me to do live acoustic lyric videos
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I feel you :'(
Music is my only escape. I get to this point where I dont know what to do and I breakdown. Music is there for me a d never judged me for who I am. No else stays by my side and doesnt judge me. So thank you music.
I agree
I relate 100% you're not alone
"Are you alive or just existing?" got to me. I've struggled with depression and anxiety ever since i was like in 4th grade. Now getting into my teen years it's gotten a little worse since sexuality came into the picture, but I've found people who care for me. I want to tell anyone out there that HOPE is there, it may be hiding right now, but it will come out eventually. Thank you for making this beautiful song.
Snazzy Sarah same shits been goin downhill
Snazzy Sarah my depression also started at 4th grade, and now it’s also gotten into my teen years and this song helps me calm down when i’m having an anxiety or panic attack.
Snazzy Sarah this hit me to I'm fourteen and have depression and anxiety and I'm really struggling
@@karma_9528 take some pills
aw everyone in my life rn is going through depression but we use humor to cover it up,
i know this is a year late but if you're down to grab over-priced coffee and wander around side streets and go to record stores to just end up on the roof of the tallest building we can find to watch the sunset than i hit me back because i totally am.
by the way, this song is connecting to such a deep spot in my being that all of my senses seem to be a lil more real and being alive and present is so much more tangible.
Bethany Anthony yh lol I’m down
BEN x WAINWRIGHT i’m down
BEN x WAINWRIGHT literally my dream
This is literally all I want in life. People ask me what I wanna do in the future for a career but.. I just want this.
Sounds fun. I mean, why not, yeah?
The only time I remember being happy was when I was a kid and had no worries in the world I didn’t care how I looked like or what ppl thought abt me but now it’s so different
I just wish I didnt mature so early but ever since I've been insulted by my brother so many times I've been so worried about how people see me and get embarrassed over anything
I’m sorry to hear that. Hope you’re better now!✨🙌🏻
I don’t care what people think about me, but I feel like I haven’t been truly happy in years. It’s the same shit, but a different day. The cycle is getting old. Nothing excites me anymore.
@@VergilPeterson it’s just endlessness. Day after day of feeling little to nothing. It hurts. It’s exhausting.
I’m lucky to still have things in my life that bring me a bit of joy, but it’s drowned out by all the bad.
I feel the same way and every time I feel that way I can’t open up cause people call me weird and think it’s just me it hurts
found you randomly and...
this one hit me god damn hard
thanks
BugzXCII oh my god same
Aliya Geurts 🖤
BugzXCII saaame!
BugzXCII me too man..I just wish that my ex loved me enough to say those words when I needed them..as I did to them://
I am suffering through depression so this was examined what I needed
Teacher to some other student: youtube isnt gonna save you in a life or death situation
Me: its recommendations helped me find music which saved my life.
Hey, how have you been?
imahuman ok ?
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Plsss support 🥺♥️🙏
same
I dont really feel alive , i feel so dead , drained , empty , and lost. And feel so f*cking invisible...
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Plssssss have a listen 🥺♥️🙏🙏🙏
Ik I'm probably late but I'm here if you need to talk. I just want you to know that I feel the same way, but life goes on💜 both pain and happiness will die one day and whatever you're struggling with today, will start to fade away slowly everyday. I promise, it won't last forever. it'll get better💜 Even do some changes if you have to. It helps alot.
I hope you're doing well now💜
@@imnotangryimlonely9930 THANK YOUU for checking up with me , this is so encouraging , beautiful and true.. thank you so much, I really appreciate itt. And yes im finally doing okay but there’s still a lot of battles i need to face... u know life’s just being life itself... Same as you, i hope you’re doing okay too..
your not going to want to hear this because I prob sound like a solicitor, but I was so empty at one point, and it hurts to see other people that have to go through that as well. I won't pretend to understand your pain or what your going through, because I don't know, I'm not you. But in the end, when I felt that there was no point to go on. I went to a service at my church and they promised someone who would give my life purpose again, Jesus. And it was a beautiful name, he came into my life and it was like someone turned on a light. Right now, I still hurt and I'm still healing. My situation isn't ideal. Although I have a light in this room (life) and it tells me, keep pushing, your gonna make it. He gave me hope, and if you reach for him I know he will as well. You don't have to go to some fancy church or join a group (although church is fun if you have access to it) but if you can get access to one read a bible and pray to him, ask him to help you.
This is one of those songs you listen to when you're just pissed at people and life in general.
(I had a bad day, and this made it better, thanks Olivia)
love u
I am mad with the world and this made it better lol.
Can relate today I got mad at my friend and at the moment am trying not to cry my self to sleep
Same
I want to listen to this while I ruin my mascara crying at 2AM in the back of a taxi cab with ripped tights and broken heels feeling hopeless 😩😔
Harley Quinn that’s a weird want
im ok kinda reminds me of the sad scene in sixteen wishes with debby ryan. whatever you were explaining
this actually happened to me except i wear waterproof mascara 🤪
@@cozygombita Ahhh I just watched that movie because I finally turned 16
It's called a bIg FaT MoOd
(beautifully written) Lyrics:
You sit on your bed for hours on end
Not really doing anything but your head is spinning.
You stare at the walls to figure out it all yet,
blank thoughts appearing
your minds never clearing
Are you alive?
Or just existing?
Come on open up,
Im listening
One minute down two,
hours now
I’ll wait for you as long as you need me to
I’ll make it right
Plant flowers in your heart
Dig demons from your hurt
I’ll make it better
I’ll wait for you (x2)
Everyone says,
That our loves not right.
But who says love only
has one side?
Are we alive or just existing?
We need to open up,
and listen
One minute down two,
hours now
I’ll wait for you
As long as you need me to
I’ll make it right
Plant flowers in your heart
Dig demons from your hurt
I’ll make it better
If you want me to
I’ll wait for you
We’ll make it right
Plant flowers in our hearts
Dig demons from our hurt
I’ll make it better
A Martinez thanks for the lyrics but the lyrics are on the screen
I am cool no. 26 years ago not all of them..
thanks 🙏🏼
They’re in the description
this song is so beautiful that i started crying in my sociology class.
liloblivious boi sameeee except im in english
Okay so I'll open up now:
The thing is I'm rlly kind of in a hole ... actually for quite a long time now. I rlly feel like I'm just existing and not living. I used to be such a happy child but after turning 20 it all just kinda went down. I have an identity crisis. There are days in which I'm in an upbeat mood but then it's all getting useless and pointless again and I hide myself in my room under the blanket of my bed for days. It's like a roller coaster. It's just.. a rlly difficult time for me.
Jungcoco Everything will work out the way it’s suppose to love. It’s been 6 months since you commented this and I hope that your pain has subsided and that you’ve learned that it’s okay to discover yourself. and I want you to know you matter and are loved. You are never alone❤️
Jungcoco same i used to be a really happy child but now as the teen years have started to come i’m 14 btw i’ve grown into a depressive state of mind
brie anderson literally. I’m also 14 now and I look at how much our society has changed since we were kids. I can’t process all that is in front of me with all its stress and I can’t seem to find the point of any of it, I feel so stuck.
You are definitely not alone. I am constantly reminded by how limited I am. My vocabulary, my ideas, my thoughts and even the extent of my feelings are just so limited. I feel really stuck a lot of the time, and by that I mean I am unable to progress even though everyone around me seems to be changing and growing.
But the thing is who doesn’t feel this way? Aren’t we all desperately trying to be better and better and better?
Sometimes it’s good to just sit and think and stop for a while. It’s ok that you’re not feeling up to par. It’s ok that sometimes all you want to do is stay in bed. You are still important and valuable and alive. And one day you’ll be satisfied with your limitations.
And even if you’re not the next Einstein or Plato. It won’t matter because you’ll be you and that’ll be more than perfect.
Being 20 is all about learning how to grow. I mean you’re looking at your childhood with rose-tinted glasses, but remember when you were that age you could not wait to be 20.
All I’m saying is that no one is satisfied with what they’ve got, but that doesn’t mean they are more or less valuable than the next person. It just means they’re human.
If you need to talk I'm always here
i miss being able to not care about how people thought of me... i wish i was still confident in myself, like i used to.
same lol.
Same.
I just hope we can get through it 😔
Agreed. I’ve always been very self conscious about everything, but it’s only gotten worse.
Can you make a room tour and how you take asthetic photos your astheticlly pleasing
ines channel she really needs to do this D:
aesthetic
*you're
aesthetically*
This song is what has helped me survive throughout the long distance with my fiance. I plan to have it played at my wedding some day. This song has made me smile, laugh, cry and stare out windows. It has helped me with panic attacks, depression, sadness and grief. Thank you. This has helped through thick and thin and reminded me of the boy I adore
i was just thinking to myself “wow i don’t really do anything. like, i don’t have any hobbies or anything. that’s kinda sad” AND THIS SONG SHOWS UP ON MY RECOMMENDED tell me youtube can’t read my mind.
i'm literally thinking about this rn. like i don't have my "thing" i didn't even know what i want to do when im older and im so scared of growing up cause it feels like the older i get, the more i start to break and start away from being happy and I'm so scared that I'll always make the wrong choices cause my friends have their life sorted out. they know what they want to do and they have their hobbies and interests and all i want to be when im older is happy but every day i lose hope
play guitar, piano, rap, and sing. Please check my new song ua-cam.com/video/XqphlIrHfg0/v-deo.html
You're not alone🖤
@@siyaluvs I looked back at a document that i wrote its called "My Updates" i started writing in it in 2018 then i stopped and started up again in july. maybe try doing something like that you don't need to update it every day just when you need to. Along with the growing up thing I understand. A lot of people do, its hard to understand want you want to do, or be scared that your doing the wrong thing. Just try your best. :) i don't have advice. Sorry.
The background and the song fit so well together. You are so fricken underrated.
I keep staring at her windows and how good the light with the walls look! While she was singing I was imagining a love story in the background and how amazing it would look! AMAZING SONG 😙
Someone please make this song for 1 hour or even 10 hour. Please. I need it.
💓💓
Just incase someone hasn't made a 1 hour ver what u can do is put it on loop
*proof that i've been here from the start*
i wish i was alive more often.
still love this song as much as I did 6 years ago
Hey amazing person who's reading my comment.
You're awesome, you're beautilful and you're not as bad as you may think u are.
I love every one of you.
Hope you're well.
Goodbye.
Hey you amazing person who wrote this.
Thank you, you are wonderful. ☺️💜
❤️
You are everything and mpre you wrote there.
Love you😆
Take care and goodbye❣️
uwuwuwu
Means more than you know, thank you
You too 💜
Thank you ❣❣
"are you alive, or just existing?" wOw
The 'im listening' part make me sobbing so hard. Especially if youre the 'listener' type of friend, like u need someone who would listen to u too. its exhausting.
Are you alive or just existing? This got me so hard. My bestfriend went missing it has been 2 days and we still cant find her. Idk where she's..is she fine? I'm helpless. Broke. Thank you so much for making this song..I'll wait for her and will make it right.
Edit - thank you sm for your love!💓 She's fine & really happy now.
Razia Punjabi did they find her?
@@LongliveGuitargoogle yes we found her and she's fine. Thank you for your concern 😊💛
oh my goodness i’m so glad she’s okay. where was she, if you don’t mind me asking?
@@murphdawgswizzle i don't know..it's dumb but she ran away from her house with her new boyfriend. Like why?! Ugh I don't know I was disappointed like I and my another friend couldn't sleep for 2 days (*we're trio*) I kept praying for her, missed my classes, couldn't eat..idk I hope you understand me :")))))))
Edit :- 3 days lol*
Edit 2 :- dont mind me Haha I'm just mad at her :)
Razia Punjabi
i definitely understand. i’d be angry at my best friend if she did that, but she probably had a reason. maybe she felt trapped and wanted to escape from her home, etc.
YES. A NEW SONG
still come back to this song 6yrs later!
I listened to this three times in a row doing my makeup and I ain't even mad
It's like Cavetown collabed with Tyler Joseph (from his No Phun Intended years) on writing a song for Billie Eilish. It's beautiful. The sound of it soothes my emotions like Cavetown and its words soothe my thoughts like Twenty one pilots
Yes
I stan this comment so much you dont even understand. I love all 4 people you mentioned :D
Wiktoria Zamorska Cavetown is so underrated
I stan
Tyler Joseph is from Twenty One Pilots but anyway yes- I'll forever stan this comment. You described this song in a way I couldn't have.
This is the perfect time for me to find this song, been a kinda rough few days and haven’t eaten anything but some chips and was in bed all day, ik that sounds super lazy but I honestly don’t have drive to do anything. Thanks for the song, I’m trying to get better and this honestly helped, and came at the perfect time, Stay Safe everyone, I love you all and have a good day
Hope you’re feeling better now, stay safe x
play guitar, piano, rap, and sing. Please check my new song ua-cam.com/video/XqphlIrHfg0/v-deo.html
why hasn’t a record label signed her yet though
"not really doing anything,but your head is spinning"
**hey that's VERTIGO and I have that**
lol
Young me would be so happy to know I still listen to this song and now I’m singing along, 4 years into transition, in the voice I’ve always dreamed of singing along with.
i cried while listening to this song
"I'll make it right" ill probably never hear those words, most heartbreaking lines of the song.
that and "ill wait for you"
I love this channel.
“You sit on ur bed for hours “I rightfully feel attacked 😐😂
"never in my life have i been so offended by something i 100% agree with" 😂😂
she's sooo underrated but i love her
Please somehow get these on Spotify so i can listen to them on repeat for hours. Please.
Elisabeth Horton sameeee
Elisabeth Horton omg pLEASE 😖💓
Thank you, but darling, that is not Spotify....
Elisabeth Horton they were showing that since it's not on Spotify you can listen on SoundCloud:)
use musi!! its a lot better than spotify imo
I always come back here everytime I'm confused where my life is going.
wow the chorus gave me such ed sheeran vibes
Mia Lynn SAME
SAME
+manar moopen hello guys i made her song a studio version check it out
im with u
Mia Lynn OMFG YES
your songs are so touching and help me alot ...its underrated more people should hear your songs...keep it upppp
my gosh this song brings me back
Oh guys, I just founded stickers with dates on my bed. I remembered how many days I cried last year. It makes me so sad. And this song with this founded stickers make me so sad for what happened last year all day. btw: sorry for my English..
I listened to it in my room just laying down on my bed. So accurate
If anyone sees this, please find someone in the comments that needs some kind words. A simple "you're not alone" or "I care" can change someone's entire week. I know from experience. And if anyone who's hurting sees this then I care and I'm here for you. My Instagram is zadee.maee please message me if you want to. I'll let you rant to me and I promise I will respond. I'm not on my phone a ton but I'll try my best. Sending love to anyone who needs it ❤
Alexandra Mae, Thank you for this!💕
Yousave me , i mean that
Thank you so much ❤️
this kinda ruins the mood but i had to stare at the word "phone" for a minute straight cuz it doesn't even look like a word sometimes
I clicked on this by accident, cried and realised I made the best mistake in my life
I started crying.
Oh my God😭😭😭 you liked my comment 😫😫😍😭✨ IM SO FREAKING HAPPY 💓
I'm so late, but same.
I'm still here. 3 years later I still come back here.
god dammit im only 4 seconds in and crying, just hearing "ill make it right" makes me cry becuase ive never had someone say that to me
I’m scared that I’ll never be enough and I’m not smart enough to get through college. I’m scared of making the wrong decisions. I’m scared of losing the people I love. I’m scared of just existing and never doing enough to be alive.
You got this bb ur doing great and i'm really proud of you
You can do it! Tbh this might sound silly but it's less about smarts and more about perseverance. If you want it keep working for it! God bless, stay strong
still here listening to this masterpiece
I need this on spotify
*_this song found me, and I've never been so happy being found_*
always come back to this
once theres enough songs in this we NEED an album omg
"Are you alive? or just existing" dang! That got me so hard. Btw, Hi! I'm new here and it's a treasure to discover a precious growing channel.
These past few weeks, i was at my dad’s house. When i’m there, i’m doing nothing. Just existing, really. I think about everything too much. My sleep schedules are messed up, the only things i eat are bad for my health. My dad is more a stranger than a real dad. He don’t really care about my brother and i, he never did anything with us. He has a girlfriend who has three kids. He does everything with them. When he says, "we’re going to .... today", it’s never with my brother and i, but with them.
I’m going back to my mom today. I’m finally going to be "alive" again. She is there for me, and always was. She helps me alot. I don’t cry every night to sleep when i’m there. I eat correctly, and i’m happy.
In only three hours, i’m going to be alive again. :)
.lucky that you have at least one parent that accepts and cares for your mental health, whereas both of my divorced parents don’t care .
Somehow your voice wakes up the demons inside my head and I’d just end up crying when the video ends.
QUEEN DID IT AGAIN
Hi, I’ve been going through all of my really old UA-cam playlist. I forgot all about this song but hearing it again for the first time since a good few years now and it takes me right back. I see myself lying in my childhood bedroom, trying to figure out why I wasn’t as loved as my siblings and why I could be content with the way things were. I feel so sad for my younger self but I also feel so proud of how far I’ve come since finding this song. Thank you for remind me of how much I’ve grown and that things do work out in the end
May I have your permission to animate this, I appreciate your music, and I think you deserve something.
4 months past, and i haven't still seen it. I'm really waiting for your creation.
Cmon make it
Hurry dude it better be good
So you all are forcing them,, when they haven’t even got the ok? Do you guys not know how long it takes to make animations for something? Chill out. If it comes it comes, but stop forcing it.
@@semiautomatic.companion we're not fOrCiNg we're encouraging.We never said you better do it like okay?Cant we show support and that we are excited?Plus he clearly doesn't have a issue as he didn't reply
This just make my day...
Me loosing my teenage years due to strict parents I don’t think they understand the affect it has on my mental health
Buzzing for when you get big and I can say I’ve been here from the start 💗💗
Hannah Lawrencium same
i’d very much appreciate it if you made an album and released all of this music on spotify k thanks.
How come every time I feel like this for someone they never feel the same. I would fight for you, cry for you, bleed for you, hurt for you, be healthy for you, live for you, be fearless for you, over come my own mental health issues for you, help you over come your mental issues, and love you just for you. Why isn’t that enough?
ITS LITERALLY BEEN 2 SECONDS AND IM IN LOVE💓💓😭
i love you liv😚
and i love your freaking room
We do exist but dead inside,to all of you who struggling right now I know life is hard but you're strong..you're stronger than what you think..there's reason why are you here in this world.
I remember listening to this song when i was at my moms place living withhere and my brother. I was so depressed then, and i remember it was raining and i always used to sing or just sit on my bed staring outside of my window listening to this song and crying..my mom is an alcoholic and she just got out of detox, and is now trying to get into therapy...i live with my grandma grandpa sister and brother now but me and my brother are in foster care. It has been so hard and i have still been depressed and self harming myself but now its summer and im in a brighter room, but i still feel the darkness on the inside.. I just wish i was dead so i dont have to deal with the constant pain that i feel everyday, but i have to hide all of that or else my councilor will know and they will put ME in therapy or something..i just want school to start..surprisingly school is my escape because i have friends and its away from home, but now im in a different city so i can make new friends and they wont know anything about my past..But inside i will still be hurt
@im trying to love myself tysm..I can't say that I'm doing better now, but school has started and I've made some friends... But the thing about depression is that it never leaves so right now I feel really lost in time..and simply just stuck
Addicted to Herron I know how hard being depressed and self harming is. If you want to talk to someone about it you can talk to me, if you want to talk privately and have an insta just tell me and we can talk. I know that you will be able to overcome your depression and self harming, I believe in you.❤️
@@iijo9228 thanks but I really don't think I can do it. I have was a month clean, but then I had to mess it up last night. I fuck up everything and I might as well just get used to it.. thanks for the offer tho :/
I know it's hard, since I felt what u feel. In the middle of 2018 I really am feel that I'm in the lowest part of Earth and start hating my own self. Then self harming was my escape or something to make me feel... idk. After that self harmed I end up with Bell's palsy, but gratefully play a game with my friend could makes me feel better those days. Then I could wake up right now, start my daily life.
A bit story of my life. Hope u could enjoy your life someday🌻
Love you💙💙❤️
AGHH😭this is the first song I heard from you and bro!! YOUR VOICE IS BEAUTIFUL 😭😭
i remember listening to this when i knew something was wrong with me, but i didn't know how bad it was. i was robbed of happiness and i'll never stop being mad over it.
"Are you alive or just existing" that hit me hard
HOW TF DO YOU WRITE SONGS SO EASY MAKE A VIDEO ON TIPS PLS
RIGGHT
to anyone who is waiting for that certain person to come back.. please stop putting yourself through this pain. I know that deep down, you have hope they will come back, but is it really worth it? look around, there are other people who love you for you. that certain person can stay in your heart, just remember to move on someday. I love you. now.. keep your head up! 💖🌈
the concept and the songs are really beautiful
you have an amazing voice and talent :)
I’d forgotten what it was like to cry..stumbled upon this channel and it made me see how much I’ve really been missing, I began to think being numb was okay
This comment will probably get lost amongst the thousands of others but I just wanted to say thank you, this gave me the willpower to contact a helpline ❤️
Dear stranger,
I might not know you, but I know I love you, always. it’s okay to be selfish sometimes to prioritize your mental health, give yourself that well earned break because you deserve it!
I MISS THIS ERA 😭😭😭😭
i absolutely love this series i’ve been listening to the last one nonstop!! 💞💞
matildaa lawton samee 😭😭😍😍
You. Are. Amazing. Please never stop.
so this is love at first sight cause i finally felt it now
Your voice, the background, the melody, the lyrics...all of it just fits in perfectly.😍😍