Excellent presentation and very much needed. I know of many people who had to walk away from their families and have no support system because their family was the source of their trauma. Sadly they struggle daily in isolation with their will to survive and thrive and with intense ideation of suicide. All of them seem to have a desperate desire to be seen, heard, comforted and most of all be validated. There is nothing worse than being vulnerable and sharing your story of abuse only to be shamed, invalidated and to be labeled as crazy.
@@khappy1286 I found that in the Antiochian Orthodox Church. Just good people who became a caring and safe extended family to me. And being at the liturgy, which engages all the sense, very much improved my mental health especially by helping me overcome the worst of my disassociation. Even if you don't want or believe the religion stuff, I recommend it - even if it's just for community or material support, because you'll get support there. It provides an environment where you can learn to be yourself. Just give it time and participate.
It’s condition, a cooping mechanism, not an mental illness. I feel so sorry for these people, because they are so misunderstood. Nobody deserves this. The condition is somehow stigmatised because its so extraordinary that it’s hard to believe. It’s really unbelievable on what the human brain is capable of just to deal with the childhood trauma.
Thank you. I often correct people and tell them it is a disorder not an illness. Illness is organic from inside. Disorder came from the outside and damaged inside.
K Happy I can imagine what kind of stress it is only to wake up somewhere without knowing how you got there. It must be creepy. On the other hand this disorder is fascinating because it gives us close view of how our brain is functioning. And it’s a huge surprise that it’s build piece by piece like puzzle. The saddest part is that due the suffering only such people can show it to the world.
@@milaboeva3714 yes. It is actually a gift of survival. Then thete can be deep healing and integration over time. I was a motivated gifted high achiever as a child. Very obediendt. At age 11 I had anorexia. At age 17 wanted to die. At age 19 had to leave my acclaimed acting school in nyc due to meltdowns. For 17 yrs I had those episodes. Finally diagnosed 7 yrs ago-- through prayer. I then called a specialist in DID. Most therapists dont know to look for this. And if they do most are unqualified and inexperienced. I worked w DR Roger Boehm. Even via skype he helped tremendously. I am 80percent integrated now. Even during my trauma episodes it was not unusual for me to set an academic record in something. Surprisingly. Yet other days I stuttered when I talked and could not put together a basic math problem. The psyche was busy handling the pain from the unhealed wounds buried inside me. Some DID's cant function well others are the best employess CEOs artists you will ever see. Very high IQs.
K Happy I know it’s survival mechanism but in higher degrees because of the huge trauma. I used to be an addict long time ago. My healing was consisting in my childhood trauma and I remember that the doctors explained to me that if my brain blocked some memories then it protects itself. It’s the same defensive mechanism and we all have it at some extent whiteout even understand it. That’s why I really do believe that the healing is possible. I think that these alter egos are just part of the main personality but due the trauma they split from the personality. It’s something that even Jung had discovered and it’s called “the shadow”. I’ve been an subject to this experiment too no matter that I don’t have DID. It’s truly reviling when I discovered my hidden qualities. Sometimes you need to be ripped on pieces to build yourself in a healthy way. Wish you luck and never never give up. You are truly wonderful human creature and you can show it to this blind world. I’ve seen it,I felt it and is possible. You and the others are just one and the same person.
Many but not all of course are very gifted and function very well. We are Ceo's managers artists therapists teachers directors janitors truck drivers etc. Many do tasks better than a non DID. I at times break academic records w ease. But the therapy to get to this point of integration was costly and really not enough. Thank you for you care and compassion for people w DID. Much new ground in therapy, groups and community awareness needs to be taken - it's true. Im going to run a group in my area. I just started an internship w the mental health association. Im 7 years into my diagnosis. Healing living trying thriving. God bless you.
People with DID, listen up. If you have found a significant other. Someone who loves you. Tell them. Don't tell them in first person. Talk to them with alters. Tell them their names, what languages they speak, what they like. Get your significant others to understand. I almost left my wife because I didn't get it for two years. I finally get it after she spoke to me with 'her people'. And now my life has a singular purpose. To be an angel to balance the evil that the poor child had to go through. We can understand you. But help us understand you!
I am married to a very lovely lady and she found out about this with my D ID when I found out that I had it and didn’t realize it and she has been very supportive loving and compassionate and helpful when I start having problems she’s always willing to listen and help and when I need a hug she’s there love her very much and I never wanna hurt her or anyone else let alone myself except for when I start getting too overwhelmed then I have to pull out one of my coping skills to use to help me get back to normal level or one of my alters comes forward enough to be call conscious to help me deal with sincerely Danielle Pitmon of the chaos system I am the host PS I also have four other mental health disorders which those combined with my dissociative identity disorder have ended me up in the hospital more times I would really like in a psychiatric ward the last time was for three weeks
No. People do you owe you information about their system. If a system doesn't tell you, they probably don't understand it themselves or simply don't trust you. No one owes anyone information about their system.
This triggered me harder than I thought it would, I even paused the video and came back but still feel the same overwhelming feeling of not being safe. Thank you for your information!!!!
I know that having DID is beyond stressful and I hate that people have to experience something so traumatic. But I can't help but be amazed by the mental strength of these people. How you can endure something so terrible but your brain fights your reality to keep you going. I see the other personalities as helpers. I'm glad you guys are still with us now to help enlighten others and possibly help save others who have experienced the same.
It's not "other personalities" we are all parts of the system. For example, if you break a plate into 10 different pieces which one is the original plate? I appreciate the sentiment though
@@solsystem1342 everyone refers to it differently to me they are my “different personalities” like the lady in video they are “her people” to some their “alters” everyone is different but your plate analogy is great i really like that one!
@@Teestar519 yes, you're free to use whatever terminology you want and I could have phrased it better. What I meant to clear up is the idea that we are like "the other people" or fantastical in some way. Or, said another way DID is just a thing brains do under certain conditions.
@@solsystem1342 Those of us " singlets" ( lol I love that term) we are going to say the wrong stuff. We are trying and if we are your friend We want to understand so just correct us and let's be the best we can be . I am male and my female friend has DID we met as couples but now we are both divorced. I feel fortunate that she is comfortable enough to tallk to me about it. I ask her who was out the other day and she said " you can ask but she won't tell you" then a few minutes later she told me she didn't want to tell me because I haven't met her yet. I just said fair enough and we moved on. She then told me at the time there were 2 out which I didn't even know was possible. so yeah there is so much to learn and I know every system is different. thank you!
I really appreciate this video. It’s been very hard for me to find the right, specialized help for my DID and I’ve had to disown my entire family besides my mom. There’s still so much change and acceptance we need in the world and this video helps a lot.
Sarah, it is amazing what you are creating a safe place for those who need comfort. I have a mini farm with cats, chickens, a mini horse and mini donkey. I’ve always thought, as a grandma now, that I would love to help with the littles in a system. I’ve heard some DID People say that their littles sometimes feel lonely because they have a hard time making friends their age to play with because they are in the host’s grown up body. I’m 62 and the empathy in me just wants to hug you all! Bless you all.
I’m 53 and 7 years ago found out / diagnosed with DID. All these years I thought I was insane. I don’t remember much of my childhood just certain parts I would be driving and find myself in a different area and don’t know or remember how I got there or where I am. I have So many problems and situations that I don’t even know how to begin to deal with. My depression is thru the roof. Each day is a fight to just get out of bed and want to open my eyes.....My mind is in a turmoil and so confusing My alters like to come out when I go to sleep most of the time. I know they come out more but I’m just not aware of it. I wish I could learn how to communicate with them or them with me. 1st thing I would like to get control of is the money situation cause one of my alters loves shopping and spending money on stuff we can’t afford which causes problems in my marriage among other things. No one believes me when I say I don’t know anything about it. Life if so frustrating
Julie Sprik ya know it’s not a personality change but a different person. My eyes will change colors and many other differences. They played with my phone one night and I found photos of them lol. I wish you could see the different. But I’ve been open with my family about them and there’s nothing for people to be scared about We aren’t demonized lol. My husband has learned boundaries with my certain alters. I have a 4yr old named sissy. A teen boy named Neal is 18 then my strongest alter is Victoria. She’s 21 and I have a few others I don’t know them to well. Thankfully I have a good husband who understands
Julie Sprik thankfully the tormentors on that side of the family and their friends are dead as far as I know. Anyway they are dead to me either way! Things are slowly getting better
Ve Vee - that you have a loving husband and two children is more than you can even imagine to help you heal. To have healthy family relationships that discontinues what you endured is so important!
I'm going to revisit this again. I have DID and while this is a great video for anyone unaware or uneducated about DID, I don't feel that speaking to just one person with the disorder is a good focus. This should be an ongoing series honestly. It's more than the trauma, the personalities, it's a way of life.
Here's an observation I made some time ago about extreme childhood abuse, dissociation, and probably DID. Just a small thing- when I was sitting or meditating in practice as an adult, my peaceful place was not watchful--it was much more like the blackout of leaving my body. I was gone and my education tells me I went to my hindbrain.
I remember once, my therapist asked me a question, and then I just started laughing and she looked like she didn't understand why I was laughing. And then after a minutes I asked ''what was the question? Sorry I forgot.'' My mind just went blank because I couldn't confront the question, all I remember is that it was a common question, that no one would think could trigger someone. I don't know if she took it badly. After I was kinda frustrated I forgot the question because I thought it could give me answers about why it was so triggering. I just wanted to share that, I don't have DID or physical abuse in my life.
I found that interview very informative and respectful ! I wish all tv shows who talk about DID and other mental health issues did so in such a caring manner.
I always thought there was something wrong with me because I experience the thoughts and emotions of my alters in the first person. I frequently thought I was delusional. Thank you for letting me know this is normal.
I'm not creating new alters/facets but I'm not seeking total integration either. We get along and no one disrespects another anymore. We have dolls, and blankets, and soft colors in our rooms. We live with a small dog which helps to keep us alive.
I have it too. It is SOO hard that people treat me like a leper instead of the miracle I am for surviving this long. Misdiagnosed and malpracticed for decades all while I kept saying it was sexual abuse which everyone knew since telling at age of 4. Drugged, shock treatments blamed, feared for being born into a sick family.
Also just aiming to live in harmony with my alters. Way I see it is we all have equal ownership over my life, body, and space. My focus is maintaining balance between them three (and me but I'm really only fully me when they're all balanced so its kinda like THIS me is a function of that balance).
I have heard about others who choose not to integrate, because your system is your support network, your friends, your chosen family. Does that sound right?
I find this interview very informative! My heart breaks knowing these adults were so severely affected by the horrific abusive situations! I have always felt, we as a society need to assure children are being monitored in schools, during medical appointments. The more we take the stigmas out of any mental health conditions, and assuring all people can get interventions regardless of monetary resources, helps intervention, and treatments! Let's also be diligent in placing all children in foster care, and adoptive families; vet vet and vet!
For those wondering about how she can have DID but always be co-con and "doesn't lose time": Amnesia between parts can present in many different ways, for many systems, like myself(most of the time), they only experience emotional amnesia. This is when you get to keep factual memory, so although blurry, you can know what you did when somebody else was out, but you cannot remember how you felt, what you felt, or feel any emotional connection to that memory. It feels pretty much the same as if your friend told you a memory of theirs and you pictured it and memorized facts they tell you about it, but its blurry to recall, and there is not much detail and you of course cannot know or feel what they felt in that moment. Another thing is yes you need amnesia/time loss for a DID diagnoses but that amnesia does not have to be between parts. You can have no amnesia, emotional or factual, in day to day life and never lose time now but still have amnesia for large chunks of your past or certain trauma memories. She admitted in this video she had amnesia for some of her childhood/trauma, and that alone makes her fit the DID diagnoses.
This is just a continuation of the pseudoscientific ideas of Freud, Prince, and the French hypnotism schools that came before them. This is not how memory works.
@@psyskeptic9979 I respect your opinion, but trying to bring down a stranger who just found comfort and usefulness out of a comment is uncalled for. We can communicate our opinions nicely without trying to bring others down.
I love what you all are doing. I've struggled with depression, anxiety and at one point felt suicidal. Luckily, I had family support, health insurance to get guidance and medication, and good friends to help me get through the worst of it. Thank you.
Thank you for your comment - we are so glad to hear you are through "the worst of it" and are happy to put you in contact with our partners at Team Wellness Center if you would like additional support.
Thank you for sharing your story. It has similarities to my own. I also am an adoptee and live in a society that idealizes adoption while commodifying children. The assumption many people make is that being a wanted, adopted child is like an inoculation against abuse. It isn't which creates more feelings of isolation when it occurs. I have been censored even by my own agency for telling my story. Thanks for educating people about the prevalence of DID in all kinds of families.
I have DID but I don’t have any consciousness as to whether I have “alters” because they Mimick my own actions to try to make out like everything is ok. It’s a condition of secrecy and hiding. All I become aware of is that I lose time and I’ve lost chunks of time of my life that I can’t recall, I’ve little identity to put towards my name. I have an Inner world that I can step back and communicate with two alters that look different to me and different ages. If I go through any thing stressful they give me advice on how to handle it. But it’s always conflicting advice as the elder of the two is angry and hostile and wants me to stand up for myself. I’ve never learnt to deal with conflict. But after that The worst part for me is that I have dissociative amnesia as well. I can remember the things that happened to me but without intricate details I have body memories and recurring dreams. Nights become so chaotic for me! I started to believe the trauma I went through was because I was not a person but a sexual object and started to take blame and never wanted to talk about it as it was shameful. My worst experience to date: I recently went to get lash extensions and the poor technician did not know how to handle the situation as she sat behind my head and I had my eyes closed I jumped every time her hands came near me as I sensed her presence coming towards me and it felt like I was being attacked even though I wasn’t, I couldn’t convince my mind of that. I’m not ready to uncover the memories so for now this is my life. I am appreciative for my DID as its protected me my whole life.
They don't necessarily have to hide. In order to change a small detail about reality, it can require you to see the whole world differently. They may still be 99% you and still be an alter. Its in how you define them, know of them, too. Alters are made up of many different parts. Some more than others.
Dissociative amnesia is just one piece of it. Its the way that your brain interpreted CPTSD. There seems to always be some sort of separation. It is sometimes only emotional. Its like a feeling hidden underneath a feeling, right? I know it well. ADHD is usually the first part that doesn't develop right. You have to expand your mind to get away. It never goes back. But if situations don't change, that young, you continue to not form. Then the ptsd... ...and the split.
My therapist explained it this way to me...most adults are fully baked and decorated cake, ready to serve. With DID the ingredients of the cake, eggs.flour.oil.sugar...etc. don't get mixed together well enough to bake and decorate
This is a perfect description! Most people I meet had a fairly solid foundation or identity to begin to build an ego upon. My mind was busy using mental gymnastics to survive and cope. Always Running 🏃♀️ away from any sign of conflict ...building resentments and burning bridges. I had amazing strategies to obtain a taste of success but coping with any of it was impossible. I won’t stop the healing process though.
I thought cupcakes would have been a good description. Used the same ingredients but instead of making it into one large one, the batter was poured into several.
This is the best informative video I have seen in a long time. I suffer from this. It is looked at and promoted as bad but my 6 arent really anything then my personal bouncers or caregivers per say....
I am so glad you ran this topic in this video because I have dissociative identity disorder and it is a struggle every day and I also have four other mental health disorders which are as follows borderline personality disorder bipolar to PTSD and generalized anxiety disorder all of that combined makes for a very challenging day today life and the one thing is usually right on top is sore suicidal thoughts and self harm prevention I have a whole list of coping skills that I use and one of those is going to sleep and just ignoring everything and trying to clear my mind of all of it because dealing with all of the emotions and the traumas is so hard and I was a foster child as well and I had multiple abuses through my whole life
Aren't they other types of DID? where a person stays there during trauma, and fractures, the injured goes to amnesia, and the person keeps going. Then it all stays the same till memories start to emerge, but hidden in that child age 'box'
I have a terrified 5 yr old little girl that I've heard in my mind for many many years...she came out once. The terrior of hers that I felt was overwhelming. I doubt she'll be brave enough to be seen again.
There is nothing to fear about being angry, but to some, the emotion literally feels like it will sweep us away. I think, finding a 'safe' person, a therapist who drugging gets it, is the key! Being safe with someone who we hand control over to in the presence of our anger, is freeing! It takes a while. It's kind of like lighting fireworks, and running, e pectin,G any second, to be blown to bits, but when we hear the popping, we realize how big our fear was and how small the popping in comparison. I could not get thru this life without Jesus. Ask Him to show you He's real, and He's safe. Just ask.
@Jamikorn Meeraket I completely agree. I/we have D.I.D. one of our inner world's is a forest. That's where we feel safe. Also we' ve had a traumatic event happen in a field. So it just wouldn't work for us.
tnat happend to me back in 2014 before i realized what has been going on. someone stepped forward. i could not see, or control anything, but i could hear muffled voice and sped up. :O And in marching band in 1990 i completely disapeared and someone else came.. i came back and i was completely in line. i didn't know what it was then. i have tried find a therapist. i saw a caseworker who said it is schizophrenia :/ :(
I was told by a Psychiatrist some years ago. I was so scared.i never went back. Since.ive been diagnosed with Complex PTSD. Certain events after.that.id.not.be able to find my.car, or.suddenly.be in a place, not know how I got there.or where I was. I must.ask my present psychiatrist.
I have no recollection of.anything as a child. I was a child during the "blitz" WAR time in England. Maybe it was emotional neglect,..My.mother afraid and occupied with fear, my Dad away fighting. I remember being left alone In.my.rolm, maybe she neglected me in her fear.
I’m so sorry for all who have DID! I’m a victim of sexual assault but I never got DID. This video is setting off my tryptophobia though! All the honeycombs and circles on the walls are giving me symptoms. But I’m interested in the content.
How do you know you do not have DID? I did not know it until after age 50. I also had some phobias. If you felt triggered by this, and it set off something that makes you feel anxious, like a phobia (But it doesn’t need to be a phobia), you might want to talk to a specialist. Do not under estimate the terror and psychological pain that sexual abuse causes in children.
Thank you for this video! Would you mind if we work on spanish subtitles? We're working on DID awareness in spanish population and there are very few resources!
My home gets visits from 3 year Andy baby boy, 10 year old EDWARD(Eats/sleep) they sleep because less trauma, Alec17 Year old and AIDEN 34, 45 Sherrie Lynn, Andrew Recording artist . Also I suffered with Bulemia and Anerexia. Went from 350lbs to 120lbs Edward is now dealing with most tasks from xray and prodeures. Andrew has lilttle patience so Endward does it.
Total respect for Sarah. And believability. I think this condition is on a spectrum of dissociation/compartmentalization from trauma, with the actual DID way out on that spectrum. Much support to Sarah's journey. The path back to health is integration and communication between those inner parts, which in severe cases, actually become like separate entities instead of just the typical compartments. Her redresses are so good ... she so gets it.
For me and my situation, it took the Holy Spirit to reveal to me I was traumatized at 6 years old from SRA. Holy Spirit told me it started in the womb so it was a generational curse also a marine spirit. My mother would dream over and over all through her life her mother was being taken away by the ocean waves. Her mother died at 39 after bearing 9 children
I've been trying to figure out for a while if I have DID. I have some of the characteristics, but I don't remember any trauma (s). Is it possible that DID can be created through neglect?
Yes. I am living proof. Though neglect wasn't my only abuse. Neglect can make a child feel like they need to be the adult. That can lead to a split in identity.
Neglect can be very instrumental in trauma, at least it has been in my situation. The want and desire to feel loved and cared for and not having that can be very harmful to a developing individual. I currently have two alters who are young and seek love and admiration whenever they front.
I am deeply skeptical of psychiatrists. My mother has mental issues and always has had them. I think it was primarily depression with a bit more mixed in because she had two or three of what I would term mild psychotic episodes. She woke up in the middle of the night, pounded on my brother's door, and demanded to know "why he had killed her." (Yes, she phrased it in the past tense. My brother isn't violent. We fought as kids by shoving or scratching each other, but it didn't even rise to the level of wrestling. Despite having screaming matches, my brother never hit our mother nor verbally threatened violence.) On that night, our mother had something in her hand she was trying to club him with. My brother restrained her arms against her sides as he tried to talk to her. I was at the door of my room. She told me to call the police. Instead, I cracked a joke that distracted her. She later thanked me for "diffusing the situation." My mother is well spoken and well educated and had her psychiatrist convinced that there was nothing wrong with her, but something very wrong with us (her children.) I went to the psychiatrist and told him the above story along with a few other stories. He was both deeply surprised and genuinely horrified. Psychiatrists come to sweeping conclusions about their patients based on a very incomplete picture of the person and their environment. Most psychiatrists do in office interviews with the patient only and without interviewing family and friends or witnessing home situations. A patient may lie but also a patient might be an unreliable narrator, lacking a clear perception of events, environment, and people because of whatever is wrong with them. When I hear about how psychiatrists "discover" stories of abuse in the sterility of their offices talking to either a patient under hypnosis or a patient's alternate personality, I feel a wave of skepticism wash over me. If the patient doesn't remember it themselves, more evidence needs to be collected outside of your office before you draw a conclusion. Yes, the seemingly normal sounding person in front of you could have something really wrong with them as was true of my mother. I don't mean to sound insensitive to "DID" suffers who have in fact been subject to abuse. I am just skeptical that every single case of "DID" is the result of abuse. The human mind is the most complex piece of machinery to have ever existed. Things can go wrong in funky ways while other parts of the brain are left untouched. Outside forces are not always responsible.
Allow me to explain the current theory of how DID forms: Basically, when humans are born, they exist as several ego states, rather than one solid, unified personality. These ego states are responsible for making sure all of our needs are met. One is responsible for making sure we get fed, another is responsible for making sure we're clean, another is responsible for attachment, etc, etc, etc. Usually between the ages of 5 and 9, these ego states connect and form one unified personality. However, sometimes when an individual goes through repeated childhood trauma, these ego states don't integrate. Or, more accurately, can't integrate. For example, one ego state may see a caregiver as a source of food, and another may see them as a source of danger. These two conflicting ideas within these two ego states cannot integrate. Amnesia walls are put up between them, and they develop into their own individual people, with their own names, wants, likes, dislikes, etc. Once this happens as a child, the brain learns to create these amnesia walls, and can do so again when the person is older, which can create completely new people. So you end up with multiple individual people all sharing a body, brain, and life. Does this make it easier to understand how DID can only come about through childhood trauma? It's kind of like how you can't develop PTSD without trauma.
Okay, so if it’s not trauma that is the cause of a person developing DID, what would you suggest? Because I just cannot fathom what else besides overwhelming pain and fear would cause a human being to respond like this. So? What would you say causes it, if not trauma and abuse?
@@theecosmetaverse it's different for each person. One person I knew took a couple months after he found out. I myself, took years and we both hadn't even gone to therapy
Amnesia between parts can present in many different ways, for many systems, like myself, for most of the time, they only experience emotional amnesia. Which is when you get to keep factual memory, so although blurry, you can know what you did when somebody else was out, but you cannot remember how you felt, what you felt, or feel any emotional connection to that memory. It feels pretty much the same as if your friend told you a memory of theirs and you picture it and remember facts they tell you about it, but its blurry, not much detail and you of course cannot know or feel what they felt in that moment. Another thing is yes you need amnesia for a DID diagnoses but that amnesia does not have to be between parts. You can have no amnesia in day to day life but have amnesia for large chunks of your past or certain trauma memories.
@@HazeSemper yes, thank you, emotional amnesia is huge. The traumatic memory without it feels like a movie, very easy to forget, you just dont feel attached to it, like it could have been a dream, or someone elses life.
There is a group that considers themselves “Plural” without trauma. While I don’t want to diminish anyone’s experience I find anyone who thinks that being plural is just is what they are and don’t need fixing should stay off of Dissociative Disorder commenting on sites pages or videos that are here to educate about what is a mechanism to deal with trauma.
This is a very informative and helpful video on DID. However I don't understand in what sense, why do males exhibit more violent behaviour. Unfortunately, people with this disorder are the victims, they are not dangerous. I know people in my life who have DID and they are the most loveliest and kindest people 🥰. I care about them deeply. Ones with DID are so strong. It's such a shame that this condition still gets stigmatised 😢. If you're experiencing these symptoms, please reach out to a mental health professional, your spouse, family and friends, people you can trust. It's nothing to be ashamed of them horrific events happening to you. It's not your fault. Them evil perpetrators should be ashamed, and executed. We all need to support and survive together ❤️. We are strong 💪. Sending support and love to you all ❤.
I've had DID since childhood and I've never had co-consciousness. I find that hard to believe that not losing time is a secondary form of DID. It is clearly stated that gaps in time and that the alters do not talk to each other and they do not argue in your head. You don't hear voices with DID. I cannot relate to this woman because I lose moments in time and my one alter (demon) has tried to kill me 15 times. I have injuries and have been in 6 point restraints from it. Then again....my abuse was from 4-29 and now that I live in seclusion for my own safety...I can't just talk about what I've been through and why. I consider this woman being interviewed...lucky. I do my best to manage everyday life but DID exists for reasons that many like me cannot talk about things openly due to safety reasons. There is more to DID than just this interview.
It could be OSDD, which is basically DID but missing one of the DID criteria. Depending on the type of OSDD, this could mean that the different personalities don't identify as different people (for example, they're the same person but different ages. One is the 4 year old version of that person, another is the 10 year old version, another is the 17 year old version, etc etc etc), that there is no amnesia between alters (like this woman describes, which means they all have access to the same memories) and others that I honestly can't be bothered to look up right now. Either way, she still has multiple personalities.
@@ciceromeridius-decimus9641 yes you can hear your parts in your head. MOST DID people do. Especially when healing and parts no longer hiding or co operating. I experience this for decades. And so the people I know.
I've had DID since childhood and I've never had co-consciousness. I find that hard to believe that not losing time is a secondary form of DID. It is clearly stated that gaps in time and that the alters do not talk to each other and they do not argue in your head. You don't hear voices with DID. I cannot relate to this woman because I lose moments in time and my one alter (demon) has tried to kill me 15 times. I have injuries and have been in 6 point restraints from it. Then again....my abuse was from 4-29 and now that I live in seclusion for my own safety...I can't just talk about what I've been through and why. I consider this woman being interviewed...lucky. I do my best to manage everyday life but DID exists for reasons that many like me cannot talk about things openly due to safety reasons. There is more to DID than just this interview.
Of course their is but back off on insulting this woman who may have been through more than you will ever know. Just because she isnt sharing all the nightmares she lived doesnt mean she didnt go throug it. I was way diffetent years ago. In desperate torment. Healing has changed me though I still have lots to heal. Be thankful the word is getting out.
Yes we do hear the voices if our akters in our head. Usually the first thing you arw afraid to telk your therapist. And the most important thing for them to know. Inside the head...not outside the head. Then you've got a whole new problem.
She has good ideas to have all sorts of different types of therapy in the place she is hoping to have for people with DID. But may I ask who would pay for it all? Even if you have really good health insurance, it won't pay for different therapies. I know, I pay for a lot of my own therapies, although I don't have DID, but other psychiatric disorders.
I' asked for help from my family, my cousins. We are how it goes.of course ain't gonna be able to tell my stories but I'm doing what I cuz I'm gonna die if I dont
I have 4 (well known) personalities 3 of which are perfectly fine, while 1 is by no means, a good person. This 1 personality doesn't want, or has never, hurt anyone else, rather "They" as I call this one, strives to hurt me. When They comes out, I almost instantly blank out, there is no amount of talking or help that helps, and the sole goal is to hurt either myself or themself. I don't know which of those options it is...but I know that in the end, I am the one who wakes up in the hospital or mental health facility. It has progressively gotten worse over the years with the last episode actually causing criminal charges to be added along with hospitalization. I feel like I am watching a staticky, flickering, black and white movie....but I only get to see tiny little clips or a few frames before everything goes dark and echoey again. I have spent decades withholding childhood tramua and issues that occured in my early/mid 20's, as well as those from my military experiences. I repress the personalities and have done so for a vast majority of my life. I hear thier voices, often angry because of this repression. I do talk to them at times, and when I get caught, I would say that I was talking to our doggies or just to my self. I lose time, but also have grown familiar with the feelings when one of these personalities is about to come out. I am mostly successful in blocking them...but when I can not do so, sometimes they allow me to see and hear, sometimes they do not. There are times when they only tell me what occured later, and times they don't say anything at all. There are even times that they tell me that I have done or said something which never actually happened. This mostly occurs when I lack the confidence I need to deal with daily stressors where I need the strength, or the image of strength in these cases, so that I might have a better handle on the situation if it occurs again in the future. I don't necessarily want all of them to go away, they have been with me in some form or fashion my whole life....but "They" has to go, and soon. I hate feeling so depressed and anxious all the time. I hate that echoing, difficult to understand voice, I hate being told to look at my wrists only to find I am holding a razor blade and have blood running down my hand! I fucking hate They!
God loves you Arial. Please come to Jesus. I'm not a religious nut, trust me, my arms are scarred from razorblades. God wants to heal you and he absolutely can. If I can be saved, anyone can. You are in my prayers 🙏💞
@@brielleanyez7113 Though I appreciate your response, I have my own religious beliefs and those beliefs do help me cope with some of the stresses of my problems. I need to find the right combination of long term therapy and the proper therapist at this point. Though I am in a partial hospitalization group and have been for well over a month now, and it does provide structure and some guidence, it is not sustainable for the long term care I need and it is not a specialized service to help me deal with my specific issues.
@@ArialRobison-Firechilde praying for you Arial, it IS a challenge of working through, you're not crazy!! learning about my DID and then learning to appreciate what they've contributed for my survival has been really important. (instead of hating them all- and myself!) you were beautifully designed, the yuck (evil and trauma) gets to be exposed to the light, and we get to be free.
Call it DID or MPD, I just dont believe it but my husband did. My husband was in Vietnam in 1971-72, before Sybil.was published, and he said another soldier in his hooch had it. My husband said the guy hadn't been diagnosed, but the other guys in their group concurred that he had a " split personality "
I saw a video just before this where the woman was saying, it was not safe to trust her internal feelings. but the sub titles said " it is not safe to trust the internet" which is true, but wrong hahaha
Yes, they can! It can be hard to diagnose, but when the personalities have good communication with each other and can each speak to a therapist/doctor/whoever individually, they can get their own diagnosis that doesn't apply to the rest of the personalities. For example, the UA-cam channel MultiplicityAndMe is about a woman named Jess with DID. One of her alters, Jake, has bipolar disorder, but none of the other alters have it. Another one of her alters, Ed, has anorexia, which none of her other alters have. Although things like ADHD and autism tend to apply to all the personalities in one mind, but to varying degrees. So one alter might have severe ADHD and the other might have mild ADHD, but they both still have it.
As someone who personally has this, I personally do. One good way to help communication along is to write notes and post them in a place that you frequently visit and make it a habit. It is very interesting, for example that one alter could be allergic to pollen and another could be completely fine around pollen.
Because human beings are social animals, that’s why. All children crave the care, love, and yes, tender touch of caretakers. When your caretaker is also your abuser, you know you cannot expect that nurturing. It’s heartbreaking. I don’t know I managed to nurture my own children as well as I did. I learned about attachment parenting, authoritative parenting (as opposed to authoritarian parenting, which allows abuse to thrive unknown). It is attributes like this that sometimes make me believe in a soul. I really don’t feel like I belonged to that [abusive] family of origin. I’m not like them, in my core. Anyway, despite horrifying abuse, humans still crave being part of a group, and the touch of others. Human babies will die if they are never touched.
Ik that this is not really related to what the video was saying but I didn’t see her shirt so I thought to myself that she had a small body but one huge head
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A lot of times alters learn to “mask” as the host so that people (including the host/other alters) don’t notice what’s going on. But you cannot just simply “let go” of such serious trauma
@ thank you for replying. As you took the trouble, would you consider taking the trouble to cut out or writing a disclaimer for the sections that the presenters by themselves say as they are quite universally damaging to people who have D.I.D. There is too much stigma, misunderstanding and vilification of people who have been through such severe trauma! Especially as this video could be watched by newly diagnosed or family or friend of someone diagnosed.
This is the exact reason why I was afraid to tell people after I first found out I have D.I.D. I didn't want people to be the reason for people saying all LGBT people are mental because that's just not true.
Sounds like evil spirits playing as “helpful personalities” thus making the person seem or feel crazy… and that is not normal to me, not their fault but definitely not normal. Pray over these people.
Excellent presentation and very much needed. I know of many people who had to walk away from their families and have no support system because their family was the source of their trauma. Sadly they struggle daily in isolation with their will to survive and thrive and with intense ideation of suicide. All of them seem to have a desperate desire to be seen, heard, comforted and most of all be validated. There is nothing worse than being vulnerable and sharing your story of abuse only to be shamed, invalidated and to be labeled as crazy.
I would like to start national support groups for these people. Like AA but for those w DID w no safe family b
You just literally described my life.
I cannot tell you how true your statement is. Thank you.
@@pisceandreamer3 fucking same. On point
@@khappy1286 I found that in the Antiochian Orthodox Church. Just good people who became a caring and safe extended family to me. And being at the liturgy, which engages all the sense, very much improved my mental health especially by helping me overcome the worst of my disassociation.
Even if you don't want or believe the religion stuff, I recommend it - even if it's just for community or material support, because you'll get support there. It provides an environment where you can learn to be yourself. Just give it time and participate.
It’s condition, a cooping mechanism, not an mental illness. I feel so sorry for these people, because they are so misunderstood. Nobody deserves this. The condition is somehow stigmatised because its so extraordinary that it’s hard to believe. It’s really unbelievable on what the human brain is capable of just to deal with the childhood trauma.
Thank you. I often correct people and tell them it is a disorder not an illness. Illness is organic from inside. Disorder came from the outside and damaged inside.
K Happy I can imagine what kind of stress it is only to wake up somewhere without knowing how you got there. It must be creepy. On the other hand this disorder is fascinating because it gives us close view of how our brain is functioning. And it’s a huge surprise that it’s build piece by piece like puzzle. The saddest part is that due the suffering only such people can show it to the world.
@@milaboeva3714 yes. It is actually a gift of survival. Then thete can be deep healing and integration over time. I was a motivated gifted high achiever as a child. Very obediendt. At age 11 I had anorexia. At age 17 wanted to die. At age 19 had to leave my acclaimed acting school in nyc due to meltdowns. For 17 yrs I had those episodes. Finally diagnosed 7 yrs ago-- through prayer. I then called a specialist in DID. Most therapists dont know to look for this. And if they do most are unqualified and inexperienced. I worked w DR Roger Boehm. Even via skype he helped tremendously. I am 80percent integrated now. Even during my trauma episodes it was not unusual for me to set an academic record in something. Surprisingly. Yet other days I stuttered when I talked and could not put together a basic math problem. The psyche was busy handling the pain from the unhealed wounds buried inside me. Some DID's cant function well others are the best employess CEOs artists you will ever see. Very high IQs.
K Happy I know it’s survival mechanism but in higher degrees because of the huge trauma.
I used to be an addict long time ago. My healing was consisting in my childhood trauma and I remember that the doctors explained to me that if my brain blocked some memories then it protects itself. It’s the same defensive mechanism and we all have it at some extent whiteout even understand it. That’s why I really do believe that the healing is possible. I think that these alter egos are just part of the main personality but due the trauma they split from the personality. It’s something that even Jung had discovered and it’s called “the shadow”. I’ve been an subject to this experiment too no matter that I don’t have DID. It’s truly reviling when I discovered my hidden qualities. Sometimes you need to be ripped on pieces to build yourself in a healthy way.
Wish you luck and never never give up. You are truly wonderful human creature and you can show it to this blind world. I’ve seen it,I felt it and is possible. You and the others are just one and the same person.
Many but not all of course are very gifted and function very well. We are Ceo's managers artists therapists teachers directors janitors truck drivers etc. Many do tasks better than a non DID. I at times break academic records w ease. But the therapy to get to this point of integration was costly and really not enough. Thank you for you care and compassion for people w DID. Much new ground in therapy, groups and community awareness needs to be taken - it's true. Im going to run a group in my area. I just started an internship w the mental health association. Im 7 years into my diagnosis. Healing living trying thriving. God bless you.
People with DID, listen up. If you have found a significant other. Someone who loves you. Tell them. Don't tell them in first person. Talk to them with alters. Tell them their names, what languages they speak, what they like. Get your significant others to understand. I almost left my wife because I didn't get it for two years. I finally get it after she spoke to me with 'her people'. And now my life has a singular purpose. To be an angel to balance the evil that the poor child had to go through. We can understand you. But help us understand you!
Zarg I recently broke up with my partners and I have DID. Sorta made me feel like I have a chance to find someone willing to accept us again! Thanks!
🥺what you wrote, touched me. It was deeply moving
That is take a lots courage to tell someone you trust. Sometimes just need to cover up and keep life going.
I am married to a very lovely lady and she found out about this with my D ID when I found out that I had it and didn’t realize it and she has been very supportive loving and compassionate and helpful when I start having problems she’s always willing to listen and help and when I need a hug she’s there love her very much and I never wanna hurt her or anyone else let alone myself except for when I start getting too overwhelmed then I have to pull out one of my coping skills to use to help me get back to normal level or one of my alters comes forward enough to be call conscious to help me deal with sincerely Danielle Pitmon of the chaos system I am the host PS I also have four other mental health disorders which those combined with my dissociative identity disorder have ended me up in the hospital more times I would really like in a psychiatric ward the last time was for three weeks
No.
People do you owe you information about their system. If a system doesn't tell you, they probably don't understand it themselves or simply don't trust you.
No one owes anyone information about their system.
This triggered me harder than I thought it would, I even paused the video and came back but still feel the same overwhelming feeling of not being safe. Thank you for your information!!!!
I know that having DID is beyond stressful and I hate that people have to experience something so traumatic. But I can't help but be amazed by the mental strength of these people. How you can endure something so terrible but your brain fights your reality to keep you going. I see the other personalities as helpers. I'm glad you guys are still with us now to help enlighten others and possibly help save others who have experienced the same.
It's not "other personalities" we are all parts of the system. For example, if you break a plate into 10 different pieces which one is the original plate?
I appreciate the sentiment though
@@solsystem1342 everyone refers to it differently to me they are my “different personalities” like the lady in video they are “her people” to some their “alters” everyone is different but your plate analogy is great i really like that one!
@@Teestar519 yes, you're free to use whatever terminology you want and I could have phrased it better. What I meant to clear up is the idea that we are like "the other people" or fantastical in some way. Or, said another way DID is just a thing brains do under certain conditions.
One of THE most wonderful things I have had anyone say about DID. Thank you to the moon and back!
@@solsystem1342 Those of us " singlets" ( lol I love that term) we are going to say the wrong stuff. We are trying and if we are your friend We want to understand so just correct us and let's be the best we can be . I am male and my female friend has DID we met as couples but now we are both divorced. I feel fortunate that she is comfortable enough to tallk to me about it. I ask her who was out the other day and she said " you can ask but she won't tell you" then a few minutes later she told me she didn't want to tell me because I haven't met her yet. I just said fair enough and we moved on. She then told me at the time there were 2 out which I didn't even know was possible. so yeah there is so much to learn and I know every system is different. thank you!
I really appreciate this video. It’s been very hard for me to find the right, specialized help for my DID and I’ve had to disown my entire family besides my mom. There’s still so much change and acceptance we need in the world and this video helps a lot.
Sarah, it is amazing what you are creating a safe place for those who need comfort. I have a mini farm with cats, chickens, a mini horse and mini donkey. I’ve always thought, as a grandma now, that I would love to help with the littles in a system. I’ve heard some DID People say that their littles sometimes feel lonely because they have a hard time making friends their age to play with because they are in the host’s grown up body. I’m 62 and the empathy in me just wants to hug you all! Bless you all.
I want to visit your farm.
WowWee that's good news I like hearing someone that has a good heart
I’m 53 and 7 years ago found out / diagnosed with DID. All these years I thought I was insane. I don’t remember much of my childhood just certain parts I would be driving and find myself in a different area and don’t know or remember how I got there or where I am. I have So many problems and situations that I don’t even know how to begin to deal with. My depression is thru the roof. Each day is a fight to just get out of bed and want to open my eyes.....My mind is in a turmoil and so confusing My alters like to come out when I go to sleep most of the time. I know they come out more but I’m just not aware of it. I wish I could learn how to communicate with them or them with me. 1st thing I would like to get control of is the money situation cause one of my alters loves shopping and spending money on stuff we can’t afford which causes problems in my marriage among other things. No one believes me when I say I don’t know anything about it. Life if so frustrating
Julie Sprik ya know it’s not a personality change but a different person. My eyes will change colors and many other differences. They played with my phone one night and I found photos of them lol. I wish you could see the different. But I’ve been open with my family about them and there’s nothing for people to be scared about We aren’t demonized lol. My husband has learned boundaries with my certain alters. I have a 4yr old named sissy. A teen boy named Neal is 18 then my strongest alter is Victoria. She’s 21 and I have a few others I don’t know them to well. Thankfully I have a good husband who understands
Julie Sprik thankfully the tormentors on that side of the family and their friends are dead as far as I know. Anyway they are dead to me either way! Things are slowly getting better
Ve Vee - that you have a loving husband and two children is more than you can even imagine to help you heal. To have healthy family relationships that discontinues what you endured is so important!
I think you should start a diary!! Perhaps the other personalities will also write in it. You could go back to it and check.
Lisa a Romano saved my life. Look her up!!
I'm going to revisit this again. I have DID and while this is a great video for anyone unaware or uneducated about DID, I don't feel that speaking to just one person with the disorder is a good focus. This should be an ongoing series honestly. It's more than the trauma, the personalities, it's a way of life.
Thank you for your comment. As you point out, DID affects each person differently and is, as you beautifully put it, a way of life.
I agree since it appears differently for each person.
Here's an observation I made some time ago about extreme childhood abuse, dissociation, and probably DID. Just a small thing- when I was sitting or meditating in practice as an adult, my peaceful place was not watchful--it was much more like the blackout of
leaving my body. I was gone and my education tells me I went to my hindbrain.
Thank you for your comment and for sharing your experience.
I remember once, my therapist asked me a question, and then I just started laughing and she looked like she didn't understand why I was laughing. And then after a minutes I asked ''what was the question? Sorry I forgot.'' My mind just went blank because I couldn't confront the question, all I remember is that it was a common question, that no one would think could trigger someone. I don't know if she took it badly. After I was kinda frustrated I forgot the question because I thought it could give me answers about why it was so triggering. I just wanted to share that, I don't have DID or physical abuse in my life.
I found that interview very informative and respectful ! I wish all tv shows who talk about DID and other mental health issues did so in such a caring manner.
Thank you for being so brave to share your story. You helped me.
I always thought there was something wrong with me because I experience the thoughts and emotions of my alters in the first person. I frequently thought I was delusional. Thank you for letting me know this is normal.
I'm not creating new alters/facets but I'm not seeking total integration either. We get along and no one disrespects another anymore. We have dolls, and blankets, and soft colors in our rooms. We live with a small dog which helps to keep us alive.
Good luck to you all.❤️
I have it too. It is SOO hard that people treat me like a leper instead of the miracle I am for surviving this long.
Misdiagnosed and malpracticed for decades all while I kept saying it was sexual abuse which everyone knew since telling at age of 4. Drugged, shock treatments blamed, feared for being born into a sick family.
Also just aiming to live in harmony with my alters. Way I see it is we all have equal ownership over my life, body, and space. My focus is maintaining balance between them three (and me but I'm really only fully me when they're all balanced so its kinda like THIS me is a function of that balance).
If you can be happy and functional as a system, there's no reason to force anything on yourself. Your recovery process is your own : )
I have heard about others who choose not to integrate, because your system is your support network, your friends, your chosen family. Does that sound right?
Thank you for trying to help us break the stigma of DID. Amatist of the Stronghold System. Power to the Plurals!
power to the plurals ua-cam.com/video/mCy6M3XsGzQ/v-deo.html
I find this interview very informative! My heart breaks knowing these adults were so severely affected by the horrific abusive situations! I have always felt, we as a society need to assure children are being monitored in schools, during medical appointments. The more we take the stigmas out of any mental health conditions, and assuring all people can get interventions regardless of monetary resources, helps intervention, and treatments! Let's also be diligent in placing all children in foster care, and adoptive families; vet vet and vet!
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For those wondering about how she can have DID but always be co-con and "doesn't lose time":
Amnesia between parts can present in many different ways, for many systems, like myself(most of the time), they only experience emotional amnesia. This is when you get to keep factual memory, so although blurry, you can know what you did when somebody else was out, but you cannot remember how you felt, what you felt, or feel any emotional connection to that memory. It feels pretty much the same as if your friend told you a memory of theirs and you pictured it and memorized facts they tell you about it, but its blurry to recall, and there is not much detail and you of course cannot know or feel what they felt in that moment.
Another thing is yes you need amnesia/time loss for a DID diagnoses but that amnesia does not have to be between parts. You can have no amnesia, emotional or factual, in day to day life and never lose time now but still have amnesia for large chunks of your past or certain trauma memories. She admitted in this video she had amnesia for some of her childhood/trauma, and that alone makes her fit the DID diagnoses.
This is just a continuation of the pseudoscientific ideas of Freud, Prince, and the French hypnotism schools that came before them. This is not how memory works.
@@majkelka1 it's pseudoscience in a UA-cam comment
@@psyskeptic9979 I respect your opinion, but trying to bring down a stranger who just found comfort and usefulness out of a comment is uncalled for. We can communicate our opinions nicely without trying to bring others down.
@@majkelka1 I really glad my comment helped sweetheart
@@HazeSemper it was meant to help: this pseudoscience can lead to a lot of pain in those that follow it. It is iatrogenic.
I love what you all are doing. I've struggled with depression, anxiety and at one point felt suicidal. Luckily, I had family support, health insurance to get guidance and medication, and good friends to help me get through the worst of it. Thank you.
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love and encouragement, Sarah!!!
Thank you. Great interview and the Farm sounds wonderful. I am multiple and have animals art music gardens as well. Very healing.
The Patchwork Quilt by JD Clark. This is a great book for kids to explain DID. It is good for adults too. It is read on you tube too
Thank you for your comment! What a great book!
Such a helpful interview and I totally see why people don't always believe DID exists. Thank you for sharing this.
Thank you for your generous comment! We are always happy to hear from our viewers, particularly when they've learned something helpful!
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Thank you for sharing your story. It has similarities to my own. I also am an adoptee and live in a society that idealizes adoption while commodifying children. The assumption many people make is that being a wanted, adopted child is like an inoculation against abuse. It isn't which creates more feelings of isolation when it occurs. I have been censored even by my own agency for telling my story. Thanks for educating people about the prevalence of DID in all kinds of families.
I have DID but I don’t have any consciousness as to whether I have “alters” because they Mimick my own actions to try to make out like everything is ok. It’s a condition of secrecy and hiding. All I become aware of is that I lose time and I’ve lost chunks of time of my life that I can’t recall, I’ve little identity to put towards my name. I have an Inner world that I can step back and communicate with two alters that look different to me and different ages. If I go through any thing stressful they give me advice on how to handle it. But it’s always conflicting advice as the elder of the two is angry and hostile and wants me to stand up for myself. I’ve never learnt to deal with conflict. But after that The worst part for me is that I have dissociative amnesia as well.
I can remember the things that happened to me but without intricate details I have body memories and recurring dreams. Nights become so chaotic for me! I started to believe the trauma I went through was because I was not a person but a sexual object and started to take blame and never wanted to talk about it as it was shameful. My worst experience to date: I recently went to get lash extensions and the poor technician did not know how to handle the situation as she sat behind my head and I had my eyes closed I jumped every time her hands came near me as I sensed her presence coming towards me and it felt like I was being attacked even though I wasn’t, I couldn’t convince my mind of that.
I’m not ready to uncover the memories so for now this is my life.
I am appreciative for my DID as its protected me my whole life.
They don't necessarily have to hide. In order to change a small detail about reality, it can require you to see the whole world differently. They may still be 99% you and still be an alter.
Its in how you define them, know of them, too. Alters are made up of many different parts. Some more than others.
Dissociative amnesia is just one piece of it. Its the way that your brain interpreted CPTSD. There seems to always be some sort of separation. It is sometimes only emotional. Its like a feeling hidden underneath a feeling, right? I know it well.
ADHD is usually the first part that doesn't develop right. You have to expand your mind to get away. It never goes back.
But if situations don't change, that young, you continue to not form.
Then the ptsd...
...and the split.
We really want to believe our life can make sense for once. 😭
really appreciate seeing this. Been working through DID a while and appreciate seeing someone i can relate to. A lotta work, a lotta healing,
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A very important and helpful validating video. Thank you❤
Thanks for sharing this Sarah. Your insight is invaluable!
My therapist explained it this way to me...most adults are fully baked and decorated cake, ready to serve. With DID the ingredients of the cake, eggs.flour.oil.sugar...etc. don't get mixed together well enough to bake and decorate
Christina Warner I have DID and I would say that all my cakes inside and out are fully baked and decorated...there just are more than one!
This is a perfect description! Most people I meet had a fairly solid foundation or identity to begin to build an ego upon. My mind was busy using mental gymnastics to survive and cope. Always Running 🏃♀️ away from any sign of conflict ...building resentments and burning bridges. I had amazing strategies to obtain a taste of success but coping with any of it was impossible. I won’t stop the healing process though.
I thought cupcakes would have been a good description. Used the same ingredients but instead of making it into one large one, the batter was poured into several.
I found that comical.
More, please, on DID. THANK YOU!
For a second I was like “is it just me or is her head too big then I realized that wasn’t her body it was her scarf”
Same
Same. What does that say about our psychology?
This is the best informative video I have seen in a long time. I suffer from this. It is looked at and promoted as bad but my 6 arent really anything then my personal bouncers or caregivers per say....
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Something else that I've not heard broached in counseling is the entry of entities following severe head traumas.
Thank you for sharing this.
@@mihealthymind3497 I think it is way more common than is reported for obvious reasons: are you nuts?!
I feel like she is explaining my story, every word she says.
Thank u for this excellent presentation on a subject so poignant & hugely sensitive... it has helped me so much.
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I am so glad you ran this topic in this video because I have dissociative identity disorder and it is a struggle every day and I also have four other mental health disorders which are as follows borderline personality disorder bipolar to PTSD and generalized anxiety disorder all of that combined makes for a very challenging day today life and the one thing is usually right on top is sore suicidal thoughts and self harm prevention I have a whole list of coping skills that I use and one of those is going to sleep and just ignoring everything and trying to clear my mind of all of it because dealing with all of the emotions and the traumas is so hard and I was a foster child as well and I had multiple abuses through my whole life
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bless you Danielle. much encouragement, wisdom and healing to you. It'll happen.
Aren't they other types of DID? where a person stays there during trauma, and fractures, the injured goes to amnesia, and the person keeps going. Then it all stays the same till memories start to emerge, but hidden in that child age 'box'
Thank you for sharing the story. So important to empower others with DID.
there is an angry person inside but they won't let him out they don't want him to get in trouble
I have her too
I have a terrified 5 yr old little girl that I've heard in my mind for many many years...she came out once. The terrior of hers that I felt was overwhelming. I doubt she'll be brave enough to be seen again.
Get in trouble with who?
There is nothing to fear about being angry, but to some, the emotion literally feels like it will sweep us away. I think, finding a 'safe' person, a therapist who drugging gets it, is the key! Being safe with someone who we hand control over to in the presence of our anger, is freeing! It takes a while. It's kind of like lighting fireworks, and running, e pectin,G any second, to be blown to bits, but when we hear the popping, we realize how big our fear was and how small the popping in comparison.
I could not get thru this life without Jesus. Ask Him to show you He's real, and He's safe. Just ask.
yup, laying in the grass in the sun listning to birds where no one else is. is perfect
Yes PERFECT.
@Jamikorn Meeraket I completely agree. I/we have D.I.D. one of our inner world's is a forest. That's where we feel safe. Also we' ve had a traumatic event happen in a field. So it just wouldn't work for us.
tnat happend to me back in 2014 before i realized what has been going on. someone stepped forward. i could not see, or control anything, but i could hear muffled voice and sped up. :O And in marching band in 1990 i completely disapeared and someone else came.. i came back and i was completely in line. i didn't know what it was then. i have tried find a therapist. i saw a caseworker who said it is schizophrenia :/ :(
Thank you for your comment and for bravely sharing your experience.
Great video
I hope her non profit farm therapy center did come to fruition. Please update!
yes i couldn't find anything on google with her name. would love update too. precious lady
Thank you for this utube video I will look at pther ones you have for more informative information.
I was told by a Psychiatrist some years ago. I was so scared.i never went back. Since.ive been diagnosed with Complex PTSD. Certain events after.that.id.not.be able to find my.car, or.suddenly.be in a place, not know how I got there.or where I was. I must.ask my present psychiatrist.
Yes it does. And it goes mostly undiagnosed or misdiagnosed.
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We can't forget out past guys we are our past. It's what brought us up
Exactly Amen I have this yup this is so so true!
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I have no recollection of.anything as a child. I was a child during the "blitz" WAR time in England. Maybe it was emotional neglect,..My.mother afraid and occupied with fear, my Dad away fighting. I remember being left alone In.my.rolm, maybe she neglected me in her fear.
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I’m so sorry for all who have DID! I’m a victim of sexual assault but I never got DID.
This video is setting off my tryptophobia though! All the honeycombs and circles on the walls are giving me symptoms. But I’m interested in the content.
How do you know you do not have DID? I did not know it until after age 50. I also had some phobias. If you felt triggered by this, and it set off something that makes you feel anxious, like a phobia (But it doesn’t need to be a phobia), you might want to talk to a specialist. Do not under estimate the terror and psychological pain that sexual abuse causes in children.
Thank you for this video! Would you mind if we work on spanish subtitles? We're working on DID awareness in spanish population and there are very few resources!
Wonderful idea!
my pol sci professor and my narcissistic shrink said there was no such thing as this disorder.They are both idiots.
Who makes commercials for themselves, interrupting the content of their own videos? Seriously, you need to rethink this approach.
My home gets visits from 3 year Andy baby boy, 10 year old EDWARD(Eats/sleep) they sleep because less trauma, Alec17 Year old and AIDEN 34, 45 Sherrie Lynn, Andrew Recording artist . Also I suffered with Bulemia and Anerexia. Went from 350lbs to 120lbs Edward is now dealing with most tasks from xray and prodeures. Andrew has lilttle patience so Endward does it.
love to you, Andrew
Total respect for Sarah. And believability. I think this condition is on a spectrum of dissociation/compartmentalization from trauma, with the actual DID way out on that spectrum. Much support to Sarah's journey. The path back to health is integration and communication between those inner parts, which in severe cases, actually become like separate entities instead of just the typical compartments. Her redresses are so good ... she so gets it.
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For me and my situation, it took the Holy Spirit to reveal to me I was traumatized at 6 years old from SRA. Holy Spirit told me it started in the womb so it was a generational curse also a marine spirit. My mother would dream over and over all through her life her mother was being taken away by the ocean waves. Her mother died at 39 after bearing 9 children
I've been trying to figure out for a while if I have DID. I have some of the characteristics, but I don't remember any trauma (s). Is it possible that DID can be created through neglect?
Yes. I am living proof. Though neglect wasn't my only abuse. Neglect can make a child feel like they need to be the adult. That can lead to a split in identity.
You could have complex PTSD (CPTSD) or DID. Both can and are caused by neglect, among other things. But neglect is a big one.
Neglect can be very instrumental in trauma, at least it has been in my situation. The want and desire to feel loved and cared for and not having that can be very harmful to a developing individual. I currently have two alters who are young and seek love and admiration whenever they front.
I am deeply skeptical of psychiatrists. My mother has mental issues and always has had them. I think it was primarily depression with a bit more mixed in because she had two or three of what I would term mild psychotic episodes. She woke up in the middle of the night, pounded on my brother's door, and demanded to know "why he had killed her." (Yes, she phrased it in the past tense. My brother isn't violent. We fought as kids by shoving or scratching each other, but it didn't even rise to the level of wrestling. Despite having screaming matches, my brother never hit our mother nor verbally threatened violence.) On that night, our mother had something in her hand she was trying to club him with. My brother restrained her arms against her sides as he tried to talk to her. I was at the door of my room. She told me to call the police. Instead, I cracked a joke that distracted her. She later thanked me for "diffusing the situation."
My mother is well spoken and well educated and had her psychiatrist convinced that there was nothing wrong with her, but something very wrong with us (her children.) I went to the psychiatrist and told him the above story along with a few other stories. He was both deeply surprised and genuinely horrified.
Psychiatrists come to sweeping conclusions about their patients based on a very
incomplete picture of the person and their environment. Most psychiatrists do in office interviews with the patient only and without interviewing family and friends or witnessing home situations. A patient may lie but also a patient might be an unreliable narrator, lacking a clear perception of events, environment, and people because of whatever is wrong with them.
When I hear about how psychiatrists "discover" stories of abuse in the sterility of their offices talking to either a patient under hypnosis or a patient's alternate personality, I feel a wave of skepticism wash over me. If the patient doesn't remember it themselves, more evidence needs to be collected outside of your office before you draw a conclusion. Yes, the seemingly normal sounding person in front of you could have something really wrong with them as was true of my mother.
I don't mean to sound insensitive to "DID" suffers who have in fact been subject to abuse. I am just skeptical that every single case of "DID" is the result of abuse. The human mind is the most complex piece of machinery to have ever existed. Things can go wrong in funky ways while other parts of the brain are left untouched. Outside forces are not always responsible.
Allow me to explain the current theory of how DID forms:
Basically, when humans are born, they exist as several ego states, rather than one solid, unified personality. These ego states are responsible for making sure all of our needs are met. One is responsible for making sure we get fed, another is responsible for making sure we're clean, another is responsible for attachment, etc, etc, etc.
Usually between the ages of 5 and 9, these ego states connect and form one unified personality. However, sometimes when an individual goes through repeated childhood trauma, these ego states don't integrate. Or, more accurately, can't integrate. For example, one ego state may see a caregiver as a source of food, and another may see them as a source of danger. These two conflicting ideas within these two ego states cannot integrate. Amnesia walls are put up between them, and they develop into their own individual people, with their own names, wants, likes, dislikes, etc. Once this happens as a child, the brain learns to create these amnesia walls, and can do so again when the person is older, which can create completely new people. So you end up with multiple individual people all sharing a body, brain, and life.
Does this make it easier to understand how DID can only come about through childhood trauma? It's kind of like how you can't develop PTSD without trauma.
Okay, so if it’s not trauma that is the cause of a person developing DID, what would you suggest? Because I just cannot fathom what else besides overwhelming pain and fear would cause a human being to respond like this.
So? What would you say causes it, if not trauma and abuse?
Can a doctor recover from did ...? I watch a drama media corp on kin....he love his girlfriend yoke but he has did
How is he going to recover?
If she always has co-consciousness, wouldn't that mean she has OSDD?
Co-consciouness can occur after long long long years of therapy (which is my case) and I'm still not aware of all of them...(I'm aware of 14 of them)
Agreed, she states she doesn't lose time which is one of the symptoms of DID.
@@theecosmetaverse it's different for each person. One person I knew took a couple months after he found out. I myself, took years and we both hadn't even gone to therapy
Amnesia between parts can present in many different ways, for many systems, like myself, for most of the time, they only experience emotional amnesia. Which is when you get to keep factual memory, so although blurry, you can know what you did when somebody else was out, but you cannot remember how you felt, what you felt, or feel any emotional connection to that memory. It feels pretty much the same as if your friend told you a memory of theirs and you picture it and remember facts they tell you about it, but its blurry, not much detail and you of course cannot know or feel what they felt in that moment.
Another thing is yes you need amnesia for a DID diagnoses but that amnesia does not have to be between parts. You can have no amnesia in day to day life but have amnesia for large chunks of your past or certain trauma memories.
@@HazeSemper yes, thank you, emotional amnesia is huge. The traumatic memory without it feels like a movie, very easy to forget, you just dont feel attached to it, like it could have been a dream, or someone elses life.
Sarah has what now in the DSM-V is called OSDD because she doesn't have blank spells when alters take control of the body. It's partial DID.
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There is a group that considers themselves “Plural” without trauma.
While I don’t want to diminish anyone’s experience I find anyone who thinks that being plural is just is what they are and don’t need fixing should stay off of Dissociative Disorder
commenting on sites pages or videos that are here to educate about what is a mechanism to deal with trauma.
"Need fixing" isn't the term you're looking for their. We're not a car with a broken taillight.
Do you guys want to do a feature on something called Retroactive Jealousy?
This is a very informative and helpful video on DID. However I don't understand in what sense, why do males exhibit more violent behaviour. Unfortunately, people with this disorder are the victims, they are not dangerous. I know people in my life who have DID and they are the most loveliest and kindest people 🥰. I care about them deeply. Ones with DID are so strong. It's such a shame that this condition still gets stigmatised 😢. If you're experiencing these symptoms, please reach out to a mental health professional, your spouse, family and friends, people you can trust. It's nothing to be ashamed of them horrific events happening to you. It's not your fault. Them evil perpetrators should be ashamed, and executed. We all need to support and survive together ❤️. We are strong 💪. Sending support and love to you all ❤.
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To everyone who is going through this look up the word INTROJECT!
She says she doesn't lose time and has co-consciousness. I thought one of the criteria for the diagnosis is to have gaps in memory?
I've had DID since childhood and I've never had co-consciousness. I find that hard to believe that not losing time is a secondary form of DID. It is clearly stated that gaps in time and that the alters do not talk to each other and they do not argue in your head. You don't hear voices with DID. I cannot relate to this woman because I lose moments in time and my one alter (demon) has tried to kill me 15 times. I have injuries and have been in 6 point restraints from it. Then again....my abuse was from 4-29 and now that I live in seclusion for my own safety...I can't just talk about what I've been through and why. I consider this woman being interviewed...lucky. I do my best to manage everyday life but DID exists for reasons that many like me cannot talk about things openly due to safety reasons. There is more to DID than just this interview.
I don't know
It could be OSDD, which is basically DID but missing one of the DID criteria. Depending on the type of OSDD, this could mean that the different personalities don't identify as different people (for example, they're the same person but different ages. One is the 4 year old version of that person, another is the 10 year old version, another is the 17 year old version, etc etc etc), that there is no amnesia between alters (like this woman describes, which means they all have access to the same memories) and others that I honestly can't be bothered to look up right now. Either way, she still has multiple personalities.
She might ised to have lost time. I rarely do anymore because my parts ate together more.
@@ciceromeridius-decimus9641 yes you can hear your parts in your head. MOST DID people do. Especially when healing and parts no longer hiding or co operating. I experience this for decades. And so the people I know.
I've had DID since childhood and I've never had co-consciousness. I find that hard to believe that not losing time is a secondary form of DID. It is clearly stated that gaps in time and that the alters do not talk to each other and they do not argue in your head. You don't hear voices with DID. I cannot relate to this woman because I lose moments in time and my one alter (demon) has tried to kill me 15 times. I have injuries and have been in 6 point restraints from it. Then again....my abuse was from 4-29 and now that I live in seclusion for my own safety...I can't just talk about what I've been through and why. I consider this woman being interviewed...lucky. I do my best to manage everyday life but DID exists for reasons that many like me cannot talk about things openly due to safety reasons. There is more to DID than just this interview.
OSDD is a thing too.
Of course their is but back off on insulting this woman who may have been through more than you will ever know. Just because she isnt sharing all the nightmares she lived doesnt mean she didnt go throug it. I was way diffetent years ago. In desperate torment. Healing has changed me though I still have lots to heal. Be thankful the word is getting out.
@Hello very well described. Thank you!
Yes we do hear the voices if our akters in our head. Usually the first thing you arw afraid to telk your therapist. And the most important thing for them to know. Inside the head...not outside the head. Then you've got a whole new problem.
Cicero Meridius-Decimus the woman being interviewed is far from lucky. Atrocious choice of words.
She has good ideas to have all sorts of different types of therapy in the place she is hoping to have for people with DID. But may I ask who would pay for it all? Even if you have really good health insurance, it won't pay for different therapies. I know, I pay for a lot of my own therapies, although I don't have DID, but other psychiatric disorders.
I wonder if she is more osdd or partial did since she doesn’t lose time
Wow ♥️ so scary how the mind works ♥️
We are constantly amazed by the complexities of the human mind.
We are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Thanks for sharing, does a person with DID need medication?
DID cannot be treated with medication, however comorbid conditions like depression, anxiety, and PTSD can be managed with medications.
I' asked for help from my family, my cousins. We are how it goes.of course ain't gonna be able to tell my stories but I'm doing what I cuz I'm gonna die if I dont
I have 4 (well known) personalities 3 of which are perfectly fine, while 1 is by no means, a good person. This 1 personality doesn't want, or has never, hurt anyone else, rather "They" as I call this one, strives to hurt me. When They comes out, I almost instantly blank out, there is no amount of talking or help that helps, and the sole goal is to hurt either myself or themself. I don't know which of those options it is...but I know that in the end, I am the one who wakes up in the hospital or mental health facility. It has progressively gotten worse over the years with the last episode actually causing criminal charges to be added along with hospitalization. I feel like I am watching a staticky, flickering, black and white movie....but I only get to see tiny little clips or a few frames before everything goes dark and echoey again. I have spent decades withholding childhood tramua and issues that occured in my early/mid 20's, as well as those from my military experiences. I repress the personalities and have done so for a vast majority of my life. I hear thier voices, often angry because of this repression. I do talk to them at times, and when I get caught, I would say that I was talking to our doggies or just to my self. I lose time, but also have grown familiar with the feelings when one of these personalities is about to come out. I am mostly successful in blocking them...but when I can not do so, sometimes they allow me to see and hear, sometimes they do not. There are times when they only tell me what occured later, and times they don't say anything at all. There are even times that they tell me that I have done or said something which never actually happened. This mostly occurs when I lack the confidence I need to deal with daily stressors where I need the strength, or the image of strength in these cases, so that I might have a better handle on the situation if it occurs again in the future. I don't necessarily want all of them to go away, they have been with me in some form or fashion my whole life....but "They" has to go, and soon. I hate feeling so depressed and anxious all the time. I hate that echoing, difficult to understand voice, I hate being told to look at my wrists only to find I am holding a razor blade and have blood running down my hand! I fucking hate They!
God loves you Arial. Please come to Jesus. I'm not a religious nut, trust me, my arms are scarred from razorblades. God wants to heal you and he absolutely can. If I can be saved, anyone can. You are in my prayers 🙏💞
@@brielleanyez7113 Though I appreciate your response, I have my own religious beliefs and those beliefs do help me cope with some of the stresses of my problems. I need to find the right combination of long term therapy and the proper therapist at this point. Though I am in a partial hospitalization group and have been for well over a month now, and it does provide structure and some guidence, it is not sustainable for the long term care I need and it is not a specialized service to help me deal with my specific issues.
@@brielleanyez7113 love
@@ArialRobison-Firechilde praying for you Arial, it IS a challenge of working through, you're not crazy!! learning about my DID and then learning to appreciate what they've contributed for my survival has been really important. (instead of hating them all- and myself!) you were beautifully designed, the yuck (evil and trauma) gets to be exposed to the light, and we get to be free.
Call it DID or MPD, I just dont believe it but my husband did. My husband was in Vietnam in 1971-72, before Sybil.was published, and he said another soldier in his hooch had it. My husband said the guy hadn't been diagnosed, but the other guys in their group concurred that he had a " split personality "
Thank you for your comment. We are glad there is now more awareness about DID to help those in need.
Yo, you guys spelt "My" wrong.
I saw a video just before this where the woman was saying, it was not safe to trust her internal feelings. but the sub titles said " it is not safe to trust the internet" which is true, but wrong hahaha
The building or organization or whatever is in Michigan, the abbreviation for Michigan is MI. it's a play on words
“Spelled”
@@kelliez9991 hahaha
When was this made? It looks kind of old
Thank you for your comment. This episode was originally aired several years ago but its content remains relevant today.
Can multiple personalities have their own individual disorders
Yes, they can! It can be hard to diagnose, but when the personalities have good communication with each other and can each speak to a therapist/doctor/whoever individually, they can get their own diagnosis that doesn't apply to the rest of the personalities. For example, the UA-cam channel MultiplicityAndMe is about a woman named Jess with DID. One of her alters, Jake, has bipolar disorder, but none of the other alters have it. Another one of her alters, Ed, has anorexia, which none of her other alters have.
Although things like ADHD and autism tend to apply to all the personalities in one mind, but to varying degrees. So one alter might have severe ADHD and the other might have mild ADHD, but they both still have it.
Yes yes yes. Absolutely.
Yep. Absolutely.
As someone who personally has this, I personally do. One good way to help communication along is to write notes and post them in a place that you frequently visit and make it a habit. It is very interesting, for example that one alter could be allergic to pollen and another could be completely fine around pollen.
Yes. Alters can have alters.
God I'm so angry
I don’t understand that she wanted comfort or a cuddle to feel better. Last thing you want is to be touched or have someone come too close ...
Last thing YOU want. Everyone is different.
Because human beings are social animals, that’s why. All children crave the care, love, and yes, tender touch of caretakers. When your caretaker is also your abuser, you know you cannot expect that nurturing.
It’s heartbreaking. I don’t know I managed to nurture my own children as well as I did. I learned about attachment parenting, authoritative parenting (as opposed to authoritarian parenting, which allows abuse to thrive unknown). It is attributes like this that sometimes make me believe in a soul. I really don’t feel like I belonged to that [abusive] family of origin. I’m not like them, in my core.
Anyway, despite horrifying abuse, humans still crave being part of a group, and the touch of others. Human babies will die if they are never touched.
That was me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Ik that this is not really related to what the video was saying but I didn’t see her shirt so I thought to myself that she had a small body but one huge head
19:45 omggggg I hate thissssssss
I was learning how to spell my name, at the same time I was learning how to experience PTSD.
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@@mihealthymind3497 They do?
How can a person hide it? And if they can hide it why cant they let it go?;
A lot of times alters learn to “mask” as the host so that people (including the host/other alters) don’t notice what’s going on. But you cannot just simply “let go” of such serious trauma
I broke during a horrible violent time and just kept breaking and creating.
Their brain does it and places barriers so the person survives and can carry on. New name or not.
Doesn't Sarah have OSDD-1b?
It's possible as we're an OSDD-1b system though I know DID systems that have after years of hard work achieved co consciousness and memory sharing.
Russ Dizdar gets this. Website:
Shatterthedarkness.net
مين من قرية العجائب
Often violent? Tormented? Eeeek
Some good things in this video which somehow too much validates the terrible words such as aforementioned.
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@ thank you for replying. As you took the trouble, would you consider taking the trouble to cut out or writing a disclaimer for the sections that the presenters by themselves say as they are quite universally damaging to people who have D.I.D. There is too much stigma, misunderstanding and vilification of people who have been through such severe trauma! Especially as this video could be watched by newly diagnosed or family or friend of someone diagnosed.
She was talking about feeling like another person. This happens to me, but it’s always people that I know. Anybody else experience this?
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help
I'm not sure about this forcing memories, that's how it sounds?
Someone trying to force memories can cause a lot of damage
Personally i hate the word disorder. Actually it's the last D should stand for Defense thats more accurate on what starts this
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I think this may very well explain why SOME people believe they are gay or transgender.
Not all gay/trans people are abused!!!
This is the exact reason why I was afraid to tell people after I first found out I have D.I.D. I didn't want people to be the reason for people saying all LGBT people are mental because that's just not true.
Sounds like evil spirits playing as “helpful personalities” thus making the person seem or feel crazy… and that is not normal to me, not their fault but definitely not normal. Pray over these people.
*Sees an abuser*
loads shotgun as heavy metal intensifies
I wanted to watch this but the egregious editorializing of her ego in the beginning turned me off.
Max Watson I
Can someone fake this disorder
They could, but that could be exposed
YOu didn't write it, the child ddi. :)