I’m a nurse. For those of you saying don’t of drugs. A lot of times schizophrenics go to drug use to cope or escape the voices. I worked in mental health for years and I have such a soft spot for them. They are a population of people who are often judged and forgotten about. Stay strong sweetie. Know that you are so strong to even deal with that everyday.
Being homeless is HARD. Being a addict is HARD. I know what that feels like. But being homeless, being a addict AND having schizophrenia.. now that’s another type of hard that I don’t know about. I can’t begin to imagine his pain.
This looks like one of the hardest mental illnesses to deal with for the person who has it and for their loved ones. My heart goes out to everyone who is or knows someone how is struggling with schizophrenia
my brother is schizophrenic, its a 24/7 struggle, he doesnt do any drugs tho except cigarettes, he lives with us but very hard to get help from doctors as he is not a danger to people, if thats the case they would just institutionalize him and drug him up..crazy
I was an RN (before the vax mandate took my job away) and I had a 21 year old kid who was schizophrenic. It was the saddest case I ever had, and Ive had some really brutal ones. The security guards that had to sit inside his door so he didn't take off (again) were the real heroes. They would sit and talk with him for hours and keep him calm. Everything that could be harmful to him or himself was taken from the room and off the walls. He was a nice kid, but you couldn't have a coherent conversation with him. It was all over the place. I felt so bad, he was so young, healthy, fast as hell (he would tell you that), but just absolutely tormented. Brutal disease
@@imissdetroit I was told its actually that "genius" gene.. so ur either functional and become a genius or it takes over your brain and become schizophrenic.. it makes a little sense because I know 2 people before they got sick and were very very smart.
My Uncle had it. (now deceased). He was 'the most vulnerable' of 6 brothers with an abusive father. I'm thinking the this young man appears dulled out only because of too many meds (or maybe drugs). All the best young fella - I hope you find the help you need.
Say there is a god, and one specific one out of the thousands people have come up with, ie the one you are refering to because that's the one you grew up with. Then he is a f'd up sadistic son of a B isn't he? But hey, he helps football players win their match, and is an excuse for our government to not help him like every single other western country would. God bless him... What an evil, self serving piece of crap sentence that is!
@@peterd9427 A word of advice, if I were you I wouldn’t mess with my God. You speak so ignorantly, it is clear you don’t know Him, therefore you don’t know what He’s capable of doing or what He’s already done. If I choose to pray to bless him, it’s my right and none of your business. You are nobody to dictate how someone wishes well upon someone else. Stay in your lane.
@@sesedancer10111 actually schizophrenia is not just hearing voices. Maybe you should try that google out too. Most hear voices, but about 25% dont, and can suffer just extreme disorganization and trouble thinking or speaking coherently and holding conversation. My cousin is one of those 25%, sometimes see things, like shadows and stuff and is convinced they are demons trying to posses him, he rarely hears anything, according to him. He takes alot of medication to help suppress it all, but he still sees them. Says the meds do more to help his depression than the hallucinations. Im sure every case is unique.
He’s a really sweet soul. The saddest part about mental health issues is that it usually is most prominent with gentle and kind hearted vulnerable people.
@@tanyailoveny1176 Some people’s schizophrenic thoughts sound like abusive people that made a huge impact in their lives. Anyone can be made to feel worthless when you’ve been programmed to believe it. I hope he finds loving thoughts.
I am schizo too... From 2017 till 2020 I was seeing weird hallucinations... 2020 was the turning point when I went missing... I am taking medication now...
My best friend growing up started showing signs of schizophrenia at the age of 22. By 26 he was no longer a person that anyone knew. Still kills me to see him walk the streets of my city
It's a progressive disease. I've never seen someone acquire this condition reverse it. I have seen some on the right medication function, though, in a slowed down but more grounded state (antipsychotic medication).
Yea, I used to be a pretty careless guy. Didn’t care about fighting or cheating on women basically didn’t care about anyone. It was crazy. One day it just hit me that everyone was a baby at one point. Everyone had someone who cared for them as a baby just like me. Everyone has people who have fond memories as them as a small child. It just blew my mind and it’s crazy that the realization didn’t happen till I was in my mid twenties
Thank you, for this story. I , was diagnosed with Schizophrenia, 34 years ago at age 12. I want to emphasize to the public, that although we, schizophrenics, DO have obvious mental struggles....that almost always, we are well aware of our own struggles and aware of how the general public ....and even our OWN FAMILIES oftentimes view us, talk about us, and treat us. PLEASE, just always know.....that our hearts hurt just the same as healthy people. PLEASE understand we do not mean to be and did not choose to be so very different from healthy people. Please, be kind. We are HURTING.
@Maddy Berkley , Thank you for your comment. It genuinely warmed my heart to read it. And your comment could not have come at a more appreciated time. I really needed that. Thank You sooooo much.
Hello! Thank you for commenting and I hope you know there are people who understand and care about you and what you’re going through. My longtime girlfriend was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder about 2 years ago. It is hard some days but I love her. How has your diagnosis affected your life and changed over the years? Have you been able to get help and be happy? I’ve been struggling with the painful circumstances lately. I love my girlfriend and she is my best friend. She is lovely, kind, and has a heard of gold. Sometimes, though, I wish it could all go away and I get angry at the world. I’m not going anywhere-I’m her rock and she means the world to me. Do you have any advice on how to stay strong? Do you have anything which may put my mind at ease? I’m young-21 years old. My mom’s health is declining as well. I have big aspirations and beautiful goals, but I struggle to get out of bed some days. I have my own issues as well. I lost my sister at a young age. I’m working as a firefighter and trying to become an air tanker pilot despite having type 1 diabetes, which affects both of these things. Does it get easier? I find it hard to juggle my own trials while remaining a constant in the life of someone I love so dearly.
@@matthewl2980 , Thank you for your comments and questions. I have soooooo much to say on these topics that you have asked about, I don't know where to begin. Other than to say, that yes, and no. Meaning.....to be honest , it does not get easier. It does become more difficult in time to deal with. But just like any great struggle- struggles , produce change. So although it does not get easier, it DOES get better. The key? It's to attain a state of UNWAVERING , and unconditional love of your own life- regardless of how hard it gets.......and to ALWAYS be aware how fortunate we are to be living, breathing, beautififul human beings with the capacity to experience our experiences here....good or bad. Love your life and love living it. Even if it means accepting some pain and some losses while you're loving being alive. I will refer you directly to the lyrics of the song now, called Fully Alive, by. Flyleaf. The song says it ALLLLL. Listen with your heart, before your ears.
I hate hearing about comments like yours. I understand that we humans have this inherent desire to "know" or comprehend. So when someone sees that you have obvious differences they may ask why, whats up? However, after hearing the answer to those questions they should be satisfied and understanding. I know nothing of what someone lile you goes through daily. But, what i can tell you is that after going through a war i know the true ugliness that lies in our world. I will also tell you that no matter where you go there are good people still on this earth. Kind people. I appreciate the short bit of insight your comments have provided for someone, such as myself, who truly doesnt know, may not completely understand but i can promise you there are those out there who will not mistreat you because of it.
Also a consequcene of taking antipsychotics, chronic use makes thinking 10 times slower. May also be just a result of progressing negative symptoms. You can also notice him having a somewhat shocked expression before speaking; he is either scared by loud voice, or kicked by sudden approach of train of thought, because negative symptoms +/or antipsychotics turn those pauses between thoughts into brief catatonia + there's a side effect of neuroleptics called tradive dyskinesia
@@guiguijol It's different than voices, but the best way you can describe it to others who dont experience it themselves, is to describe it as "hearing voices"? Or would you descrive it some other way? Thanks. 🙂
@@krystynamotlasz7967 it’s nothing like anxiety or depression. Why did you even mention that. News flash Those are both feelings not disabilities or illnesses. Everyone gets sad and everyone gets anxious. People are fucking scary. Get over it and stop trying to label yourself
@DadiszFekete you know why we need it because these are the people society hides and are forgotten. Alot of times someone will see a person they can relate to from the individuals perspective and not feel so alone. Other times you can see someone that's like a person in your life and hear from their own words what got them to this point and how they feel, it helps you understand them better. If you don't want to see it just don't watch but some of us have chosen to not look away.
This is so heartbreaking. Seeing how he's trying to respond to the questions while there are voices in his head. I can't even imagine the struggles he goes through, every single day 😔
@@sunnydaze3131 the academic research im this area points to the idea that psychedelics may bring out schizophrenia earlier in someone who was eventually going to become schizophrenic anyway, but it wont happen if you werent ever gonna get it. thats schizophrenia not psychosis which can technically happen to anyone from a psychedelic drug but it's far from a common condition and it's almost never permanent
I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia. It's the hardest thing I've had to deal with in my life. The only reason I'm not homeless like Chris is because I have a good support team.
I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder so I feel you. I've feared being homeless for a while. My meds definitely help my condition. I really hope Chris can get his meds in order.
@DanOfTheWild You seem so angry man...It's better to interact with people from an empathic standpoint (unless you aren't capable). When you are humbled in life and mature, You will see the light. Your actions have a great effect on the world around you. I hope you find peace of mind soon.
@@wezz5777 it’s not makeup it’s his cheeks look carefully in the video he’s just more red on his cheeks so it looks darker or “dirtier” in black and white
It’s heartbreaking to see such a kind young man suffering like this. You can see how much he’s trying to maintain the conversation despite being tortured by the voices. No one deserves to live like this.
Man I know I wouldn't want to live like this I'm crying even saying this and I've done multiple years in prison recover and alcoholic five years sober and to recover at six years clean and I stayed up 33 days high on meth you can see him struggling so so bad😢😢😢😢😢😢 I wish I was rich I would just build thousands open rooms on a million acres and landed just give it all to him and have a doctor just go there for these guys can just live in peace
It is really a nightmare. I had sounds and voices they were trying to talk to me but in a high speed. I never understood what they were saying. I was around 6 was very scary for me and my mom too. The doctors thought i had schrizophenia. One of the child psychiatrists wanted to gave me some medication but my mom told her not to do. I had few crazy and scary years in my childhood. But I started to understand what’s going on and tried to think something else when the voices came back. Years went by and it turned out i had a sleeping disorders. Now im healthy and lucky the voices never came back. Im still scared of them to be honest. I never want to go through. Its the worst thing can happen with you to be trapped with your thoughts. Because nobody can understand you, hard to explain what you go trough. Its a very difficult, scary disease.
This was a hard watch for me.. those long pauses of his, he is hearing voices. My father had schizophrenia most of his adult life.. seeing this interview puts me right back in the mental institution where I was visiting him as a child. He was hearing voices from God and wouldn't even respond to me. I was 9 years old and was just begging him to acknowledge that I was there, but he couldn't. Schizophrenia is a horrible, horrible disease. It's completely unfair. Sincerely, the child of a schizophrenic.
My first love got diagnosed with schizophrenia and do look a like this guy. He ended up homeless as well, wandered the streets and stealing stuff to survive, and I live in a country where homelessness is not very often. When I see this guy it breaks my heart. My ex was such a gentle soul and this disease changed him, it’s like he lost all the feelings he had. He is now in a prison mental hospital but no support from his family and no hope. I still have nightmares 10 years after the break up, even though I have new life now. Think it will haunt me for the rest of my life I think this is the worst disease someone can have, it’s like you are alive but dead at the same time
@@Jepse89 it's not your fault that the relationship didn't work out. I can understand why you still feel haunted by it, but it truly isn't your fault. A bit of speculation, but if you've ever felt that you could help them or heal them, that isn't your role nor responsibility. I want to help my own dad, but it's not my role. The only person that can help him is himself. It's just so painful to see his despair, and his unwillingness to help himself. But I just have to realize that it is not my responsibility, and if I make it my responsibility, I'm only hurting myself. Sorry for making it about me for a second there, I just wanted to point out a connection
@@cometface yeah of course, I think the connection is really important in these situations, since we all feel so hopeless. You are 100% right, that’s exactly what my psychologist told me, it is his responsibility even though he is so ill, no one can do it for them. And I made things my responsibility and even his mom and him blamed me for leaving him which did not help at all with my blaming myself. The truth is I broke up before I even knew his diagnosis, I broke up because he did not care for the relationship and was doing drugs and hang out with some bums all the time. I was trying to help him later when he became homeless and was in and out of mental institution but of course with no success. But yeah the key is to know your responsibility and I totally blurred the lines between mine and his.
My son lost his battle to this horrific disease April 27 2020. I’m still lost. I always will be. I spend much of my time trying to understand. He did not openly tell us about the voices until the day he took his life. I wish I could go back in time. If you are a parent of a child you suspect of a mental illness please move heaven and earth to help them. I’m not ashamed of what my son had nor what he did. If it can help one child or adult I would shout it to the rooftops. Stay on top of your child’s mental health. Be involved in the counseling sessions when appropriate. And listen. My sweet Tyler was only 21. He was a gentle loving soul. Loved by so so many, and we never believed it could happen. It did. God bless all who are struggling with this cruel disease. My heart and prayers are with you.
Posts like yours are important for others to read, even in tragedy and loss. I don’t know what to say. Condolences will never be enough but sometimes it’s all we have. I thank you for being you and for your honesty and for sharing. God bless you and your family. Stay strong, love and support one another.
Hi internet mom, I wish you the best and I truly hope you stay strong during these difficult times. I know it's hard and I know you sometimes feel lonely being the only one to feel and understand your own pain but know that better days will come and that you have people around you that really do care. Enjoy and cherish your life and the life's of your loved ones. You are strong so keep going!
Truly and deeply sorry for your loss. I can't possibly imagine your sorrow; and the precious part of your life and heart that is missing until your last breath. I hope you're actively involved with grief counseling. May the Lord be with you. :(
It’s not even pain and sorrow. It’s confusion as to why he can’t get back to normal. There is no emotion and it’s hard to see someone stuck feeling like they can never be normal again.
Thank you for this. I grew up with a schizophrenic father and when he passed my aunt (his best friend) said to me, “your dad has been tortured for 30 years. He finally escaped.” This video meant a lot to me.
I work with people like this every day the difference is insurance pays for therapy and meds. This country is supposed to be the "greatest country" yet mental health is still not truly considered a disease. Don't get me started on how ins. denies or makes us jump through hoops to prove someone still "needs more help" it is despicable. Most of these people want help, but they have been denied so many times they give up!
My brother has schizophrenia, this is heartbreaking to watch ! Mark your a wonderful human being for helping all that you can and bringing awareness to us all ! Thank you so much for what you do !
i have schizophrenia and it is really crazy. hearing my name called, random classical music that isn’t there and huge spiders along with a lot more. it’s very scary to deal with everyday. it also personally makes me disassociate a lot which is especially scary. i feel like nothing is real.
@@brayastarkey9519 with your experience and just generally speaking what do you think triggers schizophrenia a lot of people on here cities drugs which I'm not dismissing that could be part of some people's beginning with schizophrenia but I also wonder if it's trauma or extreme stress? rather than just now we're down to drugs or hereditary illness.
@Eve R. that definitely could be. interesting way to put it. and it’s not like mine comes from a fear base because i’m not too bad with like normal house spiders ans i absolutely love big spiders like tarantulas. they’re just there. it’s very strange
@@jordyntaylor877 i definitely think it could be trauma. i think mine personally came from a little bit of trauma. i was diagnosed at 12 with severe depression and anxiety. ive attempted suicide multiple times. thank god i’ve never been psychically abused, or sexually assaulted or anything like that. i think what actually triggered mine the most was actually weed. ive never done any hard drugs because i know my mental space could not handle those drugs. i get THC psychosis when i smoke (and i don’t smoke AT ALL anymore bc of it) and that can trigger schizophrenia, just like probably any other drug. i honestly haven’t done a lot of research about hard drugs and schizophrenia but i know a little bit about schizophrenia and weed because that’s my experience. drugs can’t cause schizophrenia but it can trigger it. like you’re already predisposed to it. the last time i got high i had the absolute worst psychotic episode i’ve ever had. it started out by me laying in bed, watching tiktoks and having a high good time. but for some reason it started feeling like there was 100s of people in the room watching me and they started getting on top of me and crushing my chest. i texted my mom who was upstairs when i was living with my parents and told her what was going on and she was just like okay just go to sleep you’re freaking yourself out. when she left the “devil” came up to my bed and started actually talking to me. it was a man that had no face and wasn’t very tall. he kept telling me that he was real. the devil is real. to write down on a piece of paper that the devil is real. very strange because i don’t personally believe in the devil whatsoever. i got myself into the shower somehow and started freaking out even more. i thought that i had slit my throat and killed my self. i had no weapons that i could have done that with. i kept tasting blood pool in my mouth and i kept spitting the blood out. i obviously hadn’t done that. i couldn’t be alone because i thought i wasn’t going to make it through the night. that i was going to die that night and the devil would take me. i ended up going upstairs and sleeping on the couch since my room was in the basement. i kept seeing the devil peaking out from around the corner and just watching me. not saying anything at that point, just watching. i was in a very bad state like that for a few days after. i don’t experience things that intense on a daily basis thank god. i am very fortunate compared to a lot of people with schizophrenia
This is really tear jerking. I feel so sorry for this gentleman. I just cannot imagine how hard and difficult his life must be. This is a wake up call for someone like me who always thinks I have it hard. I'm humbled with compassion. Hope this young man gets the help he needs and lives a better life soon. 🙏🏻 God bless.
@@houtbay9 A blessing can be something that you overlook... like your health. A blessing could be someone in your life you overlook... like a good mom. A blessing could be an epiphany Just like Mike and SWU is a blessing to anyone he interviews and to the general public that grows from this... Being a contrarian will close your eyes to possibilities
@@ItsJADA So its up to me to decide what is a blessing and what not. If it's good its a blessing; fits bad it's a curse; if its neutral? But - what is bad for you may be good for me. Quite confusing.
My grandma's schizophrenia has been a challenge for our family, but this video reminded me that I'm not alone. It's heartwarming to see others share their stories and experiences, and it gives me hope that we can break the stigma surrounding mental health. Thank you for doing this.
@@duckman5849 did you even watch the video asshole? man clearly is batteling demons in his head be it the schizophrenia along with the drugs which he probably tried to hide the voices with the drugs along with whatever he has going on mentally. man needs support and help. not lifeless dirtbags on the internet like yourself with no compassion compassion human life
I don't have schizophrenia but my mind is always against me I'm always arguing with it inside my head that I often shake my head just to stop the intrusive thoughts
I can't even begin to imagine how exhausting it must be to have your own brain working against you 24 hours a day. I truly hope he was able to find help
When he asked what the most important thing he has learned in his life.. "respect". I wish we could all see the importance of that.. God Bless you young man.
when i heard him say that after the long silence and the screen went black i had to play it back about 4 times because that was so amazing to hear, that is so wisdom filled, humble man as well, that was the best question that got the best answer through the entire clip, much Respect Brother God Bless your soul Chris, "Respect"
He genuinely tried sooo hard to do this You can see he gave it everything he’s got. I have two sons. As a mom this hit me so hard. I thought how I’d feel if this was one of my boys, my heart sank. 24 years old…a baby. God help him.
Ikr. My son just turned 1 and for some reason I kept imagining him being like this. My heart would break! That's why every morning when I wake up, its instantly a good day for the simple fact that I can see, hear, think, walk, feel etc... like a normal human being and I wish nothing for the best for my son (and yours!)
My first bf is schizophrenic, he is blond with wonderful blue eyes, everyone was in love with him. He is now locked and on heavy medication, it’s such a devastating disease you wouldn’t believe
I've seen a lot of your interviews, and many times I've thought man this was the hardest one to watch. This one falls in that category for sure. Without your videos I never really would have had any sense of what folks who live the hard life experience. It's a real eye opener.
Not sure how you got “down to earth and genuine” from the dozen or so words he said in this 11 minute interview, rather he seems disconnected and stuck in a different world. Which I guess is the nature of the illness
Poor lad. you can really feel that pain. This is a great channel, I feel like people need to see these videos. On the flip side, its really nice seeing the interviewer offer help at the end. What a great use of UA-cam. Share this stuff and help it grow
This comment made me feel so accepted and more understood. Thank you for you comment and for you’re willing ness to get to understand all the different kind of people in this world.
I am not drug induced schizophrenia because I was lucky enough to have the right people around me to keep me away from them because they make this disorder so much worse and then everyone just treats them like a junkie when they were just born with a disorder and it went unprotected and untreated
you can tell as soon as he answers a question, he immediately goes back into his own world. I deal with pretty bad anxiety, and that’s hard enough as it is. I couldn’t imagine this.
Same, anxiety is hard. I have horrible anxiety as well, but on this level, it's unbelievable. Living through this must be hell on earth, wish him all the best.
@@RONPEE-STINGER I've heard this take many times before never been proven, however science says it's the other way around. I'll go with science on this buddy.
The way he sorta chuckled at the idea of having goals in his life broke my fucking heart. It's so hard to think about such things when you are in such a terrible place. I really hope Chris is okay.
He didn't chuckle, he said "Huh". He is crazy tired from smoking meth all the time, he is super burnt out, maybe malnourished, and just because someone called him schizophrenic and gave him some meds one time doesn't mean that some inherent condition is responsible for his fucked up state of mind. This guy should consider getting him someplace quiet and safe to sleep 8 hours a night for a month to see if he miraculously becomes able to carry a conversation before making him take zyprexa, an intensely psychoactive drug that messes with your emotions and has all sorts of weird side effects. Fun fact: zyprexa makes you extremely hungry and tired. If you take it, you will eat and sleep. He needs to sleep every night and eat three meals a day to regain functionality. If he got the kind of help he was offered, doctors probably forced him to take pills and noted gradual improvement, failing to question whether he needed the pills at all to accomplish this.
I just want to give a huuuge thank you to Mark for the daily uploads. I listen to these all day everyday while at work. I am a soon to be father to my first daughter and these videos are teaching me to be both a better, non-judgemental person in general and the best father i can possibly be to my child. These are incredibly insightful and there are lessons in every video that i can take to heart for the rest of my life and my daughter's when she comes of age. Thank you again Mark.
@@GateKeeper36 Yeah. I'm not a patient, but I study a variety of different drugs. There's also an elevated risk of early mortality with antipsychotic and anti-depressants. Honestly, I think neurology is gonna be the end psychiatry when we understand the brain since psychiatry is a soft science while neurology is concrete. By concrete I mean brain scans and stuff like that. Psychiatry is a soft science because it's all conjecture rather than concrete fact resulting in abysmal health outcomes frequent misdiagnoses and frequent overdrugging
@@GateKeeper36 That was not what I meant and you know that. I'm aware that finding the RIGHT meds that work for you are important - and the effects can be worse than the benefit - but to dismiss the medication for someone with a mental illness by saying they make him soulless is absurd and quite frankly dangerous. If he feels that way - he can tell his doctor and they can try another avenue to find what will help him the most.
You can see him struggling to differentiate between his audio hallucinations and Mark’s actual questions; hence why he keeps asking Mark! “What did you say?”
He could also be having visionary hallucinations as well, I feel bad he can't even have basic dialog, I've had a family member who is sczophrenic ,but much more coherent ,but has the same spaced out vibe and easy questions would be one worded answers with no additional comments or or questions, that's probably common for this type of schizophrenia, I have also overheard homeless people talk seems to be a lot of dialog with no substantial meaning ...or logic I'm assuming it's probably common to have different forms of communication per person...I'm going to watch more vids to see if there are high functioning communicative types with this mental illness ..
Not only that, but there is severe deficit in cognitive functioning in schizophrenic people. It's difficult for them to pay attention, remember instructions and structure their thought. This gets worse the longer the disease persists.
@@vsichkismeludi Noted well he was also diagnosed with add , so it must be really hard for him to focus with the street drugs I imagine it's 100 fold worse , to have all those mental illnesses and be a junkie is got to be tough , I'm not comparing but it's already quite a drain as normal individual with no voices or auditory hallucinations to make it through the day with the noise that is thrown at day to day people ,but when you ignore life distractions and negative or toxic people its quite easy ..I hope the best for him ..before perma damage sets in....
Not everyone with schizophrenia has hallucinations. People with schizophrenia that goes untreated lose lots of white brain matter and their brain processes things slower, hence why he talks slow and has trouble comprehending what he’s saying.
# one reason why the interviewer has SO MUCH patience with his interviewees, is because they are NOT his loved ones. I am not saying that he has no love for them. It’s just that if you have ever had to deal with a loved one with any sort of mental illness, you watch them self destruct. It becomes frustrating, upsetting and depressing. It becomes hard to watch your bother, sister, dad or mom go through that. All of those emotions combined, you lose hope and patience. So people like the person who is interviewing are very important. For showing positivity, compassion and patience. Because these people need it! #MentalHealthAwareness.
This couldn't be more true. My mom is an alcoholic she was just diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer's. I feel like I lose my patience with her so quick even though I have to tell myself that it's not her fault and she doesn't realize what's happening she can't control it. It's something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I literally watched my mom die a little more each day and when you add the alcohol addiction, it's taking her away even faster
I agree with this. I have incredible patience for strangers with mental illness but almost zero for my Mom. I'm not sure why this is. Mental illness is a whole family illness.
🥺🙁 my cousin has it now, we recently found out. Fighting everybody, all her siblings. & I mean really fighting like they was bitches on the street! That’s just the tip of it. It’s a lot. I hate this for them 😣
Thank you for saying this 🥺 my brother is schizophrenic and I’m a occasional care taker for him and for awhile I haven’t had a lot of patience for him or his illness and I beat my self up for it but it’s been 10 years watching his decline... all my other siblings moved away or had kids so haven’t had to deal with it the same as I have and it just really sucks sometimes. you’d think it would be easier by now buts it’s not.
Mark offering to direct Chris to available mental health resources for him is the sweetest thing. I am so glad there’s people like Mark giving their time to help Chris and others in his situation.
My heart hurts for this young man. I hope that he can find help. I hope he has people in his life that are fighting FOR him and not against him. Mark, thank you for these videos and for continuing to remind us that some of us aren't as lucky. We all need a reality check!
As a psych nurse it's very hard to see this poor kid so internally preoccupied during this interview. He needs to get into treatment and get clean and stabilized on an antipsychotic, Mark i hope you can help this kid.
@@ivanvalera3250 Because it cuts down the conversion from noradrenaline to adrenaline in the brain which then cuts down on the conversion to adrenochrome which is a hallucinogen. It's also good to add an antioxidant like vitamin C which further prevents the oxidation of adrenaline to adrenochrome
I immediately got the feeling that someone/something is talking to him. The voice is so loud he cannot stay focused on the questions being asked. His face...his face in the black and white still shot brought me to tears. I can see the man inside that is being attacked. It breaks my heart. I wanted to reach through my phone and hug him.
That's usually what happens, the auditory or visual hallucinations pull that person's attention away from what's happening around them or what's being said.
Its not always that . it looks more like thought blocking. Literally can't hold a thought or form a thought or speak. Its like Alzheimer's extreme. Very scary .
The sigh/laugh after the interviewer asked if he had goals...That was Chris.. you see the real him break out of the haze for a moment and it broke my heart.
He started moving a lot more, almost like he was excited to hear someone ask him about his future. It made me sad but also happy he still has some hope.
@@cremepuffle Not everyone can help every single broken person they see. And when you can't help, the least you can do is sympathize and wish them well and be actually grateful that you aren't in a position as ugly as them. Acknowledging how good you've got it when you see someone broken isn't a bad thing, it just means you have the decency to not whine when you know there can be worse things
My mom is schizophrenic, I'm proud of him for being able to respond to the questions. She no longer is able to even pretend to keep interest in any type of realistic conversations.
@@justmyopinion2 My son has schizophrenia. He was diagnosed in 2013. So far he’s just sort of prattling around the house (he lives with his dad, has never lived independently), smoking and not doing much of anything. I’m heartbroken for him.
my dad is schizophrenic. Wasn't till I graduated college did i realize he wasn't really a father figure. He just waited to be told what to do. We took an 8 hour road trip and he never talked unless i asked him a question.
Our brains are such complex wonderful things, yet when they work against us...I can't imagine how hard it must be for this kid. He deserves nothing but love and support. I hope things get better for him.
His flat affect is very prominent. With schizophrenics their thoughts are constantly disorganized and when watching this, it’s like u can tell he’s fighting his mind to keep his thoughts intact and flowing linearly when answering questions. I truly feel for him.
@@ruthgarza920 the majority of the episodes are tied with addiction no matter what the subject. I haven’t seen the video in weeks. Didn’t mean to upset you. Sorry.
I had a friend in this dudes situation. He stayed so drugged up it was hard to have any kind of conversation with him that made any kind of sense. But he did the best he could with what he had. He ended up commiting suicide. The note he left said that the voices in his head had finally won the battle and everyone shouldn't be mad at them because he finally could be free. Super sad how he went and how he had to live.
I’m a student in psychology and schizophrenia is THE worst mental disorder someone can have due to their disconnection with the real world. Schizophrenics show the wrong type of emotion for the situation (you can see how confused he is for a simple interview) and they have trouble communicating with people. Social exclusion is one of the worst things someone can experience, and most schizophrenics choose social isolation themselves since one seems to understand them and they just appear “annoying” My heart rlly goes out for him, he’s such a pretty boy❤
@Peanut hello Mr. Peanut, if u think I spread misinformation, instead of telling me to change my area of study, why won't you add more information to comment, since you clearly know more than me. 😊 I wasn't gonna talk about all the lectures I had about schizophrenia, but I just wrote I tiny summary of what the disease consists of
It messes up the semantics, our minds work by attaching things to feelings, or we remember things based on how much emotion it invoked. My memory is completely shot, I remember extremely little, although antipsychotics are a godsend for they clear my head a bit
Right? seeing him go in & out of his conversational thoughts; enough to block out the questions being asked. Jesus Christ. I pray for Chris. i feel that having schizophrenia is quite a blessing but its more of a "curse"
My brother was schizophrenic and a heroin addict, I was too young to realize what was going on with him for most of his struggles, later in his life he was clean but relapsed. He died alone in the middle of a forest from an overdose, I talked to him a week before he died, little did I know it was the most important phone call I ever had, we ended the call with “I love you”, something we never said. I hope this young man gets the help he deserves
My father is schizophrenic & my mother has severe depression. They had 5 kids together, all of which they couldn’t raise. Luckily, our grandmother raised us. I just found my mother a couple weeks ago, after a decade of not seeing or hearing from her. Thankfully, she’s alive. I see my father once every 1-2 years. I didn’t understand their illnesses when I was younger. I just thought they didn’t love my siblings & I. I hated our parents for leaving us, but now I understand. I now understand that they didn’t leave us on purpose. It breaks my heart that my father is now a meth user. I’ve worried so much about my parents since I was a little girl. My parents have been homeless for over 20 years. My parents are separated. I really don’t want my father to die alone in the woods. I just don’t know what to do. There’s no way of contacting my father because he rarely has a cellphone. The only way I ever see him is if he shows up every 1-2 years. I just wish I could help him. I know I can’t change him… I just hope it’s not too late. I’m very sorry for what you’ve gone through. I don’t mean to dump.
Was he using Heroin before he his Schizo? Reason I ask is my niece is a Heroin addict and I worry about her. She’s in & out of rehabs 30 yrs old. Works everyday at a hair salon
@@sylviajones7573 (sorry for my english) drugs can bring you schizoprenic and there is big chance if she have it her family. That is why I dont even smoke weed, cause we have it in family. But look on the internet for more accourate information.
Homeless, addict & schizophrenic that just takes it to a whole other level. My heart literally breaks for him 💔 I didn't realize this interview was 3yrs ago. I would love to know how he's doing today!?!
I've seen several comments about how he should just take his meds, and he'd be ok. Y'all make the assumption that he can afford the medication's. Also, that if he cannot afford them, that he's clear headed enough to seek help to obtain them. As someone who's lower middle class, and suffers from mental health issues, it's a life or death battle some days to make it to my appointments, and the difference between my internet which my kids depend on for school, or being able to afford my meds. And I'm blessed enough to have a supportive husband and family. I can't imagine being on the streets and having to fight the uphill battle to obtain the help I needed alone, while fighting against the voices telling me not to. Don't be so quick to judge....
Also, alot of times these meds have bad side effects. Imagine having to take a medication for life that causes you to have uncontrollable hand tremors or drool randomly. That would test anyone's med compliance. Sure, there are meds for the side effects like Benztropine but they also have their own side effects. This is a rotten cycle. I can't imagine having feelings of paranoia, auditory or visual hallucinations mixed with anxiety/depression all day everyday. God bless and keep those who suffer like this. It makes you appreciate
I would consider myself upper middle class and still can hardly afford my meds. The medication my doctor recommended was $300. What person can reasonably afford that? It’s crazy.
@@amyk.2500 When I was twenty I was a freshly divorced, single mom, in college, my doctor prescribed me several medications for my mental health and chronic migraines. The grand monthly total? $1,800! That's insane for anyone much less a broke, single mom who's in college! I was blessed that I got into a lotto for financial help, and got chosen (it was completely random), otherwise there's no way I'd have been able to afford even one of them. The us has such a broken medical system. I don't know what the answer is, but socialized medicine looks really tempting from where I'm sitting.
My favorite uncle was schizophrenic and I admired him so much. He was a genius and had such a sweet nature but people would treat him like he was stupid because he had a mental illness. It's the same way they treat me as I am schizo-affective. It is really hard when you are intelligent and people talk to you as though you are a child or incapable of understanding simple things. My heart goes out to this young man and I wish I could give him a hug. Voices are scary. I take zyprexa too but it makes me tired all the time and i feel like a zombie. It is a struggle just to stay awake. and every time you have a psychotic break its like you loose another piece of yourself until eventually you arent you at all. It is a horrible disease.
if your taking Zyprexa and your tired lower the dose my son on 5 mg only with ativan and he is doing well talk to your doctor about the side effect even low dose of ablify will give you enegry hope it works out for you take care god bless.
It is something that is possible to recover from, I have a very similar story with myself and my uncle, he’s incredible, a very talented artist (scholarship into big London uni). I’m on quetiapine which is brilliant but I think I’m building tolerance to it. I have no advice other than the advice my uncle gave me when he could see I was self absorbed; focus on other people, it’s not sustainable all the time but it’s incredible, so liberating, although I know the guilt is horrible. I also got a dog who’s the best
It’s dopamine that causes the hallucinations, so antipsychotics cut dopamine off, which makes you very depressed and clears your head. For me, I can empathise with alcoholics for the regret and reality is very difficult to face, nigh on impossible
He has such sweetness and desperation in his eyes! He's such a handsome young man too that I wish so badly for him that he could get the mental help he needs. He is absolutely tormented by his mind, that much is evident! I just ached for him when watching this. May God bless him, watch over him, and heal him!!!!!
@@kadepookie9387 I never mentioned anything about his parents being properly equipped to take care of him so I don’t even understand your reply he needs health benefits and treatment somebody with schizophrenia needs help but nowhere in my comment that I mention his parents
I am so very sorry for that tragic loss!!! Being impotent to fix your child is the worst hell on earth!!! Huge hugs! My son is ill too, but he is alive and taking his meds today. Today. Today. He could relapse any day.
@@lynnen264 sorry for your loss Lynne, but have your comfort in the fact he is now free of the torment he was going through, him being alive was happiness for you but his existence was hell for him. My grandma committed suicide due to be in so much pain and I forgive her. One day we will all be together with our loved ones and may God bless their soul and forgive.
Lynne I’m so sincerely sorry for your loss. My 37 year old nephew also has this horrible illness and I’ve seen all the terrible things that these poor souls go through.
I believe the fact he was able to sit for 11 mins straight to talk to Mark is an absolute miracle, let alone stand for a photo, given his condition. I simply don't understand how some people can even start to judge his 'stealing', if you don't have any experience with this illness or empathy in general, better not comment, it makes you look wiser!
I find it hard to believe that somebody with limited cognitive functioning such as your self can actually type out a comment on UA-cam. An absolute miracle!
He's a normal person. Just because somebody has a mental illness doesn't mean you should say they are incompetent and can't have a conversation with somebody.
@@bryceo5637 I didn't say he's stupid, far from me , but the way this illness works, and you may want to read the other comments here, is that the people with this illness won't be able to keep focus on the activity they do or want to do.
My best friend was diagnosed a few years ago and never got the help she needed. A judge in NC let her go against a doctors opinion that she was in psychosis and needed to stay in the hospital longer. Now she is gone forever because she took her own life on May 10th. It’s past time to start acknowledging that mental health is JUST AS SERIOUS AND IMPORTANT as anything else! Rest In Peace Gabrielle Stevenson ❤️
You can see that he's having a hard time in this video hearing the interviewer over other stuff that he's hearing in his head. It's so sad that schizophrenia doesn't have the awareness platform that other things do like anxiety and depression, epilepsy, autism... these people are so stigmatized and demonized and if society would do a better job educating itself we could do a lot to help these types of people.
@lrn_news9171 my fiance is schizophrenic. People think they know what it is but it's horrible what people assume about people that have it. It's honestly disgusting how little it is talked about and how often people assume that just because someone is schizophrenic that they basically deserve to be treated inhumanely. I see it all the time. The father of my child is schizophrenic and would not ever harm anyone. But when people find out he has it, they stay far away as if it's contagious or something and a lot of people have very little concern or care for those found shoeless on the side of the road talking to someone who isn't there. There is not enough funding to raise awareness for it unlike breast cancer or autism. It's unfair that they recieve so little representation.
Chris is on 6th and San Pedro in skid row. Beauty2thestreets found him while giving away icecream. She informed him that his family is looking for him and if he’d like to see them as well, he said yea. She went back to give him her business card and told him to stay put so we can help reunite them. She also told him to call her if he decides to relocate. All this was on he live on her instagram. 6th and SAN PEDRO!!!
My sister was just diagnosed with it after having 2 psychosis breakdowns. She's doing much better now after being on meds and the yearly shot but her anxiety is really bad she can't even work because she can only focus on one thing at a time. It's sad to see and realize she will probably never fully be herself again or work ever again.
@@samskyrider88 first I just wanna say I’m sorry about your sister getting this horrible diagnosis. I promise it’s not the end and me personally I can give you this advice… get doctor to apply her or get the ball rolling for her to get ssi or ssdi. If she’s worked for long periods of time she could potentially get a good amount of money each month. I myself am on ssi (for another diagnosis) if she’s on a good medication regimen i promise she can be her normal self again and could potentially work again. My cousin has paranoid schizophrenia and he’s doing great he’s started his own company for a moving business. Im trying to get a part time job cause what I get isn’t enough to live off of if I ever decided to move out.
I would love a follow up, too. I’m wondering about his parents. Do they know where he is? Do they even know he has a serious mental illness or do they think he ran away due to drug use or what? My son has schizophrenia and if I ever lost him to the streets I know I would be devastated beyond repair!
You can feel his exhaustion. I felt the headache he had just trying to drown out the voices. May he get the help he needs. Nobody should live feeling trapped within themselves
@@tijan8948 I have schizophrenia and have only heard voices in mental institutions, some people don't hear them at all, that's not the difficult part of the illness the difficult part is what you can see clearly in the video, cognitive dysfunction.
Wow your not to bright are ya? This guy did every hard-core drug in the book and fried his brain. The only battle he’s fighting now is trying to use what Little Undamaged brain he has left.
@@tijan8948 right!!! Wow This guy did every hard-core drug in the book and fried his brain. The only battle he’s fighting now is trying to use what Little Undamaged brain he has left
We met a schizophrenic dude a couple of weeks ago. Thought he had been stood up as he was crying into his drink alone in the pub so invited him over. He was just like this dude when talking and you could tell he was just so lost and distracted by his own thoughts. So sad and wish there was better help out there
You're a good dude for doing what you did, respect. I use to sell crack, something i deeply regret and think about everyday. One day i meet this kid named Flex, 20 years old, homeless, a crack addict and suffering from schizophrenia. Use to buy him breakfast. Kid had the sadest life story i ever heard.
@@reeset3435 don’t be too harsh on yourself, we’re all flawed dude. I honestly advice trying Sam Harris podcasts and meditation. Especially his stuff on lack of free will. I used to do a lot of drugs also and meditation / learning about the brain has defo helped over the years. Good luck on your path and you’re heading the right way.
@@yourpersonaldatadealer2239 appreciate it brother. I went from selling half keys and grabbing 50 plates of tree down here in fl at a young age, to getting hooked on percs, then roxies when florida was really the pill mill of the nation, and then when they started pressing fake roxys in the street with fentanyl i lost everything i had. Home, 4 cars, more importantly my family. 7 days ago i overdosed on fentanyl and today im 6 days clean. Ive been at the top and the bottom of the game and im only 26, this goes out to God for giving me another chance. Ran up a band yesterday, getting back to my old self. I use to think God wasnt real, but when your around death you tend to find God in the darkness. Thanks for the kind words brother, much love and respect to you.
Not sure if you mean invited him over to your table or home, but Never ever give a Schizo your address, or show them where you live, although you did a really nice thing, one day they could believe you are trying to setup,kill or God knows what and things can end very badly, I say this because a good friend of mine was killed by her schizo cousin, from what her mother told me was ,because he thought she was trying to turn him into aliens that were after him. And he broke into her apartment and beat her to death in her sleep.
I went to high school with a boy who had schizophrenia and unfortunately he committed suicide before we made it to graduation. I cannot imagine what they endure in their own head everyday 😢
One of my oldest and closest friends just committed suicide nearly 6 months ago. She suffered from schizophrenia. Going through her books she'd start frantically writing down what was being told to her by her own brain and it absolutely broke my heart.
@@shyghost4695 it's usually because the bad outweighs the good when it comes to self reflection and your brain usually takes bad comments and spin everything around that. so for people with schizophrenia, that self criticism is much louder and bolder.
Somebody give this man a hug. He needs all the love that people have to give. He has my love and my understanding. Bless you Chris, please stay strong and carry on.
I’ve come across a lot of content on UA-cam for better or worse, and this to me is the single most important and provocative channel on the platform. Thank you for what you do my friend, it helps break the stigma of a lot of these conditions.I hope this reaches the world to a degree that it makes an impact
He's just like my brother. Poor kid didn't even talk about the other voices in his head, that's why it's hard for him to take in information. He feels like he's having several conversations at once. I hope he gets help.
I’m a nurse. For those of you saying don’t of drugs. A lot of times schizophrenics go to drug use to cope or escape the voices. I worked in mental health for years and I have such a soft spot for them. They are a population of people who are often judged and forgotten about. Stay strong sweetie. Know that you are so strong to even deal with that everyday.
Bless you. 🌺💕
Thank you for being a kind compassionate nurse. We need more like you. ❤
Same here,I'm a nurse of 17 years and I love psychiatric nursing. It's also personal to me because my youngest brother has this diagnosis.
I love this message ♥️👏🏽
Psychedelics can induce schizophrenia in people who are more prone to it
Being homeless is HARD. Being a addict is HARD. I know what that feels like. But being homeless, being a addict AND having schizophrenia.. now that’s another type of hard that I don’t know about. I can’t begin to imagine his pain.
he's not addicf bruh , her have shizoprenia. please read on google what meaning of shizoprenia (mental illness)
@@btchsssgirlaaa7540 he mentioned that he does crystal meth
@@peterrusso8050 okey palatao
It’s his white privilege
@@Mster_J this is a joke right?
He looks like a war is going on in his head. Hope he gets the help he needs.
Either you know or you understand. That's what it is.
@@lostcause2195 actually sir, I do
4 Xanax a day will certainly help
@@rrai- I honestly think he means stupid comment by @muscleman8562.
@@brucegwynn8509 for a month, then they don't.
Benzos are great for crisis intervention, until long term meds have time to take hold.
This looks like one of the hardest mental illnesses to deal with for the person who has it and for their loved ones. My heart goes out to everyone who is or knows someone how is struggling with schizophrenia
my brother is schizophrenic, its a 24/7 struggle, he doesnt do any drugs tho except cigarettes, he lives with us but very hard to get help from doctors as he is not a danger to people, if thats the case they would just institutionalize him and drug him up..crazy
I was an RN (before the vax mandate took my job away) and I had a 21 year old kid who was schizophrenic. It was the saddest case I ever had, and Ive had some really brutal ones. The security guards that had to sit inside his door so he didn't take off (again) were the real heroes. They would sit and talk with him for hours and keep him calm. Everything that could be harmful to him or himself was taken from the room and off the walls. He was a nice kid, but you couldn't have a coherent conversation with him. It was all over the place. I felt so bad, he was so young, healthy, fast as hell (he would tell you that), but just absolutely tormented. Brutal disease
It's basically like having 5 different mental illnesses in one
@@imissdetroit I was told its actually that "genius" gene.. so ur either functional and become a genius or it takes over your brain and become schizophrenic.. it makes a little sense because I know 2 people before they got sick and were very very smart.
My Uncle had it. (now deceased). He was 'the most vulnerable' of 6 brothers with an abusive father. I'm thinking the this young man appears dulled out only because of too many meds (or maybe drugs). All the best young fella - I hope you find the help you need.
He’s fighting so hard. He seems so exhausted and in need of rest. God bless him. :(
God says NO!
@@lntrlp4936 stay in your lane.
It appears your god didn't "bless him."
Say there is a god, and one specific one out of the thousands people have come up with, ie the one you are refering to because that's the one you grew up with. Then he is a f'd up sadistic son of a B isn't he? But hey, he helps football players win their match, and is an excuse for our government to not help him like every single other western country would. God bless him... What an evil, self serving piece of crap sentence that is!
@@peterd9427 A word of advice, if I were you I wouldn’t mess with my God. You speak so ignorantly, it is clear you don’t know Him, therefore you don’t know what He’s capable of doing or what He’s already done.
If I choose to pray to bless him, it’s my right and none of your business. You are nobody to dictate how someone wishes well upon someone else. Stay in your lane.
What’s going through that poor baby’s head when he’s just sitting there.. absolutely broke my heart. I truly wish the best for him.
Maybe hearing voices
Nice hair
@@sesedancer10111 actually schizophrenia is not just hearing voices. Maybe you should try that google out too. Most hear voices, but about 25% dont, and can suffer just extreme disorganization and trouble thinking or speaking coherently and holding conversation. My cousin is one of those 25%, sometimes see things, like shadows and stuff and is convinced they are demons trying to posses him, he rarely hears anything, according to him. He takes alot of medication to help suppress it all, but he still sees them. Says the meds do more to help his depression than the hallucinations. Im sure every case is unique.
You’re beautiful oh my days
@@Seekingtruth-mx3ur thank you for this comment. People are such assholes for no reason
He’s a really sweet soul. The saddest part about mental health issues is that it usually is most prominent with gentle and kind hearted vulnerable people.
Till the voices tell him otherwise.
@@tanyailoveny1176 Some people’s schizophrenic thoughts sound like abusive people that made a huge impact in their lives. Anyone can be made to feel worthless when you’ve been programmed to believe it. I hope he finds loving thoughts.
I am schizo too... From 2017 till 2020 I was seeing weird hallucinations... 2020 was the turning point when I went missing... I am taking medication now...
@@tanyailoveny1176 Exactly, Son of Sam comes to mind.
@@Peakfreud yep, and he even didn't have any known mental issues , just was taking most common drug of that era .
My best friend growing up started showing signs of schizophrenia at the age of 22. By 26 he was no longer a person that anyone knew. Still kills me to see him walk the streets of my city
It's a progressive disease. I've never seen someone acquire this condition reverse it. I have seen some on the right medication function, though, in a slowed down but more grounded state (antipsychotic medication).
I can relate. He doesn't even recognize me. And he just killed his mom last week smh
@@damienholland8103 Look into niacin treatment of schizophrenia by Abram Hoffer
My best childhood friend ended up commiting suicide after never having been diagnosed, but i was certain he was in the beginning stages.
@@Frankoshackoh wow my brother had an episode this weekend where he got violent with my mom she called the cops on him
This is somebody's son and as a father this absolutely breaks my heart.
I like your comment.
My daughters father has schizophrenia 😔 it is heartbreaking to watch
terry a davis.
Yea, I used to be a pretty careless guy. Didn’t care about fighting or cheating on women basically didn’t care about anyone. It was crazy. One day it just hit me that everyone was a baby at one point. Everyone had someone who cared for them as a baby just like me. Everyone has people who have fond memories as them as a small child. It just blew my mind and it’s crazy that the realization didn’t happen till I was in my mid twenties
@@TrillShatner my man, may he rest easy.
Thank you, for this story. I , was diagnosed with Schizophrenia, 34 years ago at age 12. I want to emphasize to the public, that although we, schizophrenics, DO have obvious mental struggles....that almost always, we are well aware of our own struggles and aware of how the general public ....and even our OWN FAMILIES oftentimes view us, talk about us, and treat us. PLEASE, just always know.....that our hearts hurt just the same as healthy people. PLEASE understand we do not mean to be and did not choose to be so very different from healthy people. Please, be kind. We are HURTING.
@Maddy Berkley , Thank you for your comment. It genuinely warmed my heart to read it. And your comment could not have come at a more appreciated time. I really needed that. Thank You sooooo much.
Hello! Thank you for commenting and I hope you know there are people who understand and care about you and what you’re going through. My longtime girlfriend was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder about 2 years ago. It is hard some days but I love her. How has your diagnosis affected your life and changed over the years? Have you been able to get help and be happy? I’ve been struggling with the painful circumstances lately. I love my girlfriend and she is my best friend. She is lovely, kind, and has a heard of gold. Sometimes, though, I wish it could all go away and I get angry at the world. I’m not going anywhere-I’m her rock and she means the world to me. Do you have any advice on how to stay strong? Do you have anything which may put my mind at ease? I’m young-21 years old. My mom’s health is declining as well. I have big aspirations and beautiful goals, but I struggle to get out of bed some days. I have my own issues as well. I lost my sister at a young age. I’m working as a firefighter and trying to become an air tanker pilot despite having type 1 diabetes, which affects both of these things. Does it get easier? I find it hard to juggle my own trials while remaining a constant in the life of someone I love so dearly.
@@matthewl2980 , Thank you for your comments and questions. I have soooooo much to say on these topics that you have asked about, I don't know where to begin. Other than to say, that yes, and no. Meaning.....to be honest , it does not get easier. It does become more difficult in time to deal with. But just like any great struggle- struggles , produce change. So although it does not get easier, it DOES get better. The key? It's to attain a state of UNWAVERING , and unconditional love of your own life- regardless of how hard it gets.......and to ALWAYS be aware how fortunate we are to be living, breathing, beautififul human beings with the capacity to experience our experiences here....good or bad. Love your life and love living it. Even if it means accepting some pain and some losses while you're loving being alive. I will refer you directly to the lyrics of the song now, called Fully Alive, by. Flyleaf. The song says it ALLLLL. Listen with your heart, before your ears.
Ugh I wish I could hug you. Xoxo
I hate hearing about comments like yours. I understand that we humans have this inherent desire to "know" or comprehend. So when someone sees that you have obvious differences they may ask why, whats up? However, after hearing the answer to those questions they should be satisfied and understanding. I know nothing of what someone lile you goes through daily. But, what i can tell you is that after going through a war i know the true ugliness that lies in our world. I will also tell you that no matter where you go there are good people still on this earth. Kind people. I appreciate the short bit of insight your comments have provided for someone, such as myself, who truly doesnt know, may not completely understand but i can promise you there are those out there who will not mistreat you because of it.
He looks exhausted. It’s almost like he’s waiting for the voices to finish and then he answers your question.
They do. If you watch anyone struggle with this illness they pause before answering
Also a consequcene of taking antipsychotics, chronic use makes thinking 10 times slower. May also be just a result of progressing negative symptoms. You can also notice him having a somewhat shocked expression before speaking; he is either scared by loud voice, or kicked by sudden approach of train of thought, because negative symptoms +/or antipsychotics turn those pauses between thoughts into brief catatonia + there's a side effect of neuroleptics called tradive dyskinesia
"Voices" never shut up.
And it's different than voices, it's something else which is impossible to describe.
@@guiguijol It's different than voices, but the best way you can describe it to others who dont experience it themselves, is to describe it as "hearing voices"? Or would you descrive it some other way? Thanks. 🙂
@@krystynamotlasz7967 it’s nothing like anxiety or depression. Why did you even mention that. News flash Those are both feelings not disabilities or illnesses. Everyone gets sad and everyone gets anxious. People are fucking scary. Get over it and stop trying to label yourself
Don't ever stop filming. Society needs this.
Why? This channel is more like a freakshow.
@DadiszFekete you know why we need it because these are the people society hides and are forgotten. Alot of times someone will see a person they can relate to from the individuals perspective and not feel so alone. Other times you can see someone that's like a person in your life and hear from their own words what got them to this point and how they feel, it helps you understand them better. If you don't want to see it just don't watch but some of us have chosen to not look away.
@@DadiszFeketeThis channel is real life.
This is so heartbreaking. Seeing how he's trying to respond to the questions while there are voices in his head. I can't even imagine the struggles he goes through, every single day 😔
I was thinking the same thing.. you can tell it’s confusing him with the questions and voices, so sad.
Yes, it is very noticeable. Do you think the hallucinigenics caused the schizophrenia?
How tragic. Such a good looking, well-groomed guy. Did the schizophrenia come before or after the bath salts, LSD, Salvia, etc.?
@@sunnydaze3131 the academic research im this area points to the idea that psychedelics may bring out schizophrenia earlier in someone who was eventually going to become schizophrenic anyway, but it wont happen if you werent ever gonna get it. thats schizophrenia not psychosis which can technically happen to anyone from a psychedelic drug but it's far from a common condition and it's almost never permanent
THose "voices" are not his Schizophrenia, it's from drugs.
I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia. It's the hardest thing I've had to deal with in my life. The only reason I'm not homeless like Chris is because I have a good support team.
Thank you for sharing. I'm praying for you! God does love you!
That's awesome. I'm sorry it so tough, but you are strong 💪.
I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder so I feel you. I've feared being homeless for a while. My meds definitely help my condition. I really hope Chris can get his meds in order.
@DanOfTheWild You seem so angry man...It's better to interact with people from an empathic standpoint (unless you aren't capable). When you are humbled in life and mature, You will see the light. Your actions have a great effect on the world around you. I hope you find peace of mind soon.
God bless you. Prayers for peace and healing on this journey
In the portrait Mark took of him, he captured the struggle, illness, and sadness in his eyes 🥺
He also used makeup on his cheeks to make him look dirty. Wonder why that was necessary
@@wezz5777 - really? Where in the video did you see that
@@tired_of_u_ppl7985 the picture in the thumbnail
@@wezz5777 it’s not makeup it’s his cheeks look carefully in the video he’s just more red on his cheeks so it looks darker or “dirtier” in black and white
🥺😭😔
It’s heartbreaking to see such a kind young man suffering like this. You can see how much he’s trying to maintain the conversation despite being tortured by the voices. No one deserves to live like this.
Man I know I wouldn't want to live like this I'm crying even saying this and I've done multiple years in prison recover and alcoholic five years sober and to recover at six years clean and I stayed up 33 days high on meth you can see him struggling so so bad😢😢😢😢😢😢 I wish I was rich I would just build thousands open rooms on a million acres and landed just give it all to him and have a doctor just go there for these guys can just live in peace
@@MTB_FANATIC99well one you for getting yourself sober!! You should be proud of yourself xx
The horror of being trapped in your own mind. I hope he gets the help he deserves.
As someone who went through suicidal thoughts and thinking about doing it being trapped in the thoughts scared me so I can only imagine how he feels
We are all trapped in our own minds. Think about it.
And yes, it is horrific.
It is really a nightmare. I had sounds and voices they were trying to talk to me but in a high speed. I never understood what they were saying. I was around 6 was very scary for me and my mom too. The doctors thought i had schrizophenia. One of the child psychiatrists wanted to gave me some medication but my mom told her not to do. I had few crazy and scary years in my childhood. But I started to understand what’s going on and tried to think something else when the voices came back. Years went by and it turned out i had a sleeping disorders. Now im healthy and lucky the voices never came back. Im still scared of them to be honest. I never want to go through. Its the worst thing can happen with you to be trapped with your thoughts. Because nobody can understand you, hard to explain what you go trough. Its a very difficult, scary disease.
Aren't we all?
“The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation”
Henry David Thoreau
His photo is heartbreaking. You can literally see the pain in his face. Bless him.
That picture really is painful to look at.. I hope he is doing better.
Thankfully mental health is beginning to be taken more seriously..
@@SMITHapk Not serious enough.
He’s a junkie lol what bless? Is he a doctor or a paramedic?
@@mk11fan87 i’m a junkie too i agree
i just do weed tho
This was a hard watch for me.. those long pauses of his, he is hearing voices. My father had schizophrenia most of his adult life.. seeing this interview puts me right back in the mental institution where I was visiting him as a child. He was hearing voices from God and wouldn't even respond to me. I was 9 years old and was just begging him to acknowledge that I was there, but he couldn't. Schizophrenia is a horrible, horrible disease. It's completely unfair. Sincerely, the child of a schizophrenic.
My first love got diagnosed with schizophrenia and do look a like this guy. He ended up homeless as well, wandered the streets and stealing stuff to survive, and I live in a country where homelessness is not very often.
When I see this guy it breaks my heart.
My ex was such a gentle soul and this disease changed him, it’s like he lost all the feelings he had.
He is now in a prison mental hospital but no support from his family and no hope.
I still have nightmares 10 years after the break up, even though I have new life now.
Think it will haunt me for the rest of my life
I think this is the worst disease someone can have, it’s like you are alive but dead at the same time
Im sorry you had to go through that. Xx
Nolar
@@Jepse89 it's not your fault that the relationship didn't work out. I can understand why you still feel haunted by it, but it truly isn't your fault. A bit of speculation, but if you've ever felt that you could help them or heal them, that isn't your role nor responsibility. I want to help my own dad, but it's not my role. The only person that can help him is himself. It's just so painful to see his despair, and his unwillingness to help himself. But I just have to realize that it is not my responsibility, and if I make it my responsibility, I'm only hurting myself. Sorry for making it about me for a second there, I just wanted to point out a connection
@@cometface yeah of course, I think the connection is really important in these situations, since we all feel so hopeless. You are 100% right, that’s exactly what my psychologist told me, it is his responsibility even though he is so ill, no one can do it for them.
And I made things my responsibility and even his mom and him blamed me for leaving him which did not help at all with my blaming myself.
The truth is I broke up before I even knew his diagnosis, I broke up because he did not care for the relationship and was doing drugs and hang out with some bums all the time.
I was trying to help him later when he became homeless and was in and out of mental institution but of course with no success.
But yeah the key is to know your responsibility and I totally blurred the lines between mine and his.
My son lost his battle to this horrific disease April 27 2020. I’m still lost. I always will be. I spend much of my time trying to understand. He did not openly tell us about the voices until the day he took his life. I wish I could go back in time. If you are a parent of a child you suspect of a mental illness please move heaven and earth to help them. I’m not ashamed of what my son had nor what he did. If it can help one child or adult I would shout it to the rooftops. Stay on top of your child’s mental health. Be involved in the counseling sessions when appropriate. And listen. My sweet Tyler was only 21. He was a gentle loving soul. Loved by so so many, and we never believed it could happen. It did. God bless all who are struggling with this cruel disease. My heart and prayers are with you.
Posts like yours are important for others to read, even in tragedy and loss. I don’t know what to say. Condolences will never be enough but sometimes it’s all we have. I thank you for being you and for your honesty and for sharing. God bless you and your family. Stay strong, love and support one another.
you will be able to get thru this, tho i cannot imagine your pain. sending love your way
Hi internet mom, I wish you the best and I truly hope you stay strong during these difficult times. I know it's hard and I know you sometimes feel lonely being the only one to feel and understand your own pain but know that better days will come and that you have people around you that really do care. Enjoy and cherish your life and the life's of your loved ones. You are strong so keep going!
"Stay on top of your child's mental health" I really manifest it to all parents around the world
Truly and deeply sorry for your loss. I can't possibly imagine your sorrow; and the precious part of your life and heart that is missing until your last breath. I hope you're actively involved with grief counseling. May the Lord be with you. :(
Just goes to show you don’t know what inner struggles people are dealing with. Be nice to one another.
Yes best comment hands down
Definitely
Amen!
@@ghostsof6tharmy644 I do think it’s possible to kind to everyone, until they give you a reason not to be. That’s the key.
Your right
He’s so handsome and his face so expressive. Perfect photography, Mark. My heart hurts for him.
@@ghostsof6tharmy644 RUN!
@@ghostsof6tharmy644 holy shit it does look like chris watts lol wtf?
Y’all it’s my husband 🙄😂
Very good looking guy! But this video breaks my heart
This one was brutal to watch and such a heartbreaker. I hope he’s gotten the help he needs.
Truly breaks my heart. Anyone sees Chris out there. Have patience for him and give him a lending hand. So sad
Me too
The black and white photo posted is powerful. You can literally feel is pain and sorrow through the photo. He looks so lost, its heartbreaking.
It’s not even pain and sorrow. It’s confusion as to why he can’t get back to normal. There is no emotion and it’s hard to see someone stuck feeling like they can never be normal again.
one of the scariest, loneliest battles to fight is when your own mind declares war on you and you have no defense. Poor guy, wish I could help
Thank you for this. I grew up with a schizophrenic father and when he passed my aunt (his best friend) said to me, “your dad has been tortured for 30 years. He finally escaped.” This video meant a lot to me.
That’s the worst thing some relative could’ve said
The way he chuckled when he was asked about his goals as if he couldn’t even imagine himself in a better position broke me
@@uptownpotatoes Spread your legs then.
"Goals" seem like such a high-society concept when you're barely surviving one day to the next.
Ur assuming that you don’t know if that’s what he was thinking
I work with people like this every day the difference is insurance pays for therapy and meds. This country is supposed to be the "greatest country" yet mental health is still not truly considered a disease. Don't get me started on how ins. denies or makes us jump through hoops to prove someone still "needs more help" it is despicable. Most of these people want help, but they have been denied so many times they give up!
Bud did u change no
My brother has schizophrenia, this is heartbreaking to watch ! Mark your a wonderful human being for helping all that you can and bringing awareness to us all ! Thank you so much for what you do !
Imagine hearing voices constantly, not your conscious thoughts out loud but actual other voices. We all should really appreciate what little we got.
i have schizophrenia and it is really crazy. hearing my name called, random classical music that isn’t there and huge spiders along with a lot more. it’s very scary to deal with everyday. it also personally makes me disassociate a lot which is especially scary. i feel like nothing is real.
@Eve R. same
@@brayastarkey9519 with your experience and just generally speaking what do you think triggers schizophrenia a lot of people on here cities drugs which I'm not dismissing that could be part of some people's beginning with schizophrenia but I also wonder if it's trauma or extreme stress? rather than just now we're down to drugs or hereditary illness.
@Eve R. that definitely could be. interesting way to put it. and it’s not like mine comes from a fear base because i’m not too bad with like normal house spiders ans i absolutely love big spiders like tarantulas. they’re just there. it’s very strange
@@jordyntaylor877 i definitely think it could be trauma. i think mine personally came from a little bit of trauma. i was diagnosed at 12 with severe depression and anxiety. ive attempted suicide multiple times. thank god i’ve never been psychically abused, or sexually assaulted or anything like that. i think what actually triggered mine the most was actually weed. ive never done any hard drugs because i know my mental space could not handle those drugs. i get THC psychosis when i smoke (and i don’t smoke AT ALL anymore bc of it) and that can trigger schizophrenia, just like probably any other drug. i honestly haven’t done a lot of research about hard drugs and schizophrenia but i know a little bit about schizophrenia and weed because that’s my experience. drugs can’t cause schizophrenia but it can trigger it. like you’re already predisposed to it. the last time i got high i had the absolute worst psychotic episode i’ve ever had. it started out by me laying in bed, watching tiktoks and having a high good time. but for some reason it started feeling like there was 100s of people in the room watching me and they started getting on top of me and crushing my chest. i texted my mom who was upstairs when i was living with my parents and told her what was going on and she was just like okay just go to sleep you’re freaking yourself out. when she left the “devil” came up to my bed and started actually talking to me. it was a man that had no face and wasn’t very tall. he kept telling me that he was real. the devil is real. to write down on a piece of paper that the devil is real. very strange because i don’t personally believe in the devil whatsoever. i got myself into the shower somehow and started freaking out even more. i thought that i had slit my throat and killed my self. i had no weapons that i could have done that with. i kept tasting blood pool in my mouth and i kept spitting the blood out. i obviously hadn’t done that. i couldn’t be alone because i thought i wasn’t going to make it through the night. that i was going to die that night and the devil would take me. i ended up going upstairs and sleeping on the couch since my room was in the basement. i kept seeing the devil peaking out from around the corner and just watching me. not saying anything at that point, just watching. i was in a very bad state like that for a few days after. i don’t experience things that intense on a daily basis thank god. i am very fortunate compared to a lot of people with schizophrenia
This is really tear jerking. I feel so sorry for this gentleman. I just cannot imagine how hard and difficult his life must be. This is a wake up call for someone like me who always thinks I have it hard. I'm humbled with compassion. Hope this young man gets the help he needs and lives a better life soon. 🙏🏻 God bless.
God bless?? A bit late for that, right
@@houtbay9 it's never too late for a blessing and we should never be ungrateful for any type
@@Nobo35 What is a blessing? It sounds like a nice name for a magic potion.
@@houtbay9 A blessing can be something that you overlook... like your health. A blessing could be someone in your life you overlook... like a good mom. A blessing could be an epiphany
Just like Mike and SWU is a blessing to anyone he interviews and to the general public that grows from this...
Being a contrarian will close your eyes to possibilities
@@ItsJADA So its up to me to decide what is a blessing and what not. If it's good its a blessing; fits bad it's a curse; if its neutral? But - what is bad for you may be good for me. Quite confusing.
He’s so handsome and yet he looks filled with sadness it breaks my heart.
So true
@eastcoasterdeniro lmaoo
My heart breaks for the kid.
The sadness and loneliness in his eyes is utterly heartbreaking. God love him
That huff he made when he was asked if he has any goals broke my damn heart. He probably has never been asked that.
Same. So sad.
My grandma's schizophrenia has been a challenge for our family, but this video reminded me that I'm not alone. It's heartwarming to see others share their stories and experiences, and it gives me hope that we can break the stigma surrounding mental health. Thank you for doing this.
He's so tired,and in pain,absolutely heartbreaking.
He is truly fighting a battle that most of us can’t even comprehend. Chris u have my respect and so much bro. Sending love ur way fs.
spiritual ware fare
Why do you have respect for a druggie ?
@@duckman5849 talking like that gonna get you bad karma. maybe dont test your luck and have children.
@@duckman5849 did you even watch the video asshole? man clearly is batteling demons in his head be it the schizophrenia along with the drugs which he probably tried to hide the voices with the drugs along with whatever he has going on mentally. man needs support and help. not lifeless dirtbags on the internet like yourself with no compassion compassion human life
So who’s to blame for the drug use then…him, the mental illness, the health care system, his family…..
A friend of mine who has this in a moment of lucidity said to me, “You know, it really sucks when your own mind is against you.”
My friend has said the same to me before in moments of clarity
Gzus that is heavy :(
Most peoples minds are against them, but the healthy person can reverse that and guys like this maybe cannot
That is a deep, powerful statement. I will benefit from hearing that. Thank you so much.
I don't have schizophrenia but my mind is always against me I'm always arguing with it inside my head that I often shake my head just to stop the intrusive thoughts
I can't even begin to imagine how exhausting it must be to have your own brain working against you 24 hours a day. I truly hope he was able to find help
Good way to look at it
You are so right...Truly struggling..just saw the latest interview, and it's alarming. Feel so bad..💙🌎
I think all of our brains work against us and it’s up to us to manage them, which is made way way harder with schizophrenia.
When he asked what the most important thing he has learned in his life.. "respect". I wish we could all see the importance of that.. God Bless you young man.
when i heard him say that after the long silence and the screen went black i had to play it back about 4 times because that was so amazing to hear, that is so wisdom filled, humble man as well, that was the best question that got the best answer through the entire clip, much Respect Brother God Bless your soul Chris, "Respect"
He genuinely tried sooo hard to do this You can see he gave it everything he’s got. I have two sons. As a mom this hit me so hard. I thought how I’d feel if this was one of my boys, my heart sank. 24 years old…a baby. God help him.
Ikr. My son just turned 1 and for some reason I kept imagining him being like this. My heart would break! That's why every morning when I wake up, its instantly a good day for the simple fact that I can see, hear, think, walk, feel etc... like a normal human being and I wish nothing for the best for my son (and yours!)
@Thomsa Jaja right? Doesn’t need “gods help” he needs peoples help.
Yes I have 2 teens 13 and 15 and I'm stone cold scared to DEATH!!!! this can't be it
Same I’m a mom of 2 this ripped my heart out
It's a figure of speech
In tears right now, Worried for him. Such a nice looking young man, Didn’t see him smile not once...Please help him
My first bf is schizophrenic, he is blond with wonderful blue eyes, everyone was in love with him.
He is now locked and on heavy medication, it’s such a devastating disease you wouldn’t believe
@@Jepse89 prayers for him .
@@Med_school2151 thank you christelle
There's so much beauty on this channel. And it's all heartbreaking.
@@Jepse89 same! First bf, beautiful and so sensitive. Looks a Lot like this man. I was young and extremely self-centered and took it personally.
I've seen a lot of your interviews, and many times I've thought man this was the hardest one to watch. This one falls in that category for sure. Without your videos I never really would have had any sense of what folks who live the hard life experience. It's a real eye opener.
I feel much the same way.
Guy seems like there are 47 voices talking to him and he’s trying his best to focus on yours.
You were sayin?
Thats exactly what is happening and he is trying to weed out the other voices to hear his but its taking him a moment.
I got the feeling he was looking for just the one voice.
Yeah man it's sad.. you can clearly see he is struggling. Wish there was something they could do to help people with this illness
wish my gf would understand, aside from my bad hearing and just everything
When he said “respect” I almost teared up. I’m hoping this guy gets help, he seems really down to earth and genuine
Not sure how you got “down to earth and genuine” from the dozen or so words he said in this 11 minute interview, rather he seems disconnected and stuck in a different world. Which I guess is the nature of the illness
Same here, such a good guy. Hope he get better soon
Dude I had even read the comments but wasn’t ready for his answer. Great video
Did you "Almost tear up"?
Crazy.
Wouldn't want to cry now, and admit it would you? That would be weakness wouldn't it?
Pfft.
@@nexxusty ohhh why don't u just let people express their emotions without judging them :lll wtf man
I started crying watching this. Uncontrollably. Never have I ever felt so bad for someone like this. Wow. A true war of chaos going on in his head.
Weak hearted pussy!!
@@bakerog2850 🤣 do you need a hug?
First time one of these videos make me want to cry
@@bakerog2850 come on dude no need to be mean
@@bakerog2850 You’re a 13 year old edgelord.
Poor lad. you can really feel that pain. This is a great channel, I feel like people need to see these videos. On the flip side, its really nice seeing the interviewer offer help at the end. What a great use of UA-cam. Share this stuff and help it grow
He looks like he's resetting every Few minutes like a computer.. that can't be easy... Be thankful for what you have.
This comment made me feel so accepted and more understood. Thank you for you comment and for you’re willing ness to get to understand all the different kind of people in this world.
I am not drug induced schizophrenia because I was lucky enough to have the right people around me to keep me away from them because they make this disorder so much worse and then everyone just treats them like a junkie when they were just born with a disorder and it went unprotected and untreated
You can see that he's hallucinating, that's why he cannot hear the questions 🥺
He doesnt even hear what he says till after the fact
That’s so true. The brain is very much like a computer and that’s almost exactly what’s happening.
"What's been the lowest point of your life?"
"I would say now."
Damn man, best of luck to this guy
you can tell as soon as he answers a question, he immediately goes back into his own world. I deal with pretty bad anxiety, and that’s hard enough as it is. I couldn’t imagine this.
I could imagine that he also has anxiety imagine having loud voices shouting at you id be so paranoid
Same, anxiety is hard. I have horrible anxiety as well, but on this level, it's unbelievable. Living through this must be hell on earth, wish him all the best.
Its all self induced mental illness
@@RONPEE-STINGER I've heard this take many times before never been proven, however science says it's the other way around. I'll go with science on this buddy.
@@RONPEE-STINGER He's self inducing visual and auditory hallucinations and delusions?
Man... this is heartbreaking. I wonder how he is doing now. I hope he's ok..
Hes on meth so I'm sure hes doing just fine lol
I deal with anxiety. I thought I had it bad. This broke my heart.
Absolutely heartbreaking😢 I pray he's somewhere safe and better❤
The way he sorta chuckled at the idea of having goals in his life broke my fucking heart. It's so hard to think about such things when you are in such a terrible place. I really hope Chris is okay.
but he can still say "yeah", to me that's the most powerful part of the interview, easily
I think the chuckle was directed at someone else
Bro... Schizophrenic people chuckle at random times... Don't translate that laughter as you would to a normal person...
shit made me tear up
He didn't chuckle, he said "Huh". He is crazy tired from smoking meth all the time, he is super burnt out, maybe malnourished, and just because someone called him schizophrenic and gave him some meds one time doesn't mean that some inherent condition is responsible for his fucked up state of mind. This guy should consider getting him someplace quiet and safe to sleep 8 hours a night for a month to see if he miraculously becomes able to carry a conversation before making him take zyprexa, an intensely psychoactive drug that messes with your emotions and has all sorts of weird side effects.
Fun fact: zyprexa makes you extremely hungry and tired. If you take it, you will eat and sleep. He needs to sleep every night and eat three meals a day to regain functionality. If he got the kind of help he was offered, doctors probably forced him to take pills and noted gradual improvement, failing to question whether he needed the pills at all to accomplish this.
I just want to give a huuuge thank you to Mark for the daily uploads. I listen to these all day everyday while at work. I am a soon to be father to my first daughter and these videos are teaching me to be both a better, non-judgemental person in general and the best father i can possibly be to my child. These are incredibly insightful and there are lessons in every video that i can take to heart for the rest of my life and my daughter's when she comes of age. Thank you again Mark.
When he said "maybe there's hope for me" my heart broke. This is so sad....I hope that someone can help him get his meds and get his life on track.
The meds make it worse. I don't know if he's aggressive or not but they want him not aggressive
@@GateKeeper36 Yeah. I'm not a patient, but I study a variety of different drugs. There's also an elevated risk of early mortality with antipsychotic and anti-depressants. Honestly, I think neurology is gonna be the end psychiatry when we understand the brain since psychiatry is a soft science while neurology is concrete. By concrete I mean brain scans and stuff like that.
Psychiatry is a soft science because it's all conjecture rather than concrete fact resulting in abysmal health outcomes frequent misdiagnoses and frequent overdrugging
@@luke-zi6gs yup, the only answer is to turn them into soulless people so they are not a danger out on the streets.
@@GateKeeper36 That was not what I meant and you know that. I'm aware that finding the RIGHT meds that work for you are important - and the effects can be worse than the benefit - but to dismiss the medication for someone with a mental illness by saying they make him soulless is absurd and quite frankly dangerous. If he feels that way - he can tell his doctor and they can try another avenue to find what will help him the most.
@@SandiByrd Facts 💪❤️
You can see him struggling to differentiate between his audio hallucinations and Mark’s actual questions; hence why he keeps asking Mark! “What did you say?”
He could also be having visionary hallucinations as well, I feel bad he can't even have basic dialog, I've had a family member who is sczophrenic ,but much more coherent ,but has the same spaced out vibe and easy questions would be one worded answers with no additional comments or or questions, that's probably common for this type of schizophrenia, I have also overheard homeless people talk seems to be a lot of dialog with no substantial meaning ...or logic I'm assuming it's probably common to have different forms of communication per person...I'm going to watch more vids to see if there are high functioning communicative types with this mental illness ..
Not only that, but there is severe deficit in cognitive functioning in schizophrenic people. It's difficult for them to pay attention, remember instructions and structure their thought. This gets worse the longer the disease persists.
@@vsichkismeludi Noted well he was also diagnosed with add , so it must be really hard for him to focus with the street drugs I imagine it's 100 fold worse , to have all those mental illnesses and be a junkie is got to be tough , I'm not comparing but it's already quite a drain as normal individual with no voices or auditory hallucinations to make it through the day with the noise that is thrown at day to day people ,but when you ignore life distractions and negative or toxic people its quite easy ..I hope the best for him ..before perma damage sets in....
Not everyone with schizophrenia has hallucinations. People with schizophrenia that goes untreated lose lots of white brain matter and their brain processes things slower, hence why he talks slow and has trouble comprehending what he’s saying.
He’s probably high as kite
# one reason why the interviewer has SO MUCH patience with his interviewees, is because they are NOT his loved ones. I am not saying that he has no love for them. It’s just that if you have ever had to deal with a loved one with any sort of mental illness, you watch them self destruct. It becomes frustrating, upsetting and depressing. It becomes hard to watch your bother, sister, dad or mom go through that. All of those emotions combined, you lose hope and patience. So people like the person who is interviewing are very important. For showing positivity, compassion and patience. Because these people need it! #MentalHealthAwareness.
Absolutely I’m glad you mentioned this.
This couldn't be more true. My mom is an alcoholic she was just diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer's. I feel like I lose my patience with her so quick even though I have to tell myself that it's not her fault and she doesn't realize what's happening she can't control it. It's something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I literally watched my mom die a little more each day and when you add the alcohol addiction, it's taking her away even faster
I agree with this. I have incredible patience for strangers with mental illness but almost zero for my Mom. I'm not sure why this is. Mental illness is a whole family illness.
🥺🙁 my cousin has it now, we recently found out. Fighting everybody, all her siblings. & I mean really fighting like they was bitches on the street! That’s just the tip of it. It’s a lot. I hate this for them 😣
Thank you for saying this 🥺 my brother is schizophrenic and I’m a occasional care taker for him and for awhile I haven’t had a lot of patience for him or his illness and I beat my self up for it but it’s been 10 years watching his decline... all my other siblings moved away or had kids so haven’t had to deal with it the same as I have and it just really sucks sometimes. you’d think it would be easier by now buts it’s not.
Mark offering to direct Chris to available mental health resources for him is the sweetest thing. I am so glad there’s people like Mark giving their time to help Chris and others in his situation.
One of the saddest stories yet. Just makes me think of what a hard life he has.
Yeahhhhhh but mark really only wants to "help" the hookers so he can take advantage of the situation and have a lil fun!
Man, this poor kid. You can tell he’s distracted by auditory hallucinations. Praying for him.
My heart hurts for this young man. I hope that he can find help. I hope he has people in his life that are fighting FOR him and not against him. Mark, thank you for these videos and for continuing to remind us that some of us aren't as lucky. We all need a reality check!
As a psych nurse it's very hard to see this poor kid so internally preoccupied during this interview. He needs to get into treatment and get clean and stabilized on an antipsychotic, Mark i hope you can help this kid.
What he should try is Niacin. Much higher success rate for schizophrenia than antipsychotic drugs. With the supervision of a doctor of course
@@kae2678 how come niacin is a blood stimulant / metabolism booster
@@ivanvalera3250 Because it cuts down the conversion from noradrenaline to adrenaline in the brain which then cuts down on the conversion to adrenochrome which is a hallucinogen.
It's also good to add an antioxidant like vitamin C which further prevents the oxidation of adrenaline to adrenochrome
Antipsychotics are evil
@@efefef3927 What?? I think you might need an antipsychotic.
I immediately got the feeling that someone/something is talking to him. The voice is so loud he cannot stay focused on the questions being asked. His face...his face in the black and white still shot brought me to tears. I can see the man inside that is being attacked. It breaks my heart. I wanted to reach through my phone and hug him.
wow yeaaa i didnt think of that !!
That's usually what happens, the auditory or visual hallucinations pull that person's attention away from what's happening around them or what's being said.
Same here. He looks like he’s in pain in the black and white photo. So sad
Its not always that . it looks more like thought blocking. Literally can't hold a thought or form a thought or speak. Its like Alzheimer's extreme. Very scary .
Yeah it’s more likely the constant loss of thought that makes it really difficult for him to process the question and think of an answer.
The sigh/laugh after the interviewer asked if he had goals...That was Chris.. you see the real him break out of the haze for a moment and it broke my heart.
That moment broke my heart as well
All of it is Chris
At 8:05.
@@Heidi.M thanks
He started moving a lot more, almost like he was excited to hear someone ask him about his future. It made me sad but also happy he still has some hope.
His expression on his face in his photo is absolutely heartbreaking!!! I hope with all my heart he finds happiness somewhere, somehow.
Be grateful for what you got folks.
I'm grateful for the parents I have. I also have schizophrenia and would be homeless like Chris if it wasn't for them.
literally what i was thinking when watching this...
I hate when mfs say this. How about help these people not be grateful you arent them.
@@cremepuffle Not everyone can help every single broken person they see. And when you can't help, the least you can do is sympathize and wish them well and be actually grateful that you aren't in a position as ugly as them. Acknowledging how good you've got it when you see someone broken isn't a bad thing, it just means you have the decency to not whine when you know there can be worse things
@@cremepuffle You can't help everyone.
It’s so crazy because it looks like he is actively coming in and out of a dissociative state.
My mom is schizophrenic, I'm proud of him for being able to respond to the questions. She no longer is able to even pretend to keep interest in any type of realistic conversations.
My son either, he can't. He just chats up a storm about the life his brain randomly creates for him, none of realistic. I feel for you.
Oh how heartbreaking!!
@@justmyopinion2 My son has schizophrenia. He was diagnosed in 2013. So far he’s just sort of prattling around the house (he lives with his dad, has never lived independently), smoking and not doing much of anything. I’m heartbroken for him.
my dad is schizophrenic. Wasn't till I graduated college did i realize he wasn't really a father figure. He just waited to be told what to do. We took an 8 hour road trip and he never talked unless i asked him a question.
My mom too :(
Our brains are such complex wonderful things, yet when they work against us...I can't imagine how hard it must be for this kid. He deserves nothing but love and support. I hope things get better for him.
You must want to get out of that
@@cmz85what
@@rkymtnchi503 in order to recover (get clean) you first need to want to recover. He must first WANT to get better. Capish?
@cmz85 yes, thank you. It makes sense when you add context instead of throwing a vague comment out there.
His flat affect is very prominent. With schizophrenics their thoughts are constantly disorganized and when watching this, it’s like u can tell he’s fighting his mind to keep his thoughts intact and flowing linearly when answering questions. I truly feel for him.
Do you think he on drugs during this interview or is this how terrifying schizophrenia is.. ?
@@Jv_Dharma he seems to be hallucinating to me.
@@Jv_Dharma why assume it's drugs all the time??
@@ruthgarza920 the majority of the episodes are tied with addiction no matter what the subject. I haven’t seen the video in weeks. Didn’t mean to upset you. Sorry.
TBH i think its the medication
His mind was not doing well during this...
I'm glad Mark was patient.
Yes!!! I was thinking this
Mark was tone deaf as usual. He's still a saint in my book.
Mark is ALWAYS beautiful & patient with the people he interviews. He's a truly kind soul
@@mikehemens9359 how can someone so interested in the plight of others miss every cue??!
@@mozarella9386 I doubt Mark missed anything. I have a family member who had schizophrenia. Mark was just talking to him fine.
I had a friend in this dudes situation. He stayed so drugged up it was hard to have any kind of conversation with him that made any kind of sense. But he did the best he could with what he had. He ended up commiting suicide. The note he left said that the voices in his head had finally won the battle and everyone shouldn't be mad at them because he finally could be free. Super sad how he went and how he had to live.
😢
Cool name lol
He’s free from his earthly struggles man. So sorry for your loss, bless you 🙏
I’m a student in psychology and schizophrenia is THE worst mental disorder someone can have due to their disconnection with the real world. Schizophrenics show the wrong type of emotion for the situation (you can see how confused he is for a simple interview) and they have trouble communicating with people. Social exclusion is one of the worst things someone can experience, and most schizophrenics choose social isolation themselves since one seems to understand them and they just appear “annoying”
My heart rlly goes out for him, he’s such a pretty boy❤
@Peanut hello Mr. Peanut, if u think I spread misinformation, instead of telling me to change my area of study, why won't you add more information to comment, since you clearly know more than me. 😊 I wasn't gonna talk about all the lectures I had about schizophrenia, but I just wrote I tiny summary of what the disease consists of
@@sarahelfaize1657 go back to the kitchen leave the gym 2 me
It messes up the semantics, our minds work by attaching things to feelings, or we remember things based on how much emotion it invoked. My memory is completely shot, I remember extremely little, although antipsychotics are a godsend for they clear my head a bit
This man has pain written all over his face its HEARTBREAKING
I just want to hug him 😔 he seems exhausted. I can’t even imagine what it’s like for him.
I’m tired ...
Yeah that what he needs!
Right? seeing him go in & out of his conversational thoughts; enough to block out the questions being asked. Jesus Christ. I pray for Chris. i feel that having schizophrenia is quite a blessing but its more of a "curse"
Same. It is so sad to watch. I hope for the best for him.
2/3 of diagnosed schizophrenics are not even schizophrenic
My brother was schizophrenic and a heroin addict, I was too young to realize what was going on with him for most of his struggles, later in his life he was clean but relapsed. He died alone in the middle of a forest from an overdose, I talked to him a week before he died, little did I know it was the most important phone call I ever had, we ended the call with “I love you”, something we never said. I hope this young man gets the help he deserves
My father is schizophrenic & my mother has severe depression. They had 5 kids together, all of which they couldn’t raise. Luckily, our grandmother raised us. I just found my mother a couple weeks ago, after a decade of not seeing or hearing from her. Thankfully, she’s alive. I see my father once every 1-2 years. I didn’t understand their illnesses when I was younger. I just thought they didn’t love my siblings & I. I hated our parents for leaving us, but now I understand. I now understand that they didn’t leave us on purpose. It breaks my heart that my father is now a meth user. I’ve worried so much about my parents since I was a little girl. My parents have been homeless for over 20 years. My parents are separated. I really don’t want my father to die alone in the woods. I just don’t know what to do. There’s no way of contacting my father because he rarely has a cellphone. The only way I ever see him is if he shows up every 1-2 years. I just wish I could help him. I know I can’t change him… I just hope it’s not too late.
I’m very sorry for what you’ve gone through. I don’t mean to dump.
Was he using Heroin before he his Schizo? Reason I ask is my niece is a Heroin addict and I worry about her. She’s in & out of rehabs 30 yrs old. Works everyday at a hair salon
sad story :(
@@sylviajones7573 as far as I know he was not, it seemed like the mental health issues started in high school for him
@@sylviajones7573 (sorry for my english) drugs can bring you schizoprenic and there is big chance if she have it her family. That is why I dont even smoke weed, cause we have it in family. But look on the internet for more accourate information.
Homeless, addict & schizophrenic that just takes it to a whole other level. My heart literally breaks for him 💔
I didn't realize this interview was 3yrs ago.
I would love to know how he's doing today!?!
There’s an update in 2023 on the list
This is painful, I mean even physically painful, to watch. So much pain. He's trapped in mental illness. Super sad. Pray for him please.
The video thumbnail is all you need to see to know how Chris is feeling.
Truly sad
I've seen several comments about how he should just take his meds, and he'd be ok. Y'all make the assumption that he can afford the medication's. Also, that if he cannot afford them, that he's clear headed enough to seek help to obtain them. As someone who's lower middle class, and suffers from mental health issues, it's a life or death battle some days to make it to my appointments, and the difference between my internet which my kids depend on for school, or being able to afford my meds. And I'm blessed enough to have a supportive husband and family. I can't imagine being on the streets and having to fight the uphill battle to obtain the help I needed alone, while fighting against the voices telling me not to. Don't be so quick to judge....
Also, alot of times these meds have bad side effects. Imagine having to take a medication for life that causes you to have uncontrollable hand tremors or drool randomly. That would test anyone's med compliance. Sure, there are meds for the side effects like Benztropine but they also have their own side effects. This is a rotten cycle. I can't imagine having feelings of paranoia, auditory or visual hallucinations mixed with anxiety/depression all day everyday. God bless and keep those who suffer like this. It makes you appreciate
I would consider myself upper middle class and still can hardly afford my meds. The medication my doctor recommended was $300. What person can reasonably afford that? It’s crazy.
@@amyk.2500 When I was twenty I was a freshly divorced, single mom, in college, my doctor prescribed me several medications for my mental health and chronic migraines. The grand monthly total? $1,800! That's insane for anyone much less a broke, single mom who's in college! I was blessed that I got into a lotto for financial help, and got chosen (it was completely random), otherwise there's no way I'd have been able to afford even one of them. The us has such a broken medical system. I don't know what the answer is, but socialized medicine looks really tempting from where I'm sitting.
My current meds run me almost $200 a month, for three scripts. It's crazy...
@@gabrielle-d1b I hadn't even considered this! I can't imagine!
My favorite uncle was schizophrenic and I admired him so much. He was a genius and had such a sweet nature but people would treat him like he was stupid because he had a mental illness. It's the same way they treat me as I am schizo-affective. It is really hard when you are intelligent and people talk to you as though you are a child or incapable of understanding simple things. My heart goes out to this young man and I wish I could give him a hug. Voices are scary. I take zyprexa too but it makes me tired all the time and i feel like a zombie. It is a struggle just to stay awake. and every time you have a psychotic break its like you loose another piece of yourself until eventually you arent you at all. It is a horrible disease.
if your taking Zyprexa and your tired lower the dose my son on 5 mg only with ativan and he is doing well talk to your doctor about the side effect even low dose of ablify will give you enegry hope it works out for you take care god bless.
It is something that is possible to recover from, I have a very similar story with myself and my uncle, he’s incredible, a very talented artist (scholarship into big London uni). I’m on quetiapine which is brilliant but I think I’m building tolerance to it. I have no advice other than the advice my uncle gave me when he could see I was self absorbed; focus on other people, it’s not sustainable all the time but it’s incredible, so liberating, although I know the guilt is horrible. I also got a dog who’s the best
It’s dopamine that causes the hallucinations, so antipsychotics cut dopamine off, which makes you very depressed and clears your head. For me, I can empathise with alcoholics for the regret and reality is very difficult to face, nigh on impossible
He has such sweetness and desperation in his eyes! He's such a handsome young man too that I wish so badly for him that he could get the mental help he needs. He is absolutely tormented by his mind, that much is evident! I just ached for him when watching this. May God bless him, watch over him, and heal him!!!!!
Amen 🙏
Get them the ID that he needs or send them home to his parents
@@christinemerlino5080 Wow. You think his parents are properly equipped or capable of caring for him?!!
@@kadepookie9387 I never mentioned anything about his parents being properly equipped to take care of him so I don’t even understand your reply he needs health benefits and treatment somebody with schizophrenia needs help but nowhere in my comment that I mention his parents
This was my beautiful son in 2019.Nobody could reach him. Now he is gone. I am lost without him
I am so very sorry for that tragic loss!!! Being impotent to fix your child is the worst hell on earth!!! Huge hugs! My son is ill too, but he is alive and taking his meds today. Today. Today. He could relapse any day.
@@annieseaside Thank you for your kind and truthful words. Mental Illness is a roller coaster a person can not get off of. Keep well and your son too
@@lynnen264 sorry for your loss Lynne, but have your comfort in the fact he is now free of the torment he was going through, him being alive was happiness for you but his existence was hell for him.
My grandma committed suicide due to be in so much pain and I forgive her.
One day we will all be together with our loved ones and may God bless their soul and forgive.
Sorry for your loss❤️
Lynne I’m so sincerely sorry for your loss. My 37 year old nephew also has this horrible illness and I’ve seen all the terrible things that these poor souls go through.
My nephew recently committed suicide. He was 34 and struggled for years with schizophrenia. My heart aches for Chris.
I’m so sorry! What a nightmare! Hugs!
So terribly sorry about your nephew. Sending love & comfort to your grieving heart. It’s a tragic disorder.
My condolences. I know what you're going through. take care x
My condolences, God bless u and ur family
Mine too
This was tear jerking, my heart goes out to all with the struggle of life and loss. God bless you all.
I believe the fact he was able to sit for 11 mins straight to talk to Mark is an absolute miracle, let alone stand for a photo, given his condition. I simply don't understand how some people can even start to judge his 'stealing', if you don't have any experience with this illness or empathy in general, better not comment, it makes you look wiser!
I find it hard to believe that somebody with limited cognitive functioning such as your self can actually type out a comment on UA-cam. An absolute miracle!
@@bryceo5637 That's the thing, nothing's a miracle! Not even your cheap shot on UA-cam!
He's a normal person. Just because somebody has a mental illness doesn't mean you should say they are incompetent and can't have a conversation with somebody.
@@bryceo5637 I didn't say he's stupid, far from me , but the way this illness works, and you may want to read the other comments here, is that the people with this illness won't be able to keep focus on the activity they do or want to do.
Ok good. I just want to make sure that people like this arent seen as stupid or less than capable of doing things.
My best friend was diagnosed a few years ago and never got the help she needed. A judge in NC let her go against a doctors opinion that she was in psychosis and needed to stay in the hospital longer. Now she is gone forever because she took her own life on May 10th. It’s past time to start acknowledging that mental health is JUST AS SERIOUS AND IMPORTANT as anything else!
Rest In Peace Gabrielle Stevenson ❤️
im so sorry for your loss 🙏 R.I.P. 💞
That is tragic. I am so sorry.
This broke my heart. I’m so sorry for your friend my heart goes out to you and her family and those she touched 💕
🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
Im sorry for your loss, a Judge IS NOT a Medical Dr. Sounds like a sorry NC Judge, depends on the county some are real trash.
All of your portraits are incredible but Chris' speaks volumes.
You can see that he's having a hard time in this video hearing the interviewer over other stuff that he's hearing in his head. It's so sad that schizophrenia doesn't have the awareness platform that other things do like anxiety and depression, epilepsy, autism... these people are so stigmatized and demonized and if society would do a better job educating itself we could do a lot to help these types of people.
well said
How are they stigmatized and demonized? Everyone knows what schizophrenia is in 2023
@lrn_news9171 my fiance is schizophrenic. People think they know what it is but it's horrible what people assume about people that have it. It's honestly disgusting how little it is talked about and how often people assume that just because someone is schizophrenic that they basically deserve to be treated inhumanely. I see it all the time. The father of my child is schizophrenic and would not ever harm anyone. But when people find out he has it, they stay far away as if it's contagious or something and a lot of people have very little concern or care for those found shoeless on the side of the road talking to someone who isn't there. There is not enough funding to raise awareness for it unlike breast cancer or autism. It's unfair that they recieve so little representation.
Like that's going to stop people.@@lrn_news9171
My heart broke every time he asked "what were you saying?"
Same.
Same
Same here
Same
Just reminded me of my stoner mate
Chris is on 6th and San Pedro in skid row. Beauty2thestreets found him while giving away icecream. She informed him that his family is looking for him and if he’d like to see them as well, he said yea. She went back to give him her business card and told him to stay put so we can help reunite them. She also told him to call her if he decides to relocate. All this was on he live on her instagram. 6th and SAN PEDRO!!!
Oh my gosh!! The one day I miss the live stream, but I’m happy she got to meet him and talk to him.
What? Can someone explain?
❤️ thank God. He needs and deserves help.
I love her !!!❤️
boost.
Homeboy looks so tired. I can't imagine living through this affliction. My heart goes out to the guy.
Meth come downs suck.
@@areyoujelton wtf yo
@@00_itachi25 it’s true dude, i’ve seen a lot of people come off meth and the first week sucks
I have schizophrenia and it’s sad how much our minds can go far away from us. It’s like our brain is out of our head and we’re trying to find it
My sister was just diagnosed with it after having 2 psychosis breakdowns. She's doing much better now after being on meds and the yearly shot but her anxiety is really bad she can't even work because she can only focus on one thing at a time. It's sad to see and realize she will probably never fully be herself again or work ever again.
@@samskyrider88 first I just wanna say I’m sorry about your sister getting this horrible diagnosis. I promise it’s not the end and me personally I can give you this advice… get doctor to apply her or get the ball rolling for her to get ssi or ssdi. If she’s worked for long periods of time she could potentially get a good amount of money each month. I myself am on ssi (for another diagnosis) if she’s on a good medication regimen i promise she can be her normal self again and could potentially work again. My cousin has paranoid schizophrenia and he’s doing great he’s started his own company for a moving business. Im trying to get a part time job cause what I get isn’t enough to live off of if I ever decided to move out.
My heart breaks for you man, stay strong brother
@@stringpicker2335 it’s totally ok brother. The injection and pills I’m on works really well, plus I’m in therapy. But thank you so much
@@Zayne_24I appreciate you sharing this bro u have my respect and I wish you well
We need a follow up. Hope Chris finds peace and the help he needs.
How you asking for a follow up the same day
@@Francisca-wq4ei requesting early so he knows now if that’s cool with you frankie
@@_mothmaam_ 😄😄 superb reply 🙂🙃🙂🙃
I would love a follow up, too. I’m wondering about his parents. Do they know where he is? Do they even know he has a serious mental illness or do they think he ran away due to drug use or what? My son has schizophrenia and if I ever lost him to the streets I know I would be devastated beyond repair!
@@jean2479 Mark interviewed his family, it’s on his Chanel
You can feel his exhaustion. I felt the headache he had just trying to drown out the voices. May he get the help he needs. Nobody should live feeling trapped within themselves
thanks be to god. amen. thank you.
How do you know he is hearing voices in his head?? Not sure it is possible to verify what is going on inside of someone’s head
@@tijan8948 I have schizophrenia and have only heard voices in mental institutions, some people don't hear them at all, that's not the difficult part of the illness the difficult part is what you can see clearly in the video, cognitive dysfunction.
Wow your not to bright are ya? This guy did every hard-core drug in the book and fried his brain. The only battle he’s fighting now is trying to use what Little Undamaged brain he has left.
@@tijan8948 right!!! Wow This guy did every hard-core drug in the book and fried his brain. The only battle he’s fighting now is trying to use what Little Undamaged brain he has left
bless him ,
he is so handsome and yet he looks absolutely exhausted and overwhelmed....on the verge of weeping.
It was like watching someone be tortured. I don't know how he makes it through even one day on the street.
Yes. Crushed my heart watching this interview.
We met a schizophrenic dude a couple of weeks ago. Thought he had been stood up as he was crying into his drink alone in the pub so invited him over. He was just like this dude when talking and you could tell he was just so lost and distracted by his own thoughts. So sad and wish there was better help out there
You're a good dude for doing what you did, respect. I use to sell crack, something i deeply regret and think about everyday. One day i meet this kid named Flex, 20 years old, homeless, a crack addict and suffering from schizophrenia. Use to buy him breakfast. Kid had the sadest life story i ever heard.
@@reeset3435 don’t be too harsh on yourself, we’re all flawed dude. I honestly advice trying Sam Harris podcasts and meditation. Especially his stuff on lack of free will. I used to do a lot of drugs also and meditation / learning about the brain has defo helped over the years. Good luck on your path and you’re heading the right way.
@@yourpersonaldatadealer2239 appreciate it brother. I went from selling half keys and grabbing 50 plates of tree down here in fl at a young age, to getting hooked on percs, then roxies when florida was really the pill mill of the nation, and then when they started pressing fake roxys in the street with fentanyl i lost everything i had. Home, 4 cars, more importantly my family. 7 days ago i overdosed on fentanyl and today im 6 days clean. Ive been at the top and the bottom of the game and im only 26, this goes out to God for giving me another chance. Ran up a band yesterday, getting back to my old self. I use to think God wasnt real, but when your around death you tend to find God in the darkness. Thanks for the kind words brother, much love and respect to you.
@@reeset3435 thats some heavy shit. good luck to you sir you have my prayers🙏🏼
Not sure if you mean invited him over to your table or home, but Never ever give a Schizo your address, or show them where you live, although you did a really nice thing, one day they could believe you are trying to setup,kill or God knows what and things can end very badly, I say this because a good friend of mine was killed by her schizo cousin, from what her mother told me was ,because he thought she was trying to turn him into aliens that were after him. And he broke into her apartment and beat her to death in her sleep.
I went to high school with a boy who had schizophrenia and unfortunately he committed suicide before we made it to graduation. I cannot imagine what they endure in their own head everyday 😢
One of my oldest and closest friends just committed suicide nearly 6 months ago. She suffered from schizophrenia. Going through her books she'd start frantically writing down what was being told to her by her own brain and it absolutely broke my heart.
@@MackenzieNerdyEMT I always wondered why do the voices have to be so evil. It’s so sad
@@shyghost4695 it's usually because the bad outweighs the good when it comes to self reflection and your brain usually takes bad comments and spin everything around that. so for people with schizophrenia, that self criticism is much louder and bolder.
Yea People with these health problems dont last very long They do also have a tendency of committing suicide
@@shyghost4695 where do thoughts come from?
Somebody give this man a hug. He needs all the love that people have to give. He has my love and my understanding. Bless you Chris, please stay strong and carry on.
I want so badly to do just that. Wrap him in a big warm hug. 😢
Me too. A hug and a magic wand to take away all he struggles with.
Me too
@Handsome Griz Why?
@Handsome Griz Okay but do u know what schizophrenia is?
I’ve come across a lot of content on UA-cam for better or worse, and this to me is the single most important and provocative channel on the platform. Thank you for what you do my friend, it helps break the stigma of a lot of these conditions.I hope this reaches the world to a degree that it makes an impact
He's just like my brother. Poor kid didn't even talk about the other voices in his head, that's why it's hard for him to take in information. He feels like he's having several conversations at once. I hope he gets help.
This is some mother’s son, feels he had a good home life, I could cry for him, also retired psych nurse.
Exactly. You can’t hear everything in a crowd inside your head. It’s like 10 different people talking to you at once.
Is that how it really is?
@@BONG101-x5u Yes.😔
@@BONG101-x5u you should read online yourself from legitimate sites