A Song About Autism
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- Опубліковано 21 сер 2020
- When I was seven, my mom took me to see a child psychologist. There, I got the diagnosis: mild Aspergers, paired with a high IQ and HSP (highly sensitive person). From then on, I hid this from the world. Not even in my diploma acting studies have I mentioned it - only afterwards, probably because I tried so hard to belong and fit in and be normal because I thought the this was the right thing to do. I only told someone if they'd specifically ask me and guessed right.
Well, guess what. I learned that the absolute normal thing to do is to show exactly these things that make you, you. Why? Well, because everyone is unique, so everyone has them, no matter what they are. I realized that trying to please everyone and justify my behavior with 'just' a quirky personality (which I have, don't get it twisted) was actually the less realistic and genuine thing to do and not authentic at all. I know that this does not define me and I see my identity elsewhere, in something bigger than this, but it's time to be true to myself and to you.
So hi! I'm Asya and yes, you've guessed it, on some days, eye contact is difficult for me. Also, talking, which I can hide pretty well with pauses, the right rhythm and filling words. I've had the occasional anxiety attack, wouldn't recommend it. I pivot my body to relax and self stimulate, I also tap my chest or forehead, crack my wrists or overstretch my hands. I flail my arms and hands about, squish my face with my hand or cover my ears when I'm excited. Sometimes, I have word stims, meaning that I talk gibberish or do the occasional squeak. Sounds kind of like a guinea pig.
I am extremely sensible to sound and light, sound especially, which also results in perfect pitch, which is cool but sometimes not easy to handle. I love to wear sunglasses and/or noise cancelling headphones, because that gives me a glimpse of the luxury that some people have of not being constantly overstimulated and exhausted by stuff around them all the time. I would randomly point at stuff that grabs my attention, which could also be a shelf or a lamp. I did this since I was a kid.
When I'm out and about, I would suppress all these things most of the time and say that I'm just bubbly. But then I realized, being an actress and a musician, I am thankful that I can see those little extra hues, shades and colors that are hidden to some, thankful that I can convey those extra sounds, that are too quiet to make out for some. That's where I come in.
And also, hey, if you're an artist out there that wants to pursue the Performing Arts and have a diagnosis like me, please, don't disqualify yourself. You are worthy of doing this. You are qualified and in fact, we're talking about art here. It can be a strength, a blessing, if you will. By the way, I have a project coming up regarding exactly this. So I guess you can see this as an announcement, a teaser...;) More on that soon, stay tuned.
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![Iris (A Song About Autism) [Official Music Video]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/bpny6PYK4bE/mqdefault.jpg)
This made me cry so much. I have lost so many friends because I've said something I didn't mean to. I can't tell what I'm doing wrong with people, so if I want to learn then a bridge gets burned. I'm 23 and I still struggle so much. I feel so alone because of this.
sorry that I made you cry. maybe this song can be a little help to you or the people around you...
@@voiceappeal Don't be sorry. It was healing.
As another Aspie out there you'll get there, sooner or later. Remember there is nothing wrong with who you are. And remember that we all have things we aren't good at and things we are really good at but society expects us to be good at everything and have no faults and often society's expectations rub off to be our own expectations of ourselves.
Also remember just because one person gets happiness that way, or even if its the vast majority of people who find happiness that way doesn't you'll find it that way. But you'll find it. I promise.
@@whattheydidnttellyouwithbr2844 thank you!
Unfortunately I know it all too well. I was late diagnosed autistic last year September
this is absolutely beautiful. i am a songwriter and am now studying theatre and i am autistic. and wow this is so relatable. your lyrics are so evokative and beautiful. "i don't see an iris - cause that's not what an eye is" wow that really got to me. so creative and yet so raw and true. please continue to use your voice in whatever way you best see fit - because it is so beautiful and amazing, both in sound and in the content you shared here. have a lovely day
Thank you so much!
The music video to Iris is out! If you want to check it out: ua-cam.com/video/bpny6PYK4bE/v-deo.html
"I don't see an iris, cause that's not what an eye is... "thats my biggest struggle. I love your song. Greetings from germany🥰
The music video to Iris is out! If you want to check it out: ua-cam.com/video/bpny6PYK4bE/v-deo.html
Du kannst so stolz auf dich sein, dass du so etwas mit der ganzen Welt geteilt hast und das tust, was du liebst! Ein Vorbild für alle Leute unter uns, die sich hinter Vorhängen verstecken, welche aus Angst sich der erwartungsvollen Gesellschaft angepasst haben. Dies war für mich ebenfalls so, aber trotzdem eine schöne Erfahrung, die dich nur stärker macht. Du dagegen stehst nun VOR dem Vorhang und hast uns und dir selber gezeigt, wer du wirklich bist. Bitte bleibe stets so, wie du bist, denn nicht nur deine Stimme wird wundervoll klingen, sondern auch deine Energie in dir wird strahlen.
Folge deinen Träumen.
So wie der kleine Meisterdetektiv Conan einst sagte: „Mut ist die Magie, die Träume zur Realität werden lässt.“
Nebenbei: Wunderschönes Cover 🤩 ich war schon immer ein riesiger Fan von dir und ich bin soo beindruckt mit der beruhigenden, grünen, und natürlichen Atmosphäre! So oft wünschte ich mir mein Klavier Mal auf einen Hügel im Wald hochzuschleppen und dort zu spielen und zu singen 🤣 ich glaube mit einer Ukulele oder akustische Gitarre wäre das wohl eher realistischer.
Echt jetzt, es ist einfach nur magisch! ❤️
Ps: Falls du jemals in Zürich oder generell in der Schweiz auftreten solltest, werde ich dich aus der ersten Reihe anfeuern 🤣
Ich weiß noch genau, wie dein Spitzname Secii für mich war haha und wie wir damals alle Harmonien GEKILLT haben! Danke für deinen Kommentar, ich finde ihn wundervoll. Das selbe gilt für dich, falls du mal im Raum Köln bist! :)
We are so proud of you. Tomorrow will be an International Day of Asperger and we want everybody listen your beautiful Song. Thank You.
The music video to Iris is out! If you want to check it out: ua-cam.com/video/bpny6PYK4bE/v-deo.html
I never thought that someone would feel something similar as me. But I see myself in your song and what you've shared and I'm so grateful you did. So I want to say thank you. thank you for telling people with your message that it's okay to be ourselves and to not change to be some "normal" human, that it's okay to be different, to have Aspergers.
The music video to Iris is out! If you want to check it out: ua-cam.com/video/bpny6PYK4bE/v-deo.html
I had a pretty rough year in 2021, and found this song in the fall. I keep coming back...
It hits me right in the soul somehow.
Thank you for bringing a bit of light to a dark time.
The music video to Iris is out! If you want to check it out: ua-cam.com/video/bpny6PYK4bE/v-deo.html
It is wonderful to see another person who is kinda similar to me. I have been recently diagnosed with Asperger's/ autism spectrum disorder. What is funny is that I actually have perfect pitch too. And I suck at making eye contact, bcs I am always looking anywhere but NEVER into the eyes of other people.
This song is great tho. I like it.
I love listening to your covers. I'm Autistic too. I believe I am an amazing person because I'm Autistic, not in spite of it. I'm glad you feel the same way.
The music video to Iris is out! If you want to check it out: ua-cam.com/video/bpny6PYK4bE/v-deo.html
I have Asperger syndrome I sometimes I don’t understand jokes sometimes I take the jokes seriously and sometimes when I listen to music I play the music again and again and again💖💖
felt that
i got aspergers. you rock! thanks for representin. very heartfelt and beautiful.
I wish I found this sooner
To me the world speaks in letters. And everything is a movie. Even a mathematical equation. But than ... I am an upside down Aspi, an inside out Aspi. I cannot cope with silence, I love to be in crowds, shopping malls etc. I hear what people say on the next tables in restaurants even when I am talking to my companion. I can do a lot of things at the same time, but once in a forthnight I need a reset day. Just sleeping and dreaming, no talks, no interruptions.
I was late diagnosed autistic last year September at 26
I have aspergers and my parents beat me, shout at me and take my stuff when I get angry or have a meltdown and I struggle to finish sentences most of the time 😭
Thank you for sharing. You are heard
You should probably call the child protective service.
Danke dass du so etwas persönliches teilst!
Das Lied gefällt mir sehr gut.. und gerade das mit dem Iris/Eye spricht mich sehr an, weil ich selber oft Probleme habe anderen direkt in die Augen zu schauen🙈
“Words are my second language” is beautiful
Just read through the comments 💙 This song is so important.
Good voice.
I love how you turned the background noises up for this. At least that's what I think you did. Which makes it even more Aspergers related.
I'm so happy I stumbled across this channel! I love love your timbre! this song was so raw, I loved every second of it!
The music video to Iris is out! If you want to check it out: ua-cam.com/video/bpny6PYK4bE/v-deo.html
Thank you, Asya. Needed this. Feels like home!
Wow!! Beautiful & brilliant 👌
so ein wunderschönes Cover
Beautiful song.
So beautiful and precious song! It's so calm and harmonic, this song never fails to relax me and help me focus on what is important. We are who we are and we cannot change. Being embarrassed about it doesn't make sense. We should just ignore all the normies, find aspie friends (all my close friends are aspie, I cannot understand other people) and focus on everything that brings us joy.
The music video to Iris is out! If you want to check it out: ua-cam.com/video/bpny6PYK4bE/v-deo.html
You're really good at singing!! Keep playing and singing!
Thank you, this really helps me through this world I know I was never suppose to belong in.
I have just realized that I read the title of this song wrong all this time.... I thought it said "A song about Asparagus" all along 😰😅 I love this song though
Hi this helped when I felt down
Thank you, truly.
Great song! You have a beautiful voice as always
Thank you for this song, I recently learned I have aspergers and it's been a little hard to come out and tell friends and family...
beautiful
Really hits home thanks for sharing this !
Wish there was a way to connect with people of the same mindset
Muy bonita canción, te felicito, me hiciste sonreír 🙂❤️
And there was this young girl strumming my pain with her fingers, singing my life with her words, killing me softly with her song.
And then she looked right through me as if I wasn’t there…
Beautiful
Thank you your song moves me and hits me where it matters truly thank you
this song gave me hope thanks
Your voice is beautiful
I got Autism aswell Pretty voice
Goosebumps ❤
Ich vermisse deine Anime song covers ;(
Aber das war auch sehr gut! good job ^^
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Ich kann tatsächlich nicht sagen, ob ich Autismus habe oder nicht, aber viele meiner Eigenschaften lassen stark darauf schließen.
Also Dinge wie:
- mangelhafte Sozialkompetenz
- scheinbare Emotionslosigkeit/Probleme mit Emotionen
- musterhaftes Verhalten
- Fokus auf Details
Durch ersteres habe ich leider gerade eine Phase, in der sich viele Freunde von mir abwenden und ich den Grund nicht nachvollziehen kann. Zudem tue ich mich schwer damit, neue Freunde zu finden.
Trotz dass ich versuche, so normal wie möglich zu wirken und meine Verhaltensmuster und auch Depressionen vorerst zu verstecken, zeigen Leute wenig Interesse an mir, was auf Dauer wirklich anstrengend ist.
Ich sollte mich vielleicht mal testen lassen.
Ich glaube, eine klare Antwort auf meine Fragen würde mir helfen, besser damit klarzukommen.
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