Oh, fabulous! And so amazingly accurate especially for us artists - and not only emotionally, but technically as well It took me a lifetime to learn how to creatively “wander” in my art
I sometimes feel as a 55 year old trapped on a 25 yo kid, I sometimes feel as I wasted time , lamenting how I could have gone different ways, but I have to look back in a different way, looking more on the whole achieve. Thanks for waking the real me again Adam, to show us small amazing sunsets in our lives.
Well you’re very welcome - one of my favourite quotes is “time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time” - you have to ask yourself what’s been keeping you procrastinating all these years - maybe something you enjoyed doing?
@@AdamDuffArt That´s totally right, looking back I saw procastination, but now I see that I improved other skills, nothing else, and I enjoyed it, so I need to take art now as a new skill, just think of myself in that starting point again, and take it on with full enjoyment. Thanks Adam!
This made me feel it. I'm only 21 yo, and I feel like so much time was lost not investing more of my time trying to teach myself art while studying for a BA in Political Science and still trying to get a Law Degree for a career. Makes it more comforting to understand we grow differently, some getting to be successful now or later. It feels so demeaning and makes me insecure seeing others my age getting to chase their passions or getting that successful career from the get-go already. This just feels comforting.
Feel like this at 32. Especially since I get into the trap of comparing myself to 20 year olds who come out of nowhere and achieve in one year what I’ve been trying to my whole life. But I learned not to compare paths and now I’m at peace with myself
I am 34 and have been trying to build an art career for 3 of them. At 21, my dad convened me that art/animation had no future for me and fell into a mental trap of working retail for 13 years; I settled because I let others define my future for me. I gave everything that I had to my job that consumed everything I gave it like a black hole and I punished myself for it mentally and physically. I don't know where i am in life, but I think I know where I am not anymore. Thank you, Adam.
this sounds so familiar! the thing is, that if you have that "spark" within you. It NEVER goes away. you can hide it or push it away....but it never leaves. I think it is important to give that spark a go! No matter if it is for professional reasons or not. Because, as I said, if it's truly within you... it never goes away.
I can relate so much... My father is a painter and, while generally kind, was always very critical of any of my drawings. He also never taught me a bit about art. While I was always into art he and a couple of teachers just really were able to put me off of it. So, 10 years of odd jobs and not knowing what I wanted to do later and here I am. Learning the most basic art skills all fresh. I work as a VFX artist now and I don't think anyone knows I can't draw for the life of me
You're 34 and it is never too late to keep trying. If you enjoy doing art, just do it. If you want to be a professional, keep trying. The only thing you have to do to be a professional creator is to be willing to change. Do your art work, seek out criticism from artists who know what they are doing, and if they give you feedback, the question is are you going to take their advice? Are you willing? If an audience doesn't accept your work, are you will to ask the hard questions that may lead to a better understanding of what an audience wants? What moves people and delights them? Or do you want to not change and keep playing to empty houses? Regarding your Dad, I have found that parents will hear about the kind of path their kids want to take and often the parents will expose *their* fears by their advice. The parents would not want to live with an uncertain income. The parents would not want to expose their work to the general public. The parents are not passionate enough about anything to risk a few years of their life pursuing a dream. That's fine for their life -- but you aren't living their life. Go live yours. Even if your life is a giant failure, (and that is only for you to say, no one else) it's your life to fail at, not theirs. Let yourself succeed. :)
I am so grateful that I went through these lessons at a relatively young age. Almost 27 now and I feel I'm in a place that I can only describe as a solid foundation for a happy life to come. I love art with all my heart, but no longer at the cost of my mental health
I'm 39 years old... since 3 years now. I'm working in a job I don't give the least frog about, doing 75k a year... aaaand the proudest moment I have had since almost two years is that I just - right now - finished my first Comic page. As you said, Adam, what struggles - or lifts - you is relative to your position! To all of us: Stay stubborn, stay strong ... we'll get to our happy place!
“Not all who wander are lost.” We may feel it sometimes because our souls are guiding us to the right path that’s best for us. It’s all worth it… Starting my own art career in my 40’s is scary yet exciting. Keep creating and sharing your art fella artists. The world needs us more than ever before. 👩🏼🎨🌍👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👨🏽🎨🍀⚡️
You manage to make me cry with each of your videos... not because they make me sad but because i feel understood I'm tired of sacrificing being me for things that I don't care about. But this world is built on money and I am judged by how much I earn of it. I struggle hard to turn my soul (my art) into something that can give me a roof over my head. The little time I have left after my now fulltime job I use to recover. I take the weekends (when I can) to throw myself at my art... but less and less I seem to really get motivated. I stopped making timelapse Videos, because I just can't find the energy to. But your words make me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you
@@XeLUA-cam if it were just for others... Being forced to fit into a society that doesn't see the value in what you do can be exhausting and demoralizing.
I will say for those who gave up and are afraid to re-engage in art after years of abandonment yet it pains them, constantly thinking of it. Do it, be afraid, be brave to make that subpar art. This has motivated me to pick up the pen again to try. Think about George Bush's paintings, or even Bob Ross he didn't start his art career till after finishing 20 yrs in the military service. Don't let fear and accomplishment put your art away. My art was something I delved in from a young age and let fear, the industry, comparison stop me from loving the joy of doing.
You have to do it for the love and possibility of future potential. And if you keep doing it, slowly...slowly, but surely, you'll be glad you did, regardless of what happens next. :)
i had a moment like that where i dropped art almost 8 years ago. I felt like art was not for me... but i was wrong... i was just caught up in a lie what society wanted me to become a teen to continue in this hamster wheel of power and money.... then life happened and I realized art was always within me... it was not what I did when I was a child anymore... but some things that catched my attention as a child i sensed my soul keep searching for it... and then i found this new path in art. I could go lament my silly years as a teen thinking and believing whatever about myself. I could have spend that time learning and focusing but timing it's what it is.
@@cloudsofsunset7323 I feel you. It's kinda crazy how I was so brave and fearless about my art for many years. Yet the failure to produce income and turn it into business because of how society deems it destroyed my inner ego, my self esteem. For me I see as art of a pure expression of that which is easily misunderstood because at the end of the day only person who will really understand what was put down, put into that piece, who really only cares is me. Especially from my teenage self, my adult self views that time period as me being the better learned artist yet it's all come back to how I lost sight and touch with that inert feeling of love for my craft. Keep on keeping on Chonotrust
I've been creating art for 50 years and I've learned that 1. There is an art that comes from your head, 2. There's an art that comes from your heart, and then there is 3. The art that comes through you from somewhere else in the Universe. Aim for that 3rd one - because that is where surrender meets fulfillment. Until you are willing to surrender yourself long enough to become a conduit for that Universal energy to move through you in order to make its way into the world - you will not know what deep creative satisfaction is. That's how it's been for me, anyway. Your mileage may vary.
To judge people based on their merits at the point they are in in their lives is kinda eye opening for someone like me who hasn't even started his formal career yet. Thanks for the inspiration.
I rarely write comments as they never get seen. But this video might've sparked the single greatest change in my life. I cried and laughed so violently, my whole body was tingling. Even my tongue, lips and stomach. I am currently in the middle of a break/ breakup with my soulmate, my career might finally start out but Uni has so few spots I feel it is unlikely. Overall this all seemed like the greatest test of my life, even though I've always been fighting without a break. And miracolously I found your videos. At first they motivated me to just keep working hard and pour my soul and heart into my story writing and 3d art. But this one in particular has given me a huge discovery in understanding myself. All my life I've been trying to please others, I did the same mistake with my love of life, too. I never had confidence in my work and never felt enough. But now, with my tingling limbs and shaking hands I could feel that tumor inside of me dying. The thing that has been eating away at me all this time. You cannot imagine how much your videos have already helped me, even though I only watched 4 of them. Just your calming voice spiritually guiding my mind while I finally find motivation to work on my projects in the meantime. I might just be one of many within these thankful comments, but you are one of a kind for me. The ripple of your waves will be felt even on shores I can't even imagine yet. You have helped me find myself and I am utterly happy to be able to say that I found you. Thank you
Im 38years old. In my teen and twenties I was studying deeply in graphic design and digital art. At 23 I had a son, and my whole life e changed cores. I grew in many ways due to our relationship. I had sacrificed many things so that he had all the things that I was missing. fast forward , and now he is 15, and is a high achieving scholar, and exhibits great leadership. for all intensive purposes I'm a proud father, but now that he is out of the house and attending boarding school I have found that I lost myself, and that I spent my twenties, and most of my thirties being someone I thought I needed to be for him and the world. Over the past year I have saved some money, got an LLC, and I have been actively investing in building my own design company. Sometimes I worry that I'm too old to be going for my dreams, and that I needed to continue to be practical. Today I was online looking up some tutorials(freshening up on some techniques, and getting in gear for a project for my first clients), and something just drew me to your video, and I just want to say thank you?
As someone who's currently finding themselves at a career crossroads at 28, this was definitely some helpful advice. I've really only just started my art journey so sometimes I feel so behind from others my same age and doing Wonderful things with their careers and art or otherwise and often wonder if im to late. This video was a comfort. On another note. I wanted to say that while watching this video, I think I finally understand how to watch these videos, at least in my own way if that makes sense. There's so much in these videos to absorb from life lessons, career advice, and how to use references (something that particularly caught my eye in this video for some reason). But I'm any case, I guess I just wanted to say thank you for these videos as well as this one specifically!
You may think you are behind in art skills, but you are ahead in great many other areas of expertise. I am 30 myself, been practicing my skills with purpose for about the last nine months or so, and my progress has been swift if I compare my work at the beginning of the year versus that of yesterday. The older you get, the more you've learned - and the better you are at knowing *how* to learn. All my experiences further augment my work, where I do not necessarily reference just other images, but my own memories and experiences, and let all that form the work. All art takes time, and many great artists began their careers later in their life. The magnificent Alphonse Mucha began devoting all his time to art in his 30s, and became a great success around 40. Now, when you look upon his body of work, you'd think the man that is one of the icons of Art Noveau was born talented - but he struggled just as we all, against himself, against his family's wishes, against the art world of his time. It took quite a few years of grinding and borderline poverty to become recognized and a master. So can you.
@@thesunthrone Exactly. That the same with "fake prodigy" like Picasso, Raphael or Mozart. They were all on in an artistic environment, with training, support by parents early in her life (Picasso father was already a successful artist, same for Raphael, and Mozart start piano at 3 years old). We only see the results, but we have never seen the struggle like Michel Angelo who stay on his atelier during 15 years, before publish his first painting, and finally accepted by a curator. Like he said themselves : "If people know how struggle I get this level, I think they would not see this paintings so beautiful as they think."
You videos, your "speeches", come at the most odd times of my life and I cannot begin to say how meaningful they are. 38 years old, self taught graphic designer for 15 years. I lost my (very cushy) job of 10 years when the pandemic started and had to take a very low paying retail job in order to get by. This video specifically has popped up while I'm sitting here struggling, trying to still find another graphic design job, while also deciding whether I should be chasing this empty dream of having some "creative" job that pays well, or should I take this time to try and go freelance, or change my career path all together. It's hard because I grew up being a highly creative person but also being a major introvert. In short, I'm just going to say you've given me A LOT to think about.
Wow, going through a very similar situation right now, it's almost eerie haha. Also being let go from work, resulting in having the same doubts and struggles of whether to switch careers, or go freelance, or do something else completely different. Hope you'll find your path too!
@@Xileah hey, same here. I was also laid off from my job a month ago and I am so stuck trying to motivate myself to work towards freelancing and wondering if I should instead just get some part time job to pay the bills.
Thanks Adam for validating my/our emotions. As someone who started from scratches at 27 and still trying to figure out how to make of art a solid career path at 31. Most of the days is tough and your videos make me always look at the bright side of things. It's comforting to know we are not alone in our struggles so thanks for sharing your time with us!
The Lost Souls are a little less lost after this. How You, Adam, manage to see deeply into, and touch, and speak what feels like directly to so many on such a timely basis. We love you too. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
This video happened a couple weeks after I was done developing that very awareness you speak of. The process included EVERYTHING you mentioned - being mad for the "wasted" time, pursuing a million different avenues and succeeding and still being unfulfilled, being told I'm in no place to complain, the "me" missing from all my accomplishments, not knowing what the goal is and the false sense of knowing exactly where I'm headed. I'm sure this wouldn't have clicked if I listened to this video one month ago - but I know these realizations (cemented by this video) were kickstarted, among other things, by your video "You can't be everything". I owe you so much! Thanks Adam, I hope you realize how much you're helping artists.
Where does this endless well of mind-blowing, valuable life advice come from Adam? Beautiful and so impressively honest as always. You are the teacher that I aspire to be. Thank you.
Thank you for this video.. For the past 4-5 years I had been completely burnt out of art and life itself with the pandemic wasn't helping bring that back. There has been this guilt that has been building during all this time as I watched my peers grow significantly during that time, many of whom have found themselves landing jobs, finding clientele and improving while I had sat mulling over my lack of creation. Even now, my burnout has finally subsided and I've begun to create again, but that guilt had been plaguing me day by day and this video helped crack open the stress that had built up for years. So again, thank you.. I've finally managed to cry for the first time in regards to this in a very long time.
As someone who is 33 years old, I can relate to a lot of what you said concerning giving it your all to an employer and for it to still not be good enough. I’ve actually just recently started doing what you mentioned in one of your other videos, where at 5:30 PM I just pack up and go home because it will never be enough. I am now working on myself after hours, not on art, but I am going for a career change. I resonated so much with this video. Thank you for making feel like I’m not alone, that I’m not crazy. You are a blessing Adam.
Thank you for saying it’s okay to be “selfish”, learn to love your own company, and pursue what makes you happiest. Seems like that’s the lesson I’ve been learning all this year. Idk, felt like I needed to hear it.
Thanks for those words. For someone who sometimes feels like he's not good at all at art, listening to a pro artist talking about him seeing another pro artist work and feeling the same way I feel looking at other pros art is really eye openning. Your videos are a reminder that we artists should try not to despair, but enjoy the art we do as we strive to go pros. Your friend was there, you were there, every other pro artist in the world since the dawn of time was there. The same place we beginners and intermediates that want to go pro are right now. Our time will come. We just need to keep being ourselves, keep grinding, keep enjoying and live in the moment. Thank you so much.
I'm a 27 turning 28 year-old "aspiring" artist. I put aspiring in quotes because despite having a degree on arts/animation, I haven't had the opportunity to break through the industry. I have been feeling that I am not nor will I ever be good enough to be able to work in my preferred field. I am also currently unemployed. The words "You will never amount to anything. You are unemployable." have been playing in my head for the last couple of days now... Hearing those kind words from you made me realize that that kindness and understanding were the things I have been depriving myself of... I am my very own toxic friend... So thank you so much.
I'm 65yo, and this is magnificent. I lost everything in a dirty divorce including access to my dearly loved daughter about twenty years ago. But I found myself. Without knowing yourself, and having compassion... you have nothing.
damn. i burnt out three times, because i had the mindset of "effort = accomplishments". and it took roughly 30 minutes of this video for me to realize this. damn.
Dang. This is exactly what I needed to hear today... I'm about to turn 30, and had been (before watching this video) beating myself up about choices I had made, and that "I should have started art sooner", and I had spent so much time trying to make other people happy... Compassion for myself feels easier after watching this video. Thank you for this, Adam Duff. ❤🙏
Great video, Adam! I can attest to what you're talking about. I will be 41 in October and as of one week ago, landed my very first inhouse AAA gaming job. I am a senior character concept artist. It took a decade to do it. All of the freelancing, years of self doubt, getting married, having children, it all happened at the right time. I looked at my friends that graduated with me back in 2007 whom immediately landed big jobs and thought,this isn't it. I did a career switch and it was scary. I had to remind myself that between '07 and '21, I was already "In" just not with a specific title.
I was in an abusive relationship for 16 years and realized 14 of 16 years I haven't so much as to even picked up my pencil. 14 years of me not doing art is gone I have to relearn everything again. My point is anytime I feel like my art sucks now. I watch your videos and it inspires me to get back what I lost. Which was my passion for art. Thank you 😊
Thanks for the great topic. This is something I can really identify with. I have transitioned through 3 different careers, actually starting out with art starting in school, then finished in engineering, then a few years later, the military, back to engineering, and with a half dozen hobbies that I've gotten to professional levels of accomplishment. Yet I always feel like I'm not good enough. That I keep having to prove my value. I've been told most of my life that I'm not good enough. I've never been paid well. I've struggled to make friends, romantic or otherwise. I feel like I'm still trying to find my worth. When really, I struggled with self-esteem. I've led my whole life trying to make others happy. It's only been in the last year or two where I have introduced myself to a new set of coworkers and I am continually told how mind-blowing my capabilities are, and that the sheer breadth of my skills are unheard of. For the first time I am surrounded by people who were focused on me. I don't know if it's a California thing, or just a good group of people. I honestly still struggle to believe it. Sometimes I convince myself they're just trying to be nice since I'm new. But I think I've finally found a place where I fit in... where I have value, but it still feels like I'm decades behind everyone else. I'm still single. I'm still under-paid. I work myself to the breaking point every week. At least I've found managers and coworkers who help me see my own value. In my focus to be what they want, I'm seeing they want me to just be who I already am. This has allowed me to open my eyes and look back at myself, and think about what's best for me. It's going to be a hard transition, but it feels like I'm finally breaking through. I can finally rest at night feeling like I have worth. I can wake up in the morning and look forward to the day without fretting about how I'm going to prove I'm worth my paycheck. I've still got to figure out how to limit how much I work, I need to learn how to make friends, and many other struggles, but at least I can get some rest.
Adam.. I have been unemployed for 1 year now. And I was so angry that they fire me, let off me after everything I did. This video finally wakes me up, I understand now they did this because it's their decision. I've done my part, my best, it's up to them if they want to replace me or not. I was mad, really mad for the last 12 months. And thank you, thank you so much for this video Adam. Now I just have to keep moving forward.
I resonated with this so much as it's currently something I'm going through at 30. I always wanted to be an artist but I let my parents define my future. Just put in my two weeks at my lab career after a cancer scare to focus on myself, my art and my happiness. Thank you as always Adam, you're a wonderful soul.
37:27 - this part definitely hit me, real hard, as someone trying to break out of being a 'people pleaser', yet can't stop myself from asking others the kind of things they'd like to see etc. I still need to find myself but because I've spent so much of my life trying to be this 'reflection' I genuinely don't know who that is. I spent my formative years 'people pleasing' and now I'm an adult it's incredibly difficult to break from that, to break from what I've built myself on, so I needed to hear this, even if it's still a difficult thing to do. I hope one day I can find myself, and look back on this video and go 'I did it'
You know, this really hits home. I worked in factories wishing I could work as a professional artist. Eventually I got it and I'm very greatful, but sometimes I feel like I can do more or reach a higher goal and I can... One thing this podcast reminds me of is Chester Bennington the late singer of Linkin Park. I feel like he went through something like this... of course we don't know what actually was happening, but from interviews I've seen he was burnt out... This did get me thinking about what you're talking about here. Thanks for being the 3rd person voice for us, Adam.
before watching these i'm always thinking "eh, that's almost an hour. ill guess ill watch a few minutes to get the jist." and ever single time i watch it from beginning to end. Adam your videos help me out so much. and they always seem to come at just the right time. i'm very grateful for your videos!
i feel similar but once i am in. i am full in. I sit back on my chair with my cig. staring at the cealing thinking how this applies to my life. thinking a lot. it's really nice to have a time for this.
Hey Adam, I'm listening to your arttalks since around the start of this global pandemic and I feel like they really brought a lot of value to me, my view of myself as an artist, and my work philosophy in general. You manage to not just address people that want to pursue a professional painting career but also help people like me that just like to paint/draw with no real career goal in mind and are more ambitious in another creative field like in my case music. I think that that's beautiful cause all of us creative people - artists - are all way more connected than it often seems or is acknowledged - in the end, we are all humans who express our inner self through their art, their music, their poems, etc. What you do and how you do it is something unique and I feel like everyone could take something from it to become a better reflected human being. I could ramble about how much I like your videos for way longer but to make it short: Thank you so much for your work!^^
Adam, thank you. As usual. To me, you embody the concept of "highly powerful yet choosing to use only a fraction of that power, lest it corrupt you". I'm refering to your superpower to soothe lost souls with strong messages. You absolutely could mold masses like clay in a self-help guru's hand. But never will. 🌠
Well thank you as well - maybe that “superpower” that you’re referring to is all of the struggles that led to that point of clear understanding - and it sounds like you can very much empathize with the subtext of this video.
Everytime I listen to your podcasts, it feels like I'm talking to an actual human being who's not afraid of saying that they go through hard times too. It's rare for me to talk to such people, so I really cherish them & I want to have a connection with them. As an artist & an engineering student, I hope that someday I'll be able to find my own path&I hope that it'll be something that I'm happy and excited about
For some reason, I began to cry within the first three minutes of this video. Adam, thank you for giving me the catharsis I need to deal with my frustrations.
I know I've been commenting a lot. But I just found a bunch of your videos at a crucial time in my life. Thank you for these. I've never felt so lost and hopeless as I do now. Watching this, I felt the first true sense of peace in my soul. It will be okay. Thank you ❤️ I just want you to know that even years after you make these videos they continue to help and guide artists.
I stopped learning oil painting for a year because I could not have trained with a teacher because of the covid, I tried several times to do it on my own and was so frustrated because I wanted to be good too fast. Last night I restarted painting on my own with a smile and pleasure even if I make mistakes. It feels good. Thanks Adam for this video, your like a big brother that I would wishes to have.
I always had this irrational fear that "If I am not at a professional technical level by the age of 25 then I am a failure." Right now I am 18,not that it matters but just to give some perspective. I've been learning how to draw for maybe 10 months. Growing up in a competitive academic environment instilled this idea in me that my accomplishments are only valuable when compared to the accomplishments of other people. It's a difficult mindset to grow out of, and I always feel like shit even when I'm not comparing myself to others. I have a pretty good idea of what I want and the artist I want to become. Even then, even if I know that it's achievable and that my feelings are irrational, that doesn't make the feelings go away. They never go away. But I hope I can get somewhere with this artist thing.
Adam I don’t think I can quite thank you enough for making content that makes me feel like I’m not the only one with my worries and insecurities, while also making me reflect on myself and have a bit of self compassion for myself, you’re a truly wonderful human being
Whenever I feel lost I remind myself that David Lynch said how lost and depressed he felt on camera; often times I can hear those same words echoing in my head and hating myself for 'wasting my time'. I am by no means a professional artist, I've self sabotaged my chances so many times. Spent a good amount of time arguing with my mother about what an artist needs and is, because I was allowed to be an artist and learn some skills but on her terms and conditions. I had to break free from that grasp only to find out that what I was fighting for wasn't going to make me happy either; and that's when I had to search again, how to make art that made me happy. Still healing, it might take me the rest of my time on this earth but if I can make art that makes me happy on the way then the search and pursuit was worth it. Thank you Adam.
Thank you for being here and making these videos. So far I've cried in each I've watched. I truly feel like you're talking to us, the audience, individually and I've never had someone go to the lengths of explanation and analyzation from this perspective. It means a lot. I'm 31. I grew up wanting to a be a professional animator and I haven't accomplished that. Not even close. I lost hope, feeling the world was against me. But. Your videos have given me the knowledge that I can go at my own pace; I'm not "running out of time". Maybe I won't be an animator, but I don't have to be. I can be something else and that's ok.
*_Sometimes what you truly love doing every day in your life, can be a way to find who you are._* *_I used my art to try to re-discover myself again, in an evolving and growing society. I wanted to be truly honest, and reveal my emotions in my own works as a message, a unique one for those younger than me, or as young as I am now. Yet sometimes I'm drained by everything else, at the expense of my hopes and will for everything I love and what I want to accomplish. Sometimes behind my usual activity, I was secretly screaming inside. I was angry, and sought to, in my words, "erase everything"._* *_I'm not the kind who would just submit myself just to come out drained like a dried bag. I just hope that I could find many others who are like me, even in the pandemic._*
This hit so hard I'm only twenty. I put all of me in my are. But I felt the need to never to prioritize the art that was for me. So I spend all my time making art for teachers classmates and random people's approval. I got some Thrill for pushing myself so hard. Going above and beyond with little to no payoff for effort that was not asked for. I lost my love for art to the point I walked away for all of it. It is still with me even after abandoning it for a new path in life. I see little bits of it here and there. I only have me as an individual. Not ganna lie this made me start to tear up in public.
i'm actually not into art anymore. i ironically am going through a "re-inventing" atm, but i'm glad I found this man and subrscribed while i was into it, because hearing stories & advice like this is so good & worth it. definitely really genuine & helpful & i really appreciate that you do this Adam! I was just recently figuring out similar ideas to what were talked about in this vid, in relation to myself, and this really helped to reinforce those ideas, and encourage a positive way forward. Thank you Adam, you're very very cool
I felt this too, I rambled about my feelings to my friend that I was feeling anxious, scared generally just being lost. And she asked me "why do you feel that way? You literally have everything." It felt like i had no right to have feelings, that its my fault im havign tbis problem because im making my life complicated.
Coming back to this, somehow your calm reassuring voice has helped me very much getting over some internal conflict I've been having. It wasn't even art related! Thank you for all you do.
Your timing is, as always, incredible. I've been trying and failing to get my first job in 2D drawn animation since I finished my course a year ago, and I was starting to consider making an after effects type of animation portfolio just to get a job.... but I'd be doing myself a disservice. It's not what I want or enjoy doing. Thank you adam, we love you too
This was just so powerful. It hit me so hard, right to the core. I've felt so guilty for wanting to get back to art, constantly having excuses for why I can't or shouldn't. But my bookcase behind me is full of art books, constantly reminding me of what matters to me. And why it all feels so disjointed and shallow whenever I forget it. Every person's experiences are valid and true to each person. And as much as we want to believe we're different in some way, we're all connected even in our lonely journeys that each of us is on. Thank you for this, Adam.
You know... It's so serendipitous that you published this today. I was chatting with a dear friend of mine about this exact issue today. We were both experiencing one of those days where you just feel lost. No matter how far you get, you will still have these days. As you mentioned, I will be taking these types of days as a time to look back and reflect on just how far I have come and what has made me into the professional I am today. Never in my life did I think I would become a teacher, but here I am working at a private studio teaching those who want to learn. It's a great feeling and I am glad I am here today doing what I do. And there's so much more to come.
Once again, I just made a journal entry that ends up in one of your videos 🤣 Chasing after someone or the thing you love, yet staying true to oneself is the hardest balancing act I know. Whenever I focus on myself, it always feels like I'm missing out on opportunities. But when I chase after the person, house, or job, they never seem to be interested in what I bring to the table. As if "I'm trying too hard". Usually it ends up with me being an insecure, emotional mess.
I love you Adam. You have touched me in a very positive way and gave me the insight to look at things in a different light. Taught me so many valuable lessons I didn't know about. Now I want to explore my options in education and bring a positive change to the world.
Thank you for this Adam. My family and I just said goodbye to my Mother for the last time on Thursday and it has been very hard since she was one of my strongest Cheerleaders in me starting my art career. There will be days that I will return to this pep talk as I move forward.
Adam your talks hit me right in my heart every time. You are one of the most amazing and wonderful people I have ever found. I just want you to know that you are doing more for us with these talks than you can probably imagine! Lots of love!
Lordly I am trying to figure what to do at 40! I gave up a lot to be where I am, I don’t regret it because it brought me to my hubby and have my family. Now that I am older and having some time back, now I am learning to focus on me a bit, however still balancing family and work life.
Last year I had a really hard time bouncing between school and art. And this video describes so well the feeling of never being satisfied and thinking that I constantly have to prove myself trough hard work. And even to this day I have to constantly remind myself that me and my mental health are what comes first no matter what. At times I have to force myself to have social interactions or do something different so that I don't have to go through that experience again.
Thank you for this video. I needed to hear this. I'm going into my 30's and have always been struggling with my path. This gave me a moment to take a breath, re-center and feel better about MY journey.
At one point in this video I laid my head down on my desk and nearly started crying. You hit the nail on the head about grinding harder and harder and feeling like your losing yourself and not getting anywhere other than a paycheck. I'm currently fighting a horrible burn out from just taking on way to much work. Thank you for this video. It meant a lot to hear a lot of these words.
Feels like I already lived a life of an struggling artist just hearing your stories. Those life experience is the most valuable you could give out as a teacher, even more than art skill
“Not everyone who wanderers is lost” is a great quote
Oh, fabulous!
And so amazingly accurate especially for us artists - and not only emotionally, but technically as well
It took me a lifetime to learn how to creatively “wander” in my art
I sometimes feel as a 55 year old trapped on a 25 yo kid, I sometimes feel as I wasted time , lamenting how I could have gone different ways, but I have to look back in a different way, looking more on the whole achieve. Thanks for waking the real me again Adam, to show us small amazing sunsets in our lives.
Well you’re very welcome - one of my favourite quotes is “time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time” - you have to ask yourself what’s been keeping you procrastinating all these years - maybe something you enjoyed doing?
@@AdamDuffArt That´s totally right, looking back I saw procastination, but now I see that I improved other skills, nothing else, and I enjoyed it, so I need to take art now as a new skill, just think of myself in that starting point again, and take it on with full enjoyment. Thanks Adam!
Not too far behind you at 47 and also feel wasted life/time. Thanks for sharing from a fellow oldie :D
This made me feel it. I'm only 21 yo, and I feel like so much time was lost not investing more of my time trying to teach myself art while studying for a BA in Political Science and still trying to get a Law Degree for a career. Makes it more comforting to understand we grow differently, some getting to be successful now or later. It feels so demeaning and makes me insecure seeing others my age getting to chase their passions or getting that successful career from the get-go already. This just feels comforting.
Feel like this at 32. Especially since I get into the trap of comparing myself to 20 year olds who come out of nowhere and achieve in one year what I’ve been trying to my whole life. But I learned not to compare paths and now I’m at peace with myself
I am 34 and have been trying to build an art career for 3 of them. At 21, my dad convened me that art/animation had no future for me and fell into a mental trap of working retail for 13 years; I settled because I let others define my future for me. I gave everything that I had to my job that consumed everything I gave it like a black hole and I punished myself for it mentally and physically. I don't know where i am in life, but I think I know where I am not anymore. Thank you, Adam.
this sounds so familiar!
the thing is, that if you have that "spark" within you. It NEVER goes away.
you can hide it or push it away....but it never leaves.
I think it is important to give that spark a go! No matter if it is for professional reasons or not. Because, as I said, if it's truly within you... it never goes away.
I can relate so much...
My father is a painter and, while generally kind, was always very critical of any of my drawings. He also never taught me a bit about art.
While I was always into art he and a couple of teachers just really were able to put me off of it. So, 10 years of odd jobs and not knowing what I wanted to do later and here I am. Learning the most basic art skills all fresh. I work as a VFX artist now and I don't think anyone knows I can't draw for the life of me
You're 34 and it is never too late to keep trying. If you enjoy doing art, just do it. If you want to be a professional, keep trying. The only thing you have to do to be a professional creator is to be willing to change. Do your art work, seek out criticism from artists who know what they are doing, and if they give you feedback, the question is are you going to take their advice? Are you willing?
If an audience doesn't accept your work, are you will to ask the hard questions that may lead to a better understanding of what an audience wants? What moves people and delights them? Or do you want to not change and keep playing to empty houses?
Regarding your Dad, I have found that parents will hear about the kind of path their kids want to take and often the parents will expose *their* fears by their advice. The parents would not want to live with an uncertain income. The parents would not want to expose their work to the general public. The parents are not passionate enough about anything to risk a few years of their life pursuing a dream. That's fine for their life -- but you aren't living their life. Go live yours. Even if your life is a giant failure, (and that is only for you to say, no one else) it's your life to fail at, not theirs. Let yourself succeed. :)
I am so grateful that I went through these lessons at a relatively young age. Almost 27 now and I feel I'm in a place that I can only describe as a solid foundation for a happy life to come.
I love art with all my heart, but no longer at the cost of my mental health
hope your plan are going to the right track to what you really wanted...
I'm 39 years old... since 3 years now. I'm working in a job I don't give the least frog about, doing 75k a year... aaaand the proudest moment I have had since almost two years is that I just - right now - finished my first Comic page.
As you said, Adam, what struggles - or lifts - you is relative to your position! To all of us: Stay stubborn, stay strong ... we'll get to our happy place!
I watch these videos every day for my own sanity.
“Not all who wander are lost.”
We may feel it sometimes because our souls are guiding us to the right path that’s best for us.
It’s all worth it…
Starting my own art career in my 40’s is scary yet exciting.
Keep creating and sharing your art fella artists.
The world needs us more than ever before. 👩🏼🎨🌍👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👩🏼🎨👨🏽🎨🍀⚡️
You manage to make me cry with each of your videos... not because they make me sad but because i feel understood
I'm tired of sacrificing being me for things that I don't care about. But this world is built on money and I am judged by how much I earn of it.
I struggle hard to turn my soul (my art) into something that can give me a roof over my head. The little time I have left after my now fulltime job I use to recover.
I take the weekends (when I can) to throw myself at my art... but less and less I seem to really get motivated.
I stopped making timelapse Videos, because I just can't find the energy to.
But your words make me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you
exact, caring to be perfect for others that dont care about how imperfect we are.
@@XeLUA-cam if it were just for others... Being forced to fit into a society that doesn't see the value in what you do can be exhausting and demoralizing.
I will say for those who gave up and are afraid to re-engage in art after years of abandonment yet it pains them, constantly thinking of it. Do it, be afraid, be brave to make that subpar art.
This has motivated me to pick up the pen again to try.
Think about George Bush's paintings, or even Bob Ross he didn't start his art career till after finishing 20 yrs in the military service.
Don't let fear and accomplishment put your art away. My art was something I delved in from a young age and let fear, the industry, comparison stop me from loving the joy of doing.
You have to do it for the love and possibility of future potential. And if you keep doing it, slowly...slowly, but surely, you'll be glad you did, regardless of what happens next. :)
i had a moment like that where i dropped art almost 8 years ago. I felt like art was not for me... but i was wrong... i was just caught up in a lie what society wanted me to become a teen to continue in this hamster wheel of power and money.... then life happened and I realized art was always within me... it was not what I did when I was a child anymore... but some things that catched my attention as a child i sensed my soul keep searching for it... and then i found this new path in art. I could go lament my silly years as a teen thinking and believing whatever about myself. I could have spend that time learning and focusing but timing it's what it is.
@@cloudsofsunset7323 I feel you. It's kinda crazy how I was so brave and fearless about my art for many years. Yet the failure to produce income and turn it into business because of how society deems it destroyed my inner ego, my self esteem. For me I see as art of a pure expression of that which is easily misunderstood because at the end of the day only person who will really understand what was put down, put into that piece, who really only cares is me. Especially from my teenage self, my adult self views that time period as me being the better learned artist yet it's all come back to how I lost sight and touch with that inert feeling of love for my craft.
Keep on keeping on Chonotrust
George bush now works as a concept artist for blizzard pog
I've been creating art for 50 years and I've learned that 1. There is an art that comes from your head, 2. There's an art that comes from your heart, and then there is 3. The art that comes through you from somewhere else in the Universe. Aim for that 3rd one - because that is where surrender meets fulfillment. Until you are willing to surrender yourself long enough to become a conduit for that Universal energy to move through you in order to make its way into the world - you will not know what deep creative satisfaction is. That's how it's been for me, anyway. Your mileage may vary.
To judge people based on their merits at the point they are in in their lives is kinda eye opening for someone like me who hasn't even started his formal career yet.
Thanks for the inspiration.
I rarely write comments as they never get seen. But this video might've sparked the single greatest change in my life. I cried and laughed so violently, my whole body was tingling. Even my tongue, lips and stomach. I am currently in the middle of a break/ breakup with my soulmate, my career might finally start out but Uni has so few spots I feel it is unlikely. Overall this all seemed like the greatest test of my life, even though I've always been fighting without a break. And miracolously I found your videos. At first they motivated me to just keep working hard and pour my soul and heart into my story writing and 3d art. But this one in particular has given me a huge discovery in understanding myself. All my life I've been trying to please others, I did the same mistake with my love of life, too. I never had confidence in my work and never felt enough.
But now, with my tingling limbs and shaking hands I could feel that tumor inside of me dying. The thing that has been eating away at me all this time. You cannot imagine how much your videos have already helped me, even though I only watched 4 of them. Just your calming voice spiritually guiding my mind while I finally find motivation to work on my projects in the meantime. I might just be one of many within these thankful comments, but you are one of a kind for me. The ripple of your waves will be felt even on shores I can't even imagine yet. You have helped me find myself and I am utterly happy to be able to say that I found you. Thank you
Im 38years old. In my teen and twenties I was studying deeply in graphic design and digital art. At 23 I had a son, and my whole life e changed cores. I grew in many ways due to our relationship. I had sacrificed many things so that he had all the things that I was missing. fast forward , and now he is 15, and is a high achieving scholar, and exhibits great leadership. for all intensive purposes I'm a proud father, but now that he is out of the house and attending boarding school I have found that I lost myself, and that I spent my twenties, and most of my thirties being someone I thought I needed to be for him and the world. Over the past year I have saved some money, got an LLC, and I have been actively investing in building my own design company. Sometimes I worry that I'm too old to be going for my dreams, and that I needed to continue to be practical. Today I was online looking up some tutorials(freshening up on some techniques, and getting in gear for a project for my first clients), and something just drew me to your video, and I just want to say thank you?
As someone who's currently finding themselves at a career crossroads at 28, this was definitely some helpful advice. I've really only just started my art journey so sometimes I feel so behind from others my same age and doing Wonderful things with their careers and art or otherwise and often wonder if im to late. This video was a comfort.
On another note. I wanted to say that while watching this video, I think I finally understand how to watch these videos, at least in my own way if that makes sense. There's so much in these videos to absorb from life lessons, career advice, and how to use references (something that particularly caught my eye in this video for some reason). But I'm any case, I guess I just wanted to say thank you for these videos as well as this one specifically!
we good at comparing hwo bad we are to other while other dont waste time with us being good or bad
Going in seriously at 24. You got this, pal.
You may think you are behind in art skills, but you are ahead in great many other areas of expertise. I am 30 myself, been practicing my skills with purpose for about the last nine months or so, and my progress has been swift if I compare my work at the beginning of the year versus that of yesterday. The older you get, the more you've learned - and the better you are at knowing *how* to learn. All my experiences further augment my work, where I do not necessarily reference just other images, but my own memories and experiences, and let all that form the work.
All art takes time, and many great artists began their careers later in their life. The magnificent Alphonse Mucha began devoting all his time to art in his 30s, and became a great success around 40. Now, when you look upon his body of work, you'd think the man that is one of the icons of Art Noveau was born talented - but he struggled just as we all, against himself, against his family's wishes, against the art world of his time. It took quite a few years of grinding and borderline poverty to become recognized and a master. So can you.
@@thesunthrone wonderfully said
@@thesunthrone Exactly. That the same with "fake prodigy" like Picasso, Raphael or Mozart. They were all on in an artistic environment, with training, support by parents early in her life (Picasso father was already a successful artist, same for Raphael, and Mozart start piano at 3 years old).
We only see the results, but we have never seen the struggle like Michel Angelo who stay on his atelier during 15 years, before publish his first painting, and finally accepted by a curator.
Like he said themselves : "If people know how struggle I get this level, I think they would not see this paintings so beautiful as they think."
This video reminded me of a quote I read.
"You don't have to set yourself on fire to keep others warm".
Huh! I really love that saying - I think I’ll be using that from now on, thank you :)
Wish I knew that and could do something about it 50 years ago.
Who the fuck are you man?! you are talking directly to my soul... Subbed! Man that was soooo soothing to listen to.
You videos, your "speeches", come at the most odd times of my life and I cannot begin to say how meaningful they are.
38 years old, self taught graphic designer for 15 years. I lost my (very cushy) job of 10 years when the pandemic started and had to take a very low paying retail job in order to get by. This video specifically has popped up while I'm sitting here struggling, trying to still find another graphic design job, while also deciding whether I should be chasing this empty dream of having some "creative" job that pays well, or should I take this time to try and go freelance, or change my career path all together. It's hard because I grew up being a highly creative person but also being a major introvert.
In short, I'm just going to say you've given me A LOT to think about.
This is a lesson in my own life that I have to keep revisiting - in multiple different contexts, from life to work to everything else…
Wow, going through a very similar situation right now, it's almost eerie haha. Also being let go from work, resulting in having the same doubts and struggles of whether to switch careers, or go freelance, or do something else completely different. Hope you'll find your path too!
@@Xileah hey, same here. I was also laid off from my job a month ago and I am so stuck trying to motivate myself to work towards freelancing and wondering if I should instead just get some part time job to pay the bills.
Thanks Adam for validating my/our emotions. As someone who started from scratches at 27 and still trying to figure out how to make of art a solid career path at 31. Most of the days is tough and your videos make me always look at the bright side of things. It's comforting to know we are not alone in our struggles so thanks for sharing your time with us!
The Lost Souls are a little less lost after this. How You, Adam, manage to see deeply into, and touch, and speak what feels like directly to so many on such a timely basis. We love you too. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
This video happened a couple weeks after I was done developing that very awareness you speak of. The process included EVERYTHING you mentioned - being mad for the "wasted" time, pursuing a million different avenues and succeeding and still being unfulfilled, being told I'm in no place to complain, the "me" missing from all my accomplishments, not knowing what the goal is and the false sense of knowing exactly where I'm headed.
I'm sure this wouldn't have clicked if I listened to this video one month ago - but I know these realizations (cemented by this video) were kickstarted, among other things, by your video "You can't be everything".
I owe you so much! Thanks Adam, I hope you realize how much you're helping artists.
Thanks for this. Thanks for all of these. You are doing something important and it is making the world a better place. Much love.
Where does this endless well of mind-blowing, valuable life advice come from Adam? Beautiful and so impressively honest as always. You are the teacher that I aspire to be. Thank you.
Thank you for this video..
For the past 4-5 years I had been completely burnt out of art and life itself with the pandemic wasn't helping bring that back. There has been this guilt that has been building during all this time as I watched my peers grow significantly during that time, many of whom have found themselves landing jobs, finding clientele and improving while I had sat mulling over my lack of creation.
Even now, my burnout has finally subsided and I've begun to create again, but that guilt had been plaguing me day by day and this video helped crack open the stress that had built up for years.
So again, thank you..
I've finally managed to cry for the first time in regards to this in a very long time.
As someone who is 33 years old, I can relate to a lot of what you said concerning giving it your all to an employer and for it to still not be good enough. I’ve actually just recently started doing what you mentioned in one of your other videos, where at 5:30 PM I just pack up and go home because it will never be enough. I am now working on myself after hours, not on art, but I am going for a career change. I resonated so much with this video. Thank you for making feel like I’m not alone, that I’m not crazy. You are a blessing Adam.
Thank you for saying it’s okay to be “selfish”, learn to love your own company, and pursue what makes you happiest. Seems like that’s the lesson I’ve been learning all this year. Idk, felt like I needed to hear it.
Thanks for those words. For someone who sometimes feels like he's not good at all at art, listening to a pro artist talking about him seeing another pro artist work and feeling the same way I feel looking at other pros art is really eye openning. Your videos are a reminder that we artists should try not to despair, but enjoy the art we do as we strive to go pros. Your friend was there, you were there, every other pro artist in the world since the dawn of time was there. The same place we beginners and intermediates that want to go pro are right now. Our time will come. We just need to keep being ourselves, keep grinding, keep enjoying and live in the moment. Thank you so much.
And thank you as well Julian. And trust me, every OTHER artist is always the pro in your own eyes. We always scrutinize ourselves most.
I'm a 27 turning 28 year-old "aspiring" artist. I put aspiring in quotes because despite having a degree on arts/animation, I haven't had the opportunity to break through the industry. I have been feeling that I am not nor will I ever be good enough to be able to work in my preferred field. I am also currently unemployed. The words "You will never amount to anything. You are unemployable." have been playing in my head for the last couple of days now...
Hearing those kind words from you made me realize that that kindness and understanding were the things I have been depriving myself of... I am my very own toxic friend... So thank you so much.
I'm 65yo, and this is magnificent. I lost everything in a dirty divorce including access to my dearly loved daughter about twenty years ago. But I found myself. Without knowing yourself, and having compassion... you have nothing.
damn. i burnt out three times, because i had the mindset of "effort = accomplishments". and it took roughly 30 minutes of this video for me to realize this. damn.
Learned these lessons myself. Best time to find yourself, to be selfish, is when you're unhappy.
Always at the right time! Thanks.
Dang. This is exactly what I needed to hear today... I'm about to turn 30, and had been (before watching this video) beating myself up about choices I had made, and that "I should have started art sooner", and I had spent so much time trying to make other people happy... Compassion for myself feels easier after watching this video. Thank you for this, Adam Duff. ❤🙏
Thank You.
Great video, Adam! I can attest to what you're talking about. I will be 41 in October and as of one week ago, landed my very first inhouse AAA gaming job. I am a senior character concept artist. It took a decade to do it. All of the freelancing, years of self doubt, getting married, having children, it all happened at the right time. I looked at my friends that graduated with me back in 2007 whom immediately landed big jobs and thought,this isn't it. I did a career switch and it was scary. I had to remind myself that between '07 and '21, I was already "In" just not with a specific title.
Great video, beautiful painting and thank you for sharing you thoughts once again 😊
We need a compilation of Adam talking about Lucas. It's so wholesome!
Don’t get me started!
I was in an abusive relationship for 16 years and realized 14 of 16 years I haven't so much as to even picked up my pencil. 14 years of me not doing art is gone I have to relearn everything again. My point is anytime I feel like my art sucks now. I watch your videos and it inspires me to get back what I lost. Which was my passion for art. Thank you 😊
Thanks for the great topic. This is something I can really identify with. I have transitioned through 3 different careers, actually starting out with art starting in school, then finished in engineering, then a few years later, the military, back to engineering, and with a half dozen hobbies that I've gotten to professional levels of accomplishment. Yet I always feel like I'm not good enough. That I keep having to prove my value. I've been told most of my life that I'm not good enough. I've never been paid well. I've struggled to make friends, romantic or otherwise. I feel like I'm still trying to find my worth. When really, I struggled with self-esteem.
I've led my whole life trying to make others happy. It's only been in the last year or two where I have introduced myself to a new set of coworkers and I am continually told how mind-blowing my capabilities are, and that the sheer breadth of my skills are unheard of. For the first time I am surrounded by people who were focused on me. I don't know if it's a California thing, or just a good group of people. I honestly still struggle to believe it. Sometimes I convince myself they're just trying to be nice since I'm new. But I think I've finally found a place where I fit in... where I have value, but it still feels like I'm decades behind everyone else. I'm still single. I'm still under-paid. I work myself to the breaking point every week.
At least I've found managers and coworkers who help me see my own value. In my focus to be what they want, I'm seeing they want me to just be who I already am. This has allowed me to open my eyes and look back at myself, and think about what's best for me. It's going to be a hard transition, but it feels like I'm finally breaking through. I can finally rest at night feeling like I have worth. I can wake up in the morning and look forward to the day without fretting about how I'm going to prove I'm worth my paycheck. I've still got to figure out how to limit how much I work, I need to learn how to make friends, and many other struggles, but at least I can get some rest.
Adam.. I have been unemployed for 1 year now. And I was so angry that they fire me, let off me after everything I did. This video finally wakes me up, I understand now they did this because it's their decision. I've done my part, my best, it's up to them if they want to replace me or not. I was mad, really mad for the last 12 months. And thank you, thank you so much for this video Adam. Now I just have to keep moving forward.
I resonated with this so much as it's currently something I'm going through at 30. I always wanted to be an artist but I let my parents define my future. Just put in my two weeks at my lab career after a cancer scare to focus on myself, my art and my happiness. Thank you as always Adam, you're a wonderful soul.
37:27 - this part definitely hit me, real hard, as someone trying to break out of being a 'people pleaser', yet can't stop myself from asking others the kind of things they'd like to see etc. I still need to find myself but because I've spent so much of my life trying to be this 'reflection' I genuinely don't know who that is. I spent my formative years 'people pleasing' and now I'm an adult it's incredibly difficult to break from that, to break from what I've built myself on, so I needed to hear this, even if it's still a difficult thing to do. I hope one day I can find myself, and look back on this video and go 'I did it'
You know, this really hits home. I worked in factories wishing I could work as a professional artist. Eventually I got it and I'm very greatful, but sometimes I feel like I can do more or reach a higher goal and I can... One thing this podcast reminds me of is Chester Bennington the late singer of Linkin Park. I feel like he went through something like this... of course we don't know what actually was happening, but from interviews I've seen he was burnt out... This did get me thinking about what you're talking about here. Thanks for being the 3rd person voice for us, Adam.
been struggling with motivation to work lately, but listening to your videos has increased my productivity 20-fold.
before watching these i'm always thinking "eh, that's almost an hour. ill guess ill watch a few minutes to get the jist." and ever single time i watch it from beginning to end. Adam your videos help me out so much. and they always seem to come at just the right time. i'm very grateful for your videos!
i feel similar but once i am in. i am full in. I sit back on my chair with my cig. staring at the cealing thinking how this applies to my life. thinking a lot. it's really nice to have a time for this.
Hey Adam,
I'm listening to your arttalks since around the start of this global pandemic and I feel like they really brought a lot of value to me, my view of myself as an artist, and my work philosophy in general. You manage to not just address people that want to pursue a professional painting career but also help people like me that just like to paint/draw with no real career goal in mind and are more ambitious in another creative field like in my case music. I think that that's beautiful cause all of us creative people - artists - are all way more connected than it often seems or is acknowledged - in the end, we are all humans who express our inner self through their art, their music, their poems, etc. What you do and how you do it is something unique and I feel like everyone could take something from it to become a better reflected human being. I could ramble about how much I like your videos for way longer but to make it short: Thank you so much for your work!^^
You are most welcome :)
Thank you. Genuinely thank you oh my gosh thank you.
Thank for your wisdom. I'll be returning to chew on this video a bit more in the future. I think I have a lot to do.
Adam, thank you. As usual. To me, you embody the concept of "highly powerful yet choosing to use only a fraction of that power, lest it corrupt you". I'm refering to your superpower to soothe lost souls with strong messages. You absolutely could mold masses like clay in a self-help guru's hand. But never will. 🌠
Well thank you as well - maybe that “superpower” that you’re referring to is all of the struggles that led to that point of clear understanding - and it sounds like you can very much empathize with the subtext of this video.
Adam, you're a gift. Thank x
Everytime I listen to your podcasts, it feels like I'm talking to an actual human being who's not afraid of saying that they go through hard times too. It's rare for me to talk to such people, so I really cherish them & I want to have a connection with them. As an artist & an engineering student, I hope that someday I'll be able to find my own path&I hope that it'll be something that I'm happy and excited about
Damn, I could listen to you the whole day. Thank you very much for sharing your knowledge, wisdom and compassion.
For some reason, I began to cry within the first three minutes of this video. Adam, thank you for giving me the catharsis I need to deal with my frustrations.
I know I've been commenting a lot. But I just found a bunch of your videos at a crucial time in my life. Thank you for these. I've never felt so lost and hopeless as I do now. Watching this, I felt the first true sense of peace in my soul. It will be okay. Thank you ❤️ I just want you to know that even years after you make these videos they continue to help and guide artists.
one of my favorites so far. :)
I stopped learning oil painting for a year because I could not have trained with a teacher because of the covid, I tried several times to do it on my own and was so frustrated because I wanted to be good too fast. Last night I restarted painting on my own with a smile and pleasure even if I make mistakes. It feels good. Thanks Adam for this video, your like a big brother that I would wishes to have.
I always had this irrational fear that "If I am not at a professional technical level by the age of 25 then I am a failure." Right now I am 18,not that it matters but just to give some perspective. I've been learning how to draw for maybe 10 months. Growing up in a competitive academic environment instilled this idea in me that my accomplishments are only valuable when compared to the accomplishments of other people. It's a difficult mindset to grow out of, and I always feel like shit even when I'm not comparing myself to others. I have a pretty good idea of what I want and the artist I want to become. Even then, even if I know that it's achievable and that my feelings are irrational, that doesn't make the feelings go away. They never go away.
But I hope I can get somewhere with this artist thing.
Adam I don’t think I can quite thank you enough for making content that makes me feel like I’m not the only one with my worries and insecurities, while also making me reflect on myself and have a bit of self compassion for myself, you’re a truly wonderful human being
You never fail to help my internal struggles and help to rededicate myself in striving to get better/achieve. Much thanks 🙏
I think you should be proud of this video ... It is a unique achievement with both clarity and empathy
Whenever I feel lost I remind myself that David Lynch said how lost and depressed he felt on camera; often times I can hear those same words echoing in my head and hating myself for 'wasting my time'.
I am by no means a professional artist, I've self sabotaged my chances so many times.
Spent a good amount of time arguing with my mother about what an artist needs and is, because I was allowed to be an artist and learn some skills but on her terms and conditions.
I had to break free from that grasp only to find out that what I was fighting for wasn't going to make me happy either; and that's when I had to search again, how to make art that made me happy.
Still healing, it might take me the rest of my time on this earth but if I can make art that makes me happy on the way then the search and pursuit was worth it.
Thank you Adam.
Thank you for being here and making these videos. So far I've cried in each I've watched. I truly feel like you're talking to us, the audience, individually and I've never had someone go to the lengths of explanation and analyzation from this perspective. It means a lot.
I'm 31. I grew up wanting to a be a professional animator and I haven't accomplished that. Not even close. I lost hope, feeling the world was against me.
But.
Your videos have given me the knowledge that I can go at my own pace; I'm not "running out of time". Maybe I won't be an animator, but I don't have to be. I can be something else and that's ok.
*_Sometimes what you truly love doing every day in your life, can be a way to find who you are._*
*_I used my art to try to re-discover myself again, in an evolving and growing society. I wanted to be truly honest, and reveal my emotions in my own works as a message, a unique one for those younger than me, or as young as I am now. Yet sometimes I'm drained by everything else, at the expense of my hopes and will for everything I love and what I want to accomplish. Sometimes behind my usual activity, I was secretly screaming inside. I was angry, and sought to, in my words, "erase everything"._*
*_I'm not the kind who would just submit myself just to come out drained like a dried bag. I just hope that I could find many others who are like me, even in the pandemic._*
This hit so hard I'm only twenty. I put all of me in my are. But I felt the need to never to prioritize the art that was for me. So I spend all my time making art for teachers classmates and random people's approval. I got some Thrill for pushing myself so hard. Going above and beyond with little to no payoff for effort that was not asked for. I lost my love for art to the point I walked away for all of it. It is still with me even after abandoning it for a new path in life. I see little bits of it here and there. I only have me as an individual. Not ganna lie this made me start to tear up in public.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you Adam.
For everyone else here, have a nice day!
i'm actually not into art anymore. i ironically am going through a "re-inventing" atm, but i'm glad I found this man and subrscribed while i was into it, because hearing stories & advice like this is so good & worth it. definitely really genuine & helpful & i really appreciate that you do this Adam!
I was just recently figuring out similar ideas to what were talked about in this vid, in relation to myself, and this really helped to reinforce those ideas, and encourage a positive way forward.
Thank you Adam, you're very very cool
I felt this too, I rambled about my feelings to my friend that I was feeling anxious, scared generally just being lost. And she asked me "why do you feel that way? You literally have everything." It felt like i had no right to have feelings, that its my fault im havign tbis problem because im making my life complicated.
The self-doubt ego monster still always lurks in the shadows. Ty for the video, Adam - it helps keep it at bay!
Very happy to have stumbled upon your channel. Thank you. 🙏
This is a video I'll come back to a lot, like I do with You Can't Be Everything. Thank you Adam !
Coming back to this, somehow your calm reassuring voice has helped me very much getting over some internal conflict I've been having. It wasn't even art related! Thank you for all you do.
Your timing is, as always, incredible. I've been trying and failing to get my first job in 2D drawn animation since I finished my course a year ago, and I was starting to consider making an after effects type of animation portfolio just to get a job.... but I'd be doing myself a disservice. It's not what I want or enjoy doing. Thank you adam, we love you too
thank you very much, this video touch my soul ..so much lost soul out there including me
This was just so powerful. It hit me so hard, right to the core. I've felt so guilty for wanting to get back to art, constantly having excuses for why I can't or shouldn't. But my bookcase behind me is full of art books, constantly reminding me of what matters to me. And why it all feels so disjointed and shallow whenever I forget it. Every person's experiences are valid and true to each person. And as much as we want to believe we're different in some way, we're all connected even in our lonely journeys that each of us is on. Thank you for this, Adam.
You know... It's so serendipitous that you published this today. I was chatting with a dear friend of mine about this exact issue today. We were both experiencing one of those days where you just feel lost. No matter how far you get, you will still have these days. As you mentioned, I will be taking these types of days as a time to look back and reflect on just how far I have come and what has made me into the professional I am today.
Never in my life did I think I would become a teacher, but here I am working at a private studio teaching those who want to learn. It's a great feeling and I am glad I am here today doing what I do. And there's so much more to come.
Once again, I just made a journal entry that ends up in one of your videos 🤣
Chasing after someone or the thing you love, yet staying true to oneself is the hardest balancing act I know. Whenever I focus on myself, it always feels like I'm missing out on opportunities. But when I chase after the person, house, or job, they never seem to be interested in what I bring to the table. As if "I'm trying too hard". Usually it ends up with me being an insecure, emotional mess.
We are so incredibly hard on ourselves aren’t we….
that really is tough, I can 110% relate
I love you Adam. You have touched me in a very positive way and gave me the insight to look at things in a different light. Taught me so many valuable lessons I didn't know about.
Now I want to explore my options in education and bring a positive change to the world.
Thank you for this Adam. My family and I just said goodbye to my Mother for the last time on Thursday and it has been very hard since she was one of my strongest Cheerleaders in me starting my art career. There will be days that I will return to this pep talk as I move forward.
I’m just here to comment on the absolute art of “please stop” at the 3 minute mark, the piano high note and the music…. Stops.
Adam your talks hit me right in my heart every time. You are one of the most amazing and wonderful people I have ever found. I just want you to know that you are doing more for us with these talks than you can probably imagine! Lots of love!
Your videos are truly life changing. Really appreciate what you do
as always, thank you so much .
I'm not crying, you're crying. *sniffle* Thank you, Adam.
thank you so much for your videos!
great work all the time :)
Lordly I am trying to figure what to do at 40!
I gave up a lot to be where I am, I don’t regret it because it brought me to my hubby and have my family. Now that I am older and having some time back, now I am learning to focus on me a bit, however still balancing family and work life.
I am a lost soul in the smoke of the world. We have to Hug ourself
I don’t know what I would do without you Adam. From the bottom of my heart thank you for everything. I love you
Last year I had a really hard time bouncing between school and art. And this video describes so well the feeling of never being satisfied and thinking that I constantly have to prove myself trough hard work. And even to this day I have to constantly remind myself that me and my mental health are what comes first no matter what. At times I have to force myself to have social interactions or do something different so that I don't have to go through that experience again.
I did not expect Adam to console me about my Ex as well! XD Thank you! I needed that as well as knowing my own worth as an artist.
Wow thank you Adam. I really needed that talk.
Thank you for this video. I needed to hear this. I'm going into my 30's and have always been struggling with my path. This gave me a moment to take a breath, re-center and feel better about MY journey.
wow I didnt realise how much I needed this video right now , Thank you
Thank you for this talk!!!
This spoke to me today. Thanks Adam!
This is exactly what I needed to hear at this exact moment in my career. It's really funny how the world works in that way. Thank you as always, Adam.
At one point in this video I laid my head down on my desk and nearly started crying. You hit the nail on the head about grinding harder and harder and feeling like your losing yourself and not getting anywhere other than a paycheck. I'm currently fighting a horrible burn out from just taking on way to much work. Thank you for this video. It meant a lot to hear a lot of these words.
Thank you so much
This is so on point, its scary.
Thank you for this video, it couldn't have been more timely
Thank you Adam. Again! Your insight is inspiring :)
Feels like I already lived a life of an struggling artist just hearing your stories. Those life experience is the most valuable you could give out as a teacher, even more than art skill