Anxiety, Starbucks, & The New Moon [The NaNoWriMo Diaries - Day 4]
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Late night upload, and so much rambling / chatty conversation and vulnerable thoughts. Please go easy on me in the comments! Thanks for letting me share my journey. How's it going for you today?
I believe in you Sarra, you give all your efferts to encourage others. I want to give you this encouragement back. Thank you for always being you. My NaNowWrimMo is going slow but I am okay with this because first its my first one, second with my work schedule, and I get Migraines very easy so getting plenty of sleep Ive found helps with those.
I love how honest you are. It brought me to tears. I am sure ... aside from me, many of us relate to your current situation. The anxiety, the every day challenges, the unknowns and yes...even when life seems perfect we try to find what are we doing wrong. It isn't easy to control that gremlin/ego of mine, that is for sure. It is also hard to navigate in a world that is constantly changing and under attack by those who wish to divide us. We are truly in a great awakening and we will all get through it together and come out stronger in the end. You might also be feeling the anxiety of the collective, so try not to pin it all on yourself. You are amazing and you bring so much joy and education to so many of us. We love you so much! You inspire us every day. Sending hugs. Hope you slept well. I sent you a nanowrimo buddy/ friend request. Hope you got it. Xoxo
The writing is going a little slower than I'd hoped, but I'm getting at least 1000 words every day and enjoying it, so yay! Hope your anxiety settles down soon - brains are weaselly little buggers and easily get fixated on the wrong things. ❤Maybe I'll see you in one of the live sprints!
Today is going good my brain is a little bit more relaxed so I'm hoping to get some plotting done. I totally understand where you are coming from with your aniexity. I also have aniexity, Seasonal depression and PTSD. I try to make the best of everyday. But sometimes I have days where I don't want to do anything besides be lazy. And yet I want to write my book so bad. You've helped me so much to believe in yourself and go for your dreams. And try not to give up. Thank you for sharing Sarra. It means alot. ❤ Also AWESOME word count today. ❤👍
Your rambling makes total sense!
Exhaustion, navigating through events you don't control, always adjusting to a new place, adjusting to our always changing hormones, ... These are big reasons to panic and cry. You're doing it! You can heal your heart : this what you did by talking it out here 😘❤
Bravo to you for sprinting anyway!
What beautiful model you make for everyone!
Anxiety is not logical. I have been suffering from it for years, and I still have the same voices in my head, that are telling me that I am not enough or what if I will never be where I want to be... It is something that is very hard to talk about. so, thank you for being so open about it. You are not alone. HUGS
Sarra we love the rambling- the raw, vulnerable, unique you! Anxiety is awful to crawl through, and once it’s began it takes awhile to dissipate, MUCH longer than we want. Give yourself grace- you most definitely deserve it. With all the exciting, changes, moves and uncertainty in your life right now- it would be hard for anyone to keep running full force all the time. You’re doing wonderful and you are still a beacon of light for us- even on your worst days. Thank you
Thank you for being so transparent about mental health. As a writer who also struggles with anxiety, I see a lot of entrepreneurs who never talk about or show what it's like to be successful while dealing with mental health. I love the grace you offer yourself and others. The rhythm for someone with anxiety is going to look different than the daily or weekly rhythm for someone without it. This year has been ROUGH. I've felt sick and anxious so many days. Know I'm sending you lots of love and that, yes, honoring your rhythm and needs right now is okay--you aren't deviating from the path, and your vulnerability helps so many of your viewers. Also remember you are not alone. We're standing behind you.
Living out of a suitcase is rough. It’s stressful even though it’s also fun. You are doing that with two kids all while doing Nano. I’d have anxiety too!. I also get what you’re saying about a hyper critical parent and needing validation as a result. Same here. A great big hug to you, Sarra. You are more than good enough.❤️😘
And she is doing the videos, which sounds like it could be a full time job. Maybe she has a clone of herself to get everything done. Ha ha!
Aww, sweet Sarra. I’m so sorry that you’re struggling. Everyone’s energy has been so dark and anxiety filled this week. (And for the past two years for that matter.) Self care is huge. Exercise. Sleep. Eat something healthy at every meal. Cuddle with loved ones. And know we love you. You’re a wonderful human being.🥰
Today at work I had a very busy day of hard computer work. I work remotely and needed something to listen to that would be interesting but not too distracting. I put your notebook challenge playlist on random. Thanks for being my office mate for a day. It helped me get through a crazy hard day. Your videos are inspiring, thoughtful, and genuine. Know that you are appreciated.
I listen to Sarra a lot too while I’m working! Her cheerfulness and positivity helps switch the day around, huh?!
My chest has been tight all week, so I understand anxiety. Work, kids, appointments, meals, and wanting to write SO bad on top of that makes me want to call in sick so I can stay home and write. 😆😆 It helps that I’m not alone. Doing new and full moon rituals helps!
You are amazing! And anxiety is the spawn of the devil. And can't say much to give you the internal strength you need for your battle, but what I can say is thank you. What you have done for my daughter who has followed your journey and found strength from your teachings to try her hand at following her own dreams. This year she is participating in Nanowrimo which is something she would never have had the courage to do without your encouragement and guidance. So thank you for putting light back in the eyes of my child. Blessed be.
Sarra, and anyone else who needs it, I've been getting a lot out of listening to Life coach Martha Beck (Opra's life coach). If anyone is feeling they need some good tools for difficult times, she does a FB Live on Sundays 4pm EST. Thank you for being so open about your struggles. You are so inspiring!
The peril of being a creative person: the what if scenarios can spiral out of control. But, the good thing is that anxiety will often pass as balance is restored.
You are amazing and I definitely would not be where I am without you. You are so appreciated. I just made level 45 last month. It has begun this really amazing journey and I love it so much. It is going to be great for you too.
Oh, Sarra. I just want to give you a hug. And watch your kids for an hour so you can take a nap.
You're only human. It would be a miracle if you didn't have anxieties. I'd freak out if I had to go through what you're going through. Rooting for you! Without the downs we would not be able to appreciate the ups. They're sadly part of life.
I would much rather watch/listen to a person who is honest than a person who is full of false cheer. Your humanity and care is what makes your channel so great. We all feel like you're a friend. I was truly ready to give up writing until I stumbled upon your videos. Your stories, advice, and words of encouragement have inspired me not to give up, not to let anyone else's negative words a space in my head. Thank you for putting your feelings out there. I hope your anxiety eases as the days go on. You truly are doing a fabulous job and are a blessing to so many.
Sarra - you have such a beautiful spirit! Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your feelings with us tonight. Watching this video brought me to tears because I relate to so many of the same things right now! My anxiety has been on overdrive these last few days as well, and I totally understand about milestone birthdays and how they can push us emotionally - I had a HUGE milestone birthday in July, so i get it!! You have so many kindred spirits here in this community who appreciate what you do every day! Thank you for being you - so much of what you share gives others strength, myself included. 💕 💕 💕
Good morning. You got this, sweetie. Keep this in mind. we homeschooled our daughter... she now owns her own large trucking company. Andrew will go on to do great things because of the guidance you and George provide for him. Her oldest daughter battles with anxiety. I get it. You'll find that spot where you can breathe... but you have to allow yourself to walk through that door. I'm almost old enough to be your mom so let me say this... you have come so far and have so much to be proud of. Find one 'gratitude' every day to write in your planner. We are blessed to have you. Hugs & Blessings!
I’ve been through this! If you have a genetic predisposition to any sort of anxiety disorder it’s triggered by trauma, hormonal change, and just big life changes in general. You’ve got all three of those going on. Do not be afraid of medication- it’s a blessing and grounds you so that you can sort your thoughts. A good therapist that is experienced with OCD and anxiety disorders will change your life.
So many blessings to you, friend! I love your channel!
Anxiety is awful. This whole thing was such a New Moon in Scorpio. I felt it.
Thank you so much for talking about self worth. I thought I was the only one who felt like I do not have the talent and my self worth was how many books I sold. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
I can't say it enough: Sarra, you're truly an inspiration and one of the strongest persons I know! Being a full-time author, mom, vlogger and dealing with all the changes life has been throwing at you head on with such grace and strength, is just proof how formidably strong and resilient you are! Thank you for your authenticity and being strong enough to show us your vulnerability! I know now what your name stands for: S is for Strong, A is for Amazing, R is for Raw, R is resilient and A is for Awe-inspiring :)
Definitely feel you, I think these last few years have amped up or given almost everyone anxiety. One thing I remind myself is that “your best is different everyday.” Some days we can do more some days we can’t. I am so grateful for the things I have but have found if I focus too much on what I do have it strangely gives me anxiety about losing what I have. So I try to take it day by day and throw out loose plans for my future while focusing on the beauty of the simple things that remain steadfast that I can see daily…like birds at my feeder, walks outside, sunsets and sunrises etc, these things remind me the world is far bigger than me and gives me a feeling of stability, even when the world is in chaos. That settles my soul more than anything else. Sounds corny but it’s true. Sending you love ❤️
Be gentle with yourself, Sara.❤️❤️❤️❤️🇨🇦
Needed to stop halfway to comment, Sarra, I completely understand what you mean about anxiety and all those voices in your head getting you down and making you feel like you suck. I know is super hard to get out of that state as you feel as if you are stuck suffocating in a hole which is un climable, but I just put most of everything to the side and focus on me. If I "waste" a day doing nothing but crafting, sewing, watching yt or reading but the next day I don't feel anxious or even if I feel less of it, for me is a win because if I don't do things to get out of my mental prison I won't be functional. I love that you powered through it all and decided to sit and write, because you are not letting the anxiety rule over you, big hugs
It has been a rough day. My IBS is flaring up. I have needed my medication to help with my symptoms. I haven’t started to work on my writing project today. I was in contact with my surgical team today finalizing my surgery for next month. It has made me very anxious. I think I will do some personal journaling and try to get back on track. My anxiety has gotten worse over the last year due to the pandemic and my chronic illnesses. Today I just needed to take it easy and not push myself to get things done.
Thank you for sharing part of your own journey. I'm hoping your surgery makes an amazing difference for you
@@HeartBreathings Thank you! Knowing everything is finalized makes it more real and definitely caused my anxiety to be worse. I am hoping that a good night sleep will help me be less anxious tomorrow so I can get some work done.
I want you to know that I love you. And I am so thankful that you share your honest journey. Anxiety is brutal. I'm also really glad to see you buy flowers for yourself! You can be grateful and still struggle. They are not the same thing. I know your heart and mind are at war sometimes. As you unravel these tangles in your history, know that you're not alone. We're with you. You have completely changed my life. I went from one of the darkest moments in my life to a bright, productive, and fulfilled life. Even during the struggles, I've still found the road back to myself thanks to your guidance.
Also, you love October, Halloween, and NaNoWriMo. You've got to give yourself at least five or six days break after your Halloween events. I know it affects NaNoWriMo's word count, BUT you put SO much pressure on yourself!
❤️ thank you Dawn
I felt the anxiety yesterday too. I'm feeling the pressure of 'when is it going to be enough' in my soul. I'm learning to just let all that go and focus on what's important.
I could relate so much with what you said. Self doubt and judging, self worth based on numbers outside of ourselves is unfair to us. Self love should come from within rather than from others validation.
I love that you reveal the trueness of being a writer, I sympathize with you truly, I have had anxiety and depression ever since my father passed away in January but I find what does help is St. John wort and Ashewanda root for those problems as well as Ginkgo for mental clarity, but do not go over the milligrams recommended. And do not forgot that you are a good person and you are worthy as well as the words which you bleed onto the page, all of us writers are worthy as well as the the story we tell, you can do this, I know you can.
I hope your enjoying this time exploring the world with your family, and creating wonderful memories that will last your life and theirs. Taking time to see the world with new eyes as your little one does.
Sarra, First off, thank you for sharing your life, your career, and your family with us. Thank you for being vulnerable with us. Those of us who live with anxiety completely understand your "ramble" we live it too! And you inspire me. For real, I tell my husband and kids - Sarra Cannon supports her family by writing and self-publishing novels and creating a community, that's gonna be me one day. You inspire me - you show me that this is possible. I just turned 47 the day this vlog posted and I feel like I'm running out of time, too! The critical views of others terrify me because I also have the critical voice in my head (that really belongs to my mother and father) but I push on because I know in my heart that those voices are not the truth. I'm trying to balance the quiet creative work with the social media sharing, with the day job, the family, etc etc. Now I'm rambling. I just want to say Thank You. Take breaks as you need to--we'll be here cheering you on!
I heard this new moon in scorpio was going to be a hard one on the emotions. Even though you are having fun seeing new things while traveling I can't imagine it has been easy constantly being on the move with a young family and running a business at the same time. I think anxiety can be soothed by sitting with our shadow side and embracing it rather than trying to push it away. I know when I feel as if I could of handled something differently or I'm not feeling like I'm living up to my expectations I try to sit with those shadow thoughts as if it was with a person who is in need of my compassion. Writing, creating a painting, or any other creative process where we put our energetic vibration into the work means that work contains a piece of our essence so it is hard not to be affected by others viewpoints. But at the same time, what we created did not exist before that point and we should be proud of its birth in whatever form it is in for the simple fact that we alone created that piece of writing or that watercolour painting.
*Hugs* I soooo relate! My anxiety does the same thing sometimes.
As for hearing your mom's voice, I hear my father'svoice, a similar criticizing tone.
I started to train myself, when I hear that voice, I literally say out loud, "Stop! That is not nice. I choose kindness." I find some way to make the voice in my head say something much nicer.
It takes practice, but it really changes you, as you progress. I truly hope this is helpful in some way. 💜😘
Girl! Everything you are saying has been what I’ve been talking about in therapy for the past month!
Don't worry Sarra. I would never ridicule you for struggling with anxiety as a fellow anxiety conquerer my self. Anxiety isn't always logical but it isn't always suppose to be. Your feelings are valid. I just love your honesty and openness. Love and blessings from a Florida native.
You are a kind, loving person. IF, you have a bad day filled with anxiety, you do not have to apologize to us or anyone. Look in the mirror everyday and tell yourself, "You are enough!" Sending hugs and positive vibes. XO
Hey, Sarra. Please know that what you do has really helped me to get started again on my writing. I know about anxiety and how insidious it can be. While you are already enough without having to give us the gift of your experience, I value your experience and that you give it so generously. Thankyou. Take care.
I am an older, single mother. I am 36 and my daughter is 10 tomorrow :) I always wanted to write and never did but I started watching your videos and I have now self published a novella and i am writing the first main book in the seris. You are an inspiration to me, you are the reason I took this step. Thank you so much
I am doing my first,. But right now it’s just for getting the feel of writing fir thirty days. No story in mind. I belong to two writing groups..
You are awesome. Thanks for your inspiration. I write on and off too. But when I think of something to write.
Sarra, I'm just catching up on your Nano Diaries. To hear you speak about your anxiety makes me feel like I am not alone. I told my mom recently that most days my mind is quite unkind to me. From having a stressful day job to guiding my 10th book to publication to trying to be a good wife and mother and slipping in self care whenever I can (which isn't that often), anxiety rides shotgun with me wherever I go. Like you, I want to be free of that. Of constantly trying to prove my worth to others. Thank you for sharing your struggles with us, Sarra. You are a welcome balm, a fresh breath of air, and such a blessing to the world.
Oh, my dear Sarra, I wish I could give you a hug. You are such a wonderful, beautiful, caring person and do not deserve to be in this anxiety-ridden hell you are presently in. I share a lot of the same issues with you and so I totally understand what you are going through. Please try not to be so tough on yourself. You will make excellent decisions and everything will work out just fine. Just have some faith and believe in yourself and the love of your family and friends. We all have your back. We love you.
I can so relate to the anxiety about sharing yourself so openly. It takes tremendous courage to do so and I admire you for being able to do so. Other than this post I’ve shared with exactly one person that I decided to write - completely inspired by you - during NaNoWriMo. The response not encouraging, just neutral. So I’m writing for myself with no intention to share it, seeing it as an opportunity to not do the professional writing I’m trained in, but instead stretch so I can learn how to write in a different voice. Some day I might even write a novel rather than a personal memoir. But I credit this writing largely to you and the courage you show every time you share yourself. Thank you, Sarra 🙏
I know how debilitating anxiety can be. FWIW, I just wanted to say that when I found you on UA-cam I couldn't even put the creative writing ideas down on paper, let them live on in my head. Now I write them down and I totally see myself sharing my work in the not so distant future.
I'm only halfway through the video, but I want you to know that your vulnerability is everything to me right now. You're a role model for me and seeing/knowing you go through the same struggles and anxiety despite our vastly different positions in life is so encouraging.
Bravo Sarra! Us too, us too. Anxiety does SUCK. We all have the ups and downs. I love making this journey with you, stay real girl. I believe age helps with getting to know who you are, a beautiful wisdom takes place. I just turned 60 and I couldn't be happier. I gave birth to my daughter at 52, and she's 8 now. I so relate with the kid thing. I also have two boys who are 32 and 29 and gave birth to 8 surrogate babies in between. It's amazing how in touch you are when you give yourself self-care. Recently, after some therapy, I realized I lost myself for like 6 months. It's weird when you can really know you lost sight of yourself, and then see "Hey wait, I lost myself" because I wasn't letting myself be seen, and you find yourself again and with TIME, it gets easier to be aware of and life is so MUCH more joyful.
I wish wish wish I could give you what you need, but after my own experiences with anxiety, PTSD, adhd, being diagnosed on the autism spectrum (and then being told by some that my childhood was too “happy” to deserve being “sad”) and feeling that my own flipping life hasn’t begun to be close to what I ever dreamed of until at age 44-I KNOW there is nothing I can merely “say” to you to make it better. Just know you are not alone. And don’t discount your rambling. Sometimes that’s when you speak the wisdom that others need to hear, oral storytelling around the fire. And speaking aloud makes it easier sometimes.❤️
You have no idea how much I needed to hear your story today
You are an inspiration. You have helped me overcome some of my writing hurdles. Thank you for your videos.
Anxiety does suck. It is ridiculous how much doubt comes into your mind. I write the hardest questions down. (Mainly why haven't I finished a book in three years!) As with you, life likes to throw me curveballs, the size of comets. I can't control what happens in life, only if I decide to move past them or let them way me down. Same with you. Living with haters is tough. The worst thing is we can't ever get rid of them. Sure we can block them, but they never go away. And their words have already hurt. You are being too hard on yourself. You can't please everyone. You should try because it is impossible. All you or anyone can do is live their life in a way that makes them happy.
Just know that you are amazing. You share generously, authentically, beautifully.....you are a gift for so many of us that have watched, but not taken the time to say "thank you." So, THANK YOU.... you are worth whatever you need at this very moment. You are amazing!
Anxiety can be awful and can come at the most unexpected times. Thanks for sharing, it was something I needed to see tonight❤
Being mindful every day will keep you on your path. Many hugs and love, Sarra! Removing the toxic people from our lives is so key to self-love and future self-worth. Many of us have struggled with parents that put those negative tapes in our heads. It's not easy to override them--but just keep at it. Some days they'll be louder than others. And some days you can look back and say, "I rocked it!" Because you do in so many ways. None of us are perfect--it's an impossible bar to achieve, and whoever said that was the only bar to measure our self worth was someone who really never struggled with finding balance in the day-to-day life. Your family is going on an adventure of a lifetime. Someday Andrew and Evie will look at the old videos and laugh at what a wonderful time they had. They'll admire you and George for having the courage to live your best life and try something most people wouldn't have the courage to do. I do wish Anxiety was as easy to remove as yesterday's trash. Hormones play a huge part in anxiety. Thank you for being who you are and showing up to encourage others, even when you need encouragement yourself. {{{HUGS}}}
I think it's totally understandable to have an anxiety if you were living in one place and now you are on the road. There are a lot of changes and even good things which make you all hyped and happy actually stress you too and even it's called "positive" stress it takes a lot of energy. So don't be so hard on yourself and try to rest more thanks for sharing all of this and just for existing.
Omg, I'm crying ^^'
thank you for validating this, Anxiety is real as writers.
I'll be 45 in December and I agree with the whole existential angst over "Is this my life?". I also experience anxiety so maybe the two go hand in hand? I love the NaNoWriMo Diaries.
I love your vulnerability. You make me realize that it is okay to have moments of doubt as long as I don't let them take me down. You've inspired me in so many ways, both with my writing and my life. I've made difficult decisions because of how real you are. Thank you. I can't tell you how much I really appreciate it.
Thank you for sharing. I think the enormity of travelling with children, while working, with out having a clear future mapped out certainly creates added anxiety, But you are doing it as a family, as an adventure and the life skills your children are learning from you are way more valuable than worrying if you doing a good job “educating” them, this is homeschooling at its finest 👏 Best wishes for NaNoRiMo, you are helping us all to stay motivated, so keep it up 🥳 And btw, that 5 year old girl is so proud of you!
Thank you for your honesty. Thursday we got an offical autism diagnosis for my son and my anxiety has been so high. That voice inside just loves making me spiral into darkness. You're such an inspiration and I'm glad your night did get better. 🧡
I'm so sorry that you're going through these anxious moments. And I get it, because we were only on NaNo Day 3 and I was already feeling super crappy about progress because I'm editing vs drafting, and this is my first time doing that... so I'm flying blind. Don't ever worry about showing your vulnerable side, that's what makes people love you. I'll leave you with 2 things. 1 - we're always here for you! Always. 2 - Comparison is the thief of joy. All my love!
Ah, man. I know I already commented once, but, Sarra, for reals. It's like you're inside my mind. All of your rambling is EXACTLY how I feel.
I feel like I have to prove myself to others 🥺 that I’m good enough to be loved and valued
You are enough! You are doing a great job. You are describing me in every way. Anxiety sucks, plus I have panic attacks. Just keep being you and pay no attention to the negative comments. Do what makes you happy. You will never make everyone happy. Take care and rest and take breaks.
Thanks for being so honest and vulnerable. Maybe some changes to the traveling in the new year might help, like staying in each air bnb for longer, like 3 or 4 weeks so you can find more of a routine.
Bad brain weasels day. I feel you! I love how open you are. It makes it better for those of us that are your Tribe. We are here for you!
Sarra, you have no idea how helpful this was for me to hear today. I was journaling this morning along the same lines, same anxiety, same worries. Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable. Have no doubt: you are making a difference! 💕
Aw Sarra I know exactly how you feel! I have such bad anxiety about everything regarding myself. I find that I can be the best cheerleader for others but when it comes to myself I feel like i'm lacking and I am just a horrible person. I grew up with an abusive parent and my therapist told me that that voice in my head is that parent and I need to try and tell it to stop. It's a hard thing to unlearn and i'm still struggling with it myself. That being said, you are so important and amazing and there are so many of us out here who are doing great things because of the encouragement and love that you give to us all the time. I know it can be hard to hear people give you complements or to hear good things about yourself, but you are amazing and the world is a brighter place with you in it and you put everything out with love and light! Hang in there and take care of yourself and know that you are so immensely loved!
❤️ thank you so much for the kind words. It really means a lot!
I’m saddened and sorry you’ve had to go through that and that you feel bad about yourself. There are so many videos and self help methods to start loving yourself. I wish the best for you!
Thank you, Sarra for your openness. I think we all strongly need it. We live in the real world where together with joyful moments and peaceful life there are a lot of destroying thoughts and feelings. Like anxiety. And it’s okay. And we should speak about it out loud.
I'm so sorry you've been dealing with anxiety so much this year. I hope it eases up soon, but just in case it doesn't, know that you're loved and you're amazing. You truly are inspiring. 💙
Sarra, we have similar shadows, similar perfectionistic' plants 'and those periodic anxiety walls. I have learned that asking why just sends me down a rabbit hole. Lately I have learned that breathing into the anxiety and even talking to my body to tell it to let go has helped me. Sometimes I have just told that voice in my head to shut up. Also knowing that voice is my fearful child I have comforted her. I have found that talking to the voice either verbally or in my journal, helps me rebalance. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you knowing that every day you are growing with a deeper recognition of the fact that you do not need any external validation for giving your gifts from your heart. Thank you for your generosity.
Brown sugar shaken espresso is my favorite Starbucks drink! So sorry anxiety is creeping in. Anxiety is a jerk!
Awe, our sweet Sarra, anxiety is very difficult! I have tried many things, but one small little tool that has helped me shut out all the negative thoughts has been so simple, yet it works amazingly! Every time you get negative thoughts, just interrupt them by saying "Only my good thoughts have any power." That simple sentence repeated can help to make you feel better and interrupt those negative thought patterns so that you can move forward. I sure hope it helps! Huge hugs and healing vibrations sent your way!
You have helped me find a pathway to go for my dreams. I have learned so much from your HB90 and Publish and Thrive and am so glad that you believed in yourself enough to go after your own dreams.
"The world is a dumpster fire..." 😅 very true. Love the raw honesty. It matters because some people feel the same but feel alone.
Sarra, you are heard and you are so valuable to your fans and readers. I share a lot of your same anxieties. I've struggled for years thinking I was never going to be good enough. I still question myself and my writing each and every day. But I want you to know that your videos and ramblings and vulnerability has meant so much to me. You give me the courage to push through it and I cannot wait to release my first book this year thanks to you. So thank you for all you have done. You're such an inspiration!
I understand exactly what you are talking about regarding that anxiety and the feeling of not enough…. Especially on the new moon! I had the same kind of day and I too have many things to be thankful for and I am…. But the last 4 years have been crazy stressful and have made me question everything about myself when I used to be so confident! Trying to finish my first draft but now I’m not able to move the story forward… I find it not good enough and find myself paralyzed …ugh! 🙏💜🌸
Sending love. I understand this kind of feeling and I'm truly rooting for you.
Thank you so much for being honest about what you're dealing with. Never apologize for how you feel or how you're handling it. Seeing you breakdown on YT helps the rest of us remember that life is messy sometimes. I struggle with the same things you do and it's nice knowing I'm not alone ❤
Sarra, you are the most confident person I know. You have to be confident to open your heart to people and on youtube non the less. We all strive for perfection and YOU are perfect just the way you are!
Your pink kitty headphones always make me smile when you wear them
Let the words fly onto the page and enjoy where your characters take you even if they take on life of their own.
Holding you in the Light.
Thank you Karen.
This vlog series is what I needed. I have been too overwhelmed with my job (teaching middle school) to let myself try NaNoWriMo this year. I’m going to have my own personal NaNo later this year when I have some days off. I am a grandma and haven’t finished a book ever…yet, but I can REALLY relate to your life. Anxiety is a real thing, especially this year, for so many people. 🙏🏼Thank you so much for sharing. 🥰
it’s a little different than what you touched on, but talking about our worth feeling tied to numbers really hits home as someone who’s in recovery for an eating disorder. so thank you for talking about this.
Thank you for sharing your experience with anxiety. So many of us struggle with it and I have so much respect for your honesty and vulnerability. You are the real deal and what you think might be rambling is actually so helpful to many of us.💕
This was exactly what I needed to see and hear today. Everything you said is so relatable, and it’s reassuring to hear someone else put words to it! The pressure, the having to prove yourself, the overachiever tendency of it never being enough, the anxiety that pops up even when things are generally good, the wanting everyone to just come together and get along…I am exactly right there with you. So much love to you, Sarra!
I think you are super brave and caring Sarra. You give so much of yourself to all of us, fans, admins, fellow writers. You are amazing and beautiful. IT is ok to have these thoughts, it is ok to feel that way. I hope that you can find some peace within and see yourself how so many of us see you, as the inspriation, beautiful person that you are.
Sarra, You are doing AMAZING in everything you do. I totally understand what you are talking about, because I live that life, too. The difference between you and I is that you are multi-published. My anxiety is so crippling that I tell myself those things everyday. You’re not good enough. Why would anyone want to read what you’ve written? Or when I am able to get words out and I re read them, I think they are terrible. I have convinced myself so many times that I should just give up on what I am doing, that I have been writing for twenty years and have yet to publish. I do have two and a half manuscripts written so I do have that, but they are a mess. Writing or anything creative is hard.
I’m sorry that you are dealing with all of this, but just know you have so much support out here. So many fans of your writing, your videos, your story, your journey, and all of your knowledge. You have no idea how much you have helped me. I have actually started pulling my manuscripts out and re reading and trying to fix them. I appreciate your sharing your life and being so transparent, because it makes people like me feel more normal.
Take care of yourself, girl. Take a deep breath and just relax. You are beautiful, you are smart, your a great mom, and wife, and so very talented. And you are enough!
Xoxo
Micole
I believe in you. ❤️
Thank you. I believe in you too.
Thanks for your honest, heartfelt chat. I agree that this past couple of years has been a dumpster fire producing more anxiety than usual. I’m amazed at how much you’re handling. I think not one of your critics would last 10 minutes in your shoes. I too wish our society could being more accepting, more positive, more respectful, more supportive. Sending you lots of positivity and love. You have helped and inspired me so much. Thank you. And happy writing! 💻
What helps me sometimes is going for a nature walk with no radio, no artificial noise and use my 5 senses in discovering what nature has too say.
Sarra, you are such a strong and sympathetic person, I hope you feel better now. Mental health problems are hard, I feel with you. Take heart in the undeniable fact that you are a talented writer.
Many of us who are more spiritual can feel the heart and energy of the earth and all her creatures. In today's world that is a hard thing. Then our own day to day activities and feelings exaggerates those feelings. It helps to remember that Mother Earth is a school and we are all here to learn, all at different times, levels etc. But though we may have tools to help them, it is still their free will to decide how they will learn on this Earth. Like I said before Criticism is evidence that your awesomeness is being witnessed. Be proud of who you are Sarra. I know I am proud of you. And yes, Joy is the main thing to have as a goal as well as compassion and gratitude.
OMG you hit a nerve for me. I too have been through lots of therapy and I think that all the stuff has been dealt with but then that stuff resurfaces when I'm tired and that is exactly what you are mentioning never feeling good enough. Thank you so much for keeping some of this raw and not just glossing it over and making it look like all is always peachy.
From one Mama to another, you're doing amazing!
It good to release your thoughts and struggles. I've got issues from my past that bubble up when it comes to my children, but I remind myself that my kids are healthy and happy, so I must be doing a good job. I believe you're doing the same. Your situation cannot be easy, but you're on a beautiful adventure with your wonderful family making memories.
You got this!
I really enjoyed this. I had my first book published back in 2009, and I expected it to be my ticket out of a bad situation and it wasn’t. Going back and reading it now, I can see why it didn’t do so well online, lol! So, I became discouraged and fell down that said rabbit hole and I stopped writing all together. It wasn’t until I learned from watching you, Kristen Martin and Kate that I became intrigued. So intrigued, my daughter and I participated in NaNoWirMo 2020, and I’m proud to say that I am still working on that same novel. I’ve taken my time with reading more and studying the art of writing, which is helping me improve my own writing. I’m so glad I found your channel Sarra, as well as other channels that I’ve found to be so inspiring and encouraging. I think at some point, we all go down that dark rabbit hole of depression and anxiety. But if we stay focused and know who we are and that we control our own happiness, we can not only climb out of that rabbit hole, but we get stronger each time we do.
I do know, that sometimes it’s easier said then done. Coming from a person who needs to start taking her own advice. Lol!
Thank you for being so honest and real. It's really tough when you grow up with constant criticism and judgment and toxicity (been there myself) to break free of that. And yes, you're totally right - anxiety sucks! But our strength lies in getting through those times and knowing where it comes from and where we can go from there. Sending healing vibes and prayers that you're feeling better, Sarra!
Sending you a big virtual hug and I just want to say that you are the reason that I signed up for NaNoWriMo this year and started to believe in myself and my writing journey!!! You are a huge role model and inspiration to me and I hope that one day to see myself as a published author and so I want to thank you for sharing your heart and leading the way for others like myself 💜
I’m sending you calm vibes. With my personal anxiety, talking about it and knowing the insanity of the thoughts help a lot. I know you can be better! Lovesssss❤️❤️❤️❤️
I wish I could give you a massive hug. We love you and your rambling. Your raw truth is never something you should apologise for. We are here for all of it and all of you. I hope that things start to ease for you now xxx
Oh, Sarra I so understand this. I have also struggled with anxiety and depression my whole life. I had what I'm calling a Pandemic panic the other night. This is a usual panic attack but worsened by the fact a pandemic causes us to wake up every day with stress at "6" before we even start our day. I was also traveling on the road with my husband's job when my boy was small and homeschooled my son right through Highschool because of his social anxiety. Firstly, I want to say I think you are amazing and you are doing amazing things. Traveling around is wonderful but it also is lots of extra stress never mind the lack of sleep with young ones that causes the serotonin in your mind to be very low. Small steps Sara, don't worry about bright line eating make sure you eat as much fruit and veggies as you can and drink water and find ways to bring your anxiety down, meditate or listen to calming music, etc. Tidy your space anything small that can calm you and ground you. 45 was a very key age for me feeling the need to leave my legacy, too. I actually started writing my novels then. And ten years later I actually don't feel that burden anymore, as I have published 7 books in that time. I also think following you for a while you do love having your own space, your office is always incredible and I think not being anchored is also hard for you. A big well done for getting your word count in today. Know even though you don't know me that I am rooting for you not only to be a success with Nano but to also to become the truest version of yourself. Notice I didn't say "most perfect" Much love and gentle hugs xxx
I think this a great post. I was feeling down about my novel because it’s about a depressed teen and people will think it’s down. But your post reminds me there are people out there who identify with depression and it’s important to get it out there.
I can’t deal with not having a home base. I love the freedom of the road for about three days.
Omg this video made me cry. I felt you and I know exactly what anxiety and depression feels like. You are not alone and what you do truly matters. You are a beautiful inspiring soul that has really impacted me as a writer and a person. Thank you for your raw honesty and vulnerability it is rare in todays world and many people need to hear those words because they feel the same way and need to know that it’s okay to not be okay sometimes but still have faith and trust in ourselves to take keep moving forward and do what’s best for our health.
Wish I could give you a hug! Be as gracious with yourself as you are with others. I can’t imagine how fun and how hard this adventure is for your family! It’s amazing you accomplish anything!