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The AI art issue has brought up a lot of anger for me, tbh. I've seen so many people that I thought I could count on as creative allies just... completely turn on all the artists they know in favour of image generation, and when called on it hear them reveal just how little they actually value the work and creativity done by human artists. A lot of people apparently sincerely believe that art is a completely valueless skill that no one should ever be compensated for, and that hurts to hear!
Absolutely! Hoping I can put my thoughts together properly, because rn they are aflutter, but this topic really gets my emotions going. Hope this can be further explored when she goes live. Just know, you’re not alone in mulling over this issue.
Its honestly very depressing watching people indulge themselves in mostly stolen art and calling themselves artists for it. Art devoid of emotion or intention is meaningless, and I wish more people could realize that.
For me it was learning that Qinni's "best friend" is very active in selling NFTs and pro AI art, even using her death to justify that NFT art theft is not as bad as Amazon stores stealing Qinni's work for knock-off merch. It's definitely a turning point for me on how art online has shifted and how greed can fundamentally change the way you view fellow artists.
I’ve unsubbed from a few people who were promoting ai generators to create reference images.
It really is a 'friend filter', huh. Suddenly easy to find out who has you in their butt and only cares for what they can get out of it
Honestly, I don't know how every serious art youtuber doesn't just crumple in an exhausted, overwhelmed heap. This is such a demanding, insecure and fickle career choice, which is stressful enough, but add in all the shite that every day life throws at you and it's really tough. Take care of yourself first, Arleesha. There is no career that is worth losing your sanity or your family life over. Your audience is loyal and will be here, no matter how you choose to progress. Thanks for all your hard work.
2022 was the lowest point of my life. I did minimal art and didn't let myself feel bad about it. I was busy grieving the loss of my marriage which ended suddenly and tragically. I am in a loving relationship with myself and a new partner and finally have my creative juices flowing again!
Awesome 😎
So wonderful to hear!
this is wonderful to hear, but i think its good you didn’t let yourself feel bad about not making art. It happens sometimes, im glad youre life is getting better! :D
WELL DONE congratulations for knowing your worth.
I’m happy to hear you’re loving yourself. I hope better years are coming for you and it doesn’t hurt too bad. Divorce or even death is terrifying, stay strong.💕
Been wondering where you are, but never want to rush you to post or speak out. You are such an inspiration to me and my art and in being a mother. Sending you so much love, and can't wait to watch this. ♡
Oof, AI generated art. I hate it and it scares me. It makes me feel worthless, but I know feeling worthless is a lie. I know there's lessons to be learned in this, and I know God wouldn't give me this life purpose of making art if I was meant to become obsolete. I think people will discover the irreplaceable importance of human made art, but in the meantime, discovering within ourselves the importance of just existing and expressing is what gives our art value. That's always been its true value, even if we've forgotten because society demands us to make money to survive. Maybe at the end of all things, AI will do ALL "jobs" and we'll be making art not to support ourselves but just because our soul asks for it. We won't be just living to survive. And we won't want for food or money because when everyone is "obsolete," all that's left is to just live freely and share and love. That's my endlessly optimistic hope for the future, because if that's not the way things are going, then the world looks utterly bleak and I refuse to accept that. Ultimately, I just hope people wake up and get rid of AI technology in all, but that seems even less realistic than my utopian dream. But I know beneath the root of all my fears, the truth is I have value just for existing, that I wouldn't exist if I didn't have a purpose, and that gives me some comfort when I find my mind spiraling.
2022 was seriously like a fever breaking for me. I think I reached a breaking point, or a new chapter or something. Everything feels different. It's hard to put it into words.
Seeing posts online about how 2022 was some peoples' major year for recovery and improvement made me feel so strangely disconnected. It's comforting to read the comments here and see that other people were also going through it last year. We can all get through this. Hopefully this year brings good things!
In better news, I finally feel like I'm getting good at art. Skills that I've struggled with in the past are finally less amateur, and I'm making art that surprises me with how much I like it and how proud I feel. Trying to build up the courage to share my art online has been tough, but I'm thinking that this might be my year to start.
Wishing a year of growth and comfort to everyone else.
You’ve always been such a big inspiration for me. I did my artist research project on you! Keep painting please!
Nicole, she will be honoured by that. What a beautiful gesture by you.
Beautiful video and you're so right: when the loneliness and deep melancholy sets in, reaching out and having a few peers to talk to is EVERYTHING. It's something I struggle with a lot because I don't want to be a downer or push people away, which is my #1 fear XD The hit of blue on the left eye of this painting was perfection for me 👌💖
It's so nice to hear your voice. I have many many many thoughts about the topics you mentioned and I wouldn't know where to start but it would not fit in a comment so I'll just say that I hope you know you are very loved by this community, I'm so sorry this past year had been so challenging, and that I look forward to hearing your thoughts. ❤️
I'm starting my final year of highschool and it's terrifying and It's made it so hard to create art because of the anxiety and the need for perfection. I find that, academic validation creeping into my art and I would love to know if you struggle with this perfectionism and anxiety holding you back, especially with family and support systems if you know what I mean. Love your art too arlee
I feel the same! for me its been tough cuz I completely stopped with art after my final grades and graduation. I don't know why I was so tough on myself, my art teacher was always fond of my art too, but seeing myself not reach that one A for art and constantly comparing to those around me completely bummed me out as a perfectionist. It has been almost a year since I graduated and I've slowly but surely relearnt my love for my own art. I don't wish that hatred I felt on anyone, it was horrible. I wish you the best of luck and I hope you know that your love for creating may fluctuate but it will always find a way to appear somehow, some way. I've found using cheap supplies and learning another form of art/creation has been helpful.
2022 was like an endless nightmare. War. Shock. I drew only one finished job. "Holy Ukraine". The fear of being arrested for an anti -war position. Groundhog Day. I don’t even remember how autumn passed. What happened. I was precisely drawing Huevember. I almost finished the course of training in the Blockflute. AI "art" mentally kills me. Everyone around me admires him, and in their eyes I see a mockery of myself. Everyone does not care about my feelings. I have to draw faster and better than a program that does not even draw. I do not see the light in front of this tunnel. And the light inside me seems almost faded. Tomorrow I will try to play on the whistle.
Hi, welcome back! I think the idea of opening up the opportunity to talk with other artists here is a great and warm way to start the year.
I've been trying to get back into art after many months being busy with uni. I'm a Physics major so I don't get a lot of chances to paint in my sketchbook these days. Christmas break gave me the chance to get back into painting again though, and I tried gouache for the first time! Still trying to get used to it after painting with only watercolors for five years.
Also, just wanted to mention how stunning the Schmincke Super Granulating paints look on that paper. So dreamy.
Wishing you the best for this new year, Arleesha!
I'm 31 years old. I'm slowly turning it around. Although my art is still garbage, I'm not posting it to social media anymore. It seems like this has given me some sort of freedom just to do what I do in a natural state. It feels good... In 2022 I started exercising, riding a bike, running, lifting weights, I started doing landscape photography as a hobby, I bought 30 Acres of hillside forest. Things seem to be going ok. But, also in 2022 my mother was diagnosed with Parkison's disease, my uncle died of lung cancer smoking cigs the whole time, and now my grandfather is dying of pancreatic cancer. I will keep on doing my art and photography and exercise. I won't stop because if I do... what else do I have..
I feel like I've lost a person of who I was last year. I barely painted and has kinda forgotten my watercolor paints. Struggled so much about my career and felt like I'm drifting. Seeing this video, just brought back all the spark in me. You're a big part of my art journey and I can't wait to watch more videos from you, Arleesha.
So grateful to see you back!
You (and the work you put out into the sphere) have influenced me greatly over the past few years…I found myself noticeably missing your videos, and looking forward to your next upload for a number of weeks, as well as having a growing sense of concern for your well-being recently.
I believe many of us, who spend a great deal of time watching or listening to YT throughout our day’s activities, do grow concerned when creators we have become familiar and comfortable with are suddenly absent for whatever reason.
I prayed that all was well in your life, and that your absence was merely for reasons of recharging or the like. It sounds like there was (probably still is) a whole lot of good, as well as some genuinely worrisome energies surrounding your world after all, and I pray the good has & will continue to consistently prevail…
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2022 has been a series of pitfalls and changes. Self-help books have come in handy. Talking with friends who also seem to be in the same rut or have surpassed the rut and are willing to give advice have helped so so much. I'm currently attempting to make my art into a business or something profitable that way I can live life the way my childself always dreamed of doing.
Almost there from Princess and the Frog really helps in getting things back on track and the mind focused on the objective and goal.
Sending positivity ✨️ to all those who need it! Y'all are awesome. Don't forget to breathe and take things a step at a time! You got this!!! Don't lose focus.
Beautifully stated.❤
It's so lovely to hear from you again and I very much look forward to the next video as well. 2022 was harder than I hoped it would be, but I've made big strides in the last month or two that I'm hoping I can turn things around. Fingers crossed!
Hi, arleesha. First of all, I'm glad that you're back, since you are one of the artists that has inspired and encouraged me the most over the years.
In this moment of my life, as a 18 years old, I'm facing the need to make a "career choice". I've always taken for granted that I would have gone to art school and later become a freelance illustrator, but with the rise of AI I find myself wondering if there will be place for me in the industry in the near future. This, alongside the fact that I would prefer to keep living near my family and friends, wich seems difficult since there aren't a lot of work opportunities related to art where I live, is making me think about the option of attending a university course completely different from art, wich hopefully would give me a stable source of income, and to keep pursuing art as an hobby in my free time.
I am at a point where I can't say that I've given up on art, but for sure I am considering choices that I never would have a year ago, before AI art started popping out. Nevertheless, I still have hope for the future.
Hope you're recovering from the obstacles you've encountered in your life in the last months, I wish for you and your family an happy life!
I am a writer and a professional therapist who has to start working very soon... and I have never been so anxious then when I heard that now, as a human and a professional (even if your work has nothing to do with social media in general) you absolutely HAVE to be on social media.
Everything seems so fake, forcing you into the boundaries of your own mental because you cannot just share what you are creating anymore... you have to follow trends, you have to be at the level of some other people that you don't connect with... and that generalization is (in my opinion) killing the personality of the artist as well as the human being.
I wish you and your family all the very best, Arlee ... you are a wonderful soul
Please don't let the pandemic get memory-holed. I'm sure so much of the malaise and sense of sadness coming from all around us is due to the cognitive dissonance of life carrying on as usual as people are dying or being disabled in our communities at enormous rates while no one will speak of it.
First off, welcome back! As for me, 2022 was a bit of a year with its ups and downs. Graduated and am blessed to be working in a field I love, but that has taken a strain on my creative abilities, both in writing and in art. Still need to work through some more personal matters as I enter the last year of my 20s and what that means to me as a young woman living in this day and age. Hoping to open more doors for myself this coming year as well as work on my relationship with myself.
The way you talked about “how our brain works” reminds me of myself a year ago when I’ve learnt I’ve been autistic
Edit: actually, two years ago, I have forgotten it’s 2023 already
I wasn’t upset or shaken by it, but it started some sort of overhauling my childhood memories. So much stuff that didn’t make sense now make it. It was a year of learning how I actually function and how to live with myself instead of forcing myself into the neurotypical mold.
Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to make art for the most of 2022, but now I finally have my little art space, not fully built, but the process has started. I still struggle with letting myself be free and creative, but I’m trying.
Usually my attention span doesn't warrant clicking on short videos, but this is a breath of fresh air. The things you said, I'd have to go sentence by sentence to list all the things I agree, but short version: I think your perspective is the right one, I'm glad we'll get so hear more from you, and I'm glad you're really encouraging people in your audience to connect with others.
I think you know my thoughts and feelings on the whole AI movement-ethically, emotionally, and economically-so I’ll forgo that for this comment. I will share that 2022 was a really HARD year for me. I quit art professionally because I was so burnt out, I moved across town, I got a full-time job that nearly (literally) killed me due to mental and physical health, and then after visiting the ER for mental health stuff met up with a theatre friend to work on his first play, got hooked back into theatre, realized creating in any way is what I want to do with my life, picked art back up and have finally said yes to being a professional creative, ended the year in silence and introspection, and now here we are at the forefront of 2023, like it’s begging us to take care of ourselves and those around us. I barely made art in 2022, in any medium or form, but the stuff I did do, I’m proud of. And I’m proud of myself for finally listening to when my mind and body need rest. I’m ready for a healthy 2023 where I say “no” more often, I say yes to passion projects, and take down our capitalist society in burning flames. Oh, whoops, did I say that last one out loud? But in all seriousness, capitalism is literally killing us and I’m so done. I just want a world where we can all just exist, not struggle just to eat or find a home. Sending you so much love, my friend. I hope we can visit soon! I’m hoping to be able to go with my family to visit fam in PA this summer 🤞🏼
thank you so much for sharing this video, since i discovered your art you have become an artist that inspires me to think differently when it comes to art and just to think in general. i hope everyone has a hopeful 2023 and we can all encourage and help one another
I usually don’t share things online but I think I’d like to open up and say that it’s been very difficult for me lately as an artist, it definitely been couple of months since my art has definitely just simply not been content. I lost all my motivation and willpower to make art and I have been drawing for a very long time now and I used to get a lot of negativity towards my art but I’d always continue no matter what. My depression definitely took the best of me from 2022, the beginning of this year is also very tough, being a closeted trans woman because of the circumstances I live in for so many years and having OCD has definitely took a lot of affect on me. I do wish I somehow bounce out of this and I go somewhere where I’ll feel safe and secure and begin to create again, but with art recently just simply not being appreciated I’m always like what is the point? It is so lonely to create art just for myself when I don’t even have people looking at it. I’ve always relatively been strong but not having a romantic partner also grows on you as you don’t even have time to allow yourself to be vulnerable and rely on somebody else. What I can say is the saddest part of it sometimes is when you look back and you remember how joyful you were about the things you were doing, let that be art and so on so fourth.
I have missed your videos and your calming presence! Sorry to hear you have been on the struggle bus, but you definitely are not on it alone! I would love to see videos about your studio, show old art pieces and how you feel about them. Sharing and being creative does not always mean creating new content
I have to be very vague since this account is under my name, but the end of last year and this first week of the new one have been some of the worst heartbreaking and soul crushing of my life, health wise, family wise and work wise. The latter especially has proven to be the worst in 20 years of employment, with little sign that it will get better. I cannot say more. I ache to make art and write, but my life is consumed from dawn to dusk with little time to breathe, let alone create. So, yeah, soul crushing.
I’ve really missed your videos so it’s good to hear from you ❤ I’ve been trying to start an art career for the past 6 months or so and it’s been really difficult, it feels like my presence online is hardly growing and it’s hard to know if I’m heading in the right direction or, if it is supposed to feel this slow to start out..?
2022 was the highest and lowest I've been in a couple of decades. Fighting for diagnosis, chronic pain. Also fought hard for women's rights, cleaner politics, and the artists in my community. So hard to find motivation and inspiration right now. The summer of "rage" wore me out body and soul. Right now I'm surviving. Thanks for the video and the honesty.
I would be interested in listening to your thoughts on AI art. I'm at an interesting intersection of both studying for a compsci major and being an artist myself, which has given me a lot of exposure to people both celebrating and nervous about the implications of AI art. From what I can tell, it seems like artists (while I believe anyone at any level can be an artist and I don't want to gatekeep, I use artist here to mean "someone who makes doing art a significant part of their identity" just so I have a definition) largely seem to be nervous about the implications of AI art on their livelihoods or on the meaning and worth of art as a whole, non-artists with a tech focus seem to think "oooh shiny new thing" and don't understand why AI art is that different from digital art or can't just be another valid medium. I hold the opinion that you have to have some level of knowledge to create art (eg. A toddler drawing a smiley face has observed that people have two eyes and a smile and tries to communicate that; again I don't think the barrier of entry is high, just that it exists), and since you can enter a prompt into an AI generator without knowing anything about the expected output (eg. Anyone can type in "face" without having seen a person or knowing anything about faces), I don't think it counts as a valid creation process. The counters I've heard to this are that 1. Art is kinda random anyways; artists don't start out knowing what they'll create and so you can't hold AI to the same standard and 2. There's some skill to knowing what to enter as an input, so there is a valid creation process informed by skill. While I agree that art can change over time and I don't know exactly what I'm going to end up with (how could I predict where each granule of ultramarine will land?), there's such a difference in the level of randomness between "oh that was a bit more blue than I expected, and I can adjust for that and learn from it" and "I told it to draw me a face, let's see what happens lol" that they can't be meaningfully compared. While I could just be biased and don't want to come across as elitist, I just don't see enough skill and intention in the word salad of AI prompts to count it as meaningful skill, especially since the same prompt can yield so many different results. In short, I just don't think "AI artists" count as artists, and thus AI art shouldn't really be considered art, and I'm really annoyed by people who don't know a whole lot about the creation process of art trying to say otherwise without making an effort to understand how we do art.
Anyways sorry that was a long rant lol. I'm glad to hear from you again, and I hope your 2023 is better than your 2022.
Most people are going to agree with you that are human artists. 😕 In fact, in nearly all art spaces “intent” is used to say what is the real true art. If you can communicate like a human then you can create art. No, I am not talking about AI, I’m talking about animals and insects that make “art.” Most people in art businesses believe only artists are humans. Calling AI human even if is controversial because we humans have a VERY tight idea of what’s human even excluding some humans outside of that idea.
That’s cool that you want to support artists, but in the end, your major and study will get rid of the use of expensive human labor anyway. Who cares about only a multibillion dollar company when other companies need jobs? 😕
I hope you're doing better, Arlee. I know it's been a hard year for a lot of us as artists. With how much bad news has happened in the last year alone, it's tough to stay positive and remain focused. With AI Art especially...I just feel even more hurt. As someone who is primarily a writer, facing tons of people who don't value my skills, and literally tell me to get a real job ... to see art and other artists be devalued by AI has been disheartening. Art is my refuge. I draw because I love it. I support other artists as often as I can. There's a whole face of the internet who is happy to try and tear us all down by stealing our work...and for what? The AI programs wouldn't have anything at all to iterate through without us artists to begin with. I dunno. I've been in a difficult place for quite a long while. I keep doing my best to make things better by learning new skills for work. I don't like that all my creative work is being looked down on wherever I turn. It makes staying positive very hard. I do keep trying, though.
I’m not even going to fricking lie, AI art is irrelevant to me because it seems like nobody but two people give a frick about me and my art. When I posted on IG, it was ignored to only AI comments asking for content or F4F. I’m either making crap only three people care about or what. I don’t want to disappear because I want people to see my art, but it seems like not everyone can be cared about in this world.
I’m not a person that wants to be in controversy and I want people to enjoy me and my content, but I refuse to beg for attention or even care anymore to just ask.
A human could steal my art and probably could turn it into something worthwhile, heck, even an AI could, but if it’s coming from me, people couldn’t care less. I’m not even relevant in my art spaces unless I act up. 😒
I got very sick in 2022 and spent a lot of the first half of the year symptomatic, angry, and exhausted. The end of the year brought some strength back but my art has definitely changed a lot and it’s been interesting working on coping with the changes in my body from what my illness has left behind. Without being a nag or mother hen, please to anyone out there reading this, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES FIRST. School, work, relationships will wait if they’re the right path but your health is so so important ❤
I found the last year a strange one as I began the first half being stuck in a job i found miserable/soul-sucking is a word I find reality in that situation and trapped. My mental health suffered tremendously as did the relationship with my partner and housemates. I took a leap of faith after getting my artwork out there via festivals/markets and left my job. I found the last half being an absolute high with meeting many other amazing artists through markets and traveling and making enough to sustain myself and go full time with my art career. Making decisions are scary but can be fruitful too. Hope you are ok Arlee!
So happy to see you. Can’t wait for the longer video.
AI makes me feel uncomfortable
Social media makes me feel defiant. I don’t want to care anymore and I hate feeling fake, being fake putting on a fake show
I just feel like Artists need a space to exist. Time pressure is helpful. But getting deep into our craft and loving it just because is needed too.
Just this morning I’m scrolling, looking at your past videos particularly the etchr ones - I just finally was able to buy a set of books. Getting it today- so I’ll be putting on one of your videos and painting to wind down later.
I’m glad to see you, you were in my thoughts.
i feel same with the ai one, it makes me feels stressed honestly so i go to music as some sort of escapism
social media is fine. ig but when opening instagram or twitter all i see is the world burning itself,
2022 has been a great year for me and i hope it continues in 2023 :) hope you’re having a great day too!
I have lots of thoughts in my mind about what you suggested, about social media , ai art and everything in between but i think that it's already clear where all of this is headed and it's scary . Regardless of that , i am thankful your channel exsits in my world feels safe , like home , it feels natural. Thank you for keep it that way ❤️
Happy new year!
Starting this new year with absolute no big goals, but only little intentions of, say, trying to be more understanding to others before I form an opinion.
The biggest you can say 'goal' I have for myself this year is just NOT to, by the end of the year, beat myself over the incidents and happenings of the whole year like I find myself doing every year.
There still are some art-relates intentions I have for my youtube and Instagram and personal growth, too!
Here is a prayer that we have a positive outlook thought the year 🤍✨
I totally relate.
Best of luck!
I have nothing to add. I’m just so glad you posted!
Even in your absence your videos have helped me so much and provided so much inspiration to me. It’s more than just the art, it’s your pov and the way you speak about things! So I’m just glad to hear your voice again and to be able to see you paint :)
Hi Arlee! Its so lovely to hear you voice again. I understand struggling to make anything at all. I graduated college in 2020, and I've found it extraordinarily difficult to make any artwork that I'm proud of. I've had to get a full time (non-art) job, and finding the time/energy/inspiration feels impossible. Its a very lonely feeling, but it's good to know I'm not the only one who feels this way.
so happy to see you upload! and yeah, 2022 was kinda rough. i'd want to talk about self-worth as an artist, especially as a beginner and/or self-taught. Recently i started a social media account for my art, 'cause i grew a little more confident about my drawings, but then another problem kicked in - i fight with myself for every upload because "do you really think your thoughts and OCs are THAT interesting? just give people some good work and not your whining and longreads" and "there's thousands who are better than you". And that was not because of some hate comments or bad numbers, but just because of...me hating myself apparently. Would like to hear your opinion on how to overcome this.
I'm still not great health wise (has always been a struggle for me), but I have had so many experiences that I'm honored I got to experience. I'm proud of the art I created as well. The motivation for art kept me going last year. I did start my first year of college, so having something I could fall back on gave me some hope and set me up for success this January.
I've missed your videos! Every time you post it gives me a safe space for me to breath. I appreciate that. Even when you don't post regularly, I fall back on your videos when I'm in a bad emotional state. Thank you so much Arleebean for stepping up and starting this community!
Reading through the comments I'm noticing how many of us barely did any art in 2023 and talking to my friends I see this pattern as well. What happened in 2022? Were we all collectively burnt out, tired, melancholic? It looks like 2022 wasn't the best year for artists, most of us rarely painted new stuff and if we did, we hardly ever felt it was good enough.
I totally feel this too ❤️ Someone else commented that we shouldn't forget how hard pandemic times have been on all of us, and that's not something that just goes away with the passage of time. Maybe we're not making as much because we just need tike to heal. :) Everything cycles, and we don't have to be at max productivity all the time to be real and important. I hope you're doing well! ❤️❤️
@@arleebean your art aint even good - no offence, I wouldnt be better , I been in art shool and you would be like an average at best. There are not much your videos and you dont even have many pictures on sale. Its just so depressing to see you making such astronomical amounts for such crappy drawings, it really makes me lose hope in life. I wasted a decade to get high education and my field requires me to work like 9-5 with night shifts and its super responsible and i still wont earn a fraction of what you get. Totally gonna kill myself
Missed you! Hope this year is wonderful for you 💛
i’m so glad and happy to see you back ❤
2022 was probably the worst year of my life, many things happened, i learned a lot about myself and my family as well and i really wish i didn’t.
ever since the beginning of the year all i ever wanted was a break
a break from everything. so i did it. i took a break from art, from social media and just tried going back to the things i used to enjoy before i became the human version of FOMO but for art and skills…if that makes sense. and i’ve been enjoying the process so far, it helps to not look at all the art posted online but i truly need to overcome this art fomo problem
anyway i’m not setting any new year resolutions to spare myself the pressure. although the only thing i wish i can do by the end of the year is maybe selling some original artworks and hopefully opening an online store :)
welcome back ❤
2022 was a very weird year for me, because I felt like I was riding on a very different track from other artists. Usually I feel very in-synch with the general mood of the art community, and I'm on the same wavelength, but this past year I didn't feel that. I spend a lot of time thinking about it, because processing what OTHER artists are going through always helps me process myself. So I'm interested to hear your thoughts on the next video!
I stopped doing corporate graphic design in 2020 because using my creativity in an exploitative career no longer aligned with who I am. Since then I’ve dedicated myself to being an artist purely because it makes me happy but with that comes immense guilt. That I’m somehow selfish to choose to spend my life making myself happy over “contributing to society” it’s been an incredibly rewarding but lonely two years
I've been feeling very disillusioned with how society and western culture has been heading. A bubble burst at the beginning of 22, with the war. I know, people may not want to talk about politics but I think it is an important topic of discussion, since it is what shapes everyday lives at a cultural and social level; media technologies playing a major role in the political landscape. I think people like you bring the humane back, a sense of connection to what is beyond individualistic, and identity. You fill a gap between this ever growing division that’s been occurring in this part of the world. Thank you for sharing your personal/emotional struggles and your inspirational paintings.
The thing about AI is that it needs to come from another source. I read that AI actually steals from artists' original work in order to create the "portraits" of people (Tik Tok), but one thing that AI can't steal is the creation process. So, I think showing the detailed process of any artist will be beneficial. I honestly think technology isn't "evolving" us, because we are now being trained by robots to expect fast consumerism. I honestly think art vlogs will be something that will be consumed more because what the AI can't reproduce the actual inner process of an artwork. For example, what inspired the artwork, how you think about the art and in hindsight, every artist has a different process even when they are in the same medium (for example, not every pencil artist works with the same when creating a portrait or creative artwork from their imagination.
Lately I noticed since I started art school I haven't been able to dedicate myself to my private art projects, and I felt so stressed about it. It's nice hearing someone talking about they're struggle! Thanks for sharing! Beautiful drawing btw :))
I think there is a lot of truth here. Taking time to slow down and enjoy the moment. Enjoy the simplicity of life really. Going for walks really does help, breathing exercises as well. Taking breaks after a few tasks doing something you enjoy does too. I find daily sketching helps me the most. 5 mins a day just drawing anything. For me it's the part of creating, and enjoying that moment for me. We all have something we need to heal from the inside and it is something that was never taught. Coming back to who you can be hard but being on that journey if really rewarding.
I’m trying to make time to draw ☺️or paint more but I’m a 24 hour care giver for my Mother I wouldn’t have it any other way if I wouldn’t feel bad about it 😮if I draw I draw if I don’t it’s fine just do what you can☺️
I’m so glad I found your UA-cam. Yes, everything has shifted since Covid and everything feels so out of control. Everyone is affected and the climate changes are becoming frightening. Earthquakes, floods, governments are crazy. Painting is my medicine for my mental and emotional well being but sometimes it’s just hard to get out of bed.
But we try to push through and endure. On a beneficial note, will you share with me details about the second brush you us, slim, maybe bamboo? I can’t seem to find anything close. Thank you. Be well 🙋🏻♀️
Welcome back 🤗💖❣️
I guess at the same time there is ppl blindly crazy for tecnology and AI and uncritically embracing whatever is served from AI, there will always be ppl appreciating the real man made work and piece of art. Ppl is different. Some buy art to do an investment, some because they love both subject and work behind. Reguarding your videos, I think it is fine also with shortser videos showing just the work on a detail or a few ones. It is good to have the possibility to watch something short when you don't have much time either 🤷 A few minute of full immersion, with inspiration, colours and love, that's fine too 👍
Much love to you 🤗💖❣️
Sending much love to you and yours for 2023. It sounds like 2022 wasn't particularly fabulous for you either. My family suffered a huge loss, I am still bed-bound (over a year now) and my ability to walk or paint is extremely limited. My life WAS all about walking on the beach every morning and painting/learning something every day. All that said, I refuse for it to get me down. I know that if we all get together as a community of like-minded people, we can make each other's 2023 even just a little bit better. That's worth a lot. That means your channel mean A LOT. All the very best from Australia x
What AI art does well, it does better than I ever could. Which is worrying but what I’m well practised in and finding abstraction and altered reality in all; that’s what it can’t replicate.
Social media is great to be able to share so freely but it’s the culture of social media. Feeling the need to post regular or lose momentum that it becomes a problem. Now I’m scheduling videos it gives me more time to paint but on flip side should I feel obligated to post every week? Our favourite shows back in the day would be weekly and they didn’t skip a week. I think social media is a great tool we can use but have to be aware so that it doesn’t end up using us.
The black contrast really made this pop at the end and I love the emotive look of the portrait 😁
the ai art craze has caused me, to feel so incredibly stunted in my digital art journey. i mean, in my art journey in general. sometimes i feel like i have like, nowhere to go with my art, and often times it feels dull or like i can't BE in my creative element anymore. it's almost like i'm fizzling out, which is pushing me to pursue my traditional art a little more, i even plan to begin college majoring in fine arts in the next two weeks, so it's, frightening, and a little exciting, amongst all the other things going on in life. i'm not sure where to go, and i'm really trying to enjoy the art journey, but the pressure to keep posting on my medias and keep advancing my skills is, honestly, hard to keep up with.
and i'm rambling, ofc, to a bunch of strangers, but i want to say that i really feel like over the years i've been watching your channel, i've connected with your art on a personal level and have adored how real and down to earth you are. i feel like we, as the viewers, can always trust you to share your struggles, as well as your highs and lows. it's so comforting to watch you paint while listening to your thoughts, motivations, and life influences.
i hope you take care of yourself first and foremost! i remember on the patreon real time video, you had explained how exhausting youtube has been as a career, and i just hope in the last few months, you've been able to recharge a little. i just know that no matter what you talk about in the next video, we're going to be engaged in it.
stay cool, and i will always look forward to seeing your art journey 'v' 💙
2022 vies with 2020 for worst year. My year included death, a move, a job change, 2 floods, my dad's dementia, friends losing parents and children, a car crash, my phone stolen, facing a phobia and more. Plus all the stuff others also still dealing with re: the pandemic/being stripped of body-rights, etc. So I relate to your pain even if my flavor isn't quite the same as yours. I have been slowly adulting through problems, perhaps also similarly to yourself. Art is amazing for making space for those feelings and you're absolutely right that it flows on its own schedule. I wish all of us blessings and healing in the new year. Good to see you back.
I've found myself becoming.. mm.. more and more angry, and frustrated, with the state of the world & how it has limited the creativity and stifled the passion in a lot of artists... I feel like companies & studios & comic houses are always looking for designers, animators, artists, etc. but when we start asking for more reasonable hours, for people to be mindful about AI art & its inherent plagarism issue, better wages, less crunch, etc. basically to treat us like human beings and not creation machines, suddenly all the "allies" for the artistic world are silent or telling us to wait it out. I graduated out of college with my BFA in animation & illustration in the middle of 2020. I'm TIRED of waiting for conditions to get better, im TIRED of people telling me to hustle harder, to try selling prints or keychains or to market myself better on social media, im TIRED of being so goddamn tired that i feel paralyzed by an open, blank canvas. I worked my ass off to become a professional ani/illo industry artist & im tired of the blatant, inherent disrespect!!!
God forbid we embrace our passion and the true flow of the creative process instead of participating in the goddamn rat races that capitalism has wrought upon us, w Netflix & disney & hbo/cartoon network's vast layoffs, the burgeoning gig-to-gig cycle and insecurity of it all... How do they expect us to maintain our family and friend relationships? i can't even think of the last time any of my artist friends actually had the time or energy to talk, let alone hang out & inspire each other!
Arleesha, I'm a longtime fan & subscriber, and I look up to you as an older-sister type. That being said, please take as much time for you & your family to learn to exist together peacefully and to rest your head as you need. The youtube channel, the squarespace classes... all of it, all of it can wait. You and your human emotions can't! Refill your creative glasses and don't worry about getting more content together. We'll be here whenever you're ready, whether that's next week or 6 months from now. Please be well!
much love and blessings, and wishing you & yours a bountiful 2023 💖💖
It’s been rough out there, that’s for sure. The expression “in the weeds” keeps coming up for me. Like the issues we’re facing require weed whackers to solve, but all we have are butter knives. So we’re all hacking away, trying to clear the path forward, but it feels like it’s much more of a struggle than it should be.
I never know how much to reveal, like personal info wise, in places like this, but that does lead into one major thing I’ve been dealing with and that’s finding out I was autistic at the ripe old age of 40. So I struggle with overshare tendencies.😅 But yeah, in the last few years we’ve found out everyone in our house is adhd, one kid is transitioning (which is a yay in our house,but also sad because of how they get treated by the rest of the world), and I spent most of 2022 with a screw touching my sciatic nerve. The weeds man, I can see where we need to go but damn it’s not going to be easy.
Oh, and I actually shuddered when you mentioned AI, so that’s pretty telling. Did you see the article by Sarah Andersen? About how the alt right stole her comics and made a font of her handwriting? Scary stuff. Goes even beyond copyright violations, which are bad enough.
Thank you for your comment about enjoying one step and not working about doing everything. That's exactly where i am when i opened up your video. It was so overwhelming and I was feeling the drowning feeling and was thinking ...where do i run? do i just quit my day job? but is it the job or my approach to it? will the next place be the same? ;). I just want to dance, paint, and eat good food in a safe environment that is respectful to humanity. Is that too much? ;). Thank you for sharing your work and your approach. Sending good vibes your way.
Our purpose is to watch the coming extinction and do our best to leave behind some of the beauty and emotion of who we were.
As a professional artist since 1981, I've never wanted to put my work online because of the rampant theft that existed. Doesn't seem as bad now, but still feel my work is best experienced in person.
I've seen some of your videos, but the drawing here spoke to me, and I'm glad to see how strong it finished up.
Agree with much of your commentary. Thank you, my dear, and Happy New Year !
Hey Arlee ! It is so good to see you back ! Whatever happened I hope you feel better ! 2022 was for me aswell ups and downs. Good things like i got my first full time job (i live in another country) , i bought my first car and overall I started finally to become more independant. But all my inspiration and motivation for my art is gone. I rarely could draw or paint anything really, i have a painting I started in 2022 and it is still not done, it became a love/hate relationship. When I come back from work all my energy is gone, it is so hard to get in the good mindset and make good art. It became also hard to get the time because now I have more responsabilities and so I felt tired, unmotivated, discouraged, sad, etc. I had big project for my art but never did them. I know it is probably nothing much and I know it is like this for everyone, but i guess I just wanted to talk about it. But yeah, let's start 2023 nice and easy everyone ! Take care ❤️
Glad to see you back Arleesha.
2022 (but also already the latter half of 2021) were a quite a low point, Are a low point still..... the whole mental health being non existance yadadadada, i have made so little art it almost hurts? as someone who picked up the label of "artist" as a teen who decided to do something artistic for a living and than just not having that anymore? im struggeling to get it back, but i feel like sisyphus, pushing pushing pushin just to fall down and start over again.
im still not better mentally, and even dare to say i am still getting worse with the day, but i really want that spark back, so with the new year im challenging myself to fill this lil a5 sized 200 paged sketchbook before my birthday in april , which is already quite a big task considering i took over a year to fill up a sketchbook with less pages.... but imma do it. im not even gonna think about starting up as a fulltime artist as a JOB for now because all of it kind of overwhelms me, the social media, the videos that apperantly really helpfull with getting yourself out there, MAKING ART, finding clients? how does that even happen?
i feel kinda dumb for wanting to be a fulltime artist still with how eh my work is, but i have no other skill so what else can i do... ehh this became more rant-y than i meant hihi.. have a great day!
tbh im just happy u r fine, and about my life weeeellllll.... my family is omophobic and discriminates me... but im fighting back! i won't let them have the better on me!!
I guess my question would be, how do you feel about sharing your art in this day and age? Is there a way in which you have been sharing it that generates inspirational feedback for you?
In general, I feel like it has been harder and harder as an artist (amateur) to share art and be okay with not receiving any feedback on it. I don't participate in any social media anymore because I didn't feel like I was seen for the human I am. In 2022 I survived emotionally by sharing my art in discord servers with other artists, but eventually, even there I started to feel alone because it never felt like what I shared was inspiring to the other people in the server. I don't think all art appeals to all people, and with social media the sheer density of art content makes it hard to find people who truly inspire you, and who might be inspired by you. AI art then complicates that by increasing the density of digital art, and even some traditional-looking digital art pieces.
With that being said, you have always been an inspirational artist to me (and so many others), unique, kind, and immensely thoughtful. Often when I feel like art is a struggle I look over my many patreon original art pieces and send a prayer of gratitude your way. Thank you for being the human you are with us other humans. ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
about AI art:
I'm absolutely not a fan of it.
All the "art" AIs out there are programmed with artwork from artists that did not consent to their work being fed to a machine.
The people behind those AIs have robbed countless artists of their hard work to make a profit, something they could have never achieved if it wasn't for all the people they are taking unpaid advantage of.
AI art lacks what makes an artist and artist and what makes art art, the intent. The AI has no concept or understanding of what they are making, they are an algorithm without a soul.
Art isn't defined by intent, many beautiful things have been created by unintentional decisions, but it's a big part. I don't pick up a pencil and don't put down a line without intent.
I am making something. A sketch, a doodle, a scribble or just a dot on a page. I could have a story about it, because I am complex in my humanity, in my realness.
An AI lacks that. There is no story behind any image they put out. The AI didn't think. It just did as told and did as trained.
Artists create,
AI copies.
I am in the process of taking a break from work, enjoying being human again. As a fellow artist, I protect myself from overexposure to online art content, I try to keep it simple. Surround myself with uplifting content, looser styles. Just not watching art videos or online art (unless consciously looking for inspiration) has been so good on my mind. I hope you are okay.
Conversation about instagram: I had a conversation with my friend who is also an artist. And she commented that using the trending audio is a sell out for me. Because I didn't get many views or likes until I started using the trending audios. But It is still MY art. I was just using the "create an original O.C." audio prompts to create a piece. Or using a trending song over my painting video. Art isnt my job like it is hers. It is just a hobby. But now I am made to feel guilty trying to take advantage of the platform and algorithm.
What are your thoughts on it?
The AI thing feels like a huge slap in the face to me. When I create, it comes from a need of getting stuff out as in processing whatever I'm going through and a need for authentic connection. That connection feels so shallow now that it's easier and easier for people to just pump out pretty pictures...
I see the potential of AI, I do, but why can't it take over the mundane, the boring stuff? Why does every new technology have to grasp at what makes humans humans? I've been just so frustrated, and now that that steam is gone, I feel hollow. I guess with art on social media it's a similar direction, just by the sheer volume of input, it burns me out before I get to my own thoughts and my own art creating.
But at the same time I love videos that artists put out, listening ti their thoughts, looking at their way of doing things, it's so calming and reminds me of the feeling when I'm creating myself.
So, tl;dr: i know nothing
I hope you are in a better place right now💖
This year has been really overwhelming for me and following news about war, oppression, greed didn't help at all. So I disabled my insta account - I don't have other accounts elsewhere. And it made me more content with my life and the situation I'm in right now, made me more productive when it came to art, and gave me more time and energy to connect with artists here on UA-cam which has been more than wonderful 🌺
As far as life has been going, it's been going good 👍. I wish the same for anyone reading this. Now about AI art, artest out there don't be angry with me- I'm a manifesting artest too, but as far as the argument that AI is unethical, I disagree. There not stealing it, artest willingly put there art out on social media, so when ever someone takes it, and does what ever to it, you can't really say anything about it. I also believe you can't ban AI to use for generating without banning anyone who practices your art style. I really love arleesha's art style, and hope to get a likeness to it, Ai is doing the same. It's not copying, I'm not copying either when I make art work in likeness of Arleesha's art style. I also think of it like this. You have bakery bread, then you have factory bread. Factory bread isn't stealing or copying, but at the end of the day its still bread. Yes, people will buy factory bread because it's cheaper, but for people who want something real, and character to it they will buy bakery bread. I hope anyone who comes across this comment is open minded to my comment, will not be angry by what I say, and respectfully have a conversation with me about it, because I'm open minded too!
Damn..just at the 3ish minute mark and you have me crying. I’ve wondered where you had been. Guess I’m crying because I understand. It’s been a very challenging time. So glad to hear from you again and to see you creating. Been in a major art funk and your comment about just doing even a bit, made complete sense to me.
You are a treasured part of the art community and your genuine way has been truly missed. ❤❤
I’m about to graduate high school soon and I’ve worked very hard but sometimes it feels like my hard work doesn’t matter. Even though I worked hard to get into the colleges I want I most likely don’t have the funds to attend. On top of that things in the world such as AI “art” make me stressed for my future. Ai art is stressful but I don’t think it will ever be as important as actual art, and many people believe that. Despite all this, I try my best to push forward.
This year's been one of the toughest for me. I'm 2021 I had to quit my job because of illness and in 2022 I worsened significantly leaving me bedbound and unable to hold a paintbrush for months at a time. I've started improving slightly at the end of the year and able to paint a little bit but it's hard feeling trapped and confined to bed while everything moves on around me
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your struggles, Arleesha 💛 I'm sure you know you are not alone and that many of us, particularly creatives, have gone through (or are going through) very similar things. When you feel alone, however, it can seem very hard to cope with. It seems 2022 was a tough year for many of us, for so many reasons, all of them valid. But we do have a community on social media that understands and is supportive, so I think it's important to share how we feel, even when it might be quite hard to open up about personal things. There will always be others out there glad to hear they aren't alone and that what they are going through is a normal part of life, of growing and learning about who we are 🙏🏻
I’ve been going through a uncertain time in my chosen career (I’m a restaurant cook and have been for a few years) and haven’t had either the energy or will to do much creating of late. Now that things have settled down a bit, I’m thinking of what I should do. Should I even bother starting to sell the art that I’m starting to take seriously after so many years of dabbling? I’m conflicted because some of the things I hear, including the current discussion of AI generated images, makes me wonder if such a thing would even be valued.
I’ve always made art because I love it, and because I want to express myself, but I would love to make a living with it at some point and worry if that’s even possible.
Ok this gonna be long, if anyone gonna read the whole thing, huge kudo to you & I hope my jumbled experience interests you somehow:
2022 is definitely a year full of highs & lows for a lot of people after 2 years of the pandemic, & I'm not an exception.
Highs:
- This year is the best "queer media discovering" year for me, from the beginning with "Our flag means death", then came "What we do in the shadows", "A league of our own", "The Sandman", etc. I also learnt a lot about the LGBTQ+ media in general.
- In this vid, when Aleesha (I hope I pronounce that right) talks about learning how her brain work, along with those in her family, reminds me of my journey to acknowledge of the neurodivergence community. I discovered that, in the middle of this year, there's a very high chance that I'm autistic. And finding out my identity in the neurodiversed world has been very carthatic for me.
Lows: My mental health has always been stagnant for quite a long time, so in the year 2022, although it's not that different from the previous, it's still definitely not easier. Everything is still stressful, uni is still overwhelming, & the closer it's coming to an end, the more anxious I become when I think about the future. I'm still hopeful about 2023 tho, there're a lot of series that I LOVE that will release a new season. May this year will have something better awaiting for me.
I know that I'm probably not alone in the journey of finding & improving myself. So I hope my story can help someone feel that they are not alone in this world.
Finally, I wish you all a happy new year & a brighter future ahead🥰❤️
Oh Arleesha, I noticed your absence, missed you a lot, and told myself you were deep into your academic painting course. I'm sorry things were not going well. I was nourished by my own art and by the many young (women) artists who have joined the market in my own city since lockdown. I love to visit their stalls and be inspired by their creativity. I love how we all learn so much more from each other than was available at art school.
My first reaction to the AI art was that it was just another tool to make art with, like digital art. But then someone pointed out that it would probably be taking a lot of actual artists' jobs and it sort of settled into a sort of...despair at the state of the world, I guess. And then of course, I learned about the copyright issues--how they're just stealing people's artwork without permission and... Yeah. The whole thing's just not great.
Arlee what is happening, you okay. For a while it felt like you haven't been excited about the process of making art
2022 started with rough depression that eventually stopped when I suddenly had to attend the first funeral of my whole life, and unfortunately it was that of a friend that took his own life. I was devastated and felt so hollow and responsible for not having reached out more... Eventually though a few months later .. I'd meet someone special. We met at the beginning of monkeypox madness, we had to quarantine together for 21 days.. and then when we were finally able to go out we had the most amazing summer. The sunshine was brighter, the air was fresher .. and it was all down to how he was influencing me to see how perspective is so powerful in almost every situation of your life. I still have tough days but I am able to stand my own and fight anxiety and depression better knowing that my perspective on things is akin to equipping myself with sword and shield and slaying my own demons alongside a friend or partner, instead of waiting for a knight in shining armor.
I love the way that you use color. Layered. And you went for mood and value, not skintone. Very nice, very free.
I just want the courage to actually be an artist. I want to believe I can make money doing it. I'm lonely but more because I'm cut off from what I love. I don't really feel like just generalized socializing will ease it because it doesn't. I need meaning through art and stories to comfort me. I need more artist being original and thoughtful to draw inspiration from.
Your words strike to the heart. 2022 was a wonderful year, but also a sad one. I have had to let go of a lot in my life to go in the direction I want to go now. Unfortunately, that also means being lonely sometimes. I can deal with that with my pictures. But do you also have the feeling that it is increasingly difficult for your pictures to be seen? That makes me sad. I'm not a great artist, but the fact that my illustrations are no longer seen at all is a bummer and increases the feeling of loneliness. Thank you for taking the time to address such issues in your videos.
It took me awhile to comment on this. I feel you on feeling kinda alone as an artist. I am a professional artist. I am part of the local art association, I’m in some local shops, and do fairs and solo/join shows.. I have clicked with a few people, but it feel so competitive a lot of the time. I enjoy other artist art and even if someone creates in a similar style I still enjoy seeing their techniques. It doesn’t need to be so pushy by people. The AI thing is upsetting. My bf keeps pushing me to do realism even tho I do not enjoy that process or the look of it. No offense to anyone that does it just not my thing. I told him the AI can do that I will create the way I do it. I have started using Procreate for something things but still am internally struggling with making pieces in it because I feel like it’s not the same as non-electronic art. You mention in your video after this one about the push to just create content in quantity not quality. It’s taxing to keep up with social media on its own as well as taking care of the multitude of other things that come along with running my own business. My online income has decreased greatly as well. It’s rough right now. It’s all kinda annoying. I have been trying to keep my head high during this but it does cause to to dramatically flop at times.
I do have a question, how to make more art? I spend too much time not making art and not enough time making it. I really need to change that but it's been really hard.
I love your videos and am so happy to hear you want to post again. I will show up for them no matter if you make 20 a month or one a year - whatever is sustainable and actually brings you joy.
I’ve been thinking of leaving social media too. That I am afraid I will be alone without it, but also wondering if I am any less lonely with it. Are these real connections or do they give the false sense of relationships. I hope to be out in the garden more in spring. And focus on more in person connections.
I think Ai art is a farce, fake, artificial in the worst way. It’s fickle, and a 100% anti humanity as it gets. It will continue I fear, and humans need to keep on fighting it.
I've heard that music is the space between the notes, and I've been thinking about how the art that I am drawn to the most let's the minds eye fill in rather than put to paper. I've been thinking about that and how to apply it to my own art, and how that sentiment could help me in other ways in life in general.
I dont sell any of my artworks but I do create a variety of things. I have everything I need to complete written out in lists. Most of the time I'm good with working on 2 or 3 different projects in different mediums. Then sometimes my brain fires differently and it's a struggle to just get up in the morning. I have a couple mantras written throughout my house so I can see that I only need to work on one thing and not everything has to be completed at one time. Some reminders throughout the day are nice to have so I don't spiral.
I am not afraid of AI because the joy of drawing/creating no one can take it away ❤ stay strong everyone
I noticed changes in your art and I knew you were going through some rough times. I could tell you needed to take a break and I'm glad you didn't just push through because that can be very detrimental to not only you but also your art. Hope you're doing better!
2022 was my toughest year so far. After some very traumatic situations that ended with me nearly ending up in hospital, I didn’t really touch any art for a long time.
I’ve started slowly feeling like doing art again, after cutting off the toxic people, and finding new friends.
Can't wait for your next video. Thanks for sharing. ❤️💜.
Smth ive been struggling w is picking the medium of my mood, ill get the time and supplies set out to do smth but it feels wrong and i think okay well maybe id rather be doing digital right now instead of watercolor or vice versa and then end up getting very little actually on the page regardless of which im working in, does this ever happen for you?
i hear alot of sadness in your voice, i hope nothing terrible has happened. i have always been alone but i know what you mean. i have noticed a number of symptoms of isolation in myself and i am fighting to just keep making. our financial situation is not helping as they keep cutting my husbands hours at work and i continue to have no sales. i had to stop making videos a couple of months ago because of how long it took to upload just one but there is a new web service available, i hope that will make it better when we switch to it this new year. be assured you are not alone.
It feels like the sun has started rising for you, the air might still feel cold and there still might be darkness, but soon the sun will emerge completely from behind the mountains and fully shine into your face with light and warmth.
Really concerned about you but I hope you’re doing better. Thankful to see you here. X
Welcome back! Looking forward to watch more of your videos!
You are my truest watercolor inspiration artist. Love you girl.