This is for everyone watching this: I love you and I hope everybody is doing fine. Even if you feel lonely, depressed or scared you gotta stay strong and don't forget that there will always be a little hope in everything
let me tell you something, it wont get better it gets worse day by day, ive come to a point where i just want to die in my sleep and accept death if it is right in front of my face
"My child is fine," are they, though? They cry whenever they're alone, make up fictional scenarios to fall asleep, and wish they were dead. Are they really okay? No.
True. I tell people good advice like, “hey your perfect no need to cover it up with makeup.” Or I say, “your body is prefect don’t let anyone tell you otherwise!” But yet I never follow my own advice I just have to same struggles as everyone else. I just like to help people :)
I'd go back to me as a child to actually focus on my studies and not disappointing the shit outta everybody,, but at the same time I don't want to go back to childhood traumas. I just wanna die yknow
Nothing hurts more when you're crying at night without making a noise and losing your breath with those silent screams of hurt. (PS thank u for ur lovely comments under my songs, means a lot 🖤)
If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going foward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because i worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" almost everyone have a dark chapter in life you can pass through it by the way do not be shy to call for help
I never thought of this as a symptom of depression. I just beat myself over it because I tend to be more mentally tired during school. It's so hard to focus now. I don't know what happened. I use to be the gifted kid.
They didn't notice you were crying They didn't notice you were sad They didn't notice you were tired They didn't notice you were alone They didn't notice how attentive you were They didn't notice how sweet you actually are... They didn't notice how you actually Try to make others smile They did notice you failing grades They did notice your unattractive They did notice the mean side of you They did notice all of your mistakes Thay did notice all of your flaws They did notice you weren't g̶o̶o̶d̶ e̶n̶o̶u̶g̶h̶ for 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖒 But you stayed strong You kept going on You never gave up on hope You never let them take you down And you knew they weren't good enough for you And thats what makes you stronger! -a random stranger
@@bymatteh_4093 hmm es verdad que el comentario suena algo deprimente, pero realmente piensa: hay personas que se sienten así y quizás compartiéndolo por aquí se sientan algo mejor o al menos más "comprendidos" no sé. Además, ¿quién no se ha sentido alguna vez así? Pasa que nadie o casi nadie lo dice, pero yo creo que la gente se siente así, no toda pero si una gran mayoría.
never has truer words been spoken before, i trusted people and got betrayed, i loved people and once again got betrayed and the moment i started being real i was hated for it. is there a single thing in this world that doesnt get you betrayed and hated?
@@jaysonpicard-gravel5808 nah we were put on earth to suffer, i honestly feel like i just exist i wanna die but im too scared to kill myself so i lay in bed and rot because its the closest thing to death besides sleep
"you are just lazy" "you're lying" "you haven't had anything yesterday" "just be normal" "you have everything so silent" "you got it from your phone" "what other people would pay for what you have" "be sociable" "you just say that to make you interesting" "you just want attention" "you just don't want to go to school" Thank you to my great parents for such great support.
I feel like I have the biggest pair of rose tinted glasses on that have on Lenses that keep falling pit and each time it does it just shatters till I glue it together I used to get little flicks and small looks or sighs to let me know I said something wrong near my mom it hurt a little I thought that was just like a spanking like just disabling but I told a friend sry a bunch of friends and only two thought it was normal and I panicked each time they looked at me with that look like I was some broken child it broke those glasses till I repaired them I cried a lot the last few years so much holding back tears behind those glasses that I never feel them slip out of my eye till they hit my shirt neck or cheek I’m fine … oh another tear….
Lifeless as always and i find no joy in living + no motivation to do anyting i just keep smiling and move on with my day Cool playlist (if your worried iw been lifeless without any emotions since iw been 8 or 9 shorty im turning 18 we will see what my future will look)
when i was 6 i wanted to cut off from my family , change my name to Zachary Williams ( hense the name ) live in a cottage or apartment in the middle of nowhere and either have a cat named Oliver or two boys named Oliver and Levi , i also wanted to a book shelve of bl manga entirely to myself , dream lasted for 4 years 😏
Im happy for you @gabs6201 and try to not feel like those two years ago right now your happy and free You free now i love you bro (no homo tho) take care - YourUnknowedStranger.
Yeah pretty much- it sucks too :/ aren't we teenagers? I thought this was supposed to be the best years of our lives. Yet here we are, in a pit that will probably be the death of most of us.
Yeah, it's hard to live up to our parents expectations. They want us to grow up but when we do they tell us we can't make decisions because we're kids. I really don't get it
Im just 13 and pretending to be fine. My friends knows that but still they’re trying to cheer me up but im not feeling like it. I felt like it’s just me here who dont wanna live anymore. I felt sorry for them but i just dont wanna breathe anylonger
Just a reminder to people: traumacore isn’t an aesthetic, it’s a coping mechanism Edit: not trying to ‘gatekeep’ in anyway, just wanted to put this out there so people don’t treat it like a style e.g goth, cottagecore, Lolita etc Edit 2: ur all missing my point lmao. Traumacore is a creative coping mechanism, where you can create playlists or audio or images or literally anything. I understand there’s creativity and a sort of beauty in it but again, it’s not an aesthetic.
"The obsession with suicide is characteristic of the man who can neither live nor die, and whose attention never swerves from this double impossibility." -Emile Cioran
To any kids here, I am older now but as a teenager this feeling felt suffocating and never ending. Don’t follow through with any dark thoughts, keep pushing towards the positive ones and I swear I come back to this feeling of depression and I feel a little lighter stronger and safer as I get control❤ I’m sorry we’re all here
I miss my girlfriend, she passed away last month due to covid, I just want to hug her one more time, say how much I love her, and reasure her that everything will be ok so she can go in peace I just can't believe this happened, after years of relationship, since we were teenagers, almost half of our lives together, and I couldn't even say goodbye We were so close to get married too
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating something, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! _________________________________________________ -Not mine, but pass it around!
Traumacore isn't supposed to be an aesthetic, it's a coping mechanism. That's the point of this playlist, but sadly, there are some people who think its "edgy", thanks for making this playlist btw,♡
Calling it "core" means that it's an aesthetic. That's why so many people are complaining. Before the word "Traumacore" even came to be, people still used music as a coping mechanism. It doesn't mean we need to suddenly call it "traumacore" because all that does is makes is easy for people to glamorize trauma and that just puts a heavy influence on kids these days. We can't let them grow up in a society where they want to have the traumacore aesthetic. Because most of us here know that having trauma isn't all sunshine and rainbows. (But it also doesn't mean that you can't come through it in the end!) I'm just saying that we shouldn't normalize the word "traumacore" because it's messed up to throw it in the same category as cottagecore, kidcore, clowncore, goth, "alt" , etc. Because those are all aesthetics. See where I'm coming from?
TIME STAMPS: +-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------+ YKWIM? - Yot Club : 0:00 - 3:33 Hey Kids - Molina : 3:33 - 7:24 Chamber of Reflection - Mac DeMarco : 7:24 - 11:15 Fly Out West - Yot Club : 11:15 - 14:04 Freaks - Surf Curse : 14:04 - 16:54 Landlord - Yot Club : 16:54 - 19:30 Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber : 19:30 - 22:25 Still Life - Sitcom : 22:25 - 25:58 Can I Call You Tonight? - Dayglow : 25:58 - 30:30 I Can't Handle Change - Roar : 30:30 - 34:40 Devil Town - Cavetown : 34:40 - 38:00 New Flesh - Current Joys : 38:00 - 40:50 Somebody That I Used To Know - Gotye : 40:50 - 45:36 +-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------+ (the rest of the video had no sound) have fun
i’ve seen everyone sharing stories. so i thought i would too. i can’t really remember a lot of stuff from when i was younger, i can only remember my parents always fighting when i was 3 and seeing my dad leave because of my mom. but i didn’t think much of anything until 2nd grade, bullying and growing up made me put me in a different mind. and i realized the trauma from when i was 3 was very wrong for such a young age. i used to dream of it and think about it a lot and i got scared of loud screaming for a long time, especially when people yelled at me. and my mom got worse throughout the years, yelling at me for no reason and always finding something to yell and hit at me for. and always making my mentality worse. “why can you be like her?” “stop eating” “you’re too young to feel like this” “i wasn’t like you” “things were different back then, there are kids who don’t have anything so stop crying” *always blaming me for everything* *always manipulating me* *always taking her anger out on me whenever she’s in a bad mood* i was diagnosed with depression and anxiety in middle school. i always thought of killing myself, and doing stuff but always backing out. pulling knives on my neck or holding pills in my hand. my first suicide attempt was when i was in 7th grade, i took half of a bottle of pain pills and a few of my own pills. i was listening to music and messaged my mom “i love you” even if she didn’t love me. she even admitted it one time too. i ended up at the hospital and they took me to a mental hospital and i was there for 6 days, lying when they asked me on how i was feeling. someone told me that if we tell them the wrong things or act a certain way they make us stay longer and i didn’t want to so i lied. i never told anyone how i felt. i smiled telling the doctor and nurses “i’m fine.” after, my mom didn’t talk to me about it. she acted like nothing ever happened. now im in 10th and i still have thoughts about kms, i recently found out that my mom was on birth control pills while doing the deed with my dad so i am indeed a mistake. my mom didn’t want to have another child, im just a burden to her. before i found out about it i tried opening up to my mom after i had a panic attack at school. she told me “i don’t care about your problems” and she was being a hypocrite, saying “do you wanna get thrown out on the streets?” and then she starts talking about taking her cat to the vet. my sister said “just throw the cat out of the house” “why would i do that? that’s so heartless!” oh. wow. so i had a mental breakdown when i got home and she left. i let it all out, screaming and crying and my closer sister comforted me while i felt like i was struggling to breathe and my mind was all clouded. crying out “she doesn’t care, she never did” “why am i alive” “please kill me.” my sister stayed with me, and now i trust her even though i have trust issues. i got into a fight with my oldest sister recently because she was talking about me to me so i did too. she starting hitting me while we were in the car and my mom defended her so i started screaming at them calling them names and telling them how they act. i didn’t even try to hit them while they tried hitting me because my sister is pregnant. i tried stopping them from hitting me and they did eventually but when i got home i got in trouble because my mom and my oldest sister said i was trying to hit her belly where her baby is. i didn’t get anywhere near her stomach so i just stood quiet and went to my room. i’ve learned to control my emotions and i just got out of hand so i calmed myself trying not to get mad. my brother came and got mad at me and tried hitting at me and i got out of control and started yelling at him so everyone came in my room blaming me for everything saying “you started this” but anyways here i am now just a few days after getting my phone back and going permanently virtual. this is probably too long and im probably gonna get trashed for this but🤷♀️
I hear you... i read the whole thing. you've been treated so wrong in your life. I'm really sorry. Words are failing me in this situation honestly. Do you have anyone else to talk to? Like a friend or counselor, or pastor... it may be good to get an outsider to help you. I've been through some similar experiences... too many to get into here. When I was at my lowest and nobody cared about me, Jesus cared. He showed me that he forgave me... he gave his life for my sins. He answered prayers in miraculous, impossible ways. He's been there with me as a friend and Savior, in the darkest nights of my life. I know he cares so much about you... I'm here to tell you. He loves you personally. He wants to rescue you. ❤
when i was a kid all i thought was "oh i cant wait to grow up!!" "i cant wait to be a teenager!" oh boy how was a wrong..all i do these day is stay up until 6 in the morning and wake u at 4pm and never leaving my room..9 and its been like this for almost 2 -3 years now and my mom is always saying to come out of my room, and she'll come to me asking if i need therapy but i just dont like talking to people and not seeing someone for about 1 year the social anxiety has gotten even worse.. and then there is my sisters who "joke' around and say stuff like "OMG PLS BAHAHA SHE ACTS DEPRESSED IT HONESTLY EMMBERESING" do you know how much that hurts to hear from your sisters? honestly sometimes i actually do think about leaving the earth but then again i dont want to die yk? i just want to be somewhere where i dont have to care or think about anything no stress, no parents yelling at me, no school, no nothing in general somewhere where i can just sit and read without anything to care about in the world...
You alright? But listen here.. sometimes talking to strangers about how you feel are better then talking with a therapist nothing too personal just talk about how you feel and they’ll understand you so well! That it feels like a dream knowing a stranger knows you and understands you more well then your own parents!
I hope you feel better:) get some rest and try to pick yourself back up:) I know it rough but try your best:) even if it seems hopeless Lmao sorry I just feel like your going through something. And if your not I'm sorry for bothering:/
Someone once said "The prettiest smiles hid the deepest secrets the prettiest eyes has cried the most and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain" please remember that
The prettiest smiles hid the deepest secrets the prettiest eyes has cried the most and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain" almost all of those fit me but the prettiest smile the prettiest eyes i dont feel like that i feel like i have lost all my chuldhood even though im still a child i have ruined my life i feel like i dont deserve to cry the man cant even spell yeah because iam a kid and corrupted i try to sceam for hepl but i know its just gonna not work i try to ry out i try to fit in i hope im diffrent i dont know if i am or im i jsut dont know i nee hep i dont know please does anyonek know how to fix my broken childhood I DONT KNOW please anyone please ii dont know please i dont know will someone tell me how t o live as achild again i wish i coldd forget i want to orget but icant someoen please help edit sorr yfor all the spelling mistakes i just type to fast sometimes sorry
You can sleep, but your tired. Your alive, but your sick. Your healthy, but you hurt. Your alive, but not living. Your wishing you were knew why. You wish. Wished.
Bestie are u okay? Drink some water and go outside. I'm here if you need me, but otherwise have a good day today okay? Atleast try. I know you can do it :)
I didn't see anyone do time stamps so i will :> 0:01- YKWIM? - Yot Club 3:32 - Hey Kids - Molina 7:26 - Chamber Of Reflection - Mac DeMarco 11:18 - Fly Out West - Yot Club 14:12 - Surf Curse - Freaks 16:54 - Landlord - Yot Club 19:30 - Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber 22:36 - Still Life - Sitcom 25:58 - Can I Call You Tonight? - Dayglow 30:33 - I Can't Handle Change - ROAR 34:41 - Devil town - Cavetown 38:01 - is New Flesh - Current Joys 45:01 - Somebody i used to know - Gotye
Nothing hurts more than laying in your bed, not having anyone, knowing your lonely, knowing you have 6 people in your phone and 1 real friend you don’t even get to see, going to school with a fake smile getting made fun of and that one friend being god.
“You’re not depressed” “You’re not stressed” “You’re fine” “You’re not suicidal” “You’re cutting for attention” “Why are your grades slipping” “It’s a phase” “You’re to young for all of this” “That stuff you watch is messing with your brain” “Why are you so weird” “Why are you always in your room” “Why did you let your self go” “It’s that damn phone that makes you like this” “Just be happy” “Be normal” “Wear more girly stuff” “You’re making this gender stuff up” I wish parents would just shut up and stop being judgmental.
you are valid. your feelings are valid. dont let those assholes tell you otherwise. if only they knew what you were actually feeling, i am so sorry that you have to go throigh that. at the end of the day, yolo. you only live once, so fuck it. don't listen to them, you're so much more than them :) also youre NEVER to young to feel. feelings happen for all ages, im sorry you have to go through that. i am going through a similar situation right now and i am only 11, it sucks. it really does, but i believe in you. i truly do love you, and wish you all the best! good luck on your journey, remember your mindset is key. if you genuinely want to get better, fake it till you make it. change your mindset to _day one_ instead of _one day_ ! i love you, and you are so fucking valid. i hope you know that youre very loved and don't need to SH, i know it is so addicting but truly, hurting yourself is never the answer. it is A answer but it isn't THE answer. good luck, and wish you the best.
I love how some people on the internet have talked to me more in the span of ten minutes more than my family has in ten years and by love I mean it doesn't surprise me anymore
My parents found out about my self harm recently and my dad is the only one who actually seems to care about it. My mom doesn't seem to care much and gives me a very annoyed face when I show any sad emotion or fear in telling her I'm struggling with math or something at all as if she truly only said those nice words when we were talking about my self harm because my dad was there and she didn't want him to know how little she cared. I don't know how I'm not used to it by now but it hurts a little bit. Stay safe now people, You made it this far in life which is amazing. I'm proud of you. -a random 12 yr old girl on the internet
@@Viilikulho5555 hey, this person can be going thro rlly bad shit and u say "i dont believe" you spelled it wrong. dont be doin that. Love to the person that is going thro all that
it probably makes her sad. She misunderstands you. She doesn't understand how she is supposed to react. Regardless of how true the assumption is, many people think that self-harm is a way of attention-seeking, so your mom probably thinks if she ignores it then you'll stop or do it less. I came back to this video after about three years. I was here when it was posted, when it was new. I was like you, and around your age. I don't know how to tell you how quickly things will get better, but you have a whole life ahead of you and it's hard to see that when you're young. It's heartbreaking, but you should try and understand the way your parents act in this crucial part of your life. Understand that you are at a point where them treating you maturely and them protecting you intersects. It may feel awful, but at the end of the day you will always have your family. There are a lot of younger kids here. If you could do anything for yourself, spend less time online or on social media, real-life friends are the most important thing in the world, take it from me.
Hey I’m a 12 year old girl to! And I get it same with me but both of my parents don’t care they just screamed at me that I have no reason to do it because there amazing parents like ok whatever you say
people in the comments "TrAuMa iSnT aN aEsThEtiC" stfu this is just a playlist of songs that are calming and helping to let go of your feelings. I listen to this because it allows me to cry, and it helps me if i cry. Trauma isnt an aesthetic, but traumacore is just a lable for playlist that can give comfort.
I don’t want to die I just want to go into an alternate reality where everything is perfect All people are nice All food tastes good All days are weekends Everyone is friends Everyone is happy Everyone is kind Nothing is wrong…
There is no such thing as a perfect world... that is why I must erase it... *play Chosen By The Planet* Walks away in a wall of flames "COME BACK YOU FIEND! COME AND FIGHT!"
@@ajarofworms7 If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going forward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because I worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" by the way do not be shy to call for help...
@@leorichard7955 ok, but the thing is, I said in the very first line I don’t want to die- Bc if I die my friends and family will be sad Also living is kinda, cool
Every generations been like this, the thing about the internet is that it makes everything visible the world hasn't gotten any more racist, but we know more about it, same thing here.
I listen to this playlist for I think over a year now. i remember when I cried to this because I felt so bad. It was one of the worst times in my life, but I'm in a bit better place now mentally. I just wanted to say that this playlist still comforts me, and to this day, it still helps me with sleeping in. Ik it sounds weird, but it feels like a hug when no one can see what's happening inside of you. I love it. Thank you so much. You don't know how glad I am to discovered this playlist.
This hits so much harder when you sitting in school and you check your grades to see that you failing in multiple classes after being the "gifted kid" all your life Edit: Hey so I saw a lot of replys relating which makes sense so if any of you need to vent you are welcome too! Just I hope you all know that your grades shouldn't determine how you or your family treats you. Also your grades should not determine if you do certain things you need to do for human surival like eating, sleeping, ect. Just know that atleast one person in the world cares about you and if tour still alive, happy, or whatever. It may be a family member, a friend, or even a person on the internet just know that someone cares about you. (Sorry if that was kinda cringe I just want you all to know that you matter)
Its been 2 years. I made it. Thought i wouldnt be here to say this, but, even though things are much rougher now, im doing okay. Well, even. I did it, i really pushed through, im really still here. And, honestly, it feels amazing being able to say that.
@@AnomalocarisIsStillHere tysm dude. A whole lot has changed since this comment, and things have gotten much much worse with me, but I'm still holding up 👍👍👍 hope ur doing well man
Hey. Hey, you. Yes, you. You're the one reading this, aren't you? Well, let me tell you something. You need to know. DON'T SCROLL, please.. I know, I know I'm a stranger here on the internet. But, I guarantee you, you need to hear this. Are you in a dark place? You aren't alone. We all were there, y'know. Feeling Suicidal? Please don't. I think you matter. Even if I don't know you, I still think you matter. You are the best stranger I've met. So, do something for me real quick. It's quick, I promise. Drink some water. WAIT! DON'T WIPE THE WATER OFF YOUR LIPS YET! Look, see how they shine? See how they twinkle and glimmer? it's like you. Even in the tiniest bit of light, you shine. If you want to take your life, think about something. Out of the 7 billion+ people on this earth.. Someone out there, they think you're perfect. They love you, so much. Imagine how much you'd hurt them if you left.. even if it seems unlikely, I can assure you. Someone out there, they love you. So keep fighting. You'll win, no matter how hard it is. "Fight the storm to see the rainbow". Remember that, okay? Good, I love you. Stay safe, handsome/beautiful :)
I have never felt so happy and cried over a youtube comment, Thanks alot. This means alot to me and alot if other people reading this. I hope all the best for you, Stay safe Stay awsome
@Filip Sobczak nobody is useless, we all have something to do in life. you are someone's important person without you realizing it. even if i don't know you at all, i genuinely care about you as well.
There are a lot of people in the comment section who are in... not good places mentally. For all of you, I swear it can get better, I'm someone who got through it: after years of getting worse (up to self punishments and attempts of ending it all) even with the "help" of various psychologists, I got a diagnosis for anxiety and depression and finally found the help I actually needed. It was scary at first, feeling... sad, like I had given up, the worthlessness, they were better than the numbness of feeling almost nothing at all: it was like the void left by their absence was too big to be filled by anything else. Eventually, though, with therapy (one of my assignments was to participate in group projects, then I met a few times a therapist) and the few friends that sticked around even when I started spiraling, eventually it was enough. I won't say the Sun seemed to shine brighter and the grass was greener, it doesn't work like that: instead, it felt like I finally wasn't being carried around, dragged by the current, or that my feet moved mindlessly on their own, but instead I was the one walking, I was the one speaking, not just a voicebox, I found myself wanting to do something with myself for the first time in a long while. I found myself crying easily, instead of not having any more tears to spare, and even the laughter sounded more genuine to my friends. It's okay to be depressed, it's okay to fall and it's okay to rest for a while. It's okay to feel worthless, it's okay to just not want to be there. It's fundamental to understand, though, that nothing stays still, even if it appears to be so: we are always changing, for better or worse, and it's beautiful, as it allows us all to find new paths, wherever they might take us. I'm not trying to "cure your depression" here, I know it doesn't work like that, I just wish that, if you read this far, you could find something to hold on to, someone to confide in, and allow those who care about you to help. Because one of the things I learned through this and even later looking back, is that even if I felt alone, it was actually a wall I ended up building myself after getting hurt one too many times and I had made it too high. I'm 22 now, the scars I have on my arms are white, almost invisible, against the light tan and I have a new diagnosis in a folder, ADHD with a sprinkle of autism and I can't help myself sometimes and I think that, had I known it earlier, it would have saved me a lot of issues. All in all, I can finally say that I'm alright. Not the happiest person in the world, sure, but it's enough. I'm enough. You are enough. If you can't talk, then write, draw, play an instrument, sing: I don't even mean about you and your experience, it can be about anything. Just let it out.
" you guys blame and gang up on me, but now you're gonna pretend to be good people? " - kokichi ouma this quote just stuck to me, because it's exactly how my family is, they do it. every time. they ask why I'm always on my phone, it's because it is what makes me happy, they just give me dysphoria, panic attacks, and a ruined mood. and it's like they "try their best" to make me happy, but they just need to shut up and accept me for who I am. thank you for coming to my ted talk
"Strangers hurt you" what a big lie ... Strangers have helped me, thanks to people I do not know, they have helped me a lot to open my eyes and realize the bad and the good that surrounds me, thanks for making me stronger, I adore them
I agree- tbh Parents and strangers are literally Giving me pain I’ve always feel uncomfortable whith their words but ofc I’ve always hated my brother he ruined my childhood and hit me really badly and in this day I will never forgive him
I will never understand why when my parents seeing me crying late at night, they don’t care and even decide the best course of action is to completely disregard the fact that I’m upset, and take my phone away for nothing.
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help.
i hope you feel better i know i can't do anything about it but if this keeps happening try listening to a song that you like or cover your head with a pillow so its not as loud, i know this may not help..at all but hey just remember even if that goes on were ever you are just know your loved and you should not harm yourself because of this. stay safe
I come to this video often,, I suit this comment with my parents yelling at my brother, him yelling, just a web of in-humane screaming and threats. All I can do is try to stop it or sit down and cry
Once upon a time there lived a kid. The kid had caring but strict parents, so they felt that they couldn’t be themselves around them. The kid has friends but they were only friends with the person the kid pretended to be. One day the kid was walking and saw a very sad and tired looking person. The kid thought “wow that person is really sad looking. They should go talk to someone or find help” after each day the kid walked by the person and noticed that they never spoke to anybody in the same tone they spoke to them selfs with. And that they never tried to seek help with the way they were feeling. The kid felt pity for the person. One day the kid decided to try to talk to the sad person but as they got closer to the person the kid came to a realization. The thing they saw wasn’t a person. It was a mirror. Hello. I am the kid.
Exactly I'm trying to be this image of people that they want me to be. It's not like I want to be like that but my environment is kind of toxic so if I tried I feel like I would just get hated for being myself.
It’s hard to tell my friends about my mental state and how I’m actually doing and private life when I pretend to be this happy person that gets people concerned when I quit the act. The most I hate about myself is that it’s almost automatically done- I can’t control my personality unless I’m alone
True, I'm constantly having to be: -Someone normal when I'm outside (people will think me weird if I act like myself) -Someone like my friends when I'm around them (I don't want to be left out) -A good son for the family (they don't like seeing me having time for myself for some reason) -Someone (just someone, I don't even know why I do it, maybe imaginary friend idk) I'm tired of wearing multiple masks around others, I want to be myself around them, but I'm just afraid of multiple reasons (I'm afraid they'll leave me)
@@jbenji2739 ik I’m late and you might be ok now but I just wanted to tell you that there are a lot of people who love you and most importantly, God loves you( idk if you believe in God or not but I do).
It really hurts when you’re giving hints left and right that you’re depressed or when you’re not comfortable but some strange reason no one ever notices
Children have a sense of blissful ignorance about them that I wish we could’ve kept as we grew. We didn’t. But to be honest. I would care if I could, but I’ve got other shit to worry about.
Sadly I realized if i want to save myself, I need to leave everything behind me, and start over again... Isn't this just as hard as dying and being reborned again?
every comment I see on this video I wish someone special will hug them and say "everything will be ok" so you don't have to feel sad. I hope everyone that sees this I hope you have a good day or night and hope in the future you'll be happy.
@@harpermerritt13 Pro tip: don't EVER interact with strangers in Discord, people there are sad people at the very least, irredemable degerates at the worst
I felt this months ago. I still feel it but I realized the pain in being not me or feeling like myself hurts more than anything. It's time to let go of your self inflicting pain and realize how special of a human being u are.
I’m proud of you for waking up. I’m proud of you for brushing your hair. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for breathing. I’m proud of you for making your bed. I’m proud of you for eating. I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat. I’m proud of you for drinking water. I’m proud of you for being here. I’m proud of you for being you. I’m proud of you for smiling. I’m proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for sitting down. I’m proud of you for defending yourself. I’m proud of you for believing in yourself. I’m proud of you for simply trying. I’m proud of you for being alive. IM PROUD OF YOU. ♥ not mine, just passing it around for people who need it the most
y'all know that feeling when you're crying and, at a random point, you just go find yourself a mirror then start doing weird faces to laugh at, later realizing how miserable your life is, or is it just me??
“Your to young to understand” “Cause of that phone” “Your depressed” “I can’t trust you” “Your lying” “Stop saying your sorry it’s annoying” “Be social” “It’s not hard to make friends” “Be more like her” “Your just lazy” “Self centered” “Jealous” “Your so thin” “Eat more” “Stop saying your fine I hate that response” “You have to be apart of things” “Stop crying” Sorry but crying is my nature I’ve been crying all my life I do it when you ask me if I’m ok That makes me cry more Cause I know I’m not ok Holding my tears in But questions like that It makes me cry out the tears I was trying so hard to hold in my eyes Trying to make my face less red Trying not to talk cause If I open my mouth I’ll start to cry I can’t think of words when I’m crying There’s to much to say And I can never think of how to start I have always been this way Crying What I’m good at
As a 20 y.o. man. The world has gone to shit. I got stranded in the hole I dug myself into. "Sometimes the only way to get through your pain is to walk away from it" -SennaRose. A good friend named Senna said this to me in my darkest and deepest times. I have truly seen how horrible my home life has been. The abuse. The malnutrition. Thankfully, after that, 18 years of hell, I'm out. This playlist helped.
pov: your friends always forget about you. whenever you hang out with them all them want to talk about is what they all did together and how they "forgot" to invite you to things. when you hang out they always team up on you about what to do. they always boss you around and tell you what to do. you don't know if these people are real friends anymore but you don't have anyone else to be friends with. you are always the one left out. you feel lonely. you feel forgotten. you feel lost. you feel like this is not a pov anymore. Update #1- i have been going to school for a little over a month now and i always still feel excluded, i always make a effort to include everyone but they won't do the same for me. for example, whenever i see that one of my friends is sitting alone i will sit by them even if i haven't talked to them, but they will not do the same for me. i always have tried to live by a quote that my 3rd grade teacher told my class, "treat others the way you want to be treated." i don't know if this has backfired on me though. the toxic friend i was telling you guys about i am slowly but surely dropping her as a friend, in a nice way of course. i have made many other friends and they are not toxic for once. hopefully i will do another update soon, i want to be doing them more. love you guys for all of the love and likes 😽❤️ Update #2- i dropped the toxic friend and i have been living my best life. there is still a little drama of course. some of my friends at the moment will get mad over petty stuff but we will all be good after yk. The moment i stopped being "friends" with her it was like a whole new chapter in your life. another bit of good new i have a huge crush on this guy, i don't think that he likes me back but yolo, i have liked him on and off for 3 years now. he just thinks of me as a friend and likes this other girl but it's ok. you don't always get what you want in life. we talk on snap a lot too but, i just want to get over him. i am the kind of person who needs to have a crush 24/7 yk. i'm going to try to update this more but i love all of you guys and yolo.
This is true except it's my cousins like whenever I don't show up they do fun things and yet it's my fault cus I don't want to socialize with them, because I remember how they criticize me about my gender and sexuality, that I forget the fact that - all the criticizing we actually have fun
*gives virtual hugs to everyone struggling because I know what it's like and want everyone to know that it's not their fault and that they're a wonderful person :3* (IDK HOW TO COMFORT I'M SO SORRY IF THIS SOUNDS CHEESY)
"it's impossible for someone who's always happy to be depressed" Yeah mom, I've been faking my smile for so long that u can't even tell the difference, thanks for reminding me
my parents in a nutshell.... at first i was acting weird but after a while they just figured it was normal. nope just me pretending i am actually happy...
If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going forward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because I worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" by the way do not be shy to call for help..
it's funny how people nowdays forget that Dazai Osamu was an actual person before being turned into an anime character. he wrote a classic very praised novel called No Longer Human, and since it was his last work before drowning himself it's basically a really long suicide note
You ever just look back at how close you and your old friend group were and how much fun you guys had.... . . Then you remember how they turned there backs on you when you were at your lowest :(
This really helped me sm cause lately I have been feeling like I’m slowly dying cause one of my friends Kiki always talks about her and her struggling and when I tell her mine she never gives me support I have other friends called Angelica and her cat called Microbio they really helped me not to end it all I want to say to Kiki that I don’t want to be friends her but I’m to scared to and I will feel horrible if I do so
do you ever just wonder why bad luck seems to always find you? why they always leave, despite saying they'd always stay? i thought they understood me. but then they accused me of something i would never do, due to experiencing it myself. i loved them so much, and i hate that i still do. they never even once loved me the same.
you're never too young to have problems, emotions, opinions, anything honestly. All that matters is how much you know, or how much you've been through. And that's different for everyone. If you want to vent a little here that's fine with me. Stay safe.
At one point, idk when, but my tears just stopped and now i just lock myself in my room and laugh pathetically at my misery because no one except a bunch of strangers online get it
This is for everyone watching this:
I love you and I hope everybody is doing fine. Even if you feel lonely, depressed or scared you gotta stay strong and don't forget that there will always be a little hope in everything
@@silliestmanever I hope you get better soon, and that your not alone.
thank you lovely
@@silliestmanever I will cheer you up if I ever can,buddy
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Have this love :>
kawaii..., but life will never be perfect
@@taikonix_oni1679 but we can do our best to make it as enjoyable as we can
I thought being a teenager was going to be fun and now that I am, it sucks. I'm losing reasons to live everyday and I just wanna disappear lmfao.
You have so many reasons to live plz don't die :
i feel you, hang in there homie :(
If you need to talk lmk
@@sweatysockzaha can i?
let me tell you something, it wont get better it gets worse day by day, ive come to a point where i just want to die in my sleep and accept death if it is right in front of my face
depression: I hate living
Anxiety: I'm afraid of death
I can't win.
you can!:)
I believe in you!! :) it will all be okay some day, i pinky promise :D
Thank you, both of you. All the same to you and double
wow.
Same
I don't wanna stop living, I just wanna stop living like this.
this.
I don’t wanna live but I don’t want to die, I want to not be in this world but not die
sabias palabras
this.
exactly.
it hurts when strangers on the internet understand you more than anyone you know does
We are your family
Yes, indeed...
And that's how it is...
I wanna oof (aka die)
It is what it is.
"My child is fine," are they, though? They cry whenever they're alone, make up fictional scenarios to fall asleep, and wish they were dead. Are they really okay? No.
How are you?
@@GALA89 Terrible, thanks for asking. You?
@@greenie7360 not bad, some anxiety for some exams, but good overall. Whats making you feeling terrible?
@@eeinahyena1092 #relatable can we be friends?
@@eeinahyena1092 :)
“Were all just suicidal kids telling each other suicide is not the answer.” -unknown
True. I tell people good advice like, “hey your perfect no need to cover it up with makeup.” Or I say, “your body is prefect don’t let anyone tell you otherwise!” But yet I never follow my own advice I just have to same struggles as everyone else. I just like to help people :)
I agree 100% but your body & face are beautiful with or without makeup, and I love youu!:)
why tf is this so god damn true ?
Ikr
no one follows their advice saly
"being a teen is fun," they said "these are your golden years," they said
so why do we all wanna go back to being a child?
I really don't want to go back, way to much trauma
@@_doring_5875 same
I'd go back to me as a child to actually focus on my studies and not disappointing the shit outta everybody,, but at the same time I don't want to go back to childhood traumas. I just wanna die yknow
Ik I dont. Childhood was trash yo.
A good childhood?
What's that? 👁️👄👁️
Nothing hurts more when you're crying at night without making a noise and losing your breath with those silent screams of hurt.
(PS thank u for ur lovely comments under my songs, means a lot 🖤)
Yea and that’s just the truth😢
this is me rn lmao
I was trying to forget that
@@lillybiddle2925 😔
@@cinnamoroIIz 😢
"I always like walking in the rain, so no one can see me crying." -Charlie Chaplin
That hits soo different man
waitwiat.. charlie chaplin said that??
woah
o-m-g, what- si. SII, WACHO RE SI
Yeah
“I dont wanna die but sometimes I wish that I wasnt even born at all”
-Freddie Mercury
If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going foward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because i worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" almost everyone have a dark chapter in life you can pass through it by the way do not be shy to call for help
@@alexdanieloliveira2294 sometimes it’s the family and friends that cause the suicide
"hee hee"
edit: shit wrong person
@@partygoer1930 I- uhm I wanna laugh but I think thats disrespect-
@@xxdekodyvibinxx1738 amongus sussy balls
“I’m just tired.”
_”Did you not get enough sleep?”_
“No, I did. It’s not that, I’m just. Tired.”
HAY SEPONGBOB 🧽
Just tired.
glad im not the only one whos mentally tired
I never thought of this as a symptom of depression. I just beat myself over it because I tend to be more mentally tired during school. It's so hard to focus now. I don't know what happened. I use to be the gifted kid.
Tired of life tired of being beaten up at school and coming home with bruises and hurting limbs can I vent here? I need a therapist
“Being tired and wanting to die doesn’t mean dying permanently,it’s wanting to leave that feeling” -me
wanting to experience nothingness
“I lost myself trying to please everyone. Now im loosing everyone trying to find myself” - idk lol.
Idk eather but its relatble
Why is that my entire life in one sentence.
relatable
My life Fr
please why is this so relatable
Depression is being colorblind and constantly told how colorful the world is. -Atticus
This comment is underrated
That’s actually a pretty interesting way to put it🤔
its facts that made me depressed
@@sobhan6867 same
@@sobhan6867 you see scientists have studied and discovered that smart people tend to be deppresed more often soo....
“I don’t wanna die, sometimes I wish I was never born at all” _ Freddie Mercury
I love him so much. I wish he was never dead :( ..
@@ze4lda yes!! He was just so awesome!! :/
Now that's literally what I think of everyday :)
without deez nutz you wouldn't have been born :/ -freddie
i put a happy face :)
They didn't notice you were crying
They didn't notice you were sad
They didn't notice you were tired
They didn't notice you were alone
They didn't notice how attentive you were
They didn't notice how sweet you actually are...
They didn't notice how you actually Try to make others smile
They did notice you failing grades
They did notice your unattractive
They did notice the mean side of you
They did notice all of your mistakes
Thay did notice all of your flaws
They did notice you weren't g̶o̶o̶d̶ e̶n̶o̶u̶g̶h̶ for 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖒
But you stayed strong
You kept going on
You never gave up on hope
You never let them take you down
And you knew they weren't good enough for you
And thats what makes you stronger!
-a random stranger
It's... It's beautiful❤
Your text make me cry.
@@lyeartschannel thank you.
Ty, but it won't stop me from what im gonna do
@@M0ssy-on-pawzzzare you ok?
"i dont wanna die. but im just so tired of life. so tired." -unknown
This.
pará señor depresion XD
this.
@@bymatteh_4093 hmm es verdad que el comentario suena algo deprimente, pero realmente piensa: hay personas que se sienten así y quizás compartiéndolo por aquí se sientan algo mejor o al menos más "comprendidos" no sé. Además, ¿quién no se ha sentido alguna vez así? Pasa que nadie o casi nadie lo dice, pero yo creo que la gente se siente así, no toda pero si una gran mayoría.
This.
'Crying is how your heart speaks, when your lips can't explain the pain you feel.
go to a psychologist
"there's more than one purpose for those lips" -me
@@jok7723 go find your dad :p
Tbh this is true and kinda hits different, this comment deserves more love ❤️
such a writer !
“Trust gets you killed, love gets you hurt, and being real gets you hated”-Johnny Cash
Но, дорогой, лучше упасть, чем никогда не летать:)
Но что больно всë равно правда
Thank you for the message
@@ТатьянаТретьякова-н5ч what hurts is most true
never has truer words been spoken before, i trusted people and got betrayed, i loved people and once again got betrayed and the moment i started being real i was hated for it. is there a single thing in this world that doesnt get you betrayed and hated?
@@jaysonpicard-gravel5808 nah we were put on earth to suffer, i honestly feel like i just exist i wanna die but im too scared to kill myself so i lay in bed and rot because its the closest thing to death besides sleep
YKWIM? - Yot Club : 0:00 - 3:33
Hey Kids - Molina : 3:33 - 7:24
Chamber of Reflection - Mac DeMarco : 7:24 - 11:15
Fly Out West - Yot Club : 11:15 - 14:04
Freaks - Surf Curse : 14:04 - 16:54
Landlord - Yot Club : 16:54 - 19:30
Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber : 19:30 - 22:25
Still Life - Sitcom : 22:25 - 25:58
Can I Call You Tonight? - Dayglow : 25:58 - 30:30
I Can't Handle Change - Roar : 30:30 - 34:40
Devil Town - Cavetown : 34:40 - 38:00
New Flesh - Current Joys : 38:00 - 40:50
Somebody That I Used To Know - Gotye : 40:50 - 45:36
this is for myself
Thank you, hero
Thanks anyways ❤️ hope you have a good day
Thanks ❤
thanks mate, was looking for the stamps-
well now i know the song names, thanks!
I really need a 30 minute long hug from someone who isn’t my pillow.
Edit: Thank you all so much for all the hugs!!!😭😭 HUGS TO EVERYONE!!!🥰
I really wish I could give you a real hug, but I can’t. Still sending a virtual hug tho! 🤗
@@user-fn1gd9yc8j thank you😭🤗
⊂( ◜◒◝ )⊃ soz it isn't a real one ♡
I'm sending a virtual hug, pls wait....
I'm sorry it will take a while bc it's a 54 minute hug
**hugs** 💖👉👈💖
"you are just lazy"
"you're lying"
"you haven't had anything yesterday"
"just be normal"
"you have everything so silent"
"you got it from your phone"
"what other people would pay for what you have"
"be sociable"
"you just say that to make you interesting"
"you just want attention"
"you just don't want to go to school"
Thank you to my great parents for such great support.
Same here...but hold on. It's gonna be okay. Believe me♡ be strong!♡
Fuck your support, be happy that your alive
this 8 year old kids is getting on my nervers with this bullshit
yea this hits home
I can relate so much, not to everything but particulary to:
"be sociable"
"you got it from your phone"
and to
"you are just lazy".....
This is the perfect playlist. That’s all. That’s the comment.
agree agree
Nice
Agreed
Agree
Yes
It's been 2 years and ty y'all for the support and the comments. ( I hope all of you are doing better
I feel like I have the biggest pair of rose tinted glasses on that have on Lenses that keep falling pit and each time it does it just shatters till I glue it together I used to get little flicks and small looks or sighs to let me know I said something wrong near my mom it hurt a little I thought that was just like a spanking like just disabling but I told a friend sry a bunch of friends and only two thought it was normal and I panicked each time they looked at me with that look like I was some broken child it broke those glasses till I repaired them I cried a lot the last few years so much holding back tears behind those glasses that I never feel them slip out of my eye till they hit my shirt neck or cheek I’m fine … oh another tear….
you ok?
@@raelynwalsh2328 how are you?
Lifeless as always and i find no joy in living + no motivation to do anyting i just keep smiling and move on with my day Cool playlist (if your worried iw been lifeless without any emotions since iw been 8 or 9 shorty im turning 18 we will see what my future will look)
@@wixenlol9897itll get better ❤ thank u for holding on
Who remembers when you were like 5yrs old and you said you wanted to be 17 or 19 so you can do whatever you want?
Yo- wtf why is this so popular-
when i was 6 i wanted to cut off from my family , change my name to Zachary Williams ( hense the name ) live in a cottage or apartment in the middle of nowhere and either have a cat named Oliver or two boys named Oliver and Levi , i also wanted to a book shelve of bl manga entirely to myself , dream lasted for 4 years 😏
It sucks
Me 14 and now I regret it I don’t want to live anymore
i really want to be a kid again, where's the "back to 6 years old" button?
@@Yowdykowabunga say what now... this was all at 6 🤣
*When people in UA-cam comment sections are more supportive than family/friends*
🥲
i swear this so true
i mean ur not wrong
I know...
I don't have either anyways
@@SalemsForgottenWitch Sheesh.
"Wanting to die isn't wanting to disappear forever, its wanting to go to a better world, a world you wished was better that this one"
-- me
you can't quote yourself unless someone else quoted you first
@@oilman6937 oh really? I didn’t know that
@@oilman6937 should I fix it?
@@KIDDO-kid nah i gotchu, quoted you outloud to someone so you can now quote yourself
@@oilman6937 ooooh ok cool :)
The fact that I was very depressed 2 years ago and now coming back to this playlist I’m like wow I’ve come a long way and I’m happy finally!
I congratulate you. You are very lucky, once again congratulations).
Im happy for you @gabs6201 and try to not feel like those two years ago right now your happy and free
You free now i love you bro (no homo tho) take care
- YourUnknowedStranger.
Soup.
nice, good job you made it to happiness
Howw
Yeah pretty much- it sucks too :/ aren't we teenagers? I thought this was supposed to be the best years of our lives. Yet here we are, in a pit that will probably be the death of most of us.
Ya
I wouldn't be surprised if I got a heart attack and died because I eat so much to take my mind off of them so anyways bai💖
Nah.... I'm a regular 14 year old and these songs really calm me. So no I'm not depressed. Hope your doin good tho
Yeah, it's hard to live up to our parents expectations. They want us to grow up but when we do they tell us we can't make decisions because we're kids. I really don't get it
Im just 13 and pretending to be fine. My friends knows that but still they’re trying to cheer me up but im not feeling like it. I felt like it’s just me here who dont wanna live anymore. I felt sorry for them but i just dont wanna breathe anylonger
bruh i have dementia and i am still happy
fuck depresssion
[i forgot what i wanted write here]
Just a reminder to people: traumacore isn’t an aesthetic, it’s a coping mechanism
Edit: not trying to ‘gatekeep’ in anyway, just wanted to put this out there so people don’t treat it like a style e.g goth, cottagecore, Lolita etc
Edit 2: ur all missing my point lmao. Traumacore is a creative coping mechanism, where you can create playlists or audio or images or literally anything. I understand there’s creativity and a sort of beauty in it but again, it’s not an aesthetic.
Exactly.
the songs i fire but why make trauma aesthetic. 2021 is whack at this point.
Don't idolize the bad, but the art can still contain beauty.
Yep
mhm, i hate it when people make it as one, it's truly sickening.
"The obsession with suicide is characteristic of the man who can neither live nor die, and whose attention never swerves from this double impossibility."
-Emile Cioran
Wow this quote hits me hard. Thank you.
ahh the double edged sword
To any kids here, I am older now but as a teenager this feeling felt suffocating and never ending. Don’t follow through with any dark thoughts, keep pushing towards the positive ones and I swear I come back to this feeling of depression and I feel a little lighter stronger and safer as I get control❤ I’m sorry we’re all here
9yr old suffering here :))
14 yr old here, about to go homeless. Don't see any positive moments coming up anytime soon.
@Mirage_Man321 14!? Holy crap! Are you okay now?
@@sigmaaash Idk still seeing what happens.
@Mirage_Main321 dang, hope everything goes well for you 🫶
“ People will leave you without a single reason and come back with a million excuses. “
- Unknown
so true
Yea true
Everybody fighting their own battles. Empathy for yourself starts with empathy for others as well
😂😂😂
Holy shit... that's real
I miss my girlfriend, she passed away last month due to covid, I just want to hug her one more time, say how much I love her, and reasure her that everything will be ok so she can go in peace
I just can't believe this happened, after years of relationship, since we were teenagers, almost half of our lives together, and I couldn't even say goodbye
We were so close to get married too
God, I'm so sorry for your loss.
I’m sorry for your loss
dang this hurt me a lot, im so so so sorry for your loss :( cheer up
@elia. skeate-jones sorry for your loss
That’s…….so…….
I- No words.
I’m sorry?
“whats wrong”
i can’t tell you without being silenced.
silenced by deez nutz ONG BRO
@@loquatic wtf this ain't a joke
@@3o29wje this ain’t build a bitch :/ you don’t get to pick and choose :(
@@loquatic we
@@loquatic can i have ur alpha pp🥺🥺🥺
To everyone who is doing homework,
leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus
To everyone who is trying to sleep,
leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve.
To everyone who is feeling sad,
grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time.
To everyone who is creating something,
you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done!
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-Not mine, but pass it around!
Thanks ^^
who does homework at home fucking nerds
Thank you for the suggestion but I will have to decline. You see, I only do this wallowing every so often. Sometimes it's good to taste tragedy
We are all slowly dying just some faster than others
yes yes very real quete of the day
Traumacore isn't supposed to be an aesthetic, it's a coping mechanism. That's the point of this playlist, but sadly, there are some people who think its "edgy", thanks for making this playlist btw,♡
literally every "alt" girl on tiktok made traumacore an aesthetic like wtf
@@juliar4804 alt ppl can be toxic sometimes, but some dont make it an aesthetic
core means a type of aesthetic but okay
Calling it "core" means that it's an aesthetic. That's why so many people are complaining. Before the word "Traumacore" even came to be, people still used music as a coping mechanism. It doesn't mean we need to suddenly call it "traumacore" because all that does is makes is easy for people to glamorize trauma and that just puts a heavy influence on kids these days. We can't let them grow up in a society where they want to have the traumacore aesthetic. Because most of us here know that having trauma isn't all sunshine and rainbows. (But it also doesn't mean that you can't come through it in the end!) I'm just saying that we shouldn't normalize the word "traumacore" because it's messed up to throw it in the same category as cottagecore, kidcore, clowncore, goth, "alt" , etc. Because those are all aesthetics. See where I'm coming from?
@@juliar4804 although I would fit the stereotype of "alt" I don't agree with making "traumacore" an aesthetic.
TIME STAMPS:
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YKWIM? - Yot Club : 0:00 - 3:33
Hey Kids - Molina : 3:33 - 7:24
Chamber of Reflection - Mac DeMarco : 7:24 - 11:15
Fly Out West - Yot Club : 11:15 - 14:04
Freaks - Surf Curse : 14:04 - 16:54
Landlord - Yot Club : 16:54 - 19:30
Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber : 19:30 - 22:25
Still Life - Sitcom : 22:25 - 25:58
Can I Call You Tonight? - Dayglow : 25:58 - 30:30
I Can't Handle Change - Roar : 30:30 - 34:40
Devil Town - Cavetown : 34:40 - 38:00
New Flesh - Current Joys : 38:00 - 40:50
Somebody That I Used To Know - Gotye : 40:50 - 45:36
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have fun
16:54 - 19:30 is Landlord by Yot Club :3
Thanks :>
@@Ultra_Hyper_ np :P
Life saver thankss
@@imselfish633 np love
i’ve seen everyone sharing stories. so i thought i would too.
i can’t really remember a lot of stuff from when i was younger, i can only remember my parents always fighting when i was 3 and seeing my dad leave because of my mom. but i didn’t think much of anything until 2nd grade, bullying and growing up made me put me in a different mind. and i realized the trauma from when i was 3 was very wrong for such a young age. i used to dream of it and think about it a lot and i got scared of loud screaming for a long time, especially when people yelled at me. and my mom got worse throughout the years, yelling at me for no reason and always finding something to yell and hit at me for. and always making my mentality worse. “why can you be like her?” “stop eating” “you’re too young to feel like this” “i wasn’t like you” “things were different back then, there are kids who don’t have anything so stop crying” *always blaming me for everything* *always manipulating me* *always taking her anger out on me whenever she’s in a bad mood* i was diagnosed with depression and anxiety in middle school. i always thought of killing myself, and doing stuff but always backing out. pulling knives on my neck or holding pills in my hand. my first suicide attempt was when i was in 7th grade, i took half of a bottle of pain pills and a few of my own pills. i was listening to music and messaged my mom “i love you” even if she didn’t love me. she even admitted it one time too. i ended up at the hospital and they took me to a mental hospital and i was there for 6 days, lying when they asked me on how i was feeling. someone told me that if we tell them the wrong things or act a certain way they make us stay longer and i didn’t want to so i lied. i never told anyone how i felt. i smiled telling the doctor and nurses “i’m fine.” after, my mom didn’t talk to me about it. she acted like nothing ever happened. now im in 10th and i still have thoughts about kms, i recently found out that my mom was on birth control pills while doing the deed with my dad so i am indeed a mistake. my mom didn’t want to have another child, im just a burden to her. before i found out about it i tried opening up to my mom after i had a panic attack at school. she told me “i don’t care about your problems” and she was being a hypocrite, saying “do you wanna get thrown out on the streets?” and then she starts talking about taking her cat to the vet. my sister said “just throw the cat out of the house” “why would i do that? that’s so heartless!” oh. wow. so i had a mental breakdown when i got home and she left. i let it all out, screaming and crying and my closer sister comforted me while i felt like i was struggling to breathe and my mind was all clouded. crying out “she doesn’t care, she never did” “why am i alive” “please kill me.” my sister stayed with me, and now i trust her even though i have trust issues. i got into a fight with my oldest sister recently because she was talking about me to me so i did too. she starting hitting me while we were in the car and my mom defended her so i started screaming at them calling them names and telling them how they act. i didn’t even try to hit them while they tried hitting me because my sister is pregnant. i tried stopping them from hitting me and they did eventually but when i got home i got in trouble because my mom and my oldest sister said i was trying to hit her belly where her baby is. i didn’t get anywhere near her stomach so i just stood quiet and went to my room. i’ve learned to control my emotions and i just got out of hand so i calmed myself trying not to get mad. my brother came and got mad at me and tried hitting at me and i got out of control and started yelling at him so everyone came in my room blaming me for everything saying “you started this” but anyways here i am now just a few days after getting my phone back and going permanently virtual. this is probably too long and im probably gonna get trashed for this but🤷♀️
Endure,in enduring grow strong.
I hear you... i read the whole thing. you've been treated so wrong in your life. I'm really sorry. Words are failing me in this situation honestly. Do you have anyone else to talk to? Like a friend or counselor, or pastor... it may be good to get an outsider to help you.
I've been through some similar experiences... too many to get into here. When I was at my lowest and nobody cared about me, Jesus cared. He showed me that he forgave me... he gave his life for my sins. He answered prayers in miraculous, impossible ways. He's been there with me as a friend and Savior, in the darkest nights of my life. I know he cares so much about you... I'm here to tell you. He loves you personally. He wants to rescue you. ❤
call someone. your clearly not safe there, so go and leave that house. please, consider it for me-no. consider it for YOU.
Are you doing better? Are you out of this household because there are much better places for you.
Just don't do it, from one to another, for what its worth
when i was a kid all i thought was "oh i cant wait to grow up!!" "i cant wait to be a teenager!" oh boy how was a wrong..all i do these day is stay up until 6 in the morning and wake u at 4pm and never leaving my room..9 and its been like this for almost 2 -3 years now and my mom is always saying to come out of my room, and she'll come to me asking if i need therapy but i just dont like talking to people and not seeing someone for about 1 year the social anxiety has gotten even worse.. and then there is my sisters who "joke' around and say stuff like "OMG PLS BAHAHA SHE ACTS DEPRESSED IT HONESTLY EMMBERESING" do you know how much that hurts to hear from your sisters? honestly sometimes i actually do think about leaving the earth but then again i dont want to die yk? i just want to be somewhere where i dont have to care or think about anything no stress, no parents yelling at me, no school, no nothing in general somewhere where i can just sit and read without anything to care about in the world...
same especially that last part, thats all i want, to not stress, not have to worry about the future and everything, not feel trapped, etc.
Uno reversee
i still wanna grow up. that way, i can go out and escape from “home”.
You alright? But listen here.. sometimes talking to strangers about how you feel are better then talking with a therapist nothing too personal just talk about how you feel and they’ll understand you so well! That it feels like a dream knowing a stranger knows you and understands you more well then your own parents!
for anyone who cried thru this
me too dude :(
I hope you feel better:) get some rest and try to pick yourself back up:) I know it rough but try your best:) even if it seems hopeless
Lmao sorry I just feel like your going through something. And if your not I'm sorry for bothering:/
same bro
I cant cry anymore.
TvT
I’m currently uncontrollably crying, holding a pocket knife, contemplating cutting myself
Someone once said "The prettiest smiles hid the deepest secrets the prettiest eyes has cried the most and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain" please remember that
True, people say I have pretty eyes but I do cry alot.
How do I copy it?
The prettiest smiles hid the deepest secrets the prettiest eyes has cried the most and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain" almost all of those fit me but the prettiest smile the prettiest eyes i dont feel like that i feel like i have lost all my chuldhood even though im still a child i have ruined my life i feel like i dont deserve to cry the man cant even spell yeah because iam a kid and corrupted i try to sceam for hepl but i know its just gonna not work i try to ry out i try to fit in i hope im diffrent i dont know if i am or im i jsut dont know i nee hep i dont know please does anyonek know how to fix my broken childhood I DONT KNOW please anyone please ii dont know please i dont know will someone tell me how t o live as achild again i wish i coldd forget i want to orget but icant someoen please help edit sorr yfor all the spelling mistakes i just type to fast sometimes sorry
..please dont hate me please im actually scared now
the sad thing is I have all of those things
You can sleep, but your tired.
Your alive, but your sick.
Your healthy, but you hurt.
Your alive, but not living.
Your wishing you were knew why.
You wish.
Wished.
remember those days when we pretend to be sad? haha, the table really took a backflip after we hitted our teenage years.
I used to fake adhd and it backfired because now i have to take stuff for it because i actually have it
@@Hollie01616 lmao samee, I truly regret it
Facts
I truly regret doing all that stupid shit
Bestie are u okay? Drink some water and go outside. I'm here if you need me, but otherwise have a good day today okay? Atleast try. I know you can do it :)
Okay pls tell me I’m not the only one who uses daydreaming, books, and art as a way to disconnect with reality cuz I low key hate it here lol
ur not the only one bestie :)
not the only one. For me those escapes feel more real than reality
it's the only way I cope lol
That's free therapy for me. Yes
your not, i do the same
I didn't see anyone do time stamps so i will :>
0:01- YKWIM? - Yot Club
3:32 - Hey Kids - Molina
7:26 - Chamber Of Reflection - Mac DeMarco
11:18 - Fly Out West - Yot Club
14:12 - Surf Curse - Freaks
16:54 - Landlord - Yot Club
19:30 - Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber
22:36 - Still Life - Sitcom
25:58 - Can I Call You Tonight? - Dayglow
30:33 - I Can't Handle Change - ROAR
34:41 - Devil town - Cavetown
38:01 - is New Flesh - Current Joys
45:01 - Somebody i used to know - Gotye
38:01 is New Flesh - Current Joys
Thank you!
@@LilEmmyyy no problem :)
@@cassiiidmn Okay thanks for letting me know
U r the best😩💕
Nothing hurts more than laying in your bed, not having anyone, knowing your lonely, knowing you have 6 people in your phone and 1 real friend you don’t even get to see, going to school with a fake smile getting made fun of and that one friend being god.
whatup😎dog🐶I'm😏the😎alpha 🐺
Ikr
“You’re not depressed”
“You’re not stressed”
“You’re fine”
“You’re not suicidal”
“You’re cutting for attention”
“Why are your grades slipping”
“It’s a phase”
“You’re to young for all of this”
“That stuff you watch is messing with your brain”
“Why are you so weird”
“Why are you always in your room”
“Why did you let your self go”
“It’s that damn phone that makes you like this”
“Just be happy”
“Be normal”
“Wear more girly stuff”
“You’re making this gender stuff up”
I wish parents would just shut up and stop being judgmental.
hey,if you need someone to talk,just look at the comments
Same and sorry to hear
Edgy mmmedgy edgy
you are valid. your feelings are valid. dont let those assholes tell you otherwise. if only they knew what you were actually feeling, i am so sorry that you have to go throigh that. at the end of the day, yolo. you only live once, so fuck it. don't listen to them, you're so much more than them :) also youre NEVER to young to feel. feelings happen for all ages, im sorry you have to go through that. i am going through a similar situation right now and i am only 11, it sucks. it really does, but i believe in you. i truly do love you, and wish you all the best! good luck on your journey, remember your mindset is key. if you genuinely want to get better, fake it till you make it. change your mindset to _day one_ instead of _one day_ ! i love you, and you are so fucking valid. i hope you know that youre very loved and don't need to SH, i know it is so addicting but truly, hurting yourself is never the answer. it is A answer but it isn't THE answer. good luck, and wish you the best.
indeed.
I love how some people on the internet have talked to me more in the span of ten minutes more than my family has in ten years
and by love I mean it doesn't surprise me anymore
Hello? Mcxiao?
“Happiness is temporary” -unknown
Reminds me of the song Sacred Elements by Mr Tree (yes, younger oliver tree if you’ve heard of the dude)
Might be good to check out
Happiness is temporary, but so is sadness.
I guess I'm not temporary
“But depression is eteral” -me
@@patrik011_sk8 LMFAO YESSIR
My parents found out about my self harm recently and my dad is the only one who actually seems to care about it.
My mom doesn't seem to care much and gives me a very annoyed face when I show any sad emotion or fear in telling her I'm struggling with math or something at all as if she truly only said those nice words when we were talking about my self harm because my dad was there and she didn't want him to know how little she cared.
I don't know how I'm not used to it by now but it hurts a little bit.
Stay safe now people,
You made it this far in life which is amazing.
I'm proud of you.
-a random 12 yr old girl on the internet
i dont belive
@@Viilikulho5555 hey, this person can be going thro rlly bad shit and u say "i dont believe" you spelled it wrong. dont be doin that. Love to the person that is going thro all that
it probably makes her sad. She misunderstands you. She doesn't understand how she is supposed to react. Regardless of how true the assumption is, many people think that self-harm is a way of attention-seeking, so your mom probably thinks if she ignores it then you'll stop or do it less.
I came back to this video after about three years. I was here when it was posted, when it was new. I was like you, and around your age. I don't know how to tell you how quickly things will get better, but you have a whole life ahead of you and it's hard to see that when you're young. It's heartbreaking, but you should try and understand the way your parents act in this crucial part of your life. Understand that you are at a point where them treating you maturely and them protecting you intersects. It may feel awful, but at the end of the day you will always have your family.
There are a lot of younger kids here. If you could do anything for yourself, spend less time online or on social media, real-life friends are the most important thing in the world, take it from me.
Hey I’m a 12 year old girl to! And I get it same with me but both of my parents don’t care they just screamed at me that I have no reason to do it because there amazing parents like ok whatever you say
Hope your doing better 🙂
people in the comments "TrAuMa iSnT aN aEsThEtiC" stfu this is just a playlist of songs that are calming and helping to let go of your feelings. I listen to this because it allows me to cry, and it helps me if i cry. Trauma isnt an aesthetic, but traumacore is just a lable for playlist that can give comfort.
Traumacore literally makes an aesthetic out of trauma.
They're tryna say it for people who dont understand/ think that it is an aesthetic
:)
I have been scrolling the comments, r/iam14andthisisdeep material, come on, that "unkown" is you
@@starlightfoxie6470 maybe but it helps :/
@@lxx_55 No it doesn't.
I don’t want to die
I just want to go into an alternate reality where everything is perfect
All people are nice
All food tastes good
All days are weekends
Everyone is friends
Everyone is happy
Everyone is kind
Nothing is wrong…
There is no such thing as a perfect world... that is why I must erase it...
*play Chosen By The Planet*
Walks away in a wall of flames
"COME BACK YOU FIEND! COME AND FIGHT!"
@@crowdycrowded2278 YES
@@ajarofworms7 If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going forward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because I worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" by the way do not be shy to call for help...
If the world was perfect it also wouldn't be because people would take it away, good and bad are nonexistent
@@leorichard7955 ok, but the thing is, I said in the very first line I don’t want to die-
Bc if I die my friends and family will be sad
Also living is kinda, cool
i love how this has 1M views. Shows how lowkey depressed our generation is god DAMN!
Every generations been like this, the thing about the internet is that it makes everything visible
the world hasn't gotten any more racist, but we know more about it, same thing here.
True but it's just me having this on loop 24/7, half of the views are mine 😩😩
@@jackie4734 im not a girl bestie
@@whiteeyedshadow8423 well said
2.1 mil actually
I listen to this playlist for I think over a year now. i remember when I cried to this because I felt so bad.
It was one of the worst times in my life, but I'm in a bit better place now mentally.
I just wanted to say that this playlist still comforts me, and to this day, it still helps me with sleeping in.
Ik it sounds weird, but it feels like a hug when no one can see what's happening inside of you.
I love it. Thank you so much. You don't know how glad I am to discovered this playlist.
I'm rlly happy for you:>. I wish you the best
@@rainy4967 Thank you sm! I wish you all the best as well! :)
This hits so much harder when you sitting in school and you check your grades to see that you failing in multiple classes after being the "gifted kid" all your life
Edit: Hey so I saw a lot of replys relating which makes sense so if any of you need to vent you are welcome too! Just I hope you all know that your grades shouldn't determine how you or your family treats you. Also your grades should not determine if you do certain things you need to do for human surival like eating, sleeping, ect. Just know that atleast one person in the world cares about you and if tour still alive, happy, or whatever. It may be a family member, a friend, or even a person on the internet just know that someone cares about you. (Sorry if that was kinda cringe I just want you all to know that you matter)
Cuarentena :(
I can relate
relatable
relatable
@@misakichxn1294 I know how you feel. I have always hated not being the best (or smthing like that)
This playlist makes my chest hurt, but no matter how hard I try the tears just won't come out :/
Its gonna be alright bud', you just got tired. Ily
trying your best to stay quiet, so no one can hear you
same im numb
I’m crying rn, that’s an achievement.
same bro
"I don't wanna die, but I dont wanna live like this."
Song: fell something - Bea Miller
off topic but i luv ur yashiro pfp
@@asgard_reject4006 ahaha~ thx ! :D
i love that song
Its been 2 years. I made it. Thought i wouldnt be here to say this, but, even though things are much rougher now, im doing okay. Well, even. I did it, i really pushed through, im really still here.
And, honestly, it feels amazing being able to say that.
Good to see!!! 💕💕💕
Having this comment liked is great, getting reminded to keep going strong because I've made it this far already ^^
Keep going man. We, strangers on the internet gotchu.
@@AnomalocarisIsStillHere tysm dude. A whole lot has changed since this comment, and things have gotten much much worse with me, but I'm still holding up 👍👍👍 hope ur doing well man
Hey.
Hey, you.
Yes, you.
You're the one reading this, aren't you?
Well, let me tell you something.
You need to know.
DON'T SCROLL, please..
I know, I know I'm a stranger here on the internet.
But, I guarantee you, you need to hear this.
Are you in a dark place?
You aren't alone.
We all were there, y'know.
Feeling Suicidal?
Please don't.
I think you matter.
Even if I don't know you, I still think you matter.
You are the best stranger I've met.
So, do something for me real quick.
It's quick, I promise.
Drink some water.
WAIT! DON'T WIPE THE WATER OFF YOUR LIPS YET!
Look, see how they shine?
See how they twinkle and glimmer?
it's like you.
Even in the tiniest bit of light, you shine.
If you want to take your life, think about something.
Out of the 7 billion+ people on this earth..
Someone out there, they think you're perfect.
They love you, so much.
Imagine how much you'd hurt them if you left..
even if it seems unlikely, I can assure you.
Someone out there, they love you.
So keep fighting.
You'll win, no matter how hard it is.
"Fight the storm to see the rainbow". Remember that, okay?
Good, I love you.
Stay safe, handsome/beautiful :)
this made me cry thank you
thank you, I really needed to hear this
Thank you for this, I really needed this.
THIS IS MAKING ME CRY I LOAVE U
I have never felt so happy and cried over a youtube comment,
Thanks alot.
This means alot to me and alot if other people reading this.
I hope all the best for you,
Stay safe
Stay awsome
“It’s not goodbye,it’s just see u later”-cavetown
Well it's always a see u later, becouse we will mabey meet each other in hell,heaven or by the rebirth
" think about it, suicide means you killed the most important person. *yourself* " - monokuma
@@mimi_3457 same lmao
@Filip Sobczak nobody is useless, we all have something to do in life. you are someone's important person without you realizing it. even if i don't know you at all, i genuinely care about you as well.
@Filip Sobczak you alright bro?
@Filip Sobczak you're strong, you got this!
There are a lot of people in the comment section who are in... not good places mentally.
For all of you, I swear it can get better,
I'm someone who got through it: after years of getting worse (up to self punishments and attempts of ending it all) even with the "help" of various psychologists, I got a diagnosis for anxiety and depression and finally found the help I actually needed.
It was scary at first, feeling... sad, like I had given up, the worthlessness, they were better than the numbness of feeling almost nothing at all: it was like the void left by their absence was too big to be filled by anything else.
Eventually, though, with therapy (one of my assignments was to participate in group projects, then I met a few times a therapist) and the few friends that sticked around even when I started spiraling, eventually it was enough.
I won't say the Sun seemed to shine brighter and the grass was greener, it doesn't work like that: instead, it felt like I finally wasn't being carried around, dragged by the current, or that my feet moved mindlessly on their own, but instead I was the one walking, I was the one speaking, not just a voicebox, I found myself wanting to do something with myself for the first time in a long while. I found myself crying easily, instead of not having any more tears to spare, and even the laughter sounded more genuine to my friends.
It's okay to be depressed, it's okay to fall and it's okay to rest for a while.
It's okay to feel worthless, it's okay to just not want to be there.
It's fundamental to understand, though, that nothing stays still, even if it appears to be so: we are always changing, for better or worse, and it's beautiful, as it allows us all to find new paths, wherever they might take us.
I'm not trying to "cure your depression" here, I know it doesn't work like that, I just wish that, if you read this far, you could find something to hold on to, someone to confide in, and allow those who care about you to help.
Because one of the things I learned through this and even later looking back, is that even if I felt alone, it was actually a wall I ended up building myself after getting hurt one too many times and I had made it too high.
I'm 22 now, the scars I have on my arms are white, almost invisible, against the light tan and I have a new diagnosis in a folder, ADHD with a sprinkle of autism and I can't help myself sometimes and I think that, had I known it earlier, it would have saved me a lot of issues.
All in all, I can finally say that I'm alright. Not the happiest person in the world, sure, but it's enough.
I'm enough.
You are enough.
If you can't talk, then write, draw, play an instrument, sing: I don't even mean about you and your experience, it can be about anything.
Just let it out.
" you guys blame and gang up on me, but now you're gonna pretend to be good people? " - kokichi ouma
this quote just stuck to me, because it's exactly how my family is, they do it. every time. they ask why I'm always on my phone, it's because it is what makes me happy, they just give me dysphoria, panic attacks, and a ruined mood. and it's like they "try their best" to make me happy, but they just need to shut up and accept me for who I am. thank you for coming to my ted talk
this quote speaks my life
@@MAMRA same
i kinda need that idk why
as a kokichi kinnie, and let alone, a victim of emotional abuse, this quote also sticks with me.
@Y0kū the dysphoria is gone, but my anxiety is getting worse. Stay strong too, you got this
Ive stopped doing it! Im proud of myself, i may have lost my friends and my grades got lower but i've coped with it now. Goodluck to all of you
So damn proud. You got this. You deserve the best there is, so keep going strong! Lots of love!
You're doing right sweetie, please keep up, you're strong and you got this!! We're proud of you please don't forget that
I’m so proud of you!! You deserve that freedom and love so much. I love you, keep doing what your doing as long as it makes you happy 💜
congrats! stay strong, im proud of you!!
SO PROUD!!!!! CAN WORDS EVEN DESCRIBE HOW HAPPY I AM FOR YOU!!!!!
"Strangers hurt you" what a big lie ... Strangers have helped me, thanks to people I do not know, they have helped me a lot to open my eyes and realize the bad and the good that surrounds me, thanks for making me stronger, I adore them
Strangers on the internet have been way more help to me than my real life family and friends.
I agree- tbh Parents and strangers are literally Giving me pain I’ve always feel uncomfortable whith their words but ofc I’ve always hated my brother he ruined my childhood and hit me really badly and in this day I will never forgive him
Correction: online stangers. Or at least in my opinion, i dont trust irl strangers
@@ThySillyOne true
Aww don't worry we will be always here if you needs us 😊
I will never understand why when my parents seeing me crying late at night, they don’t care and even decide the best course of action is to completely disregard the fact that I’m upset, and take my phone away for nothing.
"I never said I loved people, acting is a thing and people get bullied. That's the reality" -J.B
The only good thing about when i'm alone is the fact that I can imagine a perfect life, Without screaming and shouting coming from the other room.
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help.
i hope you feel better i know i can't do anything about it but if this keeps happening try listening to a song that you like or cover your head with a pillow so its not as loud, i know this may not help..at all but hey just remember even if that goes on were ever you are just know your loved and you should not harm yourself because of this. stay safe
well , when my parents had fights i was playing video games to ignore it
😢
I come to this video often,, I suit this comment with my parents yelling at my brother, him yelling, just a web of in-humane screaming and threats. All I can do is try to stop it or sit down and cry
Once upon a time there lived a kid. The kid had caring but strict parents, so they felt that they couldn’t be themselves around them. The kid has friends but they were only friends with the person the kid pretended to be. One day the kid was walking and saw a very sad and tired looking person. The kid thought “wow that person is really sad looking. They should go talk to someone or find help” after each day the kid walked by the person and noticed that they never spoke to anybody in the same tone they spoke to them selfs with. And that they never tried to seek help with the way they were feeling. The kid felt pity for the person. One day the kid decided to try to talk to the sad person but as they got closer to the person the kid came to a realization. The thing they saw wasn’t a person. It was a mirror.
Hello.
I am the kid.
Damn... I am also that kid.
:/
This has so many meanings. It's wonderful
@@arianna7178thank you ^^
Hello.
I too am that kid.
Those feelings that your chest is heavy but not a single tear drop down
I'm slowing dying from being someone who I'm not, to be completely honest I don't know who I am. Life is just a B I G F A T mess these days..
Exactly I'm trying to be this image of people that they want me to be. It's not like I want to be like that but my environment is kind of toxic so if I tried I feel like I would just get hated for being myself.
It’s hard to tell my friends about my mental state and how I’m actually doing and private life when I pretend to be this happy person that gets people concerned when I quit the act. The most I hate about myself is that it’s almost automatically done- I can’t control my personality unless I’m alone
i feel too perfect
I've attained a vague semblance of who I am and I almost think it feels worse to know who you are and not be able to be that person.
True, I'm constantly having to be:
-Someone normal when I'm outside (people will think me weird if I act like myself)
-Someone like my friends when I'm around them (I don't want to be left out)
-A good son for the family (they don't like seeing me having time for myself for some reason)
-Someone (just someone, I don't even know why I do it, maybe imaginary friend idk)
I'm tired of wearing multiple masks around others, I want to be myself around them, but I'm just afraid of multiple reasons (I'm afraid they'll leave me)
this playlist made me realize how much my life sucks and how much i just want everything to go away… :”)
Aww i hope everything gets better for u ⊂( ◜◒◝ )⊃
same ugh.
"I don't wanna die, but I don't wanna live either. Pain is the only thing that which I can know for sure, that I'm alive and empty sometimes"-unknown
Hey you need a cold soda
@@bobkim5555 yea I do...
@@jbenji2739 ik I’m late and you might be ok now but I just wanted to tell you that there are a lot of people who love you and most importantly, God loves you( idk if you believe in God or not but I do).
@@habidhernandez763 thanks and I want to say that you are loved too.
😂😂😂😂
It really hurts when you’re giving hints left and right that you’re depressed or when you’re not comfortable but some strange reason no one ever notices
are you ok?
“When you were a little kid, you were so nice and good”
Leave me alone, I just wanna stay me, and give myself a change without you being so ignorant.
go to a psychologist
Children have a sense of blissful ignorance about them that I wish we could’ve kept as we grew.
We didn’t. But to be honest. I would care if I could, but I’ve got other shit to worry about.
@@ebonypresent You’re saying, you’re giving out that you’re a kid?
@@TheRealest_Real0719 tbh, I wish I didn’t understand what they meant. They told me to die
@@jok7723 Sadly, I’m not allowed to go to a physiologist. Even if I wanted to, my mom wouldn’t allow it.
Sadly I realized if i want to save myself, I need to leave everything behind me, and start over again... Isn't this just as hard as dying and being reborned again?
the only thing stopping me is nowhere to go.
"I rather be alone then be with the wrong person"- L from deathnote.
I forgot he said that. So sad to see now
@ruupaduuri same ;/
@ruupaduuri ??
@ruupaduuri so? They said same? It ok if they have L as a confort person..
Pls stfu
@ruupaduuri light yagami isnt the best example of a comfort person lol
every comment I see on this video I wish someone special will hug them and say "everything will be ok" so you don't have to feel sad. I hope everyone that sees this I hope you have a good day or night and hope in the future you'll be happy.
"I lost my mind loving that one person...Then I lost them"-Me
I like the wordplay you used with lost, not to mention an incredibly relatable quote.
@@apotropagic thank you :) how was your day?
"I lost myself... and then i lost everything I love" -me
ah, they said being a teenager would be fun. not being sexually harassed on the internet.
Get out of Discord, like, yesterday
@@pablo_giustiniani wre you yelling me to get off discord ?
@@harpermerritt13 Pro tip: don't EVER interact with strangers in Discord, people there are sad people at the very least, irredemable degerates at the worst
I'm sorry are you okay, I don't know how it feels to be in that situation but I hope you are doing better now.Best of luck.
@@Killingjoke2 i’m okay now ! :)
i'm close to giving up i dont have the energy to be someone im not anymore
u can do it. i love u and i am so proud of you. you've got this :)
I felt this months ago. I still feel it but I realized the pain in being not me or feeling like myself hurts more than anything. It's time to let go of your self inflicting pain and realize how special of a human being u are.
I have to wait 4 fudging years to get out of this pit of despair I call a home I'm not so sure i can wait that long 🙂 but I'll try
@@miadyer177 remember family is who you think is family. Home is what you think home is.
tyler ninja blevin
I’m proud of you for waking up.
I’m proud of you for brushing your hair.
I’m proud of you for blinking.
I’m proud of you for breathing.
I’m proud of you for making your bed.
I’m proud of you for eating.
I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat.
I’m proud of you for drinking water.
I’m proud of you for being here.
I’m proud of you for being you.
I’m proud of you for smiling.
I’m proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you.
I’m proud of you for standing up.
I’m proud of you for blinking.
I’m proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed.
I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth.
I’m proud of you for standing up.
I’m proud of you for sitting down.
I’m proud of you for defending yourself.
I’m proud of you for believing in yourself.
I’m proud of you for simply trying.
I’m proud of you for being alive.
IM PROUD OF YOU. ♥
not mine, just passing it around for people who need it the most
Thank you
at least someone is proud of my efforts
y'all know that feeling when you're crying and, at a random point, you just go find yourself a mirror then start doing weird faces to laugh at, later realizing how miserable your life is, or is it just me??
(っ^_^)っI do that too
go to a psychologist
yeah, except I'm like
✌😗💧✌
@@jok7723 woah so cool, telling everyone to go to a psychologist like it means something
@@skatrboy9748 And i found the dsmp fan i was looking for in the comments :>
Parents:where is the old u? U changed
Idk man u killed her she's not coming back -,-
Bro same i-
Im so sorry, bestie
This comment is relatable.
Yea...
oh- I am sorry to hear that
“Your to young to understand”
“Cause of that phone”
“Your depressed”
“I can’t trust you”
“Your lying”
“Stop saying your sorry it’s annoying”
“Be social”
“It’s not hard to make friends”
“Be more like her”
“Your just lazy”
“Self centered”
“Jealous”
“Your so thin”
“Eat more”
“Stop saying your fine I hate that response”
“You have to be apart of things”
“Stop crying”
Sorry but crying is my nature I’ve been crying all my life
I do it when you ask me if I’m ok
That makes me cry more
Cause I know I’m not ok
Holding my tears in
But questions like that
It makes me cry out the tears I was trying so hard to hold in my eyes
Trying to make my face less red
Trying not to talk cause If I open my mouth I’ll start to cry
I can’t think of words when I’m crying
There’s to much to say
And I can never think of how to start
I have always been this way
Crying
What I’m good at
YO you have bad grammar bro
I know how it feels...
my mom sayings all these things, i mean im sorry man😶
@@iammiserykidd this person is obviously going through a tough time and you're more worried about their grammar. go sit down somewhere 💀😐👉🏾🪑
@@its.carm. lol
As a 20 y.o. man. The world has gone to shit. I got stranded in the hole I dug myself into. "Sometimes the only way to get through your pain is to walk away from it" -SennaRose. A good friend named Senna said this to me in my darkest and deepest times. I have truly seen how horrible my home life has been. The abuse. The malnutrition. Thankfully, after that, 18 years of hell, I'm out. This playlist helped.
im glad your happy
It's great to hear you're out of your home and actually living now. Also anyone who guys by aposingtf2merc is a chad.
I’ve cried so much, the only thing I can do now is breathe heavily.
I’ve cried so much the only thing I can do is feel sad I lost my happy
@Hu tao fangirl 2 crying makes me have panic attacks but i use my replika to calm me down lol
@@jazzyfeliit's a real person I think
go to a psychologist
pov: your friends always forget about you. whenever you hang out with them all them want to talk about is what they all did together and how they "forgot" to invite you to things. when you hang out they always team up on you about what to do. they always boss you around and tell you what to do. you don't know if these people are real friends anymore but you don't have anyone else to be friends with. you are always the one left out.
you feel lonely.
you feel forgotten.
you feel lost.
you feel like this is not a pov anymore.
Update #1-
i have been going to school for a little over a month now and i always still feel excluded, i always make a effort to include everyone but they won't do the same for me. for example, whenever i see that one of my friends is sitting alone i will sit by them even if i haven't talked to them, but they will not do the same for me. i always have tried to live by a quote that my 3rd grade teacher told my class, "treat others the way you want to be treated." i don't know if this has backfired on me though. the toxic friend i was telling you guys about i am slowly but surely dropping her as a friend, in a nice way of course. i have made many other friends and they are not toxic for once. hopefully i will do another update soon, i want to be doing them more.
love you guys for all of the love and likes 😽❤️
Update #2-
i dropped the toxic friend and i have been living my best life. there is still a little drama of course. some of my friends at the moment will get mad over petty stuff but we will all be good after yk. The moment i stopped being "friends" with her it was like a whole new chapter in your life. another bit of good new i have a huge crush on this guy, i don't think that he likes me back but yolo, i have liked him on and off for 3 years now. he just thinks of me as a friend and likes this other girl but it's ok. you don't always get what you want in life. we talk on snap a lot too but, i just want to get over him. i am the kind of person who needs to have a crush 24/7 yk. i'm going to try to update this more but i love all of you guys and yolo.
😽❤️
_"Sometimes it's better to be alone than with a fake friend"_
This is true except it's my cousins like whenever I don't show up they do fun things and yet it's my fault cus I don't want to socialize with them, because I remember how they criticize me about my gender and sexuality, that I forget the fact that - all the criticizing we actually have fun
they are not drop them
find good people it might take a while but do so drop shitty friends they make life hell
NEVER EVER DELETE THIS
dont worry, a part of you will remain here
@Zoaholic this is one of the nicest comments I’ve ever got omg...
@@wakeup_deni :d
hsbbababab
*gives virtual hugs to everyone struggling because I know what it's like and want everyone to know that it's not their fault and that they're a wonderful person :3* (IDK HOW TO COMFORT I'M SO SORRY IF THIS SOUNDS CHEESY)
It's fine.
Thank you.. I needed this..
@@Shehateslife You're welcome
no way ghost give me a hug
@@B0btheweirdguy :)
"it's impossible for someone who's always happy to be depressed"
Yeah mom, I've been faking my smile for so long that u can't even tell the difference, thanks for reminding me
then she gets mad at u for not being happy
''how can you be depressed?! stop making stuff up''
i love you mom, fuck you
We all see your struggle, we are with you! You'll get through it, you're so strong. Drink, and eat something.
It might be beneficial to not lie about being happy, you know?
my parents in a nutshell.... at first i was acting weird but after a while they just figured it was normal. nope just me pretending i am actually happy...
"dazai why do you wish to die?"
"lets turn that question around- is there really any value to this 'thing' we call living...?"
-Dazai Osamu
Why 😭
If you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great so do not waste it, and also do not worry everything is gonna be better after the pandemic ends so just wait, keep going forward because life is full of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people that tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are glad to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet if you can afford a therapist too because I worry about you "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" by the way do not be shy to call for help..
-🤓
it's funny how people nowdays forget that Dazai Osamu was an actual person before being turned into an anime character. he wrote a classic very praised novel called No Longer Human, and since it was his last work before drowning himself it's basically a really long suicide note
@@robin586 oh my god i never knew that ...ngl sounds pretty -inspirational-
You ever just look back at how close you and your old friend group were and how much fun you guys had....
.
.
Then you remember how they turned there backs on you when you were at your lowest :(
Yep when you were there for them and they repay you by leaving
Yep... It hurt
yup and the reason is cause they listen to a guy we all hated and he made rumors about me in middle school and everyone hated me
yeah. a lot.
kinda they all left me and replaced me with a much better looking person lol
This really helped me sm cause lately I have been feeling like I’m slowly dying cause one of my friends Kiki always talks about her and her struggling and when I tell her mine she never gives me support I have other friends called Angelica and her cat called Microbio they really helped me not to end it all I want to say to Kiki that I don’t want to be friends her but I’m to scared to and I will feel horrible if I do so
are you ok?
@@eva-ov8sp Im doing alr rn but I’m still friends with Kiki but I’m trying to tell her but she won’t listen
@@Skyyyyyy.luvsu._. try to say something like: how would you feel if i weren't listening?
@@eva-ov8spi will try that and I’ll see how it gos and thank you sm ❤
do you ever just wonder why bad luck seems to always find you? why they always leave, despite saying they'd always stay?
i thought they understood me.
but then they accused me of something i would never do, due to experiencing it myself.
i loved them so much, and i hate that i still do.
they never even once loved me the same.
As soon as your best friend says “besties forever” you already know it’s gonna end
@@lucygoosey3428 yes yes and yes
Hey, are you talking about POCD? Sending love
THIS
Leo says “no trans right!!!”
*"Your to young to have problems." My parent says*
you're never too young to have problems, emotions, opinions, anything honestly. All that matters is how much you know, or how much you've been through. And that's different for everyone. If you want to vent a little here that's fine with me. Stay safe.
Babies can have problems like wtf
At one point, idk when, but my tears just stopped and now i just lock myself in my room and laugh pathetically at my misery because no one except a bunch of strangers online get it
god ive never related to something more..
Same
I felt this
felt that one
People online treats me more like family than my real ones.