Full Details of my Retirement? | New Neck Injury, Leaving Leeds, Pandemic??

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КОМЕНТАРІ • 244

  • @tytn9978
    @tytn9978 3 роки тому +201

    I do see you being a coach, Nile. You made a couple of vlogs a few years ago with kids and gymnastics, and I thought then you were a natural with them. Wherever life takes you, you will continue to be an inspiration to others.

  • @Elen8878
    @Elen8878 3 роки тому +121

    I started watching Niles channel almost two year ago when I was extremely sick. I was in constant pain, I had to quit my job, and I couldnt move my body. Niles videos helped me get through such a dark time. When I couldnt sleep because of the pain I would watch hours of gymnastic challenge videos and hilarious stunts. I would always look forward to the next video.
    Watching this now... I’m crying so hard. Not out of sadness but out of overwhelming appreciation and gratitude. You helped me so much. I’m now fully recovered and thriving, and even going back to the gym and having fun moving my body. Watching you and your friends having so much fun inspired me so much to get moving again.
    That time in my life, where it felt like I lost everything, lead me to where I am now, running two business, feeling amazing and happier than I’ve ever been.
    I have no doubt that you will absolutely smash this next chapter. Thank you so much Nile. I can’t wait to see what you do next :)

    • @ezeid137
      @ezeid137 3 роки тому +9

      I suffer chronic illness and myopathy. Former gymnast. His vlogs also helped me on very bad days to bring a smile. Ty so much Nile.

    • @EveLaRiccia
      @EveLaRiccia 3 роки тому +7

      Something like this for me too. As a casual (not competitive) but serious (it's a big part of my life) martial artist whose body despises her and who suffers a lot of injuries, during a lot of months-long periods when I couldn't train, fight, or even do a pullup, I watched Nile Wilson videos and felt better, like I was being given a little bit of the experience back, like I could imagine a day when I could train again. Suffering permanent neuralgia now, will probably never train again, still in mourning, and Nile, while I really don't want you to be in pain, this video is still helping me get through it. I hope your next chapter is amazing, and thanks for being here for all your followers. Hope these comments give some of it back to you.

  • @itsjudystube
    @itsjudystube 7 місяців тому +1

    I’m 65 and I would have loved to do gymnastics when I was younger.
    Handstands and cartwheels were all we did and I loved it. I desperately wanted to learn to tumble but we didn’t have the opportunity. When I tried to do things with friends in the playground we all ended up bumped and bruised with sprains and grazes. We used the top of the swings to swing from and practise landing. Ankle twists and banged heads.
    We thought if we swung really high on the swing we would reach a height where we could do turns snd twists when we jumped off but it didn’t work.
    I hope you can reach all the kids who want to do gymnastics as much as we did.

  • @LynxChan
    @LynxChan 3 роки тому +38

    I like this second channel you. You seem more like just a regular guy, with regular struggles and questions. I love your main channel of course, but there it seems like you're selling the personality, almost the product, of "Nile Wilson", while here you're just Nile, talking. It's nice.

  • @lauralaura5042
    @lauralaura5042 3 роки тому +15

    What you went through, and the fact that you overcame it, makes you worth more than 100 medals

  • @tomc7874
    @tomc7874 3 роки тому +41

    It’s so emotional hearing you talk about this. Huge respect to you!

  • @newcryptonite
    @newcryptonite 3 роки тому +22

    Man you and and the musketeers got me through 2020 but I will give you my humble opinion You don't need to create another channel to separate this part from you gymnastics life. You are Nile Wilson you are more than just gymnastics and your Channell is more than just gymnastics. We subscribed to that channel to see you and your life. Didn't matter if it was gymnastics or your family or your laugh or whatever. I really think just keep everything on one channel and keep being multifaceted. Don't separate or compartmentalize yourself. people are complex and your channel reflects that.

  • @Danieled91
    @Danieled91 3 роки тому +26

    "We compete to Win" - Now you will compete for your 2nd chapter, and lucky you already know how to become a champion!

  • @Rxiide
    @Rxiide 3 роки тому +25

    I completely understand this, I’ve been doing rugby for the last 3 years and the heavy impact has annihilated all the nerves in my spine and many trap nerves all down my back and now I officially can’t play and I’m only 15 so I completely understand how you feel and the impact is has on people but stay strong trust me

  • @amywilson2292
    @amywilson2292 3 роки тому +43

    No doubt you will continue to inspire people everyday 🥰 can't wait to see what you do next!!!

  • @silviabarberio8748
    @silviabarberio8748 3 роки тому +21

    "who doesn't want to do a back flip" describes the emotions of this sport

  • @WideBoyz
    @WideBoyz 3 роки тому +9

    Found your main channel middle of last year and been enjoying catching up with all the content. Smash on with retirement and being immediately employed by yourself 😅 go big 💪

    • @robertdmarchand1929
      @robertdmarchand1929 3 роки тому +1

      Did not think I'd see the Wide Boyz over here! I feel a new film coming on, Nile on crack. He's got the core strength already!

  • @lilliemerson2056
    @lilliemerson2056 3 роки тому +11

    Hey Nile huge respect for you decision and how you have addressed this to us !!

  • @djtardy
    @djtardy 3 роки тому +23

    Sad to see you go! but understandable what you got through. keep inspire all those young kids around the world.. I think your gymnastics career is not over, yes as an athlete maybe but not in the gymnastics field. I won't be surprised if we hear a lot more from you. thank you for being able to inspire me to continue in the sport of gymnastics "that I also love"

  • @Jadead23
    @Jadead23 3 роки тому +8

    I'm so proud of you for putting YOU first amongst all of this. I know whatever goal you focus on next you're going to obliterate.

  • @Budrball
    @Budrball 3 роки тому +13

    Immensely proud that you've made it this far, its motivational and life changing, keep being as diligent as you are Nile

  • @lucbian
    @lucbian 3 роки тому +1

    What you've achieved in Gymnastics but also as a person is so much more then a medal awarded by a committee that, if we're being honest, often has screwed up rules and judgement. You will always be the world's best gymnast to me and there is nobody who comes close. The love and determination you show made me fall in love with gymnastics. You're bringing this sport to the entire world, spreading it. Your body is tired from all the training but gymnastics will always be around you.

  • @davidgoscinski3407
    @davidgoscinski3407 3 роки тому +1

    Nile, You did it, you are a winner and that does not go away. Life is hard but I can see you get it, a cross between growing up and seeing your personal truth clearly. Relax and enjoy life, give all you can to your students, they are and will be You! Remember that the highest honer of an teacher is for a student to become better that you! I have had that experience with 2 of my students and I know I will live on forever! in them and them only. Thanks for inspiring me through hard times and injuries, I will always hold the highest respect for you Nile and THANK YOU BUDDY!
    Who knows in several years and medical technology you will rise again! Peace & God Bless

  • @saraliljenberg8597
    @saraliljenberg8597 3 роки тому +7

    It's amazing to hear you speak this more in depth, it really sounds like you made the right decision. Really inspiring!

  • @daniellehalford1100
    @daniellehalford1100 3 роки тому +1

    Your honesty is inspiring. The doctors missed my neck injury until surgery wasn't an option and arthritis quickly set in. My spouse had a disk replacement in his back and then a fusion that ended his over 20-year career in the Military. Talking about physical and mental pain that accompanies invisible injuries is important and I wish there were more people with a public platform to do it from and show how you can face it and that it is a change, not an end.

  • @nerdvannannihilation
    @nerdvannannihilation 3 роки тому +37

    'I feel in love' cue me crying

  • @luckyrock99
    @luckyrock99 3 роки тому +13

    Nile, can't begin to imagine what you have gone through injury wise. My father has had back surgery on his L4-5, has a disk issue in his L3-4 and L2-3 causing sever leg and hip pain, and numbness. He also has an issue in his c4-5 that they are monitoring, it is a risky surgery, especially for someone his age, but he has constant never pain and has lost most of the muscle mass in his right hand. Thank you for shearing your story and I truly hope that your future builds on the brightness of your past.

  • @hazelcolemanvg
    @hazelcolemanvg 3 роки тому +2

    I injured my back towards the end of my 9 years as a gymnast. I have so many medals and trophies to cherish. Being an elite gymnast was my entire focus for such a huge portion of my life. When I was 15/16, the pain got too much. I wanted to be a normal teenager, I think I fell out of love with the sport for a while. I knew it was my time to quit, it took years for me to realise that I hadn't made a mistake by leaving. I will always be gymnast at heart. Good luck in everything that you put your mind to, you are awesome 👌 👏

  • @tamsinhoar1953
    @tamsinhoar1953 3 роки тому +18

    so much respect nile i love you so much and you've brought me so much happiness and been so inspirational. Keep doing what makes you happyest.

  • @alisontaylor6135
    @alisontaylor6135 3 роки тому

    Hi there. Been a subscriber for ages but couldn't bear to watch videos after you announced retirement. Heartbreaking and didn't feel i could cope with carcrash viewing. Anyway, was so happy to see and hear you during the Olympic coverage. Then I decided to watch Katelyn Ohashi and you together. Loved this and have watched it several times. What a laugh Katelyn has. You two just gelled.
    Anyway, I've now watched the above video and cried along. I wish you nothing but happiness. You guys seem to be living a uni student life in the vids at the moment. Love to you all xxx

  • @meiraloraduncan8953
    @meiraloraduncan8953 3 роки тому

    Nile you’re lucky to have good doctors looking out for you and getting treatment right away because that’s a game changer with regards permanent damage, pain and nerve damage and pain. We have injuries in the same area except mine goes up higher and down lower too. My spinal cord injuries are from a car accident. I was fused in 2010 at C4, C5, C6 because my spinal cord was being crushed in between my vertebrae in 4 places and the nerves were being crushed and cut off which was causing the pain and numbness in my arms, hands, legs, and feet. 6 months later the symptoms were returning, but were even worse. I already had severe nerve damage because it had been untreated over the 20 years since the accident. Long story for another time. Like you they needed to fix above and below the first fusion. In addition to that the new MRI showed that the spinal canal was very narrow and my spinal cord was unable to remove and being squeezed. So in addition to replacing the disks and fusing everything my Neurosurgeon had to remove the lamina off each vertebrae in order to remove a section and widen the spinal canal. He had to realign my vertebrae which resembled a block tower made by a toddler that was about to topple. After doing that he had to fuse my vertebrae from C2 down to T1 on 3 sides of my spine. So I have what looks like scaffolding around my spine built with titanium rods, anchors, carbon fiber mesh forms, titanium plates and screws. You wouldn’t think it could move. Normally you would be right, but I never do anything the normal way and my body doesn’t react the “normal “way. Discovering that I had breast cancer right before the 10 surgery that was 2 surgeries done back to back that was made a million times worse due to complications during surgery that resulted in not enough oxygen getting to my brain after my airway was compromised due to my tongue swelling. I spent a month in the hospital followed by inpatient physical rehabilitation and 3 weeks later had the cancer removed and started daily radiation treatments which I reacted to after just 3-4 days. Normally people don’t get the skin breakdown until the end of their treatments or months later. We didn’t know that a highly infectious bacteria had entered my body where they removed lymph nodes and it was slowly spreading throughout my body into my blood, spinal/brain fluid, bone and basically everywhere. Because I was still recovering from both surgeries I didn’t realize that the symptoms I was having weren’t normal and that they were actually neurological symptoms that should have alerted my team of doctors that something was very wrong An abscess formed where they removed lymph nodes which would complicate things even more. I started blacking out which caused me to fall to the floor which also damaged my titanium hardware. The first one resulted in C7 and T1 being severely fractured and the titanium screws were shattered. I was put back into a hard neck brace. My Neurosurgeon couldn’t operate until the abscess closed from the inside out. I was admitted to the hospital for 3 days as they ran tests. They didn’t really get the right one. I had 4 major black outs that caused damage and physical injuries to my spinal fusion and spine I took 5 months for the abscess to close because it started out at 2.5 inches by 2 inches. It was 8 months later that the repair surgery could happen. He removed excess spinal/brain fluid which was sent to pathology and how they found the infection. He had to remove and replace all damaged hardware and extended the rods down to T3 . The titanium rods had been bent into my lung cavity making it hard to breathe and all of the hardware was loose and moved with every move I made causing extreme pain. 1.5 months before the repair surgery I managed to tear my Achilles tendon and some ligaments in my left leg while at outpatient physical therapy. I was stuck in a boot for 6 months. The treatment for the infection took 10 months with custom IV antibiotics through a pic line and high powered oral antibiotics. One of the medications put you at a higher risk of rupturing your Achilles’ tendon which I didn’t need on top of everything else. I had issues with my right shoulder too. I wish that the doctors had discovered the injuries years ago but it was before the MRI & CT scanners were invented. Everything about my life was changed and I had to come to terms that I could no longer teach my students which still makes me emotional. I can only stand for 10-15 minutes at a time and can only walk short distances while using a rolling walker. I have an electric wheelchair, but currently can’t get it into my house and my special lift for transporting it is broken as is the car it was attached to. People had tried to steal it twice. I am blessed to be alive to see my daughter grow up because I have nearly died 5 different times over the last 10 years. God has brought the right people into my life at just the right time. For any that want to start drama over my mentioning God don’t waste your time because there are way too many things that are documented throughout my life that proves that there is a higher being who is definitely in charge. After nearly being seconds from death 5 times only to suddenly start breathing without help, and many other events that can’t otherwise be explained. I have a powerful team of guardian angels who have been working overtime saving my life even as a child. After everything I have experienced I can actually look back and see many of the amazing ways that they stepped in to help and I am forever grateful.

  • @tipa7863
    @tipa7863 3 роки тому +1

    Hey Nile, I've also had this shoulder injury two years ago. Its called scapula alata. The nerve that is controlling the musculus serratus anterior is probably damaged in your case as well. Thats why your shoulder blade is sticking out and you cannot lift your arm that easily or make an hand stand. It took about 3 months for me to recover, my neurologist told me, that the nerve is growing about 1mm a day. From your spine to the muslce it's about 20-30cm of nerve, that needs to be repaired, so in a bad case, it can take even longer (200-300days). You can try acupuncture or stimulate your musle electrically to maintain your musle mass. But your muscle mass will automatically come back once your nerve can control your serratus anterior again.

  • @RomboutVersluijs
    @RomboutVersluijs 3 роки тому

    I watched so many vids back in 2018, then somehow stopped and today one video popped up again. Incredible journey man! Hope you stay strong and succeed! Always liked your videos back then with all the joking and stuff

  • @gimpeguy2929
    @gimpeguy2929 3 роки тому

    I'm very sorry to see you retire, you've worked so hard for this dream but I am pleased to see you leaving on your own terms and with the awareness to realise that life is more important than a medal. Good luck with the future.

  • @graciesgymnastics4947
    @graciesgymnastics4947 3 роки тому +21

    You've changed the game!! Have you ever thought of trying trampolining as another way to stay kinda in the sport but just having fun as it probily and hopefully wouldn't effect your neck and shoulder?!

  • @fdc1374
    @fdc1374 3 роки тому

    Nile, I had surgery to fuse my spine anterior and posterior, L4 to S1 in 2010. I had foot drop and loss of bladder function.I was extremely depressed. I gained almost two stone in weight due to the nerve pain medication I was taking. I'd been in pain for two years prior to the surgery and I'd surgery that failed in 2007.
    Two years after the surgery in 2010 I learned to ski! I can now ski double black diamonds and I am a ski instructor.
    I scuba dive with sharks- but I have to get my gear on in the sea, before everyone else jumps in which is nerve wracking, bobbing around on the surface with sharks underneath me!
    I have limited flexibly due to the fusion but it does not stop me from enjoying the life I have now. I've adapted.
    You are not just a gymnast. You are in inspiration.
    I've watched your channel throughout covid and I admire your dedication to your sport.
    I wish you happiness in your journey.
    Look after your mental health now. We can all wait while you dedicate time to yourself.
    Best wishes from Calgary, Canada. Join me for some ski lessons once all the covid travel restrictions

  • @FilmorYT
    @FilmorYT 3 роки тому +18

    Wtf your gym is like 10 minutes from my house?!... why am i finding this out now 🤦🏻‍♂️ my creaky 30 yr old ass needs to get in shape. Always loved the idea of getting into it at this age. Start from scratch and see what happens 🤓

  • @amberwebb7298
    @amberwebb7298 3 роки тому +1

    Retired or not your still one of my favorite gymnast out there.

  • @ffionbulkeley8599
    @ffionbulkeley8599 3 роки тому +5

    Still can't believe it, so much respect for you!

  • @FruityLiana
    @FruityLiana 3 роки тому +3

    You’re such an inspiration, this video was so honest and moving. You’re amazing and I can’t wait to see where your journey takes you next! You inspire so many people every single day and we’re all SO proud of you and what you’ve accomplished!

  • @pheebscain8907
    @pheebscain8907 3 роки тому +5

    Honestly most inspirational man alive , can’t wait for what’s to come Nile 🥰🤛🏼

  • @kiskekkoevo308
    @kiskekkoevo308 3 роки тому +29

    Make a circus attraction with your friends! Flying boys II.

    • @kelleythenurse3283
      @kelleythenurse3283 3 роки тому +3

      Him actually doing the circus performing at that level would be just as risky as doing gymnastics to his neck.

  • @Phyton2410
    @Phyton2410 3 роки тому +2

    Hi Nile,
    i follow you now since the first video of "Ultimate Gymnastc Challenge". I loved every video of you since then, and still do. As an ex Judo professional, who had to retire because of injuries i feel you so much. But i can say this isn`t the end. And like you say: With joy i will look out from new content from you. All the best in your near future.
    Greetings From Germany

  • @ShaunWilders
    @ShaunWilders 3 роки тому +2

    Nile, think about what you have achieved more than what you haven't. You must be in the top 1%. I know it doesn't help, and we all have our limits but a lot of people, me included, look up to you so think of yourself as a leader. You have achieved so much and need to celebrate that. Now - go on and inspire and train others to build on your achievements, helping someone achieve with your help is so much more rewarding than doing it yourself. If you want to achieve a gold medal but can't do it yourself, help someone else achieve that for you; that is so much more rewarding.

  • @arlorobertson-ward7491
    @arlorobertson-ward7491 3 роки тому

    I have nerve damage in my leg and back from a horse riding accident. I was told I might not be able to walk let alone ride again. Riding for me is like gymnastics for you! 8 years later I have 95% mobility on my leg, I ride and compete in dressage, I don’t need a cane to walk anymore! I have been where you are and it can get better. It takes you on a different path but is not a negative thing! I wish you all the best and I love both channels 👍🏻😆x

  • @daviddavid9837
    @daviddavid9837 3 роки тому +1

    Congratulations! I was fortunate to have retired early, but I have neither gymnastics medals nor successful business ventures. And I'm not loved and adored by audiences of tens or hundreds or thousands. We all have things, looking back, we'd like to have done if only, yet as I hear you talk, you were ready and you have so many plans. Big changes can be stressful but just as exciting. I'm really happy to see you moving up and moving on to the next big thing. Congratulations! If I ever make it back to the UK after this lockdown is finally over, maybe I'll look you up and show you the gymnastic tricks and rolly pollies you've inspired me to learn!

  • @chloegilman602
    @chloegilman602 3 роки тому

    I know this is no where near the same scale but I really really relate to Nile. I used to do Gymnastics/dance/cheer/running. Everything. But then I became ill and have ME/Chronic Fatigue. It feels like you're grieving your former self. You will never find put what you could have achieved and also have to find away to carry on life as this new you. Big respect Nile. Always supported you from the first competition I saw you in. ❤

  • @danielhousset3210
    @danielhousset3210 3 роки тому +1

    Hello Niles
    You are so young and even though you have your entire life ahead of you, you have been through more in a few years than many people in their entire lives! You have certainly built yourself through gymnastics and as a result, you have been built through careful listening to yourself, through a high level of requirement, through the acceptance of the notion of work and effort ... You have so many assets to start a new life! You are a brilliant champion (by your talent, your abilities, your achievements, your mental toughness), you are very attractive, with a magnificent sense of humor and self-mockery ... This transition is certainly very painful but you have to leave time to time, and above all believe in yourself and your very great potential ... You are very lucky to have a present and loving family, a beautiful and talented girlfriend, loyal and strong friends. How lucky you are !
    Excuse my very perfectible English ... I am French! I sincerely wish you the BEST for your adventures to come ... You are and remain NILE WILSON whom so many of us love and support!

  • @amandataylorchoreography5723
    @amandataylorchoreography5723 3 роки тому

    In 2018 I had a full replacement of my C 5&6... I was professional dancer, who actually performed in Glasgow at the hand over ceremony for the Gold Coast Comm Games in 2014 (I’m Australian)
    Watching your retirement video hit so many emotions as I remember having to make that call myself. It was beyond hard, I had danced since I was 4!
    2years later during covid, i had multiple specialists appointments due to nerve pain in my right arm... my C7!
    I’m now keeping a close eye on that!
    I can really related to what you’re saying in this vid, man it’s hard.
    But your channel, now channels are amazing and you still have a bright future ahead
    Thank you for your content and keeping us all sane with laughter 😀

  • @nicolacrabtree771
    @nicolacrabtree771 3 роки тому

    You will find that amazing feeling again. You will make a wonderful dad one day and that feeling beats anything!
    You are a wonderful young man, with great family, friends and girlfriend.
    You have everything in life you need.
    Achievements are great but great people in your life are better 🥰

  • @lee-annethomson3556
    @lee-annethomson3556 3 роки тому +1

    So excited to see where you take this next chapter in your life Nile! You have so much to offer and have so much life to live yet. New adventures and experiences are ahead of you!

  • @amytashadumas1992
    @amytashadumas1992 3 роки тому

    I feel you Nile saying this. I have the exact same problem with my lower back... 2 bulging discs L5-S1 with chronic sciatica caused my scoliosis.... I’m 29 and was told by 32 I’ll be in a wheelchair and never able to walk again. you explained it well saying your whole life will change if you had that surgery. If I have mine I’ll never be able to walk again, and the pain 70% chance won’t go away. My family struggle to understand why I don’t want the surgery. It’s refreshing seeing someone in a similar situation say for them it isn’t worth it either for the exact same reasons... thank you for helping me realise that my life long dreams are still avaliable to me right now :)

  • @samanthaL2824
    @samanthaL2824 3 роки тому

    Competitive gymnastics is far from the end of your journey. You are so inspiring and motivating, the wilsonator will continue to open up the world of gymnastics to everyone! You have such an inner core of strength! Stay strong and stay proud! Much love and respect to you and your awesome family! Xx

  • @TheTubeofjo
    @TheTubeofjo 3 роки тому +1

    Respect your decision, I had a horse riding injury back in 2013. Good luck for the future and Happy 25th for tomorrow😉🥂🥂🍺🍾💐🎉🦁🎂🤘🏽. Your You Tube content has always been great fun. 😍

  • @robinaddis-vaughn7271
    @robinaddis-vaughn7271 3 роки тому

    Nile, I know that you're disappointed by the way you've had to retire, but it was time. God has a purpose for you beyond your amazing athleticism. You're an inspiration. You've no idea how many people who have mental health problems that you helped with that one documentary. And, you continue to tear down the stigma surrounding the problem of unseen illnesses.
    I'm an American (don't mind saying it now that we have a new President) who's suffered with severe depression and anxiety. But, primarily depression. I have a terminal, unseen illness called lupus. It's different in everyone. I was a young female judge in a small town, I wasn't chief judge, but I had my career plotted out. I was very athletic and then I got sick. It had happened before, but I had been able to bounce back, long story short, no bouncing back. There were issues at work, I wasn't getting the support I needed. The medications that I had to take to live, made me look a a blow fish, you couldn't see my eyes, I was so swollen. And, the pain was unreal. I was basically forced into retirement, the chief judge didn't want me to work from home (she didn't mind me signing arrest warrants at my kitchen table at 3am if she was out for a "girls weekend"--but not because I was sick). I lost everything. My job, my house, my self-esteem, my self-worth, friends, and both my parents suffered major, life threatening illnesses. Daddy had a massive heart attack that left him with 25% of his heart functioning and he was a diabetic. My 2nd older brother insisted on him coming on, so if he was going to die, he'd die at home. He never thought about what pressure that put on my mama. I grew up in a strict, patriarchal southern home, whatever the man said, you did, regardless of how stupid it was, mama had never even pumped gas before, I had to teach her. Again, lots of crap happened, my mama suffered a massive stroke and on top of that, an idiot doctor performing a test on her, tore a 2cm hole in her throat. She had 15 minutes to be airlifted to another hospital and see a thoracic surgeon. They got her there in 13 minutes. She was in a coma for several weeks...,long story. She'd kicked breast cancer's ass. But, in between my losing everything, I mean, I had no house, I had no income and being sick in America will go through your savings. I'd gotten on Facebook and reconnected with a few friends. But, I found a lupus support group. I'd halfheartedly attempted suicide years before but on this day, I was going to go through with it. I was nothing but a burden on everyone in my life. My parents hadn't gotten sick yet. But, my 2nd brother thought that I had magical powers to alter blood tests and that I was faking the entire thing. And, nerve damage, there's no way to adequately describe it unless someone wants to stick their arm or foot into a fire and leave it there and I had that on the bottom of both feet. So, this day, ltrs written, my chosen method before me, something (God) told me to make a final post in the lupus support group basically saying "sorry,not sorry". And, I got an immediate response from a young woman in the UK, she was barely 25 years old, but she reached her very young hand across the pond and reached down and saved me. We talked for hours online. We've been "sisters" ever since. I could never afford to go visit, I wanted to, but even when you finally begin to get your disability monies, it's just barely enough. I missed her wedding. Both my parents were terribly ill at this point and she kept checking on me, calling me almost daily. They had fertility problems. Went through multiple IVFs until she called me, to tell me she was pregnant. She & her husband hadn't told anyone else before they told me. I've gotten more friends through her who enjoy hearing me talk because I'm southern they like the accent. One even got a picture of Queen Elizabeth II on her way to Kensington Palace to see baby George. I'm exceptionally close to her bff, she kept me updated when my friend went into labour, sending me pictures. I talked to her husband and my friend shortly after he arrived. They lived in Manchester then, beautiful little boy. My mama died one month before the baby was born, my father 9 months later. My oldest brother is 64 (I was an accident), he's severely mentally and physically handicapped, he's inaudible to every one but me. I listen to him. He was my first best friend and he'll find a way to make you understand what he's saying, if you'll listen. My 2nd brother who's 63, wanted to stick him in an institution but daddy made me promise to take care of him. It's been almost 9 years now, 24/7. I met a British man by happenstance on UA-cam who was coming to my defense of southern people. We're not all stupid. But, he thought he was talking to a man. I quickly resolved that issue and we're engaged to be married when I can leave my brother. So, there's reasons for everything and everything that comes from the Wilsonator, Joanna your mum and dad,friends are now Emily, help me get through another day. You are more than a gymnast. You're a role model. Thank you Nile & I do hope that I get to meet you and your family someday. I need my merch autographed (Luke, Ash & Emily too)! Thanks.

  • @PaulH_1972
    @PaulH_1972 3 роки тому

    I know that pain all too well. I broke my back 20yrs ago, had 3 bulged discs which required surgery which unfortunately didn't go well & left me disabled. I recently went through more surgery to have a spinal cord stimulator installed, which is purely for pain relief. I love watching your channel, you are an inspiration to the younger generation.

  • @zanuda5274
    @zanuda5274 3 роки тому +1

    Congratulations to your new life! It‘s a nightmare which turns to blessing. Good luck in your long happy new life.

  • @lisakirk3912
    @lisakirk3912 3 роки тому

    So pleased to hear someone talk about spinal fusion, i had it done in 2003 and still ended up in a wheelchair. It was lower spine and had another prolapse disc a couple of years ago, the pain is indescribable. Sorry to hear you've had to retire but you're still you, keep living life and enjoying it.

  • @pamkowaski1608
    @pamkowaski1608 3 роки тому

    Massive respect to you. I enjoyed watching all your competitions. It is hard to retire at a young age, but you have to put yourself first, and your health first. Most important.

  • @moxylady007
    @moxylady007 3 роки тому

    Hearing the timeline like that - it’s so helpful but so heartbreaking. You made the right call Nile. 100%. I’m proud of you for putting your health first because that’s not always easy. It’s not a cut and dry thing. Your brain says - I think it will be fine. I think I can do this. And it takes guts to stop and think and make the right RIGHT call. And you did that. Now that’s inspirational.

  • @pamelaflirtyskunk7698
    @pamelaflirtyskunk7698 2 роки тому +1

    I have had sciatica due to a back injury... HORRIFIC pain because it's non-stop AND it's neural pain. I hope I never deal with that again! Don't wish nerve pain on ANYONE!

  • @vasealis
    @vasealis 3 роки тому

    You have an Olympic medal!!!!! You shouldn't feel so bad, even if you said that you haven't reached your full potential. You achieved the highest goal of an athlete to have an Olympic medal. You are complete. Of course, you could get more but you would iterate the already success you have achieved. So be proud of yourself, thank your family that supported your athletic career, and NOW turn your sails to other equally exciting destinations of your life. You are so young, you have all the time to achieve so many other great things!

  • @michaelbiggs4313
    @michaelbiggs4313 3 роки тому

    It is great to see you smile. You are not retired. Now you can just focus full time on the job of inspiring people. (and no that does not mean being perfect)

  • @nancysohlberg8150
    @nancysohlberg8150 3 роки тому

    Thank you so much for sharing this Nile ❤️While your story is unique I think so many people have and will continue to benefit from it, including myself. I’ve been watching you for almost exactly four years now. I was a competitive swimmer and injured my shoulder right when I started watching, and these past four years have been an emotional rollercoaster of highs and lows (similar to yourself but obviously on a different scale) and I aspire to be able to reconnect someway with my sport as you have with yours. I have a huge amount of respect for your resilience, and watching your journey as I’ve gone through mine has been an incredible help. I’m excited to watch you tackle this next chapter and I wish you all the best!

  • @ThePriscialves
    @ThePriscialves 3 роки тому

    I had a similar neck injury due to a car accident in fev 2018. My discs in C6 , T6 and L5 slipped. I understand your pain. The depression , The pain, is very difficult. Something better will come for us. Take care!

  • @andyaitken4243
    @andyaitken4243 3 роки тому +4

    Nile, you’re young enough to do anything in life that you want and you’ll continue to do great things. Just subbed and will continue to support you. Go change the game.

  • @johngroggel3930
    @johngroggel3930 3 роки тому +3

    Good luck in your new pursuits! Looking forward to following your journey.

  • @elizabethcameron429
    @elizabethcameron429 3 роки тому

    Thank you for being so open and honest about your life. It is amazing to listen to what you have gone through and how you have worked through so much! I wanna do a back flip some day! Take care! Keep on truckin' Nile!

  • @jennahoran8647
    @jennahoran8647 3 роки тому +1

    Nerve pain is honestly the worst! You think you know physical pain and then nerve pain is just never ending. I have chronic neck, occipital, and shoulder pain and a lot of it is related to pressure in nerves. Then I had a freak ankle injury in 2014, ankle ligament repair (it’s basically screwed into my leg ) and cartilage repair in 2015. The nerves from the top of my foot to the toes were totally numb for about 6 months and then started to regenerate and the pain was like a really bad sunburn 24/7. Fortunately over time the nerves have healed further, but I still have nerve pain in two of my toes. Maybe one day it’ll go away completely?
    I think chronic pain really makes you evaluate your priorities and what you really want to do in life, but also what is realistic.

  • @adeleobrien1297
    @adeleobrien1297 3 роки тому +1

    Whens the book out?! I honestly love your story been following you since 2016 and what an amazing person you are like injury has hit you like a brick wall and your attitude is still so strong I love it I know if COVID didn't hit mb it would be different but so would many other things. You are amazing!

  • @donpat2
    @donpat2 3 роки тому

    You make me proud and I don’t know you personally. You inspire with your patience, bravery, determination, and courage. You have such openness and honesty. Thank you Nile - I’m on board for always.

  • @JoyNoelle.
    @JoyNoelle. 3 роки тому

    Your worth is Far More than just being an athlete and Olympic Champion. Keep On Keeping On God has so much more for you!!❤️

  • @Olgatash
    @Olgatash 3 роки тому

    You are such an inspiration for all athletes, not only gymnasts. I hope you are doing well and figuring out who are you outside of the sport. Honestly, I think you'd be such a great coach

  • @Got2Bespoke
    @Got2Bespoke 3 роки тому +1

    I have 12 fusions, my entire thoracic spine essentially, and over the last 10 years my neck and lumbar/SI joints have taken an incredible beating (just by nature of the fact that they don't move, like you mentioned). Hearing you talk about that was like hearing myself explain my surgeries, its complications and the pain, which I'll deal with for the rest of my life, to others. It seems cruel when you love something so much, as you do with gymnastics, that you can only really compete at top level for so long. Even those who never have a significant injury can only maintain top of sport for so long. It does make you think that maybe more emphasis should be put on the artistic side of things (kind of like you see in those ncaa routines you've reacted to) so perhaps athletes can have longer careers and not come out of it with so many injuries. Thank God that gymnastics can still play a significant role in your life, because you shouldn't have to give up on what makes you happy. I'm clinging onto that idea really hard right now as I've been dealing with some comorbid issues (issues in addition to my back issues) over the last few years and I'm an equestrian. I want to compete internationally someday and I still do. But, my medical issues led me to sell my horse (that I could have gone into FEI inter I/II competitions with) because I simply couldn't give the time to keep up with his level of training (and of course, it's a sport/hobby that is not inexpensive. Every little thing costs money.). It's been so incredibly hard mentally to be away from the stable. I am never as happy as when I'm riding and working as a team with my horse (I know my husband won't take that the wrong way lol, because he's a huge reason I can follow my dreams). But, I am lucky that equestrians can still be at the top of their game past their 50's and who knows how much older. There are people at the top of sport who are 50-60 years old. So, I truly have time to get to the top...and I wish that was the same for your sport. Now if things would just turn around and be off out of the gate!
    You are looking great in all of your recent videos and I absolutely love Emily (I'm a huge Cirque fan as well!). I hope that you'll have a chance to go to the Tokyo Olympics as a commentator or a spectator, if you'd want to of course. I know I'd be excited to hear or see you there and I'll also be cheering on my equestrian idol, Charlotte Dujardin from Team GB Dressage! And Tokyo time is finally perfect for viewing in New York! So, I wish you well and staying healthy! #wilsonator

  • @lizzyperera
    @lizzyperera 3 роки тому

    Thanks for sharing more details about your retirement Nile. You're such an inspiration and you'll continue to be now moving forwards, keep up the great content!

  • @crazywoollady9325
    @crazywoollady9325 3 роки тому +1

    This is older now, but I hope you still see this Nile. I totally empathize. I have a similar story, but my injury happened mere months before I was supposed to compete in the Barcelona olympics (I'm a little bit older than you lol). I did literally everything I could think of, everything everyone could think of, to heal and compete again. But it just wasn't in the cards. My event was dressage and my injury was a broken back. I never competed in the olympics. I've decided that getting close enough is ok. It kind of has to be lol Now I can only ride casually. Honestly the worst was the mental health stuff, not the physical stuff. I get it. If you ever want to talk to someone that's made it through to the other side let me know. I've even had kids since then :)

    • @daniellehalford1100
      @daniellehalford1100 3 роки тому +1

      I rode hunter-jumper. Never at the Olympic level but I was always somewhere in the top five in my state from age 12 on. I left the sport for years and when I was just getting back into competition shape I got injured and it was all over before I even got restarted. The mental aspect was hard for me I can't even imagine what it was like for higher caliber performers like you guys. Hats off to you for getting through it.

    • @daniellehalford1100
      @daniellehalford1100 3 роки тому +1

      Also, I had never done dressage until I wanted to go back to competing because I wanted to start doing three day eventing. I thought I knew how to ride until I took dressage! LOL, It's freaking insane!

    • @crazywoollady9325
      @crazywoollady9325 3 роки тому

      @@daniellehalford1100 Haha you're absolutely right on that one! I've been riding since I was a little kid and tried all kinds of disciplines (not all at competition level though obviously).... everything from barrel racing, reining, etc. to hunter jumper, eventing, etc. I even tried a little bit of vaulting. Once I found dressage it was like I'd discovered my true love and my most difficult challenge all in one lol It's like ballet, but with horses

    • @crazywoollady9325
      @crazywoollady9325 3 роки тому

      @@daniellehalford1100 Top 5 in state is a huge achievement! That's amazing! I hope you're doing ok now

  • @TaySwiftFan94
    @TaySwiftFan94 3 роки тому

    This was a very emotional video for me to watch. So raw and real - reminds me of my injuries in 2019 so I can relate so much! I’m excited for the next chapter for you Nile and so glad you’re feeling better after such a bad few years with all the injuries and setbacks. You are the sunshine of our lives!

  • @hams2k10
    @hams2k10 3 роки тому

    From someone who was a gymnast up until I got a injury at L4/L5 in my lower back that ended up of 10 years of pain then had fusion and now having issues at C6/C7 I can somewhat relate to the pain of trying to push through those injuries and issues and what it can do to you mentally. Its amazing the positivity that you are showing in your videos and it gives me hope that although I had to leave a sport behind I loved 12 years ago there is hope for other things. Keep it up champ you are an inspiration

  • @thisguyDrake
    @thisguyDrake 3 роки тому

    It's not over. I think I speak for many when I say I am beyond excited to join you on this journey.

  • @kreme5c
    @kreme5c 3 роки тому

    I appreciate you for being so open and vulnerable with us, for sharing something so personal as this. I’m excited to see your next adventures!!!! With ❤️ and 🙏🏽 from Florida, US.

  • @jaih8198
    @jaih8198 3 роки тому

    You're such an inspiration Nile what you've been through and what has happened in your life as a 25 year old is astonishing you're my inspiration and I think you're astronomically amazing

  • @madeleineclements7714
    @madeleineclements7714 3 роки тому

    Wow you inspire so many, I was upset for you when I heard the news but you look so happy and excited for the future and that’s what matters!!!

  • @beautyprofessional4life554
    @beautyprofessional4life554 3 роки тому

    Can't WAIT to see you take off 🔥 into endless possibilities! Your deep, impactful progress has truly shown us that you can conquer life, even when the rug slips from under your feet.

  • @ilangymnast
    @ilangymnast 3 роки тому

    You inspired so many people including me. Thank you for that! Happy retirement 🙏🏻

  • @MrManishbatra
    @MrManishbatra 3 роки тому +10

    Gosh , I still can’t believe it 😭😭

  • @mbrusk08
    @mbrusk08 3 роки тому

    Thank you so much for sharing more of your story and being so open about all that you have gone through, Nile. Kudos for making such a tough decision and working through that transition. I can't wait to follow all the exciting things you do next.

  • @orighomisandediare4990
    @orighomisandediare4990 3 роки тому

    Y'alrite our Lad. You are moving to bigger and better things. I remember when you had just gotten your surgery. I was hoping you'd get back to speed. Thank God for health.

  • @melissalynne5952
    @melissalynne5952 3 роки тому

    We enjoy gymnastics but we love you Nile. We will follow you on your next adventure ❤️ you explained the nerve damage so well. Find the next dream and dream big! We are here 💗

  • @rittenden
    @rittenden 3 роки тому

    Having a complete disk collapse C5-6, I can totally sympathize. I've been through painful things, like most people, but that was the worst pain in my life. The absolute worst. I admire you for having the strength to recognize your new normal and pushing through to the next challenge. You still have the power to positively impact people and I, for one, am excited to see what you do next.

  • @angelikamiles5464
    @angelikamiles5464 3 роки тому

    Good Luck to you and I hope you are doing well. I think you would be a great coach.

  • @marcusgelder2735
    @marcusgelder2735 3 роки тому +1

    Awesome - franchise, clothing, seminars, celebs, mental health awareness etc etc etc -well done...

  • @DominikNal
    @DominikNal 3 роки тому

    Wow, I have been coming back to your channel for years and always enjoyed the content! Hearing what you had to deal with in the background makes an incredible story and it motivates me in my training!

  • @nancybudd494
    @nancybudd494 3 роки тому

    You have been and will continue be an inspiration to many. I really look forward to seeing what comes next. From a Yorkshire lass to a Yorkshire lad we are so proud of you and seeing your relationship with Emily blossom has been heartwarming in what has been a shitty year all round. Good luck for the future, I cant wait to see where it takes you.

  • @nightcreature20
    @nightcreature20 3 роки тому

    Nile, I'm glad you feel ready for the next chapter & have the support you need. I just know that you have a ton of new adventures coming up!!!

  • @jaijandu8458
    @jaijandu8458 3 роки тому

    Massive respect Nile. Very intrigued about the Leeds gym story because for as long as I can remember you’ve always been their main guy! All the best for the next chapter

  • @thespeakingyogi2036
    @thespeakingyogi2036 3 роки тому +1

    This is so powerful and soo important. Thank you so much for being so open and vulnerable. So manye lessons to learns from you. You're an inspiration!

  • @federicolorenzoruggiero
    @federicolorenzoruggiero 3 роки тому +3

    I will always hope to see you in the olympics, even if I know all the reasons of your retirement. so much love!

  • @tolkienoo
    @tolkienoo 3 роки тому

    Hang in there, mate. I’m sad to learn this news but such is life. Go steady, let yourself grieve your loss, and then take on the world in the next chapter of your life. You inspire and entertain so many with your talent, creativity and personality - all of which are going nowhere - whether or not you compete in gymnastics. Wishing you all the best for a bright, happy and fulfilling future ahead my friend. 🙏🏼💕

  • @ShelbyDevaud
    @ShelbyDevaud 3 роки тому +1

    Wow, 4k subs, so this is a fully new channel! I'm sure that'll change soon :) Subscribed!
    First of all, good on you for prioritizing your health and being able to recognize when you needed to get out of competing. Hearing the recap of all the injuries was pretty crazy. Although I've been around long enough to see them all happen, I think that it's easy as a viewer to forget that injuries have a tendency to add up and continue to cause issues. So thank you for that insight. As for spinal-related nerve pain, can relate. Truly awful. Currently am debating on having spinal surgery to decompress the nerves at two levels, low back though, two herniations causing lots of issues :/ Massively concerned I'll end up having to have my spine fused eventually from instability, because yeah, as you said, you fuse one level, and the level above especially suffers. On the other side of things, maybe it helps to reverse some degree of numbness I have in my leg, maybe it reduces my pain, and maybe it helps me to live a more fulfilling life. Not being able to walk very much, or stand, really sucks. I've definitely had to reevaluate my life goals a lot recently, but it has brought me back to my passion for music, which is amazing.
    You're definitely capable of whatever you set your mind to, and I, for one, am excited to see what kind of awesome content you'll be bringing to this channel. All the best in this new chapter of your life!

  • @simonebidercio8843
    @simonebidercio8843 3 роки тому +3

    Hi Nile I know you’re probably not going to see this comment (sorry for the bad english I’m italian😂), just wanted to say that when you announced your official retirement I cried my eyes out, I used tzo be a gymnast back in the day and I was and still am obsessed with the sport I followed you around your competitions since when you did you gymnastics montages back in 2010/11 and I think you were one of the best talents I’d ever seen in my life not only that you were a beautiful gymnast to watch you were my favourite at every single competition since the eyof in 2013 I rooted for you. You were also the greatest inspiration in my life and in sport, every single time you’d upload a video of a injury it was like I was in pain with you, I know that every single thing happens for a reason but you such a talented dedicated gymnast, you didn’t deserve all this; currently crying while I’m writing. To end I wanted to say that I’ll keep on supporting you in every single step of your next chapter in life, so yeah... thanks Nile you can’t even imagine how much I’ve been inspired by you hope to meet you one day.
    Keep changing the game

    • @viltesukyte5331
      @viltesukyte5331 3 роки тому

      Your english is perfect :)

    • @aspiringdiplomat549
      @aspiringdiplomat549 3 роки тому

      I agree 100% with you Simone. I remember checking his channel regularly to see if he uploaded a new video so that I could wind down for a bit and laugh along with him. I am so happy to find out I'm not the only Italian who follows him religiously haha Nile è spettacolare! Your English is perfect by the way!

  • @EM-eb1lf
    @EM-eb1lf 3 роки тому

    Dude 🤸 you have SOOO many people literally in Love with you right now. Myself included. Use that power/leverage wisely. We can't wait to see what's next. Im sure it will be epic. But for now I wish I could jump through the screen and give you the biggest hug imaginable 🤗.

  • @katie.ella16
    @katie.ella16 3 роки тому +2

    I’m trying not to get upset but I am. He was my idol and still is. I love him so much and that’s not going to change.❤️❤️❤️❤️💗❤️❤️❤️💗❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💗

  • @silviafigueroa9714
    @silviafigueroa9714 3 роки тому +1

    Keep yourself happy and healthy 🥰🥰🥰

  • @leahthomas3879
    @leahthomas3879 3 роки тому

    thank you nile for your amazing ability to inspire people with your outlook on life personally and professionally. you have taken leaps and bounds to get to where you are today and I hope that you achieve great things for your future for what ever you decide to do. The world is your oyster stay well and safe and take care

  • @kejonza
    @kejonza 3 роки тому

    I can't wait to see what you do next. I admire your tenacity, but also your wisdom to know when enough is enough. When you brought up wanting to throw your kids above your head and and play golf, I could tell you were really at peace with this. Happy that you're at peace. I hope you coach or go into commentating! How hilarious would you be as a commentator 😂 it would be either super technical information or just loud screaming at how good someone is.