my full digital painting process✨ brushes, gradient maps, and more~

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  • @sketchesofshay
    @sketchesofshay  5 місяців тому +171

    I hope I gave you some ideas and guidance for your own painting journey

    • @mariahalamadrid7
      @mariahalamadrid7 5 місяців тому +2

      5:01 in this part , i Will Say the whole vid haha

    • @World_Bender
      @World_Bender 5 місяців тому +1

      I love your art style!!❤

    • @brightwormstudio
      @brightwormstudio 5 місяців тому +1

      This is a fabulous breakdown!! I've only recently found your channel and I've already learned so much & rediscovered a hunger for *learning* again, not just doing. I've been reeeally struggling with the greyscale -> gradient map -> color & render workflow... I get stuck trying to use color & saturation layers, and have a hard time knowing how much to use them, rather than jump in with an opaque layer... I'd love to learn more in a future video (or from a recommended video, if you have one on hand!) about separating areas of the painting and using different gradient maps for each, coordinating them, using color/saturation layers, etc! 🙏

    • @mikado_m
      @mikado_m 4 місяці тому

      One of the main things that i just havent seen people show is like _how_ do you use your brushes yk?
      Like with traditional brushes ive seen videos for like 'do this and this with that brush to get xyz' but i dont think ive ever seen something like that for digital brushes..
      Like just how do you controll the brushes.. what size goes well for what, how do you work with/get the opacity, the way you move for it?
      Like it might seem a bit much.. but ive been trying to figure it out and as someone who doesnt get things untill theyre spelled out for me it just doesnt work. It still just feels like randomly mashing around..
      Theres some videos on general things like digital brush/edge controll or the gradient maps (which are usefull too) but ive never seen anyone talk about _how_ they use specific brushes in their art..
      Its just been kinda stuck in my head idk

  • @cami_lix
    @cami_lix 5 місяців тому +251

    ok but i LOVE how you're not afraid of taking YOUR TIME to make the best drawing you can...i always struggle with time because i want to make things in a short period and i love how you are doing thins in your own pace and seeing whats best..loveeeee

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  4 місяці тому +30

      the process is the most enjoyable for me!! why rush when you can have fun exploring and figuring things out hehe (some projects do require rush due to clients but when it's a personal piece, i don't mind taking my time hehe)

    • @phoenixx8963
      @phoenixx8963 Місяць тому +1

      As you get better at painting you will naturally speed up. In most cases, making sure your foundation is solid will prevent so much reworking and re-painting in the future, which will save you alot of time already

  • @TheArtisticWitch
    @TheArtisticWitch 5 місяців тому +1232

    Time to change my art style after seeing someone else’s again😔🔫

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  5 місяців тому +352

      Ngl I do the same thing, artist adhd fr

    • @Strawberry_Li
      @Strawberry_Li 5 місяців тому +24

      So real

    • @tkjk0481
      @tkjk0481 5 місяців тому +51

      This comment makes me feel personally called out.

    • @Dageomii
      @Dageomii 5 місяців тому +12

      I think someone is calling me out.. 😨

    • @Sakkaz
      @Sakkaz 5 місяців тому +10

      Stop tagging me in this comment 😔

  • @oboeisme
    @oboeisme 5 місяців тому +114

    as a completely self-taught artist I often struggle to find videos that aren't for super-beginners that are really helpful for me. this video is literally a goldmine and I'm so glad I found it!! thank you for your literally constantly amazing content

  • @moths.for.valentine
    @moths.for.valentine 5 місяців тому +38

    i adore how you can really see their personalities in this!! saul being such a happy golden retriever type while bill seems more reserved and hesitant to show his emotions!!

  • @darling_astra
    @darling_astra 5 місяців тому +85

    I'm gonna be so real rn.. I was binging vids from this channel when this was uploaded 😭 it helps so much to watch while I draaaw

  • @_freshavocadoo_
    @_freshavocadoo_ 5 місяців тому +73

    still can't get over how pretty your art style is 💕

  • @Wrath_of_the_bagel
    @Wrath_of_the_bagel 4 місяці тому +20

    i haven't drawn in like 2 months but your pretty cowboy art has gotten me in the spirit again

  • @mokilatte
    @mokilatte 5 місяців тому +30

    Grey scale and gradient maps are a godsend✨ with digital painting. The piece turned out beautiful as always

  • @Dancinglemon
    @Dancinglemon 2 місяці тому +4

    I’ve been drawing for SO many years but I’m self taught so having someone actually explain what they’re doing makes all the theory click. I can believe I never thought of using the lasso and airbrush together! Love your style, I’ve got so much to learn from this video!

  • @rightsock_asock5574
    @rightsock_asock5574 5 місяців тому +61

    I love bill and saul I wish gay people were real

    • @tabife
      @tabife Місяць тому +2

      I know right 😔

  • @Blablablabllel
    @Blablablabllel 5 місяців тому +7

    Your art is just WOW, your editing is just WOW, everything about you is just WOW. You've inspired me to start drawing again and i really want to say thank you, your channel has helped me improve and continue art.

  • @Manchineel_
    @Manchineel_ 5 місяців тому +17

    Is Strawberry Saul and Blueberry Bill a couple? Cuz if so they r so cute together!

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  5 місяців тому +17

      yes!! further along in their story they end up together hehe 💖

    • @Manchineel_
      @Manchineel_ 5 місяців тому +5

      @@sketchesofshay awww, that's so sweet

  • @ChantelleArts
    @ChantelleArts 5 місяців тому +8

    I LOVE the way you've drawn the background and used such beautiful colours 🥰

  • @t0sywaa
    @t0sywaa 23 дні тому

    this is such a great video !! you have such a soft voice, make everything appear much easier than it seems at first AND give additional resources from other creators to get better at digital drawing ? keep up the good work !!

  • @jinney.mp3
    @jinney.mp3 5 місяців тому +6

    god i love the textures in this piece, especially of the clothing!!! great job!

  • @user4989
    @user4989 5 місяців тому +9

    you posted this just as i got out my drawing tablet!! perfect video for me to watch while drawing ty!

  • @toodles_doodles
    @toodles_doodles 5 місяців тому +21

    I'm laughing right now because I've been watching and rewatching your videos to disect your process. So much work, thanks for making it easier on us. ❤

  • @anniex4895
    @anniex4895 5 місяців тому +2

    your arts are so inspiring and you’re super helpful for my art journey!!!!!!🫶

  • @bacon_ART.
    @bacon_ART. 5 місяців тому +3

    SHAYYYYYYYYYYYYY ‼️‼️‼️‼️ I WAS WATCHING YOUR VIDS ALL DAY YOUR MY FAVOURITE COMFORT UA-camR

  • @delaineyjohnson4262
    @delaineyjohnson4262 5 місяців тому +3

    I love when you add links to videos. It helps a lot since I always want to go deeper in a subject, but don’t know we’re to start. Could you please keep doing it?

  • @alonachiong666
    @alonachiong666 5 місяців тому +4

    Awww they look so cute together

  • @caelan0D
    @caelan0D 5 місяців тому +2

    It's really awesome to see your digital painting process! I use CSP too but have always been intimidated to try a full painting. Watching your video and seeing all the resources is so helpful! Also love the painting of the boys, love a sweet OC moment

  • @malurus_
    @malurus_ Місяць тому

    artemus chalk and pencil brushes are godlike on CSP. i love watching your process so much

  • @chloea6703
    @chloea6703 4 місяці тому

    oh my gosh ur tip about the local values combined with the gradient map for the color atmosphere is such a godsend, esp as someone at the stage who paints in greyscale first! love ur tutorials

  • @meekarii26
    @meekarii26 2 місяці тому

    Whoa, the background planning thing is reallly useful for me cause ive been a bit scared to draw backgrounds even the simple ones and sometimes it is just frustrating, so using your method could be a game changer, thanks!!

  • @oakland7561
    @oakland7561 4 місяці тому

    I've been in art block for like... 3 months. super burnt out and just feeling bad about my art, but this, i think, is going to get me going again! a lot of tutorials/guides don't really work for me because i can't see what tools are being used but seeing how you pick your palettes and use the lasso tool and mix colors, and how you keep control of your edges is just so nice. i think i'm going to learn a lot from you, your art is so pretty the style in terms of anatomy and color is really what i want to achieve, and your voice is so soothing too

  • @mawaomar9530
    @mawaomar9530 5 місяців тому +2

    i love how you drew the black guy

  • @ashbest6994
    @ashbest6994 4 місяці тому

    You have no idea how invested I am in these characters, I desperately need more content😭😭😭😭

  • @lacey_and_her_stories
    @lacey_and_her_stories 4 місяці тому

    I can’t express how much inspiration your art just gave me, I wanna try your painting-like rendering ❤

  • @baizhuwaitingroom7057
    @baizhuwaitingroom7057 5 місяців тому

    It's really interesting to see your process! I find that over the years I gradually started adapting traditional painting methods into my digital art and when I create (since I want it to look as organic as possible), I just imagine I'm using gouache or oils. I also use as few layers as possible and consciously limit my palettes, which helps with making the colour composition more cohesive. I use layer modes mainly to tweak little things and I started embracing the imperfections. It helps that I'm often too lazy to actually learn how to use all software features available lol. Gradient maps though might become my new fave!

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  4 місяці тому

      that's such a great mindset to have! I defintely want to try and think the same way, and yeah def recommend trying to use gradient maps!

  • @Marzbar90
    @Marzbar90 5 місяців тому

    Shane is my favourite artist I could watch these videos over and over again

  • @Zwologosss
    @Zwologosss 4 місяці тому +4

    I feel like I’m watching an art magician

  • @AnonymousUnknownChickenNuggets
    @AnonymousUnknownChickenNuggets 4 місяці тому

    Your painting low-key reminds me of Brigerton and I LOVE it.

  • @nightcreeper4638
    @nightcreeper4638 5 місяців тому +10

    Noooo don't make me get my graphics tablet out again I just put it away 😭Your videos are always so inspiring and I really admire your art!!

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  5 місяців тому +4

      Hehehe so happy my videos inspire you to draw!!

  • @finchert
    @finchert 5 місяців тому

    AAAHH i always love watching your art process. from the sketching down to the coloring and refinements, you make it look so fun ☕️

  • @stinkygato5313
    @stinkygato5313 5 місяців тому

    Ur literally one of the top artists that I regularly think about, cuz tell me why when Honkai Star rail introduced Boothill; I immediately thought about u first. Whenever anything cowboy related pops up, ur always the first person that comes to mind 😭

  • @l3afy_x
    @l3afy_x 5 місяців тому

    THIS IS SUCH AN EXCELLENT VIDEO AAAAA thank you for sharing your process, i really struggle with compositions, lighting and overall depth so your explanation is really helpful!! it's a wonderful illustration, i love the whole theme and colour scheme so much!!

  • @milesboop
    @milesboop 2 місяці тому +1

    OMG WAIT i have a cowboy OC that looks kinda like yours!!!! I've never seen ur art but I wasn't expecting that LMAO
    it's always so fun finding people with similar tastes and designs as mine, your work is so lovely, this video's super informative and I can't wait to see more of your characters!! ❤️❤️❤️

  • @skellieartypoop
    @skellieartypoop 5 місяців тому

    omg i found artemus brushes about a year ago and they're still my go to brushes for everything from sketching to rendering! its so yummy

  • @zeelovesthee
    @zeelovesthee 3 місяці тому

    i love them so much they so silly

  • @luckieangelz
    @luckieangelz 5 місяців тому +2

    YAY I LOVE ART PROCESSES!!! holy shit i forgot gradient maps exist, i definitely want to give it a go instead of starting with color first. i have been doing more monochrome first with my skecth, so this is helpful!!!

  • @jhessicacomjh
    @jhessicacomjh 4 місяці тому

    This video was inspiring. I love your illustration, it is so full of color and life. Now I'm going to start my own. Thank you for sharing so much knowledge with us!

  • @TangomelonArt
    @TangomelonArt 5 місяців тому

    I hope you do the follow up video. Especially regarding color, I struggle with that in particular and I love the color use in your art so much!

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  5 місяців тому

      will do!! I’ll add it to my list ✍️

  • @biothehaz4rd
    @biothehaz4rd 4 місяці тому

    Your art is genuinely so beautiful it looks like it tastes like strawberries

  • @zzimplez
    @zzimplez 5 місяців тому +1

    This is such a beautiful video, thanks for brightening all our days and showing us your wonders!

  • @scarbordoefair
    @scarbordoefair 4 місяці тому

    Honestly incredibly inspiring tutorial! It definitely made gradient maps seem less intimidating, haha.
    Also P.S: the pollos hermanos jerma flag in the background threw me for a loop i love it.

  • @HiroDoodlez
    @HiroDoodlez 5 місяців тому +3

    Really love your art!!! Heehoo!!!

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  5 місяців тому +2

      omg thank you so much Hiro!! 💖⭐️

  • @oxxn111
    @oxxn111 4 місяці тому

    all of the artemus brushes are SO good

  • @Aqwtiny
    @Aqwtiny 5 місяців тому +4

    Would be cool if they had a one time purchase for tablets too .
    They’re lack of one just leads everyone to procreate.

  • @Angelo-fw1bh
    @Angelo-fw1bh 5 місяців тому +4

    This ilustrations taste to me, like, the Teletubbies Sundae with Jelly, Syrup and fruits and now im hungry... Beautiful and colorful piece.

  • @fang8175
    @fang8175 5 місяців тому

    This is the perfect time to post this oh my gosh, I’ve been admiring your art for a few weeks now!! YIPPEE :D

  • @cheezezuu775
    @cheezezuu775 5 місяців тому

    Thank you so much for making this video! Ive been really struggling with coloring and am really new to coloring in grayscale. Its a real science and wasnt sure where to even start. I want to try anf follow this process with these brushes too. Thank you again your videos are an inspiration.

  • @soulstar005
    @soulstar005 4 місяці тому

    Waaaaait I didn’t kno there was a simple mode this changes everything for me

  • @levisrighteyeball7288
    @levisrighteyeball7288 5 місяців тому

    I feel so sorry for all those who won’t come across this video 😫… Lately I‘ve been in a creative slump, but seeing you taking your time with your art and giving such nice and important tips is a gamechanger. New Sub!🩷

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  4 місяці тому +1

      omg thank you so much for subbing!! I really appreciate it

  • @kesochez8473
    @kesochez8473 4 місяці тому

    Stumbled upon your channel while binging charachter design videos, instant subrscibe🙏 i love your artstyle and it really helped me get out of art block🫶🏻

  • @ceryss.arlertt
    @ceryss.arlertt 5 місяців тому

    you are my favourite artist and my idol, I love so much your videos, please never stop making them :D

  • @Moony.fairyy
    @Moony.fairyy 5 місяців тому +1

    Thankyou so much for this, I’ve been waiting for this video 💕

  • @spaguetti_rat
    @spaguetti_rat 5 місяців тому

    Hehehe next vid is the 4/13 one as I'm so excited :oDD!!! (alsoo, I never comment on the actual vid sorry, they're really good and I think your voice is just so nice to listen to I simply don't have any feedback, keep up the amazing work :o3 )

  • @sundaddy1077
    @sundaddy1077 5 місяців тому

    the best tutorial i have ever watched! this was super helpful to me

  • @CactusRadish
    @CactusRadish 5 місяців тому

    Thank you for your process, Shay!! I always wondered how people use adjustment layers and greyscales, I might have to try it out!

  • @stitchgor3
    @stitchgor3 5 місяців тому +2

    LETS GO NEW VIDEO

  • @yaelbegel3357
    @yaelbegel3357 5 місяців тому

    Loooooooooove those type of videos ! struggling a lot with digital painting rn !

  • @noXPtoby
    @noXPtoby 4 місяці тому

    What a lovely walkthrough

  • @Yalakaak
    @Yalakaak 5 місяців тому

    your videos are always addicting, thank you for this lovely video :)

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  5 місяців тому +1

      aw thank you so much for watching! it means a lot

  • @drizz_o2839
    @drizz_o2839 5 місяців тому +2

    IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE 😓😓😓😓

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  5 місяців тому +1

      So happy it’s finally out!! I hope it helps you 💖

    • @drizz_o2839
      @drizz_o2839 5 місяців тому

      @@sketchesofshay oh it absolutely will ^v^ after years of hard lineart im trying to get into painting and PHEW this is hard!! thank u for this video

  • @anaovelho6228
    @anaovelho6228 5 місяців тому

    that´s it: i am oficially in love with your artwork

  • @tacosarentreal
    @tacosarentreal 3 місяці тому

    so helpful!! and your art style is beautiful!!! ty :D

  • @badtimenightmarefaces
    @badtimenightmarefaces 5 місяців тому +1

    I'm hoping to return back to using CSP this summer! I've been using Procreate but it's just not the same, brushes on CSP i'd suggest are "angled tex" and "Milky Brush!" they're my absolute favorites

    • @mimii694
      @mimii694 5 місяців тому +1

      Omg same haha. I've been using procreate for months but I really want to switch back to CSP, just not sure when to transition. I hateee that shift cause it always somehow changes my art style

    • @badtimenightmarefaces
      @badtimenightmarefaces 5 місяців тому

      @@mimii694 yeahhhhh, i’ve been slowly using CSP every few pieces, i suggest just using it occasionally to get back to it, or using Procreate to do sketches and then finishing in CSP! It helps me a lot!

  • @KetchupCanvas
    @KetchupCanvas 5 місяців тому

    I love this! I recently added an app to my Chromebook called Infinite Painter (I think that's what it's called) and I really like practicing digital drawing on it. I also love it because it can be a nice alternative to paper if I just want to scribble because that way I'm not wasting paper 😊

  • @samuelpelozo2401
    @samuelpelozo2401 5 місяців тому

    Thanks you so much for sharing your journey, love all phases and it is really inspiring !! you make me want to think more about my own creations and it's really interesting your point of view, all the things just make sense and are so beautiful !

  • @BloomynMoon
    @BloomynMoon 5 місяців тому

    Get ready Shay I’m about to steal your art style 🫵

    • @BloomynMoon
      @BloomynMoon 5 місяців тому

      Ooo always interesting to see an artists process! I’ll have to come back and take more notes- time to look into gradient maps 👀

  • @luciferl7097
    @luciferl7097 5 місяців тому +2

    I really want to see a video where it's mobile clip Studio paint vs Ibis paint Mobile, on the phone

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  5 місяців тому +2

      This is a really cool video idea!! I have never attempted to paint on my phone, I’m gonna add this to my list hehe 💖

  • @princelujan
    @princelujan 5 місяців тому

    Thank you so much for sharing your process with us!!!!💖✨

  • @juliarroyito
    @juliarroyito 5 місяців тому

    Me encantan tus videos 🥺 y sibte todo cuando explicas tu proceso y todo ❤❤❤ me encanta tu manera de pintar!!! Muchas gracias por hacer éstos videos

  • @Ombie_Art
    @Ombie_Art 5 місяців тому

    That's super helpfull and amazing to follow your thoughtprocess and process in general ! I want to elevate my illustration making skill too and it will help a lot thanks !

  • @inhabitantDunwich
    @inhabitantDunwich 5 місяців тому

    Thanks for the content, buddy! Your videos are so useful and interesting!

  • @Angelo-fw1bh
    @Angelo-fw1bh 5 місяців тому

    If you don't mind.
    This is the info I needed to make a Shay'style study to get better with the digital. I still suck at rendering.

  • @eggy337
    @eggy337 4 місяці тому

    RAHHH I LOVE THEM 😭😭😭😭

  • @vvorppxx
    @vvorppxx 5 місяців тому

    ARTEMUS MY FAV TOOOO

  • @sailorspice
    @sailorspice 5 місяців тому

    i love artemus omgg!!!

  • @melikemeryem8358
    @melikemeryem8358 5 місяців тому +1

    do you have any tips for beginner ?? like how to start and on what to focus on ? I'm 17 and I recently started drawing but I struggle alot and I have the feeling Im running out of time because I would really love to study art and get a job as an illustrator. BTW I love your art and you inspire me alot ❤🙏🏻

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  5 місяців тому

      Here’s a great place to start 🌼 ua-cam.com/video/3nXjGbICyNU/v-deo.htmlsi=gS5HY1EpViqL7XcV

  • @disciplining.the.pencil
    @disciplining.the.pencil 4 місяці тому

    beautiful drawing love the colors
    I'm a traditional artist exploring digital art and trying to use traditional techniques in Photoshop on my channel - would love to hear your thoughts and advice on how to improve!

  • @willynilly3163
    @willynilly3163 5 місяців тому

    Bless you for this

  • @okidokidraws
    @okidokidraws 4 місяці тому

    XD I wish these two could meet my Animal Handler Elf and Druid Elf characters I could see them doing this :) Aldebaran (Al) is a red head and the Animal handler and the Druid Elf Jai is a dark purple color this looks amazing ^^

  • @hersyith-1033
    @hersyith-1033 5 місяців тому

    Subscribed 😝 this painting is so cute

  • @radishuwu
    @radishuwu 4 місяці тому

    beautiful😭

  • @waxwax8266
    @waxwax8266 4 місяці тому

    THOSE ARE THE BRUSHES I USE! ARTEMUS PENCIL SPOTTED

  • @_melala
    @_melala 4 місяці тому

    THAT'S SO BEAUTIFUL???? I QUIT

  • @pinkinkNZ
    @pinkinkNZ 5 місяців тому

    0:05 AH THE COW BOYS
    1:00 omg it's there first date (lol jkjk...or is it)
    3:16 HECK YES....aw i wish i could go to a tea party...i love tea ;-;
    4:45 wow u do a lot of planing for these things :0 i wounder if u plan all of ur drawings
    4:55 omg his faceeee omg ima cry he's to bootiful
    7:29 wooooooooow ur such an amazing artist LIKE HOW U DO THAT lol
    9:06 wow i love how u put the characters with all black so u can just work out the background
    man i always love ur vids and ur just so inspirering to me, always love when u post :]

  • @TangomelonArt
    @TangomelonArt 5 місяців тому

    This is so helpful ❤

  • @icedtabby1887
    @icedtabby1887 3 місяці тому

    Hello! Small question if you see this, how did you put the true colors on while keeping the rendering from the grayscale? That part confused me a little, this video is super helpful!

  • @TheBlackHatOutlaw
    @TheBlackHatOutlaw 5 місяців тому

    Beautiful piece, I love it! It seems like that would be sort of a rare moment for them, with all the monster hunting and all. Normally I'd have something more meaningful to say as I tend not to really want to leave just "Nice work!" kind of simple comments, but all I can think about with this piece is that I'd love to just walk up and hug them both. I'd probably get to with Saul, since he's warm and open, but... not Bill. XD

  • @Mikiyakennedy
    @Mikiyakennedy 5 місяців тому

    I really love your style, do you think that you could make a similar video on how to do grayscale?, I really like the way you do it❤

  • @speckledblender5495
    @speckledblender5495 5 місяців тому

    As a person who wants to learn how to digital paint this was super helpful. Do you also have any digital drawing tablets to recommend I'm looking for a tablet so I can finally start learning how to digital draw. I love to colors in the painting its very beautiful. I hope you have an amazing day Shay.❤

  • @mariahalamadrid7
    @mariahalamadrid7 5 місяців тому +1

    Hi shay just letting You know i love Your vids🎉❤

  • @LeviCastro-n4z
    @LeviCastro-n4z 5 місяців тому

    Arrasa muito shay❤

  • @DamonIsDoomed
    @DamonIsDoomed 5 місяців тому +2

    can i make fanart of bill and saul with credit?? they look so fun to draw!

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  5 місяців тому +2

      Sure!! Make sure to send it through DM on Instagram when you’re done!! For some reason tags don’t work for my account smh

    • @DamonIsDoomed
      @DamonIsDoomed 5 місяців тому +1

      @@sketchesofshayokay!! thank you :)

  • @grelly5376
    @grelly5376 4 місяці тому

    It’s like someone injected an iv of creativity into my blood when I watch ur videos

  • @SeraphimHani
    @SeraphimHani 5 місяців тому

    Wow I completely forgot that CSP used to be called Manga Studio, so nostalgic to hear that name again

    • @sketchesofshay
      @sketchesofshay  4 місяці тому

      I feel like only a few artists remember!! I honestly forget sometimes myself lol