Ann Shulgin Q&A Session: "Understanding the Shadow"
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Q&A Session: "Understanding the Shadow"
Ann Shulgin
Every child born in this world needs to be "socialized," in order to take his or her place among others and to be accepted. Such socializing consists of being taught to repress certain instincts and desires, and to emphasize with others. The accumulation of so-called "undesirable" and un-lovable traits over the years becomes a hidden, unconscious monster figure, buried in the basement of each adult psyche, gaining power in the dark, glimpsed only when there is a breakdown of the usual constraints. Many Shadow monsters show themselves when their owners get drunk or take too much of the wrong drug. Spiritual growth and ultimate enlightenment can occur only when the Shadow is brought into the light; when its owner is able to see it and acknowledge its existence. Until this occurs, the Shadow is experienced only in projection-on other people, on other races, other nations, and other Gods-thus causing, among other things, wars without end.
Ann Shulgin is a researcher, writer, and beloved elder of the Tribe. In conjunction with her past work as a lay therapist, she used MDMA, 2C-B, and similar compounds before they were scheduled. Ann's unique insights into both the beneficial and the challenging effects that psychedelics can have are invaluable. With her chemist/pharmacologist husband Sasha Shulgin, Ann co-authored the books Phenethylamines I Have Known And Loved: A Chemical Love Story (PIHKAL) and Tryptamines I Have Known and Loved: The Continuation (TIHKAL). She is currently working on Book 3, the Shulgins' next offering in this series.
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At Psychedelic Science 2013, over 100 of the world's leading researchers and more than 1,900 international attendees gathered to share recent findings on the benefits and risks of LSD, psilocybin, MDMA, ayahuasca, ibogaine, 2C-B, ketamine, DMT, marijuana, and more, over three days of conference presentations, and two days of pre- and post-conference workshops.
She was at PS17 as well...such an amazing amount of understanding & kindness ❤...
Beautiful soul. I was brought to tears watching this after her passing, and while it is a great loss, consciousness continues after corporeal decay. I am certain that she has finally rejoined Sasha in the great beyond. 👩❤️👨🧪🌌
She is a legend and pioneer. I love her talks she so placid and honestly open..✊
R.I.P - such an inspiration
Thank Maps very much!!!
Love you so much! Thank you for everything. You will live forever in my heart ❤️
Thank you!
Thanks MAPS
I find Marijuana can open up some doors and give you an opportunity to work with your shadow material. Might not work for everyone but for me it's does the trick. Thank you Ann for this talk. Much appreciated. The work is difficult but worthwhile I think.
Me too, man.
Lol what if it's the shadow that's making us smoke? Lol 😂
@@bendenton580 Mine does. Like she said in the talk, the spirit will always move towards wholeness??
Wow. Very insightful.
I love her so much after reading pikhal and tikhal ❤ such a big hearthed beautiful soul !
that guy who asked about getting stuck in the shadow sounded scary as shit. like it was very alive.
For me for example no, not necessary. Yes, that could be one of the possibility, but I see other as not and even more probable to me.
The wall is trippy as hell.
27:45 - Certain parents. Very important point.
I'm surprised that hypnosis and/or psychedelics are always mentioned. I was able to catch my shadow speak through me once or twice, both times to my ex girlfriend. One of those times he lied to her, which really disappointed me because it probably played a big role in why we eventually separated. But I realized Id had such a strong commitment to always being honest, that i had suppressed the lying behavior and only he could use it. I had often said that lying felt very unnatural to me and that I'd have to use some additional effort to do it, so I guess now I knew why
But I had decided I really didn't trust him to be responsible for that, and I needed to go and take it back because I didn't want him to be able to wield such a thing.
So I practiced by individuating my emotions and then communicated with them, with appreciation and love, but I took on a parental type role. I spent a few days delving deeper into this, and I got pretty close to being able to just turn on happiness if I wanted to.
So then I began doing more research on shadow work, and when I was ready, I just turned my attention towards the shadow, and I realized that he hadn't lied through me had actually been me that had asked him to lie for me, on some subconscious level, because at the time I had been in one of those overwhelmed emotional states where my amygdala had paralyzed my prefrontal cortex, and I suddenly had to apologize if I had been blaming him, admitted it was me who asked him, and thanked him. A lot of shame was washing over me, and I really began to experience the collective unconscious. I saw a lot of very horrifying behaviors that I figured must be collective unconscious. But I sensed danger, and I began to be able to see him (not an animal or beast... something that sometimes appeared like a black sphere, and other times, like white cube). He seemed to be responding to my poor reaction to the shame and violent behaviors in here by offering to go back with me, and I realized he really didn't have any objections to any course of action whatsoever, but in a way I got this sort of psychopathic vibe that really worried me. but I realized I'd been fighting the shame, and suddenly I invited it, owned it, and offered it that same parental love I'd been giving to other emotions, and it very quickly subsided. I readjusted my whole attitude and remembered if I want to practice self-love, I need to love all of it, even the dark parts. And finally, I think I'd just usurped my ownership of it all back, and turned my attention to him. In the same matter of fact, straight to the point language that he speaks, I confidently reasserted the original plan that he knew I'd came there for: I'm taking the lying behavior back with me, and thank you for using it for me when I asked. But I'm freeing you from ever having to use it again. Thanks for doing such a great job in this role you're in, you really are just perfect for it, and I appreciate that. He gave me an approving signal of some sort, and I took my behavior back upstairs.
I was horrified and scared by the whole thing, as I began to realize the dangers I'd read about of him assimilating my ego and leaving me back there were very real, and I'd gotten dangerously close to that. But I started blurting out a few absurd things out loud and then said "Yep ok I got the lie behavior back, but I didn't get the lie behavior back! This sentence is a lie. This sentence is a lie."
I went on like that a with a few more, many times saying one thing was true, and then saying that thing isn't true. And I checked for that "lying would feel unnatural" sensation, and in its place was a freedom to speak whatever words I damn well please.
But it took a while for that fear to dissipate, and I couldn't get those images of horrible violet acts from the collective unconscious out of my head for a bit. So, that's when I decide to put on this video, and it actually did finally calm me down quite a bit. But I kept thinking it was strange every time she'd talk about the animal or beast. Mine was never anything other than those two gemetric shapes- more often the black sphere. And I check in every so often (I was still a lil paranoid lol), and I can still sorta perceive him, way down there in the distance. but I just sorta give him an a signal of approval here and there, and he seems content. So I'm just kinda keeping my distance for now, until the fear settles down.
But damn, I guess I'm proud of myself that I can just go there by sheer will, I mean I have to turn my attention to him but I just tell him I'm coming, and then I'm pretty much there
R.i.p Beautiful
Hi MAPS!
The problem is people w fucked up childhood.
:)