Just wanna say that you look so calm and joyful despite many unexpected events (know that that’s something you’re not very keen knowing you’re a routine person!) so just wanna say praise God for growing you in this season. You’re doing so well, and you are ALREADY a great mom in Him, so trust Him. Welcome back, we definitely missed you :)
thank you 💛 I definitely wasn't calm and peaceful in the beginning, my husband can vouch for that haha. but feeling more in sync with mom life as the days go on. praise God indeed!
Cried with you when you were talking about your feeding journey. I am two months postpartum and our feeding journey has also gone much different than I dreamed and prayed for. Sending you hugs, mama. God chose us specifically for our children and He is with us every step of the way! He has already written them all! 🩵
Even though you say you don’t feel or look like yourself, you look like yourself to us & better! Such a beautiful soul and momma! You’re doing such a great job🥹🤍 so glad you’re back!!!
I couldn’t agree more. The glow and calmness she has as a stay at home mom is so comforting and beautiful to watch. This vlog made me cry. It’s so beautiful.
I was a formula baby 100% and I grew up super healthy and close with my mom. She is my hero and I know you are Conner’s too!! God has gone before you and ordained this entire situation 🥰 sending all my love
Crying even though my daughter is 2.5 because this is bringing back so many emotions for me. I breastfed for 2yrs but at the cost of my mental health. Looking back I really wish I had known to show myself more grace. I’m so proud of you. You’re doing an incredible job 🥺🤍
I LOVE how you are already reading with Connor. I did the same thing with my two daughters and by the time they were three, they were both reading on their own. You will always cherish this time with Connor and you're a great mom, Michelle.
I am currently going through the grind of breast feeding and I cried during your chat about feeding. It’s BY FAR the hardest part of new mom-hood for me and others. Thank you for shedding some light on this!! I so appreciate your courage to discuss it.
Really appreciate how tasteful you’re being about how much to include Connor’s face. ❤ Also teared up hearing about your nursing journey but you absolutely are doing your best and are an incredible mother. Love having your videos again, Michelle!
Michelle, I am two weeks postpartum and unable to breastfeed as well. It has been the most harrowing experience of my life, so much heartache. But hearing you admit to going through the same has given me so much comfort. Especially when it seems like every mama around me is able to make milk. So thank you.
You are such a great mom! I had my baby on November 15th! Been watching you forever and the fact that we had our babies “together” is so so cool to me and comforting to see a mom I look up to in the same stages as me ❤
Tearing up hearing your breastfeeding journey because I empathize entirely with you - down to having my first child (also a boy) dreaming of how it would be only to come to terms that that wasn’t our story. You’re no less of a mama for it. You’re doing great!
Girl, I’m sitting here bawling as you talk about your feeding journey. Been there twice. My hubby always told me that my mental health was more important than breastfeeding. That was hard to accept both times but I know it to be true too. Fed is definitely best. Glad you shared your experience. As a mom and a postpartum nurse, I can say it’s not talked about enough.
Thank you for the courage to share about your breastfeeding experience. I had almost an identical journey and it was absolutely destroying my mental & emotional wellbeing. My son started doing SO much better once we fully made the switch to formula, but it was also hard for me to come to terms with for a while. Having a baby has been the most incredible but humbling experience and I truly believe all us moms are out here doing our best. Thank you for making this feel less of what can feel like such an isolating experience. You are a GREAT mom 💙💙 (as we all knew you would be!!)
You are such an amazing person, mom, wife… I find myself crying watching every video. You are so sweet and genuine. Thank you for being so vulnerable…. That really does meet people where they are & encourage them. You are LOVED! We’re glad you are back. For sure saving this video for when I’m walking through mom life.
Hi Michelle, I’ve been watching your videos for years now and I just need to tell you how much I commend your vulnerability for the betterment of others. The messages you put out in your videos are so so important for people to hear, myself included! You truly radiate grace and I’m so happy for you that you have found the best way to feed your sweet baby. Coming from a nurse, fed is best!! I hope you and Aiden can continue to go easy on yourselves through this new chapter of life.
Thanks for sharing your feeding journey! First video I came across was you completing the final touches for the nursery. I’m 3 months postpartum and feeding has been the hardest part. Baby girl struggled from the start, and like you, I tried everything. I was frustrated and felt so much guilt that it wasn’t working as “God intended.” It was pulling me away from actually enjoying my baby. I’m now pretty much exclusively pumping and nurse every now and then for fun as one lactation consultant suggested. It’s nice because there’s no pressure associated with the experience. It’s solely for bonding. And as you shared, I’ve had to come to terms with it. I hold out hope still that maybe one day she’ll just get it. But I’ve made peace with that never happening and just content with what I have been able to do for her so far. You’re an amazing mom, and I love watching how you provide for your baby in so many the ways. Taking notes for myself and enjoying a little contact nap just cause.
My daughter is 2.5 and I wish someone would’ve told me that you don’t fee yourself until almost the 2 year mark. I felt so much pressure to “bounce back” and have it all together when I should’ve been taking care of myself and being gentle with myself. Take your time and focus on your baby ❤
Oh this is so lovely. Chelle, you're so humble about everything you talk about, you defer to other mums and express gratitude for what you've got. It's so sweet (I'm not a mum yet but trying!). I also wanted to say that this video is so peaceful. You make motherhood look like it doesn't need to be loud, busy, stressful. I know that seasons of that may come for us both, but you seem to be keeping it simple and taking everything as it comes, appreciating everything for what it is, and that helps me worry less about whether I'd be able to handle it. I'm not under any illusion that there aren't tears from baby off the camera, but idk, your clarity and the fact you're working towards inner peace in the Lord is so wonderful.
I'm so glad that you are back my sweet sweet friend. You bring so much light into people's lives with your vlogs and I'm loving seeing you as a momma!! xo
Absolutely loved this video and seeing how your life and content are evolving with baby. Thank you for sharing the struggles along with the happiness that motherhood has brought you so far.
I love just taking him along, doing your "day to day" and not always feeling like you need to entertain him! I think this is SO important. My gosh, and Cash I cant. My heart! Love having you back. xo
I wanna give you a BIG hug! So 1. Seeing your videos pop up again OMG! 2. You sharing your stories, makes me want to cry and omg! Your community on here loves you!
Ah Michelle, as a Mom of almost a 20 and 18 year old, this really brought me back. Your love for son shines through as well as your husband’s. You are doing a wonderful job and I love how you are embracing the importance of routines. I did too and they were key. I completely understand your mixed emotions and struggles with breastfeeding- way more difficult and complicated than people realize. You are an amazing Mom!! I loved seeing Cash in his role as big brother! ❤️
Watching you and Aiden become parents made my heart squeeze! I’ve been watching you since you were a junior in high school and we’re similar age so to see to being an amazing mom is like watching a friend become a mom! So proud of you and so happy to have you back here on the internet ❤
My son is five months almost six and my breastfeeding/ formula feeding journey is the same as yours. Mom guilt is real when u feel like a failure to provide. Giving yourself grace and counting the blessing of small successes has what got me through my postpartum thus far!
I remember being in the exact same situation with my baby and feeling all the same feelings. To be honest, I found there was very little support out there around going from attempting breast feeding unsuccessfully, as my baby was not thriving on the tiny amount I was producing, to solely bottle feeding. The most frightening part for me was issues of engorgement. I remember having no support available to me about it and I had to go to my doctor to ask how to stop milk flow. It made me feel so vulnerable and demoralized as if I had done something wrong- when it couldn’t have been further from the truth- I was brave and strong to take a stand and say my baby isn’t thriving and I need to do the best for him. Just one bottle in and he was a completely different boy. 17 now and so healthy and happy🥰. So proud of you for sharing your story to help others. Thank you Michelle!
Watching Mr. Cash follow you and Connor boppin’ around the house is the sweetest thing I’ve ever seen! I know it’s had its ups and downs (and thank you for sharing those with us) but you just seem so truly happy and at peace in your motherhood and in your family. 💛 This just makes me so excited to share in this joy in my own family one day!
You and I had our baby boys like two-ish weeks apart, and when you started talking about your breastfeeding journey I immediately started tearing up because my journey was THE SAME and it’s like you took every word right out of my mouth. You are not alone Mama 💕
This is the first video of yours that I've watched and I'm so glad it popped up on my suggestions. I'm almost 7 months postpartum and the way you articulated body image is so accurate. How you look at yourself and don't feel like yourself - looking in the mirror and not recognizing the person looking back is such a struggle and an incredibly weird feeling! I expected to not love my body right after having a baby, but it's not as simple as that. It's like you're trying to rediscover yourself. Plus everything you said about finding your new style is so accurate. It's nice to know that you aren't feeling these feelings alone! Thank you for making me feel less alone. ❤
I just started watching your videos since I’m a first time mom too and currently 6 months pregnant and I love your videos so much! Your vulnerability to share the joys but also hardships of being a mom are so helpful and also so beautiful to see how the Lord is using that in your life! thank you for the amazing content you’re putting out! 🤍
I relate so much to your breastfeeding journey. It was so so hard for me when it didn’t work out and I felt like the biggest failure. Almost 6 months postpartum and it still stings to think about but ultimately my baby is fed, he is loved and we have such a sweet bond. You’re doing great mama!!
There are SO many pros with bottle or formula feeding. The first and foremost being you get HELP with feeding and it's amazing for mental health. Dads, other mom, brothers, sisters, grandmas, whoever wants to bond with baby can feed them. I drove myself crazy exclusively breastfeeding for a year with my first child and I wish I hadn't. With my second, I had him on formula and bottles after 4months because I just couldn't go through it again anymore. I'm glad you're okay with how it all turned out because it IS perfectly okay to feed your baby how you wish as long as they're getting fed.
Just have to hop on here and say that 1, I am so glad to see you posting again - I missed listening and relating to you every week! And 2, we were pregnant around the same time and I just had my little on in February 11. I had a very similar journey with breastfeeding and all the feelings that come with the decision of switching to fully formula feeding. Thank you for sharing your story, you are such a great light!
Michelle! I’ve been watching since 2017 and wow it’s just so cool to witness all the different stages of life you’ve walked in! You are such a natural momma! Thanks for your vulnerability!
So so so happy you’re back! I cried watching you cry talking about your BF journey. You are such a great mama and have been from the very beginning-Connor is beyond blessed to have you! Those early postpartum days can be so difficult, but I’m so glad you are doing better🤍🤍
Fortunately I can say I TOTALLY get where you´re comming from. I was completely set on breastfeeding my baby and everyone said it would "come naturally, my body was made fot ir, formula isn´t as good as breastmilk"... blah blah blah... as it turns out, my baby girl is almost 2 years old now and she´s thriving. She´s been healthy and happy and has a really strong bond with both her parents because of how our story went... So I can only invite you to embrace your story for the way He has written it and the way you all are writting it with Him as a family. Embrace ir all, no matter how it unfolds! So glad to have you back and thank you for sharing!
I’m a grandma now and remember what it feels like as a new mom….. think of being a mom as becoming a butterfly… you are not going to look like you used to… you have the beautiful mom glow and that little baby looking back at you loves you with his whole heart. As an early childhood teacher, I think you are doing a magnificent job…. Lots of talking, reading to him, showing him the world and contact cuddles are the BEST for brain development and create smarter babies. You honestly look beautiful… and like a super mom… Insta mom… but I understand the changes that came with being a new mom. Make up, clothes, being on demand, we feel a loss of our sense of self because of the changes but keep doing what you’re doing. ❤
I have a 20 month old and 9 month old and let me tell you .. soak this alllll up. It goes by so fast! This new chapter is all about bonding, healing and finding your rhythm as the new and if I say so myself, IMPROVED, versions of ourselves. Motherhood is beautiful 🩵✨🩷
Babies are never bored. All studies done show, the more eye contact from mom, the better. I’m so glad I didn’t care much for my phone when my children were babies. I remember after my fourth in 6 years, I looked in the mirror and and forgot how to put eye liner on. My skin was also different and I think, looking back, my hand was shaky. It was a breakdown moment. I wish I could go back and hug myself and treat myself with love and grace. Honestly those years are a blur. Don’t blink. My kids are are preteens and teens now, and I swear it was yesterday were they were still taking naps and not in school yet.
My heart hurt for you when you were talking about the downs of your postpartum journey because I’ve known that pain all too well, but I can already see how much and how beautifully you’ve grown since becoming a mom! You are doing amazing ❤
Everything you spoke about is exactly what I went through and experienced as a mom.. all the experiences, thought processes, everything. It was like reliving that time when you talked about everything that was huge for me. My babies are toddlers now, and I just want to say.. it gets so much more beautiful every single day and the hard times pass. So beautiful to see your journey and so glad you are sharing. Praying for you guys.
We’ve been on such a similar track as you - my son is almost 4 months now. We had lip and tongue tie issues and weight gain issues - BFing has been SO hard. Proud of you for finding your confidence in the lord. We’re doing it!
Goodness this vlog was the most beautiful 24 hours with a baby I have ever watched. The light and glow you have as a new mom is so beautiful and refreshing to watch. Conner is so lucky to have you as his mama ❤
Thank you so much for sharing! I am 3 weeks postpartum with my first, a boy 💙 and the breastfeeding struggles had me a sleep deprived, emotional, crying wreck the first two weeks. You’re a great mom, thanks for normalizing the painful, isolating struggle 💙
4 weeks into our Newborn journey & watching through your videos. 💕Absolutely loving having a little bit of calm company atm 😌 tysm for sharing & giving me insight into what to look forward to x
Michelle motherhood looks wonderful for you. I swear you make it look so easy, seamless and natural like you’re really following your instincts and trusting yourself. Talking to your baby is also adorable and so helpful with development. Also, I heard you say you went to Chicago omg???? Please cover how you went about it with a newborn and tips!
oh you should seen me the first month, I had a clumsy start 😅 but thank you! I think vlogging by myself all day has prepared me for talking nonstop to him 😂
I got teary eyed when you were talking about your feeding journey… I ended up exclusively pumping both my babies for a year each and I definitely sacrificed some of my mental health for that. Looking back, I wish I wouldn’t have been so tough on myself. Whenever you are doing what is best for mama and baby, you can have peace it was the right decision for you!! 💕
Michelle, I am a pediatrician and I totally understand your struggle! People always sat say breast is best but honestly fed is best. You are doing your best as a mom and I look up to you. If you have any questions at all please reach out me but I can tell you are the best mom. You have done amazing but if I can help you at all please just let me know. You are the best mom!!
Michelle I deeply resonate with all you said about feeding. My first baby I triple fed after he fell off his weight curve, it was exhausting until we finally switched to formula. It led to A LOT of anxiety with my second baby who is Connor's age, I was just waiting for her to fall off the curve, and so far we're ok but its SO mind consuming, the tracking, etc. You're a wonderful mom!
Sweet moment to share with Aidan, I think it’s so beautiful to see positive and happy families on social media (briefly of course). Especially for so many future parents to look at and admire. Something as short as the dance/transition from baby going from dad to mom and the connection you all have really radiates through the screen to us that you are truly a lovely family. All it took was a minute to see you three have completely melted together. It’s beautiful ❤
It's so amazing watching you be a mom! Conner is so very blessed and tes God picked YOU to be his mom and because you follow Him, you will be the best mom ever!
Michelle, you are doing a wonderful job ❤ All these moments and ups and downs are inevitable and everyone’s story is different just like every baby is different. It’s an incredibly beautiful yet tough journey. Thanks for sharing the good and bad xx
Thank you so much for sharing your breastfeeding journey and struggles. Your story sounds so similar to what I went through a few months ago and I know it's such a hard topic to talk about. I appreciate you being so open and selfless to share your story, you are amazing ❤️
I have always loved mommy content and i have watched you for years so to see you posting your mommy content is so heart warming, congratulations on your bundle of joy 🩷
Thank you for talking about your breastfeeding journey because I was honestly feeling so alone. It took me 2 years to get pregnant and during my pregnancy anything that could go wrong went wrong and once my daughter was born at 36 weeks I just wanted to be able to breastfeed her and when I couldn’t I was devastated and felt like a failure. Fed is best and my baby is happy and healthy and that’s all that matters.
I loved this video! My son is almost 2 and I miss these days so much but can honestly say it has only gotten more fun and more sweet with each stage. I also wanted to share I know it’s so hard to not have the feeding journey you expected. I had to fortify my breastmilk so I ended up exclusively pumping - it turns out the issues my son was having were unrelated to my breastmilk and so I had a lot of resentment and anger about giving up on nursing when I really didn’t need to. Fortunately, with God’s Grace I was able to find peace, it is so hard in those dark postpartum days though. Thank you for sharing ❤
Thank you so much for sharing your feeding journey. I did not expect this part of motherhood to be the hardest part! I’m so glad this video popped up on my timeline because so many of the fears you had about switching to formula are what I have right now as we try to figure out our feeding approach!
I am 5 months PP - I've watched your videos forever but am just now getting to a point of normalcy and routine where I can catch up on videos while cleaning and all that. So I am just now watching this one but just had to comment bc it's crazy this is the first video I am watching today. I was just crying over my breastfeeding journey ending. I tried so hard to nurse my daughter but due to an undiagnosed lip tie, we had the same problems with low weight, her just getting enough, the pumping and nursing and supplementing with formula. The past few days we started exclusively formula feeding. She's so much happier and healthier as we've leaned more and more on formula and now that I have completely dried up I just felt so much relief but then guilt also. My heart has been so broken and I've felt like such a failure. I prayed the other day about it to help my mind and for God to show me how to be a better mother. I think I was meant to see this video - because Michelle you are such a wonderful mother and I've loved watching your videos especially as we've gone thru the journey of motherhood at the same time and to hear you share the same journey with nursing, it was like God showing me I am not alone and I am still a good mom. Thank you ❤️❤️❤️❤️
oh my heart is with you, sending hugs!! I was just telling my SIL how at peace I am with formula feeding- our bub has been so healthy and rarely gotten sick ❤️ grateful to live in time when we have these resources! you’re doing an amazing job & your girl is so blessed to have you 🌸
You’re doing an amazing job! I don’t really feel like myself until a year postpartum. I promise you it gets better and you will feel like yourself again soon. You are not a failure and formula is a BLESSING! Great job, mama!!!
The breastfeeding journey was so hard with my first one - I put so much pressure on myself too 🥲 My second baby was so different! I think when we place our motherhood and desires in the hands of Our Heavenly Father he can take it all and use it for His glory no matter the circumstance - you are doing amazing mama!! 🤍
I relate heavily to the breastfeeding journey. I cried for months on end because I had dreamed to nurse for so long and it just didn’t work. Some days I get bummed again but I try not to think about it too much. Now I’m pregnant with my second and pray this breastfeeding journey is so different. So glad you’re back ❤️
Formula feeding is great! I felt so much shame and failure that my first did not get to breastfeed a little. I finally learned with my third to go with the flow, and he breastfeeds a little. It is nice, and he is bonded to me just like my first two kids. My first has only gotten one cold in her first fours, but she does not go to daycare. You and Aiden are doing great!
Hey Michelle, to encourage you.... I nursed my first baby just shy of a year but my second and third babies, both for different reasons, I was unable to nurse and needed to bottle feed them from the beginning. Out of the three, my healthiest children were my bottled fed babies. Also, don't put yourself down about not being able to nurse. As I was reminded during that time in my life, just think of breast cancer patients. There are many that due to the mastectomy are not able to nurse. I'm thankful for the option of formula. Fed is best!
My baby is also 15 weeks and we have had a feeding journey almost identical to yours and I felt like such a failure and it was my biggest insecurity as a new mom but hearing your story and other moms experience and how common it is and that God has already gone ahead and forged this exact journey for us has been so healing! Thank you for sharing your story ❤
Exclusively pumping here! 2.5 months in! It is definitely lots of work & lots of parts my have have never been drier 😅😅 You are doing AMAZING! He has a happy mom and is fed! that is more important than anything ❤
I really enjoyed this vlog & I’m not a mom. Me & my husband don’t want kids but you did a really great job with sharing/balancing baby related things & things about you, how you’re feeling & the transition to motherhood. I really love/adore your channel & im not gonna lie.. I was a little worried that your channel was going to be all about baby - making it hard to stay invested. THANK YOU!! It’s very much appreciated & doesn’t go unnoticed. Sending love, positive vibes, good health & peace your way! 😘🙏🏽♥️
My kids are 15 and 20. I remember feeling all those feels when I had my kids and wasn’t able to breastfeed. You’re doing great. This is the best journey you’ll ever go on in life. 💛
My baby boy was born on Nov 11th, 2023! Your videos have been so so so encouraging throughout my pregnancy and I am so happy that you have started making videos again!! Breastfeeding has been the hardest part of having a baby for me as well.. Thank you for sharing your story!!
You are incredible mum and never forget about it. Having one child is actually more difficult! Having 2 small children is more work but somehow is easier. When is a small gap between them they are playing and really interacting . And you are still in baby mood so it’s again easier to go though all again ❤
When I had my son 4 years ago. My breastfeeding lasted 1 week. I tried everything to produce milk. Do not feel bad about bottle feeding because the baby is still receiving his nutrition. You are an awesome mom and very attentive to his needs 😊❤
Welcome back! I have missed your videos so much and am so happy for you and your family. I debated watching this video when I saw "breastfeeding journey" as I had a really difficult time too (baby is 10 weeks) and wasn't sure how I'd feel watching. But I'm really glad I finally did and heard the pain I relate to and the kind words you had to say ❤ You are such a good mama and baby Connor is so lucky to have you and all the effort and love you've already provided. Thank you so much for your vulnerability in sharing - I know so many people will relate and feel seen 💙
Dear Michelle, I can’t thank you enough for being open about your breast-feeding journey! I am 21 weeks pregnant with my first baby and have been stressing about breast-feeding, but you sharing your story has totally liberated me! God bless you, you are the most incredible mom ever! ❤
amazing video. thank you for being vulnerable. I became a mom on Feb 9th and the hardships you've shared are SO RELATABLE. I feel so much relief that I haven't been struggling by myself and these struggles are okay! God appointed us for this 🙌 and He makes no mistakes!
I have the same experience with nursing as you. I was broken when I realized it just was not going to work for us. Thank you so much for sharing! Listening to your experience made me so emotional and it really really helps.
I've been following you since you were in college in NYC and it's been so beautiful to watch your evolution. Ironically, I also went to college in NYC and moved back home to the south with my partner as well. I love how you just had a baby and you seem to be enjoying every second of it, while exhibiting so much grace and class. Definitely love and respect the boundaries you have when it comes to Connor. Please take as much time as you need when it comes to editing and uploading your videos. Everyone will be patient.
I had the same feeding journey with my first baby, it was so hard to come to terms that breastfeeding wasn’t in the cards as my daughter would scream every nursing attempt so we bottle fed as I knew she was hungry and helped me get more rest too haha. Now she is a happy and thriving almost 4 year old. My son (2nd and final baby) was born to nurse and no feeding issues….both C-section babies. Just here to say feeding is the hardest part and for me, as long as they’re fed and healthy, baby will do great.
Michelle, I can relate to this video on so many levels. I wanted to breastfeed my daughter exclusively, and it really devastated me when I was not able to. Like you said a fed baby is best. I did not feel like myself after having my daughter for about 2 years. I had to find myself again. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing. So many of us can relate and know exactly what you have felt and are feeling. You are doing an amazing job!
The feeling of your videos popping up again is UNMATCHED! We've missed you so much
oh I love this thank you ☺️
Of course!! So happy to have you back, but mostly for you and your family!💕💕 @@michellereedg
Loving the videos, so many followers have missed you all.
Agreeeeedd. She is my comfort channel! Especially since our LOs will only be a few months apart ❤❤❤
Just wanna say that you look so calm and joyful despite many unexpected events (know that that’s something you’re not very keen knowing you’re a routine person!) so just wanna say praise God for growing you in this season. You’re doing so well, and you are ALREADY a great mom in Him, so trust Him. Welcome back, we definitely missed you :)
thank you 💛 I definitely wasn't calm and peaceful in the beginning, my husband can vouch for that haha. but feeling more in sync with mom life as the days go on. praise God indeed!
Cried with you when you were talking about your feeding journey. I am two months postpartum and our feeding journey has also gone much different than I dreamed and prayed for. Sending you hugs, mama. God chose us specifically for our children and He is with us every step of the way! He has already written them all! 🩵
Even though you say you don’t feel or look like yourself, you look like yourself to us & better! Such a beautiful soul and momma! You’re doing such a great job🥹🤍 so glad you’re back!!!
I couldn’t agree more. The glow and calmness she has as a stay at home mom is so comforting and beautiful to watch. This vlog made me cry. It’s so beautiful.
I was a formula baby 100% and I grew up super healthy and close with my mom. She is my hero and I know you are Conner’s too!! God has gone before you and ordained this entire situation 🥰 sending all my love
Crying even though my daughter is 2.5 because this is bringing back so many emotions for me. I breastfed for 2yrs but at the cost of my mental health. Looking back I really wish I had known to show myself more grace. I’m so proud of you. You’re doing an incredible job 🥺🤍
I LOVE how you are already reading with Connor. I did the same thing with my two daughters and by the time they were three, they were both reading on their own. You will always cherish this time with Connor and you're a great mom, Michelle.
I am currently going through the grind of breast feeding and I cried during your chat about feeding. It’s BY FAR the hardest part of new mom-hood for me and others. Thank you for shedding some light on this!! I so appreciate your courage to discuss it.
Really appreciate how tasteful you’re being about how much to include Connor’s face. ❤ Also teared up hearing about your nursing journey but you absolutely are doing your best and are an incredible mother. Love having your videos again, Michelle!
Michelle, I am two weeks postpartum and unable to breastfeed as well. It has been the most harrowing experience of my life, so much heartache. But hearing you admit to going through the same has given me so much comfort. Especially when it seems like every mama around me is able to make milk. So thank you.
I love your honesty and the way you give the glory to God in every circumstance. Such a beautiful video and family!
Missed you so much Michelle, I’m very glad you’re back!
really happy to be here again 💛
You are such a great mom! I had my baby on November 15th! Been watching you forever and the fact that we had our babies “together” is so so cool to me and comforting to see a mom I look up to in the same stages as me ❤
Tearing up hearing your breastfeeding journey because I empathize entirely with you - down to having my first child (also a boy) dreaming of how it would be only to come to terms that that wasn’t our story. You’re no less of a mama for it. You’re doing great!
Girl, I’m sitting here bawling as you talk about your feeding journey. Been there twice. My hubby always told me that my mental health was more important than breastfeeding. That was hard to accept both times but I know it to be true too. Fed is definitely best. Glad you shared your experience. As a mom and a postpartum nurse, I can say it’s not talked about enough.
Thank you for the courage to share about your breastfeeding experience. I had almost an identical journey and it was absolutely destroying my mental & emotional wellbeing. My son started doing SO much better once we fully made the switch to formula, but it was also hard for me to come to terms with for a while. Having a baby has been the most incredible but humbling experience and I truly believe all us moms are out here doing our best. Thank you for making this feel less of what can feel like such an isolating experience. You are a GREAT mom 💙💙 (as we all knew you would be!!)
You are such an amazing person, mom, wife… I find myself crying watching every video. You are so sweet and genuine. Thank you for being so vulnerable…. That really does meet people where they are & encourage them. You are LOVED! We’re glad you are back. For sure saving this video for when I’m walking through mom life.
Hi Michelle, I’ve been watching your videos for years now and I just need to tell you how much I commend your vulnerability for the betterment of others. The messages you put out in your videos are so so important for people to hear, myself included! You truly radiate grace and I’m so happy for you that you have found the best way to feed your sweet baby. Coming from a nurse, fed is best!! I hope you and Aiden can continue to go easy on yourselves through this new chapter of life.
Thanks for sharing your feeding journey! First video I came across was you completing the final touches for the nursery. I’m 3 months postpartum and feeding has been the hardest part. Baby girl struggled from the start, and like you, I tried everything. I was frustrated and felt so much guilt that it wasn’t working as “God intended.” It was pulling me away from actually enjoying my baby. I’m now pretty much exclusively pumping and nurse every now and then for fun as one lactation consultant suggested. It’s nice because there’s no pressure associated with the experience. It’s solely for bonding. And as you shared, I’ve had to come to terms with it. I hold out hope still that maybe one day she’ll just get it. But I’ve made peace with that never happening and just content with what I have been able to do for her so far. You’re an amazing mom, and I love watching how you provide for your baby in so many the ways. Taking notes for myself and enjoying a little contact nap just cause.
My daughter is 2.5 and I wish someone would’ve told me that you don’t fee yourself until almost the 2 year mark. I felt so much pressure to “bounce back” and have it all together when I should’ve been taking care of myself and being gentle with myself. Take your time and focus on your baby ❤
appreciate this so much 🫶🏼
As another 2 year old mama I completely agree with this!!
Agree with this!! Daughter is 3.5 and it’s so true!
Absolutely enjoy baby Connor and don’t put any expectations on yourself. You can’t get this amazing bonding time back. ❤
Oh this is so lovely. Chelle, you're so humble about everything you talk about, you defer to other mums and express gratitude for what you've got. It's so sweet (I'm not a mum yet but trying!). I also wanted to say that this video is so peaceful. You make motherhood look like it doesn't need to be loud, busy, stressful. I know that seasons of that may come for us both, but you seem to be keeping it simple and taking everything as it comes, appreciating everything for what it is, and that helps me worry less about whether I'd be able to handle it. I'm not under any illusion that there aren't tears from baby off the camera, but idk, your clarity and the fact you're working towards inner peace in the Lord is so wonderful.
I'm so glad that you are back my sweet sweet friend. You bring so much light into people's lives with your vlogs and I'm loving seeing you as a momma!! xo
Absolutely loved this video and seeing how your life and content are evolving with baby. Thank you for sharing the struggles along with the happiness that motherhood has brought you so far.
He sounds like he's a REALLY HAPPY baby! That's great!
I love just taking him along, doing your "day to day" and not always feeling like you need to entertain him! I think this is SO important. My gosh, and Cash I cant. My heart! Love having you back. xo
I wanna give you a BIG hug! So 1. Seeing your videos pop up again OMG! 2. You sharing your stories, makes me want to cry and omg! Your community on here loves you!
Motherhood looks amazing on you❤️
So glad you’re back, you were dearly missed ❤
Ah Michelle, as a Mom of almost a 20 and 18 year old, this really brought me back. Your love for son shines through as well as your husband’s. You are doing a wonderful job and I love how you are embracing the importance of routines. I did too and they were key. I completely understand your mixed emotions and struggles with breastfeeding- way more difficult and complicated than people realize. You are an amazing Mom!! I loved seeing Cash in his role as big brother! ❤️
Watching you and Aiden become parents made my heart squeeze! I’ve been watching you since you were a junior in high school and we’re similar age so to see to being an amazing mom is like watching a friend become a mom! So proud of you and so happy to have you back here on the internet ❤
I missed your vlogs! So happy for your family & its new addition. Thanks for taking us along ❤
thank you for being here 🌼
My son is five months almost six and my breastfeeding/ formula feeding journey is the same as yours. Mom guilt is real when u feel like a failure to provide. Giving yourself grace and counting the blessing of small successes has what got me through my postpartum thus far!
I remember being in the exact same situation with my baby and feeling all the same feelings. To be honest, I found there was very little support out there around going from attempting breast feeding unsuccessfully, as my baby was not thriving on the tiny amount I was producing, to solely bottle feeding. The most frightening part for me was issues of engorgement. I remember having no support available to me about it and I had to go to my doctor to ask how to stop milk flow. It made me feel so vulnerable and demoralized as if I had done something wrong- when it couldn’t have been further from the truth- I was brave and strong to take a stand and say my baby isn’t thriving and I need to do the best for him. Just one bottle in and he was a completely different boy. 17 now and so healthy and happy🥰. So proud of you for sharing your story to help others. Thank you Michelle!
Watching Mr. Cash follow you and Connor boppin’ around the house is the sweetest thing I’ve ever seen! I know it’s had its ups and downs (and thank you for sharing those with us) but you just seem so truly happy and at peace in your motherhood and in your family. 💛 This just makes me so excited to share in this joy in my own family one day!
You and I had our baby boys like two-ish weeks apart, and when you started talking about your breastfeeding journey I immediately started tearing up because my journey was THE SAME and it’s like you took every word right out of my mouth. You are not alone Mama 💕
This is the first video of yours that I've watched and I'm so glad it popped up on my suggestions. I'm almost 7 months postpartum and the way you articulated body image is so accurate. How you look at yourself and don't feel like yourself - looking in the mirror and not recognizing the person looking back is such a struggle and an incredibly weird feeling! I expected to not love my body right after having a baby, but it's not as simple as that. It's like you're trying to rediscover yourself. Plus everything you said about finding your new style is so accurate. It's nice to know that you aren't feeling these feelings alone! Thank you for making me feel less alone. ❤
I just started watching your videos since I’m a first time mom too and currently 6 months pregnant and I love your videos so much! Your vulnerability to share the joys but also hardships of being a mom are so helpful and also so beautiful to see how the Lord is using that in your life! thank you for the amazing content you’re putting out! 🤍
I relate so much to your breastfeeding journey. It was so so hard for me when it didn’t work out and I felt like the biggest failure. Almost 6 months postpartum and it still stings to think about but ultimately my baby is fed, he is loved and we have such a sweet bond. You’re doing great mama!!
There are SO many pros with bottle or formula feeding. The first and foremost being you get HELP with feeding and it's amazing for mental health. Dads, other mom, brothers, sisters, grandmas, whoever wants to bond with baby can feed them.
I drove myself crazy exclusively breastfeeding for a year with my first child and I wish I hadn't. With my second, I had him on formula and bottles after 4months because I just couldn't go through it again anymore. I'm glad you're okay with how it all turned out because it IS perfectly okay to feed your baby how you wish as long as they're getting fed.
So crazy seeing you be a mom! I love this new life for you! So glad you and the family are happy and healthy
Just have to hop on here and say that 1, I am so glad to see you posting again - I missed listening and relating to you every week! And 2, we were pregnant around the same time and I just had my little on in February 11. I had a very similar journey with breastfeeding and all the feelings that come with the decision of switching to fully formula feeding. Thank you for sharing your story, you are such a great light!
Michelle! I’ve been watching since 2017 and wow it’s just so cool to witness all the different stages of life you’ve walked in! You are such a natural momma! Thanks for your vulnerability!
You’re such a good mom, Michelle❤and I love how you find the positives in life
So so so happy you’re back! I cried watching you cry talking about your BF journey. You are such a great mama and have been from the very beginning-Connor is beyond blessed to have you! Those early postpartum days can be so difficult, but I’m so glad you are doing better🤍🤍
Fortunately I can say I TOTALLY get where you´re comming from. I was completely set on breastfeeding my baby and everyone said it would "come naturally, my body was made fot ir, formula isn´t as good as breastmilk"... blah blah blah... as it turns out, my baby girl is almost 2 years old now and she´s thriving. She´s been healthy and happy and has a really strong bond with both her parents because of how our story went... So I can only invite you to embrace your story for the way He has written it and the way you all are writting it with Him as a family. Embrace ir all, no matter how it unfolds! So glad to have you back and thank you for sharing!
Also cried during you talking about your breastfeeding journey-- relate so much to you.
I’m a grandma now and remember what it feels like as a new mom….. think of being a mom as becoming a butterfly… you are not going to look like you used to… you have the beautiful mom glow and that little baby looking back at you loves you with his whole heart.
As an early childhood teacher, I think you are doing a magnificent job…. Lots of talking, reading to him, showing him the world and contact cuddles are the BEST for brain development and create smarter babies.
You honestly look beautiful… and like a super mom… Insta mom… but I understand the changes that came with being a new mom. Make up, clothes, being on demand, we feel a loss of our sense of self because of the changes but keep doing what you’re doing. ❤
I have a 20 month old and 9 month old and let me tell you .. soak this alllll up. It goes by so fast! This new chapter is all about bonding, healing and finding your rhythm as the new and if I say so myself, IMPROVED, versions of ourselves. Motherhood is beautiful 🩵✨🩷
Babies are never bored. All studies done show, the more eye contact from mom, the better. I’m so glad I didn’t care much for my phone when my children were babies.
I remember after my fourth in 6 years, I looked in the mirror and and forgot how to put eye liner on. My skin was also different and I think, looking back, my hand was shaky. It was a breakdown moment. I wish I could go back and hug myself and treat myself with love and grace. Honestly those years are a blur. Don’t blink. My kids are are preteens and teens now, and I swear it was yesterday were they were still taking naps and not in school yet.
I love the mom life on you! It has been so sweet and a blessing to watch! We love you Michelle 🤍
My heart hurt for you when you were talking about the downs of your postpartum journey because I’ve known that pain all too well, but I can already see how much and how beautifully you’ve grown since becoming a mom! You are doing amazing ❤
Everything you spoke about is exactly what I went through and experienced as a mom.. all the experiences, thought processes, everything. It was like reliving that time when you talked about everything that was huge for me. My babies are toddlers now, and I just want to say.. it gets so much more beautiful every single day and the hard times pass. So beautiful to see your journey and so glad you are sharing. Praying for you guys.
We’ve been on such a similar track as you - my son is almost 4 months now. We had lip and tongue tie issues and weight gain issues - BFing has been SO hard. Proud of you for finding your confidence in the lord. We’re doing it!
Goodness this vlog was the most beautiful 24 hours with a baby I have ever watched. The light and glow you have as a new mom is so beautiful and refreshing to watch. Conner is so lucky to have you as his mama ❤
Thank you so much for sharing! I am 3 weeks postpartum with my first, a boy 💙 and the breastfeeding struggles had me a sleep deprived, emotional, crying wreck the first two weeks. You’re a great mom, thanks for normalizing the painful, isolating struggle 💙
4 weeks into our Newborn journey & watching through your videos. 💕Absolutely loving having a little bit of calm company atm 😌 tysm for sharing & giving me insight into what to look forward to x
Michelle, you look absolutely beautiful! Motherhood suits you and it's obvious how much you love your baby & how strong your bond is. ❤
A very amazing job as always, Michelle!❤❤
Michelle motherhood looks wonderful for you. I swear you make it look so easy, seamless and natural like you’re really following your instincts and trusting yourself. Talking to your baby is also adorable and so helpful with development. Also, I heard you say you went to Chicago omg???? Please cover how you went about it with a newborn and tips!
oh you should seen me the first month, I had a clumsy start 😅 but thank you! I think vlogging by myself all day has prepared me for talking nonstop to him 😂
thank you for sharing your magic with us! it’s wonderful to know you’re doing and feeling better ❤
thank you 🥹💗
I got teary eyed when you were talking about your feeding journey… I ended up exclusively pumping both my babies for a year each and I definitely sacrificed some of my mental health for that. Looking back, I wish I wouldn’t have been so tough on myself. Whenever you are doing what is best for mama and baby, you can have peace it was the right decision for you!! 💕
Michelle, I am a pediatrician and I totally understand your struggle! People always sat say breast is best but honestly fed is best. You are doing your best as a mom and I look up to you. If you have any questions at all please reach out me but I can tell you are the best mom. You have done amazing but if I can help you at all please just let me know. You are the best mom!!
Michelle I deeply resonate with all you said about feeding. My first baby I triple fed after he fell off his weight curve, it was exhausting until we finally switched to formula. It led to A LOT of anxiety with my second baby who is Connor's age, I was just waiting for her to fall off the curve, and so far we're ok but its SO mind consuming, the tracking, etc. You're a wonderful mom!
Sweet moment to share with Aidan, I think it’s so beautiful to see positive and happy families on social media (briefly of course).
Especially for so many future parents to look at and admire. Something as short as the dance/transition from baby going from dad to mom and the connection you all have really radiates through the screen to us that you are truly a lovely family. All it took was a minute to see you three have completely melted together. It’s beautiful ❤
It's so amazing watching you be a mom! Conner is so very blessed and tes God picked YOU to be his mom and because you follow Him, you will be the best mom ever!
Motherhood is all about pivoting. Setting expectations aside, you got this.
Loved watching this at 6 weeks postpartum. Would love to see more as you have time to share with us!
Michelle, you are doing a wonderful job ❤ All these moments and ups and downs are inevitable and everyone’s story is different just like every baby is different. It’s an incredibly beautiful yet tough journey. Thanks for sharing the good and bad xx
Thank you so much for sharing your breastfeeding journey and struggles. Your story sounds so similar to what I went through a few months ago and I know it's such a hard topic to talk about. I appreciate you being so open and selfless to share your story, you are amazing ❤️
I have always loved mommy content and i have watched you for years so to see you posting your mommy content is so heart warming, congratulations on your bundle of joy 🩷
Thank you for talking about your breastfeeding journey because I was honestly feeling so alone. It took me 2 years to get pregnant and during my pregnancy anything that could go wrong went wrong and once my daughter was born at 36 weeks I just wanted to be able to breastfeed her and when I couldn’t I was devastated and felt like a failure. Fed is best and my baby is happy and healthy and that’s all that matters.
I loved this video! My son is almost 2 and I miss these days so much but can honestly say it has only gotten more fun and more sweet with each stage. I also wanted to share I know it’s so hard to not have the feeding journey you expected. I had to fortify my breastmilk so I ended up exclusively pumping - it turns out the issues my son was having were unrelated to my breastmilk and so I had a lot of resentment and anger about giving up on nursing when I really didn’t need to. Fortunately, with God’s Grace I was able to find peace, it is so hard in those dark postpartum days though. Thank you for sharing ❤
Thank you so much for sharing your feeding journey. I did not expect this part of motherhood to be the hardest part! I’m so glad this video popped up on my timeline because so many of the fears you had about switching to formula are what I have right now as we try to figure out our feeding approach!
your baby loves you sooo much, no matter what your feeding journey looks like! sending love ❤️
I am 5 months PP - I've watched your videos forever but am just now getting to a point of normalcy and routine where I can catch up on videos while cleaning and all that. So I am just now watching this one but just had to comment bc it's crazy this is the first video I am watching today. I was just crying over my breastfeeding journey ending. I tried so hard to nurse my daughter but due to an undiagnosed lip tie, we had the same problems with low weight, her just getting enough, the pumping and nursing and supplementing with formula. The past few days we started exclusively formula feeding. She's so much happier and healthier as we've leaned more and more on formula and now that I have completely dried up I just felt so much relief but then guilt also. My heart has been so broken and I've felt like such a failure. I prayed the other day about it to help my mind and for God to show me how to be a better mother. I think I was meant to see this video - because Michelle you are such a wonderful mother and I've loved watching your videos especially as we've gone thru the journey of motherhood at the same time and to hear you share the same journey with nursing, it was like God showing me I am not alone and I am still a good mom. Thank you ❤️❤️❤️❤️
oh my heart is with you, sending hugs!! I was just telling my SIL how at peace I am with formula feeding- our bub has been so healthy and rarely gotten sick ❤️ grateful to live in time when we have these resources! you’re doing an amazing job & your girl is so blessed to have you 🌸
You’re doing an amazing job! I don’t really feel like myself until a year postpartum. I promise you it gets better and you will feel like yourself again soon. You are not a failure and formula is a BLESSING! Great job, mama!!!
The breastfeeding journey was so hard with my first one - I put so much pressure on myself too 🥲 My second baby was so different! I think when we place our motherhood and desires in the hands of Our Heavenly Father he can take it all and use it for His glory no matter the circumstance - you are doing amazing mama!! 🤍
Thank you so much for sharing your day, Michelle! You are such an inspiration and a truly wonderful mom. Connor is so blessed to have you!! 💛💛💛
You’re a gem Michelle. You have so many people in your corner on this motherhood journey, including myself 🤗
im sad you struggle with that, but that just show how much you care!!! that is beautiful, michelle! we can tell you try so hard, you are amazing 💕
2 weeks postpartum and definitely needed to hear this. Thank you for sharing 💓
It is so cool seeing you be a mom. I've been watching your videos since you were in high school! It is so fun to grow up together ❤️
I relate heavily to the breastfeeding journey. I cried for months on end because I had dreamed to nurse for so long and it just didn’t work. Some days I get bummed again but I try not to think about it too much. Now I’m pregnant with my second and pray this breastfeeding journey is so different. So glad you’re back ❤️
sending prayers for your second go 🦋 thank you for being here!
Formula feeding is great! I felt so much shame and failure that my first did not get to breastfeed a little. I finally learned with my third to go with the flow, and he breastfeeds a little. It is nice, and he is bonded to me just like my first two kids. My first has only gotten one cold in her first fours, but she does not go to daycare. You and Aiden are doing great!
Hey Michelle, to encourage you.... I nursed my first baby just shy of a year but my second and third babies, both for different reasons, I was unable to nurse and needed to bottle feed them from the beginning. Out of the three, my healthiest children were my bottled fed babies. Also, don't put yourself down about not being able to nurse. As I was reminded during that time in my life, just think of breast cancer patients. There are many that due to the mastectomy are not able to nurse. I'm thankful for the option of formula. Fed is best!
My baby is also 15 weeks and we have had a feeding journey almost identical to yours and I felt like such a failure and it was my biggest insecurity as a new mom but hearing your story and other moms experience and how common it is and that God has already gone ahead and forged this exact journey for us has been so healing! Thank you for sharing your story ❤
sending so much love! ❤️
Exclusively pumping here! 2.5 months in! It is definitely lots of work & lots of parts my have have never been drier 😅😅
You are doing AMAZING! He has a happy mom and is fed! that is more important than anything ❤
I really enjoyed this vlog & I’m not a mom. Me & my husband don’t want kids but you did a really great job with sharing/balancing baby related things & things about you, how you’re feeling & the transition to motherhood.
I really love/adore your channel & im not gonna lie.. I was a little worried that your channel was going to be all about baby - making it hard to stay invested.
THANK YOU!! It’s very much appreciated & doesn’t go unnoticed.
Sending love, positive vibes, good health & peace your way! 😘🙏🏽♥️
My kids are 15 and 20. I remember feeling all those feels when I had my kids and wasn’t able to breastfeed. You’re doing great. This is the best journey you’ll ever go on in life. 💛
Where is your black corduroy jacket from?! I love! I need! 😍
My baby boy was born on Nov 11th, 2023! Your videos have been so so so encouraging throughout my pregnancy and I am so happy that you have started making videos again!! Breastfeeding has been the hardest part of having a baby for me as well.. Thank you for sharing your story!!
You are incredible mum and never forget about it. Having one child is actually more difficult! Having 2 small children is more work but somehow is easier. When is a small gap between them they are playing and really interacting . And you are still in baby mood so it’s again easier to go though all again ❤
When I had my son 4 years ago. My breastfeeding lasted 1 week. I tried everything to produce milk. Do not feel bad about bottle feeding because the baby is still receiving his nutrition. You are an awesome mom and very attentive to his needs 😊❤
Welcome back! I have missed your videos so much and am so happy for you and your family. I debated watching this video when I saw "breastfeeding journey" as I had a really difficult time too (baby is 10 weeks) and wasn't sure how I'd feel watching. But I'm really glad I finally did and heard the pain I relate to and the kind words you had to say ❤ You are such a good mama and baby Connor is so lucky to have you and all the effort and love you've already provided.
Thank you so much for your vulnerability in sharing - I know so many people will relate and feel seen 💙
❤️❤️❤️ thank you so much. You’re doing SUCH a great job!
Dear Michelle, I can’t thank you enough for being open about your breast-feeding journey! I am 21 weeks pregnant with my first baby and have been stressing about breast-feeding, but you sharing your story has totally liberated me! God bless you, you are the most incredible mom ever! ❤
I loved your honest recap at the end thanks for sharing!
amazing video. thank you for being vulnerable. I became a mom on Feb 9th and the hardships you've shared are SO RELATABLE. I feel so much relief that I haven't been struggling by myself and these struggles are okay! God appointed us for this 🙌 and He makes no mistakes!
I have the same experience with nursing as you. I was broken when I realized it just was not going to work for us. Thank you so much for sharing! Listening to your experience made me so emotional and it really really helps.
I've been following you since you were in college in NYC and it's been so beautiful to watch your evolution. Ironically, I also went to college in NYC and moved back home to the south with my partner as well. I love how you just had a baby and you seem to be enjoying every second of it, while exhibiting so much grace and class. Definitely love and respect the boundaries you have when it comes to Connor. Please take as much time as you need when it comes to editing and uploading your videos. Everyone will be patient.
thank you for sticking around here for so long 🤍 appreciate the encouragement!
I had the same feeding journey with my first baby, it was so hard to come to terms that breastfeeding wasn’t in the cards as my daughter would scream every nursing attempt so we bottle fed as I knew she was hungry and helped me get more rest too haha. Now she is a happy and thriving almost 4 year old. My son (2nd and final baby) was born to nurse and no feeding issues….both C-section babies. Just here to say feeding is the hardest part and for me, as long as they’re fed and healthy, baby will do great.
Michelle, I can relate to this video on so many levels. I wanted to breastfeed my daughter exclusively, and it really devastated me when I was not able to. Like you said a fed baby is best. I did not feel like myself after having my daughter for about 2 years. I had to find myself again. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing. So many of us can relate and know exactly what you have felt and are feeling. You are doing an amazing job!