Fi’s Fight Back - increase day and a big realisation moment.
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- Опубліковано 27 сер 2024
- Increase day, conference day, also a big realisation about me and recovery (in the latter part of the video after PM snack!)
Keeping moving forward, I know I’m not doing it alone.
Thankyou to every single person who continues to support me and believes in me.
We will get fi back 🌟
#anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #inpatient #recoveryispossible #dayinthelife #recovery
You’re doing so incredibly well Fi. I can see a spark in your eyes that wasn’t there a few months ago. I can sense your determination and fighting spirit increasing with every video. You deserve a wonderful life. Xx
When you lose the false protection anorexia says you have, you get to have the real protection of the love of people around you. I'm so proud of your realizations and how far you've come and how strong you are. Yes it's exhausting but you're having so many breakthroughs and you're doing this and you're amazing. Fi is absolutely fighting back and anorexia is absolutely going down.
fantastic realizations... and genuine desires for healthy Fi!!!! Here is a poem I love:
Wild Geese by Mary Oliver
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting-
over and over announcing your place
In the family of things.
Wow, you did so many tough things this day. I love how you are trying to reconnect with the ‘true Fi’ and saying things like l, “Fi loves this so I’m going to do it”. Keep going, you are moving forward x
You are an incredible woman, Fi ! You have taught me so much these last few months. I understand ED so much now because of you. Keep going, Darling ! You are so worth it ❤️
I can hear so much more strength in your voice compared to when you started documenting this journey!
“Maybe I deserve to feel better.” YES! This is it right here! So much of what you say is exactly what I recognize in myself (even not letting myself enjoy tea to the fullest), and I’ve recently realized a lot of it is obviously the long-standing anorexia, but autism also keeps my anorexia stuck in this pattern, because both things carry the fear of not being enough as I am. Or even being too much. You’re not alone at all, and I can’t wait until you’re back to the Fi you know who loves life and laughing!
Omg I am beaming with pride right now!!!!!!!!!!💪❤️ So many fears faced and challenges conquered, especially talking at the conference!!! WOW!!! such a superstar. You inspire me ✨❤️
I'm still here! 😉 You can do it.
Wow! Yes, I'm still here, and so are countless other people/ supporters! What fantastic observations n realisations going on at the moment; and humbling gratitude too! Its SO good to see you talking like u really truly actually believe in the support around you, and see your eyes light up with excitement about what could be instore in the future for you! Sorry, are u still with me Fi..!!? U rock! Xxx
Wow you're doing great Fi, love watching you kick butt😊🥰
Fi, I'm so proud of YOU!!
You deserve a new tea bag with every cup, please do it 💜
Wow I'm seeing such positive changes with you more & more! The struggles you face, and how you share them with us, can help many people, and not just those with anorexia. I came over here from TikTok. I really enjoy your longer videos. I watch every minute of them. So much of what you said here, I can use to help with my ptsd. It's encouraging!! I bet you'd be a great counselor one day!
As always Fiona, I'm here in Ohio quietly supporting your battle.... spoiler alert - you're going to win! ❤
Apologies in advance for the language- but GO FUCKING SMASH IT FI!!! You’ve got this!!!! You’ve got the fight in you & a fire in your belly. You are in control. Well done!! ❤️❤️
Treat yourself like you’d treat a friend. You are more than enough and deserve the world, you’re such a lovely soft spoken young woman and you deserve to live your dreams and future as much as everyone else if not more as you’ve fought so hard for it x
I don’t have an ED, but I do relate to that feeling that I don’t deserve to have good things. That’s part of the fight back! We need to give ourself permission to do and have what we love, even when we aren’t “doing everything right.” ❤️
You are enough! Take care of yourself and believe in yourself! Fi is still in you - she will outshine this darkness.
You are doing so well Fi. You are buzzing from your day… keep going xx
You're almost better Fi. Your thinking is stronger. I've been following you for several months. You were in the hospital with a feeding tube when I started with you and to watch where you are now is amazing. Don't forget where you came from from. It's OK to be afraid of an egg mayonnaise sandwich but you did it and the next time you won't be so afraid because your thinking is better. Good for you Fi
The anorexia is stopping you from living life - live your life Fi - you deserve it . I can tell by your videos your are an amazing person and deserve to belly laugh and walk your dog. o had anorexia in High School and when I let it go, it was the most liberating moment of my life
Your friend sounds such a special guy. He’s as lucky to have you as a friend as much as you are to have him❤️
You are much stronger than You think You are!! You're an amazing person and thank You for sharing.
I too have all these emotions daily where I have myself and punish myself as well but I over eat instead. Watching Your videos help me even though I'm on the polar opposite side of the eating disorder. Thank You Fi, God bless!! By the way, I Love Your eyebrows!!
I watched till the end girlfriend! Because I look forward to every update and video you post! You make me better at dealing with my mental health journey! I like many others am rooting for you Fi!!
What a blessing your friends are! I am so glad you have them for support and they can speak life and comfort and security into you. You are getting well and you will continue to do so. Praying for you many times a day knowing this time you will fully recover. Blessings dear one.
Wonderful Fi...Absolutely wonderful.
You’ve got this..you ARE all those wonderful,things you listed.
Wooww! I am so happy for you Fi !
I'm frensh ,and i have an ED , you're an exemple for me ,and i belive in you !
I am almost recovered now, but I still struggle with over exercising and ED-thoughts. And nothing has helped exept when I found Your channel!❤️
Awww so glad you have such an amazing friend. Really hope that you enjoy your lunch out together! This is Fi getting her life back 💪✨🥰
I am so proud of you and I'm so grateful that you have friends and family that support you wholy and completely and I know that you can get through anything you are enough you are beautiful you are loved
you are a lovely person, you deserve all the happiness in the world. you are blessed to have such Good friends. I have had some sad times over the past few years and my friends have made me feel loved and included and it means the world. You are to be admired for facing your battles head-on. Oh by the way, have a new teabag every day in your amazing mugs...🥰
Fi I know we have never met...But you are winning...the Voices in our heads suck!! But you are amazing...I believe you can do it!!!
there was so much light in your eyes by the end of this video and it was wonderful to see. you can do it:)
I’m proud of you!! You are an inspiration and I hope you continue to stay positive!!
Just came across you on tik tok and spent 2 hours following all your journey. I have to say you are doing amazingly well I think you have amazing strength and deserve a great life xxxx I hope all these comments help in some way you got this! :))
Your honesty is so refreshing, so lovely hearing you getting better mentally. You are so much more positive and I love it, I am very proud of you!
Keep fighting for Fi! You’re doing amazing!!
You are absolutely beautiful and strong and you are enough!
You're being incredibly expressive, vocal and introspective which is lovely to see. Each day you're changing for the better - whether it's a bad or good day. The important thing is that when you have a difficult moment, meal or day - you're reflecting on that and using that to fuel yourself to face those challenges again and find strategies to overcome it. Massively proud of you
I had an amazing friend like that when I was in recovery. He made me feel the same way like I didn't have to be anything but myself and that was enough. That was ten years ago now. We are six years married with kids and a life I could have only dreamed of. There is a beautiful life waiting to you on the other side of this mountain 🏔️ keep going and you will move those mountains.
I love that you have such a great support system.
this feels like a huge breakthrough. Hold onto the fact that Fi is enough.
Still here at the end. Your insights are so important and to voice them. Go you!
You so deserve to get better and live your best life x keep head high and power on x.
Thank you for your honesty. I can't wait to meet Fi.
Wow you are amazing and so is your friend. So happy for you!!!!
So proud!
Fi, it is so awesome to see you regaining your life… I can see such progress from your first videos and such a transformation… You have so much more life and spirit in your voice! Your voice is stronger, and you just have more spirit! So proud of you!😊 Keep going girl… You’re a true inspiration!❤️💜
Your chatty bit was so empowering! It’s really reminds me as the speech from the film Coach Carter “What’s your greatest fear”. If you haven’t seen it, search it up. It’s everything 🥰
Fi YOU ARE ENOUGH!!! Remember to listen to this when you have a bad day… what a motivating video!
Hi fi you are such a wonderful young woman who deserves only the best in life. I’m pleased you have such a wonderful set of friends and can see how determined you are to get the true Fi back. You’re friend , he sounds lovely and I believe you will be fine when you have the time out together. You’re conference talk shows again how brave you are. I’m older than you and have had anorexia from 10 years old and have had remissions and times where fully recovered so totally get it. Would never flip off one of you’re videos. You speak so much sense and you are helping me too so sending love you’re way fi. Stay strong xxxxx
Oh, and guess what, I am not battling any ED, and I follow you because I think you are a great person, you are articulate, you really think about what you want to say before you say it, you're tactful. I am very interested in educating myself on this particular eating disorder which is why I am following your journey.. Also, you are in fact in control of your eating right now, think of it that way. I understand what you mean by control of your eating, but it is still control TO eat. Happy for you Fi and I hope you have a wonderful outing for lunch this week.
I haven't watched for a few weeks, I see you have a spring in your step Fi!! Xx
You are doing a great job with your increases. You are a huge inspiration to me, with all my fears and struggles. You are a great help and I am so happy to see your videos. You make me feel so much better, especially when im having a really hard day. i love all your outfits! Thank you Fi! youre NOT ALONE! Love,Loren
Your voice is so calming! I can image you doing an audiobook with your recovery story for kids or adults!
There's a saying in eating disorder recovery "You alone can do this, but you don't have to do it alone".
You have a fire in your belly now Fi, pushing you on. Go girl! Xxx
This is lovely to watch Fi. It seems like you’ve had some very profound ‘lightbulb” moments this last few days (alongside the very hard going stuff). Please keep on soul searching and keep sharing your thoughts (no matter how daft you think they are) with those you trust as you can see that by doing so, your mindset is shifting. As someone who’s been there, AN is such a secretive and deceptive illness (and turns the sufferers into the same) so continue to exert your power over it by silencing it with alternative views and questioning it’s loyalty to you.
Keep doing what you’re doing and I truly hope that you achieve your dream of using your wisdom to show others the way out of their own hell. You are so highly thought of and respected by people who have never met you, simply for being you, nothing more, nothing less. My thoughts and admiration go to you x
What a light bulb moment, Fi! You will get better!
I love oatmeal with mashed banana and powdered peanut butter, my husband's favorite Quest bar is cookies and cream. He loves it!! I'm happy you did your increase day. ❤️
What an absolutely massive day. Well done, Fi. Listening to you talk , it makes so much sense. A lot of people have ways of coping that make them feel safe, and those ways aren’t always healthy, but watching you work your way through it is helping everyone watching. Keep going.
Thank you so much for being real with us! Even if I don‘t know you or you me, YOU helped me to fully go with recovery you helped me see that is hard but it will pay out at the end if I trust the process.
And got this 💪💪💪
And there it is! That break through moment. You told your anorexia that it isn’t going to win! Fi is going to win. You are enough Fi. You’ve got a beautiful soul. I know you will still struggle but just remember the lies that the anorexia is telling you and keep telling it that you are going to win !
Having such supportive friends and parents has got to help so much! But it’s also your fight and determination that’s getting you through this! 💕
Well done! You're doing it!!!
You are fantastic Fi. Brave, determined and insparational. You so deserve to recover for the life you so deserve.xx
my friend just sent me a video of a house Alpaca called Alf. I can't share it outside of Facebook. I know Llanas are your thing, but I thought you like it x
You're doing amazing and you're so brave xxx
I understand your terror of leaving the Anorexia behind.
I'm older than you Fi...& I get it.
Yes,the An. seems safe; but it's also suffocating.
Please play this back to yourself when the Demons are loud.
My thoughts are with you; keep trying...💟
Wow Fi! I think something has shifted. The sound of your voice & the light in your eyes felt so hopeful...Positive even. I smiled through this whole video. You CAN do this. You have alot of people supporting you... Friends, family & followers... And Fi. Fi is your biggest supporter. The 4 F's 😉❤️❤️
What a beautiful and powerful vlog!
What a big day, Fi! You have come a long way and we are all so proud of you. You are a great person and you deserve the world! You, Fi, are good enough!
You look so happy even in the thumbnail ☺️❤️✨
Congratulations Fi, you're really an inspiration ❤️ you've come so so far and you deserve to acknowledge that xx
You are enough Fi! None of us are perfect.
I'm SO proud of you Fi! What an incredible breakthrough you've had! That is one giant leap forward. You ARE enough!
You amaze me every day Fi! You did a great job with the increases. Panic attacks are horrible but you did it and you got through.
This was the best video yet. Authentic, genuine and so honest🤗🤗🤗
That’s exactly right Fi!!!! We need to stop replaying these old stories we believe about ourselves - they are not true! The evidence is there - we have so many people around us that love us, support us and proves our old stories are fallacies. It’s about challenging these self loathing thoughts/behaviours. Keep up the good work Fi, you are fighting hard. We are all right behind you 😘😘😘😘💖💖💖💖🌸🌸🌸🌸
Fi, I have been following you since you started your TikTok page last year. I find myself looking for your posts and videos - concerned when a days goes by without a Fi-update. You’ve let us into your world, sharing your life and heart with us. I feel so unbelievably proud of you and how far you’ve come. I know I am a stranger, but I am sending you love and support from across the pond. Keep up the good fight! You’ve got this ❤️
You definitely deserve to feel better, Fi. I’m so proud of you! xxxxxxxxxxx
Well bloody done👏👏👏👏Fi is well on the way back. This army is behind you, by the side of you, we’ll hold your hand and catch you if you fall x
You are so right about losing your identity, and saying you feel sufficated is the perfect way of putting it. all these things you are feeing are exactly what I feel as well. i 100% relate to everything you are saying. You will beat this!! You are a beautiful person and are definately deserving of all the best!! Keep going!
First, I'm so incredibly proud of you for everything you've accomplished! Second, I'm super glad you have a friend like you have who you can confide in and just feel like yourself around. He seems like an amazing person and i'm really glad he has your back. Third, your hedgehog shirt you had on for breakfast was super adorable and I love it.
What an absolutely inspiring video! I am so proud of your revelations and I hope they keep coming! You are worthy of love, life and getting Fi back!
I’ve learned so much from you. Thank you for doing such a great job of expressing yourself and describing what you’re going through and how you’re feeling. Not only are you getting stronger, you’re enabling all of us out here to be better support for our friends and family and patients. You absolutely blow me away with how far you’ve come in your recovery. You deserve all the good things and more.
Well said Fi. Congratulations on the conference having the confidence to take part. What a lovely guy your friend sounds, very down to earth, full of common sense and making you feel so at ease and good about yourself. We could all do with a friend like that! Also such lovely girlfriends and parents all supporting you far more than the anorexia could ever do. Keep on fighting girl you are gradually getting there. Love and hugs 😘😘
You can do this 😍 I can see the spark in your eyes. You are so blessed to have amazing people around you. You can do hard things. I can’t wait to see you out of the wheelchair and climbing those mountains. Love 💕
Something I learned in therapy is " what is the worst that can happen"? I often catastrophize. You know what, the worst case is only that you fail and learn. You will get there. I see that spark today in you. ❤️
Go girl, you are doing great! And you look good. So honest, brave.
I’m so proud of you Fi! I’ve followed you for months now and you’re an inspiration truly! I hope you can understand how strong you are.
You sound so inspired and positive in this and that’s such amazing progress! You’ve got this!
I used to feel the same way and then I realized it wasn’t a feeling of safety it was more of one of familiarity. There’s comfort in the familiar. Being on the spectrum myself this ties in with all the thoughts. We are very regimented and need consistency. Without this and with changes it can cause a meltdown. It’s because our system is disregulated . Finding ways to regulate has helped tremendously. U are doing an amazing job Fi!
I am so happy that you have such an amazing friendship. Big steps and I’m so proud of you. I watched until the end as always. We stick around because you are important, valuable, and you give us something too. Sending you love!
Fi, you are so amazing. I’m so endlessly proud of you ♥️♥️♥️
Finally found you on the tube. You got this
Oh Fi!!! I’m so happy for you!!! You are just glowing! I know how the struggle is strong. But you are stronger and YOU ARE ENOUGH!!! Bless your family/friends. Listen to those around you. Our internal dialog can be atrocious. They know us and can tell us the wonderful things about ourselves that we don’t see!! I’m praying for you!! You got this girl!!!!
Ps biscoff is life!❤️ I need to try it with white chocolate spread now!!!!!😁
YOU DO DESERVE ALL THOSE WONDERFUL THINGS! Belly laughs are the best, you’ll have many I’m sure.
I am very proud of you. You are moving forward one step at a time. So glad you have special people in your life. Keep fighting. Fi is coming back.
I’m so, so proud of you, Fi! I’m struggling on my own healing journey right now, but when I see how hard you’re fighting I feel like I can do it too.
Thanks for being so open and so real. Ur doing great! Ur such a wonderful,beautiful person inside and out. X