Fi’s Fight Back - I had PASTA everyday for dinner… and this is what happened
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- Опубліковано 6 вер 2024
- Pasta…
Conquered.
That is all.
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Yay!! So proud of you!! More importantly, you said MULTIPLE times in this video that you're proud of YOURSELF. That speaks VOLUMES about where you're at mentally. Awesome work Fi!! Keep going!!
Side note: Now I'm craving pasta haha
Aww Sheena! Thankyou so much! you're right - I've started noticing these shifts too. Thankyou! xxx
haha - always time for Pasta!
Fi I just wanted to say its been a few days since I had chance to catch up with your instagram and I’m astounded at the change!! ( no not in physical appearance) but in your cognitive speed, your reasoning, your coping with a emotions, your energy (though I realise you might not feel it yet!) You really are a true inspiration. I’m sorry if I’ve never been able to put this across properly before and sometimes I’ve not worded what I meant to say right but it was never intended as maliciousness to you whom I have the ultimate respect (I’m autistic too and can word things wrong without meaning). I can’t remember the last time I had pasta but you sure have inspired me. One things for sure the difference in nourishment to your brain is palpable. I can finally see you are going to achieve your dreams and I suspect inspire many others. P.s if you ever want to chat I’ve had some late involvement in trying to get ‘certain aspects of MEED changed around the autistic section it would always be good to hear your thoughts xx
Hey lovely, thankyou for your comment. I agree, I have noticed improvements in all these areas. Amazing what happens with more food!
I'm more than happy to help! I'm doing work with a similar organisation at the moment, so always happy to talk it through!
There's no bad feelings lovely. From one autistic to another, we are all good. Sending gentle hugs your way
@@Finding_Fi fabulous, I sent you a dm on instagram it’s quite long cause I’m still getting over your spectacular achievements. There is a particular section in the guidelines and I wondered if it had triggered similar reactions… lots of gentle hugs to you 🤗
fantastic Fi....you look so happy and that sparkle is returning
Thankyou Simone! xxx
CONGRATULATIONS FI🎉 You are an amazing blessing to so many! Enjoy your pasta sweet girl 💜
Thankyou so much my love! I truly am! Xxx
Oh my gosh you look so AMAZING!!! I have not seen your videos in over a month. What a change! I cannot overstate how proud I am of you. And what a role model for others you are.
Aww my love! Thankyou so much :') this means so much to me! xxx
Sooooo happy for you!!! Omg girlie this is so huge. Good for you. Love that you are doing it your way and finding your way through. One day at a time!! 💕
Aww Thankyou so much Paula! Definitely, one day at a time and it’ll all add up. So much love! Xxx
I'm SO enjoying watching you become more and more you!! Your joy, your sparkle, your wit, you're GORGEOUS, and I mean that in the truest form--from the inside out. Proud of you, proud for you, and the fact you continue and keep continuing. I'm dancing for you in midwest America.
Editing to say, "I am, I can, and I will" is absolutely going to be my daily motto!
Aww Courtney! This comment has made me smile so much! Thankyou. It feels like I'm really getting there at the moment, day by day. Thankyou for your continuous support and cheering me on, because it makes a difference!
So much love from the UK! xxx
p.s. - I can and I will is my new favourite motto too!
Fi: "I don't care if just eat pasta for the rest of my life"
Italian Me: "Same. I hereby dub Fi Hollings my long lost sister"
SO very impressed. And fabulous taste as usual. Pasta magic. (and Fi's hard work...) Way to go sis.
Hahaha I LOVE THIS! Pasta queen sisters! So much love Kena
All those pastas looks so delicious! I hope to start eating pasta again soon.
i'm convinced you will be, i believe in you!!
They were so tasty! You an do it! xxx
🎉🎉🎉 I’m so proud of you! It’s so lovely to see you smile and say you’re proud of yourself! 💖💖 I love your t-shirt too! Keep being inspiring, honest and feeding yourself pasta!xx
Aww thankyou so much Sarah! This means a lot to me
You’re turning another corner, and articulating it so beautifully. You’re flipping the script on the disorder. It was a joy to watch this video. Wonderful job!
Thankyou so much for this! I feel it too. Like things are really changing. Thankyou 💗
You're incredible Fi! So proud of you! Seeing your progress and you getting Fi back has made me smile so much. The fact you're saying saying you *want* to do things and make the changes shows the shift in you and how much progress you've made. Congratulations! 👏👏 you're doing it Fi Style and rocking it!
Aww thankyou so much Ali! What a kind comment. I agree, there certainly has been a shift recently which has been nice to notice. I feel calmer and a little more in control of it all which helps. So much love! xxx
Go Fi go!!! I have been following your journey and am proud to watch how far you have come!
Aww thankyou so much Kim! xxx
Amazing! Thati stuffed pasta looked especially tasty, and it's great to see you return to a childhood favourite food. And all throughout the video I was actually thinking "such a cool t-shirt that If is wearing"... Now I want to embroider a T-shirt too!
It is so delicious! Aww thankyou, it was so much fun to make! xxx
Awww Fi. I'm sooo proud of you ❤️🙌🌈 I'm so glad you were brave and challenged pasta and that was a key point in your recovery and has led to facing more new foods and changes to your meal plan 💪❤️ it's so lovely to hear the process you went through and how pasta began as a fear and is now "just pasta" and something you're enjoying and looking forward to!!!! Go Fi!!! You got this xx
"Pasta is not the enemy, the eating disorder is" so true and powerful
Aww my lovely, Thankyou so much for this. It’s been a huge few weeks and even I am in shock at how much things have changed (for the better!). Thankyou for your endless support, so so so much love xxx
@@Finding_Fi you're welcome Fi. I'm really invested in your recovery and want you to do well and fully recover because you deserve to. You have overcome some really difficult battles. I know you can do this 💪❤️🌈 we all can because we're not going through it alone x
The best part of this video series is seeking your gorgeous SMILE!! You are exuding confidence and joy!! I’m celebrating with you! ♥️
Aww thankyou Denise! This means so much to me
this was a big step for you, fi! and i'm so freaking proud of you for it. i can see more light in your eyes and that is just incredible
Aww thankyou so much lovely! xxx
You are absolutely sparkling at the moment!! Your skin and eyes are bright and glowing and you generally look healthier and most importantly happy in the intro and wrap up sections! So proud of you xx
Aww thankyou so much Laura! This means a lot to me
Look at that sparkle in your eye! Loving this Fi! Well done 💕
Aww thankyou Pam! xxx
Wow!! The sparkle really is coming back! My gosh you demeanour and personality are sooooo different and shining thru in this video! So proud of you!
Aww Thankyou so much love! ❤️❤️❤️
You look so much happier xx proud of u
I feel it 🥰 Thankyou! Xxx
@@Finding_Fi good hun. Lovely to see xx
It’s so lovely to hear and see you say you’re proud of yourself. So you should be!
Aww thankyou Jas! xxx
Wowser ! You are our pasta Queen 👑 What determination and bravery. Really proud of you Fi. 💕💕
Aww thankyou Nicola! Slowly re-gaining my title! xxx
Look at that smile fi is coming back u sound soo happy u got this xx
Aww thankyou love! xxx
YES! I love to see your smile and I can see how proud you are of yourself! You conquered that mind block of pasta. You can do anything you put your mind to 💕
Aww thankyou so much love! I really hope so! xxx
Brilliant Fi💖
I hope you are allowing yourself to be very proud of your achievements thus far.You have worked incredibly hard. I'm really rapt for you😊.Every week I notice that you are challenging the ED sabotage & still moving forward.
You've inspired me to continue to chomp away in spite of the nonsense my ED spouts at me.Your eyes are so much brighter when you talk about getting through the pasta and other challenges. I hope you have a lovely weekend Fi.And thankyou again for sharing your very difficult & personal battle.
Be kind to yourself Fi 💓💜
Aww Catherine! Thankyou so much for your kind comment. I'm so glad I can help in anyway (that helps me knowing I can help you!). You can do this love. I hope you're doing okay, happy August (new month, new start!) xxx
Yes! Fi you are rocking it! Much love!
Thankyou so much my love!
So happy to see the joy in your face and to see how proud you are. I see a breakthrough!!!!!
Aww thankyou Allison! xxx
It’s so great to see you enjoying your food and even looking forward to it. That’s huge progress. Well Done, You!
Thankyou lovely! Xxx
@@Finding_Fi ❤️❤️❤️
Love checking in with you Fi and every time im just so proud of you..sending lots of love...keep going my darling ! xxx
Aww thankyou so much Georgie! xxx
You’re living the saying ‘eat pasta, recover fasta’!! Amazing!! Don’t you like pasta noodles tho - like spaghetti or linguine or tagliatelle?
Oh yes! I do indeed, just haven't had them yet :)
Lovely to see that big smile on your face.... keep up the good work you've got this 👍 😊
Aww thankyou Kelly! xxx
I have no words other than you are amazing. You are smashing this!!!
Aww thankyou Shannon! xxx
You look so happy in this video! You're so pretty and I think you're doing an amazing job. Keep up the hard work love! 🥰
Aww Thankyou Paige! I certainly will ❤️
fi, i cannot express how happy i feel for you!! i've been following your journey since you just came out of hospital and oh my god, seeing fi come back step by step, you learning and growing so much these past months has just been mesmerizing. you are amazing and you are rightfully proud for doing all the right things!
soon you'll be at uni, going on long walks with hugo & enjoying meals just as a part of the day and not as the main event!
i believe in you!!🫧
Aww lovely, Thankyou so much! This means so much to me. Certainly does feel like a lot has changed these last few months. Ah I hope so! Get back to a life I want to life fully 🥰🥹❤️
Wow, seriously impressed!! Keeping on even in those difficult days is so inspiring! Keep it up fi!
Thankyou so much krissy! Xxx
Having pasta everyday is a great idea! 👍🏻 pretty soon you will be showing us how to make homemade pasta noodles and sauce.. “Fi’s Famous Pasta”! 😊💜
It certainly has been successful! Wh that is such a good idea! New spin off incoming 😂❤️❤️
I'm also autistic, and can relate sooo much on the meal variety part :") the anxiety is real, and I'm so happy you're overcoming it! You're amazing!
Thankyou for understanding! (also, hello fellow autistic!). Thankyou my love! xxx
You sound wonderful, so much stronger. Happy for you😊
Thankyou Adrienne! xxx
What a lovely video. I just loved to see your positive energy and the sparkle in your eye! You’re journey is really inspiring and I’m cheering you on. Go you!
Aww thankyou my love! xxx
Whooooo!! Love this!! Good for you Fi!! 💪 Your pastas all looked delicious and I now want to try tomato curly pasta with frankfurters for my dinner because it looks amazing! You look so happy in your t-shirt- all your hard work is really paying off and it's so lovely to see you getting your sparkle back and hearing you say you enjoyed your pasta is just amazing!! ❤️ You absolutely deserve to have what you want and to enjoy and to be happy!! Xx
Aww Chloe! Thankyou so much for your comment! Oh I highly recommend, it’s absolutely delicious!
It certainly feels it is paying off. Day by day, we will get there! So much love ❤️❤️❤️
Yes ! I see that sparkle and it is beautiful ❤️ You are amazing!!
Aww thankyou Lisa! xxx
You’re amazing! I was so happy when you said that you’re enjoying pasta again❤️ So proud of you! Lots of love x
Aww love! I really am :) xxx
Go pasta Fi!!!! So proud of you sweetheart! Much love ❤️
Aww Thankyou Donna! Xxx
OMGEEE 😎😎😎👏 I am SO proud and excited for you!! What a milestone!! Yes, yes yes!! 💜
Thankyou so much Kim! Xxx
I'm proud of you, dear lady. 🥰
Thankyou Nancy! xxx
You are a beautiful inspiration! 😊
Aww Thankyou Caroline! Xxx
Your pasta looks amazing. By the end of the video you seem. So happy and you have a joy to eat and it's ok to enjoy it. Pasta is also good for your brain. Carbs help your brain produce serotonin and dopamine.
Aww thankyou Allison! I am very much enjoying my pasta :) It is so good for you! xxx
Loved this video!!! Well done Fi!!!
Aww Thankyou love! Xxx
You could bring a recipe book out.... "101 ways with pasta" lol 🤣❤️
Love the top you embroidered. It's perfect 👌
Hahaha yes!!! I always wanted to write a book, maybe this will be it 😂 Thankyou! Xxx
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Pasta is so good, so glad you get to enjoy that again ❤️
It is the best! It feels wonderful to be able to enjoy it again ❤️
Loving sparkly fi ❤️ xx
Thankyou Nicola
Proud of you! Also your pasta shape game is strongggg
Thankyou love! Haha I had great fun with different shapes!
Yesssssss pasta! I love pasta so much I have my three favorite shapes tattooed on me.
For me textures are really big struggle and so I find cavatappi which is the one you had with the green shirt with the flowers on it is my favorite noodle in the whole wide world and then I like one called campanile and then bow ties
It is so good! Amazing! See I can't do the bow ties, but I love rigatoni and penne!
Looking forward to your next video. X
It'll be up very soon :) xxx
You look happier than I have seen you so far!
Thankyou lovely! I feel it 🥰
Wow! Fi your so brave! I always think feeding your inner child is a good idea annnd….. PASTA it is!👏🏻
Aww thankyou Karen! Definitely!
Absolutely a lot of my recovery is about allowing my inner child to guide me in what I need to eat, to honour her needs and nurture her ❤️
Now I want pasta but I just finished my dinner and I’m full lol. I’m so proud of you for everything you have accomplished. As always cheering for you from across the pond.
Side note: I might have gotten in over my head for my first paint by numbers. I am enjoying it but it’s so tiny I might go blind lol
Haha always room for pasta! Thankyou Andrea.
Oh no! They are very… detailed. But I equally amazing! Xxx
@@Finding_Fi lol don’t worry next meal opportunity I had pasta lol. Also I think I’m getting the hang of the paint by number tiny spaces lol. I’m almost done with my first one!!
You are amazing 👏 ❤️
You did a great job on your shirt 💜
Thankyou so much! xxx
I'm in australia and a meal I have in summer especially I'm heat waves is "mums pasta salad" spiral pasta, boiled eggs, ham, gherkins and onion, and the dressing is French dressing and some of the gherkin juice stuff
Amazing! I struggle with lots of foods in foods (if that makes sense :D ) but like the idea of cold pasta for a hot day!
@@Finding_Fi thank you! Ahh fair enough and that makes sense! Totally understandable!
Also I just want to say and I'm sure you hear this all the time but you're doing amazingingly! Also thank you for replying to my comment you made my day!
@@Finding_Fi if you want please do give cold pasta a try for a hot day 🥰
Wow what a break through for you ❤️
It really has been! xxx
Heyy there!! Ive been watching your videos for a long time now and have been a bit of a silent observer but I wanted to pop this comment in to say congratulations and that i’m so happy for u and to keep on kicking anorexia’s butt!! Im battling anorexia myself and you’ve honestly become such an inspiration and comfort person for me to watch and follow along your journey
Hello Marly! Oh bless you, thankyou for such a kind comment. I'm so sorry to hear you're going through a similar thing, sending gentle hugs your way.
I'm so glad I can help in anyway, that helps me knowing that. Ah yes, the cheesy pasta will return! So much love
firstly well done hun this is such a big thing to conquour! I just wanted to say sometimes I find it easier when its really hot is to have cold pesto pasta, like a "pasta salad" moment. I don't know how you feel about this but I thought I'd give you the idea if you hadn't thought of it already :) ps you are amazing keep going you WILL beat anorexia
Aww, thankyou my love! I have thought about cold pasta, I've only ever had it with mayo cold before but like the idea of cold pesto pasta. Thankyou for your support
Wow! You did GREAT!!
Aww Thankyou Gwen! Xxx
I’m so proud of you fi. Your pastas look delicious:)
Aww thankyou Autumn! They were delicious!
You are a lovely and beautiful girl. So proud of you 👏 🥰
Aww thankyou! xxx
Your smile is beaming :)
Aww Thankyou Leigh! Xxx
Take a shot every time Fi says pasta 😂😂
hahaha this would make the best drinking game :D
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Great progress Fi, lovely to see you enjoying pasta again. ❤ Pastafarian is the best religion!!
Thankyou Maya! Haha amazing! xxx
Well done! Another way to enjoy pesto/pasta is to serve it cold. My go-to summer pasta!
That's a good idea! Thankyou Randee. xxx
Aaaw YESSS! Congrats on your achievement of having pasta every night and on your achievement of enjoying it!!
Aww Thankyou so much Annie! Xxx
So proud of you fi🤍
Aww Thankyou love ❤️
So happy for you!!
Thankyou Sophie! xxx
Yayy I have pasta almost every single day! So versatile.
It's the best!
So proud of you ❤️🇨🇦🥰
Thankyou Mary! xxx
Fi rocks! Pasta is great, so happy you have found a comfort zone with it. You look very lovely, such an incremental journey. 💖 OK, stupid joke of the day: Technically, if you don’t cut the cake and eat it with a fork, it is only 1 serving.
Oh Patricia! Thankyou so much. I really have. It still causes some angst some days, but mostly it is normal now. And delicious!
Hahahahaha I love that one!!! xxx
I'm the exact same as you I'm also Autistic and fear Change so Eating different meals every night was scary and just didn't interest me but I've started doing it more and it's getting easier 😀 youe doing so well!
It can be so challenging. I'm so glad you have found a way of dealing with it! Lots of love Saira xxx
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I've find it hard to know what is the autism and what is the eating disorder, great work keep it going 🥰💪
It can be challenging! It takes time and usually a conversation with my nurse and parents to try and untangle them. Sending love! Xxx
You are so amazing 😌
Aww Thankyou Beth! Xxx
@@Finding_Fi you are very welcome. You inspire me.
Hey fi! I loved this, pasta is life. Do you ever have dreams of travelling the world?
Pasta is life! There are many places I want to visit yes :)
We all get in ruts with food. My kids also sometimed eat pasta for breakfast. They love it with hot sweetened milk (think of a pasta version of homemade rice pudding) and they also love it golden syrup. (just plain pasta and golden syrup)
That actually sounds amazing - though I'm a maple syrup girl over golden syrup!
@@Finding_Fi They also will eat it with just 1/2 tsp of sweetener sprinkled over it.
Genuinely curious. If you eat pasta every day for dinner for the rest of your life, is this not just another rut you're stuck in?!
Or is it different because it's an Ed fear food but a ASD safe food as opposed to an Ed safe food?! 🤷🏻♀️ I literally just honestly don't understand so I am genuinely curious. NOT judging you or questioning your choices in recovery 🙏❤️ I'm genuinely just pleased that it's getting you to where you need to be and is helping you to feel better mentally xx 🤞
Great to see that challenge repeat works 🙌❤️
A very good question (and thankyou for asking it so kindly!).
Pasta is an ED fear food but ASD safe food. For me, recovery with my intake will be looking at what I used to eat. I've never eaten a huge variety of food... ASD related. However when I became unwell the types of food I ate dropped evern more (ED related). Me and my parents and team agree that I will never be someone who eats a huge variety of food because I never have (ASD), however, what we will work on is making sure I CAN eat whatever foods I want, if I want them. So no fear foods, nothing off limits because of the ED. I hope this makes sense! xxx
Yes, ed is a liar! Pasta is amazing and there are so many different varieties and combinations! When you are ready you can do homemade pasta, so so good. I love your shirt, great job!!!! Blessings dear one,
It certainly is! That’s a good idea, my dad used to make pasta at home! Thankyou so much lovely xxx
I love pasta Mac n cheese was a big fear for me but I love love pasta with anything but not with garlic don’t like garlic but well done you what a star ⭐️
Ah I love mac and cheese! It's a tricky one for me but I'll get back to having it. Thankyou Suzy
@@Finding_Fi well done your doing so well your struggles were a bit like mine but I am doing well now 53 years old still keeping going I have an. EBay store with lots of frozen characters if your interested I know I love frozen too All the best Suzy
That’s interesting what you said about Autism. Is it because of Autism the reason why you don’t really want variety in your meals. Why don’t you like variety? Do you have problems with trying new foods? (Are you scared to try new foods?)
I only ask because my sister was just diagnosed with a light form of Autism like you and there’s many things we don’t understand about how she thinks. One if which is she is terrified of trying new things and if something bothers her or triggers something in her she has massive violent meltdowns.
I know each individual on the spectrum is different and different things bother different people, but I’d really appreciate anything you could tell me about what it’s like for you to have Autism. And in any future videos if your comfortable talking about it, I’d really appreciate hearing you talk more about what Autism is like for you.
I practically lived on pasta pre-anorexia. So it has helped me so much seeing you challenge it every day. It makes me feel like if you can do it I can do it! I love pesto too. Keep up the good work Fi! Also, have you ever tried Maruchan Instant Raman Cups? They’re my absolute favorite and it would give you some different things to challenge with your pasta challenge. I also challenge you to have Alfredo sauce and carbonara.
Thank you! Stay strong Fi! I’m so proud of you! 💗
I really struggle with and am very sensitive to textures and certain tastes, and this causes me a lot of anxiety around trying new foods.
It goes beyond comfort in the foods you know and fear in those you don't, sensory issues around food are much more than fussy eating. It is hard to explain but it is very challenging. I've always had a very narrow range of food that I'll eat, though I'm starting to get better at trying new things.
For me, it works really well if I'm allowed to do this in my own time and my own way (I'll explain that on an upcoming video).
I'm so glad my pasta video has helped you! Pasta is good, it really is! You can do it love, one bite at a time. So much love! xxx
@@Finding_Fi Thank you for trying to explain that me me. That helps me understand my sister better. I look forward to the video where you explain a bit more about Autism. I think it’s definitely something that need ms to be talked about more as well as eating disorders. I’m excited to see what’s next in your pasta challenge too! Keep up the good work! I’m so proud of you for challenging yourself with new foods and pasta and for keeping the pasta challenge going!
Have you thought of different meats with the pasta like meatballs, chicken etc? Keep it up, you're doing great
In time, yes. Thankyou Diane!
You are literally glowing ✨️
Aww thankyou Christy! xxx
You are looking so beautiful 😘😘😘 go girl!!!!
Aww thankyou Anne-Marie! xxx
You'll have to have a "viewer request for food week" .
Maybe :)
Do you have a preference for pasta shape? My favourite is fusilli/spirals
Rigatoni is my favourite! Or giggli but you can’t get it anymore :( I also love spirals!
a QUEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE YOU HANNA! XXX
Try mascepone sauce or red pesto 😄 It's delicious. Well done
Argh I can't stand red pesto! I will have to try marscepone though! xxx
@@Finding_Fi at least you have tried and know its not for you 😊
Have you tried red pesto for a change
I cannot stand red pesto haha. I love the green one but hate red. It causes a lot of issues when I used to go out for food and the menu would say 'pesto' because... which one!!!
yayyy!!
You are literally glowing ✨️
Aww thankyou Christy! xxx
I promise I’m not a weirdo
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What's your favorite pasta? I like the spirals and bows (not sure of correct names) worst is the shells and tubes as the sauce gets trapped. Lol. 😆🍝 And I can never twirl spaghetti 🤣🤣🤣🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
GOOD question (I was recently having the discussion with one of my friends about this!). So my all time favourite is giggli, but they no longer sell it :( I absolutely loved it! Currently, it is between rigatoni (big tubes) and spiral one probably! I also love the shells. The one I can't stand is the duck feet one!
Haha, spaghetti is... messy :D xxx
@@Finding_Fi haha. Interesting how different people like different shapes/types of pasta!! Spaghetti certainly IS.... Well, messy!🍝🤣 I also only like plain pasta, not the spinach or tomato ones (green and red ones)!
Fi, you are my hero. I need an address.please
Oh Jackie, there is no pressure at all my love!
I just need to send what I got and I won’t send anymore
Im so proud of you! You are doing great, and enjoying something you love. My fear and favorite is bread. i have been trying to allow myself to have it and enjoy it. somedays im ok, and others I get so,so guilty and upset over it. If i have a full sandwich rather than half for example. You are such a help to me with your videos showing me that it is ok to enjoy food. Thank you so much for sharing as always i love to see you! love,loren
Thankyou Loren! Ah bread is the best! Nothing quite like a new fluffy loaf! I really hope you manage to keep on going with bread; it is so worth it. I’m so glad I can help in any way love. You can do this! So much love xxx
@@Finding_Fi thank you so much Fi for all your support. a couple of days afterwards I had a breakdown. I got so upset for eating too much, and I freak out! It gets so hard sometimes. i get really confused about how much or should i or shouldnt I! Ive been trying so hard to allow myself to have certain things, and my brain is telling me I cant. I will look forward to your next video, you always put a smile on my face! 😁