Maria, please don't feel sorry or worse or uneasy because of your choice not to watch the news! I decided to stop doing that about 15 years ago, then I started again in 2020 because of the pandemic and within weeks it had driven me into extreme anxiety disorder and later almost depression. Now I haven't been watching or reading any news at all for 2 years and honestly I never want to start again. Never ever. This is a valid choice we all have the right to do and I feel so deeply for you in that! Thank you for sharing!
I agree especially the negative news. I have filtered certain news because I want to be aware. But I filter this fear mongering / chaotic news, I read only very analytical and neutrally written news. If that makes sense haha
I worked in a newsroom making news videos and I can’t watch the news anymore either. Most content is designed to provoke strong reactions for better or for worse. There are many different ways to inform yourself and engage with the world ❤
Thank you so much for saying what you said about OCD and avoiding using it to mean overly organized or another similar thing. It bothers me so so much how much we’ve normalized saying “oh I’m OCD” just to say you’re a control freak. They are NOT the same. OCD is a very serious and debilitating disorder.
I'm diagnosed with ODC and when I tell people I have OCD they just assume it's being organized or something. Like I wish it was that simple. I have contamination OCD, it's so annoying and debilitating and everyone thinks I'm insane.
@@sarahjaye4117I too have struggled with intrusive thoughts. It’s like a default setting in my brain. Very recently I had a break through, I inserted my own thought, to think like a race car going around a track numerous times. My new thought is “be kind to yourself and others”. I like it because it reminds me not to be hard on myself for struggling and I think it is just compassionate. I really hope this method will also give you a break through. For me intrusive thoughts just pop up almost when I’m “expecting them too” it such a bad habit. This has helped me redirect the narrative. I hope it can help you too and please seek help from a medical professional if you’re struggling. Try searching for resources by professionals on UA-cam for OCD because it can be helpful, especially since it can feel like we’re suffering alone ❤
@@biff123similar! I have anxiety, ocd and adhd and I can’t STAND when people are so flippant about ocd or adhd to “defend” their quirks. Like actually - I’m consumed by the thought of germs and have to check our doors and plugs multiple times before we leave the house, and forcing people to give me “real hugs” when they or I leave places and obsessing if I don’t do these things. I know some people have certain compulsions about things being neat and orderly but I want to rage when people use it to mean they just prefer things to be clean.
I’m so glad it’s not only me who feels the love “beams” thing. I do the same with my fiancé, I try to do it too when I speak about him to others, I speak so highly of him almost as if he will hear them and hope he feels that energy. I love to project my love for my friends and family in their presence and in their absence!
As a forensic psychologist I wholeheartedly agree with not consuming the news if it upsets you. If everyone could start with implementing positive change into their own little circle of impact, it would make a world of difference
I stopped watching the news during the pandemic as it was reporting numbers of cases and number of deceased each day. I decided one day I couldn’t watch another second of it, and I’ve never watched it again since! I don’t miss anything that I can’t listen to on my local radio 😊
Maria, I am a psych student who is currently at the point where I’m doing some research. Your textural preferences remind me a lot of my self. I remember back in a very old video of yours too you talked about how you feel people who are more “creative” tend to only really understand asmr. I am neurodivergent and textural symptoms are common with neurodivergence. I would love to run a correlational study at some point between asmr and neurodivergence since I feel it really affects people like this in particular.
The way you talked about OCD was so thoughtful and generous. Thank you for that. I’m clinically diagnosed, and I don’t personally bristle much at people using the term figuratively or casually, but the way you acknowledged others’ experiences while sharing your own-it really touched me. Thanks for being you ❤
Agreed! I was diagnosed when I was 4 and I don’t care for when people use the term so casually (I get it and not entirely offended but it does get annoying haha)
Whenever someone is leaving to go anywhere, I tell them I love them and to be safe every time. In my head I imagine putting a safety bubble around the person.
I do this too!! It’s like a weird superstition even though I don’t really believe in them - I HAVE to tell them I love them and to be safe. Like me saying that is the difference maker lol
Your description of nature would make an amazing visualization/meditation ASMR. Your gentle voice and explaining the details of nature makes me feel like I’m there and it’s so relaxing! Please consider doing a video like that!
I hope you never stop making videos like these ❤ Your chatting videos are my favorite thing on UA-cam. The love waves concept is so interesting and reminds me of similar experiences/ sensations I was aware of as a kid, but wrote off over time as being just my imagination. After watching this I'm going to try to tune back into that part of myself! Thank you for sharing.
P.S. I can't and don't watch the news either! It just makes me feel helpless and depressed. I don't believe humans have the capacity to be aware of every single tragedy happening in the world at once; it's not healthy for us.
Oh my goodness I remember your touch aversion from a very old video where you used Krave (?) cereal as an example 😂 I have that too!! Feels like sand paper 😅
People don’t understand that OCD is a genuine disorder that’s based on anxiety and guilt. It has nothing to do with enjoying cleaning. Those of us who have compulsive cleaning as a symptom, we clean because we’re SUFFERING mentally, not because we enjoy it. And it usually has nothing to do with there being a mess - we clean compulsively because there is an awful intrusive thought in our head (for example my daughter will die from poisoning if I touch the fridge handle without washing my skin with bleach). It’s a nightmare. I hate when people say “I’m so OCD.” I appreciate you being respectful 💜
Or like.. omg I touched moldy food and forgot to wash my hands before giving my child his toy… if he puts that in his mouth he’s going to get deathly ill. Constantly 😢
@Negativeghostrider23 That is actually a form of OCD called "contamination OCD" my daughter has it due to PTSD from having severe and deadly food allergies and almost losing her life.
I knew OCD was a genuine disorder, but I had no idea it could came with such thoughts. It must be horrible. Are there any types of therapy that have proven a bit helpful for this condition?
@@breezeh1127yeah that’s just one part of my OCD. It manifests in multiple ways. I also have compulsions that require me to tell people I love them and hug them multiple times when we are parting ways because in my mind, if I don’t, it’ll be the last time I see them. I have to check our door locks multiple times each night etc. my compulsions are not severe, so I’m thankful for that but the obsessive thoughts have been hard my whole life. I had severe PPA/PPD and along with it, PP OCD where I was literally convinced if I slept, my baby would die or if people didn’t care for him exactly the way I wanted, it would hurt him. It manifests more in times of stress of course too.
1. UNGLAZED POTTERY (and microfiber cloths with dry hands...)🤮😖 2. OMG "crooks and nannies" 🥰 being from East Tennessee, this sounds like something we would say to tease the little ones lol 3. i cry at EVERYTHING too...my family always turns to me when we watch things because they already know the tears are comin' 4. relating to your experience with nature and projection of love, when i was in high school, i would sit outside and meditate. i closed my eyes but visualized everything around me. it felt like my body became one with my surroundings and all of the energy from myself, the wind, the ground, etc. blended together. it was my first experience (that i am aware of) with the sense of true peace and connection. thank you for sharing your beautiful thoughts. you have created such an incredible community. it's always so special to feel more connected with you, even if we may never meet. 💞
I am exactly the same as you Maria. I cannot cope with watching or reading news, because then mentally I go down a rabbit hole and just cannot drag myself out. It doesn't mean we are ignorant or in denial, it's just self preservation. I try to be a good person and do good in a world that is often evil. That's all we can do ❤ xx
I completely understand your choice to not watch/read the news. I do the same. You seem like an empath and empaths need strong boundaries. You’re just creating boundaries that make you feel safe and sane. Good for you for taking care of yourself!
When you were talking about how it affects you to see beautiful things, I remember one of the things you said a looong time ago that really solidified you as a role model for me. I don't even remember when it happened or which video, but you were walking in this forest or some kind of nature (maybe a spiral of rocks?) and talking so passionately about how beautiful it all was. The awe and appreciation in your entire presence was one of the most inspirational things I've ever witnessed. I've often thought about how much I wish I could see the world through your eyes because the way you describe things is like a child experiencing the world for the first time (meant in the most positive way ever!). All of this is to say thank you for sharing your experience with us and letting us bathe in some of the light you see. ♥
OMG, I feel the same about watching news. I have to be careful because I can be disturbed by things for a long time - rightly so. Sometimes it can inspire one to take action but a lot of times it just invites despair and anxiety.
I’m a barista, our regulars who want warm coffee will usually ask for room in the cup, cream, or ice in their coffee. There’s a man that comes everyday who gets a large hot coffee with light ice. I completely understand you, I only ever order iced coffee drinks and if I want something hot I make it at home bc I don’t wanna burn my mouth bc I can make sure it’s warm 100% of the time lol.
@@chiefswife1212 I always order extra hot coffee and absolutely hate iced coffee lol. All my favorite baristas steam the milk for longer and honor my preferences which is beyond sweet lol! To each their own :)
Haha I laughed so loudly about your camel toe story!!! You're such a pleasant person and considerate. All respect to you, your husband and daughter. I enjoy these chat videos so much. I'm mostly a hermit that doesn't see many people so your videos are treasures to me. Thank you for being who you are! ❤
Maria, you are one of those rare souls that are beautiful through and through! Thank you for sharing these lovely quirks! I think most of us have different little weird things about us that makes us unique. So many things you mention I recognize in myself! My sensory thing is the opposite though...I can't stand wet or messy fingers, yuck...when ever I cook or bake I have to constantly wash my and dry my hands. The thought of peeling peaches and have the juice dripping through my fingers gives me shivers! I too have stopped watching the news. I read news instead (less visionary bombardment) but even then skip over the most gruesome parts. I feel too much and become distraught over all the horror in the world. I'm not ignorant to it but I cannot consume it! The love waves you talk about I feel as well. I actually believe that is Reiki. I took a Reiki course many years ago just to realize that I've known how to do that my whole life. It is love in it purest form of energy.
I love this video so much! It screams neurodivergent to me! I was diagnosed ADHD last year and I've stopped masking, and started to understand SO MUCH about myself. The bite of everything on the plate is SO ME - it has to be perfectly balanced in my head or else I can't eat it LOL. OCD is also a comorbidity of ADHD/Autism too, or vice versa, it's quite interesting overall :)
Damn I very well understand the difficulties of this as someone having to deal with the combination of OCD, Insomnia and ADHD myself Take care my dear Best wishes ❤
Oh my gosh, I cannot wait to watch all of this. You look so radiant and glowing from the inside. I love getting to learn more about you and feel like your friend. Such a special experience! Thank you for sharing Maria- I hope one day I get to give you a hug and tell you that in person.
I believe that emotions intensify when you become a parent. My husband and I tear up at every happy and sad moment in life, in a movie, etc. I know when it’s time for me to hand him a tissue without even looking at him, and vice versa. Weird quirk of mine - when I eat M&M candies, I first have to separate the colors and then eat two of each color at a time. If there is a color with an odd number of candies in my hand or whatever, I have to eat the odd ones separately, one by one and never with another color. My husband makes fun of me about that. I never eat that candy any other way. Love your videos. It comes through what a great person you are and I can feel the love and care you send out to us. Learned a lot of sweet and cute things about you today. Would love to sit and chat with you over a cup of lukewarm tea. All the best to you and your family, Maria.
Maria, I'm a crier too. It can get very exhausting actually. For me, I cry at happy things and sad things but, and this is strange, I cry when I'm trying to be friendly. If I like someone's hairstyle in a store and I try to tell them, I start to choke up. Or if someone has a well-mannered child and I want to compliment them, I choke up and can barely get the words out. Thank you for sharing this video. 🥰
I’m an extremely sensitive person but also with extremely high energy. You’re an Earth Angel. 🥰 Thanks for sharing with us. Everything that makes you “you” is a gift to everyone around you. And you’re doing the right thing by protecting yourself. Keep up the good work! 🤍
This really made me realize it must be so fun to go to theme parks and children’s museums with you, your daughter is so lucky to have you as her mother
I think your perfectionist tendencies are a big asset in your asmr videos, because you line everything up and organise everything so beautifully in your videos, I love it. Just hearing you describe knocking the fork over a bit gave me low level tingles. I love it when you are particular in your videos ❤❤❤❤❤
Omg, I feel like you are describing me! I can’t stand the under part of cups. I was just telling my mom I want to open a restaurant called the perfect bite. Thanksgiving I need to mashed potatoes, corn, gravy, stuffing and cranny and turkey in one bite and always need the cranberries with the turkey. Lately I have made white chicken chili and use scoops and put the chili then a jalapeno slice avocado chunk and dollop of sour cream on top w cilantro and a squeeze of lime. And I recently stopped watching news and true crime and I feel so much better. Curating what I put in my mind. Hearing you makes me so happy! Watching you is so comforting and I feel like you are one of my good friends! This reminds me of your speaking on sensitivity as a fellow artist I can relate. This excerpt from The Creative Act from Rick Rubin summed this up perfectly for me. One of the reasons so many great artists die of overdoses early in their lives is because they're using drugs to numb a very painful existence. The reason it's painful is the reason they became artists in the first place: their incredible sensitivity. If you see tremendous beauty or tremendous pain where other people see little or nothing at all, you're confronted with big feelings all the time. These emotions can be confusing and overwhelming. When those around you don't see what you see and feel what you feel, this can lead to a sense of isolation and a general feeling of not belonging, of otherness. These charged emotions, powerful when expressed in the work, are the same dark clouds that beg to be numbed to allow sleep or to get out of bed and face the day in the morning. It's a blessing and a curse. Another one The people who choose to do art are, many times, the most vulnerable. There are singers considered among the best in the world who can't bring themselves to listen to their own voice. And these are not rare exceptions. Many artists in different arenas have similar issues. The sensitivity that allows them to make the art is the same vulnerability that makes them more tender to being judged. Still, many continue to share their work and risk criticism in spite of this. It's as if they have no other choice. Being an artist is who they are, and they are made whole through self-expression.
I totally get your ability to push love out of your body towards others. If I had to describe it, it's like a sonar wave or echo or the circles of a water droplet. I like to think I can send it to loved ones when they're not near, and often I think about people and they get in touch afterwards. My happiness is definitely smells; candles, wax melts, rain, cut grass smells can totally lift my mood, light too, I'm drawn to it like a moth. The downside to my openness is that I think I can absorb other people's anxiety, worries, and mental pain, so this can be quite exhausting at times.
I'm so glad you shared this, Masha! Extremely relatable. I've been realizing lately just how many people I know that experience similar stuff, but it's people I never would've expected it from. I definitely also have sensory issues, you talking about things being lined up reminds me of myself. I always have to make sure my keyboard and mouse pad are lined up right to the edge of my desk, and if it feels "wrong" I have to keep adjusting it. Same with the way clothes feel. Sometimes they just feel uncomfortable. Personally I've always had issues with the material of jeans, and bras in general. As a kid I would freak out when my mom tried to trim my nails. I understand why you don't want to say OCD, I feel the same and usually just say "compulsive tendencies" or "sensory issues". Also, never feel bad for choosing not to look at the news. It's an endless cycle of horrible things happening. I try to avoid thinking about negative things in the world just in general, especially when it's things I know I can't do anything to fix. Nothing wrong with focusing on your own mental health! 💜
I think I just looked in a mirror. I have all of this, especially the the dryness issue. I hate touching overly dry things, including chalk and velvet. 🤮 I use condensation from the side of a cool drink for relief as well. Lol. I hear you! ❤😂
Maria, I am also sensitive to others and put myself in their shoes. For the good events and the difficult ones. I completely understand. We are both Cancers and spiritual and I think that emotional connection to God makes you so expressive. It’s a blessing. Additionally, I also have low blood pressure and cold fingers/toes, haha. I completely get it! Overall, sensitive spirits. These are our gifts! Continue to embrace it. It’s beautiful. ❤️
I didn’t think it was possible to love you more but here we are! I relate to every point you made. Cotton balls are my absolute NIGHTMARE in terms of texture and sound omg I can’t stand them… even thinking about it makes me so uncomfortable 😅 I also use to drive my mom crazy as a kid because I’ve always loved mixing all my food together! Is that why I also love burritos, curries with rice, etc.? Haha I also totally relate to hyper sensitivity and experiencing intense emotions (good and bad)… I cried yesterday when I saw a mom rubbing her pregnant belly with a smile on her face 🥹 So happy I found your channel a couple years ago… I always feel calmer and happier when I watch your videos ❤
Those strange sensory reactions are the very reasons we have ASMR! I've followed your channel for 10+ years and your vulnerability and willingness to expose and laugh at your flaws is the second best thing about your content. It makes you relatable and draws the viewer in for a deeper experience because it fosters trust. What a great thing when your "quirks" are actually your strengths.
i love these more chatty videos! i definitely get what you're saying about the bottom of mugs and unfinished pottery! i think my thing i have similar to that is i don't like thinking about my tongue touching surfaces like that, as well as paper and wood (like wooden cutlery you might get at a fast food restaurant or something), it really makes me feel sick hahaha
I can not express how much I love this content ! I also feel like you Maria when it comes to the news it just breaks me down so much that it gives me anxiety so I choose not to watch .I'm also a super sensitive person and hearing you describe so many similar things I experience makes me feel like I'm not alone in my quirks 😅 Thank you for showing such vulnerable side of you ❤ You are an amazing human with so much love inside of you!
You mentioned you had ADHD a long time ago (used to be called ADD). Which means you’re neurodivergent! Neurodivergence includes ADHD, OCD & Autism. Some people have 1 of those, others have a mix! What you experience are signs of both ADHD & OCD. That would explain needing things in a very specific way, it would explain how you dive into things that interest you in a very significant/hyperfixated way. It even would explain why certain things are too loud for you! (Like at your classes or at the theater) ♥️ I know some people don’t like the label, which I totally get! I am proud of being neurodivergent. We are a quirky folk! 😂
I absolutely agree about not watching the news…I don’t have children and seeing those images is extremely traumatic. It’s absolutely horrific that these things are happening but this life is also meant to be lived and enjoyed in some level. Everyone has their part to play and I believe it’s important to find your role and have faith that it’s helping make the world a better place ❤
I agree. I haven't watched the news in almost 20 years. I can hear or read about a tragedy and feel empathy. I don't have to SEE all the details. It helped my mental health immensely.
Fans of sassy masha pt.2 knew the dry fingers was coming as soon as we saw the title... This video was awesome. You are brave to put this type of yourself out there. Courage to even try to explain a love wave. Love it.
Hearing you describe your quirks was like listening to a description of myself! Never heard of anyone besides me doing the finger licking thing 🤣 I adore you and your content and I wish we could be friends IRL. You’re such an inspiration! Thank you for sharing so openly about yourself. Something I’ve been exploring these past years are my neurodivergent tendencies and how they are potential signs of autism. I mention since you also reference neurodivergent tendencies and thought this may help you on your journey! Wish you all the best! Hit me up if you’re ever in Vegas ❤
I love these videos Maria! 💜✨🤗 i think you are an amazing woman, so kind hearted and beautiful, not to mention such a genuine soul. I’ve recently watched your pregnancy announcement and I want to say Congratulations to you and your family🩵💜💕✨
I wonder Maria if you are a Highly Sensitive Person? I am a HSP and I can relate to a lot of what you said. It's a good trait to have, although like many traits it comes with some negative points as well. Before I understood this about myself I often thought of it as a curse, however now I embrace it; it's a wonderful thing to have .
I think HSP could fit too. I'm similar in so many ways and I'm autistic and highly sensitive too. We do need extra care and compassion for our way of being, but it's definitely a strength ❤
Thank you so much for sharing these unique traits Maria! Something quirky/interesting about me is that I love the feeling of writing with pen on a piece of paper on top of a surface with fabric on it.... if you know you know!! 😀
Maria, do you ever listen to classical music? You seem like someone who would really appreciate the beauty of it. Listen to a Brahms Symphony, or the Barber Violin Concerto. It will take you to another place! Thank you for sharing about yourself. As a mom of a daughter, I can relate to so many things you said. Wishing you the best!
I love your chat videos so much, Maria! I listen to them every morning when I go on my walk, so a new chat video from you is such a treat. 😍 I can’t watch the news either, I totally get it. I feel EVERYTHING, the positive and negative, and the debilitating way I feel after exposure to news stories also makes me unable to do anything for myself or others. One food quirk I have is I can’t have soup that’s too soupy, haha! I have to make it like a chili even if it’s not and give it texture (usually with crackers). Or I have to dip my grilled cheese in it - anything to make it more of an experience than feeling like I’m eating a DRINK as a meal. I can’t do it! 😂 Another quirk is how I see lines and dimensions. For any given space in my room or work environment, it must be aligned in some way. I won’t know what that way is until I begin customizing the area, haha! I might organize books tallest to shortest, or group circles together (like candles and cups), or I’ll choose a color palette. But in some way, there must be alignment to the space. It helps me focus and feel calm and energized when there’s spatial balance - it makes my brain function better. 😂
I was also told I have obsessive compulsive tendencies. It’s definitely not OCD, but there are things that set you off. Like I used to absolutely _lose my sh*t_ when my mom would go into my closet and mess up my hangers by pushing them too close together. It was like the end of the world. I would cry. I would get so angry. They had to be perfectly spaced apart and I did not let anyone touch my closet. One time she purposely shoved everything to one side and I screamed. It’s stuff like that. It’s not impacting my day to day, but I need things to be a very specific way and I will not be able to stop thinking about it. Or like locking my car three times even though I know I locked it but I have to press the button again just in case. I have ADHD though so getting obsessive is definitely part of that.
Such a kind soul Maria, thank you so much for sharing and confirming how you send love trough the camera cus it does feel! The way you share your vision and good vibes are so unique, real and honest, ilyyyyyyyyy ❤❤❤❤❤❤
When you mentioned pushing out warmth and love, I feel that in your videos. It also surprised me cause it's something that I really try to do to when I hug someone or pet my dog or anything. Just really focus on the energy and I think it's felt. ♥
I can relate to a lot of things you said, including the carboard/ sensory issues, getting cold, getting very emotional, obsessive etc. Have you looked into the concept of Highly Sensitive Person? It's a term created by a psychologist that posits that around 20% of people process sensory inputs more deeply on a brain level (there's more to it, I don't know if I explain well). It helped me understand a lot about myself and be able to deal with moments where I get overwhelmed with more self-compassion. Highly sensitive people share a lot of traits in common with people with autism but there are a lot of differences between the two, especially on a social level. When I was younger I always thought I had autism as I always felt different. There are some bad parts of it, but overall I find it a blessing to be sensitive :)
Wow, I just wrote a post on here about the same thing. I am a “highly sensitive person”, but definitely not autistic and don’t have any social struggles. I just have an extremely high level of empathy, sensitivity, etc.
Maria. I am not one to comment very often, but just wanted to say a massive thanks for your thoughts and insights on this channel and also for your ASMR content too! I find it helps me relax in a way I find hard any other way. We have also moved to a foreign country (UK to Portugal) and can empathise and ‘get’ what you so eloquently put! ❤
Thank you so much for sharing this. We all have our quirks, and I related to a lot of this! I'm always cold, I definitely have perfectionist tendencies, I'm very empathetic and cry easily from movies, music, anything moving, and I'm also really with you on the news philosophy. I've been watching you for 9 years, and thank you for just being you! ❤
@@jessitschu1015may I ask how you were diagnosed late? I'm 29 and mentioned this to my psychiatrist and they offered me names and address to places for screening. I just haven't called but I know I have it. Also wondering if it's worth a diagnosis or if self-diagnosing is good enough. I'm just scared to not be validated in what I know is true about me
I loved that you shared this, some of what you said is was so relatable - even for the parts that weren’t, you describe things so intentionally and it’s so interesting to hear other people’s sensory experiences and perceptions ❣️
Masha!! Thank you for sharing these! I related to a lot, especially your emotion based ones. You asked to share some of ours, so here goes!❤ 1. Ever since I was a kid, I loved book textures and DVD case textures. I would also load up tons of books on the couch with me or in my bed and stack them and re-stack them over and over, feel them, etc! 2. My teeth has an underlap in one spot, and I like clicking my finger nail over that intersection. I don’t know if it’s a compulsive need to adjust it, or if I just like how it feels/ the sound? But I also do it more so when I am anxious. 3. Sometimes I open up word docs and just type away- usually lists- in a font that looks like handwriting. To me it’s super satisfying, and it calms my brain. 4. I re-watch things more than I explore new content. Unless I have heard amazing things about something or am so excited to see something, I usually always re-watch things I’ve seen before! Maybe because at the end of the day I don’t want to focus on anything new! 5. I am fantastic about picking up new instruments. 6. I ALSO get obsessive about things and perfectionism. I fall down into rabbit holes of interest almost out of nowhere sometimes. Sometimes it’s hard to climb out of those subjects. 7. I can not sit on a couch without a blanket over my legs and feet. Even in summer! 8. It seems like my moods are worse in even numbered years… I honestly want to figure out if my brain is on some kind of clock, or if that’s possible. 9. I consider myself Catholic but I bet a lot of Catholics would say I am a bad one. I have faith, but struggle with a lot of what I’m told about it. I am too Christ based for non-Christians, but not as “Christianish” to feel like I fit in at church groups. I also have too liberal of views to feel conservative, but too conservative to feel liberal. 10. I have a handful of people in my life where I admire their views so much that they could literally recommend ANYTHING and I’ll be influenced to do it too! Like if they share a book they read, a movie they’ve watched, or a skincare product. Sometimes I just trust these people to know what the heck they’re talking about and I want to try too…. I try to keep it a secret so they don’t feel like I’m stalking them though!! 11. I am a lot of things, but sometimes I’ll get a particular emotion or sensation, and I’ll be like “THIS is the real me, I’d like to feel this always.” I can’t explain it.
Hi! Just wanted to say really quickly that I 100% agree with not watching the news because it's too much, there other ways to stay aware of current events! I'm the exact same way. Also I see a lot of comments about being neurodivergent and I just wanted to let you know that I am not divergent and I related to a lot of this as well! I do have OCD tendencies though.
I rarely watch the news but I do read it. It seems less triggering that way. And yes, not everything is a diagnosis. Good grief! People want to label everything. I have tons of quirks, as does everyone! ❤❤❤
Love these getting to know you moments . I enjoy the ASMR so much more when I feel I know you. I can pick up on your energy easier. You really are the GOAT. I sure hope you and those you love are happy and healthy ❤
I love your perfectionism. You did a video years, if not decades ago, where you were neatly stacking jenga blocks and I was mesmerized. It reminded me of watching girls in school doing the same thing, lining up pencils, making everything on their desk perfect. I was such a chaotic, emotional, bad kid and watching those girls with their perfectionist habits was the only time my brain was ever quiet.
I relate so much to you and your personality! I'm ultra sensitive to things as well, and have a more extreme emotional response to the news, negative stories, etc. I used to be an avid true crime story watcher on TV but, since experiencing many losses in a short period of time of loved ones, I can't watch true crime anymore. I place myself in the families' shoes and become depressed. You are a dear soul, I wish I knew you in real life! I guess a funny quirk about me is whenever I drink soda, I have to swish it in my mouth a certain way before I can swallow it 😄
Thank you for being mindful of the use of OCD. As someone diagnosed with the condition, it is truly maddening to hear people talk about being organized as having a truly painful and debilitating condition that I deal with daily.
The last personality trait , you remind me of myself. I used to be so passionate about love - platonic or romantic. I've been so hurt that I've lost myself and it bothers me...but am in my healing journey and I can feel and see myself coming back to myself. I love it so much , slow process but the healing is happening. Thank you for sharing! 💛.
i remember you talking about how you feel towards dry stuff like chips in your tag video 12 years ago! it’s weirdly cool how its stayed with you this long😋
Crying and having all the feels is actually a fantastic way of "feeling your emotions" which is the goal of emotional healing. Being able to cry or feel/give love means you are emotionally stable and have reached the pinnacle emotional healing state. All our lives we bury our emotions and they leak out in other ways like pain in our bodies, chronic disease, shame, depression, and similar. Be proud that you have reached this level of emotional healing and you can express it, we should all try to reach this state 🥰❤
It sounds like you're a highly sensitive person, Maria...20% of the population is. ✨💕 It's beautiful to hear you speak of waves of love. I have a story about learning to do those to deter "negative entities". I love that you just do that intuitively, with an intent to just share love. 💕
Crooks and Nannies and cameltoe bush had me laughing, hehe. This was like having a sweet little chat with a friend and it was so fun listening to you. I especially love how you embrace many of your quirks as your superpower 💜
❤❤❤ I am an HSP Highly Sensitive Person and share most of these traits with you. I believe and feel that you are one too and it does come through to your viewers. Thank you Masha. 🥰
I so appreciate this video Maria. I have had a really tough time lately and your voice always makes me feel safe ❤️ sending a wave of love back to you ❤
Makes sense you smile a lot and talk with your hands with such a beautiful smile and neatly kept nails , your efforts to maintain and get to such a point are certainly appreciated
I loved this video so much! I definitely have the same aversion to super hot/cold things and I hate watching the news too because I'm sensitive and carry it with me all day. I have moments/days where I am feeling so heavy from happiness or sadness that I just cry sometimes. We love you and all of your personality quirks Maria 😍 thank you for being you.
I loved this chat! I too don't like too hot or too cold food and beverages. I also like to mix my food up together or fix the perfect bite with a bit of everything on my fork for the perfect bite 😊 ❤ thanks for sharing you are a joy to listen to!
Oh what a wonderfully charming video! I am so similar. I’m a girl who runs cold but likes lukewarm things too! I always dump out coffee filled too high to be able to add water to it and I add ice to my ramen. And I’ve always needed everything to be in “order,” or lined up, usually perfectly square to each other. And weirdly the volume level has to be in increments of 5 only 🤷🏼♀️ People are so funny and interesting! I’m a crier too, especially worse now that I’m a mom. I always cry watching the Olympics and whenever I reach the top of a mountain when I’m hiking. Life is so beautiful - because of that it’s always felt emotionally heavy to me.
Maria, please don't feel sorry or worse or uneasy because of your choice not to watch the news! I decided to stop doing that about 15 years ago, then I started again in 2020 because of the pandemic and within weeks it had driven me into extreme anxiety disorder and later almost depression. Now I haven't been watching or reading any news at all for 2 years and honestly I never want to start again. Never ever. This is a valid choice we all have the right to do and I feel so deeply for you in that! Thank you for sharing!
I agree especially the negative news. I have filtered certain news because I want to be aware. But I filter this fear mongering / chaotic news, I read only very analytical and neutrally written news. If that makes sense haha
@@Fierie333Totally makes sense
agree! i dont watch the news and dont listen when my family try to talk to me about it haha
I use smarther news only for non partisan news information ! Keeps it peaceful and shares great historical events
I worked in a newsroom making news videos and I can’t watch the news anymore either. Most content is designed to provoke strong reactions for better or for worse. There are many different ways to inform yourself and engage with the world ❤
I cried watching two birds playing together in my backyard the other day. Becoming a mom really changes you. ❤
Awwh ♥️
Thank you so much for saying what you said about OCD and avoiding using it to mean overly organized or another similar thing. It bothers me so so much how much we’ve normalized saying “oh I’m OCD” just to say you’re a control freak. They are NOT the same. OCD is a very serious and debilitating disorder.
Right? I have adhd too and awful anxiety etc and used to be so neat but now it's a huge cluttered mess and the worst intrusive thoughts:/
I'm diagnosed with ODC and when I tell people I have OCD they just assume it's being organized or something. Like I wish it was that simple. I have contamination OCD, it's so annoying and debilitating and everyone thinks I'm insane.
@@sarahjaye4117I too have struggled with intrusive thoughts. It’s like a default setting in my brain. Very recently I had a break through, I inserted my own thought, to think like a race car going around a track numerous times. My new thought is “be kind to yourself and others”. I like it because it reminds me not to be hard on myself for struggling and I think it is just compassionate. I really hope this method will also give you a break through. For me intrusive thoughts just pop up almost when I’m “expecting them too” it such a bad habit. This has helped me redirect the narrative. I hope it can help you too and please seek help from a medical professional if you’re struggling. Try searching for resources by professionals on UA-cam for OCD because it can be helpful, especially since it can feel like we’re suffering alone ❤
@@biff123similar! I have anxiety, ocd and adhd and I can’t STAND when people are so flippant about ocd or adhd to “defend” their quirks. Like actually - I’m consumed by the thought of germs and have to check our doors and plugs multiple times before we leave the house, and forcing people to give me “real hugs” when they or I leave places and obsessing if I don’t do these things. I know some people have certain compulsions about things being neat and orderly but I want to rage when people use it to mean they just prefer things to be clean.
I’m so glad it’s not only me who feels the love “beams” thing. I do the same with my fiancé, I try to do it too when I speak about him to others, I speak so highly of him almost as if he will hear them and hope he feels that energy. I love to project my love for my friends and family in their presence and in their absence!
So beautiful! Thank you for sharing 🤗❤️
As a forensic psychologist I wholeheartedly agree with not consuming the news if it upsets you. If everyone could start with implementing positive change into their own little circle of impact, it would make a world of difference
I stopped watching the news during the pandemic as it was reporting numbers of cases and number of deceased each day. I decided one day I couldn’t watch another second of it, and I’ve never watched it again since! I don’t miss anything that I can’t listen to on my local radio 😊
Maria, I am a psych student who is currently at the point where I’m doing some research. Your textural preferences remind me a lot of my self. I remember back in a very old video of yours too you talked about how you feel people who are more “creative” tend to only really understand asmr. I am neurodivergent and textural symptoms are common with neurodivergence. I would love to run a correlational study at some point between asmr and neurodivergence since I feel it really affects people like this in particular.
That would be an incredible project.
I'm thinking it's neurodivergence too. I'm AuDHD and some of what Maria talks about sounds like autistic masking and sensory issues.
I have adhd and I’ve always had a theory that there is a link! I also have weird textural aversions. I HATE cotton balls!
The way you talked about OCD was so thoughtful and generous. Thank you for that. I’m clinically diagnosed, and I don’t personally bristle much at people using the term figuratively or casually, but the way you acknowledged others’ experiences while sharing your own-it really touched me. Thanks for being you ❤
Agreed! I was diagnosed when I was 4 and I don’t care for when people use the term so casually (I get it and not entirely offended but it does get annoying haha)
Whenever someone is leaving to go anywhere, I tell them I love them and to be safe every time. In my head I imagine putting a safety bubble around the person.
I do the exact same thing but, add in specifics like telling them to make sure their phone is with them and on and to be aware of their surroundings.
I do this too!! It’s like a weird superstition even though I don’t really believe in them - I HAVE to tell them I love them and to be safe. Like me saying that is the difference maker lol
I've never clicked so fast! I just adore when you make these casual chit chat videos. :)
I can 100% tell when you push that love/warmth in your videos. It’s why I love your channels so much 🤍🤍🤍 thank u for sharing
Your description of nature would make an amazing visualization/meditation ASMR. Your gentle voice and explaining the details of nature makes me feel like I’m there and it’s so relaxing! Please consider doing a video like that!
Oh I second that!
Yes to this!
Yes!!!
I hope you never stop making videos like these ❤ Your chatting videos are my favorite thing on UA-cam. The love waves concept is so interesting and reminds me of similar experiences/ sensations I was aware of as a kid, but wrote off over time as being just my imagination. After watching this I'm going to try to tune back into that part of myself! Thank you for sharing.
P.S. I can't and don't watch the news either! It just makes me feel helpless and depressed. I don't believe humans have the capacity to be aware of every single tragedy happening in the world at once; it's not healthy for us.
Oh my goodness I remember your touch aversion from a very old video where you used Krave (?) cereal as an example 😂 I have that too!! Feels like sand paper 😅
People don’t understand that OCD is a genuine disorder that’s based on anxiety and guilt. It has nothing to do with enjoying cleaning. Those of us who have compulsive cleaning as a symptom, we clean because we’re SUFFERING mentally, not because we enjoy it. And it usually has nothing to do with there being a mess - we clean compulsively because there is an awful intrusive thought in our head (for example my daughter will die from poisoning if I touch the fridge handle without washing my skin with bleach). It’s a nightmare. I hate when people say “I’m so OCD.” I appreciate you being respectful 💜
Or like.. omg I touched moldy food and forgot to wash my hands before giving my child his toy… if he puts that in his mouth he’s going to get deathly ill. Constantly 😢
Thank you for sharing your feelings about OCD. It is a serious disorder and as a loved one of someone who has a severe case, it is hell on earth.
@Negativeghostrider23 That is actually a form of OCD called "contamination OCD" my daughter has it due to PTSD from having severe and deadly food allergies and almost losing her life.
I knew OCD was a genuine disorder, but I had no idea it could came with such thoughts. It must be horrible. Are there any types of therapy that have proven a bit helpful for this condition?
@@breezeh1127yeah that’s just one part of my OCD. It manifests in multiple ways. I also have compulsions that require me to tell people I love them and hug them multiple times when we are parting ways because in my mind, if I don’t, it’ll be the last time I see them. I have to check our door locks multiple times each night etc. my compulsions are not severe, so I’m thankful for that but the obsessive thoughts have been hard my whole life. I had severe PPA/PPD and along with it, PP OCD where I was literally convinced if I slept, my baby would die or if people didn’t care for him exactly the way I wanted, it would hurt him. It manifests more in times of stress of course too.
1. UNGLAZED POTTERY (and microfiber cloths with dry hands...)🤮😖
2. OMG "crooks and nannies" 🥰 being from East Tennessee, this sounds like something we would say to tease the little ones lol
3. i cry at EVERYTHING too...my family always turns to me when we watch things because they already know the tears are comin'
4. relating to your experience with nature and projection of love, when i was in high school, i would sit outside and meditate. i closed my eyes but visualized everything around me. it felt like my body became one with my surroundings and all of the energy from myself, the wind, the ground, etc. blended together. it was my first experience (that i am aware of) with the sense of true peace and connection.
thank you for sharing your beautiful thoughts. you have created such an incredible community. it's always so special to feel more connected with you, even if we may never meet. 💞
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I'm cringing just thinking about touching a microfiber towel 😖
I am with you on microfiber with dry hands. It almost feels like those microfiber hoops are catching your skin cells!
I am exactly the same as you Maria. I cannot cope with watching or reading news, because then mentally I go down a rabbit hole and just cannot drag myself out. It doesn't mean we are ignorant or in denial, it's just self preservation. I try to be a good person and do good in a world that is often evil. That's all we can do ❤ xx
I completely understand your choice to not watch/read the news. I do the same. You seem like an empath and empaths need strong boundaries. You’re just creating boundaries that make you feel safe and sane. Good for you for taking care of yourself!
"crooks and nannies "!!! with their newest song "cameltoe shrubs" !!! ok ok dont lose the adorable traits... you're so much fun...
Maria I vividly remember you explaining your dislike for dry textures in one of your first sassy masha videos! I still love that video.
When you were talking about how it affects you to see beautiful things, I remember one of the things you said a looong time ago that really solidified you as a role model for me. I don't even remember when it happened or which video, but you were walking in this forest or some kind of nature (maybe a spiral of rocks?) and talking so passionately about how beautiful it all was. The awe and appreciation in your entire presence was one of the most inspirational things I've ever witnessed. I've often thought about how much I wish I could see the world through your eyes because the way you describe things is like a child experiencing the world for the first time (meant in the most positive way ever!). All of this is to say thank you for sharing your experience with us and letting us bathe in some of the light you see. ♥
I think that was when she was pregnant and it was around Christmas time!
@@kittyfitty473 this is such a beautiful comment ❤️
I remember that video too. She was in the woods and moved to tears at the beauty and oneness she felt. It moved me to tears watching it.
OMG, I feel the same about watching news. I have to be careful because I can be disturbed by things for a long time - rightly so. Sometimes it can inspire one to take action but a lot of times it just invites despair and anxiety.
You are so relatable. thank you for being authentic with the world. You are a true gem and a breath of fresh air. ❤
I’m a barista, our regulars who want warm coffee will usually ask for room in the cup, cream, or ice in their coffee. There’s a man that comes everyday who gets a large hot coffee with light ice. I completely understand you, I only ever order iced coffee drinks and if I want something hot I make it at home bc I don’t wanna burn my mouth bc I can make sure it’s warm 100% of the time lol.
Common sense:) why some love to burn their mouths is beyond most of us
@@chiefswife1212 I always order extra hot coffee and absolutely hate iced coffee lol. All my favorite baristas steam the milk for longer and honor my preferences which is beyond sweet lol! To each their own :)
Haha I laughed so loudly about your camel toe story!!! You're such a pleasant person and considerate. All respect to you, your husband and daughter. I enjoy these chat videos so much. I'm mostly a hermit that doesn't see many people so your videos are treasures to me. Thank you for being who you are! ❤
Maria, you are one of those rare souls that are beautiful through and through! Thank you for sharing these lovely quirks! I think most of us have different little weird things about us that makes us unique. So many things you mention I recognize in myself! My sensory thing is the opposite though...I can't stand wet or messy fingers, yuck...when ever I cook or bake I have to constantly wash my and dry my hands. The thought of peeling peaches and have the juice dripping through my fingers gives me shivers! I too have stopped watching the news. I read news instead (less visionary bombardment) but even then skip over the most gruesome parts. I feel too much and become distraught over all the horror in the world. I'm not ignorant to it but I cannot consume it! The love waves you talk about I feel as well. I actually believe that is Reiki. I took a Reiki course many years ago just to realize that I've known how to do that my whole life. It is love in it purest form of energy.
You’re wonderful Masha. Thank you for being so open ❤
I myself hate when glasses come out of the dishwasher 😖
I love this video so much! It screams neurodivergent to me! I was diagnosed ADHD last year and I've stopped masking, and started to understand SO MUCH about myself. The bite of everything on the plate is SO ME - it has to be perfectly balanced in my head or else I can't eat it LOL. OCD is also a comorbidity of ADHD/Autism too, or vice versa, it's quite interesting overall :)
Damn
I very well understand the difficulties of this as someone having to deal with the combination of OCD, Insomnia and ADHD myself
Take care my dear
Best wishes ❤
Oh my gosh, I cannot wait to watch all of this. You look so radiant and glowing from the inside. I love getting to learn more about you and feel like your friend. Such a special experience! Thank you for sharing Maria- I hope one day I get to give you a hug and tell you that in person.
Oooo I love you do autumn decorating! I do it too! It's my favorite decor next to Christmas 😊
I believe that emotions intensify when you become a parent. My husband and I tear up at every happy and sad moment in life, in a movie, etc. I know when it’s time for me to hand him a tissue without even looking at him, and vice versa.
Weird quirk of mine - when I eat M&M candies, I first have to separate the colors and then eat two of each color at a time. If there is a color with an odd number of candies in my hand or whatever, I have to eat the odd ones separately, one by one and never with another color. My husband makes fun of me about that. I never eat that candy any other way.
Love your videos. It comes through what a great person you are and I can feel the love and care you send out to us. Learned a lot of sweet and cute things about you today. Would love to sit and chat with you over a cup of lukewarm tea. All the best to you and your family, Maria.
Maria, I'm a crier too. It can get very exhausting actually. For me, I cry at happy things and sad things but, and this is strange, I cry when I'm trying to be friendly. If I like someone's hairstyle in a store and I try to tell them, I start to choke up. Or if someone has a well-mannered child and I want to compliment them, I choke up and can barely get the words out. Thank you for sharing this video. 🥰
I don't even care what you would talk about, your voice is so sweet
I’m an extremely sensitive person but also with extremely high energy. You’re an Earth Angel. 🥰 Thanks for sharing with us. Everything that makes you “you” is a gift to everyone around you. And you’re doing the right thing by protecting yourself. Keep up the good work! 🤍
This really made me realize it must be so fun to go to theme parks and children’s museums with you, your daughter is so lucky to have you as her mother
Your home is looking beautiful Maria, the background of this video is so pretty!!
I think your perfectionist tendencies are a big asset in your asmr videos, because you line everything up and organise everything so beautifully in your videos, I love it. Just hearing you describe knocking the fork over a bit gave me low level tingles. I love it when you are particular in your videos ❤❤❤❤❤
I could listen to you talk all day. It's so relaxing, and you're beaming :)
Today I had a hard morning as a mom, and this video was refreshing. None of us are perfect but we are all worth it. Love you Masha!!
Omg, I feel like you are describing me! I can’t stand the under part of cups. I was just telling my mom I want to open a restaurant called the perfect bite. Thanksgiving I need to mashed potatoes, corn, gravy, stuffing and cranny and turkey in one bite and always need the cranberries with the turkey. Lately I have made white chicken chili and use scoops and put the chili then a jalapeno slice avocado chunk and dollop of sour cream on top w cilantro and a squeeze of lime. And I recently stopped watching news and true crime and I feel so much better. Curating what I put in my mind. Hearing you makes me so happy! Watching you is so comforting and I feel like you are one of my good friends!
This reminds me of your speaking on sensitivity as a fellow artist I can relate. This excerpt from The Creative Act from Rick Rubin summed this up perfectly for me.
One of the reasons so many great artists die of overdoses early in their lives is because they're using drugs to numb a very painful existence. The reason it's painful is the reason they became artists in the first place: their incredible sensitivity. If you see tremendous beauty or tremendous pain where other people see little or nothing at all, you're confronted with big feelings all the time. These emotions can be confusing and overwhelming. When those around you don't see what you see and feel what you feel, this can lead to a sense of isolation and a general feeling of not belonging, of otherness. These charged emotions, powerful when expressed in the work, are the same dark clouds that beg to be numbed to allow sleep or to get out of bed and face the day in the morning. It's a blessing and a curse.
Another one
The people who choose to do art are, many times, the most vulnerable. There are singers considered among the best in the world who can't bring themselves to listen to their own voice. And these are not rare exceptions. Many artists in different arenas have similar issues. The sensitivity that allows them to make the art is the same vulnerability that makes them more tender to being judged. Still, many continue to share their work and risk criticism in spite of this. It's as if they have no other choice. Being an artist is who they are, and they are made whole through self-expression.
I totally get your ability to push love out of your body towards others. If I had to describe it, it's like a sonar wave or echo or the circles of a water droplet. I like to think I can send it to loved ones when they're not near, and often I think about people and they get in touch afterwards. My happiness is definitely smells; candles, wax melts, rain, cut grass smells can totally lift my mood, light too, I'm drawn to it like a moth. The downside to my openness is that I think I can absorb other people's anxiety, worries, and mental pain, so this can be quite exhausting at times.
I'm so glad you shared this, Masha! Extremely relatable. I've been realizing lately just how many people I know that experience similar stuff, but it's people I never would've expected it from. I definitely also have sensory issues, you talking about things being lined up reminds me of myself. I always have to make sure my keyboard and mouse pad are lined up right to the edge of my desk, and if it feels "wrong" I have to keep adjusting it. Same with the way clothes feel. Sometimes they just feel uncomfortable. Personally I've always had issues with the material of jeans, and bras in general. As a kid I would freak out when my mom tried to trim my nails. I understand why you don't want to say OCD, I feel the same and usually just say "compulsive tendencies" or "sensory issues".
Also, never feel bad for choosing not to look at the news. It's an endless cycle of horrible things happening. I try to avoid thinking about negative things in the world just in general, especially when it's things I know I can't do anything to fix. Nothing wrong with focusing on your own mental health! 💜
happy to see you posting more on this channel again, please continue!❤️❤️
I think I just looked in a mirror. I have all of this, especially the the dryness issue. I hate touching overly dry things, including chalk and velvet. 🤮 I use condensation from the side of a cool drink for relief as well. Lol. I hear you! ❤😂
Maria, I am also sensitive to others and put myself in their shoes. For the good events and the difficult ones. I completely understand. We are both Cancers and spiritual and I think that emotional connection to God makes you so expressive. It’s a blessing. Additionally, I also have low blood pressure and cold fingers/toes, haha. I completely get it! Overall, sensitive spirits. These are our gifts! Continue to embrace it. It’s beautiful. ❤️
I didn’t think it was possible to love you more but here we are! I relate to every point you made. Cotton balls are my absolute NIGHTMARE in terms of texture and sound omg I can’t stand them… even thinking about it makes me so uncomfortable 😅 I also use to drive my mom crazy as a kid because I’ve always loved mixing all my food together! Is that why I also love burritos, curries with rice, etc.? Haha I also totally relate to hyper sensitivity and experiencing intense emotions (good and bad)… I cried yesterday when I saw a mom rubbing her pregnant belly with a smile on her face 🥹 So happy I found your channel a couple years ago… I always feel calmer and happier when I watch your videos ❤
Soooo with you! I cannot TOUCH COTTON BALLS! I can't even take the cotton out of a supplement bottle! It makes me literally sick!
Those strange sensory reactions are the very reasons we have ASMR!
I've followed your channel for 10+ years and your vulnerability and willingness to expose and laugh at your flaws is the second best thing about your content. It makes you relatable and draws the viewer in for a deeper experience because it fosters trust. What a great thing when your "quirks" are actually your strengths.
i love these more chatty videos! i definitely get what you're saying about the bottom of mugs and unfinished pottery! i think my thing i have similar to that is i don't like thinking about my tongue touching surfaces like that, as well as paper and wood (like wooden cutlery you might get at a fast food restaurant or something), it really makes me feel sick hahaha
I can not express how much I love this content ! I also feel like you Maria when it comes to the news it just breaks me down so much that it gives me anxiety so I choose not to watch .I'm also a super sensitive person and hearing you describe so many similar things I experience makes me feel like I'm not alone in my quirks 😅 Thank you for showing such vulnerable side of you ❤ You are an amazing human with so much love inside of you!
You mentioned you had ADHD a long time ago (used to be called ADD). Which means you’re neurodivergent! Neurodivergence includes ADHD, OCD & Autism. Some people have 1 of those, others have a mix! What you experience are signs of both ADHD & OCD. That would explain needing things in a very specific way, it would explain how you dive into things that interest you in a very significant/hyperfixated way. It even would explain why certain things are too loud for you! (Like at your classes or at the theater) ♥️ I know some people don’t like the label, which I totally get! I am proud of being neurodivergent. We are a quirky folk! 😂
your house looks so cozy 🍁🍂🧡
I absolutely agree about not watching the news…I don’t have children and seeing those images is extremely traumatic. It’s absolutely horrific that these things are happening but this life is also meant to be lived and enjoyed in some level. Everyone has their part to play and I believe it’s important to find your role and have faith that it’s helping make the world a better place ❤
I agree. I haven't watched the news in almost 20 years. I can hear or read about a tragedy and feel empathy. I don't have to SEE all the details.
It helped my mental health immensely.
Even though this is not the main ASMR channel. I still feel grounded as Maria’s voice is so relaxing ❤
You look stunning, blue is your color!
This channel is such a breath of fresh air. You remind me of life before social media. You stay grounded despite being part of the internet. ❤
Fans of sassy masha pt.2 knew the dry fingers was coming as soon as we saw the title...
This video was awesome. You are brave to put this type of yourself out there. Courage to even try to explain a love wave. Love it.
Hearing you describe your quirks was like listening to a description of myself! Never heard of anyone besides me doing the finger licking thing 🤣 I adore you and your content and I wish we could be friends IRL. You’re such an inspiration! Thank you for sharing so openly about yourself. Something I’ve been exploring these past years are my neurodivergent tendencies and how they are potential signs of autism. I mention since you also reference neurodivergent tendencies and thought this may help you on your journey! Wish you all the best! Hit me up if you’re ever in Vegas ❤
We’re glad to have you. Congrats on your 20Y.
What wonderful little quirks! I especially loved hearing about the "love waves" that's beautiful! I'll try to do that too :)
I love these videos Maria! 💜✨🤗 i think you are an amazing woman, so kind hearted and beautiful, not to mention such a genuine soul. I’ve recently watched your pregnancy announcement and I want to say Congratulations to you and your family🩵💜💕✨
Yes I can sense your love which you are sending to us through your videos. Thank you for it. You are an inspiration ❤❤❤
I wonder Maria if you are a Highly Sensitive Person? I am a HSP and I can relate to a lot of what you said. It's a good trait to have, although like many traits it comes with some negative points as well. Before I understood this about myself I often thought of it as a curse, however now I embrace it; it's a wonderful thing to have .
i thought the same thing
I think HSP could fit too. I'm similar in so many ways and I'm autistic and highly sensitive too. We do need extra care and compassion for our way of being, but it's definitely a strength ❤
@@linden5165 Absolutely; it is a strength. Hugs and love sent to you!
It’s incredible how just listening to your voice in your vlogs calms my anxiety so swiftly. 💚
I really love these chatty personal videos you’ve been making lately ❤
Thank you so much for sharing these unique traits Maria! Something quirky/interesting about me is that I love the feeling of writing with pen on a piece of paper on top of a surface with fabric on it.... if you know you know!! 😀
Maria, do you ever listen to classical music? You seem like someone who would really appreciate the beauty of it. Listen to a Brahms Symphony, or the Barber Violin Concerto. It will take you to another place! Thank you for sharing about yourself. As a mom of a daughter, I can relate to so many things you said. Wishing you the best!
I can listen to Vivaldi Seasons all day long. It's the most incredible creation, in my opinion. ❤️❤️❤️
@@SassyMashaVlogs yes! I love the seasons. Great choice!
I love your chat videos so much, Maria! I listen to them every morning when I go on my walk, so a new chat video from you is such a treat. 😍
I can’t watch the news either, I totally get it. I feel EVERYTHING, the positive and negative, and the debilitating way I feel after exposure to news stories also makes me unable to do anything for myself or others.
One food quirk I have is I can’t have soup that’s too soupy, haha! I have to make it like a chili even if it’s not and give it texture (usually with crackers). Or I have to dip my grilled cheese in it - anything to make it more of an experience than feeling like I’m eating a DRINK as a meal. I can’t do it! 😂
Another quirk is how I see lines and dimensions. For any given space in my room or work environment, it must be aligned in some way. I won’t know what that way is until I begin customizing the area, haha! I might organize books tallest to shortest, or group circles together (like candles and cups), or I’ll choose a color palette. But in some way, there must be alignment to the space. It helps me focus and feel calm and energized when there’s spatial balance - it makes my brain function better. 😂
I was also told I have obsessive compulsive tendencies. It’s definitely not OCD, but there are things that set you off. Like I used to absolutely _lose my sh*t_ when my mom would go into my closet and mess up my hangers by pushing them too close together. It was like the end of the world. I would cry. I would get so angry. They had to be perfectly spaced apart and I did not let anyone touch my closet. One time she purposely shoved everything to one side and I screamed.
It’s stuff like that. It’s not impacting my day to day, but I need things to be a very specific way and I will not be able to stop thinking about it. Or like locking my car three times even though I know I locked it but I have to press the button again just in case. I have ADHD though so getting obsessive is definitely part of that.
Such a kind soul Maria, thank you so much for sharing and confirming how you send love trough the camera cus it does feel! The way you share your vision and good vibes are so unique, real and honest, ilyyyyyyyyy ❤❤❤❤❤❤
When you mentioned pushing out warmth and love, I feel that in your videos.
It also surprised me cause it's something that I really try to do to when I hug someone or pet my dog or anything. Just really focus on the energy and I think it's felt. ♥
I can relate to a lot of things you said, including the carboard/ sensory issues, getting cold, getting very emotional, obsessive etc. Have you looked into the concept of Highly Sensitive Person? It's a term created by a psychologist that posits that around 20% of people process sensory inputs more deeply on a brain level (there's more to it, I don't know if I explain well). It helped me understand a lot about myself and be able to deal with moments where I get overwhelmed with more self-compassion. Highly sensitive people share a lot of traits in common with people with autism but there are a lot of differences between the two, especially on a social level. When I was younger I always thought I had autism as I always felt different. There are some bad parts of it, but overall I find it a blessing to be sensitive :)
Ooohhhh… I feel like I may have this.. or maybe it’s my adhd? lol idk. There are so many overlaps!
Wow, I just wrote a post on here about the same thing. I am a “highly sensitive person”, but definitely not autistic and don’t have any social struggles. I just have an extremely high level of empathy, sensitivity, etc.
Maria. I am not one to comment very often, but just wanted to say a massive thanks for your thoughts and insights on this channel and also for your ASMR content too! I find it helps me relax in a way I find hard any other way. We have also moved to a foreign country (UK to Portugal) and can empathise and ‘get’ what you so eloquently put! ❤
Thank you so much for sharing this. We all have our quirks, and I related to a lot of this! I'm always cold, I definitely have perfectionist tendencies, I'm very empathetic and cry easily from movies, music, anything moving, and I'm also really with you on the news philosophy. I've been watching you for 9 years, and thank you for just being you! ❤
Adult autistic, late diagnosed female here (36 yrs old)! Are there any other autistic women relating to soooo much of what Maria is saying? ❤️✨
Yes totally! I could really relate to it as a late diagnosed autistic woman.
@@jessitschu1015may I ask how you were diagnosed late? I'm 29 and mentioned this to my psychiatrist and they offered me names and address to places for screening. I just haven't called but I know I have it. Also wondering if it's worth a diagnosis or if self-diagnosing is good enough. I'm just scared to not be validated in what I know is true about me
Here I am! 😅
yup lol
100%
I loved that you shared this, some of what you said is was so relatable - even for the parts that weren’t, you describe things so intentionally and it’s so interesting to hear other people’s sensory experiences and perceptions ❣️
Masha!! Thank you for sharing these! I related to a lot, especially your emotion based ones. You asked to share some of ours, so here goes!❤
1. Ever since I was a kid, I loved book textures and DVD case textures. I would also load up tons of books on the couch with me or in my bed and stack them and re-stack them over and over, feel them, etc!
2. My teeth has an underlap in one spot, and I like clicking my finger nail over that intersection. I don’t know if it’s a compulsive need to adjust it, or if I just like how it feels/ the sound? But I also do it more so when I am anxious.
3. Sometimes I open up word docs and just type away- usually lists- in a font that looks like handwriting. To me it’s super satisfying, and it calms my brain.
4. I re-watch things more than I explore new content. Unless I have heard amazing things about something or am so excited to see something, I usually always re-watch things I’ve seen before! Maybe because at the end of the day I don’t want to focus on anything new!
5. I am fantastic about picking up new instruments.
6. I ALSO get obsessive about things and perfectionism. I fall down into rabbit holes of interest almost out of nowhere sometimes. Sometimes it’s hard to climb out of those subjects.
7. I can not sit on a couch without a blanket over my legs and feet. Even in summer!
8. It seems like my moods are worse in even numbered years… I honestly want to figure out if my brain is on some kind of clock, or if that’s possible.
9. I consider myself Catholic but I bet a lot of Catholics would say I am a bad one. I have faith, but struggle with a lot of what I’m told about it. I am too Christ based for non-Christians, but not as “Christianish” to feel like I fit in at church groups. I also have too liberal of views to feel conservative, but too conservative to feel liberal.
10. I have a handful of people in my life where I admire their views so much that they could literally recommend ANYTHING and I’ll be influenced to do it too! Like if they share a book they read, a movie they’ve watched, or a skincare product. Sometimes I just trust these people to know what the heck they’re talking about and I want to try too…. I try to keep it a secret so they don’t feel like I’m stalking them though!!
11. I am a lot of things, but sometimes I’ll get a particular emotion or sensation, and I’ll be like “THIS is the real me, I’d like to feel this always.” I can’t explain it.
Hi! Just wanted to say really quickly that I 100% agree with not watching the news because it's too much, there other ways to stay aware of current events! I'm the exact same way. Also I see a lot of comments about being neurodivergent and I just wanted to let you know that I am not divergent and I related to a lot of this as well! I do have OCD tendencies though.
I rarely watch the news but I do read it. It seems less triggering that way. And yes, not everything is a diagnosis. Good grief! People want to label everything. I have tons of quirks, as does everyone! ❤❤❤
Love these getting to know you moments . I enjoy the ASMR so much more when I feel I know you. I can pick up on your energy easier. You really are the GOAT. I sure hope you and those you love are happy and healthy ❤
I love your perfectionism. You did a video years, if not decades ago, where you were neatly stacking jenga blocks and I was mesmerized. It reminded me of watching girls in school doing the same thing, lining up pencils, making everything on their desk perfect. I was such a chaotic, emotional, bad kid and watching those girls with their perfectionist habits was the only time my brain was ever quiet.
I relate so much to you and your personality! I'm ultra sensitive to things as well, and have a more extreme emotional response to the news, negative stories, etc. I used to be an avid true crime story watcher on TV but, since experiencing many losses in a short period of time of loved ones, I can't watch true crime anymore. I place myself in the families' shoes and become depressed. You are a dear soul, I wish I knew you in real life! I guess a funny quirk about me is whenever I drink soda, I have to swish it in my mouth a certain way before I can swallow it 😄
Thank you for being mindful of the use of OCD. As someone diagnosed with the condition, it is truly maddening to hear people talk about being organized as having a truly painful and debilitating condition that I deal with daily.
I love these videos. They just warm my heart and it feels like we're just sisters chatting.
your shelf behind you look so cute!!! very cozy !
The last personality trait , you remind me of myself. I used to be so passionate about love - platonic or romantic. I've been so hurt that I've lost myself and it bothers me...but am in my healing journey and I can feel and see myself coming back to myself. I love it so much , slow process but the healing is happening. Thank you for sharing! 💛.
i remember you talking about how you feel towards dry stuff like chips in your tag video 12 years ago! it’s weirdly cool how its stayed with you this long😋
Crying and having all the feels is actually a fantastic way of "feeling your emotions" which is the goal of emotional healing. Being able to cry or feel/give love means you are emotionally stable and have reached the pinnacle emotional healing state. All our lives we bury our emotions and they leak out in other ways like pain in our bodies, chronic disease, shame, depression, and similar. Be proud that you have reached this level of emotional healing and you can express it, we should all try to reach this state 🥰❤
It sounds like you're a highly sensitive person, Maria...20% of the population is. ✨💕 It's beautiful to hear you speak of waves of love. I have a story about learning to do those to deter "negative entities". I love that you just do that intuitively, with an intent to just share love. 💕
1:37 "its probabaly like a sensory textural preference or some sh....sort" 🤣 made me laugh
Crooks and Nannies and cameltoe bush had me laughing, hehe. This was like having a sweet little chat with a friend and it was so fun listening to you. I especially love how you embrace many of your quirks as your superpower 💜
❤❤❤ I am an HSP Highly Sensitive Person and share most of these traits with you. I believe and feel that you are one too and it does come through to your viewers. Thank you Masha. 🥰
I so appreciate this video Maria. I have had a really tough time lately and your voice always makes me feel safe ❤️ sending a wave of love back to you ❤
you are the person that introduced me to ASMR. I love your content. you are so amazing. you are awesome for putting this out!
What's wild is I already know most of these things cause you've mentioned them over the years.
Makes sense you smile a lot and talk with your hands with such a beautiful smile and neatly kept nails , your efforts to maintain and get to such a point are certainly appreciated
Love Maria! She is just so relatable and down to earth.
I’ve been watching you for over a decade, you are amazing!
My favourite one of your mixups was ‘ear muffins’ in the steamy dreamy spa video. It was so cute
I loved this video so much! I definitely have the same aversion to super hot/cold things and I hate watching the news too because I'm sensitive and carry it with me all day. I have moments/days where I am feeling so heavy from happiness or sadness that I just cry sometimes. We love you and all of your personality quirks Maria 😍 thank you for being you.
Cardboard gives me shivers and almost pain, too. I bet she also gets the chills touching popsicle sticks. I just can’t stand it!!!
I loved this chat! I too don't like too hot or too cold food and beverages. I also like to mix my food up together or fix the perfect bite with a bit of everything on my fork for the perfect bite 😊 ❤ thanks for sharing you are a joy to listen to!
Oh what a wonderfully charming video! I am so similar. I’m a girl who runs cold but likes lukewarm things too! I always dump out coffee filled too high to be able to add water to it and I add ice to my ramen. And I’ve always needed everything to be in “order,” or lined up, usually perfectly square to each other. And weirdly the volume level has to be in increments of 5 only 🤷🏼♀️ People are so funny and interesting! I’m a crier too, especially worse now that I’m a mom. I always cry watching the Olympics and whenever I reach the top of a mountain when I’m hiking. Life is so beautiful - because of that it’s always felt emotionally heavy to me.