Talking about Gender Dysphoria: Transgender
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- Опубліковано 16 вер 2024
- Just some background about gender dysphoria, my thoughts about dysphoria, and how my dysphoria affects me.
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I sometimes get depressed about missing the first time a boy held my hand; my first kiss; my first budding breasts; my first bra; my first period; my first date, and all the other "firsts" a young girl experiences. Then I think about how much fear and embarrassment I would have experienced during each of these "firsts" and that tends to pull me out of my purple funk. Thank you for continuing to write way up there in Oregon. I hope classes are going well. BTW, I heard a saying I'd like to pass on to you. "We are not born a woman; we become a woman." Or something to that effect, but I think you get the idea. Please keep doing videos. I truly like your down to earth topics.
Wow such a loaded topic.
Though it did say a trigger warning I assumed I could handle it easily. Most of the time I don't feel like I'm very dysphoric, however a lot of what you said really resonated with me. The biggest thing for me is how my body is wrong for doing what it was meant to. I used to not be interested in kids but ever since I started hormones I have lamented over not being able to bear children. Though I'm not even seeing anyone, I really want to be a mother. Also my stomach has bothered me for many years and I try to focus on the fact that I can change it. I am starting to work on fitness, though I am hungry all the time since starting hormones, so nutrition will take some work.
Although, I couldn't seem to keep my composure the whole video. Being transgender really has its challenges.
Thank you for posting this!
This was a very honest and heartfelt video. The points you raise will resonate with many viewers. Your words are especially helpful given that they come from experience. To hear about your post-transition struggles given the success it appears to have been (i.e. you pass easily) is extremely valuable and helps give perspective for a demographic who rightfully feel 'hard done by.' Thanks for posting.
omg. you hit on so much truth. seeing pretty girls drives me crazy insane with jealousy. we have a dance/cheer competition nearby annually, and it makes me so angry to see them all dressed up with perfect makeup going into stores or coffee shops with me... now I understand why - it's the freaking dysphoria - and it's not just me being a mean bitch. it's what 'should have been.' thanks. ♥ please make vids more often... ☺ you make me feel better about myself.
Hello Ashlee. I've watched your videos since nearly the beginning of your channel. I came out publicly as a trans woman a year ago and I've been on hormones for 5 months. You have been an inspiration to me for all these years I was struggling, so thank you.
I also came out when I was 18. And although I know I was lucky to come out so early, I also deeply regret being unable to come out publicly sooner, for example when I came out to my father when I was 15 (he said some really hateful things which scared me back in the closet for 3 years). As such, my dysphoria also stems from my sense of loss at the youth I lost out on, the youth I spent working through chronic and seasonal depression (and later PTSD) brought on by my family and friends' negative reactions to my gender nonconformity.
Anyway, I just thought I'd share my story to say you're not the only one whose gender dysphoria is worst when faced with grief at lost experiences of youth. Sending my love!
You're looking really well! Thank you for another video ^-^
You're the best. :)
Thank you for existing!
+minister6evil Aww, no you're the best! Thank you :)
Thank you Ashlee from across the ocean. Its so good to know that we are not alone in GD and that there are others who experience the same.
Thank you for this video, I need to be reminded that I’m not alone every now and then.
I personally waited too long, I began transitioning at 23, didn’t start hrt until 24. I don’t pass, I don’t think I do and my voice kills me. Although every second I improve on everything, hoping everything will add up and before I know it, I’ll be seen as the woman that I am.
Respectfully, as a typical straight white guy - I would compliment you on the fact that my perspective sees (and hears) you as a completely natural female. Which amazes me. But that's the point. Acceptance crosses many barriers.
You are living proof that the beauty of humans transcends gender politics.
Dysphoria sounds like something that science can't cure - but if it has anything to do with eternal "otherness", then I can understand that, well enough.
Too many things born from loneliness threaten our lives. And courage is never an equal thing.
I love your videos. I am in the process of working up the courage to come out. I'm not sure how any of my family and friends will react, but I really cant keep my feelings bottled up much longer, and I'm 23, and already feel like I waited too long. You and allot of other youtuber's have helped me prepare. Thank you.
+Stormy M I came out to my mom today, she called my dad and told him. They both came out as supportive, and now I really feel like an idiot for not doing this years sooner. Like I did not expect that to go down so well.
@@stormym2173 Wow, when I came out to my parents at 12 they said “we’ll love you no matter what” but they still deadname me and call me their son. At least I have supportive friends.
i'm stuck in seemingly endless dysphoria.. i can't stop shaking..
Thats me.Deep dysphoria,Deep depression.
Wow i just came across this video because i was looking at other videos for changing voices for fun. though i think at times i know im some wheres in between. like with feminine traits. I know it doesn't help making friends being that way and knowing at age 3. You are an inspiration to youtube like so many others. But its good to have people like you around. I know how things suck. Might i ask if you have facebook?
After 78 years I some how have resolved GD. Maybe it just burned out. But it may be that I turned it inward on itself. In other words I became the woman in my universe. And I fell in love with my host male body. Since I love him I will never harm him. I am a ghost girl haunting this male body. Hey! I get a lot of male attention this way. In a nut shell do the SRS on your mind, and play in your own back yard. Like every other little flower in nature.
Hi girl.. Can i ask what camera are you using?? Thankyou :) im also a transgender
You know, I always think about the what-if stuff, it really torments me, its like post traumatic [living in the wrong body] disorder. This video is hitting me a little hard right now.
Thank you so much for your videos, you really help me. Thank you thank you
Thank you! You helped me so much!
I'm not overly sure about gender dysphoria because we often get treated like it's a mental illness and it's like... my brains fine D: it's my body which is wrong.
Thank you. I'm 56 and have been on HRT for 1 &1/2 years. i semi pass after 3rd hair transplant and 1 year of laser. 1 year electrolysis, and another to go. Not counting needing a Adams apple shave and nose job. Not living full time, but I'm in between .
You're an inspiration :)
BTW I subscribed because of this video :3
But YOU never have to think about it. You look great you sound great. Enjoy your life in gender you wished to have.
I am a little bit depressed. Maybe you can help: i had voice surgery at yeson. After one month i am allowed to speak-no diffrence to my old voice. Its only week and craking. Was that also like this with you? And later the voice started to improve so pitch raised? Thanks a lot fir your reply. You would held me with my depression...
+Sanny Ebock Thank you! I still think about it, I don't think it really ever goes away. That's how my voice started after Yeson, but over time it got better. And also combining that with keeping your pitch raised, like in my voice lesson videos. If you combine the lessons and the surgery, it works really well. Hang in there!
+letsflybutterfly thank you 😀
But now you are wonderfull young woman-enjoy your life. You never tell how it work now with relatipion with partners. You could make a video about it.
Thank you for this! :)
I just started my transition and i found your voice lesson 1. im starting to practice and was wondering how long i should stay on lesson one until i start trying to go to your lesson 2. i hope you reply, thank you!
i started having those feelings at around 7 wish i had done it then as i happen to be turning 30 this year
It's never too late to start
Trying to think of a compliment that's original... You have... Pretty... Pupils.
I like your videos on UA-cam
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I love your videos Ashley, thanks for sharing. hit me up on fb sometime.