“What you still need to know is this: before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream. That’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one ‘dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.’ -Paulo Coelho The Alchemist
I’ve had panic attacks before because I had no idea that I was anxious because I bottled it all up. Then I read that gratitude can help with anxiety, I tried gratitude meditation and I’ve not had them since. They say that it’s almost impossible to feel anxiety and gratitude at the same time. Thank you man! I’m forever grateful for your videos. You make us feel less alone.
@@Kat-fw5jo I guess it’s like a grounding exercise. I can see that. I will try that. I suffer severally of anxiety and panic attacks but I also have ptsd so it gets very ugly. But I’ll try this gratitude meditation!
I loved this video. It felt like just sitting down and chatting about the moments that have shaped us into who we are today. I think many of us have years or times that we can reflect back on like this. I know I look back on 25 like it was the worst year but the most productive year to show me what I deserve in life and what I don't. Thanks for the reminder that through pain comes growth if you're willing to walk ahead of the shadows!
can we appreciate how far he’s come. his content used to be all videography (which isn’t bad) and now there’s all this personal and intimate insight :’) it’s so nice to see the growth over the years.
I think we all kinda lose our sense of “why” at some point. All we gotta do is keep going, no matter what we do, and the why will eventually get clearer. What’s the purpose of life? To live every second ✨🙌
I think that pain is something essential to our progress and evolution, it's the complement of pleasure, one can't exist without other. While suffering is optional and borns from attachment to pleasure or pain.
Nathaniel is helping thousands of people work towards their goals in a way that promotes wellness, not sacrifices wellness. He is giving people a better chance at understanding their lives and making an honest evaluation of it. Very important; thank you Nathaniel.
I'm going through one of those bad periods in my life at the moment. Thank you for making this video. I'm trying to work really hard to fight through it right now and get to a better place and this video helps in a small way on my own journey.
@@alokrawatt Thank you for the encouragement, right now everything seems black and bleak because I'm in the middle of it. I'm taking steps to help myself by meditating and finally accepted that I need outside help by going to therapy.
I'm 19 and I can completely understad the feeling you're talking about. this confusion is making me crazy. It's like a huge darkness that is swallowing all the hope and light in my soul!
You seem to be such a pure and genuine soul, Nathaniel. And you're so lucky for having grown in such a loving and comforting environment so you immediately could tell something was wrong and you were not around the right people. Some of us are so used to toxic behaviours that it's way harder to tell when we're not being treated properly. You have a way to put hard topics into words that is both captivating and inspiring. Thanks for sharing this.
woah, until this day I found out you are the same age as I am. I always thought you were older than me because you're so much wiser and mature in terms of the topics you discuss, I feel so dumb about things sometimes. I was those kids that went to college after high school trying to fight for a role that I didn't even like to begin with. I got a degree as society had expected me to so now I can finally feel like I can do things for myself.
I want to share this video with anyone who has yet to experience such difficulties, but I don't think they will get it. Watching this made me remember those years that I often don't want to think about. I recently had a conversation with a friend from Israel. I was telling him how taking care of my 22 year old niece has it's challenges but I wanted to spare her the harshness that we can experience out on our own for the first time. He told me that I cannot and would not be doing her any favors. I thought "why not?!". Why would I not want to spare her that kind of desperation and pain that I had experienced? I could tell he was struggling to find the words in English and then he finally said "Ethos". That I would not be who or where I am today without that horrible period of time that I managed to survive.
well this is probably the most relatable youtube video I have ever watched, thank you for sharing. It makes me feel a little less alone, grateful for what is and motivated to keep going.
I really needed to hear this right now. Not only have you validated my struggle but to see you on the other side of it, successful and happy, gives me alot of hope. Thank you for sharing.
I feel you! When we go through a series of painful experiences/traumatic ones - it will change your nervous system up until you look within and do the work to release all feelings so your inner child can be seen, heard, accepted, loved, and feel safe again. It took me forty years to finally undo my belief system, thought patterns, feelings, and habits. Now, I feel safe, joyful, more loved, more seen, and home within myself. It is from our heart that comes true healing. But first... We have to be willing to sit with our pain, fear, ego, and old ways of living. Blessings to you and every human undoing the lies we were conditioned to believe. Telling the truth from your heart is always REAL. Good for you.
Wow this hit too close to home for me. As someone who is going through this period right now hearing this means a lot. Within the last year I dropped out of college to pursue my own creative career only to soon have my world shattered when my mom was diagnosed with a terminal illness (not to mention in the middle of the pandemic). I’ve never felt more lost. I’ve worked that barista job to pay the bills and be able to help my mom. All of it has made me want to give up on my aspirations and dreams. It’s been hard to see beyond this really dark time so really thank you so much Nate for giving this piece of inspiration and glimpse of hope at the end of the tunnel.
This was beautiful, Nathaniel. Your maturity is something that's always stood out for me. I've been going through this phase for the past year and a half, (I'm 37) and it's not easy. Taking it one day at a time and praying that the path will become clearer as I take the steps forward. Take care!
felt like i needed to hear this! i resonated a lot with it as last year at 18 I had decided to take a gap year, and have felt the exact same as you described it of feeling lonely and lost questioning if I made the right decision. i’m still learning and it’s just a season of my life but it was reaffirming to hear this. thank you and i’m very proud of you and inspired by you to see where you’ve come from and all that you’re creating.
I totally agree with you on this! The darkest period of our lives shall be shared more, we shall be more vulnerable. Also its the darkest times that lead to points of breakthrough, reminds me of Nietzsche's quote "That which does not kill me, makes me stronger" Anyways great video man! Your videos are always the first thing I click on when I see them on my youtube feed lol
The hardest thing for me to swallow was the severe (torture) child/teenage abuse that I faced was there for a reason and gave me a lot of appreciation. Even to this day, it is hard for me to say that it was necessary to teach me compassion, and when I hear others, I question this every time. I was born compassionate, and I don't think I needed the torture to teach or show me this. It is evil in this world, and people who go through things they didn't need to struggle with "necessary" statements. I think this is also important to realize and spread to others. The "bad" actors should not be excused for their bad actions
Honestly, I'm amazed of your very clear language it's so smooth. You made me learn English, just by listening to your beautiful wise voice, thank you so much Nathaniel. I owe you everything.
Wow... thank you for this video man! Not sure if you'll see this comment, or anyone else for that matter... but I've been going through a lot lately and definitely relate to a degree of that lost feeling and feeling like overwhelmed about the future etc.
i’ve been a subscriber of your channel for years now and i’ve enjoyed every single video you put out thus far. but i have to say by far this video really speaks to the heart for me. i found myself in a place like yours few years back and i felt so so hopeless. watching this video and looking back,i’m beyond grateful of where i am now. thank you for putting this out ❤️
I feel I am going through the same experience you just described. I struggled with two suicide attempts and many isolation issues before and during the pandemic. I felt that in the future making art or movies would feel like this immense library of content that isn't appreciated the way it should be. After that, I am now going back to writing, I'm learning to give speeches and talks, and I'm back into filmmaking. Thanks for having done this video. You are the best.
I had a similar experience that I just got out of. I went to a different country with family for vacation while I was going through a bad time of depression and it was a nightmare. I couldn’t enjoy a single minute there and intrusive thoughts made me feel worse. Everything did feel like a blur and it wasn’t even vacation for me. When I got back I realized how lost I was feeling and how losing my group of friends from high school triggered that along the feeling that no one wanted to be around me because everyone was so busy.
Hearing this story from someone you adire and that you king of look up to, even thought i dont even know you, it´s really recomfortable, super real. I hope that you can get a better experience if you ever decide to come back to Argentina. Thanks for sharing, you really are life changeing.
While it's sad that you had to experience these things and pain... me at age 41 hearing a twen talking about his worst year of his life, all I can think is: I really hope you're right - that this had been your worst year. In my experience chances are low. To many the most painful year is when you say goodbye to a parent or the love of your life for the last time.
Definitely loved the video, I totally resonate with what you're saying. I think I'm kind of in this unfortunately difficult phase of transformation in my life at the moment, and it's comforting to know I'm not alone in the experience. The format is nice. Just being vulnerable. I'd be interested in hearing how your recent move to Paris and that transition affected your perception of your life path too.
that's such an awful experience Nathaniel, i'm so sorry, so happy you're out the other side. i really enjoyed this format - you are an excellent storyteller :)
You videos are good, original, and it reflects you. It is a raw honest review of life that I truly love to hear when I take the afternoon tea. 1000/1000
I really liked this. I'm in that stage of life right now where I feel lost and I need to figure out what kind of life I want to live. Thank you for letting me know that this was normal :) It really helps a lot
Hi Nate I’m 55 years old woman I stumbled upon your videos by chance I admire them all . me and my 23 year daughter watch your vlog everyday, This video for us hits home. She is going through something similar given the loneliness caused by the pandemic she could relate to most of it. Your video where you recommend to watch Johann Hari podcast/ Ted talk was excellent. We would love to watch any vlog and or story telling vlog . Thank you for sharing your personal/vulnerable stories which are inspiring.
Please explain to me how in the world 75 people gave this a thumbs down? This man is pouring his heart out about his life and his journey and you have the balls to give it a thumbs down? Keep shining Nathaniel!
I like hearing about your life on a more personal level. I like the artsy videos and experiments too, but this feels more like actually getting to know you
I'm so sorry that the time you spent in Argentina was so hard. I know that this country can be very tough (actually, it's never been easy). But also I think that probably it was the time and place you have and will learnt more from, in due time. Nietsche made the famous quote: lo que no me destruye me fortalece. I hope if you ever come back you'll have a better time here. Your videos are consistenly better each time.
Thank you so much for this deep video about your experience. I think that it might be useful to create a sort of international holiday where the goal is not to be together for partying, but to be alone and reflect about what is going on in our life and if is in line with our aspirations, or something similar.
This just made me cry. I've pursued a course I've never been interested in and feel myself emotionally tortured day by day. But what I realized a few days back while I was talking myself out of pain and tears trying to sleep is how important this whole journey is, I'm definitely learning something going through the hardest times in my life so far, but the way it's gonna shape me after it's over in 2 years and how I'll find myself finally putting efforts into doing what I love to do, without taking convenient measures and being constantly dragged by others where I'd just do what the others are doing just so it becomes "easy", it doesn't.
Thank you for sharing your story, hearing you say " it takes time to process the things that happen to do" really resonated with me. We don't grow up in a day, we're always growing and it helps to hear people share their stories. Thank you!
Feeling sadness can be so lethargic and took so much of our energy. I'm glad you're now in a good place, Drew! I love your videos and often replay it, for your deep thoughts & inspiring life journey!
Wow... Thank u ♥ I'm in a tough period of time in my life, processing trauma, building my carreer etc but i think most people around me don't know what is going on, because it is inner work. And oftentimes I am happy, and it is becoming better but I am not there yet. Your video give me hope✨
Thank you for this video... I just needed it! You are an incredible human being and I am learning a lot from you, even being younger than me. Thanks for sharing your emotions and life experiences, it feels like we are friends talking to each other. Grettings from Colombia!
The experience you describe can happen at any point in life, anytime you make a major change that leaves you without your normal support system (and crutches). Thanks for telling your story ♥️
Hola Nathaniel soy Argentino y te sigo hace un tiempo, solo quiero agradecerte por todo el contenido de calidad q haces. Siempre dejas un mensaje muy lindo y logras transmitirlo de un forma que inspira y tiene impacto (al menos en mi). Con cada uno de tus videos me llevo algún aprendizaje y eso es tremendo. Felicitarte por todo lo q lograste siguiendo tu camino y ojala sigas asi. Abrazo
thanks for sharing, I was about to cry when you said you know how it is to dream and think it will never come true... this is what is going on between me and the USA. It's my dream to go there, but I only have visa denials.. and no succesfull career.. I appreciate your sincerity
Do you believe that I re-watched it *4 times* ?!! It was great how you were telling the story and it’s really inspiring I hope there’s more coming soon. Thank you for sharing this with us.
This video was right on time! I've been feeling so lost and anxious about my future and listening to this was calming, thank you for sharing this! Ps: I really enjoyed its format!
Fascinating. I also came from the film industry and transitioned into making travel films on UA-cam. Sort of have now left the film industry behind and pursuing UA-cam full time. Love your vulnerability and the investment into memories you are making. Would love to document my own life in a similar fashion as a gift for my children, for them to better understand me. Thanks for the inspiration.
You’ve no idea how understood I felt while watching this video. I’m 20 years old and I have no clue of what the hell is going on. The hole past year is such a blur; I feel like I lost control of absolutely everything, but the worst part, and you put it into words, is that I lost the reasons and I lost the point of why I was doing the things that I was doing. I don’t know what’s going to happen and definitely not know where my life is headed, but is nice to hear that it will no always be this confusing. I guess you’re right, it’s a part of growing up. By the way, I’m sorry that you didn’t have a very pleasant time in Argentina, we would love to have you back!
I had no clue your family is from Argentina. I am sorry to hear your experience here was horrible, that is not what our country should represent. Big hug from here!!
Thank uu for sharing ur story, i had many struggles in the last six years trying to find my path and i learned a lot from it and hearing about your journey gave me strength to keep pushing until i find what is right for me.
And I appreciate you :) and your beautiful story telling which makes for deeply meaningful and inspiring content - what a breath of fresh air your REALNESS is … makes me feel less alone.
Living with a narcissist is so emotionally exhausting. I've lived with one my whole life. It's all about them and their needs; stepping all over your sense of self and turning your self-esteem into dust is what they do best. I feel so disillusioned with life right now, like it's not worth living anymore, since I spent all those years trying to please that narc that I don't know who I am and what I really want to do. And I'm constantly pushing people away because I'd rather not be hurt in any way by anyone again.
Love these videos! Thank you so much for sharing. Narcissists bring you to a place on your Heroes journey that show you your own wounds. It’s excruciating, but the truth is within ourselves. Exploring that, rather than remaining paralysed is life changing. You give hope to many that their suffering is ok, and that nothing stays the same. 🙏
Nathaniel, I appreciate you and your work so freaking much. You don't even know. You make me feel less alone in being an "intense person" who likes to figure things out. Your passion for language and travel also sounds so much like me. I really value what you put out into the world, and I'm so grateful that you never gave up on your dreams. Whenever I have a rough day, I watch one of your videos, and it helps me to keep going. Wishing you all the best that life has to offer!
İt is just perfect I think. You know, sometimes we are lost, and looking for videos about productivity or other shits, and it doesn't feel right. But when we watch such kind of videos, experiences, life lessons, it really feels right. Because it touches your feelings and say that, just move, don't stuck in pain.
being in the last month of my gap year, I could relate to this video on another level. specially how life was a blur and you were numb and something you had never experienced before, it tainted your personality. you feeling lost and then navigating your way through and then coming out of it by the end of the gap year, this is exactly how mine went too. this gap year, even tho it was very rough, taught me alot that I think I would've never learnt if I went to university directly from college.
there is more than one worst year of ones life . At 65 I am still learning this , nothing is permanent and for me the best years of my life have been more than the worst ones.! At this stage I am moving countries and starting something new.
This video is absolutely lovely. Hard times add depth to the human experience, they help grow the vital life skills of resilience and compassion (for ones self and others). Understanding the darker sides of the human psyche (including narcissism) and why they manifest themselves can not only aid in appreciating the genuinely positive people in ones life but, help in creating empathy for those who do harm themselves or others. Importantly, empathy and forgiveness for those individuals does not mean forgoing empathy and compassion for ones self. Boundaries and distance from negative behaviour is essential. Perhaps understanding that people are the way they are for a multitude of reasons including past events, genetics, etc, can help alleviate the pain felt internally, making it all seem a little less personal. To sooth the fear created by others, one must have boundaries for how they will be treated, reflecting respect and love for ones own life. These are just some thoughts tho haha, did not expect to ramble so much this morning. I hope you enjoyed my unedited stream of consciousness hahahah 😅
Thank you for your honesty. I'm currently going through my second bout of what you're talking about. Really needed to hear something like this from a stranger. Agreed, it's so important to stop and reflect and kind of let the situation wash over you but remember it will pass and to keep learning and growing. Thanks, all the best to you!
The best video I saw on the internet this year. Your storytelling is inspirational and I heard what I needed to hear - about the moments in life when you feel lost (I'm kinda in that stage right now). Thank you for that video and I'm looking forward to more videos like this one. :)
I would love for you to make a video on recommendation on where to create videos like yours. Your story telling, editing skills and color gradient is really amazing.
Reconhecimento e Gratidão!!!! Te Admiro Muito por apresentar isso meticulosamente, com Tanta Honestidade, Transparência, Empatia e Solidariedade!!!!!! The Best Greetings von Manaus of Amazônia from Brasilien!!!!!! 🙌🏼 💜 💜 🙏🏼 💜 💜
Thank you for sharing your experience. It can be so difficult to have a particular dream and keep getting shut out of it (or at least feel like that is what is happening). Also, it is so difficult to navigate those people who have no problem disregarding and dismissing others. A skill I keep working on is living in that directionless space when problems keep coming up and feel like they are crushing any motivation through growing doubt. I think meditation has been very helpful during those times. I also found it interesting that you used the phrase "toughen up". I think it's particularly male to think of growth as toughening up. I will likely spend more time thinking about what that means to me and if there's a larger growth process happening that feels like toughening up but may be more multi-faceted. Thanks again.
watching you this past year has helped shift my perspective on content creating. there's something so special about a creator being honest about their lives, lessons, and mistakes. thank you nathaniel and keep it up.
Thank you for sharing your experiences in such a genuine and profound way. Your courage crosses gender barriers and demonstrates that emotional intelligence is fundamental. Your videos bring light to darkness.
That is so interesting! Thanks a lot for sharing. I like hearing stories like these. For me my toughest year was probably 2014/2015 when I started high school and had no clue what I wanted to do and changed schools a few times and completely lost interest in anything. So thanks again for sharing. I think most people do through something like this. :)
Me sentí un poco identificado, although todavía me falta mucho por aprender. Sos una fuente de motivación para muchas personas. Pd: en un futuro voy a tener un canal de UA-cam y va a ser gracias a vos
Damn, watching a human being open about so personal things is truly empowering. Huge respect man.
agreed! he's helping so many by sharing this
I love your poems man!! They've helped me get through some tough times.
100% agree with with comment
@@thecrisroldan Loved ittttt
its soemething called being real..
“What you still need to know is this: before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream. That’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one ‘dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.’ -Paulo Coelho The Alchemist
I definitely gotta read it now! Thanks for sharing 🙏
I *LOVE* that book
The Alchemist is one of the best books ever, recommend everyone to read it, it is a must!
Wow!
I just saved this comment 👏🏼
I’ve had panic attacks before because I had no idea that I was anxious because I bottled it all up. Then I read that gratitude can help with anxiety, I tried gratitude meditation and I’ve not had them since. They say that it’s almost impossible to feel anxiety and gratitude at the same time.
Thank you man! I’m forever grateful for your videos. You make us feel less alone.
I want to try that gratitude meditation. How did you do it?
@@kita3256 Hey Kita! I just searched guided meditation for gratitude on UA-cam and used those. Have a great day wherever you are!
@@kita3256 i noticed that whenever I was anxious in life, going through anxious times I always reminded myself what I'm great for in life
@@__jake.m thanks! Will definitely do that. I’m in California 😀 Have a great day too, wherever you are!
@@Kat-fw5jo I guess it’s like a grounding exercise. I can see that. I will try that. I suffer severally of anxiety and panic attacks but I also have ptsd so it gets very ugly. But I’ll try this gratitude meditation!
I loved this video. It felt like just sitting down and chatting about the moments that have shaped us into who we are today. I think many of us have years or times that we can reflect back on like this. I know I look back on 25 like it was the worst year but the most productive year to show me what I deserve in life and what I don't. Thanks for the reminder that through pain comes growth if you're willing to walk ahead of the shadows!
Ikr the video was awesome 👍
Truly inspiring
Sit down storytimes are great! It's like sitting down with a friend with a cuppa. Thanks for sharing your journey. Really resonates sooo much!
can we appreciate how far he’s come. his content used to be all videography (which isn’t bad) and now there’s all this personal and intimate insight :’) it’s so nice to see the growth over the years.
*”We have two lives. The second begins when we realise we only have one”* - Confucius
Love from a small UA-camr 💙
I think we all kinda lose our sense of “why” at some point. All we gotta do is keep going, no matter what we do, and the why will eventually get clearer. What’s the purpose of life? To live every second ✨🙌
I was literally feeling this and saw your comment and made me feel so much better .. thank you so muchhhh 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻✨✨✨ have a lovely day aheadddd
@@TilikaVispute have a lovely day too ❤️ Thank you for being there 🙌✨
@@nawaldoghri 🥺🥺☺️☺️♥️♥️
I concur! I’m experiencing this now. Being patient through the experience is a challenge :0)
@@kmichalene yes a tough one! But we can still find ways through it, sending you all my positive energy ✨
It almost feels like everyone has to go through some level of depression to figure out what we want from our life.
I think that pain is something essential to our progress and evolution, it's the complement of pleasure, one can't exist without other. While suffering is optional and borns from attachment to pleasure or pain.
I absolutely agree. My depression has given me the worst but it has also given me the gratitude and the astonishment with which I see the world.
Nathaniel is helping thousands of people work towards their goals in a way that promotes wellness, not sacrifices wellness. He is giving people a better chance at understanding their lives and making an honest evaluation of it. Very important; thank you Nathaniel.
Worst phase in our life teaches us most important lessons than a good phase in our lives .
I am experiencing it:)
Thankyou for sharing Nathaniel❤
Let's keep going and get through these tough times! 💪
More than 40% of the viewers of this video are going through the same including me
I'm going through one of those bad periods in my life at the moment. Thank you for making this video. I'm trying to work really hard to fight through it right now and get to a better place and this video helps in a small way on my own journey.
hey, please never give up, you already know its gonna change for better. :)
@@alokrawatt Thank you for the encouragement, right now everything seems black and bleak because I'm in the middle of it. I'm taking steps to help myself by meditating and finally accepted that I need outside help by going to therapy.
@@overnightgrowth buddy I totally get you. I been through that phase and can understand every bit of it.
I'm 19 and I can completely understad the feeling you're talking about. this confusion is making me crazy. It's like a huge darkness that is swallowing all the hope and light in my soul!
I really appreciate the way you describe your feelings; you describe them without sugar coating or exaggerating.
You seem to be such a pure and genuine soul, Nathaniel. And you're so lucky for having grown in such a loving and comforting environment so you immediately could tell something was wrong and you were not around the right people. Some of us are so used to toxic behaviours that it's way harder to tell when we're not being treated properly. You have a way to put hard topics into words that is both captivating and inspiring. Thanks for sharing this.
woah, until this day I found out you are the same age as I am. I always thought you were older than me because you're so much wiser and mature in terms of the topics you discuss, I feel so dumb about things sometimes. I was those kids that went to college after high school trying to fight for a role that I didn't even like to begin with. I got a degree as society had expected me to so now I can finally feel like I can do things for myself.
I want to share this video with anyone who has yet to experience such difficulties, but I don't think they will get it. Watching this made me remember those years that I often don't want to think about. I recently had a conversation with a friend from Israel. I was telling him how taking care of my 22 year old niece has it's challenges but I wanted to spare her the harshness that we can experience out on our own for the first time. He told me that I cannot and would not be doing her any favors. I thought "why not?!". Why would I not want to spare her that kind of desperation and pain that I had experienced? I could tell he was struggling to find the words in English and then he finally said "Ethos". That I would not be who or where I am today without that horrible period of time that I managed to survive.
well this is probably the most relatable youtube video I have ever watched, thank you for sharing. It makes me feel a little less alone, grateful for what is and motivated to keep going.
I really needed to hear this right now. Not only have you validated my struggle but to see you on the other side of it, successful and happy, gives me alot of hope. Thank you for sharing.
I feel you! When we go through a series of painful experiences/traumatic ones - it will change your nervous system up until you look within and do the work to release all feelings so your inner child can be seen, heard, accepted, loved, and feel safe again. It took me forty years to finally undo my belief system, thought patterns, feelings, and habits. Now, I feel safe, joyful, more loved, more seen, and home within myself. It is from our heart that comes true healing. But first... We have to be willing to sit with our pain, fear, ego, and old ways of living.
Blessings to you and every human undoing the lies we were conditioned to believe. Telling the truth from your heart is always REAL. Good for you.
Wow this hit too close to home for me. As someone who is going through this period right now hearing this means a lot. Within the last year I dropped out of college to pursue my own creative career only to soon have my world shattered when my mom was diagnosed with a terminal illness (not to mention in the middle of the pandemic). I’ve never felt more lost. I’ve worked that barista job to pay the bills and be able to help my mom. All of it has made me want to give up on my aspirations and dreams. It’s been hard to see beyond this really dark time so really thank you so much Nate for giving this piece of inspiration and glimpse of hope at the end of the tunnel.
This was beautiful, Nathaniel. Your maturity is something that's always stood out for me. I've been going through this phase for the past year and a half, (I'm 37) and it's not easy. Taking it one day at a time and praying that the path will become clearer as I take the steps forward. Take care!
felt like i needed to hear this! i resonated a lot with it as last year at 18 I had decided to take a gap year, and have felt the exact same as you described it of feeling lonely and lost questioning if I made the right decision. i’m still learning and it’s just a season of my life but it was reaffirming to hear this. thank you and i’m very proud of you and inspired by you to see where you’ve come from and all that you’re creating.
I totally agree with you on this! The darkest period of our lives shall be shared more, we shall be more vulnerable. Also its the darkest times that lead to points of breakthrough, reminds me of Nietzsche's quote "That which does not kill me, makes me stronger"
Anyways great video man! Your videos are always the first thing I click on when I see them on my youtube feed lol
The hardest thing for me to swallow was the severe (torture) child/teenage abuse that I faced was there for a reason and gave me a lot of appreciation. Even to this day, it is hard for me to say that it was necessary to teach me compassion, and when I hear others, I question this every time. I was born compassionate, and I don't think I needed the torture to teach or show me this. It is evil in this world, and people who go through things they didn't need to struggle with "necessary" statements. I think this is also important to realize and spread to others. The "bad" actors should not be excused for their bad actions
thank you for being real. Vulnerable and transparent. Real connection here Nathan.
Honestly, I'm amazed of your very clear language it's so smooth.
You made me learn English, just by listening to your beautiful wise voice, thank you so much Nathaniel.
I owe you everything.
i agree.
Wow... thank you for this video man! Not sure if you'll see this comment, or anyone else for that matter... but I've been going through a lot lately and definitely relate to a degree of that lost feeling and feeling like overwhelmed about the future etc.
i’ve been a subscriber of your channel for years now and i’ve enjoyed every single video you put out thus far. but i have to say by far this video really speaks to the heart for me. i found myself in a place like yours few years back and i felt so so hopeless. watching this video and looking back,i’m beyond grateful of where i am now. thank you for putting this out ❤️
I feel I am going through the same experience you just described. I struggled with two suicide attempts and many isolation issues before and during the pandemic. I felt that in the future making art or movies would feel like this immense library of content that isn't appreciated the way it should be. After that, I am now going back to writing, I'm learning to give speeches and talks, and I'm back into filmmaking. Thanks for having done this video. You are the best.
I had a similar experience that I just got out of. I went to a different country with family for vacation while I was going through a bad time of depression and it was a nightmare. I couldn’t enjoy a single minute there and intrusive thoughts made me feel worse. Everything did feel like a blur and it wasn’t even vacation for me. When I got back I realized how lost I was feeling and how losing my group of friends from high school triggered that along the feeling that no one wanted to be around me because everyone was so busy.
Hearing this story from someone you adire and that you king of look up to, even thought i dont even know you, it´s really recomfortable, super real.
I hope that you can get a better experience if you ever decide to come back to Argentina.
Thanks for sharing, you really are life changeing.
Hurt brings wisdom, wisdom brings a whole other sort of understanding
While it's sad that you had to experience these things and pain... me at age 41 hearing a twen talking about his worst year of his life, all I can think is: I really hope you're right - that this had been your worst year. In my experience chances are low. To many the most painful year is when you say goodbye to a parent or the love of your life for the last time.
I hear what you're saying but he clearly means "so far in his life"
Definitely loved the video, I totally resonate with what you're saying. I think I'm kind of in this unfortunately difficult phase of transformation in my life at the moment, and it's comforting to know I'm not alone in the experience.
The format is nice. Just being vulnerable. I'd be interested in hearing how your recent move to Paris and that transition affected your perception of your life path too.
that's such an awful experience Nathaniel, i'm so sorry, so happy you're out the other side. i really enjoyed this format - you are an excellent storyteller :)
You videos are good, original, and it reflects you. It is a raw honest review of life that I truly love to hear when I take the afternoon tea. 1000/1000
I really liked this. I'm in that stage of life right now where I feel lost and I need to figure out what kind of life I want to live. Thank you for letting me know that this was normal :) It really helps a lot
Hi Nate I’m 55 years old woman I stumbled upon your videos by chance I admire them all . me and my 23 year daughter watch your vlog everyday, This video for us hits home. She is going through something similar given the loneliness caused by the pandemic she could relate to most of it. Your video where you recommend to watch Johann Hari podcast/ Ted talk was excellent. We would love to watch any vlog and or story telling vlog . Thank you for sharing your personal/vulnerable stories which are inspiring.
Please explain to me how in the world 75 people gave this a thumbs down? This man is pouring his heart out about his life and his journey and you have the balls to give it a thumbs down? Keep shining Nathaniel!
I like hearing about your life on a more personal level. I like the artsy videos and experiments too, but this feels more like actually getting to know you
I'm so sorry that the time you spent in Argentina was so hard. I know that this country can be very tough (actually, it's never been easy). But also I think that probably it was the time and place you have and will learnt more from, in due time. Nietsche made the famous quote: lo que no me destruye me fortalece. I hope if you ever come back you'll have a better time here. Your videos are consistenly better each time.
Thank you so much for this deep video about your experience. I think that it might be useful to create a sort of international holiday where the goal is not to be together for partying, but to be alone and reflect about what is going on in our life and if is in line with our aspirations, or something similar.
This just made me cry. I've pursued a course I've never been interested in and feel myself emotionally tortured day by day. But what I realized a few days back while I was talking myself out of pain and tears trying to sleep is how important this whole journey is, I'm definitely learning something going through the hardest times in my life so far, but the way it's gonna shape me after it's over in 2 years and how I'll find myself finally putting efforts into doing what I love to do, without taking convenient measures and being constantly dragged by others where I'd just do what the others are doing just so it becomes "easy", it doesn't.
Thank you for sharing your story, hearing you say " it takes time to process the things that happen to do" really resonated with me. We don't grow up in a day, we're always growing and it helps to hear people share their stories. Thank you!
Feeling sadness can be so lethargic and took so much of our energy. I'm glad you're now in a good place, Drew! I love your videos and often replay it, for your deep thoughts & inspiring life journey!
Wow... Thank u ♥
I'm in a tough period of time in my life, processing trauma, building my carreer etc but i think most people around me don't know what is going on, because it is inner work. And oftentimes I am happy, and it is becoming better but I am not there yet. Your video give me hope✨
It's so supportive
I do love this type of videos, thanks a million
Thank you for this video... I just needed it! You are an incredible human being and I am learning a lot from you, even being younger than me.
Thanks for sharing your emotions and life experiences, it feels like we are friends talking to each other.
Grettings from Colombia!
The experience you describe can happen at any point in life, anytime you make a major change that leaves you without your normal support system (and crutches). Thanks for telling your story ♥️
Hola Nathaniel soy Argentino y te sigo hace un tiempo, solo quiero agradecerte por todo el contenido de calidad q haces. Siempre dejas un mensaje muy lindo y logras transmitirlo de un forma que inspira y tiene impacto (al menos en mi). Con cada uno de tus videos me llevo algún aprendizaje y eso es tremendo. Felicitarte por todo lo q lograste siguiendo tu camino y ojala sigas asi. Abrazo
Thank you for sharing. I'm going through the uncertainty and it's good to hear that time helps
thanks for sharing, I was about to cry when you said you know how it is to dream and think it will never come true... this is what is going on between me and the USA. It's my dream to go there, but I only have visa denials.. and no succesfull career.. I appreciate your sincerity
Do you believe that I re-watched it *4 times* ?!!
It was great how you were telling the story and it’s really inspiring I hope there’s more coming soon. Thank you for sharing this with us.
helped me understand that im in this rough patch right now but ill come out soon and ill be able to look back and see all ive overcome.
Extremely helpful. So much respect for Nathaniel.
I'm crying because I've got the same period in my life, thank you!
I think what I’ve struggled with the most is that “why”, which is something still hard to make sense of but hopefully one day it will:/
J'adore quand tu nous racontes ton cheminement, ça permet de voir que chaque parcours est différent et que tout est possible 🙋♀️🎉
Thank you for sharing this Nathaniel, it’s helped me make more sense out of my own rough patch, you da best x
Thank you for continuing to make meaningful videos like this.
This video was right on time! I've been feeling so lost and anxious about my future and listening to this was calming, thank you for sharing this!
Ps: I really enjoyed its format!
Thank you Nathaniel, as always!! 🤍
Tough times really put things into perspective and make you feel more grateful for the bounties of life already at your disposal.....
Super video. I think that many people, young and old, but especially young, will appreciate it.
Fascinating. I also came from the film industry and transitioned into making travel films on UA-cam. Sort of have now left the film industry behind and pursuing UA-cam full time. Love your vulnerability and the investment into memories you are making. Would love to document my own life in a similar fashion as a gift for my children, for them to better understand me. Thanks for the inspiration.
You’ve no idea how understood I felt while watching this video. I’m 20 years old and I have no clue of what the hell is going on. The hole past year is such a blur; I feel like I lost control of absolutely everything, but the worst part, and you put it into words, is that I lost the reasons and I lost the point of why I was doing the things that I was doing. I don’t know what’s going to happen and definitely not know where my life is headed, but is nice to hear that it will no always be this confusing. I guess you’re right, it’s a part of growing up.
By the way, I’m sorry that you didn’t have a very pleasant time in Argentina, we would love to have you back!
Things will be better soon. Till then keep the faith, buddy.
I had no clue your family is from Argentina. I am sorry to hear your experience here was horrible, that is not what our country should represent. Big hug from here!!
Thank uu for sharing ur story, i had many struggles in the last six years trying to find my path and i learned a lot from it and hearing about your journey gave me strength to keep pushing until i find what is right for me.
And I appreciate you :) and your beautiful story telling which makes for deeply meaningful and inspiring content - what a breath of fresh air your REALNESS is … makes me feel less alone.
Living with a narcissist is so emotionally exhausting. I've lived with one my whole life. It's all about them and their needs; stepping all over your sense of self and turning your self-esteem into dust is what they do best. I feel so disillusioned with life right now, like it's not worth living anymore, since I spent all those years trying to please that narc that I don't know who I am and what I really want to do. And I'm constantly pushing people away because I'd rather not be hurt in any way by anyone again.
Love these videos! Thank you so much for sharing. Narcissists bring you to a place on your Heroes journey that show you your own wounds. It’s excruciating, but the truth is within ourselves. Exploring that, rather than remaining paralysed is life changing. You give hope to many that their suffering is ok, and that nothing stays the same. 🙏
Nathaniel, I appreciate you and your work so freaking much. You don't even know. You make me feel less alone in being an "intense person" who likes to figure things out. Your passion for language and travel also sounds so much like me. I really value what you put out into the world, and I'm so grateful that you never gave up on your dreams. Whenever I have a rough day, I watch one of your videos, and it helps me to keep going. Wishing you all the best that life has to offer!
İt is just perfect I think. You know, sometimes we are lost, and looking for videos about productivity or other shits, and it doesn't feel right. But when we watch such kind of videos, experiences, life lessons, it really feels right. Because it touches your feelings and say that, just move, don't stuck in pain.
being in the last month of my gap year, I could relate to this video on another level. specially how life was a blur and you were numb and something you had never experienced before, it tainted your personality. you feeling lost and then navigating your way through and then coming out of it by the end of the gap year, this is exactly how mine went too. this gap year, even tho it was very rough, taught me alot that I think I would've never learnt if I went to university directly from college.
there is more than one worst year of ones life . At 65 I am still learning this , nothing is permanent and for me the best years of my life have been more than the worst ones.! At this stage I am moving countries and starting something new.
This video is absolutely lovely. Hard times add depth to the human experience, they help grow the vital life skills of resilience and compassion (for ones self and others). Understanding the darker sides of the human psyche (including narcissism) and why they manifest themselves can not only aid in appreciating the genuinely positive people in ones life but, help in creating empathy for those who do harm themselves or others. Importantly, empathy and forgiveness for those individuals does not mean forgoing empathy and compassion for ones self. Boundaries and distance from negative behaviour is essential. Perhaps understanding that people are the way they are for a multitude of reasons including past events, genetics, etc, can help alleviate the pain felt internally, making it all seem a little less personal. To sooth the fear created by others, one must have boundaries for how they will be treated, reflecting respect and love for ones own life. These are just some thoughts tho haha, did not expect to ramble so much this morning. I hope you enjoyed my unedited stream of consciousness hahahah 😅
Thank you for your honesty. I'm currently going through my second bout of what you're talking about. Really needed to hear something like this from a stranger. Agreed, it's so important to stop and reflect and kind of let the situation wash over you but remember it will pass and to keep learning and growing. Thanks, all the best to you!
The best video I saw on the internet this year. Your storytelling is inspirational and I heard what I needed to hear - about the moments in life when you feel lost (I'm kinda in that stage right now). Thank you for that video and I'm looking forward to more videos like this one. :)
Maan i literally loove this man and loe the content of it finally something worth the time and watch
The unexamined life is a hamster wheel of mistakes. Good job on the self-awareness and growth!
That's a pretty neat statement.
You are very brave that you can speak your hard times honest.
I would love for you to make a video on recommendation on where to create videos like yours. Your story telling, editing skills and color gradient is really amazing.
MERCI for sharing, and opened up to us
Reconhecimento e Gratidão!!!!
Te Admiro Muito por apresentar isso meticulosamente, com Tanta Honestidade, Transparência, Empatia e Solidariedade!!!!!!
The Best Greetings von Manaus of Amazônia from Brasilien!!!!!!
🙌🏼 💜 💜 🙏🏼 💜 💜
You have put all the feelings I’m experiencing these days into words my friend. Your words are a true inspiration 😊🙏🏻
Thank you for sharing your experience. It can be so difficult to have a particular dream and keep getting shut out of it (or at least feel like that is what is happening). Also, it is so difficult to navigate those people who have no problem disregarding and dismissing others. A skill I keep working on is living in that directionless space when problems keep coming up and feel like they are crushing any motivation through growing doubt. I think meditation has been very helpful during those times. I also found it interesting that you used the phrase "toughen up". I think it's particularly male to think of growth as toughening up. I will likely spend more time thinking about what that means to me and if there's a larger growth process happening that feels like toughening up but may be more multi-faceted. Thanks again.
watching you this past year has helped shift my perspective on content creating. there's something so special about a creator being honest about their lives, lessons, and mistakes. thank you nathaniel and keep it up.
One thing I've learned through my life is sometimes quitting (and letting go of something) is a good thing
Thank you for sharing your experiences in such a genuine and profound way. Your courage crosses gender barriers and demonstrates that emotional intelligence is fundamental. Your videos bring light to darkness.
This helps me to reframe my current 'Argentinian year abroad'.
THANK YOU NATHANIEL for another great video !!
ur amazing. Cheers from Egypt :p
I like you. I feel like I'm in the verge of getting out of worst time of my life and this video made feel a little better. Thank you!
That is so interesting! Thanks a lot for sharing. I like hearing stories like these. For me my toughest year was probably 2014/2015 when I started high school and had no clue what I wanted to do and changed schools a few times and completely lost interest in anything. So thanks again for sharing. I think most people do through something like this. :)
“If you’re going through hell, keep going”. W. Churchill
Whenever I watch your videos I feel like I'm becoming more and more wiser with every video.
-THANK YOU 🙂
Periods of reflection in the hurried American culture are important and hard to come by
Me sentí un poco identificado, although todavía me falta mucho por aprender. Sos una fuente de motivación para muchas personas. Pd: en un futuro voy a tener un canal de UA-cam y va a ser gracias a vos
this video is what I need right now 🥲
Nathaniel, even though we don't know eachother, you're my soul friend ❤️