Thank you for showing love guys but please give all that love to Ren! He’s helping so many people very single day with his words. Thank you for watching with me ❤️
I've already watched Troubles the maximum amount of times from each device and account that UA-cam will count in a 24 hour period without thinking I'm trying to cheat the system. I'm not...I watched each and every time I streamed it, but I want all of my views to count. 😂 So I may as well spread the love to my fav reactors who have been respectful and helped spread Ren's music. Also, "Lord I forgive you," is insane. Instant chills on top of the goosebumps I already had. How powerful is that, to say you forgive a higher power for abandoning you?
Moby used a sample from the same song, the original is by Vera Hall and it's called Trouble So Hard. You need to watch the chapters of his life which he has released over the last week for the whole story behind this song.
“This music I give you Pain that I live through Everything I been through Is yours to hold” This is one of the most beautiful lines in any of Ren’s songs, what a honour to allow us to hold onto something that is his when his illness has already taken so much from him.
Ren’s asking if people who can afford it please purchase this song, to get it charting & spread the message of hope to more people who need to hear it. I’m someone whose life has mirrored his, developing an unknown painful debilitating condition at age 19. I’m 57 now & unfortunately my story won’t likely have a happy ending. Ren gives me hope though, that something can be done for all of us living in the dark. 🕯️ 💜💜💜
After having listened to Ren's Chapter Series Intently and multiple times, this track just encapsulates his story so well and serves as musical accompaniment for The Chapters. Ren's experiences are very familiar to me to say the least, as is often the case with many of his supporters. Ren's success is so deserved and I do truly hope it continues. Ren is the medicine many of us need. Much Love and Great Reaction!
Yeah but Moby sampled the same song, so I can see why Cliff thought that, and Ren doesn't own the rights, he just paid to use the song, owned by Warner Music.
That stem cell Dr was in LA it has been shut down since he went, however he praised the Dr in his life in chapters, even if you don't react to it worth listening to.
Great breakdown as usual. The sample is from the original Vera Hall song "Trouble so Hard" Ren added his own mix to it. Ren mentioned this in the recent Knox Hill interview. Ren released a short vid on his YT channel On Ren's "Troubles, Turning the sample into a synth"
I suffered ptsd really bad i lived on the streets of London for 4yrs i was also suffering with untreated alcolism i tried to take my life & luckily with cpr im here today , ive been soba since, got a family & kids now , i love this channel so much cliff has the gift of making u feel we all sitting together massive respect 🙏 🫡
I love the reaction as usual and the message. He drops plenty of music! Moby yes nice call, remix of Vera from the 40s. Moby video is dope too. I love Ren. You know I love your reactions. It was sad though you know more than all of those specialist just by this man filming in the cold bro! And you’re dead ass right! You gotta take care of himself until July hit the UK for a few shows then come here to the states and crack the Billboard charts and im here for it and I can’t effing wait. I remember the first time you reacted to him and you Hit the like button before you even watched Hi Ren and that you were mesmerized just like I was. And he got me on your channel which is awesome. Keep beating away cliff. He did get the stem cells in LA and then the doctor did it for free even though it was 25 because his son was struggling musician as well. Guess God finally answered so Ren forgave him. Wow that’s deep
gone through some personal trauma and issues over the past few yrs.. nothing close to what this man or 9thers go through on a daily.. but this man has helped me so much just by indulging In his music and Interviews..
The fact that most reactors have chosen not to comment on his chapters leading up to this shows the integrity of the community. ❤️ We have been given a wonderful trust, and it's beautiful to see it being honored.
Yeah, there's one reactor who is new to Ren, and his first reaction got so many views that he has done reactions to every chapter. He doesn't add anything but speculation and pauses once in a while to summarize what Ren just said & then says, "that's craaaazy." It rubs me wrong. I don't hold it against him. He's new and entitled to react to whatever is out there, but I've chosen not to watch his reactions to any of the Chapters out of respect for Ren. It's one thing for reactors and artists to have a symbiotic relationship as Ren has with so many of them. It's another thing entirely to try to take advantage of something so serious for views and clicks. He may not be doing intentionally, which is why I won't hold it against him, but I just can't support it.
As someone who has many of the illnesses Ren also struggles with, I really appreciate anyone who is taking time to listen to Ren's story and talk about it. We need awareness and reactors are helping get those conversations going. There's no right or wrong way to take his story on board as long as people are being respectful of the vulnerability.
@MissMeKate I have no issues with anyone sharing his story and creating a safe space and discussions, raising awareness. That's not my issue. I don't even mind if someone wants to react to the Chapters as long as they do so in a way that facilitates all of those things. But you can tell when someone is genuine and trying to share the story and when they're using it for clicks. I won't hold it against any reactor for reacting to his story. But I won't support the ones that I feel are less than genuine.
Guys I love you all my Renegade brothers and sisters but I'm sure Ren would actually want all the reaction channels to share the Missing story chapters. It's all about raising awareness. He want this whole project to reach as many eyes and ears as possible. BTW I fucking Loooooovvveeee this new tune❤❤❤❤
Having watched the 8 chapters of his life, I can assure you that I had to have tissues handy because I cried so much looking at the photos and listening to the songs attached at the end. - Thank you for these 20 minutes out of your busy life and paying homage to this wonderful human being.☮
I agree. It touched me deeply. I cried a lot. Both for him and for all the people suffering with these invisible illnesses. Sending love and light to everyone still suffering
I had lupus and fibromyalgia for 20 years before they finally figured it out. It was very frustrating hearing it was all in my head. I’ve been fighting cancer since 2018 and now it’s metastatic so there’s nothing much more they can do, but fortunately cancer patients have way more options than people with immunosuppression. They need to do more research in those illnesses and stop funding research for the fornication habits of turtles. Love Ren, so glad he’s coming back.
Kinda similar story here, I turned to alternative treatment with high dose Vitamine c infusions and frequency healing, cancer free now, fybromyalgia free, hope my story helps you. I still struggle but is manageable now.
I live through chronic pain which waxes and wanes, hopping from Doctor to doctor took its toll, now I research and test things myself, and mitigate the pain by using my brain. The few doctors out there who actually care, are under great pressure to profit of holders of shares. It's a tragedy the way this world is built they can't see, the harm they cause constricts themselves and kin til no one is free.
Thank you for always being there for Ren. Always thoughtful and heartfelt. The song Trouble So Hard sung by Vera Hall in 1937 (song about slavery) has a lot of meaning to him. It was also the first song he sang that went viral. His best rap imo. 💞🌺🌹
Watching the Chapters gives you a whole new perspective and possibly reaction to his music you’ve previously reacted to, when listened in order with his spoken Chapters. 🫧🤍🕊️🥺🏴
I feel like I needed this today. I found out my mum has stage 4 pancreatic cancer this morning. I held in my emotions all day feeling I needed to be strong. But this gave me the reality check I needed. I needed to feel it and not bury the feelings. We will have her for around 12 months. So we will move forward. Thanks for doing this Cliff. 💕🙏
I wish you, your mum and your family all the strength for what's ahead!! My dad had the same diagnosis ten years ago, almost exactly to the day. Make sure you have a support group of friends and family to get through this together. It will get very hard at times, so cherish all the moments with your mum🧡
Definitely watch all the chapters - cried alot, screamed by the lack of help he was receiving and how he was forced to find his own way out (one chapter he was told to find a hobby).
I just popped my youtube cherry and wrote my ever first comment to ren under this track and now that i got the hang of things i find myself here :-) I don´t want to overshare in telling my sad story. Let´s just say that i was missing for 6 years and nearly died and recently i came back to life. Rens music played a big role in this but i wanted to tell you that your are also a footnote in my journey. These days i am very cynical in regards to social media, content creators and reactors and to find someone (you) who i genuine believe to be honest, sensitive and thoughtful meant something to me. I deeply respect the way you take care of your community and the way you uplift others. So I wanted to let you know that you are appreciated. Consider yourself hugged from this german girl
This track is amazing for all manner of reasons, lyrics, beats, production, visuals, original sample, the message - thank you for supporting Ren & this new release & getting it out there further with your heartfelt reaction. Saw you pop up in the live, great to see there Cliff ❤
I hope everyone has been joining Ren for each chapter of his story and everything he went through in his search to be whole. I stop what I’m doing each time he puts out another chapter to listen. Not to be missed.
@CliffBeatsOfficial Great reaction and thank you for sharing some details of your health problems with us. I have my own health issues and I think Ren's songs mean so much to people like us because they tell how we are really treated by medical professionals. How we are accused of faking or exaggerating, how they push pills at us, then say we are drug seeking, and all the other negatives things people say. Ren doesn't hide how bad things can get, he lets us know it's not just us feeling that way and that we're not alone. His songs also give us a lot of hope, and hope is what we need ❤️
Didn't even realize this was Ren. I ju@t clicked cause Cliff is a good ass dude. BUT now that i know Ren feels like one of the most genuine artists of our generation i fuckin love it
The Chapters readings are like a short autobiographical film about the trajectory of his life before his diagnosis and useful treatment. If a person finds them too heavy to watch, absolutely, don't watch them. If a reactor finds them too uncomfortable to put out a reaction to, or if vlogs/documentary material isn't what they want to do on their channel, perfectly fine. If a fan finds it uncomfortable to watch someone ELSE react to Ren's story, also fine. But Ren put this out there to bring awareness to ME/POTS/PANDAS/MCAS/Lyme etc, during ME Awareness Month; the ME Awareness Month hashtag is #MillionsMissing, or #Missing for short, like his lyric - "Posters up, manhunt, Ren went missing." He and others have changed their social media profile pictures to the Missing graphic to help spread awareness. He's also said he feels a responsibility to use his platform to spread awareness about these illnesses, and knowing how much hype he gets within the reaction channel community, he specifically put his readings out on UA-cam. All he aaked is that we respect the privacy and solitude of the people involved in his story, and that we respect his solitude. Reacting to his readings doesn't violate those requests; reacting to his readings spreads desperately needed awareness. Again, I have no interest in throwing shade on anyone who's not comfortable watching the story, uploading reactions to the story, or watching reactions to the story. But sharing it as far and wide as it can reach by any means, is the point. Love to all Renegades, no matter what your feelings are on the matter. ❤
Thanks Cliff again, he grew up not too far from me, although im a lot older! He keeps me going as im still pushing for help after 20 years of disablement and suddenly developing epilepsy with no reason. If send him a message, he always reads it! Incredible Man! Love to Ren and Cliff!
Ren's music found me at a time when I really needed it. I've gone from oblivious to a hardcore Renegade over the last year. I myself went through about 17 yrs of misdiagnosis, wrong treatments, giving up on my dreams, unemployment etc. Finding his story and his music inspired me to start writing music again and practicing singing and playing again after nearly a decade hiatus with only a few exceptions. Thanks for showing more love to an artist who is genuinely making a difference in people's lives!
Cold plunges have become popular for a good reason. Watching his videos on hist struggle was fucking tough man. It was also inspiring and heart warming. He is also a great story teller, he just sucks you in, leaving you wanting more with an a hurting heart and a head full of hope.
REN- TROUBLES [Intro: Vera Hall] Ooh Lordy, troubles so hard Repeating [Verse] I don't reach into the past very much For these shards of shattered glass and harsh paper cuts Leave me stuck when I reach in memories are seeped in hydrochloric acid I go to war and get passive and freeze up But music helped the ice to thaw Put a chisel in the middle swing the hammer of Thor Pull it out of the impossible, excalibur sword Etching note pads full of reasons why my feelings arе sore The first day that I got sick ejеcted from cockpit of living Nineteen, young teen, waking up bitten Posters up, manhunt, Ren went missing Hard to have faith when the gods don't listen The first year maybe was the hardest Waking in a body that was buried like a carcass Brain in the lions den, body in a shark pit Waking up in pain again, aching, brokenhearted Persistent little bugger I was bouncing from a doctor To a doctor to a doctor like a table tennis game that has no end So be the fate of Ren Every single question answered with a question on the end The second year I came to terms with giving up my dreams Mind was severed from the means that helped me write these rhyme schemes Brain was inflamed. the fatigue was crushing Hard to remain sane with your brain combusting And the third year was murder, living in a purga- Tory full of worry, wouldn't live to be thirty Lifestyle hurt me, always in my bed tomb Re-arrange the alphabet and all the letters spell "doom" Light hurt my eyes, popping pills to survive When you're twenty-three and mentally you steadily decline Twenty-four I was poor, disability benefits What's the benefit of disability? It's irrelevant Twenty-five and the scars that were etched, they cracked Elastic bands only stretch so far and then snap Deep in psychosis, hallucinations, troubled vision Visits from the underworld were conjuring my superstition Twenty-five, living back at home with my mum But not because I'm a bum, alone and physically done So thin, so frail, so weak I'd become And my skin so pale, never kissed by the Sun One time I carved a whole in my chest, just to feel I wish that was a metaphor, the struggle was real When you're living in a holocaust you buckle and kneel There's relief in the teeth of the kiss of cold steel Facts, twenty-six I'm highly medicated and the pain sophisticated While I'm laying broke and naked on my back I brought my microphone into my coffin, started droppin' Raw thoughts with the grim reaper knocking on the track Then man, lo and behold I heard an angel beckon on this treacherous road Was a stem cell doctor with a generous glow And a cell transplant brought me out of the cold And my skin got younger and my body got stronger And my stomach felt hunger for a door that was closed And my soul heard music for the first time Beauty was a word I'd use for this gift of gold Oh Lord, I forgive you, Lord I forgive you Lord, I forgive you, make me whole This music I give you, pain that I live through Everything I've been through is yours to hold
Dude! You are the only other person I’ve seen that prays for the sirens that sound. ❤ your soul. Thanks for your videos. Ren is a movement of love and inspiration.
P.S. - I’ve suffered from Fibromyalgia/Chronic Pain/CFS/ Cervical Dystonia (neurological involuntary movement disorder) for 25 years. And this past Christmas kicked cancer’s ass. Sober 4 years and still I have found love and peace in the God I’ve come to love and understand. Hang on - people love you. People care. You matter. YOU ARE ENOUGH.
Cliff the world also needs more people like you brother, not just Ren. Originally i came here for Ren reactions and i stayed because of you bro. Appreciate you!
I have Fibromyalgia and CPS and for years it was stress, hypertension and the drs i saw all put their own spin on it, costing more money and wasted appointments. Where you come out wanting to end it all!!! Ren you are a diamond 💎 and Cliff you are lovely ❤
I have connective tissue disease and fybro myalgia that began to show when i was 24 years old now, gotten worse every year. Had my prime stolen and am in pain 25 hours a day. I am 33 now and still haven't come to terms with it. This song hitting differently here.
Cliff, I just want to say how much I appreciate you as a compassionate human being. I also love your loyalty to Ren and those of us who find Ren the most important guy in music, in a long, long time. I always look for your reactions first, and find them the best.
I feel this. My wife suffers from Endometriosis and it's a struggle everyday. She has something else going on autoimmune but no doctors can find out what she is dealing with. Randomly spikes fevers and is stuck in bed all day long. Happens at least once a month where she is not feeling well for a few days.
I thought it was a Moby clip too, but check this out, after seeing a few people comment that Ren sampled it straight from Vera Hall, I remember Ren uploaded a random clip from the Knox interview about 2 weeks ago, talking about how the line from "Trouble So Hard" hit home with him and he wanted to sample it in a future song..... "Don't nobody know my trouble but God". BTW, Moby did sample the same song, so I see why Cliff, and me, thought that. Fun Fact, Moby's real last name is Hall. Here's the Knox/Ren clip... ua-cam.com/video/BziMoV4H0bY/v-deo.htmlsi=KZnQybbdB2ODAnZs
Go to Ren makes stuff and watch his story, read by Ren, 8 chapters. So worth a watch and puts everything into perspective. Not one to react to, just listen.
love ren and this was a powerful message. who cares if you paused during it to get out things .. if ppl don't like it too bad it's a reaction for a reason. you are one of the best
The song is so amazing!! As someone who has listened to his whole discography more times than I can count, I feel like I already knew the majority of his story, but it was so awesome getting to hear it in its full context straight from him! Much love, Cliff! ❤
Beautifully astute reaction Cliff, as always. I suffer several of the same conditions and Ren is absolutely what we need to bring awareness. This video was also incredibly shot, its so beautiful, he gets more amazing every day, both as an artist and a beacon of light. ❤❤❤xx
The song essentially is the musical version of his ‘chapters’ series (1-8). Please watch them just to see the entire story. I love the use of Vera Halls ‘Trouble so hard’ sample (which Moby also has used)
Have to dispute the cold being helpful- perhaps if not from a cold area it might shock you out it a bit but living in calgary for 30years, i can state that the cold definitely exacerbates my fibro flares and absolutely sets off debilitating pain//end rant. Loved your breakdown of this fantastic song.
Thank you for speaking out on the benefits of cold to reboot the nervous system. As a TripleA human (Autism, ADHD, and Anxiety), it took me DECADES to learn that trick and it helps SO MUCH...when I'm overloaded and melting down, when I have an anxiety or panic attack...and when my MCAS flares, when the POTS dysautonomia kicks in...cold is so helpful. I live where it's humid AF, so I keep a stock of chemical ice packs on hand...and highly suggest that people reach for some ice whenever you're struggling...even if it's not a diagnosed condition...it's a great grounding tool even if there's no clinical need for it.
Another meaning to the “brain combusting” line could also be from the neuropathy that Lyme causes. It feels like fire on your skin. I got diagnosed in January with Lyme and Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever from a tick I found on me. I have been a Ren fan for about two years but now I relate to his music on a whole other level. This is a horrible disease.
Thank you Cliff... there are a few reactors that have decided to react to Ren's personal chapter, but all the quality Reactors have all made the conscious decision not to benefit from those messages. Kudos to you sir. Respect.
Not to trauma dump but I’m 44 on Thursday and the CPTSD I have from childhood abuse, sa, mental health issues, and anorexia will never leave me. I always am told to write a book but I don’t have the courage. just this is to say watching another like ren gives me hope for my sons and their kids that it won’t be as taboo as it was for me growing up to be mentally unwell.
I few people here in the comments know my mom passed in a car accident 2 weeks ago. I needed this from Ren. I’m struggling to stay sober. His message of hope is something I need carry around with me. A lot of what he said I relate with. Hurting yourself just feel alive. Popping pills to numb the pain. I hate this life sometimes and then I hear this. Ren doesn’t know me Cliff doesn’t know me but they help me more than they will ever know. I may very well lose my fight. If I do lose that fight I’ve had you guys have given me some peace right now. Sorry for rambling guys.
Great reaction. Diagnosed with Ankylosing Spondylitis at the age of 32 I am 52 now. People were saying I was lazy and crazy in the head. I still hear small talk around my town that I don't deserve disability. Like disability is some gold standard or something. Disability is bullshit. They only say that because they have no clue what its like to live from month to month and barely making ends meet, plus treatments every 6 weeks just to have a little flashlight of hope to live through the pain everyday
4:47 also with his health condition ME, the community call ourselves the “Millions Missing” because life forgets about us and we’re missing from life. It’s a cool nod to all the other “Missing” people with ME
As a kid, I didn't have too many opportunities to be a kid. My mom developed fibromyalgia when I was 5 and with my dad working 12hr nights, It was up to my sisters and me to help her during the day as best as we could. This was our life for 7 years while her pain just continued to get worse and worse until the depression and a Rx took her from us when I was 12. Now here I am about to turn 30 and I'm beginning to show potential early signs of fybro myself which would terrify me were it not for finding someone like Ren over a year ago. I only wish my mom could have been here to experience his music and advocacy because maybe it could have done for her what it has done for me.
dont apologize for [ausing its one of the things i love about your videos. you give so much more content then the vids your react to keep up the great work brother
I had 2 doctors say that I wasnt taking my 2 seizure meds on time. I wanted to yell at them, Do you think I want to have seizures?! Luckily the ones I have lasts only a second. I was having up to 30 per day before meds. Now, some days I'll have 5. Although really really annoying, I'll take 5 over 30. If you know about " Possum running over your grave", and have a sudden shake will know what it's like. A hiccup is a myoclonic shock. Quick.
4:47 For me this line hit like a suckerpunch because that's how it feels. The person you were before just disappears and you genuinely just feel like a shell of who you were. I'm still trying to find the bit of me I lost when I started getting sick.
Ren actually used a sample direct from Vera Hall's track, not from Moby's sample, and has manipulated it/changed the pitch etc. The song has always meant a great deal to Ren and so he wanted to pay tribute to the original (by using the original)
Thank you for mentioning that, I had totally forgotten that Ren mentioned that in the Knox interview, I found a clip or him eluding to him using the sample someday in a future song, and the exact reason it meant so much to him!! ua-cam.com/video/BziMoV4H0bY/v-deo.htmlsi=KZnQybbdB2ODAnZs
Ren is a true warrior for all who struggle! I wish him all good things in the future and thank him for sharing his story! To so many he truly is that angel he speaks of ! Thank you for your sincere reaction ❤
Yup I moved to a rather cold area of Australia, we get below freezing often in winter here. My chronic illnesses do so much better here than when I lived in the desert
With great power comes great responsibility, and Ren is truly a hero! He is using his growing powers and platform for so much more than simply creating brilliant music. Ren has said that he always had this feeling that he was meant to change the world for the better. So much that he defiantly yelled a challenge to evil into an empty room. And then he got sick… Ren has now shared the full story of his health journey in 8 video chapters leading up to the release of this song and what a journey it has been. If anyone hasn’t already watched them, I highly recommend you do. With all the chapters he is showing immense strength in sharing his story that is so hard to tell, being vulnerable and telling it because he hopes it will help others and raise awareness. And here he is with another rendition of that story, now told through music with a fire beat and delivering a message of hope. A beautiful hero that the world needs ❤️🐰🕳️
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Thank you for showing love guys but please give all that love to Ren! He’s helping so many people very single day with his words. Thank you for watching with me ❤️
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Great you read the words flowing beneath the song.
Thanks for sharing it! 🫶
Very special messenger. So glad he finally found someone to listen. Never give up hope young person. Much love from an oldie but goodie. 🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️👵🏼
I've already watched Troubles the maximum amount of times from each device and account that UA-cam will count in a 24 hour period without thinking I'm trying to cheat the system. I'm not...I watched each and every time I streamed it, but I want all of my views to count. 😂 So I may as well spread the love to my fav reactors who have been respectful and helped spread Ren's music.
Also, "Lord I forgive you," is insane. Instant chills on top of the goosebumps I already had. How powerful is that, to say you forgive a higher power for abandoning you?
Moby used a sample from the same song, the original is by Vera Hall and it's called Trouble So Hard. You need to watch the chapters of his life which he has released over the last week for the whole story behind this song.
It's included as part of a Big Push mashup too. 'Wade in the Water'/'Trouble So Hard' and I think 'I'm Feeling Good'?
“This music I give you
Pain that I live through
Everything I been through
Is yours to hold”
This is one of the most beautiful lines in any of Ren’s songs, what a honour to allow us to hold onto something that is his when his illness has already taken so much from him.
LETS GOOO CLIFF
Yo thanks for showing love brother! Hope all is well with you and your loved ones 🙏
Ren’s asking if people who can afford it please purchase this song, to get it charting & spread the message of hope to more people who need to hear it.
I’m someone whose life has mirrored his, developing an unknown painful debilitating condition at age 19. I’m 57 now & unfortunately my story won’t likely have a happy ending. Ren gives me hope though, that something can be done for all of us living in the dark. 🕯️
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The song is $0.75 USD for this song.... we need to get this one on the charts to help Ren spread his message/hope!❤❤❤
Only .85 US. I ordered right away.
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After having listened to Ren's Chapter Series Intently and multiple times, this track just encapsulates his story so well and serves as musical accompaniment for The Chapters. Ren's experiences are very familiar to me to say the least, as is often the case with many of his supporters. Ren's success is so deserved and I do truly hope it continues. Ren is the medicine many of us need. Much Love and Great Reaction!
The sample is the original from Vera Hall 1937. He bought the rights to use it.
Yeah but Moby sampled the same song, so I can see why Cliff thought that, and Ren doesn't own the rights, he just paid to use the song, owned by Warner Music.
That stem cell Dr was in LA it has been shut down since he went, however he praised the Dr in his life in chapters, even if you don't react to it worth listening to.
That’s the original Vera Hall sample. Ren seems to love music from all genres and eras
Thank you. It was driving me crazy trying to place it.
Great breakdown as usual. The sample is from the original Vera Hall song "Trouble so Hard" Ren added his own mix to it. Ren mentioned this in the recent Knox Hill interview. Ren released a short vid on his YT channel On Ren's "Troubles, Turning the sample into a synth"
I suffered ptsd really bad i lived on the streets of London for 4yrs i was also suffering with untreated alcolism i tried to take my life & luckily with cpr im here today , ive been soba since, got a family & kids now , i love this channel so much cliff has the gift of making u feel we all sitting together massive respect 🙏 🫡
'A sample from Moby' .... You're so young! ;')
And Moby sampled it from a recording of a amazing woman in 1920s or 40s I think 😅 but it came from slaves songs sorry I’m having brain fog
@@fracker8258 Vera Hall 🫶
There isnt a single entertainer or influencer whose works i ever loved that i ever wanted to meet irl.
Except Ren.
I'd be thrilled to meet that dude.
I want to meet Ren, Tom MacDonald & NF so bad! I'd have so many questions for them.
I love the reaction as usual and the message. He drops plenty of music! Moby yes nice call, remix of Vera from the 40s. Moby video is dope too. I love Ren. You know I love your reactions. It was sad though you know more than all of those specialist just by this man filming in the cold bro! And you’re dead ass right! You gotta take care of himself until July hit the UK for a few shows then come here to the states and crack the Billboard charts and im here for it and I can’t effing wait. I remember the first time you reacted to him and you Hit the like button before you even watched Hi Ren and that you were mesmerized just like I was. And he got me on your channel which is awesome. Keep beating away cliff. He did get the stem cells in LA and then the doctor did it for free even though it was 25 because his son was struggling musician as well. Guess God finally answered so Ren forgave him. Wow that’s deep
Ren said it's a sample of the original Vera Hall song, not via Moby.
He uploaded a BTS clip on patreon of him making the part of the beat with the sample using some weird filters.
@@PBaka13 wish I could join his patreon
gone through some personal trauma and issues over the past few yrs.. nothing close to what this man or 9thers go through on a daily.. but this man has helped me so much just by indulging In his music and Interviews..
The fact that most reactors have chosen not to comment on his chapters leading up to this shows the integrity of the community. ❤️
We have been given a wonderful trust, and it's beautiful to see it being honored.
I agree. The chapters are too personal.
Yeah, there's one reactor who is new to Ren, and his first reaction got so many views that he has done reactions to every chapter. He doesn't add anything but speculation and pauses once in a while to summarize what Ren just said & then says, "that's craaaazy."
It rubs me wrong. I don't hold it against him. He's new and entitled to react to whatever is out there, but I've chosen not to watch his reactions to any of the Chapters out of respect for Ren.
It's one thing for reactors and artists to have a symbiotic relationship as Ren has with so many of them. It's another thing entirely to try to take advantage of something so serious for views and clicks. He may not be doing intentionally, which is why I won't hold it against him, but I just can't support it.
As someone who has many of the illnesses Ren also struggles with, I really appreciate anyone who is taking time to listen to Ren's story and talk about it. We need awareness and reactors are helping get those conversations going. There's no right or wrong way to take his story on board as long as people are being respectful of the vulnerability.
@MissMeKate I have no issues with anyone sharing his story and creating a safe space and discussions, raising awareness. That's not my issue. I don't even mind if someone wants to react to the Chapters as long as they do so in a way that facilitates all of those things. But you can tell when someone is genuine and trying to share the story and when they're using it for clicks. I won't hold it against any reactor for reacting to his story. But I won't support the ones that I feel are less than genuine.
Guys I love you all my Renegade brothers and sisters but I'm sure Ren would actually want all the reaction channels to share the Missing story chapters. It's all about raising awareness. He want this whole project to reach as many eyes and ears as possible. BTW I fucking Loooooovvveeee this new tune❤❤❤❤
This is an awesome track. I hope this blows up everywhere. He spoke about carving himself in one of his Chapter stories.
"Could you kiss it?!?" 😂😂😂 I'm dead man.
Having watched the 8 chapters of his life, I can assure you that I had to have tissues handy because I cried so much looking at the photos and listening to the songs attached at the end. - Thank you for these 20 minutes out of your busy life and paying homage to this wonderful human being.☮
I agree. It touched me deeply. I cried a lot. Both for him and for all the people suffering with these invisible illnesses. Sending love and light to everyone still suffering
I don’t know what took me so long to get on the Ren train, but I have recently started listening and I have truly become a Renegade! ❤
Welcome to the Reniverse! ❤
I have a VERY STRONG FEELING that Ren will donate most, if not all, of the money he obtains from this will go to funding these issues he spoke about.
I had lupus and fibromyalgia for 20 years before they finally figured it out. It was very frustrating hearing it was all in my head. I’ve been fighting cancer since 2018 and now it’s metastatic so there’s nothing much more they can do, but fortunately cancer patients have way more options than people with immunosuppression. They need to do more research in those illnesses and stop funding research for the fornication habits of turtles. Love Ren, so glad he’s coming back.
Kinda similar story here, I turned to alternative treatment with high dose Vitamine c infusions and frequency healing, cancer free now, fybromyalgia free, hope my story helps you. I still struggle but is manageable now.
This guy is relentless. Great guy and great reaction, Cliff! Much love from Brazil!
I live through chronic pain which waxes and wanes, hopping from Doctor to doctor took its toll, now I research and test things myself, and mitigate the pain by using my brain. The few doctors out there who actually care, are under great pressure to profit of holders of shares. It's a tragedy the way this world is built they can't see, the harm they cause constricts themselves and kin til no one is free.
Love the way he speaks for so many in pain. He brings us into the light.
Thank you for always being there for Ren. Always thoughtful and heartfelt. The song Trouble So Hard sung by Vera Hall in 1937 (song about slavery) has a lot of meaning to him. It was also the first song he sang that went viral. His best rap imo. 💞🌺🌹
Watching the Chapters gives you a whole new perspective and possibly reaction to his music you’ve previously reacted to, when listened in order with his spoken Chapters. 🫧🤍🕊️🥺🏴
I feel like I needed this today. I found out my mum has stage 4 pancreatic cancer this morning. I held in my emotions all day feeling I needed to be strong. But this gave me the reality check I needed. I needed to feel it and not bury the feelings. We will have her for around 12 months. So we will move forward. Thanks for doing this Cliff. 💕🙏
I am so sorry about your mom
I wish you, your mum and your family all the strength for what's ahead!! My dad had the same diagnosis ten years ago, almost exactly to the day. Make sure you have a support group of friends and family to get through this together. It will get very hard at times, so cherish all the moments with your mum🧡
Definitely watch all the chapters - cried alot, screamed by the lack of help he was receiving and how he was forced to find his own way out (one chapter he was told to find a hobby).
I just popped my youtube cherry and wrote my ever first comment to ren under this track and now that i got the hang of things i find myself here :-) I don´t want to overshare in telling my sad story. Let´s just say that i was missing for 6 years and nearly died and recently i came back to life. Rens music played a big role in this but i wanted to tell you that your are also a footnote in my journey. These days i am very cynical in regards to social media, content creators and reactors and to find someone (you) who i genuine believe to be honest, sensitive and thoughtful meant something to me. I deeply respect the way you take care of your community and the way you uplift others. So I wanted to let you know that you are appreciated. Consider yourself hugged from this german girl
This track is amazing for all manner of reasons, lyrics, beats, production, visuals, original sample, the message - thank you for supporting Ren & this new release & getting it out there further with your heartfelt reaction. Saw you pop up in the live, great to see there Cliff ❤
I hope everyone has been joining Ren for each chapter of his story and everything he went through in his search to be whole. I stop what I’m doing each time he puts out another chapter to listen. Not to be missed.
I needed Ren’s message so much, and I needed yours, too. Thanks so much, man. We love you! ✌️❤️
@CliffBeatsOfficial Great reaction and thank you for sharing some details of your health problems with us. I have my own health issues and I think Ren's songs mean so much to people like us because they tell how we are really treated by medical professionals. How we are accused of faking or exaggerating, how they push pills at us, then say we are drug seeking, and all the other negatives things people say. Ren doesn't hide how bad things can get, he lets us know it's not just us feeling that way and that we're not alone. His songs also give us a lot of hope, and hope is what we need ❤️
Didn't even realize this was Ren. I ju@t clicked cause Cliff is a good ass dude. BUT now that i know Ren feels like one of the most genuine artists of our generation i fuckin love it
The Chapters readings are like a short autobiographical film about the trajectory of his life before his diagnosis and useful treatment.
If a person finds them too heavy to watch, absolutely, don't watch them. If a reactor finds them too uncomfortable to put out a reaction to, or if vlogs/documentary material isn't what they want to do on their channel, perfectly fine. If a fan finds it uncomfortable to watch someone ELSE react to Ren's story, also fine.
But Ren put this out there to bring awareness to ME/POTS/PANDAS/MCAS/Lyme etc, during ME Awareness Month; the ME Awareness Month hashtag is #MillionsMissing, or #Missing for short, like his lyric - "Posters up, manhunt, Ren went missing."
He and others have changed their social media profile pictures to the Missing graphic to help spread awareness.
He's also said he feels a responsibility to use his platform to spread awareness about these illnesses, and knowing how much hype he gets within the reaction channel community, he specifically put his readings out on UA-cam. All he aaked is that we respect the privacy and solitude of the people involved in his story, and that we respect his solitude.
Reacting to his readings doesn't violate those requests; reacting to his readings spreads desperately needed awareness.
Again, I have no interest in throwing shade on anyone who's not comfortable watching the story, uploading reactions to the story, or watching reactions to the story.
But sharing it as far and wide as it can reach by any means, is the point.
Love to all Renegades, no matter what your feelings are on the matter. ❤
Thank you for helping Ren share this message. All those of us struggling with the illnesses he mentions are so grateful to be seen for once. ❤️
Respect for your attitude toward his story! ❤
Thanks Cliff again, he grew up not too far from me, although im a lot older! He keeps me going as im still pushing for help after 20 years of disablement and suddenly developing epilepsy with no reason. If send him a message, he always reads it! Incredible Man! Love to Ren and Cliff!
Ren's music found me at a time when I really needed it. I've gone from oblivious to a hardcore Renegade over the last year. I myself went through about 17 yrs of misdiagnosis, wrong treatments, giving up on my dreams, unemployment etc. Finding his story and his music inspired me to start writing music again and practicing singing and playing again after nearly a decade hiatus with only a few exceptions. Thanks for showing more love to an artist who is genuinely making a difference in people's lives!
Cold plunges have become popular for a good reason.
Watching his videos on hist struggle was fucking tough man. It was also inspiring and heart warming. He is also a great story teller, he just sucks you in, leaving you wanting more with an a hurting heart and a head full of hope.
REN- TROUBLES
[Intro: Vera Hall]
Ooh Lordy, troubles so hard
Repeating
[Verse]
I don't reach into the past very much
For these shards of shattered glass and harsh paper cuts
Leave me stuck when I reach in memories are seeped in hydrochloric acid
I go to war and get passive and freeze up
But music helped the ice to thaw
Put a chisel in the middle swing the hammer of Thor
Pull it out of the impossible, excalibur sword
Etching note pads full of reasons why my feelings arе sore
The first day that I got sick ejеcted from cockpit of living
Nineteen, young teen, waking up bitten
Posters up, manhunt, Ren went missing
Hard to have faith when the gods don't listen
The first year maybe was the hardest
Waking in a body that was buried like a carcass
Brain in the lions den, body in a shark pit
Waking up in pain again, aching, brokenhearted
Persistent little bugger I was bouncing from a doctor
To a doctor to a doctor like a table tennis game that has no end
So be the fate of Ren
Every single question answered with a question on the end
The second year I came to terms with giving up my dreams
Mind was severed from the means that helped me write these rhyme schemes
Brain was inflamed. the fatigue was crushing
Hard to remain sane with your brain combusting
And the third year was murder, living in a purga-
Tory full of worry, wouldn't live to be thirty
Lifestyle hurt me, always in my bed tomb
Re-arrange the alphabet and all the letters spell "doom"
Light hurt my eyes, popping pills to survive
When you're twenty-three and mentally you steadily decline
Twenty-four I was poor, disability benefits
What's the benefit of disability? It's irrelevant
Twenty-five and the scars that were etched, they cracked
Elastic bands only stretch so far and then snap
Deep in psychosis, hallucinations, troubled vision
Visits from the underworld were conjuring my superstition
Twenty-five, living back at home with my mum
But not because I'm a bum, alone and physically done
So thin, so frail, so weak I'd become
And my skin so pale, never kissed by the Sun
One time I carved a whole in my chest, just to feel
I wish that was a metaphor, the struggle was real
When you're living in a holocaust you buckle and kneel
There's relief in the teeth of the kiss of cold steel
Facts, twenty-six I'm highly medicated and the pain sophisticated
While I'm laying broke and naked on my back
I brought my microphone into my coffin, started droppin'
Raw thoughts with the grim reaper knocking on the track
Then man, lo and behold
I heard an angel beckon on this treacherous road
Was a stem cell doctor with a generous glow
And a cell transplant brought me out of the cold
And my skin got younger and my body got stronger
And my stomach felt hunger for a door that was closed
And my soul heard music for the first time
Beauty was a word I'd use for this gift of gold
Oh Lord, I forgive you, Lord I forgive you
Lord, I forgive you, make me whole
This music I give you, pain that I live through
Everything I've been through is yours to hold
Hey Cliff ❤ Great reaction! Love this song and the message. Ren's lyrics are so poetic, he can make the saddest, most terrible things sound beautiful.
Dude! You are the only other person I’ve seen that prays for the sirens that sound. ❤ your soul. Thanks for your videos. Ren is a movement of love and inspiration.
P.S. - I’ve suffered from Fibromyalgia/Chronic Pain/CFS/ Cervical Dystonia (neurological involuntary movement disorder) for 25 years. And this past Christmas kicked cancer’s ass. Sober 4 years and still I have found love and peace in the God I’ve come to love and understand. Hang on - people love you. People care. You matter. YOU ARE ENOUGH.
If you want to learn about that sample I recommend Disco Doc's reaction (just to watch). Doc goes deep. The original is Vera Hall. 🥰
Your offer to anyone suffering to reach out is heart warming. Although I never would, your offer brought tears to my eyes. Thank you.
Cliff the world also needs more people like you brother, not just Ren. Originally i came here for Ren reactions and i stayed because of you bro. Appreciate you!
I have Fibromyalgia and CPS and for years it was stress, hypertension and the drs i saw all put their own spin on it, costing more money and wasted appointments. Where you come out wanting to end it all!!! Ren you are a diamond 💎 and Cliff you are lovely ❤
I have connective tissue disease and fybro myalgia that began to show when i was 24 years old now, gotten worse every year. Had my prime stolen and am in pain 25 hours a day. I am 33 now and still haven't come to terms with it. This song hitting differently here.
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I respect your desire to keep his story his. I also respect those sharing it as I think it needs to be shared. Both are fair.
Ren is a true gift to the world. This song is amazing 💜💜
Cliff, I just want to say how much I appreciate you as a compassionate human being. I also love your loyalty to Ren and those of us who find Ren the most important guy in music, in a long, long time. I always look for your reactions first, and find them the best.
I feel this. My wife suffers from Endometriosis and it's a struggle everyday. She has something else going on autoimmune but no doctors can find out what she is dealing with. Randomly spikes fevers and is stuck in bed all day long. Happens at least once a month where she is not feeling well for a few days.
@@upnorth7366 she has not but thank you we will have her tested. They did an avise test and her ANA kept coming back as speckled positive on low side
What a message Ren, what a message Cliff. Thank you both for spreading hope and strength. 🙏🏼👍🏼✌🏼
I thought it was a Moby clip too, but check this out, after seeing a few people comment that Ren sampled it straight from Vera Hall, I remember Ren uploaded a random clip from the Knox interview about 2 weeks ago, talking about how the line from "Trouble So Hard" hit home with him and he wanted to sample it in a future song..... "Don't nobody know my trouble but God".
BTW, Moby did sample the same song, so I see why Cliff, and me, thought that. Fun Fact, Moby's real last name is Hall.
Here's the Knox/Ren clip... ua-cam.com/video/BziMoV4H0bY/v-deo.htmlsi=KZnQybbdB2ODAnZs
Go to Ren makes stuff and watch his story, read by Ren, 8 chapters. So worth a watch and puts everything into perspective. Not one to react to, just listen.
love ren and this was a powerful message. who cares if you paused during it to get out things .. if ppl don't like it too bad it's a reaction for a reason. you are one of the best
The song is so amazing!! As someone who has listened to his whole discography more times than I can count, I feel like I already knew the majority of his story, but it was so awesome getting to hear it in its full context straight from him! Much love, Cliff! ❤
I want to hear what you have to say. Ive watched Rens videos on hid channel and will again. I always find your words worth hearing.
Sooo good. I feel like the Raw Thoughts was a nod to Webby
Beautifully astute reaction Cliff, as always. I suffer several of the same conditions and Ren is absolutely what we need to bring awareness. This video was also incredibly shot, its so beautiful, he gets more amazing every day, both as an artist and a beacon of light. ❤❤❤xx
Thank u brother for sharing some of story❤ great reaction
I love reactors. Thank you for seeing the line at the songs. I naturally avoided reactions titled "chapter". Much love ❤️ Sue
The song essentially is the musical version of his ‘chapters’ series (1-8).
Please watch them just to see the entire story.
I love the use of Vera Halls ‘Trouble so hard’ sample (which Moby also has used)
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I always love your reactions. What an important song this is!
Have to dispute the cold being helpful- perhaps if not from a cold area it might shock you out it a bit but living in calgary for 30years, i can state that the cold definitely exacerbates my fibro flares and absolutely sets off debilitating pain//end rant. Loved your breakdown of this fantastic song.
What a beautiful message of AWARENESS and HOPE.
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Thank you for speaking out on the benefits of cold to reboot the nervous system. As a TripleA human (Autism, ADHD, and Anxiety), it took me DECADES to learn that trick and it helps SO MUCH...when I'm overloaded and melting down, when I have an anxiety or panic attack...and when my MCAS flares, when the POTS dysautonomia kicks in...cold is so helpful. I live where it's humid AF, so I keep a stock of chemical ice packs on hand...and highly suggest that people reach for some ice whenever you're struggling...even if it's not a diagnosed condition...it's a great grounding tool even if there's no clinical need for it.
Another meaning to the “brain combusting” line could also be from the neuropathy that Lyme causes. It feels like fire on your skin. I got diagnosed in January with Lyme and Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever from a tick I found on me. I have been a Ren fan for about two years but now I relate to his music on a whole other level. This is a horrible disease.
I often struggle to come up with a good comment to leave and not just on this channel but want to help people on UA-cam.
Saw ya there Cliff. Such a great song! Sorry to hear about your friends mom.
Thank you Cliff Beats for your reaction. ❤
Thank you Cliff... there are a few reactors that have decided to react to Ren's personal chapter, but all the quality Reactors have all made the conscious decision not to benefit from those messages. Kudos to you sir. Respect.
Not to trauma dump but I’m 44 on Thursday and the CPTSD I have from childhood abuse, sa, mental health issues, and anorexia will never leave me. I always am told to write a book but I don’t have the courage. just this is to say watching another like ren gives me hope for my sons and their kids that it won’t be as taboo as it was for me growing up to be mentally unwell.
I few people here in the comments know my mom passed in a car accident 2 weeks ago. I needed this from Ren. I’m struggling to stay sober. His message of hope is something I need carry around with me. A lot of what he said I relate with. Hurting yourself just feel alive. Popping pills to numb the pain. I hate this life sometimes and then I hear this. Ren doesn’t know me Cliff doesn’t know me but they help me more than they will ever know.
I may very well lose my fight. If I do lose that fight I’ve had you guys have given me some peace right now.
Sorry for rambling guys.
The Missing Chapters(8 of them) are really amazing to listen, hear, and understand. Truly brings context and clarity to this track.
Great reaction. Diagnosed with Ankylosing Spondylitis at the age of 32 I am 52 now. People were saying I was lazy and crazy in the head. I still hear small talk around my town that I don't deserve disability. Like disability is some gold standard or something. Disability is bullshit. They only say that because they have no clue what its like to live from month to month and barely making ends meet, plus treatments every 6 weeks just to have a little flashlight of hope to live through the pain everyday
Always the first Ren reaction I come to ❤
Still the nicest man on the internet
Much love from Scotland 🏴
Absolutely love you and your channel sending you love and blessings from the UK x
Thanks Cliff…. Beautiful Ren. ❤️
The video you mentioned was seen by the Doctor who offered him the stem cell treatment. - his third Angel - Chapter 6 or 7 @renmakesstuff
4:47 also with his health condition ME, the community call ourselves the “Millions Missing” because life forgets about us and we’re missing from life. It’s a cool nod to all the other “Missing” people with ME
Thank you Cliff….always love to watch your Ren reactions 💜🔥
LFG!❤
Wish her the best of luck when it hits the brain it's a matter of time no fixing it. Lost 2 members from the same thing. Prayers!
Every Song is different but always tells a story
As a kid, I didn't have too many opportunities to be a kid. My mom developed fibromyalgia when I was 5 and with my dad working 12hr nights, It was up to my sisters and me to help her during the day as best as we could. This was our life for 7 years while her pain just continued to get worse and worse until the depression and a Rx took her from us when I was 12. Now here I am about to turn 30 and I'm beginning to show potential early signs of fybro myself which would terrify me were it not for finding someone like Ren over a year ago. I only wish my mom could have been here to experience his music and advocacy because maybe it could have done for her what it has done for me.
dont apologize for [ausing its one of the things i love about your videos. you give so much more content then the vids your react to keep up the great work brother
I had 2 doctors say that I wasnt taking my 2 seizure meds on time. I wanted to yell at them, Do you think I want to have seizures?! Luckily the ones I have lasts only a second. I was having up to 30 per day before meds. Now, some days I'll have 5. Although really really annoying, I'll take 5 over 30. If you know about " Possum running over your grave", and have a sudden shake will know what it's like. A hiccup is a myoclonic shock. Quick.
4:47 For me this line hit like a suckerpunch because that's how it feels. The person you were before just disappears and you genuinely just feel like a shell of who you were. I'm still trying to find the bit of me I lost when I started getting sick.
Ren actually used a sample direct from Vera Hall's track, not from Moby's sample, and has manipulated it/changed the pitch etc. The song has always meant a great deal to Ren and so he wanted to pay tribute to the original (by using the original)
Thank you for mentioning that, I had totally forgotten that Ren mentioned that in the Knox interview, I found a clip or him eluding to him using the sample someday in a future song, and the exact reason it meant so much to him!! ua-cam.com/video/BziMoV4H0bY/v-deo.htmlsi=KZnQybbdB2ODAnZs
Much Love Brother, the size of your heart is seriously inspiring
Its frowned upon in the states because it can actually help and they wouldn't be able to continually make money off you
Ren is a true warrior for all who struggle! I wish him all good things in the future and thank him for sharing his story! To so many he truly is that angel he speaks of ! Thank you for your sincere reaction ❤
You are young! Is Vera Hall .I love your reaction!
Yup I moved to a rather cold area of Australia, we get below freezing often in winter here. My chronic illnesses do so much better here than when I lived in the desert
With great power comes great responsibility, and Ren is truly a hero! He is using his growing powers and platform for so much more than simply creating brilliant music. Ren has said that he always had this feeling that he was meant to change the world for the better. So much that he defiantly yelled a challenge to evil into an empty room. And then he got sick…
Ren has now shared the full story of his health journey in 8 video chapters leading up to the release of this song and what a journey it has been. If anyone hasn’t already watched them, I highly recommend you do. With all the chapters he is showing immense strength in sharing his story that is so hard to tell, being vulnerable and telling it because he hopes it will help others and raise awareness. And here he is with another rendition of that story, now told through music with a fire beat and delivering a message of hope. A beautiful hero that the world needs ❤️🐰🕳️
So much respect ❤ feel this one deeply!!
I’m in the same position as him. Nobody listens to me. They prescribe me crap. Nope!!!