It’s totally alright to feel like your life’s either a mess or is feeling directionless. I always talk openly about my own struggles with mental health, so I’m very conscious of trying not to bore or repeat myself (sorry if I do!). But take it from someone who has always had a lot of anxiety and depression, it can be so easy to fall into the trap of constantly second-guessing every single little thing you do, for fear of making the wrong decisions. Yes, some decisions we make ARE the wrong ones, but at least we make them. Life’s a lot of choices and “leaps of faith”, but rarely does it give us second chances. So, I sincerely hope things work out well with your ex-boyfriend, college, gap year, UA-cam or anything else you end up doing. I have a feeling you’re going to be alright in the end.😀👍
Yes I think you should do more of this always do what feels good for you it's what your meant to be doing. It will help people much more because its real.
This video is an excellent recapitulation of your situation and current condition. Everything you say makes sense and is relatable. You speak of multiple complex issues. Long Distance Relationships (LDR) can be the most challenging relationships. All relationships, short distance and long distance, require a long-term commitment of time through the emotional ups and downs of life. Derealization (DR) is a mental state where you feel detached from your surroundings. People and objects around you may seem unreal. Even so, you’re aware that this altered state isn’t normal. More than half of all people may have this disconnection from reality once in their lifetime. But about 1% of people have it often enough for it to become an ongoing issue. Derealization is similar but distinct from depersonalization (DP). Derealization causes you to feel disconnected from the world around you. Depersonalization causes you to feel disconnected from your own body, thoughts, and feelings. It’s like you’re watching what’s happening to yourself as an outsider. Talking about your feelings of DR and DP can be therapeutic if you listen to yourself as you express your thoughts and feelings out loud. It also helps others with same feelings. According to Jungian deep analysis psychology, everybody without exception experiences childhood trauma due to varying degrees from mild to severe of neglect or abandonment by parents and/or varying degrees from mild to severe of some type of abuse by parents and significant others, and everyone has to process their trauma issues in their own way on their own schedules. It's a very private matter and can sometimes benefit from professional mental heath care. Hope you overcome your dysphoria soon. Take care. Have fun. Best wishes.
I think I can relate a little to what you’re going through. School has stressed me out now that I’m in high school and I’ve had a lot of problems in my personal life I felt alone for almost a year because I shut everyone out due to fear that they wouldn’t understand and that’s just made me hate school more
Hi, your overtaking and very hard on your self. You deserve what you have because you put your heart in to what you do, and people can see this which is why your subscribers shot up.Most people who have not likes or done well at school have ended up doing very well in life. Follow your heart.
I can relate to you. For me, life doesn't feel real when I've lost myself and who I am as a person. It might be the same for you. Stress and tiredness make me not enjoy the things I normally would enjoy in life, which is how I lose myself. Maybe try doing your favourite hobbies more, it might make life feel a bit more real. At least it works for me 🤷♂️
Sometimes, the choices we perceive as bad can unexpectedly lead us to a beautiful path, if we’re patient and attentive enough to see it. I think the beauty of life often lies in those delicate moments, in the small or big pains that, when faced with courage, can open the door to something greater. Because sometimes, opportunities hide in the places we least expect.
I understand what your going through- I have had so much shit it my life you wouldn’t believe 🥲 but we have to be strong mate - things will get better we have to believe in ourselves ❤
Happiness is within your grasp. Happiness is what is inside of you. You manifest it yourself. He made a decision that was the best decision at the time. Doesn’t mean it’s forever, but there was a reason why you made the decision and I think you need to acknowledge this. I’m certain you’re lonely. I’m certain you’re hurting. It’s the worst feeling ever. I know you’re struggling Leon. Focus on you and today and where you’re going, and not where you’ve been. Just because you’re walking in a different direction doesn’t mean the path won’t lead back to the same place. Try to enjoy what you’re doing in life now. Be around friends who love you, get involved in groups and meet new people. This is the time when you’re young to do your experimenting with life. Get out of your own way and be gentle with yourself. It seems you are your own worst critic and that’s destructive my friend. Find a path away from that. ❤
I often feel like this too, I mean I often don't feel like my life is real, I often feel like I live in a dream and I will wake up and it will be the same as it is normally but now I don't even know what is considered normal in my life, a few years ago it was more clear, my life was much better, there wasn't so much chaos but now I'm often confused and lost, plus I feel like the time is getting faster and faster, it's almost December but I feel like the school year has just started, and I genuinely don't know where that time went. I feel like I'm missing something and I don't know what it is, I feel like something's not complete. I cried so much today and I don't even know why, maybe it was because I was analysing my emotions and my life so much or maybe something else. I also struggle with feeling motivation and pleasure from things, I just don't see a purpose in doing them. It comes like waves and sometimes I feel like this so much and sometimes I don't feel like this at all. But I really hate this feeling. It already got better than maybe a few months ago but I still feel this feeling. I just hope that in the future it will become more clear and my life will finally feel good and complete. And I hope your life will get better too ☺️. And I have to say that I really liked this form of video, it would be definitely nice to make more videos like this, especially if you like making this type of videos!
Hello! I just have to say - I came across your channel completely by accident and have really enjoyed listening to your stories and thoughts. I'm so sorry you're going through a hard time rn, this sucks. But if my message can help in any way, I sincerely hope that your situation and mood will improve and your plans will work out. You give me the impression of a kind person who likes what he does so... continue doing it! And we will fully support you! Also, intrusive thoughts are normal, but the most important thing is to be able to express them to someone. At the very least yourself. Neath me or anybody else probably can understand what you personally feel at the moment, but I can say that I went through a similar thing, and yet again, it's suck and feels unfair, perhaps it is. But you know what? You're gonna be stronger and greater in time, I hope your path to this will be easier. And one more important thing I wanted to mention: The UA-cam thing? The “I deserve more” and then “I don’t deserve this, I should work harder”? Freaking nailed it man. Totallt xactly the same, I’ve had a YT channel for several years and it’s always bothered me, that it didn’t bring any good results. When the results appeared, I began to get angry with myself that I didn’t have time to devote to it and continue when something finally started to work out. That is ok. It's just needs time. Just... do what you love. And make some space in ur time for this. Not necessarily often, but regularly. And if you really love what you do and chasing your dreams, in time... I believe you will do great things! Wishing you good luck with this.
The word that keeps coming up is College. When you started college, life as you knew it was interrupted by the unknowns of a world u weren't living in before. You had your life in order, for better or worse, but you were dealing with it, and suddenly everything in your comfort zone was in a state of disarray. Your personal life with the independence, a relationship, everything you knew and did was suddenly sort of scrambled. If you don't like the college your going to right now, you can always change schools. And a gap year isn't a bad idea either. It gives you the freedom you never had when you were in school, to gather your thoughts and plan and make decisions on your future. I think when we leave high school and go straight to college, maybe we don't realize that we don't take care of ourselves and have no time to start building who you're going to be tomorrow and the day after. To me you seem overwhelmed which creates stress which creates maybe bad decisions and confusion and depression. The most important thing in your life is you, yourself, your dreams, your desires, relationships, and sort of a blueprint to follow for your future. Try stepping back, and take a look at who you are and what you want. You're rocking the YT vids, and that can be a release for you when things seem to be out of control. Come here, talk about how you feel, what you want and allow yourself the freedom to examine what you want, how it will fit in your life, and how and who you want in your life to help you make some of the decisions your on the fence about. It seems overwhelming now, but if you allow yourself the freedom to work towards becoming what you want and who you want to be, then you can start building from there. You're smart, articulate, talented and pretty popular here. Rant, rage, but also listen and take a breath and follow your heart. The most important thing in your life is YOU, and you're full of life and everything that goes with that. Sometimes we are our own worst enemies until we just decide one day, you've had enough of this, and take that step towards the life you want and deserve. Sorry for the length, my 2 cents turn into like $1.57. Just know you've got this, and you can do this. And never be afraid to vent when you need to. People will hear you and maybe just have the answer you're looking for.
yup, questioning … its a thing its a luxury humans have over, say, fish. the ability to think and learn at a high level. remember how impt vocabulary is. because we think using words, and then build ideas with them, so definitions matter, and being specific matters so when you say things dont “feel” real, well the issue is: the facts of reality (what you ‘think’ about reality) not your nerves (what you ‘feel’ about the facts of reality) talk facts, not feels. your job is to learn the true facts about a thing. and then learn how to deal with the facts (the truth, the whole truth. and nothing but the truth) (its a great old saying) another thing is the difference between your internal world vs the larger external world. those are, often, obviously, two different things. for example you internally might think that there should be, say, no homeless people, yet in the external world there is homelessness, (because of big social, economic, political reasons). (and you dont run a shelter/hospital/food kitchen/school for confused people, so you really cant fix a homeless person, let alone fix all the homelessness in the city. so you gotta deal with that harsh fact of reality i say that ‘feelings’ are a persons internal world trying to balance out the differences between their internal world vs the external world. like surfing a moving wave, it takes skill in your internal world you might be the worlds greatest youtuber, but in the external world you might be a college student dreaming about going viral your feelings have to surf the waves of those two worlds thats all
Wait you broke up and then you wanted him back?🤔 I made that mistake once but when the girl I wanted to marry and I didn't end up together my previous girlfriend wanted me back. So we got back together. Bro college is taking a lot of time because it's one of the first steps into adulthood. But in your previous video you said you're loosing a lot of college. Bro don't do that you'll fall far behind and you won't be able to catch up. Concentrate focus Leon. I can't believe it you talked about suicide? Don't think that way all situations have a solution buddy. Good video and cool video Leon!🤗
Leon, beautiful episode from a thoughtful beautiful gentle young man. First off, you think and possibly overthink everything you do. You cannot overthink life, especially the parts you never lived through before. We ALL have made impulsive decisions only to regret them later. Fortunately, you realized you made a huge mistake and asked to be forgiven. In gay jargon, we call this being a drama queen. Being so caught up in the emotional roller coaster of our life and wallowing in the shear emotional depth of out feelings until you wake up and realize this is just me and myself and l threw away the potential objectivity of another person who cares about ME! So, another lesson learned in the owner's manual of Living Leon's Life. Nothing is harder than saying l made the wrong choice. Forgive me. Help me become a better person and l will do the same for you. I love you and l need you in my life like food, water and air. Notice me first and l will notice you as well. (It is off topic but l love digressions). Each month your face matures. In a few years, THE UNBREAKABLE STUD will be a certified stud muffin twink. Very edible.
Leon THE SEX Kennedy. Jokes aside, dude, life is a rollercoaster. It's the best way to put it. You won't remember every single bump in the ride because you're so focused on what's coming up next. Sometimes you gotta consciously pause and take it all in. Sounds like you got a lot on your plate right now which is definitely working wonders for you /s. Still, try and take it one day at a time instead, because at the end of the day, that's all you can really do. No point in worrying about tomorrow and next week, and the upcoming whatever, when waking up the following day isn't even garanteed for anyone. Experience comes with years and honestly you don't look that old, but your thoughts alone show you at least have good reasoning to get a good idea of life. Your video appeared at random and honestly I can resonate the feeling. Sorry that this got so long, I rarely comment let alone about something like this. But just wanted to let you know to give it a little bit of time, and that you got this even if it doesn't feel that way. Cheers mate. 👍
Is there any reason you can't get back together with that person? If you feel that strongly. Sounds like a good decision about college to get some form of education under your belt.
Just know we are here to help you Leon we id you need to talk dm me if you need to vent dm me if you just need to smile dm me seriously im here if you need me 😊😊don’t panic I will help you as much as I can
Just know we are here to help you Leon we id you need to talk dm me if you need to vent dm me if you just need to smile dm me seriously im here if you need me 😊😊don’t panic I will help you as much as I can
This video was so raw and relatable, I honestly started crying. I'm always here for you Leon ❤️
Thank you for sharing your heart with us. Your honesty in these videos is so pure and it's helping others.
It’s totally alright to feel like your life’s either a mess or is feeling directionless. I always talk openly about my own struggles with mental health, so I’m very conscious of trying not to bore or repeat myself (sorry if I do!). But take it from someone who has always had a lot of anxiety and depression, it can be so easy to fall into the trap of constantly second-guessing every single little thing you do, for fear of making the wrong decisions. Yes, some decisions we make ARE the wrong ones, but at least we make them. Life’s a lot of choices and “leaps of faith”, but rarely does it give us second chances. So, I sincerely hope things work out well with your ex-boyfriend, college, gap year, UA-cam or anything else you end up doing. I have a feeling you’re going to be alright in the end.😀👍
Yes I think you should do more of this always do what feels good for you it's what your meant to be doing. It will help people much more because its real.
This video is an excellent recapitulation of your situation and current condition. Everything you say makes sense and is relatable. You speak of multiple complex issues.
Long Distance Relationships (LDR) can be the most challenging relationships. All relationships, short distance and long distance, require a long-term commitment of time through the emotional ups and downs of life.
Derealization (DR) is a mental state where you feel detached from your surroundings. People and objects around you may seem unreal. Even so, you’re aware that this altered state isn’t normal. More than half of all people may have this disconnection from reality once in their lifetime. But about 1% of people have it often enough for it to become an ongoing issue.
Derealization is similar but distinct from depersonalization (DP). Derealization causes you to feel disconnected from the world around you. Depersonalization causes you to feel disconnected from your own body, thoughts, and feelings. It’s like you’re watching what’s happening to yourself as an outsider.
Talking about your feelings of DR and DP can be therapeutic if you listen to yourself as you express your thoughts and feelings out loud. It also helps others with same feelings.
According to Jungian deep analysis psychology, everybody without exception experiences childhood trauma due to varying degrees from mild to severe of neglect or abandonment by parents and/or varying degrees from mild to severe of some type of abuse by parents and significant others, and everyone has to process their trauma issues in their own way on their own schedules. It's a very private matter and can sometimes benefit from professional mental heath care.
Hope you overcome your dysphoria soon.
Take care. Have fun. Best wishes.
I think I can relate a little to what you’re going through. School has stressed me out now that I’m in high school and I’ve had a lot of problems in my personal life I felt alone for almost a year because I shut everyone out due to fear that they wouldn’t understand and that’s just made me hate school more
Hi, your overtaking and very hard on your self. You deserve what you have because you put your heart in to what you do, and people can see this which is why your subscribers shot up.Most people who have not likes or done well at school have ended up doing very well in life. Follow your heart.
I love your openness and honesty
I can relate to you. For me, life doesn't feel real when I've lost myself and who I am as a person. It might be the same for you. Stress and tiredness make me not enjoy the things I normally would enjoy in life, which is how I lose myself. Maybe try doing your favourite hobbies more, it might make life feel a bit more real. At least it works for me 🤷♂️
great video Leon
Sometimes, the choices we perceive as bad can unexpectedly lead us to a beautiful path, if we’re patient and attentive enough to see it. I think the beauty of life often lies in those delicate moments, in the small or big pains that, when faced with courage, can open the door to something greater. Because sometimes, opportunities hide in the places we least expect.
I understand what your going through- I have had so much shit it my life you wouldn’t believe 🥲 but we have to be strong mate - things will get better we have to believe in ourselves ❤
You deserve love, you deserve happiness, you deserve safeness. You are a human being and you deserve it ❤❤ We love you Leon
Happiness is within your grasp. Happiness is what is inside of you. You manifest it yourself. He made a decision that was the best decision at the time. Doesn’t mean it’s forever, but there was a reason why you made the decision and I think you need to acknowledge this. I’m certain you’re lonely. I’m certain you’re hurting. It’s the worst feeling ever. I know you’re struggling Leon. Focus on you and today and where you’re going, and not where you’ve been. Just because you’re walking in a different direction doesn’t mean the path won’t lead back to the same place. Try to enjoy what you’re doing in life now. Be around friends who love you, get involved in groups and meet new people. This is the time when you’re young to do your experimenting with life. Get out of your own way and be gentle with yourself. It seems you are your own worst critic and that’s destructive my friend. Find a path away from that. ❤
I often feel like this too, I mean I often don't feel like my life is real, I often feel like I live in a dream and I will wake up and it will be the same as it is normally but now I don't even know what is considered normal in my life, a few years ago it was more clear, my life was much better, there wasn't so much chaos but now I'm often confused and lost, plus I feel like the time is getting faster and faster, it's almost December but I feel like the school year has just started, and I genuinely don't know where that time went. I feel like I'm missing something and I don't know what it is, I feel like something's not complete. I cried so much today and I don't even know why, maybe it was because I was analysing my emotions and my life so much or maybe something else. I also struggle with feeling motivation and pleasure from things, I just don't see a purpose in doing them. It comes like waves and sometimes I feel like this so much and sometimes I don't feel like this at all. But I really hate this feeling. It already got better than maybe a few months ago but I still feel this feeling. I just hope that in the future it will become more clear and my life will finally feel good and complete. And I hope your life will get better too ☺️. And I have to say that I really liked this form of video, it would be definitely nice to make more videos like this, especially if you like making this type of videos!
Hello!
I just have to say - I came across your channel completely by accident and have really enjoyed listening to your stories and thoughts. I'm so sorry you're going through a hard time rn, this sucks. But if my message can help in any way, I sincerely hope that your situation and mood will improve and your plans will work out. You give me the impression of a kind person who likes what he does so... continue doing it! And we will fully support you!
Also, intrusive thoughts are normal, but the most important thing is to be able to express them to someone. At the very least yourself. Neath me or anybody else probably can understand what you personally feel at the moment, but I can say that I went through a similar thing, and yet again, it's suck and feels unfair, perhaps it is. But you know what? You're gonna be stronger and greater in time, I hope your path to this will be easier.
And one more important thing I wanted to mention:
The UA-cam thing? The “I deserve more” and then “I don’t deserve this, I should work harder”? Freaking nailed it man. Totallt xactly the same, I’ve had a YT channel for several years and it’s always bothered me, that it didn’t bring any good results. When the results appeared, I began to get angry with myself that I didn’t have time to devote to it and continue when something finally started to work out. That is ok. It's just needs time. Just... do what you love. And make some space in ur time for this. Not necessarily often, but regularly. And if you really love what you do and chasing your dreams, in time... I believe you will do great things!
Wishing you good luck with this.
Look into DP/DR. I help many who suffer through it via hypnosis. I experienced it myself--it's very unpleasant to say the least.
The word that keeps coming up is College. When you started college, life as you knew it was interrupted by the unknowns of a world u weren't living in before. You had your life in order, for better or worse, but you were dealing with it, and suddenly everything in your comfort zone was in a state of disarray. Your personal life with the independence, a relationship, everything you knew and did was suddenly sort of scrambled. If you don't like the college your going to right now, you can always change schools. And a gap year isn't a bad idea either. It gives you the freedom you never had when you were in school, to gather your thoughts and plan and make decisions on your future. I think when we leave high school and go straight to college, maybe we don't realize that we don't take care of ourselves and have no time to start building who you're going to be tomorrow and the day after. To me you seem overwhelmed which creates stress which creates maybe bad decisions and confusion and depression. The most important thing in your life is you, yourself, your dreams, your desires, relationships, and sort of a blueprint to follow for your future. Try stepping back, and take a look at who you are and what you want. You're rocking the YT vids, and that can be a release for you when things seem to be out of control. Come here, talk about how you feel, what you want and allow yourself the freedom to examine what you want, how it will fit in your life, and how and who you want in your life to help you make some of the decisions your on the fence about. It seems overwhelming now, but if you allow yourself the freedom to work towards becoming what you want and who you want to be, then you can start building from there. You're smart, articulate, talented and pretty popular here. Rant, rage, but also listen and take a breath and follow your heart. The most important thing in your life is YOU, and you're full of life and everything that goes with that. Sometimes we are our own worst enemies until we just decide one day, you've had enough of this, and take that step towards the life you want and deserve. Sorry for the length, my 2 cents turn into like $1.57. Just know you've got this, and you can do this. And never be afraid to vent when you need to. People will hear you and maybe just have the answer you're looking for.
Love hurts 🤕💔🐧🍏🍎💙
you need a 25 hour day. probably we all do. it will never happen, though.
Relatable
yup, questioning … its a thing
its a luxury humans have over, say, fish.
the ability to think and learn at a high level.
remember how impt vocabulary is.
because we think using words,
and then build ideas with them,
so definitions matter,
and
being specific matters
so when you say
things dont “feel” real,
well
the issue is:
the facts of reality
(what you ‘think’ about reality)
not
your nerves
(what you ‘feel’ about the facts of reality)
talk facts, not feels.
your job is to learn the true facts about a thing. and then learn how to deal with the facts
(the truth, the whole truth. and nothing but the truth)
(its a great old saying)
another thing is
the difference between
your internal world
vs
the larger external world.
those
are, often,
obviously,
two different things.
for example
you internally might think
that there should be,
say,
no homeless people,
yet
in the external world
there is homelessness,
(because of big social, economic, political reasons).
(and you dont run a shelter/hospital/food kitchen/school for confused people, so you really cant fix a homeless person, let alone fix all the homelessness in the city. so you gotta deal with that harsh fact of reality
i say that
‘feelings’
are
a persons internal world trying to
balance out
the differences between
their internal world
vs
the external world.
like surfing a moving wave,
it takes skill
in your internal world you might be the worlds greatest youtuber, but in the external world you might be a college student dreaming about going viral
your feelings have to surf the waves
of those two worlds
thats all
I think you may be having some sort of disassociation, I’ve experienced this for years and I hate it
you are so amezing brother thank you so mutsh for the amezing words end great healts i love it
Great Video Leon Hope You Make Content Again :)
Wait you broke up and then you wanted him back?🤔 I made that mistake once but when the girl I wanted to marry and I didn't end up together my previous girlfriend wanted me back. So we got back together. Bro college is taking a lot of time because it's one of the first steps into adulthood. But in your previous video you said you're loosing a lot of college. Bro don't do that you'll fall far behind and you won't be able to catch up. Concentrate focus Leon. I can't believe it you talked about suicide? Don't think that way all situations have a solution buddy. Good video and cool video Leon!🤗
Would love to see you do another stream with J Wool . You guys are in different parts of the world but you are very similar
I agree
I get the impression you think life is a problem. Life is actually a destination and a journey and a problem.
Lol
👍👍👍
❤
Why them
Leon, beautiful episode from a thoughtful beautiful gentle young man. First off, you think and possibly overthink everything you do. You cannot overthink life, especially the parts you never lived through before. We ALL have made impulsive decisions only to regret them later. Fortunately, you realized you made a huge mistake and asked to be forgiven. In gay jargon, we call this being a drama queen. Being so caught up in the emotional roller coaster of our life and wallowing in the shear emotional depth of out feelings until you wake up and realize this is just me and myself and l threw away the potential objectivity of another person who cares about ME! So, another lesson learned in the owner's manual of Living Leon's Life. Nothing is harder than saying l made the wrong choice. Forgive me. Help me become a better person and l will do the same for you. I love you and l need you in my life like food, water and air. Notice me first and l will notice you as well. (It is off topic but l love digressions). Each month your face matures. In a few years, THE UNBREAKABLE STUD will be a certified stud muffin twink. Very edible.
ehkä asioiden arvon ymmärtää parhaiten sitten kun sen menettää
Leon THE SEX Kennedy.
Jokes aside, dude, life is a rollercoaster. It's the best way to put it. You won't remember every single bump in the ride because you're so focused on what's coming up next. Sometimes you gotta consciously pause and take it all in. Sounds like you got a lot on your plate right now which is definitely working wonders for you /s.
Still, try and take it one day at a time instead, because at the end of the day, that's all you can really do. No point in worrying about tomorrow and next week, and the upcoming whatever, when waking up the following day isn't even garanteed for anyone. Experience comes with years and honestly you don't look that old, but your thoughts alone show you at least have good reasoning to get a good idea of life.
Your video appeared at random and honestly I can resonate the feeling. Sorry that this got so long, I rarely comment let alone about something like this. But just wanted to let you know to give it a little bit of time, and that you got this even if it doesn't feel that way. Cheers mate. 👍
Is there any reason you can't get back together with that person? If you feel that strongly.
Sounds like a good decision about college to get some form of education under your belt.
Of course it doesn't. That's why I'm here with a complexion of a grey mushroom.
Just know we are here to help you Leon we id you need to talk dm me if you need to vent dm me if you just need to smile dm me seriously im here if you need me 😊😊don’t panic I will help you as much as I can
Do you have girl friend
I think you need a bluetooth microphone for better volume on some of your videos. Especially the lives. Just saying. Lol
Just know we are here to help you Leon we id you need to talk dm me if you need to vent dm me if you just need to smile dm me seriously im here if you need me 😊😊don’t panic I will help you as much as I can