The biggest problem with hallucinogenic drugs is if you unwillingly or unknowingly take it, you will almost always freak out no matter whether you have an anxiety problem. And I can only imagine it would make it so much worse. If you know you are undergoing the trip, it can open your mind or be a really awesome experience. I totally understand that strange stimuli and weirdness of your body would just be horrible. And like you said, everyone's brain is different and certain substances really don't gel with their chemistry.
And it really sucks that it happened on your holiday. Hopefully in a while the good parts of the trip will be in your mind and overshadow the last day.
Aw man, I am so sorry for being so impolite, I swear I'm normally nice and shy and friendly! Hope to run into you again some day in better circumstances ^___^ xox
@@MichelleSK6 Right. That was my question as well. If I knew anyone was having difficulty much less someone I watched regularly on UA-cam for over a decade. seeing videos and knowing this person does not normally act this way would have been like a huge red flag to me to help as well. My goodness, how terrifying.
Holy fuck, I've had bad trips and I can't even imagine how it would be if I _unwillingly_ took drugs. I am so sorry Freyja... and the way you describe the story, in retrospect... you seem to have a sense of humour about the absurdity of the situation, but in the moment... it is so real, and so horrible, like hell. I hope you've recovered and... I hope you never have to go through something like that again
I know I'm once again late to her videos because I just recently found her but it sounds to me like pcp and that sounds absolutely horrendous and horrifying!
I had the same thing happen to me. I visited Amsterdam with my parents and I got drugged somehow. I started freaking out, I was sobbing and loosing my shit. I'm only 15 I had never done drugs before and I was scared out of my mind. We were in the street and I was holding on to my mom for dear life and when people would walk by I would ask them to help me because I was dying. definitely most embarrassing moment of my life
One of my good friends got roofied/drugged while at nightclub. It was so bad that she had to go to the hospital. She didn't tell me about it until she got home from the hospital. It was fucking scary.
It unfortunately happens a lot in nightclubs… and so every often people even die from being drugged. Especially women who are given those Knock out drugs rapists use :/
Catherine Frederick that's a downright shitty thing for them to do. Hope they don't get hired until the employee gets help. Even though chances of getting hired again after drugging a customer doesn't suit well with employers.
I got roofied and im a guy!!! and yes it was another guy trying to get hold of me :/ Luckily i left within minutes of downing the drink so i came up on the drug while walking home... needless to say i came round on the other side of the city still walking round... SCAREY SHIT!!!
That really really sucks, and I hope you're okay! There is such a stigma around it, but men can be sexually assaulted or harassed just like anyone else. Please just always remember that it is 100% NOT your fault, and you should never feel ashamed or embarrassed about asking for help if you ever want to talk to someone (it can be immensely helpful for many people).
Wtf are people thinking!? Even if it was someone's sick idea of a joke, they have no idea what meds you might be on, or if you might have had let's say a heart issue. That "prank" could easily have turned into murder. Even if the drug itself isn't that dangerous, you can never know what pre existing health issues a person may have.
This makes me upset and terrified that there are actual people who do stuff like that! I know it's what real life can be but when thinking about it, it's like a horror movie you can't get out of or pause and you have to face it. I'm so thankful that you were able to get home safely and with supporting people, and others who've gone through a similar experience. I just don't see how people can get enjoyment from sneaking drugs into someone's system making them go crazy (and of course reacting emotionally or something based on something that person has), because if that person gets drugged on a day that's important or special it'll fully ruin their day. For instance you were trying to go home and ruined your last day there, or someone would be going to a job interview, or even visiting family that day. Sometimes I love humans and then there are the times I regret loving humans.. :|
Well said. Not to mention, it would be easy to kill someone by giving them drugs that disagree with their body chemistry, or giving a mentally unstable person something that would cause them to harm themselves or someone else. How is it worth it to try to just "mess with" someone by slipping them drugs?! People really can be the worst sometimes......
I've done LSD, and it sounds like LSD. I was freaking out and I was sitting in the bathtub with the water on and my clothes on. I was sobbing and crying saying "when will this end?!" I passed out.
@It's Black Friday-My gran who raised me had panic attacks. When I was a child, there was a year when she literally thought e was losing her mind. I can remember her screaming and falling apart while my grandpa would bundle me and my sister up to put us in the car. He'd drive her and us around until nearly dawn some nights because she really thought the house was caving in or something terrible was happening. They finally found a med that worked but throughout her life she was always a little nervous; over cautious. She once said it was the worst and most helpless feeling ever.
OMG I'm just livid that somebody did that to you! There should be no mercy for people who do that. My brother was slipped a roofie at a club once, and thanks all that was good and sensible, he had friends with him that night who immediately realized what was going on and got him to a hospital ASAP. He has a heart condition and that could have killed him. I am relieved to know that goodness and kindness was there for you too when you needed it most.
It sounds like someone spiked you with acid my mum was spiked years ago with acid and she has a very similar experience to you. people are so cruel sometimes I don't understand how it could be funny to trip someone else becuase someone could really die from it.. it's so crazy I'm glad your okay though.
What a horrible experience. Your experience only makes me feel so thankful that none of this happened to me there. I went to Amsterdam alone, explorer spirit, I guess it would´ve been easier to me because I was walking at night by myself trying to know the city at night time. Back then I didn´t even realize how dangerous this could be. I must have a really big guardian angel then!
That's horrific, I'm glad you're ok :( Even having deliberately experienced hallucinogens, I would never, EVER want them foisted on me in such high doses in the middle of a busy foreign train station, fucking hell :( (and these days with my body being so whack, I am *ridiculously* careful about my drinks at clubs, because even a 'friendly' doping like a bit of MDMA would very probably kill me.. But it did occur to me recently that when I go on dates with guys, I never think about it. They bring me my drink, I leave them with my drink, I just don't think about it. And that's a bit dumb :-/ It is really shitty though that we live in a world where stuff like this happens to anyone... Glad you got through it - I've experienced bad trips, if not on quite that level, and 8 hours never, ever felt like such an unendurably long time!)
I can't believe I'm sharing this but I feel like I should. I've had that experience and I was raped because of it. This guy who I had been talking to for awhile at a bar was pretty cool. He went to the bathroom and I continued to watch my drink and eat my food. He kissed my cheek and then he walked me to my cab. I guess he knew where I was going because all I remember is being violently sick and my clothes off at my hotel and I was in the WORST pain ever. I believe that you're careful but please always keep a weapon or something to protect yourself. Love you Friday❤️❤️
I'm so so sorry something so horrible happened to you. You are very brave for speaking about this and I hope nothing like that ever happens to you again! Stay safe!
if u did hard core drugs all the time it would have been a lot easier to deal with things like this... i was given something at a marilyn manson concert and i thought mr. manson actually broke reality and everything went insane... but i just went with it. i figured if it reality was just broken and gone forever i should just go with it anyway... but in the back of my mind i was like "this might be drugs" and in that case i should go with it anyway. i was depressed after but didnt take it seriously or act on it because i knew it was drugs and didnt let it hamper my good time.
It's interesting that you chose to believe that everyone was experiencing the same thing as you were and believed that reality had disappeared from life, rather than think it was a solitary trip. Though I think it would help that you were at a Manson concert where a lot of people would be having a similar experience and basically on the same page. I think her experience would have been a lot harder to deal with because she was in public where people were going to jobs and shopping and would have been staring at her. It wasn't as though everyone was acting crazy it was just her head. I definitely regret everytime I smoke weed and then go out in public. Messes with you hardcore, and that's just weed. I think your trip sounds like it could have been fun, it's good you didn't fight it!
can I ask what concert this was? like when and where? because I went to the one in Glasgow in November 'just' gone and I still can't believe I actually went but it feels really odd because whenever I think back to it, I just remember feeling really calm and spaced out and everything was echoing and I couldn't stop laughing, but had a horrific nosebleed in the car on the way home... and then I remember when Maz came in stage, the audience was blasted by the fog machines directly above us and it sounds weird but the fog was too thick and pale (considering my dad and granddad DJ-ed for practically my whole life, I know my way around an industrial grade fog machine) and it had a really weird taste... basically, do you think Marilyn, who later came on stage with what looked like a condom full of coke burst it and snorted it, would have willingly slipped something into the solution for the fog machine which was vaporised and made me trip out? (baring in mind I didn't have anything to drink there so i couldn't have been spiked at the bar)
How nice to hear that. I'm going to visit Amsterdam for ten days with my parents and my best friend in the upcoming holidays and I don't want my little "sister" to be harmed. I was pretty relaxed about that but NOW I'm scared...
I went to Amsterdam for a week last year with my parents and had a great, safe time! If you're in a group I'm sure you'll be fine, have fun and enjoy it, it's a beautiful city!!
I live nearby Amsterdam. When you're traveling in a group it will be perfectly fine, even if you are alone it doesn't mean that it is dangerous, you just have to be more careful
I've been and their are a few tips I can tell you. 1. DO NOT go to the red light district at night, It's not worth it. 2. Guys will try to catcall you ALOT over there, So show your dominance when they do it. 3. Don't buy food/drinks from stalls if it looks dodgy. if it looks dodgy, it probably is dodgy. 4. If you're gonna smoke pot, do it in a hotel room with someone who isn't smoking pot and is in the correct state of mind.
it isnt just men. ive been raped before by a woman, and i'm a man. the problem with societyis that, yes... men are looked at as being "just boys" but in cases like mine, either men are too afraid to come forward due to masculinity, or they are made fun of for not being able to fight off a girl. when ever i tell people ive been raped by a woman, i end up with more problems. so seriously,it isnt just men. rape culture in general isthe culprit. once we stop trying to make excuses to make horrible peoplelook good...then, well, rape culture disapears.
I work in the mental health field, and it makes me so sad to see how the sigma against mental illness effects people and their search for treatment and support. So I just wanted to take the time to say that there is no shame in speaking about your illness, and as many people as there are that will look down upon you for it, there are just as many that will step up and help you carry the burden. You're not alone in this fight
I have what's called "Generalized Anxiety Disorder" and I had it since I was a kid and also take medicine for it. Most people with generalized anxiety disorder don't like taking illicit substances because we don't like the loss of control and not knowing what is in said substances. It's terrifying and there's no reason to be ashamed and I'm glad you were taken care of and that your'e safe. I've had it happen to me and I knew it the moment I felt the echo and had the metallic taste in my mouth. It isn't funny it's a fucking nightmare. The reason it didn't knock me out is because I have a massive tolerance to any sedative and I spent years being a painkiller addict and it's not worth it but it was the one time being an addict saved me I knew that I was drugged and somehow was able to call a taxi and get home. I drank a pot of coffee and I have a blood pressure monitor (I used to check my blood pressure a lot as a part of the anxiety disorder.) I used to make sure I was ok. It's brave of you to admit that you have an anxiety disorder and it makes people like myself feel less alone. There's no shame in what happened to you but shame on whoever DID that to you. It's not funny to drug someone, you never know what could hurt them or what the end result will be. So many of my friends have had this happen and not all of them ended up safe. Thank goodness you're safe and I'm so sorry you went through it.
I guess only a person with GAD/panic attacks can understand those derealised hellish moments :( I can't even imagine what a nightmare it is mixed with drugs you never wanted to take :(
I have depression and I dislike the thought of messing with my mind even more than the prescribed medicines used to do. I rarely drink, and only tried smoking out of curiosity (in a safe setting). I have never been drunk either. It is weird to be so attuned to the effect it is having on me mentally despite my lack of experience with alcohol itself. I have had so much experience with powering through drugs like seraquel or just putting off taking them till I'm ready to experience the effect, that recreational drugs hold little appeal to me now.
Staci Wiley I totally understand. I categorize myself as an anxious person, but my dad has GAD (I haven't been diagnosed so I can't say whether or not I have it) but I smoke pot with my bf sometimes and when I smoke too much I black out and scream/sob for hours
I take ayahuasca on a monthly basis, it's one of the strongest psychedelic substances in the world and here where I live close to the amazon, it's very common for people to use it as a spiritual tool to explore their consciousness. It's very sacred to the indigenous tribes, and I take it with a Shaman that guides me and helps me through the experience. We prepare the whole month for it, through meditation and a special diet, I feel all psychoactive substances should be taken with a lot of care and respect. It's so sad to me that you were forced into a state of mind you didn't want to be in, like you said, many people have life changing experiences with some psychedelic substances but it's when they are ready to do it and they want to do it, and specially when they have had time to properly prepare for that kind of journey. It will always be horrifying if you are forced into it, and it can mess you up mentally for sure, I'm so glad it didn't do any permanent damage to you :( being forced into any kind of situation you don't want to be in is a form of abuse and I'm so extremely sad that it happened to you.
I really hope you can experience ayahuasca someday Natalie, it's getting more popular around the world so you should beware of fake shamans and brews that are not pure. Ayahuasca will teach you, heal you, you will experience death and be awakened to your true essence, the evolution of the soul is a beautiful and painful process, it's for the seekers of truth and the warriors of light :)
+Camila Wenger Hello, Namaste. If you dont mind would you please get ahold of me either on youtube message or google+ message? I have some questions for you about your experience, and im seeking to travel to where i can have my own experience. Not to be heard of in Vermont, USA lol. But i really want to speak to someone who has experiences with a long lasting DMT, as i have only ever smoked it.
What a shitty thing to do to someone! Do you know what drink or food it was put in? My guess is that had someone slipped that to you while you were friends and in a familiar and comfortable environment, you would not have reacted that way. Glad you made it back safely.
Considering that she said she has a panic disorder, and that she's never done hallucinogenic drugs before, she probably would have still freaked out. Being with friends and a familiar environment would have been better for her, but she stated herself that if she is not in control of her brain, she freaks out. Neuroatypical people and drugs react differently than neurotypical people and drugs.
I won't say it happend like this, but many people I know visiting Amsterdam have that Problem - and in every case it happened the same Way: They got hungry and bought something without checking if it was kosher. There are Acid-Cakes, yummy Mushroomsandwiches and such Things - and the most of them do look like really yummy regular food. But, I have to say, you were very ballsy in Amsterdam, almost dangerous fearless - I know, it sounds ironic. The things you describe sounds like Acid as Shrooms tend not to kick in suddenly, it is more like slipping away into Wonderland. Acid can be delivered via little drenched Papercuts or plasters - maybe you found something like this. But, also it can be liquid and dripped onto something else. I had very similar expiriences back then as someone thought it would be funny to do this to me - he really ODd and I had a real bad Horrortrip (It was not in Amsterdam, it was a "Friend" I had back then).
panic attacks r brutal, i get them too, i also decided a long time ago that most drugs were just a bit too much for my already over-active mind. sorry u had to go through that gorgeous!!
I'm so sorry Black Friday, no one should ever have to go through this. I'm glad you were safe and I'm also super sorry no one was there to protect and take care of you. Thank you for your bravery and courage and coming forward.
I have only recently subscribed and started watching your videos. Please know you are such an inspiration to me. I have depression, bi polar and a recovering addict. There are days I just want to stay in bed but you inspire me to get my ass out of bed, put on make-up and clothes and seize the day. Thank you so much my ang! All my love from the most beautiful Southern most tip of Africa xxx
I know I have panic attacks and have voluntarily taken lsd, and it’s pretty much exactly how u described it. The biggest downfall during my trip is that I spend the whole time trying to be rational and composed and keeping it together-meanwhile my ceiling is covered in small humankind figures in fetal position facing the wall and twitching around.
If I came across you in public and you were telling me someone drugged you, since you are a public persona or whatever you want to call it it be easier to trust you and I would NOT leave you by yourself that's awful. I know what it feels like to be like that it's really scary and someone could have easily taken advantage. I'm kinda mad that person didn't stick around. Be careful that's so scary and it's hard to scare me .
im nearly 43 now but when in my late teens/early 20s i loved tripping as it made me feel like i was kinda renewed but thatcwas by choice. i can totally see how having one come on & totally consume u as trips do without knowing or wanting it would be a complete freak out! & its true that theres nothing u can do but ride it out. omg sheer hell if u were on a bad trip. i only ever took them when in a really positive state of mind and with friends in a safe environment because i was so aware that a bad trip traps u somewhere u would never want to be & can effect u for the rest of ur life thru panic attacks & flashbacks. really bad if u already get panic attacks. Glad u normalised afterwards & it hasnt fucked with ur head too much Dear xx
And this just gives me more of a reason to be the straight edge person that I am. I know that if I did drugs, I'd meltdown as you did and totally not be okay. I don't have an anxiety disorder (as in I don't have to take medication and such) but I do have panic attacks whenever I'm around my trigger, and I'm sure that would cause many. I'm happy you're okay though and recovered from that, feeling that level of fear does horrible things to someone sometimes.
Sorry you had to go through that. Have social anxiety myself and I know how scary it is when you have a panic attack. It feels so overwhelming. I can't believe how sick some people are.
I tried pot once and I felt like the same, my heart pouding out of my chest, feeling like I needed to puke, really tired (too lazy to talk but I had to, so my mom could pick me up), paranoid, etc. Luckily my mom wasn't mad at me and helped me to bed, and even covered everything up so my dad wouldn't find out, so I could sleep it off. And everytime I smell pot, I immediatly feel bad and it seems that it has been a traumatic experience for me.
One of my worst experiences was eating some marijuana candy right when my dad was dying of cancer. Life folded in on itself and the entire purpose of living went completely away. I was absolutely insane during that trip. It was the worst feeling I have ever had. Ever. (And this is after smoking weed for 20 years, something was wrong)
Nooooo! I'm so sorry this happened. Psychedelic drugs GAVE me a panic disorder so I totally understand. I wish you would talk more about this part of you. A lot of us suffer in similar ways and knowing we aren't alone is always a real relief.
What did your husband say when you told him all of this? or even when he saw you? I am sorry that happened to you. I am glad that you still had fun though. LOVE YOUR VIDEOS.
My heart is honestly breaking for you. Someone took the thing you love most and nearly ruined it for you. I wish something I could say would help but I know it won't. Please take the time to heal and do the things you need to do to feel safe again. As you always say, take care of yourself
That is literally my worse nightmare, so sorry this happened to you! I suffer from panic attacks and I totally get how the complete lack of control over your body could lead you in such a panic. I'm actually angry on your behalf ,like as you said it could of been much much worse and had even deadly consequences. I genuinely don't understand how people could find causing someone such distress funny? You were so brave, and I admire how you took this shitty experience to share with us all because maybe now some people will understand the consequences to 'having a good time'. Kudos.
Prescribed drugs are different. I take them as actual medication, although I do tend to veer away from them. They don't seem to do anything to me…never really help. But I take them as required and as prescribed. I don't abuse them ›:
if I had to guess ....for the couple of days u were there someone was watching you....and figured out you was leaving that day...and tried to drug you and do god knows what....what I noticed you did in one of your amsterdam vids...u told a couple of people u were there alone....you wasnt supposed to do that....that how you become a target...but am glad you made it home ok
I got roofied when I was on my 18th birthday... I was lucky though! a police man was riding past on a horse and stopped the guy who was attacking me so I wasn't raped :) I also got a ride to the taxi ranks on the back of his horse xD last thing I remember from that night is kissing a horse goodbye that looked as though it was underwater :o the policeman was amazing, he got me in a car home and see to everything. all this happened because I got left behind by friends and it turned out the guy who attacked me was the bartender in the club :/ eitherway we're both lucky Black Friday!! to have met nice people when we were in scary places x
I chose the same for similar reasons. I would panic beyond imagining. Wigging out, losing control, seeing things are not experiences I ever want to have. Your'e braver than you know!
I love you for talking about your anxiety! I have panic attacks brought on by over stimulation which is why I smoke cannabis. It levels me out and filters the noise but I never touch anything else because I want to be in control. Cannabis even took time for me to get comfortable with. I'm so sorry that happened and grateful you were saved.
+It's Black Friday Did you leave anything unattended? It sounds very much like you were either slipped either a "roofie" or "Mickey" or even acid. The symptoms that you're describing is acid. I've never, ever, ever done any illegal drugs, but my hubby had tried acid and he told me what he went through and it was exactly what you went through. I am so sorry that you have severe panic attacks, and whomever slipped you the acid could've killed you, and I'm very, very, very happy that you're doing better. Please, please, please, please be extremely careful wherever you go, always be vigilant about your surroundings and who is around you. You're a very, very, very beautiful young lady and some sicko will take notice and try something stupid. So please be careful. The next time, you may not fare so well. I'm not trying to be a bitch or anything like that,but I had a terrifying experience, and I was raped by 3 guys just from drinking Diet Pepsi, which they slipped me something when I was tutoring my so called friend in honors Algebra. This is why I'm begging you to be extremely, extremely, extremely careful. IF this does happen again, immediately drink orange juice. From what my hubby told me, it neutralizes the effect of the drug slipped to you. A piece of advice. We're like the same, I'd never entertained the thought of doing some illegal drug, because I don't see the need for it.
I'm so relieved you are ok. i know what its like to have those major panic attacks. infact, i had a really bad one and my family ended up checking me into the hospital. Having serious panic disorders are thingalot of people don't, or refuse to understand (atleast in my experiences). I too take medicine to help with the episodes, but having PTSD doesnt mix welll. Hearing your story made me feel ths type of kinship with you. I haven't met too many people that actually talk about disorders or problems they have. It makes me feel proud to be part of this community. thank you for always being you and being honest.
Whoa... I'm so fucking glad you made it home safely! Its a really good thing you asked for help & first aid so they could at least check your vitals and reassure you. Have u thought about getting tested to see what you were drugged with? I guess that wouldn't really matter at this point but being on anti anxiety meds you literally could've died... People who do that to others are so fucking short-sighted not realizing they can unintentionally kill whoever they drugging. Don't be embarrassed, we all have our stories, the end of mine was also mortifying and terrible. Once again, I'm truly happy that you're home and safe and can continue living your life the way you want to because even though I don't know you, I think you've touched a lot of lives (including mine) in a loving, inspiring way and I hope to one day get to meet you and give u a hug and maybe tell you exactly how your videos made me feel better during some tough moments! Thank you for sharing you experience, sorry for the dreadfully long comment 😃
I've always had anxiety too and I was officially diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. So, once, back when I was in high school someone started smoking pot outside the window and I got a contact high and it was awful! My heart starting racing and my stomach felt sick, not to mention my anxiety levels are getting high! I'm so sorry that happened to you
I actually do awareness for anxiety and depression disorder. My panic attacks get really bad sometimes and I do need to get back medications. Thank you for talking about it. I'm tired of people thinking it's a stigma. We can't control the panic attacks, it doesn't mean we're crazy , we just have a mental illness.
I'm sooooo glad you are alright. I have a mild panic disorder along with a few other little hiccups and I understand that "not in control" fear. Thankfully the situation you were in wasn't worse than it was and that you're here in one peace!
Knowing Mattias, he was probably pissed and I don't even know the guy! Just the way he acts around Black Friday tells me he'd be pissed off that a. someone had done that to his wife and b. he was unable to protect her.
MellowJelly Well, maybe to you it was intrusive? I didn't really bother asking anyone's opinion on how I formulate questions. I am merely wondering how her husband reacted to the news. Something like this is obviously a big deal, and people always forget there are usually two victims not just one in these types of issues. I'm sure many people never really asked about his feelings on this.
Like I've already pointed out, knowing Mattias he was probably pissed off, but it would be up to Black Friday to open up about what HER husband said or didn't say. It's not our place to discuss the guy without his being able to say something.
+no not being hospitalised isn't really a good indicator of how bad a mental disorder is, since hospitalisation is such a hit and miss for example; I have a friend who has mild anxiety problems and manage themselves fine, but had a panic attack before an exam, was subsequently sectioned before Christmas and basically locked away in a room for 3 months because of it, accused to being a danger to society for hyperventilating in the corner a bit for forgetting her school ID number I also know people who hear voices telling them to do "bad things" and see things, who openly admit they're not coping and are afraid they'll hurt themselves or others, who have been told they're not severe enough to be hospitalised after requesting it.. plus the amount of abuse that happens to patients on mental wards is disgusting so it's really should be the final final final resort
my friend, as long as you feel safe within yourself, and have the sensibility to get help if your symptoms escalate to dangerous situations, then you don't really need to be in a hospital unless you want to, because by the sound of it, you're coping ok. just remember to find a doctor you trust and tell them straight away if anything changes
***** I feel pretty safe, it's like they just chill out, maybe move a little bit and disappear when I look back again. It's like when a dog runs by and you only see a little bit of it and a small rush goes through you. It feels like that. Nothing too severe.
I am so sorry that happened to you! I also have an anxiety disorder, and can't imagine how that would feel, especially being alone. Well done getting through it, in spite of the fact that you were afraid and in panic.
I'm so sorry this happened to you... I can't believe there was people trying to help you more. I'm glad you're okay. I hope this doesn't stop you from traveling alone, I envy you being able to do that. You're so independent! Love you beautiful!
Maybe some instant karma has already caught up with the sadistic f*@# who did that to you. It's been 30+ years since it happened to me and I still will have a nightmare once in a while about it. Unfortunately there are evil people walking around the planet and I can only hope that KARMA will be visited upon them by way of their worst nightmare.
That isn't weed... That's mushrooms for you... Been there, unfortunately done that... I hate psychedelics including weed. But weed won't do that to you... Even if it's your first go around.
This is so terrifying! I'm so sorry it happened to you! I also have a panic disorder and have the same fear of losing control and your experience had me in tears. You may be embarrassed, but I think you handled yourself quite well under the circumstances. I'm so happy that there were nice people around who were able to help you. Thank you so much for posting about this! It's so important to talk about things like this, not only to spread awareness about being drugged but also about panic disorders, something that a lot of people have and are afraid to talk about. So, thank you!
+Mariana Buelna but it's more than just not taking drugs, because she didn't want to, the moral would be be extremely careful because there are bad people in this world that can hurt you if you let down your guard even for just a minute.
That's what I was just trying to say.. mylifeasfrank , kids here in California are already doing weed and are abusing xanax . you'd be surprised. I'm in highschool that's why I know this. In my generation kids started abusing drugs back in 6th grade.
I dunno what kind of E you're familiar with, but it should not give hallucinations like that... Enhanced senses, yes. Full-blown hallucinations of dead people you know on the faces of people walking around... NO.
could've been molly. Molly has been known to cause hallucinations to people sometimes even after the first try.. mentalhealthdaily.com/2014/03/21/does-ecstasy-mdma-make-you-hallucinate-evidence-suggests-that-it-could/
+It's Black Friday oh hun im so sorry this happened to you. I felt like i was there with you. I have panic disorder as well and it sounds very similar to the way you reacted. I too have chosen not yo do drugs other than my medication for my anxiety and panic disorder. I had it for yeeeears. It fucking sux balls too but hey we manage. But losing the control of your mind,sight, heartbeat is not on ones list of things we want as panic sufferers. Erradic fucked up movements and body glitches,sounds and sights are the worst along with looking like we do and then worrying people wont help cause we seem crazy going through an episode. You were so lucky at the train station. I hope this never happens again. Looks like its time to take even more measures to protect from assholes.🌹
I am just so very grateful that you're ok and you got home safely. It has happened to me and the fear is indescribable. There really are some loathsome people out there who do shitty things to people with no care for the consequences. Take care lovely and again, I am so happy you're home safely xxx
As someone else who has anxiety issues, I really understand how upset you were when this happened to you. I don't really like how some commenters are saying "You just need to do it with friends!" because it doesn't help, and you clearly didn't want to do this at all. I'm so glad you ended up safe, though, since situations like that can end up sooo bad. I wish I could send a cute little muffin basket to the train station people as a thank you.
oooooohhhhh sweetie. ..if I'd seen you I would have helped and stayed with you. that sounds like Angel Dust. ..I'm not a drug user, made the mistake of trying to be cool with friends and try marijuana. ...turns out the *gangsters* my friends were with and just met had laced it with dust. ...fuckin scary horrifying experience I've ever had. all the symptoms you've explained it felt like I was feeling it right along with you. *Hugs dear* GOD damn who ever drugged you!!
I listened carefully to the symptoms you were describing; and, have you considered a mild case of food poisoning? I say mild only because a severe case would require a stay at the hospital - I wasn't trying to down-play your experience. Also, a toxicology report could give you some answers (however, it would have to be done A.S.A.P. after the incident to be reliable evidence). My advice - and please don't take this the wrong way - if something like this happens again - just tell people you need immediate medical attention. Then tell the professionals your symptoms - for your own privacy. Great channel - C.S. - U.S.
Yea I was kind of surprised no one called for an EMT or something after it became apparent that she was legitimately not okay. In that situation I would want a medical professional around.
Thanks for your reply. She tells us in the video that panic set in very deep - and no one can fault her for that. I haven't experienced what she went through; but, I did suffer a leg injury where there was no way I was able to walk. Luckily there were people around when this happened and I just kept repeating to them "Carry me out of this field, get me help now." I probably would have panicked too, but the pain was over-riding any emotions. There is a great message in this video - if you experience a medical emergency and there are people around - just keep saying "get me medical help" until they do. I'm so glad she made this video - C.S.
+Chris Senzatimore and I totally get where they were coming from too. But at the point that I was having trouble walking and eating I would have gone back and told them to get medical help. I mean not only was there a anxiety involved, there was an inability to physically function. At least they didn't completely brush her off. But it is one thing when someone who takes drug recreationally has a bad trip, it's another when it is someone who doesn't and has...IDK round trip tickets as evidence that this wasn't planned.
That's a good point - I hadn't thought about the tickets. Also, like you said, at least they looked after her the best they could. Some people would just ignore the situation. Thanks for the reply. - C.S.
I'm so sorry that happened to you. I have experienced something similar and the horror when your brain and body won't work the way they are supposed to is overwhelming. glad you're home safe. :)
I don't have a panic disorder but I freak out when I feel like I'm not in control of my body, too. I didn't know other people had the same problem... All I have to do is get a little bit tipsy while drinking and I immediately stop drinking to sip on some water until that feeling goes away. Due to this I have never been drunk, which a lot of people think is totally odd as an Aussie haha. My boyfriend made me eat a hash cookie once and I had a panic attack for like 4-5 hours, I just sat on the couch crying and unable to communicate while freaking the fuck out. I'll stick to being completely sober any day!
I am so sorry that happened to you. I don't understand how someone could think that was in any way okay to do. It sounds like one of the LSD analogs. Even knowing what to expect the experience can go sideways and become awful. I can't imagine just how terrifying that must have been for you. I am glad you made it home and are alright now.
The biggest problem with hallucinogenic drugs is if you unwillingly or unknowingly take it, you will almost always freak out no matter whether you have an anxiety problem. And I can only imagine it would make it so much worse. If you know you are undergoing the trip, it can open your mind or be a really awesome experience. I totally understand that strange stimuli and weirdness of your body would just be horrible. And like you said, everyone's brain is different and certain substances really don't gel with their chemistry.
And it really sucks that it happened on your holiday. Hopefully in a while the good parts of the trip will be in your mind and overshadow the last day.
MichtyMaxx I love your videos👍
Beverly Davis Thanks so much! 😃
is it just me or does she look so damn pretty
Nope not just you, she is gorgeous. Not just on the outside either, she is lovely.
beautiful
+John Doe whats in the box?
+ηίηյα Ƙίttψ took the words right out of my mouth mate
Shes gorgeous!!
I saw you at the station black friday, babe everyone has bad days. I hope your feeling better
Aw man, I am so sorry for being so impolite, I swear I'm normally nice and shy and friendly! Hope to run into you again some day in better circumstances ^___^ xox
Did you try to help her???
@Jobcenter Leipzig F otzen well they weren't there were they. Are you stupid?
@@MichelleSK6 Right. That was my question as well. If I knew anyone was having difficulty much less someone I watched regularly on UA-cam for over a decade. seeing videos and knowing this person does not normally act this way would have been like a huge red flag to me to help as well. My goodness, how terrifying.
Giving someone psychedlics without their knowledge is as scummy as it gets.
Holy fuck, I've had bad trips and I can't even imagine how it would be if I _unwillingly_ took drugs. I am so sorry Freyja... and the way you describe the story, in retrospect... you seem to have a sense of humour about the absurdity of the situation, but in the moment... it is so real, and so horrible, like hell. I hope you've recovered and... I hope you never have to go through something like that again
It sounds like it was LSD or some sort of synthesized version of LSD... if I ever visit Amsterdam I will stay so alert because of your story ;_;
MellowJelly I would have had a mental breakdown.
I know I'm once again late to her videos because I just recently found her but it sounds to me like pcp and that sounds absolutely horrendous and horrifying!
I had the same thing happen to me. I visited Amsterdam with my parents and I got drugged somehow. I started freaking out, I was sobbing and loosing my shit. I'm only 15 I had never done drugs before and I was scared out of my mind. We were in the street and I was holding on to my mom for dear life and when people would walk by I would ask them to help me because I was dying. definitely most embarrassing moment of my life
Oh gosh what an awful experience, you poor thing!! :o xoxoxoxox
+It's Black Friday We both had terrible experiences there. Not sure if I'm mentally prepared enough to go there again. love your videos and you ♡
Personally I'd love to go to Amsterdam and get slipped some LSD.
+Angela The Stoner Different strokes for different folks. XD
dang girl, i want to go to Amsterdam but hearing some of these stories...hell no
Thank god you are alright!
GOd HOW fUnny
One of my good friends got roofied/drugged while at nightclub. It was so bad that she had to go to the hospital. She didn't tell me about it until she got home from the hospital. It was fucking scary.
I'm really glad you are ok and made it home.
It unfortunately happens a lot in nightclubs… and so every often people even die from being drugged. Especially women who are given those Knock out drugs rapists use :/
Catherine Frederick that's a downright shitty thing for them to do.
Hope they don't get hired until the employee gets help. Even though chances of getting hired again after drugging a customer doesn't suit well with employers.
I got roofied and im a guy!!! and yes it was another guy trying to get hold of me :/ Luckily i left within minutes of downing the drink so i came up on the drug while walking home... needless to say i came round on the other side of the city still walking round... SCAREY SHIT!!!
That really really sucks, and I hope you're okay! There is such a stigma around it, but men can be sexually assaulted or harassed just like anyone else. Please just always remember that it is 100% NOT your fault, and you should never feel ashamed or embarrassed about asking for help if you ever want to talk to someone (it can be immensely helpful for many people).
Wtf are people thinking!? Even if it was someone's sick idea of a joke, they have no idea what meds you might be on, or if you might have had let's say a heart issue.
That "prank" could easily have turned into murder. Even if the drug itself isn't that dangerous, you can never know what pre existing health issues a person may have.
I'm glad to find someone interesting who doesn't condone drugs. I'm so sorry you were forced into experiencing this.
Alcohol is a drug. She said she drinks in the video.
+Traci exactly
Courtny No boohoo you boring snob, I bet you drink coffee or take Benadryl- drugs.
Courtny No Drugs are demonic
alcohol is a drug
This makes me upset and terrified that there are actual people who do stuff like that! I know it's what real life can be but when thinking about it, it's like a horror movie you can't get out of or pause and you have to face it. I'm so thankful that you were able to get home safely and with supporting people, and others who've gone through a similar experience. I just don't see how people can get enjoyment from sneaking drugs into someone's system making them go crazy (and of course reacting emotionally or something based on something that person has), because if that person gets drugged on a day that's important or special it'll fully ruin their day. For instance you were trying to go home and ruined your last day there, or someone would be going to a job interview, or even visiting family that day. Sometimes I love humans and then there are the times I regret loving humans.. :|
Well said. Not to mention, it would be easy to kill someone by giving them drugs that disagree with their body chemistry, or giving a mentally unstable person something that would cause them to harm themselves or someone else. How is it worth it to try to just "mess with" someone by slipping them drugs?! People really can be the worst sometimes......
Drugs are expensive too, I don't understand why someone would give drugs to someone who doesn't want it.
In Amsterdam, drugs aren't expenisve at all.
The tourist's drugs are, but the Dutch people who know their way can get drugs for a few euro's...
I've done LSD, and it sounds like LSD. I was freaking out and I was sitting in the bathtub with the water on and my clothes on. I was sobbing and crying saying "when will this end?!" I passed out.
Morty Sanchez I think it sounds more like 2cb because of the hallucinations with the faces but could be lsd too.
Acid is so good
They should have called an ambulance, also to identify the stuff you got slipped. It could have been something even more dangerous.
@It's Black Friday-My gran who raised me had panic attacks. When I was a child, there was a year when she literally thought e was losing her mind. I can remember her screaming and falling apart while my grandpa would bundle me and my sister up to put us in the car. He'd drive her and us around until nearly dawn some nights because she really thought the house was caving in or something terrible was happening. They finally found a med that worked but throughout her life she was always a little nervous; over cautious. She once said it was the worst and most helpless feeling ever.
OMG I'm just livid that somebody did that to you! There should be no mercy for people who do that. My brother was slipped a roofie at a club once, and thanks all that was good and sensible, he had friends with him that night who immediately realized what was going on and got him to a hospital ASAP. He has a heart condition and that could have killed him. I am relieved to know that goodness and kindness was there for you too when you needed it most.
Omg, that is so scary! That's it girl! No more traveling alone!
No? Travelling alone is great, this could happen to anybody - alone or not. No reason to stop doing something you love.
JarvisChrist We are just worried about her.... This experience could be really worse! TnT
What a nightmare - so glad to hear that you made it home safe!!! O.O
It sounds like someone spiked you with acid my mum was spiked years ago with acid and she has a very similar experience to you. people are so cruel sometimes I don't understand how it could be funny to trip someone else becuase someone could really die from it..
it's so crazy I'm glad your okay though.
What a horrible experience. Your experience only makes me feel so thankful that none of this happened to me there. I went to Amsterdam alone, explorer spirit, I guess it would´ve been easier to me because I was walking at night by myself trying to know the city at night time. Back then I didn´t even realize how dangerous this could be. I must have a really big guardian angel then!
I have a sneaky suspicion that it was something from the hostile. how rude of them. whom ever did it.
That's horrific, I'm glad you're ok :( Even having deliberately experienced hallucinogens, I would never, EVER want them foisted on me in such high doses in the middle of a busy foreign train station, fucking hell :( (and these days with my body being so whack, I am *ridiculously* careful about my drinks at clubs, because even a 'friendly' doping like a bit of MDMA would very probably kill me.. But it did occur to me recently that when I go on dates with guys, I never think about it. They bring me my drink, I leave them with my drink, I just don't think about it. And that's a bit dumb :-/ It is really shitty though that we live in a world where stuff like this happens to anyone... Glad you got through it - I've experienced bad trips, if not on quite that level, and 8 hours never, ever felt like such an unendurably long time!)
I can't believe I'm sharing this but I feel like I should. I've had that experience and I was raped because of it. This guy who I had been talking to for awhile at a bar was pretty cool. He went to the bathroom and I continued to watch my drink and eat my food. He kissed my cheek and then he walked me to my cab. I guess he knew where I was going because all I remember is being violently sick and my clothes off at my hotel and I was in the WORST pain ever. I believe that you're careful but please always keep a weapon or something to protect yourself. Love you Friday❤️❤️
I'm so sorry that happened to you. That's terrible. Well, the bastard will most likely go to hell for it.
That's awful, i'm sorry for you, take care of you. Support
I'm so so sorry something so horrible happened to you. You are very brave for speaking about this and I hope nothing like that ever happens to you again! Stay safe!
Thank you all so much
I'm so sorry that happened to you.
if u did hard core drugs all the time it would have been a lot easier to deal with things like this... i was given something at a marilyn manson concert and i thought mr. manson actually broke reality and everything went insane... but i just went with it. i figured if it reality was just broken and gone forever i should just go with it anyway... but in the back of my mind i was like "this might be drugs" and in that case i should go with it anyway. i was depressed after but didnt take it seriously or act on it because i knew it was drugs and didnt let it hamper my good time.
It's interesting that you chose to believe that everyone was experiencing the same thing as you were and believed that reality had disappeared from life, rather than think it was a solitary trip. Though I think it would help that you were at a Manson concert where a lot of people would be having a similar experience and basically on the same page. I think her experience would have been a lot harder to deal with because she was in public where people were going to jobs and shopping and would have been staring at her. It wasn't as though everyone was acting crazy it was just her head.
I definitely regret everytime I smoke weed and then go out in public. Messes with you hardcore, and that's just weed.
I think your trip sounds like it could have been fun, it's good you didn't fight it!
i had no notion that other people were experiencing anything in particular. i was on hard core drugs and was awash in the experience.
and i wasnt choosing to believe anything.
can I ask what concert this was? like when and where?
because I went to the one in Glasgow in November 'just' gone and I still can't believe I actually went but it feels really odd because whenever I think back to it, I just remember feeling really calm and spaced out and everything was echoing and I couldn't stop laughing, but had a horrific nosebleed in the car on the way home...
and then I remember when Maz came in stage, the audience was blasted by the fog machines directly above us and it sounds weird but the fog was too thick and pale (considering my dad and granddad DJ-ed for practically my whole life, I know my way around an industrial grade fog machine) and it had a really weird taste...
basically, do you think Marilyn, who later came on stage with what looked like a condom full of coke burst it and snorted it, would have willingly slipped something into the solution for the fog machine which was vaporised and made me trip out? (baring in mind I didn't have anything to drink there so i couldn't have been spiked at the bar)
"The world was the wrong shape."
Why is this me every single day.
Oh my god, I want to give you a hug
Amen!
GreyFlowersClearHearts GREAT USERNAME! I LOVE JOJ AS WELL ;)
@@vaniac.3852 Who is JoJ?
How nice to hear that. I'm going to visit Amsterdam for ten days with my parents and my best friend in the upcoming holidays and I don't want my little "sister" to be harmed. I was pretty relaxed about that but NOW I'm scared...
I went to Amsterdam for a week last year with my parents and had a great, safe time! If you're in a group I'm sure you'll be fine, have fun and enjoy it, it's a beautiful city!!
Dutch person here :'). Don't worry! Luckely, this doesn't happen regularly. Amsterdam is a beautiful city. You'll be fine c:.
I live nearby Amsterdam. When you're traveling in a group it will be perfectly fine, even if you are alone it doesn't mean that it is dangerous, you just have to be more careful
I've been and their are a few tips I can tell you.
1. DO NOT go to the red light district at night, It's not worth it.
2. Guys will try to catcall you ALOT over there, So show your dominance when they do it.
3. Don't buy food/drinks from stalls if it looks dodgy. if it looks dodgy, it probably is dodgy.
4. If you're gonna smoke pot, do it in a hotel room with someone who isn't smoking pot and is in the correct state of mind.
it isnt just men. ive been raped before by a woman, and i'm a man. the problem with societyis that, yes... men are looked at as being "just boys" but in cases like mine, either men are too afraid to come forward due to masculinity, or they are made fun of for not being able to fight off a girl. when ever i tell people ive been raped by a woman, i end up with more problems. so seriously,it isnt just men. rape culture in general isthe culprit. once we stop trying to make excuses to make horrible peoplelook good...then, well, rape culture disapears.
I'm so sorry for that to happen in my country...
Some people are out of its mind here
Umg Your background
ben jij ook nederlands?
Frank wyd?
+cursed tears ja ^_^
I work in the mental health field, and it makes me so sad to see how the sigma against mental illness effects people and their search for treatment and support. So I just wanted to take the time to say that there is no shame in speaking about your illness, and as many people as there are that will look down upon you for it, there are just as many that will step up and help you carry the burden. You're not alone in this fight
I have what's called "Generalized Anxiety Disorder" and I had it since I was a kid and also take medicine for it. Most people with generalized anxiety disorder don't like taking illicit substances because we don't like the loss of control and not knowing what is in said substances. It's terrifying and there's no reason to be ashamed and I'm glad you were taken care of and that your'e safe. I've had it happen to me and I knew it the moment I felt the echo and had the metallic taste in my mouth. It isn't funny it's a fucking nightmare. The reason it didn't knock me out is because I have a massive tolerance to any sedative and I spent years being a painkiller addict and it's not worth it but it was the one time being an addict saved me I knew that I was drugged and somehow was able to call a taxi and get home. I drank a pot of coffee and I have a blood pressure monitor (I used to check my blood pressure a lot as a part of the anxiety disorder.) I used to make sure I was ok. It's brave of you to admit that you have an anxiety disorder and it makes people like myself feel less alone. There's no shame in what happened to you but shame on whoever DID that to you. It's not funny to drug someone, you never know what could hurt them or what the end result will be. So many of my friends have had this happen and not all of them ended up safe. Thank goodness you're safe and I'm so sorry you went through it.
I guess only a person with GAD/panic attacks can understand those derealised hellish moments :( I can't even imagine what a nightmare it is mixed with drugs you never wanted to take :(
I have depression and I dislike the thought of messing with my mind even more than the prescribed medicines used to do. I rarely drink, and only tried smoking out of curiosity (in a safe setting).
I have never been drunk either. It is weird to be so attuned to the effect it is having on me mentally despite my lack of experience with alcohol itself. I have had so much experience with powering through drugs like seraquel or just putting off taking them till I'm ready to experience the effect, that recreational drugs hold little appeal to me now.
Staci Wiley I totally understand. I categorize myself as an anxious person, but my dad has GAD (I haven't been diagnosed so I can't say whether or not I have it) but I smoke pot with my bf sometimes and when I smoke too much I black out and scream/sob for hours
What medicine do you take? I suffer from anxiety and haven't found a med that works except benzo's which they refuse to prescribe me.
Whoa that's scary, happy to hear that you got home...
I take ayahuasca on a monthly basis, it's one of the strongest psychedelic substances in the world and here where I live close to the amazon, it's very common for people to use it as a spiritual tool to explore their consciousness. It's very sacred to the indigenous tribes, and I take it with a Shaman that guides me and helps me through the experience. We prepare the whole month for it, through meditation and a special diet, I feel all psychoactive substances should be taken with a lot of care and respect.
It's so sad to me that you were forced into a state of mind you didn't want to be in, like you said, many people have life changing experiences with some psychedelic substances but it's when they are ready to do it and they want to do it, and specially when they have had time to properly prepare for that kind of journey. It will always be horrifying if you are forced into it, and it can mess you up mentally for sure, I'm so glad it didn't do any permanent damage to you :( being forced into any kind of situation you don't want to be in is a form of abuse and I'm so extremely sad that it happened to you.
You're so fortunate to live where you do! I've wanted to try Ayahuasca for years, but live in Australia.
I really hope you can experience ayahuasca someday Natalie, it's getting more popular around the world so you should beware of fake shamans and brews that are not pure.
Ayahuasca will teach you, heal you, you will experience death and be awakened to your true essence, the evolution of the soul is a beautiful and painful process, it's for the seekers of truth and the warriors of light :)
I actually almost do it. My grandpa told me to do so but my mom said no. It makes you hallucinate crazy shit.
Would love to try ayahuasca! Its kinda on my bucket list.
+Camila Wenger Hello, Namaste. If you dont mind would you please get ahold of me either on youtube message or google+ message? I have some questions for you about your experience, and im seeking to travel to where i can have my own experience. Not to be heard of in Vermont, USA lol. But i really want to speak to someone who has experiences with a long lasting DMT, as i have only ever smoked it.
What a shitty thing to do to someone! Do you know what drink or food it was put in? My guess is that had someone slipped that to you while you were friends and in a familiar and comfortable environment, you would not have reacted that way. Glad you made it back safely.
Considering that she said she has a panic disorder, and that she's never done hallucinogenic drugs before, she probably would have still freaked out. Being with friends and a familiar environment would have been better for her, but she stated herself that if she is not in control of her brain, she freaks out. Neuroatypical people and drugs react differently than neurotypical people and drugs.
I won't say it happend like this, but many people I know visiting Amsterdam have that Problem - and in every case it happened the same Way: They got hungry and bought something without checking if it was kosher.
There are Acid-Cakes, yummy Mushroomsandwiches and such Things - and the most of them do look like really yummy regular food.
But, I have to say, you were very ballsy in Amsterdam, almost dangerous fearless - I know, it sounds ironic.
The things you describe sounds like Acid as Shrooms tend not to kick in suddenly, it is more like slipping away into Wonderland.
Acid can be delivered via little drenched Papercuts or plasters - maybe you found something like this. But, also it can be liquid and dripped onto something else.
I had very similar expiriences back then as someone thought it would be funny to do this to me - he really ODd and I had a real bad Horrortrip (It was not in Amsterdam, it was a "Friend" I had back then).
panic attacks r brutal, i get them too, i also decided a long time ago that most drugs were just a bit too much for my already over-active mind. sorry u had to go through that gorgeous!!
I'm so sorry Black Friday, no one should ever have to go through this. I'm glad you were safe and I'm also super sorry no one was there to protect and take care of you. Thank you for your bravery and courage and coming forward.
I'm so glad you are alright now, no one has a right to do that to anyone
How scarry, how do you think they might have done this to you ? Good to know you are safe now
No idea, but at least everything was fine afterwards :)
+It's Black Friday yes at least you made it home and had nice people helping you :)
+93 NoraA not cool
+93 NoraA Seriously?
Did your husband find you okay?
I have only recently subscribed and started watching your videos. Please know you are such an inspiration to me. I have depression, bi polar and a recovering addict. There are days I just want to stay in bed but you inspire me to get my ass out of bed, put on make-up and clothes and seize the day. Thank you so much my ang! All my love from the most beautiful Southern most tip of Africa xxx
I know I have panic attacks and have voluntarily taken lsd, and it’s pretty much exactly how u described it. The biggest downfall during my trip is that I spend the whole time trying to be rational and composed and keeping it together-meanwhile my ceiling is covered in small humankind figures in fetal position facing the wall and twitching around.
If I came across you in public and you were telling me someone drugged you, since you are a public persona or whatever you want to call it it be easier to trust you and I would NOT leave you by yourself that's awful. I know what it feels like to be like that it's really scary and someone could have easily taken advantage. I'm kinda mad that person didn't stick around. Be careful that's so scary and it's hard to scare me .
people are stupid why would they ever do that
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A guy once tried to pick me off the street when I was 10. I kicked him and ran away. People are just crazy.
Because people are horrible.
+Ghost Of A Killjoy lol
+Xuno 360 I kicked him hard.
im nearly 43 now but when in my late teens/early 20s i loved tripping as it made me feel like i was kinda renewed but thatcwas by choice. i can totally see how having one come on & totally consume u as trips do without knowing or wanting it would be a complete freak out! & its true that theres nothing u can do but ride it out. omg sheer hell if u were on a bad trip. i only ever took them when in a really positive state of mind and with friends in a safe environment because i was so aware that a bad trip traps u somewhere u would never want to be & can effect u for the rest of ur life thru panic attacks & flashbacks. really bad if u already get panic attacks. Glad u normalised afterwards & it hasnt fucked with ur head too much Dear xx
Marni Zavaleta nobody needs to know that you did drugs
@@kinokak6999 LOL wtf is wrong with you?
I'm glad you're okay now,shame it had to ruin the last day of your trip!
Yeah eh! We'll still be visiting Amsterdam again very soon though, still a charming city :)
+Lilith Luna lou bad choice of words oops ⊙︿⊙
+Lilith Luna lou very nice. love the pun. (;
And this just gives me more of a reason to be the straight edge person that I am. I know that if I did drugs, I'd meltdown as you did and totally not be okay. I don't have an anxiety disorder (as in I don't have to take medication and such) but I do have panic attacks whenever I'm around my trigger, and I'm sure that would cause many. I'm happy you're okay though and recovered from that, feeling that level of fear does horrible things to someone sometimes.
But it does not help to be a straight edge person at all if people do this to you without your knowledge and against your will.
Sorry you had to go through that. Have social anxiety myself and I know how scary it is when you have a panic attack. It feels so overwhelming. I can't believe how sick some people are.
2:50 rip social repose
I thought I was the only one who thought that
+Alex :3 wait I'm confused can you explain?
Social repose is mama Goth moth he's a UA-camr look him up
HAHA
omg, I love social repose, it was through him that I found its black Friday,....I think. but yeah, I love ur comment!!
I tried pot once and I felt like the same, my heart pouding out of my chest, feeling like I needed to puke, really tired (too lazy to talk but I had to, so my mom could pick me up), paranoid, etc.
Luckily my mom wasn't mad at me and helped me to bed, and even covered everything up so my dad wouldn't find out, so I could sleep it off.
And everytime I smell pot, I immediatly feel bad and it seems that it has been a traumatic experience for me.
One of my worst experiences was eating some marijuana candy right when my dad was dying of cancer. Life folded in on itself and the entire purpose of living went completely away. I was absolutely insane during that trip. It was the worst feeling I have ever had. Ever. (And this is after smoking weed for 20 years, something was wrong)
Nooooo! I'm so sorry this happened. Psychedelic drugs GAVE me a panic disorder so I totally understand. I wish you would talk more about this part of you. A lot of us suffer in similar ways and knowing we aren't alone is always a real relief.
Oh hun I suffer from panic attacks too and its horrible to feel so alone and vulnerable. Glad you could make it back home safe!
Oh wow. panic attacks are scary, I myself am also medicated. glad you made it home safe!
I feel so bad, so sorry, it sounds terrible 😿😿.
What did your husband say when you told him all of this? or even when he saw you? I am sorry that happened to you. I am glad that you still had fun though. LOVE YOUR VIDEOS.
My heart is honestly breaking for you. Someone took the thing you love most and nearly ruined it for you. I wish something I could say would help but I know it won't. Please take the time to heal and do the things you need to do to feel safe again. As you always say, take care of yourself
That is literally my worse nightmare, so sorry this happened to you! I suffer from panic attacks and I totally get how the complete lack of control over your body could lead you in such a panic. I'm actually angry on your behalf ,like as you said it could of been much much worse and had even deadly consequences. I genuinely don't understand how people could find causing someone such distress funny? You were so brave, and I admire how you took this shitty experience to share with us all because maybe now some people will understand the consequences to 'having a good time'. Kudos.
This. This is why I don't do _any_ drugs.
The bad think is, when people do it to you without your knowledge at all...
***** I've no comment to make to you.
Why? Also, do you seriously mean any? Even over the counter drugs, such as Tylenol
Prescribed drugs are different. I take them as actual medication, although I do tend to veer away from them. They don't seem to do anything to me…never really help. But I take them as required and as prescribed. I don't abuse them ›:
nobody cares rofl
if I had to guess ....for the couple of days u were there someone was watching you....and figured out you was leaving that day...and tried to drug you and do god knows what....what I noticed you did in one of your amsterdam vids...u told a couple of people u were there alone....you wasnt supposed to do that....that how you become a target...but am glad you made it home ok
I got roofied when I was on my 18th birthday... I was lucky though! a police man was riding past on a horse and stopped the guy who was attacking me so I wasn't raped :)
I also got a ride to the taxi ranks on the back of his horse xD
last thing I remember from that night is kissing a horse goodbye that looked as though it was underwater :o
the policeman was amazing, he got me in a car home and see to everything. all this happened because I got left behind by friends and it turned out the guy who attacked me was the bartender in the club :/
eitherway we're both lucky Black Friday!! to have met nice people when we were in scary places x
I chose the same for similar reasons. I would panic beyond imagining. Wigging out, losing control, seeing things are not experiences I ever want to have. Your'e braver than you know!
I love you for talking about your anxiety! I have panic attacks brought on by over stimulation which is why I smoke cannabis. It levels me out and filters the noise but I never touch anything else because I want to be in control. Cannabis even took time for me to get comfortable with. I'm so sorry that happened and grateful you were saved.
For someone who doesn't do drugs... yeah that would be pure hell.
Shit.. So this wasn't click bait...? .. be safe people.
Oh my goodnes! But B, where's your husband in all this? You should've had him pick you up. XD
He was in another country.
i bet she means when she was on her way back home and got lost in the woods.
Wolfpupper ー She was prolly still too confused to work a phone or he was working.
He was working, and neither of us really carry phones because apparently we live in the past :p
+It's Black Friday Did you leave anything unattended? It sounds very much like you were either slipped either a "roofie" or "Mickey" or even acid. The symptoms that you're describing is acid. I've never, ever, ever done any illegal drugs, but my hubby had tried acid and he told me what he went through and it was exactly what you went through.
I am so sorry that you have severe panic attacks, and whomever slipped you the acid could've killed you, and I'm very, very, very happy that you're doing better.
Please, please, please, please be extremely careful wherever you go, always be vigilant about your surroundings and who is around you.
You're a very, very, very beautiful young lady and some sicko will take notice and try something stupid. So please be careful.
The next time, you may not fare so well. I'm not trying to be a bitch or anything like that,but I had a terrifying experience, and I was raped by 3 guys just from drinking Diet Pepsi, which they slipped me something when I was tutoring my so called friend in honors Algebra. This is why I'm begging you to be extremely, extremely, extremely careful.
IF this does happen again, immediately drink orange juice. From what my hubby told me, it neutralizes the effect of the drug slipped to you. A piece of advice.
We're like the same, I'd never entertained the thought of doing some illegal drug, because I don't see the need for it.
I am sorry that happened to you. It is encouraging to hear of the kindness you received from strangers, when you needed it most.
I'm so relieved you are ok. i know what its like to have those major panic attacks. infact, i had a really bad one and my family ended up checking me into the hospital. Having serious panic disorders are thingalot of people don't, or refuse to understand (atleast in my experiences). I too take medicine to help with the episodes, but having PTSD doesnt mix welll.
Hearing your story made me feel ths type of kinship with you. I haven't met too many people that actually talk about disorders or problems they have. It makes me feel proud to be part of this community. thank you for always being you and being honest.
Whoa... I'm so fucking glad you made it home safely! Its a really good thing you asked for help & first aid so they could at least check your vitals and reassure you.
Have u thought about getting tested to see what you were drugged with? I guess that wouldn't really matter at this point but being on anti anxiety meds you literally could've died... People who do that to others are so fucking short-sighted not realizing they can unintentionally kill whoever they drugging.
Don't be embarrassed, we all have our stories, the end of mine was also mortifying and terrible. Once again, I'm truly happy that you're home and safe and can continue living your life the way you want to because even though I don't know you, I think you've touched a lot of lives (including mine) in a loving, inspiring way and I hope to one day get to meet you and give u a hug and maybe tell you exactly how your videos made me feel better during some tough moments!
Thank you for sharing you experience, sorry for the dreadfully long comment 😃
Sounds like LSD or Mushrooms
Like a lot of it. But isn't the first rule of trips is not to trip alone for you first time not like she had a choice but yea
a rule of thumb is also to fucking KNOW that ur actually tripping ;)
It was acid, dude.You can't slip someone shrooms, but a tab of lucy is a whole different story.
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Jason Martin Quite possibly. Never taken anything psychoactive other than acid so i wouldn't know.
Where was Matthias?
I've always had anxiety too and I was officially diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder.
So, once, back when I was in high school someone started smoking pot outside the window and I got a contact high and it was awful! My heart starting racing and my stomach felt sick, not to mention my anxiety levels are getting high!
I'm so sorry that happened to you
I actually do awareness for anxiety and depression disorder. My panic attacks get really bad sometimes and I do need to get back medications. Thank you for talking about it. I'm tired of people thinking it's a stigma. We can't control the panic attacks, it doesn't mean we're crazy , we just have a mental illness.
That's why I refuse drinks from anyone but a bartender. Still check tho. Lol
Remember kids - don't take the brown acid.
I would've went to the hospital the next day Dx
I'm sooooo glad you are alright. I have a mild panic disorder along with a few other little hiccups and I understand that "not in control" fear. Thankfully the situation you were in wasn't worse than it was and that you're here in one peace!
Oh my so so so sorry to hear that, I'm so glad that the people at the station where so nice to you!
Sounds like LSD. That's horrible that happened to you!!
What did your husband have to say about this?
I was wondering the same thing..
Knowing Mattias, he was probably pissed and I don't even know the guy! Just the way he acts around Black Friday tells me he'd be pissed off that a. someone had done that to his wife and b. he was unable to protect her.
I mean, hopefully he was supportive and concerned. Why would you ask that in such an intrusive way? lol
MellowJelly Well, maybe to you it was intrusive?
I didn't really bother asking anyone's opinion on how I formulate questions.
I am merely wondering how her husband reacted to the news.
Something like this is obviously a big deal, and people always forget there are usually two victims not just one in these types of issues.
I'm sure many people never really asked about his feelings on this.
Like I've already pointed out, knowing Mattias he was probably pissed off, but it would be up to Black Friday to open up about what HER husband said or didn't say. It's not our place to discuss the guy without his being able to say something.
I hallucinate daily but never that bad.... how bad are hands cut of at the wrist and shadow people??
Pretty bad, my dude.
+no not being hospitalised isn't really a good indicator of how bad a mental disorder is, since hospitalisation is such a hit and miss for example;
I have a friend who has mild anxiety problems and manage themselves fine, but had a panic attack before an exam, was subsequently sectioned before Christmas and basically locked away in a room for 3 months because of it, accused to being a danger to society for hyperventilating in the corner a bit for forgetting her school ID number
I also know people who hear voices telling them to do "bad things" and see things, who openly admit they're not coping and are afraid they'll hurt themselves or others, who have been told they're not severe enough to be hospitalised after requesting it..
plus the amount of abuse that happens to patients on mental wards is disgusting so it's really should be the final final final resort
my friend, as long as you feel safe within yourself, and have the sensibility to get help if your symptoms escalate to dangerous situations, then you don't really need to be in a hospital unless you want to, because by the sound of it, you're coping ok.
just remember to find a doctor you trust and tell them straight away if anything changes
***** I feel pretty safe, it's like they just chill out, maybe move a little bit and disappear when I look back again. It's like when a dog runs by and you only see a little bit of it and a small rush goes through you. It feels like that. Nothing too severe.
I am so sorry that happened to you! I also have an anxiety disorder, and can't imagine how that would feel, especially being alone. Well done getting through it, in spite of the fact that you were afraid and in panic.
I'm so sorry this happened to you... I can't believe there was people trying to help you more. I'm glad you're okay. I hope this doesn't stop you from traveling alone, I envy you being able to do that. You're so independent! Love you beautiful!
Maybe some instant karma has already caught up with the sadistic f*@# who did that to you. It's been 30+ years since it happened to me and I still will have a nightmare once in a while about it. Unfortunately there are evil people walking around the planet and I can only hope that KARMA will be visited upon them by way of their worst nightmare.
That isn't weed... That's mushrooms for you... Been there, unfortunately done that... I hate psychedelics including weed. But weed won't do that to you... Even if it's your first go around.
What does it say about me as a person that my first thought would be "Woo hoo free drugs!" ...
Thank goodness you're okay! Some people get slipped drugs and they never recover...ever. It's really scary. 😦
This is so terrifying! I'm so sorry it happened to you! I also have a panic disorder and have the same fear of losing control and your experience had me in tears. You may be embarrassed, but I think you handled yourself quite well under the circumstances. I'm so happy that there were nice people around who were able to help you. Thank you so much for posting about this! It's so important to talk about things like this, not only to spread awareness about being drugged but also about panic disorders, something that a lot of people have and are afraid to talk about. So, thank you!
and this is why kids shouldn't do drugs , thank you for telling us your experience.
What does it have to do with kids? It happens to everyone when you're on drugs even adults, idiot
+serena nicole ......no need to insult. I'm just saying kids should never try drugs bunk ass
+serena nicole I think she tried to turn off kids/teens who thought about doing it. Kids/teens are more prone to try it.
+Mariana Buelna but it's more than just not taking drugs, because she didn't want to, the moral would be be extremely careful because there are bad people in this world that can hurt you if you let down your guard even for just a minute.
That's what I was just trying to say.. mylifeasfrank , kids here in California are already doing weed and are abusing xanax . you'd be surprised. I'm in highschool that's why I know this. In my generation kids started abusing drugs back in 6th grade.
it sounds like acid or ecstasy
I dunno what kind of E you're familiar with, but it should not give hallucinations like that... Enhanced senses, yes. Full-blown hallucinations of dead people you know on the faces of people walking around... NO.
sounds like Ayahuasca to me
I'd say acid too.
could've been molly. Molly has been known to cause hallucinations to people sometimes even after the first try.. mentalhealthdaily.com/2014/03/21/does-ecstasy-mdma-make-you-hallucinate-evidence-suggests-that-it-could/
never heard of that is that the one that makes people act like zombies
What happened your side-shave?
I'm growing it out and just style my hair over it, I decided it didn't suit me that well :p
+It's Black Friday oh hun im so sorry this happened to you. I felt like i was there with you. I have panic disorder as well and it sounds very similar to the way you reacted. I too have chosen not yo do drugs other than my medication for my anxiety and panic disorder. I had it for yeeeears. It fucking sux balls too but hey we manage. But losing the control of your mind,sight, heartbeat is not on ones list of things we want as panic sufferers. Erradic fucked up movements and body glitches,sounds and sights are the worst along with looking like we do and then worrying people wont help cause we seem crazy going through an episode. You were so lucky at the train station. I hope this never happens again. Looks like its time to take even more measures to protect from assholes.🌹
lol i'm growing mine out to
+shopgrrl that's how I felt the first time I tried pot it was so scary I also have panic disorder as well as bi polar and schizophrenia
I am just so very grateful that you're ok and you got home safely. It has happened to me and the fear is indescribable. There really are some loathsome people out there who do shitty things to people with no care for the consequences. Take care lovely and again, I am so happy you're home safely xxx
As someone else who has anxiety issues, I really understand how upset you were when this happened to you.
I don't really like how some commenters are saying "You just need to do it with friends!" because it doesn't help, and you clearly didn't want to do this at all.
I'm so glad you ended up safe, though, since situations like that can end up sooo bad.
I wish I could send a cute little muffin basket to the train station people as a thank you.
oooooohhhhh sweetie. ..if I'd seen you I would have helped and stayed with you.
that sounds like Angel Dust. ..I'm not a drug user, made the mistake of trying to be cool with friends and try marijuana. ...turns out the *gangsters* my friends were with and just met had laced it with dust. ...fuckin scary horrifying experience I've ever had.
all the symptoms you've explained it felt like I was feeling it right along with you.
*Hugs dear*
GOD damn who ever drugged you!!
and *YESSSSS* it was very stupid of me for trying weed/drugs
I listened carefully to the symptoms you were describing; and, have you considered a mild case of food poisoning? I say mild only because a severe case would require a stay at the hospital - I wasn't trying to down-play your experience. Also, a toxicology report could give you some answers (however, it would have to be done A.S.A.P. after the incident to be reliable evidence). My advice - and please don't take this the wrong way - if something like this happens again - just tell people you need immediate medical attention. Then tell the professionals your symptoms - for your own privacy. Great channel - C.S. - U.S.
Yea I was kind of surprised no one called for an EMT or something after it became apparent that she was legitimately not okay. In that situation I would want a medical professional around.
Thanks for your reply. She tells us in the video that panic set in very deep - and no one can fault her for that. I haven't experienced what she went through; but, I did suffer a leg injury where there was no way I was able to walk. Luckily there were people around when this happened and I just kept repeating to them "Carry me out of this field, get me help now." I probably would have panicked too, but the pain was over-riding any emotions. There is a great message in this video - if you experience a medical emergency and there are people around - just keep saying "get me medical help" until they do. I'm so glad she made this video - C.S.
+Chris Senzatimore and I totally get where they were coming from too. But at the point that I was having trouble walking and eating I would have gone back and told them to get medical help. I mean not only was there a anxiety involved, there was an inability to physically function. At least they didn't completely brush her off. But it is one thing when someone who takes drug recreationally has a bad trip, it's another when it is someone who doesn't and has...IDK round trip tickets as evidence that this wasn't planned.
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That's a good point - I hadn't thought about the tickets. Also, like you said, at least they looked after her the best they could. Some people would just ignore the situation. Thanks for the reply. - C.S.
And on that day you unlocked your third eye.
I'm so sorry that happened to you. I have experienced something similar and the horror when your brain and body won't work the way they are supposed to is overwhelming. glad you're home safe. :)
I have panic disorder too. Your experience sounds terrifying. I’m sorry that you went through that.
Black Friday's hair is as big and epic as her chest.
be glad it wasn't rohipnol Friday...
I don't have a panic disorder but I freak out when I feel like I'm not in control of my body, too. I didn't know other people had the same problem...
All I have to do is get a little bit tipsy while drinking and I immediately stop drinking to sip on some water until that feeling goes away. Due to this I have never been drunk, which a lot of people think is totally odd as an Aussie haha.
My boyfriend made me eat a hash cookie once and I had a panic attack for like 4-5 hours, I just sat on the couch crying and unable to communicate while freaking the fuck out.
I'll stick to being completely sober any day!
I am so sorry that happened to you. I don't understand how someone could think that was in any way okay to do. It sounds like one of the LSD analogs. Even knowing what to expect the experience can go sideways and become awful. I can't imagine just how terrifying that must have been for you. I am glad you made it home and are alright now.
om gosh hun, that would have been so frightening. I can not even fathom.
hugs. im so happy your home and safe.