Grandma's Favourite
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- Опубліковано 26 кві 2020
- I still don't know how to deal with her death.
What am I supposed to do or feel?
There are times when I get emotional when I think about her but most of the time I feel normal?
Maybe it's because I did mentally prepare myself as she deteriorated.
I knew that her end was nearing so is that why I don't feel as sad I should?
Honestly, I don't know what to feel.
I'm worried that everything is being pent up. That's why I had that anxiety attack recently.
My throat felt dry for more than a week so I thought it was one of "the symptoms". I went to the clinic and the doctor gave my antibiotics. A few days later, I begun to have trouble breathing so I went straight to the hospital at 3 am and it turned out to be an anxiety attack so the doctor gave me Xanax pills and advised me to see a psychiatrist if things get worst.
I don't know if I'm feeling this way because of working on the video or because of the lockdown. I have been home for more than a month now, maybe that's eating me up. Or maybe working on this video just gave me mixed emotions?
Either way, I'm still struggling to breathe but I know that it's all in my head because it goes away when I sleep. I just need to find ways to relax when I'm awake.
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Intro & Outro:
Piano 40 by Kouichi Morita (Maoudamashii)
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Other Music:
ぽよよ～ん体操 by 田中芳典
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I’m not crying!
*someone is cutting onions*
It's me
And I'm crying too T-T
Same
same 😭😭😭😢😥
Yea hahah- those damn onions- lolol hey when did this pool show up?
@@cineraria5532 me too T^T
I’m sorry, but why is that thumbnail so adorable?
That’s show her big love for her grandmother
R a v e n _ Y o o n __ sir lemme correct you ‘him’
Mad Queen lover Andrea 123 honestly I couldn’t tell if there pronouns wear she or he so I went with they
@@madqueenloverandrea1233 They actually go with They/Them and they consider themselves as Asexual too. Watch their Q&A video
This made me think about my grandparents
Me to .. I wish I could give my grandma everything she treats me more then a 👵😭😍
No your someone, tho anyways, this reminded me a lot of my big and youngest brother, they both were very sickly, though I wasn’t very close to my big brother since I didn’t know him, or really remember him. But when she was talking about how she’d check if her grandmother was breathing, whenever she’d be sleeping, that how I was to my baby brother, I’d always make sure that he was breathing.
Same. It made me miss my grandparent from my dad's side even more.
I'm really sorry that she passed away. She sounded like an amazing grandma, I hope you are doing well and we all support you. I also understand how you feel I've lost close family members before and its hard.
I want to know who is this 1 disrespectful people who hit a dislike??!!
Assholes
Sakshi Verma now there is four of them ... dammit
Le cri
10. It’s just assholes and haters. They don’t actually watch it and just dislike.
Can I commit arson ?
It’s nice that you’re talking about something so personal 💛
Edit: wow that's alot of likes(￣ヘ￣;)
They litterly talk abt their pancakes
@@limittime3493 stop.
Aw she sounds so wonderful
I miss my grandma but at least I can call her
She lives about an hour away so we dont get to see her that much but it's always nice when we go over every few months
I think just knowing that we cant see her makes it worse
Ive had had my dog die about 5 or 6 months ago but ive come to terms with his death
Ive also had 2 great grandmothers die but I wasnt close to them so as teerible as it seems I dont want to bring them back
I'm not very religious so skip if you're gonna get triggered
As I view it god or gods or a higher power might exist or might not so I might as well do what I want because even if we get reincarnated I wont remeber this life so I just hope theyve had a good life
Of course I want my dog back but it wont happen and thats okay
So have a good day/night 😊
(Ignore my possible spelling/grammar mistakes)
I'm really close to my mother. She's not even close to be dying of old age yet but I still gey paranoid. Sometimes when she's asleep (i normally sleep in the room next to hers) She'll go quiet (she also snores a lot) and i panic, run up to her, and watch if she's still breathing. Of course she is and it relieves me. I don't know what I'm gonna do when she's gone...
ManiFlare get you dude, it’s scary and it’s gna be one of the hardest things that we’ll have to eventually face 💔 all we can do is treasure the time we have
Me too dude `(*∩_∩*)′
Bruh, the 4 people who disliked the video are just heartless.
11*
I hope you and your family have healed well and I'm sorry for her passing ❤️ I'm glad you shared good memories with her. I also had difficult times with my family and me being part of the LGBT+ community. I got expelled from my school for being gay and I had to convince my parents that I was just confused in order to not get kicked out onto the streets. It's not like I publicly kissed the same gender or boasted about it. In fact, I kept it to myself because I have social anxiety and constant worry about my image. I struggle with accepting myself more after that incident because I value religious beliefs, but I don't want to give up on who I am. I'm happy you got through yours. : )
【A K I O】 wow that must of been difficult I’m straight but I have friends who are LGBT+ and I can’t imagine living through that your very brave ❤️
Georgianna Keasler Aw, thank you so much just for that kind reply.
This is what scares me to come out to my family. I have questioned my gender and sexuality. I am not doing it while I am still a student.
@@legendarypinkmilk3092 I felt the exact same way. I wanted to tell them after I graduated college and moved out, but someone at my school found out and told my principal. I got kicked out and my parents found out through that. If your family is homophobic, I advise to stay in the closet. It's stressful, but it's better than having your own family members hate you for who you are.
@@yu.oldacc you are right. I am not doing it anytime soon. I am a med student. And have a long way to go before getting independent and I need my family's support. I feel like my mom kinda knows about me but thinks that it is just a phase or something.
I’m not crying am just cosplaying as a waterfall🙂💔
This reminded me of my grandmother too.
I remember, when she was still here, I always admired and loved her. My mother has a lot of sibling (around 7) and since my mom’s dad passed, her mom took care of them. I was always amazed by her power of being able to cope with all those people herself.
And when the day came, I wasn’t feeling anything. Literally nothing. I was looking at the coffin with an emotionless face.
But it all hit me when we got back home.
I was crying my eyes out. I refused to eat for a few days, and I was about 9 at the time, so that was a pretty big deal for a young child. Even while I’m typing these, I’m still crying. I miss her so much. I understand your pain.
Be Honest......
*We are all grandma's favorite* 💖💝
my sister is my grandmas favorite 😅❤
Nah, too gay to be the favourite
I stopped watching the last episode from the fourth season of Haikyuu for this
The people who disliked this are either emotionless or have no soul.
I cried a lot while watching this video. It's very brave to talk about such a personal topic 💖💕💖I love your videos 💛❤️
The end truly broke my heart, because I know how it is to lose loved ones, so I started crying during this, I’m so sorry for your loss, but I hope your family can get adjusted, and that you’re never alone
A weird thing my brain does when I feel sad is reminding me of all the terrible and sad thing that have happened to me in my life
So this video made. Me. Ball. My eyes out ;-;
I'm gonna go eat rice now
Rice makes me feel better...
This left me in tears...
This feels so similar to my dadi. She is in her 80s now. My dad's parents live with us. And she is very close to my mom. 7:47 felt so real... My mom does that as she is super scared to lose dadi. I don't know when I developed that habit as well.
I relate to that special ointment 😅😅 and the sucky relatives as well.
Now I have moved to another city for my studies, I miss her. Her health is deteriorating. Mom takes care of her. And I just wanna go home now and coax and hug her. I don't know why me and my brother treat her like she is our girlfriend. But it is fun 😂
You know your the best child when your grandma’s favorite
I love how he is finding a way to still be happy about something so heartbreaking. I wish I could do that if something like that happened to me. :D
It's a she
No,he's FtM
They actually go by they/them pronouns
I'm sorry for your loss, as someone who lost a grandparent to Alzheimer's I can understand how you feel. How depressing it can be to watch someone you love dearly go downhill. I wish the best for your family and hopefully you can all slowly heal and get stronger! :')
I understand how you feel. I had a really special relationship with my grandfather.. he died about 5-7 years ago but his death still hurts.. he was the grandparent i was closest to. Every time i see him in a photo, i break down crying. At the time, i had no idea what was going on. I was young and i had never really paid attention at funerals. But when my parents sat me and my sisters down on the couch to tell us he was gone, mt heart shattered. My grandmother from the other side of the family was there to comfort us, but i was crying so much and so badly that my mom had to keep switching me between crying on my grandmother to crying on her multiple times. I bawled for hours.. i think i actually cried more at his funeral than my now widowed grandmother did. Ever since his death, ive struggled with letting my emotions out and letting myself cry. At this point, my body just won't let me do it unless something triggers my PTSD in just the right way. While my mom and widowed grandmother tried explaining that it was better for him to be gone because of all the health problems he had and how much pain he was in. But to this day i still cant accept that he's gone. I hope youre coping better than i am even though my loved one's death was longer ago. I love your channel and youre very strong. I appriciate you so much and i want to thank you for all the laughs youve given me. Thank you Josh.
I have this relationship with my grandma and even deeper, she took care of my family financially because my father doesn't work, i love her to the moon and back, i can't imagine a day without her, she always protect my back and believe in me, i feel so guilty because i can't help her with anything, i am a very awkward introvert woman, with a weak physique i can't do much for her, i xish if i wasn't like that, even i can't keep with my education, what i want is very hard to reach, she s an old woman who feed 5mouths, its hard for her, but i fail everytime i want to help, i love her even if i didn't prove it much, i hope i can make her happy.
I feel you. I’ve met all four of my great grandparents, but only remember three. The last one I knew for a lot longer. My grandma worked her butt off to care for my great-grandmother. It was hard to process my great grandmothers death because I knew how my mom and my grandma felt. I didn’t have the mental strength to be in the room during the funeral because I knew I’d be a sobbing mess. I don’t like reminding myself of the dead in my life. I am super close to my grandparents and my parents and this past few weeks my grandma’s health got a little worse and it’s making her depressed. So glad you have good dreams where you can talk to her.
Sorry if this comment is a mess, I’m pulling an all-nighter and it’s currently 5 am
It reminds me of my uncle...we lived together and well we were close. I missed it when he sang to the trees in our nursery and his catch phrase. About 3 years ago I suddenly felt sad for some unknown reason but soon found out when I got home. I didn't want to believe it when I saw my aunt that never talks to us at the house. So of course I cleaned because I assumed more guest were arriving....some time later my mom came in the house soaking wet from rain crying her eyes out. It was sad hearing my uncle had passed...when we got back from Texas the trees grew sad. It's as if they knew he wouldn't come sing to them, it's good remembering those you hold dear
I understand exactly how you feel.
My grandma died in August of 2020 and she slowly wore down over time. She was bedridden and we had to wash her, feed her, help her use the toilet, etc.
The main difference here is thay she had a stroke and died months later from complications. She died in her sleep.
I remember talking to her for the last time and her telling me in small mumbles what i though was "everything will be okay."
The next day she died. I went to the nursing home she was at (we couldn't care for her anymore.) and I saw her body in her bed.
It was so painful to see her laying there. I held her hand and hugged her. She was so cold...
I even sang one of her favorite Elvis songs that night to her body.
One might see that as odd, but it was almost spiritual for me, because I would play that song for her on the violin and sing it with her so much since she raised me on Elvis.
She was always there for me since I was little, and she took care of me when my parents were at work. She was almost like a third parent, but so much more. She was my best friend ever since I was born. She took many of my secrets to the urn, because I trusted her the most out of anyone in the world.
My family keeps her urn on a shelf in our living room along with other things that belonged to her, and we have a large photo of her on our wall.
Even though she died last year, sometimes I still dream about her and cry when I think about her. She was the best. She was short, feisty, sweet, and ultra protective over all of us. Sometimes I miss hearing her bicker with my grandpa, and I know he misses it too...
It's just so hard living without her, but we have to just move along.
I miss you, grandma. I miss you, Mimi.
R.I.P 😢💗😓😭
This reminds me of me dead grandfather
I didn't now him for long
I remembered my grandpa who passed in 3rd of May 2020 due to old aging. I was relieved he passed due to that cause he had intestines cancer stage 4, heart attack and a lot more sicknesses. He was struggling for at least a year. He used to be over weight but once he got all these sicknesses, he became very i weight. Some point in December 2019, we all thought this was it. He did a surgery and the chance of survival was 39%. But if he didn’t do the surgery, he would die. Miracle happened and he survived. But in February, he became extremely fragile and weak.He could not eat so we had to feed him in a tube. He couldn’t even speak to us. I remember one of the last words he told me was “when I die, remember to kneel down beside me and hold my hands”. On the day he was announced dead, I didn’t really feel any sadness, I was happy he is no longer suffering. But when we were about of send his body away to burn him to ash, I started to cry and I regretted not spending enough time with him.
Thia remembered me of my grandma, she is staying with my grandpa in our house bc of quarantine. She has dementia and sometime she doesn't remember my name or calls me my mother's name. I'm her favorite grandchild too, and as you whenever she sleeps nearby y stare at her chest to see if she is breathing. She also is the person who understands me more and I'm so scared of losing her. She was the one who encouraged me to cosplay and is actually very chill about LGBTQ+ people. She usually jokes about dying and we all know that she doesn't have much too... This video made me cry and hug my grandma a lot.
You’re grandma was a saint, may she rest in peace. I literally cried, and it is kinda hard to make me cry and this video has done it, I hope you’re doing okay. She’s at peace and is no longer in pain. She loves you and is watching over you. From what you said she was a kind woman. May she Rest In Peace.
It is amazing when you have that kind of connection with your grandparents especially when your parents don't understand who you are or why you are that way.
Beautiful video! I cried so hard. I'm Cuban, I was raised by my grandmother, my parents divorced when I was 11 months old and my mom worked all the time, I recalled my childhood to be very similar to yours. I'm still devastated about my grandma's passing away and it will be 9 years already next month. 💔😥
Everybody here has it pure and sweet, it’s amazing to see how beautiful they have it with their grandmas compared to mine.
As for me, i used my grandma’s(december 15th, 2015) and my great grandma’s(this year, february) passing to get what i wanted out of them.
I got to skip class and got sympathy from people around, plus one of my friend in class knew i’m “sad” considering she was there with me when i heard the news from my cuz. Even 5 years later I’m still satisfied.
I even skipped work because my manager back then was kind enough to be accepting my absence, i showed up but not came for work. I wasn’t in my grandma’s funeral and i deserved it, i got appendicitis in 17th of december and it doesn’t seem like a coincidence(i planned to cry few years back if it were her funeral). But with my great grandma, i cried in funeral because i didn’t want to be around a heavy air.
You see, I intentionally but subconsciously did those actions. Because my feelings were almost non-existant despite feeling a little hurt. I used my frustrations to cry over my grandparents, except it was for myself. Everyone around me is doing okay as far as i know. I got told that my grandma got a peaceful smiling expression in her coffin too. I know and accept that fact ❤️❤️
I can only imagine how harder you guys have it, it is heavy but mourning the loss is not a big deal for me. i hope you guys are doing okay on your side tho 😃💖 I am different from beautiful you. Be grateful while your family are still around or even be happy you felt strong emotions from your loss. Because i have a hard time when it comes to my family with my indifference and depression 😃 There is reasons for me to say these but i have no bad intentions. I’m sure nobody have gone this far reading this nonsense 😆🤷🏻♀️
Im sorry for your loss, your grandmother sounded like a wonderful person. When I was 7, I lost my grandmother who I was also super close too, but it’s sad because now I’m a teen and I can’t remember certain things about her. The main one being I can’t remember what her voice sounded like, and it kills me, I was so close to her yet that’s the one thing I dont remember. I remember how she smelled, exactly how her apartment looked, how she styled her hair, but I can’t remember her voice and it kills me. I’m sorry for rambling about my issues. I’m sincerely sorry for your loss. She’s in a good place now, know that.
My family and I went through something similar when I was younger. My grandmother has dementia and she doesn't remember anyone anymore. She mumbles a lot but surprisingly enough she still acts a little stubborn sometimes.
I think it started to happen not long after my grandmother’s sister-in-law passed away. She was another person important to us and was my grandmother’s best friend. It hit my sister the most because she was extremely close to both of them. It took a long while for my sister to come to terms with it as well as the rest of our family. My grandmother is still alive and she has someone living with her to take care of her.
I hope you and the rest of your family are doing better. It’s going to be hard but it will be easier. Take the time to reminisce and give your shoulder for your sisters if they need anything. Take care Josh 💛
Bless your grandmother for being so kind and accepting. I hope the best for you and your family, Josh. 💕💕
This is the sweetest thing ever my uncle died last year and he didn’t live near us so we almost never saw he died in a motorbike accident I have a photo of him holding up the peace sine when we came to visit him it makes me smile. Never forget the ones you love even when they are gone
On March 1st 2019, I lost my own grandmother (Dad’s mom). She and I had a special bond as well because I was the only granddaughter from her two sons. So she spoiled me and pay special attention to me a lot. But she always kept me humble.
Parkinson’s disease is what took her and she slowly got worse and worse as time went on... She passed away before I even graduated high school. I was destroyed when I found out she passed away. I was actually on my way to school when my dad called my mom and told us the news.
As much as I would love for her to still be here, I know she’d be miserable. So in a way, I was also relieved that she was at peace.
It’s great that you had such a love for your own grandma, and I know it feels like the world ends whenever you realize they’re gone. But they’re still watching, so it’s hard to be completely sad. You’ll see them again one day, in the mean time though, all you need to worry about is making the rest of your life as fun and fulfilling as possible.
This reminds me of how my great grandmother passed away [My grandma passed away on her little sister's birthday who also passed away].
So I find this helpful.
Your grandmother sounds like a wonderful person, I hope you will heal! Lots of love .
when u say u didn’t cry and instead u were relived, it’s an okay thing because u watched her suffer and now she’s at peace
That’s kind of sweet that *you* (the closest person to her) gave her her last meal :)
Okay so I just loved how you talked about her, but when you went into depth of how you struggled with the acceptance of your family but Archie kept trying her best to pay for you educational/meal funds, I just broke down crying because I found that moment to be so heartwarming to know she tried to help, but heartbreaking that she is now gone. Overall, I have massive respect for you posting this video about Archie👍
Omg im so sorry about to hear that. But I wanna make your day better so here's a story of mine witch is similar to yours.
Before I was born my grandfather was diagnosed with brain cancer. But he was a very strong man and I supported him. When we were together he always said this to me in a soft voice "my beautiful red rose. Don't let people make you sad always be happy." After he said that he would tickle me. When i was young I didn't think much of it. I loved to draw pictures for him and after i show him the picture he showed his beautiful smile to me. But when i was 7 years old he became really weak. And soon he died but I was so sick to realize that. They told me later that he was dead and I realized that life is short but fun and enjoyable.
I hope this made your day. Im so sorry because my English is not that good but it's good telling this story ❤️❤️❤️
As someone who has no more contact with my nan I'm happy for you that you had such an amazing relationship!
I didn’t have grandmother and I far from my family *I means emotional* it’s nice to have that feeling . I am sorry for your loss 💔
Whoever disliked this beautiful video really has no heart
It takes real strength to take care of a dying family member, the emotional pain and physical.
It really is a thing to admire, giving comfort in the time of need
I really hope you are doing okay now. Believe me, I know losing a loved one is hard. During the video I did end up crying and I'm very sorry you had to go through all that. I hope you are still able to stay positive through all of this madness and even in the wake of her death. Much love to be sent your way.
Now i want to see my grandma but i know she is in my heart
Today my grandma would've been 106. We were very close. It's been ten years since she passed. I have so many good, happy memories with her. Sometimes I still feel sad that she's not here, especially because my son never got to meet her. Grandmas are so special. My grandma had dementia as well, that is so hard. I'm totally crying, but this is a beautiful story of love.
Hi jilli I’m sorry for your grandma but at least you had her for as long as you did I know how it feels I was the same with my grandpa and missing him every day 💖
God bless your Archtie
I've never met her but she reminds me of my grandmother
You really made me remember my grand aunt. I usually feel like I didn’t spend enough time with her, and Christmas hasn’t been the same without her. But I always remind me that she’ll always be there, watching and taking care of us
I remember my great grandparents funerals. It was so sad. They were everything to me and my mom. They had 16 children. 200+ grandchildren 100+ great grandchildren. They created our family and I wished they were still alive but Ik they aren’t suffering anymore. RIP Amma & Apa
I cant imagine losing someone that close. rip
This reminded me of my mom's passing and how my dad's mother, my achchi amma struggled with Alzheimer's when my seeya passed away. Always take care of those who are precious to you. Because you'll never know when will be their time and the regret of not having enough time with them is almost unbearable.
She reminds me of my Grandma 👵
She'd take care of me
She was Firm (scary firm) But Kind and nurturing too 😭
Your grandma sounded like a wonderful woman she was there while no one else was. She was the one who taught you how to read and write. Your mom should’ve been grateful that she had her mom to help with you and your sister. Your grandma was the one you made you who you are today.
My favourite memory of my moms dad is when I was young everyone said and still says I'm just like him but a memory that makes me break down is when he'd tell my mom "you can keep the other two (my sisters) but let me keep her" I love this bcz it makes me feel like the favourite for once and my mom always said if there weren't so many complications she would've sent me to live with him
(Rest in peace Archie you will always be remembered)
I am so sorry Jellie, she sounds so lovely.
My grandad ain't that well... and I understand the fear you had.
I thought I was the only one who watched Pengu
I am no longer alone :,)
Am I the only one who was happy he trusted us to tell us something personal but also sad as he talked.....
I can really relate to this because my grandma and her sister who are both in their mid to late 80s live with me and right now one of them is having trouble with her foot and she’s diabetic so I’m kinda worried. She’s pretty much bed ridden right now so my mom my sister and my aunt are having to change her and everything.
I can actually also relate to the family drama part because my grandmother has 8 children and her sister had one child who still lives in ny yet they rarely call to check on them. This video made me want to appreciate the time I have with them more so thanks dood. 🙃
Shit I wrote way too much
She lived a very happy long life. That’s what’s important.
When you said you broke down, I was shaking and cried. I’m emotional 😭
Something that sort of relates to the story is that, My grandpa‘s birthday and then my birthday and then my grandma’s birthday and then my great grandma‘s birthday are all in a Row exactly like that in the middle of the month (i’m not sharing my birthday for obvious reasons) And I also share my birthday with none other than Leonardo da Vinci
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Ah yes the family drama
My mother was a single child and like yours my grandfather also died when i was small so my mother took care of my grandmother. And despite handling house, family, children, her mother our relatives never thought it was enough. I remember my mother crying at night silently.
I cried like 4 times, I know how it feels loosing a family member that you were very close to. "This video is not sad" you said
Its not often where a youtube video makes me cry but even I had a hard time while watching this. This reminds me of when my great great aunt and when my mother's boyfriend died. This really hit me.
Your Granda's so sweet it made me cry
This is such a heartwarming video. I was really close with my grandmother before she passed away when I was in my early teens so I could relate to a lot of the things in this. She took care of me and my little sister a lot as kids and it was always the best seeing her. Archie sounded like an amazing woman and is super proud of you for all the stuff you’ve done. Sending love and support from all the fans.
I feel you, it's hard to talk about these things. At least for me. We are so glad you talked about this because we need to know how death works, how we can recover from grief, and know that we can see these moments with loved one's as reminders to what makes us equal. We all come and go.
That picture of her holding you at the end warms my heart so much.
I had my Father's Mother pass away after I met her for the 4-5th time of my life. I never thought I'd cry during her funeral but once I saw her in the casket I burst into tears, I wish I could've spent more time with her, I only have one unforgettable memory with her, when me, my parents and her sat in a restaurant and ate lunch together, I kept watching my phone and she kept telling me to not watch while eating, I didn't listen. Now I sometimes feel her presence in the room I'm in when I'm alone. Sitting beside me and she might be while I'm typing this. She died at age 60 from a disease we didn't know about because she didn't tell us, I'm just glad that she's in a better place and didn't die much of a painful death. I don't think I have a picture of her but we also had her cremated, Her dying made me realize that nothing in life was permanent, I don't even know what her favorite colour is which makes it even more of a pain for me since I wanted to draw her using her favorite colour, sadly I can't. Rest in Piece dear souls, you will be missed truly.
I kinda know how you feel. I lost my grandfather last year. But because he lives in Laos and I live in America. I was never able to say goodbye. And the last time I ever saw him physically was when I was 3 I just turned 17 yesterday. You’re so strong being able to make this video. And I hope you and your family can heal.
im crying i littarly have the same relationship with my grandma
I personally don't feel like you should be sad when people pass. It doesn't mean that they stop existing they just move to a new stage of there life. Yes it is a little scary at first because you've depended on them for so long and your used to them being there when you need them. But you will still have the memories you shared with them. I hope you feel better soon though❤
I had no idea that your grandmother passed away. I'm really sorry to hear that Josh. I hope you'll recover from your grief.
Please take care Josh 🥺🥺 I’m so sorry about your grandma, make sure you take your medication, be healthy and take care of yourself I love you ❤️❤️❤️
You gave her a good last meal
I understand that fear, I had that same fear with my mother. When I was little and found out about death I would cry and cry saying mom please don’t leave me. My mom would hug me and smile saying I’m not going anywhere. And while at present we’ve had our disagreements and we’ve drifted apart, I silently still fear that dreadful day when I will have to say goodbye.
Im 16 and my great grandmother is in her early nineties
I haven't been able to see her much due to wanting to protect her from covid, the last time i saw her in February, she cried and couldn't believe I was after growing up, i still have pictures of her holding me as a baby
I just went through this same thing, my grandma passed away about two weeks ago she had dementia, Alzheimer's and was put into hospice at home but didn't last a week, I felt the same as you did because when I first got the news I wasn't sad I was relieved but it was only when I saw her body that I realized I would never see her breath again or doing anything, she had dementia and Alzheimers for the past few years and she didn't remember anyone when she passed away it hit the whole family really hard, when we had the funeral (she was also cremated) and I had to go up on the alter to read and the days when I was practising the reading I felt fine and at peace but once I got up there and started I couldn't help but cry, I was thinking about all the memories I had with her and how I wished I visited more often and I couldn't finish my reading my sister had to do it for me and the only thing I wish I could have told her before she started forgetting, is that I'm bi-sexual and wish I would've known before she forgot me at least I got to tell her that on her death bed, thank you for this video it's nice to empathize with someone, even if it's something sad you have both gone through. I'm sorry for your loss may she rest in peace.
When your family told you to change and you didn’t and had to do everything yourself I felt so sad because I’m soon going to have to go through this soon..
I hope everything goes ok especially since I’m home schooled.
Actually, this makes me think about my own grandmother
She is almost 70 and can’t walk because of a nerve ending issue in her legs
It makes me think how I’d feel and what I’d do in her time of dying, this really made me think that I will be there for her
Man, I wish I could cherish my family as much as you have. I come from a toxic family and the only one I care about is my younger sister. So even if people tell me to cherish my family, the only way I can be my best self is to cut myself off most of them.
But still, that story about your grandmother was so sweet. It is heartwarming to see that there is an elderly who stood up for you even when your closer family doesn't.
i lost my grandpa years ago. i cried a lot because whenever I called him I would alwyas say that my family and I would go to his country to visit him, but that never happened. Before he died, through the phone, i played him a song on my clarinet then the next morning he had passed away. My grandma is still alive but she still lives in her country and she is in her 80’s. This video made me miss my grandma a lot. Like you my grandma, and grandpa, played a huge role in my life. I don’t have the honor to have her here so that i can spoil her the way she deserves and I miss her like crazy. My grandma too has always been supportive on my career decisions and my sexuality of being bi compared to my family. Thank you for making this video. I hope your Archie is resting peace….thank you so so much
You are not alone. The love you have for your grandmother radiates throughout this entire video, Josh. I'm positive she continues to watch over you ♥️
I remember when my grandmother passed. It was the day after Christmas and i was twelve.
I didn't notice I was already in tears halfway
My grandma from my mom's side is gone and my grandma from my father's side always tries to break our family and she actually succeeded. My father left us. I'm happy that you had such a lovely grandma. ❤️
This video almost moved me to tears. I know she's watching you from above and is proud your doing something you love.
I'm crying so much right now. I wish I spent more time with my grandmother (Moms side) So if my Mèmè or Pèpè (Dads side) ask if I wanna go to church with them I probably will (if they ever visit my aunt) I'll probably try my best to spend time with my other grandfather. Its just really hard because I know he has Alzheimer's disease, and it breaks my heart seeing him ask my mom the same question 13 times in the span of 30 minutes. "Wheres the fourth chair?" "Its in your office because the old chair in there broke when (older sisters name) was leaning and fell back." It hurt my sister so much, and my grandfather didn't remember asking it. It's going to be awful for my mom when he passes because her brother passed away on my first birthday (May 24th 2005) I'm gonna be honest, I don't normally pray but I've been praying and hoping my grandfather doesn't pass away on my birthday. It's hard enough for my mother as is and shes going to be in so much pain and I'll do my best to keep her happy although I know it probably won't work. It's gonna be hard for me because I love him a lot and even thinking about him dying makes my heart break. I know my Fathers side of the family will try and me think happy thoughts but that'll be very hard. My Mèmè and Pèpè support of things I love to do, and after this virus is over, I'm thinking of coming out to them as bisexual also telling my Aunt, Uncle, and cousin. (still trying to figure out if I'm trans or not) I just wanna thank you for making me smile and telling us about your Archie. And thanks for anyone reading this. It means a lot and I've been meaning to get all of that off my chest.
I hope you understand how much this video has made me wanna spend time with my family more, thank you. I hope you heal well from her passing, and I know shes an angel watching over you, and your family.
Glad at least your grandmother left you with pleasant memories.
This made me start crying as I just found it and my grandpa had passed in April. He had dementia and deteriorated a lot during the past year which was one of the hardest things to see. I visited him as often as I could during his last few months and tried to help when I could but I feel bad for not visiting often. He also had developed cancer in the neck and we think it spread to his brain at the very end. I visited him Wednesday night (he passed Saturday) and he told my fiance he was going to die that night. Then he started to be in tremendous pain he begged my brother to get him a gun and shoot to shoot himself with as it was too much. They kept him on a lot of painkillers at that point and Saturday he passed. Wednesday was his last lucid day, I remember we went and got him a Big Mac before we had to leave as he was wanting something. I'm a very death positive person and I know I said multiple times he needed to let go as it was his time, also by clinging on he was hurting grandma a lot as the stress of caring for her just tore at her not to mention when he'd have a fit and threatened her more than once. What really gets me isn't him being dead but the suffering I saw. I don't get how or why someone would cling to life so vehemently like he did even though he knew his body and mind was deteriorating and due to that he suffered so much, its one of the hardest things to see honestly.
My mothers side grandmother also passed away about 2 years ago and I know how you feel Josh. The difference is that I was there for her death. I was in the waiting room outside the hall and my mom quickly asked me, my sister and my father to come in to say goodbye. She had passed away when only my aunties maid was in the room. I was very emotional that day. Even though I was not as close to her as you are Josh I was still heartbroken. Thank you for reading my comment. Well wishes from me.
You are the nicest person/UA-camr. I know how it feels to lose someone, someone who loved you and cared when you needed. I crying right now because of the video bring back memories. I love you and your videos I hope you have a great day.
Love from random person ❤️
This made me cry. I miss my grandma too
November 10th!?
Ahhhh! My birthday is November 9th!!!
I’m not crying, you- no wait I am... My birthday landed right in between my grandparents on my dads side. (10th, 11th, 12th of January)
I don’t get to see them often since they live in another country, but when I do I’m always worried it might be the last.
Your grandma reminds me of my grandpa, though i never got to see him when was healthy, he loved his grandkids and always wanted to spend time with us, even when he was crippled and couldn't do much.
this video makes me feel like i should have paid him more attention.