@blackpegasusraps - quick insight, men vs women dealing with trauma. Language is SOOOO important. You were affected by having "stillborns". Your wife was devastated by "losing Indigo and Huey". What happens inside you if you change your language when you talk about them? Maybe try, for your wife. I've been there. We lost our son, Noah, on my birthday in 2012. He was 4 months developed in the womb. I know it affected my wife more than me. Those little language differences helped me cope without breaking down. But, it was important for her to hear me acknowledge him as our baby.
The honesty and emotion pouring from both of your hearts touched me at my core. I can feel the pain and suffering that you both have been going through and so appreciate the vulnerability you both were willing to show. Tears are in my eyes as I type this and to see the two of you being so open and real are an inspiration to me. Hugs to you both and a huge thank you for this amazing reaction.
We love the two of you not because you're perfect, but because you are real, and you clearly love one another. God bless to the whole family. Love you guys.
First off... Your wife is absolutely gorgeous and a badass mama bear! I'm genuinely stunned by the vulnerability you both showed us today. I'm genuinely sorry your daughter is having to endure this type of battle so small. Thank you for this reaction💚🤗🍀
Wow. At 5:27 you can actually visibly see her body recognizing and responding to the ‘I can’t breathe’ part 🥰 Let the RENaissance, the alchemical dealing/healing commence. Beautiful to witness, always 💖 Grateful RENegade
I lost my 11 year old son,Wayne,32 years ago very suddenly from rta accident.Dont be afraid to shoe your grief.I still shout and scream into the pillow and now and again it comes right back like a sledge hammer and I am a mess still but I get by.Ren has captured the grief so totally keep safe you two😢😢😢😢
We lost 2 pregnancies one in second trimester and other in the third. It really messed with our heads. I had given up and didn't want to try anymore. We got our rainbow baby now. I thank God for my daughter.
I’ve listened to this song uncountable times. Every single time, the “where is my god? Where are you?” breaks me. It just breaks me down. Ren is so special.
Bless you both there is nothing that breaks you more than the loss of a child the general conception is your kids bury you not the other way round ! My heart leads for you both xxxxx
They say "I don't feel safe in these halls, there are bruises on the walls...there are bodies in the floor...and they breathe so loudly...I wish I could move, get up and walk right out this tomb" it hits so hard because when you lose someone that is so close that there are memories all over your physical life...your home, your car, your childhood places...the place you had your children...you can't escape...you can't just move...it's a tomb while you struggle in your grief...😢😢
I feel your pain, as I lost the only child I ever conceived & immediately had myself sterilized afterwards bc it was so traumatic, physically & emotionally (it was due to my genetic mutation having been passed on to him that he couldn't properly develop in utero). You are so blessed to have eventually had your daughter, & I'm glad that the 2 of you work together to give her the best life possible & to support 1 another throughout all the loss & the struggles to get to where you are today. Hope your family has a loving Thanksgiving & a very Merry Christmas!! ✌❤☃️
So much love and respect to you both for opening up to us all like this, I lost my 2 year old daughter over 20 years ago, it still hurts like hell to this day ❤️
A lot of Rens songs are like a mirror. A mirror held to us all that reminds us we're all the same. We're all humans, we all want the same things, feel the same things and we all suffer with the same losses, especially over time.
Ren & Chinchilla have a way of performing that draws you in completely and Ren's writing resonates with so many people. Thank you so much for sharing this heartfelt reaction - I wish you both, and your daughter, all the very best going forward.
Massive hugs to your wife, I too have ptsd from losing my baby girl, she died in her sleep from cot death god rest her. You will never not worry and if u need that baby monitor for another 10 years then you use it hun. I'm obsessed with germs and temperature I don't even sleep in my own bed, I sleep downstairs just incase and it's been 15 years. We are lucky though that you and I have such fantastic partners who understand us and our profound fears. God rest your beautiful babies who are safe in God's arms waiting for you, rest in paradise and to all the babies taken too soon, the kingdom of heaven was created for children such as these 🙏❤
You have a beautiful wife ❤ As a mother who has had a miscarriage I understand the pain of losing a child, and I also lost myself afterward. Her bravery to come and expose herself to the world online where there are a bunch of assholes shows her strength. Her showing her strength could help another woman who is experiencing such grief. God bless you and your family it is beautiful. Protect them ❤ 🇺🇲
I lost my son in 1995 aged 19 in a car crash & to this day I have never gotten over it. But please let me say to you that you will always grieve your baby & that is ok but please don't let that grief stop you living your life with the family that you have now. Don't let it stop your dream of another baby if that is possible or if that is what you would like. I let my grief destroy mine & my family's life because I could not let him go. I wish I had had someone who had spoke to me because everyone were too afraid of upsetting us to be honest or even to let him be in our memories. Don't let that happen to you because it is not a favour. God Bless to you both. I have found that Ren's music has let me relieve myself of some of my pain. I found HI REN 1st & loved it but a lot of his other songs have helped me & I am 71 now & love his music all round.
Having lost theee babies due to stillborn and miscarriage when I was married I can’t ever watch this video without crying my eyes out. I’m supposed to be a strong man and as men we can’t show feelings. Thank you for doing this.
@kallen2377 Wouldn't it be wonderful if the taboo of men being able to show their feelings would disappear? Feelings are a human experience. As a fellow human, please know, you are seen. Virtual hug & ❤
As you said there is no coincidences.. Ren has come into our lives at the right time for a reason.. he is our blessing.. 🙏🏻♥️🙏🏻 Thanks for always sharing with us..🥰
Very brave of both of you going through this song ❤ Ren's genius is getting to people's hearts. I know he can have fun with songs but...Ren really reaches people in different ways. Please keep the faith..
And to your beautiful wife... I understand. It's been 28 years since I lost my baby, but there are still times, there are still certain things, that remind me of that profound emptiness and deep grief. I can feel it in that moment without getting lost in it now. It's okay to feel. Through feeling it, comes the healing it. You're both in my prayers!
no couple is perfect. no human is perfect. but seeing the love and support was beautiful. this vulnerability is what sets you apart. the bravery of addressing it on a public platform is powerful. people do need to see this. to know that you can make it through such unimaginable heartbreak and loss and still be together, be caring and there. that is what makes the two of you so beautiful. the honesty here on your channel is your super power. it is also what earned my loyalty to your channel. ride or die I'm with the two of you. ♥️🙏♥️
Very moving piece that you and your wife gave us all. If ever there was an example of music being a portal to one's own emotions, this is it. It is an extraordinary song and performance by Ren and Chinchilla and incredible honesty and tenderness from you both. Sending you both best wishes and love from the UK.
What a beautiful couple you are. Thank you for being the honest people you are. A beautiful reaction to a beautiful song and it's very good that you are both able to share this way when many of us would struggle to do so. Love to you both.
Awwe.. your wife is lovely. And, I appreciate the authenticity you both shared. Thank you for this therapy session. Ren's music really does hold mirrors to our own selves. I think it's been beautiful yet painful at times hearing everyone share their pain or vulnerabilities through their lives. I'm all for this healing vibe. ❤
Your wife is beautiful, a beautiful lady and a beautiful soul, you can see it in her eyes. This is an incredible song and I'm so sad the two of you had to go through the loss of a child. I know you never forget but I hope both of you are better now❤ I had the same trust issues with my two (now adult) boys. Only my parents, their grandparents on dad's side and direct family were the only people I trusted. Both of mine were slightly premature, one 5 weeks the other only s couple but, having to see your child, in a neonatal unit, and see the other, tragically sick babies, changes your perspective and you realise that life can turn on the head of a pin and what's OK just now can change in a heartbeat. It affects who you trust and you find yourself unwilling to leave your children with anyone, other than your most trusted family members. In the beginning, I wasn't even ok with that as you feel that if you take your eyes off them, the worst will happen. You have to let go and trust your close family.
I love the strength you bring to each other - the hardships you shared and survived, and what you've brought out of those hardships, clearly shows the calibre of both of your characters. We get to see you, Roberto, many times a day and that's your hard work, determination, integrity and dedication that brings us that privilege - but on the flip-side, your wife is the same because while you're here, she's there. You both work tirelessly to keep up the shining edifice of your life together and I'm filled with admiration of you both. Thank you both for sharing with us when you really didn't have to. I feel honoured to have lived this moment.
I have deep admiration for both of you for your courage to bear your souls and speak so publicly for your loss. PTSD is insidious. I suffered five years of trauma recently that changed my life with some significant loss and has left me with this as well. My saviour is music, and seeing others talk about how they have got through. I have said it before BP, I have watched you open yourself up on this channel mostly because of Ren. His gift to us all is profound, much more than just music. Kia kaha from NZ
This is what human beings need. We need to commune with each other and let our friends help us carry these burdens, especially those that are the heaviest. You've been through the worst thing that can happen and you've not only survived, but thrived! That's so inspiring. You will likely profoundly help multiple people with this type of conversation...and this is a music reaction video! The message of imperfection and hope is so helpful. I'm a goofball at rest, and I love to share in all of the fun and insane talent online, but I absolutely cherish these intimate moments that are shared like this. Thank you so much.
Your wife seems lovely. I"m glad you have each other to get through these things together. Although you've had these horrible things happen to you, you are blessed to have each other Some of us have never found their other half. Thanks for the great reaction.
I'm a psychology student. I am in a death and dying class right now and we're writing about music that relates to various topics of death. I chose this song as I also lost someone to suicide (my husband). You're right, we do deflect from our own emotions by laughing, joking,.etc. I guess it can be seen as part of the "fight or flight" response seen in PTSD.. its automatic to shut down, evade, etc. I'm so sorry your sweet wife knows the loss of your children.
My wife and I have gone through a lot of the same as you and yours and now my daughter is almost 3 and just hearing others have had similar problems and overcome them with Fath ! I had a big struggle with my Fath as well ! So thank you and your wife for sharing ❤️ 💕 💗 my thoughts and prayers will be with you guys always 🙏! 💯 % 40
My wife and I lost our daughter who was a full term still birth 20 years ago. People say the pain goes away, but I find that you just don't fixate on it as much, but on those days when my mind wants to take me there the pain is just as fresh and real as it was 20 years ago.
I remember you saying - think it was after your For Joe reaction, that you believe sometimes our loved ones 'sacrifice" themselves for the greater good of those left behind, eg your mum for your daughter's stem cell discovery, Joe for Ren's musical depth & inspiration that would reach the masses one day and that really struck a chord with me. We may not see or understand it at the time but even with my own dad's s...cide, I can see, years on there are positive ways that shaped & influenced me and what i now do to help others who struggle with mental health in particular
So nice to see Wifey again rocking that Georgia Bulldog sweatshirt! Great reaction! It amazes me to see people’s inner strength on display even when they don’t necessarily recognize it themselves! Not perfect but strong, loving beautiful human beings! Thanks so much for sharing! ✌🏻🫶🏻
The part where she was tearing up and you put your hand on her shoulder is where i broke. My wife lost her mom a year ago, i lost my step dad who was more like my real dad, so there's been many moments like that. Words never help as much as human touch sometimes.
Thank you for bringing your wife on for this. It is nice to see her. My heart goes out to her (you too) What a beautiful genuine soul she is. I hope we get to see her again. Much Love ♥
The strength of you both is remarkable and your faith in one another is authentically beautiful, as is your tribute, "Robert Houston III", which I'm quite certain resonates deeply in the hearts of all who take a listen. It's not difficult to see why Wifey felt as if the words in "How to Be Me" were as if written with her in mind..the pain that comes from that soul crushing of a loss is universal, and while it is tragic so many must experience this sorrow, it is however somewhat heartening to remember that, as Ren would say, "we are all human beings". Thank you for this, both to you, BP, but most especially Wifey. You are a kindred spirit who deserves all the love life under god's grace can give you. 🌈ᥫ᭡
Having lost a baby ,I feel your pain ,no one understands it unless you have been through it ,I was the same about leaving my second child , and I really understand that . No one should have to go through the loss of a baby . Much love ❤️
The pain of losing a pregnancy is such a common experience but rarely discussed. Been there, done that and suffered the ripple effect of fertility issues after that and the battle to have children. Not something you ever forget and certainly makes you appreciate if you are then lucky enough to have kids. Hugs!
Thank you both for such an honest and vulnerable reaction. It broke my heart to see the pain and heartache ur beautiful wife carries with her. I have carried the loss of both my parents from an early age and also the loss of an unborn child. Ive found there's absolutely no time limit on grief and when it bubbles back to the surface where it feels like its just happened. Some days i listen to this song and have chills all over purely from the beauty of this performance. Other days i listen to this song and it cuts me to the core and shatters me into a billion pieces. Its not something i share with anyone else, besides Ren. He's lyrics and their performance is so raw and brutally honest it resonates so deeply, it allows me to connect and feel what i need in that moment. I feel BP trying to be a constant source of strength for his beautiful woman to try and take her pain away for fear of it consuming her. So its becomes a taboo conversation, with walls built up all around it. Over time it can become really quite damaging for u not to be able to talk about with each other. Break down those walls BP, show ur vulnerability to ur wife when u need to so she can be ur warrior when u need it. She is an amazing woman amd mother and has incredible resilience. I wish ur family so much health and happiness xx much love
Hey guys thanks for making me blow snot bubbles first thing in the morning. Ren has no problems being so vulnerable it is an inspiration for so many that keep these things wrapped up so tightly.
OMG I'm so sorry for your loss. I too lost my first born to SIDs. Nothing I could have done. Nothing could have changed it. However once that happened, I broke completely. I lost all reality of life. Diagnosed with severe depression and was told they could give me the anti-depressants to help cope. I denied them on the spot. I told them I know exactly why I'm depressed. I didn't want to block the pain of loss, I needed to go through it on my own. So I get you guys so well. Thank you both for being open and human.
Sending uplifting vibes to both your wife and you. do many things I want to say but nothing seems to come out right. Such a brave, courageous even thing to open up like that. Thank you so much for your time and work that goes into your reactions. It's greatly appreciated. Hope you guys have a truly blessed day.
Chinchilla has entered the UK version of The Voice and got through the audition show so it will be interesting to see how she gets on with the TV watching public.
I just love your beautiful wife!! ❤ You’re lucky to have each other! My husband & I have been together since we were 15! 😊 I’m grateful you decided to spend some time doing this, just the 2 of you! Your sweet daughter Alinea (spelling??) is absolutely angelic!! 👼🤍 The day she came to work with BP and you two watched Bongo Bong is one of my favorite videos on here! My daughter just turned 18 & graduates HS this year! And I wish I could blink and make her 5 again!! 😂 God Bless you & your family! 🙏🏼 😍
This was very brave and I, for one, truly appreciate you sharing these reactions with us. I relate to both Ren and your wife very much. Autoimmunity (and fertility/carrying to term) issues as well, and I just want to let you know that this sort of sharing is healing for some of us so don't ever let negative people try to stop you from doing exactly what you choose with your channel because it's meaningful. Thank you both, truly. ❤🩹
Frequent viewer, never commenter. But felt compelled on this one. Thank you for your willingness to allow people into that vulnerable window. I can only imagine how helpful seeing this is for others who have gone through similar things. And on a very unrelated note, I feel like I have to also add a “Go Dawgs.” Keep up the awesome content
I have suffered in silence for 35 years with complex PTSD after an huge traumatic, very public event because I haven't talked. Watching you both opening up was such a beautiful experience, don't make the mistake i did by internalising and trying to ignore it. Talking is healing and I admire so much you trying to open a pathway for you both to communicate with the audience, but much more importantly for you both to communicate with each other! Talking is healing, I hope you can both use this platform to communicate with each other and find your way together❤
My wife had 2 miscarriages, not quite the same, but difficult nonetheless.....then a run of cancer that she thankfully beat. It took us forever to have our 2 boys, now 23 and 21. My wife still won't go to bed until they get home or text her. Women are amazing. Don't need to explain the overprotective parenting.
Very beautiful reaction had me crying I'm happy you both reacted to this together and had a healing talk I believe those babies come in just to leave to gift the parents deep lvl of compassion that they would not have gotten any other way like how it brought u Pegasus back to God. know how truly loved and blessed you both are the fact you both were chosen for this is the proof 💗💖💗 so much love sent to you both
Thank you so much for your really real and beautiful reaction, I love RENs music, talent, realness, the gift of watching how his music affects people is inspiring. Your reaction and to braveness of your wife and your own reaction is beautiful. ❤❤
Hey BP, Thank you to your incredibly brave wife and yourself for such an honest and heartfelt video. this song relates to everyone who has experienced such a heavy loss in their lives. It speaks to people in so many levels. for me personally my best friend made a rash decision late in the night, and ever since I have felt that I lost a piece of me too. it was like the spark if life went missing for me, my mam then passed away in 2020 and My son was born in 2021. Its only now am I seeing and feeling joy like I did before my friends passing. kids are a blessing and give us a new lease of life with a different perspective.
Thank you for sharing yourselves with us. Ren is like medicine for all of us. He reaches everyone and its was great to see you share this moment together. We appreciate you. I watch regardless the content reviewed bc i enjoy your perspective and that of your guests and watching your journey of exploring whats unknown and different. Dont ever let this medium or the draw of the "fans" change you. Dont get lost in worrying about making us happy. Make yourself and your family happy and you cant lose. Stay up fam.
Sometimes we never square things in our heads completely but talking definitely helps, bless your beautiful wife your daughter and your good self Sir ❤
There's something about those two collaborating together. Their two voices play off each other and harmonize beautifully. But the way they meld is so emotion producing, even before the lyrics hitting. This is music's great gift. It can make us forget everything or feel everything . Sometimes both at the same time.
Your talk of Indigo had me weeping in sympathy guys. No words help really, but much love. These feelings of loss don't necessarily go away, but we can become more accomodating over time xx
You two are amazing! I just want to comment regarding your channel….it is YOUR channel, not ours, but yours. Don’t ever let the naysayers change your mind regarding what you film/post. This is your channel, please don’t ever let commenters dictate what you decide to do. P.s. it’s amazingly evident how beautiful of a relationship/family that you two have together
Watching you guys tear up makes me tear upaswell! But it’s always amazing seeing your feelings. It’s nice to see people on common grounds. Loved this reaction you guys.
Just want to say that, YES! Opening up and being real definitely helps ME! Personally. I have my own shit going on (just like everyone else). And even if I disagree with some of your personal beliefs, I agree with the sentiment behind your beliefs. Episodes like this help me with my own personal inner dialog and I respect and appreciate that! Thanks Black P! Keep it up!!!
I love the way y'all LOVE each other through this song. The way you check in with her, the way she looks at you 🙏 nobody's perfect and that's okay. Just want y'all to know I pray with and for you - and your strength to share your story gives hope to those who need it ❤️
You two are beautiful together and to share such hard emotions to us is purely humbling. Thats why we love you. Together we help heal each other❤ please don't think you cant ever comfort each other on screen. I know I'd need a cuddle.
I have reacted telling my story & man is it a story. I have literally buried my 3 children, my mother, my father, 3 dogs, excommunicated from my g'daughter all in June since 2014. I was at a breaking point after the holidays where I had just sat around family wondering "Who are these people" because their life went on & I was stuck. Then I heard REN & for days I watched reactions & I cried & cried. Things aren't perfect now & I've still have a lot of days where I cry & cry but I reach out to videos where things turn me around & I don't stay down for long. I love his series "Money game" because we can all find a sense of ourselves & the circumstances that shapes our lives. We can look at people with more compassion. I also want to Praise God for bringing all the positive people to my life as music is my life & that's how God speaks to me. It's good to hear people bring Him into conversation because after all He is why I'm here.
I can't imagine the pain of losing a child. I Have 4 and i just can't imagine. From the moment I knew they existed I don't know how I would have Even survived losing them at any point during pregnancy or after. You are an amazing strong beautiful mama and I'm so happy that you 2 have eachother and your beautiful daughter. Hugs ❤
@blackpegasusraps - quick insight, men vs women dealing with trauma. Language is SOOOO important. You were affected by having "stillborns". Your wife was devastated by "losing Indigo and Huey". What happens inside you if you change your language when you talk about them? Maybe try, for your wife.
I've been there. We lost our son, Noah, on my birthday in 2012. He was 4 months developed in the womb. I know it affected my wife more than me. Those little language differences helped me cope without breaking down. But, it was important for her to hear me acknowledge him as our baby.
Watching your wife BROKE me. From both a place of pure sadness, and real healing. Please let her know that from one mother to another, I see her. ❤
I wanted to give her a hug. ❤ (((hug)))
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The honesty and emotion pouring from both of your hearts touched me at my core. I can feel the pain and suffering that you both have been going through and so appreciate the vulnerability you both were willing to show. Tears are in my eyes as I type this and to see the two of you being so open and real are an inspiration to me. Hugs to you both and a huge thank you for this amazing reaction.
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If Ren has taught us anything it's that it's
OK to show our emotions and vulnerability.
Love your honesty guys.
We love the two of you not because you're perfect, but because you are real, and you clearly love one another. God bless to the whole family. Love you guys.
the communication between them is beautiful
First off... Your wife is absolutely gorgeous and a badass mama bear! I'm genuinely stunned by the vulnerability you both showed us today. I'm genuinely sorry your daughter is having to endure this type of battle so small. Thank you for this reaction💚🤗🍀
Wow. At 5:27 you can actually visibly see her body recognizing and responding to the ‘I can’t breathe’ part 🥰 Let the RENaissance, the alchemical dealing/healing commence.
Beautiful to witness, always 💖 Grateful RENegade
Ren’s ability to connect to people is unsurpassable! He’s literally just amazing! ❤❤❤🔥🔥🔥
I lost my 11 year old son,Wayne,32 years ago very suddenly from rta accident.Dont be afraid to shoe your grief.I still shout and scream into the pillow and now and again it comes right back like a sledge hammer and I am a mess still but I get by.Ren has captured the grief so totally keep safe you two😢😢😢😢
Just for the record, I never get tired of watching you do Ren reactions.
We lost 2 pregnancies one in second trimester and other in the third. It really messed with our heads. I had given up and didn't want to try anymore. We got our rainbow baby now. I thank God for my daughter.
Congrats bro, God blesses us when we least expect it! ❤
I’ve listened to this song uncountable times. Every single time, the “where is my god? Where are you?” breaks me. It just breaks me down. Ren is so special.
Im a non believer but that killed me too. You can feel the desperation. Their calls for help. Its beautifully done.
Same! The way he looks to the skies and is so desperate and authentic 😢❤❤
Bless you both there is nothing that breaks you more than the loss of a child the general conception is your kids bury you not the other way round ! My heart leads for you both xxxxx
They say "I don't feel safe in these halls, there are bruises on the walls...there are bodies in the floor...and they breathe so loudly...I wish I could move, get up and walk right out this tomb" it hits so hard because when you lose someone that is so close that there are memories all over your physical life...your home, your car, your childhood places...the place you had your children...you can't escape...you can't just move...it's a tomb while you struggle in your grief...😢😢
I feel your pain, as I lost the only child I ever conceived & immediately had myself sterilized afterwards bc it was so traumatic, physically & emotionally (it was due to my genetic mutation having been passed on to him that he couldn't properly develop in utero). You are so blessed to have eventually had your daughter, & I'm glad that the 2 of you work together to give her the best life possible & to support 1 another throughout all the loss & the struggles to get to where you are today.
Hope your family has a loving Thanksgiving & a very Merry Christmas!! ✌❤☃️
So much love and respect to you both for opening up to us all like this, I lost my 2 year old daughter over 20 years ago, it still hurts like hell to this day ❤️
That girl was so brave for coming in and sharing with us, thank you both!
A lot of Rens songs are like a mirror. A mirror held to us all that reminds us we're all the same. We're all humans, we all want the same things, feel the same things and we all suffer with the same losses, especially over time.
I dedicate this song to my grandmother, granny Gail, Ava -Forever 5, and Mason- forever 23 my son’s best friend since childhood and another son! ❤
Ren & Chinchilla have a way of performing that draws you in completely and Ren's writing resonates with so many people. Thank you so much for sharing this heartfelt reaction - I wish you both, and your daughter, all the very best going forward.
Massive hugs to your wife, I too have ptsd from losing my baby girl, she died in her sleep from cot death god rest her. You will never not worry and if u need that baby monitor for another 10 years then you use it hun. I'm obsessed with germs and temperature I don't even sleep in my own bed, I sleep downstairs just incase and it's been 15 years. We are lucky though that you and I have such fantastic partners who understand us and our profound fears. God rest your beautiful babies who are safe in God's arms waiting for you, rest in paradise and to all the babies taken too soon, the kingdom of heaven was created for children such as these 🙏❤
My wife and I lost two babies during pregnancy, we talk about things & it helps…thanks for being so open & real about your feelings..
You have a beautiful wife ❤ As a mother who has had a miscarriage I understand the pain of losing a child, and I also lost myself afterward. Her bravery to come and expose herself to the world online where there are a bunch of assholes shows her strength. Her showing her strength could help another woman who is experiencing such grief. God bless you and your family it is beautiful. Protect them ❤ 🇺🇲
I lost my son in 1995 aged 19 in a car crash & to this day I have never gotten over it. But please let me say to you that you will always grieve your baby & that is ok but please don't let that grief stop you living your life with the family that you have now. Don't let it stop your dream of another baby if that is possible or if that is what you would like. I let my grief destroy mine & my family's life because I could not let him go. I wish I had had someone who had spoke to me because everyone were too afraid of upsetting us to be honest or even to let him be in our memories. Don't let that happen to you because it is not a favour. God Bless to you both. I have found that Ren's music has let me relieve myself of some of my pain. I found HI REN 1st & loved it but a lot of his other songs have helped me & I am 71 now & love his music all round.
I'm glad that you are reacting to a lot of Ren. He deserves the attention for sure. I think he's a musical genius. Your wife is beautiful....
Having lost theee babies due to stillborn and miscarriage when I was married I can’t ever watch this video without crying my eyes out.
I’m supposed to be a strong man and as men we can’t show feelings.
Thank you for doing this.
@kallen2377 Wouldn't it be wonderful if the taboo of men being able to show their feelings would disappear? Feelings are a human experience. As a fellow human, please know, you are seen. Virtual hug & ❤
It takes balls to talk. We must let our younger generation of boys that it’s not weak it’s desirable. So sorry for your losses. ❤
As you said there is no coincidences.. Ren has come into our lives at the right time for a reason.. he is our blessing.. 🙏🏻♥️🙏🏻 Thanks for always sharing with us..🥰
Anyone who doesn't cry a tear the first time they listen to this track, I question if they're human. ❤️
My heart is breaking for your wife…. I could instantly see your wife swallowing so much trying to keep her tears in! So much love for you guys! ❤
This was very sad for me
I'm a rainbow dad. 12 years ago and still doesn't get easier.
Sending lots of love to you and your wife ❤️
Very brave of both of you going through this song ❤ Ren's genius is getting to people's hearts. I know he can have fun with songs but...Ren really reaches people in different ways. Please keep the faith..
Thank you for being so brave
And to your beautiful wife... I understand. It's been 28 years since I lost my baby, but there are still times, there are still certain things, that remind me of that profound emptiness and deep grief. I can feel it in that moment without getting lost in it now. It's okay to feel. Through feeling it, comes the healing it. You're both in my prayers!
no couple is perfect. no human is perfect. but seeing the love and support was beautiful.
this vulnerability is what sets you apart. the bravery of addressing it on a public platform is powerful. people do need to see this. to know that you can make it through such unimaginable heartbreak and loss and still be together, be caring and there. that is what makes the two of you so beautiful.
the honesty here on your channel is your super power.
it is also what earned my loyalty to your channel.
ride or die I'm with the two of you.
♥️🙏♥️
Very moving piece that you and your wife gave us all. If ever there was an example of music being a portal to one's own emotions, this is it. It is an extraordinary song and performance by Ren and Chinchilla and incredible honesty and tenderness from you both. Sending you both best wishes and love from the UK.
What a beautiful couple you are. Thank you for being the honest people you are. A beautiful reaction to a beautiful song and it's very good that you are both able to share this way when many of us would struggle to do so. Love to you both.
You’re a real one P! Only get little time with just ya lady and you still chose to do a reaction!
Youse two are both incredible !
Awwe.. your wife is lovely. And, I appreciate the authenticity you both shared. Thank you for this therapy session. Ren's music really does hold mirrors to our own selves. I think it's been beautiful yet painful at times hearing everyone share their pain or vulnerabilities through their lives. I'm all for this healing vibe. ❤
Your wife is beautiful, a beautiful lady and a beautiful soul, you can see it in her eyes. This is an incredible song and I'm so sad the two of you had to go through the loss of a child. I know you never forget but I hope both of you are better now❤ I had the same trust issues with my two (now adult) boys. Only my parents, their grandparents on dad's side and direct family were the only people I trusted. Both of mine were slightly premature, one 5 weeks the other only s couple but, having to see your child, in a neonatal unit, and see the other, tragically sick babies, changes your perspective and you realise that life can turn on the head of a pin and what's OK just now can change in a heartbeat. It affects who you trust and you find yourself unwilling to leave your children with anyone, other than your most trusted family members. In the beginning, I wasn't even ok with that as you feel that if you take your eyes off them, the worst will happen. You have to let go and trust your close family.
I love the strength you bring to each other - the hardships you shared and survived, and what you've brought out of those hardships, clearly shows the calibre of both of your characters. We get to see you, Roberto, many times a day and that's your hard work, determination, integrity and dedication that brings us that privilege - but on the flip-side, your wife is the same because while you're here, she's there. You both work tirelessly to keep up the shining edifice of your life together and I'm filled with admiration of you both. Thank you both for sharing with us when you really didn't have to. I feel honoured to have lived this moment.
I have deep admiration for both of you for your courage to bear your souls and speak so publicly for your loss. PTSD is insidious. I suffered five years of trauma recently that changed my life with some significant loss and has left me with this as well. My saviour is music, and seeing others talk about how they have got through. I have said it before BP, I have watched you open yourself up on this channel mostly because of Ren. His gift to us all is profound, much more than just music. Kia kaha from NZ
Beautiful reaction...God Bless you both.
Such a great and genuine reaction. Without the bad times in life we would never appreciate the good it brings
This is what human beings need. We need to commune with each other and let our friends help us carry these burdens, especially those that are the heaviest. You've been through the worst thing that can happen and you've not only survived, but thrived! That's so inspiring. You will likely profoundly help multiple people with this type of conversation...and this is a music reaction video! The message of imperfection and hope is so helpful. I'm a goofball at rest, and I love to share in all of the fun and insane talent online, but I absolutely cherish these intimate moments that are shared like this. Thank you so much.
Beautiful reaction. Thank you for sharing your experience with us - and ignore the haters. Your Ren reactions are awesome. 🙌💖
Your wife seems lovely. I"m glad you have each other to get through these things together. Although you've had these horrible things happen to you, you are blessed to have each other Some of us have never found their other half. Thanks for the great reaction.
I'm a psychology student. I am in a death and dying class right now and we're writing about music that relates to various topics of death. I chose this song as I also lost someone to suicide (my husband). You're right, we do deflect from our own emotions by laughing, joking,.etc. I guess it can be seen as part of the "fight or flight" response seen in PTSD.. its automatic to shut down, evade, etc. I'm so sorry your sweet wife knows the loss of your children.
My wife and I have gone through a lot of the same as you and yours and now my daughter is almost 3 and just hearing others have had similar problems and overcome them with Fath ! I had a big struggle with my Fath as well ! So thank you and your wife for sharing ❤️ 💕 💗 my thoughts and prayers will be with you guys always 🙏! 💯 % 40
About you said at minute 3:00, don't give a fuck my friend! Most people here enjoy what you do, just keep being yourself, keep rocking man!! 🤘🏼🎶
This means the world that you agreed to do this I know its difficult for you. Mad respect and love to you both
My wife and I lost our daughter who was a full term still birth 20 years ago. People say the pain goes away, but I find that you just don't fixate on it as much, but on those days when my mind wants to take me there the pain is just as fresh and real as it was 20 years ago.
I know,I feel you…
Same a lot of years ago,I’m old now….but the pain persists.
We personalise our pain,it’s perennial….for all of us
It will come to us all,eventually…..
You both are wonderful. Thank you for letting her hear this music. It affects all of us. ❤
I remember you saying - think it was after your For Joe reaction, that you believe sometimes our loved ones 'sacrifice" themselves for the greater good of those left behind, eg your mum for your daughter's stem cell discovery, Joe for Ren's musical depth & inspiration that would reach the masses one day and that really struck a chord with me. We may not see or understand it at the time but even with my own dad's s...cide, I can see, years on there are positive ways that shaped & influenced me and what i now do to help others who struggle with mental health in particular
So nice to see Wifey again rocking that Georgia Bulldog sweatshirt! Great reaction! It amazes me to see people’s inner strength on display even when they don’t necessarily recognize it themselves! Not perfect but strong, loving beautiful human beings! Thanks so much for sharing! ✌🏻🫶🏻
The part where she was tearing up and you put your hand on her shoulder is where i broke. My wife lost her mom a year ago, i lost my step dad who was more like my real dad, so there's been many moments like that. Words never help as much as human touch sometimes.
You two together are so magical, the love is tangible. ( and no one is perfect )
This was wonderful to hear your story and i really needed this today. Thank you!
This is such a powerful song. Tell your wife I cry every time I see or hear this. We have all suffered loss and this hits home❤😢
Thank you for bringing your wife on for this. It is nice to see her. My heart goes out to her (you too) What a beautiful genuine soul she is. I hope we get to see her again. Much Love ♥
The strength of you both is remarkable and your faith in one another is authentically beautiful, as is your tribute, "Robert Houston III", which I'm quite certain resonates deeply in the hearts of all who take a listen. It's not difficult to see why Wifey felt as if the words in "How to Be Me" were as if written with her in mind..the pain that comes from that soul crushing of a loss is universal, and while it is tragic so many must experience this sorrow, it is however somewhat heartening to remember that, as Ren would say, "we are all human beings". Thank you for this, both to you, BP, but most especially Wifey. You are a kindred spirit who deserves all the love life under god's grace can give you. 🌈ᥫ᭡
Having lost a baby ,I feel your pain ,no one understands it unless you have been through it ,I was the same about leaving my second child , and I really understand that .
No one should have to go through the loss of a baby .
Much love ❤️
The pain of losing a pregnancy is such a common experience but rarely discussed. Been there, done that and suffered the ripple effect of fertility issues after that and the battle to have children. Not something you ever forget and certainly makes you appreciate if you are then lucky enough to have kids. Hugs!
Just wanted to say thank you to both you and your amazing wife. Sharing and talking about loss is such an important part of life. Peace and love y'all
Thank you both for such an honest and vulnerable reaction. It broke my heart to see the pain and heartache ur beautiful wife carries with her. I have carried the loss of both my parents from an early age and also the loss of an unborn child. Ive found there's absolutely no time limit on grief and when it bubbles back to the surface where it feels like its just happened. Some days i listen to this song and have chills all over purely from the beauty of this performance. Other days i listen to this song and it cuts me to the core and shatters me into a billion pieces. Its not something i share with anyone else, besides Ren. He's lyrics and their performance is so raw and brutally honest it resonates so deeply, it allows me to connect and feel what i need in that moment. I feel BP trying to be a constant source of strength for his beautiful woman to try and take her pain away for fear of it consuming her. So its becomes a taboo conversation, with walls built up all around it. Over time it can become really quite damaging for u not to be able to talk about with each other. Break down those walls BP, show ur vulnerability to ur wife when u need to so she can be ur warrior when u need it. She is an amazing woman amd mother and has incredible resilience. I wish ur family so much health and happiness xx much love
This is such a beautiful song, we have all forgotten how to be ourselves at one point or another. Lots of love to the both of you 💜💜💜
Beautiful reaction ❤ thank you both for sharing some of your story with us.
Hey guys thanks for making me blow snot bubbles first thing in the morning. Ren has no problems being so vulnerable it is an inspiration for so many that keep these things wrapped up so tightly.
Chinchilla is about to blow up now that she's on The Voice. That's global exposure. She's almost certainly going to win it.
OMG I'm so sorry for your loss. I too lost my first born to SIDs. Nothing I could have done. Nothing could have changed it. However once that happened, I broke completely. I lost all reality of life. Diagnosed with severe depression and was told they could give me the anti-depressants to help cope. I denied them on the spot. I told them I know exactly why I'm depressed. I didn't want to block the pain of loss, I needed to go through it on my own. So I get you guys so well. Thank you both for being open and human.
Sending uplifting vibes to both your wife and you. do many things I want to say but nothing seems to come out right. Such a brave, courageous even thing to open up like that. Thank you so much for your time and work that goes into your reactions. It's greatly appreciated. Hope you guys have a truly blessed day.
What a heartfelt reaction. Thank you for sharing such a personal story. How To Be Me is a mighty powerful song. ❤
Chinchilla has entered the UK version of The Voice and got through the audition show so it will be interesting to see how she gets on with the TV watching public.
Who cares, she have us
The fact that you let her process it before talking speaks volumes. Sending you both so much love.
I love how you gave your Wifey Space and Comfort at the same time, so cute
I just love your beautiful wife!! ❤ You’re lucky to have each other! My husband & I have been together since we were 15! 😊
I’m grateful you decided to spend some time doing this, just the 2 of you! Your sweet daughter Alinea (spelling??) is absolutely angelic!! 👼🤍 The day she came to work with BP and you two watched Bongo Bong is one of my favorite videos on here! My daughter just turned 18 & graduates HS this year! And I wish I could blink and make her 5 again!! 😂 God Bless you & your family! 🙏🏼 😍
This was very brave and I, for one, truly appreciate you sharing these reactions with us. I relate to both Ren and your wife very much. Autoimmunity (and fertility/carrying to term) issues as well, and I just want to let you know that this sort of sharing is healing for some of us so don't ever let negative people try to stop you from doing exactly what you choose with your channel because it's meaningful. Thank you both, truly. ❤🩹
Thx you 2 made me blub ..,bless you and your family, hope things get so much better for you .stay strong Mrs peg .🎉
Frequent viewer, never commenter. But felt compelled on this one. Thank you for your willingness to allow people into that vulnerable window. I can only imagine how helpful seeing this is for others who have gone through similar things. And on a very unrelated note, I feel like I have to also add a “Go Dawgs.” Keep up the awesome content
I have suffered in silence for 35 years with complex PTSD after an huge traumatic, very public event because I haven't talked. Watching you both opening up was such a beautiful experience, don't make the mistake i did by internalising and trying to ignore it. Talking is healing and I admire so much you trying to open a pathway for you both to communicate with the audience, but much more importantly for you both to communicate with each other! Talking is healing, I hope you can both use this platform to communicate with each other and find your way together❤
My wife had 2 miscarriages, not quite the same, but difficult nonetheless.....then a run of cancer that she thankfully beat. It took us forever to have our 2 boys, now 23 and 21. My wife still won't go to bed until they get home or text her. Women are amazing. Don't need to explain the overprotective parenting.
Very beautiful reaction had me crying I'm happy you both reacted to this together and had a healing talk
I believe those babies come in just to leave to gift the parents deep lvl of compassion that they would not have gotten any other way like how it brought u Pegasus back to God. know how truly loved and blessed you both are the fact you both were chosen for this is the proof 💗💖💗 so much love sent to you both
Thank you so much for your really real and beautiful reaction, I love RENs music, talent, realness, the gift of watching how his music affects people is inspiring. Your reaction and to braveness of your wife and your own reaction is beautiful. ❤❤
Hey BP, Thank you to your incredibly brave wife and yourself for such an honest and heartfelt video. this song relates to everyone who has experienced such a heavy loss in their lives. It speaks to people in so many levels. for me personally my best friend made a rash decision late in the night, and ever since I have felt that I lost a piece of me too. it was like the spark if life went missing for me, my mam then passed away in 2020 and My son was born in 2021. Its only now am I seeing and feeling joy like I did before my friends passing. kids are a blessing and give us a new lease of life with a different perspective.
Thank you for sharing yourselves with us. Ren is like medicine for all of us. He reaches everyone and its was great to see you share this moment together. We appreciate you. I watch regardless the content reviewed bc i enjoy your perspective and that of your guests and watching your journey of exploring whats unknown and different. Dont ever let this medium or the draw of the "fans" change you. Dont get lost in worrying about making us happy. Make yourself and your family happy and you cant lose. Stay up fam.
Sometimes we never square things in our heads completely but talking definitely helps, bless your beautiful wife your daughter and your good self Sir ❤
Beautiful emotional reaction. Love and prayers to you both❤
There's something about those two collaborating together. Their two voices play off each other and harmonize beautifully. But the way they meld is so emotion producing, even before the lyrics hitting. This is music's great gift. It can make us forget everything or feel everything . Sometimes both at the same time.
Your talk of Indigo had me weeping in sympathy guys.
No words help really, but much love. These feelings of loss don't necessarily go away, but we can become more accomodating over time xx
Life can be unbearable sometimes. Virtual hugs from me to both of you and thank you for trusting us by sharing your pain.
You two are amazing! I just want to comment regarding your channel….it is YOUR channel, not ours, but yours. Don’t ever let the naysayers change your mind regarding what you film/post. This is your channel, please don’t ever let commenters dictate what you decide to do.
P.s. it’s amazingly evident how beautiful of a relationship/family that you two have together
Watching you guys tear up makes me tear upaswell! But it’s always amazing seeing your feelings. It’s nice to see people on common grounds. Loved this reaction you guys.
Just want to say that, YES! Opening up and being real definitely helps ME! Personally. I have my own shit going on (just like everyone else). And even if I disagree with some of your personal beliefs, I agree with the sentiment behind your beliefs. Episodes like this help me with my own personal inner dialog and I respect and appreciate that! Thanks Black P! Keep it up!!!
Thank you for a brilliant reaction and being so open and honest! Much love to you both xx
I love the way y'all LOVE each other through this song. The way you check in with her, the way she looks at you 🙏 nobody's perfect and that's okay. Just want y'all to know I pray with and for you - and your strength to share your story gives hope to those who need it ❤️
I was watching the voice UK and our girl Chinchilla is on the show. I was so pumped to see her on the show. She is going to slay!
You two are beautiful together and to share such hard emotions to us is purely humbling. Thats why we love you. Together we help heal each other❤ please don't think you cant ever comfort each other on screen. I know I'd need a cuddle.
Wow... powerful reaction guys... very sorry for the loss of your child... cannot even imagine
16:33, when your wife smiles , it broke me and mede me whole at the same time
I have reacted telling my story & man is it a story. I have literally buried my 3 children, my mother, my father, 3 dogs, excommunicated from my g'daughter all in June since 2014. I was at a breaking point after the holidays where I had just sat around family wondering "Who are these people" because their life went on & I was stuck. Then I heard REN & for days I watched reactions & I cried & cried. Things aren't perfect now & I've still have a lot of days where I cry & cry but I reach out to videos where things turn me around & I don't stay down for long.
I love his series "Money game" because we can all find a sense of ourselves & the circumstances that shapes our lives. We can look at people with more compassion.
I also want to Praise God for bringing all the positive people to my life as music is my life & that's how God speaks to me. It's good to hear people bring Him into conversation because after all He is why I'm here.
you two are perfect, and I don't mean Ren & Chinchilla, you just moved me more than the song did, which is quite something. Stay just as you are x
I can't imagine the pain of losing a child. I Have 4 and i just can't imagine. From the moment I knew they existed I don't know how I would have Even survived losing them at any point during pregnancy or after. You are an amazing strong beautiful mama and I'm so happy that you 2 have eachother and your beautiful daughter. Hugs ❤