This is a very good video. I was struggling for a few years away from my family and then i experienced a very bad summer, where the women i stayed at her house was fully psychotic and i couldn't eat or sleep for a long time thinking she was gonna try to kill me. After that when i was able to rent an apartment, i felt like people were out to get me so i blocked off the windows and covered my tv and laptop in tape, continuously checked for cameras around the apartment, and i would stand in complet darkness peeking through the cracks of my window bc i was convinced that someone was trying to figure out my schedule and stuff. It's safe to say that even getting groceries was a huge task, i would get full blown panick attacks every time i was outside. It made me drop my classes and cut all contact with my family (i was living in a different country atp so they couldn't just drive up) After few months of this paranoia i started to sink into depression even more that i already was, and started planning out my suicide and so on. But when i came to it i just couldn't go through with it, i knew that it would kill my mother and little sister especially that i was so far away too. So it took everything in me, but i did reach out to a therapist and started working on getting out of the situation (without meds) but she wasn't of great help and that made me acknowledge that if i wanted to get out of my situation, i had to take the lead and start with the little things. It was very difficult and it took a long time so i won't bother you with details, but i finally managed to get out of that spot and now i'm finishing my college degree and i'm building a strong relationship with my family so that i'll have their help if i ever need it. Sure i m still fighting some demons, but this time i don't feel like i'm loosing. Thanks for this video! It helped me reflect on the hard times. I hope whoever is reading this find the answers they are looking for ❤
The sad thing to know is that there are no secret missions or any other thing as such to feel that you or we are special in any kind of way. Life is a simple experience where you find a couple of true friends, a wife if you are lucky, you find yourself a career to put food on the table and you try to have more good moments than bad. I think once you truly accept these facts, life can only be better.
Thanks 🙏 you said quite a few things that were encouraging to hear 😊
This is a very good video. I was struggling for a few years away from my family and then i experienced a very bad summer, where the women i stayed at her house was fully psychotic and i couldn't eat or sleep for a long time thinking she was gonna try to kill me.
After that when i was able to rent an apartment, i felt like people were out to get me so i blocked off the windows and covered my tv and laptop in tape, continuously checked for cameras around the apartment, and i would stand in complet darkness peeking through the cracks of my window bc i was convinced that someone was trying to figure out my schedule and stuff.
It's safe to say that even getting groceries was a huge task, i would get full blown panick attacks every time i was outside. It made me drop my classes and cut all contact with my family (i was living in a different country atp so they couldn't just drive up)
After few months of this paranoia i started to sink into depression even more that i already was, and started planning out my suicide and so on. But when i came to it i just couldn't go through with it, i knew that it would kill my mother and little sister especially that i was so far away too. So it took everything in me, but i did reach out to a therapist and started working on getting out of the situation (without meds) but she wasn't of great help and that made me acknowledge that if i wanted to get out of my situation, i had to take the lead and start with the little things. It was very difficult and it took a long time so i won't bother you with details, but i finally managed to get out of that spot and now i'm finishing my college degree and i'm building a strong relationship with my family so that i'll have their help if i ever need it. Sure i m still fighting some demons, but this time i don't feel like i'm loosing.
Thanks for this video! It helped me reflect on the hard times. I hope whoever is reading this find the answers they are looking for ❤
The sad thing to know is that there are no secret missions or any other thing as such to feel that you or we are special in any kind of way. Life is a simple experience where you find a couple of true friends, a wife if you are lucky, you find yourself a career to put food on the table and you try to have more good moments than bad. I think once you truly accept these facts, life can only be better.